#I do wonder if she's actually deeply closeted ftm

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JKR Writing Fleur Delacour: So this french bird is super sexy but she's also incredibly shallow and vain and snooty, y'know how the French are. She's high fem which is a bad thing, tomboys are the best. She's also just incredibly annoying and full of herself. Constantly making herself the centre of attention even though nobody likes her and they call her phlegm behind her back. Hilarious, right?

90% of Fanfics when Writing Fleur Delacour: At first she comes off as entitled & full of herself, but as time goes on it's clear she's actually incredibly kind, compassionate and loyal. She also has a keen sense of matters of the heart. For the younger characters she takes on the role of a wise older sister. She's loyal and nurturing and and will always be there if you need someone to talk to. She is from a noble matriarchal race of fierce warriors and will fight tooth and nail to defend what is hers.

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Do you think there's a way to actually correctly write an in denial, trans woman, who pretends to be okay with 'being a guy'? Like, I wrote an in the closet trans woman before, who knows who she was and hid it from the world (outside transphobia) before, but wondering if you think the issue of hiding it from yourself (internal transphobia/denial) can be done in a non-harmful way?

I'm trans (ftm) myself and talked myself out of it for a long time, so I assume it could be the same on the other side?

I'm just wondering if you can foresee any pitfalls one might fall into that would be transphobic or fetishize trans women?

I write trans women in my fic bc I want to write something in contrast to all of the g!p that claims rep, and put something better into the fandom. (I think I did a good job, thanks to your help before. Thank you so much).

Do I think it's a feasible concept? Sure, yeah, it's doable. I'd trust trans woman authors to do that, since it'd need to draw on transmisogyny and experiences of transfemininity pretty deeply. Like, even with those who only realized and came out later in their lives, there's pretty much always things they noticed retroactively that were particularly telling and explained/illuminated sources of discomfort and disparity that they'd generalized and made efforts to ignore/move past. And for those who know they're trans but are fighting that truth, and/or are just deep in the closet and struggling with not knowing when or if it'll be safe to be themselves (and therefore need to fight to present as a boy/man), that's a complicated experience. Having to combine that with writing the social environment that fostered their situation and how they processed that messaging and reacted to that messaging, how they succeeded and failed to reproduce various elements of that gender performance...it's tough to navigate those seas and not end up taking on water even if you are familiar with the experiences.

A story that placed any real focus on that would need to be an authentic read if it was to have any merit, so yeah, that's a narrative arc I'd think trans women would need to tell because others would probably get it wrong. Not out of ill intent, necessarily, but I think there's too many knowledge gaps for others to traverse, and a more general take on the experience likely wouldn't sufficiently engage with the experiences, leading to a shallower arc as a whole, and that's not really what you're looking for in the kind of story that would focus on this, since you're most likely within the realm of the 'character study' sort of material than anything else, and running shallow in that respect sort of defeats the purpose.

So yeah, I think the best outcome would be a trans woman author handling that subject material. Could someone else manage it? Possibly, with enough commitment to sensitivity writers/editors and a willingness to walk back on and rewrite whole swaths of the resulting work if it's not hitting the mark authentically.