#I don’t like jimmy Kimmel so he’s annoying me but whatever

[sexynetra]

SIX SENTENCE SUNDAY

I was going to work on this more during my shift but then I remembered it is Oscars day and I’m chronically addicted to awards shows 😔 anyways here’s the intro to my grandekofi bar au <3

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Two drinks. Just two.

That was how many drinks it took for Dame to admit she was in love with Tia. Well, admit it to herself at least.

She stared at her reflection in the grimy bathroom mirror of the bar Hannah had dragged them all out to for her birthday. Even with the dingy lighting, Dame could see the flush of her cheeks, left over from when Tia had wrapped her arms around her waist as they waited at the bar. It wasn’t long after that that she had excused herself.

[ptergwen]

no sleep

pairing: singer!reader x tom holland || w/c: 1.6k

warnings: swearing and many many many suggestive jokes

summary: you’re on jimmy kimmel to talk about your music, but he has other plans

a/n: y’all i’ve literally always wanted to write singer!reader and this idea just came to me and i had to get it out because it’s so cute :,) i really hope ya like it

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jimmy kimmel invited you onto his show to promote a single from your upcoming album. you stepped out of the spotlight for a while, so this is your first official appearance of the year.

“my first guest tonight...” there’s a cheer from the audience. you grin to yourself, waiting for jimmy to finish announcing you.

“you wanna say it for me?” he chuckles and stands your picture up on his desk. “my first guest tonight surprised fans this morning with her new single ‘no sleep.’ it’s currently number one in over seventy countries.” jimmy holds for applause, which you get a ton of. you cover your hot face with your hands.

“she’s here to talk to us about the song and her short hiatus. please welcome y/n y/l/n!”

the music plays while you walk onstage, followed by more cheers and clapping. you’re beaming as you wave to everyone. you give jimmy a quick hug and exchange hello’s over the noise.

you’ve been in the industry for a few years, but you’ll never get used to responses like this. all the love really warms your heart.

“thank you!” you giggle out, taking your seat on the couch. the audience yells some more when the music dies out. “thank you so much! oh my god,” you make a face at jimmy, who laughs and gestures to everyone. “they clearly hated the song,” he jokes to you. “i was gonna say,” you agree, smoothing your dress down.

you look out at the crowd with a pout. “no, seriously. you guys are so cute.” jimmy copies your pout, earning a playful eye roll from you.

you’ve been on the show a couple of times before, so you two are friendly. tom has also brought you to chill backstage with him when he was a guest. you would’ve brought him this time if he wasn’t away for filming.

“so, you took most of the year off from making music,” jimmy starts the actual conversation. “mhm, i did,” you hum and cross one of your legs over the other. “how was that? was it weird not being in the studio?” you scrunch your face up, then he adds another question. “what did you actually do with yourself?”

“i mean, music is obviously a big part of who i am. making it, loving it, all that stuff.” a small smile crosses your face. “so, yeah. it sort of felt like something was missing at first.” jimmy nods along, you shrugging one of your shoulders.

“at the same time, i really needed to take a minute and just breathe. come back with my shit more together. i think i have,” you let out a reflective sigh. “it didn’t have anything to do with your boyfriend? a mr. tom holland?” jimmy teases, you waving a hand at him. “no, don’t give him all the credit.”

your break genuinely was for yourself. no one needs to know that tom was also off, or that he spent all his free time with you. that was just a plus.

“are you sure? because, it seemed like you two were getting really cozy.” a picture from your instagram pops up on the screen. it’s of tom under a blanket. he’s reaching out for you with a lazy smile. you lean over on the couch so you’re off camera, another giggle escaping you.

jimmy flips to another picture. “that was exhibit A. here’s exhibit B.” the whole audience coos, jimmy raising his eyebrows at you. this one is a mirror selfie from tom’s instagram. your arms are slung around his neck from behind, and half your face is hidden. tom is doing his signature eye crinkling smile into the camera.

“aren’t they just adorable?” jimmy asks the audience, making them erupt in more cheers. you sit up again and clear your throat. seeing those is bittersweet for you. “he’s very cuddly. anyway, back to the music!” you do a small clap. little do you know, there’s much more to come.

“yes, yes. back to the music. talk to me about ‘no sleep.’” the song is one hundred percent about tom. you’re not sure you should say that, considering the... explicit content in it. you and tom did get very cozy over your break, as jimmy would say. it was the only time you weren’t relaxing.

“well,” you plaster on an overly happy smile. that earns more laughter from jimmy. “it’s about what you do in bed when you’re, um, not sleeping,” you explain. “and who do you do those things in bed with?” jimmy glances up at the screen again. “you’re choosing violence today, jimmy,” you say under your breath.

there’s a chuckle from backstage that sounds eerily similar to tom’s. it must have been a PA. all this talk about him is seriously fucking with your head.

“well, everyone in my life inspires my work in some way. they’re such angels,” you dodge the question, thinking you’re clever about it. jimmy won’t let you get off that easy. “friends? family?” he asks you. “yeah, everyone,” you exhale in relief. jimmy widens his eyes at you. “so, that means ‘no sleep’ is about your mom?”

your mouth falls open. he’s really going to make you spill the details of your sex life.

“what the fuck, no!” you squeal, looking out into the audience for help. they join in your laughter. “it’s about tom,” you finally confirm so jimmy doesn’t suggest anything else. “it’s about tom, my god. next topic.” you’re smiling despite yourself.

“why? don’t you wanna tell us more about your lover?” jimmy glances off to the side. what is going on back there? you sit up straighter in your spot. “no, this is my interview!” you’re half joking, half serious.

although you and tom aren’t private at all, you’ve never talked about him this much. it’s overwhelming. besides that, this is making you miss him a lot.

“that’s too bad. we thought... we thought you might like to share it,” jimmy is already grinning about whatever he has planned. this isn’t supposed to be part of your segment. “huh? i’m literally so lost.” you furrow your eyebrows at him, lowering your voice. “we didn’t talk about this.”

he pats the arm of your couch. “they say there’s no time like the present. ladies and gentlemen, tom holland!”

on cue, tom runs out from backstage. the audience practically roars with how loud they are. people even jump out of their seats. you clasp a hand over your mouth in pure shock. this feels like a prank, like jimmy is about to say sike. then, tom comes up to the couch. you almost fall over, jimmy proudly watching on.

tom grins so wide it takes up his whole face. “happy release day,” he murmurs as you get to your feet. you’re not able to speak just yet, only staring up at him with glossy eyes. he brings you into a tight hug. his hands rub up and down your back, your arms snaking around his middle.

“tommy,” you try to whisper the nickname. you forgot your microphone is on. everyone “aw’s” at you both, including jimmy. “my love,” tom’s lips brush your cheek briefly. “hi, baby,” he speaks into your ear. you hide your face in his button up while he rocks you side to side.

he’s been away for a couple of months working on the third spider-man. this is the first time you’ve seen him since he left.

“shouldn’t you be in atlanta?” you ask louder this time for the audience to hear. you’re still doing an interview. “today’s a big day. i had to see you,” tom gives you one last squeeze. “in person,” he adds, before you can say you already facetimed.

the fact that him and jimmy put this whole thing together is making you emotional. you’d be fully crying if you two were alone right now.

“she doesn’t want you here, though. remember?” jimmy chimes in, tom breathing out a laugh. he sadly lets go of you. you flop back onto the couch, tom pointing behind him with his thumb. “i’ll just be on my way. five hour flight, no big deal.” “no, no, no, no. stay,” you whine and make grabby hands at him.

that’s all it takes for tom to slip into the spot next to you. he bites back a smile, putting an arm around you and the couch. you don’t want to annoy everyone with too much pda, so you subtly curl into his side. the people actually love you and tom together. jimmy claps his hands.

“we’ll be right back with y/n y/l/n and tom holland!” he says into the camera, the band playing more filler music. he steps out from behind the desk to greet tom. tom stands up, the two of them giving each other pats on the back. the camera stops rolling.

“hey, man. thanks for doing this,” tom puts a hand on jimmy’s arm. “anything for the happy couple. i’m gonna get some water, see you in five.” jimmy shoots you another smile on his way to his dressing room. you return it. that leaves you and tom to yourselves.

“baby,” you say in a sing song voice, dropping your head onto tom’s shoulder. “i’m so happy you’re here. i real life almost peed when you came out.” tom snakes his arm around your waist. “that would be upsetting,” he mumbles, his index finger drawing circles on you. “it would’ve ruined your very pretty dress.”

“you like it?” you knowingly tug at the form fitting material. tom shifts in his spot. “i’ll tell you what,” he leans in closer to you with a smirk, his breath tickling your ear. “we’re getting no sleep tonight,” he sings from the chorus of your song. you burst into a giggle and squeeze your eyes shut.

he ends up being right.

[thelightofthingshopedfor]

lol okay so I dashed off most of this the day of and then kept not posting it because I kept thinking I needed to add stuff, but then I ended up adding more stuff mostly in reblogs instead (should all be under the “my meta” tag if anyone’s curious) and now episode 2 is technically coming out tomorrow night in my time zone so obviously I need to just post this. bullet points of disconnected thoughts, some of which are probably at least slightly outdated by now but whatever, here you go

seems very possible Mobius left the tape with him on purpose because he figured Loki wouldn’t be able to resist looking at it

would have to check the timing but I’m pretty sure he started looking terrified as soon as Thanos came onscreen without really knowing the context (aside from the very basic outline of “it’s been several years and he reconciled with Thor”), which at least underscores that they weren’t buddies--Loki knew something awful was about to happen the second Thanos showed up sadly this is not true, the clip he sees first is him trying to stab Thanos, so...yeah it stands to reason that he’d know it was about to end badly no matter what

other people have mentioned this but I love that we got to see Loki just like...existing?? like I know he’s never been the protagonist before and seeing him as the protagonist has always been one of the things that’s excited me most about the show, but now that it’s here I’m just kind of struck by how HE’S THE PROTAGONIST so we’re getting all these emotions and little gestures and moments when he’s alone that we only got in tiny, sadly easy-to-overlook snatches before (and it also occurred to me that I don’t think we’ve ever seen Loki eat anything, which is something else that might change)

also his projection is fascinating, and so is the fact that he explicitly turned it around on himself, which seems relevant to all the theories about a lot of his other statements (”freedom is life’s great lie,” most of what he said to Natasha, etc.) being things that were drummed into him on Sanctuary rather than stuff he just came up with on his own, so that seems to cover a lot of the stuff he says in Avengers and here

on the other hand it seems unlikely we’re ever going to get confirmation that Bad Stuff happened to him on Sanctuary aside from what we already saw in Avengers, which is frustrating, although to be fair I also wasn’t expecting to see Loki crying about his family in the first episode (and the most I’m really hoping for, still, is that nothing will explicitly contradict the idea, so...we’re good on that thus far, I guess)

so the first half of the episode was...ehhh, I don’t know, but the second half was amazing. I know some people didn’t like that part either, but I felt like...okay, I don’t love him being humiliated so I would’ve preferred different framing for some of this BUT a lot of casual viewers still see Loki as a cackling caricature without having picked up on any of the stuff that very clearly showed otherwise, and this show wants to treat Loki as a person, someone worthy of audience sympathy, so they kind of had to go in hard and fast on that aspect to get everyone up to speed. like, yes, fans who’ve been paying attention know that Loki’s a person, that he’s wounded, that he doesn’t hurt people just because it’s fun for him, that he feels things very deeply, that he loves his family, but somehow the mainstream perception of him has missed like 85% of that, and the show’s just not going to have much impact unless it gets everybody on board with those very basic ideas. in terms of story structure it probably doesn’t make sense for this to be his lowest point, but starting from the bottom and eventually getting somewhere better is fairly standard, so at this point I can imagine tons of ways things could improve for him

yeah I do hate the whole Sacred Timeline thing, see also my posts about how much I loved that Endgame canonically (I thought) established multiple timelines where everything was fine, so yeah I’m pissed about that because it means those timelines were canonically pruned

like I don’t...hate it as a storytelling device? I just hate it for fandom reasons, and I’ve hated it in other fandoms when canon did something that seemed to open things up to all this incredible possibility and then went “actually no, we’re boxing it up again into this one specific Way That Things Happened” and for fanwork purposes it doesn’t matter all that much, I don’t think it’s actually that much harder to do AUs or go “okay well in this universe the TVA doesn’t exist, whatever” (in fact I wouldn’t be surprised if AO3 quickly develops a new canonical “not TVA compliant” tag for basically all Loki fic), but it is annoying that it’s now like “canonically, every AU is Not Allowed”, and if that ends up sticking as the status quo with the TVA considered good guys or at least a necessary evil then yeah, I’m going to be annoyed

HOWEVER

I don’t think that’s inevitable for a variety of reasons

this whole show is going to deal with multiverse shenanigans and so will Dr. Strange 2, so it seems completely possible that the end result could be a status quo of “there’s a multiverse actually and that’s fine” (...although yes, I’ll be doubly annoyed if the end result of this show is a restored multiverse of some kind and the end result of Dr. Strange 2 is condensing it back down to a single timeline)

the multiverse is a long-running comics tradition, which still seems to be the case even after...whatever event it was that collided a bunch of them and tried for a Highlander thing, look I wasn’t really following it and I know some characters ended up in other universes from where they started but I’m pretty sure we still have a multiverse of some kind

almost all the recent Loki-centric comics have focused on questions of fate and agency

Agent of Asgard in particular was about Loki eventually going “fuck you I won’t do what you tell me” and forging a new path (and, okay, it does seem like runs other than AoA have been the most influential here but again we’ve only seen one episode)

Loki, specifically, is an agent of chaos and change, like that’s his whole thing going way back to mythology, because sometimes stagnancy is death and chaos is healthy, and of course myth!Loki (and earlier versions of comics!Loki) is always responsible for triggering Ragnarok, which isn’t just the end of the world but is also a natural, crucial part of a cycle of renewal, and yes the MCU already did Ragnarok but that doesn’t at all mean they can’t play more with those ideas

Tom Hiddleston has brought up this specific point several times in recent interviews, that sometimes chaos is the one thing that's really needed

also, on Jimmy Kimmel the day of the episode, he kind of...planted a seed about the TVA maybe not being uncomplicated good guys because seriously what gives them the right to make these decisions for literally everyone

so at the very least I think it’s completely possible that things aren’t quite what they seem, and that for instance we’re supposed to discover that Mobius is consciously manipulating him to turn him into the type of tool the TVA wants him to be

also “the timeline wants to break free” shows up on a lot of merch, which does seem to indicate a free will vs. predestination theme

I’m not at all familiar with comics!TVA, although I understand they’re considered villains (although to be fair, so were the Skrulls, and at least thus far that’s been inverted for the MCU), but their whole thing reminded me of a few other entities in a way that could be relevant:

the tape running out was like the Norns cutting the thread of somebody’s life

Those Who Sit Above In Shadow in AoA (and also maybe whatever was below the God Quarry in Infinity Wars although I’m less familiar with that)

the gods in Cabin In The Woods, who were also kind of audience proxies in that they really just cared about the sacrifice being entertaining, which kinda seems like the only logical reason for the Timekeepers to prefer any given series of events over another

my personal hope for the series: the Timekeepers are ultimately the Big Bad and the rogue Loki variant is ultimately right in trying to wipe out the TVA (because sure I realize it’s maybe dumb of me but I still don’t want any Loki to be completely a bad guy!!); the major named TVA characters realize they’re the baddies actually and team up with a whole army of Lokis to take them down and GIVE US BACK OUR MULTIVERSE

[zhongli-simp-blog]

Distractions

Pairings Changkyun x Male Reader

A/N: Just a reminder this is FANfiction and not real in any way, I got this idea after the Jimmy Kimmel performance and I couldn’t let it go so enjoy :)

It was a long day for Changkyun nothing but rehearsals saying he was tired was an understatement, he wanted nothing more than to go back to the hotel and sleep. After rehearsals that is what he did for a short while resting up his voice and body for the Jimmy Kimmel performance, he was excited none the lease being able to perform their song Who Do U Love live on television.

“We got a surprise for you Changkyun,” Kihyun said tapping his shoulder he turned around and saw you standing there and a smile as big as the ocean appeared on his face. “Y/N!!” He shouted out holding you in his arms spinning you around, “what are you doing here?” He asked a bright smile still on his face, “Kihyun flew me out to surprise you,” you said making his smile even bigger if that was even possible.

“Well I am glad that he did, I missed you so much,” he gave you a kiss and sparks flew just like the first time you guys kissed. You and the rest of the members got in the van and headed to the studio for the show, “I will be sitting front row cheering you on” you said hugging Changkyun before he went into the dressing room. 

You were sitting front row watching Jimmy Kimmel make his jokes and interview with the current guest not really paying attention only wanted to see your boyfriend on stage performing. “After the break, Monsta X will be on stage performing along with French Montana!” Jimmy said making the crowd and you cheer and scream in excitement.

After what felt like forever the crowd started screaming even more loudly and Monsta X took their positions on stage and started the song. You and the crowd were jumping and dancing to the music, you noticed Chankyun sneaking glances at you winking and smirking few times making you blush at how sexy he can be so easy. Once French Montana started his verse Changkyun’s expression changed and saw him annoyed to the point where he wasn’t even smiling like he was before not even at you.

The show was over and you all were in the van on your way back to the hotel, You leaned over so you were able to whisper into his ear. “Are you okay?” You asked but no answer, the rest of the ride was silent feeling his handhold yours and you cracked a smile knowing he could never truly ignore me. 

We arrived back to the hotel and all the guys went back to their own hotel room and I joined Changkyun in his. He let out a loud sigh and all you could do was hug him from behind trying to comfort whatever mood he was in. “What are you doing Y/N?” He questioned your sudden grasp “I wanted to make sure you are okay, I saw you annoyed on stage and I got worried,” You confessed and he chuckled lightly.

He turned around brushing a stray hair out from your face “you are seriously the best boyfriend I could ever have,” he smiled giving you a gentle kiss hugging you tightly. You pulled away a grin appearing on your face remembering what he was doing before “now what was with the smirking beforehand?” you asked innocently pretending like you didn’t know exactly what he was thinking.

A sly smirk appeared on his face remembering what he was originally thinking beforehand “ooh so you did catch that?” He said in a low seductive tone slowly taking a step forward pressing your back against the wall even with your height he still felt taller. “I thought my baby boy would understand what I was thinking.” He said running his hands up your shirt leaving goosebumps where he touched.

“Well I wanted to distract you from your thoughts,” you say breathing heavy from his hand trailing up your back. “Well, it worked,” feeling his warm breath against your neck his gentle kisses sending shivers down your body. Pulling back a little feeling his smirk “it’s beautiful how your body reacts to me,” Changkyun said proudly knowing what he can do to you.

He started kissing further down your neck rolling your head back giving him more access and he took full advantage of it. His hands tugging at your shirt wanting to remove it, “I want this removed” Changkyun said almost demanding and you obliged taking your shirt off slowly almost teasingly knowing how much it makes him crazy. “You are a tease baby boy,” his eyes getting dark with lust, “I thought you liked it when I teased,” you had a teasingly tone in your voice.

Even at Changkyun’s mercy, you could always make him fall to your teasing. He got tired of your teasing and removed your shirt for you revealing your body to him. “That’s better,” he said kissing further down your body leaving no part untouched showing you how much he missed you and releasing his frustration.

“God I want you so badly Y/N” he whispered huskily against your ear, and you wanted him just as much pushing him back towards the bed laying down. “So take me Changkyun,” you whined out pulling him over on top of you “make me yours” you whispered your breath hitting his lips. He ran one of his hands down your body palming you through your pants “I am going to make you feel so good, baby” Changkyun said unbuttoning your pants skilled enough to pull your pants down with one hand.

After he fully unclothed you he started undressing himself giving you a full view of his perfect naked body as he walked closer to you again kissing up your thigh moving up to your torso using his hand to dick. Changkyun was never the one for foreplay but always did want to please you with the most gentle touch.

He lifted your leg and positioned himself at your entrance slowly pushing his dick inside of you a sharp gasp leaving your mouth. He pulled you in for a deep kiss as he started thrusting into you moaning into the kiss only made him go faster, “fuck Y/N I missed your moans so much” Changkyun moaned his breath getting faster as his pace quickened going deeper. He covered your mouth trying to quiet the moans, “shh baby boy I only want to hear your moans tonight, if you need to bite down.”

Changkyun’s thrust was getting sloppy and rougher, “damn Y/N I’m gonna cum” he grunted out against your ear. You wrapped your legs around his waist pulling him deeper into you causing him to let out a loud moan as his body started shaking from him releasing his orgasm and helping you release yours. He pulled out laying down on you layins his head on your chest listening to your heartbeat calm down.

You both laid there enjoying each other’s company listening to the other’s breath your hand running through his hair. “The reason I was annoyed was that French Montana treated our performance like a joke and I want to give the best to our fans, but I seriously don’t like him and never want to perform with him again,” He said holding you tighter. “Changkyun I will support you no matter what your choices are if you don’t want to then don’t” you saying trying comfort him.

Looking up at you he had nothing but love in his eyes “I love you Y/N, thank you for being here and distracting me from everything.”I love you too Changkyun and I will always be here whenever you need me.” After Changlyun and you were laying there starring into each other’s eyes he gave you a deep loveable kiss as you both fell asleep with him in your arms.

[habaritess]

Also , the way seb reacts reminds me of myself a lot . When I was in high school , I had an unrequited intense crush on my female teacher. The thing is , it was never about her looks or body or anything like that but solely on her personality and knowledge. Such type of crush just turn into infatuation or obsession because it isn't shallow. My behaviour is exactly what is see in seb towards Anthony . Seeing his past interviews , also the ones where winstackie were present , the need to pull Anthony's attention towards himself , constantly having him on his mind and biggest being letting the person touch you. In the recent interview where Anthony is stripping seb , he never once removes his hand or discourages it , rather plays it off with humor and is even beaming with joy after the interaction . This is exactly what I would do during that time with my teacher. In many ways , seeing seb here reminds me of my past so much .. Anyways I would love to know your take on it .

This is an ask by @melodious44 

For some odd reason, I couldn’t answer it directly.

You hit the nail on the head on exactly how I perceive Seb actions towards Anthony. I wrote about it quite a bit in my past observations, but the new video of Anthony trying to take off Seb jacket is a great example of this. It is not because anyone can just go up to Sebastian and do that, it exactly because it Anthony doing it is why he likes it. This is the case of if most people start poking you repeatedly in the face, you will get annoyed by it, but if the person you’ve been crushing on hard does it, your going to be blushing like a lamp shade because regardless of what that person is doing, they are giving their undivided attention to you. And that fact makes up for whatever irritating thing they may be doing because what is important is the attention.

I’m not even on the fence at this point. Infinity war promos pretty much confirmed it, but even during the civil war days it pretty obvious. Seb is crushing on Anthony hard and the greatest thing about it… he has no chill about it! He has admitted it in several interviews how much Anthony is “in his head” and his behavior over the years proves that. Look how much he constantly references him in unrelated interviews. He made that last Jimmy Kimmel interview very Anthony centric by choice. He finds way to relate things back to Anthony and when people actually ask about him, the usually short answered Sebastian just go on full passion mode. 

I’m quite happy that Seb doesn’t seem to have much self awareness because otherwise, he would have realized how much of an obvious love sick puppy he is… or he knows how he comes across but doesn’t care at all. I’m still not sure which one it is because he never put the breaks on when it comes to Anthony. Anything Anthony says or asks of him to do, notice how he does it without question no matter how freaking embarrassing it is.. And that important to note too especially with Sebastian being the “quiet” person in the group. Usually quiet people tend to be hyper aware of their actions and don’t try to stand out even when they want to because it hard for them. But put Sebastian with Anthony and he is dancing in front of cameras, singing, and happily making a fool out of himself. It never for the cameras or the interviews. It always for getting a reaction out of Anthony, getting Anthony to smile, getting Anthony to laugh out loud. Everything seems to take a second step back to that and when he succeeds in that, there goes the brightest, widest smile you ever see from the guy.

[canaryatlaw]

alright, well today was okay. I woke up at like 12:30 I think and while on my phone I checked my email to see that my latest email was from the public guardian’s office requesting an interview. In case you’re just tuning in now, this is the office I interned in in law school and desperately want to work for, and was absolutely devastated a few weeks ago when they had denied me an interview. So this was a big deal. I pretty much started crying. The person who emailed me this time was not the same person as the one who had been handling hiring emails and had sent the email saying they wouldn’t interview me, this person I actually knew and have interacted with many times, though it’s been like 1 1/2 years since that happened. So I emailed them back my availability for the next few weeks, and then immediately afterwards excitedly sent an email to my former supervisor/mentor from this office who I had to thank for getting them to reconsider interviewing me. He’s really the best, he’s had faith in me from the beginning and let me work on the super high profile child death case that taught me so much. When I told him they’d said no to interviewing me he called the deputy public guardian (as in the 2nd in charge in the whole office) on my behalf and apparently it worked, so I’m incredibly grateful to him for that. I do have to wonder now though, idk who’s gonna end up interviewing me, but is there going to be any sort of animosity about the fact that I basically went above their heads to get what I wanted and get their decision reversed? I don’t think it would be taken that personally, or anyone who would be making the decision would be considering it, but I have to wonder if that would ever play into my relationships in the office should I get the job, but I guess we’ll just have to see what happens there. I just....I will be so happy if this works out. like all these months applying and getting rejected for jobs that I didn’t even want, and this was the opportunity I’ve been holding out for because it’s 100 times more preferable than any second option. so I will definitely be praying and doing anything I can to prepare for this. Anyway. I had some breakfast (leftover rice pudding from the other day) and then started tackling the challenge of washing the dishes, because I had done a significant amount of baking over the past week and letting them pile up so they was getting to be quite a pile at this point. So I turned on a podcast episode and got to work. It ended up taking about an hour to get through all of it, which isn’t bad because in the past when the pile has been really large it’s taken me up to 2 hours to get them all done. So once they were all washed and put away I started my new project for the day, which is the recipe for homemade twix bars that I’ve been eyeing for a few weeks now. it starts of course by making the cookie base which is basically just sheet of shortbread cookie that was easy enough to make, and then I had to let it cool before I could move on. So I went to the den and tried to use a link I’d gotten to watch the Michael Jackson documentary since we don’t have HBO but it didn’t end up working, but I already had my other laptop all plugged into the tv and set up and I figured I might as well use it, so I ended up watching the pilot for Doom Patrol on DC Universe. It was.....odd. I didn’t particularly enjoy it. I had heard some people compare it to Legends in that it’s more of a lighthearted and somewhat comedic take on superheroes, but I wasn’t really seeing some of the qualities I appreciate most in Legends that makes it work so well. So idk, I’m not terribly inclined to keep watching at this point but we’ll see, I may end up at least giving it a few more episodes to see if it gets good. Once I finished watching that the cookie base had sufficiently cooled, so I decided to get started on the caramel layer. Now, I’ve made a lot of caramel in the past, so I have a fairly good idea of what I’m doing. For some reason this recipe started with just putting sugar in a saucepan with nothing else in it and just let it melt, which I hadn’t really done before but whatever, so it says over medium high heat so I put it on, and before I knew it what had started melting at the edges had already burned, before even most of the sugar had melted, so that was unusable, so I had to toss it and try again, under lower heat, but the same thing happened. at this point I was getting irritated but I thought I’d give it one more shot, just over very low heat and watching it the whole time, and as soon as it started melting on the edges it was already burning, so it looked like this recipe was just gonna be a complete bust for whatever reason and I’d have to find another one to make it work. However at this point it was time for Arrow, so I would have to do that afterwards. Arrow was.....painful for me personally, lol. I thought Oliver was being incredibly arrogant and bullheaded trying to insist he knows better than the police when it comes to *actually following the law* when catching criminals. like there’s a reason vigilantism is generally outlawed, because it breaks the law and makes just about any evidence obtained inadmissible, but of course we can’t get into the actual realities of that on tv because it just wouldn’t work. so that was really quite annoying, but oh well. I was sad to see that apparently Dinah may have lost her canary cry, though I did suspect they were going to do this after her injury a few weeks back. So that was that. Black Lightning was on next, all around solid episode, no surprises there. I’m loving Jennifer’s arc so much, she’s such a badass (as Anissa is as well) and I know she is definitely going places. All of the family stuff was of course really well done and I always appreciate that. So yeah, good episode. While watching these shows I was going through my pinterest recipes trying to find a suitable caramel recipe. I wanted one with a solid amount of caramel since a lot of them just seemed to have a thin layer of caramel. I ended up going with one from a recipe for “caramallows” aka chocolate covered bites of marshmallow and caramel, it used the same dimensions pan wise and had a good amount, so I thought it’d work well. I got to work doing that, and it definitely required patience as these things do, and there was some close calls as the mixture bubbled up and I had to hastily switch it to a bigger saucepan, but we made it through and ended up with a solid batch of caramel, so I was pleased with that. Once that was finished I went back into the den and watched the news for a bit, then the beginning of Jimmy Kimmel before showering and starting to get ready for bed, and now I am here. So yeah, not a bad day. Tomorrow I have my interview with the public defender’s office, which should be interesting. I know I can sell myself as a solid choice for the position regardless of me not having that much experience with it in law school, but this is definitely not an ideal position for me and I would definitely have hesitations about some of it, but I mean I do need a job, but yet again now that OPG is back on the table, that changes everything. So I guess we’ll see what that goes. It’s just past 1 am now so I should really been getting to sleep now. Goodnight dears. Hope your Monday didn’t suck.

[kazekohitori]

This is the end of a four part fanfic I wrote for my friends and myself to help the healing process after losing our favorite character and the end of the show.

Please read the previous chapters in chronological order: CastielXStacie Chapters One and Two, CastielXAllanah Part One, CastielXStevie, CastielXAllanah Part Two, and CastielXChristina before continuing on. Thank you.

CastielXStacie Chapter Three

Stacie had woken in the most wonderful way that morning; wrapped in her Castiel’s embrace. She savored the moment, pretending to still be asleep she clung to him for nearly an hour longer. As she lay there she couldn’t help but notice that he seemed to be asleep, or in such a relaxed state that his heartbeat and rhythmic breathing sounded as if he was, though he wasn’t snoring. She wondered if she had snored. How embarrassed she would be if she had. Still, he had joined her of his own free will, engulfed her with his arms, and remained with her through the night. If he had been annoyed with her surely he wouldn’t have remained.

They spent the day talking about the world and it’s current predicament (although it was mostly Stacie doing the talking while Cas listened intently); Castiel’s time in the other world, or, more correctly, the memories he had been endowed with; and how he would choose to spend this new life.

He had decided to stay with Stacie and live with her in her small apartment for the time being. She was unemployed and living on property owned by her parents, She was also their caretaker, not that they were invalid, but she was the able body that could help around the house should there be a leak that needed fixing or a run to the grocery store. She was her parents helping hands. At the time that Castiel arrived though, they were away at a rental property they owned and would not be back for a week. She and Castiel had decided that when she did introduce him to her parents she would say he was her live-in boyfriend. It made sense as she only had the one bed, and Stacie knew her parents wouldn’t question it.

Stacie took Cas for a drive into town, showing off the rural neighborhood she lived in and the sleepy little town just down the main road. It was very much like the little towns he had visited on cases with the Winchesters. Indeed, Castiel could see himself making a home in this community with her. Perhaps once the pandemic had subsided he could get a job at the gas station, Stacie could get a job at the local post office, and they could meet for lunch every day. Maybe they could spend the rest of their days like that.

They bought some take out and sat on a bench near the local fishing spot to watch the sportsmen attempt to reel in the big one. Castiel talked about Dean’s love of the sport and how he might consider taking it up, which Stacie wholeheartedly encouraged.

“My dad loves fishing despite rarely catching anything. And my mom and I love eating fish!” She chuckled as she nibbled on a French fry.

Cas smiled, “I doubt I will have more luck than your father.”

“You never know,” she shrugged.

Cas fed the ducks and wading birds while they talked of things to come and Stacie ate. One of the things Stacie requested of Cas was for him to teach her Enochian and to tell her all that he knew of angels. She confessed that she had been obsessed with angel lore since his introduction to the Supernatural Universe. Admittedly she hadn’t watched the show from it’s debut date fifteen years ago but had been engrossed by it three years ago. And winged creatures, especially humanoid winged creatures, had always fascinated her. She made him promise to one day show her his wings.

At the end of the day, they returned to Stacie’s apartment where Stacie made dinner and they watched a movie together. Castiel had asked to join her in her meal of stir-fried vegetables and rice. While it surprised her she was happy to have him try her cooking and his contented smile warmed her heart.

“I thought you only tasted molecules,” she smirked, not sure of how true his reaction was.

“I do,” he said, taking another bite, “I’ve learned to discern different molecular structures as a way of tasting.” He leaned back, chewing his food, “And this particular makeup is delicious,” a broad smile erupted on his face.

Stacie’s smile mirrored his, “I’m glad you approve.”

They settled on the bed to watch Stacie’s normal evening line up of YouTube clips from Jimmy Kimmel’s, Jimmy Fallon’s, and Seth Meyers’ different shows. Cas had stretched out his arms inviting her into his warmth which she happily accepted. She snuggled into him, her head resting on his chest where she could hear his heart beat. This was heaven. This was all she ever wanted. Throughout this whole terrible year of endings and uncertainty of future, this moment was bliss. And she endeavored to hold it tight that she might never lose it.

That’s when her tablet and phone began a stream of notifications from the ‘Misha’s Angels’ chat group.

Stevie: YOU GUYS!

Stevie: OMG

Stevie: YOU GUYS!!!

Stevie: HES REAL

Stevie: IM LOOKING RIGHT AT HIM!

Stevie: HES HERE IN MY HOUSE!!

Stevie: HES REAL

Stevie: YOU GUYS!!!!

Stevie: AAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!

Allanah was the first to respond.

Allanah: What do you mean? Who?

Stevie: CASTIEL! HE’S HERE IN MY KITCHEN!

Allanah: How

Stevie: Idk but he is! We just kissed!

Stevie: I thought he was a dream but

Stevie: HE’S FUCKING REAL!!!

Allanah: I know he is. I’m looking at him right now.

Stevie: What?

Allanah: He is on my couch with Emma.

Allanah: How is he with you?

Stevie: There’s two of them?!

Christina chimed in.

Christina: Make that three

“It seems that the spell worked completely,” Stacie said as she read the messages.

“They have their versions?”

“Yep. Huh, Stevie made out with hers.”

Cas’ face flushed at the thought of making out with Stacie so soon into their relationship. Good thing she was preoccupied with the phone in her hand that she didn’t notice.

“Guess it’s time to come clean,” she said as she began to type.

Stacie: Oh good. I was beginning to wonder.

Stacie: Hi guys! How y’all doing?

Stevie: How is there fucking three of them?

Christina: How is he even here?

Allanah: @Stacie do you know something about this?

Stacie: I do.

Christina: WTF guys

Stacie: I cast a spell to create thoughtforms of your Castiel.

Stevie: ...wha

Stacie: Each of you have materialized your own version of the Castiel you have created in your head while watching Supernatural.

Allanah: Thoughtform?

Christina: Like a tulpa?

Stacie: Very much like a tulpa but without the need to focus on a symbol.

Stacie: Thoughtforms are more like imaginary friends. With the right circumstances they can become physical manifestations for others to see, not just their creators.

Stevie: So this isn’t Castiel?

Stacie: With some research and a bit of luck I came across a spell that supposedly brought those imaginary friends to life. And, well, here we are.

Stacie: @Stevie, no, not THE Castiel from the show. Not the canon version either.

Christina: WTF STACIE!

Stacie: He is whatever interpretation you have created in your own head. If he is sexually attracted to you in your head he will be so in this world. If he is a giant nerd, he will be a giant nerd. He will be drawn to you as you are his creator but thoughtforms can and do take on a life of their own. Some have been known to turn violent but I don’t think we have anything to worry about as long as no one dreamed of a homicidal Castiel.

Allanah: My Castiel wants to know how the spell works

Stacie: @Christina, what’s the matter?

Christina: What am I supposed to do with an angel!

Stacie: @Allanah, the spell I cast works by creating the thoughtform when the creator concentrates on Castiel and the word ‘believe’ is the trigger word like ‘abracadabra’

Stacie: @Christina, what ever you’ve always wanted to do with him?

There was a long pause where no one wrote anything. Stacie turned to Cas, “I think I screwed up.”

He sat up, taking the phone from her to read through the messages. After a moment he placed a hand on the small of her back, “I don’t think you did. What you did, you did out of love. Not just for me but for them.”

“You’d think I would have learned from the show. One may do things for the right reasons but they may not always be the right things.”

Cas gave her a small smile while rubbing her back, “Guess that makes you one of us.”

She offered him a sad smirk. The phone went off again.

Stevie: Well I love him. I’m keeping him. Thank you

Stacie showed Cas the message. “See? It’s not all bad,” he smiled, drawing her to him.

Allanah: This is a lot to take in. I’ll let you know how it goes.

Christina was the last to reply.

Christina: What the hell, I could use some help in my life.

Tears pooled in Stacie’s eyes. She was able to do something nice for her dearest of friends when they had all been miserable. She had succeeded in her quest and she had a love of her own as well. She wouldn’t have to be lonely anymore. None of them would. The show may have ended but their love for it would live on right next to them every day of their lives.

THE END

[asexual-alistair-blog]

Untitled Thedas Peeps in Modern World

Quinn scanned the crowd from the balcony above the stage. Her three brothers, who had formed a Beastie Boys cover group, were on said stage, performing. She felt an immense wave of loneliness wash over her as she saw that everyone in the crowd at least had someone. Alec had disappeared a year ago and she still had no idea how to function without her best friend.

The crowd cheered as her brothers started up “Sabotage,” but the cheers quickly turned to screams as a bright green light suddenly appeared and people fell out of it. Quinn was down the stairs in a flash, the gun she carried out. Her FBI training took over and she quickly told people stay back and get to safe cover. She heard her brothers helping people closer to the stage to safety as she inched closer to the figures on the ground under the light. Suddenly, the light disappeared with a pop, and she pointed her gun at the nearest figure.. “Hands in the air where I can see them!” She ordered, her tone leaving no room for questions. The four figures threw their hands in the air as they slowly sat up.

“Quinn, is that you?” She heard Alec’s voice, causing her to jolt the gun towards the figure who spoke. “Whoa, please put the gun down, it’s me, Alec!” Quinn gave a laugh.

“Hah! Alec is dead, nice try.” She sneered. “And he wouldn’t be caught dead wearing whatever the fuck you’re calling clothing.”

“Ouch.” A smooth voice came from another figure. “Alec, I like your clothing.”

“You picked it out, Sparkler, of course you would,” the shortest of the four figures chuckled. “What is a gun, and should I be worried that she has one?”

“It’s a weapon, and yes you should. Quinn was never a very good shot.”

“Quinn can you interrogate them in the back?” Her brother Mike appeared next to her before she could reply. “We still have to get these people to safety and lock down the hall. Don’t worry, we’ll get the rest of security to go through everything. Hey Alec, you look extra gay today. Nice job man.”

“I’ll need some help getting four people to the back. But yeah I can, just make sure you play some loud ass music during clean up. Drown out their lies.” Quinn smirked.

“Hey!” The short one said. “I don’t know about Sparkler and Domino over there but Curly and I do not lie.”

“Varric, you’re a self-proclaimed liar don’t even start.” Alec glared as Quinn’s security team manhandled them into the back room. “Quinn, I can explain…”

“There will be no explaining. Ya’ll fell out of a stupid fucking hole in the sky. I don’t want to know about that shit.” Quinn shook her head in a sharp motion.

“She’s eloquent. I like her.” the short guy named Varric laughed, “Good choice in friends, Domino.”

“Pat them down. If they resist, full cavity searches. You have the certification for that yeah?” The team of guards nodded. “Good.”

“That’s a little vindictive, Quinn.” Alec frowned. Quinn got into his face.

“You’ll deal with it because it’s protocol. I don’t know if you’re Alec or some hella good impostor, but I’m not risking all those people out there just because someone doesn’t want a pat down.”

“Actually I’m more concerned about a full cavity search. I don’t need more fingers up my ass.”

“That’s what a full cavity search is?” the one currently named Sparkler looked appalled. “What could people hide up there? Other than…” He grinned slightly.

“Lots of stuff. Most common one is drugs. Cocaine is a big thing to stuff up your butt to sneak it places. Prisoners do shit like this all the time. And that’s why you’ll get them if you resist.” Quinn, shrugging, turned to the large blond man standing quietly an grimacing, if going along with her rules. “Why haven’t you protested any of this?” He gave her a brief smile.

“I understand the need for order. And I think the idea of a full cavity search sounds highly unpleasant.” Quinn snorted.

“Can you get me DNA swabs?” She asked one of the guards at the door. “I need to get an identification on the one claiming to be Alec Griswald for sure.”

“How many do you want, ma’am?” The guard asked.

“Four. Ask the FBI agent at the front door. And tell him Quinn needs his help in the back.”

“Gotcha.” The guard nodded before walking off.

“There are FBI agents here?” Alec asked, scrunching his face in mil discomfort and confusion as he was was searched. “For a concert?”

“Yes, two of us are here.” Quinn showed her badge. “NASA detected a disturbance in the atmosphere in this particular club and my brothers just happened to have a show the night they expected the disturbance to manifest.”

The door opened and the guard returned followed by a man in black dress slacks and a red button down shirt. “Are these the suspects, Quinn?”

“Yes,” Quinn replied, ignoring Alec’s protests about being suspects. “Any casualties?”

“Not a single one.” The man grinned before turning to the four “suspects” and showing his badge. “I’m Agent Samuel Hamilton. This is my partner, Agent Quinn Faulkner.”

“This one’s claiming to be Alec Griswald, Samilton.” Quinn jabbed her thumb at Alec. ‘Samilton’ looked at him suspiciously.

“Is that so? If you’re really Alec Griswald, not only will you submit willingly to a DNA test, you’re in for a world of hurt for what you did to Quinn.” He glared, popping open the tube with the swab in it.

“Samilton…” Quinn warned. “I’m a big girl I can handle my conflicts on my own.” Alec stayed quiet, instead opening his mouth for the swab, his eyes on Quinn, who watched him back. “What did the NASA guy say about the disturbance?”

“Gone.” Samilton closed the tube and looked at the three strangers. “Do we want to swab all of them?”

“You won’t find their DNA in any system you have.” Alec finally looked at the other agent. “They’re not from Earth.” Quinn raised her eyebrows.

“Not from Earth…” She shrugged. “Okay. Here’s the deal. Samilton will get everyone’s DNA to the labs for analysis. I will take ya’ll into custody and we’re gonna chat about why three of you aren’t from Earth and where the fuck you ARE from. Any questions?”

“What’s DNA?” The dark skinned man who had been called Sparkler asked.

“DNA�� How to explain DNA…” Quinn pulled out her phone and googled it.

“It’s the stuff that makes you you. Your genes and your traits and stuff. Color of your hair, shape of your nose, stuff like that. And that’s the elementary school definition.” Samilton explained, getting a ‘what the fuck’ look from Quinn. “I was going to go into genetics when I started college. Then my FBI calling kicked my ass elsewhere.” Quinn nodded.

“Alright boys, swab ‘em!” She grinned as she popped open a swab stick along with Samilton, who popped one open to swab the small man. She started with the large, muscly, blond man who leaned down at her instruction so she could swab his mouth.

“That tastes like cotton…Gross!” Sparkler (Quinn still wasn’t sure if that was his real name or a nickname) grimaced after Quinn ran the swab through his mouth. “Isn’t that unsanitary?”

“Dorian, this isn’t Thedas. There’s no magic and technology beats what Thedosians have by a long shot. Sanitation is easy.” Alec smiled at Sparkler (Dorian?), calming him.

“Hey Quinn, how come you got the tall guy and I got the short guy? Shouldn’t we have switched?” Samilton whined. Quinn smirked at her FBI partner.

“I know how much you appreciate chest hair, Sammy. And you know how much I like ‘em tall and beefy.” She cackled as the dwarf gave a hearty chuckle.

“Unfortunately for Samilton, I don’t roll that way.” He smirked at Quinn.

“Of course you don’t. I don’t either.” Samilton scowled, popping the lid closed on his swab’s tube. “I’ll get these samples to the lab. Do you want any backup, Quinn?”

“Yeah. Hurry your ass up at the lab, but make sure they test Alec’s sample first. I’ll take ‘em to Andon Gaol. Himchan should be good for backup until you arrive.” Quinn pulled out four pairs of handcuffs and pointed two of the security officers over. “I’ll need your help getting them into the vehicle. Ya’ll are getting handcuffed for appearances. Hands in front of you please.” The four men complied and she closed each pair of cuffs with a satisfying click.

 ****

The ride to Andon Gaol was filled with a stunned silence. The three foreigners were too shell shocked from a being in a loud carriage that moved without horses, Alec (or whoever he was) was so tired he fell asleep, and Quinn had a lot on her mind, none of her thoughts stopping as she pulled up to a gray concrete warehouse with absolutely no windows. “Look alive, sunshine.” She said, grabbing a key card out of the glove compartment to open the gate. “Hope you got some rest because you’re in for some long hours of talking.”

“Oh joy.” Dorian rolled his eyes. “Well, Varric can do most of it. We all know he’s a born chatterbox.”

“Sorry, you won’t be interrogated together.” Quinn didn’t sound (or feel, for that matter) the least bit sorry. She pulled out her phone and hit a speed dial on the home screen. “Himchan, I’m here with four suspects in the mysterious… Yeah... Mhm... Himchan I’ll debrief you inside just help me get them into their rooms!” She hung up with a sigh, four people staring at her oddly. “What, you’ve never seen an annoyed woman before?”

“You’ve changed, Quinn.” Alec said, his voice sad.

“Yeah, well. We all do.” She said coldly as a tall, thin, Asian man came to the group. Once he was at her side, she smiled. “Himmie! What’s the haps!?”

“Not much, was watching BTS on Jimmy Kimmel when you called. Anyway, these are the suspects? Samilton should have the DNA samples soon.” Himchan shrugged. “Let’s get them in.”

“Sounds good.” Quinn nodded, and as they lead the four men into the building. Himchan took Dorian and the tall, blond man to two cells on one side of the warehouse, and Quinn took Varric and Alec to two on the other side. Once the four strange suspects were in their own cells, Quinn met Himchan in his office. “What have you got for me?”

“The hole that appeared in the atmosphere within the venue was definitely nothing NASA’s ever been present for before, but the disturbance has happened once before.” Himchan frowned as he looked at Quinn. It happened the day Alec Griswald disappeared, and in the same area he was last seen.”

[surveysonfleek]

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5000 Question Survey Pt. 2 101. What does happiness/joy feel like physically? i guess sometimes i get a jolt of adrenaline. 102. List five people you love starting with the one you love the absolute most. this is hard. i love my boyfriend and family pretty equally but in different ways. 103. How many movies have you gone to see this month? none. i hardly go to the movies anymore. 104. If you could have 3 wishes...but none of them could be for yourself, what would you wish for? good health for my parents, prosperity and success for my boyfriend and a happy life for my sister.  105. In what ways do you relax and de-stress when you are really tense? i’ll binge watch a show, read, cook or nap.

106. How much money would it take to get you to drive to school naked in the springtime and get out of the car? a million at least. 107. Have you ever killed an animal? nah, just the occasional insect and stuff. 108. Have you ever lost someone close to you? yes. 109. What do you think of cloning? pretty crazy. it’s a weird advancement of technology. 110. Do you read or watch TV more often? watch tv shows. 111. With all this talk of terrorism going around are you willing to sacrifice rights and freedoms for increased safety? it depends what those rights are. but if it’s for the good of the community then whatever. 112. What is the punishment you would come up with for Osama Bin Laden if you caught him alive? he’s dead. 113. Have you ever named an individual part of your body? nope. 114. Have you ever been on the radio or on TV? i’ve been on tv, but the back of my head during a jimmy kimmel show lol. 115. Have you ever won a lottery, or sweepstakes? nope, never played the lotto. i should try. 116. Have you ever won a contest or competition? yes. 117. Do you like to watch The Joy of Painting show with Bob Ross (check out this link if you don't know who he is. Also please note me if you notice the link is broken) http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bob_Ross_(painter)? cbf. 118. Do you know what your grandparents and your great grand parents did for a living? my grandparents on my mother’s side owned a general store, my grandmother from my dad’s side was a teacher, idk what my grandfather did tbh lol. 119. Is there anything really interesting in your family history? probably, i just don’t know enough about it. 120. Is there anyone you trust completely? yes. 121. Have you ever lost someone without having the chance to say goodbye? yes :( 122. How do you feel about women in politics? pretty good, we need more of them. 123. Would you rather have an indoor Jacuzzi or an outdoor pool? outdoor pool. 124. What things are you interested in that you study or read about on your own? anything on reddit. there’s tons of shit to delve into there. 125. Would you consider yourself to be intelligent? i’d like to think so but i’m probably just average. 126. Would you consider yourself to be wise? hopefully. 127. Have you ever given or received a lap dance? nope. 128. Have you ever spoken to a homeless person? yes. 129. Would you ever creep into the subway tunnels to go exploring? hell no. 130. If you could add 70 years to your life but only by making some random person die 70 years sooner would you? nah. i wouldn’t stop thinking about it. 131. Can you finish any of the following lyrics? A: Nothing to kill or die for... B: Late comings with the late comin' stretcher... C: I could make a film and make you my star... i don’t think i know any of these. 132. Were you ever with someone while they died? no. 133. Would you rather be a world political leader or a rock star? world political leader. 134. Have you ever given someone a love letter that you wrote? yes. 135. Have you ever sent someone a surprise though the mail? hmm nope. 136. Are you looking forward to any concerts right now? yes! plenty. 137. Of all animated movies, which is the best one you've ever seen? i loved aladdin the most. 138. What are the best bands or songs to listen to while driving? my mood changed everyday. 139. What do you think is the most amazing thing that anyone has ever accomplished? i couldn’t choose just one.  140. What could a member of the opposite sex do to impress you? sing me a song. 141. About how many emails do you get a day? How many of those emails are junk mail? How many of them are forwards? about ten and they’re usually all junk. 142. What's your favorite thing to do online besides write in your diary and hang out at this site? youtube and netflix. 143. Do you believe Kurt Cobain (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kurt_Cobain) killed himself or was it a conspiracy? no idea. 144. Have you ever though about hitchhiking across the country? neverrrr. 145. Who would you bring with you on this kind of a road trip? - 146. Of the following, which word best describes you: accurate, bold, charming, dependable dependable. 147. If you are single, at about what age do you think you will be ready to settle down and get married? If you are married, how old were you at the time? i’m not single or married. 148. Do you often wonder, when you say goodbye to people, if it is the last time you will ever see them? nope, because it’s not my intention. i’m assuming i’ll see them again. 149. What movie are you most looking forward to seeing when it comes out? none as of yet. 150. What is your quest? lol idk. 151. What is louder and more annoying: 200 adults talking or one four-year-old screaming?  200 adults talking.

152. Do you believe the stories about planes, boats and people mysteriously disappearing into the Bermuda triangle? haha idk. i don’t know much about it scientific-wise. 153. Who are you the most jealous of? no one. 154. What is the happiest way you can start your day? even though i don’t do it that often, probably go to the gym. 155. Do you ever have moments where you feel like everything is all right in the world? yes. 156. Who thinks that you are offensive? probably a lot of people who aren’t my friends lol. 157. If you had to teach a class in something, what would you be able to teach people? how to do shit on the computer lol. 158. Have you ever had a spiritual experience (an experience that cannot be explained by science)? nah. 159. Do you believe that this experience was truly mystical or do you think there is some scientific explanation for it, only you don't know what it is? - 160. Do you get offended easily? not if i’m with my friends. if random people say the wrong thing i get pretty offended. 161. Would you still love and stay with your signifigant other if he or she had to have a breast or testicle removed? yes of course. 162. Do you believe in fate or free will? free will. i think we’re responsible for our actions and the consequences. 163. Do you believe that only boring people get bored? haha possibly. 164. Can life change or are we all stuck in vain? life can change. 165. What changes are you afraid of? idk. 166. Are you a day person or nocturnal? i’m nocturnal. 167. What one CD could you listen to for an entire week (no mixed CD’s, it must be an album)? haha idk. someone’s greatest hits i guess. 168. Which is worse, working in retail, food service, or an office? food service. i’ve done it and it sucks. 169. What's the coolest job you ever had? croupier. 170. What is one central idea that your thoughts seem to come back to? wtf i’m doing with my life. 171. Have you ever wanted to be an actor/tress? yes as a kid. i didn’t know how to act though. 172. If you had the power to control one person and make this person do anything you wanted for a whole day, who would you pick and what would they do? i wouldn’t do that to anyone. 173. What star sign are you and what is your sign like? sagittarius. apparently they’re known for being adventurous and loving the outdoors. i’m definitely not that. 174. Did the Blair Witch Project scare you? it did until i found out it was fake. 175. Are you in constant fear of death? sorta but it’s not something i think about a lot. 176. Does fear of death keep you from building a life? no. 177. Do you like all your movies to be in wide-screen? it doesn’t matter to me. 178. Are you a fan of any comic books? nah. i used to read the simpsons ones when they were out. 179. At what age did you attend your first funeral? 7. 180. What do you smell like (lotion, cologne, sweat)? lotion. 181. What are your greatest sources for wisdom? the internet haha. 182. When you were little, where did your parents tell you babies come from? i honestly don’t remember. i think i heard a lot of ‘you’ll learn about it when you’re older’ 183. What is your favorite band? i don’t have one. 184. What's the best cheesy 80's song? girls just wanna have fun. 185. What's the best kind of movie to see on a date? something funny or scary. 186. Do you like to sit in the front, middle or back of the Movie Theater? middle or back. 187. Have you ever been inside an abandoned building? not that i know of. 188. Under what circumstances would you agree to work for free? if it’s for a good cause. 189. Candles or strobe lights? candles. 190. Do you think the Lord of the Rings movies are true to the books or did Hollywood change the story too much? i haven’t read/watched it. 191. When you see a stranger on the street does your first reaction lean towards thinking of this person as a potential friend or as a potential threat? nothing unless they’re doing something that’s caught my attention. 192. Is it natural for human beings to fear and distrust each other, or is it cultural? natural. 193. What do you really want to buy? nothing. more clothes i guess. 194. You have to choose. Would you be happier marrying someone rich for their money or living in the streets and subway tunnels with someone you love? haha shit. living poorly with someone i love. i think we could probably get through it together. 195. If someone wanted to understand you what book could they read that would help? idk none. 196. Do you think it’s odd that Americans have freedom of religion and yet call themselves 'one nation under god'? hmm they didn’t specify which god tough. 197. In what sense are you a minority? my ethnicity. 198. Are you anti social? sometimes. 199. Do you photograph well? as in like my face? not really. 200. Do you think that human beings would survivor through a nuclear winter? if they knew it was happening well in advanced, then yeah probably.

[canaryatlaw]

today was alright, would’ve been good even but my stomach was bugging me pretty much the whole day so that kind of soured my day. I initially woke up at like 10 but fell back asleep till 12 when my alarm went off. Got ready, got an uber, and went to my doctor’s appointment. new doctor, but he’s part of northwestern’s whole medical complex, so I’d been in the building before (it has a heck of a lot of doctors in it). so this was a reference for the chest pain. we spent a while going over history of acid reflux and everything associated with that, and description of symptoms, he said he doesn’t really think an endoscopy would be necessary since I’ve had like 3 and they’ve mostly been like meh but it sounds like a muscle spasm in the esophagus which can really mimic cardiac chest pain, and he prescribed an anti-muscle spasm medication that should help with that, it’s worth noting that I haven’t had an episode since the end of November, when I’d previously been having them like once every two weeks, so that’s significant. I also told him about the current stomach pain issue and what that has been and strange enough he said that also sounded like a muscle spasm issue that I could use this medication to help with, so hey, good with me. I got out of there by like 1:30, earlier than I expected, so I took the bus to school since I figured it wasn’t worth it to go all the way back home to come back down for my night class. I hadn’t expected to be back in time to catch any of my afternoon class that was 1 to 2:15, so I hadn’t done any of the reading, so while I got to school at like 1:50 I decided not to catch the end of class on the chance that I get cold called and have to admit I didn’t do the reading for the first fucking day of class, which is just asking for the prof to think really shitty of you, plus I’d already told this prof about the appointment so he knew where I was, ultimately not worth going. So I settled into the PAD office and started doing the reading for that class in conjunction with the Wednesday assignment, as that’s technically the next class I’ll have after tonight’s which I already did the ready for. I was joined not too long after by this guy who likes to hang out in the office, not on the e-board but a sort of PAD enthusiast, he’s generally been regarded as annoying by most people but I had two classes with him last semester and he’s grown on me to some degree (even though I can tell why others would find him annoying). we mostly sat and did work, talked a bit, and ended up having a fairly deep conversation about depression and finding the right medication and getting your life back on track and trying to pass law school classes when your brain is having chemical imbalance issues. It was a good talk, I’d say. I had brought chinese food with me for dinner which was being kind of difficult and uncooperative, but it worked for the meal. At 5:50 I went up for my class, Remedies, no idea what to expect really, the class is of course based around the “remedy” available in any case- that is, damages, injunction, etc.- the ultimate result of the case, do you want money, do you want someone to not be able to do something, etc. Didn’t know the prof, but he seems like a really cool and chill guy, he was cracking jokes the whole time which is of course appreciated. He apparently worked on the Jon Burge cases which is a Big Deal here in Chicago (Burge was a cop who tortured people into confessing, it was BAD) so that was fairly impressive. I was able to pay attention without trying to hard for most of it, and I really wanted to pick a fight with him over the wrongful life/birth cases he was using in an example but I knew it was completely Not The Point and functionally irrelevant to the actual class, but I still wanted to tell him about the successful wrongful birth lawsuits that have come out of people claiming they’d have aborted their child if they knew they were going to have this medical condition during pregnancy, but not the point, so I didn’t (but I really wanted to). I of course still obsessively was checking my grades during it, and I FINALLY got my bus org’s grade, which I was very relieved to see was a beautiful B+, which is what I was hoping and praying for for that class (I mean an A- would’ve been nice but I’m not trying to tempt fate too much) being that I pretty much failed to pay attention the entire semester and straight up bs-ed (like more than normal bs, like stringing sentences together that you don’t even know what they mean bs) one out of three essay questions on the test, so HEY I will take this with zero complaining. At this point I’m just waiting on poverty law (and every time I think about it I just get an image of my exhausted poverty law professor trying to get everything done and it just being impossible because the world hates poverty lawyers) which I feel fairly confident about, the first question on that test (take home test) was a beast and it was hella hard to do, but I felt very confident in the second one, and she pretty much indicated in the last class that if the work earned it, she had no problem with giving everyone an A (it’s a non-curved class, obviously) so I feel pretty good about that one, hopefully it’ll be a straight A so I’ll end up with 2 A’s, 2 A-’s, and 1 B+, which should put me in pretty good standing overall. We got out around 8, I got home around 9, and decided to watch last week’s episode of The Gifted, which was interesting and somewhat confusing, but ultimately good. And after that I watched the news and then Jimmy Kimmel for a while, which is always entertaining. And yeah, then I started getting ready for bed, my stomach bothering me through pretty much all of this unfortunately but whatever, and yeah that’s it. Tomorrow is my day off from school, which means I have about 500 other things I need to get done, such as reading for class, going to target for food, meds, and CO2 gas for my sodastream because I am dying here without seltzer, and of course the laundry that I was supposed to do in like, November, so there’s a good bit of that (read: covering most of the floor in my admittedly small bedroom). So hopefully I can get all of that done, and I think I’ll end it there. Goodnight my dudes. Pleasant evening.

[canaryatlaw]

OKAY. so today was a lot but I'm going to attempt to not let this be too long because it's already late and I am sleepy. I had set my alarm for 6 am originally, because that's what my wake up time for going into the office on clinic days was, but I rolled over at like 5:36 and was like mmm nah I don't need to be there that early so I changed it to 6:30, which was definitely a good move because I did still get there super early. back on the bus for the first time, it wasn't bad, though trying to stuff a poptart in my mouth while wearing a mask presented unique challenges. The train was significantly less crowded thank GOD, pre-pandemic it was an absolute nightmare literally packed to the brim with people and it was typical for 2-3 trains to come and go before you can get one to squeeze onto (if you're lucky enough to have the doors stop in front of you so you're actually the person who can squeeze on) so I don't miss that at all. the seats are in sets of 2 though and it seemed like an unspoken rule that it was only one person per row and others were standing, but it wasn't bad. once I got to the courthouse did I hit the real trouble, though I will say I'm not nearly as irritated about it now as I was then. Basically, since I'd last been in the office (which was last September), they required all staff members to have ID badges to get in the building. since I hadn't been there, mine was sitting on my desk on my office. the sheriff's were immediately in my face about it, one of them had me pull down my mask and was like "I don't recognize your face" and they initially let me in to come back with my staff ID, but then our office was locked, and my key for the door was also sitting on my desk, so at that point they had me wait in the lobby until our other office person came in (since there were only two of us) so they could unlock the office and I could get the ID, which I was. And I was pretty annoyed at the time, but when I went back to show it to them they were somewhat apologetic and I said I understood, they were just doing their jobs (thinking I sometimes also have to piss people off to do my job so I can relate, but I didn't say that part out loud, lol). So minor annoyance lately, no real harm done. It was nice seeing the staff I hadn't seen in months and have just been talking to on the phone, and of course the people who I'm actually friends with who can be very valuable allies when I need a favor done and I'm just getting stonewalled by whatever douche was trying to say something stupid. the day itself wasn't bad, mostly just running around with clinic stuff. we did have to give up on my motion from yesterday, just because the language in the statute unfortunately wasn't as broad as we had hoped (because it said "court holiday" which weekends don't count for, even though they're days court is not in session) so we have to restart everything from the beginning on that case, which is going to be annoying but I happen to really like this client (she's a few years older than me and I like, want to be actual friends with her haha) so we'll figure that part out. we didn't end up filing anything, but got 3 cases queued up for tomorrow to be filed in the morning, so I'll be busy with that. one of them is a former client of mine who I feel very protective over ever since she called me during an incident where R was trying to break down her door....so I'm going to step up and "lawyer" for her hearing, which just means that I'm asking her questions instead of the judge, it's nothing big but it allows us to control the narrative and explain things we think otherwise may have been seen as issues, though I don't anticipate that being an issue here, it's a pretty black and white case. anyway. my coworker ran and got us mcdonalds for lunch, so that was nice. I ordered the components of the BTS meal, which is just on the menu as a normal meal haha and it's not like I could have either of the special sauces so it doesn't really matter, I just like nuggets, fries and a coke haha. but yeah, things slowed down by the end of the day,

and I headed out around 5. the commute home was better too, definitely took less time (like an hour instead of an hour and a half or more) so that was nice. we were initially going to record for the podcast tonight but ended up bumping it till Thursday, which was good because I didn't really want to do anything tonight after being out all day. so I made some food, then watched The Flash and Superman and Lois, then just left the tv on the CW for the Drew Barrymore show that plays after and it's pretty cute, haha. at 10 it switched over to Seinfeld, so I watched an episode of that, then cut over to Jimmy Kimmel when his show started. He had Tom Hiddleston on it about the new Loki show, so that was entertaining. and yeah, after a bit I went to shower and start getting ready for bed, and now I'm here and it's almost 2 am, and I do have stuff to get done in the morning (though I'm glad I can sleep in a bit longer than today) so I will wrap this up here. Goodnight babes. Sleep well.

[canaryatlaw]

okay, well today was fine. I woke up at 9:15 because the training for the day was set for 9:30, so I did the small amount of getting ready necessary to be on a Zoom call all day, and went from there. it continues to be interesting, though a lot of it is still stuff I already knew, so I was definitely slightly bored and reading fics at different points. we took a break for lunch, at which time I decided to take the trash out to the garbage cans outside, and run over to where the nearest mailbox is (we don’t actually have one, just a letter slot in the door) and stuck a package in there. back for the afternoon session, some of it was about animals and DV which was definitely interesting since it is something we encounter every so often, from just including pets protected under the order to cases where the abuser is actively targeting the pet in a means to hurt the other person, which are almost always very difficult and disturbing cases (and I mean, all of our cases are definitely considered disturbing on some level, so this is just that much worse). so it was good to hear some info about that, and stuff like how many DV shelters will actually let you bring a pet with you (hint: not many) and just how many people stay in abusive relationships because they won’t leave if they have to leave their pet behind (and trust me, that number was disturbingly high). so that’s definitely something we need to work on (funny story- during my first year volunteering at the DV courthouse I witnessed a dude tell the judge his pet that he wants protected under the order was a flying squirrel, and pretty much everyone in the courtroom lost it). we ended up finishing slightly after 4, and once we did I got changed into actual clothes instead of pajamas and ubered over to Target, as apparently 3 of my prescriptions were ready. one of them was my prescription toothpaste that I was finally able to get my dentist to call in for a refill on after desperately trying to make the one I had last as long as possible when it was clearly very close to being empty (I have prescription toothpaste because my teeth suck and I also can’t deal with adult toothpaste that’s mint flavored and anything like that because it burns my mouth so that leaves me with kids toothpaste which isn’t as good, but I can get the prescription one in a like berry flavor that works a lot better). I had to pay for all of them out of pocket being that I’m currently in between insurance companies, as my coverage with my family’s plan ended on May 31st and I’m still working on getting signed up for my work one, though it may apply retroactively at some point, it’s not helping me out now. so it ended up being like $90 for the three of them which was annoying, but not much I can do about it. I then grabbed a few food items which ended up being a super unhealthy trip haha because I ended up getting a pack of sour patch kids go-gurts (if you have not tried them go do so because they are amazingggg), a pint of my favorite ice cream that’s hard to find (jeni’s cream puff, we have jeni’s stores here but they never have cream puff available in pints on delivery, so I have to try to find it other places when I can), and then a giant ass pack of chips ahoy cookies because those have become my weakness lately, and finally a box of small pasta, lol. I can’t find pastina in any of the stores here which drives me nuts (i should just get some off amazon again, but until that happens) so I have to settle for whatever other small pasta options they had, which ended up being small shells in this case, which I’ve used before and they work pretty well. checked out and headed home, put things away and then started watching some more of 24 which I ended up doing for pretty much the rest of the night. an episode happened to end just at 10, so I took that opportunity to switch over to the news and then Jimmy Kimmel and Jimmy Fallon for a few minutes before showering and starting to get ready for bed, and now of course I am here and it’s almost 2 am, I’m volunteer supervisor tomorrow so I do have to be awake by like 9:30 at least, so I will take my leave now. Goodnight friends. Stay lovely.

[canaryatlaw]

okay, well today was decent. I woke up to my alarm at 11:30 and got ready for my psychiatrist appointment. we’re at the once every three months to get meds refilled state, which is fine with me. I know I’ve said this before but like, I’m at the point where even if I start to feel depressed unless it gets really bad I’m not going to report anything and fuck with my meds because I’m not taking the chance of them getting messed up and me being practically catatonic for months, and I especially can’t afford to do that if I’m presumably (hopefully) working. but anyway. So I got ready and ate a quick breakfast, than went to catch the bus. This one of the few times I actually take the main street bus north, just four or five stops, until it intersects with the other road where I get off and get on their bus which takes me all the way there. It works pretty well and got me there in good time, a little early but not too early, just like I like it. I got seen pretty quickly. I’m still not like, 100% comfortable with this psychiatrist mostly because he is relatively new (this is maybe like my fourth or fifth time seeing him?) and this is after losing the psychiatrist I adored and had been working with for the past six years when he retired, and I was so comfortable with him, so I think that just kinda exacerbates my anxiety with this new guy. He’s always looking at my medss list and asking questions like “how’s your sleeping?” and when I said good he brought up that I’m on melatonin and was like “so that’s good on melatonin?” and I’m like “well, yeah, in the current state I’m experiencing it it’s fine” and then about side effects on meds and if I was getting dry mouth which I was but I can’t really tell if that’s a side effect of the psych meds or acid reflux/acid reflux meds, so that’s complicated. So that was all kinda awkward but whatever, it was a quick enough appointment and I got what I needed. At the end after he sent the prescriptions to the pharmacy I was trying to remind him about the xanax refills and having to call them in each month and he insisted he had the authority to grant refills of controlled substances, which apparently not all doctors have, and I was just like if that’s true why have we been doing this call method for the last three months?? so I guess we’ll find out what the case is there in a month. I caught the bus from outside the office and rode it to where it intersects with the red line (one stop north of where I generally get off for home) and took that south to Target to get the prescriptions and grab a few other things. I had picked out a recipe to make next week so I was getting ingredients for it, but I’ve since kinda rethought it (I have a very weird thing about making recipes with like, whole pieces of chicken (as opposed to it like cut up or shredded)?? like I just find them like, uncomfortable to think about?? idk it’s weird. I have complicated feelings re: chicken lol. but I found another recipe that using most of the same ingredients with pasta and cut up chicken included which makes me more comfortable lol, and I’ll make the other ingredients fit in somehow. I grabbed a few other things I needed like large envelopes to send some job applications in that wanted submissions by mail, and then to find a bluetooth speaker for Jess because her preschoolers are graduating tomorrow and apparently nobody thought they would need one up until now, I ended up picking one up from their crappy section but then wanted to check their actual electronics section, so I went up there (it’s on their second floor) and picked up a similar speaker that appeared to do the same thing but was $10 more, so I asked the guys working there if there were really any difference between the two, and they were basically like “the [target brand one from the crappy section] is terrible quality and will break on you in the first hour you use it” so that was that lol and I sprung for the more expensive one. I checked in with the pharmacy because I hadn’t gotten a text from them yet about the prescriptions being ready and they said it would just be another like 5 minutes, so I took the rest of my items and went through the regular self-checkout with them before returning to the pharmacy and picking up the prescriptions. I wanted to take public transit back home instead of an uber because it’s Wednesday and my neighborhood’s farmer’s market has officially started up for the summer and if I take public transit I can get off one stop early and go to that. So I ended up walking up the street a bit to reach where the main street bus is, then take that the rest of the way up to where the farmer’s market is and headed straight to the cheese booth, lol. they have what are essentially mozzarella cheese sticks but are freshly made by them and they’re smoked and they are actually my favorite thing on the planet, so I was very psyched they’re back for the season. When I walked up the guy was talking to another girl and he just started handing me cheese samples as he was giving them to her too, and they were of course great lol so that was nice. but I got my little bundle of cheese sticks and headed home from there. Put the groceries and other supplies back, then congregated on the couch to accomplish a few computer tasks while watching the last episode of Dead To Me, but forcing myself to actually be productive. The first was coming up with “questions” about the decision the guy I have an interview with on Friday sent me, so I looked over it and came up with a few questions I thought showed I had read and understood the opinion and wanted to further my knowledge on the subject. The one actual sort of question I had after reading it I ended up scrapping because I decided the answer was too obvious and it wasn’t something that would reflect well on me for picking up on. So I ended up with 3 pretty solid ones and emailed them his way. The other things to do were to assemble and print out the mail applications, so I went through changing up the cover letter and printing everything they wanted out and then addressing the envelopes and putting everything inside, then using my kitchen scale to see how many stamps I needed for each one, lol. Once I had that done I checked the job boards again to see if there were any new postings and there were a few, so I sent resumes/cover letters to two of them and ended up doing an online application for a position with the railroad company near us, because why the heck not and the position was well paid, so I guess we’ll see what happens there. At this point I’d moved on to an episode of The Big Family Cooking Showdown since Dead To Me was over. As far as a review on it goes I’ll say they better be planning a season 2, because I cannot deal with them just forever leaving it where they did, I need my murder buddies who are clearly in this together now lol. So I enjoyed that. Once the cooking episode was over I started prepping stuff for dinner, which here meant cutting up the chicken I had stuck in the sink with the claw thing and water to thaw, and mincing the garlic using the little thing I have. Jess had a parent conference after the school day ended, so she texted me when she was leaving at which point I started the actual cooking part. I was making cheesy chicken and broccoli pasta which I realize is just the switched starch version of the cheesy chicken broccoli rice I made a few weeks back, but it works and I like pasta so it’s all good. I won’t recount the full recipe for you play by play, but I ended up getting a little annoyed first by how long it was taking to come to a boil and then how long it was taking for the water to actually boil away, but it ended up being pretty close to done just when Jess got here so that worked at least. We got our food and started this week’s episode of Game of Thrones. I’m a sucker for spoilers so of course I already knew everything that happened, so there were no real shockers there and the rest of the episode was little just all fighting, so I don’t really have that many opinions on it lol. I of course don’t agree with Dany’s decision, but I can’t really have any sympathy for Cersei when she knew exactly what she was doing. I’ve always liked Dany so I am of course upset that they’re apparently taking the mad queen route, but it’ll be interesting to see where they actually end it off. I suppose it would be some sort of poetic justice if she ended up on the throne just to start the cycle of the mad king/queen all over again? I don’t think that will happen though, I think something will happen to intervene, but I guess we’ll see. I also think Jaime is a giant dumbass and got what was coming to him for being the world’s biggest idiot for running away from Brienne after finally getting together with her just to run off to see his twin sister lover and die with her. You fucking moron, you could’ve had such a good future and you threw it all away. smh. Arya of course continues to kickass, and I wouldn’t be surprised if she ends up playing a role in the final resolution of whatever happens in Sunday’s episode. Of course I’ll be getting home from MegaCon when that airs, so I’ll have to wait to see what happens and probably get totally spoiled before I can actually watch it. sigh. anyway. After Game of Thrones we watched last week’s episode of Supergirl since Jess hadn’t seen it yet and we were then going to watch this week’s episode which neither of us had seen yet but Jess had to be a sleepy baby (her words) which tbh I knew was going to happen at this point so it was not a surprise lol. Once she left I tuned into what was left of the flash podcast live stream and got in their live chat, which is always fun. Once they ended up switched to the news and then Jimmy Kimmel, and then showered and started to get ready for bed, and now I am here. Idk why I felt the need to go into so much detail on this relatively uneventful day that this is so long, but apparently I did have the need and here we are. Tomorrow should be good, got the allergist and the the chiropractor, but then we’re seeing the Rent tour so I’m looking forward to that. It’s like 2:30 am now though so I should definitely be getting to sleep. Goodnight babes. Sleep well.

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alright, well today was ok. I woke up at 12:30 to my alarm since I’d made the chiropractor appointment for 1:30. I spent fifteen minutes lying in bed because kitty had decided it was an opportune time to lie on top of me, then eventually got off and I got up and got ready. Ate quickly and headed out, they were doing construction again at the nearest intersection meaning I couldn’t get through, so I took a detour through the nearest alley and basically made a square to get to where I was actually going on the other side of the initial intersection, lol. but in general the location was very good for me. So I got checked in, the internet said they didn’t take my insurance so I was kinda worried about seeing what that whole deal would be like but when I showed them my insurance card they were like “oh actually we do take this” so I was like okay perfect! works for me lol. so I go back to meet with the doc and tell him about the history of my back pain, how I was in PT for a year with it and they eventually took an MRI then sent me back to PT and told me to try harder, and it eventually mostly went away and I was able to stop PT but its flared up again a lot in the last few months. so he like felt my back and how tight it was and tested strength in my legs and other shit like that and was basically like yeah you have a pinched nerve on your right side which we can treat with like 2-3 months of 2 half hour sessions a week, which is a whole lot better than PT for an indeterminate amount of time for an undetermined diagnosis, and honestly just hearing a concrete diagnosis was extremely relieving. So we did more of the chiropractor stuff then did some more exercise based stuff for like posture and what I can do at home, some of it was actually a callback to my voice and diction class sophomore year, like she said it and my brain was immediately like oh I know this!! so that was cool lol. The doctor did also say to treat it with ice, not heat, because heat actually inflames the nerve and makes me swell which feels relieving but is actually bad for you, which was a big like well fuck for me because I’d be hardcore relying on my heating pad this whole time lol. so when I headed out I walked down the street to the Walgreens with the intent to buy an ice pack since we didn’t really have one. There’s a Walgreens and then another 200 feet or so on there’s a grocery store so I figured I’d try the Walgreens and if they didn’t have it I’d try the grocery store. There was an older man in a wheelchair I’d seen a few times before outside the entrance asking for money, I truthfully told him I was fresh out of cash and change (gave the handful of coins I had to someone a few days ago) but was about to go inside and buy something so was there something I could get him? He said a Arizona iced tea which comes in these big cans if you’re not familiar usually for $1, so I promised I’d grab one of those for him and went inside. I was looking at the first aid options and didn’t really see anything, but while I was doing so I got approached by a woman (guess I was looking charitable today) who was telling me she cleaned houses and had just found out the woman she was working for was in the hospital for a hip replacement and she didn’t know about it before today when she went to clean, and she very nicely asked if I could buy her some soap and a few other small things, so of course I said of course, like how could I refuse buying someone soap of all things? She was very sweet and thankful, so she grabbed the stuff and I checked the freezer section for any food ice packs but they didn’t have anything either, so I grabbed the iced tea and checked out. So I wound up getting things for two people and nothing for myself 😂which I was mostly just amused by and not at all annoyed about. When given small opportunities like that to express the tangible love of God I have even when I don’t utter a word about God, how could I be cruel and selfish when I have been blessed with so much? I used to think the interaction would only “count” if I slipped something in there like “God loves you” but I’ve come to know that He can work through my actions and expressing His love without a word coming from me, just tangible expressions of love. So I try to do that when I’m given the opportunity, and of course I was happy to do so today and was glad I was able to help these two people. After paying I gave the woman her stuff and hugged her, then walked outside and gave the man his iced tea before walking over to the grocery store to see what I could find there. In their first aid section I was able to find a reusable gel pack thing for the lower back that could be used for hot or cold (depending on if you freeze it or microwave it) so I grabbed that and walked up the freezer aisle just to see if there was any ice cream I wanted lol, and in their little special ice cream section where they have all the fake ice cream (you know what I mean) and I spotted one that legit was like “avocado ice cream” in mint chocolate chip which of course I had to take a picture of and send it to Jess since we had our epic failure trying to make avocado ice cream in mint chocolate chip, and she immediately responded like YOU HAVE TO GET IT and I was like but it’s so bad!!! But she insisted we had to try it to see if we’d screwed it up somehow, so I grabbed it and headed to the checkout. There were like three registers open, one was the 15 items or less one that had a line of like 10 people, then one with a huge backlog of food while they dealt with some problem, then the one I was left to that was just a bit of a line lol so I got in line and waited to get checked out. Once I had done so I walked home and put stuff away, then sat with my computer for a bit listening to podcast episodes that I was behind on, and did that for a few hours until Jess got off work and we met up to get dinner because we both wanted cheese curds from the irish pub place that makes them so fucking good, so we got food from there and talked and made plans and all that good stuff before heading back to our respective apartments. we were trying to figure out weekend stuff because Jess has to put away laundry but also wants to go thrifting and then there’s a birthday party on Saturday for a cosplay friend out in some suburb that we were gonna try to attend, so we gotta figure all that good stuff out. Once I got back home I watched The Resident and of course cried because like 9-1-1 this show just gets me every damn time, especially when there are kids involved. And of course I laughed my ass off at the end where the old woman had this past love come to visit her just so she could tell him to go to hell 😂😂😂fucking hilarious. After that I didn’t really want to watch anything else so I flipped over to what was supposed to be the news but still had the Cubs game playing so I just said whatever and watched that for a bit, by far the best part of this was when an announcer was recounting a story like “on this day in sports history” or something like that the Yankees were somewhere for a game and decided to organize an eating contest between one of their players and a local ostrich, and they did so only for the results to be unclear because the ostrich passed out after eating its 11th plate of pasta. I swear to god, that’s what they said lol so of course that was wild. Eventually it turned to the news and then to Jimmy Kimmel which was entertaining, he’s doing is “Las Vegas Week” where they film there and he grew up there and tonight they took a crew to his childhood home which currently has people living in it and was just like “can we come in?” and they were like sure, so he gave everyone a televised tour of his childhood home, including various stories that happened in different spots, and it was all very entertaining. After a while I started getting ready for bed and then had to do my pill box which always takes a while but eventually got here and started writing this and now I am here. Don’t have anything like official to do tomorrow, so we’ll see how that goes. It’s like 1:45 am now though so I should be getting to bed. Goodnight babes. Have a good one.