#I feel like most Atinys stopped following me now anyways

[maximura]

No offence but if you are blessed and privileged enough to see Ateez live (or any kpop group) and you’re complaining about how bad your seats are? I just want to remind you that there are wars in some countries, Kim.

[autieofthevalley]

I need to rant about that because i don't know how to feel about it, honestly. So here's the context first :

So i'm on an ateez fandom discord like an actual one (i won't tell the one because it's not really important and i'm not feeling safe enough from them to tell the name BUT i digress) and like okay so there's minors on that discord, minors AND adults, so of course, the speaking about sex with ateez is an absolute no, and i absolutely understand that. I mean, as a literal nsfw blog, i also have rules, and i block any minor/ageless blog that interacts with my content.

There's a few people that sexualise ateez on that discord, which i'm against ONLY because there's minors present. Now, most of the people on that discord + staff are absolutely against "sexualising" ateez in general, not only on Discord.

People on one of the principal chats of the server said things like "gotta stop this we are in 2024" and "they're humans like us, just stop".

Apparently, someone had said of Ateez on the discord, "i want them to run me over" (i get it. It's on a discord with minors, but honestly???) and people are shocked and disgusted (like bffr)

It's because of people so strict like that even outside a discord that we (and i talk about me, my mutuals and the people that follow me), are finding our safe space on Tumblr because it's pretty much the only platform in general (apart from some +18 ateez discord servers) where we can say freely what we want to do. It's almost like they're infantilized at that point with those people, please, they're grown ass men who literally make their concert like a magic mike show, and also the same people who make sexual songs almost every comeback, at least one per album, and who put themselves almost naked sometimes on purpose!! The same people who post parts of their body that they know Atiny ADORE just because of fanservice!! And they definitely know of the smuts and fanfics atp... Bffr!!!

Another thing, those people were talking about the thing with the cameramen during the concert who zooms a few times on the guys crotch, and some of them were saying things like "that's embarrassing" and like "the cameraman should not do that". Someone even said, "Maybe they did the concert like that because of the fanservice, but if they force them to do that, it's a problem." Babes, listen to me, knowing ateez at that point, i'm pretty sure they would have asked seriously the staff and cameraman to stop zooming on them crotches.

People should stop being shocked and sensitive about what others say about Ateez. At least we are not writing very explicit things to them directly. I keep my thoughts safe from them because i'll never know how they'll react, and idk them personally. But like, almost slutshaming people about a group that is literally sex freaks atp (for fanservice mostly i think, but pretty sure they're really horny like most of humans) is not okay at all Just leave us alone, i'm never going to say to the actual group my slut thoughts about them anyway (i would be clinically and mentally more than insane for that and by the way, on that same discord i speak about, the warning note about sexualisation of the members said "Ateez are not objects, and are not to be sexualised" and also a thing who says as a resume that the guys would be shocked and hurt if they learned about being sexualised, bitch please 🙄)

[ateezthings]

ATEEZ Reaction: Taking pics of their S/O

Anon said: “Hiiii :)) Can you please do a reaction of ateez when theyre trying to take pics of their s/o but she gets all shy and nervous so they hype her up OOFFFF SO CUTE :33 Thank you!🥰🥰”

This request is so cute, so I had to do it 😊

Kept it genderneutral 😊

Fluffy fluff

 Also here are some songs that convey the mood I was going for:

Lizzo – Juice

Seeed – Hale-bopp (for my fellow german atinys)

Recent Rumors - Boulangerie

Muna – I know a place

Marteen – Left to right

 Seonghwa

- You two were originally on an ice cream date in the city when Seonghwa randomly started snapping pics of you

 “Seonghwa stop, I look awkward”

 “I’m sorry what? I can’t hear you over this model look right now”

- This cringy comment made you laugh

- And that’s when Seonghwa could take the most natural pics of you

- You bet your sweet ass he’s using your pics as his phone background for the next 572 weeks

Hongjoong

(still shocked, how hongjoong isn’t considered a visual, do you see this fine man, his features... argh...)

 “Ok now I wanna take some pics of you”

 “But I’m not photo-ready Joong”

 “What do you mean? Your face is here, I have a camera, we are photo-ready”

- So he did his thing

- Every now and then he directed you a bit, followed by praising you for being “so pretty he might die”

- You also enjoyed him having so much fun with his camera

- In the end he rewarded you with lots of kisses

Yunho

- There is nothing this man can’t do, so obviously he’s also the best at being your own personal hype man

- You were walking home from grocery shopping

 “Sweetie hold this broccoli for a second”

 “Excuse you?”

- But he was already in his element, crouching down, taking pics of you with the broccoli in your hand

- When you didn’t seem to know how to pose, he tried making the whole thing more ridiculous to make you feel comfortable

 “You look like the best model in the world, now straighten out your leg a little… yeeeees that’s it, you’re the best broccoli model, look at you, Gigi Hadid is shaking in her boots!”

Yeosang

(he continues to personally attack me and i think he should be punished)

- Him being the definition of beauty, you were a little intimidated when he suggested you went out for some pictures

- There were many good opportunities but you never felt comfortable in front of the camera until Yeosang hyped you up

 “Wahhh, you’re so pretty, where did you get that face?”

- Thankfully he gave you some flowers to hold so you wouldn’t have awkward hands

 “I’m also quite awkward whenever I have to do photoshoots with the boys, you know? But I always try to be my own hype man, thinking that I’m the hottest and  “Yeah but that’s different yeo, you actually are gorgeous”

 “No, I won’t let you talk like that, have you seen yourself? You’re beautiful”

- He showed you the pics he took of you and you kind of started to see it, you looked quite good actually

San

- He is loud

- Obviously, he wouldn’t hold back when praising you for your model skills

 “Woah, holy, look at you, baby, omg, are you even real”

- More approving exclamations came from his mouth

- After a while you were kinda over it, so you wanted to mess with him a little

- You started biting your lip a little, messing up your hair

- You walked closer to san, seductively

- Your gaze clearly meant business

- He quickly forgot about the pictures when you kissed him passionately

Mingi

(been thinking about him a lot and I’m really happy that he’s getting some time off to focus on recovery, we love kq for that)

- You were cuddling on the bed

- Because he wanted to remember the moment, he snapped a few pics

- You demanded he show you the results

 “No Mingi, delete that, I look really stupid”

 “What? Have you seen you? Your face is so beautiful, pls let me keep them”

- Of course, he pouted

- Which you couldn’t resist

- Maybe you didn’t look so bad in the pics anyway

Wooyoung

(idk why but he looks extra cuddly to me here)

- A random rooftop cafe, somewhere in Seoul

- The sun started to set, so Wooyoung shoved his phone camera in your face

 “Woo, I’m eating right now”

 “I know but you look extra cute with your full cheekies”

- You weren’t having it, so you wrestled Wooyoung for the phone

- The results were a few blurry pics that were actually quite cinematic and moody

 “look at how photogenic you are babe, even when you get physical you still look good”

 “Woo, I thought we already established that last night” wink wink

Jongho

(his smile lights up my whole world you don’t understand)

 “You look really fancy today, baby, I like your coat “

 “Thanks, Jong”

 “Actually, can you stand in front of that wall really quick?”

 “Where should I look?”

 “At me of course”

- Looking at him actually made your eyes bigger and brought a smile to your face

- Perfect for his pics

[sector-i-closed]

Context

Requested by anon "nerd!hongjoong smut please and he's a switch 💖💖💖 thanks" I hope you like this anonnie

Also thank you all for 2k followers milestone I thank you all for following me! 💖

Tagging @mirror-juliet @atiny-piratequeen @atinybrew @yunderland @kissmecaptain @toppklassik @beankeeper37 many thanks to all of you for inspiring me

Warning: Smut, choking, overstimulation and outdoors sex and still no cut

The library was nearly empty as you watched quietly with a broad smile spreading across your face as your secret crush dozed at the table where his book sat open midway through its multiple pages.

Kim Hongjoong looked adorable to you and secretly you wished that he knew how you felt about him, though your reputation as the heartbreaker at school kept you from reaching out to him.

He was considered a nerd at school and most of the nerds would steer clear of you, even though there were times when you would see Hongjoong unwittingly looking in your direction in the school hallway as if there was something that he desired to say but then his eyes would shift to something unreadable and you took it to be as amusement of you thinking that you could even have a chance of being someone to him.

This afternoon you made up your mind that you would watch your crush as he slept which was a rare thing to witness you felt, though you had a sad feeling that you would never get to watch him sleep in your arms but you could still dream.

Abruptly your heart dropped to your stomach when your crush began to rouse from his unintentional nap and it was too late to move away and pretend that you were only meandering about the library. Your breathing became irregular as his spectacled deep brown orbs settled on your lingering form, a quizzical look reflecting in his eyes.

"Y/N? Why are you standing here at my table?" Hongjoong eyed you with a suspicious aura surrounding him, an air of disbelief coloring his voice.

The sound of your name falling from his lips prompted a bright, effervescent sensation to bubble through your veins and settle in your stomach, gripping you with a wild surge of adrenaline at the simple use of your name.

"I was watching you sleep." You smiled, watching the male frown at your words.

"I- I wasn't asleep!" Hongjoong's cheeks flushed a bright shade of vibrant crimson which in turn caused you to smile at his unintentional adorableness.

"I'm not blind, Joongie." You chuckled, stepping up to him and tousling with his hair in an annoying manner.

"You must be when you can't even see what's in front of you." He groaned quietly, attempting to resume reading his still open book.

"What do you mean?" You quirked an eyebrow, wondering if you were looking into things too much.

"What context were you thinking in?" Hongjoong gave a vague smirk as he pushed his glasses up the bridge of his, appearing far more smug than you remembered him ever looking.

"What context was I intended to think in?" You asked, glancing down and smirking slightly as you noticed the male discreetly stroking himself or he had thought he was being discreet.

"Whichever context you choose. You are free to have your own interpretation of any given subject." He glanced up at the clock on the wall before smiling at you warmly, "So you decided that keeping me company is more enjoyable then studying for the project, hm?"

"Well you wouldn't be wrong." You smile, maintaining confidence even though butterflies were wrecking havoc on your stomach.

"Would you like to hang out with me at the park after you're finished researching?" The question slipped past your lips before you even processed the question mentally.

"I would love to. If you're sure that you want to." His voice sent tingles resonating throughout your bloodstream.

"Of course I want to." You gave him a reassuring smile and watched him stand stiffly as he collected his book to return to it's designated shelf.

A brief glimpse at the crotch of his pants caused you to grin but you averted your eyes, though you were unaware of the redness tinting the male's cheeks because he knew of your roaming eyes.

~~~~

"So what made you want to come out here with me?" Hongjoong eyed you with glimmers of suspicion residing in his dark brown eyes, his handsome face was a sight that consistently caused you to lose your breath and you could scarcely believe your luck in sitting next to your crush on the park bench, sitting in the shade while listening to the birds chatter softly while a warm gentle breeze blew, kissing your skin and mussing Hongjoong's hair.

"I never had the chance to be around you much so I thought it would be a good opportunity for that now." You shrug and smile softly.

"I've seen you look at me a lot but never could tell for certain what you thought about me." You boldly place your hand over the top of his hand, testing his reaction and judging weather or not you were being too forward with your actions.

Hongjoong didn't seem to mind the physical contact and even seemed to welcome it despite his fingers trembling slightly beneath your touch.

"I liked the way you kneed that guy that time." Hongjoong chuckled at your bewildered expression, shock replacing the serene feeling that you were experiencing seconds earlier as you had a flashback of the time when you thought that you were alone on the school grounds and one of the meanest, disrespectful bullies at school had jumped you.

You had dodged the bloke's punches effectively since the fellow was uber confident and landed a knee right in his balls that caused a scream of excruciation to erupt from his lips. In spite of the ruckus no one ever came to check on the noise and you thought no one knew of the incident, though little did you know that Hongjoong was silently watching you as he sat alone.

"I thought no one knew of that..." You felt a flush of embarrassment cover your cheeks and you couldn't stop the surge of excitement that bubbled in your chest.

"So it really did happen?" Hongjoong smiled with a vague undertone of slyness coloring his expression as he tilted his head in faux curiosity.

"You're so annoying." You huffed, frustration replacing the excitement that you felt prior.

"It must have happened-" Hongjoong was cut off by your lips crashing into his, finding a way to shush him as you caressed his lips with your own pout.

A sweet, unexpected feeling of hot lust circulated through your blood and to your surprise your crush seemed to be unconsciously encouraging you to continue the kiss.

"I've always wanted to know what your lips would feel like." Hongjoong mumbled against your lips before cupping the back of your head and drawing you in closer to deepen the heated kisses.

You purposely bit his lip, coaxing an unbelievably sweet whine from his mouth that sent chills down your spine.

"D-do you want to...?" You stammered breathlessly, pressing kisses down his neck and suckling a red marking at his collarbone. Hongjoong surprised you yet again by pulling away from you, sending you into a panic that led you to believe that he was rejecting you.

Your mouth opened to speak but no words came out as the male took your hand and led you away from the park bench where occasionally a person would probably gawk at the two of you.

Your crush promptly led you to a secluded part of the park that you were unaware of and you were pretty certain that other people were unaware of this area as well. Slowly you assessed the brush and the vegetation that surrounded you and in turn you felt a sense of safety with Hongjoong.

"Tell me to stop if you don't want me to do something, okay?" Hongjoong breathlessly pressed you against the trunk of a nearby tree and promptly attacked you with kisses to your neck that made your entire body tingle in anticipation.

"Y-yes..." You were taken by surprise by the male's boldness and was effectively disarmed by the caresses and the bites to the neck that made your knees weak.

A loud, choked sob of pleasure broke the silence of the park, the vulnerable sound being followed by several loud whimpers that begged him to do something to you, anything to relieve the intense ache that throbbed deep inside.

"Please..." You breathed, feeling yourself collapsing and was gradually lowered to the ground while Hongjoong hovered over your body, peering past his glasses and looking into your eyes in wonderment of being able to take you apart so easily.

"Please I need you, Joongie..." Your pitiful whines becoming muffled by Hongjoong's mouth capturing yours in a passionate kiss.

"How cute, the little badass is begging me now." He purred in a seductive tone that made your hair stand on end all across your body. Heat was prominent in your stomach and you felt like you were swimming in desire as you lied still in the grass beneath Hongjoong.

"I am begging you, I want your cock inside of me." You whined softly, grinding your sex against his crotch to make your point clear.

"Are you sure of this? I don't have a-"

"I'm sure. I'm on contraception anyway and I want this, I want you." You eagerly speak up while frantically unbuttoning his shirt, exposing his skin so that you could freely run your hands across his warm flesh.

A low groan rumbled in his throat as you touched his skin with light, ethereal touches, his pupils dilated upon hearing you saying that you wanted him and his demeanor seemed to shift before your eyes.

"Strip Y/N, so I can see your beautiful body along with your face." Quickly you did as you were told, stripping down and exposing your skin to the light wind that kissed your skin.

"So exquisite." Hongjoong's gaze raked across your body, drinking in every curve of your body and adoring your shape. In turn the male made fast work of ridding himself of his garments and promptly inserted himself between your legs.

A choked moan escaped your lips at the thought of his cock being merely inches from your heat, which was yearning for him to fill you with anything that he had.

"Mm please..." You shuddered, feeling him press kisses across your collarbone while the tip of his cock slipped between your folds, massaging your clit in circular motions that teased you to the point of being unable to hold back any longer.

"I'm f-fuck!! Ah ah~" You whined as the unexpected orgasm came over you. Your entire body shook beneath Hongjoong as the waves or your orgasm subsided, sheepishly you looked up at him and shrank back in response to the cocky smirk that accented the amused look in his eyes.

"That felt good didn't it baby? You couldn't wait to feel my cock inside of you before cumming could you?" Hongjoong smirked devilishly as the head of his cock dipped down to your entrance, slowly dragging against your slick hole in a teasing movement that made your eyes roll back in your head and a whine of lust to be vocalized.

"Imagine how hard you'll come when I fuck you with my cock." He chuckled as he pushed himself inside of your heat, his girth stretching your hole to accommodate him completely.

Already you were writhing beneath him as you already sensed your second orgasm approaching and he hadn't even began to stimulate you yet.

"About to come again so soon?" Hongjoong smirked, feeling your walls flutter around his length and clench as he began to thrust into you deeply.

"Oh god y-yes..." You moaned and shivered beneath him, scarcely able to believe that your crush was actually fucking your sopping wet heat.

"You sound so pretty. I never thought a badass girl could sound so vulnerable." He growled, thrusting into your sex harder and you could only cling to him.

His hand traced your neck, touching your Adam's apple tenderly as a sudden sharp intake of breath shook your being.

"F-fuck J-joongie please, please ch-choke me..." You sobbed out, feeling your second orgasm almost washing over you.

Hongjoong peered at you curiously and smiled at you slyly, his fingers wrapping firmly around your throat and cutting off your airflow as your second orgasm overwhelmed you, leaving you choking for air as weightless bliss came over your senses.

Hongjoong released inside of you with a broken moan, the sight of his fingers around your neck adding to your pleasure being more than he could endure and his sloppy thrusts finally came to a stop.

"You did well, precious." He kissed your lips gently and lied down beside you in the grass.

You hummed in contentment as you moved, pulling his length from your body while you changed your position, desiring for something more.

You rested your weight on your knees as you brought your face down to his softening length. A soft whine left his lips as your tongue licked across his tip, collecting the salty taste of his cum mingled with your juices on your tongue.

"Mmm s-sensitive..." He moaned out, his voice urging goosebumps to arise on your skin.

"Y/N..." Hongjoong whimpered, his cock twitching in response to the sensation of your tongue caressing the smooth, velvety skin of his cock seductively.

Slowly you eased your mouth down, taking his length into the warmth your mouth and sucking hard. You glanced at Hongjoong and almost choked on his member, the way he watched you intently with his fucked out face made your body yearn for him all over again but this time you wanted to taste him and feel his cum filling your mouth.

He mewled and reached for your head, entangling his fingers in your hair and digging his nails into your scalp.

"F-feels so good but I can't- I can't s-stop..." Hongjoong tugged at your hair, throwing his head back and moaning out loud in a pitiful cry that encouraged you to bob your head at a pleasurable rhythm that produced even more pleasant sounds from him.

You added suction to the mix, feeling his length twitch in your mouth, followed by his breathing becoming even more irregular in pants that were a struggle for him to inhale.

"Y/N... I'm gonna c-cum..." Hongjoong's voice came in a strained whisper that morphed into a moan of intense pleasure as he came inside of your mouth, filling your cavern with ribbons of release that slid down your throat.

You moaned in pleasure as you helped him ride out his second climax, the sound of his cries raised the hair on the back of your neck as you pulled off of him and went to him to cuddle.

"Are you okay baby?" You asked softly, pulling him against your bare chest to cradle tenderly. "Yeah I feel fine with you." Hongjoong smiled, kissing your messy cheek in adoration.

"I still want to know what context you were speaking of earlier." You giggled, snuggling into his warm and bonding with him.

"I think you already know what context I was speaking of, baby."

[hongism]

okay hi. so. first of all this incredible and stunning banner was made by the talented and lovely @hobiance​! the banner at the bottom was made by the equally talented and lovely thot @franklytae​, and i’m so so grateful to both of them for helping me out with this and am really touched to have their creations on this post. now. it is absolutely unreal that i am making this post. it’s crazy to see how my blog and i have grown in the past year and a half, and im so grateful for every single one of you who follows me, whether you are an active follower or not. also this is absolutely insane because in just six months you all have made my following nearly quadruple and that’s absolutely bonkers on so many levels. while 2020 has been tumultuous for us all, i cannot argue the fact that it has been my best year on tumblr so far. 

i have been able to meet so many fantastic people, grow friendships, grow my skills as a writer, gain confidence, and i have found friendships that are so treasured and valuable in so many ways. i’m really so so grateful for this platform and for the opportunity to share my work here with you all.

i really don’t know how to verbalize how i’m feeling because on one hand, followers are just a number and it’s unimportant in the long run. on the other hand i truly am grateful for every single one off you and i want you to know how grateful i am. but i really don’t want this to be about me because i really wouldn’t be on tumblr still without the people i’ve met along the way. through tumblr i have found lifelong friends who are beautiful inside and out and i will never stop being grateful to know them and walk this path alongside them. it’s truly a blessing and i feel so so lucky to get to know them. cue the ridiculously long tags of people whom i love and cherish so so much. i apologize in advance because no matter how many times i stare at this post and try to remember and get every single person who is valuable to me, i know i will inevitable forget someone so i am very very sorry if i miss anyone.

*•.¸♡ ✧ 𝓂𝓊𝓉𝓊𝒶𝓁𝓈 ✧ ♡¸.•*

@hobicomeholla29 @thatmultifandomhoe @yoongi-sugaglider @strawbxxymilk @meowxyoong @blondenamjin​ @dee-ehn​ @a-tiny-8iny​ @atiny-dazzlinglight​ @atiny-piratequeen​ @atiny-wooyoung​ @kesmonster​ @theredcarat​ @enchantedyeo​ @seonghwabrainworms​ @jintobean​ @jinterlude​ @joonsrack​ @moonmintrails​ @inkedxclouds​ @koophoriia​ @kimcritique​ @moonpjms​ @daechwlta​ @suhdays​ @ppersonna​ @vivpurple7​ @ironicarmy​ @joopiterjoon​ @btsxdoll​ @btsbiaswreckedwriting​ @minniepetals​ @chillingtae​ @searchingtae​ @ladyartemesia​ @staerrylights​ and many others who i literally cannot for the life of me remember right when it’s important aoifdjjioejsoi some of you guys i only really talk to on discord, but i think that’s where i talk to people the most anyways. i know im really bad at following people so i may miss a few of you here and there, but know that our friendship through tumblr and discord is so valuable and important to me and im grateful for all of you 💕

*•.¸♡ ✧ 𝓉𝒽𝑜𝓉𝓈 ✧ ♡¸.•*

@yolokoo​ @franklytae

hhhhh you two little shits honestly i know i won’t be able to tell the two of you how much you mean to me because words are Hard. still i am so so lucky to know the two of you and so so lucky to be able to be friends with you two. y’all know i would swing so fucking hard for you that i would dislocate a shoulder but it would be worth in. i love you both so so much and know that no matter what paths we all take in life, i will always be here to support you and cheer you on along the way

*•.¸♡ ✧ 𝓂𝓊𝓈𝓀𝑒𝓉𝑒𝑒𝓇𝓈 ✧ ♡¸.•*

@hobiance @miamorjoon​

lainey within ten minutes of meeting you on discord i married you iajoidfoisdjfo. honestly that’s the boldest i’ve ever been, but i’m really grateful that i stepped out of my comfort zone and interacted with you because if not i would be missing out on such a crazy crackhead amazing friendship that’s filled with rats and roaches and annoying atlas bc we love her. sometimes it’s scary how similar we are but i love our late night crazy music sessions and your passion for cowboys 🐀🤠

atlas i honestly do Not remember how we met aoidjfoij pls don’t be offended i don’t remember how i meet anyone. i only remember meeting lainey because she reminded me of it the other day. but anyways i am super glad that we started talking because you’re one of tha craziest wackiest zackiest ladiez i’ve ever met and you really unleash the inner crazy in me (in a good way i swear). even though you tell me to shut up most of the time, you are seriously one of my fav writers out there and so knowing you and being your friend is seriously w o a h and a blessing for sure 🐀

*•.¸♡ ✧ 𝓈𝓅𝑒𝒸𝒾𝒶𝓁𝓈 ✧ ♡¸.•*

@jamaisjoons @honeymoonjin @ddaenggtan @cest-la-tae​ @bangtiddies​ @mygsii @mindays @luxekook @floralsuga 

oh god i hope im not forgetting anyone hhafhiuehisuda oKAY you each are super duper special to me in your own special way and i could sit here for literally hours and ramble on about how much i love each of you. the basic fact of the matter is that each of you have impacted me and my life in some way.

sol, sora, bette - i am so lucky to have been able to meet you and work alongside you and talk to you daily. it’s normally extremely hard to work with friends or make friends through work, but i got so lucky with you guys and am so blessed to get to talk to each of you and know you ((special thanks to sol for Obey Me and 7 demon daddies)) ((another special thanks to backbone bette for having the courage to speak up when no one else does)) ((one more super special thanks to miss sora who is the kindest and sweetest ball of uwu i’ve ever known and Stan the Man the Icon and the limbless basketball game story remains Iconic))

dAIJA gahhh im so lucky to know you, you are such a valuable and incredible friend. you have a huge heart and you’re always looking out for other people. as much as i love screaming about hyunjin and victon with you, i really love just getting to chat with you in general because you’re so sweet and loving :ragecry:

e m i omg i wish i could remember when we first started talking bc i feel like it was some crackhead energy but honestly i feel like we have that crackhead energy 24/7. i really love listening to your stories because you have such a knack for storytelling which duh of course you do you’re an actress you know how to tell a story, but also you are just fun and exciting to get to talk to.

renae my lovely spiritual girlfriend you are such a wholesome sweet soul on every level w o w you have a heart of gold and you are so talented and wonderful as well, truly the whole package and a half, and you are such a good friend. somehow i only recently found out that you’re a multi but having listening parties with you (even if discord doesn’t tell us we’re listening together) is so fun and i just love chatting with you

reese omg i dont appreciate how you attack me with jisung and hyunjin but we are linked because we both switched to jungkook urls aoijsdfoij you’re such a fun person to talk to and i love getting to talk to you more and getting to know you better because you’re so sweet and loving and have a love of tea that rivals emi’s and mine which is crazy

monday mondayyyyyyy omg i remember the first time we talked was in a kakao chat about the flower shop story and i was Shook because i loVE your works and you were talking about how you liked mine and i was internally p a n i c k so bad ajflkjflk but after that we started getting to know each other better and we started the bee gang then we bonded over piercings and honestly you are just such a cool gal. like wow a queen. idek what else to say other than you are so cool i wish i was half as cool as you asoifjiof but really ily lots uwu

and last but really absolutely not least, mr. beau. wow i feel like it’s been such a long time since we met and started talking to each other. you were one of the very first people i talked to on tumblr, and you welcomed me so swiftly and with open arms. i know i can really rely on you and trust you, you are such a valuable friend, and i love being able to talk with you. i am so beyond proud of you, i know both alex and i are so so proud and happy for you, and i am so proud to be able to watch you grow into the person you are and deadass im crying rn just because im so proud and lucky to have been able to talk with you and help you. you know things about me that no one else does hehe and you are truly such a valuable and wonderful friend on so many levels. i will always always always be able to say that i am proud to be your friend and proud to know you 🤧

[bluehhj]

listen to me — chapter 28

LISTEN TO ME — 0028

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Jisung barely took the key out of the ignition after stopping the motorbike in the parking lot of the college and was already approached by Woojin in a not inconspicuous way. Hyunjin and Yoorim were getting out of the car further ahead and, consequently, were drawn to Kim's too much energy at that time of the morning.

"Look who's here!" — the phrase of the oldest of the four made Han roll his eyes as he got off the motorbike. — "I didn't know you were the type of guy who sneaked in to kiss someone in the dark, that's more like me."

"Who did you kiss in the dark?" — asked Yoorim, one of her well-made eyebrows being arched. Though aware of the answer, Heo wanted to hold the smile for a few more seconds and be genuinely curious.

"Isn't that obvious, guys?" — Woojin took the word again, sending Han a look that blended pride and presumption. — "Even the hand on Jinah's ass he put."

"That's a lie," — Jisung finally pronounced, even though he might have given a little squeeze into that inviting ass by pure indirect encouragement from the girl herself. — "And you have to stop being so inconvenient."

"My prayers were heard." — Hyunjin had a silly grin on his face and a stupid gleam in his eyes. — "How did that happen? Or rather, it was the first time that happened, right?"

Han moistened his lips and passed them, then starting to walk in an unsuccessful attempt to escape an answer that would probably be his decline of the day.

"Han Jisung!" — Yoorim scolded and followed him along with the other two. — "You hid something like that from us, you can't do it!"

"I thought we were friends." — Hyunjin made drama.

"And we are, but I knew that, if I told you, you'd start acting the way you were acting fifteen seconds ago."

"Of course, that's what friends are for," — retorted Yoorim. — "I'm disappointed in you, oppa."

"Who are you to say something?" — Jisung frowned and turned his face toward the girl. — "When I found out that you and Hyunjin were dating, almost two months had passed!"

"It was different."

"No, it wasn't."

"The main thing is that soon Jisung will have a new girlfriend" — Woojin returned to the subject's focus. — "If he doesn't already have and we still don't know."

"Don't exaggerate, hyung," — Jisung murmured. — "It's just a few kisses from time to time, no one spoke of any label."

"But you feel something for her, don't you?" — Hyunjin asked hopefully. — "Even if it's just a little bit."

It was true that, at the time when they were becoming more than friends — although he couldn't really define what that relationship was — Jisung stopped thinking about Chaerin so often, even because who began to occupy the other half of his thoughts were Jinah. It still hurt the memory of being cheated on and dumped before the wedding, but not as much as it had been weeks ago. And it was also true to say that, in one way or another, Jisung had grown accustomed to Jinah and liked her as much as he liked what they were experiencing, he just couldn't tell what level that "liking" was, but it was clear the feeling existed somehow.

"If I answered you guys would become the most unbearable people in the world."

And Jisung was absolutely certain of his last statement from the moment the three of them started shouting, albeit modestly, and made him go through a little embarrassment in the middle of the campus.

Friends.

                                ♡˖°

Jinah was going through one of those extremely busy days when everything seemed out of place, including her neurons.

She had to pay attention to the class, but she couldn't stop thinking about the seminar she would have to present next week, the book that she hadn't yet read a third and the fact that she had to leave the last class in half because she had received a call from her work asking her to start earlier, since Sorn was ill and couldn't attend that afternoon. On the bright side was that she would get the next day off, but the downside was that she'd miss some important explanations that would certainly be charged in the evaluation. And there was still the damn final paper in the next period.

"Unnie," — Jade called softly after hearing the second sigh of pure frustration from Choi. — "I know it's hard to control stress at this stage, but you think everyone here is in the same boat as you. If you freak out is worse."

"I just wanted a vacation," — Jinah replied in the same tone. — "Life of a poor college student is a hell."

The american giggled, she couldn't disagree: — "You'll survive."

Taking a deep breath — an act that, sometimes, prevented her from committing madness that she'd come to regret at the last second —, Jinah tried to focus on the next classes and deprived herself of the break time to start writing a review her professor had requested last week. Jade insisted that she should leave it for another time, claiming that Choi should feed herself and take care of her health first of all, but Jinah didn't care and continued to do what she was doing. The last thing she asked the american was to tell Jisung that she was only too busy, since it had become routine to meet in the cafeteria and, when that didn't happen — like the time Jinah woke up in a bad mood and didn't wanted to talk to anybody —, Han noticed her absence, and maybe cared a little bit about it.

And there was also the fact that the girl wanted, more than anything, to exchange that fucking review for Han's company, but, sometimes, a few priorities should be imposed.

Having the last class of the day right in the middle of it, when Taeyeon sat at the table to correct some exercises, Jinah collected her few materials and left the room, not before hearing Jade saying that if she didn't have lunch, the two would have to solve things at the base of the slap when they got home. She hurried across the campus to the main gates, quickly greeting the Agronomy students who were already in the bar in front of the college, though it was morning, but Jinah didn't have time to discuss the others' level of alcoholism.

Her way home would have been quick and uninterrupted, as she wanted and imagined it to be, however, as soon as Jinah turned the corner and came across an extremely tall and unwanted figure, she knew that day couldn't get any worse.

"Look" — pale skin, dark hair scraped at the sides thanks to the beautiful jovial hairstyle, small eyes, lips proportionately full and rosy with a piercing attached to the lower, well marked jaw; this was Kim Minhwan. — "You didn't even wait for me to at least look for you."

"Oh, God, give me strength..." — Jinah muttered to herself, not sure if she wanted the strength to endure that situation or to simply punch that person. — "Look for me for what, man?"

"It's always good to see important people again," — Minhwan was offended. — "I thought you'd be happy."

"I would if you were really important and not an annoying one, now get out of the way I have more to do."

"You were more fun before, what happened?"

Patience, God, patience is essential.

"I used to like seeing your face," — Jinah explained. — "Today I want to hit your face."

"So, hit" — provocative, Minhwan leaned his face slightly in the direction of Choi. — "If you want to reverse roles, go ahead."

"You're the most disgusting person I've ever met."

"And you're the most stubborn person" — recovering his posture, Kim got a colder look. — "Did you have to leave the city like that?"

"And did you have to follow me here as if we were still in those days?"

"I couldn't be without you any longer, Jinah," — the girl laughed, wryly, but Minhwan really meant it. — "You know you're the only one I've ever loved in my life."

"Oh, for God's sake, you call that love?" — Choi hitted her hands in her jeans. — "No one loves like that, only you, in that sick head of yours."

"I'll do differently this time."

"No, you won't, because you're not good and this is the only certainty I have in my life" — Jinah, then, walked past him and tried to continue her way, but a hand on her forearm prevented her. — "Let go."

"You can't forget that, no matter where we are, your heart will still be mine," — Minhwan stated firmly. — "But, unlike you think, I'm not going to do it like the other times and make a presence in your life twenty-four hours a day. No, I'll wait for the right moment. A moment when you're happy and think nothing more can mess it up" — he smiled little, but it was a smile that shivered Jinah. — "After all, what happened years ago won't pass in vain, and everything that goes around, comes back. I hope you're aware of that."

"You're crazy."

"I am" — Minhwan nodded and released her arm from the slight squeeze. — "But it was you who left me like this; it's your fault."

One last stunned look of bad feeling from the tall boy and Jinah turned away, not bothering to respond. This was a conversation she'd, surely, take off before bed.

(a/n: guys, how do you imagine minhwan? since i started writing this au i thought of him as mingi from ateez, but i was a little hesitant to put this baby as a character, it got worse when i became atiny, cuz i realized the baby he actually is, but his image didn't come out from my head and i just managed to change the name lskskj anyway, imagine him how you want, but i'll leave a gif of mingi for those who dont know him and want to follow the same line of reasoning as mine)

(gif aint mine)

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