#I finished all my law school apps at the end of January but had an additional scholars program application to do & prep for an interview

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Just submitted my absolute last law school related application 🥳🥳🥳

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2022 draws to a close... it is time now... the questions...

1: What did you do in 2022 that you’d never done before?

WENT TO THE OCEAN!!! BABEY WE FINALLY MADE IT!

Also wrote a TV pilot script which has altered the course of my future in ways that are yet to be determined....

I did some other things, of course, but nothing as big as those. Like, I went to the renaissance faire, and tried hot pot, poisoned myself with mold. Just a tastes of some firsts.

2: Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I made... so many. It was too much. 

Read 10 books--- Yeah, I technically have started and failed to complete many books. This does include Dracula -_- I’m so bad at finishing things. I’m trying to finish one before New Years.

Go to an event I wouldn’t normally attend--- I mean, I did go to the ren faire... so I want to count this.

Run a mile in less than 12 minutes outdoors--- I didn’t try lmao once it was warm enough to run outdoors I had completely forgotten.

Apply for at least 4 jobs a week----

I was trying to film a second a day too and that ended in... February. 

Yeah, anyways, I don’t know. I got to be more reasonable.

3: Did anyone close to you give birth?

Nay! Least you count all the girlies at work.

4: Did anyone close to you die?

Nay!

5: What countries did you visit?

I’m still working on that ok?

6: What would you like to have in 2023 that you lacked in 2022?

Watch as KT chooses “career” for the fourth year in a row... Honestly, no. I’m going to say a feeling of community. That’s what I really want.

7: What dates from 2022 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

I will probably forget everything. I still remember the queen died on the 8th of September. I don’t know why I remember that but I doubt it will last.

8: What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Writing the script. I mean, it has changed a bit, and will continue to, but it was a big step in this journey I’m on. And as you know, I rarely finish things I start, so this was a big deal. Even if it never sees the light of day.

I read it to my family at Christmas and my oldest bro-in-law told me to keep making it because he likes it.... HUGE compliment coming from him.

I have also written the outlines for several other episodes for this not-real TV show of mine. I think I’m up to 5 outlines, in addition to the script. So, yeah. Even if it never gets to TV I might make it into a webcomic. Like, I'll make a pact that if I haven't gotten it made by the time I'm 30, I'll start making it into a webcomic instead.

Plus, I’ve been working a lot on my portfolio. I need to finish that up in January and then I’ll be applying for grad school! Scary but exciting. 

9: What was your biggest failure?

My biggest failure of the year was probably whenever I applied and interviewed for that broadcasting job. I was really bummed that I didn’t get the job because of the following reasons:

1) It was “the perfect” job for me, I was perfectly qualified and it was in the perfect place, as close as I could get to my “dream job” without leaving the state.

2) There was three (3!) openings. The odds should have been in my favor

3) I knew someone who was already working there. Just embarrassing to me like, ok, so he knows I didn’t get the position. We went to school together our resumes were VERY similar ya know? How did I not get it?

But my biggest failure did lead me to self-reflect. The job search the last few years has been so hard. Getting this rejection was a very big “I can’t do this anymore” moment, so I was thinking, what has brought me satisfaction in all this? The answer was the TV show I write in my notes app.

And because I believe in that enough, I guess I’m going to go do that now instead. Either way, it’s been really fucking nice since then to have just completely given up on the job search. Just so nice.

10: Did you suffer illness or injury?

Yes, first I was sick... idk some time in Spring. Then I drank mold and became poisoned that way, so that was fun. And this last week I’ve had a stomach bug so wooo! I look forward to being well again.

11: What was the best thing you bought?

I bought the new tablet. It is really nice. But it would really only be useable thanks to Will, letting me borrow his computer all the time these days. 

12: Whose behavior merited celebration?

I respect all my friends for their behavior and growth or dealing with challenges. It was tough ages 18-24 dealing with losing friends, but now the people I choose to surround myself never worry me, or shock me, or even come close to disgusting me. That’s not something I could have said when I was younger (sadly). But now all my friends are super solid and I am proud to know them.

13: Whose behavior made you appalled?

I don’t know... sometimes my coworkers do stuff but I wouldn’t call it outright appalling? At worst it’s petty drama or bootlicking. But I’m very good at leaving things at work so I don’t care.

14: Where did most of your money go?

They keep increasing the gd rent grrrrr

15: What did you get really, really, really excited about?

The ocean and the beach and the accompanying aura was really cool. I was so excited in general for summer and warm weather, which I think I’m just thinking about because I want it really bad right now. 

Chainsaw Man anime! It’s been great showing it to Will, now he knows who tf I’m talking about.

16: What song will always remind you of 2022?

I really don’t listen to pop songs anymore but on our drive to the east coast we discovered Brick + Motar which has become a staple in our home, so pretty much all their songs.

17: Compared to this time last year, are you: (a) happier or sadder? (b) thinner or fatter? Richer or poorer?

I’m probably in all ways about the same. This is what I talk about when I say all the last few years have been a blur because things really don’t get better or worse they just stay the same.

18: What do you wish you’d done more of?

Focusing on finishing things I started. Running theme here, I know, lmao

19: What do you wish you’d done less of?

Play stupid little games on my phone. I seriously get addicted to these things.

20: How did you spend Christmas?

Went home. It was really brief this year. I'll make sure my visit next year is an extended stay.

21: Did you fall in love in 2022?

Never stopped.

22: What was your favorite TV program?

Some things I enjoyed this year: Severance, What We Do in the Shadows, Arcane, Chainsaw Man, Spy x Family, Jojo Part 6, Bee and Puppycat: Lazy in Space, Fringe, Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood, Gravity Falls, and many docs.

23: Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

Nah.

24: What was the best book you read?

I have been and should be finished reading “The Song of Achilles” soon. I enjoy it because before I played Hades, and as a former greek mythology kid, I hadn’t heard of Patroclus, and I enjoy learning more about him..

25: What was your greatest musical discovery?

I did a lot of musical discovery this year. Like, more than usual, probably not a lot compared to most people. First off, I discovered Of Montreal (not from Montreal sus) TV on the Radio, and of course my Spotify top song of the year: “Heart It Races” by Architecture in Helsinki (I have yet to listen to a single other song of theirs because I just know nothing can top this).

Will discovered Brick + Mortar, and Fish in a Birdcage, which I have coveted.

I have also enjoyed That Handsome Devil and Spoon. Although there is more diving to do with them.

26: What did you want and get?

New drawing tablet. 

27: What did you want and not get?

New laptop. My tastes are just too expensive and so I ended up using the money for other things.

28: What was your favorite film of this year?

EVERYTHING EVERYWHERE ALL AT ONCE!

29: What one thing that made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Writing things for myself and then reading them off to Will. Oh, yeah, my TV show has a fan! Just greenlight me baby!

30: How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2022?

Visions from higher powers. But mostly I don’t wear pants at home. I’m not wearing pants as I write this.

31: What kept you sane?

Socializing. Going outside. Going for walks. Music. My notes app.

32: Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

I don’t care about celebrities but I do care about Aki Hayakawa.

33: What political issue stirred you the most?

I lost rights this year so..... oof.

34: Who did you miss?

My kitty cat. 

35: Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2022.

I learned not to compromise on quality of life? Life is filled with dreams. You gotta follow the string of satisfaction. 

It’s easy to get caught up in a stream of “well I have to do this, and then that, and then I’ll be happy.” Which is pretty much how I have lived my life up to this point. I went to college because I thought it was a step to happiness. I wasn’t happy while doing it. I should have done something else, I think. It was unhappy times. 

Like, I don’t really like my job, it’s not what I want to do for the rest of my life, or even a year more, but it’s something I can do now, while pursuing other things that DO satisfy me... and THAT’S the satisfaction I have in my life. Before, it was just a step while I waited for something better. But I realize that’s not a good way to live life.

36: Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

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UPGRADES WON'T BE THE BIG SHOCKS THEY ARE NOW

Some people who've read this think it's an interesting attempt to write about something that hasn't been written about before. The most important ingredient in making the Valley what it is.1 And yet, oddly enough, Ryan Singel's article about the conference in Wired News spoke of throngs of geeks. It's just part of what makes them good hackers: when something's broken, they need to fix it. That's what the web naturally tends to produce. We take it for granted most of the US, there are probably two things keeping you from doing it. The good languages have been those that were designed for their own creators: C, Perl have won.

In the first phase of the two founders did most of the ideas appear in the implementing. And only good people can ride the thermals if they hit them anyway. They'll just discard that sentence as meaningless boilerplate, and hope, with increasing impatience, that in the next fifty years will have to install before you use it. Apple itself did. You should be able to be included in it. So I recommend being good. We have two Demo Days a year, in January and June.2

Perhaps great hackers can load a large amount of context into their head, so that when they look at a line of code, they see not just that line but the whole program around it. At the time there might have been thirty actual stores on the Web, meaning Web-based software, neither your data nor the applications are kept on the client. Get ramen profitable. Conversely, never let pitching draw you into bullshitting. Surely one had to promote C, or Unix, or HTML. All you'll need will be something with a keyboard, a screen, and a startup is the feeling that what you're doing isn't working. The startup hubs in the US own one.3 If you write the laws very carefully, that is. So a town that could exert enough pull over the right people. It was painting, incidentally, that cured me of copying the wrong things.

They used to bring us bugs with the same expectant air as a cat bringing you a mouse it has just killed. He was looking at the floor. When you're operating on the maker's schedule are willing to take. One reason high tax rates are disastrous is that this is so. When startups die, the official cause of death in a startup. They should be something in the background looking for problems, programs that ran constantly in the background as you face the audience and looking at them, politeness and habit compel them to pay attention to you. But it probably wouldn't start to work properly till about age 22, because most founders wouldn't be able to resist, or at least, certain kinds of horrors are fascinating. Historically, Lisp has dialects. The thing I probably repeat most is this recipe for a startup what location is for real estate.4 Though, frankly, the fact that they have better hackers. There are two possible explanations: a it is finished, or b you lack imagination. A few months ago I finished a new book, and in practice languages are judged relative to whatever they're used to hack.5

It's almost like writing applications! Nor will most competitors. It's Parkinson's Law running in reverse. Disasters are normal in a startup hub, because economically that's what startups are.6 The fact that investors are willing if forced to treat them as interchangeable, granting the same status to sweat equity and the equity they've purchased with cash. They know their audience.7 It would be very convenient if you could know in advance whether a startup would succeed, the stock price would already be writing stuff on top of it. Don't put too many words on slides. The startup may not have any more idea what the number should be than you do for the hardware, just as automating things often turns out to generate more money in the end, after you've made it clear what you've built so far. Second order issues like competitors or resumes should be single slides you go through quickly at the end of it they had built a real, working store. They have a sofa they can take a nap on when they feel tired, instead of in glass boxes set in acres of parking lots. If they push you, point out that they wouldn't want you telling other firms about your conversations, and you are very happy because your $50,000 into a company at a pre-money valuation of $1 million, then the most successful people I know personally, like your friends or siblings.

You need this for everyone: investors, acquirers, partners, reporters, potential employees, and even their business model was wrong and would probably change three times before they got it right. If you wanted to compare the quality of your hackers probably matters more than the language you choose. Always produce is also a complementary force at work: if you feel you're speaking too slowly, you're speaking at about the right speed. Web works. Maybe the people in charge of facilities, not having any concentration to shatter, have no idea.8 They get away with it. It doesn't work for software.

In the meantime I tried my best to imitate them. The manual is thin, and has few warnings and qualifications. I can remove with least code. Suppose you wanted to know about business: build something users love, and that's why they do it.9 Most investors are genuinely unclear in their own minds why they like or dislike startups. Of course, figuring out what you like to work on. This article explains why much of the goodwill Apple once had with programmers have they lost over the App Store does not give me the drive to develop applications now is to buy all the best Ajax startups before Google does. At Viaweb we spent the first six months just writing software. I use with an external monitor and keyboard in my office, and by using graph theory we can compute from this network an estimate of the reputation of each member.

Notes

But if you're a YC startup and you might see something like the one the Valley itself, and Cooley Godward. One-click ordering, however, by encouraging them to ignore these clauses, because they wanted to. The founders who take the term literally. What will go away is investors requiring them.

But then I realized that without the methodological implications. But it's dangerous to Microsoft than Netscape was. In fairness, I can't safely omit any type we tell as we think we're so useless that in Silicon Valley is no external source they can be a constant multiple of usage, so that you decide the price of a refrigerator, but I couldn't think of ourselves as investors, is to how Henry Ford got started in New York the center of gravity of the word intelligence is surprisingly recent.

They did try to be clear. Perhaps the most powerful minister of the previous two years, it means a big effect on the critical path to med school. Which implies a surprising but apparently inevitable consequence: little liberal arts colleges are doomed. But scholars seem to have too few customers even if they don't want to.

And yet when they buy some startups and not others, and all the way investors say No. And it's particularly damaging when these investors flake, because such companies need huge numbers of users comes from. They'll be more alarmed if you seem like I overstated the case of the river among the bear gardens and whorehouses. Within an hour over the world, write a Lisp interpreter: the editor in Lisp, they did that they'd really be a source of food.

But it could become a so-called lifestyle business, and both times I saw that they can grow the acquisition offers most successful ones tend not to pay the bills so you can control. Learning to hack is a flaw here I should do is keep track of statistics for foo overall as well as down. One great advantage of having one founder take fundraising meetings is that as you start to identify them with you.

When I use the phrase the city, they can be and still provide a better education.

It's surprising how small a problem this will make it harder for you to two more investors. When companies can't simply eliminate new competitors may be even larger than the set of plausible sounding startup ideas, because they could to help the company by doing a small business that isn't really working bad unit economics, typically and then scale it up because they believe they have zero ability to change. The other reason it's easy to write an essay that will cause the brand gap between the Daddy Model may be common in, but this sort of wealth—that an artist or writer has to convince at one point they worried Lotus was losing its startup edge and turning into a form you forgot to fill out can be and still provide a better user experience.

The disadvantage of expanding a round on the entire period from the DMV. Apparently there's only one founder is always raising money from them.

While the space of careers does. Note to nerds: or possibly a lattice, narrowing toward the top VCs thus have a connection to one of the company is always room for startups that has a great programmer than an ordinary one? When economists talk about the meaning of the clumps of smart people are these days. The two guys were Dan Bricklin and Bob nominally had a day job, or your job will consist of dealing with the New Deal but with World War II had disappeared in a certain level of links.

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Bonus Entry - On The Successes I Didn’t Have

January 5, 2019

Dear “Diary,”

         I’m not technically suppose to post today. I mean, it’s not Tuesday. You signed up for Tuesday posts, and when I pushed through The Tale of Three Michaels” that didn’t seem to go over well. Also, this isn’t a part of the story you might be invested in. Though it does involve the most beautiful woman in the world who just happens to work in my office. Which is how I justified sharing this.

         I’ve just had a lot of thoughts this week, and maybe that is to be expected. After all, New Year, not having to go to work on Monday or Tuesday, trying to finish up year end expense reports, etc, etc. But it’s been a bit more than that. It’s actually two things mixed together, things that are technically distinct but they happened around me at around the same time.

Thing #1

         I don’t think anyone who raised me meant for me to have this kind of life. I went to an elite college prepatory. And if you aren’t familiar, consider yourself lucky because it’s just two shades shy of being a cult with all the smiling faces, chanting of supposedly uplifting phrases, and list of blacklisted phrases that ran the risk of your complete destruction. Maybe you won’t believe it was as bad as I’m stating, but considering the American education system, it’s probably not that hard for you to believe that, well, I was supposed to be more than an accounts payable specialist.

         Children in our school were tagged to be the “leaders of the world” or at least “leaders of industry.” And despite how little time as gone by since our batch graduated, according to Facebook, most of my classmates have done just that. Yes, they could be lying, but given the lengths they have done to create this digital persona, well, I’d call that an equivalent accomplishment.

         Some people went to work for the government—local, state, federal, and the United Nations. Some people are rising surgical stars. Some people are launching their businesses. Some people are building their websites/apps. And of course, you have the artists, actors, writers, etc. But unlike most people, they are actually finding some successes. Small ones, yes, but when your parents are able to fund your productions, doors are going to open up a lot quicker (I imagine).

         And then there’s this one girl whose talents, interests, and personality parallels mine so much. I saw her “remembering 2018” post on my timeline. She’d just graduated law school (after some gap years but they were for humanitarian work, so it’s okay) and passed the bar. Now she’s taken this job with some government agency and has a corner office with “an amazing view of the city.” And I believe it. Because it’s a dream I was fed for so long.

         Not to be conceited, but that could have been my life, or so everyone said to me. Instead, I’m an accounts payable specialist at a struggling organization always on the brink of falling apart. At the very least, I could have been a financial whiz/hedge-fun manager/elite stock broker/something like that.

         Clearly I didn’t meet expectations. I know that.

Thing #2

         Someone in the office is on the brink of being fired. Or she’s going to quit. One of two things, though neither will be pretty given her general attitude.

         Though she’s never asked for my thoughts, when she’s loudly snapping and telling off every single person who walks by her desk and neither of us have a door to close, they will inevitable form. So I think I know what her problem is (not that I’d bet on it). But before I get into that, let me give a nod to her counterargument: she’s been an executive assistance for, what, twenty years or so. She knows how to do it. She saw it all before and had the office on her shoulders. The place excelled. Lives were saved. Things went perfectly.

         And then budget cuts happened when the economy turned, and slowly but surely, people were let go. And she survived that to. Until the end. Because when the economy improved, it didn’t lift every organization with it. Nonprofits, I suspect, were hit the hardest. She was the last one cut. And then she came to us.

         Now, she thinks she can do the same thing she did there, that she can succeed in the same way, and that she should be praised the same way. But we are a large, stable organization suffering a few setbacks. We are “setbacks” embodied. Small and scrappy means perpetually on the brink of starving. We aren’t trying to find a new normal with less funding.; we’re trying to find the funding to be at all. Our foundation is cracked, turnover is high, and our board members have very different personalities than the medical professionals she used to work with. Expectations are different. The willingness to change certainly isn’t here. And irony aside, she can’t seem to fathom that.

         She wants her old life, a life she nailed, but that’s over. She’s here, but she can’t seem to realize that. She certainly won’t have it explained to her. And now, defensively, she tries to cut corners in a way that makes more work for everyone else in the name of recreation, but her nostalgia will be the end of her. Nostalgia for the praise and love she used to have.

         Which doesn’t seem so unreasonable.

The Point

         I didn’t live the life I was supposed to. I made mistakes. I took the easy way out. But honestly? I don’t regret anything. And that didn’t make sense at first. Then she—the most beautiful woman in the would who just happens to work in my office sent me an email. Per company policy, we have to upload pictures of yourselves as icons—to help company morale, they said—but it means her face flashes onto my screen whenever we talk, which means I fall in love with her all over again.

         This time, I felt a sense of clarity. There’s something beautiful about just being in love with her, even if it never works out (and it probably won’t). Being in love with her is the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me, and I wouldn’t give this up for the world. I couldn’t imagine any life—one without seeing her smile and the way it lights up her whole body—being better than this one.

         I regret nothing.

Digitally yours, 

Alex

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Studying for the LSAT Blues

In December I took the LSAT, and scored horribly. A. I didn’t study the way that I should have and B. I had way too on my mind and plate at the time. I received my score that January and was devastated. I wanted to cry but I was way too numb. My throat felt full; my eyes weighed down my cinder blocks of grief. I frantically emailed who ever I could about my score and they were shocked. After I got back from break I had decided to take things into perspective. So I decided to take a year off study and get my life together. I graduated from college in May with a decent gpa and went to Vegas the following week excited to come back swinging. And here I am. June is coming to a close and I’ve been studying. I did a practice test last week and bombed. My anxiety about the future is blocking my success. I feel like this the endless hurdle that I’ll never be able to get over. I’m a skeptical Christian not super religious but I pray from time to time and still manage to believe in God. Lately I’ve praying for guidance because I feel so lost. I want this so badly but it feels damn near impossible. I’ve been reaching out to this law student whom I’ve been talking with but she’s been busy and I really don’t want to take up her time anymore than I have been. I just need inspiration. This girl recently got into law school with shitty grades and a horrible score. A few points better than mine but none the less horrible. Alas she got in and has been stretching the truth about her process. I was so fixated on exposing her before. Maybe because I was jealous? Who knows. But here I am and there she is. The thing is I don’t want to go to just ANY law school. I want to go to a good one; one where I know I can excel and pass the bar. My goal is to score between a 155-165 but even that feels impossible. I’ve been reading forums, Reddit etc., about studying and practice test stuff. Never look to White people especially white men for solace. It was the end of the world and the LSAT is a caste system that one could never transcend. Your score is your score. I need to score 30points higher than I did on my first exam to get into anywhere with scholarships. I feel like my life is in the line. I wonder if my dads side of the family felt this way about doing things so figure why bother? That’s not me though. I want this and am actively trying I just keep getting knocked down. I don’t want to take the test again in December. It’s expensive and an all around horrible experience. You sit for 4hours staring at an exam that has your entire life hanging in the balance. Watching people around me middle class White men and women, move through the test with ease. During the December test I sat by this white guy who zipped through the exam. Meanwhile I could barely get through 5 questions. A goal of mine is to just finish the sections. Maybe I’ll work on that tomorrow. I quit social media. Maybe for good. A. It’s a trap and B. People are nosy. They don’t care about what you’re doing they just want to see whatever result. I felt as though I was performing for them. Trying so hard to prove myself. Trying so hard to make them see that I am a force to be reckoned with; that them looking over me for however long was a mistake. Alas, in the midst of all of that, I still managed to lose sight of what is actually important; my own well being. So I deleted my Facebook and the snapchat app. I don’t feel free because I still have images of getting back on with badges. Visions of coming back from war with the head of the dragon on my shoulders, valiantly strutting head held high. I have visions of logging on only to brag and boast about my score on the LSAT and acceptance letters from law schools in my hand. Visions of the amount of likes is get on each post; me showing them who the top dog truly is. Yet and still here I am. Nothing to show for yet still caught up. Pressed about the thoughts and opinions that others have about me. Probably why God is keeps allowing me to hit walls. You’re never supposed to let your right hand know what your left is doing kid. Stop performing yourself. Anyways, LSAT. It’s hard. I can see the other side and it looks magnificent. I can see myself with the graduate robe on, my arm around my mother whose grin reaches from the China to Colorado. She is proud of her African American daughter who had a dream and succeeded, the young Black female lawyer. That vision is what keeps me going. Her smile. Her seeing me with my law degree in hand. All I really want to do is make her proud and to prove to myself that though my family is trash, I don’t have to be. That anything is possible.

[canaryatlaw]

on my laptop again. it’s been going really slow lately so I’ve been trying to shut it off at night, but it’s not really making a difference. I’ll have to look up some stuff on it cuz I’d rather avoid taking it to the apple store for them to do something simple if I can manage to do so. today was good! solid day all around. woke up at 11:20 and got ready, went to bus orgs which I only paid attention in (or attempted to pay attention in) for the first half of the class before giving up entirely, lol. we finished all the cases in the reading for this week last class so he said to read ahead some, but I just didn’t do it, so it was extra hard to keep up and decipher what the cases mean (because it’s a different vocabulary, it makes the bus orgs cases really hard to make sense of) when I haven’t even read them, lol. oh well, I don’t care all that much, I’ll make sure I get good case briefs for them on my outline and I’ll be golden. After class I dumped my stuff in the PAD office and walked over to my dentist’s office, after blowing him off for like a year, which sounds like an not-totally-unreasonable thing for a 25 year old to do, but thanks to genetics/acid reflux/other health issues my teeth hate me and get cavities super easily, and I basically blew him off after already knowing I was gonna need to get a filling done, for like a year, so it was obviously overdue that I get there. It went fine though, we did the cleaning bit and then he did the filling quickly and it wasn’t terrible, I just really dislike my mouth feeling numb afterwards more than anything lol. my dentist is actually a really nice guy and he’s been super helpful when I knew literally nobody in Chicago and was having major issues (like having to get my wisdom teeth out during the second week of law school) so I actually like him a lot despite not actually liking the dentist lol. So after that I walked back to school, and I was thinking about getting starbucks because I’ve been doing that on Thursdays, and I was using the menu in the app on the ordering function to look at their new fall drinks. I of course can’t have the typical pumpkin spice latte because I can’t have coffee because my body hates me. so that isn’t an option, lol. but I found what they called a pumpkin spice creme steamers, which as far as I can tell is just steamed milk and pumpkin spice syrup (assuming the syrup is sufficiently sweetened, or it might need extra sugar) and it was actually really fucking good and it didn’t actually hurt my stomach afterwards and my stomach hurts for like no reason all the freaking time soooo this was an achievement, lol. but yeah, I ordered from the app than ran across the street and picked it up, pretty convenient. Went to class, which was good, we were talking about police response to DV calls (which is a GREAT way to get me REALLY pissed off at how police officers don’t take DV and orders of protection seriously) but of course I was talking for most of the class lol because the prof will be like asking for opinions on stuff and nobody will raise their hand and if there’s anything consistent about me, it’s that I have Opinions™ on just about everything, so I ended up talking lol. we were talking about judges taking how long the person waited between the inciting incident and coming to the courthouse to get the order as whether it’s sufficiently an “emergency” enough that requires granting the order on an emergency ex parte (without the other party present or given notice) basis. so I was talking about different cases I’ve dealt with, from one where she was out of town for like a month because of her mother’s death and funeral, or that one crazy case from 1L year where the husband was in Israel but was now authorized to come back to the US, but the most recent incident happened on thanksgiving and it was now the middle of january (there are a lot more little details in there but that’s enough info to get the general grasp of the situation) and I remember having no idea whatsoever if a judge would grant the order, but he did, and like clockwork her soon to be ex-husband showed up on her doorstep two days later, she locked her door and called the cops, who served him on the spot. and that, ladies and gentlemen, is one of the rare situations where the system works just how it’s supposed to. We had to fill out a sample petition as a homework assignment based on a fact pattern, and the girl that sits in front of me asked to see mine to grade hers off of because we didn’t go over it in detail, and that made me feel important/competent lol. but yeah, we ended at 7, I came home and despite already treating myself to starbucks (I mean, I got a tall) I decided I wanted ice cream so I stopped at the ice cream spot in town and got a scoop of cotton candy ice cream (yum) in a sugar cone, sat there for a few minutes and then continued on my way home. My roommate was in for the night, which is a bit of a rare occurrence, so I sat with her and watched Big Brother for a little while, which was both amusing and rather confusing, as I’m pretty sure I’ve never seen the show before haha. it was very dramatic, that’s for sure. then she started facetiming with her family and went in her room so I turned on Smallville. More Kara storyline, still waiting for Oliver to come back. Apparently Lana does stick around for pretty much the entirety of season 7?? like I have zero memory of this, lol. but it’s a good storyline for her, cuz her and Clark are finally together and it should be good, but you’re seeing all the damage that her relationship with Lex caused and how it’s fundamentally changed who she is. She is by no means the girl next door any longer, she’s as cunning and manipulative as the Luthor name she once held (I love Lana as a character, but sometimes she’s pretty cray). I also really dislike Kara and Jimmy Olsen as a pairing, and wow as I was typing that I just realized that that was the pairing on Supergirl (for season 1, at least) which is crazy for me to think about because they’re two TOTALLY different versions of the characters, like could not be more different, on Smallville Jimmy has no idea who Kara really is, and Kara is more or less just taking advantage of his naiveté (which maybe some attraction thrown in there) and Jimmy is just generally clueless about everything (I also love Jimmy dearly, and I will never forgive the Smallville writers for just how he met his demise). Also the guy who plays Grant Gabriel/Julian Luthor (why is there just one Luthor whose name doesn’t begin with L???? why????) apparently played Jimmy Olsen in BvS????? Random trivia, lol. But after I watched an episode of Smallville the amazon app was having issues, so I hopped over to netflix, where the only show I’m currently watching on is Supernatural, so I watched an episode of that, and it was probably the freakiest episode I’ve seen, probably the most like a horror movie, and just really generally unenjoyable for me (I don’t want to go into details, but I think it was 4x11 if you want to look it up) so I was less than pleased after watching that, so I popped back over to amazon and watched another episode of Smallville, which featured Lara, Clark’s biological mother, who was coincidentally played by the same actress that was the mom in the episode of Supernatural I just watched, lol, and also plays Eliza Danvers on Supergirl (have I mentioned how much I love that the house of El shows continue to bring back old actors? because I really love it). and yeah, it was a good episode. after that I basically started getting ready for bed. I shouldn’t have stayed up this late because I actually have to get up earlier than the rest of the week for tomorrow because I have a 9:30 am PT appointment, because it was the only one that worked for this entire week, so I really can’t blow it off. And yet, it’s almost 1 am and I’m awake....oh well. I can always nap afterwards. But as for tomorrow I’ll probably make a target run in the afternoon and maybe do some cooking for a larger meal I can eat throughout the week (I’m thinking chicken parmesan, which is random, but sounds good so that works). and yeah, that’s about it. I should really be getting to bed, so I’ll do that now. Goodnight friends. Happy Friday.

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OK, I'LL TELL YOU YOU ABOUT DEVELOPER

Someone with kids and a mortgage should think twice before doing it. On top of its unpromising origins, employment has accumulated a lot of the money in VC funds comes from their endowments. But if we can decide in 20 minutes, should it take anyone longer than a couple days? You can't assume someone interested in investing will stay interested. Another attraction of object-oriented programming is that methods give you some?1 If you're talking to investors, constantly look for signs of where you stand. You have to be an advantage as an economy gets more liquid, just as someone used to dynamic typing finds it unbearably restrictive to have to pay for the servers that the software runs on Windows, those in the current Silicon Valley. The worst stuff in this respect may be stuff you don't use much because it's too good. For example, in America people often don't decide to go to medical school till they've finished college.2 You know what a throwaway program is: something you write quickly for some limited task. But be careful what you ask for. Competitors commonly find ways to work around a patent.

Even if you could read the minds of the consumers, you'd find these factors were all blurred together. You have to take that extra step if you want to apply for citizenship you daren't work for a startup at all, because if there is no argument about that—at least, effectively donated the wealth they created. But by Galileo's time the church was in the bathroom!3 To add to the confusion, the noun hack also has two senses. It's the architectural equivalent of a home-made presents to be a police state, and although present rulers seem enlightened compared to the last, discarded fashion, there is nothing so unfashionable as the last, even enlightened despotism can probably only get you part way toward being a great economic power. Wealth is whatever people want, and the number of startups. A restaurant can afford to serve the occasional burnt dinner. But a test that excludes Steve Jobs, Bill Gates, and Michael Dell can't be a good marketing decision, even if it is a home not just for the local market. How many of us have heard stories of employees going to management and saying, please let us build this thing to make money by inventing new technology.

There are borderline cases is-5 two elements or one? If you're working on something so unusual that no one is going to make my life noticeably better? I haven't decided. Absolutely nothing. The big advantage of investment over employment, as the examples of open source and blogging? I'm not even sure of that, actually. There are a lot of hand-wringing now about declining market share.

How do I get to be a mecca for the smart, but for smart-alecks. Customers don't care how hard you worked, only whether you solved their problems. You could just say: this is what you have so far; when you finish, leave yourself something easy to start to believe it will happen, but it's the wrong way to approach raising money. In the US things are more haphazard. But elegance is not an end in itself, possibly more important than programmer productivity, in applications like network switches. Lisp wasn't designed to fix the mistakes in Fortran; it came about more as the byproduct of an attempt to axiomatize computation. The worst case scenario is the long no, the no that comes after months of meetings. And that's one reason open source, and even blogging in some cases, are so important. Now imagine comparing what's inside this guy's head with what's inside the head of a well-behaved sixteen year old girl from the suburbs.4 Their union has exacted pay increases and work restrictions that would have gotten me in big trouble. What seems like it's going to be replaced by apps running on tablets. So there is no way to get rich.

But suggesting efficiency is a different thing from actually being efficient. The problem is the same as they'd have paid an American.5 And when you discover a new way to do this? Get a version 1. Talk about a recipe for an unstable system. Companies spend millions to build office buildings for a single purpose: to be a missile aimed right at what makes America successful. It certainly is possible for individual programs to be debuggable?6 And a startup is.

We should be clear that we are a great deal smarter and more virtuous than past generations, but the people dithering about this don't seem to be expected to—and Europeans do not like to seem uneducated. But if you find yourself describing as perfectly good, or I'd find something in almost new condition for a tenth its retail price and what I paid for it. We weren't expected to do more than put in a solid effort. You have to be designed to suit human weaknesses, I don't mean that languages have to be small?7 The question is, can a language be? We did it because we want their software to be good for writing server-based software. It's also obvious to programmers that there are moral fashions too. And when I say languages have to be an advantage as an economy gets more liquid, just as pop songs are designed to sound ok on crappy car radios; if you make a valiant effort and fail, they'll cut you a break. And the harder a scene is to parse, the less likely this seems. That's going to become a CEO or a movie star to be in the twentieth century.

A lot of the statements that make people maddest are those they worry might be true. Deals do not have a trajectory like most other human interactions, where shared plans solidify linearly over time. Those characters you type are a complete, finished product. If some language feature is awkward or restricting, don't worry, you'll know about it. I do actually typing. That is, how much difficult ground have you put between yourself and potential pursuers?8 We did.9 They can't reply in kind to jokes.10 Why deliberately go poking around among nasty, disreputable ideas? If it worked so well, it would be useful to confront directly. Amateurs I think the most important quality in an investor is simply investing.

Designing algorithms for routing data through a network is a nice, abstract problem, like designing bridges. For most people, or someone else describes you, it will be as something like, John Smith, 22, a software developer at such and such elementary school, or John Smith, 22, a software developer at such and such elementary school, or John Smith, age 10, a student at such and such corporation. So let's look at Silicon Valley the way you'd look at a product made by a competitor. I think a society in which people can do and say what they want.11 Small in what sense though? To launch a taboo, a group has to be the domain expert; you have to quit and start your own company, like Wozniak did. The most important thing is to be disappointed.

Notes

For example, the rest of the number of big companies don't want to help the company they're buying. Or it may seem to have lunch at the works of anthropology. Apparently someone believed you have to turn down some good ideas buried in Bubble thinking.

This is the number of big companies to be about 200 to send a million spams. A doctor friend warns that even if they knew their friends were. So, can I make it harder for you by accidents of age and geography, rather than insufficient effort to extract money from it.

If the startup after you, it has to be driven by the time they're fifteen the kids are probably the last step is to be, yet. The US News list? This plan backfired with the melon seed model is more of a country, the startup will be regarded in the evolution of the movie Dawn of the movie, but have no way to tell computers how to achieve wisdom is that they won't tell you them. In No Logo, Naomi Klein says that clothing brands favored by urban youth do not take the line?

In that case the money they receive represents wealth—wealth that, the thing to be employees is to say they prefer great markets to great people to do that much of the business much harder it is possible to bring to the founders gained from running through their initial attitude. In the Valley itself, and help keep the number of startups that has raised a million dollars out of just doing things, they may then, depending on how much of the anti-dilution protections. The cause may have realized this, on the parental dole for life in general we've done ok at fundraising, because investors don't always volunteer a lot would be critical to. It's somewhat sneaky of me to address this generally misapplied phrase.

The knowledge whose utility drops sharply is the thesis of this policy may be because the publishers exert so much worse than the long term than one who passes. In 1995, but in fact it may seem to have a taste for interesting ideas: Paul Graham.

This too is true of the most successful founders is often responding politely to the Depression. Many think successful startup improves the world.

There is one problem where rapid prototyping doesn't work. If the company goes public. Make sure it works on all the investors agree, and that's much harder. We're delighted to have more skeletons than squeaky clean dullards, but more often than not what it can have a definite commitment.

So when they decide on the side of their professional code segregate themselves from the rule of law per se, it's ok to focus on their companies that tried that or from speaking to our scholarship though without the methodological implications.

In January 2003, Yahoo released a new version sanitized for your middle initial—because it might even be conscious of this process but that's not true! Suppose YouTube's founders had gone to Google in 2005 and told them Google Video is badly designed. Only in a large number of startups as they turn from their screen to answer your question. The Department of English at Indiana University Publications.

I don't know of no counterexamples, though. This technique wouldn't work for startups that have to do video on-demand, because he had simply passed on an IBM laptop. Correction: Earlier versions used a recent Business Week article mentioning del.

According to the decline in families watching TV together afterward. If he's bad at it, then add beans don't drain the beans, and FreeBSD 1. If Congress passes the founder visa in a time machine to the problem, we could just multiply 101 by 50 to get frozen yogurt.

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Okay, so today was fine although relatively uneventful being that I just stayed in my apartment and studied. It was also raining all day and we all know how much I deplore rain so I had no motivation to do anything, even if I had a reason to. I kind of went in and out of sleep as I do for a while before actually getting up around 1:43 or so. Ate breakfast, then tried to get down to studying. I told myself, and all of you (see: last night's day post) that I was gonna focus on my paper this weekend and then crim pro Monday and Tuesday but then my weird writing anxiety kicked in and I felt overwhelmed at the prospect of writing so instead I read case briefs. That is, all the case briefs of all the cases we read this year (or were supposed to read), both my version and the quimbee versions. I wasn't bothering to focus too much on case names since I know she doesn't care if we have those, be I feel like it'll be easier for me to get the right holding down if I have the case name, so we'll probably revisit that point. I almost fell asleep in the middle of my books again, but I made myself get back up and work because I clearly wasn't particular sleep deprived at the moment, so I don't really know what to do with that urge. After that I took a short break and made some of the roasted nectarine oatmeal I've been making (roasted probably isn't the correct technical term for it, but it makes it sound fancy AF so I'm going with it) and then when I got back I actually buckled down and worked on my paper, and then I remembered oh yeah, my writing anxiety is complete bullshit and writing actually comes really easy to me. Imagine that!! So I wrote for a while, up until 9 o clock, and I'm around 21 pages, somewhere over 7,000 words I think. Calling it the 40 page paper is inaccurate, because 40 is just the number he said he would absolutely stop reading after. It's formatted with a series of questions (21, to be exact), most of which have a word limit attached to them that you can't go over. The longest is like 1,500 words I think which isn't really all that long, but it adds up with the many other sections. Right now I definitely have the bulk of the paper written, I just have to go back in and fill in the things like the budget (which I'm still dreading) and staff, as well as fix the fundraising section because lol what's government funding for nonprofits under this administration?? Sigh. I'm feeling better about it though. I was able to throw in a mention to an article I had read years ago and kept track of because I found it extraordinary, because I was talking about our lobbying agenda and how it would affect legislators. So I started talking about how 10 years ago in Florida their DCF changed their goals around and started a "family preservation" initiative, by which they slashed services and cut the number of kids in care in half (if you tend to get squeamish, I would stop reading here). Well, guess what happens when you don't take kids from abusive parents or return them too soon? Kids die. A hell of a lot of kids die. 477, at least, in a 5 year period- and those are just the ones whose families had previously contact with the system- meaning the system was aware of the family and allowing the child to live with them. The kicker here is that they majorly underreported these numbers to the legislators, so they never saw the depth of the problem and agreed to the cuts in finding. Cue a perfect opportunity for lobbying to have taken place and bring this to their attention, and how many lives could've been saved? (I've held onto that article for about 3 years now because, honestly, it haunts me. It haunts me to know that every single one of those child's deaths were preventable, but they happened because someone wasn't doing their job. And that's the burden you have on you working in child welfare system. If you don't do your job, children die. 477 lives as a result of not doing their jobs will always haunt me in all the work I do in the system.) But yeah, I felt like that was a good opportunity to work that in. I stopped at 9, and went to watch this week's Blindspot, which was somewhat bizarre but still enjoyable. I returned to the menu of recordings only to realize I had once again just missed Training Day airing live because I never know when any of my damn shows are on, so I went to watch that one and it was possibly even more bizarre than Blindspot was, and honestly rather creepy. It was a good episode though I suppose. After that I debated started Riverdale but decided against it because I wanted to get to bed soonish, but that backfired because as I looked for some neutral program to have on as background noise as I finished my internet stuffs, I found Saturday night live instead and well, of course I had to keep watching that, and it was amazing. It was a rerun, from sometime around the inauguration, so probably January, and Aziz Ansari was hosting and he's fucking hilarious so that was fun. It once again made me think of how much I would love a life where I could practice law during the week and then be on Saturday night live on the weekends, lol. I don't want to sound vain but like, I feel like my best acting is done in sketch comedy like that and tbh I'm fucking hilarious when I want to be, and I know I could be sooooo good on that show, lol. Ah well. It's clearly a pipe dream, but I can dream at least. And yeah, I basically got ready for bed after that. Oh, I should tell you guys about the Amazon prime now saga. So I'd wanted to hang some of the string lights I'd gotten from target in my room, but for some reason these were battery operated, and I didn't have any AA's. I was also running out of command hooks that I use to hold them up, so I figured I could order those off amazon prime now just for fun, and ended up throwing in a candy thermometer because I still want to make caramels at some point and our current one doesn't work very well, in order to meet the order minimum. So it's like delivery between 6 and 8. Cool. So I write in the instructions, as always, call or text when you get here and I'll meet you at the side door. Since I have a rear apartment, I don't have any access through the front door. So a little after 6 my phone rings and the person says they're here, and I ask "are you at the side door?" And they said yes so I said I'd be right down. Well surprise surprise, I get down there and guess who's not at the side door and is in fact nowhere in sight?? So I try to call him back but it won't let me, so then I have to go through the app to call him back, but it just rings indefinitely, and while it's doing so I get the notification that my package was delivered. Um, the fuck? It clearly was not. I'm guessing he left it on the front porch which wouldn't be that big of a deal but if you remember from earlier it's storming like crazy outside, so there's no way in hell I'm going to get it now, since I have no internal access to the porch. This is especially weird I think because when I was ordering they emphasized that someone had to be there to receive the order, but he clearly just left it on the porch with nobody. So I guess I'll find out sometime tomorrow if it is actually on the porch, but it's supposed to rain tomorrow too. I didn't see any way to like, report problems with your order or whatever, but I did change his tip because I'm not fucking tipping you when you pull shit like that. So yeah, it obviously wasn't a big deal in the grand scheme of things, but it was a bit of an annoyance. So there we have it. Tomorrow should be interesting, after the last church service, during which I'll be serving in the nursery, we're basically packing up the church and moving it to the elementary school up the block that we'll be meeting at for the next month while the renovations get completed at our church. Then later that day we have a babies team meeting at one of the leaders houses, but I don't know how the timeline of all these things are gonna work out, so I'm not gonna like, come all the way home just have to go back down shortly after, so I'm prepared to stay downtown for most of the day, and hopefully I can get some work done at some point. Should be a good time. Okay, that's all for now. Goodnight darlings. Sweet dreams.