#I don't wanna go to bed tho

[equalseleventhirds]

it is so late and i am so tired and i haven't even been online much lately, but i've been ruminating abt ttrpgs (as i have endless rumination time at work and on the train, which is 80% of my time anyway)

and abt the like, unreasonable mindset ppl get into abt dnd 5e due to Marketing and also Actual Plays. u kno, that it can Do Anything, that u don't gotta know the rules, that the dm should plan a conventional narrative and u gotta stick to it, that it's for cute queer found families, roleplaying rollplaying bullshit, etc.

and sometimes there's posts from ppl who are outside of that mindset like, wow try another game, but also pls don't bring that mindset to other games we love. u kno.

and maybe i simply spend a lot of time in podcast & streaming circles and also circles of ppl who learned ttrpgs from podcasts & streaming, but, crucially, i don't play d&d

so i meet a lot of ppl who have moved past d&d, right. but. still have that mindset abt their new favorite game(s).

like, 'oh unlike d&d this is actually a queer found family narrative' they say abt a heavily pvp game where u can be queer but it's not about queerness.

'oh unlike d&d you can create a real story' they say, as the gm ignores the handy Make Situations sheet the game comes with and plans a 5-act narrative years in advance.

'oh unlike d&d this game is about ROLEplaying not ROLLplaying' they say, ignoring the social mechanics of the game in order to draw out talky scenes. for character work. for realism. for the story.

'oh unlike d&d this one is so easy to learn' they say, not reading huge and relevant sections of the book until halfway through the session.

i could go on. once i played a kinda weird and poetic indie game with folks whose primary game was motw, and the amount of 'hey this weird and poetic mechanic doesn't make literal sense to me as a character action' haunts me.

and it is immensely frustrating, bcos like.... on the one hand, god i'm glad you're playing something that's not d&d!! that's so important!! on the other hand, you likely learned about this game through an actual play where they (hopefully) used the basic mechanics for stuff, but mostly ran the story like a 5e actual play.

like, i love the adventure zone, but my god you're gonna come out of amnesty or steeplechase with a WILD misunderstanding of the themes and story even a lot of the mechanics of motw or bitd. (both games i like very much. but don't play them like the mcelroys.) or like, god i'm glad the d20 folks are having such fun with kob-adjacent games. but do NOT learn kob from them.

and listening to famous ppl do that to a game i like is one thing. a frustrating thing, to be sure. but participating in a game like this, or even hearing my friends & acquaintances play like this? hateful. makes me grit my teeth and cry. makes me make weirder and weirder game mechanics, which hopefully i'll make into coherent games someday.

anyway, this is all to say, before you start your found family motw game where u will team up with the monsters to save everything and maybe also bigfoot is there, a. stop listening to taz amnesty, b. read, really REALLY read apocalypse world and get a handle on THAT, c. go reread motw and think hard abt it, and d. watch buffy and supernatural a bit. yeah i know they suck. think rly hard abt that scene in buffy where xander chooses not to tell buffy that angel will get his soul back so buffy has to kill her and then no one ever finds out abt that and i HATE that scene but also it's the kind of thing motw was built for, you see.

also play weirder games and adjust ur expectations but whatever.

[nervocat]

I'll end the night off like this.. I'm tired.. like rlly tired.. might go to bed rn

[flameunquenched]

what if. instead of eating. i just took two melatonins and passed out until my alarm for work tomorrow. that sounds fun.

[dutybcrne]

Sometimes I like to admire Kae's new skin and think of aaaall the little gaps where someone could press quick little kisses against

[shooks-stupid-stuff]

ino acrylic charm design/actual physical item from a while ago, because i am struggling to make anything i can post

i will try and do some more shitty pen doodles tmmrw i promise (feel free to send oc suggestions if there's anyone specific you wanna see me doodle)

[imwritesometimes]

not to brag but uh, I just figured out my second chapter and big chunks of details for the overall plot of this wip 😎

[koka-mi]

Oh how I love climbing up my bunk bed in every way EXCEPT the normal stairs way🔥🔥🔥

[sillywillylittleguy]

What will you do with your new Lemon? 🍋🖍️

my favorite snake, Crayons!: shark edition... i think its that illegal to eat sharks tho..

[mars-ipan]

holy shit i just got really tired all of a sudden

[sevicia]

I wanted to make a cleaner summary of last week's classes and also review the classes I have this week since the material is already uploaded beforehand but I was feeling so horrible throughout the day that when I sat down I was just gonna look at the ones for tomorrow but I think I'm just gonna go to bed because I just gave my little numbers game a few tries and not even the joy of tribial elementary school-level math games is bringing my brain cells and/or full sentience back

[anothermonikan]

Me: Literally just trying to draw anything, anything at all

The irreversible impact these two fuckers had on my art:

[six-of-ravens]

well, officially Behind on nano. like 1300 words behind so not the worst, but not my best effort tonight for sure.

i feel so lowkey miserable out of the blue though, part of it is the tumblr thing, part of it is talking with my aunt about such heavy topics as mom's health, the government, the cost of rent, etc etc, part of it is over-analyzing a mildly awkward not-even-interaction today, and part of it is building existential dread about life in general that's like damn, am I getting my period super early??

[mishkakagehishka]

Awughhbb

[xhatake]

so we did get our power back today! but i feel like my spine is going to slide out of my skin & every bone in my body is jelly. conversations ooc are difficult as hell for me today so if i do not respond it is nothing personal <3

[six-improbable-things]

Oh god. I played 9.7 hours of P:WotR today... that's fucking wild. I am clearly so very normal about this game.

[skelebab]

Finally got around to reading the comic I bought months ago

Some highlights:

Pony tail Clark.... maybe not a highlight....

Which could mean nothi-

He said the thing!

Superman: I don't want to cause any lasting injury!

Captain Marvel:

Also the fact that no one in Metropolis knew who CM was