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illmoraineakoi · 2 days ago

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So how many times do you think Victim tried to commit suicide after Mitsi's death, but never actually got very far because of the fear of potentially waking up back on the PC?

And how many times do you think he was so far beyond caring that he actually did try?

And how many times do you think Agent found him before it was too late?

IMO, all three are a non-zero number.

#I think he probably wanted to “join” her at least once in those first few months and didn't see the point in continuing to live without her.#I also think that Victim probably self-harmed at least a few times because he didn't know how to cope with his emotional pain #I feel like after the attack Agent dedicated himself to Victim to an unhealthy degree in an attempt to make up for failing her #And I think that during that time Agent developed a sense for when things just felt “wrong” with Victim #Like a sudden gut feeling that something wasn't right and that he needed to go check Vic RIGHT NOW #and 9 times out of 10 something would be wrong with Vic.#Either he'd be in the midst of a horrible grief-stricken breakdown; injured from SH; catatonic to the point of not eating/drinking #or actually in danger of dying from an attempt.#Victim would have just been an utter MESS in the first few months afterwards. Completely unable to function.#The only reason Agent can function is because Victim needs him and he cannot bear the idea of letting him down.#Agent probably also helped run Rocket corp in those first few months too because Victim wasn't in any state to do it alone #and might not have even known what he was doing because acting as CEO was probably more Mitsi's job than his.#Vic seemed to be more like a designer and builder of their tech than the business side in the flashback photos.#TL;DR: Agent has been Victim's sole pillar of support ever since Mitsi's death and I think Agent would literally rather die than fail him.#He will support Victim even to his own detriment #Because Agent cannot let go of his own overwhelming guilt and grief for Mitsi any more than Victim can.#Her loss is a shackled wrapped around their necks that will never let go; nor will they ever let it let them go.#Alan Becker #Animator vs animation #ava #ava Victim #ava Agent #tw: suicide mention #tw: self harm mention #Mitsi's death fucked both Victim and Agent up so bad and you cannot tell me otherwise

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