#I could be enouguh for some one as beautiful as Thomas

[franciscrozierofficial]

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”Decemb (…)

Jopson (…) left (…)

December 1846

God fucking damnit all. I should have known it was too good to be true.

Jopson is gone he is not gone in the sense he is dead but gone from me all the same.

He does not want me .

I saw him today at B’s thrice-cursed seminar and he woutdn’t look my way.

I (walked?) out.

No gloves I stood in the frozen abyss — my hands still shake and my handwrit penmanship is worse than usual. I wish

Dandy is never again going to darken my fucking doorstey. The prick never even acknowledged how I trised to be kind when he needed a friend

I am not their friuend I am a captican and I need to pull. myself together.

This is not a place for softness. No matt

I will do my duties Jopson will be nothing more to be than another man I need to save save from this place.

When — if — if is the rule — we return to England; then I can buy a rope.

Until theyn I have my duty.

— Crozier.”