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marryingthewholecorpoverse · 8 months ago
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heyyyyy @forever21-offical
marry me? we can be 21 forever together!
Are you a clothing store? Because you never go out of style
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luck-of-the-drawings · 1 year ago
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WWWOOOPS FORGOT I MADE THIS. drew this back at around when the hyperbolic time chamber training arc was just starting. remember that? huh? remember the hamspter??? ohhhhhhhh youll remember the haspter!!!! oh my god yknow what else i remember. williams overwhelming love for christmas. oh my god. spooky zombie boy loves the christmas.. literally the best possible thing for him...
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi prime defenders#jrwi pd spoilers#VYNCENT SSOOOOOLLLL I STILL DONT KNOW HOW TO DRAW YOUUUUU AND YKNIOW WHY?? YKNOW WHYYY???? BC WHEN I FIRST DREW EVERYONE:#I DIDNT LOOK AT ANY REFS. DREW EM STRAIGHT FROM OFF THE TOP O MY HEAD. AND WELL. IN MY HEAD SOMETIMES#I PICTURE THE CHARACTERS LOOKING SIMILAR TO THE PLAYERS IN SOME WAY. NOT THE BEST THING TO DO REALLY. BUT YOU SEE.#VYNCENT CAME OFF AS A VERY SOFT AND SWEET CHARACTER. BUT SEEMED TO CARRY ALOT OF STRENGTH. HES LIKE A BEAUTIFUL AND POWERFUL BULL TO ME.#SO I DRAW THE GUY REAL DENSE! BUT THEN YAKNOOOWW THE OFFICIAL ART CROSSES MY EYES N IM LIKE FFFYUUUUUCKKK HE DOESNT LOOK LIKE THAT!!!!!!#IM LIKE AAUGUHGH IM DRAWIN HIM WRONG!!! BUT THEN IM ALSO CRAAAZY STUBBORN N I AAALREADY ESTABLISHED THIS DESIGN FOR HIM AND I DONT WANNT#I DONT WANNA GO N JUS CHANGE IT AAAALL UP NOW!!CMAHHHNNN BUT I STILL GOTTA DO SOOOMETHIN!!#LEST HE BECOMES SO FAR REMOVED FROM THE SOURCE MATERIAL HE FAILS TO BE RECOGNIZED!! ANYONE ELSE GO THRU THIS? GIMME UR TIPS#anyway AHH THE DEMON THAT DESPISES ART FROM MONTHS AGO!! just means im improving so so fastly and cool-like. tbh im so proud o my recents#bUT HEY THOUGH I FIGURED OUT THE QUEUEUE THING AHAHAH NOW I CAN GET ALL MY THOUGHTS N DRAWINS OUT IN A DAAAYYYY#CONSISTENT POSTING FOR A MONTH HERE I COME. DAILY UPLOADS FOR A WEEK. YEAAHH BABY!!! PREPARE FOR SHOTGGUN BLASDT!!!!!!#ALRIGHT ALright one more thing before i go im. SO IN LOVE WITH MY SHAPES HONESLY... they are not just one shape but so so many put together#fucked up innit??? im seeing soo many problems in this piece though but i rest easy knowing i captured my feelings in the moment.
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comkin · 7 months ago
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Hello!! Sorry to those who have requested stimboards, they're going to be pretty slow coming out as we don't make them ourselves. But we have seen them and they will be posted! Just probably not very soon. Calls and confessions are going to be prioritised because those are easy and don't require anyone else posting them.
But it is a good time to say that mod or contributor roles are very much welcome! If you are willing to help mod (which includes calls and confessions) and/or to contribute (stimboards + if you have other ideas feel free to suggest!) please DM us.
We only have one mod and one contributor (who, as I have mentioned, is not me/a mod) so response time is slow!
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midnapanda · 8 months ago
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Splatoon 1 is fucking MAGICAL btw. The way your tentacles change color when you charge your special? Absolutely Gorgeous. All of the little details in the different stages, like Ancho-V Games? Wish we still had this in later games. Wish we still had. Whimsy.
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marthaluvsya · 18 days ago
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Reupload of the legend.
I know what yall must be thinking
Like: "girl can't you just reupload all your works in one or two days? Like what the problem?"
I donno..i honesly donno. It's so frustrating for me somehow. I dont think the half of my works is as good as when i first posted them(
But this one here will never fade for me lol
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mudzdale · 6 months ago
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finally, my magnus opus, complete... this was an impulse, do-it-stupid project for me to tackle. i suppose it doesn't count as a ragdoll if it's made out of specifically-purchased new fabric rather than rags, though...
some process photos under the cut
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feeling out the design goals + patterning. this initial pass was very inspired by @bittertoxicity 's plush designs of the cast! i wound up moving away from that as i worked, but honestly, his work is so much cuter still, and i really admire it 😄
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after 3 or so failed attempts at getting well-proportioned patterning stitched & stuffed, i lopped off one piece's head and then grafted it back on to create a longer neck. unfortunately, this successfully acheived the desired effect. the epitome of my do-it-stupid technique.
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the face pieces were stitched on. he is constructed entirely out of no-pill fleece (the closest accessible kind next to the puppet variety), and honesly i don't know how those raw edges are going to hold up over time. if he ever gets a second pass, this would be wiser to just do with felt.
i had wanted to simply embroider his eyebrow, but after multiple failed attempts at getting the shape right, it started to damage the fabric ): i gave up and cut an eyebrow out of fabric, and stitched it on like his other face pieces.
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his clothes are removable! i fit and stitched these prior to adding his hair, correctly guessing that the hair would make it very hard to work with his developing outfit. someday, i may be inclined to make different little outfits for him, however...
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the hair itself was another huge challenge (the clothes alone took weeks, fwiw). if there are patterns out there for long, non-yarn hair, i sure couldnt find them. i wound up freestyling each piece by draping them over his head like a ridiculous veil, and stitching down my "darts" from there (in quotes bc i didnt even bother to cut them away like real darts should be cut...)
overall, my vision for the hair turned out to be verrrry different than the final product, but it's probably for the best. maybe i'll experiment more if he's ever to be remade
oh, and, he is hatless because, like, i dont like the hat anyways, but in the interest of making his outfits changeable, a hat would be a lot of hassle. that's either something that has to be stitched on and cut off for outfit changes (wtf), velcro'd on (um, no way), or magnetized on (what a pain...). so i guess maybe someday, but definitely not today...
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itsmeeleanorstill · 4 months ago
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hi !! is there any chance you'd write for evan myers and gn reader doing mundane stuff like watching movies, going on dates, or like house chores together?? it can be hcs or a fic doesn't matter I just want him to not experience the horrors for a moment 😭😭
Authors note: OMG ILY ANON AND I LOVE EVAN SM🫶 ive been wanting to write about him for so long and hes my biggest hyperfixaton so this is gonna be one of the longest things ive wrote (hes so me fr) pluss i try to make most of stuff i write gender netural so dw and am not done with this yet so there would be part two or more because i love him so much and i cant stop talking about him
Warning: nothing just them begin happy
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Evan is the kind of person whos no matter what you do even if its just cleaning and stuff it wont be boring
Not to mention hes the type of guy who you can call to do basicly ANYTHING and he will tag along no matter what is it
Hes clingy and i bet you that when younare just cooking or washing the dishes he will wrap his arms around you from behind putting his head on your shoulder eather talking about something or just watching you
Also Evan is the type of person who haves the coldest hands ever so he likes to anoy you with putting his hair under your shirt on your waist or stomach but that the fact that his body tempature is always cold can be such a good thing especially in the summer just cuddling aginst him cooling down
He dosent seem like a person to me who would be that into spooning but because i dont know any other cuddling position i will leave that part to your imagination
We all know that he loves horror movies and probably like action movies too (especially on the horror movie part)
If you get scared during a movie he will get VERY COCKY WITH IT and will probably tease and scare you a lot and laugh when you get even more scared
After the movie you two would just cuddle and he would rant about the movie how good it was and everything (even tho he talks during the movie too but gets anoyed when anybody else does it)
He will pull pranks on you a lot acually but they are always harmless and acually funny too
Late night talks with him are the BEST
Just sitting outside at the terrace or porch or whatever do you wanna call it just talking about very deep stuff and life frends childhood whatever you want to talk about honesly he haves very great and deep world views and even tho he dosent seems like it hes a deep thinker
AMAZING COOK
You cant tell me otherwise he works out and payes attention to his health and makes the best meals but when he cooks you better get out of the kitchen he just hates when somebody lingers around and in his way when he cooks
Imagine you two working out togeder AJSHDHAKDNSH
Even if you dont work out just watching him be so focused and gorgeous
Ive heard somebody else say it and i will say it too he lisends to music all the time and so so loudly if you dont enjoy the same music he does he will just lisend to it a bit more quietly
I personality think that his love languages is physical touch and quality time and he enjoys hugging and cuddling more then kisses but eather way he just loves everything you do
He loves you very much and thats all that matters
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spitinsideme · 1 year ago
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hiiiiii Ragatha pussy anon here!! Pomni's is rubber to me, maybe almost like a latex? Idk but in my head its really stretchy and Ragatha likes to lightly nip and pull at the labia and it drives Pomni crazy (in a good way!)
I've thought about it a tiny bit less than Ragatha because I'm so deeply into her <3
i love how youcall yourelf ragatha pussy anon i think whemeve ryou send me an anon ask you shoild introduce yourself as rgatahy oussy anon youre ky favrouite anon right now ...
ANF YES I SEE IR !!! i just dont know many materials my knowledge in tjat is lacking bitnyou seem to have a material for every pussy !!! i like that ots stretchy so ragatba can nip on it and all obviously pomni woukd adore that shes into literlaly everything ragatha does ... but honesly i like yhe eaynyou think this makes a lot of sense and its very creative !!! 10/10 pussy for pomni
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baeleigh · 4 months ago
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This has bugged me for a while but before i get into it i want to say up front that all kinds of representation for all kinds of people is incredibly important, this is just my opinion through my lense of my personal experience being trans and consuming trans content. I hope that would be common sense but i know if i dont write this someones going to get pissy with me for god knows what.
With that out of the way,
I have been trying to hunt out and consume as much trans media as i can (at least in genres and forms that i tend to enjoy reading/viewing) and one thing i see to an insane degree is trans women being portreyed with predominantly masculine features or even being played by cis men in drag. On one hand i think "hey ill take what i can get" but on the other i think thats a fucking low bar. Now i know that there is a significant portion of trans women with fairly masculine features, and i cannot stress this enough that there is nothing wrong with that, everyone is different, everyone transitions diferently and the end goals for everyone varies wildly.
My issue is that while i love that there is more trans rep in general the fact that most characters ive seen are portreyed in a very masculine way (especially if a character is explicitly stated as being on hrt/medically transitioning for years) it sometimes rough to consume as someone who places a lot of importance on myself passing. When most forms of representation portray who you are as the physical flaws that have tormented you for 20+ years it hurts. I dont want there to be less of these portrayals at all, i just want more rep closer to my experience.
While comics and art i push past because i want to enjoy the stories included, i cant say the same about movies. It irks me how almost anytime i hear about a movie with a predominant/main trans fem character its played by a cis male actor; i get they can do it well, ive heared people complement some performances greatly, but i mean... could they not hire a trans actress? I know theyre around ive seen them on screen, hire them. The disinterest i feel when i see that a famous cis male actor is portraying a trans woman is palpable. Hire more trans actors.
Now im sure theyre are plenty of examples of what im looking for, god i hope so. Hopefully ive just been unlucky in my search.
I would like to add that one of my fave examples of rep i feel resonates with me and the one that came to my head first is Olive from "My Dragon Girlfriend" by Fawndoo on webtoons, i freaking love her. Plz show it some love ❤️
https://www.webtoons.com/en/canvas/my-dragon-girlfriend/list?title_no=162918
Im aware that my post talks pretty much exclusively about trans fem rep and theres a reason for that: i am a trans woman and a massive dyke who prodiminanly devours lesbian romance fiction so honesly i have no leg to stand on as i have little to no idea what the rep is for trans men & enbys.
Anyway thats my personal experience with trans media. goodnight, sleep tight
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maaarshieee · 2 years ago
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im just gonna dump this here :'D
y/n, a renowned fighter of liyue and a secret agent of ningguang who is going undercover as a millelith (who was a part of the osial fight), was tasked to make the fatui harbinger, childe, leave without making it seem forceful. the fatui in liyue means that peace would never be with them. they awakened osial, therefore they had to make the harbinger leave without diplomatic issues. they had to do it in every single way possible without mistakes.
and what's the most effective way to win the harbinger's heart? it's to acknowledge him with kindness and pure and gentle heart. treating him in a nice way, greeting him and gifting him trinkets or handmade gifts.
y/n's plan is to act like his friend, someone he could trust. someone he could love. someone to build his future with. and after he falls for that, they push him away. curse him and tell him to never come back to liyue. blame him for everything. tell him that he's scary, that they will never trust someone like him. that he doesn't deserve anything.
except there's one clear flaw in their plan. they never anticipated that what if, they were the ones to fall in love with the harbinger? what if they get too attached to him to even break his heart?
of course, this completely tore apart y/n. not knowing what to do. break him and save liyue or be free and let liyue be. both have different consequences. and what did y/n do? they chose what their heart says.
- weekly anon
i know this is very similar with the scara one but but but but
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a/n - GOD WEEKLY ANON WHY. YOUR REQUESTS ARE SO GOOD BUT HONESLY ME AND MY BOO (who helps me story board) ARE AT A LOSS BC THE CONFLICT IS TOO GOOD. also weekly anon blame @iyagato for making me go through with this idea. not me writing your request again, I SWEAR I DONT HAVE ANON FAVORITES, this is actually punishment! /j. I'm not good at angst but i hope i delivered it nicely. OH YEAH THANKS FOR 700 FOLLOWRS! HOPE YOU LIKE THIS AS A GIFT >:))) titled "unintentional", have a nice day/night! also theme song? veil by keida suda
↬ cw: canon typical violence, major character death (guess who?), sword wielder & pyro user reader, reader just... experiences really sad shit so uh, tw, kinda some sexual innuendo at one part but you can read it both ways, blood, gore
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The mission was simple enough, wasn't it?
Gain his trust. Shed him off his walls and deceive him when he least expects it. To allow himself to be vulnerable to you, to see you as a reliable comrade. To pretend to be someone he could love, to hold in his arms, to share his troubles with, to talk to about whatever comes to his mind, to be with someone he thought he could have a future with.
Truly, it was simple enough.
Lady Ningguang has entrusted this task to you, for you are capable enough to complete any mission the Lady has ever assigned to you. Be it 'cleansing' Liyue Harbor of 'filth', or simply gaining needed information, her beck and call. You were even graced by Lady Ningguang's access inside the Jade Chamber, which she's only ever allowed to her 3 secretaries and people she deeply trusts.
You swore loyalty under her command, for she never ceased to amaze you. From her glorious beauty, her dedication to her work, and her never-ending kindness to the inhabitants of Liyue, especially toward children.
"I have confidence that if this task were given to someone, rest assured you, out of everyone, can complete it." She says with a smile whilst you stood before her, hands behind your back with a bowed head, taking her words with immense gratitude. "The longer he, a Fatui Harbinger, stays in Liyue Harbor, peace will never be upon us."
You wholeheartedly believed in your Lady's words, nodding along as she continued to speak. She pushed a small unsuspecting folder toward you and allowed you to take it from her. Upon opening the folder, your eyes immediately scanned all the information in the papers.
"That folder is important. It contains his name, age, occupation, locations, favorites, and many more. Use it all to your advantage." Nodding once again, you held onto the folder tightly, giving your Lady a deep, respectful bow. Her last words to you ever since that day rang in your ears, engraving themselves into your brain because Archons forbid you to forget; "Don't fail me."
With pride, you took upon this mission in a stride, completely overestimating yourself. You may be a renowned warrior of Liyue, Lady Ningguang's trusted agent known for your prowess in battle and your seemingly endless adherence to your job, but there was something you never took into consideration.
That you were simply human.
Getting along with the Fatui Harbinger was a rather easy feat. He was friendly when you first approached in a guise; a part of the Millelith. From the information the papers inside the folder Lady Ningguang lent you, he loved battling against strong foes. So much so, he gains thrill even if he was injured. So how did you first greet the 11th member of the Fatui Harbingers?
Into a spar of course.
Soldiers would often say that archers were the weakest among the different sorts of fighters. That they cower behind in the backlines and only have knowledge for support. That they rely on long-range attacks merely because they freeze at the first sign of danger up close. You knew better of course. Archers are incredibly powerful on a battlefield. One skilled archer is enough to turn the tides of war; like death itself. You never know when an arrow would pierce through your chest or your forehead.
True fighters would know to never underestimate an enemy.
And you were proven right when you first battled Childe. You've never fought against an archer one-on-one but he fought vigorously against you, a sword wielder. His moves were fluid, flowing like water, an endless stream of aggressive and deadly strikes, similar to the Vision he has. It crashes upon you like tidal waves of stormy nights that shakes sailing ships until they flip and sink. With each strike he landed, the more you admired the strong fighter in front of you.
Childe fought differently than the other archers you've met. It was as if he merged the gracefulness of an archer with the violent characteristics similar to a berserker. He wore an exhilarated smile on his in the whole duration of your fight, you even heard him laugh when you catch him off guard.
He didn't underestimate you either, despite coming off quite arrogantly with each blow he dealt to you. It was a simple approach, yet you couldn't bring yourself to lose against him. How a person fought was enough to discern one's personality, in Childe's opinion, and he always finds himself breathless when you adjust the grip on your sword, baiting him and swinging in a direction he didn't expect, almost resulting in his loss.
You were cunning, a fighter who uses their boundless knowledge in the art of swordsmanship to the fullest. Dirty tricks? You've used them with a smug smirk on your face. Impenetrable defense? Powerful offense? You had it all, and it caught his full attention.
His water would extinguish the flames of your blade, but as quickly as they dispersed, they would flare back up like the burning determination in your eyes. He found himself truly captivated by the mesmerizing flames that licked and singed his skin.
In the end, you won. Nevertheless, seconds passed after Childe's defeat, you fell to the ground along with him, catching your breath and swallowing down the pain that was slowing growing in intensity the more the adrenaline that ran through your veins slowly faded.
Childe was admittedly impressed. The Millelith hadn't given him an impression by their rather lacking strength, but you? You must be one of the higher ranks! He learned a lot just by fighting you and felt awestruck by how remarkable a fighter you were. Unlike any battles he had recently fought, you displayed true sportsmanship with it comes to duels, commending his skills as an archer. When he told you that he uses the bow simply because he was less adept with it, you expressed genuine shock.
"Really? Most archers aren't capable of fighting well as you are against sword wielders on one-on-ones, and you're saying you're weakest with a bow?" You gave him a toothy grin, eyes wide and filled with wonder whilst the both of you walked towards Liuli Pavilion. Since Childe lost the spar you had moments ago, he had invited you for a dinner together, offering to pay for the expenses.
You accepted his offer with a fake smile (was it really?) on your face after you've shaken hands, putting away each other's weapons. "Mhm, believe it or not! You're quite a strong opponent, where did you learn how to wield your sword like that?" He queried, his gaze stuck on the person who defeated him.
You suppose you had nothing to hide, crossing your arms with pride as you said; "Well, my father was quite famous in Liyue, as I, for being an outstanding swordsman. He taught me everything I needed to know." With a nod, eyes meeting his azure ones. His fingers rubbed his chin, invested with your words.
Then, he nudged you with his elbow, a wide smile stretching his lips. "Care to share some of that knowledge?" He asks, wearing a hopeful expression.
You merely scoffed, raising a brow at the taller male beside you. "And why should I?"
Without missing a beat, he shot a smirk your way, crossing his arms as he narrowed his eyes. "So I can surely beat you in our next duel."
Breaking into fits of (genuine) laughter at his cocky attitude, you shook your head. "Oh? Then that gives me more reason not to tell you then." You remarked. But he only tutted at you, hair flowing prettily against the winds, "Awww, scared that I'll find your weakness? That an archer like me can beat your ass to the ground?" He said teasingly, the corners of his eyes crinkling in amusement.
For the first time in a while, you felt your heart race in anticipation. Though, back then, you had mistaken it as the fleeting sensation of victory beating in your heart. You had thought he had fallen into your trap when, unknowingly, you had fallen as well.
"Alright," You'd huff, "Bring it on."
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It has been... months since you've seen the last of Lady Ningguang. Usually, you'd report to her Lady every few days, updating her about the progress of your mission.
Lately, though, a sense of dread would creep up toward your heart whenever you thought of visiting the Jade Chamber. Oddly enough, you felt eyes following you with every step you take, and because of that, you've grown incredibly weary and paranoid.
But you have a guess on what makes your heart waver when it comes to Lady Ningguang and your duties.
Childe.
Even the mere mention of his name makes you grit your teeth. For the past few months, the more this mission of yours went on, the more you grew to hate him.
You absolutely abhor him.
He made your seemingly effortless task drag on longer than you'd like. And despite being aware that gaining a person's trust was not like a leisure walk through Liyue Harbor, you hated every passing second you spent with him.
Childe was annoying, arrogant and you can't stand him. He would nag you for a spar so much that you'd have to hide across Liyue to avoid him, often asking a kind gentleman working in Wangsheng Funeral Parlor, named Zhongli, to distract the bothersome ginger who refused to leave you alone for some reason.
Asking him why he wants to stick around you so much was utterly fruitless, for he would blatantly lie to your face (just as much as you lie to him). "I want to score higher than you in our spars!", "Why can't I? Aren't we comrades?", "Getting tired of me already? Too bad!", and so on.
The moment he opens his mouth, you want to bury yourself in the ground, never to listen to his senseless blabbering. You hated so many things about him that you can list them.
You hate the cocky smile he'd always have when he walks up to you, asking you for a spar, his voice that would always get on your nerves, his bright, blue eyes that always seem to spark back to life whenever he looks at you, the way he always perks up when he hears you approaching because it's totally normal for people to memorize the sounds of another's footsteps, the way he's always eager to treat you dinner—
The way he makes your heart skips a beat whenever he laughs, the way he touches you oh so gently even though you're the one who kept beating him in fights, the way the tone of his voice changes whenever he speaks to you or says your name—
The way he makes your cheeks burn hotter than when you use your pyro vision whenever he shamelessly flirts with you 'as a joke', the way he makes butterflies flutter in your stomach whenever he sends you the most loving smile you've ever seen in your life, the way he never fails to make you feel so special because, for some reason, he's always so drawn to you, like a moth to a flame.
You hated Childe, and you had so many reasons for it, including making you fall for him. Hard.
At the moment, you were hiding from Childe again, watching Zhongli lead him away from where you hid. He had a pout on his lips, arms crossed as he clearly looked upset. You were a master at hide and seek, and he had never caught you once amidst your foolish games.
Once they were both out of sight, you leaned back against the tree you were on, the smile you once wore simply because you saw Childe acting so foolishly when it comes to you quickly morphed into a frown as you looked up into the skies, eyeing the Jade Chamber that infinitely hovered in the skies, casting a shadow all over Liyue. A place you once wanted to be part of, now a sight for sore eyes.
You wondered if Lady Ningguang knew. Of your inner turmoil, of your struggles, of your evident betrayal to your Lady, to Liyue. Thinking about it made your chest hurt, your hand clutching your chest. A younger version of you would surely be disgusted at your pathetic state. You? Who vowed to serve Lady Ningguang until your last breath? Whose resolve began to waver simply because of a man who's supposed to be your enemy?
A bitter laugh escaped your lips. How cruel. You once thought that this mission was the easiest one you've ever gotten. But it just grew harder when Childe ultimately asked you to be his lover.
And that was it.
A rejection followed by a fearful look, words that you knew would crush his heart and fake tears would be enough to wrap up your mission. To restore the faith Lady Ningguang had instilled in you, to make up for your traitorous mind...
But the way he caressed your cheek so tenderly, features softening at the mere sight of you, eyes both wary and filled with hope— Archons, you just couldn't. Not when you've dug your own grave, not when your heart beats for him.
On the day of his confession, he mistook your tears for joy. Instead, your tears were laced with unfathomable pain from the conflict that tore your heart. To serve Lady Ningguang and abide by your mission, or to betray your whole nation for the man who stole your heart?
The moment you realized you had fallen in love with Childe, a Fatui Harbinger, you willed yourself to avoid him at all costs. And when he sought you out, only to confess? You were devastated that he had fallen too. Fallen to the trap that fate had led you into, a trap both of you blindly waltzed in.
Once in a relationship, you prayed that he wouldn't notice. How your hands would tremble when he nears you, how your bottom lip would quiver when his were inches away, how your eyes grew teary when you feel his hot breath against your skin. It all felt so surreal, so addicting, you wanted more of him, to love him with all your heart, but indulging him made you feel sick.
Touching him felt like a sin, both to him and the country to which you once devoted yourself. His skin against yours burned you, accidentally flinching whenever he reaches for you, and your heart felt like it was being stabbed repeatedly.
You were so desperate for him, yearning for him, yet your heart ached when he utters those sweet words in your ears.
"I love you."
Archons, what have you done?
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The words you spoke felt like shattered glass rolling off your tongue. Who knew simply talking would hurt so much?
But the weight was lifted off your chest once you finished speaking, a strong pair of arms wrapped around your trembling body, reassuring, but shaky words being whispered to your ear. You clung to him, hands gripping the back of his shirt.
To say that he was shocked was an understatement. He has his suspicions toward you (and ignored them), but he never would've thought the burdens you carried were to that extent. Childe understood now though. Why you acted so strangely despite accepting his confession. You truly did love him, but the guilt in your heart ate you from the inside.
He understood how you felt, so he held you in his arms tightly, refusing to let go of you until you tell him so. To quell the pain in your heart little by little, to kiss you whilst you shed tears, to touch you as if you were bound to fall apart as you unraveled yourself completely bare only for him to see.
And when you agreed to his suggestion, his heart rejoiced.
"Join me. Let's leave Liyue."
But things never go the way they should.
Lady Ningguang knew. Of course, she did. She knew of your plans of departure from Liyue, and she wouldn't stand idle anymore for a traitor like you.
It happened all too fast. One moment you were on patrolling as a faux Millelith soldier, and the next thing you knew, you were being chased by your peers all across Liyue Harbor.
They were at every corner you turned to, surrounding you and cornering you. You can't escape anymore, you were trapped. It was then that realization struck you; she had finally made her move.
You will regret this later on, but you summoned your sword and pointing it threateningly at the multiple soldiers that blocked your path. You were to join the Fatui soon enough, so there won't be any harm in starting now, right?
But before you could even swing your sword, you heard his voice, calling your name and clearing a path toward him. Your breath got caught in your throat as you almost cried in relief, turning to run to him, to finally leave Liyue once and for all. His arrival saved you from lifelong regrets of spilling blood.
But—
Childe's eyes widened, arm outstretching towards you as he shouted your name once more. But he was too far. Too late. You ran as fast as you could, but you never reached him. The world around him grew dark as the once peaceful, beautiful nights at the harbor grew distant and hot. It suffocated him, to watch you fall to the ground, the brilliant scarlet colors painted the road, reflecting disgustingly gorgeously against the moonlight.
"Ajax—" You choked out, more of the pretty hues of red splattering out your mouth as the sight of a spear piercing your chest—
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Childe was skeptical of you at first. Who would just randomly go up to a stranger and ask them for a spar? He was glad he accepted it though, despite his doubts, because you proved to be a suitable sparring partner from then and so forth.
You fought like a true warrior. You reminded him of fire that blazed continuously no matter complication. A flame that refused to go out, a fire that with even the slightest spark, would burst into flames with dangerous heat. You refused to back down, even if he was a Hydro user, you ignited your flames once again, forcing your sword to burn him to ashes.
And you almost did, and it made his heart tumble inside his ribcage. His smile was difficult to contain, not when he's never felt such excitement in ages! You were different, you stood out among the foes he's fought before. You were unique and he needed to know what made you so special.
You gifted him the knowledge passed down by your father to you. Although he never understood why you would do such a thing to him back then when he was merely just of your acquaintance, you brought him into a whole new world when comprehending the art of weaponry.
"My father focused a lot on training the eyes." You'd state, holding a wooden sword for training purposes while Childe sat on the ground, crossed-legged, listening to every word. "The eye is an essential part of our art. If you trained hard enough, you can peer into someone's soul, quickly make a rough estimate of one's muscle structure, and pinpoint their weaknesses."
Childe, like the child he is, raised his arm as if he was a student wanting to inquire about his teacher. You loudly huffed at his behavior but never told him off. "Yes?" You arched a brow at him, a hand on your hip.
"Is that really possible or just an exaggeration?" He asked, and you were surprised it wasn't in a mocking manner. With a smile and a hum, you nodded proudly, gripping your sword, and got into an offensive stance.
"Hah! An exaggeration?" You snickered, "I only speak of the truth, my dear student. With it, you can anticipate your opponent's next move." Childe blinked, doubtful of what they just said, but nodded nevertheless, waiting for a clearer explanation.
"We sharpen our sights until it's comparable to a hawk's vision. We can see how a hand would clench the weapon it holds, the way the joints would move, the way a body's trajectory would shift, and much more." You recited as if you'd said this hundreds of times before. "We observe each movement, be it big or small."
He let out a sound of awe, eyes wide as he stared up at you, obviously impressed. "And you're teaching me such arts? Something passed down your family?" He asks, growing unsure as a small frown tugged the corners of his lips.
But his heart merely thrummed hard against his chest when you turned to him with a smile adorning your features, an unreadable emotion lingering in your eyes, but still shining brightly against the warm sun. Perhaps if he had this ability, then he would've known what you felt that day.
"For some reason, I trust that you would honor my family's way of the blade more than anyone in Liyue." You sighed, your gaze shifting away from him as you let a stray butterfly perch on your finger, the wind making your clothes flutter. "Of all the people I've fought, you bear what it really takes to be a warrior, despite the lust for battle hidden deep inside." Childe felt himself stiffen when you mentioned a part of him he hasn't shared with you just yet, but you simply giggled at his reaction, winking.
"It's what I've gathered by watching you how to fight."
And he let himself relax at that. After all, Childe was a firm believer of those words; How a person fought was enough to discern one's personality.
"But you did give it away rather obviously." You teased, only for Childe to frown once more, confused. "You laughed on the verge of losing."
His cheeks grew warm at that, a sheepish smile stretching his lips as rubbed the back of his neck, embarrassed. "Did I?" He chuckled, looking down at his lap, a sullen expression overtaking his features despite the laughter he forced. He knew at that moment that you'd think he was a weirdo. A creep who gets thrilled in bloodshed battles.
Though, you never cease to surprise him. Stepping in front of him, your shadow loomed over his figure and he raised his head to look up at you, expecting a look of disgust or mockery on your face, but it was just the same gentle face you always wore. Offering him a hand, he accepted it, and let himself be pulled upwards by you.
"I see no fault in it, Childe." You reassure, patting his back as you gave him a wooden sword to finally begin training. "Somethings are out of our control, so lend myself to you."
Childe sputtered, once again, surprised by your words and taking a step back, but you just chuckled at his reaction. "I'll spar with you if it helps quell this insatiable desire. Well, if that's what you'd like."
Speechless, he stood there dumbly, stuck in thought. A permanent sparring partner? Just to help suppress the consuming feeling to seek chaos and destruction? Torn, he couldn't help but crease his brows as he tried to make out any lies. But no, he couldn't see any. Your eyes only held sincerity, a patient smile carved on your lips.
Why are being so kind to him? Why, from then on, you decided to allow him to be your friend? Why did you crawl through the cracks of the faulty walls of his heart and made yourself a place inside it without his volition?
How cruel you were to invade his mind on a daily basis.
Your laughter reminded him of the sounds of chiming bells that hung outside of the homes in Liyue, harmonizing with the gentle breeze of the wind. Your smile held a warmth that he never knew he could once again feel in his heart. Your kindness, concern, gentleness— it made him weak in the knees.
You sparked life back into his dead, soulless eyes.
And you quickly snuffed them out once more, as if it was never there in the first place.
Like everything else that exists, your artistry of weaponry had a fatal flaw, and he could remember those words clearly.
"Our backside is one of the most vulnerable spots to users wielding this art. If an opponent was too quick for our eyes to reach them and attacks us from behind? We're good as dead if we don't improvise."
Maybe that's why you couldn't see the spear aimed at your back, piercing through your chest, right at your heart.
Childe grew to love the rains in Liyue, mostly because you loved them. You'd stomp onto puddles, running through the rain as you let the drops of water completely soak you entirely. You'd take his hands in yours, and dance with him under the rain. But no matter how dark the clouds were, you'd brighten up his surroundings, all it took was your loveable smile.
Though now, the intensity of the rain was not enough to clean the stain of your blood off his hands.
In the middle of the sea of bodies and diluting blood, Childe had your limp body in his hands. He couldn't save you. He wasn't fast enough, wasn't strong enough. Even with knowledge of your art, he couldn't have anticipated this.
In his veins, he only felt anger and despair, his heart torn to pieces as the one good thing in his life was stripped away from his hands once more. There were so many things he still wanted to tell you, to show you the beauty of Teyvat, to introduce you to his family—
But you were gone. The Vision that hung on your waist, dull and gray, the vibrant reddish-orange glow it once illuminated, gone, similar to your eyes that once held so much life. The fire that burned fervently has been completely extinguished. You have never felt so cold in his arms.
Was this your punishment for loving him? Was this her doing?
In the rain, he let himself break, burning hatred engulfing his heart as he glared at the Jade Chamber that proudly hovered amongst the stars.
There was one thing in his mind as he continued to grieve; the Jade Chamber will be no more.
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trauma-and-preg · 8 months ago
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with your heart arrhythmia which is most likely for you to have happen first... heart attack or massive cardiac arrest.
Honesly i dont know. What i cam tell my mother is like me she has arithmya and has she age it got worse and worse until she needed surgery. I know where she was at she was at risk of suddent death so i might be at risk of it to some day has i get older
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yahoodarling · 2 years ago
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Honestly, go shit and fuck yourself to people that think amab people ARE NOT ALLOWED to enjoy mlm/nblm media just cause a bunch of women do.
Had a chicky on another platform tell me i cant like mdzs, tgcf, support the author because im amab and 'not part of the intended demographic' its 'written for girls by a girl about guys' (idk what the author ideantifies as).
Honesly, what entitlement do you think you have?! The stories are literally 2 males, and you are says amabs cant read it? Sorry, i dont aprove of you fetishising mlm/nblm, go cry yourself to sleep now
I was told, "just because you have a dick doesnt mean you are a bigger fan", for one i had never mentioned anything about that and two, do women reading these things feel INFERIOR and feel they need to justify themselves? This isnt the first time i got attacked by a chicky after talking about tgcf.
All my life i was told i was a 'femine guy' always the 'you are so gay, i always knew' like it was a part of my identity and changed how people treat me, my femininity is partly the reason i identify as nb, people rejected my masculinity so i did too.
Genshin is another hell hole, its amazing how people think they are allowed to tell you what your sexuality is and what you can and cant do just because of your genitals. I was in co op with a male friend of mine and had a rando join the chat, she found out we were both amab and IMMEDIATLY jumped into what mlm genshin ship we were like, when i told her off and suggested a straight ship(we joke we are like sucrose and albedo alot) she flipped and said i was just a straight cis male covering myself to get away with 'hounding' over women and getting 'gay protection', WFT is 'gay potection?!
This is another case of just some bad apples, some toxic women, i know most of the female fans arnt like this, some ive grown fo be friends with when chatting about media like this, but it really it concerning when males/amab people open themselves up to explore media that may be very personal to their sexuality and then get shot down.
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loopscereal · 10 months ago
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TY FOR ANSWERING MY PREVIOUS QUESTION SHDHSJFJDKSKDNF umm i have another one if you don't mind.
does freddy (and/or fred) remember or even know the explanation of why owynn took freddy's prescribed pills?
if im not wrong, at one point owynn tried to explain to freddy why he needed the pills but i think freddy was too busy fighting with fred over his own body and also because of the lack of sleep and i wonder.
did freddy (or fred) hear owynn at that point? if they did, do they remember or did they forget since it was in a moment where freddy and fred were more centered on fighting against their own body?
and if they didn't hear owynn, was it more of an “im so distressed right now i dont even want to hear what you're saying i dont want to hear your excuses” situation where freddy was just really pissed or was it more of a “i physically cannot even hear you because im fighting against my own body and as much as i try it's too late now” situation where even if freddy and fred wanted to listen to owynn it was hard to do? or maybe none of those i dont know hshdhshdjfjhkf... sorry.. basically what i mean is.
did freddy and/or fred end up actually retaining why owynn needed freddy's pills?
Hi ty for asking again, i dont mind another at all this is fun lol
Hi thanks i stared at this for over an hour asking myself if they do or don't cause honesly we have gone over and rewritten their current dynamic over and over and put them in a blender five billion different ways aka we haven't solidified how they meet again and their modern dynamic bc that just a bomb waiting to go off. Their days are numbered though.
Uh. God. Thanks for asking hell if i know. <- in charge.
LONG STORY SHORT CAUSE THIS FEELS INCOMPREHENSIBLE: no neither of them remember owynns reasoning.
Fred mostly remembers how distressed he felt, trying to stop Freddy from acting on anger, keeping Owynn from getting hurt, and ultimately being unable to stop the fight. He did try to listen to Owynn, repeated the explanation back to Freddy, but wasn't processing most of it in the moment. Far more focused on Freddy.
Currently he remembers how hasty and panicked Owynn seemed Unfortunately he most clearly remembers how Owynn denounced Freds existence. Especially with such confidence. It hurt him personally, and stuck. Beyond that its a mess of keywords and not much else. So no, he doesn't remember the exact reason just that he deeply felt Owynn didn't deserve to get hurt and was justified.
plus he fucking eats shit and dies so whats he gonna remember. god.
Freddy doesn't remember what Owynn said at all, for one he was mostly too angry to actually listen, but also fighting with Fred, dealing with withdrawal symptoms, and not having slept well. He does remember the fact that Owynn TRIED explaining, but not what he said. The whole fight is a blur except for some key moments. He knows there was a reason given but he can't recall it, just that Owynn said he 'had to'.
long story short: Everything happened really fast and they dont, they doooon't
uhhhh i hope this answers the questionnnns. fulltime jobbbbb aergdfjy, i hope this makes sense.
again im sorry thinking abt these guys meeting again and how much they remember is like placing my hand on an active stove
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flyhalved · 8 months ago
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tag ppl u wanna know better game - tagged by @soulaans thank you so much 🫶<3
last song: positif - mr oizo (vous êtes des animaux)
currently watching: honesly i just watch whatevers on tv so. great british menu i like seeing the themed fancy food
three ships: uhhh. me and getting lost in the fog on the moors. everton and relegation. the fog thing again i dont know
favorite color: pink!!!!! forever and always <3
currently cosuming: spaghetti carbonara
first ship: ferry to the isle of wight
place of birth: england rahhh
current location: the sofa
relationship status: single 🤭
last movie: sonic the hedgehog 2 :) 🦔?
currently working on: getting breaded but also learning irish
im gonna tag @welikeitloud @esr10 @lelabosantal33 @cybertomii if you wanna get silly w it :3
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cookies-over-yonder · 2 years ago
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🎥 do you have any favorite scenes from your hyperfixation?
yes .......................
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHH AAHHHHHHHH AGHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHH AGGYHHHHHHHH
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AYGHHHH AHHHHH AHHHH AHHH SORRY sorry i need to make words i ofgrot i just n...... i dont know how to explain like..........
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i i i i i i just like OK OKok . ok . uhh first of all i fucking love this whole chapter because it's so. cute like they are just shopping and funtimes and also ??? azz realizing how much iruma has changed since theyd first met and iruma opening up about his anxiety in regards to being such a high rank in his first year
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and saying that he needs azz and clara to stay with him and support him. i'm weak LUCAS I'M WEAK. I'M GOIGNT O FUCKING CRY LUCAS. I'M
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AND THIS
GOD I'M SENDING SO MANY SCREENSHOTS I'M SORRY ACTUALLY NO I'M NOT THIS IS MY FUCKING POST. this is so gay. and also so sweet. like heartwarming. like i'm literally going to explode and die. bc the way iruma says he needs azz and clara there to support him just makes me so emotional bc he was always independent and alone growing up so he's grown and is learning now to depend on people and rely on their support and I'M LITERALLY GOING TO START CRYING LUCAS.
LIKE HE HAS A SUPPORT SYSTEM NOW AND HE'S AWARE OF IT. I CAN'T
AND OF COURSE.. WE COULD NEVER FORGET ABOUT THIS....
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dude. i'm going to fukcingnggnngn...... LIKE. I . sorry i literlaly can't put how this page makesme feel into words i just can't honesly. i I CANT LIEK.
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it's above friend..... this also ties back into what i said about casual queer representation. like this is... this is that. they are seriosuly qpr and i'm going to fucking die. i'm so emotional rn i'm so emorional i'm so emotional.
i'm so emotional
thanks for reading bye
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itsmeeleanorstill · 26 days ago
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Romantic headcannons about HABIT
Warnings: Habit begin himself, mention of torture
A/n: here is part 2 since i cant stop thinking about that fucker and i could not find any puple and blue picture to put here so its just blue
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He whines a lot about the human stuff you have to do especially when you go to sleep because you cant pay attention to him while you arent awake
And will most likely stare at you in your sleep but not for too long because after a while he will realize you wont be waking up soon and just gets bored
If hes not away killing somebody hes constantly by your side needing your attention wich means you get less time for yourself
But since you are dating him you probably dont mind
Also he probably wont tell you when hes leaving and where so just dont get scared if you cant find him for a whole day he will come back eventually
If he comes back he always tells you what he did that day in the most dramatic way ever
Like you would be sitting on the couch and he would be like walking around and stuff just acting out whatever hapened
Of corse he makes himself more powerfull and smarter in his own story
"Oh you sould have been there it was so funny he was screaming so much and there was blood everywhere!"
Back to what i said in my orher post if you do go and torture people with him or just be there while he does he will eather
Dont even alow the victims to look at you or take ther eyes off of him with that creating more fear with not knowing whos the other person or what they want
Or he will especially put the attention to you showing the victim that there is somebody in the room somebody whos normal and human somebody who could do something but for whatever reason dosent
Or he would do what he did with Vinny make you go in alone comfort the person be nice tell them you gonna help them create a false security then he comes in and you two kill them togeder
Really romantic stuff you know
Could count as a date honesly
He would definitelly do that thing where he asks your opinion about something and then just make up stupid bullshit exuses untill you say what he wants you to
When he kisses you he wraps his arms around your waist and kisses you in a way where you have to lean back and you would probably fall back if he dosent haves a death grip on you all the time
And loves to kiss you untill you barely have any breath left
That conects to how he loves to push people to ther limits
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