#I have no idea how Jonah could fuck it up so badly so web might’ve been slightly involved
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driedlillies · 2 months ago
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Tma AU where Jonah fucked up his ritual when transferring to Elias’ body and still exists but is like. On the backburner unable to control the body. Because he’s a loser. So OG Elias is able to hear everything he thinks but Jonah can’t do anything. And so he learns the evil plan to end the world and immediately decides nope that’s NOT happening.
And since James Wright appointed him as the next Head of the Institute he has full control over everything he destroys every single bit of Jonah’s carefully laid masterplan. And Jonah suffers seeing everything he’s build fall like a house of cards. At the end Elias just goes and kills Jonah — there were concerns that it may also kill him, but he was ready to sacrifice himself — and comes out alive and free from voyeristic georgian men.
Elias establishes something of a truce with Gertrude after explaining the situation and also perhaps maybe telling her that Jonah mentioned one of her assistants is of the Web and what does that mean? Also what are the rituals and why does Jonah keep saying they don’t work unless you— (Gertrude cuts him off before he says it out loud. Walls have ears. You never know who might be listening).
Michael doesn’t die. Neither does Gerry, because after he faints for the third time at the Institute — Elias doesn’t have spooky eldritch eye powers, but he has office gossip, and that’s basically the same thing — Elias personally goes down to the Archives and tells him to go to the fucking doctor dude. Gerry smokes weed with him after a few months and thanks him for potentially saving his life
By the time Gertrude dies, which is post Stranger ritual (not shot by him, but still probably not peacefully, knowing her) Sasha becomes the next Archivist, and her role in the overall world of the Fears — Elias is not an avatar, doesn’t want to be, but has some leftover traits from Jonah’s inhabitance in his body, and knows a lot — is explained before she signs any contract. Also you’re not tied for life, fuck that. There’s a mandatory Entities 101 for every employee, no matter what department they work in; the vast majority of them come here seeking answers for what really ruined their lives, none of them deserve to die because nobody tells them what they’re actually fighting against. Tim — very much alive — goes to the Archives with Sasha, Jon stays in reaserch and eventually becomes Head Researcher. Martin goes to college part time at some point. Life is good
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composereggwrites · 5 years ago
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Love will not break your Heart (but dismiss your Fears)
Chapter 2: just let me go (we'll meet again soon)
Fandom: The Magnus Archives
Rating: T
Characters/Ships: Martin Blackwood/Jonathan Sims, Georgie Barker/Melanie King, Alice “Daisy” Tonner/Basira Hussain, Gerard Keay, Gertrude Robinson
Additional: Reincarnation AU, Soul Bond, Team as Family, Autistic Jon, Post-Canon Fix-it, Childhood Friends, Hurt/Comfort
They stand in the Panopticon, fire raining down from the sky, as the Eye stares down at them.
Jon takes Martin’s hand in his.
A wedding, a death, a fire, and Tim.
Chapter:  1 | 2 (below)
Ao3: 1 | 2
They stand in the Panopticon, fire raining down from the sky, as the Eye stares down at them.
Jon takes Martin’s hand in his.
“Are you sure you want to do this, Martin?” he asks, one last time, because fear has made a home in his heart. A palace in his bones.
“Jon,” Martin says, looking him in the eyes, so full of determination, filled with warmth, with love. “I wouldn’t have it any other way.”
“Sap,” he mutters, but a smile creeps onto his face nonetheless. “We’ve already left the message for the girls, and well… This is really it, isn’t it?”
“Got cold feet?” Martin asks with a laugh.
“Always,” he snorts. “You’ve felt them when we’ve slept. You’re the space heater between the two of us.”
Heart beating in his chest, Jon takes Martin’s hands. The world is crumbling in every direction. A year of this hell has been far too long. Searching, aching for answers, for a way to fix the devastation he has wrought-- no, the devastation Jonah Magnus used him to usher into the world.
Jonah Magnus, who, like the rest of the institute, is no more than a pile of ash at their feet now. Martin had been quite happy to have the honor of setting that blaze.
It’s touching, in a way. Finding the answer on how to set them both free, and Martin chooses to do it for him. No more ash on Jonathan’s hands.
(He’s more than a little fragile, at the end of the world, but he could’ve been the one to do it. The one to bring Magnus to the ground. That he didn’t have to means more than he can express with words. Martin has always been looking out for him, even when he was too much a fool to realize).
The Web’s strings hang heavy in the air around them, coated with the remnants of their old life, of their meeting. But the Mother of Puppets doesn’t have control of all these ties. Jon’s body is linked to everything now, the perfect conduit of fear. The lynch-pin in this hellscape. Take him out, and the rest crumbles. The issue is in managing to kill a near-immortal Archive.
Martin has always been his anchor. He never needed that rib, Jon gets that now. And this is something they can use. Here.
“Martin, I love you,” Jon starts. “You keep me grounded. When I start to fall apart, you hold me together. Even as I dealt with the end of the world rather badly, you drew me back out of my shell. I promise to be at your side forever more, I promise to return the favor. You are not just a caretaker, you deserve to be taken care of, and I will be there for you. I am here, with you, as we stand, united.”
Martin is already tearing up, as his hands shake in Jon’s grasp. “Jon,” he says, with a waver in his voice. “I love you. I know, it was a long time coming. Back when we were both researchers, I thought I could ignore this little crush, because that’s what it was. But you’re so kind, underneath that abrasive exterior. You pretended that nothing could get to you, that you at most tolerated the people around you, but I could see through that.”
He takes a shuddering breath. “I’m with you, until the end of time. I tie myself to you like I’ve done a hundred thousand times before, in less words. In actions. Every step we take together has brought us here, bound to each other at the end of the world, and I wouldn’t do this any other way.”
The strings around them pull taught, smash them together. Jon clings to Martin. Holds him tight as the web holds them tighter. It hurts, the Eye observing this, burning through them as he clings for dear life, but observation just makes it real. The Web tries to resist, but Jon pulls harder, pulls the strings of his own design, and lets them bind.
A thousand stars scream in the sky, but the roar of the still-burning fire is louder. The pounding of his heart in his ears louder still. Or maybe that’s Martin’s. He can’t really tell anymore, as their hearts beat to the same tune, in the same time.
As the pain dies down, he can feel Martin, there in his chest. An ache subdued by his presence at his side. A new hole carved and filled with love, with his anchor.
Jon laughs, hysterical, for just a second. Tears on his cheeks until Martin puts his hands on his shoulders, steadying him.
“Ready for the next step?” Martin asks, worry flooding his voice, and oh, he can feel that in his heart. All the concern for him, bubbling over the edges of the pot. It makes him gasp, legs trembling, and all he can do is grip Martin back. It’s all he can do to not drown in the Tsunami of Martin, the whirlpool with them both at the center.
“Give--Give me a second, yeah?” he whispers. “Don’t tell me when.”
“Oh,” Martin replies, no doubt feeling the outpouring of gratitude. “Yeah, alright.”
They hold each other. Letting the waves of emotion crash down, drowning out the fear, out the pain. Held close together. This is what matters.
Then--
Pain.
Sharp, biting pain. Driven into his chest.
Blood meets his lips as he coughs, his own sharpened rib embedded in his heart, by Martin’s trembling hand.
As Jonathan Sims falls, he holds Martin’s hand, and wishes he could muster the energy to wipe those tears away.
“Don’t worry,” he whispers,  as the door in his mind becomes a vacuum, sucking all the fear out of him, waves of love and safety and peace replacing the frostbite of terror. “We’ll meet again, yeah?”
Martin nods. He sits down by Jon, and kisses him, ignoring the iron taste. Ignoring the poison that he takes from Jon’s mouth.
The fire closes in, and consumes them. But there is no fear. No pain.
The world bends.
 Good cows stand in a field, and no Eye bears down from the sky. No people scream in terror on that day.
Four bodies are found dead in The Magnus Institute, and the world dreams of a year that never happened. A year of fear and pain burying itself deep in their hearts.
A year that will never come to pass.
 And Jonathan Barker-King wakes up.
---
Jonathan has always been an odd child.
Georgie and Melanie knew this when adopting him.
But that doesn’t change the fact that one night, when he’s twelve years old, Melanie can feel him shaking her awake.
She rolls over, facing him. “Mm, what is it?” she murmurs, knowing the shaky hands as someone who is afraid.
Jon’s voice is heavy, edged with static, and Melanie wishes she could see his face, as he says, “There will be fire. We need to leave.”
That gets her out of bed, kicking Georgie awake.
“Mel, what’s wrong?” her wonderful, sleepy wife groans.
“Up up up, now! Phone Basira, tell her we don’t know how much time we all have, but we need to go.” She tries to keep her voice level, urgent but hushed.
It gets Georgie up, at least. Springing to her feet. “I’ll get the emergency bags. Fuck. Alright. Guess it couldn’t last forever.”
Melanie makes sure she’s holding Jon’s hand, as she leads him back to his room, digging out the always-packed travel bag hidden there. Filled with clothes and food and money, and for him, some books he’s shoved into it. “Pack up your laptop and anything else you want that will fit, alright?” she says, soft.
“Got it, mom,” he replies. “Go take care of what you need to. I’ll be out in five minutes. That’s the plan, yeah?”
She nods at him. “Very intelligent, you are.”
And then she dashes, grabbing her own bags and the keys, tossing them all in the trunk of the car. Important documents, keepsakes she knows they wouldn’t be able to bear losing, anything irreplaceable. From the the meowing coming from the back seat, it sounds like Georgie had managed to catch The Admiral and bundle him into the cat carrier, too. The stubborn old cat refused to die of old age or illness, but Desolation’s flames might be enough to do the trick, and none of them would want to risk it.
There’s sounds from the house next door, and that reassures her that Daisy and Basira are up now, no doubt going through the same protocol they’d set in place for just this event. Hopefully it’s a fluke, but they can’t take that chance.
If it’s the past coming back to haunt them, with fire and flames, then they can’t afford to wait.
In ten minutes Georgie is at the wheel, and the car roars to life. Basira is getting the last of the Hussain-Tonner bags in their car, Martin bundled away in the back no doubt.
“Can I say goodbye?” Jon whispers, and Melanie sighs.
“Sorry, kiddo, but we gotta go.” She reaches out, holding his hand between the seats, as they peel out, headed far away.
He’s quiet, solemn. After five minutes of quiet, he sighs. “That’s alright. I’ll see him again, someday.”
“Yeah, no doubt about that,” she whispers back.
The next morning, their houses are on the news, as they watch in their hotel room, a hundred miles away. A fire, a roaring blaze, arson. But no bodies to be found.
“It was Jude, no doubt,” whispers Georgie, while Jon is fast asleep.
She nods. “Guess we tested our luck too long, staying in one place like that. If Jon hadn’t… Known. Then we might’ve been dead by now.”
“I’m worried,” Georgie sighs. “About him, about Martin. They-- We’re right, yeah? They saved the world together, and it involved a soulbond. They were both absolutely miserable before they saw each other that first time.”
Leaning her head on her wife, Melanie says, “Yeah, but… We’ll just have to make do, for now. Keep an eye out on them both. I think it might be a good idea to keep them separate, no contact, otherwise they’ll be sneaking out to the car some day and meeting each other halfway.”
Georgie snorts. “That’s absolutely something this Jon here would do. We’ve really spoiled him, huh?”
“From what I understand, we’ve been parenting just fine,” she says back, a roll of her unseeing eyes. “It’s his grandma who gave him all that childhood trauma last time. And a Leitner, what the fuck? How do you let an eight year old get his hands on one of those?”
That gets a full blown laugh. “Yeah, alright, you’re right. We’ve probably fucked him up somehow, but he’s not nearly as fucked up as when either of us first met him. Man, he needed some intensive therapy.”
---
Tim Stoker looks at the new-hire one time, and after the thought of I’m going to flirt with him so much passes through his head, another pops in of, wait that’d be weird--
Why?
He stares. Jonathan, the name tag reads, and why is that so familiar?
“Welcome aboard the library crew, my man!” He says out loud, giving a casual grin. “What’s a pretty boy such as yourself doing here?”
“You’re quite the flirt, Tim,” he says back with a laugh. “Sorry, not in the market right now. I’m not really… I’m not interested, mostly.”
He holds up his hands. “Hey, all cool, no worries, Jonny-boy.”
That gets a snort. “Call me Jon, nothing like that, please.”
“Got it, boss. Still haven’t answered my question,” he says.
“Oh, well…” Jon takes out a pen from his pocket, and twists it around his fingers, spinning to and fro. “I’m going to be working down in the archives, mostly. Gertrude’s taking me on as an… Well, an intern, I guess? Assistant? It pays decent, and it’s my chosen field, so… It’s a good chance.”
Tim nods. Opportunistic. Not many people get to work with good ole’ Gerty. “She works in the paranormal department yeah? That oughta be fun.”
“Parapsychology, specifically,” he says back. “With a focus currently in the not-apocalypse. Lots of info on that still to be gathered.”
“So you’re interested in spooky stuff, awesome!” Tim laughs. “You gotta tell me all the weird things. We should do a scary movie night sometime together.”
Jon stares at him, as if trying to piece together some mysterious puzzle. With big eyes, intense eyes, meeting his, looking into him, in a way that he hasn’t felt since--since--
A nasty migraine is forming in the back of Tim’s head.
Jon looks away.
“Sure, why not? You're off shift now, though, right? You should get to your class.”
“How did you--?” he starts to ask, but Jon has already descended the stairs into the archives.
 The pain doesn’t go away, as he makes his way through math. It’s all numbers and easy problems. A blur as the teacher speaks, and he can’t focus. There’s something he’s forgetting. A nagging sense at the back of his mind, and he’d ask Sasha, or his roommate Martin for some help, except that seems like a very bad idea right now. He doesn’t know why. But it does.
Crashing onto his bed as soon as he gets back to his dorm is the best idea. Martin will assume he’s been out having fun, and he can sleep this stabbing agony off.
 It almost works, too.
 Fire, fire, so much fire.
Danny--who is Danny?-- Danny dead. The world a mess. Revolving around him in Stranger ways.
Falling apart.
Sasha is Not Sasha. Jonathan Sims is a Monster.
Martin is a stubborn fool.
The world blurs.
Explosions ring in his ears.
 Tim Stoker r e m e m b e r s . . .
 Shooting upright with a gasp, Tim stumbles out of bed. It had only been a few hours, but if anything the migraine has gotten worse.
He runs to the toilet, puking up whatever's in his stomach from that morning. Dizzy as another wave of nausea hits.
“Fuck,” he mutters.
There’s a knock on the door, and Martin -- Martin Blackwood, Martin Hussain-Tonner, fucking Martin -- is there, asking if he’s okay, in that kind way he always has.
“Yeah--” his voice cracks. “Yeah, I’ll be fine. Don’t worry. Just some bad food.”
“Alright,” comes the reply. “Let me know if you need some help.”
“Got it,” he croaks. And then he’s alone.
Sitting on the cold tile, he holds his head in his hands, groaning.
He needs to contact someone.
Who?
Jon--? No. Not Jon, not yet. It was Jon’s presence that did this to him, no doubt, but he didn’t seem to actually know Tim.
Gertrude, maybe?
Fuck it, Gertrude it is. He has her number, she’s his boss, after all.
^Hey, Gerty, I think my head just died. Absolutely exploded with pain. Not coming in tomorrow.^
Not the most formal, but she hasn’t minded before.
^Well, I hope you feel better, Tim. Remember to check in if you’re staying out too long. It’ll be a circus here, otherwise, if we’re understaffed.^
“Fuck,” he hisses out again, because she definitely remembers. And she knows what happened.
^Mind filling me in on how the circus is doing?”
^They’re all in bits and pieces. It was quite the display, or so I hear. I have the tapes, if you want to listen to them.^
Of course she does.
^Sure, I’ll grab them on my next shift, sound good?^
^See you then. Feel better, Tim.^
 He does.
Looking at Sasha now, it’s bizarre. A deep pit in his stomach, knowing he forgot her, believed the Not!Sasha had been her for so long. It doesn’t sit right.
As he makes his way down the steps to the archive, he finds her following. A few feet before the door, he turns to look at her.
“Need to speak to Gertrude too?”
She blinks, crossing her arms. “If I do, it’s none of your business.”
A snort escapes him. “Learning how to be abrasive from our lovely head archivist?” he asks, raising an eyebrow.
“You know, he wasn’t really that bad. I mean, I totally got killed during the worm thing, so whatever you went through, I guess I still need to find out, but… He was trying his best,” she says, nonchalant as she picks at her fingers.
“Did seeing him give you the worst migraine of two lives too, then?”
“Absolutely. I thought I was dying. Turns out I had!”
They both start to laugh. He bumps his shoulder against her. “God I missed ya, Sash. Things went whack without you there.”
“Did the two lovebirds ever manage to work out their problems?” she asks, rolling her eyes.
“Not before I got exploded! Shit got weird. Honestly, you missed a lot of stuff. I--Well I’d fill you in, but whatever tapes Gertrude has will probably do that for me,” Tim says, gesturing back to the door.
“Listening party?” Sasha suggests, as she steps forward to open it.
“Sure, maybe the trauma of listening to our own deaths will be easier with a friend and some good wine. Gotta be at your place though, cuz Martin doesn’t know.” He steps in with her.
Gertrude looks at them, a box set on the empty chair. “Take it, have fun. I believe it’ll do the job enough to fill you in.”
“Thanks Gerty! We’ll get them back to ya’ when we’re done!” Tim says, giving a wave as Sasha scoops up the box. He can feel her hatred of the nickname, but it’s far too late to stop him from using it now.
 They pick up on tape 39, conveniently labeled in order by Gertrude no doubt, for Sasha’s sake.
It’s awful.
She’d been spared the paranoia, the depths Jon had been plunged into.
They stop on tape 50, for the night. It hurts too much to keep going.
---
Jon wakes up from his nightmare.
Shaking, terror coursing through his veins. Memories he can’t remember. He’s not a fool.
Reincarnation was part of what he’d studied, while looking into parapsychology. No conclusive evidence, of course, that’s impossible to get. Almost everything presented as esoteric is false. The most true subjects tend to involve the apocalypse, and even then, it’s not a sure shot.
But they always involve dreams. Dreams of memories. Past lives mean past memories, trying to find their way to the present.
And his dreams have been getting worse.
But that’s ridiculous, right? Utterly ridiculous. He’s being superstitious. Gullible. There’s never been proof of reincarnation adequately presented. To think he had a past life is to give into the folly of the people he criticizes.
(He knows, deep in his soul, that some things are true. He can’t discount everything.
But there’s no need to let this knowledge consume him.)
Jon sighs, sitting up. It wouldn’t do to dwell on this, not when he has a test today that he needs to last-minute cram for.
His phone lights up by his side, though, and he picks it up. Blinking blearily at the screen in confusion before yesterday hits him.
^Hey Jon! Good morning! How are you doing?^
From the contact of Martin!!
A smile spreads over his face, dragging him out of bed and through his morning routine. Food. Toothbrushing. Clothes. Heading out for his class early, instead of almost late for once.
^I’m good, Martin. I have a test today, soon. Going to study for that. How about you?^
The reply comes almost instantly, which drops a small pit in his stomach, because martin’s first text had been two hours before Jon had gotten up.
^I’m good too! Thanks for asking! I’m working on an essay right now, but nothing super important.^
^Well, don’t let me keep you from your work.^ He’d feel bad if he were the reason Martin got a bad grade. It’d be awful.
^Nah, I don’t really need to worry about this class. I’m passing with a 96% right now, and I’m one of the only people who talks in class. Like, during the discussions and all!^
^Teacher’s pet, are you?^
Jon can picture the little laugh Martin does at this, scrunched up nose and crinkled eyes. ^Better than failing, that’s for sure. You’re absolutely someone who sits in the back of the class and does his best to avoid conversation, though, aren’t you?^
He chuckles, smiling. Then he rubs his neck, glancing around as he walks to make sure no one is staring. There’s the usual bustle of people, but no one looking at him. Just leaves falling in the breeze, and the nip of the autumn air. He’s good, so far, but it’d be dangerous to keep this up inside.
(He might not care, because this is Martin. Self-consciousness be damned.)
^Yeah, you’ve got me pinned.^ he says back.
^I hide behind my laptop screen whenever I can, studiously take notes, and never talk to another living soul if I can avoid it.^
^Wow, what a nerd :P^
^Can’t believe my best friend is a nerd :P^
Jon has to take a second to pause, sigh, and roll his eyes, because Martin, please. ^You mean the same friend who would spend hours recounting books he’d read to you in perfect detail? Or the friend who once asked their teacher for more homework because he was bored? That friend?^
^Absolutely.^
^What a shock.^
^I’ve been completely betrayed by your sudden nerdom that has arisen in the past 11 years that I have totally never encountered before.^
That tugs a full-fledged laugh out of Jon, and he has to duck onto a less-used path behind a building to hide for a full minute, because Jonathan Sims does not randomly laugh at his phone in public.
When the coast is clear, he keeps walking, and slips into the building with the ease of someone whose had classes in it for three years already. He navigates to his classroom and takes his (unofficial) seat in the back, pulling out his notes and pretending like he’s studying, not thinking about Martin.
^I feel like I’m not the only nerd in this conversation.” The text sends as a quick reply, and then he follows it up with: ^Also, in class now. Going to study. Chat later?^
^Of course! Let me know when you’re free! See ya :D^
He rubs his face, setting his phone to silent and in his bag, trying to scrub away the blush that must be rising to his cheeks.
Martin is… So Martin.
Over the past decade Jon had wanted so much to reconnect with his old friend. An ache in his chest, screaming until all he knew was the noise, yearning to find him. Fixated on the missing piece until the misery became background radiation in his life, his new normal. Settled deep in his bones. Uncomfortable weight buried in his skin, just enough to fade into his usual, everyday pain. There, but not the focus.
 (Not usually. There were some days, some nights, where the loss of Martin dug its claws in. His body full of hooks and they pulled. As if trying to tug him closer. Back to Martin.
He almost followed it, a few times. Deep in his mind, a haze of the gaping hole, guiding his feet onto an unknown path. But he never went far. Always turned around and walked back home. His moms raised him well, he knows better than to be alone.
College the first year was scary. Terror welling in his throat. New people, new places. Too many unknowns.)
 One small, niggling little voice in Jon’s head, a voice filled with the needles of anxiety, had tried to tell him that Martin wouldn’t be the same. That if they ever reunited, Martin wouldn’t care about him. Or maybe, maybe the years had warped his thoughts, his understanding of who his friend was. An idealized image instead of the real person.
But he also remembers Martin fretting over him when Jon fell ill. Spending the night out of worry, sneaking in through his window to bring him medicine at midnight.
He remembers Martin listening as Jon rambled, and then rambling in turn. Jon knows so much about spiders to this day, because Martin had found a book and read all about it to him.
He remembers the poetry, still scrawled in notebooks and on pieces of paper he refused to throw away. Packed into that bag as from the fire they escaped.
That voice in his head never held any real sway.
But it’s nice to be proven right, for a change.
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