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chronicbloodynoses · 2 months

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guys i hate snapchat and i made a note abt it and the guy that it was mostly about responded and now i feel baaad

it was “the urge to have everyone on opened (they’re on delivered)” and he responded “fair enough” and i replied back “i just hate snapchat so much 😣😣😣😣”

he’s sweet but i still don’t like our age gap

his birthday came and now it’s officially i’m 16 and he’s 19 and i’m going into junior year and he’s going to college. i just don’t l know how i feel about it and i was told that he doesn’t like it either and he seems so sweet but it’s just idk. he told me he couldn’t come up for the date we had, and then he said that he’d for sure be up here the weekend before, but we have live360 together w a bunch of friends and he never came up so i don’t freaking know how i feel abt him bc i feel lied to but he’s still so sweet and idk i hate who i become when i like someone bc im not a casual person. i am obsessive and he will be my every thought, but i’ve found im fairly good with rejection and i get over it easy? idk, with crushes at least it’s been easy but we never talked like that, like this. i want to just get over him but something is pulling me back to him and i think it’s because he’s the sweetest guy ive ever known and he’s just got this charm to him (what he calls his “uber autism” i think? i don’t even know if he’s actually diagnosed or not but it doesn’t even matter to me. it won’t change how i see him or how i feel about him, that’s independent of a diagnosis. how i feel about myself in relation to a diagnosis is a different thing tho. idk. i’ll yap later i think. i’m conflicted bc yes he’s sweet, but i feel hurt and lied to abt the date stuff, and along w that i mean yeah controversial something in me likes that he’s older but the logical part of me just sees it as weird. like remember that guy. call me carson. and how he got GOT for talking w a 17 y/o as a 19 y/o. and yes, power dynamics were different and yes, their relationship was different BUT STILL?? idk i feel like i like the idea of being with him but i feel like we aren’t gonna be a good match because of how casual he is and how not casual i am. anyway. bye guys. i want to come up with a collective name for anyone that sees this and reads my yap sessions. if you made it this far on the post, comment ideas, like and subscribe (you get it it’s like the description things where it says to comment something or the end of the video where they say if you made it this far blah blah blah yeah) anyway bye bye

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