#I feel enlightened about this

[agentc0rn]

He dared to fly high and beyond

With a will that burned hotter than the sun itself

Outstretched his hand

Just to feel a modicum of its light

Longing to possess its brilliance, power, legacy

Enveloped and overwhelmed

His wings of crystals cracked and he fell

Down into the heart of the sea

Just before the tides claimed him

From the skies, came down them

and reached a hand for his.

[istarryi]

dream's rebranding......... im scared

[adhdandcomics]

i’m very sorry that society has made you feel this way about your fellow disabled people. i hope you can reflect on why you believe that other people with worse symptoms than you are bringing down this community and giving us a bad name.

(especially in the context of a vent post that is not indicative of whether or not we are “actually trying�� in real life.)

i am also sorry that society makes you believe that in order for disabled people to be respected we have to consistently be working toward a nebulous goal of self improvement and overcoming of disability as to not be perceived as lazy and inconsiderate by the world.

i hope you can be kinder and more patient with yourself and your disability in the future, too.

[hydrachea]

Where my fellow Phainon/Mydei/Castorice soldiers at?

[lordgeneralsix]

do we fw fanart of the fucking sword

[secriden]

i've been thinking and thinking about the significance of the sunflowers parapai sends sky after their first face-to-face meeting post-one night stand and it suddenly hit me why it made such an impact on sky.

prior to this point, sky's attracted to prapai, no question about it. the physical attraction is there pretty much as soon as they lay eyes on each other. even at their one night stand, regardless of the reasons why (tbh my read was that sky wanted it in the moment to feel like he had a way to wrest control over (a) his own body and (b) the situation), sky at least physically seemed to enjoy himself. but its the lack of emotional connection, after the endorphin rush is over, that makes him feel like crap, makes him second-guess his worth and leave feeling used and hallow (and boy oh boy does peat manage to show that so well - he's so so good at wounded).

but then prapai comes back 3 months later, teasing and playful and flirty and still so attractive. sky recognises his own attraction (his self-talky bits are cute but they break my heart), but the one night stand was good enough physically for him to know he doesn't want just that. he doesn't just want to just feel physically good. and he's stuck in the thought that he can never have anything more.

when prapai tells him he's going to pursue him in sky's dorm lobby, he's startled but not shaken. he goes up to his room, essentially tells himself to get out of fantasy land, peeks out the window - but he still fundamentally doesn't engage with the idea that there could be anything real between them.

but the sunflowers and "remember that this wind's watching over the sky". it's protection; its safety.

sky's visibly shaken (peat, oh peat, the vulnerability you managed to convey) and i think this is probably the first time prapai actually manages to get a little bit past the wall sky's already put up between them. and prapai's such a flirty idiot i 100% think he didn't have a clue what he was saying, really. he just thought he was being clever with the unusual flower choice and playing with their names, but in a way that's what makes prapai so perfect for sky.

he's... well, guileless. he's almost accidentally exactly what sky needs to even consider falling in love after everything that happened to him. there's something very clumsy about the charm prapai has and i suspect it's because he's never really had to work to charm anyone before - his looks, money, and status do most of the heavy lifting for him. the fact that he isn't an absolute jerk is pretty much enough for most to be pulled into his orbit. but this works so well for sky because i think someone more suave and actually adapt at wordplay/flirting would have made him run for the hills, because it would have come across as manipulation given his trauma. but prapai is so bad at it (prapai: 'if you don't try it, how do you know?' sky: you absolute fucking idiot did you forget how we met?) that it actually sounds genuine. it makes it safe.

fuck, safety. i feel like it's something everyone wants on some level, but when you've gone through something like that... something where you're betrayed on such a fundamental level by someone you trust, safety becomes the core of what you need. i can deal with hunger, with pain, with loneliness, with being overworked, with being called names or scolded by others - as long as i can maintain that safety. and for sky, that safety always came when he was in his own hands. the only one he could trust with his safety was himself (even as a child, he had no one; alone in Bangkok with a mother who left and a father who cared but was too far away). its why sky isolates; why he'll help his classmates but never ask for help; why he takes the bullying som dishes out without a word.

then prapai comes in and takes care of him when he's sick. his safety is outside of his hands - terrifying. but... also such a relief. i cannot stress how much this was exactly what sky needed. if rain had taken care of him, he would've kicked rain out the second he became conscious. rain doesn't have the backbone/will/character to force the issue. but what prapai did was prioritise sky's safety (health) and for the first time in years, it didn't have to be in his own hands...

(prapai then goes on to makes a lot of other accidentally good choices - comes to Last Cheer and gives him medicine, a place to rest his head, and a quiet space so he can do what he wants (stay to the end, not worry his friends). care, offered at sky's terms. even the bits where prapai's a visibly horny idiot, nearly edging past sky's boundaries but not is counterintuitively perfect because sky sees that prapai's going against what he wants to make sure sky's expressed boundaries are honoured and sees how it costs him something - but, also, i think that speaks more to (a) prapai's growth as a character now that he has a focus that goes beyond the instant gratification of physical release and (b) mame knows her characters and prapai is built to be perfect for sky. honestly most of the skill in writing prapai was the change was gradual enough to be believable in the context of this world. but i digress.)

i just... really adore what prapai did for sky here. like, utter relief that comes from having someone take care of you when you've had to take care of yourself for so long. like a heavy burden suddenly rolling off. and the sunflowers are cheesy but they're the first real hint that this is what's going to make prapai succeed with sky. its not (just) that he's attractive and persistent - that wouldn't have been enough ultimately. (for eg. had phayu pursued sky, he would've also been attractive and persistent but boy would sky have run for the hills with that kind of pursuit. phayu's hot but the manipulation in how he got rain... sometimes i'm baffled by this fandom's take on phayu vs prapai because it's always prapai that everyone calls shady/problematic when he's actually very transparent and honest with his intensions with sky vs the mind games phayu played with rain. i don't have an issue with it because of how rain's character's written - he needed a phayu to get past his internal hang ups - but still, baffling.)

but its how he continually offered to take on the burden of care from sky. so sky could finally actually address the other things he needed. sky didn't have the (physical OR emotional) bandwidth to even consider a relationship until prapai because no one was taking those things off his plate (feeding him, making sure he rests, making sure he took care of himself. like - even when prapai just reminds sky to take care of himself, that's taking some of that mental load off sky having to remember for himself).

honestly this is why when in the scene when sky opens the door to prapai when he's half asleep and then lets prapai feed him, and lets him put him to bed, undress and dress him (all things that would have triggered sky to hell before) - I actually believe it. i believe that sky feels safe around prapai because he's done nothing but actively, persistently offer that to sky over and over again by this point.

anyway, yes, i just really love the sunflower scene for how it gives us that first real glimpse as to why prapai really was perfect for sky.

[magicalmagecats]

Entire time watching One Piece: ummm I’m not too sure about Sanji

After Whole Cake Island: ahhhhh I understand now

[littlestormofmess]

BOO, @serizawasgamecube / @hananono !! HAPPY HOLIDAYS FROM YOUR SECRET SPIRIT !! 👻👻👻

i tried my hand at drawing your lovely android reigen design ! i saw a lotta cool concepts in your reference sheets and i wanted to show off the different model parts, his human looking exterior and the machinery inside.. at the same time, so it ended up a little instrospective and angsty, whoops ksdhs

had a lot of fun figuring out how to draw and paint many new things for this one, hope it's not too outlandish for what you envisioned for this au!

anddd here's a happier doodle cause i realized too late i should've probably added some holiday cheer ksagdj oh well

thank you for your amazing prompts, hal, and thank you @mp100secretspirit for hosting this wonderful event !

happy new year, everyone !! ♡♡♡♡♡

[ysaefinn]

not that i'm the one who sent the anon ask (about the hair down there) but, wow😭

no because i so agree with everything you said - it isn't suguru that gets weirded out, he weirds you out sometimes instead<3 but thank you for adding the cuteness aggression part, i now have stuff to think about

also, hi! hope your day has been going well and sorry to just 💀barge in like this

God, you're so correct, I don't think anything relationship-wise can shake Suguru Geto if anything he wishes you would just abandon shame altogether and hold his hand as you run into the sunset naked 😭😭

I'm gonna yap about this some more pardonez moi 🫶

Bodily hair is just another part of you to him, if not more intimate since it's something you insist to be so very personal , and he loves you, and wants to care for you completely , if a=b and b=c then a=c, what kind of husband would he be if he found things like these taboo or to be ashamed of?

Suguru does respect your privacy and wishes, but the most flustered you act about something, the mlre tempted he gets to get you to drop those walls, he's working hard to eradicate shame from the relationship 😭

[lizzybeeee]

Dragon Age Day 2024 you will always be remembered lmao

[cherryzlem]

(Reblogs >>> likes 🫶)

Doomed yaoi being normal for once and a meme that made me laugh outloud like a dumbass when I imagined it

[simcardiac-arrested]

IM SURE YOUVE ALREADY EXPLAINED IT SOMEWHERE but.. may i ask about the story in bitter choco decoration. I like those guys :)

you’d be surprised but i apparently have never talked about these particular ocs’ story in detail on this particular tumblr blog. so i shall do just that…. i tried to summarize but it got kind of long oops, as it always does when i talk about my mentally ill ass ocs

so! as u might already know the guys in the video are rikki and william, and the animatic happens from rikki’s pov. rikki is basically the golden child of the family—smart, well-behaved, always keeping her parents satisfied, etc etc. generally she is put under a lot of pressure a lot of the time. and then her family decides to get an insurance child so to speak—just in case rikki fails in life—but they don’t want to go through the trouble of raising another one, so they decide to adopt.

that’s where william comes in, baby! now he is decidedly Not the golden child. he is the problem child. parents thought they could reform him—well, not much to show for that. but him and rikki surprisingly get along, even though they’re opposites. william actually gets someone who cares about him for once and wants him to be okay, and rikki gets someone who wants her to be more bold, stand up to others and consider what she herself wants instead of people-pleasing. he even gets her to make snide jokes and cut her hair. they’re best friends, it’s nice. for a while.

but, none of it is perfect. you know how rikki always seems to be smiling even though she’s clearly not having a good time? and you know all those red eyes that appear pretty much everytime william’s on screen? rikki has so many layers of masks that william never really feels like he actually knows her. and william, even though he mostly wants rikki to do her own thing, can still kind of be selfish and controlling (because he’s a teenager, and traumatized, and scared of losing his best friend, but it doesn’t change the fact that rikki feels the same pressure from him as she feels from their parents).

so this all culminates when they’re in high school and rikki buries herself in work—she wants to secure a good education and a good job so that she can actually get them both out of this shitty abusive household. for the first time in her whole life, she has a Goal that she personally has chosen. she now has someone to work hard for. but she also ends up spending a lot less time with that someone because of her studying, and it eats at william and eats and eats until—it turns out rikki’s hard work has actually paid off. she’s gotten a scholarship, and she can leave for a good university and she’s finally achieved something that she herself has wanted to do and not anyone else. for both of them. for her brother.

except her brother doesn’t react with support, like usual. he’s not cheering her on now that she’s fulfilled her dream and beyond. he just looks betrayed. because they’re best friends. they promised to be there for each other, to get out of this hellhole house together. how could she leave him behind? how is he supposed to make it without her, who is he going to have on his side? william loves her and wants her to be happy but he doesn’t want her to leave.

so in turn—because rikki is a) an avoidant little bitch who would rather masterfully evade conflict than try to have an opinion and b) doesn’t want her brother to hate her forever and not speak to her ever again—in turn, rikki, as always, as second nature, lies. i mean, it’s her dream, it’s something she’s been working towards for years, but she’ll stay. she’ll leave it behind. it makes perfect logical sense to her—best of both worlds: she doesn’t spend the last summer at home with her brother resenting her, and she still gets to actually go to university. it is basically flawless.

all up until, you know, the day comes where she actually has to move out and go to university. and william inevitably finds out that she lied to him. and they fight. it’s not good. it’s not happy. they end up separating on really bad terms, and not talking for the next 7 years because william runs away from home pretty much soon after rikki leaves (it’s not shown in the animatic but he does go MIA, rikki visits home once on holiday to find that her brother is just Gone, no one knows where he is, her parents couldnt give less of a shit, not great all around!!!) then rikki ends up graduating and looking for an easy first job, just to kind of set her foot in Job World.

unfortunately, it is also the exact same easy, convenient job that her brother ends up picking. hoo, boy. long time no see.

[uwu-scraptrappy]

Hey guys did I tell you I'm writing a warrior cats and saw au. Yeah I'm doing it again. I'll probably lorepost soon but like. I've got thoughts about kitty logan nelson and his dead wife and living boyfriend that I want to share with the three logan fans here

Whole lotta hcs under the cut but let's start off with

RussetFire (Logan/Christine)

Russetclaw (then Russetcloud when he was ShadowClan) was born during Brokenstar's reign. He was made an apprentice at just 3 moons old, forced to fight other apprentices with his claws out and sometimes even fully grown warriors. He's always had a connection to StarClan, but he had no choice to be a medicine cat.

He first met Firestorm, who was the daughter of rogues, when he was chased by dogs at the tender age of 6 moons. She pulled him up a tree by the scruff, avoiding the dogs and saving their lives. Russetclaw fell in love at first sight, but didn't realize until later.

Russetclaw snuck out every night to meet her, playing moss ball and chasing mice until their paws gave out. She told him stories her parents passed down to her, and he told her about StarClan. She wanted to join ShadowClan, but was scared of Brokenstar and felt like she would never be safe in a Clan led by such a vicious cat.

When Brokenstar was replaced by Nightstar, Russetclaw felt safe enough to bring Firestorm into ShadowClan territory and announce her intent to join. Nightstar, although hesitant about bringing in rogues so soon after such a terrible leader, agreed, and Firestorm was made an apprentice.

Shortly after Firestorm became a warrior, Nightstar died and Tigerstar took his place. Both Russetclaw and Firestorm were terrified, since Tigerstar wouldn't take kindly to a former rogue, and agreed to leave. Although Firestorm fell in love with ShadowClan, she couldn't stay in a Clan that didn't love her back. Russetclaw went with her, unwilling to live in a Clan that didn't accept someone he's grown to love.

Firestorm confessed first, and they became mates. For a long time, they were content living as rogues in the nearby Twolegplace, sleeping curled up together under warm shelters and rolling around in the fields. While they both missed the pine forest, they ultimately turned their backs on ShadowClan

Until one day, an old, wrinkly, hairless cat approached them, claiming to be their salvation. He called himself Sawstar, and offered them Clanmates, prey, a real Clan to belong to again - at a price. Russetclaw would have to go through a trial in order for them to be accepted.

Russetclaw, who gained his current name as a result of the scars from the trial, succeeded, and he and Firestorm joined. Firestorm was always skeptical of "SawClan", and especially of Sawstar himself, but as long as her mate was happy. Besides, they wanted to be long to a Clan again.

They had always waited on having kits until they were in a proper Clan, and after long talks about how stable it really was to have kits in SawClan, Firestorm was expecting and had one little daughter, Riverkit.

Firestorm would join Russetclaw on a border patrol, convincing him that she was well enough to go and that Riverkit would be fine, where she would be attacked by a rogue and killed right in front of Russetclaw.

Shortly after the attack and the subsequent funeral, Russetclaw begged Sawstar to be made a medicine cat, saying he couldn't take seeing anymore lives taken on the battlefield. Riverkit, who was the same age as Russetclaw was when he first became an apprentice at the time, was moved to another queen's nest.

Firestorm was buried underneath her favorite flowers, beside one of the few pines that withstood the Twoleg destruction.

To this day, Russetclaw visits Firestorm every night in StarClan, to the point other StarClan warriors had to tell him that while it was sweet he still loved his mate so much, it was technically an abuse of his medicine cat powers.

Firestorm gently tries to encourage him to move on from her, to find new love in another cat and that she'll still wait for him no matter what, but Russetclaw stubbornly refuses.

RussetViper (Logan/Zep)

Viperwhisper joined SawClan not long after the death of Firestorm, after Palestep (Lawrence) and his mate and kit went through theirs. At first, Viperwhisper was mostly in the nursery to check in on little Dustkit (Diana), since he felt bad about what he did in his trial.

One time while Viperwhisper was visiting Dustkit and Leopardtooth(Alison), he was formally introduced to Riverkit and Russetclaw, who at the time had Firestorm's death fresh in their memory. His efforts to help Dustkit turned to Riverkit and helping her cope, and eventually to Russetclaw.

Viperwhisper made a point to go out hunting or patrolling with Russetclaw when he was out looking for herbs, letting the medicine cat talk everything out.

The whole falling in love process was quick on Viperwhisper's end, since Russetclaw was always so kind to him and never treated him as less than crowfood. At first, he hated himself for feeling that way over a freshly widowed cat, and an important part of SawClan's structure nonetheless. As time went on and the wounds were healing, they formed a deep friendship.

Viperwhisper would exclusively hunt rabbits for Russetclaw and eat it with him, using it as an opportunity to get close with him - something Firestorm often did. They would go on walks when Russetclaw couldn't sleep, play with Riverkit together, even gather herbs when Viperwhisper wasn't busy.

Russetclaw, when he finally realized how he really feels about Viperwhisper, panicked. He didn't want to move on from Firestorm, felt that this attraction for him was betraying her, betraying Riverkit, undoing all the hard work he put into being able to go to that same spot where she was killed all those moons ago. At first, he distanced himself in an effort to outrun his feelings, until Firestorm herself told him to stop being stupid and stop running from his feelings.

They haven't officially become mates yet 👀

[lorillee]

im really normal about them <- lie

[yingren]

stuck in the perpetual state of not allowing myself to send ask memes to people while i have other things to write because i usually like to reply to whatever is written for me so adding things to my drafts will make people wait eons for one reply and also feeling bad for not sending any in since people sent them to me and

[askkaimei]

I learned recently that Hinayukki has a site, linked on her youtube, where she has loads of songs free to download. And she has created some quality kaimei angsty songs in the past.

Cultured learning 🤌✨️