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[kings-highway]

Haikyuu ships ranked by how well I think they'd handle long distance:

1. Ushijima x Tendou. Duel autism "oh I forgot I haven't spoken to you in a week" works out so well. neither of them take it personally, theyre both so busy they dont even notice the time going by. They might not have any other friends but distance and time doesnt matter. Tendou sends a text at 12 in the afternoon and gets Ushijima's heart emoji back at 3am and thats totally normal. Ushijima visits for Valentines day and they fck like rabbits before he flies out again 72 hours later and Tendou forgets to call him for 2 weeks afterwards. They mail gifts back and forth but Ushijima couldnt answer for the life of him if asked what Tendou's schedule was. Everyone else hates how unbothered they are. It doesnt even cross their minds to be jealous or worried.

2. Oikawa x Iwaizumi. They've known each other so long that slipping into a long distance relationship thats literally a 12h difference is so easy. Schedules sync up immediately. Breakfast skype, dinner phone call, facetime movie nights and its basically like neither left. Their only problem is that neither can afford an in-person visit for like 18 months and that gets them down a bit but they compensate with an obscene amount of phone sex. Honestly, after spending all day every day together, this is a goddamn blessing since now they have new stories the other doesnt already know. Iwaizumi is a little on edge whenever Oikawa mentions some new friend he's made but overall they both trust each other.

3. Everyone else, should the situation arise

4. Kageyama x Hinata. Hinata goes to Brazil and Kageyama loses his goddamn mind. They CANNOT sync up their schedules for the life of them. Neither of them are comfortable being flirty over the phone and neither of then can afford to visit each other. They leave so many voicemails begging to arrange a time to call and they ALWAYS assume the other is mad at then when they dont answer texts even tho they should reasonable realize its like 2 am when they sent it for the other person. They make this everyone else's problem. Suga has to block Kageyama's number because he keeps calling to ask if he thinks Hinata has forgotten about him. Hinata hasn't forgotten about him, he's just on the other side of the world crying because he thinks Kageyama hates him for leaving. They're both idiots.

[umahumahumah]

How about Kenya?

Don't worry guys I haven't forgotten about this its been in the back of my head the entire time </3 i decided to draw them in wwii uniforms this time for a change of pace, but maybe ill draw them in their traditional clothes some other time

first off, kenya!!! shes actually already a canon character but shes barely in hetalia. forever cursed to be a gakuen hetalia chibi head... sigh...

even though nothing hints to this in her appearance in gakuen hetalia, i think she would have a kind of tomboyish and energetic personality! like the girl-next-door type! she's also the first person to ask seychelles a question in the gakuen hetalia demo, which makes me think shes a huge extrovert.

sometimes i wonder if she was part of the group of countries who laughed at seychelles' coat of arms. in my heart, i wanna believe she didnt... but um she probably did. bruh who knows the demo is over a decade old now himas not gonna confirm it. please come back to hetalia, kenya. i need you.

next is malta! his appearance is a little scuffed here because he was going through it in wwii, but he's doing way better in present day

obviously he was influenced by italy so he naturally gets an italian curl. i like to think that he looked up to romano when he was younger and started subconciously taking after him. i was debating whether i should give him thick eyebrows or not, but i think france's occupation cancels it out even if it was a really short time.

in present day i think he cares a lot about his architecture and tourism. i think he'd also be a bit of a womanizer due to the italies' influence on him but he definitely has a lot more decency compared to them. or maybe hes just toos hy to talk to them, that would be cute lol

last is morocco! she was kind of fun to design and i was thinking about her personality throughout while drawing her. i like to think that she is pretty intelligent and is capable of doing a lot of stuff... but she'd rather go smoke weed and have parties, so she feigns ignorance to get out of her responsibilities. on top of that, because of france, she is a huge romantic and can make people swoon for her with just one word

i have no idea if hima would ever make a character like this since his girl characters mostly appeal to cuteness rather than uhh sultriness? but i think moroccos laziness has a cute appeal if you squint hard enough. if he does make a girl character like this i think she'd be some sort of bait and switch or something

also here are some bonus chibis of characters i already designed, mexico and uzbekistan!

i decided to redraw mexico because i dont think i did mexico justice having his back away from the camera. come to think of it maybe i should have drawn him in the mexican revolution uniform but there was already a pattern of wwii going on anyways...

uzbekistan is my favorite design from this series, which is why i decided to draw him again. tbh i think his first appearance didnt seem to come across as sandcat-like, so i decided to change his eyes a little bit, but overall he stayed the same. i wanted to change his pupils to dots, like germany, but it made him look too different

[joohanisms]

idk if you wrote about this before or not but thoughts on taking junhans virginity 😭😭😭

i haven't!!!!!!! tysm for the ask so i have an excuse to <33

(half written before i went ia)

mmm first of all i think hed actively look for someone inexperienced to date while hw himself was inexperienced

less space for disappointment yknow how could hw disappoint you when you kinda just .. dont know better literally

but then he ended up w you <3 who actually does have some experience and its kinda nervewracking for him, he's not gonna lie

he's been putting it off for so long – sure, it only took a couple of dates for you to make out and your hands to wander. the way he tentatively gripped your ass made you want him kind of desperately.

but it never went past that. a while later, when the topic of making things official came up, his cheeks blushed a deep red while he looked down at his feet.

"ah, before we, you know, start dating for real... i thought you should know." and fuck, you think. there it goes. there's the catch. "i'm not too... experienced. actually, i've never had sex before. i don't want you to be disappointed if we get to it and i'm not any go–" his mouth is sealed shut as you kiss him firmly, hands cradling his face.

"you're stupid. i don't care. nothing of what you just said would ever make me lose interest," he wants to avoid your eyes, hide his face, but the way you're holding his flaming cheeks in place won't let him. "at most, it just makes me happy i'll be your first."

and since then, he's been avoiding – more like procrastinating, to be fair – getting sexual with you. the most you've done so far was dry humping each other on his sofa while his apartment was empty (that is, until one of his roommates opened the front door and he jumped out of his skin).

you don't want to push him, so you wait for him to come to you.

(but if anyone asked you whether you were fingering yourself in the shower thinking about him, you wouldn't be able to deny it.)

the next time he got to escape from his dorm and visit you and your blessedly empty tiny apartment, he has you on his lap, the movie playing on your laptop long forgotten.

you didn't notice anything before – he was the same hyeongjun as always – but now you can see how his hands are shaking and how he keeps taking deep breaths seemingly out of nowhere.

you detach your lips from his, studying his face. this makes him more nervous, the poor thing. did he do something wrong? is he this easy to read?

"hyeongjun, are you okay? you look like you're going to pass out." you try to leave the comfortable seat that is his thighs, but his hands shoot up and grab your waist, holding you down.

"hyeongjun. you're shaking. have you eaten? let me grab you a cup of wa–"

"i'm fine."

"really? what did you have for lunch? did you have enough? or did you have too much?" you can't help but worry for him. he's already a skinny guy, but you can't be too careful knowing how much time he spends online.

"i swear i'm fine! i'm just..." he trails off, looking at everything in your room but you. one of his hands leaves your waist to fiddle with a loose thread on your comforter. once again, you wait for him to come to you – he likes that about you, how you leave him to find ways to express himself instead of dragging it out of him. his tone is soft when he eventually finishes, "i'm just nervous, that's all."

you cup his cheek in an act of comfort, looking at him like he's some kind of baby bunny, small and defenseless. he finds he doesn't mind it too much.

"nervous about what, baby? what's on your mind?"

"i was thinking," he finally lets go of your waist to play with his fingers, "maybe it's about time we, uh, you know, fuck."

jesus christ. your tummy does a backflip at his wording.

"you know i don't mind if we don't, right? i'm fine with how things are now." you slide your hand down his neck and shoulder, and some braincell vaguely makes him think that you're not doing anything to help him go against having sex.

"but i want to," his response is eager and he backtracks, "if you want it too, i mean."

your mind is so clouded with the thought of not only having him, but also to have you be his first, that you don't even respond before you're pressing your lips to his again.

" of course i do."

[temnospondyl-corpse]

I've been noticing that a lot of people have been having trouble with one particular boss from the Elden Ring DLC, and I feel like it's my duty as a Souls veteran to offer some tips. If you've been getting your ass kicked by Sonda the Unchained at the end of a spoilery area, this is for you.

1. All of her most delayed windups start with her dragging her mace on the ground, or at least holding it very low. She still has a fast attack that starts that way too, but at least you know if she holds her weapon to the side or over her head you can dodge pretty much right away.

2. If you've almost managed to beat her, you've probably seen her most dangerous attack. You might be tempted to make some distance as it starts, but that chain is longer than you think and she can close the distance really fast. You're better off trying to stay behind her as long as possible or tanking through the first few seconds to stagger her with a charged attack if you can.

3. If you haven't made it far against her yet you wont have found this out the hard way. It is very important that you turn on all the lights in your house before fighting Sonda. Make sure to lock the doors and windows and close the blinds, and even then you should not look at the windows for any reason. When you get her to about half health, you might start to get the urge to look behind you. Do not look, even if there's just a wall behind you, no matter what you hear! Before you say "why not just play during the day" you have to understand that this is a tag team battle when played during the day and you really dont need to make it that hard on yourself. I dont know if anyone can beat Sonda's familiar, that thing cheats like hell. Do yourself a favor and wait till after 10 PM or so to start the fight.

4. Sonda is weak to ice, but as you've probably learned she's really good at punishing you when you create distance. It's best to go for weapon buffs or only the fastest spells.

5. I'm adding this as a separate point because a lot of people have forgotten or glossed over this part. Before starting the fight you should turn on all the lights in your house, however, the kitchen light should be left off. If your kitchen is connected to another room such as a dining room, you may want to use a candle or table lamp for the connected room so less light bleeds into the kitchen. And it can be a problem if you live in a small home with no distinct kitchen. Whatever room has the functionality of a kitchen needs to be kept dark, while every other room including the one you play in needs to be lit, so you might have to play in the bathroom or something.

6. All of her damage is strike damage so you only have to worry about one kind of defense. One of the more forgiving aspects of this boss.

7. Lastly, I reccomend using the Sword of Reconciliation you can find in the previous area. It feels almost perfect for this fight with its innate ice damage and fast ice based projectile attack. That said, it's a light weapon with limited stagger potential, so you might go for something else depending on your strategy.

[taegularities]

i mean this in the nicest way possible because i truly love you, but i wish writers in general wouldnt try to force reader engagement. i often reply with feedback, but at the end of the day, you should be writing because you want to, not because you want validation. i dont know if its just me who feels this way, but when writers constantly mention needing feedback or they wont write/will stop writing a popular series, it feels like a threat. i dont want reading to feel like a chore, where i need to constantly be validating my favorites so they dont get taken away from me. i love you and your writing and i wish my likes were enough. sometimes i, as a reader, dont feel like engaging/leaving notes. sometimes i just want to read and move forward. i feel like many writers have turned appreciative comments from readers into an obligation.

again in no way is this meant to be hateful towards you, i feel like this can apply to many of my favs. i just needed to get it off my chest and hopefully assure you that we like your writing, even if there's less engagement. if you disagree with any of my points, please tell me/ask me to clarify. i dont want to hurt your feelings and i would love to hear from the writer's side!

hiii! no worries, thank you so much for being respectful and wanting to hear my opinion, as well. i know some people let these things out in the rudest manner possible, so i appreciate that <3

so, the reason i haven't been writing atm is because i lack the time and energy to write :') this year has been crazyyyy busy, so i just don't get to it anymore – and since i've been away/less present for a while, i guess i also drifted away from tumblr, too, and then felt like people might've forgotten about taegularities, and then i wasn't sure if the effort would still be worth it (i get insecure at times, but that's a me-problem). now, the reason i (and many other writers) have this worry is bc writing requires an insane amount of energy and brainpower – when i tell you that so many of us actually slave over just a scene or even a paragraph for ages 😭 (example: the last cmi update was far shorter than what i usually drop, but it took me days to just edit one scene). we ache to write all the time, but life also gets in our way – i barely get time to sit down and work on my fics these days… so when i do get time, i want to put it out there into the world and then see the reactions, too… i write for myself, ofc, but for you guys, too, so i can share that joy; or else i'd keep the fics in my docs, right?

and in that sense, when we write something in the rare free time that we get and that we hope others will love just as much as we do, we do seek some sense of validation, even if that sounds odd. it's like – imagine you studied for a test for like 2 weeks, but then don't get the results you hoped for (which might be a weird example, but effort-wise, it's similar, even if fics don't affect writers' lives in that sense). i know there are many who just write and don't care for feedback (even tho i've seen even those who say this be sad about reader engagement which – very valid), but i think that most who expose their soul and heart like this, do want to see people enjoying it/speaking about it/hyping it up. every creator, be it in the movie, music or art industry, loves to see reactions! and think about it – most writers get so genuinely excited when someone sends an ask that doesn't say more than "i loved this so much!! you're such a good writer!!" which is insane?! like, i know that i do – i get so happy and remember these comments 5ever, and it's a 2 sentence review as opposed to thousands of words. the effort here is unbalanced, but we still love it so much. and you don't need to write an essay, you never never do!! i swear, it's always enough to even get a few words or sentences <3 which, in the end, isn't a lot to ask for, you know?

i'm not saying i will stop writing my series. i would stop if it got 0 reactions OR if my life stood in its way too much; i'll keep loving what i write and write out of joy, no doubt. and tbh, i don't care about notes either. like, i remember "ruin you" getting way less notes than cmi but GOSH we had so much fun back then bc of the interaction and the craze made me so happy hahaha and yeah that's what it's essentially about – community. does that make sense? it's tumblr where likes don't make a post circulate – reblogs do, so yeah, unfortunately, likes are not enough :( i wish they were. i totally get what you mean, though. even feedback shouldn't be an obligation, but if you truly like somebody's work, it never hurts to send a tiny message. it really means the world to us when something we adore and are so proud of – creating art, sharing our heart, wanting everybody to see this love – is met with so much joy. and it's fics, you know – we love love love writing, but it's something that can be read. and we want people to read it and we're legit sitting there like "👀 and?? aaaand?" lol it's so nice to know when someone truly appreciates something… ofc you don't have to comment on my stuff, but i promise feedback makes a difference. it's why so many do leave :/ i hope that made sense!! once again, thank you for being respectful!! i love you, too, and am truly grateful that you're here and enjoying my stuff!! <3

[spiralstereo]

I don't rlly know how these work but,,,

Orange, banana, and cherry blossom,,,, meowmeowmrowmrow

(Also I'm rlly scared of losing you as a friend just bc we haven't rlly been talking much but I've just been bad at socializing in general and keeping up with people I care about lately sigh <//3 /lh/nav)

RAHH TY POOKIE!!!

also i completely understand, & dont worry- you wont loose me! i havent forgotten about you :)) i know things are difficult & hard & confusing as fuck sometimes but know that im a real one & im here for ya. we dont have to talk 24/7 but we can still be friends :)) you mean alot to me man

[my-castles-crumbling]

heyyyy

just noticed you've been a lot less active for a couple of days.

everything all right ?

its ok if u dont wanna answer

just thought to ask

Hi!

Thank you so much for caring enough to ask <3

I'm okay! Really, it's just kind of a mix of work being busy, some things going on with my health, a falling out with a friend, and a different friend who's having a rough time so I've been helping her a lot. So I haven't been on as much.

But I haven't forgotten about you guys, don't worry! And I have vacation in a week and a half (thank god) so I'll be able to get a lot done then!

Seriously, though, it means so much that you noticed and care <3

[bumblebeesfromvenus]

If you hear strange, concerningly fast munching noises every time you drop a fic- dont worry. thats just me eating it up.

STAWWWWWP you're making me blush 🤭🥺🩷

I'm so happy that you enjoy them, though!

I know that I post very inconsistently and for a bunch of different fandoms, so to anyone who sticks around anyway, THANK YOU. 🫶🏻🩷🥹

I'm sorry for slacking lately. In both quantity and quality.

There's just a lot happening- I'm going to school again for the first time in like 3 years eventhough I swore I'd never step foot into a school again.

My birthday is in less than a month and that's very exciting too!!

But I also feel terrible lately. My PCOS has been kicking my ass so hard. I'm in so much pain and I don't think I've ever bled this much in my life. It's pretty bad :( I couldn't move a couple of days ago bc of cramps and back pain.

I want to write, I really do, but being in pain all the time is exhausting.

To all of you lovelies in my inbox- I haven't forgotten about you, okay!!!

Thank you so much for all the support 🩷

[cafedanslanuit]

AHHH!! it literally feels like im talking to a friend every time u answer my comments😭 but im doing ok classes are kicking my butt but its wtv ima try my best. Your story along with xokiddos are my distractions when i dont wanna do my hw🧍🏽‍♀️

Another question i have is how many chapters will u write for this story?? i think u already answered but im not sure. do u see yourself writing in the next 10 yrs?

Also ur story kind reminds me of one on AO3 called your sugar, yes please(angel-devil x reader) so if u ever want some inspiration i highly recommended😭 but the thing is they haven’t updated since last yr but they’re just probably busy and i hope they haven’t forgotten about it🥲

ok im just rambling..😅

from a fan🖤.. again

good luck with classes!! and omg i love xokiddo's works as well. i remember i first read Heart of Glass, and now i'm hooked with Hammer. and im gonna start Bloom as soon as i finish this series i'm watching >:) (i'm watching daisy jones and the six!! so far it's so cute, definitely feel the fleetwood mac vibes)

for the story i have planned 10 chapters! there may be one more or one less, because, for example, chapter 5 and 6 were supposed to be just one but i decided to divide them in two. soooo it may change but so far it's ten chapters. regarding the plot, i'd say next chapter is an important one because of what happens, which has been hinted at since chapter three i think. something that was bound to happen i guess :)

i definitely see myself still writing in the next 10 years. at this point it's so intricate in my life that i can't imagine myself living without doing it lol. i do want to start writing in spanish again (it's my native language after all) because i haven't done it in a while, but so far i haven't got the inspiration for it. i stopped writing in spanish in... 2017, 2018? maybe? i got back into writing in 2020, but only in english so far. i tried writing some poems in spanish but they weren't good lol.

i wanna look for the fic you asked tho!! i loooove chainsaw man and angel devil so i think i'll definitely like the fic <3

also don't worry about rambling!! i do that a lot too haha so it's alright with me :)

[troglobite]

lkasjdf

if i've deduced my own pathetic issues correctly then i think

i've craved validation my entire life for doing things that were hard for me. but not other people.

but instead i got validation for doing things that were easy for me. but not other people.

i excel at school and tests. great, good job.

but like. okay. wasn't difficult for me. (not a brag, i'm lucky in that regard)

but doing group projects. talking to strangers. sleeping and eating without issue. answering phones as an office assistant in 7th grade. nope, nobody cares. do better. it's a disgrace that you were a classroom aide in senior year and couldn't answer the office phone for your teacher and he had to interrupt class to answer it. pathetic.

good job you got into good schools! you applied to good schools! well done!

oh my god you really can't just live on campus?

wow well done you're v responsible and i don't have to worry abt you!

jfc you really can't learn to drive? it took you this long and this much time and money and concern? jfc.

and it persists to this day.

ppl compliment me on things that i know i'm good at. that i'm performing for others.

and i've said for a long time that compliments make me uncomfortable so some ppl kindly avoided giving them (while others weaponized it against me to make me stop talking in a conversation)

but the reality is. i crave compliments and validation. it's all i want. and i don't want it to be for something i did. or something that i'm just good at.

bc that's never enough.

if i get a compliment for that i get a horrible rush and a high from it and then i keep wanting more.

bc in reality what i want compliments & validation for?

scheduling my own appts.

driving to places that i haven't been before.

handling a non-covid-safe situation well.

eating food that i was ocd-afraid of anyway.

being alone for 2-3 weeks in a house infested with spiders.

emailing people i dont' know v well and dont' like in high stress situations.

managing my own sensory stuff & meltdowns.

communicating boundaries well.

handling high/intense emotions in a way that's responsible.

actually improving from years of therapy.

but then the problem becomes like. i hate myself so fucking much and i never got validation for any of that, that when i get it from my therapist, it feels like a lie. like something i paid her to tell me. something she just says to people.

it doesn't feel true bc nobody has ever really said any of that shit to me and meant it in a way other than condescending pity.

every time i do something like that for my mom, she's surprised. and then she consistently never asks me for actual help. she doesn't actually rely on me.

she only ever asks me to do things that we've established i'm good at.

that's nothing. that stuff is easy for me. it's meaningless. doing it is literally no problem, literally easy. i will always do it. only logistics for that stuff are ever remotely difficult.

it's not the same as living in my head and doing the stuff that my head wants to kill me for.

but that's not hard to her or anyone else, so no one cares.

i want validation that i'm working so hard every day. but the only person who's ever said it to me is my therapist.

my mom sees me leave a box out to break down for the recycling later, and she assumes i must be in too much pain to do it. bc the concept of "yeah i'll get to that later" isn't okay.

prioritizing parts of my health or time and knowing some things just aren't time sensitive isn't a Skill, to her, it's laziness and carelessness and inconsideration.

even though i never ask her to do the things that i put off til later, and they never inconvenience her except on rare occasions. and that's usually when i've just forgotten.

she'll compliment me for writing a good email.

that's nice.

that's not the hard part.

the hard part is sending it.

she'll compliment me for doing well learning this new project at work.

that's nice.

again, that's not the hard part.

the hard part was doing all those training meetings with a woman i didn't know.

she'll reassure me abt that teacher's aide job i applied for (all the way back in 2021) that i ended up not getting, reassuring me that i'm good enough.

that's nice.

i might've been slightly insecure at the time, but that's not the problem.

the problem is i was terrified i had fucked up the interview portion.

because doing an interview is utterly fucking terrifying.

applying wasn't the hard part. DOING the job wouldn't have been the hard part.

interviewing for it and interfacing with a new person who's senior to me and explicitly judging me was the hard part.

but she never remembers that. nobody else ever really cares or notices that.

i've just spent my whole life being complimented for stuff that came easy to me. and being told that the shit i was bad at SHOULD be easy and i'm a disgrace/failure/inconvenience for being bad at it.

and no comfort or compliments for me for when i did it well or okay. because i'm supposed to do it.

when i would complain abt things being difficult or scary, i was told other ppl (in particular my cousin w cerebral palsy) had it worse so i should be grateful.

i was told as an adult, to my face, that i'm a spoiled brat because my fear and ineptitude at certain things made me not want to do a particular job, and i was having trouble communicating that. so instead she conclude that i was selfish and lazy and spoiled, and that actually she regrets not making me have a job my entire life starting at age 14/15, or even earlier, like her.

i get complimented for doing my testimonial job well.

but not about the hard part: which is interfacing w the ppl who respond to me and demand a further response.

it doesn't matter that it unsettles me and scares me and puts me on the spot. it doesn't matter that that's incredibly high stress. it doesn't matter that i hate navigating those situations. it doesn't matter that i'm terrified of looking bad or pissing someone off.

and it doesn't matter that THAT'S why i didn't want to do this job in the first place.

i only get compliments/validation for the easy part: gathering and editing the testimonials and sending them out and collecting them on time.

not the emails. not the interfacing. not the parts that are actually hard.

so when my cousin starts baking. and giving it to my mom. and getting compliments and attention.

i break down.

bc baking is one of the few things that people will actually compliment me on. i take it, emotionally, as a threat whenever somebody is as good as or better than me at one of the few things i'm good at.

bc if i don't have that. if i'm not the best at that. what do i have?

wow look at you you can type fast. and write emails and edit basic text. you can easily problem solve things that aren't complicated.

whoopdifuckingdoo.

i have nothing. my adult life has been the winnowing away of things i'm actually good at, desperately clinging onto them and trying to scrounge for every bit of validation that i can get.

because i'm never going to get it for anything else that's actually difficult.

it always turns into a joke. i always have to explicitly ask for it. and the response is always "yep" and that's it.

and i'm so fucking broken and useless and shitty that anybody trying to fix that, like my therapist, sounds like a condescending liar to me.

bc nobody--and i mean NOBODY--in my life. has ever seen what things are difficult for me. and had nothing but judgment-less compassion and understanding for me.

it's ALWAYS been judgment. when i was a kid, it was pity and condescension bc i was young and Shy.

and when i got older, it became "what's the excuse/problem? just do it. you can do all this other stuff [school] just fine."

and now that i'm an adult it's resentment. even when i'm getting better. it's never enough.

so no, i can't get enough compliments or validation abt the things i do that are good.

bc that's not actually doing anything to address the pit of self-hatred, shame, and humiliation at the fact that just living is difficult for me.

anyway i wish i had never been born.

[seohwang]

I bought the newest one, Fever: Epilogue! And Fever Part.1 (Thanxx Version) and Fever Part 2. So basically a lot of Fever, but i would love to see your collection! I would love to collect Stray Kids but I just got myself I photocard and album collection so all my money will probably go to ateez for a while lol. I actually managed to get my hands into baby jongho photocard which I'm really happy about aaa -💕

Ohh, that’s really cool!! I’m very happy for you and I hope you got the pulls you were wishing for ♥ And I’ll pray for you wallet as well lol. The life of a kpop fan really isn’t easy sometimes haha.

Also what?? I literally had no idea there even was a baby Jongho photocard before you told me, but omg, I love it so much. I love it when kpop groups have some “special” photocards of their own, that’s so cute :( I’m glad to hear that you got one for yourself!! <33

[effervescentdragon]

Good evening my darling Akira. It is I, not-drunk-but-definitely-not-sober Dee!

This message is brought to you by spiced Rum. Sadly this has been an evening of drinking in my house (alone- blame work), so I haven’t gone feral in front of my friends again. Which I think is boring but also maybe good. I fear they may be worried about me 😹 my friend Meg and her guy keep asking if they need to set me up with religious people because of my crucifix meltdown. I’m tempted honestly 💀

HOWEVER. I did just do a thing ….. I’ve been thinking about going to Bruges and/or Amsterdam for a few days on a little break. But I have no one to go with….my friends are either busy or have children and responsibilities or are just being boring, and I was scared at the thought of going alone because I’ve never been out of the country by myself. But I guess I am now!?!?! Flights and hotels are booked, and I go in like 3 weeks 😵‍💫😹

There is every chance I’m going to regret this tomorrow but fuck it right? It’s an adventure. And also non-refundable.

Anyways. I’ve gotta go walk the dog and then actually sleep and stop being feral on here so I can be at least semi-competent at work tomorrow, if I ever want to convince them to sponsor the wag agenda!!

Goodnight & Ily 🖤

Dearest, dearest Dee, I've saved up this ask and haven't precisely forgotten about it, just, the time was never quite right! But, here we are, a day before your trip, and I think it's time.

First of all, again, I am so proud of you for doing this. It's vwry brave, in my not so humble opinion, to just set off on an adventure. Very Bilbo Baggins of you, I whole-heartedly approve!! 😻 the gold you will come back will be the memories, unless you find some real gold somewhere, in which case, we can fund the WAG agenda ourselves, and I volunteer as a tribute! 😹😹💖

Secondly, I will spare you another crucifix meltdown, because if i start, I will not stop, and you have to pack, and my bestie is coming bcs we have some battle plans to make on this lovely Thursday. So, qhat I wanted to say is this:

- youre going to netherlands on Monza race week. please, leave your merc and ferrari merch home 😹;

- dont fight people over f1. its not worth it, getting arrested in a foreign country, when its not italy, and the person youre fighting isnt mattia;

- here is some coffe recs ive scrounged up for you, just in case - this, this, this (this one apparently has a bar w the same owner across the street!), this, this (these two are in bruges, and every time i tyoe that, i think of colin farell, nom nom nom), anyways i chose them from like too many websites on vibes only, where i'd go as a tourist, so if you do visit any, or find some better ones yourselves, send me all the coffee pics!! 😘;

- be sure to stay safe at all times, but also, have fun. im the devil on your shoulder telling you its okay to have fun, and that you're awesome for doing this, and that it's gonna be awesome 💖💖💖💖💖

Now go, pack, dont forget electronics, panties (or do, you know, i dont judge 😏), enough meds for a double time there just in case, and your toothbrush! ILY 🫂💖

EDIT: also. dont forget the passport lines, bcs your govt is shit, and now you have to wait in lines.

[souichieatr]

wanna be yours, ch2

suna x freader , foxy boy

where in which two opposites fall in love

a/n: for everyone who commented on the posts youve been added sorry i cant reply <//3 if you're interested in being in the taglist send me an ask, i was thinking of making a playlist for the au would anyone be interested? lmk !! sorry if there are any mistakes or if its bad this is my first writing <3

ch1. this voice im hearing rn? , hey bestie

word count: 2,090

the first song- The Ghost of You- my chemical romance

second song- I Bet on Losing dogs- mitski

third song- Crybaby- destroy boys

pocketing her phone after reading tendous message, she opens the door waving to a couple friends and offers friendly smile taking her seat. a pair of pale green eyes follow her. after yesterday suna did a little research about her y/n y/l/n the bassist and youngest in the band called 4u, she has quite a big following on twitter, she's really nice and interacts with the fans. looking at her now you can't imagine her on stage suna thought. breaking away from his thoughts as the teacher walks in. spouting for about what feels like hours and the students taking notes, finally lunch approaches. y/n jumps from her seat grabbing her case she walks to the third year hallway. waving to her friends they walk to her, tendou wrapping his arms around her “y/n!!!!!! i missed you” laughing as she hugged him back “tendou!!! i missed you toooo.” she turns to the grey haired male, “semisemi!!” she says giving him a hug, he rolls his eyes and hugs her back “and ushi!!” she turns to the brunette to which he pats her head “good afternoon y/n.” as they go to the lunch room to grab their lunch, they walk to one of the music rooms they usually occupy. a beep from her phone grabs her attention seeing her friend atsumu asking if him his twin and their friend can join for lunch, “hey guys you dont mind if atsumu and his friends come join us?” she says setting down her case against the wall. “nah you can invite them, atsumu is our biggest hype man” tendou says, grabbing his drum sticks from his back pocket. texting him its cool she goes to unzip her bass. “oh ms lady ive missed you” she says hugging the instrument, “i can't believe you two and always wanting to play, dont yall have any other hobby?” semi says, grabbing the schools given guitar setting the speaker up for y/n. tendou gives a scoff “semisemi dont act like you hate hearing us play i see you listening to our covers alllll the timeeeee” he says “yeah semi besides we have a concert soon and it wouldnt be bad to have an audience” y/n says walking to semi to connect her bass to the speaker when the door opens, entering is atsumu in the middle, osamu on his left, and a mystery guy in the back. setting her bass down running up to the blond “tsumu!!” giving him a hug “y/n!!” he hugs her back, she waves to osamu, who shes met on an occasion. looking towards the dark haired guy she walks up to him, noticing shes seen him somewhere. “youre suna right? we're in the same class?” she says giving him a hand and a awkward smile, nodding at her words. “hope its okay im here” he says taking her hand giving a slight shake. “nah dont worry its nice to have a different face, seeing tsumu is getting boring” turning around to the male. “what she means to say is we could use practice in front of new people” the grey haired male says giving a small laugh when tendou scoffs at him, both guys walking towards the small group. “this is semi and this is tendou” she says introducing them. when the introductions are over the two males go back to setting up, y/n walks the newcomers to the sitting area “here you guys can sit, im sure you all know ushijima” on hearing his name he looks up from his name giving a small head bow. they all sit “any recommendations tsumu?” y/n says walking to her bass making sure everything was good, looking towards the small group. “y/n you know my favorites” atsumu says stealing one of his brothers onigiri. y/n laughs and rolls her eyes, turning to tendou “anything you wanna try tori?” tendou looks at her with a smile “y/n lets show semi whatweve been working on” hearing this semi looked at them “what do you guys mean? what did you two do” y/n chuckles at the grey hairs doubtful expression “mr semisemi you know your favorite mcr song” when she sees him nod she continues “me and tori learned it” she says pushing him lightly. semi looked at her with wide eyes then at tendou, looking at semi tendou flicked his drum stick between his fingers with a nod. “wow semi cant believe you, we spent so much hours perfecting a my chemical romance for your sap self and he doesn't believe us y/nie i might

” tendou says fake sniffing. the little group in the back beyond confused, atsumu clearing his throat “have you three forgotten us already, wheres our show” ushijima nodding his head “yeah why are you guys being so vague” tendou snickers “dont worry you three and wakatoshi we have decided to play a new song or well cover i should say” “yeah and its semi’s favorite band you know the one that he wears on his shirts?” ushijima looking towards the girl after hearing her statement he nods. “okay can we play now ive been waiting to show my skills and get our lovely semi's opinion” y/n says removing her pick, both boys giving a ‘yeah’. finally tendou does the countdown. suna looks at all three of them with slight excitement in his stomach, ‘is this a new song im going to hear?’ before he could think of anything else, semi started playing a few chords by himself and y/n starting to add her own strums then tendou adding drums. sunas eyes widen at how well all the sounds blended together, freezing in his spot when semi started singing, when hitting the chorus y/n joins him. suna looking at her, he felt like he had been put in a trance, feeling like theres a spotlight on her when she starts nodding her head seeing her tongue sticking out when stringing the instrument. towards the end you can see y/n lose focus and her eye twitches, ending the song she sighs. “hey sorry about the end” waving to the guys to her left with a frown. hearing applause from the group the frown doesnt last long. “WHOOO!!!!! THAT WAS MY BESTIES GO SEMI! GO TENDOU! GO Y/N!!” atsumu gets up and yells. “that was so good what the hell that was yer first time too?” he says going up to the group, high-fiving y/n. “i mean me and tendou practiced together but semi basically has every song by them memorized but together? yeah our first.” tendou getting up to get his water that was next to ushijima. semi joining the fake blond and the girl, patting her on her back “that was a good first for us i can tell you and tendou worked hard, we're definitely adding it to the set list.” getting a laugh from both of them semi walks to the small group. “hey man that was really good, you have a nice voice” suna says as semi approaches, semi turned to him surprised “oh thank you im glad you enjoyed, do you listen to our stuff?” he says taking a seat next to him. “ive recently just started, i hope that doesnt sound too weird” the dark haired suddenly getting a little embarrassed, chuckling “its not weird i promise, well its good you listen to us or im sure it would've been awkward to just be here” nodding along to what he said. tendou going back to the drums “are you cowards tapping out now?” “COWARDS?!?!” y/n yells back turning around “i am no coward tendou satori i'll make you eat those words semi get over here” she said grabbing semis attention and shooing atsumu back to his seat. chuckling as he sat back down, turning to suna “howd ya like em? theyre good huh?” suna rolling his eyes “im not going to help inflate your ego tsumu” “yeah tsumu yer big ego is not cute” gasping to their remarks “you guys are so mean to me, i introduce you to nice music and even the artists and this is the thanks i get” before any could respond tendou starts clicking his sticks. starting this one is tendou with a slower sound, y/n entering second then semi with vocals. y/n leans down to mess with something by her foot turning a notch noises like static come out adding to the music, coming up fast she starts adding her vocals complimenting semis. pressing on the box she leans down as more noises come out. atsumu leans over to sunas ear “thats a pedal that holds other sounds and can help stretch other sounds” suna giving him a nod. towards the end y/n reaches down to the pedal again adding a distorted sound before adding her last bit of ‘oohs’ before the song ends. everyone clapping as the members stay still for s bit before y/n dramatically bows “youre so welcome lovely audience” she says blowing kisses to them, laughing at her atsumu jumps up and down pretending to be a crazy fan “oh y/n you were so go

od i love you y/n!!!” y/n laughing at him. “hey atsumu what about me!” tendou asks swinging his hand “howd i do?” “oh tendou you were so good, i love you too tendou!!!” he says swinging his arm back. tendou satisfied with his response nods his head, “and with that lets play one more i still want time to actually eat before we play again later.” “yeah lets try ‘crybaby’ we haven't done that in awhile” semi says getting in position.“remember y/n you do the verses” y/n nods clearing her throat “go tori” she says and tendou starts the counting again. starting the counting fast he gets one beat then y/n starts off with singing, swinging her bass back she grabs the mic. suna cracks a smile nodding his head a little as he remembers this song on their youtube, atsumu whistling when y/n dips down her mic as she sings, letting the boys have a solo in between verses she bobs her head. the last few seconds of the song she swings the instrument back as she steps on the pedal creating feedback, as semi goes to vocals she starts getting a solo with tendou playing, y/n leans forward and her and semi sing the rest of the song. after the last note they all look out of breath. clapping for them again letting them catch their breath, y/n starts laughing “i forget how hard that song is towards the end” laughing with her tendou nods “its literally the last 50 seconds that get the hardest” “alright lets clean up” semi says laughing at both of their bored looks they send him. finishing up they all go to the group whove are talking among themselves. sighing as she sits y/n takes the seat next to suna, “so howd you like the songs?” she says with a smile “they were good though i only recognized the last one” he replies, “tsumu told me you started listening to us recently so i thought or well semi thought wed show off a bit with our best song being that” she says with a smile grabbing her bottle. a small smile appears on his face “oh hey tsumu told me youre like really good in your classes and i really need help in history and since we have that group project coming up do you wanna pair up?” she says setting her bottle down grabbing a bag of chips. “yeah i dont mind as long as you actually do something and i can help you study if your grade is that bad” he says. “thatd actually help me out a lot i really appreciate it” she lets a breath out. after that the two spent all lunch just talking, the conversation coming easy for both of them. hearing the bell ring y/n hugs her friends and walks with suna to their class, pairing up in the project the teacher had given them in their period. after class before y/n rushed out she passed him her number with a wink “text me for the deets foxy boy.” ‘foxy boy? suna thought to himself shaking his head texting her with a simple ‘hey its suna’ and heading home.

facts !

during lunch when suna and y/n we're talking the followed each other on twitter

semi was really touched they learned the mcr song

the 4u concert is at a small venue but no one really cares about the other groups going there

osamu and atsumu almost started fighting over the onigiri until suna said something about ushijima being right there

atsumu was watching suna and y/n talking

osamu actually really enjoyed being there during lunch

—taglist

@applekenm , @xhanjisungiex , @astronomyturtle , @sirachano0dles , @yn-tingz , @killmepls-uwu , @bakugouswh0r3

[xsamuu]

HEYYYYY!! I saw your ask box was open and I was wondering if I could request a headcanon? Where the reader is in a massive fight with a friend they haven't seen for like 3 years and the friend takes it too far by saying something like "That's your boyfriend? How gross" "Ew why does he look like that? Couldn't grab someone better? Ugly ho" or whatever you come with? Tendou, Bokuto, Kenma, Kags, Nishinoya please, if you will?

I screeched when I saw this omg thank you I hope this is up to your standards bebs 😼👍🏾 but uh I should say some did come out a little bit like scenarios but I tried to stick to headcanons sorry for that still hope you enjoy 🎃😼

~Admin Rizzo

Tendou Satori

-you was minding your own business walking through a park your hands intertwined with your lover when a ✨m u s t y✨ old friend you knew had decided to share there unwanted opinions

-Tendou could see how uncomfortable you was and wanted to remove you from the situation but as he went to walk around the obstacle you stopped dead in your tracks

-“That’s who your with oh my god that’s fucking gross, I guess you’ll hook up with anyone you thot”

-It’s safe to say that tendou had come up with thousands of insults by the time the slur left there mouth

-Who even was this person?— WAIT WHO THEY CALLING A THOT?!

-you wasn’t a very confrontational person but nevertheless you wasn’t about to let this person who wasn’t even in your day to day life anymore talk smack about your man

-you went to retaliate when a big arm swooped around your shoulder catching you off guard

-“Babe lets go I wanted to bring you to the park today not a circus” 🤡

-Needless to say your ‘friend’ was shocked and maybe a little intimidated

-You on the other hand had to summon all the strength in your body not to laugh in there face

-With his arm still wrapped around he moved you away from the situation the both of you quickly changing the subject to something more important

Bokuto Kōtarō

-Bokuto loves spoiling you

-your the love of his life and he will make sure you know this not only through his words but also his actions

-this however works both ways there isn’t something you wouldn’t do to show him how much you support and love him

-You was sitting in the crowd at one of his games it was a very important one winning this match would definitely get him recognized by some powerhouse teams

-every time he would score a point for his team he would look up at you and every time you would be there imitating his celebration “HEY HEY HEY THATS MY ACE” You felt only pride and absolute infatuation with this man

-you was cheering your heart out when you suddenly felt someone bump your shoulder (a little too hard to be an accident—)

-You swung your head around only to come face to face with an old friend from middle school they looked bitter asf and your conscience was telling you to just ignore them

-“Oh you have nothing to say to me now Huh? I see your at another one of these boring ass games I thought you didn’t have time for people?”

-It’s true at one point you did say that but you didn’t think you’d loose one of your closest friends because of it even so you continue to ignore them hoping they’d get the message and leave

-they didn’t.

-“So you and number 4 are together I’m assuming. I guess ugly attracts ugly”

-immediately you saw red but you couldn’t ruin this for bokuto important people were here. As if he could sense your distress he shot his eyes up to where you were in the stand

-He called a time out, and started running out the gym everyone was confused but when he reappeared in the stands you knew all to well that he had caught on

-“Babe I just noticed your supposed to be closer to the match your an important guest” he smiled you mouthed him a thank you and gathered your things walking a few rows closer to the front

-Thankfully Akaashi was there looking up at you distracting you. The owllike man glared at your old friend “I don’t know what you did to Y/N but you better leave before you have another problem”

-When you looked back your ex friend was nowhere to be seen you giggled as bokuto gave you a big kiss before returning to the court

Kozume Kenma

-Kenma isn’t a contentious person in fact he would much rather settle an issue in the most inconspicuous way possible

-Even so if he feels that him or his partner was disrespected in anyway he will not hesitate

-You and Kenma was at a gaming convention you had been planning since the beginning of February (it’s now late April)

-You had sat through the entrance ceremony and was walking around admiring all the stalls and you were both having so much fun

-Kenma had left you for a split second to get someone’s autograph it was the animator from a game he played religiously you didn’t mind you stayed put and was scrolling through your phone

-“Long time no see y/n” you lifted your head to the sound of your name being called and made perfect eye contact with an old ‘friend’

-If you were being completely honest you hated them all they did was make you feel like an inferior insect whenever you two were together you hummed a ‘yo’ before going back to your phone

-“Still a quiet freak eh LuLu I guess you here on your own or something”

-Lulu was the name of a magical girl from a cartoon you used to love but upon finding out people would use it to mock and degrade you

-you was gonna walk away the ridiculous nickname when you heard a familiar voice

-“no y/n is with me and you are?” It was a genuine question but anyone who didn’t know Kenma would take his pack of expression as bored or sarcastic

-The person scoffed and pointed accusingly at Kenma “That’s who your with LuLu you couldn't do any better HE’S JUST AS LIFELESS AS YOU ARE”

-You tugged on Kenma sleeve motioning to just leave as you felt uncomfortable but Kenma wasn’t having it you had been so excited to be here and with him and this nobody came out of nowhere and started harassing you

-“Listen um going to say this in a way you could understand— he smirked at you and then opened his mouth again

-What escaped his mouth next left you shocked, scared, a little embarrassed for him even but mostly touched

-he cleared his throat

-“lifeless. I’m not lifeless in fact I have a burning hatred for you right now. And that why I feel no guilt in what I’m about to do.”

-You gulped and held on tighter to kenma’s sleeve mentally preparing yourself for what he was about to do

-“YoU HaTe LuLu’S tRanSforMatiOn sOng?!” He practically shouted. Instantly a horde or gamers, writers, weebs and more bombarded the area shouting and screaming and causing a scene

- From all the commotion it’s sounded like your ‘friend’ was ok but some of the words leaving the mouths of the mob were kinda cruel

-you smirked and Kenma led you away

-You know he doesn’t like being the center of attention but he still protected you and for that you’d be sure to thank him for that

Kageyama Tobio

-Kags never really liked leaving you behind when he had to go to different countries

-without you it made him anxious and you would reassure him that you’d be fine and eagerly awaiting his return

-Including the return of his big, fat juicy—

Ahem heart 🙂

-You had been sitting in a café Face Timing him

-You’d often have dates like this and you both enjoyed them you was talking to him when someone took up a seat next to you

-“Hey Y/n funny running into you here” a familiar voice echoed

-A w k w a r d you hadn’t seen or heard from this person since a fight you had a couple years ago why now?

-You had nearly forgotten about your boyfriend on the other side of your iPad screen until “Oh you bought a friend y/n”

-you was at a loss for words but before you could answer the unwanted annoyance to your left answered for you

-‘We’re not friends y/n cut me off because she’s toxic” it took kageyama a solid 10 seconds to realize that this wasn’t a real friend and that you were silently asking for help

-You rested your head in hand obscuring the person from kags field of vision therefore blocking there vision of your face and boyfriend

-hoping they’d get the message without you having to vocalize it

-they stood up and you let out a breath you didn’t know you was holding

-“I wasn’t checking out your friend don’t worry he isn’t my type I prefer cute boys” they spat

-Before you could even assess the fact that they pretty much called your boyfriend ugly you was already pissed at the fact that they referred to kags as your friend

-you stood up abruptly and it’s like they were waiting for you to loose your cool all hope was lost when you heard him clear his throat

-“[there Instagram name] Damn you was easy to find. I liked you post”

-You felt a tinge of confusion race through you but watching all the blood in there body rush to your friends face made you curious

-“DELETE THAT RIGHT NOW” people were definitely looking in your direction

-“Leave then I will” Now you was curious what the help did he do?

-seconds, literal seconds. The annoyance was nowhere to be seen

-“Kags..wha—”

“I shared there IP address in the comments :p”

- “PFFT kAgS!”

Nishinoya Yū

-Noya made sure that you felt like the only person in the world before he asked you out, so when you started dating you didn’t think he could get any more protective over you

-You was sitting in the cinema with him both smiling and listening on to the movie

-He fidgets a lot in his seat but you dont mind you know he cant help it besides you find it cute he is just so full of energy

-“Babe imma go to the toilet be right back” he kissed your cheek and left

-you continue to watch the movie until you feel someone slither into the seat next to you and hearing the voice your your temples irks and your expression one of annoyance

-One of your ex friends for how many years ago had to be in the same theatre at the same time on the SAME FUCKING DAY

-they didn't seem like they were moving so you just spoke first

- “can i help you.?” 

-No response :/

-You were even more irritated than before

-Noya came back a few minutes later and noticed another person had sat right next to you 

-Noya is dense VERY VERY DENSE he assumed you ran into one of your friends so he didn't question it

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

-After the movie finished you grabbed your things and rushed to get out of that situation

-The same person had finally said something after a whole hour

- “That’s who you came with.. You really know how to pick em an annoying toddler really Y/n your honestly pathetic--”

-It didn’t bother Noya he has been called short all his life this isn’t any different but this rando was obviously upsetting you and he would NOT have that

-Noya would step infront of you and confront the person they get a warning 

-one fucking warning 

-If they don’t take it i shit you not noya is going for the ankles periodt

- “I DONT KNOW WHO THE FUCK YOU ARE BUT YOUR UPSETTING MY PARTNER THE FUCKING DOOR IS BEHIND YOU SO TURN AROUND”

-Noya looked like the aggressor and its safe to say he may have caused a scene but he would be a fool not to step in and protect you with all you got

[aconfusedkitten]

fandom wise, spill the tea for genshin

001 | Send me a fandom and I will tell you my:

Favorite character:

childe or kaeya, unfortunately i like the angst-y and feral ones. albedo is a close second though :3

Least Favorite character:

i don't think i have one?

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon):

chiluc, chaeya, kaether, kaebedo, and um. yun jin and shenhe are the only other ship i can think of, but they're neat :3

Character I find most attractive:

i dont know about attractive characters but. can i have ayato and albedo's vibes and aesthetics, those are fun.

Character I would marry:

i? i have no idea?

Character I would be best friends with:

xingqiu!! we're both book nerds and i love him. also i need more chaotic friends, clealy.

a random thought:

yun jin and shenhe are really neat together, because yun jin wants to tell a story that? doesn't glorify or overstate the things shenhe went through? but still tell it in a way that makes shenhe's experiences matter somehow.

also crimson witch of pain is hating me today, its giving me hu tao artifacts when i'm farming for diluc.

An unpopular opinion:

im pro-ship, enough said.

My Canon OTP:

does genshin even have canon ships? i don't think it does.

My Non-canon OTP:

chiluc. i started shipping them on accident and now half of my original posts are either links to my fics for them or random brainrot about one or both of them.

Most Badass Character:

i wanna say childe but. thats hard. that's really hard. childe because he's the favorite and in reality, probably one of the archons or adepti. or the traveller.

genshin stop having too many bamf characters.

Most Epic Villain:

can i say the tsaritsa even if we haven't met her yet? there's something really interesting about the goddess of love raging war on the world, i think.

Pairing I am not a fan of:

i'm pretty much fine with anything? i'm not really attached to any lumine ships, since. i'm an aether main with no connection or care for lumine, but i'm okay with pretty much all the ships i know of, problematic ones included.

Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another):

diluc, diluc, diluc. he's so inconsistent??? i love him (unfortunately) but please genshin, let him have a personality that's less dependent on who he's talking to and more of an actual thing.

Favourite Friendship:

either beidou and kazuha or xingqiu, chongyun, and xiangling, i think :3

Character I most identify with:

not really sure about this one, honestly? probably albedo? i'm on the quieter side in person, and a lot of people fixate on the fact that i'm good at one or two things? i dont really know.

Character I wish I could be:

xingqiuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

oh to be a teenager from a forgotten school who gets to wander around with their best friend and not have to worry about their responsibilities. -- ask game

[intheeyesofjustice]

Hello my bloglings, been a while, see you child lol

Anyways the Aubrey winter lodge happened, its actually called Aubrey wotzic lodge not winter lodge so that was a surprise. It was so much fun like top 3 things ever, I wore my coziest things like sweatpants and a long sleeve thing I dont even know what it was called and slippers too of course. Omg it was so awsome they had a great hill that we went down like 20 times it was very tiring to get up all the way, and the snow was cool like snow always is, in the morning it was the best since it was so fluffy, I got to hang with my besie from the westie, like pacific northwestie, aka my svalbardian brother, also czechoczechozki was there he was a big burly Russian man, I had better pon pons than him since mine was on my head. That last part didn't make much sense, you would just had to have been there.

Ok so its saint patties today and nobody told me I found out in second period which is weird cause in first period we spent the entire class talking about holidays, but I didnt wear any green so that sucks.

I want to go to the library and get a book, its weird to see that typed out so last night at like 11 I was browsing YouTube and there was this channel I started watching and I basically fell into the "hard" science fiction rabbit hole, I love the idea of not just thousands but millions of years from now where earth is long destroyed or maybe just forgotten about and humanity looks and acts completely different, or they've ascended into like godlike beings I remember this really cool piece of art that depicted this it was cool I will send it if I see it again. Im probably describing this terribly anyways this youtube guy is talking about a book series called "remembrance of earths past" which i mean talk about a cool name, its apparently about cosmic horror and stuff I didnt want to get spoiled too much, so I am going there after school, I am excited.

Hmm, yknow whats weird the last weekends I've been seeing friends including hopefully next weekend, it is pretty fun, I'm even planning of having another carty, though I still do want to hang with people more, but this is a good start I think.

I dont like that I can't talk about serious or even semi serious things irl I've been trying to get better at it by talking about serious things with my mom and some friends but if the other person brings up something serious I basically just stop talking or say "wow" and stop talking, like no support or even a "thats terrible" just silence and then it gets awkward and they change the subject, sometimes I even change the subject even though they told me something they probbably haven't told many people, I dont want to its just all subcontious.

I dont like math, I need this spring break, it is the first class I've ever been failing in, my mom thinks I should be outraged and try everything i can to grt it up but I dont really care tbh im just focusing on other classes

Back to the weekend I think Alex and I might go up to skyline which is cool since well skyline is cool i had a friend who talks about how she goes up there it would be funny if we ran into her. Noone else even responded to him so they obvz dont want to go. My main worry is Alex cause he just got his license and dont get me wrong I like him but I dont know if I would trust him to drive, even if he is constantly talking about how good he is at it, but he offered whats the worst that can happen 😢.

Goodbye my bloglings this may be the last time we speak.