#I dont think he'd be given one in the context of the story i had in mind

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A redesign of an old character I made a year or so ago. He's a little plant monster in charge of a large, mostly abandoned library.

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[<3] ROBBIE AND LUKE HEADCANONS!!! [<3]

(Some TWs because I mention Luke and Robbie's trauma [in my au/hcs/lore] TW for SA.)

☆♡Fandomtrashcan/Irhen (If its okay to call you Irhen, I DONT KNOW IF IM SPELLING IT RIGHT EITHER IM SORRY) you are an inspiration and you gave me so many headcanons I'm gonna have to either beat you with a mallet or maybe make you cupcakes and cookies. /pos your art seriously makes me happy and very joyful (same with all you other cool ghost rider mooties like wazz, cicada, other robbie cuz my name is robbie, kayla, bel, you guys are really cool, I would try to talk to you guys more but I am so awkward n you all scare me sadly because you're all really really cool and you guyz are basically the only robbie reyes fans I know........ 😞😞)♡☆

(I got inspiration from Fandomtrashcans so they are simular I think SOMEBODY GET THIS TO THEM I BEG I DON'T WANNA SHOW THEM MYSELF IM A SCAREDY CAT🙏🏽🙏🏽)

I'm gonna take a fat nap this took me like an hour so much writing and then the Elias Morrow in a Robe pic at the end mmph 😞🙏🏽

Okay, so basically, I think Robbie wouldn't really like intimacy as much just due to Eli who is inside him. (Eli literally sees everything he does, and that probably would make Robbie extremely uncomfortable, plus, Robbie is most likely the type that wouldn't get into physical touch such as sex or so until he is truly comfortable and also dealt with Eli or something.) Lucas doesn't find out about Eli until they actually start to date and way more into it [As much as I joke abt Luke and Robbie getting 𝔉𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔨𝔶, Ima be fr, the only time they actually canonically had any sexual relations was the drunk hookup. If I said any other time, Ill be damn surprised.] *Yes, Ive drawn nsfw of them, but 👏🏽THOSE.👏🏽ARENT.👏🏽 CANONICAL.👏🏽AND.👏🏽NOT.👏🏽REALLY.👏🏽ANY.👏🏽CONTEXT.👏🏽* [Still don't know if I want to keep drawing nsfw at all really.]

I'm graysexual personally (I am hypersexual yall, but that is a curse. Im not comfortable with sexual stuff irl really [Might be ace]) but I kinda want to put that label onto Robbie. In my au, Robbie is trans female to male and is also bisexual. Hes not openly trans and the only people that DO know is Gabe and Luke due to the drunk hookup.

Also, as Irhen said, Robbie is more of the awkward shy type.

I think Robbie wouldn't really care for sex in an actual relationship I think he'd be fine with just romance and stuff but not anything sexual really.

In my au, Sam does exist, but thats way before Luke and Robbie generally start to click and such.

(I don't think I have spoken about Sam yet so Ill put him and Robbie AND Luke's backstory in orange)

Sam also is a key part in it, due to Sam being an absoulete A-Hole and completely just pushing Robbies boundaries in the relationship he had with him and also being just a total weirdo, that also plays a big part in MY Robbie's story and stuff, Robbie is hesitant towards the stuff. Robbie overall isn't a really 𝔉𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔨𝔶 guy...

Anyway, That plays a big part because Sam has pushed Robbies boundaries a lot and has definitely given him trauma and Robbie has definitely become more guarded due to it. (Sam Hate Club.) [I also might make it to where Sam was BEFORE Robbie became a ghost rider.]

Lucas and Robbie have a very complicated relationship, they are quite literally enemies to lovers, Robbie has literally DESPISED Lucas and at one point Lucas forced himself to feel the same way about Robbie. (In my story Lucas has known Robbie since highschool, but I'm thinking about removing it because Lucas's story is progressing to a isolated traumatic childhood being forced into Luke being raised into a weapon for the Gang that his father is in.)

Luke and Robbie's friendship (They'd never admit it till FAR on) progresses over the years very slowly, and mainly due to Luke and Sam's history and Robbie's. [It honestly REALLY starts off with that, Luke and Sam get into it because Sam just doesn't leave Robbie alone and Luke managed to get rid of Sam for a bit and Robbie learns about Lucas and Sam's history.]

When Robbie and Sam were together, Robbie generally was just so mentally unstable and stuff that he didn't really watch what he was doing and stuff, Sam really drained him. (This is Kinda where Lucas driving Robbie home constantly after something stupid like a party or so and Robbie gets drunk or smth. [Sam would always refuse to take him home.])

If you think the drunk hookup actually got them close, HELL no, they actually got further away from eachother. Lucas and Robbie were kind of just embarrassed. (Especially Lucas, the hookup really really messed with him, Lucas has kept that crush a secret for a while and that drunk hookup just ruined Luke's ability to think around Robbie, Lukes a nervous wreck. After that whole thing, Lucas avoided Robbie, and Robbie avoided Luke. Until a while later they eventually would run into eachother no matter what at the street races and eventually get back into that banter they would always have *without bringing up that embarrassing moment they had ages ago*)

Luke and Robbie started to get closer over Sams bullshit and once Sam was mainly out of the picture other things would happen and Luke would end up helping Robbie out.

I don't wanna say the drunk hookup made them dislike eachother more, it didn't, it kind of made Robbie feel a certain way about Luke (and also just kind of wrong because of Eli, smh.) and Luke felt just even more in love with Robbie (Poor guy could NYATT find a new crush 😭🙏🏽) but also really really weird around Robbie because Lucas himself has sexual trauma too (Now why did I give them both intimacy issues. [Because maybe they both can help with those issues by talking to eachother about their personal trauma with that])

But anyway, Luke and Robbie got closer due to Sam.

Let's get back onto the actual thing I was talking about which is how Robbie feels on intimacy. (A part of me really wants to make him a freak deep down when he's very comfortable and Eli isn't a PROBLEM!! 😡) I personally think Robbie would actually avoid relationships and intimacy all together until Eli wasn't an issue or so. [I did put in my au that Eli can swap places with the car and Robbie, but he specifically stays with Robbie.] Plus, I feel like Robbie would just be very awkward or so with intimacy.

[When I act get the money and find the ghost rider comics too it'll make it easier for me to add headcanons onto Robbie and mess with his lore n hcs :)]

Robbie isn't asexual but he definitely doesn't get into intimacy much or doesn't really experience it. Buddy doesn't jump into that. [I think Robbie is touch starved but he still just doesn't want to get into intimacy because of the second mind inside of his head that does not leave him alone and literally makes him want to scream, we all know who we're talking about here.]

(LUCAS DOESN'T EITHER DUE TO HIS TRAUMA, SO HEAR ME OUT, I FEEL LIKE THEY'D JUST BE GOOD WITH THAT IN THEIR RELATIONSHIP BECAUSE IT WOULDN'T BE FOCUSED ON SEX OR SO. 🙏🏽)

I think graysexual fits Robbie or maybe demisexual (Is it possible to be both?)

Now, with Eli... Luke figures out abt Eli later on when Robbie and him do start to date.

Robbie kind of really keeps it hidden and such, but it almost became impossible to hide because Eli just DID NYAATTT want Luke and Robbie 2gether. 🙏🏽🙏🏽 And would literally do everything he could to try and break them up and to be honest, they did break up a few times due to Eli. (THE ANGST I HAVE FOR LUKE BECAUSE LUKE WOULD NEVER UNDERSTAND WHY!! AND TELL ME WHY I WANNA MAKE IT TO WHERE THEY BROKE UP MULTIPLE TIMES AND LUKE WANTED TO GIVE UP BECAUSE HE JUST THOUGHT THEY DIDN'T BELONG TOGETHER!!STARTS SOBBING!!) Robbie eventually does try and talk to Lucas about it [Since Lucas is also supernatural, he does end up believing Robbie and its not like the Ghost Rider does not exist and let's be honest here, Robbie, you are not fooling anyone, you have a 69 dodge charger, same color, and same mods, just like the ghost rider. Who are you fooling here?] And Luke's opinion on Eli is kind of... Complicated. He kind of just ignores him and just does not like Eli at all. (NOT ONLY THAT THEY DO NOT GET INTO SEXUAL STUFF EVER REALLY BECAUSE OF ELI.)

I kind of like to think Eli does take control of Robbie sometimes and maybe argues with Lucas sometimes. (Which I kinda wanna do smth comedic on that cuz I would find it funny drawing a picture of Lucas screaming to get out of my boyfriend or smth and chasing Eli around idk.)

Robbie telling Luke about Eli and also... Robbie being dead, did make things complicated in the relationship, like Lucas didn't really like the idea of Eli being there, so it just felt awkward, but it did make them closer and made the relationship stronger which Eli absouletely hated.

(Lucas is the type of guy to make jokes to cope, so you already know he'd make jokes about Eli. And maybe sometimes Eli replies.........)

(Anyone want me to draw Eli Morrow in a fancy ass fuzzy robe because ***I WILL.***)

This also caused distance between them, as much as Lucas loved Robbie dearly he just didn't feel comfortable with Eli there so he was a little uncomfy.

"Robbie, we need to kill that guy." -Eli

"What? Absouletely not, He's my ex." -Robbie

"I agree, I think we should kill Sam personally." -Luke

"Don't agree with him, Luke." -Robbie.

Whos Sam in my story?

Okay, Robbie and Sam dated a while ago, and at first it really went good until Sam slowly just started to switch into a really manipulative boyfriend, he also lied a lot and wouldn't really defend Robbie or Help Robbie in a lot of situations like if Robbie needed a ride home he would tell Robbie he was too busy or make some excuse or sometimes just be rude for no reason because he has no life and we hate Sam (sorry sam might be my oc but I actually hate him its not even funny im killing him off later.) And eventually would get like really rude towards Robbie or like push him a lot and also didn't really respect his boundaries (In my au, Robbies trans, and Sam would be transphobic towards him and make him very uncomfortable.) At first it was fine but then as Sam got closer to Robbie and Robbie opened up, Sam took advantage of it.

When Sam found out abt Luke and Robbie knowing eachother and Robbie not really liking Lucas, Sam didn't handle it well, Sam would constantly ask if Luke has talked to him about him before and Robbie would constantly tell him that he literally doesn't like Lucas and isn't friends with him at all or even talks to him. [Well figure out why Sam was so worried abt Robbie and Luke talking and stuff abt him.] Sam started to get also just worse too, really possessive, jealous, and not in a good way, and it'd be mainly because of Luke?? It was obvious to Robbie that Sam and Luke clearly had history but everytime he'd try and ask Sam would brush it off with some excuse like "I just don't like him due to the whole Jones thing, I don't trust him." (IN LUCAS'S LORE, LUKE IS RELATED TO TIGER, WHICH IF YOU'VE SAW N STUFF IN LUKES LORE, HE IS A KNOWN MURDERER AND THE LEADER OF THE BLACK SCARLETS AND THE FATHER OF LUKE N HIS SIBLINGS, He's constantly compared to Tiger/looks like him qs well and stuff due to it because people generally think Lucas is involved with his dads gang and more.) Sam isn't really a stable guy, so this whole thing with Robbie knowing Luke absouletely tore him apart to the point he'd start to accuse Robbie of cheating with Luke which really took Robbie's mental health down, Sam was a real piece of work. Sam avoids talking about any of his history with Luke. [Let's be honest, Sam literally just wanted to manipulate and use Robbie.]

Sam and Robbie ended up breaking up because Robbie went through Sam's phone (He doesn't really break peoples privacy, but Sam acted so weird and just suddenly changed so much to the point it had Robbie worried about maybe Sam getting physical plus the whole pushing his boundaries stuff really really affected Robbie) and Robbie found out Sam was cheating. [THE AUDACITY OF HIM TO ACCUSE ROBBIE OF CHEATING WITH SOMEBODY HE FUCKING HATED AND THEN CHEAT ON ROBBIE IS FUCKING DISGUSTING I SWEAR TO GOD NOBODY HATES MY FUCKING OC MORE THAN I HATE HIS BITCH ASS)

(A lot of Robbie and Lukes trauma is kind of me importing MY trauma onto them, so this is kinda where Sam just magically appears. [Same with Liam, we're not talking abt Liam though, Ive spoken about him before hes a big ass part of Luke's trauma, we dont like Liam nor Sam.]

Now, let's get into Luke and Sams history. Oh, boy, theres a lot to unpack.

Luke and Sam weren't really friends back then, Luke knew Sam because Sam dated Jasper which is Lucas' deceased best friend. *This was a while ago.* Luke always was kind of hesitant of Sam, ever since Jasper started to date Sam, Jasper changed, he wasn't the same, he was distant, and he avoided Luke, he avoided all his friends. Luke generally started to get worried about him and was worried it mightve been caused from Sam (Which. It. Was.) But Jasper would never speak about it, never. Sam started to notice Lukes interest as well [Sam also knows that Luke and Jasper has a sort of thing at one point, Luke hooked up with Jasper, and liked Jasper, but Jasper turned him down, and Lucas very easily fell out of love with him after that, they were just friends, Sam used that to his advantage with Jasper.] Since Sam noticed how Luke was acting, he immediately started to kind of tell Jasper lies and that Lucas still liked him and was trying to break them up and was lying about how he was treating Jasper and that he wasn't doing what Lucas thought he was doing (Which was controlling Jasper and mentally abusing him and more, a lot of similar stuff with Robbie including pushing his boundaries.) And that started to cause distance between Luke and Jasper, and since Jasper was starting to believe Sam more than Lucas, Sam decided to try something else, since Jasper believed him constantly, he decided to try and "hook up" with Luke behind his back but Lucas obviously declined and immediately went to Jasper about it, but of course, Sam pulled the "He's trying to break us up because he likes you" card and what did Jasper do?? BELIEVE IT. I'M GETTING ANGRY OVER MY OWN LORE. I'M PUTTING MYSELF IN LUKE'S POSITION AND IT HURTS AND IT MAKES ME ANGRY BECAUSE WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN YOU DON'T BELIEVE ME YOU'VE KNOWN ME LONGER. Luke and Jasper eventually had a really big fallout but lets be honest that didn't stop them from going back to eachother and talking it through, they finally hang out, Luke gets gifted the supernatural necklace from Jasper, (Jasper was also gonna breakup with Sam that night because he and Luke talked it out and Jasper showed Luke the screenshots and stuff what Sam would say and stuff) and what happens? Jasper DIES. BOOM. BANG. POW. What really made Lucas hate Sam the most was how Sam didn't even go to Jasper's funeral. (They were still technically dating because they never broke up because Jasper died.) Lucas hates Sam for what he did to Jasper and how he didn't even show an ounce of care. Jasper passing away tore Lucas straight apart.

@that1bitchqueer HIGHWAY THE ELI MORROW IN A ROBE IS COMING YOU JUST BE PATIENT ITLL BE ADDED AT THE END OF THIS PAGE.

I did what I said I would

Ill have much more better headcanons n stuff when I get the money n find all the robbie ghost rider comics

Give suggestions if want :)

[Help me out too like I said I haven't read the comics :( ]

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finally finished gilgamesh (the korean webcomic, not the actual sumerian epic of gilgamesh) and like ohhh i get it, tink is haunting the narrative

jrgrjgbgkg sobbing. because this is EXACTLY what zius says in tek which means zius' ideology is directly based on tink. and now zius passes on tink's words to the second special class fjhg

can you TELL tink was my favorite character in this. rip king i miss you but at least you get to be the catalyst for all of tek ✌️

also WOW on context. "oh hey that's legia from gilgamesh" legia is in ONE CHAPTER of gilgamesh. IN THE LAST ONE.

long messy assortment of gilgamesh thoughts under the cut 👍 when i say long and messy and all over the place i mean it btw.

i have no fucking clue what went on with the ending of the main story

the paneling in fights was kinda wild and i couldnt tell what actually killed tink even once i reread the chapter which maybe cheapened his death a bit. like DID waron stab him? I DONT KNOW! I CANT TELL! did he just get done in by two malto goons to protect tludia? fuck if i know. can someone explain

the gilgamesh cast actually ended up growing on me by the end i was ready to scream when it teased hadar dying like three times at the end

and i also like how tludia was characterized later on and her picking up all these habits from ram and listening to a his stories only to later succeed him is aaaaa

foreshadowing 👍

the explanation for ram and tludia's Whole Deal is. wack though. "yeah ram exists because of a programming error basically. also last thursday-ism is real." why does it matter that ram tells tludia the world history if the history is fake??? why did tludia's curse flare up BEFORE hinsher got unthawed if hinsher being alive is the catalyst for it?

i GUESS it fits in with the worldbuilding of restrictions and rules as avenues of power. all power comes at a cost in this world and i think it's GREAT worldbuilding and powerscaling but using it to handwave plot beats kinda blows

on that note the worldbuilding around demons is kind of. yikes. i get they're going for a "forever war" thing but. really had to specify that they're all black huh. is this why tek never shows them onscreen? is hwandaeng embarrassed about this now.

it's not as bad as it could be what with the "both sides suck" approach but damn daljan really fucked up by essentially demoting tink for being anti-racist and not explaining that he'd like tink to teach new knights to be less racist. bcuz all tink is gonna walk away with is "knights are racist". daljan. my man.

i keep talking abt tink (love that bitch!) but i do truly love how fucked the concept of Honor got with him. and ruthless ram is in the later part of the comic. tludia criticizes him by asking if tink had any choice. ram says it was his honor and choice to die. but. tink was blackmailed into working for the malto in the first place. he didnt ever have a choice. choosing to die was his only choice. ESPECIALLY HOW WITH TLUDIA'S BACKSTORY WITH KANDENTIA!! it's paralleled with how kandentia criticzes tludia for stealing, but tludia says it's a priviledge to be so rightous!! not everyone can afford honor! are you gonna tell a starving child to stop stealing because its illegal? are you gonna tell a man being blackmailed into criminality to choose the "right" thing?

honor as a priviledge is a fantastic concept to explore

also on that note. ram. looking back on it he Never really gives people a choice. like obviously, his "negotiation" with the fake mushia. once the peaceful option fails, he just starts threatening her. oh, and how his cowardice is repeated - the people he's leaving aren't ever given a choice either, are they? and from the beginning of the plot, too. what choice does tludia have but to trust him when he's the only one who could possibly cure her fatal curse disease????

and in the end tludia's final actual choice is "life forever or die." like. what choice is that even

at least tludia's desire to keep living no matter what is a long established thing so it makes sense for her to do that

wow the story really has like 2 suicides. first ram and then muitin in the bonus stories. hot diggity

kinda mad hadar's sister plotline didn't really get resolved. where'd she go. i get that hadar's resolution to the plotline is that he gives up on looking for her and starts living for himself, since she never wanted him to find her anyway - but it still stings a little

she probably became a knight. she's not legia's sidekick, is she?? they look a little similar. maybe without the lipstick...

also fucking WILD to have tek things recontextualized

like oh these bozos are fron letoon. where stella lived and died. okay!

or going from "i dont care abt tamin" to "TINK'S BROTHER??????"

morbidly hilarious that he ended up becoming solbas' sidekick then. is that why she cares so much about rescuing him in tek? not just a simply need for his two braincells (as she has none), but guilt as well?

didn't tamin have tink's weapons in tek too. oh my gosh i'm going to cry

other stuff!!

tanshirin got so much more fucked up now seeing her in gilgamesh. "tyr's sister. cool 👍" to "hahah. girl what." good on her for becoming a knight though. seeing her with hinsher's hammer in gilgamesh was surreal

also in tek when zius explains the reason the east and west hate each other so much now realizing he was talking about hadar, tink, and hwashran specifically. i hope hadar shows up in tek at some point. just having the guy who Caused The War, Somewhat there would be hilarious. the smug smirk that launched a thousand ships. (hadar is a riot)

speaking of hinsher!!!! her story is the one that made me sob most (only time i cried at this comic was "gnojes the blacksmith" from the side stories). it's just. auhvrhhr. the human equivalent of hachiko. and at the end of the side story where hinsher steps into the workshop and is greeted by those bearing his name i aurghgfhf

it's really well handled how hinsher reacts to the situation. she's devestated, obviously. that moment when she sees ram and sees he's unchanged and asks him how long it's been but of course he's IMMORTAL but she doesn't know that so she thinks it's been no time at all but it was 500 years i'm. i'm fine

and just like everythinggggg and how she eventually copes by imagining gnojes managed to be happy without her. maybe he found someone else. the conflict of longing and desolation at hearing the name of gnojes continues, but then - he never had any children. he never married. he waited for her.

and how hinsher just. she regrets leaving gnojes. she regrets being trapped. she doesn't regret trying to save strangers. because that is her knight's honor. and she does it again, protecting tludia and nephren in the final arc,,,, don't talk to me

AND THEN THE SIDE STORY SHOWS. GNOJES NEVER GAVE UP LOOKING FOR HER. BUT HE FOUND HAPPINESS AGAIN, TOO. in his work. with the children he adopted. he died of old age surrounded by people he loved, who loved him too. but he never stopped missing her. and she'll never stop grieving him

the tragedy is just fucking DELICIOUS okay

do also love how the side stories show that ram is an unreliable narrator. it's really neat to see characters picked up and fleshed out without his viewpoint. like the fuckin plot twist that it was depression era ram who killed suldin and not tisalle. but ram only heard "suldin was killed by his apprentice" and didn't remember doing it, so he assumed tisalle did it. and then killed tisalle for it. fucked up 👍

what more was i saying

waron is way more fucked up than i thought but zius describes her as "predictably unpredictable" so she's just always been like this. how the fuck did the knights reign her in again. kandentia probably kicked her ass and now she just wants to brawl with zius now that her main target is dead. she's fantastic and i love her. she knows EXACTLY what she wants.

the general theme of self sacrifice and making yourself the villain to help others both with ram's actions and the demon knight backstory and waron's short story on how she hates knights kinda makes me think she also does this to establish that not all knights are just? after all, honor is individual, and not all honor will be "good", with waron as a prime example

did she ask nagyunn how he'd kill her just to figure out if he'd be fun to fight

that is. all my thoughts on gilgamesh i can remember at the moment. this post is long and messy but such is customary for me 👍

once again i think gilgamesh is hampered by the early chapters trying to hard to be comedic. once it settles on a tone and as the art improves i started enjoying it way more but with how frontloaded the flashbacks are (even if they pay off in full later!) i definetly wouldn't have been nearly as invested if it weren't for me reading tek first. tek just has a better plot hook with a character with a set goal and a plan to achieve it, whereas the beginning of gilgamesh kinda meanders as the crew sets out to unlock ram's memories, which doesn't really end up significantly changing ram, even. the beginning is too largely incidental to me so tink n the malto as concrete antagonists to outwit and overcome def helped that.

but also the ending feels just. messy. here is god to give us exposition. everything you did was useless. ram's pivot into ending the world suddenly, even if it's to draw out god(?), feels much too abrupt. yes he had the report about tludia and hinsher being somehow connected, and i did find it odd she could understand hadar without using sign language, but that foreshadowing really wasn't enough to even conceive what his plan was, especially since his talk with the fake mushia leaves out the dialogue where he actually gets her to agree. and then it also cuts out the final words tludia gives to ram before he jumps off the cliff.

to be fair tek ALSO does this a lot but it p much is always dialogue that would've been boring and is brought up only when relevant, with the general sense of "i guess they could've talked about this at that point." (main way tek blows it is with jiroon, imo - like, put the scene with nagyunn encouraging her before her death, maybe? so we're not just invested in her in-post? flashbacks work with tink because he already had plenty of build up before dying, and additional context just expands on what we already knew about him. i digress.)

and then the malto mooks who attack tludia and co are literally unnamed and faceless. it would've already been better if pavrin was the one to betray mushia. it was. just some fucking guy! okay!

tldr abt the ending: i dont really get it ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ the midpoint of the comic feels best to me writing wise. overall i enjoyed it though, even if i still like tek more.

dang, now i should totally reread tek for a fourth time, just so i can pick up on every detail gilgamesh expands on or recontextualizes.

like some of these r just for fun (like why daljan is so important to kandentia, since both of them are rather minor characters in tek), and others r kinda bonkers (the dragon has lost some of his mystique now that nephren exists to me)

[hinderr]

i miss wren farvo btw do you have like . any lore about him before nature/nurture happened? like what was he like when he was a kid and where did he live and how was his relationship with samirah and who was his buire, etc etc i wanna know 👀

OLLYYYYYYY if there's anyone i can trust to be a wren farvo enjoyer ik it's you fr fr. funnily enough there actually used to be a wren-centric nurture chapter that like, explored exactly his lore lmao. the chapter involved themes I wasn't ready to write about however (like, I realised I wasn't the right person/didnt have enough experience with them) so I scrapped that chapter in the end. i can give you the lore aspects though! (cut off because, long as fuck)

(also this will make sense in the further context of the post, but I didn't feel comfortable putting these links under the readmore lmao)

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fundraiser for Yousef, a photojournalist in Gaza

esims!! they need those!! help them out

basically though the rundown was that; wren was adopted by his buir at a young age, after the Purge (young enough that he doesn't remember his previous life, not that he particularly cares to look). also, Wren doesn't remember this, but he was actually adopted first before Samirah (Samirah was older, and thus ended being the older sister anyway) (Samirah also doesn't bother reminding Wren about this, if only to avoid his gloating)

the two only had the one parent, the sole survivor of the Farvo clan after the Purge. It, obviously, left their parent in...a state. i never went around to properly naming their parent, since in the chapter Wren only ever called them 'Buir'. then again given the fact that they were living with a covert back then, the atriarch of clan Farvo probably didn't give their name out anyway.

oh yeah okay so; in the nature/nurture verse, after the Purge, Din's covert wasn't the only covert out there. survivors splintered off into many, many small coverts, most of them isolated from one another and thinking they were the only ones. at most, one covert would be aware of one other covert that survived (and usually, to the best of their ability, try to merge coverts to reassemble their numbers). each covert had a different approach to making through the galaxy, particularly Wren's covert not instilling the 'dont take your helmet off' rule

the themes that i mentioned the chapter having was basically; what it'd be like, growing up as a child of a dead people, and what it'd be like when your parent is a survivor of a genocide. how that'd affect them, and affect you and your family, and how hard it'd be to connect to a culture and a community that was ripped brutally out of your hands before you could even speak. wren farvo, essentially, grew up in a graveyard, with his parent haunted by the ghosts of a family he never got to meet, mourning for a home he never got to see. that Wren was essentially a genocide survivor himself, and how he'd struggle to come to terms with his identity as a Mandalorian when it seems the entire galaxy wants him dead

then I started writing the chapter, realised how similar it was to the very real Palestinian genocide going on right now, and proper realised the depth and weight and importance of how I was going to convey this story. i tried my best for a couple passages, but eventually though i realised that, as of now, it's better if I just...don't. not yet, at the very least. regrettably Im not the best person to write about this, i just don't know enough, and i wasn't going to take a bite out of something i couldn't chew so, whoops! into the deleted scenes doc they go. maybe one day I'll pick it up again

back to Wren Farvo lore however !! his parent passed in the way many mandalorians pass during those times, having caught off guard and alone by a group of one too many beskar-hungry thieves. it was a pretty dark and awful time for the Farvo clan, but they thankfully had the rest of the covert to keep them going. Samirah became matriarch of the Farvos, and Wren became the lighthearted grounding force that balanced out her seriousness. they kept each other in check, one from sinking into the burdens of responsibility and duty, and the other from a recklessness that would eventually kill him. when Samirah adopted Jeliaya, it only brought them closer together, jeliaya basically being a promise for the clan's continued existence

as this is all happening, wren's covert had managed to meet with Din's old covert (Din himself not being around, still searching for the kid). together, and with Bo-Katan's crew after a while, they banded and started searching for more survivors. the heads of the coverts (+ bo) eventually realised how easily dwarf planets flew under nearly every radar. then they found the dwarf planet where they settled and struck peace with the locals. for about a decade they settled in, digging tunnels of their own and carving out spaces for themselves in the planet itself. Wren stayed close with his sister and his niece the entire time, having no reason to be anywhere else

but being able to live on that dwarf planet, though - being able to walk out in the sun in relative peace definitely did wonders for everyone's mental health. for the first time they had a planet again, however small. Samirah's work thrived, especially when she started communicating with the local doctors. Jeliaya grew healthy and at peace, her safety mostly assured. Wren did...Wren things, helping out everywhere he could

a lot of that involved him being part of the force that stood against the Dark Troopers; Wren was one of the first few that devised defensive plans, figured out their weaknesses, convincing the Armourer(s) that beskar weapons were, against this enemy, quite necessary since it's one of the few materials that can tear through the Dark Trooper's armour (which is why she never made Din melt down his spear in this 'verse. that, and also I'm a beskar-spear enjoyer at heart). one such mission brought him and his sister to this Imperial fort, where they met Din for the first time!!

meeting Din, Wren's first immediate thought is 'woah, this guy's fucked' and after learning that he's still looking for the kid he lost about 7-8 years ago, came up with the nickname "Or'trikar". for the grief that he exuded like a physical aura, and for the tightness of Wren's own chest whenever he so much as looked at him. Wren and Din grew closer, mostly due to Wren being...Wren and generally clingy to the people he's trying to impress. it works on Din, who ended up viewing Wren as a younger brother

Din definitely wouldn't think so, but to the Farvos it's obvious that for that time, Din was practically one of them. An honourary Farvo, if nothing else. he was practically Jeliaya's second uncle, and he came around to the Farvo residence pretty often, thanks to Wren refusing to let the guy stew in his own room and his own or'trikar

about two years pass, and Wren and Din get paired together to find the source of all those Dark Troopers, and to scout out how to cut the production off at its root. they find the biggest, freshest clue they've had in all their years and Wren, antsy and excited, decided to go on a solo hunt to burn off steam instead of going home. Din pointed him in the direction of where he last left the Razor Crest, and Wren found it (neglected, dusty, but still usable; something something, nothing grand, just a means to an end) and used it to fly around for a bit

unfortunately (or fortunately, depending on how you see it) the tracker that Gideon put on that ship was still there, and still active. Wren ends up being captured and thrown into an Imperial prison, where he meets this strange kid through the vents who insists on calling himself Asset

and then the rest is history

[sunriseovergotham]

OOOOOHHOHOHOHOHOH

🤥 for enigma AND 🙊 for micah AND UH 🔫 for k??? if you would be so kind and noble???? batting my eyelashes i wanna hear even MORE abt these goobers

🤥 LYING - are they good liars? do they have tells to show they're lying?

i mean. it kinda depends? hes not really a good liar but he can lie. sometimes. if he tries super hard. he'll like freeze up and go all silent bc stressful situations make his brain shut down and overload, which is hard enough to deal with but having to come up with a convincing story on top of that??? the struggle is real.

i dont think his stay in the compound made him any more capable. i find that trauma tends to make me less capable and more panicky and frazzled and unable to function? crazy how that works. i wish it gave me super manipulator powers though. honestly, k is probably capable of manipulation, his circumstances lead to that being more useful and necessary. did i get off topic i cant even tell. whatever

🙈 SEE-NO-EVIL - whats a side of your oc that they don't want to show other people?

definitely his vulnerable side. hes very good at compartmentalizing stuff, kinda part of the job, but its different when other people bring stuff up. somehow that just reactivates the emotions. he lashes out with anger in those moments because anger is a practiced, easy emotion. safe to use. its a shield. it hides his other emotions from view.

hes very dissociated from his actions, i think, he has nightmares that he doesnt remember. he'll wake up sweaty and panicking and not know why. theres something small and vulnerable in his chest, that maybe not even he knows of, sadness and guilt and grief and fear. i dont think hes ever trusted someone with that part of himself willingly. he spent so long protecting it that he forgot what hes even trying to protect. its just muscle memory at this point

🔫 PISTOL - do they trust people easily? how easily will they turn their back to someone? have they been backstabbed before? will they betray someone if given an ultimatum?

ABSOLUTELY NOT. they work at the compound

i cant tell which context this is in so ill answer for both: a( would he turn his back to someone in need?: i mean yea. probably. it kind of depends. like if there was a compound mikey begging for k to save him k would leave the situation as quickly as physically possible and just let ty handle it. he feels less guilty if hes not the one holding the gun, yk? if it were an iteration of him he'd probably help them, directly or indirectly. self preservation extends to iterations, most of the time b( how easily would they turn their back to someone (as in: trusting them)?: again it depends on who it is. he trusts micah not to kill enigma and to protect him, with the understanding that micah would probably rough enigma up a bit but probably keep him alive. he trusts ty as far as he could throw him (not very far), if k had any business regarding iterations of himself he would attempt to keep it as far from ty as possible and deal with it all himself if at all possible. he especially doesnt trust ty with any iterations of himself, but he cant rlly do much about the ones already in the compound. rip compound enigmas

i mean. Yeah he probably has been. i cant point to a specific moment or time but im sure he has been

ABSOLUTELY. IMMEDIATELY. NO HESITATION. self preservation is a bitch

[cutekittenlady]

Tbh I think the whole Delphi incident warmed him up to Drift. At least subconsciously.

(Spoilers for More Than Meets the EYE under the cut. If you havent read it yet and dont wanna be spoiled then go read Issues #4 and #5 on readcomiconline or something. Stories too good to be spoiled.)

Theres this moment, of course, but theres an important context here. And its that, at least a little bit, Drift is lying. And I think on some level Ratchet knows it?

Like Drift claims he wouldnt be there if the DJD actually bothered him but in the next issue, after hes infected with the rust plague and is out of the fight we get this interaction.

Drift starts trying to ask Ratchet to "put him out of his [misery]" rather than risk falling into the hands of the DJD.

Its not that the DJD and the fact that hes one of his targets doesnt effect Drift at all. The fact that hes on their hit list and hes within their territority DOES frighten him, probably a lot. But the key thing here is, the really key thing, is Drift came to Delphi with Ratchet anyway. He, out of everyone on the Lost Light, had the biggest reason to avoid accompanying Ratchet to this place but he did it anyway.

If anything hammers home to Ratchet that Drift is a serious ally its not his seeming fearlessness but his bravery.

And just because you brought it up;

The context for this scene and Ratchets line "I'm miles away from anyone I truly care about" ending on "I've got nothing else to lose" is important since hes talking to Pharma. Someone who used to be his friend and fellow doctor. Ratchet really has no relationship with Drift at this point. Their allies and so far through this issue Drift has likely earned his respect, but in this moment Ratchet is drawing on his own post war issues and feeling betrayed by Pharmas actions.

I mean before the full reveal of the extent of Pharmas actions, Ratchet was looking forward to seeing him! He was going to make him his successor!

He was someone whose skill he respected enough to make him the new Chief Medical Officer of the autobots. But then he gets to Delphi and finds out not only that he had a deal going with the DJD but that he murdered his own patients to maintain that deal.

And I honestly think the former effected him more than the later given what he says when he turns his back on a dangling precariously over the edge Pharma on the roof.

Quoting almost exactly what Pharma had said earlier about how he'd picked which of his patients to kill initially.

So you got Ratchet on Delphi. Forced to fight a former friend and colleague who he'd respected A LOT. Someone who some in the fanbase think he mightve even had feelings for (I dont subscribe to that thought myself but hey I can see the appeal), and hes forced to see how depraved hes become.

I mean, Ratchets winning here and hes not even really that happy about it. As he turns away from Pharma he just looks so tired and miserable. (I mean the part of that could be the rust plague) Which opens him up for attack.

And who should show up at this point, when Ratchet is both physical and emotionally vulnerable?

Who should show up in the nick of time when Pharma literally has Ratchet in the sights of his gun and is about to blow his head off?

The way he reaches for Drift in the last panel paired with his earlier statement that he has nothing left to lose...

Yeah Ratch I think you were wrong about that.

All that to say...

Yeah I definitely think Delphi played a role in Ratchets opinion on Drift.

This was the moment when Ratchet fall in love!

After this he literaly says -"I'm miles away from anyone I truly care about." And after this chapter he started to act nice towards Drift.

He was literaly gagged. Like they are on DJD territory, and during the war there were times when the autobots captured decepticons and they literaly begged Ratchet to kill them. Because they rather die by autobot hands than by the DJD. AND THEN THERES DRIFT WHO'S ON THE LIST! HE STANDS ON DJD TERRITORY BUT HE DOESEN'T GIVE A 💩! HE'S THERE AND RISKS HIS OWN LIFE JUST TO HELP RATCHET AND AUTOBOTS HE MAYBE NEVER EVER MET BEFORE!!! (except Ambulon ofc)

[chibichibisha]

:D OKAY SO!

Introducing: Masayuki Jinja! (and me rambling about what I think he'd think about Yuusa after seeing previous posts and stuff you've made abdbajhdka)

Now this can go one of two ways depending on first impressions, so I'll see how much energy I got and write as much as my brain can come up with if that's cool with ya!

Quick summary - Masayuki has had his fair share of horrible experiences regarding cosmic horrors, cordyceps zombie mushrooms, mishmash tentacle demons of the undead etc. As a result of him being my version of Yuu if they were pulled from the 'World of Horror' game universe. How fun! :D

1 - Good first impressions!

Yuusa definitely has a far better first impression compared to most... Beings... That Masayuki has encountered (if you ignore the lack of lips, but I wouldn't be surprised if he shrugged it off)

And if Introductions go well without revelations of less shrug-off-able traits (cuthulu tentacles or what-have-you) then I can see Masayuki being fairly amicable and calm around Yuusa until he catches wind of what they can sorta do (like with the sandwich). He'll treat them like any of his friends - likely minus the bear hugs and hair ruffles if they're not fond of them the first time he does them.

And with the revelation of the ~wrigglers~, while Masayuki would be significantly more on edge around Yuusa, it would be far less likely that Masayuki will lash out with a swing of his crowbar (a fate bestowed upon those who tried to maim, murder, or possess my favourite man in the past) - although this would only be the case if he's befriended Yuusa since it's a habit born from self preservation at this point,,,

He'll be jumpy around Yuusa at times - but is able to coexist with them if this is the case. And hey, maybe being pals with them could help him with the hypervigilance. Or make it worse. I'm not too sure.

2 - Bad first impressions...

This can happen any number of ways. I doubt that their attitude would lead to them not getting along with Masayuki on meeting - especially given the fact that I get the impression that they could be anarchist buddies (correct me if I'm wrong) - But I'm not sure how they tend to really act when in a bad mood, so I could be wrong. The biggest way I can see this happening, though, is if he sees something like the sandwich incident before meeting Yuusa.

Masayuki's general disposition towards Yuusa would be extremely cautious, and I doubt that he'd be able to sleep, relax, or potentially eat in their presence given how he tends to react to similar presences. It's a 50/50 chance of him picking fight or flight, but if he sees that others get along with Yuusa then chances are hell opt for flight and just keep his distance while being on guard in case anything were to happen.

Given the fact that they're both in the MC/Yuu/Magicless squad (yell at me if I'm wrong my memory is terrible) if we're going off of the game then they'd probably get dumped at Ramshackle together. In this scenario, Masayuki will not sleep until he passes out (don't worry, he can sleep standing up)

Along with that, idk much about Yuusa's eating habits, but I am curious as to what they'd think if they witnessed Masayuki eating a mask made out of pumpkin rind imbued with protective magical energy because he was hungry (I was able to do it in the game he's based off of so, naturally, Masayuki can and will do it as well)

(sorry this is so long/if I made mistakes - I checked through any mentions of Yuusa to make sure I wasn't completely messing up on something that I should/would know, but chances are I may have messed up somewhere so feel free to delete this/correct me if this is too long/if I've made mistakes I hope you have a nice day sjavsisnsosi bye)

OMG I DIDN'T EXPECT SUCH A LONG ASK, HONESTLY DFHFHFG but it's okay, it's okay!! I always like more context than nothing at all!! So this is good, don't worry.

And I think you got it pretty well? As I said, I do not treat Yuusa as my other twst oc's, because Yuusa is not a serious character. The concept and idea in Yuusa is to have them doing weird things in the story, and making the characters uncomfortable about this, because they should treat as a normal magicless human that came from other world, but they are not notmal at all, and it's very hard to overlook or ignore this. They comment things breaking the 4th wall like mentioning why they are designed different than them, or how they are able to appear and reappear like nothing, and yet Yuusa seems to be unfit and without any magic skill at all, and not knowing anything at all. So I think it's very normal that Masayuki would find them unsettling, it's what Yuusa is meant to be.

They would think Masayuki is weird, and jufging him because of this, and be very ironic because Yuusa is the most weird person there after all, somehow this weirdo is not aware of his own aura.

So yeah, I think they wouldn't be enemies or something, they both lean to the more chaotic side so that would help, but I like to picture that they would be horror survivor/inhuman horror spawn dynamic in a not serious context (Because Yuusa is not serious, they do not have a backstory not a reason to be there, they just are there, they exist there even if sometimes they dont want to be aknowledged by the rest). So yeah, maybe not super friends, but they could live under the same roof!

[cherryblossomstars]

II. Navy (W. Ushijima)

Taken from my AO3 series of one-shots & reposted here

Pairing: Ushijima x F!Reader

Word count: 1,446

Genre: Fluff, birthday fic

Summary: Aoba Johsai's volleyball team has never been able to defeat the Great Ushiwaka of Shiratorizawa. Their manager, however? She can bring him to his knees in mere seconds.

Or, Ushijima Wakatoshi is helplessly in love with Seijoh's Ace's twin sister, and the Aoba Johsai VBC is not appreciative of it.

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It's no secret that Ushijima Wakatoshi is a baby when it comes to matters of love or any emotion that comes with showing affection. His movements on the court are lithe, careful, and precise. Mistakes rarely happen when he's playing his beloved sport, and errors will almost certainly never happen if he's at his peak concentration- then he's at a completely different and untouchable level. He has a degree of grace and beauty on the court that a professional figure skater would be jealous of (not to mention his incredible stamina).

And yet, when it comes to you, he may as well be an infant struggling to walk. It's messy, he's not sure what he's doing, and sometimes he gets hurt trying to figure it out. He knows you, that much he's sure about. You've both known each other for years now. So why, why is it so hard to figure out something to do for you on your birthday?

Around the holidays and on his birthday, he would always tell you not to get him something. He's not a big fan of presents. If he needed something, he'd simply ask his family and then in 1-2 business days, bam. The item in question would be at his front door. And yet, every time, you've still found a way to give him something meaningful.

In the three years he's known you, you've given him a scrapbook, a jar of reasons you love him, and, his most favorite gift of all, a volleyball with everyone's signatures on it. Not just his team's, but other teams as well. People from the Fukurodani, Johzenji, Nekoma, Itachiyama, hell, even Karasuno and Aoba Johsai. You'd somehow managed to coerce Oikawa into signing it. When he'd asked about Oikawa, you'd simply shrug and say "he owed me one". He decided not to press any further. While some people opted to simply write their name on the ball, others wrote little messages too. Iwaizumi Hajime had written a simple happy birthday, while Tendou had to be stopped by you from practically taking up the entire damn ball, a story told to him by his teammates later on. He even cracked a small chuckle imagining your small figure trying to restrain Tendou Satori of all people. He also learned that Oikawa likes to sign his name with a star next to his signature. Ushijima thought it was tacky, but it fit his personality well. Every year you didn't have a physical present for him, you'd take him out on a date or give him one of your homemade bentos.

He was not a fan of presents, but he's certainly grown to look forward to receiving yours.

Yet, every year, he struggles to figure out what to get you. In the past years, he'd given you something simple, but nice or something you just happened to need at the time. One year it was a phone, since Oikawa had accidentally broken yours that year. Ushijima had to visit Oikawa himself and convince him not to buy you a new phone, since Ushijima would be the one handling it. After some debate, Oikawa finally gave in. Another year he'd gotten you a simple silver band, one that you keep on your index finger. He rarely sees you go out without it on, something he's found very pleasing. It brings a sense of satisfaction to his mind when he sees it on you.

Perhaps it was the weather, he rationalized, that was getting in the way of his ideas. Or maybe it was the fact that he had another practice match coming up soon, so he was also coming up with game plans in the back of his mind. He needed to focus. Ushijima was normally ahead of things when it came to plans with you, but he's been so busy with volleyball these past few weeks that he hasn't been able to buy you your gift yet. And now it was six in the evening on a Friday, and he still wasn't sure what to get you for your birthday tomorrow.

He grumbled under his breath, he'd just have to swallow his pride and ask for help. He took out his phone and called the first person he could think of- Tendou. You two were good friends, after all.

"Helloooo? What's up Wakatoshi?" Tendou sang.

"[Name]." He said.

"You're gonna have to give me more context than that." His friend pointed out.

"We're celebrating her birthday tomorrow and I'm unsure of what to get her."

"Something sweet. She's got a pretty awful sweet tooth after all."

"I want something she can keep. Something that will last."

"Oh wow. What a doting boyfriend. Hmm... Well I don't think she needs anything right now... Oh! Why don't you just give that ace from Seijoh a call?"

"...I do not have his number."

"I'll text it to you. Later." And with that, the line went dead.

Damn. He had to ignore his pride just to call Tendou, but Iwaizumi? That was a different level. He'd do it, though, because it's for you.

Ding!

Tendou: It's +81-XXX-XXXX-XXX

Tendou: good luck~ (*´ I `)ﾉﾟ(ﾉД｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡

Ushijima: Thank you.

Should he call or text? Maybe texting would be the better option. You never answered any unknown numbers, who's to say your twin wasn't the same way? He gave your brother a contact before sending a text.

Ushijima: Hello, Iwaizumi. It's Ushijima. Do you have any good gift ideas for [Name]?

Iwaizumi: dude how'd you get my number?

Ushijima: Tendou had it.

Iwaizumi: cool. follow up question: why does he have it?

Iwaizumi: nevermind. not sure I wanna know.

Ushijima couldn't help but think about how you and your brother text the same way.

Iwaizumi: dunno. she likes meaningful gifts i guess. maybe an album? or a scr:"//ad39E

He furrowed his brows in confusion. A what?

Iwaizumi: sorry. oikawa made a grab for my phone. i was gonna say maybe a scrapbook.

Ushijima: I don't know how to make those.

Iwaizumi: painting?

Ushijima: I am bad at art. What are other people getting her?

Iwaizumi: im getting her a new video game for her switch. oikawa's getting her concert tickets to that band she likes so much. yahaba and kyoutani pooled their money together and got her a bunch of new clothes. kunimi's giving her $20. the rest of team pooled their money together and got her a new tablet. i know the players from fukurodani, karasuno, johzenji, nekoma, itachiyama, and inarizaki got her stuff but i dont know what.

Iwaizumi: wait actually those twins from inarizaki got her a stuffed animal and a box of cookies from a bakery she likes

Yahaba and Kyoutani got her clothes... A lightbulb lights up in his mind.

Ushijima: Thank you. I know what to give her.

Iwaizumi: yea no problem

Ushijima went to the shopping district for no reason, then. He went back to his dorm, stepping inside and immediately opening his closet.

"Figured something out?" Tendou greeted from his bunk.

"Yes." He responded, taking one of his sweaters off from a hanger and holding it out in front of him.

Tendou raises his eyebrows in shock, "she's gonna be swimming in that."

"Yes, but she likes to take my volleyball jacket all the time. She says it smells like me, so I may as well give her this one since she can't keep the volleyball jacket." Ushijima holds in front of him a large maroon sweater with the word Shiratorizawa printed in white on it. It was bought to fit him and all his 189 centimeter glory.

"She'll love it."

"Why are you giving this back to me? I gave it to you." Ushijima tilts his head slightly.

You stood in front of him holding out the sweater he had given you for your birthday a few weeks ago, neatly folded in your hands. You felt your face grow hot in embarrassment. "It... Doesn't smell like you anymore. There's no point if it doesn't feel like I'm close to you."

He's quiet for a moment before taking the sweater from your hands. "So you are returning it?"

You can't look at him in the eye, "for now. I want it back, of course. Just... wash it or something with whatever laundry soap you use and give it back so it smells like you."

He smiles softly at you and presses a light kiss to your forehead. He doesn't look like someone who could be soft. His sheer strength on the court and his powerful spikes on the court can attest to that, but he can't help it when it came to you.

"I love you."

Fin.