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The L Word | S2E01
#the l word#shane mccutcheon#kate moennig#in a horrible mood but i still had the episode open from last night and laughed so hard at this awful outfit i almost briefly forgot#i actually love it in concept i just dont know what they were thinking with the random sidepieces for her hair which i think throw the whol#thing into this weird sort of disarray#but i love the short blazer sleeves ovr the shirt a lot also how weirdly unironed the shirt kind of appears#also the low jeans with the belt..? not crazy about the decor on the blazer tho#but i love the glasses forevr#but again i feel like her hair is so weirdly fried in this or maybe cked with hairspray#anyway im fine sorta#actually really funny to post this also after the last one bc she looked so good in that and so BAD here#soryr this outfit deserved its own complete commentary in tags but lookbook coming eventually#also im pretty sure her hair is like tied back in some sor tof way which also looks horrific#who did this literally whos idea was this#also sorry it was roiginally 4 but looking at them together i think it only needs 2
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OC SMASH or PASS
Thank you for the tags @pinkberrytea and @razrogue hehe glad to get to this one... and both your Tavs are always a smash uwu
I tag: @pastel-starr-bitch @rielzero @bardic-inspo (and anyone else who might wanna do it! no pressures💜)
Rules: pretty self explanatory. include physical descriptions or pics, and propaganda. the “other” label can be used for “sexuality misalignment” (ie: oc is femme and you’re gay, vice versa or you aren’t into smashing but a specific thing you wanna do with them like perhaps hug or study them under a microscope idc).
Efenity Kelmorn
Quick Facts:
Height: 6ft2in/187cm
Age: 37
Gender: Female
Pronouns: She/Her
Sexuality: Straight/Demisexual
Pros:
Dedicated - Once she has a plan, she will stick to it and find a way to make it work. if she has promised herself to something, she will not break that promise to herself.
Patient - She will wait to see how she meshes (or not) with someone and give them time to prove themselves.
Clever - Enjoys puzzles and logic games. Enjoys getting into tight situations to figure her way out.
Detail Oriented - Will notice and remember small details about someone.
Sense of Humor - She loves to laugh and can find humor in a lot of situations.
Sturdy and Solid - A pillar of strength and steadfastness, both physically and emotionally. She has learned to control her emotions thanks to their effect on her magic, and remains calm in trouble. And she can lift most average and small sized people.
Devious and Cheeky - Not afraid to get unserious and poke fun.
Curious - To a fault, she delves into mysteries and wants to explore. Things might get dangerous but it's never boring with her.
Protective - Those who have weaseled into her heart have gained a fierce protector who will raise all nine hells to get them what they want.
Cons:
Stubborn - Once she has a plan, she refuses to budge. She is only dedicated to her own cause. The moment someone else's cause does not align with her own, she will turn on them somehow.
Always Scheming - She takes time to learn about those around her, in case they prove themselves useful to her (ie taking advantage of others lol)
Manipulative - Plots very elaborate plans to steer others toward her own will and desires.
Bully - Gets a laugh out of making fun of and belittling others.
Intimidating - uses her strength/stature to scare, threaten, and manipulate others into going her way, or else.
Brutally honest - Will point out others' insecurities and negative traits with no tact or gentleness.
Prying - Will weasel into sensitive information and tunnel into secrets and dark places she isn't supposed to be (and may use it for blackmail).
Obsessive - Once someone is in her very tiny circle, she will do all she can to control their lives, not maliciously necessarily, but in whatever way to avoid losing them as long as possible. She will try to manipulate them to make choices that she views as "safer" for her own comfort and the security of the relationship.
Cruel and Indifferent - Wil kill, maim, cheat, lie to, steal from, and be all around cruel to anyone, if they are an obstacle between herself and what she wants. And it's their own fault for being so trusting.
Stoic and bottles emotions - Will rarely have heart to hearts or spill her true thoughts to someone, unless they've reached a certain level with her that very few every have. Even then, her honest heart is locked down tighter than the Declaration of Independence in National Treasure.
DETAILS
Doesn't like men bigger/taller than her.
Touching her feels like static electricity sometimes and she zaps people slightly by accident all the time. Needless to say, she's not touchy feely at all.
Ironically has slight astraphobia, thanks to her trauma with the storm that killed her father. Storms in nature are beyond her control and that's scary.
While she can channel any atmosphere related magic best, her biggest connections are to lightning and thunder.
Has tried relationship things with women but isn't super into it. Willing to try again if it felt right and just happened to work out, but definitely prefers men overall.
Dangerous sleeper--will punch by instinct if she is woken up suddenly (Astarion learned this the hard way and that's my hc for why they sleep/rest in separate bedrolls lmao)
Got the gigantic eye wing tattoos at fifteen because she thought it made her look more intimidating. A kid she knew called her a racoon and she thunderwaved him into a wall (he didn't die, but certainly could have).
Is either scheming, eating, or working out. Rarely has free time.
Can make a "gym" for herself anywhere. Will use branches, trees, stones, walls, logs, anything she can find to do various exercises with.
Changes her hair up a lot and experiments with various styles for fun. Also enjoys playing with make up.
Has a lot of piercings she mostly did herself: Bridge, septum, snake bites, 3 on each ear, and nipples. Perhaps has more elsewhere 🤔🫣idk
#so this tag game helped me realize that all of Efie's pros/good traits#are just byproducts of her cons/bad traits and idk how to feel about that#but it made me laugh a bit too hard 🥲🤣#she's so awful and I love her sm#efenity#tag game#bg3 tav#baldur's gate 3#baldur's gate iii#baldurs gate 3#tav oc#storm sorcerer
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So I was reading articles about John Hurt (as I do when I procrastinate on life in general lol) and I saw a still shot of a movie I’ve never seen still shots of before; so I looked it up. It’s a play. I was worried I wouldn’t find it in full online; but I did, so here it is in all its glory:
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He’s just… ugh I want to gently hold his face in my hands he’s just so sad and lonely with his weepy voice and eye bags. I couldn’t process half of what he said but I think this is a warning about always speed-running through life to get to the next good thing. We should appreciate the moment; because in the end, we’ll have nothing at all but our memories. If we rush through life, we won’t have any memories to keep us warm at night when the chill of death creeps up on us in our old age.
Also, spool, spooooooooooollll…….
spoooooooooooooooooooooolllllll [cackles in mentally unstable]
@kaleidoscopr @theindo @possessedbydevils @randomtwospirit
#The fucking banana. I was talking to him through the screen like#“…a banana??? You keep bananas in…. there? You good man? A—are you okay?#What the hell are y—” [cracks up but quickly stops laughing] “Oh— oh honey… you’re not right are you?#No you’re not right. Uh…. Why don’t you sit down; your breathing sounds awful. You sound like you’re gonna die…#OH GOD [loses my shit laughing/cringing ] “Oh— oh ouch. No no no— I’m not laughing at you I just— I like your actor…#a lot… too much probably#and he’s just good at what he does and the timing of it all… this is exactly how I act when I’m home alone#I swear I’m not laughing at you… I just— PUT THAT BANANA BACK YOU’RE GOING TO KILL YOURSELF”#John Hurt#stage acting#Krapp’s Last Tape (2001)#Samuel Beckett#Yeah… funky stage play. Very moving and dreamlike#[This is me gently holding Mr. Krapp and rotating him in my mind like a bowl of ramen in a microwave]#Screaming crying throwing up beating the walls#I am unwell#Ough ough ough#It’s not difficult for me to watch per se#but I’m very much the kind of person who HAS to help when someone’s having a hard time doing something#— especially if they’re old or otherwise infirm — or I’ll feel like a piece of shit for weeks… and this fucking man#this fucking man is so good at being frail and pitiful that I feel genuinely agitated that I can’t reach into the screen and help him#It’s like the torture scene in 1984 all over again where he just barely manages to wrench himself upright on the table#then immediately falls off onto the concrete floor with the most tragic sickening bone-grinding splat you’ve ever heard#AND HAS TO HOIST HIMSELF UP ONTO HIS FEET ALL BY HIMSELF WHEN HE’S MALNOURISHED AND EXHAUSTED#Like ughhhhhh let me pick him up and wrap him in a blanket and carry him somewhere warm and safe and make him an omelette#And I know I write whump and I shouldn’t be this sensitive#but JESUS FUCKING CHRIST MR. HURT YOU ARE KILLING ME#Youtube
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I am the happiest person on earth right now because I just went out with a friend to grab a late lunch and it was just supposed to be a quick casual catch up thing that turned into a 4 hour conversation in the car about things that happened to us almost a decade ago 🥲
#roadie rambles#no one’s obligated to read this but y’all…you better sit down if you’re interested bc I’m feeling SO chatty tonight#for context: this is my childhood friend I grew up with then we went to different high schools and colleges#but over the years we’ve kept in touch and we see each other maybe 2-3 times a year#we have really similar personalities#okay so basically. 👏 today we learned that we had the /exact same/ traumatic experience in high school /almost around the same time/#and not only that!!! the people who caused it were the same people who were in our childhood 4 person friend group!! (we split 2-2 in hs)#now before you get worried: I’m not about to traumadump and we’re both in better wiser healthier places now#but imagine that!!!#the same exact experiences down to a T. and neither of us shared it until now#we weren’t ready to at the time and we’re not exactly the most open with our feelings#plus. different schools different lives not seeing each other every day yada yada#but with the clarity of hindsight and both of us being adults now we were ready!!! 👏👏#we had a convo in the car that naturally led into us letting it all out#and shit man. it’s not the trauma olympics here but. I thought the aftermath of what I went through was bad#venting it out was awesome for both of us and we had a lot of good laughs over it#but my friend…she went through some awful stuff#really hard stuff.#it broke my heart honestly bc she’s an amazing person and she didn’t deserve any of it#I made sure she knew that. she made sure /I/ knew that.#we were both hurt and betrayed in the same ways. but we also learned from it in the same ways. and now it’s something we share#we both wished that we could’ve had this convo years earlier#but I know that it wouldn’t have happened in the same way bc we weren’t at our current levels of maturity back then#I believe we were meant to have this convo /today/ and now we’re both better for it#that’s on growing up and having someone to heal with babey!!!! 🥹💖💖💖#if you made it this far thank you!! I appreciate it#I’m just…gonna lay here with my full heart and think about this forever now
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step 1 of watching suits: haha fun plot! look at this little guy pretending to be a law school graduate. yeah this won't have any consequences whatsoever
step 2 of watching suits: oh this little guy and that bigshot lawyer have some good chemistry. yeah they're both committing a crime by having him work at this new york big law firm but it's fun :)
step 3 of watching suits: they're actually facing consequences to their actions now, but oh god i don't want to see either of them lose. yes, they did something terrible but don't we all want to feel a bit special. don't we all feel stuck. doesn't our own ambition swallow us whole. don't we feel insanely loyal to the person who gave us everything. we're going down together. if you go, i go.
#caroline watches tv#suits#anyways. biting them. shaking them.#staring at the characters and laughing nervously because yes i know that they're doing awful things#but also i feel so much for them#i do feel quite a bit for mike because it's like. that frustration of knowing you could have been someone but then something happened#and you were shunted out of a life that you always wanted to have. and you're scrambling to get it back. you're trying so hard.#and when someone presents it to you on a silver platter. yeah you're gonna take it.#and also like. harvey.#like. yes he's morally grey or morally bankrupt (depending on who you ask) but it's like. you're this giant of an attorney who never loses#and you recruit this guy who you know is lying but you're never going to give up on him. you don't want anyone to leave you but you also#don't know how to ask anyone to stay.#which isn't much of an excuse for like. helping commit fraud.#but also. harvey can pretend he doesn't need anyone but the most pathetic truth is that he needs people so badly#and he has no idea what to do with that.#and tbh. i think when he saw mike. he saw a glimmer of something real and earnest and immediately decided to keep him.#and there's so much irony in that? the most genuine person he's ever known is also someone who's going to defraud an entire law firm#something tragic about that but also something so intriguing. anyways i'm normal about this show#i'm normal about them. etc.
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these things are always happening to the ones i like :////////
anyways the lighting in this dungeon is so nice
didn't get any good pics bc i was too busy dungeoning but so pretty...best dungeon music so far goes to snowcloak though btw
#ffxivposting#i knew it was coming bc i tried to use the google search bar as a spellcheck for his name (LOL) like a DUMBASS because in the suggestions..#i was like no!! no!! but he's so funny!!!!!! and the second he showed up in game again i started taking screenshots of me n the bestieee#it wouldnt be accurate to say that i am Emotional about this but i am like aw man...but he was so funny...insert montage of All The Memorie#was crazy seeing her looking so distressed in a cutscene. girl me too! he was so funny </3#the loud ass screenshot sound effects throughout the cutscene were funny though.this is who i am#altogether i have like 150+ screenshots of this game thus far.serious shit#IN OTHER NEWS:#- i cant stop laughing at finding out that a.lphinaud is in fact 16 years old. like i was guessing he was 17 or so but man it checks out#so hard. smart fella or not of course the sixteen year old boy naively founded a private army. it checks out so hard. hes cute :)#- since the tail end of arr patch quests ive been checking npc dialogue of relevant characters and thats a bit of a goldmine sometimes#- the first time aymeric(?) (not double checking via google ive learned my lesson) showed up i joked that he was going to be an akc type#and well no. he's really not. but i did cackle when it was revealed that he was a bastard child. clocked him on accident#- addicted to dalamud red dye. was funny when estinien started rocking his blood red armor like omg now we're Extra twinsies!#funny to me when they acknowledge the whole drg class stuff. like ah yes the Other azure drg. sorry estinien this feels like stolen valor#this is just what happens when u play f.fiv multiple times when u are r like 6. and also just think lances are sexy.#- can't wait to find out where tf the rest of the scions went. hi guys. you wont Believe what happened while you were AFK!#that's right! dragons! and then theyre like I Haven't Seen The Light Of The Sun For An Ambiguous Amount Of Time...cowabummer!#i keep joking abt needing to do a wellness check on urianger but honestly hes fine hes living it up in the sand. hes doing fine#- anyway can someone do a wellness check on ysayle(?).#- i've unlocked flight in a couple zones! thankkk god. some of these places are ROUGH to navigate without it sometimes.#- my keybinds are rough. also i have a gauge now. havent gotten to use it bc of level sync but anyway this feels like school#dont worry chat i only do duties with other real players when i Literally Have To Because They Make Me#- anyway. very ? about what theyre going to do with the rest of this story. intrigued. and quite sleepy i must say.
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I was sayin goodnight to my friend, yknow, as one does, and then these were made.
I might be going to hell for these, but I’m crying with laughter and maybe you will too 🫶
#i think im funny#but im not#these are actually so horrible#im an awful person#but ive been laughing so hard i think i hurt myself#fma#fullmetal alchemist#edward elric#fmab#fma edward#ed elric#fma:b#fullmetal alchemist brotherhood#fullmetal alchimist brotherhood#fma: brotherhood#i love him so much#i do feel bad#fmab spoilers#??? maybe#fma spoilers#god im going insane#tw blo0d#J text
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Just realised
February 2022 - Drakengard 1.3
February 2023 - Drakengard "Magnitude Negative"
February 2024 -
I'm free :')
#drakengard#gu6chan's musings#making a statement on all that soon since I'm going to be asking AL to stop hosting my works#as much as I'd LIKE to keep the reach accessible it's run by people who have caused me and others a LOT of pain and generally#the owner is a nice guy but the mods and whole community surrounding AL has done some awful shit and I've decided I just can't feel good#affiliating myself with them anymore; it's not fair to the people they've hurt and who *I* hurt trying to live up to their standards and#'community'#as far as translations in general go it's still rocky for me since like#I'd LIKE to; there's nothing I love more than being able to share these worlds and details with people#but after seeing shit like the twin theory and only being asked about 'how x fits in the lore' a million times I've come to realise that#people don't really CARE about the worlds themselves; they just see them as parts of a larger puzzle and anything that doesn't fit is just#laughed off; recontextualised or even outright disregarded#it's selfish of me to say since everyone deserves to make use of these works in their own way; even if its disagreeable or even wrong#but it's seriously demotivating as a translator to work so hard on something and just see people completely miss the point of the work and#just chop it into pieces for their typical 'it HAS to relate to nier or Drakengard 3' spiel#like people just cant respect the work in it's own right and world at all anymore it seems and it hurts#and again its selfish of me but if i knew that 1.3 and Magnitude Negative were going to be used like that I would have never translated the#there's just a lot to consider because I've found I LOVE doing it and making these things available but#i don't even know if it's worth it tbh
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who is your favorite one piece character. *staring intently no pressure no pressure no pres (´灬⊙ω⊙灬`)♡
Idk some fucking guy that showed up on screen for a bit he was kinda cool
#luffy is a character that i feel everybody including the viewer is meant to kind of underestimate at first#to chalk him up to a naive fucking idiot that's gonna get himself killed by something more powerful because he overestimated himself#you keep waiting until he bites off more than he can chew#yknow you wait until he finally meets that match that makes him hesitate and think ''i'm not strong enough‚ i need to improve''#like so many shonen do nowadays where the main character gets humbled by someone more powerful than the level they're at#but with luffy that just.... doesnt happen#no matter how fucking awful and horrifying the series gets sometimes and how high the stakes rise with more genocidal villains#luffy acts as the humanized force of unshakable freedom that cant be silenced for good#luffy is a protagonist but he is also an all-encompassing metaphor that seeps from every pore of the series#and i feel extremely strongly about what he represents and the way he can change YOU and make u feel the hope u thought u lost#he is a character but he is most importantly a vessel for a story that‚ at heart‚ wants you to laugh and dream and love unabashedly#he is not a mascot lil shonen protag created for the sake of telling the viewer ''killing bad! friendship important!''#that motherfucker is built to inspire you to be shamelessly happy to fucking live and laugh and dream big idiot dreams#its hard to describe what he fucking Does to your brain to people used to consuming trash anime with basic niceguy protags#but luffy isnt just a protag. he is a feeling that you learn to adopt. but the depth of that cant be described until you feel it#its a shame people get so scared of the episode count because theyll never experience one of the most soul-changing series ever made#luffy is just one guy in a series full of characters so nuanced and fleshed out they could have their own damn shows
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This is so wrong but i can't stop laughing 🙈🙈🙈
#this had me laughing so hard i had to share 😂😂😂😂#i feel awful for it but god 😂😂😂😂😂#I can't breathe kspakspskspakapakpa#send help#911#911 spoilers#i guess? is buck dying still a spoiler?#diaz
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#it's been days and I don't know if I've fully absorbed it or not#i've been bouncing off to denial and acceptance every minute so yeah#astro's been my emotional pillar for years#ever since I met them i felt more positive in life#sure there were a lot of awful things that happened over the years. that's how life goes#but whenever I feel lonely angry or tinest bit of upset I would listen to one astro song and it'll feel much better#or watch any astro video and I would find myself smiling/laughing and suddenly life doesn't suck as much anymore#this year generally for me has been a mess even worse than years when i had to be hospitalized or sick generally#i got better physically but it's mentally draining#when rocky left astro it hurt for a moment but that's how their industry works and I understood that#i got to see him bonding with his brother and he could still smile and that all matters#then the news of binnie passing came#I've barely listened to any of their songs for the last days because I could hear his voice and it hurts#few days and break downs later i feel a bit better and I could watch some of their show (i still avoid any live performances tho)#now something came up again and I realized that I can't run back to them the way I used to#at least without being reminded that there wouldn't be a chance to see them complete again#and that hit me hard
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#so I have officially been to a club/bar now#tag talk#it was a country bar which was actually cool cause they played like. actual old country none of the post-9/11 shit#except everything else about it was ugh awful. music too loud drinks FUCKING EXPENSIVE holy shit stay home and drink instead pleaseeee#it was a work thing but none of my coworkers I'm friends with actually knew what they were doing so while I wasn't actual awkward they were#and the thing about social interaction is that if no one knows what they're doing it's not very fun#I grabbed someone and started a pool game because the table was open and both of us were absolute garbage at the game#but I was laughing about it and they were like... apologetic about being bad?? d#I did have the classic experience though where your friends disappear and you end up alone because you don't know where they went#all in all an interesting experience but not one I'm eager to repeat.#I did get invited to someone's Christmas Eve Party though which is cool and they gave me their number to make sure I have the info#so probably worth going just for that I think. got their phone number so we can communicate so that's like. successful social connection.#we're already friendly at work but easier to talk to someone when you're both not busy on the opposite side of the store with customers#anyway. who tf out going to clubs. awful environment.#I was like.. twenty percent of the way to being comfortable going out and dancing but hard to just swallow your hesitation#and a) alcohol as liquid courage is hmm not ideal and b) it was expensive anyway#oh well. it'll take more time to come out of my shell and I'd literally never been to a bar/club before in my life.#so I'll have some patience with myself and not be annoyed with how I could have done better or been more confident.#literally totally new environment. also... country music was nice but not a group of people I could really be comfortable around yaknow?#Lotta old white straight couples dancing the country two-step so I didn't really feel like I fit in.#anyway. interesting experience. neat to have. if I ever have a reason to go to a bar again I'll know more about what to expect#also... no one carded me. no one asked for ID? aren't they supposed to#oh wait. comment about the yodeling cause it was actual old country but they didn't do the voice register changes for it#I was like WAIT ARE THEY GONNA YODEL FOR REAL??? but then he didn't he just jumped intervals without shifting voice.#was a little disappointing but maybe a lot to expect from a random stage show at a bar.#wait wait I'm also proud of myself because the bartender asked open or closed and my mind scrambled for half a second to figure it out#but then I realized it meant open tab or closed tab like ordering more drinks and then paying at the end and so obviously closed#cause I ain't buying more than the one drink holy fuck it was so expensive also they mix them way stronger than I like#I like my drink weak ass and pathetic. alcohol is like spice I like a little to taste but not a lot. complimentary not overpowering#I drank it and then remembered I never ate lunch so I was like fuck and immediately went and ate something (work party so free food)
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I went on a third date and had fantastic sex with an extremely attractive, thoughtful, sensitive guy who I wanted to be in a relationship with and all I actually came away with were weird hickeys and a UTI 🥲🔫
#my post#can’t stop thinking abt lying next to him and making him downright giggle#and how in that moment I thought ‘I want to make him laugh like this again and again’#and. now I’m here.#sad girl hours!!!#I know that just because he was the first guy after my awful ex to yknow not make me feel like I had to hide part of myself#doesn’t mean he will be the last person I feel safe being myself around#it just hits extra hard because well. he was the first. after that really bad relationship.#literal balm to the wounds I’d almost healed#yeah I’m more upset over this than I was over ending that 2.5yr relationship#fwiw it was third date but after texting nearly daily for two months :’(#we live in different cities#that’s part of the life stuff in the way#I know I’m too bad of a bitch to be this miserable over a guy#and I know there are so many people who will love me for me AND leave bite marks on my arms#but still. goddamn. wish it was him
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nothing like going to the tumblr tag for a book you just read out of curiosity and finding the authors HARD CORE vent posts like Instantly
#like sis.. maybe a sideblog?#i was very tempted to post about the book (and not tag it bc a lot of what i had to say was Not Nice lmao)#bc it was genuinely really interesting and i feel like the disability rep was like. COMEDIC levels of awful at some points#but it still seemed to come from a good place? and at least Acknowledged that there are complex conversations to be had#regarding disability accomodating the stigma around it etc#even if the conclusions it seemed to come to were all completely ass backwards#but honestly considering how fucking boring and samey most books with any pretense of disability rep are#the fact that it at least Tried and had some original ideas was something#but oh god were there DramaticTM scenes that had me laughing my goddamn ass off#because they were just. so far removed from reality in a book that was trying SO HARD#to be SO EARNEST and SO REAL with its representation#hm i guess i did talk about it after all oops#but no title or author!!! not unless youre gonna slide into my dms for the whole dish of dirt
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i love the way the sky looks when it's snowing. because it's not dark at all. it's a solid medium grey color, but that mixed with the street lights and house lights makes it look like it's kind of lit up as if it's the few minutes before sunrise and you're expecting to see the sun peek out soon.
#i just love it so much#this is also something faye would say and harry would just blink at her#except she'd say it like#'when it snows i feel like the sun is always about to come out' or something dumb#she's like half asleep and she's like 'the sky is so happy because of all our lights' or something nonsensical#and harry just cuddles her really tight and murmurs 'mhmmm sooooo happy'#and inwardly is like 'what the hell is wrong with this chick'#'too bad she's cute'#WHO IS GONNA HUG ME AND CALL ME CUTE FOR BEING SLEEPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOBODY#i dont want anyone except yasmine's harry anyways.#if YASMINE ever said something stupid like this after just waking up#that mf would not be like 'aw baby you're so cute'#he'd fucking double over and laugh#nearly piss himself laughing actually#and then later apologize when yasmine smacks him so hard in the face with her pillow that he sees stars#even mia's harry would be nice about it and kiss mia's head#and say 'shhh it's too late to be thinking so hard its okay baby'#if aaliyah said it#i think harry would blankly stare at her as she continues to go on and on about the street lights and the candles and the lanterns#and eventually just kiss her to make her quiet#and when aaliyah giggles against his mouth 'i am so smart'#harry just kisses her harder to avoid answering#he's very much a man of few words and more disbelief stares
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I had to tell my manager, borderline in tears, that I had to go home just minutes after clocking into my second shift after finally returning to work this week because my son’s father is so incapable of watching his own children that he had a tantrum until I came home. But I got to dance in the kitchen with my kids while my oldest very proudly made pancakes all by himself, and although I sobbed the entire way home, seeing my children smile at me with that much love almost made me forget it.
#I didn’t leave him with them alone ofc#my mom was also home but she said she wasn’t prepared to watch the baby and so I had to come home if he wasn’t gonna do it#this man told me to go back to work#told me watching kids was easier than working#spent an entire year berating me for being lazy and not working even though I was fucking half dying in the hospital and I’ve never not wor#even though I’ve been the primary parent and the primary supporter this whole goddam time#and then because I woke him up at 5:30 AM and he was hungover and tired from going out the night before and because my child is still adjus#to my absence#and was crying#he decided absolutely not#blew up my phone cursing me out and calling me selfish and accusing me of abandoning my child because I care more about leaving the house#sending me videos of my son crying and saying he wasn’t going to pick him up at all so I better come home#even though my mom said she watched him pick him up to console him immediately after the video so he was just being a#manipulative ass#telling me he wasn’t a babysitter and demanding I come back and even though he spent so much time telling me to go#he tried to tell me he told me not to#even though once again he said he was moving out last night and wouldn’t be giving me a dime so idk wtf he expected me to do#Sure with the right person I’d love to stay home and raise my children to think I want to go to work ???#but I’m not about to remain trapped and ar your mercy forever but#I could not stay and work after all that. My heart was breaking and I’m not strong enough to watch videos of my baby crying and not react#and even though my mom took him at my request she did not want to take care of him doe ten hours and I had to come home#and I just don’t know how she can continue to judge me daily and say things like you’ll figure it out when I’m trying my fucking hardest an#no one is able to help like it’s no one’s responsibility and I wish I could do it alone but I cannot stay home with y kids 24/7 and not rel#on him#and I csnnot go to work and support my fsmkly#Without him if I have no one to watch my kids#and I was sobbing so hard on the way home I almost couldn’t drive because I feel so trapped that I couldn’t breathe#truly an awful morning but I will spin the memory of my son laughing at the perfect pancakes he flipped#and my other son giggling for the first time when I tossed him up into the air#inside my brain so many times that it’ll erase everything else
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