#I don't rly know what happened. at the end it seemed like I was ?? moving in w dad for a few months ?? idk

[fluffylino]

what are your thoughts on primal/chase w Minho? Cause I can't seem to get it to leave my head and you always have such great thoughts so I wanted to share this

Feel free to ignore this tho if if it's not your cup of tea or for any reason rly 💙

hi hi anon

this was really fun to write. honestly ive been wanting to write something like this with minho but never really got any good ideas. hope you like it!

warning- mainly cnc and minho is pretty mean. (but we love it)

-contains mature themes

the hallways seemed like they would never end. would you ever escape him? your legs hurt from how fast you were running.

you could hear him. his footsteps growing louder and louder as he moved in closer.

you looked around. searching for somewhere to hide. anywhere. your eyes scanned the place.

a dressing room. it was far but it was reachable if you ran. so you did it. huffing, your heart racing. you opened the door, it was dark. at any other time you'd be scared of how dark the room was.

but now.

now, you had to hide.

you carefully shut the door. hands moving about to find any switch. a light switched on and you were surprised to see how clean it actually was.

you turned your back to the door. looking down at your feet, only to see a shadow on the floor.

"there you are, kitty"

your heart jumped with a start. how did he get in so fast?

minho shut the door behind him, arms reaching over to shove you firmly against the wall. there was no way you could get away.

"l-let me go" you screamed, trying to move out of his iron grasp. he pushed your head against the wall. your cheek squished and you struggled to even move.

these were the times you realised just how strong he actually was. and if he wanted to he could do anything he liked.

"no s-stop stop i-it" you said, as you felt him lift your skirt up. it was your favourite skirt. not to thick yet not too short.

"shut it. stop fussing" he hissed out, tugging your panties down. his fingers inching down. you wriggled around.

"a-ahh h-hurts it hurts" you cried out as he shoved his fingers deep into you.

so deep you felt a tinge of discomfort. you weren't wet enough to take three of his digits.

you whined, unable to even speak.

"you know you want it. relax kitten."

he mumbled into your ear, pulling his fingers out. you shivered at the loss.

"be a good kitty and get on your fours"

you shook your head. never.

"n-no i don't w-want it"

he let out an exasperated sigh behind you. a noise of surprise leaving you when he manhandled you. forcing you to the ground.

he maneuvered you. keeping your head pressed on the white floor. your back arched and ass up. skirt pushed up to expose you completely. embarassment was what you felt.

minho used his knees to keep your legs apart. you couldn't help it.

your cunt throbbing for something more. something bigger. something wet.

whereas your mind was all over the place. everything was happening so fast you didn't know if you were ready.

no prep. but this is what you and him had discussed much ahead of time.

consensual non consent. he could fuck you whenever he felt like it. regardless of whether you wanted it. and that made you feel some type of way.

his personal playtoy. your body belonging to him. him having complete control over you. the control part is what you loved.

"you say you don't want me but look at you" he let out, you could hear him take his belt of with one hand. his zipper being pulled down.

"arching your back for me, your leaking so much kitten. anyone would think you're a bitch in heat, presenting yourself to me"

you felt your eyes water. desperation.

"i-..i-" you stuttered, his grip on your hair so strong, you couldn't even lift your head up. your face smushed down.

"when are you going to accept it..shut up and take it"

your mouth dropped open. a pained whine escaping you as he entered you.

fuck, he was so big. you'd never get used to his size. and now with no lube, your thighs trembled at the discomfort. a heavy weight.

"ah-h m-minho hurts..p-paining" you cried out, body shaking at how stretched out you were. you were at your max.

"oh does it?" he asked, voice going low and condescending.

"still hurts?" your eyes rolling to the back of your head as he moved his hips. burying himself even deeper. this time not stopping his movements.

"accept it, kitten. you want me to fuck you full. to breed you" minho said, voice cracking as you still tried to adjust to him.

you squirmed as he held your hips, pulling you back to meet his thrusts. choked out noises and whimpers leaving your parted lips.

"d-don't want your c-cum hnghh-"

your eyes shot open as he pulled out completely. you stayed extremely still. not knowing what was going to happen next. he mumbled an annoyed 'fine'.

"crawl." he said out lazily.

"come on im giving you a chance to walk away"

could you really believe him? you hesitated for a entire minute. unsure. until you rose to your elbows and slowly inched ahead.

your speed slowly increasing. that was till you were dragged back. his cock slipping back into your warm cunt with no effort.

"you really thought huh"

"your pussy is begging to be filled. your dripping onto the floor. so quit lying."

tears fell on the ground. everything felt so good. so real. so different.

"i'll make sure to pump you full of my cum until you can't take anymore. you take what im giving you"

his hips ramming into you. getting pushed forward with every animalistic thrust.

"n-no pull o-out...pull out p-please minho not in me" you cried out, shaking in his grasp. you wanted it. you wanted his cum.

"you cunt says otherwise. swallowing me fucking whole like its been starved"

he held you in place.

one particular hard thrust and you could feel him inside you. filling you up to the brim. your own cum mixing with his and leaking outside of your poor abused hole.

"ahhhh keep it all inside"

minho instructed, watching as you clenched. trying your best to keep all of him in. but you couldn't. sitting on his haunches watching how your pussy quivered at just how much had seeped out.

warm.

sticky.

your knees gave in and you fell completely on the floor. your breathing heavy.

minho shuffled around behind you. everything was beginning to set in. but minho was there. you knew he was going to take care of you.

"did so well for me, sweetheart"

[spacenintendogs]

glad you're feeling better !!! for drawing requests i'd love to see some of your au stuff – i know this isnt very specific but maybe a scene/event you like to think about a lot? i just rly love ur au :D

what do you do when the backbones of your friend group nearly end their friendship?

tuffnut and fishlegs were friends before anyone else in the gang. as kids they lived a few doors down from each other & often ran into each other at a local playground. tuff's outgoing & curious nature helped fishlegs feel more confident in exploring & they could discover things together. fishlegs' sensitive & skittish nature drew tuffnut in & got tuff to slow down every so often. they have more opposite approaches when it comes to learning & as little kids, they just LOVE learning. fishlegs being quiet also helped tuff find someone to confide in, while tuff being louder helped fishlegs find someone who can teach him how to stand up for himself.

as they become friends with the rest of the gang (tuff already has ruff obv but!!) they find they have less in common than they thought & while they still care & hang out, it's no where near the same as when they were little. esp once they're teenagers.

by the time they're 14 they've basically become friends but wouldn't rlly hang out with each other alone or confide in the other.

tuff & ruff obv aren't the types to hold back in their comments towards the others & in the shows even make fun of fishlegs for his weight/tend to go off on side tangents that seem irrelevant to the topic at hand. this hurts & annoys fishlegs. fishlegs (as well as the others in the group) tend to get snippy & make snide comments abt the twins being stupid & brushing them off when they try to contribute. this hurts & annoys tuffnut, esp bc as they grow older, fishlegs gives off a "know-it-all" attitude.

they're both internally bitter & don't understand what changed between them from when they were kids. why they seen to have disdain towards each other. it reaches its breaking point when they're in college. it's not fishlegs who snaps, it's tuffnut.

fishlegs rolls his eyes at a comment tuffnut makes & it's the final straw. tuffnut just asks "do we have a problem?" and it opens a whole can of worms, esp bc it was in front of the entire gang & ends with tuffnut & fishlegs storming off (ruffnut hesitantly going with tuffnut out of pure shock of what just happened).

& now every time the gang hangs out or goes to work at the sanctuary & tuff & fishlegs are there, it's just tension. they give the silent treatment towards each other. the rest of the gang feel stuck bc they feel like they are being forced to pick sides & try their best in hanging out with everyone but maybe not having tuff or fishlegs there with each other & it's a hassle. hiccup & astrid try to get them to stop being stubborn & talk it out. snotlout is completely lost & can't help but make it abt how it's affecting him bc he doesn't know what else to do. ruffnut is supportive towards tuffnut, having heard him talk abt his frustrations with fishlegs for years at this point, but does try to push tuffnut to talk it out with fishlegs, too, albeit, not as hard as hiccup & astrid.

reconciliation only comes when tuffnut & fishlegs are scheduled to close the sanctuary together alone (not on purpose, it's just how everyone's schedules lined up & the rest of the gang dreaded that it could be the true final straw).

while closing, tuff sees barf and belch haven't moved since the afternoon when he arrived (& even since the morning when astrid & hiccup opened the sanctuary). he checks & sees the dragons haven't eaten or drank any water all day either. he panicks and gets the first person he can think of, which is fishlegs.

they both work together in discovering a few of the zipplebacks, including barf and belch, have come down with vorpentitis, due to a venomous vorpent getting into the pen. they quickly gather potatoes (the cure is known & had here, unlike book 4 of the httyd books... sorry for spoilers there lol). it's during this that they both feel regret & after everything has calmed that they apologize to each other, more calmly explain their sides of the story, and hug each other for the first time since they were kids.

they'll never go truly back to where they were as kids, they've crossed too many thresholds. too much has changed. but they can work on what they have now & it'll be equally as strong.

[burins]

i was doing comics livetweets on twitter but that seems... dangerous given the longevity of that site so i'm going to bring them over here so that in six months when i go "what comic was that in" i can find it. i'm breaking my "no new 52" rule to read greg pak's action comics run bc i've heard it's good! i already read the first tpb but it was on my desk shift so i emailed panels to myself. Country Kids Make Do!

AC (2011) #25: clark is so so charming in this run! he also breaks martha's finger AS A BABY which is a bold move on a writing level. if i found a baby in a cornfield and it broke my finger i might consider leaving that baby at the nearest hospital even if it was as adorable and round-cheeked as clark is here. ma kent is obviously made of sterner stuff than I.

CUTE!

now that we've gotten the backstory out of the way it's time for clark to fight the wind. literally. he tries to reverse a hurricane.

frankly i also find this charming! this is such a young thing to do. i also thought i was god's answer to every problem when i was 20. fortunately i did not have superhuman powers so i never accidentally tossed a whale in the air.

the art in these next few issues is Pretty Rough in the face department. aaron kuder does some rly lovely backgrounds and landscapes and action scenes and then you get a close up and we have some real adult animation ass mouths. it's still not as bad as this though!

AC 26: after clark fights the wind we have a charming moment where we learn that jimmy thinks clark plays a lot of sudoku bc he's always on his phone looking at Metropolis Nextdoor and trying to find crimes. clark have you ever considered going on normal gossip?

jokes aside these panels make me pretty emo about the intrinsic horror of being clark kent. you can hear every bad thing that happens, all of the time, and you also have the power and the will to stop it, or at least to try to. and that's your whole life forever!! woof!!!!

smash cut to the rainforest, where lana lang, electrical engineer, is busy excavating deep under the earth for geothermal energy. now i myself am not an electrical engineer but i don't think this is usually how that works. it's also been years since i took envi or geos classes but i do think that if you disturb forest soils in one of the most delicate and biodiverse areas on earth. this might be a problem. it's fine though bc lana lang is a hashtag girlboss and grabs a gun the first chance she gets.

clark shows up to fight the monster that of course appears, and immediately gets shook like a chew toy. delightful. he makes friends with the monster (also delightful!) and immediately gets stabbed by a ghost soldier (literally that is this character's name.)

AC 27: next issue we learn that clark has adopted the monster, who is actually a child. very very cute. in an alternate universe i think this kid becomes his robin and he and bruce meet up earlier to exchange parenting tips for underqualified 20somethings who accidentally ended up with very rambunctious wards.

clark's exasperation about lana's total inability to use his superhero name is deeply relatable. also clark what else did you pretend to throw into the sun and not actually throw into the sun

AC 28: we go underground and learn about an ancient secret society. i'm skimming this plot. lana is very excited about sustainable energy.

i had to look at this face so you do too!

i REALLY do not know how i feel about leonard sawyer, mahican nation, ghost soldier for (I think?) the US government! especially bc in about ten pages he is gonna literally stab clark in the back. hm!!!!

AC 29:

that's my special guy--

we get some more fighting... clark loses his newly adopted son who is actually a secret prince of underground. hey do we ever hear about the underground civilization again? here i was setting my fic in space so i could write aliens, like a chump. i guess i will find out when i read the next volume!

overall i'm enjoying this run, it's making me feel the clark kent emotion TM. god i do hope we get a new artist soon. sorry mr kuder but i need you to learn how mouths work (eta i looked this up and it's kuder most of the way through this run. sigh. i will simply zoom out a little on hoopla.)

[akaikali]

TMAGP ep 29 reaction (spoilers ahead)

doing this from my college library lets gooo

"locked in" is this message telling me to lock in this academic year. because literally just yesterday i was telling my friend that i rly need to lock in-

OH WE'RE PICKING UP IMMEDIATELY.

shut the fuck up she literally tripped over his body I'm cackling

okay but her panic when she's unsure if he's breathing or not :((( poor celia. i wonder if like. she lost someone else from her universe and that is why she panics :((( bc also I'm not entirely sure she's from the TMA universe. she's def a universe hopper but the question is: which one.

i wanna say sam has the wrong impression of alice and gwen but at this point with gwen's IDIOTIC move of trying to get lena fired, i don't even know. and then with alice its like...she would care but i do think she'd end up saying "i told you so" at some point because snark is her coping mechanism

oh my god. lena smiled at gwen. is gwen gonna feel any guilt. also lena giving out compliments WHAT.

oh wow chester is just Going

OH NOOOO DON'T DO THIS TO ME DON'T MAKE AN ELDERLY COUPLE RELIVING THEIR HONEYMOON TRAGIC NOOOO

who is sandra. daughter, maybe? nurse? idk probably family member.

"i miss him. i'm alone on christmas and it's my fault" i know this is probably meant to be supernatural but my brain went to it being a health condition the husband hand the wife was supposed to call sandra, possibly a family member or caretaker to check in on him. since it didn't happen, something went wrong and he died. I'm sure that's not what happened but that's what my brain is saying.

oh my god secret tunnel??? catacombs??? this is the Czech republic right?

oh. oh its water again. there really seems to be a strong theme of murderous water in this podcast huh

ohhh flood relief tunnels. thats interesting, i've never actually heard of those before!

"unlock your heart" NOT LITERALLY MA'AM

alice and teddy drinking time!! my god teddy sounds as hot as ever. also i think teddy is gonna get dragged back to the OIAR. TEDDY HAS SALMON PINK HAIR YESSSS

IS TEDDY WORKING FOR THE MAGNUS INSTITUTE??? OR STARKWALL?? IS THAT WHAT THAT WAS CALLED??? THE ENFORCER PEOPLE WORKING FOR THE OIAR???? THE ONES WHO LENA SAID JUMP INTO VIOLENCE WAY TOO QUICK???

poor alice :((( i dont think there was any good option in that situation, they both need her. especially since with sam and celia, she knows the severity of the situation they're in.

IS [ERROR] ON THE FUCKING TRAIN WITH THEM??? AND SARAH??? SARAH BALDWIN???? I MEAN I DOUBT IT BUT.

okay but. just the image of this creepy cloaked looking figure sitting next to someone on the train is literally taking me out.

SEASON FINALE NEXT EP WOOP WOOP

[att4boy]

some thoughts

i was reminded of this blog bc i was watching mina le's lovely video on subcultures and aesthetics, and rmbed the times i came on here and reblogged all these art hoe (or whatever) photos with the #aesthetic tag, and tried to make my blog look all cohesive and pretty as well. i was 13 when i first started this blog - in fact i started it the day after i turned 13, if i'm not wrong? just a few days after... - and now i'm turning 21, and still thinking about this place. i joined tumblr bc all my friends were on it and it seemed like such a cool place. now all the friends (irl and not) i used to have here are gone.

(are any of you still here? let me know...)

i've been thinking about my relationship with the internet recently, inspired mainly by chia amisola (among many others on twitter). when i was younger i was so careless with what i posted. not using careless in a bad way, btw. i mean careless as in unself-conscious, careless as in happy to chat with anyone who happened to be around. when i had just started elementary school my sister helped me set up a blog where i happily posted about my day (i went to kfc today!), and then in p3 i tried to set up a blog to document my family (though it never materialised in the end; i think my mum heard about it and discouraged me from doing it, though i truly don't rmb much anymore). and when i got instagram i started a transparents account (those overlays to put on pictures that everyone was rly into back then) on instagram that got almost 1k followers, i had (have - it's still available online, though we haven't posted since 2016) a book fandom account with three of my friends where we posted our little fanedits of books like divergent and hunger games and twilight. i remember briefly chatting in the comments to some guy a year or two older whose username referenced mockingjay about singapore and school... making a transparent for this ? influencer ? my age ?? that i thought was rly cool... and then something changed, i'm not sure what. i think i became more conscious not of data privacy and security and whatnot, but of how hostile the internet could be when you had a "bad" opinion. i was finding my way into the parts of the internet that discussed feminism, intersectionality, lgbtq+ rights, etc... and don't get me wrong, i think those are all excellent movements that i'm proud to be part of, but i think i also stumbled into areas where accidentally being insensitive or uninformed was very harshly criticised and looked down upon. and i think, probably, i was already the sort of person to naturally be a bit more worried and anxious about doing the "right thing" - i was always the goody-two-shoes in class, still am today to some extent. so the internet changed around me and i came to know it as somewhere where i shouldn't ask too many questions, where i shouldn't criticise.

but then i've been reading about other people's experiences on the internet - how they grew up and built their entire worldview there, made friends across the globe and changed the trajectory of their lives because of it... and i am of course remembering my younger days of freedom of the internet. i miss that era! i wonder how different i would be if i had walked further into this space and talked more. now all i do is lurk on twitter with a private account, ghost cool people trying to follow me back, dream about replying to posts and weaving a friendship from nothingness... i am definitely romanticising, to some extent, but i don't think my version of the internet back then (/ now) is wholly accurate either. i am imagining a version of myself with more confidence and curiosity, and i am wondering if i can still spin that version into existence.

i guess this post is an attempt at that? the last time i came here to talk abt something and then i ended up moving that into a private google doc. but it feels appropriate for me to post about coming back onto / into the internet on tumblr, where i have "been" for years and years. i've been thinking about starting a blog, or a public twitter, or maybe (this one just came to mind) restarting a tumblr and seeing where things go. i don't know if i'll keep it up... but wouldn't it be nice to try?

[aprivateplace7]

(Finally) doing Natlan act 3

:3 rambling incoming~

Wdym Citlali is "old"???? Is she like Faruzan? Bc no way she's a human & older than Xilonen...

I've been avoiding spoilers, but prob heard smt anyway... so I think its true that Ororon is being forced to work w/ the Fatui.

So... Xilonen knows Mavuika, and argues w/ her??? Like she's just a normal person... the way that ppl interact w/ each Archon is so interesting. Its easy to forget that they're gods sometimes...

Natlan... friends w/ the archon...

OH NO PAIMON. PAIMON SHE'S RIGHT BEHIND U!!!

Not Citlali calling out the "ancient loli" trope... as if Genshin itself doesn't do it allll the time :v like i don't mind the "just looks young" thing, but tbh still not a big fan of Nahida's design...

Ah yeah, ok that's what i thought.

Uh... Citlali is kinda... nicer than i thought. She was going to apologize for being late. Idk, she seemed rly tsundere b4.

Ahhh, its the social anxiety mistaken for arrogance.

...i still think she's rly pretty x3

In a dream huh? We have exp...

Since i'm just starting, i don't know anything about Ororon, but i have to say... His design kinda ugly. I hate the ripped jeans...

"Only in his 20s..." "kid"... ok how old is Citlali rly??? Like i'm 23 rn.

Ahhh, Hoyo is so mean ;^; why both her & Mavuika in the same patch...

Btw, my Archon quest team is Xiao, Traveler (Lumine), Kachina & Furina :3

Ahhhh... i kinda don't wanna do this rn :/ but i need to write smt on this for tomorrow. Its hard to focus. I'm tired... college is kinda kicking my ass rn.

UM. Citlali? Can we heard ur thoughts...?

No, REALLY? Paimon...

Wait a min... is the Ororon "grandma" i heard about Citlali?!?

Omg 🤦‍♀️

Um... maybe we should like *tell* Citlali that we can hear her thoughts...? Like this feels weird...

Um, maybe its just bc i'm late, but how long has Ororon been missing? Like how is all this evidence still here...

"You little brat!" XD i kinda love that... i guess she is kinda tsundere.

Oh, Paimon is making sense. I didn't rly think about it, but both Traveler & Paimon r very weird... we have weird stuff happen to us all the time :v

THE NIGHT KINGDOM??? Ok quest is gonna pop off now...

...i do like Ororon's eyes tho. Genshin has very pretty eyes, i like the heterochromia thing. Lol.

Betrayal???

Idc about Childe, or the House of the Heart ppl... i still don't like or trust the Fatui organization.

Ahhh i feel so bad. I love Genshin, but i'd rather be playing like AC rn...

Idk what's going on, but Ororon working w/ the Fatui isn't beating the "edgy teen" allegations...

Yeah, i fon't trust the Fatui but i think its best to just wait & find out as much as we can.

"Like the wind and the clouds, we either move as one or not at all"- that's a cool quote!

💀💀💀

NOT THE REVERSE 100 YR OLD LOLI 💀💀💀

Oh, Ororon has eye bags. Like me.

Him protecting his "granny" is what i expected... but now idk what to think.

Pink hair and blue eyes... cotton candy queen <3

Oh ok. Makes sense, we tell Paimon like everything. Would be hard to sneak off w/out her.

"Sounds innocent but is doing shady stuff behind ppls backs"...

Capitano wants to avoid "clashing" w/ is? Why, scared to lose, bitch?

The "cost" for using the gnosis... i wonder what it is?

Is he like Arlecchino? He cares about, his(?) Nation, but it puts him in conflict w/ the Archon? I mean it turned out that Furina saved the day & Arle did like nothing in the end...

XDDDD GET WRECKED, GO GRANNY!

This is actually rly upsetting... like Citlali rly believed in Ororon :( maybe he's still being mislead by Capitano? He thinks he's right, but i kinda doubt it... the Fatui keep getting what they want, but they've never been in the right. All they've done is cause problems.

His voice? I'm playing w/ Cn voice, i fon't heard anything diff... oh.

Dude he rly is a brat, & not in a fun way :/

Citlali! Violence! XD

I still don't get the "old" thing but... aw Citlali. :( wdym useless?

Girly pop drinking to forget... or maybe so she can talk about that "duty" thing of Ororon?

Lol, they've gotten better at the "meme" faces.

This is a little sad...

I'm sure what she was saying is important but... mannnn is she drunk :/

Oh... i actually feel rly sorry for Citlali :/ she seems to be having a hard time... tho i still have no idea what's going on.

Yeah, i don't think we'd be very phased by getting trauma dumped on by someone we literally just met by this point... it happens to us a lot actually.

Huh so... its not just that Citlali hates ppl. She actually seems pretty lonely & upset...

Yes PLS. Still no idea what's going on here... explain someone pls!

"His soul is incomplete" ???

Human sacrifice? Genshin??? Huh???

SACRIFICING A BABY??? wtf...

"Probably" drank too much? Ma'am...

Idk guys, i don't rly have any thoughts. Just kinda confused... big set up quest i guess.

I say, right b4 shit happens :v

I like this. Srs ppl, just be direct. I hope that Mavuika will actually explain...

I see... i think i get it, to use the gnosis she'd have to sacrifice the souls of the dead. Idk... i can see how that could feel wrong. She considers souls "just another form of life"... idk how i feel about that. I feel like i'm not quite grasping the implications here...

Ohhh ok, spoke too soon :v erasing their history & culture... the memories... that makes more sense to me, i see why this would be the last resort.

And it might not even work

Mm, i see. She's not an "ends justify the means" kinda person... maybe, unlike Capitano she's also considering what could go wrong. As she said, its not a permanent solution anyway.

Oh yeah, i was just thinking- no, tribe has nothing to do w/ vision. Citlali & Ororon r 2 diff elements... idk, i guess Kachina & Xilonen just confused me. And also bc the rep 5*s for each tribe is a diff element...

Wait, why r we talking about Capitano??? I thought Mavuika told us to keep it a secret...? Do the plan TM ppl not count?

Ok yeah. Idk. I wasn't sure where Capitano was from... cause if he's no Natlanian, why does he care so much? But Natlanians can't just leave either so...

Fatui being morally grey again... but they want it to be a secret?

Why r they sneaking around? This isn't that many Fatui... as a player. Maybe they're worried that the Fatui will try to hide what they're doing if they're caught?

U know... what does it even mean that Ororon's soul is "fragmented"? Esp since he was born like that...

Ororon's memories...

Citlali said she's done making excuses for Ororon, that he's an adult, but it still seems like she's blaming herself for him working w/ the Fatui. I can't quite see it. Idk. I don't think that Ororon is like evil but still...

Ororon talks to inanimate objects, just like me lol.

Ok i know that Genshin has powers & gods n stuff, but its still weird to hear them call things "spells". Like... Genshin is fantasy, but not quite that kind right? ...altho, just as i type this i remember that Lisa is straight up called a mage. So.

So... Ororon helped Capitano bc he wanted more info? He wasn't in cahoots until after his & Mavuika's fight.

Oh, no. Its kinda as Mavuika said... i think. Her keeping secrets is leading to doubts.

I feel like that hardly answered any questions at all...

As she should be.

Ok... ends w/ going to tell Mavuika what we learned... yeah this was def a set up quest. It was rly slow... idk maybe it was my fault, but i was rly bored & had a hard time paying attention the whole time. I've been here... for many hrs now. Like idk, maybe since 10:30 & now its about 1:30...

I don't rly have any thoughts. Capitano is weird. Its not the same as Arlecchino, he's not Natlanian so why does he care? Ororon & Citlali aren't exactly what i thought they'd be... actually, i'm surprised how little Xilonen was in here. It was almost all about Ororon & Citlali.

I have heard things... appearently it goes DOWN in act 4. So i'm kinda anxious to see what happens... but idk. My tv is raised from my couch, so my neck is hurting :(

[himebushou]

So I watched Mobile Suit Gundam: The Witch from Mercury in 24 hours — some scrambled thoughts below.

Ep 1.  The visuals of The Witch from Mercury... wow.  And I had such chills when Aerial used the shield.  What a gorgeous Gundam!  And ahh — the tomato stuff was so cute.

Ep 2.  The worldbuilding!!  It's amazing that they literally explain nothing to the audience fjdkdm and wow the way they play with gravity is something (though a bit inconsistent).

Ep 3.  I love this soundtrack and WOW PROSPERA IS SULETTA'S MOOOM — I felt sorry for Guel in this ep and I liked the strong stance against AI LOL but wow, Guel taking Suletta extending her hand as an opportunity to propose marriage is just.  BOY.

And phew, the mobile suits are stunning... I really want to know why the Cathedra Agreement outlawed Gundams.  Poor Gundams are always punished for some reason or other.  :(

Ep 4.  Bloody hell Chu-Chu nearly KILLED those girls FUDIKDK

Ep 5.  Some Elan character development and SHEESH IT'S DARK.  Also, I love how diverse the character designs are.

Wait.  HOW is Elan allowed to use a Gundam without people freaking out fhdjd like hello???  And is is a witch anyone who pilots a Gundam?  Who are the enhanced human beings?  What is going on!!!

Ep 6.  Okay I love the little slumber party at Earth House tbh these girlies are so sweet and supportive — WHOA WHAT.  CLONES?  FACE STEALING?  HUHHHHH????

I thought Elan was gonna die in front of Suletta or something but they just killed him??????

Ep 7.  Man, Miorine forming that company and getting investment was really moving... and we finally get confirmation thar Aerial is a Gundam.  Tbh, I'm pretty surprised that the lives of pilots are prioritised so much in this world.  Hmm.

Ep 8.  It was cool to see all the business stuff being taken seriously and to finally get sort of confirmation that a witch is anyone involved with Gundams (honestly the title is a massive chunk of the reason why I picked up the show; it's so cool).  But man, I'm wondering what direction they'll take for the last few eps of the season... that's obviously too short a time to have any significant progress in developing medical tech.

Felt bad for Guel in this ep... and what is Shaddiq's deal, anyway?

Ep 9.  Yahoo, another battle!  All the Grassley House drama was interesting to watch (the name makes me think they should be running a gym in Pokémon).  The nature of Suletta's bond with Aerial seems to be changing... interesting.

Ep 10.  Flipping heck, the new Elan is a lot??  I'm glad that we got this lil timeskip to progress the plot — the prosthetic legs are definitely v. cool.  BUT WHAT IS THIS INTRIGUE with Shaddiq and Nika?

Ep 11.  Hot dig there was a lot happening in this but flipping heck I'm honestly so sad that Suletta didn't get to have lunch... and that might actually impact her piloting skills if she has to use Aerial in the next ep because she needs to be in good physical and mental condition?

Someone save Guel what the heck!

Ep 12.  Wow so much death in this ep!

- Miorine's daddy dies trying to save her (presumably — I don't think he'll live)

- Guel kills his own daddy in a weird twist of fate

- And Suletta???  I'd seen the mentions of Suletta killing someone in cold blood but that was GRUESOME.

What a way to end a season!

Ep 13.  Miorine seems to be keeping her distance following the last ep, which makes sense... Sophie is kind of an annoying character tbh.  I'm wondering how all of these different threads will come together, what with Earth folk vs Spacians, the Gundams' true forms and all the stuff with the Big Three.

Ep 14.  She turned her daughter into a Gundam?!?  What?!?!?

PROLOGUE.  I'm a goof djdjd I skipped the prologue because I figured it wouldn't really add to the story but I just watched it and everything makes so much more sense now fhdj what a dummy

Ep 15.  Man, Guel is shaping up to be a rly interesting character.  I feel for this boyo.

This ep was good; it was interesting to see the Earth stuff (although I am losing track of ppl's motivations).

NOREA IS SCARY.

Ep 16. Guel is back and taking matters into his own hands!

Man, seeing the extent to which Suletta is brainwashed is pretty scary.  I'm glad that Miorine confronted prospera directly...

Ep 17.  Oh geez, that duel!  Definitely emotionally-charged...

I really want everyone to find out the truth about Elan already...

Ep 18.  The Elan reveal dropped like a lead balloon and I'm mad that they didn't do more with that moment.

BUT WOW.  When the Gundam itself is accidentally the villain...?

This anime has so many themes linking to a notion of people only being important when they have utility and it's just so sad...

Ep 19.  I'm feeling a bit frantic because there are only 5 eps left and these chars are so bad at communicating with each other djdjjd like to this point there isn't anyone who knows the full story.

Ep 20.  Whoa... whoa.  The level of destruction in this episode?  All the feelings being aired?  All the death?  This was so —

And man, I didn't realise that I had been missing out on end of episode illustrations! This one of Norea and the fifth Elan is heartbreaking...

Ep 21.  Petra is alive!  For now, at least.

I cried a few tears when Suletta told everyone the truth about herself — and whoa, the power of Quiet Zero was SOMETHING.  But damn, I think they really wasted the Elan revelation AGAIN: Nika's outburst was so vague and there was basically zero reaction from the others, even when he barged in.  Considering the horror of Number 4's death sceen, they really just... kind of shrugged it off?  Even though there are so many parallels between Elan and Suletta.  Sighs.

Ep 22.  Finally... a conversation between Suletta and Elan, mostly off-screen, but at least it happened.

One thing that's odd is how everyone seems to have a secret Gundam hidden up their sleeve. Like it was weird enough to find out about Schwarzette but Calibarn literally came from nowehere lol

Ep 23.  I feel a bit dopey because a lot of technical stuff happened in this episode and I didn't really follow/understand it, lol... like Miorine recoding the password?  Huh?

Man, when I thought Landa had killed Guel I was SAD but then I was pleased to see Felsi for like the first time lololol

Ep 24.  A very flashy ending — the visuals were super cool!  And things ended well for everyone (except Shaddiq); the epilogue demonstrated that there was still work to do.  Guel working for OG Elan Ceres is pretty hilarious

AND MAN, dead Elan appearing was a welcome surprise!

OVERALL THOUGHTS

Hmm.

So yeah, on the whole, it was a very good and enjoyable show, though not one that really gripped me, I suppose (though I did watch the whole thing in a day, so maybe I didn't give myself enough time to absorb what was happening).  Some things felt a tad convoluted towards the end.

I thought the scenes where the characters were crying or having difficulties in their Gundams were really, really well done. And there was a lot of sweetness between different characters, especially Earth House. But yeah... I guess it felt like there were some missed opportunities (like we probably could have looked at the events of Episode 12 a bit more — there were some viewer theories that "Gain two" was some sort of trigger phrase for Suletta that sent her into a trance and this idea was glossed over pretty quickly, despite Suletta and Miorine having a heart-to-heart in the greenhouse).

The tech was freaking cool, so I enjoyed that aspect a ton!

It might just be that I'm currently on more of a nostalgia kick, lol.

[survivor-trinidad-and-tobago]

Episode 16: "I'm definitely in the minority and I do think I'm a jury threat!"—Champ

In this round: Alex wins a very chaotic game of Solo; Champ is sent to the jury, leaving Jack as the last Hot Girrrrllllzzz member standing; and Kaleigh plays her idol since it's the last time she can use it

Alex

Sorry for the last-minute steal, there, Kaleigh, but I couldn't let you take the lead in immunity wins. It's nice to know that everyone's pretty wiped out by this point in the season and nicer to know that we're just a few days to the end. It's maybe leaning Champ for this next vote? I think she's a greater threat at final immunity and then as long as Jack doesn't win final immunity it's our little trio at FTC?? Champ would probably snag a good number of the majority votes and Jack already got voted out of the game, which is just further points in the column of why I'd rather go with Kaleigh and Michael when asked. Kaleigh's making it sound like votes are a little more up in the air than I personally think they are, and I don't know if that's the case but either way we'll see what happens.

--

So I've been kind of just happy to scrap through with Michael and Kaleigh because they're the ones I'm closest to but when I do think about it, which I honestly haven't done a ton of tbh lmao, it just makes more sense to anyways. Like, Jack or Champ are gonna pull jury votes by default if they make it to the end. At least this way MAYBE I'd be considered the lesser of three evils.

Kaleigh

WOW ALEX RLY STOLE THAT THIRD IMMUNITY WIN FROM ME!!!!!!!!! but good for him LOL um, who will we be getting out? champ i guess? i guess i’ll use my idol on myself just as a safeguard ? i don’t think anyones coming for me but like… what am i gonna do, save it ?? as a souvenir? lmao i have so little energy to put into this at this point i’m just like… lets get on with it!!! jack and champ of course are like LETS GET MICHAEL OUT! but honestly like i have wanted to just get to the end w alex and michael this whole time …AND also that’s what i think is best for my game at this point? like if i flipped on michael i’d be … only POTENTIALLY getting to the final 3, and even if i did make it to final 3, jack and/or champ would be at the end too, and like the majority of the jury are ppl who were closely allied with champ. or who are salty enough that they’d vote jack if the option was me/jack/alexormichael. so i think the only way to give myself a chance at winning is to go with michael and alex. which coincidentally happens to be what i want to do! so i think i’ll vote champ and play my idol for myself just to show everyone i had it LOL

Jack

So even tho Alex won and it seems like me and champ are at a 3-2 disadvantage it seems like Kayleigh is ready to make a move and get out Michael LOL so maybe me and champ are boujee. At this point we have no other option LOL

Michael

No one has talked to me today really, so I know I'm going. 5th out, it's been fun.

Champ

Omg running late on a confession again! Honestly it’s so obvious it’s me going home, I’m definitely in the minority and I do think I’m a jury threat! Everyone so boring ew bye

Tribal Council

Votes:

Champ: Michael (You’re boring OPES)

Kaleigh: Champ (ILY ANGEL GOOD LUCK ON UR ILLINOIS SURVIVOR COMP!! <3)

Alex: Champ (Sorry, dear, but I think you could pull out a final immunity win. Just know that you weren't dragged to final five, your own game got you this far ❤️❤️)

Michael: Champ (You've played a great game, and I think if you make it to final tribal you have a really good shot at winning. I think it's me tonight, but if you do get voted out this tribal, even though we didn't play together, you made the game really fun!)

Jack: Michael (wouldn’t be surprised if me or champ go home, but hopefully Kayleigh voted with us)

[llycaons]

okay SO modern au the first chapter was about wwx moving back to his hometown after leaving the LP company and it was all fine and normal and I skimmed it and hit the second chapter, which was just an author's summary of everything that happened afterwards, but where it got really good was the end notes. I bolded some lines for emphasis

if you are a Jiang Cheng fan, SKIP THE END NOTES. i personally don't like him, not at all, and I rly hate how the fandom has painted him out to be this sweet tsundere who "actually really cares deep down inside". imo, and after reading through the entire novel and watching cql, the donghua, and reading the manhua again, every version just seems to really validate my thought that Jiang Cheng is actually a really terrible person.

[fic summary]

im gonna expand on my thoughts on Jiang Cheng. every fic I come across in Fanon, every art work, paints Jiang Cheng out to be this adorable, hurting, sad ball of fluff. wtf in canon, he's literally the opposite of this. he lashes out at people randomly, and even if that is his own way of showing affection, he's 35-40 years old. he's an adult. he should have realized, long ago that being angry and bitter and taking it out on people like lwj and wwx is behavior that he could have excused when he was a child, but as soon as he crossed the threshold into 18-20 years old he should have GOTTEN HIS SHIT TOGETHER. I rly rly hate how everyone blames everything on madam yu abusing him, or Jiang Yanli's death. and people really seem to love pushing the blame onto wwx. ??? let wwx be angry at Jiang Cheng. im not saying its not valid to like characters you like. but I think Jiang Cheng getting painted out to be gentle and kind and loving hidden under a shell of loneliness is such BS. I think that its not only wwx and Jin Ling who suffered from Jiang Cheng's harsh words. to a certain extent, if you look at the way jyl behaves around him, he hurt her too. she was always so careful to be gentle with her brothers because she loved them, she loved them so much and she just wanted them to be happy, and she always held their family together through everything, and Jiang Cheng always brushed off her efforts or took it as granted. the only time he ever really shows genuine concern for her health was when he was using it against wwx and telling wwx it was his fault. now I think at the end of the book, he might be moving slowly towards change. I like how at the end he's starting to finally realize that he can also be at fault for some things, instead of pushing the blame onto wwx always. and Jiang Cheng does love wwx. I know that. he does show it, when he led the soldiers away. I think that was a great thing for him to do, but its really one of the only times in canon when he ever does something that sacrifices himself for someone else. it's not his duty to sacrifice himself to help wwx like wwx does for him, and he certainly doesn't have to, and it's not very healthy to think that way, but it's also really the only instance that he ever puts someone else before himself. every other time he's yelling at wwx that its his fault. in cql it kinda gets dumbed down a lot. I like cql jc much more than I like novel jc, bc novel jc makes himself seem the victim. I don't think its intentional, but it kind of comes off as incredibly manipulative, in the same way Jin Guangyao does it. while jgy was intentional in his manipulation, I think jc is just much more like his parents than he should be. jc's breakdown at guanyin temple is sort of proof. he reveals that he's always thought of himself as the victim bc "what was I supposed to do, you left me, I needed you and you left me to fuck off to burial mounds, they're not your family im your family" this only serves to further gaslight wwx, because he knows. he knows wwx blames himself. what in the fresh fuck would saying all this accomplish except for the sole purpose of making wwx feel worse about himself? why did he never once stand up for wwx? it makes me so mad? it seems like before wwx died, in the last year or so before his death jc really tried his best to be the biggest asshole. wwx was practically invincible. if he'd supported his brother, they would've been stronger in the eyes of the sects, not weaker. he always preaches to wwx about how family is more important than the wens, but not once did he stick up for his family. even when jzx was rude to jyl, he didn't defend her, and even if he agreed with wwx when wwx insulted jzx he still had to go and yell at him for it. im not saying wwx was innocent or that it was fully jc's fault, btw.

I don't even rly care abt it bc that's just character design and that's just how it is. why I had to write all this and seem like a petty hater is because the way Fanon portrays him-it's like they get rid of all his bad parts. they place him on a pedestal and say "he's hurting, poor little jc needs a hug" that makes me kind of angry. no one ever acknowledges or calls him out on it, but I see plenty of people make jl and jc mad at wwx for "not supporting him enough" when wwx literally never ever did anything to hurt Jiang Cheng, and Jiang Cheng has done NOTHING but try to intentionally hurt wwx with his words. he literally psychologically abuses him with the dogs and no one acknowledges it and it makes me so sad for wwx.

what a breath of fresh air to read this, no joke. their point about jyl is super interesting too

Just read a weird one where the structure was all over the place but in the author notes they wrote a whole essay about much they dislike jc and how annoyed they are at the way the fandom treats him and I gotta copy it out bc I'm sitting in the corner cheering lmao like 99% of fic authors are like 'ohhh poor baby jc he just needs a hug he had it worse than anyone else wwx can ONLY be happy with him and everything he did was justified 🥺' but its just not the case... when I get to a computer. you all will see

[babymilkawa]

random boyfriend headcanons with:

bakugou katsuki

gn!reader :)

no. 2

bakugou warms up the bed for you with his hands and body while ur doing ur night time routine because he knows u get cold easily

although you'd much rather be in his arms rather than ur side of the bed 🙄 hes being sweet so don't say anything 🤫

one day u bought him a shark tooth necklace and just went up to him and said "you shud wear this, you'd look really hot"

and of course, he already knows he'll look good and because it's you saying it, he'll wear it when he's shirtless and on top of you 😏

sometimes if he's talking too much or being annoying you'll just put the necklace in between his teeth

if u wear slippers when it's cold, denki steals them from u sometimes and bakugou will just carry u wherever until u find them so ur feet don't have to touch the cold ground

maybe even hide them from u a little longer so he'll have an excuse

so we all know bakugou reads romance mangas right

u read them with him and what he does is that he keeps in mind of the specific scenes/panels that you gush about or react to

then when u finish reading it, he'll go back and highlight or type them up in his notes so that he can subtly reenact them with you

but every time he does it ur always like "awww u got that from [blank] didn't you " and he's like "no pssh what r u talking about dumbass"

bakugou loves to annoy you,,,now on that note I will present to you:

vacuum kithes <33>>

sometimes if ur having a soft moment and u just wanna kiss those soft lips of his he'll start sucking ur mouth and it makes this weird suction noise and it's so ANNOYING cuz ur tryna have a moment here

ur covering his mouth with ur hand and he's laughing while biting and licking ur hand

ANOTHER annoying thing is like when u guys wear masks he'll just walk up to you

and pull ur mask so that it snaps back in ur face

he does it to annoy you and to see that cute nose scrunch u do whenever that happens

he'll also bring u close while walking next to you and just back kick his foot to tap ur ass

sry does that make sense?? Idk how else to explain it

ok moving on to online learning related things he does

if u guys have some of the same classes, he'll pin your camera on zoom so that ur face is the largest on his screen and all the extras are tiny

it's just an excuse to stare at u better and u'll never knoww sooo👀

ur teachers ask yall to pick the people in ur breakout groups and yall always pick each other

sometimes there are other people in ur breakout groups but u don't rly care, u just talk to bakugou like normal

he's a little iffy cuz he doesn't want the extras to see a peek in his love life with you but his desire to talk to u is much greater

u guys r the only ones with your cameras on and he hates that it seems like the others r just listening to ur convo

the light is hitting u j right and even with the shitty WiFi u still look stunning

he almost starts grumbling abt how he doesn’t want other ppl to see ur face

BRUH A WHAT NOW BAKU R U SERIOUS THIS IS FOR CLASS

for social media, if u guys r just chilling or he's bored, he'll j go onto ur account and start hyping up ur posts like even if they're a year old

cos even better right, no one'll scroll that far and see his comments

u guys even do live videos sometimes, mostly u want to do it and he just sits there

a lot of people join actually and ask u guys questions abt ur relationship

u answer them and bakugou just scoffs at them like "why do u wanna know so bad, huh? stick ur nose somewhere else!"

he thinks tiktok couples r cheesy and evthing is staged and honestly same here but maybe I’m j too single

his phone password

It’s UR FREAKING name with his last name IM GONNA DIE 😫💕

it’s literally bakugouy/n

it’s a little obvious for snoopers like the bakusquad but is this not cute or WHAT

for dates, you'll sometimes let him pick ur outfit if he doesn't want to tell you where y'all are going

and he has good taste ok cuz,,his parents,, 😼

n e ways he dresses u up and the place u end up going like fits PERFECTLY with the fit and the pics yall take will obvi b in ur next sm post

if u have an allowance/budget and u overspend sometimes and u complain like "ugh I can't buy that sweater now cos if I do i'll have to skip my weekly boba drink” 🥺

he grumbles "dumbass, i'll just get it for u, y r u even complaining"

sugar daddy

woooh this was long

but imma have to stop here cuz the list will only get longer and longer

but yea! this is honestly what I think about in my daily life hence the pandemic related tings huehue

there'll prolly b a part 2 <33

bnha masterlist

[cozymoko]

I rly love your work ❤️💕

Also maybe sasuke with a African American darling?I thought it would be something different 😅 and new to work with 😂 how do you think he would react to her hair style changes every 2-3 weeks 😂 sense that’s pretty normal in our community 💀

Anyway keep up the good work 💕🥰

Note: Thank you for viewing my work; I hope this is to your satisfaction! I didn't know the greatest approach and I will edit this later when I sleep more. ♡★

🍙 Sasuke would in no way complain about you taking care of yourself. He's more happy a about it than anything. Coming home to you after weeks of his absence, with you always surprising him with hairstyles he's never heard of. All in which he seems to adore on you, not too outwardly might I add. Though I hope you'll pick up his subtle compliments and lingering looks, that may just be the only hint you'll get!

❂——"Ah, what would you call these?" He asks, lightly turning you to the side, careful not to touch your newly done hair.

❂——"Goddess Braids, you like?" You beam, moving some of your hair to the front of you. The Uchiha gave a curt hum in content, still marveling over your waist-length braids.

🍙 Happens to enjoy watching you work as he's notably curious about the various methods. Always starting with a half a table of products, neatly lined one by one, with all the labels on display. You pick up each product, making use of every last one. All while responding to Sasuke's frequent questions about how you finished so fast, what each product is for.

🍙 If he's able to assist you he's more than accommodating. Asking you upfront on how to do it, if not that he'll do his research. It shouldn't take too long for him to pick up how to do it, box braids are his specialty and that's all.

❂——"Pfft, Sasuke that's not how you do it." You laughed taking the comb from his hand, sectioning another part, and passing it to him. "Follow my lead."

🍙 God, he finds it so attractive, every last one of your intricate styles. However, even if he likes all of your hairstyles, he too does have some favorites. Locks merely because the history they hold, also how powerful he'd think you'd look in them. If not those then just a simple puff or two will do you enough justice in his eyes. Sasuke is honestly quite a plain man.

🍙 The time and labor you put into your hair is truly honorable since we all know he doesn't give too much thought to his. You'd be propped up in a chair for hours on top of hours, taking little to no breaks unless you need something. But don't worry about that Sasuke would be delighted to help you out.

❂——"Does your back hurt from this?" Sasuke inquiries, taking the section of hair from your hand as you go to work on the other one.

❂——"Of course it does, but you'll learn to get used to it," You smile, finishing the last braid covering the left side of your head. "Now hand me that will you?"

🍙 You're honestly incredible to him, holding the ability to rock reach and every hairstyle you try. But at the end of the day, we all need a break. After a long evening away from you, Sasuke comes home, often relishes carefully picking out your hair, taking his time to oil your hair while you tell him about your day.

[minahoeshi]

you were loved the most of all.

Ushijima Wakatoshi x reader | break-up angst

summary: You should've known that when Ushijima Wakatoshi found it easy to fall in love with you, it might be even easier for him to fall out of it. But who expects the worst when it comes to loving someone as seemingly perfect as him, anyway?

Chapter 1 of 2

Chapter 2 of 2

He said it was easy to fall in love with you. He said he didn’t know when exactly, at which place, nor for what reason. Simply one day, Ushijima Wakatoshi found himself looking at you with the epiphany that maybe there’s something more meant to happen between you and him. There you stood before him that day, the person he could promise love to. (And there he stood before you that moment, the boy whose promises you found yourself believing in no matter what.)

So maybe that’s why it was even easier for him to fall out of love. When he told you he was no longer in love with you, it didn’t matter to you to ask when exactly, at which place, or for what reason. Even the universe itself is meant to fizzle out one day along with the death of the stars. Just one more person drifting away from you like a lone planet with no real orbit shouldn’t leave you broken. You are used to this. You won’t fall apart.

But you break anyway.

It was snowing outside when he decided to tell you to end things now before it hurts both of you even further. Not that the snow has anything to do with the coldness creeping up your chest threatening to spill out of you in endless sobs. You were glad, though. That at the very least, he remained honest with his feelings. He never left you guessing. Every time, he never forgets to tell you what’s on his mind. His honesty is something he thought was necessary.

“I understand, don’t worry. Thank you for telling me right away. I know you’re also considering me–” you tell him and choke up. There are tears running down your face but you’re not worried about that. Wakatoshi never let you mask your emotions around him. For the longest time, he reminded you to feel free to be completely bare with him. All the good and the bad, he said. Don’t be afraid to show them to me. I will always understand.

He steps closer and puts you between his arms. You feel his chin on top of your head as you lean your face into his chest. You’re sobbing now. “I’ll be fine, Toshi. We’ll be fine.”

He kisses the top of your head and lets you stay in his arms for minutes. “I loved you then, and I love you still. It’s just that they’re no longer the same kind. I will stay if you ask me to, okay? Anything you want.”

This only makes you cry harder. He’s always been too good. And even in breaking your heart, he’s too good. You want him to hold on. You want to ask him to stay with you for years and years. Even with a different kind of love, you’ll let him be as long he’s close by. But someone like him who has dreams beyond yourself shouldn’t ever be with someone like you who still lacks certainty toward anything.

“Just for tonight,” you ask, still crying. “Can I stay?”

“of course,” he replies. Anytime you want. Anything you want. It has always been this way.

Because humans are creatures of routines and familiarity, you spend that night the way you usually do when you’re at his place. You cook dinner with him and eat on the dining table, sharing stories and laughter. You keep adding food to his plate and he smiles as you giggle at everything you find funny.

It’s okay, it’s okay. You’ll be okay. You’ll be fine.

You clean the kitchen and stay in the living room. He leans on the couch as you lay down with your head on his lap. You keep talking and laughing. He goes along, sometimes adding things to make you laugh even more, sometimes simply agreeing, sometimes asking questions. You keep it loud and light, afraid of the silence. Inside you, it’s so heavy, your heart might just fall off. This will be the last, you tell yourself. You want to be happy for now. While he’s still here.

"Do me a favor, okay?" You tell him as you're nearing slumber. "Let me leave first tomorrow. Maybe stay in bed, maybe pretend you're asleep. But tomorrow, don't get out of the room until I've left the house." Your voice shakes, feeling yourself wanting to sob.

"I don't want to wake up to another empty bed but I don't want to see your face when I wake up too," you curl into him even further. "I'm sorry for being selfish. I'm sorry I still don't really know what to do. And I know you wake up pretty early and you know, do stuff, but just for tomorrow, please?"

Wakatoshi didn't really understand why. He originally planned on cooking breakfast for you and taking you to the train station. He would watch you board the train and he'd make sure to smile at you as he waves. You always waved back. That's how it works. Even after fights, and even after especially bad nights, you'd still do the same. Watching you leave with a smile was how you both knew you'd still be fine the days after. That nothing much can affect your relationship. For years, this has been the routine.

But tomorrow, he knows he has to give way. He knows what he said hurt you. It would be wrong of him to do what he wants simply because he's used to.

Tomorrow's the last, he realises. And then if you want, he'd never see you again.

--

You wake up pretty early. The sky is a calm shade of blue, the world outside still waking up. You check the time on your phone and find it's 6 AM. Last night, you slept with your back on him. The sight before you is the other end of his bedroom and you notice just how much of yourself you've managed to leave around his place. Pieces of just one other person in his life, scattered in places around his world pretending that’s just where they belong. You didn't mind leaving things behind back then. You never really thought of the day that you might’ve to take back all of them. Just how does one pick up parts of themselves when they thought they’ve finally found a place for them to stay?

But as you stand up, you conclude that when things end, traces shouldn’t be left behind. He didn’t decide to break up only to be reminded of you even after you’re no longer close to him. So you go and pick every little thing that's yours. Even your jacket and sweaters and a few pairs pyjamas in his closet. You'll just take his things from your place too and hand it to Tendou's shop. Coming back here won’t do you any good. Him coming to your place instead wouldn’t either.

Collecting all your things, even the ones you can't use anymore, you leave the bedroom and enter the living room. You don't have many belongings here aside from some DVDs and books. You only take the books and leave the rest for him. You've always preferred reading anyway.

Setting your bag and things aside on the sofa, you go ahead and wash yourself in the bathroom and bring your toothbrush and some other products with you when you're done. You then head to the kitchen to cook him something light to eat for breakfast . You knew you didn't have to. He knows how to cook. It has always been him cooking breakfast for you. When you could, you’d rather stay in bed until the very moment you must start preparing to go to uni or work. But you did anyway. He's probably in his bed, awake. He has never been a heavy sleeper. With all the moving you did around his room, he was bound to wake up if he wasn't already.

You make him a simple omelette and write a small message on top of it with ketchup. "Good luck with practice today!"

You've already cleaned everything you used, preferring to wash and set utensils as soon as you're done with them. That way, when you're sitting down to eat, there won't be any cluster around to distract you.

You put the ketchup down and decide that should be enough. You'll stop here. You should go now.

Ushijima is sitting on his bed. He's been awake since 5 AM when he usually goes on his run. It isn't the first time he chose to stay with you instead of going out, but he can't help but feel heavy this time. He stayed in for you. But as the minutes pass by, it seems that he simply cannot find the courage to sit up and face you.

He wants to sink into his bed.

There's knock on the door followed by sentences uttered softly. "Toshi, I'm going now. There's breakfast on the table. Make sure to eat before you go."

There goes the heavy feeling again. Maybe if this keeps up, he might just actually sink and never get back up.

You've done that a few times. Leaving while he's still in the room. You don't even open the door. You simply knock and tell him you're about to go, always reminding him to eat before he goes too.

But this will be the last, he thinks. If you leave now, will he never see you again?

a/n

chapter 2 will be up soon not rly sure when tho. (it's up now the link is at the top)

also, im not entirely sure but i think i didnt use any pronouns or gendered nouns for this except "girl" in the 1st paragraph which i erased just now? if i'm right, then i hope everyone reading this get to feel as though theyre rly the person in the story. unless ofc u dont want that bc this isnt the happiest ushitoshi x reader fic u can find🥲. but thanks for reading!!!! m so sorry for typos nd other errors as well. i kinda cant read my own writings bc sometimes doing so makes me wanna smack myself in the head and never write again nd i hate that so now im leaving my mistakes to the gods nd hope they love me enough or smth. but yes thank u sm again for reading!!!!

[bunycube]

Hello!! i just saw your answers :') sorry it took some time!

aaaa i keep hearing lots of good stuff about Lamento but I'd have to find somewhere to download it tho I'm bad at installing games like that ,_, i did it for re:connect and it was a pain and took forever to figure out lol

i haven't played slow damage either! but i heard about the english release which is nice 👀

i only played TnC, sweet pool and dmmd .. it's funny because i never heard of any of those games before the beginning of this year :') i also prefer Sweet pool to TnC , just the whole general vibe i don't really know how to explain why tho x)

while i do love Tetsuo, Youji is alright too but for unknow reasons Zenya has stolen my heart :"))) and it's funny because i was expecting Makoto to be maybe the only "sweet" ending or something LOL it ended up being the most unhinged lmao i would have liked more than 1 ending option with Zenya and Makoto too ~

as for TnC Nano is my absolute favorite! i was also suprised with Motomi when i did his route i really fell in love with it too

currently listening to the sweet pool OST on repeat :')

rambled a lil so putting my answer under the cut!

OH HI HI HIIIII dony even worry abt it! man lamento is a pain to download i could only figure it out after looking at a youtube tutorial u have to dl all this extra stuff for it too its 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 but it was worth it for me!!! such a beautiful game, tho its so long.

WERE STILL WAITING FOR THAT ENGLISH TRANSLATION LMAOOOOO IM DYING OVERNEHRE I CANT DO THIS ANYMROE I WANNA PLAY OT SO BAD!!!;÷^#^@^$^#&

hehe i only got to know abt the other chiral games late in last year...b4 that i only knew dmmd 😭 tho im glad i found out its been keepint me going since then nsbfdbsb

oh same same same i cant rly explain what i love so much abt sweet pools overall setting and atmosphere its so quiet and kinda peaceful but also a lil ominous? it always feels like smth bad is goinf to happen, which it does. i guess...but yeah theres always that feeling of "something is happening" in the air even in ordinary scenes, and it feels kinda nostalgic..the setting..idk. i love the lgihting and stuff in it too and the muted colours hmm yes.

ill be honest i didnt like tetsuo for a rlyyy long time. i still feel he has a bit of a cardboard box personality but he has his moments, and i dont hate him or anything..youji is very close 2 me tho im very fond of him.hes liek a friend to me, idk why tho..and same!!!! zenya is ky fav char i liked him from his first appearance!!&$^@ he seemed like such an entertaining n interesting personality?#,%,# and thd mroe i got to know abt him the more itneresting hsi char got..

ik zenya has done many bad things and it disgusted me also, but overall i still thought he was pretty well written n hes definitelyyy my favourite chsr hes jsut so interestimg i could write a whole analysis on him i think..i should..tho i never want zenya n youji to interact they should be kept entire cities apart imo in fact zenya himself should jsut move away farrr away drom his dad and all thid bs i think.

plsss there r no sweet endings in sweet pool 😭😭😭😭 tho just for my own happiness i like to imagien a universe where youji n makoto actually get to rebuild their relationship post hospital scene, anf they all hang out like they had planned...CRIES....

hmm abt tnc id say rin is my fav i loveeee his personality his design (NOT HIS POST TIME SKIP DESIGN THAT OUTFIT IS UGLYYYY) !! i liked nano in routes that werent his, but his route left such a bad taste in my mouth i cant bring myself to enjoy him anymore 😢 he still looks very comfy cozy tho, which i appreciate! i knew id love motomi from the start bc hes a dilf character (which is My Type) and i heard hes really kind n sweet so i lovedddd him! i love akira also <3 and i unfortunstely kinda like gunji too im sorry im SORRYYYY HES TERRIBLE HE WAS JEUT RLY ENTERTAINING tho his ending was obv painful to sit through. im sorry !!!&#^$ and i lvoe akiractoo so much more than i expected? hes a good kid <33

IM RAMBLING TOO MUCH ILL SHUTCUP NOW SBFBSB TY FORNTHE ASKKK

[sotorubio]

Why is Ava still the front runner for a potential season 8? Ava has been prominently ft in every season of the new gen - although im not sure if that will remain the case during s7. But srsly is no one on tumblr interested in giving other characters a moment in the sun? Finn, Yara and Mailin are top of my list!

unnecessarily long answer ahead beware 🤸‍♀️ pls read the section in parenthesis at the end too bc i'm talking abt my own opinion here n don't wanna seem like i'm discrediting yours!!

i think the reason she's such a popular pick is actually exactly bc of the fact that she's been a big part of other seasons. her possible storylines have been prefaced & foreshadowed already so moving onto her pov would make sense n be smooth.

this is mostly just my personal opinion but also just generally what makes a good story: the reason noora's season works well is bc she's a central part of eva's story too n we've seen her interactions w william in the past, the reason isak's season works is bc he's tied into the joneva plotline from eva's season & is a background topic in noora's season too, sana's season works bc her faith has been brought up time n time again in the previous seasons. in the context of druck, fatou's season works rly well bc her crush on kieu my has already been discussed & built up in nora's season.

alternatively, tiff's season flopped bc they took a main character that had zero existing storylines & invented a theme for her that was mentioned for the first time ever in a trailer. the reason ismail's season is falling flat for a lot of viewers is bc instead of focusing on the existing plotlines from season 5&6 (ava's bullying, constantin & ismail's draining friendship, the instas as group etc) they've used the first episodes to build character dynamics w completely new characters & lay the foundations for some sort of love drama plot.

TLDR the mains that work best r the ones whose stories are tied to or can be tied to the previous seasons.

for example finn & yara. do i like them? yes, a lot. do i wanna see more of them? absolutely. would i watch a season abt one of them? most likely.

what do i think one of their seasons could be about? i have absolutely no idea bc we don't know anything abt them. they're lovely side characters n in theory i have nothing against the idea of seeing them as a main. but it would mean their season is very separate & detached from everything that's happened in the series so far bc they don't have any existing topics n i assume that's why those kind of side characters aren't as popular.

as for ava i can already name 5 things that 1. could be topics in her season and 2. have an already existing foundation from the previous seasons.

but like i said - and this was kind of the point of my post - the show keeps solving all these possible conflicts n topics ava has as part of other characters' stories which leads me, an avid ava season supporter, to ask the same question as u. why should she be the one to get a season? the more they resolve the less it makes sense to give an entire season to her. don't get me wrong, i personally DO believe she should get a season. i want to see her season. even if they run out of every single plot line for her i'd still watch a season abt her. but i'm worried that if she gets a season she'll end up getting a random theme that they came up with after s6 or s7 that ultimately has nothing to do w her already established story.

(also as a side note 💌 i am in no way trying to say u shouldn't wish to see other characters' seasons. if that's what u would be interested in u have every right to think so!! i'm just explaining what i believe to be the reason behind these type of characters unpopularity as opposed to ava)

[sexyglances]

are you caught up on inspector koo? don't read the rest of my message if not! but geonuk made some interesting choices this week, like some may think he's ""forced"" to help yikyung but in the latest ep, he /chose/ to run away from daeho, he /chose/ to help yikyung again, and he definitely seemed excited to be doing that kind of thing again with her. he really wanted to juggle 2 worlds and seems like its yikyung he can't fully give up. anyway its interesting and i wonder how his plot's gonna end

Well, i mean, the whole show is basically about the choices people make and the repercussions of those choices. When the drama begins, our two leads are living within choices--kyungyi is wallowing in a life defined by the devolution that happened when she couldn't let go of her husband's choices and her reactions to them, and yikyung has built a life making other people mortally pay for their choices. Noone is blameless in their life.

So while i agree that everything is happening to geonuk bc of his choices, i rly don't think it's so black and white that he prefers to be with yikyung over a "normal" life with daeho. Firstly, yikyung has been the greatest influence on his life for the longest part of his life at this point. Helping her is what he knows. After breaking up with daeho he was wallowing and rudderless, but being able to get absorbed by a project that he is familiar with again is comforting. When he was with kyungyi and co in his apartment he seemed bewildered and lost the entire time until he sat down and did his security guard detective work thing. It's the same principle as to how kyungyi is most content (or rather, least bothered) in her life when she's focusing on her computer game. It's a distraction from any other listless and depressed thoughts that could take over at any moment. It's always easier to choose what you know over a new path, and what geonuk knows is yikyung's directions, so when he was in contact with her again, he had a purpose and someone to guide him again.

As far as geonuk running away from daeho, i don't blame him! Geonuk knows that he is guilty and he has lived his whole life dodging being caught. When the love of his life shows up with the cops without any warning, his first thought isn't going to be to trust the cops, it's going to be to flee like always. All he knows is flight, really. He fled from his father, he fled from society to be yikyung's helper and cctv watcher, and in his act of love to protect daeho, he fled their relationship. He only showed back up at daeho's door because he was fleeing something else, and then the dream he tried to sell to daeho was to escape to the beach and start a new life together. It's kind of his mythical curse isn't it? The only way he can be happy is to run away, yet running away is never going to be a real, viable choice with a finish line. At the end of every decision isn't an ending, just another crossroads to keep running.

What i find the most tragic is that geonuk can't see that what daeho did was not a betrayal, but an act of love. Daeho said he would wait for geonuk as long as it takes, knowing full well that he was going to turn him into the police. Daeho turned him in so geonuk could absolve himself, pay for his crimes, and move on. But all geonuk could see in that moment was betrayal and another reason to flee. He doesn't have the history nor the ability to see things from a longview perspective to feel anything but hurt and know any decision but flight.

[vivithefolle]

I was always confused by Hermiones behavior towards Ron in OOTP. Was she trying to hide her feelings? because she didn't really gave him any signs. Why she was so nasty at him with the teaspoon thing. Was she trying to make him jealous with the letters? What did or didn't she understand from Ron giving her the perfume. Is all this just JKR being stupid because she don't want them together before the very end. Sry for all these questions but I am rly confused can you plz help Vivi?

Once again, I’ll copy one of my Quora essays!

it’s a stereotype to say that girls resort to underhanded tactics when it comes to dating, or like to “test” their partner’s love… but it’s a stereotype for a reason: there are teenage girls who resort to those tactics.

The archetype of the Tsundere exists as an exaggeration of the traits some teenage girls demonstrate when they find themselves in a position of vulnerability such as “having a crush on someone”.

For someone as prideful as Hermione is, having a crush on someone is extremely threatening.

Hermione prides herself in her logic and intelligence. The validation she receives from getting good grades is something she needs, because she’s very insecure deep down. She thinks all she has to offer is her intelligence, and as she goes from a little girl to a young woman, this causes her grief because she doesn’t want to be just “intelligent”. As her body develops and changes, she finds that being the smartest one in the room isn’t enough anymore - she still loves being the smartest in the room, but she wants more than just that, she wants validation for other things. That’s why she was extremely hurt when Ron tactlessly (and Rowling-ly) remarks “you’re a girl” - she wants to be seen as a girl, as a woman, as more than a walking brain. She wants validation that she is a girl, and beautiful, and sexy, and capable of making heads spin. She needs “sexual” validation, for lack of a better term.

Of course she doesn’t really realize those feelings. All she knows is that it hurts when Ron seems to consider her “one of the guys”, or looks at girls that aren’t her. She likes it when he compliments her, but she’s also angry at him because he only ever seems to compliment her intelligence and damn it, she wants him to compliment something else! She wants him to look at her, REALLY look at her! Look at her like he looks at the pretty girls!

Little does she know that Ron does look at her, but he probably thinks he’s a pervert for doing so. Because - because she’s Hermione! She’s not like other girls, she’s not - she’s not the kind of girl you ogle! She’s the kind of girl you gift flowers to - roses, they’re her favourite - the kind of girl you have long, meaningful talks with - not sure if they’re always meaningful, but they sure talk a lot together! - she’s the kind of girl you… the kind of girl you love, not the kind of girl you just look at…

*wistful sigh* Mutual pining, mutual admiration, slow burn, +100k words…

But truth is, many people go around saying that Hermione treating Ron harshly and treating pretty much every boy (with exceptions like Draco Malfoy) more gently is because she actually doesn’t like Ron, and likes anyone but Ron.

When the truth actually is that… Hermione is awful. No, no, seriously, when Hermione is in love, she’s terrible. She can be a nice friend but when she’s in love with you she’s horrible. Especially since she’s a teenager.

Hermione is a prime example of a Tsundere.

The cute, blushy, giggling Hermione who flirts with [insert character here] and cries delicately when she’s rejected? Pure fanfiction. Canon Hermione keeps her love aggressively hidden behind countless iron walls, only letting it peek through when she’s absolutely sure the person she likes isn’t looking.

“How was practice?” asked Hermione rather coolly half an hour later, as Harry and Ron climbed through the portrait hole into the Gryffindor common room. “It was -” Harry began. “Completely lousy,” said Ron in a hollow voice, sinking into a chair beside Hermione. She looked up at Ron and her frostiness seemed to melt. - Order of the Phoenix

Rare footage of the Hermione Granger, scientific name Selfinsertus Overratedus, displaying interest in specimen of mighty fine hunk

Hermione isn’t sweet and tender and kind with the one she loves. At least, the teenage Hermione isn’t. She’s harsh, she’s disdainful and only gives out breadcrumbs of affection once in a while as part of the complicated mind game she’s playing.

You see, Hermione is never going to make the first move. You must be the one to ask her out, because she sure as hell ain’t going to do it for you.

This is due, I think, to the events of Goblet of Fire. Viktor Krum asks her out because Rowling absolutely wants Hermione to be the ugly duckling who transforms into the beautiful swan, so she brings in Cardboard Cutout With No Personality Aside From Being Famous to woo her self-insert.

Now Hermione has gotten the experience of being asked out, and being a rather socially awkward person who also hates being vulnerable - more on that later - well, now she just assumes that if someone asked her out once, then anyone who does like her can do the same.

Which is why she doesn’t realize that Ron is actually aware he loves her. There’s a big comedy of assumptions going on in Romione’s love story.

Hermione believes that Ron either 1) likes her but is oblivious to his own feelings and so she thinks she has to “give him hints” to make him realize it. Emphasized best by this exchange:

Hermione laughed. “Harry you’re worse than Ron [at understanding girls]… well, no, you’re not, “ she sighed, as Ron himself came stumping into the Hall splattered with mud and looking grumpy.

“I’ve sent him so many signals and yet he doesn’t notice. Woe is me!”

2) doesn’t actually likes her, but sees her just as a good mate or worse, as another sister.

Hermione keeps flip-flopping between her two assumptions throughout the series, all because of her biggest assumption: she thinks that if Ron was interested in her, he would ask her out. Because Viktor Krum was interested in her, and he asked her out, so why wouldn’t Ron do the same? They’re both boys and she’s a girl, after all. Isn’t that how it works?

This is also why Hermione’s “““invitation”““ to the Slug Club isn’t even an invitation - really, it’s worse than Ron’s invite to the Yule Ball, at least he was actually offering her to come:

“We’re allowed to bring guests,” said Hermione, […], “and I was going to ask you to come, but […] I won’t bother.”

“I was going to ask you to come but I won’t bother.”

This is literally what she says. It’s more of a “look Ron! An invite! If you’re good maybe I’ll think about letting you have it!” than anything else.

It’s because this is Hermione’s last resort. The ultimate humiliation. She has to resort to inviting Ron when in her mind, he’s supposed to be the one asking her out. He’s the boy! He’s supposed to do it! (And this is why I laugh at all the fools who claim that Hermione is the pinnacle of feminism. Seriously, the girl is more of a misogynist than any other character in the series.)

Hermione failed to take into account that Ron’s insecurity cripples him worse than she imagines, and that he copes with it differently than she copes with her own insecurities.

And this is the part where I explain about Hermione’s hatred of being vulnerable.

You see, I can relate quite a lot to Hermione - I see a lot of me in her, and a lot of people who hurt me in the past as well.

Bullied because she was an easy target, being the know-it-all and local teacher’s pet? Yep. Bullied for her appearance (I got braces when I was 8 and have been wearing glasses since I was a toddler, she had her bushy hair and buck teeth)? Can relate. Cried easily? Super check. Rule enforcer when the teachers weren’t around? Mega check.

And naturally, when you’re such a water fountain as I was, there’s nothing more humiliating than ending up crying in front of your bullies. You quickly learn that it will bring you nothing but more bullying. More humiliation. More vulnerability.

Hence why you start despising any form of vulnerability you find in yourself.

Obviously, being in love? That’s one of the most terrible things you can find yourself in when you’re afraid of being vulnerable. Because, oh god, your feelings are completely insane around the person. They make or ruin your day. You keep wanting to show them how cool / great / impressive you are, and you try desperately to mask all your little faults so they will hopefully return your feelings.

Given that Hermione is already not the most socially-aware battering ram in the knife drawer, she acts especially nasty to Ron, because she’s overcompensating for the vulnerability he makes her feel. And she most likely isn’t even aware of it! Forget Fanfic Hermione cringing as she realizes how mean she sounds, welcome Canon Hermione who just doubles down on a pointless argument just to drive home how totally in control she is and how Ron has absolutely zero effect on her, no siree!

In short: Hermione overthinks. She overthinks everything. She’s overthinking every of Ron’s actions, she’s assuming he’s either out to get her because she assumes he’s perfectly aware of her crush on him and he’s just toying with her (this is the very insecure, pessimistic Hermione speaking), she’s assuming he’s completely oblivious to her feelings and so she uses the ages-old technique of the “subtle hints” to make her feelings known to him (and fails miserably because she doesn’t want to put herself out there too much in case he rejects her, which would be the ultimate humiliation and the worst possible thing to happen to her, in her teenage girl mind), and she’s assuming he’ll never like her the way she likes him, all the while being woefully oblivious to the fact that Ron does want to be with her but she keeps sending him signals that she sees him as a troublesome child rather than a potential partner.

All in all, a teenage Hermione in love is utter torture. She’s her own worst enemy, and it’s only when she decides to let go of it all - of the mind games, of the distancing, of the passive-aggressive; of the overthinking - and just takes a chance that her efforts bear fruit.

There was a clatter as the basilisk fangs cascaded out of Hermione’s arms. Running at Ron, she flung them around his neck and kissed him full on the mouth. Ron threw away the fangs and broomstick he was holding and responded with such enthusiasm that he lifted Hermione off her feet.

(As much as I’m disillusioned with Romione, this kiss is still one of my favourite parts of the series. They mutually sweep each other off their feet for god’s sake, you wish your ship would.)