#I gave up on fighting my six of crows hyperfixation

[catdoingblep]

today I am obsessed with thoughts about Wylan, Marya and Jesper destroying Jan's stuff

Jesper proposed to destroy something that reminds Wylan about his father, and he was thinking that it would be like 3-4 things that they would ruin together to release tension, and then they would do some declutter like normal people do: sell something, throw something out

And then they destroyed a few things of Jan, and Wylan looked so happy after it, all smiling and flushing, and he said that it was really helpful, so Jesper was just glad that he proposed something that actually helped Wylan, who still sometimes moved around the house like he is expecting Jan to enter the room every second

he totally thought about this as about one-time thing, but the next day he woke up to see Wylan sitting on the bed with a scheming face. Then Wylan understood that Jesper was awake and asked: "What do you think about drowning something in the canal tonight?"

"Are we talking about a person? Because I'm pretty sure that Kuwei is in Ravka", joked Jesper, and Wylan hit him with a pillow. "I am talking about those awful figurines from my father’s cabinet"

So they drowned those absolutely tasteless and ridiculously expensive porcelain figurines

And then Wylan asked next week in the middle of the breakfast: "What about some skeet shooting?" and this is how they got rid of the favourite dinner service of Jan

And then, one day, Jesper found himself helping Wylan to take out to the garden table from Jan’s cabinet, and Marya, who is sitting in the garden and having her afternoon tea, just calmly watching her son and his boyfriend setting the table on fire (this is one of the good days when she almost sure that she is remembering everything)

And Wylan came to her and kissed her on the cheek with: "Mom, is everything fine?"

And she smiled into the cup and said: "Yes, fire is very cosy, Wylan. Actually, what do you think about bringing Jan's formal portrait here?"

[lady-vincent]

New Year Writing Tag

Good Morning 2025!!!!! Thank you for tagging me @cinnamontails-ff I've been meaning to go in depth about my writing this past year :)

What's been your biggest learning point this past year?

Perserverance. And how that goes hand in hand with patience. With hyperfixating on things and burning too quickly through all my passion for a project, I am known for starting something in a rush and then just never returning to it. Despite having my ups and downs this year with consistency. I kept coming back to a project, even if it wasn't what I wanted it to be right away. I haven't been able to keep up with myself on those terms since the early days of my writing.

How has your writing developed this past year?

I've been trying to learn the balance between cutting down and expanding on an idea. Getting rid of filler words has tidied up my writing a lot, but because I'm a certified yapper I'm sure I'll continue working on that in the new year. The expansion usually comes into my drafting process when I'm trying to set a scene or connect themes across chapters. (Shout out drafting! You were my enemy for so long, and this year I finally gave you a chance!)

Good writing habits?

Writing things down when I think of them. I'm not perfect at this yet, but I spent many workdays scribbling on scrap pieces of paper and now my life is littered with multi-colored notes. But that's better than my overarching habit of saying "oh, I'll just remember that."

Bad writing habits?

Comparison and self-talk. For as many hours as I spend writing I spent twice as much time beating myself up for it. There are very few cases where a good writing flow and positive feelings about the words on the page actually line up. But the unreasonable standards I hold myself to are a constant lesson I'm having to reteach myself. Perfectionism you win again.

Favorite thing you wrote?

Honestly? Probably my holiday au. I wrote thousands upon thousands of words for my long fic and there are some scenes that I think about constantly. (Shoutout sunset scene you know who you are!) But with how much fun I had switching up to a modern, rom-com style, I fear it has to take the award.

Favorite reads?

I had a very lame published reading year. Again with the not finishing things trope. But "Six of Crows" by Leigh Bardugo was one of my completed reads and I absolutely adored it.

Biggest win?

I think getting past the brain dump stage of writing and actually making headway towards finishing a long work (or even a short one). And even though it seems silly, having my writing read by one of my favorite writers (who tagged me in this no less!! I hope this isn't cringey behavior) has got to be one of my top events of 2024. It's very hard for me to allow people access to my work. Friends, family, people I look up to. I literally fight it tooth and nail, despite having a need for feedback and shared joy. So, this was really something special and I think of it very, very fondly.

Goals for the new year?

Finish something. I want to complete at least one work and hold it in my hands, maybe even learn a little book binding to make it feel real and prove to myself that I can pull through.

Work on my personal novel projects. I really want to have a first draft of a publishable story.

Give myself grace and room to breathe when it comes to critiquing myself.

Your favorite words for the year, aka the words you check each chapter for, making sure you didn't repeat them 788 times?

"perhaps", "eyes", "look", "hand", "given", "quite". There's a lot of Astarion angst words that I had to look out for. "Churning", "broiling", "aching", "burning". A looooot of drama words.

What are you excited for in the new year?

Already being so close to achieving one of my biggest goals. I have a short story on the cusp of completion, and I can't wait to experience that feeling of success.

Working on building a writing community. I haven't had a group of writers around me since my middle school days. I think it would help me feel less like I'm projecting words into the void by having people around who know the ups and downs of this passion.

Tags! Pretty much all of the people I have in my repertoire have already been mentioned, so I'm gonna pass the sword to anyone who sees this and wants a reason to write out their goals and achievements!!! Happy New Year!!

[stray-inu-writes]

Hi! Could I have a BSD match up please? I have short teal dyed hair, grey eyes, I'm 5'1 and a gay trans boy! My signs are gemini sun and rising with a sagittarius moon. I'm entp, 7w8, Ravenclaw, sanguine, have depression and aspd, and am a leader. I like adventuring and singing and I love birds. I'm not afraid to pick a fight with someone and I'm pretty fiercely protective. I can be childish but I give off good vibes as I've been told. 💫 (1)

I tend to make everyone around me feel comfortable and like they've known me forever. I tend to talk a lot and I hyperfix hardcore on things. I have a lot of odd facts, especially about classic authors and crows. I need someone who is patient and can handle my loud and optimistic personality and my need to help others. I've been trying to learn how to say no and stand up for myself and be vocal about the things people do that upset me. 💫 (2) I am a witch and do tarot cards. I also like psychology and can be a bit manipulative. I have a lack of empathy, but I'm still compassionate (i just have a very hard time putting myself in others shoes). I can't deal with someone who wants to sit around all the time. I need to go out and experience what the world has to offer. I know there's a lot of bad in the world but I want to help make a difference in it. I don't feel like I'm a good person, which is why I strive to help people. 💫 (3) I'm also a very personal and loyal lover. I'm kind of loyal to a fault and will stay even if you mistreat me. I'm very affectionate and a little clingy. I show love through showing you things that made me think of you and through physical affection like hand holding. Thank you for this in advance!! 💫 (4) First of all, I wanted to tell that I’m very sorry for the delay, but I had lost a little bit of motivation with matchups after doing so many of them ! But then, well, I thought it wasn’t fair to let these asks sit in my askbox for god knows how long and I gave myself a little push. I match you with… Oda Sakunosuke ! I have this feeling that you would be a lovely couple who probably bonded at first over books and authors. Odasaku is a writer himself so he definitely needs a s/o who is interested in literature. At first, he would find your hair…interesting, to say the least, but he would love the way it makes you stand out among the crowd. After chatting a while, he would feel as if you were an old friend and give you his number. The rest is history. I believe your extroverted nature would force him to focus on something else than his own worries and no doubt that it would be beneficial to him. Oda is a very patient man so he can stay hours listening to whatever you have to say, whether it’s a rant or simply something you recently discovered and wanted to share. He would also do his best to help you with your depression, even though he doesn’t really know how to deal with it so it’s mostly him looking up stuff in books and trying to be a good emotional support. When you tell him about your will to change things for the better and help people, he would obviously try to help you : even though he’s part of the mafia, he doesn’t kill anymore. Plus, you two would share this feeling of not being a good person because of his past, but he would 100% assure you are the best person he knows and tell you that the mere fact of trying to make a good difference says that you aren’t a bad person at all. I don’t think he had much affection in his life so he absolutely wouldn’t mind your clingy side as long as it doesn’t become too invasive. Hand holding is something he enjoys very much, especially he sees it coming thanks to his ability and can take initiative exactly in sync with you. Talking about Flawless… As someone whose Ability is related to the future, Odasaku can’t help but to be curious about the future beyond these six seconds, so if you offer him to draw tarot cards for him, he would accept despite his skepticism. After all, what would he have to lose letting you do this ? Overall, he’s very curious about your witchy side, because he hasn’t seen anything like this before. He would ask a lot of questions, for sure. Here it is ! I hope your enjoyed this quite late matchup, anon !