#I don't want to invest in something I'm not confident I'll break even on...

[solradguy]

We have run like 30 railjack missions and Sevagoth's fat heaving chassis won't drop. I have like 5 Sevagoth systems. Maybe if I hammer them onto one of my 9,000,000,000 Harrow chassis I can transmute it into the part I need to make this man

[mysecretlittlelibrary]

What's One Night With A Different Knight

Pairing: Jake Lockley x Reader & Marc Spector x Reader

Word Count: 2.7k

Warnings: very brief mention of abuse; not towards the reader just as an idea but besides that I think it's safe here- there's some bickering at the end but otherwise a... relatively cute fic

Genre: very much fluff

Summary: When Marc coincidentally overhears you telling your friend you might dump Jake he steps in to help

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Jake Lockley. He's been your boyfriend for about 3 months now although at this point you're not too sure he'll keep that title much longer. It's not that Jake mistreats you or anything but, he can be cold, distant. Sometimes it feels as if he's not there even when he's with you, which honestly isn't saying much because these days he's hardly with you anyway. This thing between you, it's new, and you want to give him the benefit of the doubt. Maybe he's going through something he's not ready to share with you because of how new things are. That you can understand, and you don't necessarily want to give up on your relationship if all of this is because he's having a hard time, especially because he was so kind and charming when you met. Although, 'he was so kind when we met' is the beginning of too many stories that end with bruises, restraining orders, arrests, death. So you won't put too much weight in 'he was kind and charming when you met'. You don't want to believe that Jake would ever hurt you but you still don't know him well, and you can only ignore so many warning signs. The more you mull it over the more you think it's time to end things. You just want to figure out the best way to do so.

"El I think I'm gonna break up with him." You mutter to your friend as you walk back from dinner together, the summer nights being perfect for it.

"Jake? I thought you really liked him!"

"I do. Or- I did. These days there's not enough of him around to like. That's the problem." You sigh. "I know he has a life, I mean, so do I but the bottom line is that Lockley isn't putting in effort and I refuse to be the only one that cares in this relationship."

"Maybe you should talk to him about it?"

"Maybe. It's just that it's only been a couple of months, if he's already falling off like this so soon I mean, it seems like he can't be bothered." You shrug.

"I think you should talk to him if you see a future with him in any capacity. But I know you don't have patience for being treated like an option."

"Correct, I don't. I won't prioritize someone who won't prioritize me. I'll think about it though. I just- I'm not going to beg him to be invested in our relationship that's all."

You had no way of knowing that, coincidentally, not Jake but one who shares his body heard a good bit of this conversation. While Jake hadn't told you about his secrets, between Moonknight and his fractured mind, it didn't take Marc and Steven long to find out about you. Considering how little he fronts, it was easy for them to solve the mystery that had him showing up more often. You. They obviously didn't know you personally but they knew enough about you. Marc had particularly taken an interest in you and while Steven would never admit it, because you weren't his girlfriend, part of him liked you a little bit too. They'd both like you to stick around but Marc, unlike Steven, is willing to cross lines if it means keeping you around. Which is why the night after hearing you vent to your dear friend, he's strolling coolly to your apartment with a bouquet of flowers. He knocks on the door with all the confidence in the world, smiling kindly when you open the door, even when he sees the confused look on your face.

"Jake? What are you doing here?" You ask. Marc reveals the flowers from behind his back.

"Now I would've got your favorites but forgive me I'm not sure what they are. I do however know flowers and put together some that show what I feel about you. Blue salvias, morning glories, forget me nots, and a collection of carnations and camellias." Marc says.

"I'm not personally well versed in flowers so I'm not sure what any of them mean but thank you." You chuckle. "And what's up with your voice?"

"I thought it'd be fun to do an accent." He shrugs.

"Oh? Should I do one too?"

"Nah, I love your voice too much." He winks.

"How cute. Did you, really come all this way just to drop off some flowers though?" You ask.

"No. So you'll have to look up their meanings later, I'm actually hoping you can spare a couple hours of your evening for a date. I thought I'd surprise you."

"A date? I'm hardly dressed for a date."

"Well you could wear a paper bag and still be the most gorgeous person in any room we entered, but I'm a patient man, go ahead and get ready. I'll wait."

"Give me 15 minutes." You say ushering him into your apartment.

"Take your time mi amor." Marc says, throwing the endearment in to appear more like Jake.

Marc??? Where are we? Marc sighs at the voice in his head, he'd hoped that both alters would be blocked for most of the evening.

"Jake babe, where are we going?" You call down the hall.

"It's a surprise princessa!" 

"I mean I know, I really just need the dress code."

"Casual is fine, although you'd look perfect in anything."

"So charming this evening." You muse.

JAKE'S GIRLFRIEND?! THAT IS JAKE'S GIRLFRIEND MARC!

Marc rushes into the bathroom and turns on the faucet, glaring at the mirror.

"Yes I know who it is Steven thank you."

WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU THINKING?!

"I'm thinking that Jake is about to lose her and I have no interest in letting that happen."

So what's your plan?! To tell her the truth about us?

"No! At least, not tonight. Tonight is just about showing her what she deserves."

That is absolutely mad. Not to mention a betrayal of trust, both hers and Jake's. She thinks you're someone else Marc.

"Yeah, that's kind of the point."

So you're just going to pretend to be him indefinitely?

"No, she's this close to breaking up with Jake so- I'm proving he's not a shit partner."

Right, so that when he fails to deliver after this she'll dump him quicker.

"I'm trying to save their relationship not ruin it!"

You realize if Jake ever tells her about us and she finds out about this she will probably be pissed off

"That's fine because if I don't do this they probably won't even last long enough for Jake to tell her about us."

You've lost your mind Marc, you cannot pretend to be Jake anymore than you could pretend to be me or I could pretend to be either of you

"For a couple of hours, I absolutely can actually."

"Jake? Where'd you go?" Your voice halts their conversation and Marc turns off the sink, swinging open the bathroom door to greet you with a smile.

"Apologies hermosa, I'm here." He says.

"Well, let's go on this surprise date of yours." You say  You've put on a pair of jeans and a mesh sweater over a crop top for the evening, something comfortable but cute since you still don't know where you're going.

"Yes, let's." Marc offers his arm to you and you loop yours through it as you exit your apartment.

"Will you tell me where we're heading now?" You ask him while he leads you through the streets of town.

"I will not, but I'm sure you'll guess before we get there." He says.

"How on earth would I be able to guess before we get there?" You frown.

"Listen closely amor." He says and you allow yourself to take in the sounds of summer evenings. There are people talking, and walking, everywhere, but after a moment you hear faint music, not like the kind playing in restaurants that you pass. It's- carnival music? You can hear the sounds of laughter and screams and the almost obnoxious chimes carnival games are known for and just as you piece it together you just barely pick up the smell of overpriced fair food.

"Are we going to a carnival?" You ask with an excited gasp and though Marc doesn't answer he smiles in a way that tells you you've guessed correctly. Just then you turn a corner and are suddenly met with so many bright lights you're tempted to close your eyes for a moment.

"Surprise." Marc says quietly as you approach.

"I didn't even know there was a carnival in town! This is so cool!" You say beaming at him.

"I thought you'd like it." He smiles softly.

"I love it. Thank you." You tell him.

"Anything for you." He says and he means that. He's not sure Jake would say it but- he feels that way. In this moment, watching you take in the carnival with childlike wonder. He would do anything for you. He's sure of it.

"What should we do first?!" You ask him excitedly.

"Whatever you want, it's your surprise. We can do it all, ride every ride, play every game, eat everything from every stall, win every prize they've got, we can just walk around, we can ride the same ride a hundred times if you want. I'll do whatever makes you happiest." Marc says and you smile so sweetly he's sure his heart is fit to fly out of his chest and into your hands.

"Let's start with the swing carousel." You say pointing out the ride.

"Of course." He nods leading you both to the line. He's quiet as you make your way to the front and onto the ride but he holds your hand even after you're sat in your swings waiting for the ride to start. After a few moments, the ride lifts into the air and begins spinning in large circles, taking all of you with it. Marc watches you as you happily look around at the rest of the carnival from the vantage point this ride gives you. There's a childlike wonder to your happiness that when he's looking at you he feels at peace like every problem he's ever had is dissolving. It's a feeling he wants to hold onto. When the ride ends you and Marc take turns picking what order to hit the others in. Honestly, he'd let you decide every step he takes if you wanted to, but you insist that he have some say in the evening.

"I didn't take you for the carnival type Jake." You say after you've ridden most everything there is to ride here. The use of Jake's name is like a bucket of cold water in Marc's face and he has to remind himself not to react outwardly.

"I don't know that I'd say I am actually but I am the make you happy type, cariño." Marc says kissing your cheek.

"You're so cute tonight." You giggle. "We have to ride the ferris wheel before we go." You point at the large brightly lit up wheel.

"Alright but before that let's play one of these games, yeah? Tell me what prize you want and I'll win it for you." Marc says.

"You don't have to do that Jake." You shake your head.

"I want to. Go on, pick a prize." Marc tells you. You look at the different games around the carnival and your eyes eventually catch on a stuffed raccoon. It's big with blue eyes and paws and ears and feet and it's hanging over one of those impossible ringtoss games.

"Do you think you could win one of those raccoon toys?" You ask, pointing at it.

"Easy." He nods.

"Well the bottle ring toss is notoriously hard usually. Don't take it too seriously." You tell him as he walks up to the booth with you.

"Trust me princessa, I've got this." Marc winks at you before buying his rings from the attendant who looks extremely bored.

"Alright." You laugh.

"Watch this." He turns slightly to the side and tosses the rings in rapid succession, making every throw with surprising accuracy.

"Wow." You say.

"Told you it'd be easy." Marc says throwing his arm around you. He points at the stuffed raccoon you wanted and the game attendant pulls it down with a shocked congratulations.

"Thank you Jake." You say kissing his cheek.

"Of course amor. To the Ferris wheel now, yes?"

"Yes! Let's go!" You smile, clutching the raccoon closely. Your Ferris wheel ride is peacefully quiet and when you eventually return to the ground, Marc walks you back to your apartment. You chat idly as you walk, catching up about how you've been since you last saw each other and before you know it, you're at your apartment door.

"I had an amazing time tonight." Marc says.

"Me too. I dunno what's up with you tonight but, I like you like this." You say with a small smile.

"Yeah? Me too." He smiles. You place a hand on his shoulder to lean up and kiss his cheek shyly.

"Text when you get home, okay?" You say.

"Of course amor." He nods.

"Goodnight Jake." You say softly.

"Goodnight mi vida." He breathes out as you step into your apartment. You almost don't want to close your door because it means the night is over but you do and Marc leaves, whistling happily to himself as he was back to their flat. It's not until he makes it all the way back that a voice rings in his head.

If we didn't share a body hermano I would kill you right now.

Marc looks at the nearest reflective surface to see Jake glaring at him.

That was my girlfriend! What the hell are you doing?!

"Hey, if not for what I did tonight she'd probably be your ex girlfriend by morning. She was ready to dump you just the other night. You should be thanking me." Marc says.

Marc, that's Jake's life. It's not your place to meddle, we agreed to let each other have our things. You overstepped seriously. 

This time it's Steven who steps in, gentle but scolding.

"I just saved his relationship. That girl deserves better, all I did was show it to her."

Not only have you fundamentally destroyed the trust of their relationship but you've set an expectation you don't even know if Jake can maintain! At best you've strung her along and at worst you have to maintain this lie which can only lead to a million other problems because when you eventually start to care for her and hearing her call you Jake starts driving you crazy and you're tempted to tell her the truth you won't be able to because at that point you'll be in so deep that she'll never speak to either of you again if you do tell her.

"I gave her exactly what kind of relationship she should have, now Jake either has to step up or lose her for good."

And when he doesn't fill this weird bar you've set up because he's not you, then what? Because she was about to dump him until you stepped in, right? 

First of all who said I couldn't fill it?!

"If you can be that for her why haven't you?"

It's none of your business Marc

Case in point. He's not gonna do what you did. You've just created this unnecessary contradicting person for her and there was literally no reason for that.

"Whatever, she deserved a nice night."

You're ignoring the part where she is MY girlfriend and you had no right to take her out! Just because she doesn't know there's more than one of us doesn't mean it's okay to take advantage of that!

"If she's your girlfriend. Treat her well and we won't have this problem."

The only problem is you meddling

"God you two are such nags. I saved your relationship tonight Jake. I won't apologize for it because you're lucky you can still call her your girlfriend right now." Marc rolls his eyes and walks away from the mirror and their conversation. Yeah maybe he should've left well enough alone but you deserve nice things and even if it means you leave Jake for not being enough, at least you should know that someone will give you everything you deserve.

Meanwhile, after you've showered and changed you look up the meaning of those flowers he brought you, the blue salvias mean 'I think of you', and morning glories mean 'affection', forget me nots are self explanatory, the different colored carnations mean everything from my heart aches to I'll never forget you and the various camellias have meanings of longing and other dramatic declarations of love, at least according to a website you found. It's a very thoughtful collection of flowers, more emotionally expressive than Jake has been for most of your relationship but it's something that warms your heart as you lay in bed thinking about your date. An absolutely perfect date.

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[crehador]

i think one thing that's so compelling to me about adachi (and his relationship with kurosawa) is the focal point of his internal worries is never really "i can't reciprocate kurosawa's feelings because he's a man" or even "i can't reciprocate kurosawa's feelings because i don't like him" (speaking on the first 2 eps of the anime only rn)

it's always more of an "i can't reciprocate kurosawa's feelings because i'm not good enough for him/i don't deserve it" sort of thing and that just so makes me root for him, because it's the kind of feeling you want to see a character overcome

like to me the sort of story that's like "i don't like this person who's pursuing me but as time goes on they wear me down and i give in" is at best never all that interesting, so the fact that it's not strictly a lack of interest for adachi (in ep2 he even tries to think of something he dislikes about kurosawa and comes up blank) makes it way easier for me to get invested. it's just a severe lack of self-confidence

and to be clear i don't get the feeling that adachi is secretly in love with kurosawa already and just isn't aware of it. to me it feels more like he's never allowed himself to even consider it, to even think about whether he likes someone else because his default state of mind assumes no one could possibly like him anyway

this just feels like such an appealing romance because at its core it doesn't strike me as that typical "i'll break him down until he can't resist me" type story, but rather what kurosawa needs to do is build adachi up which is just immensely more romantic to me

[dragon-kazansky]

Something Worth Protecting

Iceman x Dragon

Bodyguard AU

Dragon's popularity has grown tremendously, and as she takes off on tour, a security team has been hired to see it through. Leading that team is Tom Kazansky. He's the best in the business. He is here to do a job, but for the first time in his career, feelings are involved. He can't get too involved or he'll lose his job. Yet, ignoring what he desires is harder than it looks.

[Masterlist]

[Previous Chapter] - [Next Chapter]

Chapter Seven - Close call

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On with the show.

While Rachael got changed in her dressing room, Tom waited outside with Jade and Ron. Jade was obviously very worried.

"That tape..." Ron started. Jade just shook her head.

"He made her do things she didn't want to do... and recorded it. I don't want to talk about it any more."

Ron understood.

"Sli, you stay with Jade. Keep her company. I'll stay with our singer."

Jade looks up at Tom.

"I'm proud of her. Wanting to go through with the show. I don't think I would be able to if I was her in her shoes."

Tom offers Jade a smile. "She's quite something."

Jade returns his smile. "That, she is."

Ron escorts Jade to the stage and Tom waits patiently for Rachael to come out. As soon as the door opens his breath catches in his throat. She had chosen a sparkly number for the opening of the show. Her make up matches the blues and whites of her dress. The skirt brushing her knees in a delicate manner.

She looked pretty. Very pretty.

"I'm ready if you are?" She says.

"Of course," he mutters, still a little taken back by her appearance.

The two make their way to the stage. The band hype up the audience and Rachael walks out after Mav calls her name. Tom watches as she becomes a bright confidant soul in front of everyone.

She won't let her fans see her fear.

As she sings, Tom feels himself hanging onto every word. Her voice is one the most beautiful sounds in the world. He is sure of it. Before taking this job, he didn't really know who she was. It wasn't his job to know his clients, just to protect them from anything that may happen.

Rachael is different. He wanted to know her. He wanted to look after her. Protect her from the evil which wishes to break her all over again.

The song draws to an end and the audience shout her name. She smiles. She's at home when she's singing for them.

The show is a success. Nothing happens. No one interrupts the show. It goes smoothly. Tom accompanies Rachael for her costume change, and everything is just as the previous shows had been.

Rachael was starting to feel comfortable again.

When the show ended, Rachael, Tom, Jade, and Ron all go down the the dressing room. Jade stays with Rachael as she changes, and the both guards remain outside.

"Are you going to be okay getting to the hotel?" Jade asks.

"Tom is taking me."

Jade smiles.

"What?"

"Tom. You and your bodyguard seem close," Jade chuckles.

"It's not like that... he's just nice."

Jade gives her friend a doubting look.

"He is! It's just a bonus..."

"What is?" Jade asks, wanting to know what it going on know that head.

"That he's handsome."

Jade laughs softly. "Are you falling for your bodyguard?"

"What! Of course not!"

Though even Rachael didn't completely believe that. Would it be so bad to have a crush on the man hired to protect you?

Outside, the bodyguards were having a similar conversation.

"Are you sure about this job?" Ron asks his leader. He has never doubted Kazansky before, but this job was slowly becoming more than they signed up for.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean, you seem pretty invested in this job. Aren't you the one to tell us not to let personal feelings get in the way?"

Tom glances at Ron. "There are no feelings involved."

Obviously Kerner doesn't believe this.

"I've seen the way you look at her when she sings, Ice. You can't fool me."

The door to the dressing room opens at that moment and the girls come out. Kerner continues to side eye his friend, but Kazansky has gone back into professional mode.

"Let's go," Rachael says.

Tom nods and leads the way. Ron stays with Jade. Kazansky promised to call Kerner later, to assure both him and Jade that they were okay.

Kazansky opens the car door for Rachael and she climbs in, thanking him with a smile. He doesn't react, just gets into the drivers seat. However, his heart is racing. That smile. That beautiful smile.

Focusing back on the road, Kazansky drives off, intending to get Dragon to her hotel.

The radio plays. Rachael looks out of the window at the dark streets. It's late now. All her fans will be going back to where they are staying, hoping to sleep after a night of excitement. She smiles at the thought.

Her eyes then glance toward her driver. The image of him asleep in that chair comes to mind again.

Handsome.

He looks up into the rear view mirror and she looks away quickly. She can't hide her smile though. He catches sight of it and smile as he turns his eyes back to the road.

How did he get so lucky to guard such a beautiful woman?

He wonders if perhaps had he not been hired to guard her, would something more have transpired between them. Then again, he only met her because he was hired to guard her. He doubts they would have met otherwise.

Still, he is glad they did.

They are almost at the hotel when things take a turn for the worst. Rachael leans forward slightly, asking Tom to turn up the radio. They're playing one of her songs! He reaches for the dial, but barely touches it when a vehicle collides into theirs.

Everything happens quickly.

The car spins out. Tom hears Rachael scream in the back, but the impact of the crash makes him dazed. There is silence as people gather to see what happened. Someone calls for an ambulance.

Tom blinks his eyes quickly. He's alive and mostly unharmed. However, he did hit head. He ignores the pain though. His immediate thoughts turn to Rachael in the back. He ignores the calls of pedestrians who want to help and un-buckles his belt. He turns sharply and finds Rachael with her head lulled forward.

"Rachael?"

No response.

"Rachael!"

Tom gets out of the car and hurries to open her side in the back. Luckily it was the other side that took most of the damage. He cradled Rachael gently, looking over her wounds. She also hit her head, a bit worse off than him, but she would be okay.

Tom glances up at the other car.

The driver of the other car is also alive. He looks up in shock and sees Kazansky. The look Tom gives him has the colour leaving the other man's face.

It clicks that Ice has seen this man before, briefly. In the hotel restaurant that one morning.

Coincidence? Not likely.

Tom's priority is Rachael. He removes her seatbelt and picks her up gently, removing her from the car. People give him space as he lays her down in his lap on the road. He holds her close.

Sirens can be heard in the distance. The ambulance is coming.

Tom takes out his phone and calls Ron.

He picks up after two rings.

"Sli, there's been an accident."

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[mr-entj]

i am an intj and 18, it's my second year in uni and my major is overall promising (engineering with focus on nano, 3d and powder technologies (not going in depth with this one)). after graduating i'll be able to work in various fields, from medicine to metallurgy. anyways, the problem is that the way most my subject are being taught is unbelievably boring (not good for my adhd) plus i missed out on some of them (high math and physics mostly) due to stress and overall depressed mood (war in my country + no friends + really tough family situation abuse etc). now, even though i missed out, i know that lots of people did the same and still graduated and now have high paying jobs, and therefore i can too, but i am really anxious about not understanding some of new material due to lacunas in my knowledge. i plan to catch up on some of it during summer but i am pretty sure that till june all my determination will evaporate, and i will continue resenting my choice of major (originally wanted to choose linguistics but didn't work out). another thing is that i don't want to be doing one thing my whole life, i want to be well versed in multiple unrelated fields (from writing and acting and art to history social studies linguistics and architecture). my question is, how to find that spark/motivation again? how to combine all the things i am interested in so i learn a bit of each and when should i do that, now or later in life? i suppose if i graduate and get a good job i can go back to learning again in free time. i also want to get out of this house as soon as possible, so i need to either really put efforts into successfully graduating or start looking for part time jobs to save up money (i doubt i will be able to do both at once). one idea i had for part time is to start an etsy shop as i have original ideas and means to execute them (but there is a risk of failing which i am perhaps more afraid of than i should be).

may you please give me an advice on my situation? sorry if this ask is too messy and thank you for reading it

For starters, I'd rethink your MBTI type. I'm confident you're not an INTJ and I wouldn't use any INTJ descriptions to guide your thought process. Based on your writing style, I'd look closer at descriptions of INTPs and INFPs.

Next, there's a framework I use to break down problems and solve them. It can be applied to basically everything in life. For your situation, it looks something like this:

Step 1: Define. What are the goals you want to achieve? Do you want to move out? Do you want to graduate college? Do you want to study something that interests you? What are the end goals? What does your ideal life look like in a few years at the point where you can breathe easily?

Step 2: Prioritize. Of the goals you've defined, which are most important? Example: #1 priority is to graduate college, #2 priority is to be financially independent and move out, #3 is to study something that interests you.

Step 3: Plan. For priority #1, what are all the things you need to do to graduate college? Are there faster ways to graduate and get a great paying job? Do research on which classes to take, community college credits, etc. Attach timelines to them.

Step 4: Execute. Do it. Self-explanatory. What did you learn from carrying out your plan? What worked and didn't work? Are there any new and exciting insights you know now that you didn't know before?

Step 5: Measure. Are you happy? Did achieving your goals bring you the life you wanted? If not, go back to step 1 and restart the process. Iterate until you get it right.

Unless your family is rich, I'd argue that college isn't for learning, college is a financial commitment in exchange for skills training, credential gathering, and network building to get a job with a positive return on investment (ROI). If you want to learn-- go to a library. You can learn without college. Go on YouTube, go on Google, go on ChatGPT, etc. and learn for free.

Know your priorities and execute based on the most important ones.

[deadmandairyland]

A few weeks ago I made a post about some ideas I had for my multi-fandom crossover (though mostly Danganronpa) fic idea The Fog Cutters (which I had started at one point on AO3 but I wasn't happy with how it was going so it's on indefinite hiatus and I hope to restart it from scratch eventually), but I deleted it because I didn't like how I worded the post (I felt like it came off kinda fanpol-y at some points which wasn't my intention, and also there was at least one hot take that I felt I could've worded better), and also I said that these ideas were things I was considering headcanoning for Danganronpa as a whole when in hindsight I don't think I'm invested in these ideas enough to consider them actual headcanons that I have for the series, and also-also... no one seemed to notice it anyway. But I'd like to give it another go because I do still want to share these ideas and maybe share some more ideas that I didn't mention before as well? I'll put them under the cut so if you don't care, or if you are interested in the fic idea but don't want to get spoiled in case any of this stuff ends up in the fic, you can just skip it.

First thing's first: I'm actually making bios for the characters appearing in the fic, mostly to help keep things consistent because of how much thought I'm putting in this one fic idea, but also because it's fun. And I'm wondering if I should post these somewhere? Either on AO3 or on here? And if I post it on here, should I make a sideblog for that (and for The Fog Cutters stuff in general)? If anyone would like to see that, let me know!

But for now, I'll first start with the ideas I mentioned in that original post:

Chihiro and Chiaki are cousins.

This one is actually a fairly common headcanon I've been seeing lately, and I'm kinda on the fence on it for Danganronpa in general, but I like the idea enough that I would like to go that route for at least The Fog Cutters. And part of the reason why I'm interested in going this direction with the fic is because of this next idea:

Chihiro and Chiaki's mothers are identical twins.

This idea mostly came from the fact that, before Chiaki was retconned into being a real person and was still just an AI Chihiro created, there was concept art from Ultra Despair Girls that suggested that Chiaki's design in-universe might have been based on Chihiro's mother. (Basically Chihiro's mother looks like Chiaki when her hair is down and her glasses are removed, in case you haven't seen the concept art for her.) And personally I think this is a better idea than an earlier idea I had where Chiaki was a clone of Chihiro's mother. Don't ask me how that would work or why that would have been a thing.

I even came up with names for Chihiro and Chiaki's mothers, which is something that I deliberately avoided doing in Despair Imitator because I figured the moment I gave Chihiro's mother a name (which, for the record, I've never been super confident in, coming up with names for characters I'm happy with) Kodaka would make a tweet saying "By the way, Chihiro's mom's name is Blahblahblah." Well, fuck it. I'm doing it now. So I figured I'd continue the theme naming with the whole "Chi"/"Thousand" thing, so I gave them the names Chiharu and Chinatsu respectively. Not only do their names kinda work with their respective families ("Chiharu" and "Chihiro" sounding similar, and "Chinatsu" and "Nanami" both having "na" in the names), but also it's a little funny because Chihiro actually kinda breaks the theme naming here. Like for some reason Chiharu decided to stick with the theme naming just enough to keep the "Chi" thing going, but not enough to go with the name "Chifuyu." Is there a story there? Could there be more world and character building that can come out of this? (The answer is yes; I'm considering having Chiaki be named in honor of a sibling the twins had that died young, and they have a still living sibling named Chifuyu. In other words, Chiharu and Chinatsu's parents were super into the "thousand seasons" theme naming, and the twins just kept the "thousand" part.)

The Fujisaki family line (and possibly Chihiro's mother's family line as well) were originally from Nagasaki.

This is where it gets a little crazy. I wasn't expecting to come up with ideas for a character's full-on ancestral history, but then again this is Chihiro and I've been a Chihiro stan for pretty much as long as I've been a Danganronpa fan, so this isn't really all that surprising.

Anyway, the idea largely stemmed from both the Fujisakis being an incredibly intelligent family, and the fact that Chihiro's old high school had "St." in the name, suggesting it's a Christian (likely Catholic) school (which could also explain Chihiro's dialogues about the concept of souls and Chihiro's discomfort with the idea of an always present, all-knowing god). Nagasaki has historically played a big role in the presence of Christianity in Japan, as well as its persecution during the Edo period. Also during the Edo period, Nagasaki was one of the few places in Japan that traded with other countries, and the only place that traded with China and the Dutch, which resulted in Japanese scholars of the time moving to that area to learn more about the outside world (basically during that time if you were Japanese and for whatever reason you wanted to know just what in the fuck was going on in Europe at that time, Nagasaki was where you had to go). A Christian heritage could also potentially explain why the Fujisaki family writes their name as "two unblooming (flowers)"; it could have been a show of humility. Granted, the out-of-universe explanation for this is probably just a joke about how Chihiro has no tits and it really isn't all that deep, but fuck it. It's fun coming up with in-universe reasons for this stuff.

Since (at least as far as I'm aware) Chihiro and Taichi don't have speech patterns or mannerisms that suggest they are from the Nagasaki region, presumably at some point their ancestors moved to somewhere near Tokyo. Given what would unfortunately eventually happen to Nagasaki, I have a pretty good idea of when that likely would have happened too.

Hina had/has unrequited feelings for Sakura.

Taking a break from the Fujisakis for now, this was the last thing I mentioned in the old post. In fact this was the hot take I was concerned about, particularly the part where I suggested making Sakura *le gasp* straight??? Which is a hill I'm not willing to die on, especially during pride month, so we'll just leave Sakura's sexuality ambiguous (though given that pretty much everyone in my fic is bisexual unless stated otherwise, making Sakura straight would, funny enough, actually make the cast more diverse; plus, think about all the stereotypes we'd be dismantling if Sakura was the one confirmed cishet person in the cast). But in case you're wondering, this idea largely stemmed from the following observations:

Hina seems way more into Sakura than Sakura is into Hina. Ignoring for a moment that Sakura has a boyfriend (something the fandom already does on a regular basis anyway), the way Sakura speaks to and talks about Hina is way different from how Hina speaks to and talks about Sakura. Even looking at chapter four, Hina is going to all these lengths to help or defend Sakura, and even tries to commit murder-suicide to avenge her, and yet Sakura in her suicide note is just like "You are my best friend," like talk about friendzoned, fuck. Also, in School Mode, if Makoto asks Sakura about Hina, Sakura basically immediately accuses Makoto of being a nastly little lesbian porn addicted gooner bitch. ...Okay, I'm exaggerating for comedic effect, but she does basically accuse him of having some kind of girl-on-girl fantasy about them. But if Makoto asks Hina about Sakura, Hina immediately glows up and is like "Isn't Sakura the best? She's the fucking best!" Like she was just waiting to hype Sakura up to somebody. Honestly starting to feel a little bad for Hina here, not gonna lie.

I mentioned this already in the first bullet point but... yeah, Sakura has a boyfriend. I mean granted he's basically dying and would probably be dead by the time my fic takes place (most of the DR cast is 23-25 years old in my fic), but still, we tend to forget this a lot. Again, she could be bisexual (and no, I'm not convinced it's a comphet situation either; he was literally her Captive), so this point isn't nearly as important as the other two. But I think it's still worth mentioning.

I don't think I've ever seen this dynamic for Hina and Sakura... ever. Either they're both inexplicably straight (which... no, I don't care how many hoops you have to jump through, there is no fucking way Hina is straight) or they're already fucking. It's always one or the other. There is no in-between. Well I reject this reality. There is untapped potential here. Some good old fashioned quality angst just waiting to be written.

This next idea was briefly alluded to in the original post, but it wasn't really a major point and I didn't really go into much detail on it in the original post, so I'm viewing this as the first new idea on the list:

Makoto's (Un?)Lucky Love Life Registered Trademark

Heavy emphasis on the "Un" being in parentheses and having a question mark after it because can you really consider yourself unlucky if you're dating Hina?

All joking aside, I put a hilarious amount of thought into Makoto's love life just to explain why he's dating Hina in the story, because for some reason I had a feeling someone would question it at some point because some fans are like that. So here's a list for that too:

Makoto and Sayaka reunited at Hope's Peak Academy, and things play out largely the same as their FTEs in the game. But then reality sets in and Sayaka, being an idol who will do anything to keep that dream alive, basically can't date Makoto because idol industry bullshit. So yeah, she likes him, but her career comes first. They part on good terms.

Haven't decided yet if Mukuro (and Junko for that matter) ever went to Hope's Peak in this universe, so we'll gloss over that for now. But even if they did, I don't think Mukuro would have acted on her crush.

Mutual feelings between Makoto and Hina and Chihiro were had at some point during their time at Hope's Peak but a constant string of insecurities, other crushes, and that whole "not wanting to ruin their friendships" thing kept them from knowing that the other two felt the same way, so nothing really happens there... at least not between these three. Sometimes foreshadowing is relatively obvious

Kyoko sees potential in Makoto as a detective and also he reminds her of Yui and he's also kinda cute so there's that and the two end up working together as detective and apprentice, and they eventually start dating. This relationship actually continues past Hope's Peak for some time, but sadly it doesn't last, as Kyoko hasn't fully gotten over what happened to Yui and is genuinely afraid of that happening all over again with Makoto. So they are basically left with two options: stay in a relationship but be separated for long periods of time as Kyoko does regular detective work while Makoto stays out of the picture alone, or break up and save them both the potential heartache of losing their romantic partner while on a case. They end up choosing option two, and they continue to work together.

Sometime after this breakup, Makoto reconnects with Hina (preferably at the Olympics when Hina wins the gold, because I just think that would be a neat scene), they hit it off, and they start dating.

Makoto moving into Chihiro's apartment also happens after Makoto and Kyoko break up, but that's probably not going to be relevant. ...Maybe. ...Depends on if I go the poly route.

Here on out are ideas I'd like to share that I haven't fully fleshed out yet, so they will just be in bullet points.

As mentioned briefly earlier, Kyoko never got over Yui's death. Out of literally everything else in this post, this one is guaranteed to be in the fic the most. It will come up. That's not a threat; it's a promise.

Kyoko's maternal grandfather never liked Jin and was complicit in backing up Fuhito's lie that Jin abandoned Kyoko (likely canon as well, considering how the guy posing as him in DRK acts).

Byakuya comes out as trans and goes by the Polaris P. Polanski identity (though this is partially to make up for me portraying Chihiro and Persona 4's Naoto as cisgender because I know that can be a sore spot for some fans of these two series, I also think the Polaris identity is kinda interesting and in general the idea makes me want to actually write something for Byakuya, so I consider this a net positive).

I also plan to include Deadman Wonderland's resident trans queen and best girl candidate (when your competition includes Makina, Kasuga, and Karako it's hard to choose a best girl) Chaplin Sukegawa at some point. And unlike the Polaris idea, this one is not here to make up for cis Chihiro and Naoto whatsoever, but instead because I've always wanted to write something for one of the best characters in the Deadman Wonderland manga, who, for the record, totally should've been in the anime, goddammit! We were robbed! Robbed, I say! ...And yes, this will be ending!Chaplin too: looking good and directing plays and shit. Living her dreams and being happy, hell yeah.

If anyone reading this is still concerned about Chihiro and Naoto, they are both trans allies and I want to make that clear in the fic too. I'm even considering slightly tweaking Chihiro's backstory a bit to suggest that Chihiro presenting as a girl was partially due to Chihiro considering the possibility he might be a trans girl, though the bullying will still factor in and presenting as a girl ends up giving Chihiro dysphoria. But effectively walking a mile in trans people's shoes gives Chihiro a better understanding of their struggles and plays a big role in him becoming an open trans ally. As for Naoto, she doesn't need a backstory, she's just cool like that.

Despite all the crazy claims and shit talking that Miu says, Chihiro is the only one in their group chat (which, if you haven't read my first attempt at this fic, includes Pidge from Voltron: Legendary Defender and Futaba from Persona 5, both of whom are 21 in the fic, though this age lift is mostly to portray them as being legally allowed to drink) who is not a virgin. He doesn't like to talk about it. Spoilers, especially for those of you who are worried about this: he lost it to Mondo during their Hope's Peak days. It was consensual; it's more what happens to their relationship afterwards that's the issue for Chihiro. But that's a story for another time.

This is all for now. Probably more than I should be sharing, honestly, but I don't even know how much of this will end up in the fic, so... maybe not spoilers? But hopefully spoilers. Hopefully as in hopefully I don't pull a World of Remnant and leave this all in outside material and also hopefully I actually feel confident enough to write this someday. But for now, this is it. I hope somebody out there likes it. I hope it doesn't result in any discourse because I'm terrible at it and also not in the mood. Lots of hoping in this post, I hope Monokuma doesn't notice.

I didn't tag the old post (which is probably part of the reason why no one noticed it) but I am tagging this one. Feedback is more than welcome but please keep things constructive! Thank you and I hope you all continue to have a wonderful Pride Month, even if you're just an ally! Take care.

[nrc-broadcasting]

Hello Yuu,

It's Sahil again.

I'm here to ask a few more questions and also answer how I became housewarden.

First, I'll ask my questions.

I think you might have some experience with a certain vacationing headmage, but I've sent him a letter with my concerns for how he keeps transferring out the rare female students - or even some fem-leaning afab students - out of Night Raven to different schools. It doesn't seem to be with their permission - they don't seem to be unwell, so there's some good part to it (I think.... .) So how should I bring it up the the staff (because Professor Crewel will kick his ass and I will film it). He even tried to transfer me out when Kalim found out I was a girl - and that was a whole sh*tshow... .

I also wanted to ask - how do you tell a girl you're fake dating that you like her? I've been fake dating some one I would say is a sort of rival and friend of mine, but I've realized I like her, but I don't know how she feels about me - just that she's sapphic like me.

Now for the housewarden story. You might not know this, but as Kalim's personal bodyguard, I'm quite tough.

I challenged Malleus to a duel for the housewarden position a few months after the S.T.Y.X. incident and asked if we could use our physical strength as well - he agreed. I also have a pretty deadly UM - it's similar to King's Roar, but simply put I can break ...things.. and turn it to treasure. So it was a close match and I might have lost, but physical fighting was alowwed and Malleus put a magic limiting spell on me that I reflected, so --

Long story short, I won just barely and we were both in the infirmary for about a week or so. As for how we get along, Malleus is quite kind to me and chivalrous in general - I guess I'd call it that, but he thought I was a guy all through our duel until I corrected him with my pronouns - so, we're fine. He never made fun of me for being a tiger shifter.

I also wanted to say thank you for the previous response and tell you the conversatio that me and Jamil had with Kalim worked well - but we just shared the bare bones. I don't think I'll be ready to tell him everything anytime soon... .

Anyway, I'm sorry for how long this response is. I hope you're having a good day, Yuu.

…Can I Ask You A Question

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Okay, at this point I’m already too invested in Sahil’s story, so if it’s fine with you, anon, if you ever write/have written anything about Sahil, can I please get tagged? Only if you’re okay with revealing yourself, that is! But please, do consider, I find it very interesting, so cheers to your creativity! Anyways, wrote this at school so bare with me, I don’t want my phone confiscated.

Open. Close.

Another attempt to say something, but they can’t seem to find the words.

That was all Yuu’s mouth did.

“Uh,” Yuu stuttered, scratching their head at the length of this particular message.

“Where to start, where to start…” They mumble, their voice almost drowned out by Grim’s loud purring as he sits in Yuu’s lap as they pet him.

They rest their elbow on the table, planting their head in their hand.

“For, uh. Easier distinction, let’s take this message and separate it into parts. I’ll verbally say when we move onto the next thing.” They waved their hand in contemplation, still processing everything.

A cough, the muffled sound of Yuu shifting in their seat to sit up straight.

“Alright. Here we go: let’s address the whole Crowley situation.” They insert the confidence back into their voice and push away the fog of disorientation that lingered before.

“I’ll help you on that, physically. Drag him back from wherever he is right now. We all know he’s kind of a meathead guy.” Yuu sighed, hand moving to their head again as they feel the familiar migraine that always accompanies the very mention of the ‘gracious’ Headmaster.

“Let the people who were transferred out know about this, then bring them with you when you confront him. If they’re upset about it, of course. It’s fine if they don’t mind.” Crystal clear, the plan starts formulating in their head.

“As you know, I can and will be a petty person, so to take this a little further, summon the staff and the other housewardens to witness your confrontation. Then you can see what they think about it.”

“Riddle would be perplexed by it; Leona, as he comes from Sunset Savana, will not tolerate such behavior towards women. Azul is, well…probably upset at such discrimination. Kalim just won’t agree, Vil is quite feminine himself, NRC wouldn’t want to lose such a high profile student, would they?” An innocent tilt of their head.

“Idia probably won’t have any opinion, but Malleus? He seems to respect you, much more than he probably ever will respect the headmaster.” They rambled.

“What I’m saying is, you’ve already got him outnumbered. All you have to do is bring it up and let sh-t go down.” A dark chuckle.

“Anyways, I’ll be there myself. Who knows, maybe I can blackmail a pay raise out of him.” They shrug.

“If they were chosen by the mirror, what reason does the headmaster have to transfer them out? They should only be transferred out when they give confirmation that yes, they do want out. Otherwise that’s just dabbling in someone else’s personal affairs.” Yuu says.

“Now,” they once again read the message and unconsciously scratch their head.

“Y’all do realize I’m single as a f-cking rock, right? But despite that, let me try to help you unfortunate souls.” They joke.

“Moving on, let’s address the fake dating thing.”

“Plan a date first? She won’t think much of it because you are ‘fake dating.’” They blink at the lights as they flicker.

“Then just tell her. Be straight forward. Hinting at it won’t do anything.”

“If she agreed to pretend to date you, you must be someone she’d be fine with as a partner. Being rivals don’t necessarily mean you have to hate each other, it’s just that you recognize each other’s skills and respect that.” They say knowingly.

“And you’re welcome, glad everything worked out between you, Kalim, and Jamil.” They give a little smile.

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Our fairytale has come to an end.

[smartzelda]

For the Ship Ask Game!!!!!

Any thoughts on Rivalshipping?

If you want something more on the rarepair side I got Jeershipping (Joey/Valon)? 😁😁😁

Okay Rivalshipping first

I? I love them?

Okay so I didn't always get this ship. Really my love for them began when I broke down and started enjoying prideshipping along with puzzleshipping, and then I found out what flareshipping was.

And so I took a chance on it and

What actually probably was my gateway was seeing Takahashi's post dsod art piece of them playing the game Yugi creates

I'll explain

So the reason I didn't really think about it or care for it much for a while is because I couldn't draw threads between them. I just couldn't really be all that interested (didn't think I could be anyways)

But then I thought about the state of things post dsod and the art piece and I went through the tag just to see art and ship moments and

The specific dynamic that not only got me to seriously consider shipping them, but also got me obsessed with said dynamic, was the idea of them both bonding over Atem after dsod

I love that shit. I love when two characters who didn't really necessarily care about each other or as much as another person were both obsessed with/really close with/really liked the same person, and now that person's gone, and they have to deal with it, so they might as well confide in each other about it. And so I just became enthralled with the idea of them working together and getting closer and just breaking down walls and confiding in each other over Atem and then just

Coming to really care about each other more than before

Now of course that being said, after actually getting invested in this ship, I realized the error of my ways in how I interpreted canon, which means that I was wrong about there being nothing there between them

They're so interesting to me now idk I'm tired I can no longer explain this all but I'm rattling the bars of my enclosure there is so much potential even when Atem isn't involved. And they have the potential for so many different dynamics too.

Also, final side note, at first I read one of those squares like "they’re fucking the same person" as in "the people in this ship are practically the same person". In this specific case I will clarify that I marked this box for them specifically in "in more than one case to me Yugi and Kaiba could be performing le act of sexual intimacy with the same person because that would be on brand"

ㅤ

Ooooo

Oooooooooooooooo

THEY HAVE SOMETHING GOING ON OKAY

Like you don't just fight over the same person and get a little bit fixated and then have like a 4 parter duel ending in what’s practically hand to hand combat with

Idk it's been so long since I watched season 4 but like a year or so ago when I surfed yugioh ship tags I took a chance on this one and had flashbacks to the anime and anyways

I love them

I think they deserve to have an unhealthy sort of fixation on each other (Valon mostly) and also get to be stupid together

I think in a highly specific situation where things were different and Valon fell for Joey he could probably just overwhelm Joey in kind of a sweet way with feelings idk I love when Joey gets love

No no wait ammendment I think Valon could start out cringeboy flirting and Joey being like "Okay okay get serious I'm sure the girls fall for the act and the accent" or whatever

But to me, as one of those people himself, Joey just collects people who would do anything for him. So I think in this highly specific situation I made up, when Valon is just all dedicated and in love when the time comes I think Joey would actually respect him a bit more while being eh I guess...Idk I'd like to think that when people Joey cares about fight for him as much as he would for them it just kind of blows him away a bit. So yes.

[jlilycorbie]

On Sunday, I went roller skating.

My silliest wish for years now has been to put wheels on my fat, hypermobile, arthritic self. Like that could go badly, right? Investing in skates and pads definitely seemed like an expensive way to get a trip to the ER (which is, itself, prohibitively expensive).

But it turns out there's a skating rink in my town, and it hosts a weekly adult skate. Price of admission includes skate rental.

So I went. And it went well!

Well, not in a 'how did I do with wheels strapped to me feet' kind of way. I could skate ok (never well) back in high school, but high school was...a long time ago now. Turns out roller skating does not come back to you the way riding a bike does. I made very, very slow rounds of the rink, clinging to the wall for dear life the whole time.

But!

People were so nice!

Most people ignored me, which is honestly ideal, but a few people were sweet and encouraging. After my third round of the rink, I sat to rest, and someone else struggling a bit came out and I offered space by me on the bench, and we ended up spending most of the evening sitting here, talking about horror movies. We took one last round together before the place closed down.

I think most of the other people there could have made four rounds during a single one of mine, easy. But whatever. I did it. I didn't fall. I didn't get hurt. I talked to another person until I went hoarse.

On Friday, I found a local (very queer) business that sells roller skates, and I thought hey, if I do well on Sunday, I could come back here to buy skates! I wouldn't have to risk ordering online, and I could support a local business. Perfect!

It's about a half mile from my house, and parking there is a nightmare that badly sets off my anxiety, so if I got there, I walk. And after I got home on Sunday, I thought about buying skates and if it would be worth it when I'm hilariously terrible at it.

No way to learn without doing, though, right?

So I thought how about if I keep at it, I can buy my own skates if and when I'm confident enough on them that I can walk to that business, buy a pair, and skate home. I definitely don't want to carry roller skates for half a mile, after all.

Now I'm debating really hard if I want to go back to the rink at all. I could go tonight. It's a general skating session, so it will probably be much more crowded.

And also...

When I was in college, I decided to give publishing a real swing. This was before email or digital submissions, so that meant stamps and trips to the post office and such. And I took a swing at a particularly large publication with a very well known and loved editor.

And they rejected me, but! They sent that rejection on nice paper, on company letterhead. They said nice things about my story and suggested somewhere else I should submit. I was so happy. My favorite editor read and liked my story!

I did send it to the place they suggested, which also rejected me, that time with the usual form letter, and I went well, what did I expect? My favorite editor read and liked my story. I had succeeded. It was greedy to expect more.

I didn't even try to submit more work anywhere else for literal decades, because brains are ridiculous, and I'd accidentally flipped the 'success' switch and moved on.

But of course...considering how my more serious attempt at publishing went, maybe I should have ridden on those happy vibes for the rest of my life. I could have left writing in the 'success' part of my memories instead 'humiliating and complete failure.'

So now I'm looking at skating and I'm thinking hey, I sucked really bad, but I didn't fall or hurt myself. People were nice. I talked to someone and had a good time. It was a success! Who am I to ask for more?

Basically, I'm not sure if I'm going to go back. Maybe tonight? Maybe I'll wait until the next adult skate on Sunday?

But also, if I do go, and if I break my arm or something, I did tell me I should have been happy with a success and moved on.

[admirableadmiranda]

Oh, I saw your post about the reason why we read mdzs fanfic. And coincidentally I also saw your ErHa post about Chu Wanning. Somehow I thought, some people like reading mdzs fanfic to find angsty WWX with low self esteem and insecurity or whatever he was fanonically plagued with, which ironically are total opposite of Optimistic, confident, bighearted, High IQ and High EQ-Canon WWX.

I understand why people have preference for their type of literatures. But really, if you really want to read such angsty protagonist, why don't you just read a readily made low self esteem and insecure Protagonist, e.g, Chu Wanning of ErHa?? The true low self esteem protagonist in such novel is even more well written and perfectly produced rather than forcefully changed WWX in fanfic. That's what I can never understand😂

Because I, personally, if I were in the mood to read dogblood drama or Domineering CEO drama, etc, i'd rather find such stories on web novel platforms (NU for translated ones, or directly browsing at Jinjiang or Qidian)---rather than staining my eyes and also my mind by reading my beloved characters WangXian fanfic with the distorted traits other than their Canon traits.

Yes, I can very much see some fanon portrayals of MDZS characters that are much better done canonically in Erha, and Chu Wanning is my darling and I would love for him to get over that complete lack of self esteem with some good tlc, but also I love the way that it's set up and exists and you are right that sometimes fanon Wei Wuxian reads like flatter Chu Wanning.

Also probably the biggest reason why people bend Wei Wuxian into that rather than go with Chu Wanning is very simple; Erha does not have a wildly popular live action drama to go with it. (I know there's the one in progress, but that one might never get released and a lot of casual fans aren't going to know that) and it's a long book. It took me the better part of three weeks to read it and I'm a pretty fast reader. That's a lot of work for the payoff and not worth it to lots of people. I do get why they don't try to get into Erha if they're not more invested readers, but I think many of them would be happy if Erha got that drama released with characters much closer to the ones they want to write. They don't want to go digging through a bunch of books that might offer what they want when fanfic is already out there doing it for them, and as someone who more often goes into fandom for a break from reality, I can understand them.

I'll keep getting annoyed at their character assassination of my boy, but I can understand them.

I do hope that your links help people who might be looking for something new find something though! It is always nice to have particular itches scratched, but Wangxian can't do all of them and that's when you need a different type of story to meet your desires!

[thattimdrakeguy]

was it the new dc movie slate that got you down? :( but anyway, if dc comics aren't bringing you joy anymore then I think it's good choice to take a break. hopefully you'll get stuff you'll like again some day.

yeah, like the comics are just really awful, have been for years with very short periods of quality that it's getting pointless to try and even wait it out

surrounding myself with people that somehow manage to like the stuff isn't great on the confidence or mind, because i'm literally putting myself in a place i'll get myself frustrated

but i was still like "AY, LOOK, I STILL GOT THE MOVIES"

but what they got planned? fuck that

I'm not watching the Flash, it has Ezra Miller. I'm not watching Aquaman it has Amber Heard. The Authority? Heard it was a good comic, but I'm just plain not going to have the same interest I had in a Guardians of the Galaxy or even The Suicide Squad.

Keeping some of the actors but getting rid of Henry Cavill? Fuck that. He's the only one I'd want to keep since Batfleck is done beyond cameos.

and i am certainly not watching The Brave And The Bold. I don't give a single living shit it might have the other Bat-Family members in it. What is the fucking point if they're there but we skip past the stories that'd be worth adapting. it's just literally fucking fan service, and the fact they're willing to skip so much only means they probably don't care about what makes them then, making it even less worth it

but i know the fandom will eat it up, so i'm certainly not going to be checking the tags again at least for a long time

i've already been decently far away from dc. most of my queue is months, maybe even over a year old actually. it literally posts one thing a day because that's the lowest i can set it. i actually wanted the queue to stop entirely when i did that, but i couldn't

sick of DC being just people's weird fan fictions. and i know technically every writer after the first is that. but their used to be some kind of standards that made it worth paying for

why should i pay for something that is half assed just in it's design?

been watching and reading about Ben 10 instead, 'cause I loved it as a kid and it's good nostalgia, and i already know i like it. and i'll probably start reading Ultimate Spider-Man, maybe I'll post about that stuff who knows

A person can only live off of old and sometimes dated comics for so long, especially with a fandom that pats itself on the back for being so nice, despite being filled with some of the most obnoxiously dense people that apparently have no way of detecting how obnoxious they're being

Lot of lovely people in the fandom don't get me wrong, but they're only getting fewer and far between, and I'm just not someone who can switch their opinions just to get the praise of a bunch of strangers i don't know

but will i like it again some day? very unlikely. everything is only going to get worse which it has been for years

i'm tired of stupid fucking sitcom bat-family

i liked the characters 'cause they were deep, layered, complex, and stood out. that isn't even remotely the case anymore

and DC films being James Gunn "what ever the fuck i want" universe was depressing. wasn't even properly mad. i didn't get red faced, i didn't feel this overwhelming sense of anger 'cause i no longer had the movies to look forward to. i was just disappointed, because 'Wow, i wasted my time being invested in this stuff even once'

the negatives of this experience of mine outweigh the positives

Ben 10 Omniverse is underrated

[just-some-random-blogger]

good morning, love<з i'll try to use 1 (one) message to answer you! first of all!! you made me cry!!! again!!! only with your sweetness!! it's good to know i give you some inspiration. absolutely agree! native english speakers should be grateful we even learn their language! like lol half of the world know at least 2 languages and you? what can you do? accuse me of not using a comma? can u use them in my mother tongue? you'll piss your pants if you see them. sorry, but you make me SO confident TT you really are my comfort person in the internet. i'm SORRY i didn't mean to make you feel like a kid with all this parallelism?? i'm sooo sorry girl. i don't even know why i'd written it?? i believe you know (i'm rereading and i'd typed 'not' instead of 'know'. why???) it. i'm just.. yes.. sorry... 'BIG BRAIN AND BIG BRAIN RECOGNIZE EACH OTHER' sister i love your brain TT our alliance is so big brained we're gonna RIOT. i'd really try not to break your heart. make no promises, though. i've said i have no siblings so i have no clue how it works. you lied to me TT but ok i love you. good for your older brother ig my measured height changes from time to time but like it's 178 cm - 176 cm - 178 cm (5'9''-5'10'')?? my ass always stands (lays?) in the way of measuring. i can't stand straight and press my back to the surface (wall or this measuring shit). it's ridiculous but it's so SAD. and thank you for all your kind wards <з i really appreciate not only your support but advices too! thank you sm!! i know you're the hottest-hottest really hot hottie-cutie and glad you know it too! 'the day they get married for real for with the whole televised wedding shebang would be the conclusion of this whole modern au' OMG i hope it's a promise. 'this is want you meant about taming' what did you mean?!?!? like... my big brain may be a bit slow at times... no really what did YOU mean? i consider myself feminist too and i just agree with every word of what you've written about it. if he wasn't matt smith i'd be the first one to insult the shit out of him. but that very crush from the childhood... [SEND ALL MY LOVE LOVE LOVE BACK] 'us sharing a one brain cell for real' a really big and genius cell!!!! 'FUCK ANXIOUSNESS IT BELONGS IN THE TRASH' yes girl!! throw it away!!! you deserve better!!! 'I WANT TO KEEP YOU IN MY POCKET' PLS GIRL i want it too TT take me away from this cruel world TT 'I LOVE HEAD PATS AND HUGS' and i love YOU a talented hottie-cutie!! you give me so much love i feel bad for not replying it all TT i loveLOVELOVE you and our big brain cell thank you sm thank you for the explanation about fics!! if i struggle with something like that again i'll go to you, hope you don't mind) right now it's 0:27 in my timezone if you're ever interested. hope you sleep well)) what about aemond and aegon... YOU made them so... okok but i guess i have a couple of thoughts. personally, i'd tell them about all this magic thing, esp since they're connected in a way. i just totally don't see them in a romantic relationship with the reader. waiting for 2000 years just to choose another guy? plsss no i HATE this cliche i totally hate it. and if aemond is a really trustworthy person and he's related to the history? idk or maaaybe he somehow learns himself... all these lines reader said before/while/after the call, this obsession with that daemon and maybe some historic rumors about prince's mysterious death, a witch and his pretty wife... maybe he has his suspicions but is reeeally sceptical about it? aemond invests all this story. and aegon just tries to help him (bc cmon it's his fav customer) but somehow just disturbs his brother poor pretty boy. maybe they do stay friends. or maybe their argument is so big it concerns even vyseris. oh will reader tell them?? or is it gust their special bond.. yes of course and suddenly i have plenty of thought. i'll really try to take care! and not tace kare TT you!! you take care of yourself too!! tbh, i feel really more excited and motivated (?) after talking to you. you're my hottie-cutie angel! luv u<з

HELLO MODERN!DAEMON NONNIE

you can send me 13 million asks its fine 😡🥰

here's another love letter!!! <3

lol im honored that i keep making you cry HAHAHHA i am so sweet arent i but remember irl sugar is not good in unhealthily large does, not only will it affect your blood and fat, it also causes wrinkles long term T_T RIP

of course you give me inspiration!!! you and all my beloved anons mean so much to me!! im truly honored to all of you and to have your love letters as well <3 <3 <3

yeah native english speakers BOOO lol HAHHAHA nah its ok that you can speak one language but dont act all superior when you cant even speak your OWN language well //////: stfu.

like lol half of the world know at least 2 languages and you? what can you do? accuse me of not using a comma? can u use them in my mother tongue? you'll piss your pants if you see them.

ROAST EM ROAST EM ROAST EM HAHAHAHHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAH BUT YOURE SO RIGHT THOUGH AHHAHAHAHAH the whole grammar nazi wave was horrible and honestly stupid tbh /: I HAVE BEEN GUESSING SINCE OUR PREVIOUS MESSAGES WHERE YOU;RE FROM AND IM GUESSING ITS A SCANDANAVIAN COUNTRY OR A SLAVIC COUNTRY (i think slavic RANDOMLY THOUGHT OF BELARUS IALSFHASF ok maybe not so random cos i searched which countries are slavic HAHAHAHHA) AM I RIGHT AM I RIGHT (if youre not comfortable in saying you dont have to respond to this part

sorry, but you make me SO confident TT you really are my comfort person in the internet.

iM SO HONORED AND TOUCHED AND PROUD OF MYSELF TO HAVE THAT EFFECT ON YOU THANK YOU LORD JESUS CHRIST IM DOING ONE THING RIGHT but i hope im not inadvertently making you mean T_T im not mean right? just really intense HAHAHHAHAH and I AM SO ABSOLUTELY HUMBLED THAT IM YOUR COMFORT PERSON ON THE INTERNET T_T this is peak i will never recover or get over this

i'm SORRY i didn't mean to make you feel like a kid with all this parallelism?? i'm sooo sorry girl. i don't even know why i'd written it?? i believe you know (i'm rereading and i'd typed 'not' instead of 'know'. why???) it. i'm just.. yes.. sorry...

STOP APOLOGIZING 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬 YOU DID NOTHING WRONG IT WAS JUST SUPER FUNNY HAHAAHH i appreciated the fact you clarified it to make me understand <3 <3 HHAHAAHHAH DONT FEEL BAD PLS I JUST THOUGHT IT WAS FUNNY AHHAHAH PLLLLSSSSS DONT APOLOGIZE FOR THINGS LIKE THIS I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and again down worry about your mistakes i understood just fine

'BIG BRAIN AND BIG BRAIN RECOGNIZE EACH OTHER' sister i love your brain TT our alliance is so big brained we're gonna RIOT.

SLAYYY BESTIE SLAYYYYY I LOVE YOUR BIG BRAIN TOO

i'd really try not to break your heart. make no promises, though.

TRY HARDER I WILL CRY AT YOU

i've said i have no siblings so i have no clue how it works. you lied to me TT but ok i love you. good for your older brother ig

T_T DID I LIE TO YOU I NEVER LIED TO YOU PLS I JUST SAID MY BROTHER CAN CHOKE aslfgalsfgasf ok i reread my statement its confusing im sorry. i meant i dont feel any need to get the approval of my brother. he can choke on his expectations of me ///: HAHA i hope thats clearer. you can be my honorary sibling <3 except i would never choke you

my measured height changes from time to time but like it's 178 cm - 176 cm - 178 cm (5'9''-5'10'')?? my ass always stands (lays?) in the way of measuring. i can't stand straight and press my back to the surface (wall or this measuring shit). it's ridiculous but it's so SAD.

;ASFASHF SO UR TELLING ME YOU HAVE HORRIBLE POSTURE ALSFHAS

YOU BETTER START STRAIGHTENING UP UR JUST LIKE MY YOUNGER SISTER WHO I TELL OFF SO MUCH FOR BEING SHAPED LIKE A CROISSANT ////: i forgot how tall i am, i think im 171 or 172 UPPIES UPPIES I WANT UPPIES

and thank you for all your kind wards <з i really appreciate not only your support but advices too! thank you sm!!

you deserve it i love you i love you so much

i know you're the hottest-hottest really hot hottie-cutie and glad you know it too!

'the day they get married for real for with the whole televised wedding shebang would be the conclusion of this whole modern au' OMG i hope it's a promise.

yeah i think the only way i could end this is with the wedding lol HAHAHHAH will i ever write it will will they ever have a wedding is the question HAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

'this is want you meant about taming' what did you mean?!?!? like... my big brain may be a bit slow at times... no really what did YOU mean?

LOL I DIDNT MEAN ANYTHING I WAS JUST CONFUSED OR IG UNSURE ABOUT WHAT *YOU* MEANT LOL HAHAHAAHHA

i consider myself feminist too and i just agree with every word of what you've written about it. if he wasn't matt smith i'd be the first one to insult the shit out of him. but that very crush from the childhood... [SEND ALL MY LOVE LOVE LOVE BACK]

SUCH A MOOD HAHAHHAHAHAHA

me @ matt smith ///: he's so corny for not falling in love with me ///: L

SENDING MY LOVE BACK TO YOU AGAIN LOL

'us sharing a one brain cell for real' a really big and genius cell!!!!

real.

'FUCK ANXIOUSNESS IT BELONGS IN THE TRASH' yes girl!! throw it away!!! you deserve better!!!

REAL. YOU DO TOO

'I WANT TO KEEP YOU IN MY POCKET' PLS GIRL i want it too TT take me away from this cruel world TT

my love i will always be here 4 you T_T

'I LOVE HEAD PATS AND HUGS' and i love YOU a talented hottie-cutie!! you give me so much love i feel bad for not replying it all TT i loveLOVELOVE you and our big brain cell thank you sm

T_T WHY WOULD YOU FEEL BAD FOR NOT REPLYING ONE OF US HAS TO STOP AND IT SURE AS HECK WONT BE ME. i have like a russia sized heart so i have so much love to give you can have like half of that my heart will just regenerate and make more love <3

thank you for the explanation about fics!! if i struggle with something like that again i'll go to you, hope you don't mind)

im glad i taught you smth about fics too HAHHAHAHAH lol im happy to teach you anything i know knowledge is useless if it not shared and developed. you can ask me anything you want lol and ill answer best as i can

right now it's 0:27 in my timezone if you're ever interested. hope you sleep well))

i tried to fingure out what country your from by using this information but it didnt work my calculations are wonky and i have no idea what time you sent this so 🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡 thank u i did sleep well YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN ASLEEP LIKE ME GAAAAAAAAHHHH

what about aemond and aegon... YOU made them so... okok but i guess i have a couple of thoughts. personally, i'd tell them about all this magic thing, esp since they're connected in a way.

interesting thought... i personally didn't think of doing this (or at least not yet cos i havent started writing p3 at all and i usually just see where i go from what i write vs what i have planned in my head) any particular reason why you want to tell them? i think it's pretty useless no? aemond might respect it since he's scholarly and still believes in magic, aegon might not and if he sees an opportunity with reader he will take it. idk i honestly feel like reader is done with explanations of her life and magic she's been alive for 2000 years she's done with that shit AHAHHAH the only person she probably would even want to tell is daemon, and even then lol i think she'd be fine not to tell him because all the matters is she has him again

i just totally don't see them in a romantic relationship with the reader. waiting for 2000 years just to choose another guy? plsss no i HATE this cliche i totally hate it.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH I SEE I SEE NO ROMANCE FROM YOU FOR THEM IG HAHAHHAH i love me a good messy love triangle-square thing tho HAHAHAH also AHHAHAHA IT IS CLICHE BUT ITS SOOOOO GOOODDDD IMMA MAKE IT SO MESSY YOU DONT EVEN KNOW AHHAAHAHAHAHHA i'll give you a real spoiler, i'm going to add daemon's ex HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHA

and if aemond is a really trustworthy person and he's related to the history? idk or maaaybe he somehow learns himself... all these lines reader said before/while/after the call, this obsession with that daemon and maybe some historic rumors about prince's mysterious death, a witch and his pretty wife...

NOW THIS IS GOOD SOUP

WHEN I TELL YOU I WAS SO EXCITED TO READ THIS CAN I USE THIS IMMA USE THIS YOU AND YOUR BIG BRAIN CONTINUING WHAT I JUST SAID IN MY ANSWER ABOUT AEMOND OMG YOU AND ME FOR REAL SO GOOD TOGETHER LOVE LOVE LOVE

I CANNOT STRESS ENOUGH HOW GOOD THIS IS SO SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO GOOD LET ME KISS YOUR SEXY BRAIN SO GOOD SO GOOD SO SO SO SO SO GOOD

also ok to be fair in my head daemon is the only one that's really reincarnated ya feel, and it's kind of like a happy coincidence or ig an extension of the magic that everyone from that time are also alive as well. you get me? like if anything, daemon would be the only one who can 'remember' the past because he's the only one with the past life in my head, you get me??? lol at least that's what it is in my head, cos like aemond and aegon are not royal, so they can't be aemond and aegon from before, also theyre not viserys kids or at least not royal viseyrs who is daemon's brother

maybe he has his suspicions but is reeeally sceptical about it? aemond invests all this story. and aegon just tries to help him (bc cmon it's his fav customer) but somehow just disturbs his brother poor pretty boy.

thIS IS SO GOOD IM LITERALLY SAVING THESE IN MY NOTES I LOVE IT SO MUCH I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I KISS YOU ON THE LIPS AND ON THE BRAIN AND ON THE CHEEKS AND ON THE NOSE AND THE FOREHEAD YES YES YES

maybe they do stay friends. or maybe their argument is so big it concerns even vyseris. oh will reader tell them?? or is it gust their special bond..

omg viserys getting involved with them T_T RIP THE KING GETTING INVOLVED WOULD BE SO SCARY T_T idk if the reader will tbh as i said we'll seeeeeee

yes of course and suddenly i have plenty of thought.

send me all your thoughts im dyyyying to know them

i'll really try to take care! and not tace kare TT you!! you take care of yourself too!! tbh, i feel really more excited and motivated (?) after talking to you. you're my hottie-cutie angel! luv u<з

i'm honored to have that effect on you i will take care always you beTTER DO THE SAME!!! i love you I ACCEPT I WILL BE YOUR HOTTIE CUTIE ANGEL LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU

xxx

[deludedmarimo]

Yes, I will! I think I may have Frankenstein? I've been wanting to read that since my teacher said it was fantastic. I need to read more classics. That's a great attribute to have, just remember to also put yourself first! I hope your work has been productive, I really admire your hardworking and open-minded personality. Same, I think I have little to worry about next week. I'll still try to talk with you at least once a day. I expected that from you, are you very independent? I get that energy from you. It's still good to know you have someone to rely on. Yeah, obsession can change a lot in a person. I'm different when I'm obsessed, but also not if that makes any sense at all? I don't know. No one is completely put together, it is fun tearing down that facade and finding the faults behind. Everyone has an area in life in which they lack because no one is entirely perfect. I don't think I would trust an entirely put together person, it's just false. Hmm, I can see you as put together but not in a way that is unrealistic, you know? Whenever you get the time I'd love to hear more about it. I love to hear people talk, just in general.

Yes, that's it! I need subtitles for everything, I can process a lot without it and it's the same with books but more manageable. It just saves me a lot of time from rereading certain part because my silly brain did not process it enough.

I've heard of cowboy bepop! Not Monster though, but from the look of the description it seems to be something I'd enjoy! That's true, but for me I need to be good or at least feel like I'm good at something in order to enjoy a hobby. But you're right, my brain is just unable to accept that. Mhm, indeed. It'll be less scary once it's over. I've wanted to try crocheting, I'd love to do that in the future! Thank you and also you're welcome!

I can see how it can be, it's invigorating just being an anon too. Have you been an anon for someone else before? I know you've said in a post before you'd be too jealous of others but I'm curious anyways. You seem more direct so I don't believe you'd want to be anonymous, at least not for very long. ^⁠_⁠^ You're quite the chaser, aren't you? It's okay, I don't mind. I hope I'm not making myself too easy to be hunted, I have no idea to be frank. That's very kind of you, I find a lot of people just don't.. try to hide themselves very well at all. You sound so confident! I wonder if there's been times where you've been wrong, surely? I always second guess myself. I do want this game to go on... it would be terribly embarassing if I were to fail so quickly. Thank you, I am doing my best anyways. I have to take my time lest I make a mistake! Thank you, I enjoy the praise! I'm going to continue searching, it was a bit annoying to go through twitter just to find there was infact.. nothing. Not to fault you, it was my assumption. I feel like a mole scourging whatever grub I can feast upon! Maybe that is a weird metaphor– anyways I'm glad you made it public again. I still had notes and screenshots written regardless but thank you for your generosity! I will provide even more effort in that case then, I have only gotten started.

Indeed he is!! 🫧 Yes, I know ( ｡– ‸ –｡) the name is misleading, no? I just put it anyway despite that it didn't count, but I'm glad it does! Koi fish are adorable! I don't know if there is a real reason, they are a bit nostalgic for me as they'd always have them swarming around when I'd enter restaurants or animal stores. I'm glad on being the first person then!

Thank you for the encouragement and positivity! I've tried breaking the habit before, it doesn't work for me. Blegh. Same here, I only need one alarm! If I'm sleepy or not used to the time I'm waking up at I'll set a few in case. Loud noises scare me so it gets the job done well. It is! It actually provided to be useful when it came to projects, I had to make a sculpture but sculpting was not my forte. I think it is definitely worth the investment if you plan on buying one, making a soushin figure is definitely a must. Exactly! My dreams are usually violent, comedic and nonsensical all at once somehow. I think I would cry and hyperventilate all at once if someone took my things. I don't even prefer ice cream that much, oh well!

Don't apologize, thank you for taking the time to respond so thoroughly! I will think of questions to ask you in the meanwhile. Get your work done and prioritized!

— 🐟

frankenstein!!! i've been recommended that as well. i've read some southern gothic literature before and deeply enjoyed it, so i'm sure i'd love that as well! i also need to read more classics... there's this huge classic book collection on amazon i've been meaning to buy at some point . i could just read them all for free online, but i also love having the books in my hands! reading on a screen can be rather difficult sometimes... thank you for the concern! i promise i do my best to look after myself!! not as much this week since i've been . locked in on study mode but after this week i'll get more into it ! my work has been going alright. i've been needing to finish an assignment before i'm able to study, but its been progressing rather slowly which worries me since i have exams beginning tomorrow. after this goes out, i'm going to do my best to speedrun it...

thank you !!! i'm always so pleased when someone recognizes my being a hardworker ... i put lots of effort into things, so its always gratifying when its recognized. i also love when people enjoy my openminded-ness. more people should be more open about themselves and others . . hopefully next week comes sooner for the both of us!! it seems like we're both in desperate need of a break. don't force yourself to talk if you're busy (says me who responds to all my anons despite my being busy . . .)!! the sentiment is incredibly endearing though! i am a hyper independent person, yes. i'm usually only dependent on one person. i grew up relying on myself and always struggled with trusting others, so i grew into being self sufficient. obsession definitely changes people, that's how potent love can be. no, it makes sense to me! for me, i'm still closed off and distant with others but i'm able to express a more soft/affectionate part of me to that one special person. i change, but also don't . .. i think it's how, when you have someone to love, you reveal more intimate parts of yourself. i agree! there is no such thing as someone who is perfect. i'm always amused watching people try to portray themselves as such, only to have that mask crack over time. i do not know why people wish to be someone they're not. be true to yourself !! of course i have walls myself which keep others out (maintaining independence!) but i don't know if thats quite the same thing as having a mask. i'm rather open about my personality and how i behave ... i love the thought of tearing away such a mask, or breaking down someones walls! it's intimate! put together in a way thats not unrealistic ... i think i get what you mean? i don't try to present myself as perfectly perfect, like how i don't have perfect grammar or ways of typing. in my next response, which will probably be tomorrow, i'll talk more about it since i'll have time then!

ah same !!!!!! you probably already know why ... in case you don't, i have hearing loss which causes me to struggle with hearing or processing words. so i always need subtitles (whenever i'm able to get them! sometimes i'm fine with none). i believe my autism also cuts into my processing speed ...

i've heard outstanding reviews of it, i'd definitely recommend despite not having watched it myself!!! i used to have a similar mindset with anything i enjoyed, but i've managed to push myself past it. i think that sometimes you just have to do things scared and they get more easy ! i don't remember if i've already said that... just looked at my response. i definitely did. hangs my head. crocheting is a great hobby!! it can be mindless, making it fun to do while you're doing something else-- like watching a show or something. and there's so much you can do with it ... for me, i want to crochet some flowers. i have the supplies already, but not the time.

i've not! i am more of a direct person, you're correct. i dislike the idea of competing with others for someone's affections, and i'd go insane seeing them flirt with people other than me . . . i rather just jump straight into DMs, as it's more personal that way as well. its easier getting to know someone when you know who they are. i am !!! i'm basically a wolf after all !! who am i if i am not a hunter . . . i don't think you're being overtly easy, i just pick up on small details a lot. i've definitely had more simple.. when people send in anons right after liking or following something of mine it is . . the most obvious thing on this planet. are you even trying..... my guess on who you are could very well be wrong, it all really depends on how long you've watched me -- which i do not know the exact date of . i do think i'm pretty certain of it, but i'll stay quiet until i'm 1000% certain ! i also wish for the hunt to go on longer. i can admit i've been wrong before ... but really only for one person. they had no online presence or any connections to me which made it troublesome .... i think they're the only person where i've actually asked someone if they were said anon. all of my others reveal themselves when they're ready! you are doing a good job !!! either way, it is entertaining talking to you. apologies for the disappointment ! i don't have much social media that i'm active on, since i prefer to keep my circles small. some of them i'm forced to have since people i know wish to actually have contact with me... otherwise i'd have zero social presence. i like being sneaky!!! alas, i cannot. i actually love moles... they recently discovered a species of mole they previously thought extinct. turns out he was just too shy. silly!! of course! i may clean up some of my tracks here and there to ensure others don't find it, but i'll keep it public. ദ്ദി ( ᵔ ᴗ ᵔ )!!!

right? sometimes scientists have the most ridiculous names for things.. name it something that actually correlates to what it is !!!!! stop deceiving us !!!!! i always enjoy when i see koi in ponds . i've gotten to feed them before and they're voracious eaters... its always funny to watch! whenever i think of koi, i recall the youtube video where someone is spoonfeeding one and giggle.

i'm sure if you keep trying, you'll get somewhere eventually! my alarm is always under my pillow right next to my ear so i'm sure to hear it. loud noises can also be rather jarring to me, since i'm used to quiet while i sleep (no hearing aids !!). but if the noise is close to me, i'm able to hear it. otherwise i'll sleep through anything... sculpture is fun albeit difficult !! i find in-person sculpture more troublesome though, since you can so easily mess up .... 3D programs are much more forgiving, but troublesome to learn. soushin !!! come to me !!!!!! soon the dream will be alive ... hopefully in the future! i don't cry or break down when my items are taken, but irate instead.

will go work now !!! salutes and runs off !!!

[i-am-ghobli]

Winning Non-Stop Has Me Hyped to Start My Own Thing!

Okay, so basically, I've been on the luckiest streak of my life, and it's got me feeling like I can do anything! It all started a few months ago when I randomly entered a raffle and ended up winning a trip to Thailand for two! I couldn't believe it. It was like the universe was giving me a sign that good things were coming my way.

That win totally boosted my confidence. I started feeling like I had this special luck, and I wanted to test it out. So, I went to Timezone with my partner and just started dominating all the games. It was insane! I was winning left and right, and it felt amazing.

But the craziest thing happened just a few days ago. I was at the arcade, feeling super lucky, and decided to try my hand at the roulette wheel. And guess what? I won! Tickets started pouring out, and I was like, "Okay, this is definitely my day!" I kept going, winning at the coin drop and balloon pop games too. By the end of it, I had over 2,500 tickets!

Standing there with all those tickets, I felt a mix of emotions. I was grateful, excited, and honestly, a little shocked. It wasn't just about the wins; it was about how confident I felt. It was like I had tapped into this inner belief in myself that I didn't even know was there.

This whole experience has totally changed my mindset. I'm not afraid to take risks anymore. I'm ready to go after my dreams and see what I can achieve. I've always wanted to start my own business, and now I feel like it's the perfect time.

I'm picturing myself building a successful company, something that not only makes money but also makes a positive impact on the world. I want to be smart with my money too, investing it wisely so I can build a secure future for myself and my family.

Of course, I know that luck isn't everything. I'll need to work hard and be smart about my decisions. There will probably be challenges along the way, but I'm ready to face them head-on. I've learned that you have to be willing to adapt and learn from your mistakes.

I'm also going to surround myself with people who support me and believe in my vision. Having a strong network is so important when you're starting something new.

This whole winning streak has taught me so much. I've learned to trust my gut, to go for it even when things seem uncertain, and to never give up on my dreams. It's shown me that amazing things can happen when you have a positive attitude and believe in yourself.

So, to anyone out there who's ever felt that spark of an idea or had a lucky break, I say go for it! Don't let fear hold you back. Chase your passions, work hard, and never stop dreaming. You never know what you might accomplish when you believe in the power of possibility.

[ilhyuuq]

favouritism. (pt.2)

thinking of this, there really isn't a better word to describe my mom other than favouritism. all of my life I've been trying so hard to impress my mom just so I could hear some compliments from her. yea sure that she did compliment me, but all of those were from when I was younger. my mother had always been like a friend to me, but not something to be envy of. she's like those mean girls that would say mean things to you and asks why are you sad, bullshit. the older I get, the more distance I'm drifting away from her. I never want to perceive and look at myself as a sad person. I've always wanted to be the best of me trying my best not to disappoint them, not wanting to see more disappointment in their eyes, I could tell the judgement looking and starring across at me feeling like I was not worth a penny and deserves nothing. I had so any evidence that could prove to my mother that she favourites my sister, I mean I kind of get it. my sister does almost everything my mom says, like learning ballet and give up dreams that she had when she was younger. but to the conclusions I am completely opposite of that, I learn to be quite when I see the atmosphere being so silent and deadly. but my mom has always shown more interests towards my sister, let's give her a name shall we? Lexi. not her real name but I m tired of calling her my sister. yea sure, Lexi is a good daughter, so good that she forgot how to be herself when she was younger. my mom is an extreme narcissist. she always had love herself a bit way too much. she had always been confident in herself, she trust her own extinct more than our words. but lemme be honest, through out my life, the years I've spent with her.. she's been an amazing mother until I was 6. the trip to Toronto ruined our relationship between the families. although we look like nothing had ever happened, but we all know that we are just lying and pretending, the break and the cracks between us has began cracking even more every time we talk. even though it sounds like nothing make sense now, and it just sounds like a little kid trying wannabe a poem artist and just couldn't get to the point. but I promise you, I'll get to the point soon. just lemme put on some statements.

alright, as soon as we get back, (keep in mind that during the trip back from Toronto was 2017 or 2016?) anyways, me and Lexi are dancers, especially ballerinas, but in Taiwan we don't really use the word ''ballerina'' to describe ballet dancers, we literally just call it ballet dancers. and what I meant was that my mom just had an obsession with ballet. she could ruin our life just for us to learn ballet, but you see.. I've always been more invested on the side of Kpop, I used to have my own Kpop covers on my mom's YouTube channel. the type of pop dancing was just more my thing. even if I love the elegancy of ballet, my point of view. anyhow, there was one master class I insist to attend, a 6-7 year old dancing with a bunch of 19-25 trained professionals, really? I was humiliated in there. I couldn't even do a right turn. I stood alone as I saw everyone having friends and chatters, I immediately saw my mother's eyes, starring down and across at me, shaking her head. knowing it that it was disappointment of how I failed my turns, I felt terrible, the need of throw up, maybe it was the car sickness that we arrived by, or maybe it was just plain dizziness by how much I've turned in my ballet dancing. growing up until 9-10 years old, my mom always came to every class with us, she thinks that it's her way of affection, but in return I've always wanted to hear compliments from her after every single class was done. I remember so clear that one day I was at another ballet class, a new studio, I tried my best to get all of her attention just so she would play attention to me.. but nothing except for her looking at her phone, nothing else, not even the head shake, although I hate that. after the class, I walked out of the door, exciting and curious what's her reaction going to be, instead this was what happened.

''your teacher spoke to me today, seems like your turns were out of synchronization with the others? you know you can work on that at home, I'm gonna need to cut off your free time today.''

the moment I heard the words, a feeling that I was hurt but I just can't find the right words to describe how I even felt. a child, just wanting to hear what her mother's compliments. instead she sees nothing but herself.

real.

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paint the town red - part six

THE AVENGERS AGAINST DATING

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MIAMI 2024

the ferrari team stood in a circle outside of their motorhome. peter waved at someone who passed by, giving them a puzzled look. peter shrugged, even he wasn't sure what was happening. carlos and sebastian exchanged looks, before sebastian led them inside, a sense of dread filliing them. isaiah sighed, "please tell me one of you isn't planning on making a surprise announcement this weekend. do not go around pulling a nico rosberg."

carlos cleared his throat, "qué? no, um- charles has obviously been very dominant this season and i know we agreed to wait until after this race but- i'll be the second driver, starting today."

"what?" charles questioned, the confusion was evident on his face, "why?"

"you're going to win this year charles, that much is obvious. i'll get the one next year."

"this must be difficult for you to say," harley added, breaking the tense silence. none of them had been quite sure what to expect when sebastian had called an impromptu meeting, they were supposed to wait for tony but the older man was busy giving the avengers and co a tour of the paddock.

"of course, no driver wants to admit they are going to be second driver but we agreed that who ever won the season this year, would defend the next. it's not my time yet, but it is charles's year, one way or another we are getting that championship."

charles frowned, "we still get to fight on track don't we?" he asked sebastian. the german nodded, "of course, it would be quite boring if it was you winning all season wouldn't it?"

"then let's bring that championship home," bianca said. the team smiled at each other before they stepped away from each other to do their respective tasks. peter's shouts could be heard as he left arguing with isaiah, the older brunette simply sighing exasperatedly. harley left with carlos, the two talking about the changes they would need to make to their strategy now. sebastian ran off, late for a team principal press interview.

charles looked at bianca, "dinner?"

bianca looked taken aback, "tonight?"

"i was thinking next week actually," charles joked. bianca laughed, "don't make me regret this leclerc."

"you won't," charles confidently said as bianca walked away. she turned around and was met with sight of charles smiling brightly at her. she shook her head before leaving to find her dad and sister.

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dinner...

sam wilson BIANCA STARK-POTTS WHO IS THAT MAN?

bucky barnes I WASN'T AWARE YOU HAD TIME TO DATE WHILE TRAVELING SO MUCH

natasha romanoff i feel betrayed for some reason? why was i not made aware of this?

clint barton what's going on?

sam wilson BABY STARK WENT ON A DATE WITH SOME MAN!

harley keener if i speak-

scott lang what do you know keener? harley keener all i know is a bet was made after china's quali...i will not say more...i wish to live

wanda maximoff you people have been screaming at her to get a date for ages and when she does you act overprotective? i don't understand any of you.

hope van dyne aren't you people a little too old to be this invested in her love-life. especially bucky?

bucky barnes I'LL HAVE YOU KNOW I AM ONLY 106! I'M QUITE YOUNG COMPARED TO THOR AND LOKI.

america chavez I KNOW SOMETHING YOU PEOPLE DON'T! I AM THE SUPERIOR ONE!

bianca stark-potts america, i swear to god if you open your mouth i'm taking your enzo woofstappen privileges away. america chavez i'll shut up. i love enzo.

sam wilson what's his name? nationality? d.o.b? give us everything on him.

bucky barnes we say this because we care, not because we're nosy. steve rogers they're nosy, i genuinely care. and why isn't tony freaking out over this yet?

joaquin torres oh i see, when i was having a genuine dilemma the other day, i was told this group chat was for emergencies only. i guess emergencies are ignored when you want to be nosy.

sam wilson jesus christ, who added all of you people? this was supposed to be a fun group chat. not one full of whining

peter parker it's called avengers (no trauma version) everyone deserves to be here for a good time sam wilson there's my answer. kate bishop i'm here for a good time not a long time clint barton kate we've talked about this...

tony stark THAT FUCKER HID MY PHONE FROM ME! BIANCA MARIA STARK-POTTS WHO THE FUCK IS THAT MAN? WHO DID YOU GO ON A DATE WITH?

bianca stark potts te-he

kate bishop cute shoes

bianca stark-potts thanks! cute date too.

harley keener i'm going to tell them

bianca stark-potts don't you fucking dare keener! i'll take your lab privileges harley keener i will no longer be speaking

sam wilson BIANCA! YOU HAVE TO TELL US WHO IT IS!

bianca stark-potts it's a first date samuel, i'm not marrying the guy. calm down.

bucky barnes WE DESERVE ANSWERS STARK!

bianca stark-potts *stark-potts, put some respect on my mother's name

tony stark BIANCA YOU WILL TELL US WHO IT IS NOW!

natasha romanoff i don't think his poor heart can handle this stress bianca, you have to tell us.

bianca stark-potts no, i like having something to myself. if it becomes something serious i'll tell you guys, but for now it's just dating, nothing serious.

wanda maxmioff second date soon?

bianca stark-potts maybe? we'll see, nights not over yet

steve rogers well, as long as your safe with him, i don't care who he is.

bianca stark-potts thanks steve, i promise you guys will be the first to know if it becomes something else, when i'm ready to tell any of you.

stephen strange you people are all nuisances

america chavez and yet you still won't leave the group chat stephen strange any time i try someone keeps adding me back peter parker i'm doing god's work out here

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scuderiaferrari AND THAT'S ANOTHER WHAT? THAT'S ANOTHER WIN FOR FERRARI HERE IN MIAMI! MATER AND LIGHTNING MCQUEEN WIN AGAIN!

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📍 scuderiaferrari carlos ily but for the sake of the plot, you have to be mater. no one exudes lightning mcqueen energy quite like charles does

↳ carlossainz55 at least i'm not getting called sid like you do with max or crash and eddie like lando and oscar.

↳ maxverstappen1 why the hell am i getting dragged into this? i wanted nothing to do with this

↳ landonorris i still don't get the crash and eddie joke...

username this is a straight up violation on charles and carlos

pierregasly if anything i'm mater, i'm charles's best friend.

↳ scuderiaferrari not anymore pear

landonorris i knew i made the right choice sending you those lightning leclerc memes

↳ charles_leclerc THAT WAS YOU? NORIZZ WHEN I GET MY HANDS ON YOU!

↳ landonorris hey isaiah_atkins one of your driver's just threatened me, are you going to let him get away with this?

↳ isaiah_atkins charles, we've talked about this. you can't threaten other drivers in public.

↳ landonorris so he can do it in private?

↳ isaiah_atkins only if it's his brother. i have no say in that one.

america_chavez does this make sebastian doc hudson?

↳ samwilson tony is guido, the ferrari superfan

↳ tonystark man fuck you sam

↳ samwilson hey isaiah_atkins look at this guy!

↳ isaiah_atkins i am on his payroll, i cannot say anything against this but tony for the love of god, set an example for the rest of the team.

username seeing a bunch of grown men argue over a children's movie is hilarious to me

username peter parker is chaotic neutral

↳ username nah, that twink is chaotic chaotic. he's up there with fernando on the chaos scale.

↳ harleykeener lol peter had been twinkified by the internet, this is hilarious

↳ username you're a twink too keener. no one is safe from this.

↳ username bucky barnes gives himbo energy, steve rogers too.

↳ username don't forget scott lang and thor!

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