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comatosebunny09 · 2 days ago
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— cw: fluff, silliness, highly suggestive, reader implied to be femme, overuse of terms of endearment (sweetie, sweetheart), mdni to be safe — notes: @leighsartworks216 this is your doing. *affectionately shakes fist*
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“Sylus,” you begin one day on a whim, mindlessly scrolling through your socials.
“Yes, sweetie?” he purrs, enthralled by the deckled pages of a book, languidly massaging your foot in his lap.
“Are you ticklish?”
He chuckles something murky behind you. “Not that I am aware of.”
“Really?”
“Yes.”
“Are you sure?”
You don’t have to look back to sense the deadpanned look on his face. “I’ve lived in this skin for a long time, sweetheart. I think I would know if I were ticklish.”
You briskly sit up, maneuvering until you’re facing him. You lean closer with curious eyes, perched on the couch of his study like a feline.
“I don’t believe you.”
Sylus scoffs. Quietly sets his book down on the coffee table, a challenge tugging one corner of his mouth upwards. He holds his hands up, uncrossing his legs, something of mischief shining in his eyes as he sits back in an easy slouch.
“You’re welcome to see for yourself, sweetie.”
You don’t like how that sounds. How he drawled out the term of endearment. Still, you’re incredibly persistent. You’ve been exclusive for some months now, yet he’s still an enigma.
Your lips twisting with determination, you begin your examination. First, you start with the obvious places that would typically make people squeal—near his collarbones, in his armpits, down his sides, drag your nails inwards across his stomach. You peer up at his face. If he feels anything, he doesn’t reveal it, still wearing that insufferably smug look as he observes you.
You don’t find any sensitive zones on his torso. Just defined planes of muscle that make your pulse quicken and cause you to swallow past the dry film of your throat.
You proceed with your impromptu frisking, raking your nails down the sides of his devastating quads. Glance up. Nothing. Hmm.
You swivel your hands inwards, tracing over the inward trajectory of his thighs. He parts them for you, and it becomes evident he’s enjoying this. Enjoying tormenting you with the catastrophic shape of his body. Like he knows you know he feels good.
You cast him a pensive look. He feigns innocence with a shrug, signaling you to continue your investigation with the flit of his eyes.
So you do, creeping your fingers down the inner parts of his knees. Outwards. Pluck yourself from the sticky leather of the settee and sit between his legs on the floor, tracing over his calves and ankle bones.
You glance up. He still radiates complacency, yet his eyes hold something heavier than their usual, teasing weight. It’s something unmistakable, but you ignore it, instead testing the socked soles of his feet for any signs of vulnerability. Any minute twitches, any jolts or hitched breaths. No dice.
You relent with a sigh, crawling onto his lap. His heavy hands clasp around where thigh meets hip, keeping you steady, your thighs framing his.
“Guess you’re not ticklish,” you say with a solemn smile, twining your arms about his neck.
Why you thought the big, bad wolf of Onychinus would have any sensitive zones in the first place is beyond you. Maybe it was just an excuse to feel him up.
“I told you,” he husks affectionately. Voice crackles in that way that makes your belly swoop, and he closes a tender hand around your nape to draw you in for a kiss.
Your mouths part with a sticky click. And you’re dizzy and laughing something light as your foreheads press together, pheromones and fondness filling what little space lies between your bodies.
“Kudos for trying, sweetheart.”
You don’t enjoy being proven wrong, but you suppose it’s fine if you lose to him. Leaning back, you study his pretty features, the delicate sweep of his lashes as his eyes slip shut.
You thread your fingers through his hair, grazing one particularly vulnerable spot at the top of his cranium, and you don’t miss how he tenses beneath you. How he winces, releasing a sound so far-off and delicate, you’re not sure if you heard it in the first place.
Curious, you try for the spot again, evoking the same reaction, and Sylus’ hold around your waist tightens the slightest bit.
With a troublesome smile, you test the opposite side, garnering a similar response and—
Oh.
Oh, this.
Like the devilish little fiend you are, you scratch these newly revealed spots simultaneously, reveling in his response. How his carefully constructed composure begins to crumble beneath you.
He twitches and fidgets under your care, lips parting, a low, guttural sound dredged from his throat. He unconsciously bunts his head against your hands, leaning into your touch. You watch as a pretty, peachy flush creeps into his cheeks, staining the tips of his ears, and his brows scrunch in something of anguish.
Had you not known any better, you’d think you were scratching behind the ears of a feline. Had Sylus been a cat in a past life? You giggle mischievously at the notion before something very hot and prominent prods at the inner cut of your thigh.
Before you can investigate, Sylus ensnares your wrists in his hand, and he’s panting, glaring at you with those pretty, scarlet eyes to match the beautiful flush taking possession of his face.
His voice is hoarse. Smoky. Dangerous. You feel the buzz of it pooling warm in the lower reaches of your belly, leaking down between your thighs.
“You keep doing that, and I might have to retaliate, sweetheart.”
You swallow, your throat thickening, your mouth slightly open. Your pulse thrums a war cadence in your ears, and your breaths are short as desire spumes through you.
“You won’t do it,” you challenge, your tone husky. Shaky.
“Is that a challenge?” Sylus returns, his grip on your wrists slackening until he releases them.
He tugs you impossibly closer on his lap via the globes of your ass, and his weighted girth slides deliciously over the center of your thighs, eliciting a bitten-off sound from your mouth. You rest your hands on the defined planes of his chest to maintain a modicum of space, though it’s fruitless.
He draws your head down until your breaths intermingle, long, spindly fingers sneaking beneath your chin to moor you to the spot. He grazes your mouth with his, and a pleasant thrill ripples through you, your fingers pulling at the collar of his shirt.
“Why don’t I show you what happens to naughty girls who test my patience?”
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dollarbils · 2 days ago
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don’t wanna be your fan | b.eilish
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billie eilish x fem!reader
context. when your favourite fan suggests featuring in one of your videos, you reevaluate her position in your life.
warnings. smut, strap, oral, mommy kink, degrading?, ofstar!reader (very inaccurate only fans portrayal). also not proofread!
part 1 masterlist
when she’d first brought up the idea you were hesitant to say the least. she was kind, sweet and hot, but you hadn’t ruled out serial killer just yet. having her feature in a video would be great for your page since lesbian sex is climbing up the ranks, and seems to be the majority of your following. but you were hesitant, more that hesitant.
“Billie, it’s a good idea but i just don’t know if it would work out.” she huffed, on the other side of the phone, her frustration apparent.
“why not? are you scared?” she taunted you, but truthfully you were.
“it’s not that, what if my other fans think they have a shot and start harassing me?” a bullshit excuse and you knew it, but you felt like you owed it to yourself to be wary of the suggestion.
“they won’t know i’m a fan.” she paused for a second, and you could hear her breaths through the phone speaker. “besides, i’m your favorite fan right? i think i deserve it don’t you?” those words made you smile, imagining her smug little smile on the other side of the phone.
“okay.” she went silent, as if hoping you’d repeat yourself.
“wait, okay?” she asked.
“don’t make me second guess my decision. be at the hotel by 9pm or im locking my door. i’ll send the details.” she agreed quickly and you hung up, holding your head in your hands while you ran through the previous conversation to look for any red flags.
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“i mean honestly, ask a girl to dinner before filming a sex tape with her.” she rolled her eyes, smiling softly as you positioned the camera.
“is it recording?” she asked, biting her lip when you approached her.
“mhm.” she was cautious with putting her hands on your hips, this having been the first time she’d intentionally touched you, the other, being when she’s brushed past you when you’d opened the door.
“give them a show, baby.” she tugged on your shirt, clarifying what she meant but letting you take it off. you were stood in front of her, your back to the camera while she remained sitting, letting her hands drift to your clothed ass as you slowly peeled off your shirt. once it had been discarded to the side, your jeans followed shortly after, leaving you in your underwear.
“all for me?” she teased, commenting on the matching set as you turned towards the camera. she pulled you down onto her lap and pulled your hair back so that she could attach her lips to your neck. and when she did, she didn’t make an attempt to be gentle.
“mm.” you closed your eyes, enjoying the feeling of her bruising your skin, sucking and licking as you whimpered. subconsciously you began to grind your heat against her thigh, the thin fabric of your thong doing nothing to mask the harsh material of her jeans.
“so needy.” she whispered, loud enough for the microphone to pick it up though, and a whine followed.
“fuck.” she exhaled, before lifting you up, and placing you on the bed. she took her shirt off and hovered over you for a second, giving you the perfect view of her tits, moments from spilling out of her tight bra.
“like what you see?” you nodded, reaching behind her back to undo it before she halted your actions.
“not yet, give me a real answer.” her tone asserted a kind of dominance you weren’t used to. annoyingly easy to comply with.
“yes.” she wasn’t completely satisfied but gave way regardless. when she lowered herself onto you, you could feel the bulge in her jeans, shutting your eyes momentarily as she pressed herself against you.
“tell me what you want, babygirl.” she smirked, pulling your chin to face her while she waited for a response.
“i want it raw.” you weren’t hesitant to voice what you wanted and it turned her on.
“ask nicely, baby.” she teased and your rolled your eyes.
“fuck. me. please.” she smiled, but contemplated it for a second, her hands running up and down your naked body, doing everything to distract you from the conversation.
“do you deserve it?” she asked, the same teasing tone lacing her words.
“yes.” she chuckled at the confidence in your voice.
“and what makes you think that? you’re a little slut after all, aren’t you?” that made you go silent, the truth to her words making it difficult to counter.
“well? are you?” her hand was squeezing your chin again, forcing an answer out of you.
“yes.” it was said with resistance but still satisfied her. she slapped the side of your ass, eliciting a small jump.
“on your knees.” she ordered, letting your imagination complete the request. and when you were on your knees, in front of her, she gave no further instructions.
“go on, show me how much of a slut you are. and maybe i’ll give you what you want.” she shrugged, taking a sort of nonchalant stance as she waited for you to unbutton her jeans. when you pulled them down to reveal her strap, your eyes widened slightly at the sheer size.
“come on, you can take it.” she’s noticed the uncertainty in your expression. but when you took the tip in your mouth, and then finally the rest, she bunched up your hair and pushed you closer to her, the tip hitting the back of your throat. you gagged multiple times, your eyes going glossy and your pussy even wetter as you clenched on nothing, moaning around her strap.
“fuck, what a whore, huh?” you nodded quickly, doing almost anything to please her while she pulled on your hair, harshly, revealing the entire strap until she pushed it past your lips again, your saliva coating the base as you whined and cried. your muffled noises turning her on and she rested her head back, closing her eyes.
“that’s right, take it like a good girl.” her voice was sultry, and so seductive you could swear you were leaking from your heat. and when she was done with you sucking her strap, you thought your mouth would bruise. when she pulled it out of your mouth your saliva made it glisten in the dim lighting. the tears on your cheeks and drool on your chin was a sight for sore eyes and the camera had long been forgotten.
“was that slutty enough for you?” she narrowed her eyes when you stood up.
“watch your mouth, princess.” she threatened, moving to grasp your hips and push you onto the bed.
“i think i gotta show off that pretty ass of yours no?” she smirked, getting on top of you once she’d urged you to turn around. you used your elbows to prop yourself up as she unclasped your bra, letting your tits spill as her hands came to feel them up. your legs were spread wide and her knee came up to your heat, pressing lightly against your panties.
“billie, please.” the desperation in your words were pathetic, playing further into her ego.
“patience, sweet girl.” she let her hands wander down your body before resting, just below your waist, her fingers biting into your hips. you fought the urge to turn your head back, to see what she was doing, but all thoughts were silenced when you felt her silicone tip prodding at your entrance.
“you’re soaking, bet i could just slide into that tight little hole of yours.” the harsher she pressed the tip against your pussy, the filthier her words got, as if the teasing hadn’t been enough already. she knew what she was doing.
“please just do something!” you whined, and she contemplated making you beg for it.
“do what? i’m going to need you to specify, babe.” you could imagine her smirk, and you almost dropped your head in frustration.
“please fuck me.” she sighed in content of your response.
“well, since you said please.” and she was pushing her entire length into you, before she’d finished the sentence, disrupted by a moan.
“fuck.” your elbows gave out and you were gripping the sheets already, feeling her push herself further into you.
“so ready for me, i swear i can feel you clenching, pretty.” she didn’t really give you time to adjust before she started thrusting, agonisingly slow at first.
“billie.” your whines only fuelled her, but she responded with a light slap to you ass.
“try again.” she tutted, halting her movements for a moment.
“mommy? please?” she groaned in satisfaction before continuing her motions.
“that’s right, baby.” it didn’t take long for her actions to turn harsh and messy, your moans and whimpers making her feral.
“ y’like getting fucked like this? like a fuckin’ slut?” she grasped your hips pulling them towards her with every thrust, as you arched your back, pushing your ass against her lower abdomen.
“mhm.” your moans we’re muffled by the pillow you’d hurried your face into. but that response obviously didn’t satisfy her. she fisted you hair again, pulling your head away from the pillow so that you could answer her.
“i need an answer, babe.” she pulled out of you completely, leaving you clenching uncontrollably.
“yes.” your mouth was running dry, your breaths still staggered.
“yes what?” she was unbelievably persistent. she wouldn’t be able to get away with it if she wasn’t that fucking hot.
“yes mommy.” she let you fall with a small bounce when you landed, and she was back to abusing your pussy.
“all your other fans can’t compare can they?” you felt the pressure in your lower stomach building, as she filled you up with her strap.
“no.” you shook your head, unaware of your words and actions, only focusing on the feeling of her inside of you.
“tell me i’m more than a fan.” the camera was so long forgotten you spewed out words of agreement.
“you’re so much more.” your hands were roaming the sheets for some kind of solace as you felt your high approaching.
“are you gonna cum on my dick then? make a mess?” when you nodded, she moved her hand to your clit, pinching it with two of her fingers, before continuing to toy with it.
“fuck.” you could barely feel your legs as her thrusts became quicker but sloppy. and when her hands came to spread your legs wider, she hit deeper spots than you could’ve imagined, and you were releasing all other her strap.
“holy fuck.” she gasped, your heat, empty and aching when she pulled out.
“fuck that was insane.” your turned around, facing her, and she almost collapsed on your body.
“yeah?” the metal on her teeth glistened through her smirk.
“mhm” you confirmed, and she came down to kiss you, no hesitation in the matter whatsoever.
“i think i’ve earned the ‘more than a fan’ title, right?” you laughed, a smile forming on her lips when she heard it.
“yeah, you definitely did.” she pecked your lips again before she spoke.
“perfect, i don’t wanna be your fan anymore.”
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cinnamqnx · 2 days ago
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virtually yours ⋆。゚☁︎。⋆
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pairing. seishiro nagi x f!reader
summary. you’re not a usually a gamer girl, occasionally playing the sims or roblox, so imagine your surprise when a clip of you & your best friend goes viral for talking shit to who you imagined was a 12 year old kid, but actually a popular streamer with a territorial fan base and of all place, on dress to impress.
warnings. basically just crack & fluff, nagi is a lil toxic at the start, swearing
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09 | facetime
“hello?”, nagi asks from your phone.
“sorry, i was just messaging ryusei.”, you reply, going off your messages app and back onto the facetime, seeing the top half of his face peeking on your phone.
“oh, okay.”
“alright.. back to what i was saying”, you say, watching nagi’s eyes flicker back up to the facetime, ready to listen.
“i won’t lie, you had me really confused in your messages.”, you continue.
“why?”, he asks.
“i just felt like you was suggesting something.”, you explain, “but i can’t really tell all the time with you.”
he hums, “i don’t know, maybe i was?”, he replies, his tone unsure.
“you sound unsure.”
he defiantly whines while his brows furrow through your screen, causing you to giggle, “you don’t feel like answering?”
“no, but you know what i meant though..”, his voice drifts off, “didn’t you?”
you think for a moment, “well, i don’t think i’d mind if people thought we were together.”
he’s silent for a moment, “really?”
“mhm.”, you pause, “but i would mind the hate from your crazy fan girls, though.”
“yeah. i know.”, he sighs, flopping backwards on his bed.
“but you don’t have to be so secretive about how you feel.”, you pause, “i mean, i have everyone telling me how you feel, but i’ve not heard it from you.”
he feels the anxiety pool at his stomach, a rare feeling for him, “well.. what have they said?”
“that you like me.”
he’s silent for a moment, “oh..”, he mumbles.
“oh?”, you ask softly, trying to pry more out of him other than a quiet ‘oh’.
“i dunno, i guess i do.”, he says quietly.
you giggle at his sudden shyness, “you don’t have to be so shy about it.”
he groans, “it’s embarrassing.”
“it’s not!”, you continue, “i promise it’s not.”
“it’s a hassle.”
“it’s a hassle liking me?”
“no, i mean.. i dunno.”, he sighs, “it feels childish.”
“and.. i’ve never even met you, so do you not find it weird?”, he asks, a tone of insecurity in his voice that you’ve never once heard.
“i don’t think it’s stupid, sei.”
he sighs out in slight relief, glad you’re not making fun of him, “it doesn’t matter anyway.”
“why not?”, you pry.
“cause you don’t like me back.”, he shrugs, trying to act nonchalant about it.
you hum before replying, “and who said i didn’t like you back?”
he’s silent for a few seconds, “what?”, his voice is quiet.
“well, i just assumed.”, he thinks for a moment, “are you maybe saying.. that you do like me?”
you hum in confirmation, nagi now having a small, genuine smile on his face from the other side of the phone, while his stomach fills with excitement.
this is a new feeling.
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navigation. virtually yours
next chapter. 10
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author’s note. sorry this took me longer to get out!! i’m pretty busy atm with life and college. this is also a pretty short chapter but i’ll be posting chapter 10 soon as well!!
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heliosunny · 1 day ago
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Omg your writings are so scrumptiously delicious 😋 I always come back to read them again And again especially the phainon ones! Agh they are soo good! Also been wondering since you wrote Yan! Phainon× vamp! reader... how about Yan! vamp!phainon×reader..if that's okay... Have a great day/evening/night!
Yandere!Vampire Phainon x Reader
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The sun dipped low over the village, casting golden light across the cobbled streets. Laughter echoed between stone walls as a group of children ran through the narrow alleys, their feet kicking up dust. You were among them, breathless and grinning, trying to keep up with the boy ahead of you.
“You’re too slow, Y/N!” Phainon teased, turning back with a wide grin. His silver-white hair gleamed under the fading light, and his bright blue eyes sparkled with mischief.
“I’m not slow! You’re just unfairly fast!” you huffed, trying to catch him.
Phainon only laughed, effortlessly dodging your outstretched hands. Behind you, the others—Mydei, Anaxa, and a handful of others called out, egging you both on.
“Give Y/N a chance, Phainon!” one of them yelled.
“Yeah, don’t be mean.” Anaxa added, though his voice was laced with amusement.
Phainon slowed just enough for you to reach him, letting you tug on the sleeve of his tunic. “Caught you!” you declared triumphantly.
Instead of pulling away, Phainon tilted his head, smiling. “Guess that means I belong to you now” he said lightly.
“You’re weird.” you muttered, but you didn’t let go of his sleeve.
The warmth of the evening settled over you all as you made your way to the village outskirts. Beyond the fields, a small grove of trees offered a quiet retreat from the watchful eyes of adults. It was your group’s favorite place, a hidden world where you could be anything you wanted.
Mydei flopped onto the grass with a dramatic sigh. “I’m tired. Someone should carry me home.”
“You have legs” Anaxa scoffed, sitting down beside him. “Use them.”
You chuckled and sat next to Phainon, who stretched out lazily. The golden hour made his pale skin glow, and for a moment, he seemed almost otherworldly. You’d always thought he looked a little different, but then again, all of them did. The village women sometimes whispered about it, about their unnaturally striking features, their strange presence—but you never paid much attention. They were your friends. That was all that mattered.
Phainon leaned close, resting his chin on his palm as he watched you. “You’re staring” he teased.
You blinked, startled. “I was not.”
“You were” he insisted, grinning. “Do I look that handsome to you?”
“You’re annoying” you muttered, lightly shoving his shoulder.
He only laughed.
The conversation shifted to plans for tomorrow, with Mydei complaining about chores and Anaxa suggesting another race through the village. You listened, but you couldn’t shake the feeling that Phainon’s eyes were still on you.
You didn’t know then that Phainon had already decided.
Years Later
The group was no longer whole.
Time had worn down the bonds of childhood, and the innocence of those golden days had long since faded. Some had drifted apart, others had changed in ways you could barely recognize. The carefree days of running through the village had been replaced with whispers in the dark—secrets you weren’t privy to.
And yet, Phainon remained.
“You’re quiet tonight” he remarked, setting down a goblet as he leaned back in his chair.
You looked up from your seat across from him, the dim candlelight flickering between you. “Just thinking.”
Phainon studied you, his blue eyes sharp despite his ever-present smile. “About what?”
You hesitated. Should you say it? That you had noticed the strange way the others carried themselves, the way they whispered behind closed doors? That some of them had started keeping odd company—company that left them with faint red marks on their throats?
That the people you once knew felt like strangers?
Instead, you sighed. “I don’t know. Things just feel… different.”
Phainon tapped his fingers against the table. “People change” he said simply. “But I haven’t, have I?”
You glanced at him. No—Phainon hadn’t changed. He was still the same bright, teasing boy from your childhood. Always smiling, always close.
“You haven’t” you admitted, but the words felt strange on your tongue.
Phainon tilted his head, his gaze unreadable. Then, he smiled.
Outside, the night stretched on, and somewhere in the darkness, something shifted.
Something you weren’t meant to see.
The place was hidden, tucked away in the shadows of the city’s underbelly. It wasn’t a tavern, nor a brothel, but something worse—a gathering ground for those who lurked in the dark, where morality had long been forgotten.
Phainon moved through the dimly lit corridors like a specter, his presence drawing wary glances. They knew him here. Knew his name, his strength. Even among vampires, he was a force to be feared.
A low murmur caught his ear.
In the far corner, a vampire, one who owed him a great deal, had cornered a trembling girl. Her breath hitched as the man leaned in, fingers curling around her throat.
Phainon barely spared them a glance.
It wasn’t his problem. It wasn’t his concern. The weak suffered, the strong took what they wanted. That was the way of things.
He stepped forward to leave. And then, without warning, the image shifted. For a brief, horrifying second, it wasn’t some nameless girl in that man’s grip. It was you.
His body went rigid.
Would he still walk away? Would he still ignore it?
The thought sent something ugly curling in his chest.
A slow inhale. A measured exhale. He forced his body to relax. It wasn’t you. It would never be you. You weren’t meant for places like this.
Still, the unease lingered.
With a final glance at the struggling girl, Phainon turned and walked away, the thirst in his throat demanding attention. He needed something to quiet his thoughts, someone to satisfy his hunger.
As he stepped deeper into the night, a realization settled within him.
If it had been you, if anyone had dared to touch you, he wouldn’t have hesitated.
The morning sun filtered through the trees as you went about your daily routine. It was rare, almost strange, not to have Phainon lingering nearby, flashing that easy smile of his or teasing you about something trivial.
Maybe he was busy.
It wasn’t unusual for him to disappear at times, though he always returned like nothing had happened. You never asked where he went, and he never told you.
Today, the village was as lively as ever. You made your way through the familiar paths, exchanging greetings with the townsfolk and stopping briefly to chat with Anaxa, who seemed preoccupied with something.
“You seen Phainon?” you asked casually.
Anaxa snorted. “No, and I don’t plan on looking for him either.”
You frowned. “What’s that supposed to mean?”
“Nothing,” he muttered, crossing his arms. “Just… sometimes, it’s better not to know where he goes.”
The words sat uneasily with you, but before you could press further, someone called your name from across the street.
The rest of the day passed in a blur of small errands, idle conversations, and the comforting normalcy of routine. Yet, beneath it all, you couldn’t shake the feeling that something was missing.
By the time evening rolled around, the absence felt heavier.
Phainon always found you before the day ended. Always.
So why wasn’t he here?
The next morning, Phainon appeared as if he had never been gone.
He leaned against the doorway of your home, arms crossed, a lazy grin on his face. “Miss me?”
You rolled your eyes but couldn’t help the small, relieved breath you let out. “You wish.”
He only chuckled, falling into step beside you as if no time had passed. And just like that, things returned to normal. You didn’t ask where he had been, and he didn’t offer an explanation. That was how it always was.
That evening, your mother handed you a small parcel wrapped in cloth. “Take this to your grandmother, will you? But be careful, don’t linger too long. It’ll be dark soon.”
You reassured her with a smile before setting off. The road was familiar, winding through the outskirts of the village, lined with tall trees that cast long shadows as the sun dipped below the horizon.
By the time you started heading back, the last traces of daylight had faded. The path home felt different at night—quieter, colder. The wind whispered through the trees, and somewhere in the distance, an owl hooted.
Then, the silence broke.
A rustle.
You stopped, heart thudding in your chest. The trees swayed, their branches casting twisted shadows across the path. It was probably just an animal.
Then you heard it—breathing.
Before you could turn, something slammed into you, knocking you to the ground. A weight pinned you down, cold fingers gripping your shoulders.
“Smells good...” a voice rasped above you.
Your breath caught as you looked up, meeting the hungry, gleaming eyes of a man. No—a vampire. His lips curled, revealing sharp fangs.
“Let go of me!” You struggled, panic surging through your veins.
He chuckled, amused by your resistance. “I haven’t fed in days. Just a little taste—”
Then, in an instant, he was gone- ripped away.
The weight lifted, and before you could process what had happened, a sickening crack echoed through the air. A strangled cry followed, cut short as something heavy hit the ground.
Shaken, you pushed yourself up.
And then you saw Phainon who stood a few feet away, his back turned to you. At his feet, the vampire lay crumpled, twitching weakly. One of his arms bent at an unnatural angle.
“You picked the wrong person” Phainon murmured.
The injured vampire let out a choked whimper. “I— I didn’t know—”
“You didn’t know?” Phainon repeated, tilting his head. “Didn’t know they were mine?”
“Please—”
Phainon sighed. Then, without hesitation, he stepped forward and crushed the man’s throat beneath his heel.
Your heart pounded as you watched him. He turned to you, his usual warmth still present—but now laced with something darker.
“You’re trembling” he said softly, stepping closer.
You couldn’t move.
Then, ever so gently, he reached out and brushed a stray lock of hair from your face.
“You should be more careful, Y/N.”
His fingers lingered.
“I’d hate to lose you.”
Your vision blurred. Your breath came in shallow gasps, but it wasn’t enough—your chest tightened, the world tilting as cold sweat slicked your skin.
Phainon. The vampire’s broken body. The blood pooling beneath him.
“Ah—” Phainon exhaled, amused yet concerned. “I suppose that was a bit much for you.”
The last thing you saw before the darkness swallowed you whole was the serene, almost affectionate smile on his face.
You stirred, eyes fluttering open. You weren’t outside anymore. Dim candlelight flickered against wooden walls—your room.
“You’re awake” Phainon murmured.
He was sitting at your bedside, one arm draped lazily over the chair, watching you with a quiet intensity.
Your body tensed. The memory rushed back all at once—the attack, the vampire, the way Phainon had crushed his throat like it was nothing.
Your fingers clenched the sheets. “You—”
“I carried you home”
Silence stretched between you.
“I took care of it. No one will ever touch you again.”
“You… killed him.”
Phainon didn’t flinch. If anything, he seemed almost puzzled by your reaction. “Of course.”
The boy you had grown up with, the one who had laughed with you, teased you, stayed by your side—had crushed a man’s throat without hesitation.
Phainon leaned closer, reaching out slowly, as if not to startle you. His fingers brushed your wrist, light and careful. “You’re safe with me” he murmured.
Days passed.
Phainon left you alone, giving you space to recover, though he never strayed too far. You could feel his presence even when he wasn’t visible—watching, waiting.
But the fear that had once taken root inside you began to shift.
Curiosity gnawed at your thoughts.
Where did he go at night? What kind of life did he lead beyond the smile he showed you?
And more importantly—how much had he hidden from you?
So, when the sun dipped below the horizon, you made your choice.
You pulled on a cloak, wrapping it tightly around yourself before slipping into the night.
Phainon was easy to track. He moved with a confidence that came from knowing no one could touch him, his form barely more than a whisper in the darkness.
You followed carefully, staying just out of sight.
The path led away from the village, past old roads and tangled trees, into the underbelly of a world you had never seen before.
And then—you found it. The Hidden Den.
The place was alive with a dark, pulsing energy. Torches flickered against stone walls, casting long shadows over the twisted gathering.
Vampires lounged on crimson-draped couches, fangs sinking into willing throats as girls draped themselves over their laps. Others inhaled thick, perfumed smoke from ornate pipes, their pupils blown wide with pleasure.
On one side, blood was being poured into goblets like fine wine, passed between hands in hushed trades. In another corner, a vampire licked fresh crimson from his fingers while a dazed-looking woman trembled beside him, her pulse sluggish.
This was what he was part of?
A sick fascination mingled with your horror. You wanted to turn away—but you couldn’t.
A presence loomed behind you.
Before you could react, a hand gripped your shoulder and yanked you back into the shadows. Your back hit a cold wall. A figure loomed over you, silver hair catching the dim light.
Phainon.
But this wasn’t the version of him you knew.
“Didn’t anyone ever teach you not to wander where you don’t belong?”
You looked up at Phainon, at the way the dim torchlight cast shadows over his face—sharpening his features, making him seem even more untouchable. His grip on your shoulder was firm, grounding.
But you weren’t afraid.
You were angry.
"Is this what you're into?" you demanded, voice sharp, cutting through the low hum of sinful indulgence around you. "Is this the kind of place you belong to?"
Phainon's expression didn’t waver, but his fingers twitched slightly against your shoulder.
You continued, ignoring the cold air brushing against your skin. "I don’t want you here. You’re better than this."
His lips parted slightly in surprise. Then, amusement flickered in his gaze. "Better than this?" he echoed. "And what makes you think that?"
"Because I know you" you said without hesitation.
A moment of silence stretched between you, taut with unspoken things. Then Phainon exhaled softly, shaking his head as if he couldn’t believe you. His grip finally loosened, but he didn’t step away. Instead, his eyes drifted downward—toward your exposed wrist, where your pulse beat strong beneath your skin.
"You followed me all this way" he murmured. "Was it just to scold me?"
You hesitated for only a second before speaking.
"If you’re that thirsty, drink from me instead."
Phainon blinked.
And then he laughed.
"You’re unbelievable." he said, voice hushed.
But he didn’t refuse.
Phainon leaned in slowly, watching you carefully, as if waiting for hesitation. But you didn’t flinch. His fingers brushed against your wrist, tilting it slightly. His lips ghosted over your skin.
And then—
A sharp sting, followed by warmth.
Your breath caught as his fangs pierced your skin, precise and careful. It wasn’t painful, not really. A strange, tingling sensation spread through you, your body growing light, unsteady.
Phainon made a quiet sound against your skin, like a sigh of relief, like he had been waiting for this. His grip was gentle, his touch reverent. And just as quickly as it started, it was over.
He pulled back, licking the last drops of crimson from his lips. "You taste too good for your own good" he murmured, almost to himself.
You barely heard him.
Because suddenly, the heavy perfume in the air—the scent of blood, of incense, of whatever drugged haze lingered in this place crashed down on you all at once.
Your knees buckled.
Phainon's arms were around you before you could hit the ground.
"Ah," he breathed, catching you easily. "Didn’t think that one through, did you?"
Your body felt weightless as he lifted you effortlessly into his arms.
By the time you woke, you were home.
The scent of that place was gone, replaced by the familiar warmth of your own room. Your body felt drained, sluggish, but safe.
And sitting beside you, as if he had never left, was Phainon.
"You’re reckless," he murmured, breaking the silence. "But I like that about you."
His fingers brushed against your wrist again, where his mark remained.
"You should rest," he said softly. "I’ll be here when you wake up."
And for some reason, despite everything—you believed him.
You barely remembered falling asleep.
After Phainon carried you home from that wretched place, exhaustion claimed you faster than you could think. Your body was too weak, too drained from everything that happened.
But when you woke up—something was wrong.
A hand clamped over your mouth before you could make a sound.
Your eyes shot open, heart slamming against your ribs. The room was dark, but you could make out a figure looming over you—a vampire, his breath heavy with the scent of old blood.
"You shouldn’t have been there, little thing." the man sneered.
The one who owed Phainon saw what you both did. So he thought he could take advantage of the situation.
Panic surged through you. You struggled, but his grip tightened.
"You cost me" he hissed, voice low and venomous. "But don’t worry. You’ll be useful in another way."
He yanked you up from your bed, arms locking around you like iron.
The moment Phainon stepped into your house, he knew something was wrong. The air reeked of an unfamiliar scent—bitter, old blood mixed with the distinct stench of someone who didn’t belong.
Your room was a mess. The blankets were thrown aside, your belongings knocked over, and worst of all—
You were gone.
Phainon’s entire expression darkened.
The scent was fresh. They couldn’t have gone far.
His fingers twitched, sharp nails lengthening slightly as he inhaled deeply, locking onto the trail like a predator.
He found you in an abandoned alley, pressed against the cold stone as the vampire loomed over you, fangs bared.
"Don’t struggle" the man sneered. "I just need a little taste—"
Crack.
The vampire was on the ground before he could register what happened, Phainon’s boot pressing down against his throat.
The man choked, clawing at Phainon’s leg, but the weight didn’t budge.
"You made a mistake" Phainon murmured, voice eerily calm.
His foot pressed down harder. The vampire’s struggles weakened.
"Phainon" you rasped, voice hoarse, barely able to move.
That was the only thing that stopped him.
Phainon’s gaze flicked toward you. His eyes softened—just a fraction.
With one last sharp glare at the trembling man beneath him, Phainon finally stepped back.
The vampire gasped, wheezing as he scrambled away.
Phainon didn’t bother watching him flee.
He was already kneeling beside you, fingers brushing over your face, checking for injuries.
"Tch." His voice was light, but you could hear the underlying tension. "I leave you alone for one moment, and this is what happens?"
"Not my fault."
A chuckle. "I guess not."
And before you could protest, he scooped you up again, cradling you against his chest.
Phainon’s home was nothing like yours.
The moment he brought you inside, he didn’t let you out of his sight. You were still rattled, too exhausted to argue as he led you to a bath, forcing you to sit and soak in the warm water while he leaned against the doorway, arms crossed.
"You don’t have to watch me" you muttered, sinking into the heat.
"I do" he replied smoothly.
You scowled but didn’t push further.
After you finished, you dressed in the spare clothes he handed you, soft and unfamiliar, but comfortable.
But even then, something was off.
Phainon’s expression was unreadable as he stood in front of you, arms still crossed, eyes sharp.
"What?" you asked, frowning.
He exhaled, then leaned in slightly, inhaling.
Your entire body tensed.
"That scent" he murmured.
It took you a second to realize what he meant.
Even after bathing, the vampire’s scent still clung to you.
Phainon didn’t like that.
You barely had time to react before Phainon closed the distance between you.
One hand reached for your wrist, the other sliding up to your jaw, tilting your face toward him.
"Phainon—?"
"You smell like him," he said, almost absentmindedly. "I hate it."
Your breath hitched as he leaned in further, his nose brushing lightly against the side of your neck.
A slow inhale.
"Phainon—!"
His hands slid down, trailing over your shoulders, gripping your arms just enough to keep you still. He wasn’t rough—no, his touch was slow, intentional.
"You don’t want to reek of someone else, do you?" he murmured against your skin. "Let me fix it."
His lips brushed over the curve of your throat, not quite kissing, not quite biting—just enough to make your pulse spike.
"Stop squirming" he chuckled when you shifted, his voice warm, teasing. "You wanted me to drink from you before. Did you change your mind?"
"That’s not—this is different—!"
Phainon hummed, a soft, knowing sound. "Not really."
His arms wrapped around you fully, pulling you flush against him, his warmth seeping into your skin.
This wasn’t about feeding.
This was about marking.
"Better" Phainon murmured, finally leaning back to meet your gaze. His blue eyes gleamed, satisfied.
"You smell like me now."
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Fake it Til You Make it
pairing: boo seungkwan x f!reader | wc: 18K genre: coworkers au, fake dating au, fluff, humor, suggestive, angst warnings: language, alcohol consumption, suggestive scenes a/n: for cam&em’s lonely hearts cafe collab (everyone go read every fic or i will Find You) // this is a continuation of morning rush enormous thank you to @ylangelegy and @haologram for beta-ing this <3333
summary: You could honestly throttle Seokmin right now. Of all the half-baked, caffeine-fueled ideas he’s ever had, convincing the entire office that you and Seungkwan—your sworn nemesis and parking spot thief—are madly in love might just take the cake.
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Seokmin has a plan. A really, really, really good plan. He’s sure of it.
Mostly.
He leans against the breakroom counter, nursing the world’s saddest cup of instant coffee, and considers the potential fallout. Sure, you and Seungkwan will probably strangle him (or, in your case, make an entire PowerPoint on “Why Lee Seokmin Deserves to Be Laid Off”), but the rewards outweigh the risks. Seokmin glances toward the hallway, where the faint sound of Aera and Ayoung’s laughter echoes, their voices just a pitch too smug. No, this plan is flawless. Foolproof. Nobel Prize-worthy, even.
All he has to do now is sell it to the two people who loathe each other the most in the office.
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He hadn’t meant to open his mouth, but God, Aera and Ayoung had to have been demons crafted by the devil himself, the kind that thrived on overpriced lattes and the scent of shattered self-esteem. Seokmin had just been passing through the hallway, minding his own business—okay, eavesdropping a little—when he caught wind of their conversation.
“Honestly, I don’t know why she even bothers coming to these galas,” Aera had said, inspecting her manicure like it held the secrets of the universe. “It’s not like anyone actually notices her. She’s basically furniture.”
“Right? What’s the point if you don’t have someone on your arm?” Ayoung had added, with a theatrical sigh. “But then again, who would even want to go with her? She’s so…. ugh.”
The “ugh” had been the final straw. Seokmin hadn’t thought twice—he’d stormed over, ready to unleash a tirade about how you were the hardest-working person in the office, how you’d single-handedly carried your team through last quarter’s hellish project, and how you absolutely deserved more respect.
Instead, what came out of his mouth was: “Y/N has a date. Obviously.”
The two women blinked at him in unison, their perfectly sculpted eyebrows raising in surprise. “Oh?” Aera recovers quickly, tilting her head. “And who’s the lucky date? You?”
Seokmin laughed, loud and unconvincing. “Me? No, no, I’m going with Soonyoung, like I always do.”
Ayoung narrowed her eyes. “Then who?”
And this is where Seokmin’s brain had short-circuited. He glanced around the room, as if the walls might offer some divine intervention. Nothing. Just the faint hum of the vending machine. His mind raced, searching for a name that would shut them up, and then—
“Seungkwan,” he blurted out.
Both women stared at him, stunned. “Seungkwan?” Aera repeated, incredulous.
“Yep! Seungkwan,” Seokmin had said, doubling down because he knew there was no turning back. “They’ve been together for ages. Super lowkey about it, though. You know how Seungkwan is.”
The silence was deafening.
“Seungkwan,” Ayoung echoed, her expression twisting into disbelief. “Boo Seungkwan. As in, ‘my parking spot is sacred ground’ Seungkwan?”
Seokmin’s grin tightened. “The very same.”
For a moment, the two women exchanged a look, processing this unexpected development. Then, to Seokmin’s immense relief, Aera shrugged. “Huh. I guess that makes sense. They’re both kind of…intense.”
“I mean, they fight like an old married couple,” Ayoung had added, smirking.
“Exactly!” Seokmin said, clinging to the lifeline they’ve unknowingly thrown him. “Soulmates, right?”
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The rumor spread faster than an office email about free donuts, and by lunchtime, it seemed like everyone had an opinion about your supposed relationship with Boo Seungkwan. The first domino fell when Mingyu slid into the seat across from Seungkwan in the cafeteria, tray in hand and a knowing smirk plastered across his face. He casually tossed his napkin onto his lap, but there was a glint in his eyes that made Seungkwan pause mid-bite.
“So,” Mingyu began, spearing a piece of chicken with far too much casual flair, “you and Y/N, huh? Cute.”
Seungkwan, who had been halfway through chewing a mouthful of rice, immediately choked so violently he nearly toppled the entire tray. The force of his cough was so dramatic that Joshua, seated a few spots away, paused mid-bite and gave Seungkwan a couple of hard thumps on the back, muttering a half-hearted “Jesus, dude” under his breath. The rest of the table fell silent, watching the spectacle unfold with varying degrees of concern and mild amusement.
“Excuse me?” Seungkwan sputtered, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand, eyes wide with a mixture of horror and confusion.
“You know…” Mingyu leaned in, lowering his voice conspiratorially, the way someone would when revealing state secrets. “You. Y/N. The whole undercover thing.” He paused for effect, looking around as if making sure no one else was eavesdropping. “Honestly, I didn’t see it coming, but it makes sense. You two do bicker like an old couple. It’s kinda cute, actually.”
Seungkwan froze mid-chew, his chopsticks hovering in midair, as his brain scrambled to process Mingyu’s words. Undercover thing? Old couple? Y/N?
“I have no idea what you’re talking about,” Seungkwan said flatly, his voice a mix of exasperation and genuine confusion, although a tiny bead of sweat had already begun to form at his temple. He glanced around, noticing the way a few of his coworkers at the nearby tables were suddenly pretending to be deeply invested in their food, but the side glances they were stealing were hard to miss.
Mingyu squinted, his expression becoming exaggeratedly serious. “Don’t play dumb, Seungkwan. Aera and Ayoung said you and Y/N have been secretly dating for ages. Ages. Like, seriously. You two are practically the office power couple.”
Seungkwan stared at Mingyu, not entirely sure whether he should laugh or start hyperventilating. His eyes flickered to Joshua, who was now giving him a sympathetic glance, and then back to Mingyu, whose grin had only grown wider with every passing second. The conversation around them had slowly started to fade into the background, leaving only the sound of Seungkwan’s rapidly beating heart in his ears.
For a brief moment, the only sound was the clatter of utensils against trays, and the faint sound of someone sneezing a few tables over, as though the entire room was collectively holding its breath. Then, with the force of a dam breaking, Seungkwan exclaimed, “WHAT?!”
The sound was so loud and high-pitched that the people around them flinched. Mingyu’s smirk only deepened.
“Yeah, you heard me,” he said, as if the news was the most normal thing in the world. “You and Y/N—together. Lowkey, sure, but people are noticing. Honestly, I'm impressed. You've got good chemistry. You bicker, you glare at each other like it's a sport, and boom—no one can resist you two.”
Seungkwan’s eyes widened even further, if that was possible. His mouth opened and closed, but no words came out for a solid five seconds. “You... Mingyu, this is—this is insane. We’re not—”
“I mean, you guys do fight like an old married couple,” Mingyu added, completely unbothered. “Classic relationship stuff.”
Seungkwan let out a high-pitched groan, dropping his chopsticks onto his tray as he slumped back in his seat. Joshua patted him on the back with a sympathetic look. “Honestly, man, at this point, I think everyone’s already betting on how long you two last.”
Seungkwan turned a death glare on Mingyu. “Mingyu, I am not dating Y/N, okay? Not. I don’t even—”
“Sure you’re not,” Mingyu said with a wink, leaning back and taking a leisurely sip of his drink. “But hey, if you need help smoothing it over, let me know. I could use a good laugh.”
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Meanwhile, you were in the middle of a relatively peaceful afternoon, lost in your work, when Soonyoung burst into your workspace like a caffeinated golden retriever on a sugar rush.
“Congrats!” he announced, voice loud enough to startle the intern two desks down, who nearly spilled her coffee in the process.
You blinked at him, genuinely perplexed. “For what?” you asked, narrowing your eyes at him, unsure whether this was a prank you weren’t in on yet.
“For the relationship of the century, duh!” Soonyoung said, plopping into the chair next to you like he owned the place. He threw his feet up onto the corner of your desk, barely missing the pile of reports you’d been working on. He propped his chin on his hands, eyes sparkling with mischief. “You and Seungkwan—genius. Absolutely genius. I mean, I was wondering when you two would finally make it official, but keeping it lowkey? Perfect. Who came up with it? Was it you? It had to be you.”
Your face contorted into a mix of confusion and horror, the words barely registering. “What are you talking about? What relationship?”
Soonyoung leaned in closer, like he was about to share some highly classified info, lowering his voice to a dramatic whisper. “The PR stunt, obviously! Aera and Ayoung are eating it up. Honestly, you and Seungkwan should start charging them rent for all the space you’re taking up in their heads. They're obsessed. It’s amazing.” He gave a pleased little clap. “Love to see it.”
“PR stunt?” you echoed, voice climbing in pitch. “Seungkwan?”
“Don’t be shy!” Soonyoung winked, his eyes practically glittering with pride. “You’re playing it so cool. I gotta hand it to you, you two are perfect at the whole ‘undercover couple’ thing. No one saw it coming. Now, with all those entertainment rumors about you two, people are talking. It’s the kind of buzz I can only dream of.”
You slammed your laptop shut with a dramatic bang. The sound made Soonyoung jump. "I’m going to kill him."
Soonyoung, unfazed, simply leaned back in his chair with a grin. “You should. But first, enjoy the chaos, because it’s already spreading. I mean, even the office Slack is buzzing about your ‘relationship.’ I think it’s time for you to play the long game.”
Before you could respond, Soonyoung was already pulling out his phone and swiping through a group chat on his screen. You could feel your headache forming as he muttered something about “setting the record straight” and “beating Mingyu’s office poll on couple dynamics."
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Seokmin was mid-sip of his third coffee of the day when the breakroom door slammed open with enough force to make him spill.
“What the—” Seokmin started, dabbing at the mess with a crumpled napkin, but he didn’t get to finish because you and Seungkwan stormed in, practically radiating wrath. It was like watching a SWAT team execute a mission—except the target was him and his questionable life choices.
“You!” Your voice cracked through the air like a whip as you jabbed an accusatory finger in his direction.
“YOU!” Seungkwan echoed, his tone sharp enough to cut glass. His finger joined yours in solidarity, a united front of pure fury.
Seokmin froze, cornered between the sink and the vending machine, his coffee mug clutched like a makeshift shield. “Me?” he squeaked, his eyes darting between your expressions, both etched with a mix of betrayal and irritation.
“Yes, you!” Seungkwan snapped, stepping closer with the air of a man who had reached the end of his rope. “Do you want to explain why Mingyu just asked me if me and Y/N are naming our future pets after luxury brands?!”
The words hung in the air for a beat, heavy with absurdity.
“Luxury brands?” you echoed, your tone disbelieving.
“That’s not the point!” Seungkwan said, throwing his hands up in exasperation. He rounded back on Seokmin, who looked like a deer caught in a pair of particularly unforgiving headlights. “Explain. Now.”
Seokmin hesitated, his mind spinning like a faulty gear. He could feel a bead of sweat forming at his temple. “Okay,” he began carefully, stalling for time. “First of all, you’re welcome.”
The sheer audacity of the statement hit like a slap.
“You’re welcome?” you and Seungkwan chorused, voices dripping with incredulity.
“Yes!” Seokmin said, puffing up his chest slightly as though he were presenting a brilliant thesis. “You don’t understand how horrible Aera and Ayoung were being. They were saying awful things about you, Y/N! I had to defend your honor.”
“And your solution,” you said, your tone calm but with an edge sharp enough to slice through steel, “was to fake-date me with Seungkwan?”
“Yeah, Seokmin,” Seungkwan added, his hands flailing in emphasis. “I mean, if you wanted to fake-date Y/N, at least pick someone plausible. Like, I don’t know, Mingyu.”
“Hey!” you snapped, your glare whipping to Seungkwan.
“What?” Seungkwan asked, blinking in genuine confusion. “It was just an example.”
“Enough!” Seokmin groaned dramatically, throwing his hands in the air as though burdened by your collective lack of vision. “Look, it worked, didn’t it? Aera and Ayoung bought it! They even said you two bicker like an old married couple!”
“That’s not a compliment!” Seungkwan exclaimed, his voice rising an octave.
“And,” you interjected, stepping forward, your expression unnervingly calm but your tone laced with menace, “now the entire office thinks we’re in a relationship. So, how exactly does this ‘plan’ of yours end?”
Seokmin’s grin faltered slightly, his bravado cracking just enough to reveal a hint of unease. “Uh… with you two faking it for a bit longer? You know, until Aera and Ayoung find someone else to gossip about?”
Seungkwan let out a groan, dragging a hand through his hair in frustration. “You are unbelievable.”
“And you’re fired from planning anything ever again,” you added, your voice dripping with finality.
Seokmin opened his mouth to respond, his face twisting into a defensive expression, but the door creaked open before he could speak.
All three of you turned to see Soonyoung poking his head inside, his phone clutched in one hand. “Hey, not to interrupt, but I just posted a poll in the office group chat: ‘Who’s the power couple—Seungkwan and Y/N or Soonyoung and his plants?’ You’re winning by 72 percent, by the way.”
The room fell into stunned silence.
“You’re all insane,” Seungkwan muttered at last, snatching his coffee off the counter and storming out in a whirlwind of righteous indignation.
“Seokmin,” you said through gritted teeth, each syllable dripping with warning. “Fix this.”
Seokmin raised his mug in a mock toast, his grin resurfacing. “Don’t worry. I’ve got a plan.”
“Oh, no,” you groaned, turning on your heel. “We’re doomed.”
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Seokmin’s apartment is as much of a disaster as you’d expect for a man who owns a single fork and three mismatched plates. The couch is one ill-timed flop away from breaking, and the "decor" consists of a faded movie poster, a dying plant, and a string of half-working fairy lights. Yet, somehow, it’s become the Friday night spot.
You, Seokmin, and occasionally Soonyoung gather here weekly like clockwork, cobbling together meals from his barren fridge, drinking yourselves silly, and venting about work. It’s an unspoken tradition, one that began with a pity invite after a particularly hellish week and quickly solidified when you discovered that, despite his lack of utensils, Seokmin could cook better than half the office put together.
Tonight, however, you’ve barely cracked open a bottle of soju when Seokmin starts talking about your “relationship” with Seungkwan.
“I’m just saying,” he slurs, stirring a pot of ramen with a spatula (his one and only cooking tool), “if you and Seungkwan fake-dated, Aera and Ayoung would shut up. It’s genius!”
You groan, sprawled on the lumpy couch with a glass in hand. “Seokmin, I’d rather die.”
“Would you, though?” he says, squinting at you like he’s cracked the code to life. “Because imagine showing up to the gala with Seungkwan on your arm. They’d hate it. And you’d look hot.”
You swish the remaining soju in your glass, frowning. “I don’t need Seungkwan to look hot.”
“Exactly! Which makes it better. He’d be like your hot accessory. Like a really angry Gucci bag.”
You snort at the thought of Seungkwan as a designer handbag and open your mouth to argue when Seokmin’s expression turns suspiciously earnest. “Look, I’m your work husband. I’d never steer you wrong. Just trust me.”
Your brain, already fuzzed from alcohol and exhaustion, betrays you. “Fine,” you mutter, waving your hand. “Whatever. I’ll fake-date Seungkwan.”
“REALLY?!” Seokmin drops the spatula with a clatter and claps his hands. “Great! Let me tell Soonyoung it’s safe to come in!”
“What?” you snap, sitting up so fast the room tilts. “What do you mean, safe to come in?”
“Yeah,” Seokmin says casually, wiping his hands on his pants. “He’s been waiting outside with Seungkwan for the 45 minutes it took for me to convince you.”
“LEE SEOKMIN, I WILL FUCKING THROTTLE YOU!”
You launch your slipper at him, but he ducks. The projectile sails past him and hits a new target—a very startled Seungkwan, who has just walked through the door.
The slipper connects with his thigh with a muted thwack.
Shocked silence fills the room.
Seungkwan glares at the three of you like you’ve all personally wronged him. “Nope. Nope, nope, nope. I’m going home. All of you motherfuckers are insane.”
“Wait!” Soonyoung and Seokmin leap forward, grabbing Seungkwan by the arms and dragging him back inside. He protests the whole way, muttering about how he “knew this was a terrible idea” and “should’ve stayed home.”
Thus begins the chaos.
Seokmin slaps the paper onto the coffee table like he’s presenting a groundbreaking thesis. In messy, barely legible letters, he’s scrawled FAKE DATING CONTRACT across the top.
“We’re doing this right,” he announces, brandishing the sharpie like a microphone. “Discussion topic number one: PDA.”
“None,” you say, raising your soju bottle in a mock toast.
“No PDA?” Soonyoung protests from where he’s sprawled across the armrest of the couch. “How is that going to convince anyone you’re dating? You can’t just stare at each other awkwardly across the room!”
“I don’t stare at people awkwardly,” you snap.
“Yes, you do,” Seungkwan deadpans. “That’s, like, your whole thing.”
“Excuse me?” you shoot back, glaring.
“Alright, alright!” Seokmin waves the sharpie between you like a referee breaking up a fight. “Compromise: hand-holding is allowed.” He starts writing it down, tongue poking out of the corner of his mouth.
“And cheek kisses,” Soonyoung adds brightly.
“No way!” Seungkwan bursts out, looking betrayed.
“It’s just a cheek!” Soonyoung protests. “You don’t even have to look at her.”
“Wow,” you mutter, rolling your eyes. “Thanks for the enthusiasm, darling.”
“Oh, I’m sorry,” Seungkwan snaps, arms crossing. “Did you want me to lie and say I’m thrilled to be fake-dating the office menace?”
You grab a couch cushion and smack him over the head with it. “I wouldn’t have to be a menace if you weren’t so insufferable!”
“Guys!” Seokmin groans, pointing the sharpie at both of you like it’s a weapon. “Focus. Cheek kisses are in.” He scribbles it down while Seungkwan mutters something about treason.
“And you,” you add, pointing at Seungkwan, “are bringing me coffee every morning for six weeks from that café across town.”
“Like hell I am!” Seungkwan glares. “You know how far that is?”
“Yes, which is why you’re doing it,” you snap. “Call it emotional compensation.”
“You’re not getting coffee and the parking spot!” Seungkwan shouts, sitting up straight.
“The parking spot was mine first!”
“Your car doesn’t even fit in it properly!”
“Then I’ll make it fit!”
Seokmin scribbles something on the paper and holds it up with an exasperated flourish. “Okay, joint custody of the parking spot. You’ll alternate weeks.”
“That’s stupid,” you mutter.
“So are you!” Seungkwan fires back, and you lunge for another cushion.
“Guys!” Soonyoung yells, snatching the cushion out of your hands. “Rule number three: no throwing things at each other while in public.”
“I’m not signing that,” you say immediately.
“Neither am I,” Seungkwan agrees.
“Fine,” Seokmin grumbles, crossing it out. “Next rule: no kissing on the lips.”
“That should’ve been rule number one,” Seungkwan mutters, and you chuck a slipper at him for good measure.
“Rule number five: you have to act nice to each other in front of Aera and Ayoung,” Seokmin adds, barely pausing as Seungkwan yelps.
“Oh, great,” you say sarcastically. “So now I have to fake-date him and fake-like him?”
“Yeah, real tough,” Seungkwan scoffs. “Try fake-liking you for five minutes.”
“Okay, rule six: no insults while in public,” Seokmin says, scribbling furiously.
“Define ‘insult,’” you say.
“You just called me a moron five minutes ago!” Seungkwan protests.
“That’s not an insult,” you argue. “It’s an observation.”
“Oh my God,” Seokmin groans, pinching the bridge of his nose.
“You’ll both bring snacks to the gala,” Soonyoung interjects, leaning over Seokmin’s shoulder. “That way, when you start arguing in public, at least you can shove food into each other’s mouths.”
“That is not going on the list,” Seungkwan says, shooting him a glare.
“It’s already on there,” Seokmin chirps.
The arguing goes on and on, fueled by soju and petty grievances, until the paper is crammed with hastily written rules, half of which contradict each other. Seokmin holds up the finished product triumphantly.
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FAKE DATING CONTRACT(written and notarized by Lee Seokmin, Esq. of Bad Ideas LLC)
No PDA.
Exception: hand-holding is allowed.
Exception to the exception: no clammy hands.
Cheek kisses are mandatory for believability.
Mandatory?! – Seungkwan
Yes. – Soonyoung
No lip kissing, EVER.
We’re not that committed to this.
Joint custody of the parking spot.
Weeks will alternate.
If one party is late to the spot, they forfeit their turn.
Coffee Clause:
Seungkwan will deliver coffee every morning for six weeks.
It must come from the café across town.
Why do I have to do this? – Seungkwan
Because you’re annoying. – Y/N
No throwing objects at each other in public.
Or private! – Seungkwan
Not negotiable. – Y/N
Insult ban in public spaces.
“Moron” is not an insult, it’s an observation.
This feels targeted. – Seungkwan
Be nice to each other in front of Aera and Ayoung.
Smile. A lot. Pretend you’re not arguing.
How am I supposed to do that?! – Y/N
Snacks must be brought to the gala.
If bickering begins, snacks will be used to shut each other up.
This rule is offensive. – Seungkwan
Duration of fake dating: until Aera and Ayoung lose interest or find another victim.
No extensions allowed.
All parties must try to look reasonably attractive during public appearances.
Define ‘reasonably.’– Seungkwan
Just don’t embarrass me. – Y/N
Any disputes regarding this contract will be arbitrated by Soonyoung and Seokmin.
Oh, we’re gonna regret this. 
Practice sessions required before the first public appearance.
“Practice” may include hand-holding, smiling, and general fake-couple behavior.
Can we practice not doing this? – Seungkwan
Signed, Y/N & Boo Seungkwan Witnessed by: Lee Seokmin & Kwon Soonyoung
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“Done!” he declares. “Time to sign.”
You glance at the chaotic list and groan. “I hate this.”
“Sign it anyway,” Seokmin says, shoving the sharpie into your hand.
You scrawl your name at the bottom with all the enthusiasm of someone signing away their soul. Seungkwan follows suit, muttering curses under his breath.
“Great!” Seokmin beams, snatching the paper and sharpie. “Now, time to practice!”
“Seokmin, it’s 3 AM!” you whine. “Let me go home!”
“NO!” Soonyoung and Seokmin yell in unison.
Practice begins in earnest with Seokmin standing in front of you and Seungkwan like a drill sergeant, clipboard in hand. Soonyoung is sprawled across the couch with a blanket, looking far too comfortable for someone instigating chaos.
“Alright,” Seokmin says, tapping his pen against the clipboard. “First order of business: compliments.”
“Compliments?” you echo, your tone flat. “We’re fake-dating, not auditioning for a rom-com.”
“Yes, compliments,” Seokmin says, with the exaggerated patience of a kindergarten teacher. “If you can’t fake a little affection, no one’s going to buy this. Start with something small. Seungkwan, you go first.”
“Fine,” Seungkwan sighs, turning to you. “Your… outfit is fine.”
“Wow,” you deadpan. “Don’t hold back.”
“Fine! You looked pretty that one day you wore a dress to work,” he says, crossing his arms defensively.
Your stomach flips unexpectedly, and you hate that it does. That wasn’t what you’d expected him to say. The memory surfaces unbidden: you, rushing into the office late for a meeting, fumbling with your presentation slides. You barely noticed Seungkwan staring, too preoccupied with apologizing to the executives that were staring at your whirlwind entrance.
Now, you remember the day too well, and you shove the memories down immediately. “That’s it? One day out of, like, a thousand?” you say, masking your unease with a smirk.
“Take it or leave it,” he snaps.
“Your turn,” Seokmin says, gesturing at you.
You glance at Seungkwan, already regretting what you’re about to say. “You… make people laugh.”
“That’s the best you can do?” Seungkwan scoffs, but there’s a flicker of something softer in his eyes.
“Okay, fine,” you grumble. “You’re good at your job. People like you. You’re… charming, I guess.”
The room goes silent for a beat, and you feel heat creeping up your neck.
“Well,” Seungkwan says after a pause, his voice quieter. “Thanks.”
“Okay, compliments, check,” Seokmin interjects, scribbling something illegible onto the contract for no discernible reason. “Next, hand-holding!”
“Seriously?” you groan.
“Yes!” Soonyoung shouts from his sprawl on the couch. “You’re going to have to do it in public! Get over it!”
Reluctantly, you hold out your hand. Seungkwan looks at it like you’ve just offered him a live grenade.
“Stop stalling,” Seokmin says, smirking.
Seungkwan grabs your hand, and the moment your palms meet, you recoil. “Why is your hand so clammy?” you demand, grimacing.
“Because I’m stressed, you monster!” Seungkwan shoots back. “Stop squeezing so hard!”
“I’m not squeezing—your hand’s just weird!”
“My hand is weird?” Seungkwan huffs. “Yours is dryer than the Sahara!”
“You’re both weird!” Soonyoung yells, throwing a couch pillow at your heads. “Try again, and this time, don’t look like you’re holding hands with a corpse!”
The both of you roll your eyes but try again. This time, it’s… slightly better. Seungkwan’s hand is still clammy, but at least he’s not actively complaining. 
By the time Soonyoung pipes up again, the sun is starting to rise, casting pale light through the blinds.
“Alright, final test,” he says, stifling a yawn. “You’ve gotta kiss her cheek.”
“What?!” you and Seungkwan exclaim in unison.
“You’re going to have to do it in public anyway!” Soonyoung argues, gesturing grandly from the couch. “This is practice!”
“I am not kissing—”
“Just do it,” Seokmin says, cutting Seungkwan off with a weary wave of his hand. “The sooner you do, the sooner we can all sleep.”
You open your mouth to argue, but before you can, Seungkwan leans over. His hand finds your shoulder for balance, and then—soft and fleeting—his lips brush your cheek.
It’s over in a heartbeat, but your stomach flips like you’re falling from the top of a roller coaster. You can still feel the warmth of his breath against your skin, the faint pressure of his lips, and it sends a shockwave of emotions crashing through you—confusion, nervousness, and something suspiciously like longing.
Seokmin looks at you knowingly, and your heart stutters in your chest.
“I have to go,” you mutter, grabbing your jacket in a rush. You can’t stay here—not with Seokmin’s knowing smirk, not with Seungkwan’s kiss replaying on a loop in your head. “See you Monday.”
Before anyone can stop you, you’re out the door, the crisp morning air biting at your cheeks as you flee Seokmin’s apartment like it’s on fire.
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The parking lot is unusually quiet as you pull in, a sharp contrast to the whirlwind weekend you’re still trying to process. You hadn’t slept much since fleeing Seokmin’s apartment, your thoughts tangled in half-drunken banter, hastily scribbled contracts, and—worst of all—the lingering warmth of Seungkwan’s lips on your cheek.
A glint of sunlight off a familiar car catches your eye, parked a few rows back. Seungkwan’s here early. Of course he is. You can already feel your mood souring, bracing yourself for whatever fresh nonsense he’s decided to stir up this week.
Sliding into The Spot, you glance around, expecting the usual hustle and bustle of the office, but your focus sharpens the moment you spot them—Aera and Ayoung, lingering suspiciously close to your desk. You feel the groan build in your throat. It’s too early for this.
“Look who’s finally here,” Aera says the moment she spots you, her voice carrying easily over the din.
You keep walking, shoulders stiffening as Ayoung chimes in. “Big weekend, huh? Let me guess, late-night dinner dates with you know who?”
“Or maybe a romantic getaway?” Aera adds, giggling. “He seems like the type to splurge, doesn’t he?”
You don’t take the bait, just set your bag down at your desk, pointedly ignoring them.
But they don’t stop. Ayoung leans against the edge of your cubicle, her grin sharp. “Seriously, though. How does it feel? Dating the Boo Seungkwan.”
You glance up at her, exasperation seeping into your voice. “What is your problem?”
“No problem,” she says innocently, her expression anything but. “We’re just... curious. I mean, it’s not every day someone like him ends up with... well, you.”
There it is. The thinly veiled insult. Your fingers tighten around your bag strap, heat rising to your cheeks. Before you can snap back, Aera gasps, her attention snagging on your desk.
“Oh my god. Is that a coffee?” Her tone is mockingly saccharine as she picks up the cup, waving it in front of you. “And a note. ‘As requested - xo Seungkwan.’ How adorable.”
Ayoung practically cackles. “He even knows your order. Wow, this is... honestly shocking.” She isn’t wrong - it’s your exact order, right down to the weirdly specific oat milk ratio you insist on.
“Shocking?” you repeat, glaring.
Aera shrugs, clearly reveling in your discomfort. “I mean, come on. You’re you. He’s... him. It’s a little hard to picture, don’t you think?”
You open your mouth to retort, but a new voice cuts in before you can.
“Do you two ever get tired of this?”
You don’t even need to look to know who it is. You turn just in time to see Seungkwan stride over, exuding confidence like he’s been rehearsing this moment. He doesn’t even look at Aera and Ayoung; his focus is entirely on you as he slides an arm around your waist.
The casual weight of it is jarring, grounding—and completely unnecessary. Your heart stutters in response, though you’d die before admitting it.
“Is there a problem here?” Seungkwan asks, his tone all business, though you catch the faintest flicker of amusement in his eyes.
Aera’s confidence wavers for the first time, her mouth opening and closing as she scrambles for a response. Ayoung, to her credit, looks equally flustered.
“No problem,” Aera says finally, her voice quieter now.
“Good,” Seungkwan replies smoothly. He glances down at you, the faintest smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth. “Enjoy your coffee, babe.”
With that, the two of them retreat, mumbling half-hearted excuses as they shuffle back to their desks.
As soon as they’re gone, Seungkwan drops his arm like it burned him, and the absence of his touch is... startling. Disorienting. You hate how much you notice it.
“What the hell was that?” you hiss, rounding on him.
He doesn’t even look fazed. If anything, he looks amused. “You’re welcome.”
“Welcome? For what? Making things worse?”
He nods toward your desk. “They’re gone, aren’t they?”
You narrow your eyes at him, your frustration mounting. “Why did you even—what is this?” You gesture vaguely to the coffee, the note, the whole absurd situation.
“A contract is a contract,” he says simply, already turning to walk away.
“Wait.” You grab the coffee, pointing it at him like a weapon. “How did you even know my order?”
He pauses, glancing over his shoulder with that infuriating smirk that makes you want to throw the cup at him.
“I have my ways.”
“Seungkwan!” you call after him, but he’s already walking off, the faint echo of his laughter trailing behind him.
You slump into your chair, glaring at the coffee like it’s somehow responsible for all of this. Your phone buzzes, and you pull it out, immediately opening the group chat with Seokmin and Soonyoung.
Y/N: which one of you mfs told seungkwan my coffee order [NOT] tiger: 👀 [NOT] tiger: not it seok: pinky swear not me seok: hm seok: didn’t think he’d actually get you coffee Y/N: how the hell does he know? [NOT] tiger: maybe he just [NOT] tiger: knows[NOT] tiger: soulmate fr Y/N: blocking you. seok: wait seok: did he get it right? Y/N: YES Y/N: that’s the problem!!! seok: hmm [NOT] tiger: HMMMMM
You toss your phone onto your desk, groaning into your hands. Mondays were supposed to be bad, but this? This was a new level of torment. And somewhere in the back of your mind, you can’t stop replaying the warmth of Seungkwan’s hand on your waist—and the way, just for a moment, it didn’t feel so bad.
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Tuesday morning. You arrive at your desk to the familiar sight of a coffee waiting for you, the cup steaming invitingly as though it’s supposed to make you feel better about the day ahead. As you drop your bag onto the desk and take in the sight of it, your stomach tightens—because this time, Seungkwan’s waiting for you. Standing there like a kid in a candy store, a smirk pulling at the corners of his mouth as if he knows exactly how to mess with your head.
But today is not the day.
Not after this morning.
You don’t know if it's the car breaking down in the middle of a torrential downpour, or if it’s the fact that your landlord decided today was the day to demand rent five days early and threaten eviction over the tiniest of issues—either way, you’re running on fumes and patience.
When Seungkwan opens his mouth to speak, you don’t even look up. You take a long, slow breath and mutter, “Not today.”
You don’t hear him move at first, and for a moment, you almost think he’s going to leave it. That maybe, just maybe, he’s finally catching on that not every moment is for him. But then, his voice—sharp, defensive—cuts through the air.
“What’s your problem today? I get it, you’re having a bad morning. But I’m trying to be nice here.”
You can’t help it; the words spill out before you can stop them. “I don’t need your pity coffee, Seungkwan. I don’t need your help.”
His eyes flash, the usual teasing glint replaced with something more serious. “What the hell is that supposed to mean?”
You don’t answer, just fold your arms over your chest, staring hard at the computer screen, trying to block him out. “Just…go away, Seungkwan.”
His eyes widen, and something flickers behind them—hurt, maybe? But before he can say anything else, you hear the unmistakable sound of someone clearing their throat. You look up, realizing you’ve attracted a small crowd.
Aera and Ayoung are standing a few desks away, watching you two with wide, curious eyes. They’ve been lurking long enough to catch the exchange, and you can practically feel their glee radiating off them.
“Everything okay, [Y/N]?” Aera asks, barely hiding her amusement.
Your stomach sinks. You know exactly what they’re thinking: public fight, public gossip. You know you’re not supposed to care, but you do. You absolutely do.
Seungkwan must’ve seen it, too, because in a flash, he’s grabbed your hand—your hand, like it’s the most natural thing in the world—and yanks you toward the breakroom. You stumble slightly in the direction he pulls you, not expecting the sudden contact. Your heart races, and for a split second, you wonder if this was what it felt like before. That warm feeling flooding your chest, the butterflies in your stomach.
But then the door to the breakroom slams shut, cutting off the noise of the office, and Seungkwan lets go of your hand.
He crosses his arms over his chest and leans against the counter, eyes narrowed. “Spill. What’s going on?”
You can’t hold it in anymore. The tension cracks, and before you know it, the tears are spilling out.
“I’m just so tired of everything,” you choke out, the words tangled in the rush of emotions. “My car is broken down, my landlord’s being a total jerk, and everything’s just—ugh. It’s just too much.”
You blink, feeling embarrassed, but Seungkwan doesn’t make fun of you. Instead, his gaze softens for a moment, just enough that you almost don’t believe it. Almost.
“Good,” he says suddenly, and your heart stutters. “You broke the contract.”
You lift your head, confusion wrinkling your brow. “What?”
“The contract.” He says it as though it’s obvious. “You snapped at me in front of Aera and Ayoung. That’s my parking spot for the rest of the week.”
You stare at him, blinking in disbelief. And then, before you can stop it, a laugh escapes from your lips—soft, genuine, and so not what you expected.
“Seriously?” you ask, trying to wipe away the tears that suddenly make you feel so small.
His face softens, just for a moment, before that look fades as quickly as it came. But for a brief second, you could’ve sworn he looked... endearing?
“Don’t laugh,” he mutters, crossing his arms again, leaning back against the counter. “I have principles.”
You can’t help but smile at that, and for the first time today, you feel lighter. You can’t quite place the warm sensation in your chest, but it’s there, flickering like the embers of something you don’t want to acknowledge.
“Hey,” he says with a half-grin, “a contract’s a contract.”
And then, without another word, he turns and walks out, leaving you standing there in the breakroom, a little lighter than before.
When you return to your desk, you’re not sure what you expected. Maybe you thought Aera and Ayoung would leave you alone, but no. Of course not. They’re standing by your cubicle, eyes glued to you, ready to pounce.
“Oh, look who’s back,” Aera says, feigning sweetness. “Everything okay? You two seemed like you were having quite a heated conversation.”
Ayoung raises an eyebrow, almost mockingly. “Yeah, what was that? We didn’t expect Seungkwan to be so... protective.”
You stiffen, but before you can say anything, Seungkwan strolls in casually, all too aware of their prying eyes. He throws a casual arm around your shoulder and leans in, his lips brushing your ear as he speaks in a teasing tone.
“A lover’s spat,” he says smoothly, looking at Aera and Ayoung with a shit-eating grin. “Nothing to see here.”
You freeze for a moment, caught off guard by the sudden closeness of his body. You don’t move, don’t push him off, and you hate how right it feels, even if it’s just for show.
They seem to buy it, nodding and turning away, though you know the gossip mill will be churning with this new twist.
The rest of the day passes by in a blur, and when the lunch hour arrives, Seungkwan casually approaches your table, offering in his usual nonchalant manner, “I’ll drive you home today.”
The casualness of it almost makes you choke on your lunch. Seokmin, who had just taken a sip of his drink, immediately spits it out in Soonyoung’s face. You can’t help but laugh, but when Seungkwan shoots you a look, you quickly compose yourself.
“I’m fine,” you tell him, voice calm but firm. “Seokmin already agreed to jump my car and drive me home.”
Seungkwan shrugs, but there’s a knowing look in his eyes. “Whatever you say, babe.”
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Later that evening, as you’re in the car with Seokmin, he turns to you, his gaze intense. “What’s going on with you and Seungkwan?” he asks, his voice uncharacteristically serious.
You deflect, shrugging it off with a nonchalant tone. “Nothing. We’re just...” You trail off, unsure of how to explain it.
Seokmin doesn’t let up, his gaze never leaving you the entire drive home.
When you get home, you’re still thinking about Seungkwan—about his hand in yours, the warmth that flickered in his eyes when you laughed.
Later that night, you get a text from Seungkwan. You roll your eyes as you unlock your phone.
Later that night, you get a text from Seungkwan. You roll your eyes as you unlock your phone.
Seungkwan (WORK): what color dress are you wearing to the gala?
Y/N: why
Seungkwan (WORK): because it’s in two days idiot Y/N: ok and Seungkwan (WORK): what kind of boyfriend doesn’t match ties to his girlfriend’s dress
You pause for a moment, then text back,
Y/N: midnight blue
There’s a long pause before he replies.
Seungkwan (WORK): we’re gonna aera and ayoung the fuck up Seungkwan (WORK): you’re welcome.
You snort, rolling your eyes, but something in the back of your mind feels a little lighter. You look at the screen again, trying to push away the warmth that’s creeping into your cheeks.
You try to shake off the weird fluttering in your chest, but it’s hard when you can’t stop thinking about the way he smiled at you in the breakroom.
Then, after reading the text one last time, you throw your phone aside and scream into your pillow for a solid 30 seconds.
“WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?” The pillow muffles the sounds of your frustration, embarrassment, and maybe something else all rolling together.
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It’s Wednesday, and you’re feeling... strange. So, as a silent apology of sorts, you leave Seungkwan's parking spot open for him, not even pretending it’s not a deliberate move. And to make it worse (or better, depending on how you look at it), you stop by his favorite restaurant—thanks to a very begrudging Mingyu who’d been the one to tell you at 6 AM—and leave a packaged meal on his desk with a simple note: "i’m sorry."
By the time Seungkwan walks in, there’s a triumphant grin on his face and a coffee in hand. You don’t even have to look up to know what’s coming—he’s practically floating from the excitement of seeing his spot waiting for him.
As you stand to meet him, your fingers brush ever so gently when he hands you your order. It’s the smallest of touches, but for some reason, your pulse quickens.
"Thank you for the food," he says, his voice sounding strange—almost sincere, which isn’t like him at all. "But how did you know my favorite restaurant?"
You can’t help the smirk that stretches across your face.
"I have my ways," you reply, leaning in just a little, your voice cool and teasing as you echo his words back from Monday. The playfulness between the two of you feels oddly familiar, and for a moment, there’s something in his eyes—just a flicker—that catches you off guard. But you shove it down before it can fully register.
Seungkwan arches an eyebrow, lips curling into that mischievous smile of his, but before he can say anything, you already know what comes next: more teasing, more playful bickering. It’s almost comfortable, like this entire fake-dating charade is starting to blur the line between what’s real and what’s not.
But the strangest thing of all is the way your heart is beating a little faster than it should.
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You don’t know why you’re bothered. You can’t even really pinpoint the reason why, but when you walk past Seungkwan’s desk and see him sitting there, earbuds in, his face subtly twitching in response to a few of your colleagues’ whispers, something inside you snaps. It’s not your usual reaction to the gossip at work—it’s the way he seems oblivious to the hurt he's trying to hide, like he’s expecting it. Your mind races as you overhear them, the words sticking to you like bitter honey:
“Seungkwan’s just a joke with the dating thing. You can tell he’s not even on the same level as her,” Kevin’s voice rings out, “I mean, she’s crushing it, and look at him. He’s just... there.”
“He’s lucky she even pays attention to him,” Juyeon adds with a snide laugh.
And that’s when your heart clenches, the sound of their voices mixing with the hurt look in Seungkwan’s eyes as he watches the screen, his posture slumping in a way that you’ve seen too many times to ignore.
You tell yourself you don’t care.
But you do.
And before you can stop yourself, you march toward his desk. Your palms are sweaty, but your resolve is steady, and when you reach his side, you throw your arms around him from behind, your body leaning into his warmth, your chin resting on his shoulder as if it’s the most natural thing in the world. You’re telling yourself it’s all just an act. Just a game. Fake dating, after all, is supposed to be easy.
But the feeling of his body stiffening under your arms, his breath catching, makes your stomach flip in a way you didn’t expect. You force yourself to smile, to say the words like they don’t matter.
"Hey love," you murmur, pressing a brief kiss to his cheek that feels far too real for what it is, "wanna get lunch?"
For a moment, Seungkwan just stares at you, dumbfounded. His eyes search yours as if trying to figure out whether this is part of the act or something more. You don’t give him a chance to answer. Instead, you interlace your fingers with his, pulling him to his feet and out of the seat, dragging him to the cafeteria without another word.
The air between you feels thick, but somehow, it doesn’t matter. You keep your grip on his hand as if it’s the only thing tethering you to reality. When you reach the lunch line, Seungkwan mumbles under his breath, his voice low but filled with something you can’t quite place.
“Thank you,” he says, and the words feel heavy, like they mean something far more profound than you expected.
You glance at him, trying to keep your face neutral. "Why do you put up with all this?" you ask, hoping to keep the conversation casual. But the question feels more vulnerable than you’d like.
He shrugs nonchalantly, though his gaze drops to the ground as he talks. "Come on, I get worse from you. I can handle a little shit talk from people who don’t know what they’re talking about.”
But something in his voice, something sharp and tired, makes your heart sink. The idea that you’ve made him feel like he’s “just there” rattles you. That you’ve unknowingly added to his burdens—because in this moment, it feels like you are the reason he’s doubting himself.
“Seungkwan, I didn’t mean—” you begin, but he cuts you off with a small, almost bitter smile.
"It’s fine," he murmurs, but there’s a flicker of something unsaid in his expression.
The rest of lunch is quieter than usual, and you both keep stealing glances at each other, unsure of what to say or how to fix the awkward tension that now lingers between you. When the two of you return to your desks, you half-expect him to brush it off and act like nothing happened, but instead, Seungkwan shows up at your desk after lunch, and for a moment, you think maybe he’s just here to grab something he left behind. But when he looks at you, his gaze softens.
"I’m sorry,” he says, looking almost... shy? “I didn’t mean to make you feel bad about the way I said that. I know you don’t... mean to be like that."
You swallow hard, feeling your heart twist, guilt and frustration building in your chest. “No, I... I shouldn’t have said anything either. I’m sorry, Seungkwan."
His eyes flicker, like he’s trying to read you, but then he cracks a smile. "Maybe we both just suck at this fake-dating thing."
It’s a lame attempt at humor, but it works. The tension lifts slightly, though the understanding between you two is still fragile. You force a chuckle, then give him a genuine, if a little uneasy, smile.
And just like that, the awkwardness starts to dissipate.
For now, anyway.
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Thursday starts off strangely, though you try not to dwell on it. When you pull into the parking lot, The Spot is open for the first time in weeks. It takes you a second to process the empty space, the absence of Seungkwan's familiar car parked a few rows back.
The sight feels...off.
Your first thought is that maybe he’s running late, but a quick glance at the clock tells you that’s impossible. Seungkwan is never late. Your second thought—that maybe he’s working from home—is more logical, but it doesn’t explain the odd pang of disappointment settling in your chest.
It’s fine. Better, even. You’re busy enough today that you don’t need to see his smug smile or deal with the inevitable teasing that comes with it. Besides, tonight is the gala. He’ll show up there, looking sharp and polished, and you’ll do what you’ve been doing for weeks: play the part.
So why does the thought of not seeing him today feel heavier than it should?
You brush it off as you head into the building, but the feeling lingers. Your desk is bare when you get there—no coffee, no scrawled Post-it, no familiar, cocky energy waiting for you to roll your eyes at. You should feel relief.
Instead, it throws your whole morning off.
By the time you find yourself in the breakroom around noon, your nerves feel frayed. Deadlines loom over your head, your inbox is exploding, and now Soonyoung and Seokmin are leaning against the counter, watching you like hawks with identical grins.
“Excited for tonight?” Seokmin asks, his voice far too cheerful as he tears into a granola bar.
You glance at him, eyebrows raised. “What do you think?”
“I think,” Soonyoung interrupts before Seokmin can respond, “that you’ve been pretending not to care, but you’re actually super nervous about walking into that gala with Seungkwan.”
“I’m not nervous,” you snap, reaching for the coffee pot.
“Sure,” Seokmin says, his tone dripping with skepticism. “You’re totally calm. That’s why you’ve been fidgeting with your bracelet for the past five minutes.”
Your hand freezes, and you glance down to see your fingers toying absently with the charm on your bracelet. With a muttered curse, you reach for a mug instead, but the damage is already done.
Soonyoung smirks. “Uh-huh. Definitely not nervous.”
“I’m not,” you insist, pouring your coffee with more force than necessary.
“Then what’s with the bracelet?” Seokmin presses, grinning like he knows he’s got you cornered.
You glare at him over your shoulder. “Maybe I just like the bracelet, Seokmin. Ever think of that?”
“Or maybe,” Soonyoung drawls, dragging the words out obnoxiously, “you’re thinking about what it’s gonna be like to walk into that ballroom tonight on Seungkwan’s arm.”
Your hand twitches, spilling coffee onto the counter.
“Oh my god,” you groan, grabbing a napkin and swiping at the mess.
Soonyoung clutches his chest dramatically. “You didn’t deny it.”
“There’s nothing to deny!”
Seokmin snickers. “You’re deflecting.”
“I’m ignoring you,” you correct, tossing the soaked napkin into the trash.
“You can’t ignore the truth!” Soonyoung declares, his grin practically splitting his face. “Which is that you’re gonna show up tonight in a dress that perfectly matches Seungkwan’s tie and pretend it’s all part of the act while secretly—”
“Soonyoung,” you interrupt sharply, narrowing your eyes.
“—you’re freaking out inside about how good he’s gonna look and how everyone’s gonna think you’re in love.”
“Why are you like this?” you demand, though the question is more rhetorical than anything.
“Because it’s fun,” Seokmin answers, popping the last bite of his granola bar into his mouth. “And because you’re so easy to tease when it comes to Seungkwan.”
You open your mouth to retort, but the words die on your tongue because the worst part—the absolute worst part—is that they’re not entirely wrong.
There is a part of you that’s been overthinking the gala all morning. Not because you’re nervous about the event itself, but because you’re nervous about him. About standing next to him in front of your colleagues. About the way he might look at you or the way his hand might rest on your back.
And more than that, you’re nervous about the way you’ll feel when it happens.
It’s a ridiculous thought. Seungkwan is your coworker. Your fake boyfriend. This whole thing is a game, a ploy to one-up Aera and Ayoung and win a stupid bet.
So why does the idea of walking into that ballroom with him make your heart race?
Why does it feel like it’s so much more than a game?
The rest of the day drags, your thoughts drifting back to the gala at every lull in the chaos of work. The deadlines on your desk pile higher, emails flood in, and the occasional, overly cheerful colleague stops by to remind you how "exciting" tonight is going to be.
But despite the busy afternoon, a strange mix of nervous energy and anticipation hums beneath it all. It’s not just about the event—the polished speeches, the endless string of handshakes, the clinking of champagne glasses. No, it’s about Seungkwan. About the act you’re supposed to put on together.
The hours pass in a blur of half-checked boxes and unfinished tasks. By the time you leave the office, you’re still not sure if you’ve made peace with the fact that you’re about to spend the evening glued to his side, pretending to be something you’re not.
You have just enough time to run home, change into your dress, and try to will away the nerves that have been simmering since this morning. Standing in front of your mirror, you adjust the midnight-blue fabric, smoothing it over your hips and fiddling with the clasp on your bracelet.
It’s just a gala, you tell yourself, reaching for your earrings. Just a few hours of small talk and pretending. You’ve done harder things.
But even as you head out the door, slipping into the backseat of the rideshare that will take you to the venue, you can’t quite shake the nagging thought in the back of your mind:
What if tonight doesn’t feel like pretending at all?
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You spot Seungkwan waiting near the entrance to the ballroom, standing under the warm glow of the overhead sconces. He’s turned slightly away, scrolling idly on his phone, but it doesn’t take long for him to notice you. The moment his eyes land on you, they widen, the barest flicker of surprise crossing his face before he schools it into something more composed—almost indifferent.
Despite the tension simmering between you lately, you can’t help but take him in. The tailored fit of his suit accentuates his broad shoulders and sharp lines, and the midnight-blue tie—perfectly matched to your dress. The soft lighting catches on the neatly styled strands of his hair, and there’s a certain glow about him tonight that makes your heart stumble, just a little.
Focus, you scold yourself. It’s just Seungkwan. The guy who stole your parking spot. The guy who bickers with you more often than not. This is just one night, and then it’s over. Your hands smooth over the silk of your dress as you approach, brushing at imaginary lint to keep them from trembling.
Seungkwan, however, makes no attempt to disguise his once-over. His eyes drag down your figure with slow, deliberate appraisal before returning to meet your gaze. The faintest hint of a smirk twitches at the corner of his mouth, but you notice the way his Adam’s apple bobs as he swallows.
“What?” you ask, crossing your arms and raising a brow.
“Nothing,” he replies too quickly, glancing away. But his ears are tinged red, and when you prod again, leaning in just slightly to make him squirm, he mutters under his breath, “You clean up nice.”
For a second, you’re too stunned to respond. The casual compliment feels out of character, as if it slipped out before he could stop himself.
“And here I thought you’d be grumpy all night,” you say, masking your unease with an easy tease.
“Don’t get used to it,” he shoots back, though there’s no real bite to his tone. With a quiet sigh, he offers you his arm, holding it out stiffly as though unsure of himself.
Your breath catches for just a moment before you loop your arm through his, hoping he doesn’t notice the slight tremble in your fingers. The fabric of his suit is smooth and cool against your skin, and he adjusts his grip just slightly, settling his hand more securely over yours.
“Let’s get this over with,” you mumble, though you can’t bring yourself to meet his gaze.
“Right,” he agrees softly, leading you toward the grand doors. The quiet confidence in his step only makes your own nerves worse, and you wonder—just for a fleeting moment—if he feels it too.
The hotel’s ballroom is a picture of opulence, every detail polished to perfection. Warm golden light spills from the glittering chandeliers above, catching on the beveled edges of crystal glasses and the smooth, glossy surface of the checkered marble floor. White-draped tables line the room, adorned with centerpieces of fresh flowers and flickering candles. A string quartet plays softly in the corner, their music weaving through the gentle hum of conversation.
You barely have a chance to take it all in before the heat of Seungkwan’s arm against yours pulls your focus back. He stands tall beside you, his midnight-blue tie gleaming under the lights. You try not to fidget, but every time your gaze flickers to him, the quiet confidence in his expression sets your nerves on edge.
It’s just one night, you remind yourself, willing your feet to move forward. One night, and then it’s over.
The crowd shifts as you both step into the room, and you catch Aera and Ayoung’s gazes almost immediately. They’re standing near the champagne table, flutes in hand, their heads inclined toward each other in hushed conversation. The moment they spot you, their eyes widen, gliding from you to Seungkwan, then back again. Aera’s expression twists into something sharp and incredulous, while Ayoung’s lips curve into a smug smirk.
“Looks like we’re already the talk of the town,” Seungkwan murmurs, leaning slightly toward you. His breath brushes your ear, sending a shiver down your spine that you chalk up to irritation.
“Good,” you manage to say, lifting your chin. “Let’s give them something to really talk about.”
You’re not sure where the confidence comes from, but it carries you forward, your heels clicking against the marble as you walk with Seungkwan through the crowd. You can feel Aera’s glare burning into your back, but you keep your head high, your grip on Seungkwan’s arm tightening just slightly.
From across the room, you hear it before you see them—peals of laughter that could only belong to Seokmin and Soonyoung. You glance in their direction and find them stationed at one of the tables, grinning like giddy schoolchildren as they nudge each other and whisper conspiratorially. Seokmin pretends to hide his face behind his hand, but his eyes gleam with amusement, while Soonyoung practically bounces in his chair, barely able to contain his excitement.
“Subtle,” you mutter under your breath, though you can’t help the way your lips twitch upward.
Seungkwan notices too, his eyes narrowing slightly. “They’re enjoying this way too much.”
“Can you blame them?” you ask, finally letting a wry smile slip through. “We’re a spectacle.”
He huffs a laugh, shaking his head, but when you glance up at him, there’s a softness in his gaze that wasn’t there before. You quickly look away, pretending to adjust the bracelet on your wrist.
As you move further into the ballroom, you catch snippets of conversations trailing off, eyes lingering just a second too long on you and Seungkwan. The tension in the room feels palpable, but Seungkwan doesn’t falter. He keeps his pace steady, his arm firm and reassuring beneath your touch.
And for a brief moment, as you glide through the glittering sea of people, you almost forget that this is all an act.
The ballroom is a haze of chandeliers, polished floors, and conversations that hum like a soft undercurrent beneath the music. You move through it all hyperaware of Seungkwan at your side, the faintest brush of his presence grounding and unsteadying you all at once.
He’s good at this, you realize. At shaking hands, sharing effortless smiles, and exchanging pleasantries that seem to charm everyone in his orbit. You try to focus on your own small talk, but it’s nearly impossible not to notice the way his hand occasionally drifts to the small of your back, guiding you subtly through the crowd. It’s light—barely there—but every time his palm presses gently against you, warmth blooms, spreading like ripples in a still pond.
You try not to overthink it. It’s probably all for show, you tell yourself. Just part of the act.
Except…why does he keep glancing at you? After every joke he tosses into the conversation, his eyes flit to yours, watching for your reaction. When you laugh, his smile softens, almost imperceptibly, and when you don’t, his brow furrows for the briefest moment before he’s cracking another.
“Can we help you?” you mutter when Seokmin and Soonyoung sidle up to you for the third time that evening, their grins almost too wide.
“Nope,” Soonyoung says, popping the ‘p’ with dramatic flair.
“We’re just here for the show,” Seokmin adds, barely holding back his snicker.
“Go away,” you hiss, stepping closer to Seungkwan as if that will somehow shield you from their relentless teasing.
Instead of leaving, they both wiggle their eyebrows at you, making exaggerated faces every time you shift a little closer to him—whether intentionally or not. At one point, Seokmin mimes taking a picture with his imaginary camera, pretending to swoon like a tabloid photographer.
“Do you need something?” Seungkwan asks dryly, not even sparing them a glance as he sips his champagne.
“Just enjoying the chemistry,” Soonyoung says, grinning.
“I hate both of you,” you say, shoving past them and pulling Seungkwan with you, his laughter trailing behind you as you march toward the buffet table.
As the night wears on, the hyperawareness doesn’t fade. If anything, it grows sharper. You catch yourself leaning into him, just slightly, when he speaks to you. His scent—something warm and clean—lingers in the air, familiar yet distracting. And though you do your best to stay detached, your stomach flips every time he turns to you, his expression softer than you expect.
It’s just one night, you remind yourself. One night, and then it’s over.
But when Seungkwan tilts his head to meet your gaze, a flicker of something unspoken in his eyes, you wonder if he feels it too.
The conversation with the vice president of finance hits like a brick wall. You had hoped for the night to pass without any more uncomfortable moments, but here it is. The older man comes over with a knowing grin, his eyes flicking between you and Seungkwan. His voice is smooth, polished—like he’s done this kind of thing a hundred times before. “Wishing you both all the best,” he says with a wink, his smile stretching into something almost too warm.
Then, as if to solidify the moment, he adds, “I found my wife at work too. It’s always the best kind of relationship, don’t you think?”
Before you can even react, Seungkwan steps in, his hand tightening imperceptibly around your waist, his grip firm, possessive. He plays along with ease, a smile tugging at his lips. “We do make a lovely couple,” he says, the words slipping out with the same smooth confidence he uses to charm everyone around him.
And just like that, your knees almost give out. You swallow the lump in your throat, trying to cling to any sense of composure, but it’s hard. His voice sounds like it’s meant for someone else. You glance up at him, searching for some sign that he’s only pretending, but his eyes are warm, and it makes your stomach churn. This is too much.
The moment lingers, stretching long and painfully until the vice president finally moves on, leaving you standing there with Seungkwan’s hand still resting on your waist. You feel the heat of his touch, the weight of the promise in his words. And yet, something inside you begins to twist, and you can't quite shake the feeling that this isn’t all a game anymore.
When the quartet begins to play a slow, lilting melody, you feel a wave of dread wash over you. Couples start gravitating toward the dance floor, moving in soft, synchronized sways. You think you’re safe until you notice Soonyoung and Seokmin’s scheming grins out of the corner of your eye.
“Oh, no,” you mutter under your breath, but it’s too late.
“You two,” Soonyoung grins, his eyes gleaming with mischief. “Get out there. Show us how it’s done.”
You freeze, the world tilting on its axis for a moment. You don’t want to dance. You don’t know how to dance. And you certainly don’t want to do it with Seungkwan, not like this. But when you glance over at him, you see the faintest edge of a smile on his lips—like he’s enjoying this far too much.
With a few unsubtle nudges and a downright shove from Soonyoung, you find yourself standing under the ballroom lights, facing Seungkwan. He doesn’t even blink, just steps forward and guides your hands to his shoulders as though this is all perfectly normal. His hands settle on your hips, light but steady, and the contact sends a shiver through you.
“You look like you’re going to bolt,” he murmurs, leaning in just enough that only you can hear. “Relax. Aera and Ayoung are still watching.”
You force a smile, more for their benefit than his, and try to focus on the music. But it’s no use. Every part of this feels overwhelming—the way his hands feel solid against you, the way he moves with a calm confidence you didn’t know he had, the way his gaze flickers to your lips for the briefest moment before snapping back up.
The worst part? You’re not sure what’s fake and what isn’t.
You take a shallow breath, your heart racing as the music swells around you, and everything about the night begins to feel too real. Too intense. The way Seungkwan holds you so effortlessly, the way his chest presses against yours, his gaze lingering on you like it means something.
This isn’t just pretend anymore. This isn’t just a game. You feel like you’re drowning in the pretense, in the slow slide of his body against yours, the fake smiles, the promises of weddings that don’t belong to either of you. You don’t know why it feels like this—like a knot is tightening in your chest with every beat of the music, every moment that stretches longer than you can bear.
You can’t breathe.
It’s too much. The weight of it, the weight of him. His hands on your body, on your waist, intertwined with yours. The tension that thrums between you both is too real, and suddenly, you can’t stand it anymore.
You pull back abruptly, the movement so sudden it startles him.
“I need to go,” you blurt, the words tumbling out before you can stop them.
Without waiting for a response, you pull away from him, feeling his grip loosen as you shove past Seokmin and Soonyoung, who both watch you with surprised eyes. You don’t care. You don’t care that they’re probably confused, or that Seungkwan is still standing there on the dancefloor, looking as though he’s been left behind.
You don’t care about anything but getting away, away from him, away from this night that feels too heavy to carry. You push through the crowd, your pulse thundering in your ears, desperate to escape the world Seungkwan has created tonight—one where every smile feels like a lie, and every touch leaves you questioning everything.
Why did it feel like something more? Why does he feel like something more?
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The hallway is cold, and the echoes of the ballroom seem a world away as you stand there, breathing in shallow gasps. You don’t know what you expected when you fled—maybe a bit of space to clear your head, a few moments of peace to sort through the mess in your chest. But then Seungkwan appears, footsteps rapid and sharp against the marble floor, and you brace yourself for whatever this is.
He stops in front of you, his eyes softening, a look of concern on his face. “You broke the contract,” he says, his voice low but playful. “You’re supposed to act like a couple in front of Aera and Ayoung.”
You should’ve expected it. Of course it’s just a game to him. Of course he doesn’t feel anything real. You press your lips together, the taste of bile rising in your throat. The way his words spill out with that same teasing tone, like it’s no big deal—that’s when it really hits you. None of this matters to him.
Your heart tightens, and you open your mouth to say something, anything, but it feels like the words are stuck in your throat, a knot you can’t untie. The silence stretches between you, thick and suffocating, until you finally spit out, “Fuck you, Seungkwan.”
His expression falters, eyes flashing with something like hurt or maybe frustration, but it doesn’t matter. You just want him to shut up, to stop saying the things that twist in your chest.
“What the hell?” His voice is sharp, defensive. “What’s your problem now? I’m just trying to make sure you’re not freaking out in front of them!”
“No,” you snap, your words slipping out before you can stop them. “I’m freaking out because you keep acting like it’s nothing—like it’s all just a damn game.” You’re pacing now, turning away from him, too afraid to face him. “And it’s not just a game, Seungkwan. But you don’t care. Of course you don’t care.”
Seungkwan’s voice is louder now, rising to match your anger. “Don’t you dare say that—”
“Why shouldn’t I?” you spit, your frustration spilling over. “You’ve been treating me like this whole thing is some kind of joke. Do you think I don’t see it? You think I don’t feel it?”
“You think I’m playing games?!” he practically shouts, his voice breaking through your thoughts. “What do you want me to say, huh? What do you want me to do?”
“I don’t know!” The words burst out in a rush, too loud and too raw. “I don’t know what I want! But I sure as hell don’t want this. Don’t want you acting like I’m nothing but some stupid... some stupid game to win! And—”
Your throat tightens. It’s too much. The pain, the frustration, the confusion. The way your heart keeps aching, wanting something that shouldn’t be there. You can’t breathe right, and suddenly, your eyes sting with tears that you didn’t want to shed.
Before you can stop it, you spin to leave, your chest heaving, your hands trembling. You can’t be here anymore. You can’t do this.
But then, just as you take a step, his hand shoots out, grabbing your wrist gently but firmly.
“Don’t go,” Seungkwan murmurs, his voice softer now, and it’s the quietness of it that makes everything inside you snap.
In an instant, you turn back toward him, your body moving without thinking, driven by something primal, something that burns too hot to ignore. You don't care anymore, not about the rules or the reasons you were running or how much you've lied to yourself. Your lips crash into his, desperate and hungry, a sudden, violent collision of need and want. It’s rough, urgent, a complete collapse of all the control you’ve tried so desperately to hold onto.
His lips are warm, soft at first, but there’s no hesitation after that. It deepens in an instant, and you can feel him pushing you back, pressing you against the cold, hard wall. His body presses into yours, all sharp lines and heat, every inch of him a reminder that you’ve wanted this more than you’re willing to admit. You clutch his tie, your fingers knotting into the fabric, pulling him closer, deeper, like it’s not enough. His hands slide up the wall, bracing himself above your head, as if he needs that support to hold himself together too. But you’re too tangled in this moment, too consumed by the feel of him, the way his lips move against yours, the way his breath catches with every shift of his mouth.
His hands find their way to your body, his fingers grazing your hips, and you shudder, the friction between you both igniting something wild inside you. You kiss him back fiercely, and it feels like everything in the world has narrowed down to this singular moment. You don’t know if this is real or if it’s just your mind tricking you into believing it’s more than it is. But you feel it—how right it feels to be tangled up with him, how everything else outside of this space fades away.
His body presses harder, his chest against yours, his warmth seeping into you, filling the cracks where your control once was. You’re dizzy with the intensity of it, a rush of emotions crashing through you, and the silence between kisses becomes unbearable. Your breath is ragged, your heart pounding in your chest as if it’s trying to escape, to be closer to him. And every time you feel him pull away, even just a little, you’re pulling him back, chasing that connection that’s too elusive to hold.
It feels like the world is spinning too fast, and you’re holding onto him, to this fleeting moment, hoping that maybe it won’t slip away. But it does—it always does.
You press harder into him, your hands trembling as they slide up his shirt, feeling the heat of his skin beneath your fingers. It’s almost too much, like you’re consuming each other, but you can’t stop. You don’t want to stop.
But then the air feels heavier, and the ache in your chest intensifies. This is wrong, it has to be. His mouth against yours, his body holding you so tightly—it’s all too much, and yet you’re still starved for more. You feel like you’re drowning, and yet you don’t know how to pull away, how to breathe again without the taste of him on your lips.
You break the kiss suddenly, gasping for air, your chest rising and falling with desperation, as if the only thing you need in that moment is to breathe and be closer to him. But you know better. You remember. You have to remember.
And just like that, the realization comes crashing down, shattering everything inside you. It’s all just a game for him. It always was. You turn away, stumbling back, your body trembling as you try to steady yourself, your hands shaking uncontrollably.
“No.” You gasp, heart hammering painfully in your chest. You can’t stay here. You can’t let him see how much he’s breaking you right now.
Before he can say anything, before he can try to reach for you, you turn on your heel and run. You don’t look back, even when your chest aches and your throat burns, because you know that if you do, you’ll see something you can’t unsee.
And you’re too afraid that the feeling you’ve just experienced—that feeling of being whole, of being wanted—is the very thing that’ll make you lose yourself completely.
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That night, as the doorbell rings, you know exactly who it is before you even get up. You don’t even have the strength to ask them to leave—Seokmin and Soonyoung just know. They always do.
Seokmin's already cracking open a pint of Ben & Jerry's before you've even had the chance to process their arrival, his voice light but knowing, as if they’ve been waiting for the moment to show up at your door. And it’s not long before they’re seated on the couch beside you, Soonyoung's knowing look cutting right through you as he silently opens the second pint, passing it to you without a word.
You don’t have the heart to ask about Seungkwan. You’re terrified of hearing it, terrified of what they’ll say. You don’t want to know if he’s going to shrug it off, or worse, if he’s forgotten about you already.
Instead, you spend the next few hours in silence, the three of you settled into the couch, alternating between the steady flow of ice cream and shitty romcoms on TV. The sound of laughter and melodramatic dialogue fills the space, but you barely hear it. Every now and then, a sob shakes through you, and you absently grab Soonyoung’s suit jacket, wiping your face on it like some pathetic kid trying to hide from the world.
It’s not a game anymore, you think. But your mind keeps circling back, again and again, and your heart clenches painfully.
You find yourself sniffling during a commercial break, and before you know it, your voice cracks as you whisper into Seokmin’s shoulder, your words barely audible through the tears. “It’s not a game anymore,” you whimper, your chest tight with emotion, a hollow ache you can't seem to fill. “Not to me.”
Seokmin pats your head gently, his hand warm and comforting on your hair, and you can feel him press his cheek against your head in an unspoken gesture of reassurance. Soonyoung doesn’t say anything but looks at you sadly from his spot on your lap, his eyes soft with understanding, but he knows better than to push.
But then Seokmin speaks, his voice quiet, so gentle you almost miss it. “Was it ever?” he asks, the question hanging in the air, a quiet truth you didn’t want to acknowledge.
You don’t answer. Because you know the answer. You’ve known it all along, even when you were pretending not to. The truth is louder than the silence between the three of you, but you’re not ready to face it.
And so, instead of answering, you bury your face further into Seokmin’s shoulder, fighting the tears that never seem to stop. The answer is clear, but you can’t find the words to say it.
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Friday feels like the weight of the week is catching up with you, every inch of your body refusing to move as you sit at your desk, staring blankly at the screen. You’ve worked from home plenty of times before, but today? Today, it feels different. The silence is too loud, too consuming, and you can't escape it, not even in the safety of your own apartment. Your phone buzzes incessantly in the corner of your desk, each ping making your chest tighten just a little more. You know it’s him. Seungkwan. You know because his name flashes on your screen, and every time, you hesitate before swiping it away, like a coward.
You don’t want to hear it, not today. Not when everything feels so broken.
But when the photo comes in—a simple picture of your coffee order, just sitting there on your desk with nothing but a blank post-it note next to it—you can feel the tears already threatening to break free. The coffee’s steaming, just the way you like it, but the note’s blank, empty. There’s nothing there. Just silence.
It’s too much.
You let out a strangled sob, your hand shaking as you clutch your phone. Your throat tightens as you struggle to breathe, the weight of everything crashing down on you all at once. You curl up at your desk, tears falling in heavy waves as you finally allow yourself to break. The floodgates that you’ve kept tightly shut the past few days burst wide open, and you can’t stop it. Can’t stop the sobs that wrack through you, shaking you to your core.
You’re not ready to face this. Not ready to admit what’s happening inside of you. You just want it to stop. To go back to before everything got complicated. Before you let yourself feel anything for him.
You don't even bother to wipe your tears away, don’t bother trying to pull yourself together. You don’t even go to Seokmin’s tonight for your weekly ritual. The usual distraction, the routine that’s always been your safe space, feels miles away now.
Instead, you pull the blanket tighter around you, the emptiness of the apartment matching the emptiness you feel inside. You bury yourself in it.
And you let the tears come.
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The smell of Seokmin’s cooking wafts into the living room as he sets up the kitchen, making his usual chaotic symphony of clattering pans and sizzling ingredients. He’s persistent, like always, so you know there’s no way you’re getting out of this. He’s here to cook, and more importantly, to drag you back from the spiral you’ve fallen into.
You don’t say anything when he hands you the bowl of food. You just sit down at the kitchen table, quietly shoveling the food into your mouth. It tastes good, as always, but it doesn’t reach you. Not the way it should.
The silence stretches between you two as you chew, the clinking of your utensils the only sound in the room. Seokmin isn’t going to let it slide, though. He’s far too persistent to let you wallow in quiet.
“So,” he starts, his voice quiet but pointed, “what happened?”
You don’t answer immediately, and it’s not because you don’t want to—no, it’s because you’re not sure where to start. Do you tell him the truth? That you let your feelings get tangled up in a game, that Seungkwan tricked you into thinking it meant something more than it was?
But when you look up, you meet Seokmin’s eyes, and for some reason, you just... let it spill.
“I kissed him,” you say, voice small. The words feel like a confession you weren’t ready to make.
Seokmin’s brows furrow slightly, but he doesn’t push. He just asks, “But that’s a good thing, right?”
You snort, bitter and frustrated. “Seokmin, it was all just a game to him.”
The words hang there, sharp in the quiet kitchen air. Seokmin pauses, setting his fork down before speaking again. “Did he tell you that?”
You shake your head. “No, but he doesn’t need to. He kept bringing up the contract.” 
Seokmin’s eyes narrow in frustration, but there’s a softness in them too. “Y/N…”
“Don’t,” you mutter, the emotion welling up again in your chest. “I’m done. I’m tired of this, Seokmin. It was never real for him, and it’s too real for me now. I can’t keep pretending.”
You can’t even look him in the eye now, your gaze turning to the table as your hands clutch the bowl. Seokmin stays quiet, letting you speak, but you can feel the weight of his disappointment. It doesn’t make you feel better, but at least you’re not holding it all in.
“What are you going to do on Monday? You have to present together.” Seokmin says, his voice light but his eyes serious.
The question hits you like a punch to the gut. You’ve been avoiding thinking about that. Of course, Monday will come, and you’ll have to face Seungkwan again.
“I’ll ignore him,” you reply, voice almost robotic.
Seokmin raises an eyebrow. “Let me repeat: you have to PRESENT. TOGETHER.” He emphasizes the word ‘together,’ and you can feel the weight of it pressing down on you. “Emphasis on TOGETHER.”
You just stare at your food, not knowing what to say. Your heart is heavy, your thoughts racing.
“Seokmin, I’m tired of this,” you whisper, the words barely escaping your lips. “I’m done. Aera and Ayoung can go fuck themselves, but I’m not playing this game anymore.”
Seokmin doesn’t say anything for a while. You hear him sigh, and when you look up, his face is softer. “If you say so.”
You want to argue, to tell him that it’s easier said than done, but instead, you just slump back into your chair, letting the silence fill the space again. He doesn’t push you further, just lets you stew in your emotions, knowing that you’ll need time. You’re not ready to face Monday, not ready to stand side by side with Seungkwan, pretending like none of this ever happened. But there’s no escaping it. And you’ll have to deal with it soon enough.
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Monday morning is a punch to the gut.
You arrive at work, feeling the weight of the weekend's fallout heavy in your chest. The first thing you notice when you pull into the parking lot is that there’s no coffee waiting for you on your desk. The usual sign of Seungkwan’s presence, of him thinking of you in the mornings, is missing. It's a stupid thing to feel the absence of, but it cuts deeper than you'd like to admit.
You walk into the office, feeling all the eyes on you. It’s not even 9 AM, and you already know today is going to drag. You get to your desk, and before you can even sit down, Aera and Ayoung are already on you, their faces lit up with exaggerated curiosity.
"Hey, Y/N," Aera says, eyes flicking to the empty space where the coffee should have been. "Where’s your coffee today? You and Seungkwan usually have that whole ‘he brings your coffee’ thing down to a science. What’s up? You two not sharing that routine anymore?"
Ayoung giggles, and you feel the irritation bubbling up before you can stop it. You’ve had enough of this.
You slam your bag down on your desk, not bothering to hide the exhaustion in your voice. "We broke up. Now get out of my face so I can work."
The words hit the air like a slap, and for a moment, the office is completely silent. Aera’s mouth falls open slightly, her eyes wide in surprise, but you can’t bring yourself to care. Ayoung just blinks, taken aback, but she says nothing more, her usual snark suddenly gone.
You don’t give them a chance to respond. You turn away from them, sitting at your desk, hands shaking slightly as you pull up your emails. You can hear their retreating footsteps, but you don’t bother looking up. You don’t care. It’s easier to just ignore them and dive into your work, focusing on the tasks in front of you.
But it doesn’t stop there. As much as you try to bury yourself in your screen, the emptiness of Seungkwan’s absence—his lack of coffee, the parking spot that you still take for granted—gnaws at you. You tell yourself that it’s for the best, that the game is over. But that doesn’t make it hurt any less.
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The presentation room feels suffocating.
You stand at the front, flipping through slides, forcing your gaze to stay focused on the KPIs and metrics on the screen. The numbers are safe, the charts impersonal. You can talk about this with your eyes closed, but it feels like everything else in the room is conspiring against you.
Seungkwan, of course, keeps trying to catch your eye. Every time you glance in his direction—brief, fleeting—you see the way his expression tightens, the worry flickering in his eyes. You’re not sure if it's pity or concern, and frankly, you don’t care. You’ve worked hard to bury whatever feelings were there, and you’re not about to let him dig them up in front of a room full of people.
You force yourself to talk about the numbers. KPIs, data points, project metrics. Anything to avoid looking at him. You can feel Soonyoung and Seokmin watching you a little too intently, their eyes sharp with something unspoken. It makes your words stutter, your confidence falter just a little, but you push through, unwilling to show any weakness.
But then an executive asks if you're okay, and the words catch you off guard. You can’t help it—you glance over at Seungkwan. Just for a second. Long enough for him to notice, long enough for him to give you that look. The one you’ve been avoiding.
"I'm fine, thanks," you manage to say, voice steady despite the way your heart is hammering in your chest. You look back at the screen, not daring to meet anyone’s gaze. You try to ignore the weight of his concern, the way it lingers like a weight in the air.
The meeting eventually wraps up, and as everyone files out, Seungkwan steps towards you, his arm reaching out. You feel the familiar tug of his presence, the warmth of his hand inches away from your sleeve.
But you don’t want to feel it. You don’t want to deal with it.
You shrug him off, murmuring something about deadlines and reports that need to be finished. The words come out harsh and clipped, almost too much so, but you don’t care. You can feel the tension hanging between you like a storm cloud, but you don’t want to be near him right now. Not with everything still so raw.
You don’t wait for a response, just turn and walk toward your desk, not daring to look back.
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You thought it would be easy to avoid Seungkwan. After all, it's just a matter of keeping your distance, staying busy, and letting the work pile up in a way that leaves no room for him to worm his way back into your head. You’ve been doing it for hours, and so far, it’s working.
Three hours, at least.
Seokmin and Soonyoung have been your perfect distractions, filling your day with so much nonsense that you barely have time to breathe, let alone think about Seungkwan and the mess you’ve somehow ended up in.
It started in the break room, just after the meeting. You’d been trying to sneak in a coffee, hoping it might calm the jittery feeling that’s been buzzing through you since you saw Seungkwan's hand reach for yours. But, of course, Soonyoung and Seokmin cornered you before you could even take a sip.
"Y/N, I need your opinion on something," Soonyoung had started, with that grin of his, the one that always spells trouble.
You narrowed your eyes, suspicious. "What now?"
Seokmin leaned in like they were about to discuss state secrets, whispering in a conspiratorial tone, "Soonyoung here is convinced he’s a professional ice cream taster. He wants to know if he should add ‘Certified Expert’ to his resume."
You rolled your eyes, but Soonyoung was undeterred, holding up a pint of Ben & Jerry’s with a flourish. "Can’t you see the wisdom in my plan? Who wouldn’t hire a man who knows his way around a pint of Cookie Dough?"
You snorted, shaking your head. "You’re ridiculous. But go ahead, waste your time on that. I’m trying to focus."
But no, they weren’t letting you go that easily. Seokmin started cracking jokes, distracting you with all the random things he’d overheard in the office. "Did you know that Ayoung is secretly obsessed with ‘90s boy bands? I walked in on her humming ‘I Want It That Way’ this morning, and I’m still recovering."
And Soonyoung, ever the instigator, added with a wink, "I also caught her in the hallway talking about getting a matching tattoo with Aera. Of a tiny cupcake. What do you think? The whole office would get a kick out of that."
By then, you were laughing despite yourself, pushing down the tight feeling in your chest. It wasn’t that you didn’t want to laugh, it was just that... well, everything felt too complicated. Too much.
So, you let them pull you into their nonsense. They carried on for the next hour—Soonyoung performing some ridiculous impression of an old-timey detective, Seokmin explaining his absurd theory that paperclips are an ancient alien technology (you’re still not sure if he was serious)—until you forgot, for just a moment, about everything else. Even Seungkwan.
But of course, they weren’t done. When they saw that momentary crack in your armor, they pounced, practically dragging you into a brainstorming session for next week's office party theme. Soonyoung insisted on a 'Beach Party' theme even though there was no beach within a hundred miles of your office. Seokmin argued for a retro ‘80s prom, and then proceeded to pull out old high school yearbook photos of him in a neon green tuxedo for ‘inspiration.’ You were supposed to be working, but you couldn’t help but laugh at Seokmin trying to explain why the color combo was "unbeatable."
They kept going, laughing, cracking jokes, pulling your attention from the tight knot that had been steadily winding around your chest since you left the meeting. But you knew—knew—this distraction wasn’t going to last forever.
Eventually, reality would catch up, but for now, you let them drag you along with them. The idea of facing Seungkwan, of facing what had happened, felt like too much. So you pushed it down, buried it in the ridiculousness of the day.
For now, you thought, it was working. But you had a feeling the peace wouldn’t last long.
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It’s late, and you’re about to congratulate yourself on avoiding Seungkwan for the entire day as you open your car door. But of course, the universe has other plans for you. The sudden slam of the car door makes you jump, your hand still on the handle as you whip around to find Seungkwan standing there, his face set in that tight expression you know too well. The tension between you snaps, palpable in the cool evening air. His voice cuts through the silence, demanding, sharp.
"So this is how it's going to be?" he asks, the words heavy with frustration.
You freeze, your heart pounding in your chest. You were so sure you had made your escape. You had done everything you could today to keep him out of your head, to avoid this moment. Yet here he is, standing in front of you like an inevitable storm, his presence taking up the entire space between you.
You try to steady yourself, the tightness in your throat making it hard to speak. "I don’t know what you’re talking about," you manage, forcing the words out despite how small they sound against the tension hanging between you.
Seungkwan’s eyes narrow as if he’s reading you—really reading you, seeing right through the facade you’ve worked so hard to put on. "Don’t lie to me, Y/N. You’ve been avoiding me all day. It’s not just because of the work, is it? You’ve been avoiding me since... since the gala. Since everything."
You bite your lip, refusing to let the weight of his words sink in, but his voice keeps coming, a steady beat in your chest. “You think I’m just supposed to pretend everything’s fine after what happened?”
The words hit you like a slap, leaving a bitter taste on your tongue. You try to ignore the ache that stirs inside you at the mention of what happened—the kiss, the way it felt so real, so right, and yet so wrong. So much of a game. And now he’s standing here, throwing it all in your face.
"I don’t know what you expect from me, Seungkwan," you snap, unable to keep the edge from your voice. "But it’s over. I told you—I’m done."
Seungkwan’s jaw tightens, and he steps closer, his proximity making you instinctively want to step back. But you don’t. You won’t.
"Done?" he repeats, voice laced with disbelief. "Just like that? You think you can just walk away? You’re really going to pretend this—whatever this is—didn’t mean anything?"
You open your mouth to argue, but no words come out. It’s as if your body’s betraying you, locking you in this moment where nothing makes sense, where the anger you thought would fuel you evaporates the moment Seungkwan looks at you with that frustrated, helpless look in his eyes.
You hate that you care. You hate that, even now, a part of you wants to reach out and undo everything. To erase the distance, the silence, the walls you’ve built between the two of you. But you can’t.
“You always thought of it as a game, Seungkwan,” you snap, your voice a little too sharp for comfort, but it’s all you have to hold onto. The argument. The distance. The lie you’ve been clinging to.
He’s shaking his head before you even finish the sentence, a rawness in his expression you’ve never seen before. “It was never a game for me!” His words crash through the silence, leaving an echo that hangs in the air. It’s too much. Too loud.
And then, just like that, you’re back in that hallway, your heart pounding. The night air feels suffocating, and there’s a closeness between you two that should feel wrong, but it doesn’t. It feels right in the way his chest is rising and falling too quickly, in the way you can barely breathe without him being this close. Your breaths are shaky, uncertain.
“What was it then?” Your voice cracks as you ask, small and vulnerable, that gnawing fear in your chest almost swallowing you whole. You don’t want to know the answer, but you know you need to hear it.
His gaze drops, his voice softens, and it’s enough to make your stomach turn with something too familiar. “What do you think?” he whispers, just above a breath, his words more like a confession than a question.
The truth is right there, suspended between you two, but it feels like a lie at the same time. You try to push it down, try to control it, but the knot in your throat grows tighter. You’re not sure what’s worse—the silence, or the fact that you’re on the verge of hoping for something you shouldn’t.
His hand moves to your face, brushing your cheek, and you can feel the heat of his touch seeping into your skin like a live wire. “I kept the parking spot argument going because I knew it was the only excuse I had to talk to you,” he continues, his voice thick with something you can’t quite place. “You’re so smart. So beautiful. I knew you would never give me the time of day unless I made you.”
It hits you in waves, like the ground beneath you is shifting. You open your mouth to respond, to tell him that this is too much, too late, that he can’t just explain this all away—but he cuts you off, the urgency in his voice making you freeze.
“No, please. Let me finish.”
You swallow hard, the words stuck in your throat, but you stay silent, waiting for him to continue.
He steps closer, the air between you two crackling with every movement. His eyes are dark, intense, and you’re not sure if it’s fear or something else flickering behind them. “I couldn’t just let you go. I couldn’t. So I did what I had to do. I kept pushing you, testing you, because I couldn’t let you slip away.”
The honesty in his voice is like a punch to the gut. Every word seems to break down everything you thought you knew about this whole thing. You can’t speak. You’re drowning in it, caught between the words and the way he’s looking at you.
You want to run. You should run. But instead, you stay there, with his hands on you, his breath too close to yours, and the silence that threatens to drown you both.
The question slips out before you can stop it, your voice small and fragile in the heavy silence that’s settled between you two. It feels like everything is crashing down, the weight of it all pressing against your chest, but the curiosity burns through. You need to know.
"Why did you say yes? To the contract?" Your voice barely rises above a whisper, and you can’t help the way your breath catches in your throat, that desperate need to understand.
Seungkwan freezes, his hand still hovering just inches from your face, his eyes flickering with something unreadable. It’s like you’ve asked the question that’s been hanging in the air, unspoken, for far too long. And for a moment, it feels like the world is holding its breath, waiting for him to answer.
He looks away, his eyes darting to the ground as if the answer isn’t something he can say out loud. His lips part, but no words come out. He takes a breath, almost like he’s bracing himself for what he’s about to admit. And then, slowly, the words slip out, ragged and raw.
“Because I didn’t know how else to get close to you.” His voice trembles slightly, but the honesty in it cuts through you, sharp and real. “I didn’t know how else to make you notice me.”
He runs a hand through his hair, his frustration evident. “I was tired of standing in the background, watching you with everyone else, wanting to be more than just... the guy who argues with you about parking spots or steals your coffee.”
There’s a bitter chuckle, half empty, half ashamed, and it almost breaks you. He doesn’t look at you now, but his words hang in the air between you like a weight that neither of you can lift.
“I thought if I had a reason, an excuse, maybe... maybe I could make you see me. See us." He finally glances back up, his gaze soft, too soft for the harshness of his confession. “And I was wrong, okay? I was wrong to use you like that.”
The silence after his words is deafening. Every piece of you wants to scream, to shout at him for what he’s done, for the way he played with your heart like it was a game. But you can’t. Not with the raw vulnerability in his eyes, the way he stands there, exposed and unsure.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” Your voice cracks, and it’s all you can manage.
His chest rises and falls with a deep, shaky breath. “Because I didn’t think you’d ever want to hear it.”
The words leave your mouth before you can stop them, a breathless, almost irritated whisper. "You're an idiot." But it's not frustration you feel anymore, it’s something deeper, something that’s been simmering just beneath the surface for far too long.
And then you can’t help it. The space between you closes, and before you even realize what you're doing, your hands are on him, pulling his face down to yours. The kiss is fierce and unrestrained, lips crashing together with a hunger that feels almost desperate, like you’ve been starved for this moment, for him, for everything that’s been left unsaid.
Seungkwan’s hands find their way to your waist, tugging you closer, his body solid and warm against yours. He responds without hesitation, his lips moving against yours with a fervor that matches your own, a mix of frustration and need, and something else—something raw and real.
The world outside of this moment disappears, the streetlights and cars, the sounds of the city—it all fades away, leaving just the two of you, caught in the storm of it all. It feels right, in a way that makes your chest tighten, in a way that makes everything else feel insignificant. The kiss deepens, and for a moment, everything that’s been left unspoken between you two finally starts to come to the surface.
When you finally pull away, breathless and dazed, his forehead rests against yours, your heart pounding in the space between you. It feels like the whole world has just shifted, everything falling into place in a way that makes sense, finally.
"How did you know my coffee order?" You ask, voice still shaky from the kiss, but your curiosity getting the better of you. You're still trying to wrap your head around all of it.
Seungkwan pauses for a moment, then a sheepish smile tugs at his lips. "I watched you," he admits quietly, his eyes softening. "I memorized little things about you, filed them away. Thought maybe one day I could use them... if I ever got the chance."
You can't help the small giggle that escapes you at his confession, the weight of it all sinking in. It's the sweetest thing you've ever heard. Before you can stop yourself, you're pulling him back into a kiss, hands sliding up to cup his face, as if this moment could last forever.
When you pull away again, your lips still tingling from his touch, you look up at him with a playful grin.
"So what do you say, fake-girlfriend?" he asks, his voice low, teasing. "Wanna be my real girlfriend?"
You laugh, the sound light and carefree, pressing your head against his chest as he wraps his arms around you. For the first time in what feels like forever, everything feels right. You breathe him in, the warmth of his embrace anchoring you.
"Only if you still bring me coffee," you murmur, grinning into his shirt.
"Done," he whispers, pressing his lips to yours again, and this time it feels like a promise—one you both intend to keep.
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EPILOGUE
Seungkwan’s car is parked downstairs, and your phone buzzes incessantly as you can practically hear his impatience through the screen. You’re running late, of course, but when you finally slip into the passenger seat, he’s grumbling, tapping his fingers against the steering wheel. The moment you slide in, though, his tone softens, and he’s already handing you a cup of coffee—the perfect temperature, the way you like it, the warm press of his lips against your cheek.
"You’re lucky I didn’t leave without you," he mutters, but there’s no real anger in his voice. You smile as you take a sip. This coffee isn’t from the shop across town anymore. No, Seungkwan bought an espresso machine, much to your surprise, and he’s been making them himself. "What kind of boyfriend doesn’t make coffee for his girlfriend?" he had argued one night as you laid in his lap, and you had to admit, it was an endearing (and slightly ridiculous) argument. Still, this coffee tastes better than anything you could buy, and maybe you’re biased, but you think it might actually be true.
He pulls into The Spot with an exaggerated sigh. “It’s so much nicer not having to argue with you every day for the spot,” he says, a smirk playing on his lips.
You roll your eyes and slam the car door shut with a dramatic flair. “I can pick fights about other things,” you shoot back unhelpfully, crossing your arms. “For example, your tie is hideous.”
Seungkwan gasps in mock outrage, his hand flying to his chest like he’s been personally attacked. "You did not just say that!" he yells, and then he's chasing you through the parking garage, the sound of his footsteps getting closer. You let out a shriek as you try to run in heels, but it’s no use—he catches up to you easily, hands dancing across your waist as you beg for mercy.
"Take it back!" he demands, voice filled with mock seriousness.
"No!" You laugh, still struggling against his hold, though it's a losing battle.
"Then no coffee for a week," he warns, his tone playful but authoritative.
"Boo Seungkwan!" you protest, but his grin only widens as he pulls you into the elevator, trapping you between his chest and the wall.
The elevator door dings open, and just as you step out, he pulls you back toward him, placing a kiss on your lips—slow and warm, lingering like he’s in no rush to let you go.
"Have a good day," he murmurs, his lips brushing your cheek.
"EW!" Seokmin’s voice shouts from behind you, and you can’t help but laugh at the sound of him. Seungkwan flips him off without missing a beat, the playful edge in his voice unmistakable. "This whole thing is your fault," he calls out to Seokmin’s retreating figure, who’s already halfway down the hall, grinning ear to ear.
"I know!" Seokmin yells back gleefully, his voice carrying through the hallway. "I had a really really good plan!"
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Two different people || UNC!Alessia Russo x reader
Request | Masterlist
Summary You notice that Alessia’s a complete different person when in England compared to back in the states
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“You don’t need to be so nervous. They’ll love you, baby. Just be yourself.” Alessia reassured you, wrapping her arm around your waist, her fingers slipping through the loop of your jeans.
“I’m meeting your friends for the first time, lessi. What if they don’t like me?”
“You already know Lotte, and Lois. They’ll be there and then it’s a few others. Niamh, she’s chill. Knowing her, she’s only here for the coffee. Georgia’s nice, and well… Tooney, you’ve practically met her already—”
“—Over FaceTime.” You added quickly, biting down on your bottom lip.
“Calm down, love.” Alessia whispered, her footsteps coming to a halt as she turned to look at you. “Baby, you found a way to make me fall utterly in love with you by just being yourself. Just be yourself today, okay?”
“Okay.” You agreed, a small smile appearing on your face.
“Good.” Alessia murmured against your forehead, pressing her lips to your hairline before making the final steps towards the small cafe.
Ella was the first one to the two of you, her arms wrapping round Alessia - having not seen each other in months.
She then enveloped you in a hug.
“It’s so good to finally meet you, Ella.” You told her, separating from the hug.
“God knows how you put up with her.” Ella said
“Tooney…” alessia muttered
Your eyebrows furrowed in confusion. If anyone back in America had said something like that, they would have been met with a death stare from Alessia. Maybe because it was Ella she didn’t?
You went round to Niamh and Georgia, introducing yourself before walking to the table.
Everyone was sat at a seat, there being no more seats left.
Normally, Alessia would just pull you onto her lap but instead, she got up and got another chair.
“Is everything okay?” She questioned you as your eyebrows furrowed once again.
“Yeah.” You nodded, pressing your lips to her cheeks. “I’m gonna go get a coffee, would you like anything?”
“I’m okay for now, thank you, love.”
You wondered up to the till, peaking at the cakes when you felt a body press into yours.
Turning your head, you come face to face with a man - your age - maybe 17/18?
“I’ve never seen you around here before.” He said, a smirk resting on his face.
“I’m just visiting.” You answered, your American accent thick.
“American? Where from?”
“I’m from Washington but I go to college in North—” You began but he soon cut you off.
“—Let me buy you your coffee and maybe in return you let me take you out for dinner?” He suggested
“I can’t, sorry.”
“Come on. I know a place round the corner. How about tonight?”
“Look. I’m actually visiting with my girlfriend to meet her friends. They’re all over there.” You told him, pointing to the loud table in the corner.
You caught Alessia’s eyes as she eyed the man next to you.
“Look, I’m so sorry, I didn’t know.” He apologised, his face turning red in embarrassment.
“Is everything okay here?” Alessia asked, appearing by your side before you got the chance to reply to him.
“Yeah, just a small misunderstanding. I’m sorry again.” He explained
Alessia knew what was going on but unlike the normal shouting and causing a scene like she normally would have done, she simply smiled and nodded her head.
“Have a nice day.” She told him as he left. “Why are you looking at me like that?” She questioned, looking at your scrunched up eyebrows.
“You’re different here.”
“What do you mean?”
“Back in America, you would have kicked his ass for talking to me. Earlier, when there was no chair, you didn’t pull me into your lap. And you didn’t give Ella a death stare when she made that comment. I don’t know how to explain it but you’re just different, more quiet, I guess? It’s like your two different people.” You said, looking up a the blonde as she nodded.
“I guess I am. At college, no one knows who I am - apart from Lotte and Lois. I’m more reserved back in England because I know people here but in the states, I get to act however I want to because they don’t know the me from England. I get to be more confident.” Alessia explained, your eyes softening at her words.
“So what you’re saying is I technically have two girlfriends? Theres American Alessia and then England Alessia?” You joked
“Yeah, basically. Which one do you like more though?” Alessia smirked
“Well I love both of them, but maybe when it’s just the two of us, I like the American lessi a bit more.” You winked
“Well it’s a good job that I don’t change in that aspect when I’m in England, huh?”
“In what aspect?” Ella asked, clearly overhearing the last sentence.
“Nothing.” You and Alessia answered quickly
“I somehow don’t think I want to know now.”
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snowysosturn · 1 day ago
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Fire & Desire - Matt Sturniolo Part 15
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Pairing: Y/n x Matt Sturniolo
Summary: Y/n has always clashed with Matt. Despite working for Chris’s clothing brand and being close with Nick, her relationship with Matt has always been tense at best. While being forced to be around each other more, their animosity turns into something deeper. Can they overcome their differences, or will their fiery emotions tear them apart?
Warnings: angst, tension
Matt finishes up his shots, handing the jacket off to Chris before running a hand through his hair.
I take that as my cue, slipping my own jacket on. Just as I’m adjusting the sleeves, Matt starts walking toward me. My pulse skips slightly, but I force myself to act normal.
"Nice jacket" I say, my voice light, playful. I tug at the sleeve for emphasis. "We’re twinning."
He follows my motion, then looks back at his own. For a moment, there’s a flicker of something in his expression, something almost unreadable, before he smirks. "Yeah, guess so."
I tilt my head, raising a brow. "Trying to be me now?"
Matt huffs a short laugh, shaking his head. "Nah, this was all Chris. Maybe he wanted to show it was unisex or something, I don’t know." His tone is easygoing, dismissive, like the whole thing didn’t really matter.
Something in me sinks slightly. I don’t know what I was expecting, maybe some kind of confirmation that there was a meaning behind it. That it wasn’t just a coincidence. That he had chosen it intentionally. But I nod, forcing myself to brush it off, not wanting to read too much into it.
Before I can say anything else, Nick, who had clearly been listening, steps in. "Okay, well, since you two are basically in matching outfits, you should get some pictures together."
I blink, glancing at Matt, who looks just as thrown off by the suggestion. He hesitates for a split second, then shrugs. "Yeah, sure. Why not?"
Chris, already looking back at photos, gives an approving nod. "Yeah, that could be cool. Matt stand behind Y/n."
I swallow, suddenly more aware of the way my jacket feels against my skin, the way Matt's standing just close enough for our sleeves to almost touch. I nod, stepping forward, trying to ignore the way my heart is beating.
We start taking photos, the fading sun casting a golden hour glow over everything. We take turns, everyone gets their solo shots, duo shots in turns between the boys then some of just Chris, Matt and Nick together. There’s small moments, genuine laughter caught between shots.
At one point, Chris calls me over, gesturing for me to stand beside him. "Let’s get some together" he says, adjusting his hoodie. It would be nice for both of us to have photos together, considering how hard we've worked on this.
By the time we’re done, the sky is a deep navy blue. We huddle around, flicking through the photos. The excitement is evident, everyone’s happy with how they turned out.
Chris straightens up, stretching his arms over his head. "Alright" he announces, a grin stretching across his face. "I say we celebrate."
Nick smirks. "You just want an excuse to go drinking."
Chris shrugs. "Yeah, and?"
We all laugh, the energy still buzzing in the air as we gather our things. The beach is still calm and quiet with the sounds of distant music playing from the bars lining the shore. We make our way up to the strip and walk into a lively sports bar.
Chris makes his way over to the bar and orders a round of drinks, effortlessly charming the bartender as he waits. Meanwhile, the rest of us find a table near the open air area, where there's a light breeze.
I decide to make my way to the bar, stepping up beside Chris. “I’ll help you carry them” I offer, reaching for a couple of glasses.
He flashes me a grateful smile. “Thanks” he says, passing two drinks to me. “Man, I’m so happy with how everything turned out. The photos, the jackets, everything.”
I smirk, nudging him playfully. “Even Matt’s jacket?”
Chris raises an eyebrow. “What do you mean?”
I roll my eyes. “Come on, don’t act clueless. His is basically identical to mine, my initial, my favorite number. You trying to make us twins or something?” I tease, though there’s an edge of curiosity in my tone.
Chris looks at me for a moment, confused. Then, with a slow shake of his head, he says, “I didn’t do that.”
My head snaps towards Chris. “What?”
“I didn’t pick Matt’s design” Chris explains, grabbing the last drink. “He sat with me when I was placing the order back in Vegas. I had already filled in everyone else’s details, but he got to choose his own.”
The words hit me like a slow motion realization, the pieces falling into place one by one.
Matt chose it himself.
The same initial. The same number. On purpose. And he played it off.
I swallow, my fingers tightening slightly around the glasses in my hand. My heart thumping in my chest. Chris is still talking, but his voice fades into the background as my mind races. I don’t even know how to feel, shocked? Conflicted? Something deeper?
Chris finally glances over at me, noticing the shift in my expression. “You good?”
I snap back to reality, forcing a small smile. “Yeah,” I lie. “Just.. taking the whole night in.”
Chris doesn’t question it, just shrugs before nodding toward the table. “Come on, let’s bring these over.”
I follow, but my mind is elsewhere.
Matt did it on purpose.
And I have no idea what that means.
As we set the drinks down on our table, I sneak a glance across at Matt. He’s leaned back in his chair, talking to Nate about something. My His jacket rests against the chair beside him, the initial and number staring back at me like some kind of silent confession.
I try my best to brush it off and we fall into easy conversation within the group. Chris and Nate get another round of drinks, sliding them across the table. The energy between us is nice, everyone is buzzing after a successful shoot and the anticipation of whatever the night might bring.
Chris grins as he leans back in his chair. “I mean, tell me that wasn’t one of the cleanest shoots we’ve ever done. No arguments, no disasters.. kinda feels wrong.”
Nate laughs. “It’s because I was there. Everything runs smoother when I’m around.”
Matt snorts, taking a sip of his drink. “Yeah, okay, let’s not rewrite history. Weren’t you the one who knocked over a whole light stand last time and blamed it on the wind?”
Nate places a hand on his chest, replying in defense. “It was the wind. A strong gust. Nature conspired against me.”
Chris shakes his head. “The only thing working against you is your own coordination.”
I laugh, settling back in my chair as the teasing continues. It’s easy like this, the kind of comfort that only comes from knowing each other for so long.
Nick pulled up some of the photos on his phone. He slides it across the table, and everyone leans in to look.
“Oh, this one’s sick” Matt says, tapping the screen. “But I feel like Y/n should’ve gotten the solo shot standing on the rocks instead of me.”
I raise an eyebrow. “So you’re admitting I would’ve done it better?”
He tilts his head, pretending to think. “Mmm, not exactly. Just saying your balance is probably better, considering I nearly fell to my death up there.”
“You tripped once.”
“And it was a near death experience.”
Nick laughs. “Guy swayed a little and saw his life flash before his eyes.”
“I felt myself falling, kid” Matt insists, shaking his head. “Wouldn’t expect you guys to understand.”
I roll my eyes, reaching over to take the phone from him. “Anyway, let’s look at other pictures before this turns into the Matt Survival Story.”
The night continues like that, joking and teasing. The drinks kept coming, round after round, and at some point, I stopped keeping track. The buzz in my head was fun, my limbs loose, and the laughter around the table made me feel nice.
Chris, clearly feeling it too, leaned forward suddenly, eyes wide with a drunken revelation. “You know what sounds unreal right now?”
Nate raised an eyebrow. “Enlighten us.”
“Churro’s.” Chris declared, as if he’d just discovered the meaning of life. “Like, really good, proper churros. There’s gotta be a spot somewhere on this strip.”
Nick laughed, swirling the last bit of his drink in his glass before setting it down with a clink. “That actually doesn’t sound like the worst idea. Wanna walk and see what’s around?”
Chris nodded enthusiastically. “Hell yeah.”
Nate stretched, already pushing himself up from his chair. “Might as well. I could go for something sweet.”
I expected Matt to get up too, but he stayed seated, nursing his drink with an unreadable expression.
Nick glanced between us before shrugging. “You guys staying?”
Matt barely looked up. “Yeah, we’re good here.”
Chris wiggled his eyebrows at us like he knew something we didn’t before nudging Nate to move. “Alright, suit yourselves. Don’t get too bored without us.”
With that, the three of them wandered off, their voices carrying over the music and street noise before fading into the night.
I leaned back in my chair, exhaling as I swirled my straw in my drink. The silence between Matt and I stretched, but for once, it wasn’t awkward. It was.. easy.
“You’re holding up well” he commented, nodding toward my glass. “Thought you’d be slurring by now.”
I smirked, tilting my head. “So you underestimated me?”
“Never” he said smoothly, a small grin forming on his lips. “I just figured you’d be the responsible one tonight.”
I laughed, shaking my head. “I’m on vacation. Responsibility is not in my vocabulary right now.”
Matt raised his glass slightly, as if to toast to that. “Fair enough.”
We both took a sip, the air between us charged with this weird tension, a different tension to normal, something neither of us seemed in a rush to address. 
Matt set his drink down, leaning forward slightly, his elbow resting on the table. His eyes, a little lazy from the alcohol, flickered with something unreadable.
“So, if responsibility isn’t in your vocabulary right now” he smirked, “what is?”
I smirked, continuing to swirl my straw in my glass. “Recklessness, maybe. Spontaneity.”
He raised an eyebrow. “Spontaneity, huh? That’s a dangerous game.”
I tilted my head, meeting his gaze. “Maybe I like a little danger.”
A slow grin spread across his face. “Yeah?” He leaned in slightly. “You’re full of surprises, you know that?”
I took a sip of my drink, letting the ice clink together. “And here I was, thinking I was predictable.”
He shook his head, studying me like he was trying to figure me out. “Not even close.”
Before I could respond, Nick’s voice cut through the moment, his energy a stark contrast to our quiet exchange.
“Guys!” he said, slightly breathless, plopping down into a chair, “we just found something way better than this place.”
Chris and Nate sat down beside him, both grinning.
“Oh?” I asked, raising an eyebrow. “Better how?”
Nick leaned forward, excitement clear in his face. “There’s a bar at the end of the street with a full on drag show happening. It looks insane.”
Chris nodded enthusiastically. “We’re talking full performances, outfits, the whole thing. You guys down?”
I glanced at Matt, whose lips twitched into an amused smirk.
“Well” he said, looking at me, “since you’re in your spontaneity era…”
I laughed, shaking my head. “You don’t even like using the term era”
Nick grinned, slapping the table. “That’s the spirit. Let’s get out of here.”
Matt lingered at my side, as we stumbled down the strip and into bar. The place is alive, bright neon lights, a shimmering backdrop behind the stage, and a drag queen in a sequined bodysuit commanding the crowd. She’s scanning the room, mic in hand, looking for her next victims to drag onstage.
Before I even have a chance to process what’s happening, Nick’s hand clasps around mine.
“Oh no” I start, shaking my head, but it’s too late.
“You know we have to do this.” he grins, practically dragging me toward the stage.
Chris, Nate, and Matt cheer from the table, egging us on like we have a choice in the matter. I laugh, half in protest, but I already know what’s about to happen.
Nick’s been dying to perform Alter Ego ever since we watched Crystal Envy and Lexi Love lip sync to it on Drag Race. And now, here we are, center stage, spotlights on us.
The beat drops, and suddenly, Nick transforms. He throws himself into the performance, rapping along flawlessly, hyping up the crowd, while I do my best to keep up, dancing and laughing through the whole thing. The drag queen is eating it up, hyping us both as if we were seasoned performers.
By the time the song ends, we’re completely breathless, and for once I’m not embarrassed by all of the attention. The drag queen dramatically bows to us, then gestures to the bartender.
“Now that is how you commit to the bit” she says into the mic. “Drinks are on the house for these two.”
We walk back to our table, joining back with the others when a tray of free shots is handed to us.
Chris whistles from the table. “I mean, if free drinks are involved, I might have to hit the stage next.”
Matt shakes his head, chuckling as I sit down.
“You really went for it” he says, impressed.
I grab a shot from the tray, still catching my breath. “What can I say? Spontaneity, remember?”
He raises his glass, smirking. “Guess you weren’t lying.”
I clink my glass against his before throwing back the shot, the burn of alcohol mixing with the rush of the night so far.
The warmth of the alcohol spreads through my body all at once, a delayed hit that makes my head spin slightly. The mix of adrenaline from the performance and the lingering buzz leaves me feeling lightheaded. My skin is still damp with sweat, a mix from dancing under the lights and the Hawaiian heat. 
I set my empty shot glass down and push back from the table. “I need some air” I mumble, mostly to myself, but Matt’s eyes flick toward me for a second before I turn away.
Stepping outside, the slight breeze feels cool against my overheated skin. I exhale, running a hand through my hair, trying to steady the rush in my head. So much has happened in just the past 24 hours. Getting my locket back, the jacket, the way he looked at me earlier, the teasing, the tension. 
It was a very different side of Matt that I wasn’t used to. 
I lean against the side of the building, staring down at my heels, my thoughts spinning faster than they should. Maybe I’ve been looking at this all wrong. Maybe Matt isn’t just Matt, the frustrating, teasing, sometimes unbearable guy in our group.
Maybe he’s the guy who went out of his way to do something meaningful for me. The guy who gets jealous when I give someone else my attention. The guy who’s been watching me just as much as I’ve been watching him.
And maybe he likes me. And maybe I like him too.
I heard the sound of the side door to the bar swinging open behind me, catching my attention. I turn to see Matt walking toward me.
“You good?” His voice is softer than usual, lacking its usual teasing edge.
I glance at him standing there with his hands in his pockets, watching me. The concern in his eyes is subtle, but it’s there.
“Yeah” I say, offering a small smile. “Just a bit warm. And very drunk.”
He chuckles, stepping closer. “Yeah, no shit. You and Nick just put on a whole damn concert in there.”
I laugh, shaking my head. “He’s been waiting for that moment.”
Matt smirks but then tilts his head slightly, considering me. “You wanna go for a walk on the beach or something? Might make you feel better.”
I hesitate for a second, but something about the way he’s looking at me makes it impossible to say no.
“Yeah” I say. “That sounds nice.”
We head down toward the sand, the noise from the strip fading as the waves take over and I let out a breath I didn’t realize I was holding.
Matt walks beside me, hands tucked into his pockets, but there’s an ease to his posture. “So” he starts, a teasing lilt creeping back into his voice, “you gonna add karaoke connoisseur to your resume after that performance?”
I roll my eyes but laugh. “Oh, absolutely. Gonna start touring next week.”
He grins. “I’d buy tickets.”
I nudge him playfully. “You’d probably take the piss out of me the whole time.”
“Maybe.” He shrugs, biting back a smirk. “Or maybe I’d just sit front row and admire the view.”
I feel my stomach flip at his words, and suddenly the air between us feels differen again. Even more intense. My steps slow just slightly, and he matches my pace.
“You’re such a flirt” I say, narrowing my eyes at him.
Matt smirks. “And yet, you’re still walking with me.”
I shake my head, trying not to smile, but I know he sees right through me. The alcohol has made me bold, but maybe it’s not just the drinks. Maybe it’s him.
We keep walking, the conversation flowing like we never hated each other. Playful. Teasing.
I laugh at something he says, shaking my head. “You’re ridiculous.”
He grins, nudging me lightly with his shoulder. “And yet, you love it.”
I roll my eyes but don’t deny it. Before I can think of a comeback, my heel suddenly sinks too deep into the sand, throwing me off balance. I stumble to the side, my hands instinctively reaching out.
Matt reacts fast, catching me before I fall to the ground. One arm wraps firmly around my waist, steadying me, while the other grips my hand. The warmth of his touch against me sends a jolt through me, and I realize just how close we are, his face only inches from mine, his breath grazing over my cheek.
“Damn” he laughs, holding me upright. “You good?”
I grip his forearm, steadying myself. “Yeah, just, heels and sand? Not a great mix" I say, trying to play it cool. "And to think you were suggesting that I should’ve been up on the rocks earlier.”
Matt smirks, but instead of saying anything witty back, he suddenly crouches down in front of me.
I blink. “What are you-”
“Relax” he murmurs, fingers already working at the straps of my heels. “You’re gonna break an ankle trying to walk in these out here We don't need any more ankle problems.”
I open my mouth to argue, but the way he carefully unbuckles each strap, sliding the shoes off my feet like it’s the most natural thing in the world, has my brain rewiring itself.
Once he’s done, he stands, holding my heels in one hand. “There. Now you won’t have an excuse to fall into my arms again.”
I cross my arms, scoffing at him. “I didn’t mean to fall into your arms.”
Matt tilts his head, that signature smirk tugging at his lips. “Yeah? Could’ve fooled me.”
I narrow my eyes. “You’re so full of yourself.”
He grins. “And yet, you’re still walking with me.”
I bite my lip to keep from smiling too much, but I know he sees it. He always does. I bump my shoulder against his playfully. “You know, you don’t have to carry my shoes. I am capable of holding things.”
He smirks. “Yeah, but then what excuse would I have to be a gentleman?”
I laugh, shaking my head. “Oh, so you’re a gentleman now?”
Matt raises an eyebrow, stopping in his tracks.
“I mean” he says, looking down at me, “I did just save you from eating sand. That’s got to count for something.”
I glance up at him, my heart racing, but I play it cool. “Hmm, I don’t know. Maybe I let myself fall on purpose.” I say sarcastically.
His lips curve into a slow, knowing smirk. “Oh yeah? You wanted me to catch you?”
I roll my eyes dramatically. “Don’t flatter yourself, Sturniolo.”
“Oh, so we’re using last names now?” He steps closer to me. “Careful, that’s dangerously close to flirting.”
 “Please, if I was flirting, you’d know it.”
“Would I?”
I exhale, feeling my stomach flip. He’s so damn cocky, but I can’t even pretend I don’t love it.
I tilt my chin up defiantly, a slow grin spreading across my lips. “Mhm.”
My heart is racing. I can feel the alcohol in my veins, but this, this moment, is all me. No liquid courage, no overthinking. Just me and him.
I step closer, tilting my head slightly, my body moving on instinct. My mind is made up. I want to close the distance. I want him.
I lean in.
But just as my lips are about to brush his, Matt turns his head.
“We should head back.” His voice is quiet, almost strained.
I freeze.
The rejection slaps me across the face. I pull back quickly, my face heating in a way that has nothing to do with the alcohol.
I swallow hard, forcing a nod. “Yeah.. yeah, okay.”
Matt shifts awkwardly, rubbing the back of his neck. His usual cocky demeanor is gone, replaced by something I can’t quite read. Guilt? Hesitation?
I don’t wait to figure it out. I turn on my heel and start walking back toward the bar, my arms crossed tightly over my chest.
My stomach twists uncomfortably. How did I get it so wrong? The way he looked at me, the way he held my waist, the way he played into everything, was it just in my head?
I don’t know.
But what I do know is that I just made a move.. and Matt Sturniolo didn’t want me back.
a/n : i would run into the ocean and never return if i got rejected like that
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buckets-and-trees · 2 days ago
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I love bed Chem and the follow up!! I’d love to see them bump into each other outside of hook up times - like they’re both in the same coffee shop…and a cute barista is flirting with reader…and Bucky suddenly feels possessive when he sees it happening from across the shop but can’t say anything as they’re just hook up buds and it’s not his place to be jealous 🤭
Even Better Than In My Head
Characters/Pairings: Bucky Barnes x curvy!Millennial female!reader Word Count: 2.9k Summary: Hooking up with Bucky Barnes in the middle of the night has scratched the itch whenever you're craving between your legs, but crossing paths with the man out in the wild in normal life? Much more dangerous than you could have guessed.
Content Warnings: modern AU, hook up culture/bootycall, established sexual relationship
Author Notes: This is a follow-up to Parking Lot Chem and Camaraderie.
Logistical Notes: My first fill for @buckyboybingo (Gym) and my ninth bit for Valentine Storygrams!
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“This entire table is a masterpiece!” your sister exclaims, thoroughly impressed and overjoyed. “I seriously owe you!”
“You do!” you chide. “You owe me many, many favors.”
“I’d promise my first-born, but that ship has already sailed!” she replies, gesturing at her daughter - your niece - who is currently engaged in some sort of statue tag game with a gaggle of other children her age.
“I’m serious, though. You know you absolutely saved me.”
"I know," you say, waving off her gratitude with a smile. "That's what sisters are for, right?"
You both turn to survey the booth, a riot of pink and red decorations adorning every surface. Heart-shaped cookies, cupcakes with swirling frosting rosettes, raspberry-lemon bars, and delicate palmiers drizzled with white chocolate and heart-shaped sprinkles cover the table in neat, enticing rows.
"Seriously, though," your sister continues, lowering her voice, "this could make or break my campaign for PTA president. The entire board is here, and they're all watching to see how this goes."
You nod, remembering the frantic phone call you'd received two nights ago.
Your sister's voice had been a mix of panic and exhaustion as she explained how her usually angelic toddler had decided to test out his superhero abilities by leaping off the kitchen counter. The result? A nasty gash that required a trip to urgent care and several stitches. But to make matters worse, she’d only been so distracted to allow the failed test-flight of her two-year-old because she’d been trying to figure out why her oven would turn on, but refused to heat up past 180 degrees - nowhere near close enough to take care of her baking needs.
So you agreed - or offered, you really don’t quite remember how this part of the conversation went at this point - to take care of making all the baked goods.
“Couldn't let my favorite sister crash and burn at the Valentine's Day bake sale, could I?"
"I'm your only sister, you goof," she retorts with a laugh. "But again, thank you. I don't know what I would have done without you."
As you're about to respond, your sister's eyes suddenly widen, and a sly grin spreads across her face. She leans in close, her voice dropping to a conspiratorial whisper. "Speaking of paying you back, I think I'm about to start right now."
You follow her gaze across the crowded gymnasium, your curiosity piqued. Through the sea of parents and children, a tall figure is making his way towards your booth. As he draws closer, you can't help but notice how he seems to part the crowd effortlessly, his presence commanding yet somehow warm.
"See that absolutely gorgeous man heading our way?" your sister murmurs, her excitement palpable. "That's Aiden Hartley. He's a single dad, a widower, and practically the perfect gentleman."
You try to maintain your composure as Aiden approaches, but it's difficult not to stare. He's easily over six feet with a build that suggests he's no stranger to the gym. His short blonde hair catches the light, looking almost golden under the fluorescent glare of the school's overhead lighting. Even from a distance, you can see his eyes - a striking shade of green that reminds you of summer leaves.
As Aiden reaches your booth, a warm smile spreads across his face. Your heart skips a beat.
"Ladies," he greets you both, his voice deep and smooth. "I have to say, this spread looks absolutely incredible."
Your sister jumps in, "Oh, it's all thanks to my amazing sister here! Aiden, you haven’t met her yet, but she's the baking genius."
Aiden's gaze returns to you, a spark of interest in those mesmerizing green eyes. "Is that so? Well, I'm thoroughly impressed. I'm Carter’s dad, by the way, he’s in the same class as your niece." He extends his hand.
You introduce yourself, hoping your palm isn't too sweaty as you shake his hand. His grip is firm but gentle, and you can't help but notice how your hand seems to fit very nicely into his.
"So, what would you recommend?" Aiden asks, gesturing to the array of sweets.
“I’d like one of the cupcakes,” the last voice you’re expecting to hear interrupts from just behind you, and you whip around to find yourself face to face with Bucky, the man who has been regularly - if intermittently - wrecking you sexually.
What on earth is he doing here?
Not only is he here, he’s looking devastatingly handsome in a dark blue button-down and jeans. Your breath catches in your throat as memories of your late-night encounter flood your mind.
"One of the chocolate ones," Bucky drawls, his eyes roaming over the baked goods before settling on you with a heated gaze. "Is that a strawberry buttercream on top?"
“Mhmm,” you manage to nod, throat completely dry, brain trying to figure out how to function.
You’re not supposed to be seeing this man in the light of day - does not compute, does not compute.
"Looks like someone's been busy in the kitchen," he adds.
Your sister, oblivious to the tension crackling between you and Bucky, beams at him. "Yes! Isn't it amazing? My sister made everything here."
Bucky's lips curl into a smirk. "Is that so? You’re clearly skilled with your hands - the piping on this frosting is flawless,” he says, handing cash to your sister in exchange for one of the cupcakes.
He brings the treat to his nose, inhaling deeply, his eyes never leaving yours. "Smells divine," he murmurs, voice low enough that only you can hear. Then, with a wink that makes your knees weak, he turns and strides away, weaving through the crowd with the same effortless grace that brought him to your booth. His confident stride draws more than a few appreciative glances from the other parents.
Your sister nudges you with her elbow, breaking you out of your daze. "See, I told you you're too modest with your baking skills," she whispers excitedly. "Bucky Barnes is usually a man of few words, and he dropped plenty just now."
You nod absently, still reeling from Bucky's sudden appearance and the way he'd looked at you. Your mind races, trying to process the conflicting emotions swirling within you. On one hand, there's the familiar spark of desire that Bucky always ignites. On the other, there's a new, tentative flutter of interest as you glance back at Aiden, who's patiently waiting with a warm smile.
Your sister, ever the matchmaker, seamlessly steers the conversation back to Aiden. "So, Aiden, you were asking about recommendations?" She gives you a subtle but pointed look.
You clear your throat. "Right. Well, the raspberry-lemon bars are a personal favorite. They've got just the right balance of sweet and tart."
Aiden's eyes light up. "That sounds perfect. I'll take two, please." As your sister boxes up his order, he turns back to you. "So, do you bake professionally? These look like they could be in a high-end bakery."
You laugh, shaking your head. "Oh no, it's just a hobby. I work in marketing, actually."
"Well, you certainly have a talent for it," Aiden says, his smile warm and genuine. "I can’t wait to try these,” he adds, holding up his box.
As you're about to respond to Aiden's compliment, your sister suddenly gasps and slaps her forehead dramatically. "Oh no! I completely forgot!" She turns to you with an exaggerated look of distress. "The PTA was supposed to set up the face-painting station, but I just realized we left all the supplies in my car!"
You raise an eyebrow, sensing the poorly disguised matchmaking attempt, but play along. "Oh, that's not good. You'd better go take care of that."
Your sister nods vigorously, already backing away from the booth. "Absolutely! Can't have disappointed kids on Valentine's Day!" She pauses, then turns to Aiden with a look of calculated innocence. "Aiden, I hate to impose, but would you mind helping my sister man the booth until I get back? It shouldn't take more than fifteen or twenty minutes.”
Aiden’s eyes flash to you, gleaming with amusement, clearly recognizing your sister's ploy for what it is, but he plays along anyway. "Of course! I'd be more than happy to lend a hand... or take an order or two," he jokes, winking at you.
Your cheeks flush a with heat, but you’re not totally unhappy with her shenanigans.
Your sister rushes off and Aiden takes her place behind the table. As the two of you settle into a rhythm working the table, you can't help but feel a spark of connection. His easy smile and warm demeanor put you at ease, and soon you're chatting effortlessly about everything from your shared love of books to your favorite local restaurants.
"So, marketing, huh?" Aiden asks during a lull. "What kind of projects do you work on?"
You launch into a brief explanation of your latest campaign, surprised at how easily the conversation flows. Aiden listens attentively, asking insightful questions that show he's genuinely interested. His green eyes sparkle with intelligence, and you find yourself drawn in by his charm.
"That sounds fascinating," he says, leaning in slightly. "I'd love to hear more about it sometime. Maybe over coffee?"
Your heart flutters at the invitation, but before you can respond, your eyes are inexplicably drawn across the crowded gymnasium. Through the sea of parents and children, you spot Bucky leaning against the far wall.
He's standing slightly apart from the crowd, his presence both magnetic and aloof. The sleeves of his dark blue plaid shirt are rolled up to his elbows, revealing the corded muscles of his forearms. His hair, usually disheveled when you see him, is neatly combed back into a bun, accentuating the sharp angles of his jaw.
As if sensing your gaze, Bucky's eyes lock with yours from across the room. A slow, knowing smile spreads across his face as he brings the cupcake to his lips. You watch, transfixed, as he takes a deliberate bite, his eyes never leaving yours.
The chocolate cake yields easily, and a smear of pink frosting clings to his upper lip. Your mouth goes dry as you watch his tongue dart out, slowly and purposefully licking away the sweet confection.
The sight sends a jolt of electricity through your body, igniting a fire low in your belly. Memories of that same tongue exploring your most intimate places flood your mind. You can almost feel the ghost of it and press your legs together.
Suddenly aware that you've been staring, you snap your attention back to Aiden, who's looking at you expectantly. You realize he's still waiting for an answer about coffee.
"Oh, um, yes," you stammer, trying to regain your composure. "Coffee sounds great."
Aiden's face lights up with a warm smile. "Wonderful! How about this Saturday?"
You nod, pushing thoughts of Bucky to the back of your mind. "Saturday works for me."
As you exchange numbers with Aiden, you can't help but feel a mix of excitement and guilt. Excitement at the prospect of getting to know this kind, handsome man better. Guilt because you know that no matter how charming Aiden is, a part of you is still thinking about Bucky and the raw, primal energy between you.
About how he probably would have no problem dragging you away to his car and fucking you in the parking lot right now.
You think that’s something Aiden would never do .
The rest of the bake sale passes in good conversation with Aiden, chatting between customers and stealing glances at each other when you think the other isn't looking. You learn that he's an architect, specializing in sustainable design, and his passion for his work is evident in the way his eyes light up as he describes his latest project.
"It's a community center," he explains, his hands moving animatedly as he speaks. "We're incorporating solar panels, rainwater harvesting systems, and even a rooftop garden. The goal is to create a space that not only serves the community but also educates them about sustainable living."
You find yourself genuinely interested, asking questions about the design process and the challenges he faces. As you listen, you can't help but appreciate how different this interaction is from your usual encounters with Bucky. With Aiden, there's a warmth, a sense of connection that’s so natural.
But your gaze drifts regularly to Bucky. Bucky has become attached to a young boy who looks to be about six years old. The resemblance between them is striking – the same strong jawline, the same chestnut brown hair. They grin and laugh together, Bucky follows him around to the face painting, a craft station, poses with him in the photo booth.
All you have ever shared with Bucky is sex. The two of you had given next to no time to small talk even in the first few days of messaging on the hook up app and in your first meet up. You had both made it clear you used each other for sex and didn’t want anything else from the connection.
As the bake sale winds down, your sister finally returns, apologizing profusely for needing to cover the face painting instead of helping at the booth. She winks at you when Aiden isn't looking, clearly pleased with her efforts. Aiden continues to linger, helping to fold up the tablecloth and carry boxes.
This morning you were thoroughly single, no need or with to do much to be otherwise. But now you find yourself torn between two very different men. Aiden, with his warm smile and gentle demeanor, represents the possibility of a genuine connection, of building something meaningful. Your conversation flows easily, and you can't deny the flutter in your chest when he laughs at your jokes.
But then there's Bucky. Your attention drawn back to him over and over, watching as he had interacted with the young boy who must be his son. It's a side of him you've never seen before, and it stirs something unexpected within you. The tenderness in his eyes as he looks at his child is a stark contrast to the raw intensity you're used to seeing when he looks at you.
As you and Aiden start packing up the remaining baked goods, Bucky approaches your booth once more. This time, the little boy is with him, clinging to his hand and looking up at you with wide, curious eyes.
"Hey," Bucky says, his voice smooth and charming. "We wanted to grab a few more treats before you packed up." His eyes flick to Aiden, then back to you, a flash of something - possessiveness? jealousy? - passing over his face.
"Of course," you manage, brightening your voice as you direct your attention to the small boy. "What would you like?"
The little boy tugs on Bucky's hand, pointing at the heart-shaped cookies. "Can I have those, Daddy?"
Your heart does a little flip at hearing Bucky called 'Daddy'. It's such a stark contrast to the Bucky you know - the one who whispers filthy things in your ear as he pounds into you.
"Sure thing, buddy. How about we get a few to take home for later?" Bucky suggests, his voice gentle as he speaks to his son.
You can't help but smile at the interaction as you carefully package up a half dozen of the heart-shaped cookies. As you hand the box to Bucky, your fingers brush against his, sending a whoosh of butterflies through your stomach. His eyes lock with yours, dark and intense, before he glances meaningfully at Aiden.
"Thanks," Bucky says, his voice low. "These look delicious. I'm sure they taste even better than they look." The double meaning in his words is clear, and you feel a flush creeping up your neck.
"I hope you enjoy them," you manage to reply, your voice slightly breathless.
As Bucky turns to leave, his son looks up at you with a shy smile. "Thank you for the treats!”
"You're very welcome, young man," you reply, smiling warmly at the little boy. As they walk away, you can't help but watch Bucky's retreating form, admiring the way his shirt clings to his broad shoulders.
You and Aiden finish packing up the last of the baked goods, and he helps you carry the boxes to your car.
"So, about Saturday," he says as you close the trunk. "There's this great little café downtown that does this stuffed french toast that will send you to heaven. How does that sound?”
You smile at Aiden, genuinely excited about the prospect of getting to know him better. "That sounds wonderful," you reply. "I love a good french toast."
As you exchange details for your upcoming date, you can't help but feel a mix of anticipation and guilt. Aiden is everything you should want - kind, intelligent, and clearly interested in more than just a physical relationship. Yet, as you watch him walk away, your mind drifts back to Bucky.
Later that night, as you're getting ready for bed, your phone buzzes with a text. Your heart races as you see Bucky's name on the screen.
BUCKY: Those cookies were delicious. But not as sweet as your cunt.
You bite your lip, torn between responding and ignoring the message. Before you can decide, another text comes through.
BUCKY: I'm in the neighborhood. Have any of that frosting left?
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ashen-char · 2 days ago
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the altar is her hips 🔞
ship: anora mikheeva (anora) x fem reader
summary: it's finals week but ani convinces you into taking a sexy break with her.
word count: 2700+
notes: i had a strong urge to name this one "this is me swallowing (my pride)" but false god fit better than back to december lmfaooo. student fem reader suggested here, service top reader and ani loving to tell her what to do suggested here <3 thank youuu
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You barely register the sound of heels on the linoleum, steadily clicking their way towards you. The library is packed, after all. With exam week coming up, there's more people here than there have been all semester. Everyone who had been pushing back their coursework is now suddenly cramming it in. You hate studying when it's too quiet anyways, you can't focus that way. Your eyes are glued to the textbook in front of you, words blurring together as you try to make sense of the impossibly dense material. The only thing keeping you going is the half-empty energy drink beside you, the chocolates you had instead of a proper dinner, and the distant promise of sleep - whenever that might happen.
Then, a familiar presence slides into the chair next to you. She must have come to visit straight from work, because it's damn near 5am. Ani's chewing some gum, snapping it between her teeth.
"Wow," Anora drawls, propping her chin on one hand as she surveys the mess of notes, highlighters, and sheer academic despair spread out across the table. "This is tragic. When's the last time you slept, baby?"
"Fuck. I don't know. I don't even think I got proper rest yesterday," you admit. You were tossing and turning all night, the only sleep you got being fitful at best. "I was reciting case study names in my head so I don't forget any. With AI bullshit, the uni's cracked down on making all exams closed-book."
"I can tell. Even your eyebags have eyebags." Ani, amused by her own joke, blows a bubble and it snaps. You roll your eyes, but that makes her smile, reaching over and running her thumb across your cheek. "Don't worry, they're designer. My baby's got Prada eyebags, for damn sure."
You hum in acknowledgement. "Yeah, thanks." Barely listening, unfortunately, even though you want to give your girlfriend all your attention. It's for both of you. All your efforts, your good grades, will culminate in a better life for the both of you. That's what you tell yourself when you have to blow off date night for a deadline anyhow.
Ani shifts closer, pulling out her bag. "I could put some BB cream on you at least," she offers.
You turn a page. The paragraphs are blurring together and while you swear you've read this before, it also looks brand new at the same time. You sigh, rubbing your temples, willing the information to stick. When you reach something you didn't remember from your lectures, you jot it down on your lined paper, highlighting the key words. "It’s exam week. I don’t have time to be cute."
"Good thing I’m cute enough for both of us, then." She grins, stretching her legs out so her foot nudges yours under the table. She’s wearing ripped jeans and a cropped hoodie that definitely isn’t hers - it’s probably yours, stolen at some point and now claimed as her own.
"Whisper at least, babe. If you're insistent on talking in the library." You gesture to all the other stressed-out students, your peers in suffering. While various courses have their exams spread out so there are no clashes, the energy of finals is potent in the air.
"Boring." You glance at her, but she’s already plucking one of your highlighters off the table, twirling it between her fingers like she’s contemplating doing something devious with it.
"How long have you been at this?" Anora asks. She picks up the stack of papers from your other classes, flipping absently through your notes and you watch in case she highlights something. "Because I’m gonna guess… too long."
"Since this morning. And all day yesterday."
Anora whistles. "You know, there are laws against self-torture."
You huff a tired laugh. "Not in Professor Raye's class."
She leans back in her chair, crossing her arms. "OK, here’s the deal. You take a break. Like, a real fuckin' break. No ‘just one more chapter.’ No ‘let me just finish this section.’ You step away from this table, right now, and I will personally reward you with something better than whatever caffeine-fueled nightmare you’re living," Anora says, poking your metal tumblr that was once filled with iced coffee - probably melted and watered down now.
You narrow your eyes at her. "And what exactly is this reward?"
She smirks, tapping a manicured finger against the table. "Guess you’ll have to find out."
You exhale slowly, staring down at your textbook like it might physically pull you back in if you look too long. But then Anora nudges your chair with her foot again, insistent, and there’s something warm in the way she’s watching you - amused, fond of you, but also knowing. Like she’s seen a hundred people burn themselves out and decided you won’t be one of them.
You sigh, shutting the book. "Fine. Five minutes. But then I'm continuing this in my dorm. And I have to check this book out."
"Ten minutes."
"Seven."
"Nine."
"Eight and a half."
"Deal."
She grins like she’s just won something. It reminds you of the time Anora took you to Coney Island because you said you'd never been. That night was magical, and you two had so much fun taking turns winning each other prizes. That proud-of-herself gleam in her eyes as she presented you with a stuffed tiger. Anora stands and holds out her hand to you, the butterfly charms glued onto her pretty nails seeming to glitter under the cold library lights.
Snapping your textbook shut, you take Ani's hand when she holds hers out for you, with her standing up in a shot and grabbing her purse. "That's my girl," she purrs. "Grab your jacket, sugar. We're going somewhere that'll make you forget all about... whatever boring ass shit you were studying."
When she pulls you up, she doesn’t let go. She leads you out of the quiet, fluorescent-lit library and into the bustling campus streets. The cold air is sharp, but Ani seems unperturbed, skipping slightly as she walks. Her heels click against the pavement, drawing the occasional glance from passing strangers.
"You really think you can make me relax in eight minutes?" you ask, curious about her plan. You'll give her the benefit of not taking travel time into your little deal though.
"Oh, you'll love it. Promise, babe."
xx
Luckily, the location she had in mind was apparently your dorm room. Ani lies back on your bed with its cheap sheets, her long dark hair splayed out around her. The tinsel in it really makes her shine, if the body glitter isn't enough. When she's unbuttoning her jeans, you tease her, "if making me fuck you was the break you had in mind, remember you've still only got eight minutes."
"Eight and a half," she reminds. "Don't rush this. And get your shirt off."
She's wearing a lacy black bra and a matching thong that leaves little to the imagination, her pale skin glowing in the dim light of your room. She looks up at you with hooded brown eyes, biting her plump lower lip as she beckons you closer.
"Get that pretty face between my legs," Ani orders, her breath hitching with anticipation. "And don't you dare stop until I tell you to. Think of it like studying for that exam - except instead of boring old notes, you've got a girl in your bed. Lucky you."
You like when she tells you what to do. How to kiss her, fuck her, lick her. It's a dizzying push-pull of control, where you're the one bringing her to ecstasy but she's the one commanding you to get her there.
"C'mere, baby," she purrs, voice dripping with desperate desire. Her accent slips out when she's not thinking about it, too focused on getting you where she wants you. "I want your mouth on me. Now."
"Yes, ma'am."
Anora spreads her legs, revealing the damp spot clear on her panties. The sight makes your mouth go dry, your heart pounding in your chest. You've seen Ani dance, have felt her body pressed against yours, but this is different. This feels more intimate, more vulnerable. The time limit you've set on this also adds to the thrill.
"Start by kissing up my thighs," Ani instructs, her voice breathy. "Nice and slow. I want to feel those lips of yours."
You obediently lower your head, pressing soft kisses along the inside of her thigh. You can smell her arousal, musky and intoxicating, as you work your way up. Ani shivers beneath your touch, her fingers tangling in your messy hair.
"I like when you tease me, baby."
"Mmm," you hum against her skin. "I know."
"Fuck, just like that," she gasps, guiding you higher with her hands. "Don't stop, baby. Keep going until you reach-" A little gasp when your tongue flits out for just a moment. Tasting the sweat on her skin from hours under HQ's bright lights, from working hard.
You continue your ascent, kissing and licking every inch of her soft, creamy skin. When you reach the apex of her thighs, you hook your fingers into the waistband of her panties and tug them down slowly, revealing her glistening folds. Ani lifts her hips to help you remove them completely, leaving her bare before you.
"Look at me," she commands, tilting your chin up with her fingers. "I want to see your face when you taste me for the first time. I want to watch you lose yourself in my pussy."
"Position me then." You'll lose yourself in between her thighs over and over if it means Ani's directing you. "You guide where I go."
Her eyes darken. You know she loves the control, it's what she appreciates about dancing at the club and getting suckers falling for her movements. Her grip tightens on your hair, guiding you downwards until your face is mere inches from her glistening folds. The scent of her arousal fills your nostrils, sweet and musky. It's almost overwhelming, in the best way possible.
"Start by kissing up and down the lips," Ani instructs, voice breathless. "Get them nice and wet with your mouth first. Show me how much you worship this cunt."
You lock eyes with her, your breath catching in your throat as you lean in close. Your first lick is tentative, a soft swipe along her slit to test her flavor. Ani tastes sweet and tangy, her arousal coating your tongue. It's intoxicating, and you find yourself wanting more.
Trailing open-mouthed kisses along her lower lips, you relish the silky smooth skin and the taste of her excitement. Knowing that it's all yours. You made her like this. You can feel Ani squirming beneath you, her grip on your hair tightening.
"That's it, baby. Just like that," she encourages, her hips rocking subtly against your face. "Now, focus on the clit. Suck on it, flick it with your tongue. 'til you feel it throb."
You do as you're told, capturing her clit between your lips and suckling gently. You flick the sensitive bud with the tip of your tongue, feeling it swell and stiffen from the stimulation.
"Ah fuck!" Ani gasps, her head falling back against your pillows. "Don't stop, nngh - just like that. Your tongue feels so fucking good." She's almost ranting mindlessly now, sounding so out of it as you keep going.
You can feel her growing more and more aroused by the second, her juices coating your chin and dripping onto the bedsheets below. You don't mind though. You'll buy a spare set some other time, after exam week has come and gone. The taste of her is intoxicating, and you know you could spend hours worshipping her like this.
"Mmm, you're a natural at eating pussy, ain't ya?" Ani giggles as her thighs clench around your head, trying to sit up to look at you know. "I knew you were hiding some skills under that nerdy exterior."
"My favourite meal."
"Oh fuck," Ani whimpers, her head falling back against the pillow as you start to eat her out in earnest. "Don't you dare fucking stop, babygirl. Put that tongue to work, baby. Bury it in my cunt. Show me how badly you want to please me."
You feel a rush of pride at her words, determined to impress her even more. You drag your tongue back down to her entrance, pushing past the lips to thrust your tongue inside, fucking her with the slick muscle.
Everything starts to become a blur. It could have taken hours, maybe minutes. You delve in deeper, your tongue plunging into her hot, tight center. Ani's walls clench around you, like her cunt is trying to pull you in even further, eager for more. Desperate. Aching. You lap at her greedily, savouring her taste and scent, relishing in the way she writhes beneath your touch. You squeeze your own thighs together, your own center throbbing in response.
You relentlessly thrust your tongue in and out, curling it to hit that spongy spot you know drives her wild. Ani is writhing underneath you, fisting the sheets and writhing against your probing, relentless tongue.
"I can't believe how good you're making me feel," Ani confesses, "No one's ever worshipped my pussy like this before. Like they actually gave a fuck about making me, oh God, making me cum."
You glance up at her, seeing tears glistening in her brown eyes. You slow down your movements, gentling your licks as you take in her expression. "Hey, hey... don't cry," you murmur, pressing a tender kiss to her clit. Slowing it down. Letting her acclimate to it all. "I'm here. I'm right here. And I'm not going anywhere."
"You really mean that?" Ani asks, her voice choked with emotion. "Because, fuck, I mean... no one's ever said they loved me like this before. Like I'm a real person, not just-not just a warm hole to fuck or something."
You feel a lump form in your throat and you blink back your own tears. "I mean it," you promise her fervently. "I love you, Ani. I love every fucking part of you, from your fierce spirit to your broken places to this perfect, greedy little cunt."
Their words seem to be what Ani needs to hear to reach that delicious, mind-ruining peak. She comes undone with a sharp cry, her orgasm crashing over her like a tidal wave. Her pussy spasms and clenches around your tongue, gushing her release into your eager mouth. She tastes hot and wet, a little sweetness to it. You lap it up greedily, humming in satisfaction as you work her through her high.
As her tremors subside, Ani goes limp on the bed, her chest heaving with exertion. "Holy shit," she whispers, a dazed look on her face. "That was-I can't even..."
You crawl up her body and gather her into your arms, holding her close. Ani buries her face in the crook of your neck, breathing in the scent of your skin. You stroke her hair soothingly, letting her come down from her intense orgasm.
"Thank you," Ani murmurs, pressing a kiss to your jaw. "Thank you for seeing me. For not just wanting to fuck me and then throw me away. I'm not used to feeling so - I dunno, shit - appreciated? Worth something?"
You tilt her chin up and press your lips to hers in a deep, tender kiss. 
"You're worth everything," you tell her. You'll tell her over and over again until she believes it.
Ani kisses you back just as passionately, her tongue sliding against yours. Tasting her own cum in your mouth and all over your face. It's filthy and yet still so romantic. When you finally break apart, you see her cheeks are streaked with tears.
"I love you too, you know," Ani declares, a fierce look in her eyes. "You're stuck with me now. Hope you know that."
And it's true for your sex, but especially true as you build your lives together. So you repeat, "you guide where I go."
Anora shoves your shoulder for that, but you can tell she loves it. Eventually, she goes limp against the sheets, panting and flushed. She looks down at you with glazed eyes and a lazy grin. "Not bad for a study break, huh?" she giggles breathlessly. "We make a good fuckin' team."
Looking at the clock, you're not surprised to see you've gone madly overtime. Her pussy just does that to you. Burrowing in Anora's sweat-slicked chest, you groan. You're too exhausted to study now. "I'm gonna fucking fail this exam."
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ohnococo · 17 hours ago
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Sukuna x GN!Reader - Bubblegum
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You feel his gaze on your face, the same way you feel the warmth of the sunlight you’ve shut your eyes against. Then, the light is blocked though the warmth remains. You open your eyes and see one of Sukuna’s hands held high, blocking the sun for you.
Another hand plays with the hairs at the nape of your neck, smoothing his fingers over them, gaze so contented that you wonder if he realizes what his hands are doing. The touch is feather light, tickling enough to give you goosebumps, but you wouldn't dream of asking him to stop.
“You know, I’m expecting something for Valentine’s Day.”
“Hm?”
“I’m getting you something too.”
“This is still new to me. What exactly are you expecting?”
There’s a vulnerability in such an admission, to you at least. To Sukuna, it’s just fact. He’s in a new place, a new time, learning about what is and isn’t done culturally.
As though he sees the weight you’re piling on his words, he tilts his head towards you and clarifies. “I’d have asked for your preferences with these matters back then as well.”
But those words hold weight for you too, the idea that Sukuna might think of the two of you together even in a time so far from now.
“I don’t know… people usually gift things like teddy bears-“
“What use are they?”
“I guess they look cute, and you can cuddle them.”
He waves his hand through the air, as if physically slapping the idea down. “You cuddle me.”
You hold back a smile at that, moving on to the next suggestion. “Or chocolate?”
He considers it, but ultimately still seems unmoved. “I’ve always given you whatever sweets you’ve asked for.”
“You’ve never given me flowers.”
It seems to elicit the same reaction as the previous suggestions. “A cut flower has had its life ended, though it may be pretty it has no lasting value.”
“So no flowers then…”
“No bouquets. I would rather plant something for you. Then it will return to bloom year after year.”
It’s said as if it were a simple matter of practicality, but you feel the intention behind it and let it wash over you for a moment before you turn to him and ask, “What kind of flowers?”
He smiles, like the cat that got the cream, like a man who knows something you don’t. “Forget-me-nots.”
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toto-the-cactus · 24 hours ago
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A fun question for the girl dad Primarchs. How do they feel about finding out that their daughter has a space marine lover from another Chapter. (Like mother, like daughter. They saw a big man in armor and decided they wanted to climb that like a tree.)
Guess what anon? You got me writing shit.
Hope you like this family drama and especial mention to @jaghatai-khock who let me use his sweet blorbo Callahan to be inserted in this shit show.
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It was no secret that Lion El’jonson held a certain amount of irritation about anything that had to do with the Space Wolves Legion. Whether it was their own behavior or their beliefs that clashed with those of the Dark Angels Legion, it was a matter thrown out in the air for anyone to guess.
That’s why Eireen simply knew that the instant her father got wind of her meeting secretly with one the astartes that belonged to her uncle’s legion, hell will be brought upon her and, in consequence, making her already ermetic and busy schedule become even more unbearable.
Besides… it wasn’t like she was doing anything wrong!
It was a nice and friendly… meet up with someone that she had become quite close after a few conjoined campaigns that her father had with uncle Russ.
Cadoc had been a bit abrasive and loud the first time she met him, staying just respectful enough to not be considered rude or out of line. Her entourage of serfs had been scandalized when he had simply come up to her and asked for a sparring match to test her fighting skills out of genuine curiosity.
“This is probably one of the few chances I’ll get to spar with the trueborn of a Primarch. I’m really excited about it!” he had told her that day and, for a reason that still escapes her understanding, Eireen had felt her face burn at his words.
The redhead astartes had flashed a sharp smile back then, a challenge in that expression to try and get a reaction out of her and for the first time in her life… she felt like someone actually treated her as the warrior that she had been raised to be and not just some maiden to be protected.
Now? It became almost a ritual for them both to try some nice training session before deciding to take a nice break hidden behind the lush bushes of her mother’s garden. After some Dark Angels had ruined the flowers of the Lady of Caliban by walking alongside Eireen one morning, it had been nailed over everyone’s head that anyone wearing ceramite armor was forbidden to get close to the garden.
It was quite the convenience that the garden wasn’t so terribly far from the sparring arena.
Eireen had even memorized the schedule of it to make sure that no astartes of her father would see them both training.
For as much as the young lady felt like she wasn’t doing something criminal of any kind, even her mother had suggested to keep her little friendship hidden from her father until she knew how to tell him that her first ever friend (and crush) was a Space Wolf astartes.
“He can be a bit… overbearing sometimes, my dear. Especially if he thinks that this will be the perfect excuse for Leman to rush in and take you away from him” the look on her mother’s face said enough that even she found that logic a bit extreme and farfetched, but her next words almost made her scoff in disbelief. “He cares for you dearly and the idea of you going away scares him”
Eireen honestly felt like she was in her right to be skeptical about her father’s priorities when regarding her future.
All her life she had been reminded of the responsibilities she’ll have to carry on in the Imperium as the child of a Primarch. A weight that had been sitting over her neck ever since she could understand words.
But Cadoc was the one fresh gush of wind that she didn’t know she needed.
She could complain about her father and his astartes without looking like some traitor in the making. Instead of judgmental stares, the redhead marine would point out her mistakes in posture and correct them without belittling her worth.
‘I don’t want this to end’, she thought with a mix of joy and resignation.
“Hey!” he called her, finally pulling her out of her spiraling thoughts once a stalemate was met between the two when both battle axe and long sword didn’t yield a bit. “There was something I wanted to ask you but it also involves the Primarch and Legion Mother of the Dark Angels”
Oh no. That was going to be complicated.
“O-oh… Well… that’s going to…”
“EIREEN!”
Oh no no no no!
“Lion! By the damned throne, stop this nonsense!” and just right behind her father, there was her mother running with all her might to try and catch up with the Primarch.
“I’m not speaking with you, woman!”
Eireen admitted with some shyness that she had clumsily scrambled in panic to get back up from where she and Cadoc rested after their spar, a heavy weight dropping like a rock on her stomach at the scowl merring her father's face when looking over her friend.
The fact that the red-haired Space Wolf just smiled at her father after bowing his head in respect to the Primarch didn’t help at all.
“Eireen, you were supposed to be attending your diplomatic and history lessons” said the demigod in a strange mix of awkwardness and anger. It was easy to see how it took a lot of effort from him to not scoff when his eyes landed once again on her companion and friend. “Not lazing around here at your mother’s garden”
‘With him’ was the unsaid part of that sentence. Years of learned discipline were the only thing preventing the young girl from letting a very unladylike growl at how her father regarded the one single friend she had ever made.
“I… I had a few minutes free before my lessons, father” she defended, barely able to keep her stutter in check before her father scolded her for it. “I thought… I thought it wouldn’t be a bad idea to train my abilities with the long sword”
Lion opened his mouth ready to berate her for it (that was pretty obvious), but her mother interrupted just in time to save her from the awkwardness that was starting to build up between the few presents. It was a miracle that no Dark Angel had followed her parents here, but considering how stern the Lady of Caliban was when regarding her garden, Eireen counted her blessings by choosing this place as their hiding spot.
Small mercies.
“That’s very responsible of you, my love” it was amazing how easily her mother knew how to play with her father’s own methods and words against him. “Don’t you think, Lion? You always say that Eireen needs to practice her swordsmanship technique on the offensive. Even one of the astartes of your brother’s Legion is helping her!”
More than hearing, both ladies felt the rumble of a growl that begged to be free from the Primarch’s throat, who clearly didn’t find amusing being called out in his own hypocrisy.
“Enough of this disrespect! Eireen, go to your brother” said Lion after he managed to get a grip over his temper. “Callahan will make sure that you assist your lessons… without distractions”
Now it was the turn of the young lady to feel her face blush in embarrassment at the idea of being treated like she was still a toddler; one that needed to hold her brother’s hand all the time to find her way around everywhere they went.
“Actually! This is an excellent chance, my Lord and Lady. There was something important that I need to discuss”
That got everyone’s attention.
“Cadoc… what are you-”
“I wish to start my courting towards the Primarch’s daughter: Eireen”
The poor young girl swore that if more blood rushed to her face, she'd end up fainting on the spot.
The reaction of both her parents were quite a poem of different emotions; ranging from enraged shock to amazed confusion from both her father and mother respectively.
For a long moment, no one dared to even breathe too loud.
Eireen found herself staring straight at Cadoc’s face to try to see if this was some tasteless attempt of teasing from him… but the only thing that she managed to discover was a warm and peaceful look on his hardened expression when he stared at her back.
Oh, Grandfather almighty! She felt her heart flip inside her ribcage.
This was bad. Horrible bad timing too. The girl already saw the groundbreaking refusal her father was about to throw at Cadoc’s courting proposal.
“ABSOLUTELY…!”
“FINALLY!! JUST SAY YES TO HIM, EIREEN!”
And now, the poor girl could only cover her face in crushing embarrassment at the scream her brother had thrown while waiting for her at the edge of their mother’s garden.
How long had he been hearing?!
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sturniolohohoho · 2 days ago
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In Frame, In Fame, In Fate Part 1 - Roller Rink
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summary: nick, a complete stranger, walks up to you out of nowhere, pretending you're his friend to escape crazy fans. You become friends and you end up hanging out with the triplets at a roller rink, where you meet matt sturniolo... <3
c/w: Flirting, hand-holding, cursing, teasing, falling
requested by @mattsslvtzx
dividers by @anitalenia here
proofread by @lailasnight (tyssmmm!! <3)
word count: 1579
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Nick stood in the chip aisle, holding a sour cream and onion pringles can, awkwardly trying to avoid eye contact with the group of giggling teenagers who had been following him around the mall and grocery store, despite having already taken pictures with him. 
He wanted desperately to go home, but bringing a group of crazy fans straight to his address was the worst course of action. 
Suddenly, he spots you in the next aisle over. You had wavy midlength blue hair, a bunch of piercings, and rollerblades slung over your shoulder. Exactly the kind of girl Nick would love to be friends with anyway. He decides to just go for it, really wanting to escape the fans and head back home.
“Hey girl, I haven’t seen you in forever! How are you??” you look up, startled at first. He sends you a pleading look, eyes darting over at the ogling fans not too far away. You immediately catch on, smirking. 
“Oh my god hey…” “Nick,” he whispers. “Hey Nick, it's been so long!”
Nick lets out a relieved breath, shifting his weight as he steps closer to you, playing into the act. “Yeah, seriously! What’s it been, like… a year?”
You raise a brow, amused at his lack of commitment to the lie. “More like two,” you correct smoothly, tilting your head. “How’s your mom doing?”
Nick blinks, caught off guard. “Uh—great! Yeah, she’s, uh, doing really well.” He scratches the back of his neck, eyes flickering to the group of fans still watching from the end of the aisle. “Actually, I was just about to grab something for dinner. You wanna walk with me?”
You glance over at the fans and then back at Nick, your smirk widening. “Sure thing, old buddy. Let’s catch up.”
Looping your arm through his like you’ve done it a thousand times before, you tug him down the aisle, grabbing a random bag of chips off the shelf as you go. “So,” you say loudly, for the fans to hear. “Are we still on for that thing this weekend?”
Nick stares at you blankly for a second before quickly nodding. “Oh, totally. Wouldn’t miss it.”
You grin. “Great. You still vegan?”
Nick makes a face. “Never was.”
“Well, you are now.” You toss a bag of plant-based nuggets into his cart, and he snorts, finally relaxing a little.
The two of you continue strolling through the store, casually tossing items into his cart and making up ridiculous stories about your “long-lost friendship.” You can feel the fans watching, whispering amongst themselves, but they don’t approach, eventually seeming to leave.
As you reach the checkout, Nick leans in and mutters, “You’re a lifesaver.”
You shrug. “I know.”
Nick laughs, then tilts his head. “You should come hang sometime. My brothers would think you’re hilarious.”
You smirk. “I do make a great first impression.”
Nick snorts. “Yeah, okay.”
“Well, I guess I’ll see you sometime soon,” he says. “Yeah, see you soon!”
And that was not the last time you'd hang out with him.
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The second you step into the roller rink, you know exactly how this night was going to go. Nick had texted you a couple days after you met him, asking if you wanted to hang somewhere– you suggested the roller rink.
Nick drags behind the group, already making it clear he has no intention of actually skating. Chris is eyeing the rental counter like he's debating whether or not to commit to the chaos. And Matt? Matt is standing there with his arms crossed, trying way too hard to look confident.
“Are you sure you know how to skate?” you ask, smirking as you sling your rollerblades over your shoulder.
“Sure I do,” he says looking confident. “I used to roller blade when I was a kid.”
Nick laughed, “Yeah, that’s why you were watching tutorials in the car?”
Chris loses it. “Dude, no way.”
Matt glares. “I was refreshing my skills.”
You laugh, shaking your head. “Right. Well, let’s see what you’ve got, pro.” You drop onto one of the benches, lacing up your skates with practiced ease. “Unless you’re scared?”
You give him a wink, skating out onto the rink with practiced ease, picking up speed slowly as you roll around the rink. Matt and Chris tie up their shoes, joining you on the rink, unsteadily. 
Nick sits right on the edge pulling his camera out “Just to be clear, I’m not skating, just here for the entertainment and content."
“Hey you don’t mind if I film, right.” You look back at Nick, “Yeah, no problem.”
Chris skates over to you, surprisingly smoothly. Matt tries skating out onto the rink after him, immediately wobbling. You bite your lip, trying not to laugh as he moves unsteadily. 
“You good?” “Yeah,” he says quickly, trying to regain his balance. He takes a step forward. The second his weight shifts, his ankle gives out, and he flails wildly before catching himself on the back of the bench.
Nick cackles in the back, filming with his phone “HAHA! This was so worth coming for!”
Chris skates past, grinning. “You looked so confident five minutes ago, what happened?”
Matt glares at both of them before looking back at you. “Maybe I just need a—” he hesitates for half a second, then smirks, “—better teacher.”
You raise an eyebrow. “Oh? You need me to hold your hand, Matt?”
Matt shrugs, playing it cool. “If you insist.”
Nick chokes on a laugh. Chris skates past again and mutters, “Smooth.”
You shake your head but extend a hand anyway. “Alright, Matthew. Let’s see if you can stay on your feet.”
Matt takes your hand, and the second you pull him forward, he stumbles—right into you. His hands grip your arms, steadying himself, and when he looks up, there’s just the tiniest hint of pink on his face.
He blushes, letting go and standing himself up unsteadily. “Okay, just watch what I do,” you say, showing him how to push off each roller skate. He tries copying you, but stumbles again, as you steady him by grabbing his hand.
You don’t let go, slowly guiding him forward until you are both moving at a slow and steady pace. 
Matt stays quiet as you guide him, his grip on your hand firm. He’s trying so hard to act like he’s totally got this under control, but every time his balance wobbles, his fingers tighten around yours just a little.
Chris skates past, grinning. “Aww, look at you two. Adorable.”
Matt glares. “Shut up.”
Nick, still planted safely on the sidelines, smirks. “Nah, I’m enjoying this too much.”
“There you go,” you say, grinning. “Baby steps.”
Matt glares half-heartedly. “Don’t patronize me.”
Nick, watching from the sidelines, taking pictures. “I hope you know I’m never letting you live this down.”
Matt lets go of your hand, a little more confident. “Okay I think I’ve got this.” Just as he says the words, his legs slide out from under him and his arms flailing around, bringing you down with him.
There’s a brief moment of weightlessness before you both go down, limbs tangled, skidding across the rink floor in a mess of laughter and groans.
Chris howls with laughter. Nick finally puts his phone down, covering his mouth to muffle his snickering.
Matt groans, sprawled half on top of you. “Sorry… are you okay?” “Yeah, I’m good,” you say giggling. “I hate this stupid sport,” he mutters.
He got up, face completely red. “Ugh can we go get Mcdonalds or something? I’m done with this.”
Chris skates to the edge of the rink, getting ready to pack up. “Okay, let's go,” says Nick following Chris out of the rink.
You and Matt are left in the rink, slowly making your way to the edge. 
“Um, thanks for trying to teach me by the way.” You give him a sweet smile. “No problem”
As you step off the rink, Matt’s grip on your hand lingers, just a second too long. His fingers brush against yours before he finally lets go, almost reluctantly.
“You sure you weren’t holding my hand for other reasons?” you tease, tilting your head with a smirk.
Matt huffs a quiet laugh, looking away for a moment before glancing back at you. “Wouldn’t you like to know?”
Your smirk widens. “Oh, I would.”
He exhales, shaking his head with a small smile. “I swear I’m not usually this bad at skating.”
You grin. “I don’t know, you seemed pretty natural at falling.”
He groans, rubbing the back of his neck. “Right. So that’s what I’m gonna be remembered for.”
You nudge his arm. “Could be worse.”
Matt watches you for a beat, like he’s debating saying something else, but instead, he just smirks. “Guess I’ll have to give you something better to remember me by next time.”
Your brows lift. “What?”
His smirk twitches, almost sheepish now. “Next time. Y’know. If you’re up for it.”
You pretend to consider it, then grin. “Only if you promise to stop falling on me next time.”
Matt laughs, nudging your shoulder. “No promises.”
And as you both head toward the rental counter, you get the feeling you wouldn’t want him to.
“HURRY UP, LOVEBIRDS!” Chris yells from the other room, making exaggerated kissing noises.
Matt rolls his eyes, his face a little red, and calls back, “SHUT UP, CHRIS, YOU’RE AN IDIOT.”
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a/n: well well welll thats the end of part 1!!! the fake instagram post took me WAY too long so i hope this does well.
also thank you @mattsslvtzx for this amazing request i would've never though of the idea
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leaawrites · 2 days ago
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All I got is you
Eli Hewson x fem!reader
Summary: In which, they both got what they wanted for so long. Each other.
Warnings: pining, fluff,
Wordcount: 1.2k
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The apartment was quiet only the clutter of the dishes in the sink keeping his thoughts from drifting too far away from reality. The bottle grew warm in his hands as Eli was sat on the couch, watching the dark screen of the TV. Soft music was playing in the background. Grounding him for a second in time before the morning would come again and the stress of the new album would return.
His eyes flew over the room. The dirty plates were cleaned and put away hours ago, when everyone was still around. They’d done it together. It was one of the first conversation they had that evening, besides the usual greetings.
It was a get together, a quiet evening, to find peace in all the chaos and catch up with old friends who were left behind the last couple of months because of the album. She had offered to stay a bit longer than the others to help him clean up and then he got a text from Bobby: ‘It’s your chance, man’
Sighing and throwing his head back at the thought of what this meant now, Eli let his eyes wander further. Her shoes were still messily thrown on the floor in front of the door. Footsteps came nearer and soon enough, she plopped down next top him. Right in the middle of his vision.
“You alright, rock star?” she asked, giggling slightly at his tired look and lulled back head.
“All’s good,” he answered, not looking away from her.
“What’s on your mind then?” The room went quiet and for a moment he thought that dying would be better than speaking in that moment. So much could go wrong, so much could fall apart. But Rob’s words still hung in his head and the other lads agreement were slow backing vocals he couldn’t get rid off.
‘She likes you too, man,’ Rob said on one late evening in the studio as they tried figuring out a section of a song.
‘How would you know?’
‘Talked to her the other night and well, she said, that you were way too cool for her. I guess that say enough.’
‘What you talking about?’ Ryan came in just as Eli was about to answer and dismiss Rob’s words. Sitting down next to them with fresh coffee in his hands, Josh carrying in the other two cups.
‘Eli fancies Y/n and he doesn’t want the possibility to be true that she likes him back,’ Rob answered, making Eli groan in frustration of his words. They were true, still haunting.
‘Oh, she definitely likes you,’ Josh cut into the conversation. ‘Why else would she willingly spent two months on tour with us?’
‘Because we’re all friends?’ Eli suggested.
‘Because she wants you to notice her as more than that,’ Ryan corrected him.
‘Think about it,’ they all said before going back to the song, but his mind was still stuck there.
He was still stuck in the same conversation as she sat down next to him, watching with curiosity of what was going through his head, when all he was thinking about was her. She wanted it to know too, when she couldn’t forget the way they laughed together earlier that evening and how he didn’t ask her to leave yet.
It had to be something, right?
It had to mean something more than boredom to him, right?
“Do you ever -” Eli started, looking away and down to his fingers. “Have you ever thought of doing the most stupid thing in your life that you hope you won’t regret?”
“How do you mean that?”
“Nothing, it’s stupid,” he pushed the question away.
“No, it’s not. What are you talking about?”
“What if one person is all I have in life but I don’t even know if I have that person fully?”
“You’re in love?” she guessed, averting her gaze from him now too. If he was to confess, she didn’t want to see his face while thinking about it. She couldn’t see the happiness in his eyes if it wasn’t because of her.
“I guess, yes. I just-” he swallowed hard like the words he wanted to say were ought to be put away, still they came tumbling out seconds later. “I can’t stop thinking about what life would be like if- if I got to call her more than a friend.”
“We’ve been friends for so long and I don’t think I’ve ever seen you like that before,” she joked, nudging his shoulder and trying to lighten the tension that hung between them.
“They say the prey is always the most oblivious.”
Silence.
He was met with nothing but silence and it seemed like they were back at the beginning. Back then, when she was too shy to talk to him properly and every time he tried to make conversation it wouldn’t last longer than a few sentences.
“What?”
“All I got is you and I don’t know what to think of it,” he said, turning to her. Cursing himself for trusting Rob when seeing the shocked look all over her face. “What do you think about it?”
“I’d call it old news,” she started, heart thumbing in her chest, “but I wouldn’t mind being called more than your friend.”
“Old news, huh?” He laughed, recalling the conversation once more, laughing at the version of him who was too afraid to admit anything to even his closest friends. “Well, new headline: What about I call you mine from now on?” Winking at the end of her sentence and cringing at his own words, but it came to his head and at that moment he wasn’t afraid of saying anything anymore.
Doubling over in response and laughing at his attempt of flirting like they were strangers in a bar, she couldn’t help herself but lean forward. Closer to him.
As out of instinct, Eli wrapped his arms around her waist, pulling her into his lap as he started laughing too. Holding her close and letting himself fall into the melody of her happiness. He couldn’t believe himself, but it worked better than he could’ve imagined. Because now, she was laying in his lap, looking up at him with the biggest smile he had ever seen directed towards him.
“I wouldn’t mind being yours,” she whispered, cradling his neck and pulling him down. Closer to her face, closer to her lips. Until they met and all fear was forgotten between them.
It was just them now, in an empty apartment late at night with the whole city asleep. Letting themself love the other uncontrollably for the first time in their lives. And neither planned on stopping anytime soon.
Definitely not when they pulled away and smiles spread on both their faces at just the other being so close. Her hands running through his hair, slightly tucking at the ends to make him notice her want for more. She wanted him and wanted her.
They were all they needed.
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nahisummerhold · 1 day ago
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Emotional Lock Down
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Daily Writing Challenge
February 2025
Day Two - Cage
“So your new house is coming together,” Jamis said she had been telling him about it since she got it. The towering ex-Argent healer and therapist continued, “Are you glad you bought it? 
Nahi hadn’t seen him since they went on leave, but she was experiencing a lot recently and no longer knew exactly who to talk to. Or even what it was that she felt she needed to share… that was it wasn’t it? She felt she couldn’t share with almost anyone…. Nahi smiled and nodded, noticing a fleck of paint on her nail, she thought she got all of it off. Maybe a new scrub for her shower or a nail brush.
Jamis cleared his throat, “The house?”
Blinking up at him, “Hmm? Oh yes! It is not much but I love it and I don’t need much space anyway. It is really lovely, I have been making some changes to make it more me.”
Picking up a mug of kava and nudging another at Nahi, they were in a little place up on a hill in Dornagal where there was as much privacy as they could find in neutral ground. Stone chairs were not very comfortable, but talking with him was never comfortable but that was the nature of the work she was doing, “Your messages have been coming more often lately. Going to guess it  is not the house troubling you.” 
“Well,” a dark hand reached out to tug the handle of her mug to her, then she used a single finger to push the mug by the handle in a circle on the table, “there are a lot of changes lately in my life.” He said nothing, just waiting for her to talk about why she wanted to meet, not just text. “I met with Iren.” That night bothered her more than just introducing one of her lovers to her step-father, the meeting she needed to deal with, but that wasn’t something she needed his help with, handling Je’champe would be done on her own.
His hand came up and rubbed his beard, “Tell me how that went.”
Uncrossing and recrossing her legs at her ankles, her proper posture a habit, “It was great, I was going to tell him about the house, that I was going to live in the city when I didn’t have gigs.”
“But not that you are part of the company,” he said, guessing that caveat. 
“No,” she said, it was one of the things she hadn't done that Jamis suggested. “He has enough to worry about with my mother, he said she is fading more.”
Jamis took a drink and looked into her eyes, her legs bounced nervously, and then she went on, “I don’t want him to worry more, maybe after…”
“After your mother dies.” He finished, “You know her death will not undo all the fucked up shit she put in your head right? It might even get worse. What happens when she dies and you have complicated feelings about it. Will you just lock those away in that place with your other emotions?”
She looked at him, aghast, a trembling started in her shoulders, and her lips parted, tears filled the inner corners of her eyes, picking up the purple in the reflection as well as some gold from the candle on the table. A defiant tip of her chin drew her head up, her bottom lip shook, then she took a deep breath through her nose and every sign of her impending breakdown locked away. 
“Just… like… that…” he stated. “Nahi, you need to fix this, you need to unlock your emotions, it is alright to be mad, sad, happy, enraged, despondent, ecstasy, fear, surprise. Any of the thousands of emotions we feel on a regular basis.” He let his words of permission sit so that maybe they would take root, “You have them, I have seen them in your eyes, in the things we talk about, you just don’t trust letting anyone see them.”
Nahilvi took a shuddering breath, “I show emotion, they are not all locked away. I am making friends, letting people close.”
He looked her over, more than a hint of interest in his gaze, letting her continue as he took a drink of the hot liquid. 
“Have even been getting to know people inside of the company,” she said, with a hint of ‘I am doing it ok!’ To her tone,
“Of all the people in the company, who would you consider as a friend?” He asked her. 
The first was an easy answer, “Tinn, maybe Fio, they know more about me except Nara, but she is different.” After that she hesitated. “I like others too, but I have trouble defining connections with them.”
Jamis nodded, “What about these people outside the company?”
“There are the Commanders of the guard, Kelz’thalas B’andtherion and Allasticus B’andtherion, I like them and have had both over to the house. Lynesse, who you know, I have been working in the Shielded Mind with her training me. There is a man that knows some people in the company, you might even know him, Sol Cindersong and some people Naralinthe knows around the city.” She was rattling off names quickly but after the first few some of the warmth in her tone faded a bit.
“Very nice little list, did you just rattle off most of the people you know in the city now?” He watched her lower her eyes, “In some ways you are much younger than your years, Nahilvi.”
That drew a scowl and harsh huff, “I am fucking tired of that thought.”
A smile curved his lips, “Others have said something? Well, you are older than many in some ways too, just ways you choose not to show. Now that list? I am going to guess that you haven’t really spent meaningful time with any of them.”
 “Tinn has come over and we have chatted, so have the B’andtherions, I still spend time with others in the city, always nice to see those in the company, and the volunteering at the clinic a couple times a week.” Nahi rattled off the information for him like they were accomplishments on a resume, a resume of being an emotionally open person.
Jamis held up a hand, “Quite an accomplishment letting people into your space, that is a good step,” truth hung in his words, he wasn’t patronizing her.“Before we meet again, which I would recommend next week because I really need to get out of the house, the kids are driving me crazy. “A bright grin could be seen through the heavy beard.  “I want you to do something, now that you feel you are making actual friends, not just acquaintances, I want you to write down things that are personal that you have told them, and consider what the word ‘friend’ means to you. You spend a lot of time with certain people but I do not hear you call them friends, so show me what emotional openness you use to connect to the ones you call friends.” 
“Homework, why is it always homework with you?” Nahi said, letting the tension she was still holding go with a joke. 
Jamis just looked at her, not amused, her humor didn’t often hit with him either. “Because you work daily to change, not just when we are together.”
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@kharrisdawndancer @fio-renze @themadamelioness @kelzthalasbandtherion @allasticus @gloamingdawn @solstryce )
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nagichi-boop · 2 days ago
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A Star That’s Out of Reach (Chapter 15)
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I’ll be honest, I have no comments to add. But what I will say is I can’t be bothered to wait to post the next chapter cuz I don’t wanna leave y’all on a cliffhanger (spoilers I guess?), so I’ll be posting the next one promptly. Please enjoy!
TW — Trauma flashbacks
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Amy hummed as she cleaned her house, excited for the day ahead of her. Blaze and Silver had gone out to meet with some of the members of the Resistance, so she had some time to herself. Most of all, she couldn’t wait to meet Shadow later now that things were more settled between them. If this continued, it wouldn’t be long before they started dating officially, at least in her eyes.
Amy paused her activity as the floor began to tremble beneath her, the items in her house shaking. She wondered for a moment if there was an earthquake, but that question was dispelled as she noticed a beam of light pierced through her window. She shielded her eyes, then looked up to see what was happening. As her eyes adjusted, she watched as the Chaos Emerald that Shadow had left with her began floating towards the light, shattering her window. She lunged towards it and took hold of it, but whatever was drawing the Emerald out was stronger than her and she instead floated outside her house, clinging to the Emerald. After staring in disbelief at the ground that were several meters below her, she looked towards the source of light.
“Eggman!” She yelled in anger, not entirely surprised to see him as the cause. “Let go of me!”
“You’re the one clinging to the Emerald,” Eggman quipped back. “Surrender the Emerald or you’ll be coming with me.”
“Absolutely not,” Amy replied, tightening her grip on the Emerald. She glanced at her destination – a reinforced cage that was by no means intended to fit her. But she refused to let go, not after Shadow had entrusted the Emerald to her. She swung and placed her feet against the cage, trying to leverage herself to push away from it, but the Emerald would not stop in its path. She became jammed in the cage with barely any wriggle room, then the gate slammed behind her.
“Very well,” Eggman spoke with a level of disapproval. “I suppose I’ll find a way to deal with you.” With that, Eggman’s pod zoomed off with Amy and the Emerald in tow.
Meanwhile in Tails’ workshop, one of his gadgets pinged at him. He approached it, picking the tablet up. “Uhh Sonic?” Tails spoke up in a worried tone, capturing Sonic’s attention. “You know how you told me it was fine to leave that Chaos Emerald with Amy?”
Sonic raised an eyebrow. He hadn’t told Tails how it came into Amy’s possession, but just that she was perfectly capable of protecting it. “Yeah, I remember that. What’s up?”
Tails turned and replied; “It’s on the move. And not just that, it’s moving unnaturally fast. I think someone might have taken it.”
Sonic placed a hand on his hip and sighed. “I suppose that was bound to happen eventually. We should go fetch it in case someone like Eggman got it.”
Tails hesitated for a moment. “Do you think maybe Shadow took it? I know he and Rouge were there when we got that Emerald.” Just as quick as Tails asked, Sonic shook his head.
“Nah, I doubt even Shadow would stoop that low,” he deflected. “Come on, we need to go after it. For all we know, Amy could be caught up in the mess already.” The two of them then swiftly left the workshop with a sense of urgency, following the direction of Tails’ tablet. Just as they were mentally changing track to mission-mode, Sonic was stopped in his tracks by something. Tails stopped and turned, and as the dust settled, saw that Metal Sonic had appeared to battle Sonic. The latter glanced at Tails, then called out.
“Go, get Shadow! I’ll handle this lump of junk. Tell him Amy might be in trouble!” Though confused at the suggestion, Tails nodded and flew off in search of the other hedgehog, leaving Sonic to fend for himself against his metal counterpart. After a short while of panicked flying, Tails thankfully found Shadow laying in a field. There was no time to question why, so he landed and tried to catch his breath so he could speak. Before he could, Shadow sat up with a confused expression.
“Tails? Why are you out here?” Shadow’s tone sounded somewhat sharp, but it wasn’t intended. Thankfully, Tails was too flustered to notice or care.
He took a deep breath and spoke. “We think Eggman took one of the Chaos Emeralds! Me and Sonic were on our way to get it, but Metal Sonic stopped him. We need your help!”
Shadow didn’t respond for a moment. “Why do you need me?”
“Sonic sent me. He told me to say Amy might be in trouble.”
Shadow’s eyes widened and it occurred to him that perhaps the Emerald that was taken was the one she was protecting. Without a second thought, he stood up and began running, with Tails following behind him.
Eggman closed the cell door with Amy trapped inside, holding the Emerald proudly in his hand. “You really aren’t the brightest, are you? I had the mercy to allow you to go, but you stubbornly refused. And for what? To end up in a cell once again?”
Amy clutched the cell bars, scowling. “I couldn’t just sit idly by and let you take the Emerald from under my nose! Besides, I know I won’t be in here long.”
Eggman snickered mockingly. “Aww, you mean your precious Sonic?” Amy’s eyes widened. For the first time, Sonic wasn’t who she was thinking would save her – it was Shadow. She dared not say anything, but she looked away with reddened cheeks. To her annoyance, Eggman laughed even louder, which to her was just obnoxious. “Don’t think I hadn’t thought of that. You’ve been in this position enough times for me to prepare for the eventuality. I already dispatched Metal Sonic to deal with the rodent. And don’t bother with the bars – I reinforced them so that not even you could bend them.” Eggman then walked off, continuing to laugh to himself at his apparent victory.
Amy sighed, letting go of the bars. She backed away and sat against the wall, hugging her legs. For whatever reason, she felt more defeated than usual. She truly believed that if he knew, Shadow would rescue her in an instant. But how would he even find out? It wasn’t like he was in the same social circles as her. She glanced at the empty space beside her, as if doing so would cause him to suddenly appear. She teared up a little, burying her face in her knees.
Shadow and Tails arrived at the back of Eggman’s base. Before he could barge in, Tails stopped Shadow. “We can’t just storm in,” Tails insisted, causing Shadow to stop and listen. “Eggman no doubt will expect us to come after him, so we need a plan.” Shadow folded his arm, a serious expression on his face. He was impatient to save Amy, but agreed that rushing in was a poor move. “So how do you suggest we do that?”
Tails landed on front of Shadow, placing his hand in his chin while he thought. “Well, Eggman sent Metal out to stop Sonic, which suggests he knew Sonic would come after him.” Tails then looked up at Shadow. “But I’m sure he’s not expecting you.”
“I suppose. So what do you want me to do?”
Tails paused for a moment. “Actually, I think Rouge might be able to help. Not only will we have numbers on our side, but she is particularly qualified to help in this mission.”
Shadow frowned a little. “And what about Amy?”
Tails looked towards the base. “We still don’t know for sure what happened to her, but we best look around just in case. I can’t imagine that she would’ve let the Emerald go without a fight.”
“Rouge isn’t working today. Go to her and explain the situation. I’ll wait here.” Tails nodded and left Shadow. When he was out of sight, Shadow turned attention to the base. Though he understood where Tails was coming from, he couldn’t bear to wait any longer if there was any chance Amy was in danger. Using the Chaos Emerald at his disposal, he teleported within the base. He quietly wandered around, not finding anything odd at first beside a few Eggbots, which were easily defeated. Frustratingly, the base was large enough that exploring it took a great deal of time.
He eventually found himself in an eerily quiet room, so he entered with caution after scanning the room for potential dangers. He explored the panel of controls, but couldn’t make head or tails of what any of it did. Before he could properly explore, a beam of light pointed at him, he snarled and looked towards it squinting, then realised his Chaos Emerald was being drawn out with it. He grasped it, but couldn’t divert its path. He tried Chaos Control, but that didn’t work, either. So instead of trying to stop the Emerald, he looked to find the source. He found what looked like a projector, so he jumped and launched Chaos Spears at it, but to his annoyance the beam absorbed this energy too. When he landed, he heard what sounded like a pressure plate being activated. Before he could react to it though, a pod encapsulated him, trapping him inside. A sudden dread gripped Shadow and he found himself unable to break out, despite desperately pounding on the glass. He hadn’t felt this level of panic since…
He looked back at the panel of controls, but it was no longer the room he was in before – it was the ARK. Maria was on the floor by the controls, her breathing weak and laboured. He stared in panic at the sight and began pounding on the glass again, screaming her name. She turned to face him with messy hair and darkened eyes. To his horror, she smiled in her disheveled state, filling Shadow with an intense fear. He sank down in the pod as his strength left him, starting to gasp for air.
The glass around him shattered, causing him to cower in a ball. He heard footsteps and voices around him, but it all sounded muffled yet intense to him. It seemed as though someone was talking to him, but he kept his eyes shut and his hands over his ears: whatever was happening, he couldn’t face it. He was jolted by a hand on his shoulder, and without thinking he slashed whatever it was away. A brief moment of clarity came through and he saw a panicked Amy beside him, frozen in fear. The look of terror on her face only confused and frightened him more, and he found himself struggling to breathe.
A muffled voice spoke to him from in front of him. He slowly focused his attention to it, now seeing Rouge kneeling in front of him. “There he is,” she spoke softly, the first clear phrase that Shadow picked up on. “You’re okay, Shadow. Nothing bad is happening. Let’s focus, okay?” Through teary eyes, Shadow followed her directions. She instructed him to observe what was around him, and gradually he felt himself settle. When he had sufficiently calmed down, he rested in Rouge’s arms, letting out a tired sigh. She gently held for a moment, allowing him to compose himself before attempting to bring him back to the matter at hand.
Rouge glanced over at Amy, who had an expression of deep upset on her face. With a heavy heart, she offered a suggestion to her. “Perhaps you should go help the boys get the Emeralds back.” Amy’s eyes widened with hurt, but after hesitating for a moment, she got up and ran out of the room. Shadow opened his eyes and glanced as she left the room, and before he could muster a word to say to stop her, she was gone.
Amy caught up to Sonic and Tails mid fight. In the chaos of Eggman trying to retrieve the Emerald Tails had, Amy spotted the other was unguarded. She quietly crept up to it and picked it up, but the moment she did a metallic hand grasped her and lifted her. The commotion caught everyone’s attention, and the distraction gave Eggman a chance to knock down Sonic and Tails.
“You fools,” he belted proudly. “You think I’d let you get the Chaos Emeralds that easily?” Sonic watched as Amy squirmed and just as he was about to stand to rescue her, Eggman pinned him and Tails to the ground with another robotic arm. He then extended his hand and spoke; “Surrender the Chaos Emeralds and I’ll let your lover go.”
Before anyone had a chance to act, a blur of light moved around the room faster than anyone could track, breaking things along the way. Amy was freed from the arm’s grip, but landed in someone’s arms before she had the chance to hit the ground. When she opened her eyes, she realised it was Shadow who had saved her. Rouge hovered beside them with the other Emerald, smirking proudly at Eggman.
“Alright boys,” Rouge piped up. “Time to go.” Eggman was about to launch an attack, but quickly became distracted as a siren sounded and an alert appeared on his monitor. In his distraction, Sonic spin-dashed into him and knocked him down. When he got back up, he noticed everyone had left, sending him into a fit of rage. After making it a fair distance from the base, the group stopped to compose themselves. Shadow looked at Amy, noting the apprehension on her face. Without saying a word, he got her back on her feet.
“Is everyone okay?” Sonic asked, which was met with a series of nods and hums. “Did we get the Emeralds?” Rouge proudly held the green Chaos Emerald, while Tails showed the red one. Sonic sighed in relief. “Looks like we got what we came for then.”
Rouge landed beside Shadow and offered him the Emerald. “Go home, Shadow. You need to rest.” Shadow glanced at the Emerald, not even looking at Rouge. He took it carefully, then quietly uttered Chaos Control and disappeared. She then turned her attention to Amy, glancing at her before addressing Sonic and Tails. “You boys go home. I need to talk to Amy.”
Tails was about to object, but to his surprise, Sonic swiftly agreed. “Alrighty then. Make sure to get her home safe!” He then coaxed Tails to come with me and they departed, leaving the two girls alone.
Rouge turned to Amy, looking at her saddened expression. “Did he hurt you?” Amy shook her head, then sighed and began walking. Rouge stood in place for a moment as she figured out the best approach for this situation, then flew and took her place next to Amy. The two of them were quiet for a while before Amy finally spoke up.
“I feel awful,” she admitted, causing Rouge to look at her, though the latter didn’t yet speak. “I just wanted to help him and instead I made him even more scared.” “Oh hun, don’t beat yourself up over it,” Rouge comforted with a concerned expression. “You wanted to help him and he knows that.”
“Does he though?” Amy countered. “He couldn’t even look at me for more than a second.”
Rouge sighed, unsure how to respond. She doubted that Shadow was upset with her – he was more likely to be upset at himself. But would Amy believe that if she told her? “Before you jump to conclusions, please promise me you’ll talk to him first. I’d hate to see a misunderstanding ruin what you two have. I don’t think I’ve seen Shadow happier than when he’s been with you.”
Amy looked up at her, a little flattered and a little unbelieving. “You really think so?” Rouge smiled patiently. “Sweetie, I know so. I’m sure its killing him to think he’s hurt you.”
Amy glanced to the ground, still not entirely convinced. “I just wish I could have helped him.”
Rouge flew in front of Amy, stopping her in her tracks. “Amy, listen to me. You love Shadow, right?” Amy nodded. “And he loves you very much, painfully so. But I mean this with all the affection in the world, Shadow isn’t easy. Even I struggle to get him to open up most of the time. I adore him to pieces and would do anything for him, but I also know that he carries a lot of scars that makes him close himself off. But ever since he has been with you, I’ve seen a change in him. He is still very much keeps to himself, but he seems to be opening himself up to others more. And with you especially, he seems to be letting happiness in.” Rouge sighed, a serious yet conflicted look on her face. “I don’t mean to pressure you into staying with him. If what happened to you puts you off the idea, I completely understand. But as his friend, I would be remiss if I didn’t at least try to fight for his happiness. So please, please don’t make any rash decisions. Just talk to him and be honest, if for no other reason than your own peace of mind.”
Amy didn’t say anything, silently taking in her request. Rouge stared at her, realising she had perhaps overloaded her.
“Sorry hun,” Rouge spoke up. “I didn’t mean to overload you. Take some time to yourself to destress, then think about what I said when you’re ready. Just promise you won’t make any rash decisions about this, okay?” Amy smiled weakly and nodded, prompting a relieved sigh from Rouge. The two of them silently continued to Amy’s house. Once there, Amy thanked Rouge and entered.
Rouge then went home, the rooms extremely quiet. As she expected, Shadow had gone to bed, facing the wall. She flew up and gently tapped him on the shoulder. “Do you want to talk?” She asked in a soft, gentle voice, but Shadow didn’t move nor speak. “Alright. I’m here if you need me. Sleep well, Shadow.”
Rouge left the room, and as the door closed, the room was enveloped in darkness. Shadow stared at the wall, but gradually felt a sadness welling in his chest. He covered his mouth and curled up more, quietly weeping to himself.
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𝐎𝐧𝐞 𝐃𝐚𝐲. 𝐌𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐞.
plot: henry is always here for his best friend, but everyone reaches their breaking point eventually. but maybe, just maybe, this is for the best.
pairing: henry hart x fem!reader
show: henry danger
warnings: light mentions of blood, cuts and bruises; implied domestic violence but nothing graphic; henry swearing when he’s pissed off (listen, that boy swears a lot and you can’t convince me of the opposite). also, the part in italics is a flashback from henry's pov.
word count: 6,8k
author’s notes: english isn’t my first language, apologies for the possible mistakes. this piece is inspired by the song Hard from Why Don’t We, and i guess a little bit by the song Treat You Better from Shawn Mendes, so i suggest you listen to the songs beforehand to get the vibe of the story, or read the lyrics to know what it’s about. it takes place around season five of henry danger, to give you an idea of how old the characters are. also, it’s implied that the reader is in a bad relationship, it might be triggering for some people so read it to your own discretion. and if you ever need anyone to talk to, my dms are always open.
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Henry lays wide awake in his bed, looking up at the ceiling above him. His hands are flat on his stomach as he lays on his back, pulling his bottom lip between his teeth. He knows it’s late at night and that he’ll probably regret it in the morning, aware that he’ll have to wake up around 7 if he doesn’t want to be late for school again. He just can’t seem to get her out of his head. Every day and every night, she plagues his every thought; Y/N, his best friend since kindergarten. 
When he’s at school, she’s on his mind. When he’s at work, she’s on his mind. When he lays alone in bed at night, she’s on his mind. No matter what he’s doing, or where he is, she’s always in a corner of his mind. Always. It doesn’t help that she goes to the same school and works in the same place; he’s always catching sight of her, even when she isn’t looking. He doesn’t know how anyone hasn’t said anything to him, or how she hasn’t noticed him staring, because he isn’t the most subtle person in the world when it comes to his feelings for her. He always gets sidetracked when she enters a room, his eyes always linger on her when she walks away, his cheeks always flare up when she smiles, and when she stands close to him, he always pretends to accidentally brush his hand against hers, craving the warmth of her skin against his. Perhaps he is better at hiding his feelings than he thought he’d be; either way, he doesn’t mind. If his feelings are unacknowledged by the people around him, it makes it easier to push down those feelings, forever wondering if they’ll go away; if it’ll hurt less every time she walks away.
Henry lets out a sigh, turning on his side to check the time on his bedside clock. The bright red numbers display 12:15 in the morning, and he groans, burying his face in his pillow out of frustration. He knows he won’t get enough sleep to get himself through the day and that he’ll probably fall asleep in class at some point, and he hates it. He doesn’t really know when his sleep schedule became fucked up; if it had been when he first became Kid Danger when he was thirteen, or if it were since he first realized he had feelings for Y/N. Perhaps a little bit of both, he thinks. He did choose to become Captain Man’s sidekick, but he certainly didn’t choose to fall in love with his best friend. He hates it, but there isn’t much he can do about it; even if he tries to push his feelings away, they’ll always come back to bite him in the ass. It doesn’t help that Y/N already has a boyfriend and, granted, Henry hates the guy, but Y/N seems happy with him so Henry thinks it’s all that matters. If she is happy, then he is happy for her. At least, that’s what he told himself when she first began dating the guy; he went back on his words when he realized he loved her.
Henry closes his eyes as he sighs again, remembering the night when he admitted to himself that he was in love with Y/N. She hadn’t shown up to his birthday party that his parents had thrown, which was unlike her and it had him worried the whole night. Until she showed up, at midnight, on his front porch. 
Y/N is standing there, with tears in her eyes as she looks up at him. Her arms are wrapped around herself in a hug, as if she were trying to shield herself from the cold air of the night. Henry doesn’t know what to say, still mad that she wasn’t there for his birthday party, but his anger dissolves into nothing when his eyes drift to the red tear stains on her cheeks. He holds his breath as a sob rushes past her lips, and his arms find her waist to hold her up when her knees almost give out under her weight. He leads her inside, closing the front door behind him with the heel of his foot, and he helps her up to his room where she sits on his bed. 
Henry doesn’t have to say anything as he sits next to her and she rests her head on his shoulder, but he is smart enough to understand. He feels his chest tighten when his mind makes him think about what might have happened, that perhaps her boyfriend had laid a hand on her, and he tilts his head downward to look at her. He shivers at the thought, swallowing the growing lump in his throat. He knows it hasn’t been long since she started dating this guy from high school, about a month or two, but she seemed happy with him, and Henry frowns when he thinks about it. His hands move to hold the sides of her face as he shifts in his spot to be facing her, and his eyes flicker to the fading bruise in the corner of her left eye. His frown deepens, not remembering ever seeing a bruise on her face before, but his features soften when tears begin to roll down her cheeks the second his eyes drift back to hers, holding her gaze in his. He uses his thumbs to wipe the tears away, worry flashing in his eyes. Warmth spreads through his muscles when her hands find his wrists, and she wraps her fingers around them to ground herself. Her hands are cold, but her skin is soft against his, and his heart flutters in his chest. Another sob leaves her lips, and Henry moves his hands to wrap his arms around her shoulders to pull her close to him. 
“Wanna tell me what happened?” He whispers softly, resting his cheek against the top of her head.
Y/N shakes her head a little, further burying it into his chest as she grips the hem of his shirt, her tears forming wet patches against the cotton fabric. Her shoulders tremble with every sob that leaves her body, but Henry keeps her close to him, using his hands to draw soothing circles against her back. He closes his eyes as he begins to rock their bodies back and forth gently, until her sobs die down and he can hear the slow pace of her breath and her soft sniffles. She’s the one to pull away from him, using the palm of her hand to wipe away her runny nose, and her lips break into an embarrassed smile as she looks down in her lap. One of her hands reaches for something in the pocket of her coat, and Henry tilts his head in confusion when she hands him a small white box with a silver ribbon on it.
“Happy birthday Hen.” Y/N whispers hoarsely, looking at him with a small smile on her lips. 
He smiles then, taking the box from her and unraveling the ribbon before he carefully opens the lid. He recognizes what it is; she has the same one, and she gifted one to Jasper and Charlotte too, on their respective birthdays. It’s a permanent chain silver bracelet, one Y/N says is supposed to represent their friendship. Henry knew he would get one from her eventually, because she’d gifted one to their friends, he just didn’t think she’d gift it to him on his eighteenth birthday.
“I love it.” He tells her, smiling.
She smiles back. “C’mon, I’ll help you put it on.”
Henry can still see the sadness in her eyes, and the fading purple bruise in the corner of her eye, but he lets her take the chain bracelet and the pair of cutting pliers provided in the kit. He extends his right arm in front of him, and she puts the silver bracelet around his wrist, using the pliers to cut the chain. He observes as she concentrates herself on sealing the bracelet, making sure it’s not too tight so that it sits comfortably on his wrist. He watches her, and his heart flutters in his chest when her fingers brush against his skin, sending shivers down his spine and he can feel the heat flushing his cheeks. His eyes drift to her face, and he sees that she’s slightly poking her tongue out in concentration, licking her lips after taking a deep breath. His heart begins to race in his chest, and the butterflies flutter in his stomach when she brings the palm of her hand against his to analyze her work on the silver chain. He holds his breath when she glances up to him through her eyelashes, a soft smile on her lips. He hears her let out a small chuckle when he looks away from her, knowing his cheeks are probably as red as a tomato, but he can’t help it; she looks beautiful, wrapped in her black coat and with her hair falling on each side of her face, eyebrows turned into a focused frown as she focuses on the permanent bracelet again. She shifts positions, and her knees touch his, sending a wave of warmth through his muscles. He loves having her close to him, in the comforting silence of his room. He loves observing her, and the little things she does that only he seems to notice. He loves the way her hand feels against his when her palm is pressed against his, and he has to fight the urge to intertwine their fingers together. His eyes drift from their hands to her face again, lingering on her lips a little too long, and he thinks about how it would feel like to taste them; to have his lips against hers, to be kissing her. 
He blinks, reminding himself that she already has a boyfriend, that he cannot be in love with her, and he is pulled away from his thoughts when she clears her throat. He looks up to her, and he sees her put a strand of hair back behind her ear when she sits straighter, letting the cutting pliers fall between her crossed legs on his bed. He glances down at the silver chain on his wrist as she brings her right arm close to his, revealing the matching permanent bracelet on hers. 
“I’m sorry I couldn’t be here today.” She says, her eyes flickering to his.
“Why are you here now?” Henry asks her, his voice barely a whisper.
He knows she’s picked up on the worry in his voice, because her eyes drift back to their wrists, and he can feel her tears falling on his skin as she looks down. 
“Did he hurt you?”
Henry doesn’t know why his voice comes out with a crack; perhaps because he is afraid of what her answer might be. He doesn’t know why he asked her either, but he wants to know. Because she is his best friend, and he cares about her. 
His blood freezes in his veins and his face pales when he sees her nod her head, more tears rolling down her cheeks as sobs leave her lips. His chest hurts as his heart constricts inside, and his breathing becomes shallow. He has to keep himself together because, as she falls apart in front of him, he knows she needs him. He shifts around on his mattress, opening his arms. Y/N takes refuge in them, wrapping her own around his midsection and she buries her face in his chest. He lets out a low sigh, feeling her tears through the fabric of his shirt, and he begins to draw circles on her back in a soothing way. He lays his head atop hers, his cheek pressed against the crown of her head as he gently rocks their bodies back and forth until her cries die down. She deserves so much better than her boyfriend, Henry thinks as he holds her close, wondering what else has been going on that he doesn’t know about.
Henry groans, running a hand over his face as he tries to forget that night, pushing the memory to the far back of his mind. The moon casts its light in his room through the window, and he can see it reflecting on the chain bracelet on his wrist. Four months. It had been four months since then, and Henry still couldn’t understand how Y/N went back to her boyfriend. She says it’s because she loves him, because he’ll never lay a hand on her again, but Henry has been observing her since that night. Because he worries about her, and because he loves her. He would notice the way she’d pull her sleeves down or wear scarves in class when she never wore one in her life before. He would take note of the makeup she wears, when she’d never been one to cover herself with makeup in the first place. He would see how she’d flinch when someone would accidentally hit a locker, or if a door was slammed too hard. He would catch sight of her trying to make herself small in the Man Cave whenever one of them would get angry and raise their voice. He knows that what she wants everyone to believe isn’t true because he sees her. And because he notices the little things no one else seems to pick up on. 
Henry turns on his back again, eyes up to the ceiling. Just as sleep is about to pull him in, he hears the familiar creaking noise of his window being lifted open. He sits up on his bed, back against the wall behind him as he searches for the lightswitch of the lamp on his bedside table. Henry blinks, adjusting his eyes to the dim light in his room. He runs a hand across his face as he looks up, a frown creasing lines on his forehead when he sees Y/N tumbling into his room through the window, falling onto his couch to her right. His eyes widen slightly at the sight of her, and he pulls the bedcovers away from his body as he makes his way to the loft area in his room, climbing the couple of stairs before sitting next to her on the couch, his body turned a little so that he can face her. She doesn’t look at him, but he sees the phone in her hand and he hears the soft sniffles that leave her. His arms find home around her shoulders as he pulls her in closer, and his heart flutters when she rests her head against his shoulder. Her phone falls onto her lap, and he can see the blocked symbol next to her boyfriend’s name on her screen. His chest heaves up as a sigh leaves him, and he mentally curses himself. He doesn’t know why he was expecting anything else, but it does not surprise him that she’s come to him. Again. 
It’s a repetitive circle, ever since she started dating Gareth, her boyfriend. He’d pull her away from her friends, then they’d have a fight, and Henry would be there to pick up the pieces when she’d come to him and break down in his arms. Days later, Y/N would run back to Gareth as if nothing happened, and Henry would be left with another piece of his heart gone with her. He knows it’s not right, that he should put distance between him and Y/N, but then his mind reminds him of how she’s always been there for him after he broke up with his first girlfriend, how she comforted him and helped him change his mind after Chloe and then Bianca left to do a television show in the woods. She’s always been there for him; it’s only right if he’s there for her. Even if his heart breaks a little more each time she walks away. Because even if she’ll never be his, he’ll always be hers.
Y/N is the one to pull away from him, using one hand to wipe away the tears on her cheeks, and her sniffles pull him out of his thoughts. Her eyes drift up to his, and she cracks a thin-lipped smile. Henry tilts his head, sighing. 
“I’m sorry.” Y/N whispers, looking down when she hears him sigh. “I– I should have called…”
“It’s fine, Y/N.” Henry tells her, taking her hand in his. “I couldn’t sleep anyway.”
Y/N chuckles under her breath, looking down at their hands together. The warmth of his skin spreads through hers, and she feels her heart flutter in her chest. She clears her throat, pulling her hand away from his and she looks away from him. 
“He said he needed distance, and I had nowhere to go…” She whispers, scratching the back of her neck. 
Henry knows what she means; his parents are never really here for him, but hers are never there. They’re always traveling abroad for work, only showing up in Swellview twice a year; one time for her birthday, and a second time for Christmas. So Y/N always spends most of her time at work, at his house, or at her boyfriend’s place. 
Henry shakes his head and he scoots closer to her, pulling her hand in his own again. His eyes scan over her features, and a frown creases lines on his forehead when he notices a new bruise on her cheek, and the small cut on her upper lip. He grinds his teeth, biting down on the inside of his cheek to keep his anger simmering beneath the surface. A low sigh leaves his lips instead, and he closes his eyes briefly. 
“You know you’re always welcome here.” He says eventually, looking at her. “Besides, I still have the clothes you forgot the last time you slept here.”
Y/N chuckles at that, and Henry swears it’s the most beautiful sound he’s ever heard. It’s been a while since he’s heard too; he can’t really remember when was the last time he did, but he knows he’s missed it. His heart flutters when she looks him in the eyes with a genuine smile on her lips, and it’s like the anger in him has never existed. His body relaxes, and he finds himself smiling at her.
“I’ll take the couch,” he tells her. “You can take my bed. Make yourself at home.”
Her smile widens. “Thank you Hen.”
She lifts her free hand, pressing her palm against his left cheek and she tilts her head, leaning in to leave a quick kiss on his right one. Henry feels the heat rush to his cheeks as his breath gets caught up in his throat, and he watches as she gets down the couple stairs of the loft area in his room, heading for the bathroom in the hallway after taking her clothes from his closet like she owned the place. He runs a hand through his hair, tugging at it in frustration. What is he doing?
When she returns after a few minutes, Henry notices that she has inadvertently taken a shirt of his out of the closet instead of hers. His breath hitches, and his eyes travel up and down her frame to fully take in the sight of her in his clothes. It’s just his shirt, he knows that, but because he’s always been taller than her, it looks like a dress that stops at her thighs when she wears it, and the short sleeves slide off of her shoulders a little. He can see the edge of her collarbone because she has tied her hair in a messy bun to the back of her head, and Henry blinks, his eyes drifting to anywhere but her. She already has a boyfriend, he tries to remind himself. But that selfish side of him thinks it’s not fair; that he should be the one who gets to see her like this every night. He should be the one who gets to take her out for dinner. He should be the one who gets to give her flowers for no particular reason. He should be the one who gets to tell her he loves her. Not that stupid boyfriend of hers; but him. 
Henry shakes his head, letting out a low, frustrated sigh. From the corner of his eyes he watches as Y/N slips under his bed covers, leaving her locked phone onto his nightstand before she glances his way with a soft smile curling her lips upwards and carving dimples in the curves of her cheeks.
“You’re gonna be okay?” Henry finds himself asking, settling himself onto his couch with a pillow behind his back.
“You’re giving me your bed for the night,” she chuckles, rolling her eyes. “I should be the one asking you that.”
“N– no, I mean… about Gareth. Are you gonna be alright?”
She sighs, fiddling with her fingers in her lap. “Y– yeah, I think. I mean, I miss him… but he needs space. I– I know he’s trying to be better, but we both needed some air tonight. I needed some air. And he needs the distance, even if only for tonight. But I miss him…”
Henry nods, only half-listening to what she’s saying. He doesn’t understand how she can think about going back to Gareth, when all he does is break her heart every time. He doesn’t understand how she stays with her boyfriend when he keeps hurting her, leaving bruises on her skin. And Henry can see the way her shoulders tense when she mentions Gareth, even without saying his name, and how she keeps fumbling with her fingers, picking at her nails. Y/N always does it when she’s anxious, Henry notices. He always notices the little things no one else seems to pick up on; because he cares. But he doesn’t say anything, because she is his best friend and he doesn’t want to lose her.
“Good night, Hen.” Y/N whispers, pulling him out of his thoughts.
He licks his lips and glances towards her. “G’night Y/N.”
As she turns off the lights in his room, Henry takes one last glance at the clock on his bedside table. 2:05 in the morning. Now he’ll definitely fall asleep in class.
The last time Henry spoke to Y/N was two weeks earlier, when she’d showed up into his room in the middle of the night after another fight with her boyfriend. He hadn’t talked to her since, and he’d only seen her at school. She’s stopped coming to work as well, but when he tried talking to her at school, she’d look down on the ground and avoid conversation at all cost. She was ignoring him and Henry was pretty sure her boyfriend was the one making her do it.
“Alright Kid.” Ray’s voice catches Henry’s attention. “You’ve been sulking for the last two weeks. What’s going on?”
“It’s Y/N.” Charlotte says bluntly, and Henry glares at her.
“Oh come on, Char!”
“What?” She crosses her arms, holding his gaze. “You’ve been in a mood since Y/N began ignoring you. And, she stopped coming to work.”
“Oh, so you think it’s my fault she’s not coming to work?”
“I didn’t say I did.” Charlotte shrugs.
“What happened with Y/N?” Ray asks before Henry could reply to Charlotte. 
“I don’t know.” Henry sighs, running a hand over his face. “She hasn’t talked to me in two weeks. She’s been avoiding me.”
“Did you do something wrong?”
“Wh– what? No! She came to my place because she’d gotten into a fight with her boyfr–”
Henry stops himself, eyes widening slightly when realization dwells upon him. Of course. He should have known; he should have figured it out sooner. Now that he thinks about it, she hadn’t returned that shirt of his she accidentally borrowed when she came by, and he swears she had been wearing it the next day. At school, where her boyfriend was. Henry groans, throwing his head back in annoyance.
“Stupid Gareth…” Henry mutters under his breath.
Charlotte frowns, having caught on. “What about Gareth?”
“He’s a fucking asshole, that’s what he is.”
“Who’s Gareth?” Ray asks, frowning.
Charlotte begins to answer, but she barely gets a word out as the emergency alarm begins to echo across the Man Cave. Henry jumps on his feet, walking over to the supercomputer. An emergency is what he needs to keep his mind off of everything else. He presses one of the larger buttons on the control panel, his muscle memory guiding his movements. After five years of working as Captain Man’s sidekick, you do pick up on a few things around here. The Man Cave sort of became his second home. 
“Captain Man’s emergency line, how may we punch your problem?”
Henry speaks up, taking sight of Charlotte sitting on the chair to his right with her hands roaming over the control panel to try and pinpoint the location of the call, and he feels Ray standing behind him, probably with his hands on his hips as he looks to the screen. 
Henry frowns when no one answers, but he can hear them breathing through the phone line. It’s ragged, coming out in hiccups, and faintly in the distance he can discern the sound of objects clattering onto the ground. He pulls his bottom lip between his teeth, frowning.
“This is Kid Danger speaking, how may I help you?” He tries again, worriedly glancing at Charlotte.
He doesn’t want to say anything, but his heart leaps in his chest, his heartbeat quickening with every second that passes by. He still doesn’t know where the phone call comes from, but judging by the person’s silence his mind plays him all the worst scenarios he can imagine. Y/N still occupies the corner of his mind, and this phone call is one that is way too familiar for Henry’s liking. A week after his birthday, she’d given him a call, and the beginning had been just like this one.
“Oh, shit… Henry?”
He hears Charlotte whisper next to him, and he turns to look at her when she nudges his side. She points a finger at one of the five monitors of the supercomputer, and Henry follows her finger to the green letters displayed on the screen. He squeezes his eyes shut, pinching the bridge of his nose with one hand. He takes a deep breath to try and calm his nerves. Y/N’s home address is blinking in green letters on one of the computer’s monitors, and Henry feels a shiver down his spine. Why did he have to be right about this?
“Hey, Y/N?” He calls out, ignoring Ray’s confused look. “I– I’m right here, okay? I’m still on the phone with you. Can you– can you leave the house?”
His stomach drops when he hears her whimper through the phone, and he clenches his fists at his sides. Chills run down his spine when he hears more clattering on the other side of the line, followed by Y/N’s quiet sobs. Then he hears footsteps, and something like a window being open and a soft thud as if someone had fallen on the ground. He swallows back the lump in his throat, his heartbeat quickening beneath his chest. There’s a hand on his shoulder, Henry can feel it and when he glances to his left, Ray is there with a worried look in his eyes. He may not show it in the right way because he acts like a man-child more often than not, but Henry knows Ray cares for the kids he works with, including Y/N. 
“I– I’m… out…”
Y/N’s voice brings Henry back to look helplessly at the screens. Through the phone, he can hear she’s panting, her footsteps clacking against the ground. She’s running, he tells himself. He lets out a relieved sigh; at least she’s getting away from her boyfriend. 
“Can you make it to Junk’N’Stuff?” He asks her, worried. “Or do you need me to pick you up somewhere?”
“I can– Junk’N’Stuff– is fine…”
“O– okay, I’ll– I’ll go up to the store and wait for you, alright? And Ray and Charlotte are gonna stay on the phone with you, okay?”
She doesn’t answer him, but he knows she’s heard him. Ray clasps his shoulder, and Henry takes it as his queue to leave the Man Cave. He knows Jasper has closed the junk store around half an hour earlier, so no one is up there. Henry prefers it that way, because then he’ll have the time alone with Y/N. No one but him actually knows just how bad it’s gotten between her and Gareth, because she always hid her bruises with makeup and for some reason, not even Charlotte had noticed. And his brain keeps picturing the worst-case scenarios, making his heart beat faster as he steps inside the elevator and presses on the store’s up button. 
When he’s up in the store, he waits by the front door, eyes darting to the outdoors for any sign of her until he sees her, catching her breath as she leans under a lamppost. He opens the door, and he sees her lift her head when she hears the bells jingling. He notices the look of relief on her face when she spots him, hanging up her phone and shoving it in the back pocket of her pants before she rushes toward him. She stumbles on her feet, exhausted, but Henry is there to catch her, his arms wrapping around her waist to keep her on her feet. 
“It’s okay, I’ve got you. I’ve got you.” Henry mutters in a reassuring way as he leads her inside.
He can hear her muffled cries against his chest as he closes the shop’s front door with the heel of his foot, and her body trembles in his arms.
“I’m right here.” He whispers as he moves his hands to hold the sides of her face. “You’re safe now; he can’t hurt you.”
At first he can’t see her features, but when he brushes her hair away from her face that’s when he spots her busted lip, and the darkening bruise around her left eye. There is a large bleeding cut across her right eyebrow arch, and a few smaller ones all over the right side of her face, as if something sharp had been thrown in her face. Her cheeks are reddened by the tears that escape her eyes, her lips trembling with every sharp breath she takes. 
Henry’s face pales when he takes in the sight of her, his heart dropping. He knows that no matter what he says, or does, she will run back to her boyfriend after a day or two. Like she always does. But the selfish side of him knows that he cannot let her go back to Gareth; he cannot risk her being hurt again. Yesterday it was a few bruises, tonight it’s a few cuts and a black eye, but tomorrow? Tomorrow still isn’t set in stone, but he can’t let her risk her life again; no matter how much she claims to love her boyfriend. 
He closes his eyes, taking a deep breath before he sneaks an arm under her kneecaps and the other around her shoulder blades, picking her up bridal style. He feels her wrap her arms around his shoulders for support, and he feels her bury her face in the crook of his neck. He makes his way around the shop with her in his arms, going towards the elevator in the back shop. With agility, he steps inside the elevator and presses down onto the Man Cave button. He can feel her slow breath against his skin; it sends shivers down his spine, and when he looks down at her, he sees she’s somehow fallen asleep in his arms. He smiles a little, sighing when the elevator dings open, and he sees Ray and Charlotte sitting on the round couch in the middle of the Man Cave, with worried looks on their faces. He shakes his head when they glance up to him, and he dips his chin toward Y/N. Charlotte nods in understanding, but Ray frowns, taking note of the dried blood he spots on the girl’s shirt. 
Henry ignores Ray’s questioning gaze as he makes his way to the sprocket, disappearing in the hallway that leads to the few bedrooms the Man Cave has to offer. He walks past the one with a big “DO NOT ENTER” sign hung on the door, well-aware that it is Ray’s room and he will not make the mistake of stepping inside a second time. Then, there is Schwoz’s guest bedroom, and the one his sister Winnie uses when she comes to visit. Henry keeps on walking until he makes it to the end of the hallway, using his foot to push open the door to the last guest bedroom.  
Y/N stirs up in his arms just as he puts her down on the mattress, and he sits beside her, smiling when she opens her eyes. The blood on her face is now dry and sticks to her skin, and Henry frowns, standing up without a word to look for a first-aid kit in one of the drawers in the room’s closet. When he returns to the bed with the red case in his hand, Y/N is sitting up on the mattress, leaning against the backrest behind her, and she watches as he pulls out some cotton pads and the antiseptic spray from the kit. 
“It might sting a little.” Henry whispers as he brings a cotton to her face.
She nods, allowing him to clean the cuts on her cheeks and across her eyebrow arch, wincing in pain and gritting her teeth. But she keeps her eyes on her best friend, watching as his wrinkled brows carve a line on his forehead, and how his nose scrunches up whenever she lets out a wince. She sees the worry in his chocolate irises when he leans back, his eyes drifting across her features to make sure he’s cleaned every bit of dried blood off of her face.
“Thank you.” She whispers, reaching for his hand. 
“You can’t keep going back to him, Y/N.” Henry blurts out all of the sudden, pulling his hand away from hers.
Y/N frowns. “He’s my boyfriend, Hen. And I love him.”
“I know you do, I just– I’m not sure he loves you, too.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“Seriously, Y/N?”
Henry’s frowns deepens as he stands up, and Y/N’s smile falters, her lips pressed into a thin line as she watches him pace back and forth in front of her, frustratedly tugging at his hair. She shakes her head, heaving out a sigh. Henry stops pacing, hands on his hips as he turns to her.
“Do you know how hard it is?” He begins, scowling. “To be the one to fix you, wh– when all you do is run back to the one who breaks your heart?” He takes a deep breath, pinching the bridge of his nose. “You’ve been with him for six months, and every time something happens between the two of you, who do you run to? Me! I’m always here to pick up the pieces of your broken heart, and every fucking time you go back to that piece of shit as if nothing happened! I know we’re best friends Y/N, and I know you’ve always been there for me when I had girl problems but, fuck, you’re making this too hard…” He inhales sharply, running a hand over his face.
Henry doesn’t dare to look at her, at first, and he isn’t sure that he wants to. He probably has ruined their friendship but at this point, he doesn’t care. He needed to tell her everything; he needed to tell her how he feels about her, and damn the consequences.
“I can’t keep on pretending that this isn’t hurting me, too.” He sighs, resuming his pacing. “I can’t keep on pretending that watching you getting hurt by the man who claims to love you doesn’t break my heart every fucking time, because it does. It does break my heart to see you hurt.” He stops pacing then, finally looking at her. “I can’t stand to see you getting hurt by him every single time, and I can’t keep on having my heart broken every time you run back to him. So if you want to go back to him, I’m not holding you back, but I won’t be there to pick up the pieces when he breaks your heart again.”
His eyes sting as he blinks back the tears in his tear ducts. He won’t let her see him cry. He inhales sharply, his gaze drifting away to look anywhere but her. The silence in the room is suffocating, and Henry feels his chest tightens with each passing second. He’s too afraid to move, his feet anchored to the ground, and he’s scared of what she might say. He hears her shift on the mattress, wincing a little when she moves around, and then he can feel her standing close to him. Y/N brings one hand up, and he feels the warmth of her palm against his skin, her touch soft on his right cheek. With a soft pressure, she turns his face to hers, and Henry is forced to look at her. Her gentle smile lightens her features, reaching her glossy and bright eyes. Her head is slightly tilted to the side as her eyes roam over his features, her thumb delicately brushing over his flushed cheekbone. 
“I can’t keep on being hurt by you, Y/N…” Henry whispers, his voice wavering as he takes a sharp breath.
“I don’t want to be the one hurting you, Hen.” Her voice is soft when she speaks up, and a single tear runs down her cheek. “And I am sorry for ever hurting you. I just–”
“I know…” Henry sighs, defeated. “You’re in love with him.”
“It’s not– it’s not that simple…” Y/N sighs. “I can’t– I can’t just leave him.”
She drops her hand back to her side, sitting back on the mattress’ edge, and she begins to anxiously fiddle with her fingers in her lap. Henry frowns when he no longer feels her touch, and he sits next to her. His hands find hers, and he takes them in his to stop her from torturing her fingers. 
“You don’t– you don’t have to do this alone, you know.” He tells her, his tone gentle. “If you want to leave him, I’m right here with you, I promise.”
“I– I’m scared of what he’ll do if– if I leave him…”
“Y/N…” He lets go of her hands to hold her face in his, making her look his way. “You know he’s not right for you. He keeps hurting you, physically. Emotionally too, I bet, because it’s the first time in two weeks that we’re talking. You deserve so much better than that piece of shit.” He smiles when she laughs at that. “You deserve a gentleman that will treat you right, take you out for dinner and give you flowers for no specific reason. I’ve known you my whole life Y/N; you’re one of a kind, and you deserve someone who’ll love you with all their heart. Not someone like Gareth…”
“But, someone… like you?”
Henry falls silent next to her, because as much as he loves her, he didn’t think she’d catch on to what he was trying to tell her. Does he want her to be his girlfriend? Yes. Does he want to be her boyfriend? Also, yes. But he knows the things she’s been through with Gareth, and as much as he loves her, he’s smart enough to know that if she leaves her boyfriend, she will need time to heal from that relationship. He’s willing to wait; for her, he’d wait a lifetime, because he wants nothing more than to see her happy.
“One day. Maybe.” He whispers, brushing his thumb over the cuts on her cheek. “But you’re not alone, Y/N. You have me. And Charlotte, and Jasper. Even Piper, or Ray and Schwoz. I know you, and I know you have the strength to leave him, even if you think you can’t. You’re the strongest person I know, and you deserve to be happy.”
“Okay.” She breathes out, smiling.
“O– okay?”
She hums softly, chuckling when he lets out a relieved sigh. Maybe he was right to tell her how he felt. Maybe he was right to tell her what he thought of her relationship with her boyfriend. Because maybe, just maybe, it opened the possibility of something more. Because maybe, just maybe, one day he would get to call her his.
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