#I dont think any of them have bad voices they just struggle with having notable covers in my opinion

[chisatowo]

i love heckling solo cover videos as a l/n fan bc so many of them r so obsessed with shiho covers just bc. its not ichika which like i understand she does a LOT but most shiho covers are just . this sure exists. the only one i actively listen to is bokura mada underground but even then its like 50% bc the other two versions are so high pitched on the chorus it hurts my ears ALL THIS TO SAY . i really like reading ur opinions on vocals shiho is the mizuki of leoneed to me anddd uh i like saki hare wo matsu <3 goodbye

Honestly as someone whos favorite l/n vocalist is Shiho yeah 100% their covers are overrated as hell they rly don't have that many good ones. They are indeed very similar to Mizuki where they have a very unique voice so ppl think all their covers are perfect when they're just. Kind of eh (looking at you Shiho 1) and they're one of those characters me and my sibling always dread on favorite solo cover lists because there are correct answers for which are the best Shiho covers /j and no one picks them </3 also ty I love talking abt my opinions on vocals <3

[most-annoying-sponsorship]

Any submitted propaganda under the cut

BetterHelp - 44

the ads are unilaterally either cheesy 'everyone needs help sometimes pardner' stuff or a therapist who works for betterhelp saying how good betterhelp is. notably was an uptick in ads AFTER it was revealed how bad betterhelp is for actual mental health and how it doesnt vet its therapists lol

It’s overpriced, they underpay their workers, they have fake 5-star reviews and they sell your info. So many big YouTubers still promote Betterhelp to this day when most this info came out in 2018-ish. Fuck Betterhelp, all my homies hate Betterhelp

I guess it’s more of a podcast sponsor in my experience but OH MY GOD it’s such a bad business, but more importantly for this poll I just hate hearing youtubers/podcasters put on a serious voice to talk about Mental Health and how they themselves have struggled with Burnout and blah blah it literally all sounds the same. It’s like a psa in the middle of your video.

not only is it annoying bc it’s everywhere but it also sucks ass & exploits people

not only annoying, but a harmful service as well!!

It's being sued or smth rn (class action I think?). The program has been sketchy af and exploiting people who are experiencing mental illness or trauma, falsely claiming they have a full scale psychiatric team when they don't, selling data, etc. All for profit. Every other sponsorship is annoying, sure. But I instantly lose a little bit of respect when I hear a YouTuber talk about the importance of mental healthcare and then point you to BetterHelp.

The motherfuckers at Betterhelp call it ""'therapy""" but it sells your data. Youtubers I like promote this bastard of a conpany without a care in the world. I don't know why it is legal, I don't know how they get away with it, and I'm going to rip Betterhelp molecule by molecule

Its a scam trying to get your data and they dont even follow HIPPA laws or vet their therapists and they've had so many scandals that I'm shocked they still get sponsors unironically

Doesn’t even work like they’ve had a ton of controversy and the Youtuber is always like “lemme get real with you guys for a second… ok… phew… I go to therapy” and it’s like OKAY WELL YOU SHOULD GIVE A SHIT THAT THE COMPANY SUCKS THEN 💀

Takes advantage of people needing access to mental health care, when in reality BetterHelp is a terrible company that treats therapists AND clients like shit. The FTC recently gave them a huge fine for selling client health data to for-profit advertising corporations like Facebook but they still deny wrongdoing and haven't stopped the shill campaign. At least when a meal kit service or w/e is poor-quality usually all it means is you wasted your money, but if you trust the wrong therapy service there is a lot more that can go horribly wrong. (Cerebral is even worse since it was essentially all the problems of BetterHelp mixed with handing out addictive controlled substances like candy, but I haven't seen it on Youtube as much)

This is the only sponsorship that has actively made me unsubscribe from anyone that advertises it. While others like raycon or squarespace are usually annoying. Betterhelp is actively harmful to both their patients and their therapists, sells personal health data of their users to ad companies and it isn't even cheaper than real therapy at this point like they claim to be. It makes me see red when I see another youtuber saying how "good" it is and how it helped them (which it honestly looks like a script at this point) and telling their usually young audience to sign in. And then they dare to ignore the thousands of comments telling them about how bad betterhelp actually is. Like, I thought we all knew about their shady practices. It has been common knowlege since 2018, why are you acting surprised when you get called out. But I guess they pay really well so I hope those 1000$ were worth it I guess. Sorry for the ramble.

I've never tried it so I can't know for sure, but by all accounts the app is shit, yet everyone talks about it as though it's the best thing ever

There are sooo many controversies with BetterHelp and youtubers stopped accepting (not medically trained professionals, highly unethical and unprofessional and rude etc) sponsorships with them until recently like they all just forgot how shitty it was and it makes me dislike the youtuber every time i see they accept one

A shitty company taking advantage of those struggling with mental health (overcharging, horrible therapists, sharing data with third parties etc.) and yet everyone is sponsored by them

It harms both the therapists and the patients using it and is particularly evil to do that during the current times

Fake therapy and unqualified folks

they literally prey on mentally ill people for their money. their therapists seem extremely unqualified. i have heard so many horror stories including therapists telling (non-religious) clients to pray their problems away, talking about their own problems to the client for the entire session, and sitting on the toilet mid appointment. i genuinely don't understand how otherwise respectable creators can take their sponsorships in good faith because i have ONLY HEARD BAD THINGS

Shit company that abuses their “patients” and takes their money, and youtubers REFUSE to listen to their audiences on this

Not only is it incredibly fucking common and annoying, but it preys on and is advertised to people with mental illness. It apparently isn't very helpful for this (it seems like therapists don't even have to be licensed) but still presents itself as therapy. People have also said it sells your data and isn't confidential at all

It's everywhere and I heard it's actually a little harmful sometimes.

THEY STEAL YOUR INFO??? YOUR DEPRESSION IS LITERALLY BEING MONETIZED FUCK THESE GUYS JUST DO A NORMAL SCAM LIKE ESTABLISHED TITLES INSTEAD OF TAKING ADVANTAGE OF SUICIDAL PEOPLE

It's a legitimately harmful product and it is /everywhere/

It's basically a scam and can cause actual harm!

Evil fucking service, straight up dangerous

Its not even real therapists

IT DOES NOT VET ITS THERAPISTS. I CANNOT EMPHASIZE THIS ENOUGH, BETTERHELP DOES NOT VET ITS THERAPISTS. It also doesn't pay nearly enough.

it's a scam that preys on people trying to get help with their health

Literally sold user data from THERAPY SESSIONS

somehow it doesn't matter how many times there's articles about how better help abuses patients personal data, uses counselors who aren't licensed therapists, does conversion therapy on ppl who ask for lgbt sensitive counseling....ppl STILL take the money and i hate it

It's a scam and people (even some professional therapists have promoted it). "Despite its credible presentation, BetterHelp was caught selling data to Facebook, Snapchat, Criteo, and Pinterest. The company recently settled for $7.8 million. The FTC confirmed that BetterHelp pushed people into handing over health informatio" quote is from this article which sums up the problem pretty well: https://www.themarysue.com/betterhelp-controversy-explained

It turns out they sell user data for advertising purposes which GOES AGAINST WHAT THERAPIST GROUPS ARE SUPPOSED TO DO!!!

always feels really dystopian to get advertisement for scammy corporate mental health services... like what a sign of failure for society if ppl have to rely on such expensive and potentially unprofessional ways of getting the help they need. get that thang away from mee

therapy site with bad therapists on it

It's actually bad morally speaking

AWFUL SERVICE !!! every youtuber who still takes this sponsorship is cringe to me

Jim Beam "People Are Good For You" Ad - 1

I hate this ad. 1st of all, as an autistic person, being in a loud crowded bar would be a sensory nightmare for me. Also I don't like the taste of alcohol. So borboun is probably gross anyways. 2nd, I wouldn't want to go a bar because I would concerned about getting sick. That's because it's flu and cold season where I live, and Covid-19 is around. Lastly, I've seen this ad enough times now that it's annoying. So no Jim Bean, I will not be going a bar or buying your bourban (or anyone else's) anytime soon.

[perhapsthanatos]

10:32 pm with yuta ♡

nct’s yuta x fem!reader (got inspired by a dream of mine & found the idea really cute)

alternate title: be the james dean to my audrey hepburn

genre: fluff. a pinch of angst. non idol au. badboy!yuta au.

word count: 1400~

playlist: chinatown by wild nothing, lover’s rock by tv girl & work this time by king gizzard and the lizard wizard.

warnings: featuring johnny (not a warning though). smoking cigarettes. cursing. lowercase intended. not proofread.

a/n: hi i was supposed to post a vampire!haechan fic but i really wasnt happy w it in general :( the plot or overall idea of the fic was really good, but i just felt as if i didnt do it justice so here we are :( but ngl, i kind of like this concept more? maybe bc i can see it more vividly? idk, i feel like my writings r getting repetitive & its getting on my nerves lmaoo this is getting long im sorry do u guys even read this part anyway? i would also like to apologize abt the amount of projecting im doing lmao ive been having some rough days & i love my sister but hate being compared to her so often so this is a way for me to rant abt it ig? also so sorry its coming out a little later bc i woke up late today (& procrastinated for the rest of it so here i am posting really late at night) & decided to go to the convenience store to get ice cream (& a ton of other bad shit pls dont do this its rlly unhealthy) for breakfast bc i can :) any who, enjoy lovelies <3

“oh my, y/n! you’ve grown up so well! just like your sister!”

“oh! i’m sorry i’ve almost mistaken you for your sister! y/n is your name, correct?”

“y/n, darling, you are looking so dashing! you really do resemble your sister, don’t you?”

“ah, you must be y/n! i’ve heard all about you and your sister from your father!”

you swear that your reddening cheeks are threatening to fall off any moment now from all the fake smiling. the hundreds of superficial compliments, the insincere flattery and the need for these people to constantly compare you to your godforsaken sister makes you feel even weaker than you are. it gets harder and harder to keep up with a big persona that isn’t at all you. as lucky as you are to live such a lavish lifestyle, you can’t help but hate how your family has to be so perfect. you hate how you have never fit in with them, even if you are so good at faking it. you hate how you have always been stuck in your sister’s shadow, constantly haunted with the reminder that you yourself aren’t good enough. you hate how you now have to entertain the rich and brainless guests at your parent’s gala because she’s gone for some stupid prodigy competition and everyone is only talking about her in front of your face. so what if she’s better the better sister? you still have the right to earn respect, right?

you’re exhausted from all the small talk. your facade gets more brittle by the second under all the pressure. your body feels as if it's gonna give out due to your brain shutting down after all that interacting. you try to keep on going with the night as it unravels itself by being the perfectly poised poster child, trying to make your parents proud. but alive yet almost completely devoid, you decide enough was enough. what if you left right now? no one would notice, would they?

after pulling up your phone discreetly to send a few text messages, you pass through lots of people dressed in gold and finery in a way that wouldn’t have you noticed right away. keep your head down and don’t you dare make eye contact with anyone. nearing the end of the room, grabbing the first glass of whatever alcohol you see and downing it in one gulp, you start walking away as quickly as possible from the ballroom. “ignorant privileged fucks,” you angrily whisper to no one in particular, setting the now empty glass on whatever surface and begin to head to the main exit where no one could spot you running away.

“and what do you think you’re doing here, miss?”

a voice interrupts you, looking up you see that it is your father’s head butler; johnny. he is dressed in a simple black suit that makes him appear taller than he is. his long brown hair is slicked back and his bowtie seems brand new. you have known the man since he started working in your household less than ten years back. you were a reckless child, often trying to find ways to sneak out, finding a way to escape from this life and he sympathized with you. after all, he could barely imagine living your life, never catching a break for yourself and always pretending to be someone you weren’t. he often helped planning when you would sneak out into the night, scheduling things like what time you should leave and what time you should be back, more specifically a time when no one would notice. he would take care of your form of transportation and have your location on at all times, just to be extra safe. as much as he wants you to have fun and have a bit of freedom, he still worries that something might happen to you. because of all this, you two have grown to have a very strong bond. you could confidently say that he is most definitely a parental figure in your life since your parents (and even your sister) are often overseas for work.

“what do you think i’m doing? you think i wanna be in a room with those half-baked bipeds? fuck no!”

“i know, i was just joking. you looked like you were about to explode in there, i wish i could help.” he laughs, pulling out his phone preparing what you might need. “so what will it be for today? the driver? we just need to pay him to keep his mouth shut. a taxi? it’s cheaper than paying the driver, but you still need to pay… not like that’s a problem for you though. maybe an uber would be good enough—“

“actually, i got myself covered. thanks.”

his jaw slightly drops and his eyebrows furrow. he looks straight at you in shock. “what do you mean you got yourself covered?”

you look down at your feet, a nervous habit. “i got myself a ride, you don’t need to help me. i’ll be back as soon as dawn comes.”

he raises his eyebrow. “who’s your ride?”

“doesn’t matter,” you glance down at your phone seeing a notification and wave a goodbye, leaving rather suddenly. “i gotta go, i’ll text you when you need to open the gates!”

“y/n! wait! who’s your ride— and she’s gone.” johnny sighs, watching as you run towards the front gates, tossing your stiletto heels away on the grass while you’re at it. he heads back inside, silently hoping you’ll be fine.

knocking the window of the old black mustang parked outside behind the big bushes, the driver rolls down his window and sends the most charming smile.

yuta in his black beanie, long blonde hair, worn out doc martens, signature leather jacket and black skinny jeans. it almost makes you laugh on how he wears the same thing almost everyday but still manages to look so good.

he is most notable for having a big bad boy reputation and you knew that he was the breath of fresh air you needed in your life. a person who can understand having the pressure of having to be or to fulfill your persona. a person you can completely be yourself around. a person who is full of warmth no matter how cold he may seem on the outside.

“get in, princess.”

and that was all you needed. you tiredly walked to the other door and sat yourself in the car. rolling his window back up, he looks at you. you are wearing a simple yet stunning black dress along with silver jewelry adorned on your neck and wrists. your makeup is perfectly done but still struggles to hide the fog in your eyes. he has the sudden urge to clear them away. he softens at the sight of you. no one is perfect, but he finds you being perfect enough without ever having to dress up.

“where to?” he asks as gently as he could. he knows that you are most vulnerable during these moments and that it is hard to finally break down your walls after a day full of stress, so he doesn’t pry immediately. all he wants to do is to keep you here, safe and away from your burdens and for you to stay comfortable with him, even if it couldn't be for long. but is that too selfish of him to ask? he hates how you hate your life and it is taking every bone in his body to not run away with you. but who is he to tell you what to do or what to change anyway? all he can do for now is try to find a way to make you genuinely smile.

“take me anywhere,” you whisper to the latter. “i just want to be as far from myself and my life as possible. miles away or the nearest convenience store, just take the long way home before dawn.”

you look down at the cup holders, spotting an open cigarette box. you tug one out of the nineteen and light it with the lighter you kept in your pocket. you lean back and close your eyes. he only admires as you bring the cigarette to your lips, exhaling a cloud of smoke afterwards. letting the radio play quietly, he starts the car and begins to drive away from the mansion. he can’t help but wonder how you (an elegant daughter) and him (a bad boy) are millions of worlds apart, but more similar than you think.

© perhapsthanatos (efa)

[some-cookie-crumbz]

Hello 👋🏼, sorry if I’m bothering u but ever since the recent chapters of BNHA I haven’t been able to stop thinking about the Todoroki family. Not many of my friends are into this anime and I just couldn’t stop myself from sharing this with you because I need to let this out.

[SPOILER ALERT 🚨!!! IF U DONT READ THE MANGA THEN U CAN JUST IGNORE THIS]

First of all:

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!!

(I’m still screaming as I write because the backstories RUINED me.)

Poor Touya having this horrible obsession over heroics and having his father acknowledge him but ever since his quirk started reacting against his body the whole family got negatively affected by it.

Rei and Enji wanted to stop at two kids but with Touya’s sudden disadvantage and the latter’s craving for power, Natsuo and later on Shouto was born (the youngest getting titled as the perfect heir from the moment he was born). I got torn seeing Touya’s eyes succumb to absolute madness at the birth of his younger brothers.

What scared me the most was how when it was just Touya and Fuyumi, the two hardly interacted despite being only a year apart in age. Touya claimed that ‘girls just don’t get it’ this small foreshadowing was later brought to light in the most recent chapter where he once again rejects Fuyumi’s company in favour of ranting to only Natsuo and where he disregards his own mother— another ‘girl’ that doesn’t understand his obsession passion for surpassing All Might and someone who plays along to the acts of those stronger than them. Touya saw his mother as a weak person who had no choice but to marry for the sake of her family and have custom children. Little Touya firmly believed his very existence depended on getting acknowledged my his father and defeating All Might but it sadly didn’t come true😭😭

Also..... LOOK AT THE BABIES!!!! They’re all so CUTE!!!

Chubby Fuyumi!!!

Natsuo with a running nose

And Baby Shouto with a meme like face since the day he was born🤣🤣🤣🤣

So ADORABLE!

And another thing. FUYUMI WAS EVEN YOUNGER THAN I THOUGHT TO HAVE STARTED ACTING LIKE A SECOND MOTHER TO HER BROTHERS!! Look at the way she defended Natsuo when Touya went on a rampage and tried to attack Touya! And during moments when Enji and Rei fought the two most notable heroes were Shouto and Fuyumi; the former fighting on the frontlines to face his father while the latter stood behind to once again care for her remaining family that though weren’t involved in the fight, they still needed emotional support to get through it.😭

I AM SO SORRY TO BE GETTING TO THIS SO LATE ANON BUT I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY!!!

TW: Spoilers, Brief Mention of Child Abuse (Physical, Emotional and Mental), General Fandom Wank

So, like, SO MUCH HAPPENED in those chapters and I ABSOLUTELY LOVE ALMOST ALL OF IT! There’s obviously all the things you mentioned above that were just amazing to see and learn! I know that a majority of the fandom has been absolutely livid about the reveals involving Touya being drastically different than what fandom thought they were all this time, but I think it honestly highlights how smart Horikoshi’s writing really is.

In Shoto, we see the effects of physical and mental abuse on a child, and how easily he could have ended up going down a troubling road much like Touya. Shoto’s saving grace is facing off against Deku in the Sports Festival, giving him an outside perspective and makes him realize that he can choose to be better, but that doesn’t just magically fix all of Shoto’s problems. Shoto still struggles with his feelings towards his Father and how he is perceived by simply being Endeavor’s son. We see that in the Provisional License Arc, where Shoto is so thoroughly rattled by Inasa. It’s even further pushed through how Shoto struggles with his feelings about Endeavor trying to better and whether or not he should forgive him. I feel like Shoto’s arc is incredibly strong and that his struggles are very realistic, which is why people love him so much. This whole concept is another thing I could rant about but I’m going to leave it here.

Meanwhile, with Touya, we see the effects of mental and emotional abuse on a child and how it can completely destroy them. I think people that act like Horokoshi “down played” and “ret-conned” Endeavor as a character to make him more sympathetic/ redeemable or that he’s simply writing Touya as “always being a bad seed” are missing the mark. This is, admittedly, something you see a lot when it comes to victims of abuse in the real world as well; the idea that if you weren’t physically or sexually abused on top of emotional or mental abuse, your abuse is somehow less “valid.” Now I’ve seen more voices speaking out against this mentality - which is relieving and positive - but it’s still a problem. The way Touya was abused is no less valid or scarring to himself as a person as what Shoto has been through was. Touya and Enji clearly had a deep bond as father and son. Hell, the fact that Enji is sobbing and saying he “can’t fight his own son” in regards to Touya, but clearly had less issue training Shoto until he got ill or passed out says a lot.

Touya was put on an incredibly high pedestal by Enji’s constant praise and attention. He was the apple of his father’s eye until the limitations of his Quirk were discovered. Enji had filled his head with promises and goals for what his future would be, essentially selling him what turned out to be a lie. We see Rei herself tell Enji that Touya “knows you expect something out of the kids.” Touya’s whole life up until that point was being told of all the great he would someday accomplish, and equating that to being deserving of his Father’s love, attention and affection.

And then he couldn’t live up to that expectation. And then his parents had two more kids following that revelation. The idea that Touya doesn’t realize that Natsuo and Shoto were meant to be his replacements - unbroken models that “deserved” Enji’s love - is clearly not missed by him. It’s evident in the way he looks at Natsuo after he’s born. He sees this as a sign that he is no longer deserving - no longer worthy - of love or support from the parent he absolutely adores.

We see this mostly from Enji and Rei’s perspectives, so we know the reasons they did it, but it’s clear they didn’t stop to think about the way this would be interpreted by Touya himself. This whole matter is only worsened by the fact that Enji refuses to make sacrifices for the sake of his oldest son. He pushes Touya to live a life outside of Pro Heroics while Enji himself refuses to do the same, thus setting a positive example and showing solidarity with his son. He instead pushes him away and distances himself, loses himself in focusing on Natuso and, once his Quirk turns out to not be what he wants, Shoto. Touya continues to push himself despite his limits in a desperate bid for Enji to look at him the way he used to; with pride and love. 

What caused the fire that “killed” Touya? His anguish over being neglected and abandoned - left unloved - by his father yet again. It’s clear that Touya’s mental health is in need of some real focus that he has never gotten - due to both his parents negligence as well as the fact that mental health is highly stigmatized in Japanese society - and pairing that with the emotional and mental abuse he suffered at Enji’s hands broke him.

So many people are claiming Horikoshi is trying to make Enji “more redeemable”, but how do you get that? Enji abused Rei, his own wife, physically and emotionally and mentally until she had a psychotic breakdown, hurt their youngest child, and then robbed her the right to mother her children further by having her locked up in a psych ward for the next decade or so; built their oldest son, Touya, up only to then emotionally and mentally abuse him to the point he damn near killed himself in a frantic bid to garner Enji’s support only to return years later completely unhinged and looking to murder his entire family out of spite; neglected Fuyumi and Natsuo to the care of each other and hired help; alienated Shoto, his youngest son, from his siblings for his entire formative years, physically and mentally and emotionally abused him, groomed him to accomplish a task he never wanted, put him through such extensive physical training that Shoto would get sick or pass out.

Enji was a shitty father. He has a long ass road to continue walking if he ever wants redemption. The fact he didn't physically hit Touya doesn’t mean that Enji didn’t abuse his son and it doesn’t make Touya any less of a victim.

* End TodoFam Rant*

On a slightly lighter note, I also like all the information with Hawks’ past and all the parallels we’re seeing develop!

I’ve rambled briefly about this in other places the Huwumi discord but I want to expound upon this a bit more here.

I feel like Touya/ Dabi and Keigo/ Hawks are meant to be parallels to one another.

Back to back, we had proper name claims by these two characters. We had Dabi reveal his true identity as Todoroki Touya and then we have Hawks choosing to abandon his hero name to instead step up to fight as Takami Keigo.

I feel like “Dabi” was always a mask, of sorts. Dabi is typically pretty calm, cool, composed with the occasional bites of snark and cruelty. Meanwhile, we see Touya emoting and moving in a manner more akin to himself as a child, dancing about in manic delight over revealing his true identity and intentions. The pair of them are two drastically different people when you stop and look at it. “Dabi” was the mask he wore to gain ground to enact his revenge, and now that he is there? Now Touya can burn everything tethered to it down to ground.

Meanwhile, we have "Hawks” as he was forced to become as per the Hero Public Safety Commission. We had it revealed quite a while back that Hawks was a man of many faces, jumping from laid-back and chill to serious and focused quite frequently. “Hawks” is the presentation for the public and the Commission, groomed to be the perfect little canary in the mine that was Pro Heroics. The reveal of his true heritage, however, is not the killing blow Touya wanted it to be. Instead, it allows Keigo, the one who wanted to be a Hero to help people, the chance to truly dedicate himself to that. In being freed from the cage of “Hawks”, he is given the change to really soar as Keigo.

Now, I feel that “Dabi” and “Hawks” are most certainly parts of Touya and Keigo as well, respectively. Even though those titles were masks, they were masks made from parts of the men who wear them. I think what we’ll see going forward is the true elements of those masks bleeding back into the whole, and seeing the truest forms of each character.

For better or for worse. 

[jewpacabruhs]

bruv im still jus. wow. theres so much to say but. do u kno how good it feels... to be jewish, to accidentally fixate on one eric cartman & love him more than any other fictional character for almost seven years now, and then to see him in a little yarmulke, standing at kyle's side while he recites from the torah? do you know how validating that is?

i gotta get personal for a second here. idk how, but in the last few yrs my relationship with my own jewishness has been deeply influenced and intertwined with south park, as ironic and ridiculous as that sounds. i grew up secular, completely nonpracticing; as a child, i was only ethnically jewish, and saw jews as strictly an ethnicity, and a popularly hated one to boot. and it scared me. ive talked about it before, but as a child hearing about the shoah and about antisemitism, i couldn't understand. i thought it was looks for a while, which confused me, because ive got blonde hair and blue eyes and all my family that got caught up in nazi europe did/do too. i remember thinking as a second grader that i would've been spared for that reason; why didn't a good chunk of my family? but i grew up in a mormon neighborhood, with plenty of other blonde kids, and they stayed away from me like i had a disease. this was before puberty, before my hair got a little frizzier and my nose got a little bigger, when i looked just like any of them. but already, at age 8, i was an outsider. i wasn't one of them and i never would be, and they wanted me to know that.

and then i started to get it. it clicked even more once i got to high school and got called a kike every other day - but prior to high school, you know what i found, and you know what really pushed me towards understanding what being a secular jew in america meant? south park. and as a dumb little sixth grader with no critical thinking skills, you know what shaped my opinions on my own people? south park.

and that's good and bad. good because i do sincerely think kyle broflovski is excellent fictional representation for jewish people, maybe one of the top few ever shown on television. he gets on my nerves at times, but he's good through and through, he's well written and multi-dimensional, he's not a walking stereotype but he still has prominent jewish features that jewish viewers can look at and see in themselves, his morals and viewpoints and beliefs are obviously deeply influenced by judaism, hes deeply proud of his heritage and culture... and that all means a lot to me. and by the amount of jewish sp fans that adore kyle, it means a lot to them too.

the bad thing is, yeah, i can't deny it, during older seasons, cartman's treatment of kyle probably taught a lot of young and dumb viewers how to view jews in real life. have i, as a kyman shipper and cartman stan, justified that within a fictional and narrative context? yes. but it doesn't change the real-world effect; south park, but specifically cartman, since he's the mouthpiece, likely did cause some easily-influenced people to pick up antisemitic beliefs. did this contribute to the rise of the alt-right? debatable, but to some extent, possibly. was that m&t's intention and should south park be canceled and denounced? fuck no, i'll always love it lol, and fuck censorship. but it is something that should be taken into account.

matt and trey clearly regret that, and understand that it's no longer acceptable or fitting or needed in today's sociopolitical climate - or, okay, maybe they don't even regret it; they just understand that when fiction becomes reality, the fictional jackass isn't necessary when there's one right there in real life, sitting in the oval office, yeah? old cartman doesn't deserve or need a voice, not when real, awful people actually have one right now. and m&t are actively trying to change cartman for the better and really, really backpedal on his bigotry, while still doing it in a way that makes sense from a story-telling perspective. it's not a complete uncharacteristic change of character; it's shifting with the times and writing it into the character's arc so that it's a logical and plausible development in cartman's story.

cartman's behavior in the last few seasons is consistent character development. m&t themselves are pushing it, and clearly it's sincere; cartman's not faking. unless they're building up a surprise twist over the last, what, three to four seasons, that he was faking the whole time! woah! if so it better be a damn good pay off, because that's a lot of time invested. though that seems more forward-thinking than sp tends to be. they're intentionally stuck in the short-term, aren't they? plot-wise. but their character development is pretty long-term, and right now, cartman is consistently decent, and if it comes across as faking, it's because cartman's over-dramatic in how he speaks, and trey does that intentionally.

that's a tonal thing, and it's hard to say in a fictional character, but as someone who struggles with empathy myself, empathy and sincerity don't go hand in hand. you can lack empathy while still caring enough to sincerely and wholeheartedly apologize for something and mean that apology. not feeling remorse doesn't mean you can't apologize genuinely; the two don't go hand in hand. you can be mentally ill in any capacity, even a psychopath, and still deeply care about things or people, just not in the way someone else might. so you can headcanon that cartman's still a psycho/sociopath, though right now that's actually kinda going against canon, but don't rain on other's parades if they're happy he's exhibiting healthy growth. besides, and i repeat: what could cartman exploit out of faking sincerity for several seasons? nothing, so why bother? he wouldn't, unless it's literal in-show subconscious growth.

does that mean he's magically developed empathy? no. is it becoming less probable he's a legitimate sociopath/psychopath (while still possibly having better-disguised antisocial tendencies)? yes. does he seem to have better coping or anger management skills? somehow, yes! he seems to be legitimately healthier. does this mean he's no longer accountable for his past misdeeds, and even his present, less-severe ones? of course not! and you can still hate him all you want, but modern cartman is not the same as older cartman, and shouldn't be treated as such. because is this growth? absolutely.

he's clearly healthier, even happier. he's less angry, he's still a little shit but he no longer relies on bigotry or cruelty or anger to get the negative attention he thrives off, rather he gravitates towards being simply annoying. you know why he called ice? pettiness, immaturity, a little bit of spite, and a need for silly revenge. he's being intentionally petty, but going about it in a sly but no longer psychopathic way. less hannibal lector and more, idk, regina george, lol. extremely different on the antagonist scale. and cartman's been both.

and maybe it's personal bias on what type of human is worse within fiction, someone unstable and bizarre with violent tendencies (which is how he's come to be viewed in pop culture & some of the fandom, as a result of eps like scott tenorman must die), versus someone inclined towards pettiness and more silent and, i dunno, social-status-and-pride-driven types of revenge (cartman in general when he's not being particularly awful, tbh)... but i think it'd be pretty universally agreed that the latter is at the very least more tolerable, manageable, and even likeable - and certainly more redeemable. let's put it this way; if cartman continued on the path he was on, he'd be one of those tiki holding fucks, wearing a confederate flag hat, and he'd treat kyle soooo much worse. instead, m&t have turned him into a hypocritical false-woke ignorant dumbass - but that's strongly less problematique than it's counterpart, and it works.

because cartman simply serves a different narrative purpose now. and that's not sloppy writing; it's well-timed evolution of a character that stepped into a pre-9/11, pre-trump, pre-social media world! so much has changed, and south park is reflecting that in its characters, most notably in a character who was stuck in the, what, 1960s with his beliefs? that was fine way back when, but matt&trey are smart dudes - they understand that sometimes things have to change. besides, they love cartman, too. he's their favorite. but they understand that when real people act like him, it's not so comedic or satirical or funny, & they don't want to look at cartman, at their creation who they've invested twenty-two years in, and see the all-too-real hate of modern radical white america.

i think we know enough about matt&trey's social stances these days, and the empathy they've seemed to develop after having kids, to understand that they're no longer in their "apathy is best, everyone is stupid" phase. current south park is left-leaning and admittedly preachy at times, but i wouldn't want it any other way. g-d knows it's better this way than if they'd embraced and decided to appeal to their right-libertarian following instead. cartman's evolved in a progressive and positive way, and it's fucking dope, especially to us cartman stans who so badly want him to be good. and he is good right! he's doing so good!

and i know im up my own ass rn but yall know how much i myself have campaigned for jewish kyman/cartman and how much i just deeply and truly adore it, and to see it actualized in a canon episode to some extent? that meant the world to me. i couldn't believe my eyes. i was tellin lai - that's the most genuine, pure, almost violent happiness ive felt in my soul in years. that was like a straight shot of serotonin to the heart. that simple little scene made me so fucken happy yall dont even know. & theres a lot to be said about the political commentary and plenty of other people are analyzing that, but im a simple jewish kyman & cartman stan and boy ive been fed good fjskfkdkdkfk!!!

[gayspock]

wotch me... ramble about  bodcast

alright first of all: rqg has been the first actual play podcast to really do it for me in a while- and notthat i tried a lot, in all fairness, but god am i DIGGING it. like i did quite like fatt, but couldnt rlly chew through s2 (too much game mechanic stuff, and heavy lore kinda weighed it down for me) and even in s1 i always felt disproportionately invested in boat party side than ice party but I DO HOPE TO REVIsIT IT ONE DAY, TOO!!!but rqg has like... literally.. LIKE OKAY with any podcast maybe the first few epi or two do be a little WOH as you settle down into things BECAUsE? i remember, like- ben and bryn.... bOTH confused me a little, given their names are. THAT similar and also i struggled a little discerning voices (but tbh... i always do) BUT THAT. Is.ME. LITERALLY NITPICKING!

BC REALLY its been one of the easiest things to really. go bonkers yonkers for, in terms of actual play, that ive listened to in a while, and maybe that's just my tastes because they really.... like they really nail down the balance i like, of storytelling but also...YOU KNOW, allowing the PCs to have a handle on the story, and allowing for the game itself to have a  chance to dictate stuff?? like its a fantastic balance- a really good one- and a lot of podcasts are too prone to swing one way or th other and lIKE. NOT TO MAKE THIs ABOUT TAZ, AND IM NOT TRYING TO DUNK ON TAZ bc i love it BUT IM THINKING MORE ABOUT IT NOW WITH THIs AND maan like.

idk if like... i dont agree with ALL the criticism of griffin railroading but like god listening to this and lso, liek, fatt it does make me think sometimes that man i really. WIsH he did o  more in the way of offering... players more decision and i love taz i really do and i think ffor certain dnd was important to balance even if just for the running theme off them absolutely cocking it all upp all the time but like when i look at amnesty part of me sometimes even just... WONDERs why they even bother with, like, a game system and i dont mean that. CRUELLLY but like god i do feel like, sometimes, griffin would be much more comfortable if they just ditched it entirely and let him dictate a story that travis&justin&clint experienced bc. having these other comparisons to draw from now it rlly.. feelslike he does want to steer them a lot, even now - and a lot of the choices he allows are kinda shallow, and more so illusions of freewill and i feel like its getting to the point where. MAN JUsT. take the dice away bc its encumbering it more andobvously. ur JUst wanting to tell ur story and . DOEs that make sense bc even like...

like this rlly Is me just rambling but two things that stick in my mind most notably are, like- the fact that i remember travis for what was two episodes, at least, wanting to split off to go talk to someone (maybe im misreembering a little??) and it took him . a WHILE to get there whereas... like. that would literally not rlly ever be a problem otherwise bc of course. he should be able to, and nobody said no but the fact it took so long, and like the whole thing- like amnesty itself is strucutered insuch a way wher they can make choices and decisions but theyre all... like it feels more like flavour , if that makes sense, than actually directing thing?? and yet another concsequence of the nature of amnesty ass a whole is,well, ....

consequence!! WHICH feels... really minimal. like in amnesty i do recognise that duck losing his power did happen BUT... i feel like- like given the preparedness, and the nature  of it, it felt like that ALWAYs was gonna happen regardless of what decision they made?? does that make sense? or at least a very least, it was a very thought out path- like as if, some element of it was a very binary, or rigid branching decisinon that was neatly laid out, rather than a reaction o a thing-  and THERE IsNT. ANYTHING WRONG WITH THAT AT ALL and im not saying it is inherently BAD bc hey! most narrative is that way- thought out - and it benefits more from being so than not but.... BUT..... I FIND THIs VERY HARD TO PUT INTO WORDs BUT: like it feels like taz, rn, is being wishy washy? like i feel like it isn't defining itself too strongly as either an actual play format, or just a straight up audio drama with a twist an its straddling the line in an almost uncomffortable way. like i think balance worked bc it broke expectations well, and that played into the charm of it all- given it was more of a candid journey, of them fumbling with the game, and ultimately just kind of going WOOPs WE'RE DOING sTORY NOW! but amnesty doesnt adhere to that ssame, one off vibe and so it kinda feelslike... LIKE, you know a character that develops? but then after theyve went throughtheir arc, andd experienced it all the author is far too aattached to their pre-development personality and identity so they kind of keep trying to lean back into that even though theyve changed? like i definitely think changing from DND was a good idea for amnesty bt man i feel like... MAN I JUsT FEEL LIKE IT ALL FEELs sUPERFICIAL. maybe thats the right word. like too superficial, letting them roll dice right now, bc it just... it doesnt DO much. and so it just sits in thaat grey area of: wellit isnt giving the charm of a totally spontaneous, and uncharted dnd podcast but it also is broken up by dice checks and isnt as refined as a big cohesive story.

like man, for a consequence thing.. remember when ned should have been... you know, hospitalised but it didnt rlly have any bearing on the story? YEAH. like- like just... rather than  have siutations like that, i feel like they should just. let griffin take the reigns, and have him just make decisions and. do it.. diffenepowegj dj - YOU KNOW. WWHA T0IEI-P M 9AJFJ BECAUE I LOVE  . AMENTY I REALLY D BUT THE  .itne,djp LITEN

bc alloff thi.... man im just so into RQG and i fucking love alex and the fuckging. I KNOW THIs Is sUCH A ... "well, duh eggs!" but god like-like it rally a-ci - DOEsaohfh LIKE alex is... a fuckgn baller DM and i think whats shaking me especially about it all is that im so UsED to taz that im like "well they cant die... they can...t. bring in a backup player" when uhhhhh YUH they can or they can leave or they can fucking . go off and do smething else and their fucking. choices have . really big fucking consequences and the dice actually. LIKE. HAVE BIG IMPACTs ON THINGs. like that whole- like that whole scene with the fucking rooftopp, and literally an old man trying to rn away... THE WAY EVERYTHING WENT CATAsTROPHICALLY WRONG BC OF DICE ROLLs, to the point hwerethe party split up and some of them almost fufkcing died in one single encounter and it changed the whole thing and set bertie on a  side quest- like that is fucking baanan\icja-9joADH 9ofj  AND THE. LIKE LIsTEN. LIT DFOIJF...... like if eel like,even when they do have narrow branching paths- like bertie in the channel tunnel, deciding whether to go which way or the other- it still... doesnt feel like that, weirdly enough? like alex is...  GsOODD at reacting, i think- like OKAY LET ME. TALK sPECIFICALLY BAOUT THAT LIKE THE....

like i dont know how to describe it but itslike. you know when u can TELL they have decision branches lined up, like how i said with taz? like, they have a very strict- you choose this, or this; then you choose this, or this... it doent feel organic and is more the illusion of choice and its FINE TO DDO THAT sMETIMEs bc its like. man who could do something wack and not plan anytyignb but GOD LIKE. id ont know. I DONTTT KNOWWW MAN. i dont know what im thinkign about or ho to put it itsjust... ffuckgigoivjoj .. IT doesnt feel organic. you know. in the same way a computer, operating on a decision tree will never truly compare to human thought with what we have right now. LIKE. its like its like ur trying to give them options, but specificall THEsE OPTIONs and not letting them . do what they wwant andpoakcpjfj I ONT KNO.I DONT KNOW

and maybe  i can write thisbetter, rather than just offering a very disjointed . stream of consioucness. but like i keep mentiongign consequence and im thinkign more baout it as im writing this annd man it just... LIKE that kinda ties into the lack of decision more bc like. another aprt of whatmakes a lot of the taz decisions feel kinda fake is the lack of follow through bc . either not much happens, the same end is achieved, or thebig thing that happens was planned and would have happened anywhaheih 0AND LIKE. like its like i said like. thats whats charming about dnd games and what holds them up in comparison to like. usual audio drama style story and written literture but LIKE.  like mananoimcpk LIKE, MAN. like i cant rmmber.aa-fkf..   LIKE IT Need. more. like. 

another single moment of appreciation: bc man speaking of consequence. fatt really did havethat too. i need to revisit it, even if sometimes i think there's TOO much game mechanic (and also? too many pcs, and austin soetimes discussing why he thinks a thing is cool, and discussing it all in a very meta sense and disrupting the narrative flow could be offputting for me persnally) bt fucking THROWBack TO HELLA in season 1 slaying fucking triste and sending everything to asolute sHIT. god i miss that too . GOD!

bc i feel like taz never... rly DID TRY TO DO THAT? LIKE IT HA MOMEMNET BUT. ID OTN KNOW. I DONT KNOW ANY MORE. I DONT KN

[the-fiction-witch]

Last Name

TV SHOW: GODLESS COUPLE: WHITEY WINN X READER RATING: SMUTTY + CUTE

Part 1: Last Night

Part 2: Last Debts

Part 3: Last dollar and eighty eight

Y/N POV:

“now little lady, I believe it’s time for your daily spanking” he smirks

“Ummm I think it is whitey” I giggle

“I still don’t see how this is a punishment you like it so much” he smirks

“It makes me good” I smirk

“It does, but I wonder if there something else I could do to make you a good girl” he smirks kissing down my neck “Hu what do you think y/n?” he smirks

“well maybe there is” i smirk as I felt his hand moving towards my pussy “but” i smirk grabbing his hand “I paid for a spanking to make me good” I smirk sitting up on his lap a moment kissing up his neck “didn't I, you know the agreement as well as I do whitey” I smirk moving my hand down to slowly tease his cock though his pants “I pay my dollar eighty eight cents and my sexy husband spanks me good, then when the pretty little wifey is back to being a good girl again she sucks her husband till he screams or he’s dry which ever he wants” I smirk making him groan

“But...I’m not your husband yet” he smirked

“Yet?” I giggle “planning on marrying me so soon?” I smirk

“i was actually, would think my sexy wife would want her spankings free as soon as possible” he smirks 

“That would be nice” I giggle

“and darlin’ umm” he groans grinding against me “think of the honeymoon” he moans

“Ummm the one night for a couple to get kinky and have a uncountable about of sex...we do that anyway” I giggle 

“I know, think of what I could do to you on our wedding night...or Uhh what you could do to me” he smirks before pushing me off him a deep look of lust in his eyes sitting on his bed normally putting his leg so I smirk getting up un tieing my dress at the back so the bottom skirt simply slips off as I stand in front of him making him smirk as I step over sitting on his lap “You are being very bad little lady” he smirks and I dont reply just press little kisses to his neck sucking and biting leaving a  hickey on his neck before he pushed me away from his neck “ah ah little lady, dont you go givin’ me love bites” he smirks pushing me down so i laid over his knee his hand on the small of my back moving to caress my curves more notably on my ass “dont you make a sound, else...no more snuggling” he tells me so I sigh biting my lip as his hand goes away and soon enough spanks my ass hard and I just groan in response to his hand squeezing my ass spanking me hard again and again and again and again each time harder and rougher on me 

“UHHH WHITEY!” I moan loudly

“No sounds else no snuggles, I’ll let you off just this once cause I now how horny you are” he smirks spanking me hard again having to pinch myself trying not to moan until at last he finished with me so I got up and pushed him flat on his bed sitting over him like he had done to me earlier “My Naughty little wifey back to being a good girl now?” he smirks

“Yes whitey” I giggle “Now does my sexy husband want to scream or until dry tonight?” I giggle

“Ummm tempting but...i’m not to sure” he smirks as I slip every piece of clothing he had off and onto the floor but leaving his pants around his ankles watching him squirm naked against his bed “Y/n?” he asks

“yes whitey” I giggle

“Suck me dry Please” he begs moaning a little his head rolling back against his pillow

“ask me properly and I will” I giggle

“Miss Y/n please suck my cock dry” he begs “Uhh Please PLEASE! I can’t take it you sat over me half bloody naked, the cold air against my hard cock i cant take it Please Please touch him, kiss him Play around all you bloody watch just touch me Please Y/n my darling”  he begs

“alright then whitey if your so desperate for it” I giggle bending down pressing tiny kisses to his exposed, hard, throbbing, desperate Head making him moan louder then ever his cock even shaking he was so needy “why are you shaking so much whitey, it’s not like this is the first time he’s been in my mouth” I giggle

“He knows what your gonna do to him, he’s excited” he smirks

“Oh really this is how excited he gets at the idea of going in my mouth again” i giggle and he just nods with a groan “love to see what he does now” I giggle sitting up and moving forward and before whitey could even speak I sat down on him running his cock between the lips of my pussy

“OH GOD Y/N DARLING!” he screams very very eager so I sat up a little more my hands sliding down his bare chest till my hand met his hand rock standing it tall allowing me to easily slip down onto him my pussy stretching still not used to him being so big inside me spreading my legs around him further for better mobility as I move up and down forwards and backwards slowly riding him just a few short little movements where all I had to do “YES YES! Y/N PLEASE OH GOD Y/N Y/N Y/N!” he screams grabbing my hips but I push his hands away slowly undoing my top half of my dress while he was distracted throwing it to the floor

“Oh whitey” I giggle riding him slowly for a few seconds

“Oh Y/n My love What are you-” He begins before noting my bare chest my  tits falling naturally his gazed burned me for a second and I could feel his cock twitch inside me uncontrollably “Y/n can I touch ya?” he asks sweetly and I nod his hands grabbing a breast each groaning as he groped them “Y/n ride me Please” he begs still paying with my tits so I slowly continued riding him his cock slipping so happily inside me  with him moaning my name and curses over and over losing his mind over the pleasure I was giving him until he suddenly let go of my breasts and pushing me back so I feel off him and his cock left my pussy  not even seconds later his cum sparyed everywhere exploding from his shaft all over him, his bed and a little on me I know some went on my breasts and a little on my hair “Uhhhhhhhh Oh Y/n” He groaned looking very tried all off a sudden

“Whitey” I giggled “what did ya do that for?” I ask

“Didn’t want to cum inside, dont wanna risk knocking ya up when I haven't even married ya yet” he moaned

“You didn't mind last night” i giggled

“Yeah well last night I wasn’t one hundred percent on you and me still being a thing at ten today” he sighed “You know as far as I knew you where going to hang a few hours later what would it matter if I knocked you up” he explained

“fine” I giggle getting the cum out of my hair and licking it off my hand before going down and licking his tastey cum off my breasts making him smirk at me rather enjoying the sight of me licking his cum of my tits before I bent down licking the cum off his head and going to continue licking it off his chest and abs 

“what are ya doing y/n?” he asks

“don’t wanna waste a drop” I smirk as I lick up another drop from his body

“You really like my cum dont ya?” he smirks

“Its so tastey” I giggle as I finished licking every drop i could get and sitting up again “Yummy” I giggle licking my lips at him and suddenly his playful smirk changed to another look of un controllable lust as he flipped me over so I laid on his bed and he sat over me as he did up his pants 

“i might be able to fuck ya for a while, but by god am I gonna treat my sexy wife to some pleasure for what she did to me” he smirks kissing me hard wrapping my legs around his waist until suddenly the door knocked loudly whitey sighs giving me a kiss before getting up doing his pants up properly and slipping his suspenders over his shoulders to make it look like he was just getting ready to bathe when he was interrupted going and opening the door making sure who ever is there cant see me as a wrap myself in his bed sheet it not leaving much to the imagination 

“Evening Whitey”  a female voice said at the door

“Oh hey Maggie..what’s up?” he asked her

“whats up? I brought you food you idiot” she says

“Oh well thanks Maggie..it’s just uh now might now be... the best time” he told her 

“whitey I dont give a damn shit if your shirtless, i’ve seen damn worse when your mama used to have someone hold ya down to bathe ya” she says trying to come in 

“No No! it’s not that I’m uhh Not alone” he whispers

“what you got a cat int here or somthing?” she asked making me giggle seeing my opportunity to both annoy him and well...mark my territory 

“Oh Whitey...come back to bed baby” I beg loud enough so anyone at the door could here me 

“who ya got in there whitey?” she asks laughing a little

“Knowone!” He says in panic

“I heard a female voice whitey, who ya got in there?” she smirked

“Knowone I swear” He says a little paniced so i just giggle knowing im getting him into all sorts of trouble but still wanting to make sure whoever is out there knows whitey’s mine

“Oh Whitey...come back to bed already my pussy needs you” I beg struggling not to giggle as a woman bursts though the door passing whitey to see me wrapped in his bed sheet on his bed naked this woman looked old in mens pants she looked like a cool lady

“Oh yeah...Whitey’s gonna take care of the new girl until her house is built, so my brother said yeah your taking real good care of her aint ya whitey” she smirked “I’ll let you two get on then” she laughed before going off again and whitey shut the door looking very mad at me

“what the hell was that little lady?” he asks sitting on the bed beside me

“marking my territory” I giggle snuggling on his neck and shoulder like a little kitten asking for love

“marking your- Ohhhh” he smirks finally getting what I was doing “Y/n, relax no girl around here is any threat to you, I promise, You aint gotta mark your territory every time a lady knocks on the door” he tells me “Okay? besides thats maggie she’s like like a aunt to me and she’s very much a thing with the school mistress” he explains

“Okay whitey” i giggle snuggling closer to him letting him wrap his arms around me and kissing my head before he tried to get me back to what we had been doing but I let him fall and get up and slip my under dress on

“where are you going?” he asked

“Know where I just wanna sleep, no more sexy stuff tonight whitey” I tell him sorting my hair out 

“Oh but-” he begins

“No more, I’ve had enough for one night” I giggle 

“Okay” he sighs leaning on the wall his bed is on “Y/n?” he asks

“Yes whitey?” I ask

“I now how we kinda joke around since we met about, you being my wife and all” he began

“Yeah” i blush

“you know, my naughty little wifey, I know we kinda do it like sexy talk and all but...would you actually maybe someday want to be my wife?” he asked

“Whitey..that’s a silly question, Of course I do, wouldn’t have gone along with it so long If I didnt” I giggle “and your the one saying yet like your gonna pop the question in a week” i giggle 

“Maybe I am gonna ask ya?” he smirked getting up and turning me to face him holding me closely to him “Y/n will you marry me?” he asked and I just laughed “why are you laughing at me?” he asks very confused

“holly shit you where serious?” i ask “I thought you where kidding or at least being kinky again?” I say very puzzled

“No Y/n I’m serious, I love you and I wanna marry you” he smiles 

“I love you to whitey but...don’t you think we’re maybe rushing into things?” I ask

“of course not, Y/n I love you, you took my virginity from me, what more do you want from me? I dont ever wanna be with anyone else, I want you to be my naughty little wifey forever” he smiles at me 

“aww whitey, and I want you to be my sexy husband” I giggle giving him a kiss “Yes I will marry you whitey” I giggle

“Oh i love you y/n” he smiles hugging me tightly 

“I love you too” I giggle hugging him close “whitey...I took your virginity...what about up your you know” I smirk 

“Oh you mean my-” he begns

“is that intact for me to have?” I giggle 

“i regret to tell you that...that virginity belongs to the broom handle” he blushes pointing to the broom in the corner seemly un used making me laugh “What! I got board and horny okay...I wanted to see if I like it” he blushed

“did you like it?” I giggle

“No I did not” he sighs going and getting changed for bed himself as I continued fixing my hair 

“Y/n Winn” I giggle to myself

“I heard that” he smirks “Trying out my last name are ya?” he smirks

“Y/n Winn...Mrs Y/n Winn, it’s got a nice ring to it” I giggle ignoring his comment

“It does” He smirks “Mrs Winn” he smirks wrapping his arms around me tightly “Mrs Whitey Winn” he smirks

“Hey I’ll take your last name fine you can keep the first name I like mine thanks” I laugh

“I know, Mrs Y/n Winn, i do like that” He smirks

“So do I” I smile turning and wrapping my arms around his neck lazily “I love you whitey” I smile snuggling my head onto his bare chest 

“i love you too Darlin’“ he smiles back kissing my head “come on it’s bed time” he smiles picking me up and carrying me to his bed laying me carefully in the corner of his bed so I got under the covers and picked up a little book from the table but i couldnt see much 

“Whitey, do you have my bag from the sheriff?” I ask

“course I do...why?” He asks

“can you bring it here a minuet” I ask so he brings me my bag and I grab my glasses from it and give it back to him so he goes and puts it back as I slip them on and begin to read as he gets into bed beside me and notices my glasses “what?” I ask

“Ya look pretty with glasses” he smiles at me

“shut up” I tell him taking my glasses off and leaving them on the table with the book “Night whitey” I tell him  giving him a kiss 

“Night Hun” He tells me giving me a kiss as I turn away from him getting comfy in the bed and he turns away too looking the other way from me I was struggling to sleep for a while to ....i dont know to sleep but I kept my eyes shut anyway until I heard in the dark silence “Y/n? are you still awake?” he whispered 

“Yes Whitey, what do you want?” I ask

“you know you asked me about my...you know” he smirks turning to face me and wrapping his arms around me 

“Your what?” I ask

“You know my other Viginity” he smirks

“What about it?” I ask

“Do you...still have that one?” he asks

“Yes why?” I ask

“Just curious is all darlin’“ He smirks kissing my shoulder and I could feel his cock hard behind me I could guess what he was going to do to me but he just moved back to facing the other way in the bed and from what I could tell went to sleep so I sat up a little grumpy he would inquire about such a thing and then not do anything with that info I looked at him and from what I could tell he was dead asleep so I wrap my arms around him and kiss up his neck

“Whitey” I giggle slyly

“Ummm?” He groans

“I’m horny again” I tell him leaning my head on his shoulder 

“Nope sorry Darlin’ your the one who sad no more sexy stuff tonight” he groans sleepily 

“Ohhh but whitey” I complain

“nope not doing it” he laughs so I just sit there often poking him 

“Whitey....Whitey........Whitey.....Whitey.....Whitey” I keep repeating 

“Y/n...what do you want?” he sighs

“I’m horny” I complain

“I can’t honey, you sad no more sexy stuff the dick has shut down for tonight, would a snuggle do ya for now?” he asks so I nod and he turns so he’s laid on his back so I lay my head on his chest as well as my arm soon enough falling asleep on him....