#I have been doing nothing but fucking around with c.ai for months and gotten very little else done

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BELLUM. good morning I am here to ruin everything

... by talking abt villain Elsa and how even tho she feels like she belongs with the League, despite everyone's best efforts she's still TERRIFIED of herself and also feels like she has no real common ground with the others at least for a long time

she hates fighting, she doesn't hate heroes, she would rather starve than shoplift food

she doesn't feel like society failed her, she feels like she failed herself

and she is so far inside that shell of "you're going to hurt everyone without meaning to because you can't control your power" for that first month or two that she has difficulty connecting with anyone else

oh, and add to that the fact that she thinks she killed her sister

villain Elsa is basically Elsa post Hans telling her she killed Anna except she never gets better because she never sees that Anna didn't die, because Elsa is now in a different country and only had Hans' call to go on

she's so depressed and withdrawn from the rest of the League that I'm sure some of them are convinced that she doesn't even want to be there ; she has no bite in combat because she doesn't want to hurt anyone so she holds back, she has no animosity toward heroes because doesn't see it as 'I needed help and they didn't help me', and unlike some of the others, she has IMMENSE guilt about doing something criminal like stealing

but of course, if any of them ask "you're obviously not into the whole villain thing, why are you even here?"

her response is just a tearful "I have nowhere else to go"

and it's like, yeah okay one of us one of us one of us