#I don't have a meg tag but now I think I should lol

[mandms-blog-of-silly]

☆ Thinking about getting ready for something with Christine and Meg, but they're in their beautiful dressing gowns and I'm in a cheetah print robe thing, lol

[yooniesim]

So, I may be a day late, but I still want to make a little post for Simblr Gratitude Day 💜

To start off, my memory is pretty bad, so I just know I'm gonna miss tagging people... and honestly, there's way more people on here I'm grateful for than tumblr's limit of 50! So I'm starting out addressing everyone.

To everybody that likes or reblogs my posts, sends comments or asks, shares their sims with me, or uses my cc: I love you. Yes, you! I may be bad at answering back sometimes, but I cherish every interaction I get- a lot of the times they have me kicking my feet and giggling, or sometimes I'm barking and scaring my cat. Asks really make my day and even when I don't reply so fast, they warm my heart. Asks I've gotten on here have genuinely helped me in my dark times, and renewed my faith in this community as a whole, because some of you are just so freaking amazing and kind. Especially now with everything I've been going through, sims and being here has remained a comfort for me because of you all. Even if there's speed bumps from time to time, I truly believe there's more good here than bad, and y'all should be proud of yourselves and your capacity for endless kindness. Thank you!

Now, I'm going to address a few specific precious people I'm grateful for.

@wastelandwhisperer - Moon, my precious mom friend, I adore you. The joy, comfort, and hilarious memories you give me can't be understated. You deserve all the love and light in the world.

@neverheresims - God's eepiest soldier, what would I do without you? Thank you for always being genuine, reliable, and a true friend.

Vi - Thank you my sheriff, my paggro detector, my master of copypastas, my right hand catboy. Even though you're untraceable, I couldn't leave you out. I love you!

@divinedionym - Thanks for always being straight with me and taking NO shit. I truly admire you and your attitude, friend.

@dyoreos - We may not both be active at the same time anymore, but I still think of you, friend! You've always had my back and I'll always have yours.

@nucrests - I'm so grateful to be your friend, and every time you share your beautiful content and gorgeous sims with me, it really makes my day. I adore you.

@cinamun - You probably don't know this, but in certain times when I was feeling low, your comments and kindness really lifted my spirits and made me feel like I belong. You're a lovely person and deserve all the love you receive, friend.

@woosteru - You won't see this bc you're retired so I can be sappy as I want, so there!!! I adore you, your sweet personality, and your sense of humor that matches just right with mine. (Nobody tell them)

@superflare - Lulu, you're an incredibly creative and intelligent person. I can tell you're going to go far in life and do great for the world. Be proud of yourself, always!

@fiftymilehighclub - Thank you for always being yourself, Manda! You're such a hardworking person that's kind but firm with your opinions and what matters to you. You're amazing.

@nicatnite88 - Tay, you're someone that's always empathetic, understanding and kind, yet hilarious at the same time. I look up to you as a person and admire your skills as a parent.

@pluto-sims - What do I say about Eli? Despite being unfortunately bri*ish, you've exceeded expectations in all other areas as a friend. I genuinely appreciate your presence and kindness in my life.

@bloody-soda - As one of my longest and dearest mutuals, peachy, my love for you can't be understated! I think of you whenever I see cute meme pics lol and you're so lovely as a person.

@wubblesgonefishin - Beautiful wubs, you're such a wonderful person with so much love to give! My day brightens every time I speak with you and I'm so glad you're back.

@toastie-sim - Meg! One of my few brain cells, I don't know what I'd do without you! You're so helpful all the time and unbelievably patient. I appreciate you.

...Phewph. Now that that's o- wait. You thought I was done??? Nuh uh, the king of long ass texts posts is not done that fast. Here's some more beautiful people I'm grateful for and love seeing grace my dash 💜

@simandy @void-imp @therichantsim @adelarsims @marsosims @shysimblr @1-800-cuupid @xldkx @xiuminuwu @hexcodesims @cassymblr @lotusplum @rebelangelsims @denzellion @strawberrylattesims @anachrosims @cowplant-snacks @fierce-trait @simanin @ghostwoohoo @llama-head @aghilasims @janjumjam @jellyfish-tea @bbdoll @puppycheesecake @mwvwv-sims

[wellhalesbells]

TAG SOMEONE YOU WANT TO KNOW AND/OR SOME OF YOUR BESTIES

Tagged by @kikiroo - thank you, my darling!!! *friendly shark bites at you*

Last song: Probably either The Man or Anti-Hero by Taylor Swift. I just spent a week with my sister on vacation and she had just watched the Eras Tour movie so she was getting both of those stuck in my head all the time, and then we'd have to listen to them ofc.

Last movie: It was Host by Rob Savage (or at least it was when I started this, lol). I watched it 'cause I saw something on Insta about the Top 10 Scariest Movies according to what the average resting heart rate is for it. I didn't find it very scary (got me at the end though, woo boy) but I did love it - but then I love things that use the pandemic well and this definitely did imo. Plus it's all structured around (and shot through) a Zoom interface so it's only, like, fifty-seven minutes long because that's all you get when you don't pay for Zoom, haha.

Currently watching: Goosebumps, Last Week Tonight, The Fall of the House of Usher, Two Sentence Horror Stories, Our Flag Means Death and Ghost Files and I am half-assing all of it. I've either only started the first episode or only watched the first episode on all of those. I have no staying power these days. Though I am only one ep behind on Last Week Tonight \o/

Other stuff I watched this year: Unfortunately for you guys, I write fucking everything down and it is now the tenth month of the year. I GOT RECS. Well, Meg 2: The Trench, which is a cinematic masterpiece and I will take no questions on that (unless they're Joming related). (Cognizant of the month) Here are spooky things I watched this year and liked a lot: X, The Black Phone, The Menu, Terrifier and Terrifier 2 (this is definitely only for gore fans though), Bodies Bodies Bodies, Cocaine Bear (also a cinematic masterpiece, also not taking questions), Interview with the Vampire, Wednesday, Severance, Evil, The Last of Us, Over the Garden Wall, Magpie Murders, What We Do in the Shadows, and Shining Vale (haven't started the second season yet!). Also really liked: Paddington, Nimona, Barbie, Spider-man: Across the Spider-verse, Vivo, Derry Girls, The Bear, The Boys, Mythic Quest, Only Murders in the Building (I haven't watched the new season yet though but I expect great things), Reboot, Tuca & Bertie, Los Espookys, Barry, Extraordinary, Crashing (I literally watched it three times in a row - watching Sam and Fred fall in love 👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻 plus I fucking love Jonathan Bailey - I consistently find him ridiculously charming), Hacks, Avenue 5 (so sad this got canceled when I feel like it just hit its stride), Staged (I've watched it probably six times now), Abbott Elementary, A Black Lady Sketch Show, Ted Lasso, I Think You Should Leave Now (just for that one sketch, you know the one and, if you don't, I am HAPPY to tell you about it!), Unstable (petition for Fred Armisen to be in everything though, right?), Black Mirror, Central Park, Elite (I haven't watched the new season yet!), Reservation Dogs (ditto), The White Lotus, Good Omens, Letterkenny, Minx (what's ditto but for the third time?), Heartstopper, Sasaki and Miyano, and The Other Two.

Shows I dropped/didn’t finish: I'm behind on everything all the time so I'm only going to answer for shows I dropped and I don't think I've dropped any this year?

Currently reading: The Dead Take the A Train by Cassandra Khaw & Richard Kadrey (about halfway through), House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielewski (I'll be reading this until I die, I think), Cunk on Everything by Philomena Cunk, The Fragile Threads of Power by V.E. Schwab (nearly finished!), The Statistical Probability of Love at First Sight by Jennifer E. Smith, My Darling Girl by Jennifer McMahon and The Vampire Lestat by Anne Rice (decided to do a reread of the IwtV series this year since I never actually finished it and only got to book ten and I read it way too long ago to remember anything that's happening if I just picked it up now).

Currently listening to: My calendar alarm telling me to go to my dog's vet appointment.

Currently working on: getting at least a third of the way through My Darling Girl

Also absolutely no pressure tagging @andavs, @callunavulgari, @piratefalls, @clotpolesonly, and anyone else who wants to do this!

[capinejghafa]

BOOKS

tagged by @saritasoyyo thank you!

Rules: in a text post, list ten books that have stayed with you in some way. don’t take but a few minutes, and don’t think too hard — they don’t have to be the “right” or “great” works, just the ones that have touched you.

ok, so i’ve read a lot crap... and sometimes i question my taste in books. so, don't think of this as recommendations. what so ever. Also, I don't tend to read solo books, and 9 out 10 times I accidentally pick up a series.

ASOIAF by grrm. I have a tattoo of the House Martell sigil enough said.

Six of Crows by leigh Bardugo. I first listened to this on audible and I know shocking... but if you've never experienced the audio version, it's such a good listen to. But also it's good on it's own too! I read/listened to this after reading a miserable series and it helped me out my depression. So say what you want about audiobooks lol

Wallflower verse by Lisa Kleypas. Did the series age well? No. But did this insp my love of historical romance? Yes. Also, I have read all of this series... there's a lot. I'm unashamed.

Scarlet Scars Series by J.M. Darhower. Tbh this is a spinoff of a pretty awful series and none of this should work for me... but there's something about reading this when you're in a depression or self-destructive mood that put things in an interesting pov.

Sweep series by Cate Tiernan. I read this when I was 14 going on 15. And oof reading it now it tough but I did love it as a kid and have three complete editions of this specific series.

Twilight by Stephenie Meyer. This list doesn't have to be good lol I have the longest history with this series and it's just part of me... whether or not I like it.

Charley Davidson series by Darynda Jones. Such a promising start that left me hate reading by book 8. but did i finish the series? yes.

Gemma Doyle Trilogy by Libba Bray. I debated on adding this because I don’t know if it stuck with me for the right reasons, but i think about it sometimes and I even did a reread a few months ago.

The Princess Diaries by Meg Cabot. I read this as an adult™ and the entire time I was like Meg definitely didn’t know how to write a character with depression respectfully and it shows. But I think for what it’s worth, as I’m not the targeted audience, it’s a fast and somewhat charming read. And the reason why I can never watch PD2 again lol

Beautiful Creatures Series by Kami Garcia and Margaret Stohl. This is another one that i was not the targeted demo, but it stayed with me in a way that some of the books I was reading around this time didn’t *coughs in romance novels*. I love the potential of the world and what it could have been. And I think about that potential a lot.

did you all need an explanation? no. but i was in a mood to talk about my weird book choices lol i did not follow the rules *looks away*

tagging (no pressure): @totchipanda @linearao3 @whatanybodygets @genuineformality and anyone who wants to talk about books

[theinkedfoxsl]

Choose violence all of them. All of the violence.

omg why

the character everyone gets wrong

not oc: tartaglia. oc: ezel

a compelling argument for why your fave would never top or bottom

i don't have a compelling argument, all my favs are switches.

screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr

I've seen a lot of bad takes on tumblr, I've been here over a decade lmao. But honestly? Most "writing tips" are absolute garbage and constantly contradict themselves and each other.

what was the last straw that made you finally block that annoying person?

I don't hesitate :) there are no last straws, if i do not like you, goodbye. this has gotten me into shit in bigger communities where people talk to each other but i do not care.

worst discord server and why

my old one<333

which ship fans are the most annoying?

mercy x moira fans and also any tart shipper.

what character did you begin to hate not because of canon but because how how the fandom acts about them?

Diluc. I was pretty mid on him but after following uhhh certain people who were super annoying about him and awful with his characterization i hate him now.

common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

what's a common fandom opinion?

worst part of canon

retcons when a media becomes more popular. happened to genshin, overwatch, dbd, ect. They need to pump out more information and they end up contradicting themselves and making their media boring.

worst part of fanon

idk this might just be my issue personally but i watched a lot of people tell a lot of lies to make themselves look better and its. something. i'm here to enjoy a common media, not get into your little cat fights.

number of fandom-related words you've filtered

35 for JUST tags. And its because my mutuals can't tag consistently, yall ANNOYING as hell for that btw. its come to the point where i have to fucking post filter instead of tag filter. i hate yall.

the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

(holding corvus) i just think hes pathetic.

worst blorboficiation

diluc or tartaglia, also lion(r6)

that one thing you see in fics all the time

I don't read fics anymore unless its my mutuals. Nothing interests me enough. That being said, lot of fuckboy shit in the old genshin days. he would not do that.

that one thing you see in fanart all the time

a lot of people can't seem the grasp the wide range of asian skintones, let alone shade them correctly.

you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)

cheating hcs, or thinking kaeya specifically would be a cheater. are you stupid or??

there should be more of this type of fic/art

genuine love for what you're writing rather than what'll get clicks. I can see how soulless some things are.

it's absolutely criminal that the fandom has been sleeping on...

the paladins fandom in general is very much asleep, wake up bro

you're mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of like...

Mutual obsession is my weirdest thing I g, it can be done well.

part of canon you found tedious or boring

As I mentioned before, once things start to get retconned and changed, it becomes tedious afterwards. You can see they're stitching together the pieces they think will do well, with no regard to the actual story.

part of canon you think is overhyped

Eh

your favorite part of canon that everyone else ignores

Kaeya's favourite flower is a medicinal one.

ship you've unwillingly come around to

corvus/caspian, meg/trapper.

topic that brings up the most rancid discourse

i don't know i don't pay attention lol

common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing

Graphics updates for dbd.

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary318

8/2-3/24

friday - saturday

listening to jpop right now.

it is meg's album "step" and it's cute. pretty often though sometimes songs on jpop records feel like nothing, until the big ones come. obv there's groups where this is not an issue, other times it's more pronounced, but sometimes the albums w/ peaks and valleys in that way have really special songs lodged in them, or they feel that way by their nature i guess.

i really like the synths on this album... really good to hear stuff like this right now, maybe i should let myself make some more "regular" sounding synths or something... we'll see.

the art in the album is super cute, her outfits are awesome:

i really love all of these looks... i need some colored tights i think.

and wow, look at this album art for one of her later albums:

i really love this... i do wanna do more weird pattern-y eye-hurty stuff. reminds me a lot of black dice.

it's fun seeing stuff on here circulate w/ tags like "eye strain", all the pleasure of glistening / shimmering / oscillating noise and its spread, i've always liked that kind of intensity where it's kind of asking something of you, as you stare at it, but it's also kind of apathetic to you, it simply is that odd and excessive, at least that's how it feels when i come to it, maybe part of why i like it is something to do with nature documentaries and all the closeup shots of things too detailed and strange, magnifications, patterns made evident, maybe it does make sense, i used to spend so much time looking at bugs which were trying to pattern themselves so animals wouldn't eat them or would ignore them, being able to see them in the noise, or make the noise out of them, and then other animals as well, reptile scales, and then my stepsisters and all the garish stuff they adorned their rooms with. an interesting lineage there in things which are difficult to look at, or people say are difficult to look at but for me they're really nice.

oh videogames too, and crts too probably, sticking my face too close, the white noise, that kinda thing... maybe an early introduction to the impressionists also? the smeary/blurriness, excess of color and stippling, my mom was eager to show me matisse, and then art class when i was in elementary school was similar. gaudiness as a kind of violent eruption, beyond kitsch really, these very odd things, over-vibrant, i didn't know it at the time but it was imparted with a kind of sexuality, i didn't really know what i was seeing for instance in how frida khalo painted but i absorbed it. very odd times. not that the point is that it's special that i like/know this or whatever it's just interesting to get any kinda vision on the lineage there of what makes me able to like this sort of stuff... the beatles even, their album art, when i was a kid that stuff meant a lot to me, their movies too.

anyway, i saw something funny today, someone added my current screenname to rym, hospitalterrorizer, as an artist. it is an artist name too... honestly though it feels less like a project and just a thing i like calling myself. anyway it's just funny, it's someone who i don't know at all i'm pretty sure, i wonder how they found it, and why they decided to put it in there. i suppose it's for the best that it is there cuz it might draw more people to the thing, but we'll see, to be honest i sorta doubt it... but that's just meeee...

now i am listening to john cale's paris 1919, i need to finish this tomorrow, cuz i am sleepy and i need to sleep now basically. my sleep is so fucked up #lol. and i need to get back to reading soon. i just spent all of today working on songs, one of them i need to go in and lower the master send reverb, and the other's got a lot of fun progress made, imo, i got some new plugins which makes things a bit easier on me i think... a lot of really fun distortion sounds in there, excited about having all of that to mess with, to see where it goessss,

so, with that: a song:

one of the best ever, i think, i really love this one,

and now:

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[jazz-miester]

You spoke my name like it was holy.

Burn then.

Pairing: N/A ish

Characters: Mtmte Megatron. Y/n.

Reader type: Gender Neutral bot reader

Song: Kill me with your love -One true God.

Warnings: Angst

An: My dude I legit wrote this because of an old discarded paragraph I wrote lol

Tags:@rawmeknockout I hope this is cool lol. This is based off of a post you made about a bot being like. An advisor to Megatron and really loyal but megs overlooks them or something like that. If I can find it I'll definitely link it to this post lol. But I wanna give credit where it's due.

A millennia of him forgetting you. A wars worth of broken sparks. A single frame burned and used. Everything. He took everything from you.

You had nothing to show. Nothing but the cracks on you frame. The scaring and welds. A lifetime of tiredness on your shoulders. It was old. But still it served you. Carried you when you were tired. Gave you strength when you thought you would fail.

It harbored a broken spark you hid well.

Or did.

Until now.

Why was He on board the Lost Light? Called "Captain" by many? He was no Captain. No leader. He was not a mech on blindly followed.

He showed you as such.

Yet here Rodimus was. Conversing with him as if he were an equal. As if he was deserving of some type of faith. It turned you tanks and left a sour taste in your intake.

You didn't speak. Didn't acknowledge his existence. Despite his best efforts. Clearly He wished to speak.

You saw it in the way his optics rove over you. Crimson depths the same color of an eclipsing moon. Shadowing over passed wrongs he has delt you.

You knew better though. Knew his poets glossa like the back of your servo. Knew of the ways He manipulated and persuaded.

Not again. Primus. Not again.

He first saw you within the Captains office. Delivering a report to Rodimus. It made you uneasy. Put you in edge. You saw his face fall before a fond smile tugged at his lips. Optics brightening as he spoke.

"Y/n?" He breathed.

You dropped the data pad on Rodimus's desk. Turned on heel and left.

You would get the signature later. Hopefully Ultra Magnus would understand.

.

You saw Him again at Swerve's bar while having a drink with Cyclonus and and Tailgate.

The glass perched on you lips. The barest taste of the sweet high grade on your glossa. You optics followed him. Watched as He glanced around the bar. As if He were looking for somebot.

Cyclonus followed you line of sight. Gave you a knowing look. Tailgate was oblivious. Or chose not to care. Maybe he was a little more than drunk though. Having gotten to the bar well before you and the former Deception.

"Speak with him. It will do you you good." Cyclonus rumbles out. He pulled Tailgates drink away as the mini bot begins to fall into recharge.

You scoff. "After what he did? No fraggin way. I'd sooner let him burn than speak to him." You glance back up. Lock optics with Him.

"Still. You should. Even if it ends with yelling. Or whatever manner of curses you have for the mech. Speak to him. End the heaviness in your spark." Cyclonus was one of the only not who knew. You spilled more than you wanted on one drunken night.

"And risk telling the truth? As the humans say. Fuck no." With that you rise from the table. Through down a few more shanix than the drink is worth. Then leave. Optics locked on Him until you pass the threshold of the door.

You begin to make you way to your habsuite. Think better of it. Then head off to Drifts. Maybe he could help more than "speak with him."

.

"You really should talk to Megatron. It might help."

You scowl.

Drift you traitor.

"You know better than anybot here about what he did to me. I was loyal to him. I cared. He didn't. Primus damn me I don't think he ever did." Drift lays a servo on your shoulder. Gives jt a small shake and you a stern look.

"You forget I was loyal to him once to. But I didn't love him. Not like you did anyways."

Your servos shake. Your tank turns.

"That. That wasn't love. It was blind stupidity. Something I'm still paying for to this day." You shake you helm. "Primus Drift. I don't think I can ever come back from that. Not as long as he's still here." The servo fell. Drift places a single pink crystal on the palm of your servo. Curls your digits around it.

"Still. Y/n. I think you should. It doesn't do you any good to carry this around. It leaves your field feeling really off."

You sigh. "Ya. Maybe. Just. Don't count on it. Not anytime soon."

.

Not any time soon became three weeks later. Three whole weeks of not seeing him. As grateful as you were you couldn't help but feel some sort of guilt. Why you'll never know. But it was there. A little seed planted in your tanks. Left them feeling something awful the longer you thought on it.

You figited with the crystal. Passing it from one servo to the other. Just something to do to pass the time.

The stars were bright at this sector of space. Large and giant. Hues of yellow and red. It filled every inch of the glass of the observation room. Left gleaming streaks against your armor.

The doors slide open behind you and you thought nothing of it. Thinking that it was Drift coming to meditate. To tell you about Rodimus's latest shenanigans.

But those pedd falls were to heavy.

The whir of vents sounding just this side of off.

And they definitely were Drifts usual swish swish of air.

"Who are you and what do you want?" A throaty chuckle.

"You haven't changed very much. I just came to say hi." Grey legs come to the left of you. "To figure out why you've been avoiding me."

You quickly find yourself on your pedds. Taking a few steps away from him. Moving as if though he burned you.

His optics widen. Something falls on his face then. Remorse? Guilt?

Good. Let him suffer.

"I don't have anything to say to you. Not now. Not ever." The words stick in your intake.

He looks to you. The floor. To the stars outside the glass. A smile.

"You always did enjoy the stars. I remember how you use to get excited everytime the smog rolled away. Opened up the skies." He doesn't look at you as he says this.

You clench the crystal in your servo. Almost crush it in your growing anger.

"After everything. All you have to talk about are the stars?" You step closer to Him. Press a digit to his chassis. "No 'Sorry I completely ignored you.' No 'Despite you being my best advisor and closest friend I regret pushing you away.'!" You smack your servo against His chassis. Barely he moves. Still that unmovable giant he was when you first met.

"Megatron. I have you everything and it didn't mean a damn thing to you." He grabs your wrist. Gentle but firm. And. For a moment. You panic. He held that same look in his optics. The one he reserved for Starscream.

It leaves just as quickly. Leaves him looking older than he truly is.

"You ment everything to me. Y/n. You were one of the few who truly new what it was like. In the mines. As a slave." He opens your servo. Thumb trailing over the scar on your palm. "You were one of the only left who still held a better Cybertron in mind."

You pull your servo back. Scowl.

"Not once. Not once did you every say. Every show I meant more to you than the data I gave you." Your tanks turned. Flipped.

"And for that I'm sorry. Truly. I should have done more. Helped you. This rift between the two of us. I wish it were gone. I wish I knew what to do."

"That rift is there because you put it there Megatron!" Your voice rises. Echoes against the walls. A nearby star bathes the room in red. That same crimson of his optics.

"And I want to know if I can fix it. Us." The unspoken you hung there. In the air.

"That's all I am to you then? A tragedy?" You scoff. Bare your denta. "Im not some broken thing you can cover in guilded gold and say you fixed, Megatron!" You smack your servo against your chest.

"Guess what! Despite everything you did to me. Despite the fact that I loved you! That it broke me to see you fall as far as you did." You step towards him. "I fixed myself! Without your fragging help! I didn't need it then and I don't need it now."

Your vents whirled. Cycling cool air to your overheated frame.

Three words echoed in your helm. The ones that now fall from his lips.

"You loved me?" You shake your helm.

"I did. Not anymore. And I certainly don't love who you became." You turn to leave. His servo in your shoulder stops you. Barely you turn.

"Is there any chance? Anything. Even as friends?" You brush his shoulder off. Feel hurt at the quiet tone his voice took. Hardly a whisper.

"As of now? No. It hurts. Even still."

You leave and it's all to similar.

Reminiscent of another time. A different argument.

A different hurt.

[ltleflrt]

2, 8, 14, 40

Hello my friend! Thank you for playing ;D

2. talk about a notable time a narrative or character has looked you dead in the eyes and said “fuck your plan, here’s what we’re actually doing.”

I already talked about Addicted to You here, but it's not like it hasn't happened more than once lol... Satin and Sawdust wasn't quite as surprising, since I'd already gone through the Addicted to You adventure. But it did not turn out how I planned, at all. I was going to have a Dean/Cas/Meg threesome in that fic. It was the BASIS for the whole story! I wrote the fic BECAUSE I wanted to dump those 3 in the sheets naked and see what shenanigans they got up to.

But as the story progressed and it got closer and closer to when that scene could happen, I realized... oh fuck. Dean and Cas don't want to, and Meg isn't going to go there. Dammit! I had it tagged and warned for and everything, and I had to remove the tags and write a note, because people were waiting for it it. I was bummed, they were bummed, but honestly I think it turned out better for not having the scene. And I strongly hint in the epilogue that it'll happen eventually anyway lol

8. what’s your relationship with constructive criticism and feedback like? do you seek it out? how well do you take it?

Just like any author I love positive feedback from my readers, but I will Marie Condo comments offering "constructive criticism" because i didn't fucking ask you ok.

However, I actually really enjoy working with alpha and beta readers. I can usually tell when I need someone's help, and seek it out. @jupiterjames is my first go to because she's my bestie and we've been helping each other write fic for almost a decade now, so she knows my quirks, and knows when to tell me I'm being stupid and to get over myself. She's also really good at letting me rant my way into figuring out the problem myself, which I think is often what I need most. Sometimes she's a little too positive, and I'm like no it's broken, TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG, and she'll give actual advice on what to change plot-wise, and I'm always hella amused when that happens.

I'll also poke @bendingsignpost for help because we've gotten really good at bouncing ideas off each other, and he almost always comes up with something spectacular that I'm like no no no you should write that, and we end up spending a few hours pouring out ideas on each other's heads. It's fun, and a good writing exercise. Turns out my teachers were right that brainstorming sessions are good for me lol

You've also started to be a really big help for me lately! Thank you for letting me attack you with a wall of text the last few times I got stuck ;D

Obviously criticism isn't all fun and games, but for the people I trust to talk about my work with, I'm fully open to advice on how to fix things I'm doing wrong. There are a lot of improvements I've made over the years because of their help, and I welcome more feedback in the future :D

14. what’s your worst writing habit?

I'll find a favorite phrase and use it too many times in a single story. This is something that jupiterjames has pointed out to me and teased me about, and I'm much more aware of it and more careful of it, but I still fuckin' do it! XD

40. best piece of feedback you’ve ever gotten.

I gave a few examples here, but anyone who says that I wrote a line so good they got angry about it is my favorite person. Oh, you're mad that I evoked emotions? Sorry not sorry, but you have my permission to tattoo that line on your body ;D

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About the TW drama... tbh I kinda get why they're mad about that particular tweet but I also see it from Megan's and how she is probably felt overwhelmed by all the mentions and she is also mourning the end of the show and saying goodbye... The thing the angers me is that stupid hashtag and how they all seem to hate everything about the show... don't watch it then... I love DC but I am also aware that romance and ships has never been the focus of the show and enjoy other aspects of it as well

I do too, I really do, but I also have to like take in the scope of the issue a little bit you know? Like, Emma, the person who tweeted I guess how we were all going to be excited about the song or whatever, tweeted it Thursday or whatever. 

Meg, who a lot of people wound up angry with, tweeted about how every time she hears the song she thinks of her friends who she tagged (one of which was Emma). She tweeted that on August 19th. Meg is a known crew member, it’s not like people didn’t see that tweet. 

I also believe a lot of the angry came because Davy Perez and Meg and maybe someone else idk started poking fun at how some fans just really have to dissect everything they post on twitter. 

I get that rubbed people the wrong way but I don’t think people have a good understanding it must be on the other side. These people have their tweets picked apart no matter what they post in regards to the show. The fans on twitter are already more intense then I feel like those back on this website, and some D/C fans, Cas stans, and Dean stans are just too intense. 

I can imagine now ESPECIALLY now as everyone on set is having to say the goodbye they should have 6 months ago, it’s the final week of filming for a show that’s been on for 15 years, everyone will be going their separate ways, it’s a new normal inside a new normal around the world with the pandemic going on still, it’s a huge change of life that they should have already gotten used to because this should have happened in May but instead they had to wait months. And these people are posting their happy goodbye things to their social media and are being inundated with stans wondering where Misha is because those are the people who are really making their voice heard, when all these people want to do is say their goodbyes. 

And this is on top of years of Twitterdom picking everything apart and coming to false conclusions, so, when their conclusion doesn’t come out right, they go BACK to these people on twitter and yell at them for their self-created anger. 

So, I do understand why some on twitter got mad at all of this, but I also understand why it happened and why I personally am not offended.  And like you said, I love D/C too I love it so much it’s one of the biggest parts of the show that I connect with, but there is a whole show, a whole cast, a whole crew outside of that! Like you said. I think some people also forget that.  And yes that hashtag was so stupid. It’s the final week of filming, these guys are emotional, they put their blood sweat and tears into this show for a long while, and this hashtag comes up and it brings back out the worst of fans, especially the ones who keep screaming queerbaiting.  But yes, sorry about this novel! lol. 

It’ll die down it always does, it’s just another thing that this fandom shouldn’t be proud of. I too was excited to see that song yesterday and I still hold it to my heart as a D/C song and nothing I posted yesterday is negated just because it’s a song some friends liked. 

I’m sure many of us are the same. 

If anything I’m learning is that twitter is best enjoyed in small quantities lol. 

But it also just makes me happy that writers cast and crew aren’t available on Tumblr. I’m beginning to understand why I like a more established line between show vs fans. When it gest too blurred, things get too casual, things get too self entitled, things get too muddy. 

But anyway. Again, sorry for the novel! lol. Thank you for saying something Anon! 

We all just love the show and want it to continue like that!

[yellowocaballero]

Answering/commenting on some of the tags under the cut!

@schniggles

voted for you to follow your truth because it seems to lead you exclusively to winners, however i am ethically obligated to say that if you have more fox & leia friendship anywhere in the works i’d burn a candle to st. francis de sales this very instant 

I told a friend ages ago that I would write the Fox & Leia Double date story (mortifying ordeal of Bly thinking he has something in common with you want wants to bond) and it's still on the to-do list!

There's been an idea simmering in the back of my mind for forever of the third part of the Roleswap series, which would be about twelve year old Leia and Luke going on a Let's Discover Our Father tween adventure. Fox would absolutely be living by himself in the woods, fishing and chopping wood, living his absolute best life, and would NOT appreciate two spoiled royalty tweens bothering him. That's what you mean by Fox & Leia friendship, right? Right?

@crandairyy

tbh your sw chip au holds a special place in my heart that i reread regularly, but any option you go for seems golden

Similarly I seriously, seriously want to rewrite More Than Zero. My concept of Cody has REALLY developed and I never got to explore a lot of what I wanted to explore in that story. Not sure exactly what the point would be, but it's bothering me and that's usually 80% of why I write anything.

This is also seriously the reason why I don't put stuff like this up on AO3. A bad story on Tumblr is something to rewrite. A bad story up on AO3 bothers me FOREVER. It's like a pebble in my shoe. It's about quality control.

@celtarican2

#well if you want ideas in tags I’ll give you ideas in tags#I always thought a fic where Cass was tbe first sidekick would be cool#kinda like new wave#but also not#if that makes sense

That's so fun to think about. What incredible "Hey Alfred remember when I used to bring home raccoons from the street. This isn't the same I promise. OK it's a little the same." energy. I'm imagining hardcore Battinson who's been Batman for like five minutes and he just finds a ninja teenager in a gutter, completely panics because you can't really put a non-language super assassin in foster care, decides that she's the greatest thing since sliced bread (most low matinence child ever, doesn't try to interact with him and subject him to the mortifying ordeal of social interaction) and just like me fr (doesn't talk, ninja). Emo-Goth Autistic 29yo's dream. He doesn't so much adopt her as decide they should hang out in his house and be best friends. They're best friends. It's the Gothest buddy cop show ever now. This is how Cass gets SUPER into Nirvana.

@sibuyanensis

#i've always kinda hoped you'd write something about your namesake#my bestie my dear childhood friend yellow pokespe

WELL I HAVE SOME STUFF ON MY DROPBOX FROM WHEN I WAS TWELVE YOU WANT THAT?

Holy shit ha ha, stealth Meg lore: PokeSpe is my favorite manga ever. I can't begin to describe the serotonin it gives me. It's so important to me. For absolutely no reason beyond the fact that it fucks. Yellow's my childhood friend too. Really early gender goals. My mother's moving house and found my giant collection and I got so emotional about it lol.

I think the answer to that is: not anytime soon, but if I did then it would be the most emotional and tender thing I would ever write. It would fuck immensely.

Poll of Literary Indecision

OKAY SO

I'll be done posting New Wave soon-ish. But I have a problem, which is that I'm wrapping up a new Batman fic that's distressingly long. I was planning on posting the Moon Knight fic after New Wave, but I'm kind of riding a Batman train right now, so I'm not sure and I was thinking of posting that one instead and post MK later.

I thought I'd ask you guys? Both of these fics are basically done, although the Batman one needs some heavy edits.

I'm also serious about the looking at requests thing, I get unbelievably annoying if I'm not working on a current project and I need ideas. I'm also very easily egged on.

[risingphoenix761]

21 SPN Themed Questions

I was tagged indirectly by @sis-tafics ✌

1. When did you start watching Supernatural?

The beginning! We kept up with it really well up until mid season...5? 6? Work happened around then and we were never home when it was on, but I stayed involved in it via internet until I got caught up, then started keeping up again during 12.

2. Who is your favorite in TFW?

Not fair. They've all got something to them. Once upon a time I might have been able to make this decision, but no can do. I love Dean's dedication to family, Sam's compassion for everyone, Cas's loyalty...I love all of them! Don't make me choose!

3. Who is your least favorite in TFW?

DON'T MAKE ME CHOOSE! They could all stand to be a little less stubborn, if you ask me, and the writers could really quit making shit decisions with them but I digress

4. Tag your top 5 Supernatural blogs

@bamby0304 @kittenofdoomage @kingofthecrxssroads and... Actually, I think most of the blogs I follow are SPN-ish, so...

5. Who is your favorite character (not including TFW)?

Hmm. Lemme think.

6. Who is your favorite woman in Supernatural?

Uhhhhh....

Or

Though I dearly love Jo and Meg 2.0 (which is some first class irony)

7. John or Mary?

Is that even a question?

8. What were your first opinions of Sam, Dean, Cas, and Jack?

Dean - he's cute. I bet my sister already has a crush on him.

Sam - holy crap, he's tall! And he's a nerd like me!

Cas - did he just say angel? What the hell!

Jack - what the hell! This can't be good!

9. What's your favorite season?

Tough one. Gotta be a toss up between 5, 6, and 8

10. What's your least favorite season?

Also a tough one. Not a huge fan of 11, and I've been endlessly bitter and frustrated since the end of 12

11. Opinions on Destiel?

There's been hints, jokes, and subtext for years, so they might as well make it canon already. At this point, though, it would only be continuing to fuck with the shippers because of Cas's Buffy rip-off deal with the Empty. Personally, I just want to see something good happen to them, and they can't live without each other, so however they get to be happy is fine with me. Except there's that deal, which leaves Cas screwed, which ultimately screws Dean over, and I dunno, am I getting annoyed with the writing lately? Moving on.

12. Do you believe Supernatural queerbaits?

Lately? They're getting very close, at the very least

13. Seasons 1-7 or 8-14?

Is that even a question? The early years for me, thanks.

14. Favorite villain (plot wise)?

HMM. LEMME THINK.

15. Do you think they should end the Lucifer plot line?

Yeah? Awhile ago? We got Jack out of it, and you're taking that precious cinnamon roll away over my dead body, but how much more can they get out of him without it feeling ridiculous? Now if we had different writers with some fresh ideas, who knows, but alas

16. Who do you think has gone through more trauma (Sam, Dean, or Cas)?

Can't answer that one. Sorry.

17. What's your favorite Supernatural episode?

Oh shit... Yellow Fever, Mystery Spot, Weekend At Bobby's, The French Mistake, Swan Song, Sacrifice, First Born, Fan Fiction to name a few.

18. Do you like case episodes?

Does Dean like pie?

19. Who do you relate to most in TFW?

Again, that's hard to answer. That's one of the things I find most appealing about the show, is how relatable the characters are. I see my own best and worst in their best and worst, and that's pretty cool. It also sucks on occasion, but that's okay.

20. Why do you like Supernatural?

See above answer in terms of relatability. Also, the heart of the show has always been things that are really important to me, like family, loyalty, courage, and hope. It's why this show is always my go-to. Yeah, horrible things happen and they rarely make sense and there's always pain and grief and trauma, but there's also those other things, and they're worth holding onto.

21. If you could bring back one character and kill off another who would they be?

The list is very likely that long. Lol. And I don't want them dead, exactly, but I can live without the hunters from the apocalypse world. That includes AU Bobby and Charlie. Ours are on that list!

Tagging anybody and everybody that wants to do this!

[ganglylimbs]

AO3 Tag Game!

I was tagged by @miss-ingno!

1. How many works do you have on A03

I have published 134 works as of right now!

2. What is your total AO3 word count

I have written 783,134 words as of today.

3. How many fandoms have you written for and what are they

1. 67 works in RT/AH RPF, my old fandom. While there won't be any new fics from me in this fandom, I am working on finishing up all the wips I have in there

2. 56 in My Hero Academia, my current fandom

3. 9 in RWBY. There may or may not be more, depending on how I feel

4. 3 in X-Ray & Vav, a cartoon made by RT. Definitely no more

5. 1 in Hetalia. Probably no more, but that could always change

6. 1 in Voltron. Another one I might write more for, I've always regretted that I didn't do more fanfics when I was really involved in the fandom

7. And last is 1 in Lazer Team, a movie produced by RT. Again, no more here.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos

1. Absolutely Did Not

2. Bullet Through My Heart

3. Claiming What's Theirs

4. Deliver Us In These Trying Times

5. I Can't Work Like That

I'm actually really surprised that they're all MHA fics. I kind of thought one of my RT fics would be up there. But I'm also really proud of all of these! They're some of my favorite fics I worked on! (And some I still have to do the sequels for, lol)

5. Do you respond to comments. Why or why not

I do! I really love talking to readers, especially when they give me so much to respond to! I just love talking in general, lol. Although, I've gotten bad recently about letting comments pile up before responding weeks later. It's something I want to get better at, I've just found my social battery really drained the past couple of months.

6. What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending

I am so bad at angst :(

I have written quite a few fics where the audience should be left going ehhhhh, I feel bad for the mc. All of those, the mc has been nonconed into loving where they are at though.

Except for my I Huff and I Puff series. That one is clearly very bad for Jack and Ryan.

Um, I Can't Work Like That doesn't end sad but it does end kind of bittersweet. Maybe. It's a happy bittersweet. Things aren't fixed but you're left with the impression that things will be in the future.

Calls Me Home is along the same wavelength.

Coping! I forgot Coping. It's supposed to be the aftermath of vol. 3 with the kids trying to deal with what had happened and all the death.

Suits, Dresses, and Guns is a series that was supposed to have a happy ending. But I've decided to not continue it, so your left with the sad ending of Lindsay and Michael assuming the worst of Meg and Gavin.

7. Do you write crossovers

I don't actually. I really should because I think they would be fun.

8. Have you received hate on a fic before

Nothing that's like, I hate you and should die! (like some comments I've gotten on twitter). But I've gotten...some not great ones. One thing that really soured me to the RWBY fandom was, on one of the first fics I wrote for it, I got a comment trying to debate me on how I wrote one character...who wasn't even an actual character in the main series.

I did get an anonymous comment on I Can't Work Like That where the person accused me of not having watched MHA because how dare I write a fic being sympathetic to Bakugou on his relationship with Midoriya. That was funny.

9. Do you write smut

Ha! Basically all I write is smut! I mean, not really, but I love writing smut, the kinkier the better. There aren't a lot of kinks I say no to. I just think smut is really fun to write!

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen

Not that I know of. There have been several in the same fandoms I frequent where I suspected they were inspired by me, but nothing out right plagiarized.

11. Have you ever co-written a fic before

No. I've rped a couple of times but I am a bit of a control freak when it comes to fics I write. There were plans in place I think to co-write but life just happens. @miss-ingno definitely dropped a lot of fic ideas I wanted to do before the Scandal broke, practically writing it for me.

12. What's your all-time favorite ship

Just because I am stuck neck deep in mha right now, I'm going to have to go with kiribaku. My one true love

13. What was the first fandom you wrote for

It really depends on how you define it. I actually wrote a few yugioh fics that I never published, all the way back in high school. But my first fic I actually published was Naruto.

14. What's your favorite fic you've written

I think it would have to be a tie between Golden Waste and Absolutely Did Not. Both are fics that I think are my peak so far. I really wish I could write like that all the time.

I'm tagging @all of you! Anyone who wants to do it, please do!