#I dunno like there are fandoms where I love the discourse bc it’s to be expected with certain ones (reality tv competition shows like bb +

[whoblewboobear]

At this point Wednesday and Thursday are the highlights of my week like I’m vibrating with excitement when I know Wednesday at like 7 something I’ll be sitting down to giggle at my favorite show like I- 🤧

I don’t always watch d20 seasons as they’re airing but for fantasy high, it gets so woven into my schedule when a new one drops 👏 like not to get super sentimental (I’m absolutely going to in a read more. Plus the season is ending soon and I’m emo about it but also just excited in general to get all the answers) but this season really means a lot to me. Absolutely none of them will see this (thank god) but the intrepid heroes & BLeeM mean so much to me. They made a show that is so funny and beautiful and kind and so stupid at its core and it just goes to show how lovely they are. The impact they’ve made on the actual play community is so huge. For me a lot of actual play was very intimidating to get into because of huge backlogs or the kinds of stories being told weren’t for me but goddamn, d20 just hits on so many levels. In part due to the storytelling and also just holy shit everyone at the table shows up and cares so much about who they’re playing and their place in the world and the story they’re helping be told. It’s just 🤧💖 I hope one day I’m half the dnd player that Brennan, Emily, Lou, Murph, Siobhan, Zac, and Ally are. They truly inspire me so much.

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**TW For SA, trauma, mental health + personal shit etc under the cut**

I stopped watching d20 for a long while. Give or take a year or two? I know it was around the zoom season era. Me and A guy I was really close friends with bonded over dnd and d20 and it was one of the main things we had in common. The night he SA’d me we were watching FH S1 from the beginning. And I think that kinda.. like I didn’t watch d20 because it brought up a lot of thoughts of him and that night and just so much ptsd.

D20 was my favorite form of escapism during hard times and it really sucked to lose that for so long. When d20 Junior year was announced I decided it was time to get back into the show because I missed it and I loved it and I couldn’t let him make me so scared that I never went back to what gave me so much joy. I introduced the show to him in the first place, I could reclaim.

I watched freshman year after I dropped out of art school because my parents and I couldn’t afford another loan and I was really lost. It took my mind off a lot of it thankfully.

Sophomore year aired when I started going to community college. I had a night-time psych class that would end about half an hour before the streams would start so it gave me motivation to get through it because I had something to look forward to after. Now junior year is airing while I’m dealing with a lot of health stuff + depression + job stress (now that I write it all out, both college stresses passed and I did end up getting a decent-ish, albeit very shitty job in graphic design, so I know there’s light at the end of the tunnel so to speak, this’ll pass)

I don’t know if they’ll ever do a senior year/graduation season but if they do, I’ll be there still excited and brimming with joy and anticipation for more d20 Wednesdays to come. 💖

[noctualagenaria]

violence 1-25

the character everyone gets wrong

-diluc

a compelling argument for why your fave would never top or bottom

-[redacted] cant top bc 1) he doesnt have the self confidence for such and 2) He Is Not Straight in anyway shape or form so even if he is with a woman That Woman is Topping Him.

screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr

-it wasnt on tumblr but i saw this zhongchi take where it was a mini comic of them, on a bench, childe doing the adhd leg bounce as one does and the second panel was zhongli forcibly stopping childe's leg from bouncing (one zhonglis the lord of geo so even if childe wanted or NEEDED to keep his leg bouncing itd be near impossible that cannot be a fun sensation and two Literally dont do that. Dont do that.) the third panel was childe looking at zhongli with hearts surrounding and all the comments were like "me and who 🥺" and good GOD. PEOPLE.....

what was the last straw that made you finally block that annoying person?

actually they blocked me first bc i commented smth along the lines of 'stop worshipping mental illness....' ive yet to block myself on tumblr at least

worst discord server and why

[answer is found in another ask]

which ship fans are the most annoying?

.. short answer: all the Popular ones

long answer: zhongchi, kavetham, neuvithesley, kaeluc, thomato, chiluc and chaeya are also up there goddamn,,, andddddd most lumi ships too tbh,,

what character did you begin to hate not because of canon but because how how the fandom acts about them?

-i actually dunno, kujou sara maybe??? shrug, all the characters i hate are bc of my personal takes of canon

common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

-diluc, thats it.

worst part of canon

-end user license agreement

worst part of fanon

-almost everything i hate it here

number of fandom-related words you've filtered

-at least ten but most likely more

the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

-baizhu. WHY DID KAVEH THE FOUR STAR ON HIS RELEASE GET MOREEEEEEEEEE ATTENTION AND LOVE THEN THE GUY WE HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR SINCE FUCKING LAUNCH I AM SALTY.

worst blorboficiation

-,,diluc

that one thing you see in fics all the time

-baizhu being there in the Having a Baby fics

that one thing you see in fanart all the time

-cishet takes on baizhu + diluc im sick of them

you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)

-neuvithesley bc ... they have No romantic chemistry at ALL worse than zhongchi and also neuvi is. like so much older than him and yall treat this like you would as if they were the same age and like i get the appeal for ships like that dont get me wrong i liked venkae for a time being BUT treating it the same as if they are both human and both mortals where as one is not is just Wrong. also neuvi sent wrio to prison! neuvi has personally Known Wrio since he was a kid and neuvis always been and always will be This "Age" (in a physical sense) ALSO SIGEWINNE ISNT. THIER DAUGHTER....

there should be more of this type of fic/art

more baizhluc pls... im starving

it's absolutely criminal that the fandom has been sleeping on...

baizhu,,,,, and his shippability with literally anyone who isnt zhongli,,,

you're mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of like...

wrioney sdjhgsd i guess

part of canon you found tedious or boring

most of the quests

part of canon you think is overhyped

abyss its too focused on and sure i get focused on it too but like,, theres more to the game,,, care more about hte story and characters orz

your favorite part of canon that everyone else ignores

the way he says these specific lines

diluc is a smug ass sly ass motherfucker

ship you've unwillingly come around to

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i dunno

topic that brings up the most rancid discourse

kaeluc! :3 <- guy who believes the two of them are exes. you can imagine how that goes for me

common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing

"The rewards are too little" bitch stfu we arent here to get spoiled and you know that

[academicvulture]

Profile pic credit: Turkey Vulture (Cathartes aura), spreading wings. Santa Margarita Lake, San Luis Obispo Co., CA

heyyyyyyyy what's up i'm returning to tumblr bc I need more nerds to talk about my literary/fandom/human experience ideas with and I know y'all weirdos are where to find it, 'cause I've BEEN here for... Time. Back in ye olden dayes when tits were legal, at the very least. It's been a Hot Second since I've been active, though, so if y'all could do me some patience if I take a sec to get back up to speed on current norms that'd be a kindness!

Reasons for a Brand New Blog: I'm justifying the time spent on this to myself as "might publish stuff under my Real Name someday (like academically)" so I'm keeping that FAR away from my old tarnished & stained fannish identity, for the mutual protection of both.

About the name: I dunno, don't YOU feel weird about someone engaging in meta discourse with the possible intention to write academic papers about it?? 'cause I DO. I'm interested in the project of balancing privacy and credit to appropriately source academic explorations of ideas developed collectively in fandom, but I still feel weird. Oh but don't get me wrong-- I do actually fucking love vultures and if I ever see a California Condor in the wild I will die happy.

Important statements, based on my Tumblr Experience: BlPOC lives matter. Respect & defend trans people. Aro/acespec folks belong in the LGBTQIA+ community. Lastly, I will call myself fucking queer if I choose.

So that's me. Hello again. --AV

Blog header credit: Turkey Vulture - Cathartes aura

[vickyvicarious]

i hope ur ok with unprompted asks abt leverage bc today i am like this :-( because someone is posting hate on the OT3 in the OT3 tags. (not as a mistake either, they refused to use the right tags) tbh i am so so excited for the revival but this modern-day-esque toxicity is what i've been worried abt the whole time.

THE POINT OF THIS ASK: they said something that is wiggling in my brain, and i figured you may have a good perspective since i know you like the OT3 and are aware of/comment on fandom/media racism. they said the OT3 is popular because of fandom racism, because hardison is black and fandom wants to focus on the white guy (eliot). i think if this were true then people would just ship parker/eliot like ive seen people do in other fandoms not make an ot3? but wanted an opinion from another person?

Totally cool to send me unprompted asks! Whether Leverage or whatever else. And first off, sorry to see you've been experiencing nastiness in the OT3 tags. I personally never have, but maybe that's down to me not actually knowing what the commonly used tag is? I legit just found blogs to follow who post enough thiefsome content for me, and pick up more here and there, but I dunno where most people post stuff. leverage OT3? parker/hardison/eliot? hardison/parker/eliot? hitter/hacker/thief? something along those lines probably, I've found some stuff tagged under each but have no clue what the 'main' one is. (Also I came up with my own name for them and post my own stuff mostly under that so I really got no clue what most people do, haha.)

Anyway, I digress. On to your main point - well, I will give a disclaimer first. Pretty much the entire time I've been on tumblr I've mostly been in a happy fandom bubble and not even noticed a lot of the nastier discourse. Probably down to the way I pick blogs to follow and then mostly stick to my dash? But anyway, that remains true for Leverage. And in fact until I started my rewatch I was never really involved in the fandom, despite loving the show. I actually haven't read much fic yet either. So there's probably plenty going on I'm not aware of.

That being said, yeah I would agree with you that generally I think if this was racially motivated then people would just ship Parker/Eliot. I don't think people usually default to poly relationships, so I don't really think that is a good argument against one. The only exception I would say is if there's a huge trend of people shipping the three of them together, but only using Hardison as a prop for the other two. You know, if fic focuses mostly on Parker and Eliot and Hardison is just around to be supportive and not given the same level of depth, that kind of thing. However, in the fandom interpretations I have personally seen of the thiefsome, that isn't really the case. It can't hurt to be aware of trends if you do see them, but I don't think you gotta worry too much about this one.

People can be mean. Try not to let it bother you, maybe blacklist if possible (though I guess that ain't if they're intentionally using whatever the main tag is) or build your own happy dash bubble to retreat to. The people I reblog a lot are really nice if you need a starting point! ^_^

Edit - check in the comments for some other perspectives. Seems like there is a tendency to focus on Eliot more, though perhaps not in a straightforward a way as that person was saying? (I dunno what they were saying exactly though so I can't really speak to that.) Doesn't mean we should stop shipping all three but we can be more aware of how we do so, and make sure not to skimp on giving Hardison his fair share of emphasis! (Parker too obviously but you get my point.)

[bluewinnerangel]

I'm the drama anon (I think? I dunno if you meant me specifically) and I swear, I didn't mean it as a bad thing! It's just, you guys come up with such strange stuff and then it kinda becomes a chaotic trend in the fandom and everyone freak out over it and I'm sitting here like "I was here when this took form at three in the morning so randomly that you'd wake up the next morning and go 'nah, it must've been a fever dream' and now it's so big". Anddso randomly that you'd wake up the next morning and go 'nah, it must've been a fever dream' and now it's so big".

And then there's this stray feeling that Tumblr is being watched? I mean, I dunno, I'm not saying it actually happens or larry has burner accs, but some stuff happen that just... It's a tumblr thing, why is this getting something like a confirmation from them? Like the other day I saw the invert thing during lights up and ??? It doesn't prove anything, heck maybe it doesn't even mean anything, but it's just... Weird. Everything here is weird, even I'm weird and I'm making zero sense but I wanted to make sure that you like, didn't misunderstand me, I love your blog, and you're such a nice person, but like... The general crackhead energy around here (I love it). Like what's the deal with that series you keep making book covers for (it's literally a random anon and you genuinely take the time, no hate to that anon, they write good, but what I wanna say is that you're so kind for actually humouring that? Is that the right word? Or the arm thing? The hare thing? What?!?) It literally came out of nowhere, and it's a thing now. I dunno. For ppl who figure out the most cryptic stuff, on free days we're just... So random and odd, I guess. That's what I meant. In a nice way God this is long and awkward I'm so sorry I love you <3

I'm actually cracking up over this. I honestly feel you're mostly talking about that wholeass Cars thing we had going on a month (already wtf !?!?!) ago bc that was an absolute furious feverdream but also that didn't really take off unless you were just watching me like it took off for me bro it did like the end of Grease that TOOK OFF. But then it's in the context of drama? And being watched? Help. Where does this come from where does this go cotton eyed joe just all over the place asdasd

But I guess about this space I just post whatever I think is funny and I have fun making and sometimes that means just less theories or larrie discourse and more utter nonsensical relevant-to-this-and-this-post-only-deepfried-childrens-book-covers and way too extensive arm collections or detailed ask game answers, because it makes me happy and even happier when it makes someone else happy too. Whatever makes you laugh bro, with me or at me (hi antis hope you're having a great day).

Then as for the confirmation thing, it's not impossible they actually for real lurk here and respond to it with subtle shit, but I hope the fuck not because bros you're celebs I'm sure you have better ways to spend your time pls, I think 9/10 things that get "confirmed" aka things that some blogs JUST talked about and then it just... comes back (we make a shitty little laurel masterpost and suddenly laurel clothing are back, a pink floyd x harry post is birthed and next thing the AFH poster has PF links and bap harry shows up in PF shirt, we make hare stylist puns and then harry makes hare stylist puns, theres all things must pass x louis fan art and bap harry wears all things must pass merch, the list just goes on and honestly the things I just mentioned are mostly Leo, Meg, and me with our 2 gay british boybander voodoo dolls that we dress up in things we just referenced on our silly little bloggies so we can bring it back for clout and that's because people already picked up on it already being a pattern (the inverted colors for one), or already knowing it's within their personalities and behavior to do/reference/pun that way, and so your "prediction" or whatever gets reaffirmed when they continue to be... themselves. This is also why I think it can look like they're referencing fan fics, because those fics are already based on accurate observations of them and what they would and wouldn't surround themselves with. Then there's other bits where I am like well at the very least his ass knows what he's doing because the whole WHOLE fandom freaked over it and there's no way he didn't get notified if he didn't already lurk himself and that's Louis wearing the H shirt AGAIN or Harry bringing all the blue bandana's back to the yard. I mean they do know we know, but, different scales, I guess. Like there's a difference between niche tumblr things getting "confirmation" and fandom wide phenomenon's. That said Harry, grandma wants 2 croissants ok that's my sentence that's my brand if you ever reference 2 croissants I know your ass is reading into things on a chaos blog alright thank you very much.

[cinematicnomad]

Idk if anyone else has this impression but it almost feels like the parts of fandom who are 110% convinced (and obviously not everyone but a majority) are under 25 whereas those of us who are like “yeah would love to see it but i will not believe it until it actually happens on screen (but I sit here hoping anyway)” are over 25 and have all been extremely burned by the media we grew up with at least once. I dunno, maybe its just me getting that sense but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

anonymous asked: Actually I take it back a little. Its less an age thing probably than it is a “those of us who have been extremely burned before are way more cautious about our optimism, if we even have any” and its just slightly more likely for those of us who are slightly older to have that experience a few times

i mean it might be connected to age but just bc...society itself has changed SO MUCH since i was in high school shipping drarry or whatever. like, i think it's SO GREAT that there's been so much progress that we've reached a point where the majority of the fandom discourse is just, completely adamant that it's not only possible but likely. that is just so lovely and heartwarming and really encouraging to see how things have changed where it was just...the general accepted consensus that things like this would never happen.

and tbh, most of the people i talk to in this fandom are around my age or older and i feel like the odd man out with my defeatist attitude, so it might Just Be Me 😅😅😅

and also—i'm like this about everything! not just fandom, so yes, some of it is informed by being burned by previous shows, but most it is just by virtue of Being Me and always keeping my expectations as low as possible

[earthdeep]

ok. thoughts on dgs now I've completed both 1 and 2. spoilers abound under the cut. but tl;dr I liked it a lot.

man, the thing really did feel like a great adventure huh? the game did an excellent job at conveying that sense of grandeur, along with the humour and melodrama one expects from the series. I can really only talk about it as the one conjoined unit though. while aa1-3 were a trilogy, I would argue they largely stood as entries on their own in a way I don't think the dgs duology can. I mentioned when I finished up dgs1 that I would've been disappointed if I'd had to wait for part 2 like the original japanese audience did, and my opinion on that has only strengthened. between the morse code message, and van zieks'... development, these are two parts of a whole.

but it is a very good whole imo, with its throughline of ryunosuke gaining confidence and finding what to believe in (the truth will set u free babey!). it matches well with the recurrent theme of ur idols being... not quite as u imagined. as is aa tradition, u have the complex web of family and legacy and forging ur own path, all balanced in a way that I really like. man, it's just... so well crafted.

obvs there are a few weird hiccups here and there, logic sometimes not clicking together (at least for me), and for that I do appreciate having the story mode option. I only used it... I think twice? once in the pawnshop case where I forgot I'd only shown one receipt to gregson and not both, and once in the teleportation case where I missed examining the book on sithe's desk (in my defence it has a really small hitbox compared to the desk that surrounds it!). but it saved me some frustration, so that's always nice.

the setting was definitely very enjoyable. I personally have a soft spot for seeing portrayals of my country by those outside the anglosphere, and this absolutely hit the spot for me. the scenery was an excellent balance of the familiar old london fare and ace attorney's brand of surrealism that just. yes. excellent. weirdly high number of blonds tho. but some of the behind the scenes content did explain it was to more clearly differentiate the britons from the japanese, and ok I can understand that.

but moving onto the characters themselves, bc BOY was this a fun cast! the animation team went OFF with these guys and I love them for it. except daley vigil; those awkward poses just kinda made him look more unfinished than he already did, dunno what happened with him.

there's just... so much little stuff I would be just reiterating from my liveblogging, but now I'm done there's other stuff I can sum up.

right off the bat, favourite character gina. she has stolen my heart along with everything else on my person. I'm proud of her for learning to open up and trust others, and imo she's one of the characters with the most dramatic arc. also, top notch character designs. excellently green. yes I am biased.

honorable mentions go to susato for being 100% the coolest person in this shebang, and kazuma for his total flippancy towards the whole assassin thing. for the ten years between asogi sr's death and the student exchange deal, the mikotoba residence must have been a sight to behold. and by that I mean a warzone.

but... argh I've put it off. I don't particularly like talking about van zieks, but I can't just ignore him since you know. discourse. ugh. he's the one character in this game whose dialogue I resorted to flipping through without really paying attention. there is only so many times I can watch him deride the japanese before it's just boring. like it's not like I'm even that annoyed by the insulting thing. I love prosecutors like blackquill and nahyuta who at least bother to be funny, but van zieks is just xenophobic and that's it. if I wanted that experience I could just pick up a copy of the spectator and not worry about missing key plot details if I skim.

and no he doesn't have a good reason to hate the japanese. hating a country bc someone from there killed a loved one of urs is already flimsy enough, but when u state ur ire is being drawn by how it was covered up BY UR OWN COUNTRY'S JUDICIARY? DUDE. but yes, he got to eat shit during the last case and I felt only schadenfreude at him having to face the fact that even the aforementioned 'a japanese guy murdered my brother' didn't hold up in court. get dunked on u idiot.

boy am I glad kazuma also got the limelight for that case so I could focus on him instead. bc there was actually some depth to that situation, with the fun eternal moral conundrum of "revenge: yay or nay?". I'm already seeing debate in the fandom of his actions and personally, I think he was pretty much exactly in the grey zone. this man is chaotic neutral through and through, and taking a governmental assassination contract and then just Not Doing It is incredibly funny actually. I'm very sorry he was unable to live out his dream of having a fun homoerotic detective adventure in london with his friend while doing the hitman equivalent of tax avoidance. enjoy whatever the FUCK one calls handing over the physical embodiment of your soul to your friend for safekeeping while you go your separate ways half a world apart. that's Romantic with a capital R, that.

but anyway, yes. good game. time to trawl through the extras menu now!

[wanderingcas]

hey so I saw you post a couple things about not wanting negative comments on your fics and I feel rly bad bc I think if you were vagueposting it may have been in response to the comment I left on your most recent chapter of ascend (I’ve since deleted it, though if it’s still in your inbox I’m sorry I can’t remove that as well). I did read it through before I hit submit, but after seeing what you said I went back, and can see how it could have been interpreted that way; I can tell my tone was just way off, especially for the platform. I’m autistic and have done a lot of work to improve my communication skills and convey appropriate tone, but I still bungle it up sometimes, and I’m sorry about that.

Things get messy on the internet for a variety of reasons, basic miscommunication being one, blurring of boundaries another, mismatch of expectations, etc etc; my intention was to be conversational, like wondering about a plot point not touched on, sandwiched between things I really liked about it. In retrospect I am seeing that even if that tone had been appropriately conveyed, that’s still a boundary you would prefer not to be crossed, particularly not in that setting uninvited.

Tumblr can add a layer of complexity bc of how friendly and informal and blunt so much of it is, and I think perhaps because I’ve read so much of your work and follow you here, it skewed the relationship baseline I was aiming from. For example, if I were talking to a friend about their work, I believe that tone would be less likely to cause hurt or offense, if that makes sense, or at least that has been my experience...though now that I’m thinking about it, still maybe not on a public comment platform! So again I am realizing the layers of my error here.

I’m not explaining to minimize your feelings or absolve myself of blame, but because by describing it this way I better understand what I did, where I went wrong, and how to improve going forward. I would rather be embarrassed and work through it than experience this social faux pas and be too ashamed to leave comments at all in the future. I can understand the position you have taken about not wanting negative comments, and I definitely get that you and all fic authors and other fanwork creators put in the time and effort and make yourselves vulnerable by sharing that effort for free, only hoping for some positive feedback in response.

Although I’ve definitely had good interactions with some authors over the years via comments and included some not-exclusively-positive feedback without issue, it’s wrong to assume that that is everyone’s stance. It’s absolutely every author’s prerogative to decide what types of comments to accept, and I mean that without judgment. As a non-neurotypical person (who often needs explicit statements of acceptable social behavior to adequately modulate my communication), this has reminded me that it is safer and kinder to assume that someone wants positive-only until otherwise demonstrated.

I apologize for any hurt caused by my inappropriate and badly phrased comment. Thank you for sharing your work, and for enforcing your boundary about what type of comment you’d prefer to accept.

hi, anon! just to clarify - are you the commenter that made a post about wanting more of Jack in the epilogue? Because i want to absolve you of some blame right now - I actually wasn't vagueposting toward you at all. I got really bad anon hate yesterday? two days ago? toward my fic (I deleted it, blocked the anon, and never posted it), as well as anons in the past - and I've also been seeing fellow writer friends go through some of the same issues. My post was less of a vague post necessarily and more of a general "let's review fandom etiquette" lol. Know that my post about that, and the subsequent discourse with that anon, was absolutely not directed at you.

When I got your comment I will admit it made me a little uncomfy - mostly because when I've gotten those comments in the past, they're layered with an added "this is what I wanted and you didn't do it so I'm angry and telling you about it", but that's not what you did in your comment - I understood where you were coming from, even if it did make me pause a bit. So i just want to let you know that you shouldn't feel shame or awkward or anything like that. I agree that tone and intention can get lost over the internet, and the relationship between reader and author can be tricky sometimes - particularly if you want to offer an opinion that might not be taken as completely positive? But it sounds like you are aware of that, and I do appreciate you taking the time to self-reflect.

And just as a quick note - in the past, there have been fics I've asked to get feedback on from readers - like La Hantise, for example, which I since deleted to rework as an original fic. I really wanted readers to point out what parts worked for them, and what parts didn't, and I specifically stated that in the author's notes on every chapter. Looking back, that may have been why our signals crossed got crossed, if you've been following my fics before. And usually I am pretty open to opinions in comments? But "ascend" in particularly has gotten some really entitled, really awful comments (again, not putting yours in that category!) so I've had to guard myself a bit with that fic. Maybe it's because it's a fix it fic, and everyone wants different things out of the finale to be fixed. Maybe it's because tensions are high. I dunno. Either way, i've had to build some walls around myself so i don't want to stop posting supernatural fic altogether lol.

So yeah, this is a messy way of saying - thank you for coming to apologize in case you needed to, but know the post wasn't about you. It was a general vent about the unwanted criticism and vitriol that some writers have been receiving lately on their fics. Like, really mean-spirited stuff lol. It wasn't my intention to make anyone paranoid, especially because comments on fics are great and lovely and I'm not about to drag anyone through the mud even if a comment made me a little sad, but I can tell their intentions are good. Usually in that case I just disengage and think about how to process it on my own end. <3

That all being said, i really really appreciate you taking the time to come to my inbox and say all this. You're one of the good ones, you really are. And people like you make me want to keep posting fic. Truly.

[deniedmysign]

11, 18, 30, 36, 40, 46, and 60 for the Untamed asks?

mkay, let’s see how much I can try not to squeal, scream or go overboard on XD (I’m teasing) 11. Tags You Mostly Filter On Ao3 For Currently, I’m fishing my way through the wealth of WangXian right now, but I’m apparently leaning into bicycle!Xichen somehow?? (like, I can ship him with SO MANY PEOPLE) I’m also flitting between “gimme that smut” and “I just want domestic bliss” . . . Also big on fics that involve characters becoming animals or just being anthro in some way (I may be a furry?) 18. Something You Want To Change In The Story I . . . I want to repair the relationship between Jiang Cheng and Wei Wuxian, most of all. Bc it just feels like they need it so much. I mean, by all means, keep up the whole angst buildup, totally . . . but a wind down where they can go back to “you’d better eat the soup if I puke it up” jokes . . . man, that’d be great. 30. A Ship You Like But People Have A Lot Of Opinions About I dunno yet - I’m not so deep into the fandom I’ve uncovered discourse that much - I tend to just sit in the corner of fandoms and play with things on my own as is. But I mean . . . I do like the Yi city trio as a relationship, even if it’s toxic. So probably that one? 36. Character You Would Have Liked To Have More Background/Screen-Time Y’know, after reading your take with Ouyang Zizhen, I have to agree with it. I want to know more about him, he’s gotta be part of the juniors squad for a reason, right? 40. Who’s Voice Is Your Favourite? I . . . I’m a sucker for deep voices. Even as mine gets deeper, I love a deep voice. (either that or I’m playing favorites because I’ve been YiBo’d) I’m trying to think objectively and it just gives me too many to choose just one, so since my brain auto-jumped to Lan Wangji, yeah. 46. Favourite Fanfic / A Fanfic You Want To Recommend Oh, this is easy AF - Twelve Moons and a Fortnight by @stiltonbasket they’re so dumb and it’s so perfect, I love it. (WangXian, technical slow burn but not - in the way of “but does he feel the way I do?” and WWX just being dumb about feelings. Expect many facepalms, but in a “omg you’re dumb why do I like you as a character?” way [which I consider a good way]) 60. Favourite Character Development I will not play favorites based on looks . . . LOL. In all honesty, I really want to say Jin Ling. Like, we meet this irritable, spoiled brat and that’s an automatic ‘ugh’ from me, but you really do get to see him grow as a person, even if it’s not a whole life changing moment like LWJ’s moment in the rain. It’s a slow, bit by bit growth that just feels . . . good. He has a long way to go, for sure, but he’s started, and that’s what makes me smile about it.

[leighways]

Y’know, I debated not answering you bc what you sent sounds like the typa shit that attracts unwanted discourse. So if that was your intent (and I mean this with all sincerity): go fuck yourself.

I’m not sure where you got the idea that I’m "still devoted to" C3, esp since the last piece of art I made for that ship was pre-KTGG -- nearly a year ago. That was also the last time, until recently, that I spoke about C3 at all. So ???

I will admit I didn’t answer that ask very thoughtfully when I originally responded -- mostly bc I assumed by now ppl understood my stance on this issue -- so I went back and edited for clarification. However, if you’d read my about page instead of jumping to conclusions, you’d know where I stood.

But since that clearly didn’t happen, I’ll spell it out for you: I used to ship C3. As of right now, I don’t. However, during the time in which I did, I was in the process of building an extensive backstory AU that I am still very much attached to and enjoy creating content for. It was designed specifically to establish Copia as an outsider -- not a member of the Emeritus family -- which has been my view of him since since day fucking one (x).

One scroll through my blog will show you none of this is new. Copia's underdog status plays a vital role in how I draw, write and headcanon him, as well my general attachment to his character. Sure, you can sit there and claim I dreamt all this up for the purpose of shipping, but you'd also be lying out of both sides of your mouth. If my development of this AU was nothing more than ""justification"" for C3, my blog wouldn't be littered with loads of art and comics focused on the rest of the family and their respective dynamics. (x) (x) (x) Not to mention the countless memes and shitposts that have goddamned nothing to do with any of this.

Anyway, for me, an AU only works if you can establish a very clear departure from what's been described in canon. KTGG presented several plot holes I had never previously considered, and these muddied waters made me unsure of how to continue world building. I don't want to publish anything until there are no surprises left, so until we get more official information regarding this lore, I have temporarily pulled the breaks on this project.

Still, none of this is reason to completely dismantle something I've been working on since 2018. Nor does it suddenly make the material itself "problematic". I should be able to keep my AU (C3 storyline or not) without ppl like you accusing me of being some incest-obessed fujoshi simply bc I chose to view the source material in a way you don't personally like.

From last summer forward, every time I’ve been asked about the topic of my AU, the answer never contained any mention of C3 (x) (x) (x) bc I don't currently ship C3. If by "devoted to" you meant "it's on the back burner and also the stove isn't on" then sure, I'm super devoted.

But even if this weren't the case -- even if the amount of currently unanswered questions didn't bother me and I plowed ahead with my story no holes barred, what exactly would my crime be? Why would an AU created to explore the non-canon backstories of Copia (a Catholic orphan) and Papa 1 (his unrelated mentor) suddenly become problematic just bc once in a blue moon a scene appears in which Copia has a boyfriend? Considering all content I've made for C3 sees them as completely unrelated and has also been 100% SFW, what line have I crossed? I know my lane. I'm not mlm (I'm not wlw either, which is what you're trying to peg me as) so I would never create explicit content for a community to which I don't belong. But if you think LGBT+ folks can only make material tailored to their specific identities in order to not be fetishy, then I've got some fuckin news for you and you're not gonna like it.

Anyhoo, I don’t believe for one second that you’re this casual by-standing "outsider" -- not least bc you knew exactly where to find the post where I first addressed the plot twist possibility, but lmfao whatever you say bubs. I also love that you’re on the "outside" while simultaneously in the know about what the fandom collective has decided re: What If Copia Is An Emeritus. You need to get your story straight.

Damn near everyone in this fandom has created some sort of AU -- whether that be a world where they self-ship, a universe in which none of the Papas died, or, I dunno, one full of dragons and dinosaurs :-) The fact that you're specifically honing in on my AU with insane and disgusting out-of-left-field accusations tells me everything I need to know about both you and your motives, so listen very closely: there is nothing wrong with creating an AU that diverts from canon. Despite what you think, viewing Copia as unrelated to the Emeritus family is pretty goddamned normal around here. And considering Tobias obviously wanted us to think of him this way (and let us do so for over a year and a half) it's easy to see why so many ppl prefer that concept to the story we'll probably get.

You are not the boss of me. You are not the judge of my character. You have no authority over me, and you need to stop talking as if you do. Your tone is condescending and sexist -- which is odd, considering you're not speaking to a woman. I'm definitely not a fujoshi, but you quite possibly might be a transphobe. Or is truscum a more accurate way to describe you? :-) Anyways, thanks for that. Getting misgendered in our own inbox? We love to see it.

This is the last time I’ll be addressing this topic. If you have any further questions feel free to call my personal hotline @ 1-800-EAT-MY-ASS.

[izartn]

Dunno I’ve been thinking and the last book I remember liking by RR was The Son of Neptune bc outsider pov on percy??? I’m always a sucker for those. Also the Leo and Jason parts of the first of HoO; Piper was meh, Jason a little less meh and Leo surprisingly good. But I just lost any major interest in the series with Mark of Athena; it was entertaining but it didn’t thrill me anymore. Maybe I had grown too old? But mostly I think it was so many charas saturating the plot. 

But really, The Last Olympian is such a good finale? Of course I wanted to read more of Percy and Annabeth but I was so happy when I finished it... And of course the undervalued Kane Chronicles, whose mythology and fantasy I liked even moren although the charas weren’t superior; that trilogy deserved so much more. 

The nome system, the different specializations and rituals and the way the protags are living gods at different points of the story??? the whole walt-anubis-sadie situation? and zia, omg? The romance is also wonkers in this trilogy, it’s so subtly creepy-wrong and the supernatural vibes... But like, when treated more seriously. Hello Sadie is 13 by book 2 and I completely forgot that bcs she was being romanced by a god and a 15-16 years old, and doing dangerous things and being Isis avatar, and like no way she is that age. Also, Anubis as a 5.000 years old teen is like... no, riordan. It’s still being a bit weird. I wasn’t expecting the kiss >_< You could’ve made it an interesting exploration of the mutable qualities of the egyptian gods and the lack of like, modern standards of behavior, and then go ahead with the Walt-Anubis plotline. And after PJO and seeing the results of god-human unions... Play with what it means, but for the love of god, Sadie’s age >.>

But I loved her being obsessed with Adele bcs by then I was too. XD

TW INCEST. Here I go off the rails speculating for a parragraph on ancient egypt royalty and the kanes, if you don’t want to read it, close the tab or scroll past it, it’s nothing too dark, nor it’s explicit in any case. More like the result of reading too much weird fic. 

And really that no one (no god ever) ever mentioned the practice of marrying family in egyptian dynasties to horrorize or joke a little to carter and sadie? (i know my mind is perturbed but these two see each other when? once, twice a year a bit more in the lucky ones? honestly if this was and adult or even ya and the author another it’d been an interesting conflict treated seriously. keeping canon ending pairs et all!!)  Although carter knows for sure and just hasn’t clocked in what it means they’re the blood of pharaohs. Yup your ancestors x-generation removed were into incest for purity reasons. And know you’re the incarnation of the horus-pharaoh in earth too. Enjoy! (this is like in yu-gi-oh!! fandom where we pretend the concept didn’t exist bcs too serious and creepy to be treated seriously. and like atem died at 15? 16?)

END TW

 I guess they did the whole explaining the gods have the same relationship their vessels have with each other by feels-possesion double track influence, so that one is resolved, bcs if not it’d be beyond weird that isis is both their mother and the spouse of their osiris-julius and also sadie sometimes. Like, Kane Chronicles mythology is much much older than in other RR series and it tracks with the undercurrents of the trilogy (crap under the radar i think?) and how the gods acts i think.

But you see the above clusterfuck??? If RR had aged a bit the charas, bc is not as if Sadie is a real 12-13 years old, more like a 15-16 one at minimum with how she acts and the narrative treats her, and made Carter like 18-19? Thinking about what he wants out of life and uni, etc because for him it clocks with his arc. Or even older; I think that would be have been better but then it’d be another kind of book. Make Sadie the one starting uni and Carter the one finishing his master in egyptology bcs that’s all he’s known all his life, and he’s interested in it truly, and their father is still the one who wants to reunite the three for Sadie’s birthday going with Carter in plane from whatever university he’s in (could be one in egypt Julius has ties to) and it’s then when all goes to shit.

 The conflict, the stakes... You could treat the family conflict and well, the racial aspect of the books in more profundity. Maybe make them biracial but their father is afroamerican and the mother is british but descendant from egyptian immigrants, so yup. You have that connection with the original land of the myths, and Carter and Sadie perspectives on being poc shoe the contrast btwn the sister raised by her mother parents, and the brother by the father. But that’s need much more sensitivity than RR is able of. I wouldn’t dare to write that book alone, that’s for sure. 

 As I understand it there are more than some problematic elements to RR tendency to diversify his cast without doing profound analysis and research and using sensivity readers so. I’m south european white, I don’t have a real idea of all the messes he made with Kane Chronicles so I don’t have anything more say anything more about this. But yeah, it’d been another demography completely different from the original, and would have needed another author which I think would have suited the mood I get from this trilogy even now. 

We all know the errors RR makes like doubling down on romance forever saving the day and female characterization or his well. Well-intentioned if misguided discourse? (that cursed word) I’m all for social justice, but Magnus Chase read like a pamphlet at various points instead of being organically integrated in the story (KC and HoH have sometimes that problem but in MC is really blatant) who am I going to lie, although Magnus has fascinating potential as a protag.

 And Alex chara too, plus Hearth and Blitzen. I think he made a full on queer protag quartet without realising it (which is why Blitz and Hearth are those two guys instead of confirming any status. like just besties, or qrp or budding romance, which one? we can’t have full on queer quartet) plus Samira and his poor we’ll call it that, handle of her muslim lifestyle from what I’ve seen from muslim fans reviews. (so, my idea of sadie above wouldn’t been plausible) If she’s gonna marry make her at least older than 20? After finishing uni, which I think is something you usa (noarospec) people do regularly without religion or anything? But really marriages just make me go yikes anyway so. Do away with that plot point you don’t have to follow so exactly the myths. 

And so their charas aren’t explored with profundity. Although they could have been really interesting.

 And the ending was... meh. The point was the anticlimax, but Loki was well build enough in the two first books and the third was a deception honestly. 

But again, I think I also simply aged of his books + started noticing his fails. See above my KC tangent. Curiously I think the PJO books (not HoO) are good as they are... No urge to make charas older or anything. The dysfunction is different in both stories I feel.

 I KNOW! It’s because in KC we see the magician society and it’s full of adults and seriousness so it would have fit having two older teens-young adults be the protags, exploring it properly and so Carter and Sadie being the chiefs of the Brooklyn nome and the initiators of the gods path in contemporary times wouldn’t struck me as so weird. The nome politics ;_; We were robbed. 

Compare that to the ways PJO with its ephemeral demigod lives and constant death and youth as the one who bring the necessary change for the gods (plus the absence of older demigods coming back to help in TLO, be it bcs they’re done with greek gods or they’re dead, functions really well following Percy since he’s 12 to his 16 birthday and beyond if he had managed to do the roman fussion correctly. Make it so PJO ends with Percy and Annabeth at 16 and HoO alt series, starts 4-6 years later. Because the roman camp and its senate and norms and village are more serious and imply a heavy adult-political presence, with legacies etc; because the gods are starting to forget their promises; bring up the parallels with Luke and mentions of how live has been treating both Anna and Percy. Enrich the world and make the sequel interesting to your original audience who is much older than when they started reading the PJO books. 

Well. This is a fantasy...We know RR would never ;_; Although he’s done much for young fantasy. And know I’m searching the impossible fic.

[spnorwhatever]

hm thoughts right now about breaking free of the narrative vs controlling the narrative vs WHO gets to control the narrative...

and like.. what if Misha Collins hadn’t swooped in with dubbing it a “homosexual declaration of love” in that con panel? What if TPTB had been controlling the narrative still? what if it had been just COMPLETELY ignored by any/all official sources afterwards? I think we’d still be in the weird liminal space of we KNOW it’s romantic but everyone (so it seems) insists it’s not, and it’d still be the like... “we threw you a bone but we won’t acknowledge it you’re supposed to go into your corner and enjoy it quietly.”

I dunno, I was thinking this also bc like... I think a lot of the discourse around the confession also has to do with the discourse at large by GA or TPTB. And the thing about the dubs is, in the EN-fandom spheres, I don’t think we’re seeing the larger conversations around them as much. Like, for the Spanish dub - there’s still people saying it’s platonic, you see people referencing that even here in English. So again, the whole issue of like... we know it’s romantic but the “wider” narrative will still tell you it’s not, isn’t a problem unique to the original English...

I do think that the original English wasn’t, like, perfect in its construction or execution. It does leave a lot to subtext, which is a double-edged sword. Because too often people will flat-out ignore or dismiss subtext as “not text” but it’s like, text is made up of negative space as well? I think Supernatural does get egregious with it sometimes, with relegating stuff to subtext, but I also don’t think subtext is evil or bad or illegitimate storytelling. Part of the way Dean & Cas’ dynamic works is that they DO in fact communicate a lot through subtext. But on the other hand, I do acknowledge that that’s not a perfect explanation or excuse either, and that this was a time when it maybe would have served to make things more textual. But. I’m also not sure that would have been allowed? (pure speculation, we have no idea for sure).

There definitely is a tension between the text and subtext and metatext, and I think where I am now with the discourse is, I’m more interesting in interrogating the narratives around the confession and not so much the confession itself. Because I think a lot of the common interpretations or discourse arise not from the confession itself, but on what the narratives ABOUT the confession are, and who is controlling or influencing that.

[tonyglowheart]

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Yeah, I won’t pretend that I don’t like darkfic, because I sure as hell read a lot of them. But it’s exactly the discourse part that made me kinda :/// about the whole thing (I also got really sick of a/b/o dynamics but that’s something else altogether) I started feeling like the fan interactions w/ the show, the creators, the characters and w themselves got sorta… Unhealthy?? Like, people started acting like they had to prove a point to people, so they always (1/?)

talked with a aggressive undertone that didn’t bode well with me. I just remember thinking “talk about toxic fandom” so I got tired of seeing all the bullshit going on constantly on my dash, even tho I was never a part of all of it. To me, when fandom starts to constantly stress you out, it’s not really worth the trouble being in it, so I decided it was time to actually move on from it. (But yeah, I rarely sleep at normal hours haha at least my classes starts at 1pm)

From 1 person who Does Not Sleep to another, my buddy my guy you still gotta sleep D:

and yeah if fandom is making you :/ and stressing you out then moving on is a good idea. It’s supposed to be fun D: I hope you’ve found something now that you can enjoy and doesn’t stress you out too much (I’m basically only in Marvel these days so I am like. actively suffering on most days 8) thanks Marvel)

under a cut bc I’m....possibly abt to get contentious oh boy

re:; the fan interaction stuff, I mean for me personally, I guess I had some issue with it, but overall, I kind of felt like it was part of the whole point? Like, fandom interactions had had some...interesting history until then, like the whole thing with Supernatural was like. in the very midst of “yeah you Really Shouldn’t Bother the Content Creators with That Shippy Stuff or That Slash Stuff,” and like for a fan creator to so ardently love his fans and interact with them, and for the actors to the way they did just seemed really validating for ppl? And I kinda got that? But I do kind of get what you mean, esp with ppl trying to get them to outright say hannigram was canon (I mean we all saw where it was going, but there was maybe network stuff that prevented that? or something I don’t even really remember). I think I kind of tuned that part out somehow thinking back I think there was some stuff that made me :/ :/. But I think I found a good set of ppl to follow back in the day, and things weren’t all that terrible? I dunno, I’d have to trawl back through my archives and see what sort of stuff I might have complained about, if I ever did and the posts are still up lol. I might not have voiced anything, or deleted it fairly soon after posting.

I think interestingly it’s actually when they finally started more outright going “yeah hannigram is suuuuper canon” that I lost interest in it. Don’t know if there’s any sort of causation or it’s just correlation (which, as many a stat teacher has emphatically repeated, does not prove causation). But I also think for me it was more that, at some point, it just started changing trajectory/dynamic in a way that didn’t really mesh with what I was looking for. I don’t think I even finished watching the whole thing actually lmao. I definitely finished season 2, but I maaaybe watched a couple eps of s3?

I do think ppl kind of got caught up with “wow this is amazing and progressive” bc like. For example I really didn’t think Alanna was that well written? She didn’t really seem like she had that much agency, and yet a lot of ppl were like “I love that you wrote a strong female character!” and meanwhile I was sitting there like “....a’ight” lmao 8)

And oh boy yeah the A/B/O thing is definitely a whole discussion in and of itself. I was pretty into A/B/O for a time, and then I kind of got sick of it, and now I only really look at A/B/O stuff if it like defies the prevailing convention somehow. Like if one of a pairing more often gets cast as the omega and the other alpha, but this one fic switches it around.

[granteares]

for the fanfic asks: 9, 44 & 51

thank you so much! ^_^

9. what are the best things about your current fandom?

so i’m always kind of multi-fandom but... i guess my current main fandom is les mis so let’s go with that!! my favorite thing about this fandom is that 90% of the time everyone can get along and there’s no discourse and a lot of people just want to chill and do their thing with the characters. it’s really refreshing to see after coming from some fandoms that can get super nasty because i feel like discourse and fighting within fandoms is just... totally ridiculous and unnecessary and overdramatic. so many people in this fandom are so nice and i’ve never come across so many people who just want to be a giant community of friends!! also not to mention how many absolutely creative people there are -- there’s always a beautiful new drawing or fanfic or edit or playlist or what-have-you. i dunno i just really appreciate having a fandom where i don��t need to worry every time i’m on tumblr that there’s going to be Drama going on.

44. what ship do you feel needs more attention?

my rarepairs are montparnasse with enjolras and/or grantaire tbh and i’d always love to see more quality stuff with those bc i have not found much at all i enjoyed. ):

51. rant/gush about one thing you love or hate in fanfiction!

i just..... LOVE THAT PEOPLE WRITE FANFICTION!!!! like even though i am not nearly as involved in fanfic as a lot of people are it’s just!!! super cool that people take these characters and throw them into new situations and explore their personalities and do all these amazing, creative things with them!! i wish i could tell everyone who is insecure about their characterizations, or sharing their work, or anything that stops them from being creative... to just DO IT MAN GO FOR IT!!! WRITE!!! HAVE FUN!!! i wish it didn’t have such a negative stigma about it, although i feel like in ways that is slowly dissolving, because it’s such a wonderful part of society!!!

[southernfriedblondebitch]

I got tagged by @shameless-notashamed (thanks darling 💜) so let's do this!

1. Why did you choose your url?

It's me 🤷‍♀️🤣 I'm southern, blonde & a bitch. So yea, really creative stuff there lol

2. Any side blogs?

Nope, I dump everything here like the dumpster fire it is

3. How long have you been on Tumblr?

🙈 can we please stop asking this question? I don't wanna talk about it

4. Do you have a queue tag?

I guess? It's #riosircontrolyourface bc yea homeboy needs to be stopped

5. Why did you start your blog?

Ummmm I think it started with Supernatural & maybe True Blood??? I dunno, I spent so long buried in the Shameless Fandom that it's hard to remember life before. But now I'm with Good Girls (still trying to decide if that's better or worse)

6. Why did you choose your pfp?

Bc hoodie!Rio is my baby

7. Why did you choose your header?

Bc hoodie!Rio & height difference (plus I really like Beth & brio's chemistry in that scene)

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

Shit I dunno but probably this one

9. How many mutuals do you have?

Shit I don't even know anymore. Let's do I a roll call. If we're mutuals comment...nah, I'm kidding. I dunno how many, but I'm grateful for all of y'all

10. How many followers do you have?

1,710. Which is just...wow.

11. How many people do you follow?

960......I shit you not 😆 I'm a mess y'all

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

😅😅😅😅😅😅 have y'all seen my blog? 95% of what I post are shitposts.

13. How often do you use Tumblr each day?

That depends: was there a new episode? Did Beth do something stupid? Did Rio make an aggressive innuendo? Is there discourse? Am I posting angsty shit & making everyone cry? Am I bothering Jade in the dms???

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

Nah, bc look I got enough shit happen in my day to day, I ain't trying to have Fandom be another fucking stressor. That being said, I will block so fucking fast if I see bullshit. I don't need it

15. How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

Hate that shit. Won't do it.

16. Do you like tag games?

Yea they can be fun. I struggle a bit tho bc uhhh how do you talk about yourself??? I'm so awkward about it. Like I have hobbies & shit but if someone asks what I do for fun I just...blank. poof, gone. But I love getting to know all of y'all

17. Do you like ask games?

See above about my inability to function as a normal person

18. Which of your mutuals do you think are Tumblr famous?

I....I really don't like the idea of Tumblr/Twitter famous. It gives me hives.

So I guess that's enough outta me. I'm going to tag the following lovely people: @jade-marie @mego42 @blizabrth @sothischickshe @ama-ssiempre @delicatelingon @lan-jev & if you wanna do it, this is me tagging you mmkay?