#I do absolutely attribute it to the alcohol too I think it made it Easier to overcome mental blocks and work faster and looser in

[prolibytherium]

I am going to be 100% real my art got stiffer and more boring after I stopped binge drinking every day of my life circa mid 2022

[sambergscott]

i'd wait forever and a day for you

summary: post-trying // jake is on an undercover mission and amy thinks she’s pregnant. 

(you should read this just for the last line tbh)

Her period is late.

At first, she attributes it to stress. Jake is on a major undercover operation and while she is an incredibly proud, supportive wife, she knows how dangerous the situation is. He’s a great cop -- one of New York’s finest, in both senses of the word (...he’s hot) -- and he was so excited about getting this assignment. And she’s excited for him -- really, she is. But with updates filtering through to Captain Holt at a snail’s pace, it’s impossible not to worry about him, where he is, what he’s doing, whether he’s safe. Her cycle was shot to hell when he was in Witness Protection in Florida and it is entirely possible that history is repeating itself. 

Four days pass, Jake is still undercover and her period still has not arrived. She tries to blame Hitchcock’s God-awful Zika cologne disrupting her cycle again until she remembers that both Hitchcock and Scully have been off work all week with food poisoning. She even Googles why is my period late?, quickly closing the tab and deleting her browser history when the first result that pops up is pregnancy. 

There’s no way she’s pregnant. She refuses to even consider it for a second. 

Despite her absolute certainty that her uterus is as empty as it’s always been, when Rosa invites her for drinks with her new boyfriend, Amy opts for a non-alcoholic beer. 

“I’m driving,” she explains at Rosa’s raised eyebrows and swiftly changes the conversation. She finds out that Rosa’s boyfriend is a mechanic and they hit it off when she took her motorbike in for repair. She talks about Jake, about how he’s her favourite person in the entire world and how much she misses him (A Lot). He asks her what it’s like dating a cop and how to deal with the person you love putting themselves in danger every single day, which makes Rosa blush. Amy has never seen her blush before. 

“It’s difficult,” she says truthfully. She hates seeing her husband hurting and being thrown in prison for crimes he didn’t commit and having guns pointed at his head. It’s why she instated the short-lived ‘no dating cops’ rule, before Jake kissed her and she decided screw it. “But it’s worth it. When you really love them, it’s worth the pain. Every second.”

“That’s what I thought,” he responds, looking at Rosa the way Jake looks at Amy. 

She finishes her drink (which is so not as good as its alcoholic counterpart) and gathers her coat and purse. “I’ll leave you two lovebirds to it. See you Monday,” she directs at Rosa and “it was nice to meet you” at her boyfriend, who she has a feeling might be sticking around for a while. 

She opens up her Messages app and types out a full paragraph to Jake about how she met Rosa’s boyfriend before him and how he’s really nice and makes her blush! Rosa Disz!!! Blushing!!! She adds a gif of Jonathan Van Ness saying “can you believe?” and is about to click send when she realises his phone is on his nightstand where he left it before his mission and puts her phone back in her pocket in dismay. 

Once home, she gets changed into one of his NYPD t-shirts and climbs straight into bed, crying herself to sleep. 

She wakes up bright and early the next morning, a feat that is made significantly easier when there is no super cute husband to snuggle with. She showers, pulls on leggings and one of his plaid shirts and gets started on her Sunday Chores. Dancing around the apartment and pretending the mop is a microphone stand is a lot less fun on her own and she overcompensates, making herself dizzy and throwing up in the toilet she just cleaned. 

Without thinking, she finds herself at the bodega on the corner, staring at the selection of pregnancy tests. She grabs three of the safest looking ones and bites her lip when the guy congratulates her as she pays. She’s wasted hundreds of dollars on pregnancy tests thus far and she knows she’s definitely wasting money on these ones too. She doesn’t need congratulating for making poor financial decisions and being bad at making babies, but she thanks him anyway. 

Back at the apartment, she dumps the paper bag on the kitchen counter to deal with later. She makes a cup of tea, calls her mom and fills in The Times crossword. The paper bag screams out to her the entire time. 

Reluctantly, she removes the boxes from the bag, fully intending to put them away in the back of the bathroom cabinet, out of sight. 

A niggling voice tells her to just open one and find out. 

She has the box open and the test in her hand when her phone buzzes with a text from Holt informing her that Jake is safe and the mission is going well. 

She drops the test like it burnt her skin. 

Jake. She can’t do this without him. If she is pregnant, she’d never forgive herself for finding out without him, for stripping him of that moment they’d been dreaming of forever. 

She’s waited this long, she can wait a few more days. And she’s probably not pregnant anyway. 

She ends up waiting two more weeks. 

It’s torture. 

She’s throwing up almost daily, crying in the break room for no apparent reason and her damn period has still not come. All symptoms which could be explained away by a lack of Jake Peralta and stress (due to missing the aforementioned Jake Peralta). 

Rosa corners her in the ladies bathroom and asks if she wants her to run out for more pregnancy tests.

“I already have some at home.”

“And?” She prompts. “Did you take them? Are you pregnant?”

“I don’t know.” She tries to play it off as no big deal, but Rosa knows her pretty well these days. 

“You’ve been trying for nearly a year, there’s a chance you are finally pregnant and you haven’t taken a test?”

“I can’t -- I want to -- Jake --.”

“Oh,” it dawns on her. 

“Yeah,” Amy sighs. “I’ve been staring at the tests every night but I just can’t. Not without him.  He’d be devastated.”

“He would not be devastated if you were pregnant, Amy Santiago.” 

“You know what I mean. He’d want to be have been there. I want him to be there.”

“I guess he needs to hurry the hell up and catch the bad guys then.”

He must have heard her because, hours later, the elevator door opens and there he is, exhausted and still in his weird undercover clothes, with the biggest smile on his face. 

She practically throws herself at him and, yeah, maybe she kisses him in a not-very-work-appropriate way and maybe some of the perps in the holding cell wolf whistle and maybe Charles is crying, but he is home and she can finally take those pregnancy tests. 

Holt allows her to clock out early (she makes a mental note to buy him a glass of Charbonnay the next time they go to Shaw’s) and Jake excitedly tells her all about the case, barely taking a second to breathe.

“Sounds fun, babe,” she says when he gets to the part of the story when he handcuffed the bad guys and then made out with this super hot chick in front of all his co-workers. 

“It was awesome,” he confirms. “What about you? What have you been up to? I missed you so much.”

“Aw,” she smiles, rubbing her hand over his thigh as he drives, “I missed you so much, too. As for what I’ve been up to, I’ve mostly just been kind of sick.”

“Really?”

“Mm-hmm. I... um... actually think I might be pregnant.”

He swerves suddenly, nearly crashing the car. Ignoring the cars around them honking, he focuses on his wife. “Pregnant?”

“My period is nearly three weeks late, I’ve been throwing up and I’ve been extra emotional,” she debriefs him. 

“Right. OK.” He takes a deep breath. “Have you taken a test?”

“I bought three but I couldn’t take them without you. It’s kind of been killing me.”

“Yeah, I bet,” he laughs, pulling over in front of their apartment. Neither of them move. “We should probably take them now.”

“Yeah,” she agrees. 

“You nervous?”

“Yeah,” she says again. She’s lost count of how many negative tests they’ve seen, how many times she’s felt that familiar crushing disappointment. The thought of going through it all over again... 

“I understand. We can wait, if you want. Or we could rip the band-aid off, let the scab bleed all over the place. I��ll hold your hand.”

There’s this reassuring look in his eyes that she’s seen a million times over from back when they were newly-assigned partners and he was reassuring her they would solve a tough case to that time on the roof of 397 Barton Street when he said he always knew she was going to be his boss to his speech at Hitchcock’s (second) divorce party when he told her that they are a family and that they can take whatever ‘next step’ she wants because as long as they’re together, he’s happy. 

Because it’s him, she nods. “Let’s do this.” 

The wait for the timer to go off seems longer than ever. She squeezes his hand so tight she thinks she might cut off the circulation, but he doesn’t complain, just keeps talking about how they’ll be fine, no matter what the result. 

The timer eventually goes off and she picks up the test and starts crying immediately. 

Jake hugs her tight and she can feel him crying too and this is so crazy and insane and good. 

“We’re having a baby,” he says in awe and it’s the best thing Amy’s ever heard. 

“We’re having a baby!” She repeats, half-laughing, half-crying. 

She yelps as he lifts her up and spins her around their tiny bathroom before kissing her tenderly. 

“I can’t believe this,” he exclaims when he pulls away, rubbing his hand over his face, “can you?”

“Nope.” She grins, kissing him again.

[hellzyeahthewebwieldingavenger]

Is it true that Mary Jane drove Harry to drug addiction?

Not it is absolutely not.

That is a common misconception that is often used to unfairly belittle or criticise Mary Jane.

It’s rooted in ASM #97. In the prior issue MJ was openly flirting with Peter in front of both Harry and his father. She continued to do this (sans Norman) in ASM #97, and Harry consequently went to a drug dealer and got high. He got clingy with MJ leading her to not at all gently make it clear to him that they were absolutely not exclusive. You could even interpret this as her dumping him, though I don’t and given how they were dating again later on, I think she was just setting him straight.

After arguing with Peter and coming down Harry takes an overdose of the drugs (we don’t know what ones they were exactly).

The simplest way to debunk the idea that MJ was the cause of Harry’s drug problems if to simply check out earlier pages in the very same issue.

Here between how Harry acts, Peter’s dialogue and the artwork depicting the very same bottle of pills Harry uses later in the issue, the message is very clear.

Harry was ALREADY a drug addict before MJ ‘gave him the gate’. 

Furthermore, it’s possible (and in my view highly likely, especially after the retcons to MJ’s character) that MJ was both aware of Harry’s drug problem and might even have subtly referenced it in this issue.

Turn your attention back to the scene where MJ lays into Harry. Notice her dialogue when Harry first approached her.

How chipper we suddenly sound.

That emphasis wasn’t added by me, that was all Stan Lee.

I don’t think that was accidental, I think it’s intended to clue us into the fact that MJ at least suspects why his mood has so suddenly changed. The comic, in it’s foreshadowing of Harry’s pill bottle is already demonstrating a certain subtly in parts of itself so this isn’t exactly a stretch to make.

But we can dig deeper.

Stan didn’t exactly depict young people as they really existed in the 1960s (he was middle aged and the comics code wouldn’t have allowed him anyway), but he wasn’t blind.

EVERYONE knew drugs were being passed around in the 1960s and that college kids in particular were using them. Stan himself had been to a fair few college campuses for lectures by this point in time so he may well have clued into this himself.

I’m not trying to throw shade at MJ by saying this, but given how she was kinda sorta a hippie, a girl who was ‘with it’ and who liked to party, it made it unbelievable for her to have not clued in on what might’ve been going on with Harry and Stan through her dialogue may well have been trying to reflect that.

We might also speculate her casualness about it could imply this isn’t the first time she’s seen Harry high, which (if you accept that) further proves that she didn’t drive him to drugs in this issue, it’d been happening for a long time. In fact the canonically debatable Death and Destiny mini-series (set several issues earlier than this) heavily implies Harry to already be using drugs, specifically cocaine.

Furthermore to blame MJ for this is really, really unfair.

When it comes to drug addiction she’s not Harry’s keeper. She’s not responsible for what he does to his own body.

And if we really are going to attribute blame to her, then we should also attribute some blame to Peter for not noticing the obvious. We should also attribute blame to both of them plus Gwen and Flash for not being there enough for Harry to help him deal with whatever issues drove him to drugs.

And boy of boy should we blame Norman. He’s Harry’s father, shouldn’t he be held accountable on some level?

Now if you want to look at it from a position of hindsight when retcons have revealed more about everyone, the truth is MJ REALLY wasn’t to blame for Harry’s drug problem. 

We could argue in pushing him away when she knew he had a problem she was being a bad friend but like...there is only so much any of us can do. Personal story: one of my friends in high school went off the rails a bit when he was 16-17. Not due to drugs but other stuff and my grandma insisted I be responsible for setting him right. But my parents, quite correctly, set me and her straight that that wasn’t my responsibility and my abilities to help him were limited anyway.

MJ is in an even worse boat than I was.

She had less financial security, she was dealing with a legal adult with access to a lot of cash and much more cash than her, her mother had died maybe a year-18 months earlier than this, she was dealing with leaving her sister and getting into the swing of city/college life, and that’s not even touching upon her knowledge of Peter’s identity and her deep rooted commitment issues.

Of all people MJ was not in a position to help Harry at this time and giving him the gate was the emotionally healthiest thing for her to do for herself in that situation, even if it arguably came from a place of her own insecurities regarding commitment.*

On Harry’s end, MJ could never have been the sole factor that drove him to drugs. At worst she might’ve been one of many contributing factors or even the straw that broke the camel’s back. But Harry was VERY LIKELY to have fallen into drugs or some other destructive habit with or without her.

Harry’s grandfather was an alcoholic, meaning there was a genetic predisposition towards substance abuse in his family. I know Norman isn’t a drug addict or an alcoholic, but he is a power addict. He’s so much of a power addict he literally became a super villain when he already had wealth and social power.

Speaking of Harry’s Dad....hoooooooo boooooooooooy....Norman screwed his son up bad.

He alternated between neglecting him, verbally abusing and belittling him and just straight up hitting Harry when he was a child, with arguably a certain underlying resentment towards Harry over the death of Lydia, Harry’s mother/Norman’s wife; she possibly died due to complications in giving birth.

Norman put pressures on Harry to ‘be a man’ and to also live up to his own massive shadow, and combined with the fact that Harry was desperate for Norman’s  love and approval, yeah Harry was a very messed up little boy.

And he grew into a very messed up vulnerable young man. He was so messed up he’d repressed his memories of his awful childhood and rewritten them in his head to be much happier than they really were.**

So MJ or no MJ, Harry was always going to be susceptible to something like drugs. For all we know he might’ve been experimenting as far back as high school or as a result of Gwen dumping him for Peter.

Bottom line: No, MJ did not drive Harry to drugs.

*I know some people might bring up how she helped Peter deal with Gwen’s death, but that’s very different.

For starters, grieving someone, hard and painful as it is, is in truth a lot easier than helping someone overcome addiction. 90% of the time, eventually the mourning passes. With an addict, they often have to struggle every day to not fall off the wagon.

In essence MJ, a woman in fear of commitment, was looking at a longer term commitment were she to have helped Harry.

More than this, Harry was already clingy and a rather needy person. In a lot of ways he was looking for someone to mother him (hence why he married someone with nursing experience) which was a turn off for MJ in general. Add in the very real possibility that he’d come to depend upon MJ to keep him clean and it would’ve been MJ’s version of Hell. 

Peter in contrast was someone she didn’t need to mother, but was someone who did in that moment need his help and she was at a place in her life where she was more able and willing to give it. It helped that, unlike with Harry, she was you know in love with Peter too.

**Incidentally, Norman basically rewrote his own memories too, believing himself to be a great Dad when he really wasn’t. 

Harry’s delusions occurred BEFORE he touched the Goblin formula by the way, speaking to hereditary mental illness in his family.

[ftriver]

hi   angels   !   im   most   likely   sleeping   right   now   so   i   have   this   drafted   but   let   me   just   say   i   am   fucking   buzzin’   to   be   a   part   of   this   group   ,   i've   been   itching   to   write   again   for   the   longest   time   &   thankfully   i   can   do   that   with   dis   shithead   named   river   .   i   go   by   t   ,   she   /   her   pronouns   ,   and   i   would   absolutely   love   some   messy   plots   to   dig   into   so   please   milly   rock   on   that   like   button   .   :~)  

𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠  here  and  do  i  have  the  tea  for  you  .  river  is  back  on  campus  ,  which  is  surprising  considering  the  threatening  note  i  left  them  .  yes  ,  i  know  all  about  his  growing  alcohol  dependency  because  of  their  gluttony  .  imagine  the  tabloids  and  how  the  o’connor  family  would  feel  for  such  information  to  come  out  ,  not  to  mention  the  reputation  of  pike  because  of  their  actions  .  at  this  rate  ,  he  is  better  off  staying  put  in  tampa  ,  florida  and  living  off  that  $900m  family  net  worth  .  what’s  the  point  in  studying  business  law  with  plans  to strive  into  the  nfl  unbeknownst  to  his  family ,  is  it  worth  it  with  what  i  know  ?  anyways  ,  they  may  want  to  continue  to  be  charismatic  &  perspicacious  because  the  choleric  &  imprudent attributes  make  me  want  to  spill  . trigger warning :  alcoholism  ,  republicans  . 

𝐥𝐞𝐠𝐚𝐥  𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞  :    alexander  river  o’connor  . 𝐧𝐢𝐜𝐤𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐬  :   only  goes  by  river  . 𝐚𝐠𝐞  : twenty  one  years  . 𝐛𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐡𝐝𝐚𝐲  &  𝐳𝐨𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐜  : leo  sun  ,  aquarius  moon  ,  gemini  ascendant  !   𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐨𝐰𝐧  :    tampa  ,  florida  . 𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐮𝐚𝐥  𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧  : swings  both  ways (  family  are  unaware  ) , &  has  only  been  in  relationships  with  girls  so  far  . 𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐧𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐭𝐲  :  painfully  caucasian  . 𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐫𝐤𝐬  &  𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞  𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐭𝐬  :  obnoxious  laughter  ,  snapbacks  ,  empty  beer  cans  ,  protein  shakes  ,  dust-covered  study  books  ,  two  seasons  into  spongebob  squarepants  on  netflix  ,  unread  message  from  father  ,  bitten  nails  ,  overflown  trash  cans  ,  used  condoms  ,  cupboard  full  of  ramen  pots  .   𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐒𝐈𝐒  : • the  o’connor’s  hail  from  an  incredibly  political  background  .  river’s  grandfather  ,  great  grandfather  were  both  former  mayors  ,  his  father  is  a  wealthy  senator  &  his  mother  a  news  anchor  with  a  heavy  hand  in  journalism  ,  she's  been  called  out  for  her  controversial  right  -  wing  opinions  in  the  media  .  river’s  raised  in  a  family  who  hold  strong  christian  ,  conservative  values  ( republicans  ,  yuck  !  )  though  his  father  remarried  two  times  before  winding  up  with  river’s  mom  .  needless  to  say  ,  this  clueless  boy  stuck  out  like  a  sore  thumb  compared  to  the  rest  of  his  full  &  half  -  siblings ; who  all  had  fixated  dreams &  plans  from  a  young  age  ,  whether  that  was  delving  into  medicine  ,  business  innovation  and  even  the  world  of  criminal  law  . • in  all  honesty  ,  though  ,  let’s  not  get  it  twisted  !  river  was  subject  to  a  very  privileged  childhood  .  he  had  everything  handed  to  him  on  a  silver  platter  until  the  age  of  sixteen  lmao  &  that’s  when  his  father  was  tireless  with  his  efforts  to  align  his  political  aspirations  with  river’s  future  .  he  made  sure  that  river  was  a  hard  working  boy  with  several  public  sector  volunteering  jobs  along  with  school  (  it  was  more-so  about  maintaining  “image”  &  brushing  up  on  prowess  ) ,  & all  throughout  high  school  he  still  sustained  tip  top  grades  .   •  during  his  private  academy  years  river  was  also  an  active  member  of  his  school  council  ,  debate  team  ,  played  lacrosse  &  football  but  really  fell  in  love  with  football  more  than  anything  .  he  dropped  the  rest  of  the  extracurricular’s  towards  the  end  to  focus  on  football  ,  as  his  coach  was  a  huge  positive  influence & encouraged  him  to  pursue  this  lil’  ol  ambition  !   •  so  lets  skip  to  college  !  river  knew  by  senior  year  he  wanted  to  get  away  from  florida  and  embellish  in  new  surroundings  for  his  college  years  . ngl  his  family  initially  wanted  him  to  go  to  harvard  so  he  had  to  put  up  a  good  fight  to  attend  hollingsworth  .  he  pledged  for  pike  even  though  his  upbringing  was  more  aligned  with  the  sigma  house  ,  but  tbh  river  knew  from  the  get-go  he'd  better  fit  with  his  pike  brothers  'cause  thats  where  he  could  find  kindred  souls  for  his  love  of  football  .  he  immediately  hurled  himself  into  a  wild  partying  lifestyle  (  lets  get  reckless  luv   )  .  alcohol  ,  drugs  ,  sex  ,  you  name  it  .  &  as  of  now   he  is  currently  playing  for  the  college  football  team  as  a  wide  receiver  in  the  pipeline  dream  of  getting  scouted  lmao  ,  but  his  parents  of  course  pushed  him  to  take  on  a  degree  that  could  be  utilised  for  a  political  future  .  he  figured  business  law  was  perhaps  the  most  ideal  course  of  action  'cause  he  really  doesn't  want  to  delve  into  the  world  of  politics  ,  especially  seeing  as  he  internally  opposes  everything  his  family  holds  dear  as  their  beliefs  .  also  ,  if  the  football  thing  doesn't  work  out  for  him  ,  corporate  law  is  the  next  best  thing  fdjdfnj  . so  yeah  !  though  he  comes  across  really  meathead  -  like  &  kind  of ( ? )  a  mess  ,  back  home  river’s  family  are  on  the  receiving  end  of  a  more  polished  ,  cultivated  version  of  their  son .  

𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐀 :

•  okay  first  thing’s  first  .  river’s  a  huge  shithead  but  the  rare  times  get  him  in  his  philosophical  spiels  talking  about  the  world’s  political  state  ,  or  rather  ,  america’s  political  state  ,  he’s  far  more  woke  than  his  family  ,  &  actually  doesn’t  believe  in  a  lot  of  what  his  family  spews  .  there  have  been  far  too  many  family  dinners  where  there’s  been  heated  debates  between  him  &  his  relatives  .  some  of  his  siblings  also  share  progressive  opinions  but  there  are  others  (  the  older  ones  )  that  are  exact  replicas  of  his  father  lmao •  as  i’ve  mentioned  before  ,  he’s  become  a  huge  party  boy  ,  &  with  this  ,  unfortunately  ,  in  the  recent  year  there’s  been  a  slight  dependency  for  the  bottle  (  jsyk  he’s  not  a  raging  alcoholic  yet  but  im  js  nine  times  out  of  ten  you’ll  find  homeboy  buzzed )  .  river  doesn’t  think  he  really  has  a  problem  though  , &  he  especially  doesn’t  think  he  has  a  place  to  really  scream “  woe  is  me  “  ,  if  that  makes  sense ?  he’s  aware  of  his  privilege  &  most  times  when  he  feels  the  whole  world  is  piling  on  top  of  him  ,  it’s  just  easier  to  go  out    &  turn  up  .  he’s  stressed  a  lot  of  the  time  ,  but  again  ,  it’s  easier  to  bury  this  with  the  company  of  his  friends  on  some  #lets  get  wrecked  boys  lmao  .  also  when  he  goes  back  home  between  semesters  ,  he  helps  with  his  father’s  campaign  &  the  like  .  there’s  responsibilities  ,  he  doesn’t  get  to  go  back  home  for  a  break  .  he  used  to  be  a  freak  of  routine  &  get  lit  until  six  in  the  morning  every  day  &  then  run  his  normal  errands  on  no  sleep  but  recently  his  partying  habits  have  caught  up  to  him  ddfjnfd  he's  kinda  been  having  more  and  more  trouble  recovering  as  time  has  gone  on  . his  attendance  at  school  is  slowly  declining  this  year  cause  there'll  be  days  where  he  misses continual  day's  worth  of  classes  and  you  wont  hear  from  him  for a while... but  eventually  he’ll  show  up  like  nothing  was  wrong  . :~) •  an  attention  -  seeking  fuckboy  ,  he  can  very  loud  and  vulgar  but  is  here  for  a  good  time  not a  long  time.  most  of  his  relationships  have  either  been  very  on  /  off or  flings  that  have fizzled out  due  to  the  fact  he’s  a  leo  &  river  is  too  invested  in  himself  to ~ open up ~  emotionally   .  he’s  an  athlete  so  he  is  very  competitive  ,  a  sore  loser  dfjndfj  & can  have  a  melodramatic  temper  both  off  and  on  the  field  !

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i’m   like   95%   sure   i   have   an   assignment   due   tomorrow   and   it’s   already   midnight   ........   so   naturally   i’m   procrastinating   so   my   world   title   of   Captain   Dumbass   doesn’t   ever   come   into   question   👸👸   this   is   recycled   bc   i’m   chronically   incapable   of   effort   but   tl:dr   he’s   literally   the   embodiment   of   every   shitty   dude   u   have   the   misfortune   of   running   into   at   the   bar   :/   but   he’s   held   a   door   open   for   an   old   lady   1.5   times   in   his   life   so   all   is   forgiven   😉

𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠  here  and  do  i  have  the  tea  for  you  .  rome  is  back  on  campus  ,  which  is surprising  considering  the  threatening  note  i  left  them  .  yes  ,  i  know  all  about him crashing  his  car  while  drunk  and  attempting  to  flee  the  scene  because  of  their pride.  imagine  the  tabloids  and  how  the  pierce  family  would  feel  for  such  information  to come  out  ,  not  to  mention  the  reputation  of  pike because  of  their  actions  .  at  this  rate  , he is  better  off  staying  put  in  atlanta ,  georgia  and  living  off  that  500m  family  net  worth. what’s  the  point  in  studying  psychology  with  plans  to play  in  the  nfl  ,  is  it  worth  it with what  i  know  ?  anyways  ,  they  may  want  to  continue  to  be  protective  &  lion-hearted because  the  irascible  &  machiavellian  attributes  make  me  want  to  spill  . 

i.

𝖓𝖆𝖒𝖊 : roman gabriel pierce

𝖆𝖌𝖊 : twenty - one

𝖉𝖔𝖇 : june 15th , 1998

𝖌𝖊𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖗 / 𝖕𝖗𝖔𝖓𝖔𝖚𝖓𝖘 : he / him

𝖘𝖊𝖝𝖚𝖆𝖑 & 𝖗𝖔𝖒𝖆𝖓𝖙𝖎𝖈 𝖔𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖓𝖙𝖆𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓 : 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️ 

𝖍𝖊𝖎𝖌𝖍𝖙: 6‘2″  🤡

𝖆𝖕𝖕𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖆𝖓𝖈𝖊: having graduated from the title of white man’s wh*re , he is now cordially referred to as the white man’s beefcake . he treats gym sessions like a therapy visit , clocking in at a friendly 220 lbs . like all gym rats w/o a personality , he keeps his hair short on the sides n longer on top , a la this look . he has a scar running along the inside of his right arm from when he broke it , and another that splits his left eyebrow from his eighteenth birthday

𝖔𝖈𝖈𝖚𝖕𝖆𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓 : resident waste of space , quarterback for the hollingsworth mumbles ( update : it’s panthers ... they’re the panthers ) , least favorite son of the year recipient 1998 - 2019 .

𝖍𝖔𝖒𝖊𝖙𝖔𝖜𝖓 : atlanta , georgia .

ii.

second son of hall of fame ex falcons qb , miles pierce , and entrepreneur and daughter of a famed manhattan - based art collector , amélie pierce – rome’s future was pretty non - negotiable since day one . as soon as they could stumble around enough to pass for walking , miles had his sons enrolled in as many football programs as he legally could .

when rome was young , he loved it . the attention , the praise he received for his quickness despite being one of the smallest kids on the field . plus , going to his father’s games and being recognized as miles pierce’s kids was also fun . soon came time for the inevitable retirement on the heel of a downward - trending career , and after that things ��� changed .

suddenly , it was less praise and more demands . earlier practices , with his father making rome and his brother run drills until they were sick . suddenly , things that were previously good weren’t good enough , despite how much better his sons continued to be .

as anyone with half a brain could guess , these pressures eventually began to take their toll . with interests in anything else repressed by his father’s insistence that football is and always will be the most important thing in life , rome began to emulate his father’s aggressive attitude , first bringing it to the field and then , more notably , to his personal life . failed relationships , fights at school , sneaking home late absolutely blitzed out of his mind – none of the behaviors were healthy , but they were enough to take the weight of his father’s hands off of his shoulders , if only for a moment . until papa helicopter parent found out , that is .

tw abuse : despite his sons catering to his every will , miles’ incessant anger began to worsen , and soon a lot of the verbal abuse had started to become physical , too . sure , rome knew that it was wrong , but he also thought that maybe if he’d been better in the game last night , or worked harder at practice , maybe he’d stop .

he made varsity his freshman year of high school and took his team to the state championships , expecting his dad to finally approve of something he’d done . instead , he came home to the news that his mother was leaving – that his parents were splitting up and that this had been a long time combing . safe to say this mama’s boy ass bitch was devastated.

tw death : his dad only sunk deeper into his madness , but all that anyone else could see is that rome was throwing further , moving faster , and making better plays . a non - football related injury left him with a broken arm , and it was on the way home from the hospital that his father received the call that his ex - wife had taken her own life . devastated part ii , coming soon to a theater near you !

tw drugs , alcohol , general debauchery : the partying worsened . rome had entered a phase in his life where he was looking for something – anything to completely wipe his mind of any and all thoughts . the drugs , the alcohol , it was all a coping mechanism , but it definitely wasn’t a healthy one . soon , his brother left for college thousands of miles away , and rome found out that that fifth of rum goes down a lot easier after doing a few lines beforehand .

he chose to go to college in cali not because he wanted to , but because his dad knew that hollingsworth was a great school for scouting attention . in his midst of an extended bender compounded by having training now twice a day everyday on top of college courses , he decided to join pike – and he absolutely loves it .

he chose to major in psych because he wants to understand why his dad hates him so much skjfjks dumb b*tch .

also last summer he may or may not have allegedly accidentally wrapped his masterati around a telephone pole and gotten a dui . in reality , it was his brother’s accidental doing after a rather... heated argument between the two , but roman told him to gtfo and he’d take the fall because his bro finally managed to escape his dad and rome didn’t want him to suffer the same fate . it made headlines , but his dad pulled approximately 6 billion strings to get him conditionally reinstated to the team .

spent the summer before his junior year chillin in rehab , but he relapsed shortly after . consistency is key here , kids.

still bender - adjacent , but he’s kept it more lowkey because the nfl draft is coming in hot .

iii.

he really ………….. kinda sux , objectively sfdkjsdfjk . personality-wise and bc he has a southern accent .

he has so , so much pent up frustration and anger directed at his father and himself that it manifests in some pretty shitty behaviors .

he’s definitely controlling ( as a consequence of having v v little control over his own life ) , and he’ll manipulate any situation he deems worthy of his effort just to assure that he isn’t in any state of vulnerability .

i know yall get it , he vapes , but he’s definitely the kind of guy to try to keep the party running til 5 am and get pissed when people tell him that maybe he should stop .

he will provoke anyone and anything ( even inanimate objects ) if found in a self - destructive enough mood .

has a notoriously short temper , but what kind of gym rat doesn’t .

manages to still attain a 4.0 ( and in his words , psych is easy ) , so that’s another thing that makes it difficult for him to understand that his lifestyle is … per se … problematique .

10000% has sent a plethora of  u up ? texts

kinda gets a little .. hm .. sad sometimes but that’s only after everyone bails from the party n he’s left alone in a dirty ass frat house sdkfsdjk

definitely an irredeemable trash bag and pls don’t think of him any other way

is definitely fiercely loyal to the 2.5 people who can tolerate him .

currently in an uber ride to hell , but 10/10 hit the option so that his uber driver can’t talk to him 🤡

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[adabxlmont]

     heyooo ! it’s dilan again, 20, she/her, gmt+3 timezone. if u wanna plot, u know what to do       hmu or like this post & i’ll come to you either today or tomorrow !

➰ ( DOVE CAMERON, CISFEMALE, SHE/HER ) *✧.:°░｡ —- is that ADA (ALISON) BELMONT ?! you know them, right? they are the 19 year old WARLOCK !! they’re known for being ASSERTIVE & DAUNTLESS - but i'd be careful if i were you because they’re also IMPETUOUS & SECRETIVE. i heard they volunteered to be paired with ARCHER LUX.

THE BASICS ( feel free to just skip to the background part. )

QUOTE

“you wear a mask for so long, you forget who you were beneath it.”

REAL NAME:  alison belmont NICKNAMES:  ali AGE:  19 BIRTHDAY:  march 20 GENDER:  cis female PRONOUNS:  she/her SEXUAL ORIENTATION: pansexual ROMANTIC ORIENTATION: panromantic

FAMILY

ADOPTIVE MOTHER: edith charpentier belmont, deceased ADOPTIVE FATHER: raphael belmont COUSINS:  tba SIBLINGS:  ada belmont ( twin, npc )

PHYSICAL ATTRIBUTES

FACE CLAIM:  dove cameron HEIGHT:  5′2′’ WEIGHT:  115 pounds ( 52 kg ) BUILD:  slim HAIR COLOR: blonde EYE COLOR: blue DOMINANT HAND: right ALLERGIES: none

FAVOURITE

LOCATION:  the beach FOOD:  pancakes with chocolate syrup BEVERAGE:  lemonade COLOR:  turquoise blue WEATHER:  sunny ANIMAL:  dogs

CHARACTER

MORAL ALIGNMENT:  chaotic good MBTI:  ESFP TEMPERAMENT: sanguine ZODIAC SIGN: aries HOGWARTS HOUSE: gryffindor

LIFESTYLE

BORN: paris, france RAISED: los angeles, california VEHICLE: used to have a motorcycle. PHONE: iphone  PETS: has a pug  DRUGS: socially SMOKES: not anymore ALCOHOL: yes MARTIAL STATUS:  single CHILDREN: none LANGUAGES:  english, french, portuguese

PSYCHOLOGY:

PHOBIAS:  drowning, ghosts, darkness HOBBIES:  swimming, painting/drawing, writing, modern dance. her family made sure that she learned as many things as possible - and surprisingly, she enjoyed some of them. POSITIVE TRAITS:  adventurous, brave, broad-minded, charming, communicative, discreet, intelligent, persistent, quick-witted, resourceful, tough, understanding NEGATIVE TRAITS:  aggressive, aloof, callous, changeable, cunning, cynical, detached, dishonest, impulsive, irresponsible, reticent, selfish, stubborn, unpredictable, untrustworthy SECRETS: TW: DROWNING, NIGHTMARES she’s been pretending to be ada, her twin, for over a year. alison and ada pretended to be eachother a lot, and no one ever found out. they were too good at it. she always has nightmares about the times her father left her in a dark room for weeks, & the time he drowned her. - no one except her twin knows what happened with her father. TW ENDS IQ: 149 LEADER OR FOLLOWER: leader, but is cool with being a follower. WHAT EXCITES HER: affection. deep down she’s a little baby who only needs love and affection.

OTHER

TALENTS: playing some instruments like piano and guitar, drawing/painting, writing

BACKGROUND

first of all, this is a daily reminder that i hate myself.

anyways! her real name is alison belmont ( even though in threads i’ll call her ada but while plotting & obviously here, in her intro i’ll call her alison to not confuse you guys sdfds it’s just easier to call her as ada in threads since she’s??? ada now?? ) she’s using her twins identity, ada belmont.

ada & alison were adopted by two warlocks named edith & raphael belmont when they were just a few months old. edith & raphael moved to la not long after so, they grew up there. alison was never the kid her father wanted her to be (unlike her twin) so raphael, her dad, being the old-schooled man that he is, arranged her to marry someone as a punishment to her. it was also for raphael’s benefit, considering the boy was actually a pretty powerful warlock that he could use in the future since raphael was pretty much obsessed with power. but what alison’s father didn’t know was; her twin was actually in love with the boy alison was supposed to marry. so, alison and her twin made a plan. they took each other's identity ( of course with some help from their magic, creating illusions & all ), so everyone would be happy. little did alison know her twin wasn’t really the perfect child.

alison’s life before switching identities with her twin was already tragic - she witnessed her dad killing her mom, but she could do nothing about it. ( she deeply cared about her adoptive mom, edith & she was actually good to her unlike her dad. ) her father always wanted her to be so perfect. to keep the family name alive. ( he actually adopted many kids during his long life, but since none of them fit his standards, he ended up killing the most. alison doesn’t know that - not yet. ) but alison wasn’t perfect - she was reckless, she didn’t listen to anyone, did what she wanted to do, wore what she wanted to wear, went where she wanted to go, etc. that’s why her father punished her in his own ways a lot. he left her in a dark room for days, he made her think there were ghosts in the house ( even used his spell to make her see hallucinations), he even tried to drown her once. but when he saw that alison was only getting worse     the arranged marriage happened. but as i said, ada, alison’s twin, came up with the idea of switching their identities. after all, it wouldn’t be too hard, right? wrong.

ada was that kind, smiley, benevolent princess. alison wasn’t like that. she hated following the rules, she hated smiling all the time, and she absolutely hated giving everything she has to help people. but, even if she doesn’t realize that yet, pretending to be ada for over a year ( she started before the bonds happened ) changed alison as a person, too. and it also changed her opinions about her twin   she learned that ada wasn’t perfect & did many questionable stuff, she learned about ada’s enemies, lovers & friends she never knew before. and a lot of things i’ll mention later. also, alison is good at pretending to be ada, yes, but sometimes she gets tired of it and just acts like herself so people might think that ada has been very strange for over a year now. 

CONNECTION IDEAS ( see this is how they’ll work: we can plot that you had this connection either with alison or her twin, and now that she’s pretending to be her twin, we can plot how things will work out since no one knows about her secret! )

close friends. 

flirtationship. 

frenemies. 

high school & college friends

exes that ended on bad terms. 

exes that ended on good terms. 

uncommon friends. 

childhood friends. (must be from la) 

partners in crime. 

confident/cornerstone.

brother/sister figures.

dad/mom figures. 

friends turned enemies. 

one night stand. 

first love/childhood crush. 

also here are some detailed ideas that i took from connection masterlists:

[ FRIENDS] : it started with something simple, when alison or ada dropped something on the ground and your character chased after alison/ada to return it. needing to thank your character, the two went to coffee and the two hit it off and are now close friends. 

[ FRIENDS ] : when your character moved in, they didn’t expect to see alison climbing up/standing on the fire escape right outside their living room window. they went to confront alison and scared them, making both fear for the life of alison for a moment. apologetic, your character invited alison in and the two connected almost immediately. (alison may or may not have explained her presence on the fire escape during this conversation // reason could have been that she knew who lived in your character’s apartment before but didn’t know that they moved)

[ ACQUAINTANCE ] : alison/ada and your character are often seen at the same place, but never together. in fact, they only found out each other’s names because they’ve heard other people speak it so frequently. they’ve had few, small conversations but not much else. 

[ ENEMIES ] : alison/ada and your character didn’t meet each other on the best terms – alison/ada was in your character’s bed…with your character’s significant other. granted, alison/ada didn’t KNOW that she was helping your character’s significant other cheat, but she never apologized for it either (she doesn’t think she should). your character is eternally bitter about it and gets huffy af whenever alison/ada is around. 

[ FRIENDS] : your character and alison met recently, after she started pretending to be ada and became friends immediately. ( so your character thinks she’s friends with ada) but the two always seem to find trouble and danger when they’re together. that must be a good thing that they’re so protective over eachother. 

[ FRIENDS] : alison is the troubled friend while your character is ‘the angel who could do no wrong.‘

[ FRIENDS] : a close friend of both of the twins. they were always so protective over eachother, and they were always there if the other needed. it will keep going like that.

[ JUST DO IT ALREADY ] : alison or ada and your character have been interested in each other for like, ever. neither of them are willing to admit it though, even to themselves. their friends are constantly joking about it and they both wave it off – but when one isn’t looking, anyone could see the adoration in the other’s face with ease. 

[ CRUSHES ] : ada/alison and your character have had a flirtationship going on for quite some time. they’ve always hinted at feelings toward another in conversation, never outright saying it. a while ago, your character blurted their feelings for ada/alison and quickly changed the subject afterward. they haven’t spoken about it since. 

[naahh]

22 soon

Never in my life have I felt so thankful for my place in this universe. My whole year being 21 years old was spent unencumbered and unattached, yet was so rich and fulfilling. Of course full of aggravation, grief and downright feeling sorry for myself, but how does one free themselves of these feelings completely? They can’t.

The phenomenon that is Mark turned my entire being upside down and inside out. The removal of him from social media a few months ago was not an easy feat, but something that had to be done as to stop the temptation of the late night messages that plagues so many of us. And thank god. Because every time I did it got me no where, except for that little bit lower in the esteem and pride scale. I still think about him every so often and wish- oh how I wish- that things were different but in due time it will all be but a memory. Positive or otherwise, a memory nonetheless.  If you’ve ever cared about your grades at all, and you take an exam that you believe you can do well in and you sit the thing, and walk away fully aware that you could get HD/A or F but even when you get the F you realise you weren’t prepared for that caliber of disappointment at all then you might know what it feels like to ask someone out and have them say no. Better yet, if you’re actually set on the High distinction, there’s no doubt in your naive mind that there could be any other outcome but sure enough, there is: you fail. Then I suppose that is kind of like what I have felt for the past 10 months. How I care about him at all after so long is curious. He’s really God’s gift in my eyes or it’s the whole ‘rejection breeds obsession’ thing. Not too sure yet.

Half the time that I ever spent this last year wanting to neck myself I attribute to MDMA and the god damn frequency of my ingestion of the stuff. My relationship with it was more intense than I’ve had with any living person in a while, unfortunate as that is. It was sudden, fast paced and abrupt. The whole time I knew it was bad for me, but of course that realisation couldn’t stop me, nor could simply wanting to stop. Though I’m not too sure of that either cause’ I never really wanted to stop to tell you the truth. I knew it was a problem but thought it was one that I could sustain for the foreseeable future- says every person that has had a habit ever. In that time I worked two jobs and was earning more than I ever had yet my expenditure was equal to that amount, in some cases more. Now I don’t have anything to show for it but memories of an entire lifetime crammed into the space of one year. Was it worth it?

Yes.

I quietly ‘checked out’ from my uni degree long before I officially made the decision to cease the thing more than halfway through. Many friends requested to film my folks’ reaction to the news because it was predicted to be hilariously catastrophic but when the time came, there was no time to get my phone out. The night before I had been with a friend on one of our seemingly innocent pursuits of debauchery. On this night we had obtained drugs from fellow participants of a party in the middle of some park in St Peters. We got a tip off from a guy that I had coined ‘Red Hat Rob’ in which we’d attended a similar gathering a few weeks prior. Ended up at his mates and without sleep, I gathered my belongings at about 8am and made my way home to fanatic parents who wanted to know why the hell I was out all the time and what I was doing with my life, if anything anymore and I told them I’m through with nursing, I have what it takes to be a police officer.  It actually seemed plausible in my mind at the time. It makes me wonder about the concept of sanity. If all this seemed so normal then and I think I’m normal now, then who the hell knows what’s what with anything.

So I continued in this fashion for the next four months. The tension between myself and my parents was so unbearable to me that the week prior to my departure to Thailand I avoided them altogether. I stayed with a guy that I’d met on New Years Eve and ended up in bed with after a drug fueled rampage and my best friend and I’ll never forget their hospitality during this time. I thought the situation would settle after I’d been overseas for two weeks fending for myself for the first time in my sheltered life. But things were erratic as ever.  After I’d exhausted all my other possible avenues for scoring pills, I asked an ex boyfriend from about seven years ago if he could for me. Upon our meeting I discovered he was in fact a drug dealer. I thought I’d struck gold and had found a regular source. How wrong I was.  My friend had accompanied me to a gig on Oxford Street one night and we had one of the pills I had obtained each. For a few hours after, things were seemingly normal. Though my sense of time that night was quite askew, hours may be generous. I had come to expect a feeling of being in between high out of my mind and being sober whenever I took anything at this point. I only felt the desired effect less than half of the time which could be for a number of reasons. After moving on to a warehouse party things began to turn. We both felt lethargic and confused. She asked me what it is that I wanted to do and I said “I want to stay here forever and ever”. I couldn’t envision a moment ahead of me in which I wasn’t sitting in that very spot, with the same group of people even though I wasn’t even particularly enjoying myself. Eventually we hijacked it back to my house and in the same breath of telling her that I wanted to be sick the entire way home, I threw up copiously. Once inside, I noticed that there was something on the mat by the front door and bent down to pick it up. I discovered that it was the street light shining through the door. There was nothing there. Even more bizarre yet, when I got into bed and closed my eyes, i began to see faces of people that I knew which morphed into terrifying, demonic and ever so vivid faces with bared teeth that threatened to engulf me. I quickly opened my eyes but the images were stamped on my pupils and they wouldn’t go away. I had never experienced any kind of hallucination before and I had no idea what was happening to me or how long it was going to last. Til the morning? Til I go insane and end this whole thing? But sure enough, when I woke up a few hours later, I could see like I normally would on any normal day. When I looked at myself in the mirror, what I did see in front of me was positively alarming. A bruise, purple and pink, the size of my hand on the side of my thigh. I had felt no pain during the night before. But that bruise had to be a result of something extremely painful. It didn’t add up. I quickly got myself together and went to a first birthday party for someone who I love so much, feeling like a ghost of myself. I almost find it laughable. The situations I get myself in.  I turned the events of that night over in my mind, examined them, for weeks after and couldn’t believe the danger I had put myself and my friend in. How I trusted the person that sold it to me. I didn’t know what the hell was in that capsule and thanked the powers that be that I was alive to wonder at all. 

Shortly after, on a normal Wednesday night in April, I found myself sitting on the side of the road with my dearly loved companion in crime, after getting ejected from numerous bars in Sydney for bringing in outside alcohol. This was not the first time that we had employed this money saving tactic and had gotten so drunk that it was impossible to conceal the prohibited bottle of our choosing. Suddenly, she got to talking to a passerby and their topic of discussion was one that I could hardly believe. It involved the attainment of something that I knew ought not to be meddled in or even inquired about. The scene startled me.  I got the two of us away from there as fast as possible. The destination was Kings Cross where we were to meet the person she was involved with, who I’d considered a friend until I considered him someone not worth a second of my time. I was fairly successfully ignoring him as hard as everyone was making it for me to do so- even her. I eventually had enough, so much so, I ventured home alone. All I wanted was to keep a lid on the container of disaster but it wasn’t appreciated and it wasn’t my job anyway.  On my way to the station I stopped at a convenience store for a pack of cigarettes. There was a man at the counter smoking a lit cigarette which I regarded as wonderfully rebellious. “Right on, man” “Wanna buy any weed?” he asked me. “Sure.” So from then on I replaced MDMA with the casual use of marijuana. It was something that didn’t wreck absolute havoc with my mind and body and it was something that I didn’t kill myself to obtain cause it was much easier to get but mainly cause I wasn’t so damn crazy about it.

 Without even realising, I was drifting further and further away from the personal hell I had created for myself. And though it was just just that: chasing after someone who didn’t want me back, chasing drugs that made me sick and fighting with my parents, I was happier than I’d ever thought possible. I found something to be thankful for every day. I was doing the best I could and because of that I would do it all over again the exact same way; the terrific and the terrible.  I made spontaneous decisions, met people from all walks of life, saw sunrises and sunsets, explored the beautiful place I get to call home, injured myself in moshpits, drove places I’d never been by myself and sang the whole way so loud and smoked so much I lost my voice. I learned the importance of saying thank you when something is done for you no matter how insignificant and of saying sorry when you have done wrong, and actually meaning it. I knew everyone made mistakes but I discovered that it can actually be okay to forgive them. I learned so much that I couldn’t possibly write all the lessons but the main thing is that we never stop learning, progressing and growing through our entire lives and that’s what makes life so unique and wonderful. I can’t wait for all the stuff I’m gonna go through in the coming year, if you wanna know the truth.

[romefm]

what’s   poppeeeeeenguh   AURGH   !   this   was   meant   to   be   posted   a   century   and   a   half   ago   ,   but   due   to   some   ...   unforseen   (   read   :   i   was   given   a   edible   by   thou   who   shalt..   not..   be   named   ?   clearly   i   skipped   all   of   my   shakespeare   english   classes   )   circumstances   ,   it   was   delayed   .   but   i’m   here   now   to   deliver   u   this   steaming   pile   of   degenerate   fratboy   douchebag   on   this   fine   saturday   morning   (   shoutout   to   chloe   in   australia   idk   what   month   ur   in   much   less   what   time   of   day   it   is   so   bear   with   me   SKJFJKD   )   .

⋆ ╰  another  year  at  hollingsworth  ,  another  year  of  the  big  six  rivalry  .  i  hear  that  ROMAN PIERCE  is  ensuring PI KAPPA EPSILON  gets  a  solid  pledge  class  and  stays  at  the  top  of  the  ranks  .  oh  ,  you’re  not  familiar  with  HIM ?  ROME is  the  GREGG SULKIN look  alike  from  ATLANTA  ,  GEORGIA.  apart  of  PC  ‘16  ,  he  is  majoring  in  PSYCHOLOGY and  has  plans  to  PURSUE A CAREER IN THE NFL  after  undergrad  .  it  makes  sense  they  pledged  their  house  ,  their  ADEPT  &  MAGNETIC  attributes  make  them  perfect  matches  .  however  ,  their  IMPETUOUS   &  SALACIOUS  attributes  keep  their  name  alive  on  greek  rank  .  if  you  don’t  catch  them  dancing  to  MOUNT EVEREST - LABRINTH  at  a  fraternity  band  party  this  year  ,  you’ll  be  sure  to  catch  them  nursing  their  morning  hangover  at  THE PIKE HOUSE.  cheers  to  another  wild  semester !

i.

𝖓𝖆𝖒𝖊 : roman gabriel pierce 

𝖆𝖌𝖊 : twenty - one

𝖉𝖔𝖇 : june 15th , 1998

𝖌𝖊𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖗 / 𝖕𝖗𝖔𝖓𝖔𝖚𝖓𝖘 : he / him 

𝖘𝖊𝖝𝖚𝖆𝖑 & 𝖗𝖔𝖒𝖆𝖓𝖙𝖎𝖈 𝖔𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖓𝖙𝖆𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓 : bisexual , but definitely more on the low low . he’s only ever been seen publicly with girls .

𝖍𝖊𝖎𝖌𝖍𝖙: 6‘1″  🤡

𝖆𝖕𝖕𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖆𝖓𝖈𝖊: having graduated from the title of white man’s wh*re , he is now cordially referred to as the white man’s beefcake . he treats gym sessions like a therapy visit , clocking in at a friendly 200 lbs . like all gym rats w/o a personality , he keeps his hair short on the sides n longer on top , a la this look . he has a scar running along the inside of his right arm from when he broke it , and another that splits his left eyebrow from his eighteenth birthday 

𝖔𝖈𝖈𝖚𝖕𝖆𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓 : resident waste of space , quarterback for the hollingsworth mumbles , least favorite son of the year recipient 1998 - 2019 . 

𝖍𝖔𝖒𝖊𝖙𝖔𝖜𝖓 : atlanta , georgia .

ii.

second son of hall of fame ex falcons qb , miles pierce , and entrepreneur and daughter of a famed manhattan - based art collector , amélie pierce -- rome’s future was pretty non - negotiable since day one . as soon as they could stumble around enough to pass for walking , miles had his sons enrolled in as many football programs as he legally could . 

when rome was young , he loved it . the attention , the praise he received for his quickness despite being one of the smallest kids on the field . plus , going to his father’s games and being recognized as miles pierce’s kids was also fun . soon came time for the inevitable retirement on the heel of a downward - trending career , and after that things ... changed .

suddenly , it was less praise and more demands . earlier practices , with his father making rome and his brother run drills until they were sick . suddenly , things that were previously good weren’t good enough , despite how much better his sons continued to be . 

as anyone with half a brain could guess , these pressures eventually began to take their toll . with interests in anything else repressed by his father’s insistence that football is and always will be the most important thing in life , rome began to emulate his father’s aggressive attitude , first bringing it to the field and then , more notably , to his personal life . failed relationships , fights at school , sneaking home late absolutely blitzed out of his mind -- none of the behaviors were healthy , but they were enough to take the weight of his father’s hands off of his shoulders , if only for a moment . until papa helicopter parent found out , that is . 

tw abuse : despite his sons catering to his every will , miles’ incessant anger began to worsen , and soon a lot of the verbal abuse had started to become physical , too . sure , rome knew that it was wrong , but he also thought that maybe if he’d been better in the game last night , or worked harder at practice , maybe he’d stop . 

he made varsity his freshman year of high school and took his team to the state championships , expecting his dad to finally approve of something he’d done . instead , he came home to the news that his mother was leaving -- that his parents were splitting up and that this had been a long time combing . safe to say this mama’s boy ass bitch was devastated. 

tw death : his dad only sunk deeper into his madness , but all that anyone else could see is that rome was throwing further , moving faster , and making better plays . a non - football related injury left him with a broken arm , and it was on the way home from the hospital that his father received the call that his ex - wife had taken her own life . devastated part ii , coming soon to a theater near you !

tw drugs , alcohol , general debauchery : the partying worsened . rome had entered a phase in his life where he was looking for something -- anything to completely wipe his mind of any and all thoughts . the drugs , the alcohol , it was all a coping mechanism , but it definitely wasn’t a healthy one . soon , his brother left for college thousands of miles away , and rome found out that that fifth of rum goes down a lot easier after doing a few lines beforehand . 

he chose to go to college in georgia not because he wanted to , but because his dad knew that hollingsworth was a great school for scouting attention and that rome wasn’t never too far away to yell at SKDFKJ . in his midst of an extended bender compounded by having training now twice a day everyday on top of college courses , he decided to join pike -- and he absolutely loves it . 

he chose to major in psych because he wants to understand why his dad hates him so much SKJFJKS dumb b*tch . 

also last summer he may or may not have allegedly accidentally wrapped his masterati around a telephone pole and gotten a dui . in reality , it was his brother , but roman told him to gtfo and he’d take the fall because his bro finally managed to escape his dad and rome didn’t want him to suffer the same fate . it made headlines , but his dad pulled approximately 6 billion strings to get him conditionally reinstated to the team .

spent the summer before his junior year chillin in rehab , but he relapsed shortly after . consistency is key here , kids. 

still bender - adjacent , but he’s kept it more lowkey because the nfl draft is coming in HOT . 

iii.

he really .............. kinda sux , objectively SFDKJSDFJK

he has so , so much pent up frustration and anger directed at his father and himself that it manifests in some pretty shitty behaviors . 

he’s definitely controlling ( as a consequence of having v v little control over his own life ) , and he’ll manipulate any situation he deems worthy of his effort just to assure that he isn’t in any state of vulnerability . 

i know yall get it , he vapes , but he’s definitely the kind of guy to try to keep the party running til 5 am and get pissed when people tell him that maybe he should stop .

he will provoke anyone and anything ( even inanimate objects ) if found in a self - destructive enough mood . 

has a notoriously short temper , but what kind of gym rat doesn’t .

manages to still attain a 4.0 ( and in his words , psych is easy ) , so that’s another thing that makes it difficult for him to understand that his lifestyle is ... per se ... problematique . 

10000% has sent a plethora of  u up ? texts

kinda gets a little .. hm .. sad sometimes but that’s only after everyone bails from the party n he’s left alone in a dirty ass frat house SDKFSDJK

definitely an irredeemable trash bag and pls don’t think of him any other way 

is definitely fiercely loyal to the 2.5 people who can tolerate him . 

currently in an uber ride to hell , but 10/10 hit the option so that his uber driver can’t talk to him 🤡