#I have so many problems

[pseudopony]

I have an idea for you.

Imagine being an absolute bitch to Dale. Usually, he'll take it on the cheek and give you a smile. Trying to be extra nice to earn your affection back. But what if he's in a particularly bad mood and decides he doesn't want to take your shit today. I have no doubt that man can drop his act and go straight sadistic.

Imagine the interrogation scene, his voice tone change. Oh my God. And now he's being absolutely horrible to you. Giving you a taste of your own medicine while he pushes you to your knees and degrades you <3

OHHHH MY GODDDD...truly only you have the power to make an ask higher quality than the writing itself - thank you ma'am ill give it my all

It was just like all the other times. Well, it looked just like all the other times. Yet again, that little flame in your tongue was firing off daggers towards your sweetheart - and it seemed to be going well, too. He always seems to take it fine enough, despite the obvious repression of the gritting of his teeth, or the tenseness in his jaw. He's rather talented at biting back his temper, especially when it comes to you.

In fact, on most days, your bold claims would almost make him laugh. To him, its more like a chihuahua yipping up at him from the floor below (though admittedly you are more than capable of genuinely wounding him if you catch him at the right moment). But not this time. God knows what's got him set off, wether it was another run in with that sarcastic little shopkeep, or perhaps a disagreement with Ruth, he's definitely not in the mood for your games. However, here come the games nonetheless.

At first, it wouldn't even seem like it was effecting him at all. He'd come off to you as eerily calm - almost a full circle contrast against his usual erratic state. His stare pierces a hole into some random section of floor, pulse unnaturally high compared to its regular idle state. His fingers dig mercilessly into his knees as he listens to your speech, waiting patiently for you to toss him that one final blow. And he knows you will. He's more than aware that eventually, one of your snide remarks will send him over the limit.

However, when it finally does, he has no interest in expressing it to you with words. Even if he did, I doubt he'd find them in any kind of timely manner. Something tells me he's not too great at talking about his problems (no shit). Waiting patiently for you to finally whip your head the other direction and begin to storm off, only to stop you right then and there with an iron grip on your hair. His fingernails press deep into the flesh as soon as he makes contact, a low rasp resonating from his throat and cutting you off just as soon as you begin to protest. "Aww, you don't wanna play anymore?" He doesn't sound all that playful himself. No matter what you say, he's dragging you towards himself until he's got your back pressed in against his chest. One hand maintains its place on your scalp, whilst the other snakes around to grip firmly upon your jaw. His breath is just as shaky as your own has become as he bends down to meet your gaze side to side, mouth mere inches away from the small of your neck. "It's no fair if I don't get a turn too, you know."

I can't imagine it takes much to set him off, really. It'd only take the span of a few months to quickly uncover all those little things that really make him lose it. But when you do finally push those buttons in the order that makes him tick, it's a matter of minutes before he's returning the favor.

[yousaucygirl]

So I watched Ride the Cyclone over the weekend, and OOOOUUUUUUGGGGGHHHH I gotta yap about these characters. (spoiler alerts for people who haven't seen it)

I'll start with Ocean. I feel like almost everyone either knew someone like Ocean or was Ocean. She comes off as overly ambitious, goal oriented, and selfish. And she IS. She starts out as someone you're meant to hate. I mean, she literally sings a song about how she's better than everyone else in the group, even standing on top of them in a human pyramid to show her superiority. But I loved Ocean in the end. Yes, she pressured the others (especially Constance) to vote for her because she wanted to be brought back to life, but she ended up sacrificing a second chance of life in the end. Because Karnak changed the rules, she won the game. Ocean could've easily taken her chance at life, but she realized that she had something she wanted to go back to. They all did except for Jane Doe. As badly as she wanted to live, death taught her to be happy with what she had in the end. She would rather something over nothing.

Noel is an ICON. He's a romantic. In his fantasy, he's a French prostitute in the post-war era. Monique is a tortured woman. She is slapped, thrown to the ground, and her heart is played with until she ends up playing with hearts hearts herself. Noel romanticizes this life. It's shown that he's always had a flair for the dramatic, but Monique is a direct manifestation of Noel's tortured heart. I also LIVE for his friendship with Mischa. Noel could never really fit in, and I don't think he ever wanted to. He mentioned how his mother always wanted him to be more like the other kids, but he's too passionate for that and he knows it.

Mischa is another very interesting character, and not because he's from Ukraine. His adopted parents literally locked him in the basement and only provided basic necessities. It's also clear that he wanted to go back to his home in Ukraine. He understands why his mother had to send him away, but that doesn't mean he didn't miss his home. His desire to go back only got stronger when he was dating Talia long-distance. We only get glimpses into the character's lives, but Talia was Mischa's light. She was the love of his life. Mischa is a genuinely kind person despite his gangster persona, and though he misses Talia, singing her name over and over, is willing to not vote for himself.

Now THE swinging space age bachelor man, Ricky. I think death was the best thing for him. In death, he can speak. He can walk without crutches. All of the effects of his disease are reversed. I only say it's the best thing for him because he most likely thinks the same thing. After his song he takes his name out of consideration for voting. Part of that is because he can't vote for himself and believes that the others are more deserving of a second chance, but he also enjoys the freedom that death gave him. I love you Ricky Potts.

Jane Doe is the most mysterious character of the play and also my personal favorite. She has a lot of funny moments, but everything about her has an undertone of sadness. The others avoid her in the beginning. They don't really view her as a person (Ocean literally refers to her as a super freaky monster). She's a walking existential crisis. She has no memory of her life. Everything about her was gone once she lost her head. To me, the doll head she wears is a representation of what she's longing for. She wants a face of her own. She wants her identity. Until her song, the others avoid her because she's a reminder of what they could have lost in addition to their lives, plus she's creepy (having no head literally took away her balance, so her movements add to the horrifying nature of her character). After her song, the others realize just how much she lost. She knows how she died, but not who she was. The New Birthday Song is one of my favorite scenes in the show. It shows the others reaching out to her. They're trying to console her. Even Ricky lets her have the name Savanah (with the greenest eyes). We find out she's Penny Lamb in the end, but her name is really all we directly learn about her.

Constance is also a deep character. On the outside, she's the nice girl. She loves her friends, family, and has pride in her town. This stuff is true. But she also has a passionate side. She wants a lover and wanted to lose her virginity, which she ended up losing to a carnie. She tried to blend in, hiding her love and the things she was passionate about. She was made to feel ashamed for so much in her life. She was so self-conscious in life, to a point where a lot of viewers could find it relatable. It took death for her to accept that she loved her life, that she loved her family and her town. She misses all of the small things, but she's glad she had them in the first place.

Anyways this is what my brain is fixating on right now.

[lilyflxwers]

me when i get offered something i’ve always wanted: ‘i better turn it down nothing good comes from having good things’

[sufferingtosurvive]

*spits tea

i hate the hesitation; my brain just pulls out the filing cabinet.

wrong place wrong time, brain. fuck.

[sachik0-1]

I'm really really not having a great time.

The more I talk about it, the more it becomes evident for me that I've always been doomed to fail at life.

Or maybe I wasn't?

[ladyshandioftheendless]

After seeing Reina's ending..I just absolutely hate her. She's even more insufferable than I first believed. If there is another game, it'll probably be all about her because Harada can't get off Heihachi's dick.

Also how dare she treat Kazuya that way.

[thescarleteagle]

Are you ever just like, I have no actual skills that will help me survive life. Like, what is having entire musicals memorized going to do for me?

[forestguardianstudios]

I DREW MY BOY AGAIN

BUT NOT ONLY THAT, I REMEMBERED TO DO A TIMELAPSE

Tumblr said it was too powerful of a video to put straight into the post, so I have it here

[wetchickenbreast]

always forget that my religious trauma is like an actual serious thing that i have not completely processed (or like that i haven’t even fully escaped the situation which caused it) instead of just the whole psychosexual obsession with christianity thing i make jokes about on my blog

[writeforfandoms]

Somebody stop me I'm having ideas above my time constraints again

But also

TF141 shifters au anybody???

[yousaucygirl]

Hi, hello, here's my rant about Invisible Snufkin because Moomin has been the only thing on my mind and I have problems.

So I personally see the merit in it, especially after the 2019 series. In the most recent adaptation (which is so GOOD in my opinion), Snufkin seems to ride this line between having his space and straight up isolating himself. My main point of evidence for it is Season 1 episode 2, The Spring Tune. In this episode, Snufkin first acknowledges how alone he feels, and then states that he must be ill. This to me means that he's crossing from that place of solitude into something cold and lonely (same, Snufkin). The dream is probably the biggest point for me, as it straight up explains that he's scared of being forgotten. Throughout the entire series, this personal battle Snufkin has is hinted at. I mean, in The Invisible Child it's quite literally said that he's one of the lost souls during Too-Ticky's talk with Moomintroll (that scene STILL has me screaming). Someone can turn Invisible for a number of reasons. Ninny turned Invisible because she was made to feel that way, but I think if Snufkin were to canonically turn invisible, it'd be because of more personal struggles. I'd honestly love to see it at some point, I can just picture the change in relationship dynamics. If you read my rant, thanks! I just need to get it out because this has been the only thing in my brain.

[geroya]

also??? apparently some dude came through our backyard to knock on our back door last saturday 'looking for the airbnb' & my mom took an entire week to tell me about this. i am fucking PARANOID now !!! so that's fun !!!

[panthersnake83]

"Joy" by Emhahee has been on replay this entire week- idk why I relate so much and I'm scared- lol

[onewomancitadel]

I need it to be known that I'm extremely moderate in my behaviour on this blog. I got so excited noticing the Reverse Ozlem parallel of a hand offering/taking it and running away together that I ran around the house and had to divest myself of my outer layers because I got too hot from being excited. And then I had to call Best Mate because I was too excited to explain it properly through text

[birdy-bat-writes]

My latest hyper-fixation has a hold on me man… the entire last leg of my favorites album is Pedro Pascal or The Last of Us.

WHY IS HE SO ATTRACTIVE???? And so nice??? And why is Joel Miller such a good father????😭😭😭😭😭 save me, I’m in my feelings and I can’t get out. Alexa, play Despacito.

[toastling]

My brain does this thing where it'll actually delete past memories of good times if those good times can't happen again. I don't ask it to do this, don't realize in the moment that it's happening, but if somebody walks out of my life, my memories of them start just. Straight up disappearing. I barely remember more than half a day of random events in past failed relationships.

So far it's served me well. I'm really upset for a moment, but then the forgetting sets in and everything's okay and I'm able to move forward. But I'm learning that these memories aren't entirely deleted. Since reconnecting with my first ex, I've started remembering things my brain had previously deleted.

So really the way my brain works is it just selectively blocks out entire chunks of memory to cope with people who've left me and will never come back and I just think that's neat. Can't suffer forever wishing for what you had when you can't remember having had it in the first place!