#I feel like I'm that meme that's like I've connected the dots and the other guy is like you haven't connected shit

[kcrabb88]

I was reading this fascinating longform article in the New Yorker about a current lawsuit going on in the Romantasy world and what constitutes a trope that can't be stolen vs. an original idea when a lot of the books in the genre end up being derivative, but what was most interesting were the bits about writers in the genre hardly being able to have their own cohesive idea for a book so much as editors and agents suggesting what they should write and not letting them finish a draft before sending revision notes and making changes. This kind of stuff is getting to be a major problem in trad publishing (and romance indie publishing has it's own issues with forcing writers to churn out books fast fast fast to stay relevant while sticking to a certain set of tropes, and arguably it isn't limited to romance). As a friend put it to me today, "the market controls writers now instead of the other way around."

Reading that article made me think of the Fansplaining article that came out a couple of weeks ago that talked a lot about more and more people reading fic but fic writers not really being able to see the fruits of that as much (because less engagement). It also talked about how a lot of "normie" types came into fandom during the height of the Covid years and they definitely have a different attitude toward fanwork than people who are in fandom generally. Which, true! I think fandoms, especially big popular ones have these kind of a sort of ... break and bake cookies concept of how you interact in fandom. There are pre-made silos where you ship certain characters and adopt certain fanon without coming to your own ideas naturally (and sometimes that fanon is VERY aggressive). Fic writers may feel a similar pressure to write what will be popular and trendy in fandom rather than what they might LIKE to write. They might feel they have to adopt certain popular fanon so people don't get mad. So, I dunno! Seems like the same problem in two not-unrelated spaces.

Not that we need to go back to the whole writers are suffering, tormented geniuses thing, but I do feel like writers of any stripe should be able to write something because they find it compelling and interesting rather than being pressured to, or feeling like they must, chase trends. You're going to get better writing that way! And readers will be happier for it, too.

[icarianiscariot]

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I FORGOT I REBLOGGED AN ASK MEME HEWWO RIVER THANK U

🧮 what are you working on? describe it in 20 words or less

i have 4 active WIPs rn; 1) "reo and junko enoshima at tokyo fashion week" 2) "krky lie about their feelings for good not evil" 3) "bachisagi beast mode" 4) "kpop boys have feathery problems"

✅ list one or two favorite lines you’ve written and explain why they’re your favorite

OUGH THIS IS SO HARD UH. HHHHHH. let's go with recent fics too to make this easier (so, all my bllk shit lol) - also i'm ignoring the "one or two" because you're getting four HAHAHA this description of kaiser's wings from tmaltkmil: "purple-blue wings that go space-black in the dark and make sunsets out of daylight" because i really love "sunsets out of daylight" as a phrase slkdfjlksdjf all of the banter that happens in hiwytsl especially between kaiser/sae/shidou & getting to make up shidou's nicknames for people (kurona being "pinky pie" & "chomper" are two of my personal favs that i'm proud of lol) the opening paragraph of iyllam will always be my fav tbh: "Here's the thing: Bachira looks at Rin as if he's stained glass, transparent and a work of art all at the same time, delicate and sharp in tandem. He looks at Rin and says lonely where others see alone, and when Rin throws thorns at him, Bachira only smells roses. So when Bachira slots himself into Rin's life like moss on a river stone, Rin takes him for the tumble." especially when i get to parallel it from bachira's pov in the next section of the fic finally: it's impossible for me to pick a favorite line from DTOOTC, because that fic is 20k and my darling baby. but i think an important one to me thematically is from chapter 1: "And yet the black hole of his [Sae's] absence seems to have settled something between them." because sae is the black hole first, before rin spends the rest of the fic comparing himself to a black hole. and rin is learning how to not be empty, or how to escape the emptiness left by his brother's absence. (this was unintentional in the initial writing but upon reflection is a rlly Cool Thing, Author! You Planned It All Along!!)

💕 whats your favorite part of your writing process?

i always write the endings first & there's something so satisfying of reaching the point where all the dots are connecting and i can clearly tell how i'm going to get from point A to point Z !!! sometimes there's a little more i have to add to the ending once i've written the rest of the fic, to really wrap things up, but i still really enjoy that particular moment of, "oh there's just one more scene between Here and The End"

thanks for the ask!!

send me an emoji from this list! (or ask about any of my fics lol)

[more-than-a-princess]

🔦 Connect the dots between you and your muse. Ways that you're the same, different, last time you thought about them, etc.

🎀 What's the last nice thing you saw pertaining to rp? !!!!

Mun Communication meme - No Longer Accepting as Munday is almost over for the week!

🔦 Connect the dots between you and your muse. Ways that you're the same, different, last time you thought about them, etc.

I think about Sonia at some point, for some duration, every day. I usually have at least 1 reply to write at any given time and if I don't, I'm generally getting thread ideas or headcanons through all the other media I tend to consume (I get to watch some TV as part of my job. This helps!).

But beyond that...

Sonia and I both enjoy horror movies, documentaries about cults and unsolved mysteries, and anime. I don't watch as much Japanese and Korean dramas as I used to, mostly because I dislike reading subtitles: I like having the TV on while I write and I can't write and read at the same time. We also prefer tea to coffee, but she's much more of a snob about chocolate than I am. We share some clothing preferences and styles and while my family isn't quite as dysfunctional as hers, we both come from at least one side of an extended family that belongs in the upper middle to upper class. I sometimes use anecdotes from my family for various character traits of hers, but not too much.

A few fun facts:

One of my aunts was briefly married to a European aristocrat. He was a jerk who divorced her pretty quickly and refused to see his kids after.

Another one of my aunts cannot understand why I don't quit my terribly paying job and disappear to England, France, and/or Italy for an extended period of time and set up my own business, unable to understand that her mother financed her entire lifestyle after she went into deep debt several times. My parents do not do this, and I enjoy having a steady paycheck and health insurance (this is your cue to understand I'm American and over the age of 26!).

My grandmother from the rich side of the family threw a fit and refused to speak to me for most of my teenage years because I refused to have a debutante ball and I wasn't conventionally attractive. I was overweight (still am), shy (yup!), and nerdy (this too!). Geek conventions and cosplay were not suitable interests for a debut into high society. In turn, she was one of the first debutantes in her social circle in her city and believed I, as the eldest granddaughter, should follow in her footsteps. I was the least favorite grandchild until the day she died.

And that touches upon some of our differences. Sonia is conventionally beautiful/attractive, outgoing, an extrovert, smiles easily, and makes friends easily. All things I am decidedly not (I'm excellent at resting bitch face, however). She's also much better at math, science, and memorizing many languages than I am: I feel like I've forgotten so much of my French. That I studied between the ages of 8 to 22. Another reason to go back to France!

I also am obsessed with fictional royals/wealthy people and royal documentaries/dramatizations. I've most recently finished the new season of Bridgerton and My Lady Jane, and once I get through a few more romantasy selections on my Kindle I have the new Kevin Kwan book to read (I'm trying to make it last! I also want the Crazy Rich Asians TV series like, now). Sonia dislikes any media about fictional royals and dramatizations and would prefer not to watch them.

🎀 What's the last nice thing you saw pertaining to rp? !!!!

The last nice thing I saw is all the lovely asks that @yukikorogashi is getting! She's on hiatus mostly right now but her mutuals are being so kind/sweet/understanding about it and that they wish her well, and it's wonderful to see.

I also hope Beckowsky comes back soon for RP on both her blogs and to share her Munday OOTDs! But until then, I'll cheer her on from here.

[friendly-jester]

honestly considering how last episode went i feel like it could be possible that one of the two of them realize their feelings in the finale and that becomes a major storyline for next season. like all season buck has been talking nonstop about eddie and his entire sexuality arc and the buck x tommy stuff has been basically haunted by eddie. i thought i was losing it or something fr because i went back and rewatched and literally EVERY. SCENE. BUCK AND TOMMY HAVE EDDIE IS EITHER THERE OR MENTIONED. THEIR FIRST KISS SCENE I COUNTED THAT BUCK SAYS EDDIES NAME EIGHT FUCKING TIMES. tommy even said “my attention?” like he was shocked and thought it was about eddie 😭 and maddie saying “you seem confused and if you have anything you need to tell eddie you will when you’re ready” felt SO pointed too. idk if they’ll do a full blown triangle with them but i do think a potential breakup with buck and tommy will be about eddie tbh. they made such a point to put eddie in the narrative when they really didn’t have to. im trying so hard not to get my hopes up but when the dots make a clear picture you cant help but connect them

also this sounds so crazy but the shannon clone has a birthmark in her hair. the white stripe? its the most noticeable in the boat scene but once i saw it i was like 😀 hey why did they do that. one of my friends back in high school had one. and then making buck meet her……. and then EDDIE only comes clean once BUCK lightly asks him about it and says hes worried……….. i feel like im that one meme from its ways sunny in philedelphia

also im fully convinced bobby isnt retiring and he’ll be fine and have some sort of wakeup call idc im in denial

also holy fuck @ the hen and karen storyline??????? when will the writers let them keep their foster kids its been years let them be happy and have their family 😭

anyway sorry for the essay in ur inbox i have so many thoughts about this show and idk where to put them. my friends are probably so sick of me because i cannot shut up about it -ebd anon

i would actually lose my mind if it happened in the finale asdfghjkl. i'm also trying not to get my hopes up (i've been burned so many times 😭) but i could totally see buck telling tommy about the whole doppelgänger wife thing and talking about how concerned he is for eddie and tommy being the one to realize "this doesn't sound platonic" and points it out to buck. tommy's whole role has been for buck to discover things about himself and i would love if tommy helped him realize he has feelings for eddie. i honestly think buck and tommy are really cute together but they just don't have the chemistry buck and eddie have and i just think it would be neat if tommy's the first one (besides maddie lbr) to notice it and bow out gracefully. that's just the kind of guy he is 🥺

WAIT i didn't realize it was a birthmark i thought it was just a gray streak but!!!! that FEELS SO INTENTIONAL *screams*

i am also in denial we can be in denial together 🤝 if he does retire there's no way he'd be gone from the show. not just because he's athena's husband but because he's dad!!! he's got too important of a role to leave!!!

FOR REAL JUST LET MY GIRLS BE A HAPPY FAMILY!!!!! they have to get mara back. that whole scene made me want to cry. she finally got a family and they finally got a daughter and denny finally got a sibling LET THEM BE HAPPY 😭😭

feel free to drop by and ramble anytime! my only other friend who watches 911 isn't caught up so i have no one else to talk about it with besides my mom who is not in as deep as i am lmaooo

[overx]

What’s a tip you would give to people trying to get to know you?

for the ppl who dont babble at u enough smh <3

Anxious Munday Meme! [still accepting]

[[I am really very introverted and anxious, even over text conversations.

I joked when I reblogged this very meme that you basically have to @ me in group chats to make me appear but that's kind of true honestly.

If we talked about starting something and then I got busy and disappeared for months.... yeah that might not happen now. I feel far too anxious coming to stuff "late" so to speak. If you still really want that thread, you aren't annoying me by poking or reminding me. You're confirming to me we're still good to go because I've probably overthought the idea of saying anything to you after "too long".

If you want anything in general ^^; you have to make that pretty obvious. I've had it a few times now where people have told friends or my spouse they'd like to interact with me and get to know me, but never gave me any indication directly, so it was never apparent to me. There's a lot of reasons that doesn't work but in simple terms, if you have an anxiety disorder you're going to connect dots even if they aren't there. Does that make sense? A huge facet of anxiety and related disorders is reading between the lines even when there's nothing actually in the margins.

Honestly though talking to me is the same as anyone else:

Ask me questions, @ me to let me know you want to hear from me. Tag me in random stuff. TALK TO ME. Come to me with RP ideas OR let me know what muses of mine you want to interact with and we'll bake something together. Really just invite me into whatever is going on. If you come at me with enthusiasm I'll do my best to return it. You might have to do it a few times for it to really click with me but once it's there, trust me, we'll be fine. Some folks can manage to get me to be pretty lively once I'm comfortable with them. It's not an all the time thing, but even some of the time is pretty impressive.

If you're wanting to get to know me casually outside of RP then chat with me about other interests you have, maybe we can meet in the middle! I like videogames, writing, anime, and art as basic starting points just browsing my blog could probably tell you.]]

[missingn000]

Hi, hello and greetings. Sorry, this will be probably just a lot of rambling from me.

I read the latest chapter and the only way I can describe my thoughts is AAAAAA. I'm just so excited and I loved Sukuna's pov. My personal favorite part was the nicknames he gave everyone and you were right, the Binding Oath was really really cool. I'm really curious to see how that will affect future situations. And truly that last line from Yuuji hit right in the feels.

I also feel I'm like that one meme when I try to figure out Sukuna's backstory from the hints he drops and future events from your hints.

Me: I've connected the dots

Other me: You didn't connect s**t

Me: I've connected them

So yes, I'm very excited and also happy reading this fic. I hope you are also happy writing it and don't feel too pressured.

I would lastly like to say that I have enjoyed reading the texts(?) about Kashimo's honor and how they foil with Gojo and the similar texts you've written about other characters too. It gives great insight and is overall fun to read. So if you have something similar that you've been dying to share, I at least would love to read it.

Sorry if there's bad english and that it got so long😅

no need to apologize!! i LOVE long messages! honestly, it makes me so happy to hear how much you liked it <3 sukuna’s pov was a blast to write. i loved coming up with his little nicknames for everyone (princess pepper spray was my favorite and seems to see a fan favorite too lmao)

i’m also happy with their binding vow, i think it’s really unique and much more push-pull than the binding vow they have in canon. it’ll definitely affect future situations and to be honest, all times they both use it make me totally insane (esp sukuna’s first time using enchain. MY GOD top 3 most mentally ill moments in the whole fic)

heh, i love that you’re theorizing about his backstory!! he’s said so much yet so little at the same time.

ooh i’m glad you like my analyses about kashimo and their character foiling with gojo!! i love writing meta about the story. i’ll see if i can write another meta post soon, just for you. if there’s a topic you (or anyone else!) is interested in hearing about, please let me know!

thank you so much for this lovely message and for reading the story <333

[masschase]

for the ask meme, i’m kinda curious to learn more about johnny and casey’s dynamic. they hooked up right? how do you think an actual relationship between them would’ve gone?

Also a fun one and um... I've had the worst sleep last night so I apologise if this is horribly incoherent.

OK, so... if Casey and Shaundi is the hookup that happened way too late, Casey and Johnny was the thing that probably shouldn't have happened, at least from their perspective. I feel like I could go into all the reasons it did in fact happen and it would be a whole fricken post plus you-know-who is involved and I'm trying not to bring him up in these 🤣

But I feel like these are more about how things would work if they did get together, let's say that was their most logical starting point. Except maybe not quite. Their romance scene obviously goes hard and it shaped the way I write Casey as rambling when she's emotional until someone shuts her up which is one of my favourite things ever honestly. But I can also see it being an instant, intense... considerably goo-smeared... kiss the minute they reunite.

There are also other moments where it could have happened; after the shared grieving of Aisha and Carlos, just before the bank heist (yes, I can't get over that thing I wrote even if it doesn't fit Casey. It could easily be rewritten to fit Casey, honestly. All that would need changing would be the thing about that Boss being a spoilt rich kid.). Either way I see this being something that would be most likely happen on the ship because it's the only place it really fits in their history. So if it happened then...

I mean it's GatBoss for god's sakes. I'm pretty sure I shipped them while playing 4. At the early stages of my fanfic they were implied to have a much less platonic journey too. But now with the developed character Casey is it's a lot harder to see it.

I mean they do love each other, it's not so hard to reframe that as romantic love. They have fun together, they like the same things. The getting to know you stage was so long ago I feel like they'd have to do a lot of it all again. Casey would absolutely tease Johnny about the 10 year age gap because he's squicky about it whereas she's not too bothered.

I don't think they'd really engage in PDA, I think they'd be pretty cute behind closed doors though. I think they'd argue a lot because they can both be incredibly stubborn at times, but the makeup sex would be incredible. I don't know who the fuck is going to be their live in chef after they take the new planet because neither of those fuckers can cook. Honestly they can hire someone from the pods or it'll just be Ben.

Johnny is absolutely one of the first to call Casey out on her bullshit. Yes, again this would lead to arguments. But you have to bear in mind he also really gets how her excuses about relationships and marriage are in fact excuses because he's known her forever. Eventually she'd confide her full past in him and he'd just connect the dots.

What does this mean? I think they'd get married. Relatively quickly. Johnny would bring it up when Casey starting asking about kids, honestly, which we know is something she wants from the presidency onward. Almost like a "Aight if we're gonna talk about this we're gonna talk about ALL of this." sort of thing. They'd probably be planning it pre-GOOH(by which I mean Pierce would be planning it with some input from Casey, because we know Johnny's disastrous at that) and originally planning it to be on the ship but then... honestly...

I don't know where that whole volleyball tournament takes place. But one could imagine it was on some purgatory-ish beach somewhere. People from hell were allowed there, people from heaven were allowed there, Johnny and Kinzie were allowed there. That's where Johnny and Casey would get married. That way everyone could come. Everyone.

They'd make sure to do it before the war for the planet. Speaking of which, the whole "pairing people up to make them get along" would go out of the window. The action couple is absolutely going out there side by side. Possibly without the robots seeing how that discussion came about. But the Saints would still win, I think.

God I feel like my response here has gone off the rails a bit I was just going to talk about their dynamic haha. Would they stand the test of time? Maybe. I really can't stress enough that I've literally never sat down and thought about this before.

So yeah. In my universe it's definitely a platonic soulmates vibe. But it's really not that hard to imagine a world where it's not platonic.

[beggars-opera]

For the artist ask meme, 12 and 13?

12. It is! Although I have to say I'm still working through the embarrassment of just saying. Guys, I do this for fun, not for profit, so I cheat a lot. My process generally starts with creating a rudimentary connect-the-dots of the original picture - a dot on each cheekbone, side of each eye, nose, and mouth - so that I know my proportions are going to be correct. Because I'm mathematically challenged and having that starting point gets me to filling in all the bitty details I love faster. Once I've done the sketch I will straight up hold the paper to my computer to check I did everything right and then correct things before moving on.

13. I have a love-hate relationship with drawing for other people. I love it in theory because personally I think putting that much effort into creating something for someone else is a sign of great love and admiration. But I'm also very slow and even if having a purpose like that keeps me motivated I'm always afraid I'm going to run into a snag and not meet my deadline. Also I struggle with thinking it's narcissistic to present art to someone. I know it's not but since I'm usually presenting art in a "look at this cool thing I made give me validation" way it's hard to get past that feeling.

[yung-n8v-teacher]

reflecting on november & december

so,,,,a major thing happened since my last update,,,

a part of the teaching program i'm in is that i have to transition to different classrooms each trimester. the first trimester (where a LOT of reflection happened) was spent in a sixth grade classroom. the second trimester (which we're now in), i'm in a first grade classroom.

TALK ABOUT A BIG JUMP !!!! — my cohort members all transitioned to a grade above or below where they were for trimester 1, but i'm the only one to go from middle school to lower elementary.

why/how did this happen? the principal, based on the few times she has seen me lead the after-school program, said that she thinks i can teach in any grade level and wants to see what i can do with the first graders. crazy reasoning, but i guess i can do this,,,,

the transition was supposed to happen on november 5th, but that didn't happen for me. my first day that i was supposed to be with my first graders didn't happen until a day later because i had coverage/subbing to do in 8th grade. i went from the biggest babies in the school to the second smallest babies in the school. what a jump,,,

the plan with the trimester two transition was that the associate teachers were supposed to observe for a week before taking over a small section in the new class, but I couldn't even observe because I got tasked with coverage again and when I wasn't covering, my first grade class had a sub (that wasn't me), so they weren't acting like their normal selves. one of the non-normal days with them, i was leading the whole day because i got last minute coverage. (what a day that was,,,) i did not have a full, normal week with the first graders until the beginning of december. (isn't that crazy???)

while the transition has been very, very gradual, i feel a bit more confident and comfortable with the little ones than i did at the start. i even went on a field trip with them!!! (i was very exhausted when i got home that day,,,) a part of gaining more comfortability with the first graders was doing my two-day teach with them. two days where I was the lead teacher and not the associate. what a time that was. it went a lot better than I expected it to go. while i had to be a little strict at times, i survived, they learned and they don't hate me. i don't think people that small are capable of hate, but it's nice to know that they still ask/give me hugs whenever. (the hugs are probs the best part of transitioning to first grade; the worst part you ask? the sickness and germs. i spent all of trimester one and some of trimester two, not sick then after a week with the little ones, i was so congested and fighitng for my life against this awful cough.)

so much has happened, and i can't believe i made it to december. while things seem fine and dandy, lets get into some tea,,,

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tea

a couple of the first grade teachers are leaving at the end of the year, meaning there will be some lead teacher positions up in the air [while i don't want to stroke my very small ego, i can't help but wonder if the principal put me in first grade for my classroom transition to potentially hire me as a lead teacher for first grade (if they want to hire me for first grade, i most likely won't take it)]

i heard through the grapevine, and it's all but confirmed, that there will be a new 8th grade classroom that they are adding to the school which means they need to hire two 8th grade lead teachers and one of those teachers could potentially be me and the other would be my emotional support yt guy (i'm manifesting we get hired, but i don't want to jinx it) [i feel like that meme with shane and ryan (the ghoul boys) about the dots connecting b/c my potential co-teacher got asked by the principal about how he would feel teaching 8th grade ela, and i have also been doing so much coverage in 8th grade math, science and coding like it's insane (i've been getting this much coverage in 8th grade b/c i'm the only associate teacher with any experience teaching that stuff (insert crying emoji))]

i had my feelings mansplained to me by the director(?)/program lead of the teaching program i'm in — asking how i'm doing in second grade (she got which grade i'm working in wrong) and how i've been doing on a personal level. i told her that i've been a little frsutrated and panicked about first grade b/c it didn't feel like something i could do, but i can recognize that i've been making progress and that i can feel myself growing as a teacher. she then turned it around on me by saying that "i can't focus on the negatives" (when did i say i was doing that??) and that "you have to see this as a growing experience and know that you're to be so much more knowledgeable after it" (like thanks for showing me that you were listening to what i said by being able to say it in your own words) — she then got on me b/c i was only "half there" for the pd sessions that she leads and saying that it's a noticeable pattern (i've been checked out of the last two pd sessions b/c i come straight from teaching and the topics were dumb and repetitive — ALSO WHEN DID TWO TIMES OF SOMETHING HAPPENING BECOME A PATTERN???) [the two pd sessions that i was "half there" for were: one, how education is a cog in systemic racism (where i had to listen to a yt co-worker basically say the definition of racism in discussion and the program lead add nothing of substance to the rest of the pd other than saying, "we need to be mindful of our biases" like bitch, WE KNOW)]; the second pd session was acting out scenarios about how to give redirections in class as if the entire cohort hasn't had multi-day coverage before and as if we don't talk about how to give redirections with our mentor teachers almost daily [this shit had me heated]

[movementsofmylife]

bad buddy ep 5 (rewatch)

how many times does pran pull out his entire (extremely intense) set of markers and not use them:

total so far: ////

so this episode. i have watched it so many times. and every time i am left in shambles. it builds up to that final rooftop scene so well and so insidiously.

they start the episode in this brown white beige complimentary look, with pat wearing the 'friend' shirt. which is so fucked up considering where this episode ends.

like it starts with pat declaring himself a friend and teasing and flirting in a way which shows he's more than that. (ink explicitly states that they have a "lovey-dovey atmosphere") and over the course of the episode this dichotomy gets pulled apart as pat realizes it himself.

i've also already screamed about the breakfast scene over here.

this is so good! because it's both asking pat to consider like, they aren't romantically involved, so why are they acting like this. but also when pat responds "i'm not your wife" it's a direct call out to later on in the episode where they critique the terrible wife/husband dynamic thing from bls.

also often in bls the one making food is classed as the sub/wife/bottom w.e in the situation. but pran is absolutely not having that, and he never does. love my non-heteronormative king.

i fully never clocked this, but pa's holding ink's 'p' bracelet in the opening. we should have known.

so while pat is flipping through the photos on pran's computer he comes across this one with ink, and it gets about as much pause as every other photo in the set. and actually the last lingering shot is on the one with just pran. how this man didn't know is truly a mystery.

again, it should be something chill to tell ink here that pran's the one she reminds him of. but i think he knew if he mentioned that ink would actually understand what he's saying, (ink is fully on the patpran ship, she has definitely known since high school) more than he would.

also secret keeping of and for each other is patpran's entire jam. and while its a necessity at times, i think they both enjoy keeping each other and their relationship close to their chest, precious and just for them.

i remember when i first watched this and lost my mind. ink is so clearly flirting with pa the entire time, she's an inspiration.

this music store is a place of so many awakenings for pat. i feel like because the high school concert was clearly leading towards pat and pran figuring something out but it was aborted, it makes sense that his actual realization comes in a music related space. the whole episode is basically about music and how it carries love and bravery.

pran would be such a good anime protagonist.

the sheer confusion from pran through this entire jealousy scene. also the green shirt of doom. there's so many green shirts of doom in this ep.

case in point. also the fact that in the first part when pat and pa are having this conversation pat is wearing this bracelet. and at this point he's taken it off, he's realized!!!!

he got soooo close here to connecting the dots. but truly insert the shane/ryan i connected the dots you didn't connected shit meme, because that "they became rivals" line smh.

pa on her ink agenda as always. i like the parallel to pat in high school who didn't realize his feelings for pran yet. and pa here, in the same situation with ink.

pran is so brave through this whole thing. i feel like this is part of how he's dealing with pat's confession about ink. he's declaring to everyone, but also to himself, that pat's his friend and that's what he can have.

and then he proceeds to sing this fucking song about friends being confusing lol

look i cannot get a good screen shot here, but i'm sure i don't need to. i feel like this is branded on everyone's brains at this point. i just couldn't not include it.

also god this fight scene hits so hard. this analysis of it by @jemmo is so good!

to slightly derail from the emotions. is this what showers are like for all tall people?? or is this an exceptionally small shower. it was so confusing to me. like why does he look like he has to crouch to get under the water.

"I just stood there, bathed in the quiet No," (cut your bangs by girlpool, which overall is not about this, but this line)

this point where pat realizes the situation, looks beyond just his feelings for pran. fuck. devastating.

also the fact he's in blue, red and there's a swathe of yellow behind him. their love is so intense and present in this scene. but also feels so far away.

this fucking episode. like from ep 4 on i feel like this show does not let you breath.

[adashofniallandasprinkleoflunacy]

Not to overanalyze. But I'm gonna overanalyze.

Not as much smut in the future. The beef of the fic isn't gonna be them being lovey-dovey. Bloodshed. Angst. It's 30 chs long.

If at some point, they don't feel comfortable/safe w each other. Or if she says the safeword. Or doesn't feel right (?) with him...

The origin of their relationship being affected.

I feel like that "I've connected the dots" meme. 🤡

I say “not as much smut” in the sense that new characters are gonna be presented, conflicts, backstories, new relationships have to be formed, etc, and so smut is gonna be the least important stuff.

But as you said, angst as well 👁 outside forces, internal forces, and things of the such 👁

[monsterfucker-lisa-swallows]

Not me being awake at 2 in the morning again having forgotten what the original question was that I googled because I got distracted by so called "prism glasses"

I was looking at something about gait and posture in people with asd and came across something saying that prism glasses could stop patients from toe walking. I was immediately like that has to be bullshit. As a lifelong toe walker myself, it made no sense to me that changing visual perception could do anything to effect the way I walk, because how I walk is a stim thing as well as an ingrained habit. My spatial issues are not in any way related to the way I walk. So I decided to look into this.

At first all I found were articles by autism mommies and optometrists. So that already tells me not to trust this method. Autism mommies are concerned with normalizing their child without listening to them, while optometrists would of course want to promote their new money-making scheme. So I kept looking for more evidence-based clinical trials that showed long term results...and I kept mostly getting anecdotal evidence. Finally I was able to find scholarly articles buried deep in google that told me there is no evidence that this treatment works, and one even suggested that they cause discomfort and headache to the patient! Like great! Another autism cure that works by maximizing our discomfort!

Because that's always the key to these new treatments. My parents tried to get me to stop for years with different approaches and I finally managed to when I started doing theatre. But see the thing is that I never completely stopped. I just stopped doing it in front of people. It became a shame thing along with all of my stims. My theory is that these miracle results some parents have seen with prism lenses came from the same reason that my mom's treatments seemed to help me: the child knows what the treatment is supposed to be for and is so uncomfortable and full of shame that they hide the symptom in front of you in order to make you happy. I mean think about it. How is a type of lens going to stop someone from walking on their toes? That doesn't even make sense. It's that meme about connecting the dots. These things aren't even related.

I found some gems on a forum about the practice too:

I'm just. So exhausted. I'm not even going to unpack all of that.

Again, as someone who exclusively toe walked for 10 years then transitioned to being able to walk nearly normally most of the time, I think it's ridiculous. You shouldn't be shaming or berating your child, you're only making them feel worse. There are much better ways to go about helping your child learn to navigate the world without trying to make them stop stimming altogether. Their stimming doesn't affect you, so fuck off.

I've known other autistics who toe walked or had other similar walking abnormalities and we've mostly self corrected by observing and copying our peers as we age. It's not something you totally grow out of, but it shouldn't be a huge problem resulting in "deformities" as you age. The only real thing I can think of is calluses and I think my toes are shaped weird but then again I think everyone's feet are weird. I just want people to fuck off with their non-evidence based autism cures and leave us alone

[weltonreject]

a potential title !! this is so exciting wow, a Named Thing feels so official even if it's not Really Really the title quite yet, i'm excited to guess it and honestly will try and do the whole making words of the stars game (and will almost definitely not be anywhere close lol but it will be fun)

also a valentine's day ending i love it, the vibes of that... the potential meaning, i can't wait to read it and experience it.

and found family/parent is one of my all time favourite things, people getting the Love They Deserve always gets me. i don't know clyde super well yet but i already want him to have as much love as possible so adding more of that is just So Exciting to me.

truly every time you talk about this i get so excited, i am a broken record saying this but the Energy of it that you have created is just So Compelling to me i cannot wait.

i'm literally so excited i don't even know what to ask my brain is just !!!! u know

i will say though that thinking about it earlier i was thinking about clyde being a lifeguard as well as a barista and pace wanting to do marine/fishing stuff and just hmmm the water... what does it mean DOES it mean anything at all ?? i don't know yet but even if it's nothing, it's the "i've connect the dots / you haven't connected anything" meme or however that goes, but that's all just to say I Am Thinking my brain is on more about this than it is about most things i read... lots of marinating time for it watching it all come together as you work on it. i remember when oct 1983 was just a tag that i did not understand at all

that was so much more than i meant to say (sorry) BUT i'm excited for you is a summary

egr <3

OH one of my dear friends tried guessing and actually came up with a really good alternative title for me so guess away!!! and Clyde has really evolved i think. like, you saying you don’t know him super well was something i think was a problem in the very beginning-- so i’ve been working on actually getting him more into the story. And i like it so far!!! the first 60 pages have grown a LOT in the past week. There are also a lot of other characters i really loved growing too-- like Jamma and Marty!

AND let’s say you connected some dots!!! i don’t know what it means either but YES. Pace is currently a librarian so he took a sharp turn from marine life (after getting uhhh struck by lightning) B U T i am thinking about them having an outing on a frozen lake... in a rowboat.... perhaps that’s the connection. water is love and love is the point. aksjdakl

[nikosasakis]

I feel like I've seen some variation of that meme around, at some point. Oh yeah, the last season with the kids, super confusing. And tbh I'm still slightly confused about the very ending of Arrow. Oh yeah I see what you mean about LOT. I'm trying to figure out who that could have been but at this point they've had so many diff legends, some leaving other dying, idek anything anymore. I think after watching OUAT (connecting all of those dots, especially with tons of plot holes) 1/3

my brain is just not capable of dealing with all of this. Way too many back and forth in diff timelines, diff versions of the same character. Oh now that you speak of that. Were you who commented that a coworker was watching 911 and was screaming how 3x01 ended with the beginning of the tsunami, right? Because I'd love to see her reaction to how 3x02 ends and how the whole thing continues into 3x03. I was so pissed when I finished 3x02 cause I couldn't believe I had to wait another week to 2/3 see how it all would end. But then I guess now I can appreciate how the tension of the whole tsunami arc - my two fave episodes so far, actually benefits from having that cliffhanger halfway through, leaving everyone on the edge of their seats waiting for it. I wonder if they're gonna try and top this arc, cause I low-key wanna see if they can create a more tense, stressful, heartbreaking episode/s (I feel 3x15 was really close) than the tsunami ones, but then I want all of them to be safe 3/3

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Oh yeah, it just... baffled me so I gave up 😂 Yeah they keep chopping and changing the characters, so I decided not to continue watching it 😅

Oh! I totally agree with OUAT, that was........... interesting to follow, as much as I did love the show 😂

I was! Yeah, I convinced her to watch it recently, but she only watches it as it airs, so it was really funny when she texted me like “????? SERIOUSLY” and I’m gonna be laughing about it, especially because, like me, she loves Buck so 😂

I was lucky that all the episodes were out when I watched it, or that would have stressed me out lmao. It was such a good arc though! I did think it was interesting, but I do wonder what they might do in Season 4. Because they definitely topped S2 with the Tsunami... so if they try and do it again..... well let’s just say I’m scared 😅

[punkwixes]

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[fanfiction writing meme!]

thank you so much for sending questions! 💖 these were really fun to answer tbh

12. Do you outline your fics?  If yes, how detailed are your outlines?  How far do you stray from them?

not really, no! usually i know how the fic is going to end, and i have a general idea of the strongest scenes/story beats organized in my head. the closest thing i do to "outlining" on a regular basis is talking about my fic plans with friends/On Tumblr Dot Com. this means that my fics get written like 200% more when i have someone to chat with about them. rip.

like, for my current Big Wip, i don't have a detailed outline, but i do know where all the character beats are going to happen. i have about ~10 scenes written for the first chapter so far, and half of those were plot points i just sort of... knew were going to happen when i came up with the fic idea. the other half are either connecting those points or ideas that came to me as i was writing something else.

(i did have to write an actual outline for theatre au, and it looked like this. if you're wondering.)

18. Do you enjoy research?  Which fic of yours required the most research?

oh lord.

yeah it was def theatre au. it was really fun research tbh, i really enjoyed it! i enjoyed reading academic papers the most. just an absolute joy in every aspect. i have a bibliography:

which has definitely had more than a few additions since i last updated it (like, early april 2021, i think).

27. What area of writing do you feel strongest in?

i sat here staring at this for ten minutes like. oh my god i have no clue.

this might be a bold fucking move from a bitch who just wrote that they don't outline up above, but i think that i'm decently good at plotting fics/laying out scenes and character development in satisfying ways. it's what my friends usually come to me for help with, and i think i get complimented on it a lot, at any rate.

besides that, maybe certain character voices/narrative humor? i think i'm okay at that.

55. Have you noticed any patterns in your fics?  Words/expressions that appear a lot, themes, common settings, etc?

oh jeez. literally the other day i realized that i had a character insult someone else with "fuck off and die" about five different times in the same chapter, and i had to come up with a few different things to replace it. like, you can say that twice, max.

besides being bad at coming up with snappy insults, the theme of "hey, sucks that you're depressed, do you maybe want to like. see a therapist about that?" is in both the way i thought that we'd end up and murphy's law (theatre au) (idk why i like calling it theatre au more).

in general, i think that themes of Dealing With Mental Illness are pretty prominent in my fics as a whole. probably second to that is my pile of unpublished wips (or published ones, if you read my changeling fics) that deal with questions of identity, etc.

there's your tropes — i like h/c, found family, learning to be loved, the whole deal.

i'm not sure if i have any like... other patterns or themes in my work that stand out as a "oh, you REALLY like this thing" sort of vibe, but i'd be curious to hear if other people think i do, haha

77. Why do you enjoy writing fanfiction?

i like to tell my little stories!

that's basically it. i like when i tell a story and other people find it fun or cathartic or satisfying in some way. (if i'm the only person who will find it fun or cathartic or satisfying in some way, it just remains unwritten in my brain.) i publish fics to fill some sort of gap — something doesn't exist and i want it to, or someone else wants it to.

in terms of fanfiction... i just don't really feel the need to write much original fiction! i've done it before — i actually won some national short story prizes as a teenager. (nothing impressive, i don't really think.) i said that i publish fics to fill gaps, but i also like writing to fill gaps — i can write plot-heavy stuff, but i enjoy writing more slow-paced, character-based works (h/c fics, etc) that published media often doesn't have the luxury of focusing on for [looks at smudged writing on hand] 50,000 words.

[piltrafas]

Biphobe anon here. I have a question, but no hard feelings if you ignore: What assumptions am I making? Is it because I don't expect people to see things from my perspective?

I saw your RB on my initial ask. I can clarify:

attraction inevitably leads to action

bisexuals are promiscuous and less prone to monogamy

bisexuals are more likely to cheat

[some] bisexual women are just quirky straight women (or the flipside of bisexual men are just gay men in denial)

I don't buy into these points. Maybe I'm not communicating well enough to get that across. I sometimes suspect the "quirky straight woman" stereotype on account of having dated somone who fit this profile.

When I talk about uncertainty, I mean that I expect most bi partners to want a straight relationship for the long term. It has nothing to do with cheating.

Hi, anon! I can try and explain ~ To get it out of the way, let me just say: in regards to your messages (when I commented on your assumptions/ask ratio I was thinking of the previous ones too) I made a lot of assumptions myself because I genuinely can't connect the dots of the stuff you talked about so it became a game of free association trying to understand. I have no doubt I'm misreading, overthinking a lot of it, you might disagree with your own phrasing or my interpretations, etc and as you say, you apparently don't recognize in yourself the biases I mentioned, and that's fair, I don't know you so I can't judge.

I decided to break down all my initial impressions so at least you'll have an easier time seeing what it looks like from my side. This is long as fuck because I had fun breaking it down. Gives me an opportunity to examine my own thought process, ya know?

how do you deal with the uncertainty of dating someone who is bi?

Uncertainty when dating someone bi is far from universal. When reading the message it seems you think that that uncertainty is, well, a certainty. I'd expect someone who is aware that this is a personal thing might phrase this differently, something like: "I have feelings of uncertainty in regards to dating someone bi, how can I deal with it?"

so how can you not be wary of a bi partner?

You're wary, you assume others would be too. If you wanna expand on how these things connect I'd be very curious. It's never occurred to me that a relationship's dynamics might change based on my partner's sexuality. In fact, I have never even asked what sexuality label anyone used? I have never been asked either. If someone hits on me they're attracted to me, that's all I care about. I actually don't think I've ever said the word bisexual aloud in my life outside of memeing. It's hilarious how it's just not something that organically comes up in conversation in my experience.

Is the fear that they will break up with you eventually? I genuinely don't understand what the wariness is about.

When I talk about uncertainty, I mean that I expect most bi partners to want a straight relationship for the long term.

Why do you expect that? I think this just comes across to me like you're projecting, that maybe if you could choose to be in a straight relationship you would and you can't see why everyone else wouldn't. You mentioned you live somewhere conservative, so I expect that plays a role? Then again, wider society is more socially progressive here, but my area is actually full of religious people that wanna make their faith everyone else's problem and none of the bi people I know or their partners think this and I'm struggling to think where this idea comes from. The people I know that have a set idea about who they wanna date long-term decide it more in terms of things like: whether they want to move abroad, want to marry, want to have children, are okay with adoption, and things of that sort. This doesn't automatically make their ideal partner the opposite gender. If anything, the reverse of what you propose is more familiar to me, because a couple of bisexual women I know exclusively date women (for different reasons iirc). I guess the point is that people with a long-term gender preferences are bound to exist, but they're certainly not the majority or even common ime, and because of that the expectation you have that most people want this seems out of proportion. But yeah, for the record, the qualifier of "long-term" is what gave me the impression that cheating and/or promiscuity play a part, by the way. It's a common stereotype that people say they're bi in their youth just to slut it up but will go have a "respectable" relationship once they settle down a bit. I don't know how you think of sexuality so we might be operating on completely different frameworks here but I think if you wanna make out with women, for quirky reasons or otherwise, then you're not exactly straight to me. (To each their own, I'm not gonna tell anyone how to identify, just a personal appraisal I guess). You said you knew someone like that, but I don't, so I'm not sure how one defines who fits the stereotype: bi women that abandon that label later? The ones that get cold feet about being out? Bi women that end up in long-term relationships with men? I know a malicious version of these people exists, I know they do. There's 7 billion people in the world and there's bound to be a subsection of people roleplaying at any number of things to get whatever attention/power/money they think they'll get out of it, but how statistically significant is this really? Is it worth even thinking about when dating? For me, no. YMMV.

Literally nobody else acts like this is the case outside of the internet.

That's. Simply not true? Just. Even virulently homophobic communities have queer people existing, living content, if private, lives. Some of them are even out and proud and fight for queer rights publicly. I just don't know how to disprove this one, short of dragging you to dinner with me and my friends. About half queer, half not. When conversations touch on sex or romance, no one is playing the pronouns game, no one blinks an eye, no one is worried or ashamed or self-conscious. "Out and proud" looks different for everyone. People who are content with their queerness exist where you are too, you just can't tell on sight. And I mean, personally, I feel no more pride in relation to my sexuality than I feel in connection to anything else I am (that I haven't achieved through hard work), the 'pride' of queerness for me is a direct counter to the shame people try to give me. But I'm certainly not unhappy or ashamed or would pick anything else if I had the choice nor have I mentally locked myself into a relationship with someone of a different gender just so I can pass for straight. In my life I've met exactly one person who agonized about their queerness.

I’m not going to blindly uproot my beliefs and agree to everyone’s outlook just because that’s the polite thing to do.

… is that the polite thing to do? No one responding was asking you to uproot your beliefs for their sake, and if they were they had no right to. But someone challenging what you say, disagreeing, explaining how they moved past their similar feelings isn't demanding anything of you in terms of character growth, in fact, dare I say the outlook most people have on anyone magically changing decades worth of feelings is uh, pretty bleak? It's a nice fantasy to think if you phrase something juuuust right, just persuasively enough that it will make a difference, but it's a fantasy, and I bet the average person reading wasn't holding their breath or grabbing the pitchforks. But for what it's worth, I agree with the overall point you made. We shouldn't blindly accept people's words.

I seriously doubt that half the people who go around telling others to go to therapy have actually done it themselves.

I mean. I hate therapy, I undiagnosed myself and stopped going at multiple points. It's painful and expensive, and that's a feature not a bug. I tell people to go to therapy because I have been to therapy and it's a great tool to change your life for the better. It's hard. I only manage it because I have a group of people that hold my hand through all of it, answer all my questions, helped me find a good professional, taught me how to judge that, taught me how to make the most of each session, and so much more. Accessibility for this kinda stuff is shitty, it sucks, I found it in internet friends that don't even speak my native language. But anyway, yeah, this one, this one is just wild to me because IDK about where you live, but where I live it's actually a stereotype that people who go to therapy get a lifetime debuff that makes them unable to shut the fuck up about it. I think you probably got a lot of words about therapy on account of the aforementioned debuff so I won't go point by point on what you think a therapist does and such, because I bet people have explained, but yeah, your ideas regarding that are disproportionately cynical and at times just plain wrong.

I think it’s important to be honest about my feelings, even if that means being an ass.

No one with a brain is gonna think you're an ass for being honest about your feelings. It's about context. I don't think you're an ass but if I did it would have more to do with your generalizations than with your honesty. You didn't come across badly imo in the offensive sense, just like you were spewing BS.

I don't think the appeal of this is something that anyone here has the background to really grasp.

I think you'd be surprised. A lot of people that I know that hang out/lurk that tumblr (and that are hardcore socialists or anarchocommunists for example, ideologies I don't share) have backgrounds of having been anti-sjws, or hanging in far-right crowds. So did I! A lot more people than you think get the appeal, either because we were there in the past, or our friends were or are attracted to certain parts of it now. Like you said, though, it's not an ideal environment, so people move away. And listen, maybe people won't admit it aloud or whatever, but that doesn't mean it's a category of people that doesn't exist.

I'm sleep deprived and English is hard and a bunch of this probably sounds condescending, so I'm sorry about that. Feel free to come back and call bullshit on all my stuff now (and name yourself something other than biphobe anon if that grates lmao)