#I do wish she could apologise for bothering to initially defend jimmy that was so disappointing when I found out about that

[localcouchgremlin]

'I have bad vibes about lola today she's probably being run by --'

who cares. who honestly cares. you aren't defeating racism or standing up for victims by beating a dead horse about a woman who hasn't been online for years, we already know Lindsey's a dickhead. but I promise you can dislike her without inventing other reasons to do so or say that everything surrounding her is eeeeeevil + if she's nicely interacting with fans and liking their work thru lola hey thats a neat thing at least. ill give her that for once

[smolharray]

Dating Zayn Malik

Here's a taste of my writing.. (Also, these small situations are all just random little ideas, no hate towards anyone or anything mentioned!)

Dating Zayn Malik as a fellow artist was not easy. Everyone knew that Zayn was an extremely private and introverted guy, especially for a celebrity. He rarely appeared on interviews or TV shows, is usually inactive on social media other than a tweet every so often and does not promote his music in any way, much to his fans' dismay. Although they respected his choices and were always highly proud of his achievements despite his inactivity on the media. They also loved his music, how real and genuine it felt to listen to it, especially because it's 'hand-made' by Zayn.

You however, are the exact opposite of your beloved boyfriend. You loved interacting with your fans, online or offline, no matter where you are, you can always be spotted chatting with them, taking selfies, giving autographs. It felt like you owed it to them, and it was the least you could really do for those who unconditionally supported you regardless of your relationship with them- strangers.

You regularly promoted your music, always performing live at concerts, TV shows and even talk shows like Ellen, The Late Late Show With James Corden, The Tonight Show Starring Jimmy Fallon and many more. You also made regular appearances at radio stations, Buzzfeed and hundreds of magazines for your modelling career.

Acting was much less common, but it was still something you did. A couple of main roles, a few cameo or special appearances did much to boost your name as an 'all-rounder celebrity'.

So to say the least, dating Zayn Malik was not easy. In fact, your personalities clashed a little too much for the idea of even being friends, let alone being a couple.

Initially, Zayn had objected to the idea of revealing your newfound relationship. In fact, you agreed, not wanting to ruin the first few months of dating. The feeling of a fresh, unknown and private relationship was a lot more beautiful than one could imagine, especially when it came to being a public role model. It felt much more meaningful and romantic when you weren't being plagued with fans, magazine rumours and always making it on the headlines if you're seen with the opposite gender. Of course, you don't blame them. Never did, never will.

Sometimes it's just hard to live in the spotlight when you want peace and alone time to spend with friends, family and loved ones.

However, as time went on, it wasn't really news to you that both you and Zayn were suspected to be involved with each other. Fans find things out a lot quicker than most could imagine, it was almost scary. However, Zayn's constant denial made you upset. What was wrong with revealing your relationship? It was common, even amoungst your past relationships. This ended in small arguments that were pointless, but eventually, to save your relationship, he gave in. Anyway, it would have been found out sooner or later and the both of you had been getting annoyed with the many articles being released, "Zayn Malik & Charlotte Parker infatuated with each other?", "Couple or 'Just friends'- Zayn Malik and Charlotte Parker", "Has Zayn moved on from his relationship with Perrie?", "Is Charlotte over her recent breakup with Cole Sprouse?"

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"And what, Zayn? Why don't you want people to know about us? Is it something about me? Am I not bloody good enough for you?"

You knew it wasn't true. Zayn loved you with all his heart, and it didn't matter if you were a celebrity or not. Zayn didn't care about these things, he made that clear from the start.

But it was getting out of hand; the rumours. They knew, fuck, they probably suspected it from the beginning. What's wrong with telling the world?

"You know that isn't fucking true Charlotte. I love you, you know that. It's just-"

"What? Just what Zayn?"

Zayn remains silent, his brown eyes refusing to meet yours. Neither of you said a word as you sat in the piercing silence.

Zayn quietly turns to look at you, he knew you wanted it. Could he sacrifice his privacy for you?

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Secondly, it is very well-known that Zayn has been in One Direction, and of course decided to cut all ties with his former bandmates. Except, you've been together while Zayn was still in One Direction, and friends when he joined the band. This meant that a friendship with the other boys was definitely going to happen. However, when a bandmate who just so happens to be closest to you leaves, it will lead to more drama. You cannot count the amount of times fans have pleaded- begged you to reconcile their relationship.

Some Directioners even accused you breaking the band because of your relationship with Zayn, which was absolute horseshit. The boys have stepped in to defend you, but it didn't stop some fans from blaming you whenever they found something that was close enough to be called 'evidence'. This was the exact reason why sometimes you wished Zayn would suck it up and apologise for leaving so abruptly and fix their friendship. However, if it were that easy, Zayn wouldn't have left. You don't blame him for not doing that.

Many useless articles have also came up with news whenever you were spotted spending time with the boys. Yes, the relationship has soured between the members, but did that stop you from being good friends with them? No. Problems only arose whenever you tried to fix it, and it didn't seem that either party were willing to cooperate with each other. Moreover, with their busy schedules and sizeable media exposure, it was hard to find a time and place to mend their friendship. So maybe, maybe when everyone had the chance to get together, you'd try.

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"Can't you just try, for them? For me?"

Zayn sighs, holding his head between his hands. You knew he didn't want anything to do with them, but you never really understood how someone could abandon a 5-year friendship, especially if you've lived together more than half the time.

"Baby, you know how I feel about it. I'm just not ready. Moreover, it seems that none of the guys want to either."

His words only make you grit your teeth. The guys seem like they don't want to because none of you try to help the problem! Everytime you manage to gather the boys together, it always ends in shouts and awkward silence.

"Well... Fine then. I guess I can't force any of you."

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Lastly, it's common knowledge within your fan base and even outside of it that you abhorred smoking and drugs. The visual made up for it's disgusting nature, but you still preferred to stay away from those cancer sticks. With such a negative view towards cigarettes, it was certainly a surprise when your company revealed you got together with Zayn, considering he smoked a ton.

Fans were worried that he had lead you astray and bombed him with hate for quite awhile, but once you cleared the issue up, many were questioning, why?

Some said this only shows how powerful your love was, that you could oversee a flaw in the Bradford man and still love him for him. However others said that this only proved you're there for his money, which didn't really make sense, considering you earned just as much, if not more for the amount of promotions you did. So that theory was long diminished.

Cigarettes were small, but to you, they held a lot more power than one could imagine. It was not only addictive after a few smokes and lethal, but it also seemed to be able to put a strain on your relationship with Zayn. You hated that those things had so much power.

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"Baby.. I thought I told you no smoking inside the house! If you want to smoke, go to the balcony."

You sigh, coughing a little as the pungent smell of smoke stung your lungs. You honestly didn't know why Zayn turned to smoking when he could do other things to relax and let off steam.

"It's just a little smoke babe. Deal with it."

"Perrie did.. So why can't you.." He mumbled, clearly not realising just how loud and clear it was to you. Tears filled your eyes and anger ran through your veins. So this was what would end it all, a fucking cancer stick.

"Fuck you Zayn." You breathed out, wiping away your tears before slamming the door to your shared room shut.

You definitely did not miss the regretful look in his eyes, but honestly, you could care less at this point. If Zayn missed Perrie so much just because she could endure a goddamn cig in the house, he can have her all he wants.

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You eventually made up with Zayn. He came over to your friend's place where you were temporarily staying at 3am, drunk while slurring out constant apologies. It truly did hurt you to see him like that, however, what he said, you would never, ever forget. He promised he would try to get over his habbit, just for you. It comforted you that you were able to get him to try his best to overcome this life-threatening habbit. Because hey, you might not have been able to endure it for him, but you potentially saved him from health issues in the future.

Of course, Zayn's smoking habbit did bother you a lot more than you would admit, it's just that you didn't show it to the public. It was a turn-off, especially the lingering scent on his body. Even after showers, the foul smell always lingered on him. After the fight, you had managed to lower his smoking frequency by a substantial amount, but it still wasn't enough to you. As a biology student in secondary school, your knowledge over the toll smoking can cause on a person's body was not small, and you've heard many stories from your teacher about how smoking almost lead to her father's permanent blindness. You were bent on not letting that happen to Zayn, let alone even getting close to that state.

His fans are more than thankful for that.

But they didn't just love you for helping his problem with smoking. In fact, they loved that once you appeared in his life, his mood seemed to always be playful and happy. How did they know that? Because of your weekly Instagram posts with him. Zayn may not be active on social media, but you constantly made it a point to give the fans a little taste of him outside of work. It seemed to do the trick, because many of them loved it.

There were also less Twitter rants made by him. It used to be common for Zayn to post whatever he wanted to say on Twitter without directing it to anyone, but he rarely did that anymore, and he kept to more positive tweets.

The part fans were most excited about was that Zayn seemed to quarrel less with the his ex bandmates. Their Twitter war likely came to an end because of you. Overall, fans were content with the positive influence you had on him.

"How does it feel to be in a relationship with Zayn Malik?"

The female interviewer asks, almost grinning with adoration when your eyes lit up at the sound of his name.

"It's difficult because of our differences. As many people know, he's much more introverted and less active than I am in the community, but despite those differences, it's still amazing. We love each other and that's all that matters. We give each other balance, and we're always there for each other whenever the latter needs support."

You pause, biting your lip.

"Zayn is the best thing that's happened to me. He's a great guy. I'm so thankful that I can have him in my life, even if I can't boast about our relationship."

The interviewer chuckles, many found it enduring whenever you talked about your relationship. She's not the first.

"Do you have anything to say to Zayn?"

Crossing your legs, you smiled shyly, tucking a strand of black hair behind your pierced ears. You had plenty to say to Zayn, but it wasn't practical to say it all out on camera. No matter how extroverted you were, baring your heart out to the world was still a hard no in your book.

You faced the camera, the corners of your lips curving ever so slightly.

"Zayn, I know you hate publicising anything about us, I know it's tiring when we go out together, especially when fans and paps disrupt our private time together. It's been hard on you, and I'm sorry. But we grew together as partners which is all that matters, and we learnt to give way to each other, even if it meant sacrificing a little. So thank you for putting up with me. I love you."

The interviewer quietly squeals beside you, clapping at your small speech. She then goes on to talk about how real your relationship seemed to be, as compared to other public relationships. But you listened to none of it, because, you were watching Zayn stare at you quietly from behind the camera, with watery eyes and the widest, goofiest grin on his face.