#I don't know Jowan's canon age but he's older than the warden while conspicuously old for not having done the joining

[death-rebirth-senshi]

"No yeah Alistair I love that I'm only 19 but I won't live very long and that when the end comes for me I'll likely start losing my sense of self. That's only my second or third or first greatest fear I'm glad I have to worry about the taint fucking up my brain instead of just demons or the templars I really needed this today on top of everything else."

He will not say. "I understand", Alim says instead, and it isn't a lie. He does understand. There are difficult things in this world that need doing, and someone as to do them, and most aren't willing to make that kind of sacrifice. He's a little worried that Alistair doesn't seem to grasp the full weight of what he's just revealed to him. Or jealous that Alistair accepts it so well. Or upset at the thought that Alistair doesn't care much because he's never expected or wanted more for himself.