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citycfangels · 7 years ago

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text: raquel ⇄ charlie

Raquel: note to self and to you: best steak dinner really is at maestros. Even if it was like really expensive.

Charlie: was that just a note or just a way to tell me we're going there at some point?

Raquel: no, I don't want to go there ever again. It's way too stuck up and it's like every table has people whose life mission is to be an asshole. Really I just thought I'm here and my mom is probably going to pay the bill so why not go for the 100 dollar steak

Raquel: but then she said we should split the bill. So I guess my plan backfired in a way.

Charlie: sounds like that place is filled with people like your mother, for example

Charlie: i'm sorry for the 100 dollars steak, btw

Charlie: i'm just asking this because i have to, but you don't have to answer. do you want to talk about your dinner with your mom?

Raquel: yep all the reptilian people with no souls go there.

Raquel: it's okay. But maybe it wouldn't be so bad if I could get like a to go order of that just so that you could try it.

Raquel: I don't know. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel.

Raquel: it's like no matter what I do, I'm not good enough. It's like she just can't be happy for me. And she always has an opinion on something and I know she is my mom and I have tried so hard being a good daughter and a good person and no matter what it doesn't matter because the bar she sets just keeps on moving. I don't know what to do.

Raquel: and her personal opinions are all completely wrong. I don't know how I came from a person like that or how one person can just be so frustrating. And how can I still want her in my life? It's crazy. But she's my mom.

Charlie: we can go and get steaks for less money and do them at home, babe

Charlie: am i allowed to say she's a shithead?

Charlie: what did she say? what does she want from you now?

Raquel: I would be completely okay with that. The less interaction with that restaurant the better. I was surprised they even let me in.

Raquel: Other than saying she wants to be a part of my life I don't know. She thinks she has a right to have an opinion on everything I do and what my life should look like and I just can't stand it. And I know I'm crazy for wanting her attention and approval but she's all i have other than you.

Raquel: maybe I was better off not having her in my life.

Charlie: yeah, we better not go to a place where the reptilians meet.

Charlie: who cares about that? you're on your way to making it big and you're happy, that's what matters. you shouldn't really care about what she thinks.

Charlie: look, i've been lucky in the parents department and i'm glad neither of them was like yours, but shit, i haven't met her and i don't like her.

Charlie: maybe, but that's up to you. don't people say that family is not necessarily the people who share your blood?

Raquel: promise that if I ever get even a tiny bit diva like that you'll tell me and make sure I never become "that" person.

Raquel: I'm extremely happy. You make me happier than I have been in so long.

Raquel: trust me you aren't winning any points from her either. But that's the one thing I told her I do not care about

Raquel: I guess you're right, that is what they say.

Charlie: i'll tell you and if i have to snap you out of it, i will. i won't let you become your mother

Charlie: you're welcome. you make me really happy too and it's been a while since i was this happy, babe.

Charlie: wait, what do you mean with that? did you tell her about me?

Raquel: Thank you.

Raquel: well good because I plan on making you happy all the time.

Raquel: She asked about Nathan so yeah I told her about you.

Charlie: i like the sound of that. i intend of doing the same

Charlie: so i guess she doesn't like the idea of you being with a poor bartender while you could have Nathan as your fancy boyfriend, right?

Raquel: please don't do that. You're so much more than just a bartender. You're a future business owner and you know i don't care about Nathan. I don't care about money and yeah nathan had a lot of it but that didn't make me happy. My mom is materialistic and vain. Of course she wants me with Nathan, but none of that matters.

Charlie: i know you don't care about the money and shit, but that's what i am right now. i'm broke, i'm a bartender and until i get my chance to get a business that's what i'll be.

Charlie: but i appreciate you telling me i'm more than that and all that shit doesn't matter, i really do

Raquel: I just don't want you thinking that's what I see you as because I don't.

Raquel: did you ever think money did matter to me?

Charlie: i don't think that.

Charlie: nah, money is a nice plus but i never pegged you for that kind of girl. otherwise you'd be with Nathan and not with me, not even like the way we are right now

Raquel: what does that mean? Even the way we are now?

Charlie: we're still lowkey because you haven't broken up with him, right? unless... you did and i didn't get the signs, which wouldn't surprise me.

Raquel: babe, I broke up with Nathan a while ago. I told you I'm all yours and I didn't just mean that emotionally. I meant that completely. There's no more hiding this.

Charlie: are you serious? like, you're being serious right now?

Charlie: now i feel dumb for not seeing the signs.

Raquel: I thought you had already picked up on it.

Raquel: I thought that's why you told me what you did.

Raquel: you're really cute when you're clueless. i just want you to know that.

Raquel: wait so yesterday when we were at my house the whole time I was getting ready where did you think I was going?

Charlie: apparently, i didn't

Charlie: i don't think i'm cute when i'm clueless but thank you?

Charlie: until you mentioned it was with your mother, i was pretty sure you were going to have dinner with Nathan

Raquel: that explains a lot.

Raquel: you can stop thinking that now.

Raquel: You don't have to worry about me dating someone else now or about hiding what we have or about thinking I'm choosing someone over you because I chose you.

Charlie: so, now we don't have to hide, any ideas of where to go?

Raquel: is that your way of saying you want to show me off?

Charlie: that, bc i'm proud of you, and because i want to go out with you now we're not hiding anymore

Charlie: unless you want to take things slow, even if we fuck a lot already, which is the opposite of taking things slow

Raquel: I want to take things at whatever pace you want to take them. I am all for going out. I want to be the one to show you off.

Raquel: let's just do the whole slower thing when we're actually in the bedroom and even then we won't do that every time because most of the time I just need you.

Charlie: so i guess we're going out. are you free later? i have a night off so if you're also free we could, i don't know, grab dinner somewhere.

Charlie: babe, it's impossible for us to go slow in the bedroom, or i'm speaking for myself at least

Raquel: I actually have to work tonight :( how about after I come over to your place and we can just sleep. I have Sunday night free.

Raquel: It's not impossible. Maybe I just have to teach you how to go slow.

Charlie: :(

Charlie: that sounds like a good plan. you can spend the night here, i'd love that

Charlie: then we'll go out on Sunday. think about places you want to go, babe

Charlie: you think? because as much as you can teach me, you know i can't keep my hands to myself around you, and it happens to you too.

Raquel: me waking up next to you sounds like a great plan.

Raquel: I already know where I want to go but I won't tell you until then.

Raquel: I think there is a lot I can still teach you. Even if you can't keep your hands to yourself. I can keep my hands to myself but like the cheesy Selena Gomez song I could but why would I want to when I have the hottest, sexiest and most caring boyfriend?

Charlie: good. i'll stay home and finish one of the books with a drink in hand. if i fall asleep, you know where i keep my spare key

Charlie: oh, surprise me then

Charlie: oh really? what you have to teach me that i haven't taught you already?

Charlie: don't keep them to yourself on my account, you know i like it when you don't do it

Raquel: If I havent said it recently I am so proud of you for sticking with your reading. I'll try not to be too late but don't wait up.

Raquel: you'll be surprised on Sunday.

Raquel: There is a lot I have to teach you. Going slow is just one thing but I have to think of other things for my lesson plans.

Charlie: you say it every now and then, but you don't need to say it. thank you, and i'm very invested in this, which was your idea in first place and you encouraged me to go for it, so i have to thank you for that

Charlie: i'll probably be asleep by then, but i'll stay up for a bit anyways

Charlie: oh yeah? what can you teach me besides that? you can't teach me anything kinky because babe, i'm your teacher in that department

Raquel: I'd like to think that you would have come up with the same idea sooner or later. I just planted the seed earlier on.

Raquel: Just try not to stay up too late okay? I don't want you losing sleep over me.

Raquel: I don't know. You're amazing in the sex department like the best I've ever had but that doesn't mean you know it all. There have to be a few things that you haven't tried yet and want to do with me.

Charlie: still, thank you for doing that. you're so supportive and no one has been that since i arrived here

Charlie: yes ma'am

Charlie: you're welcome for the mindblowing sex, babe

Charlie: then make a list. that will be our kinky list and we'll do all of that

Raquel: well it's not like you aren't supportive of my dreams. It takes a lot for someone to not just say that I'm the millionth girl in la that wants to make acting dreams happen but instead of you blowing that off you actually support me.

Raquel: careful. I actually might start liking the ma'am thing even if it's new.

Raquel: as if my orgasm wasn't enough of a you're welcome.

Raquel: all of it and I can't be the only one adding to that list. And second: the only restriction is no other people. There's no way I'm sharing you. Someone might get clingy.

Charlie: you may be the millionth girl in LA who wants to be an actress, but let me tell you something. you're good and you're really determined, so if someone tells you that, they suck balls

Charlie: add it to the kinky list then.

Charlie: i'll be adding things too. i mean, i'm pretty sure there are kinky things we haven't done yet.

Charlie: i wasn't thinking of having any threesome or anything and sharing you with other people, but that's a good rule to add. that would be too much even for me, and that comes from me. no, i'm not sharing you either.

Raquel: you keep talking like that and you might not need to wait until morning for sex

Raquel: maybe I will. I can go full on dominatrix.

Raquel: there have to be but I guess when I have let you do so much it's hard to think of what else I can let you do to me.

Raquel: so there's no weird voyeurism kink? You din't want to like watch some other guy have sex with me or something weird?

Charlie: so we could have sleepy sex in the middle of the night? then i'm going to bed early, just in case

Charlie: that's something i'd like to see, bring it on.

Charlie: there must be something, we just have to think of what we've done and what we haven't.

Charlie: i won't deny that seeing you with another woman wouldn't turn me on, but i would probably get jealous at some point, so i think i pass

Raquel: lol maybe. Rest up Tiger, I'm keeping you up all night.

Raquel: as long as I don't have to wear actual leather or pleather.

Raquel: i want a lot of things actually. But it looks like I'm going to be doing a bit of online shopping.

Raquel: another woman? It can still be a fantasy for you. What am I doing in this fantasy and why does it have to be a woman?

Charlie: my neighbors are going to kill me if we have loud sex in the middle of the night... not that i care

Charlie: you could wear a garbage bag and you'd look hot

Charlie: online shopping? now i'm curious

Charlie: i don't know, it was a hot fantasy i woke up to a few weeks after we met. one in which you're making out with one. then you were naked, and then you were fucking her.

Charlie: still, i have no intentions of sharing you with no one, not even a woman.

Raquel: well it's a good thing I don't care about your neighbors at all. This should remind her that you're mine.

Raquel: well garbage bags aren't really what dominatrixes wear so I have to actually get into character babe.

Raquel: mhmm. I want vibrators and a swing and whatever else just magically ends up in my cart.

Raquel: you were having fantasies about me weeks after we met?

Raquel: you totally had a crush on me.

Raquel: good thing I don't want anyone else. You're mine and I'm not afraid to admit that sometimes I get jealous.

Charlie: she should know that already at this point from all the noise we make when we fuck

Charlie: get whatever you want, babe. you'd look hot with everything you choose to wear.

Charlie: you want a sex swing? where would we keep it, babe? are we getting a room for sex toys or what?

Charlie: hey, i was a horny fuckboy who only thought about sex. now i'm just a horny guy who thinks about sex most of the time.

Charlie: and i wasn't crushing, pls

Charlie: good, because i only want you and i can't wait to show you that while we're going out and in bed

Raquel: it doesn't hurt to keep reminding her.

Raquel: I haven't worked out the logistics of where everything would go but no I'm not getting a room just for toys. That would require actually moving.

Raquel: my reformed fuckboy who luckily gets sex most of the time he wants it.

Raquel: you totally were. You had a crush on me. It's okay to admit it.

Raquel: I already do see that. You have a job where you easily could look somewhere else. You have a hot neighbor who wants you. You didn't have to put up with all my crazy or with me being with Nathan. You waited for me and weren't with anyone else and I know it doesn't sound like a lot but it is because like you said you were different before and I know that's scary to think of how much you've changed and I wasn't saying that so that you could freak out. I was saying that because I know before I was insane and jealous and neurotic even but I know now that you only want me and I don't think you realize how much that means to me and I'm going to do whatever it takes to keep proving to you that you're the only person I want too.

Charlie: nope, it doesn't. in fact i love how we do that

Charlie: who do i have to thank because we're not getting our personal red room? because that would be creepy

Charlie: that happens because i know how to get it and because you want lots of sex too. i'm a lucky bastard.

Charlie: oh please, you were the one who had a crush on me, i was the one who wanted to get in your pants

Charlie: babe, it was worth it. you were worth that and more. i could have easily given up at some point, but i didn't because i knew there was something good at the end of it. and i waited and i don't regret it at all. you don't have to prove anything to me because you already did.

Raquel: the fact that you even know what the term red room is is a little scary. That isn't happening. We aren't like completely nymphomaniacs

Raquel: not my fault. I just think you're extremely good looking. Very lucky.

Raquel: No. I liked you, there is a difference. Crushing is like having fantasies and maybe even picturing us together but at the time I didn't really want that. I didn't want to get near you because I figured there was no way I wasn't just going to be a notch on your belt.

Raquel: we are in so much trouble with this love and romance thing.

Charlie: i don't live under a rock. but yeah, not happening. the toys will stay in the bedroom, like normal people has them

Charlie: oh, so it's mostly my face what gets me sex, huh?

Charlie: you can have a sexual fantasy and not have a crush on a person, babe. if that was true, then i'd have had a crush on every girl i had my eye on for a fuck, and trust me, that wasn't the case

Charlie: well, you knew how to work around that and look at us now.

Charlie: so you were trying to not have a crush on me, huh?

Charlie: yep, we've been so fucked up at this, or at least i'm speaking for myself

Raquel: either that or you've been overhearing lots of conversations from horny 40 year olds obsessed with their own Christian Grey.

Raquel: your eyes if I'm being completely honest.

Raquel: okay, true.

Raquel: I figured I'd get hurt in the end so yeah, I tried not having feelings for you. And even after we slept together I thought that that was it.

Raquel: nope, it looks like both of us weren't good at this to begin with but that's okay because the whole fairytale romance thing is overrated anyway.

Charlie: the day i looked him up on the internet bc a few ladies were talking about it while i was working... he's a piece of shit

Charlie: that's good to know

Charlie: well, it's a good thing you ended up having them

Charlie: yeah, that doesn't really exist, right? a relationship has its up and downs and nothing is perfect

Raquel: you and your research. Entitled rich guy with abusive tendencies along with being a full on rapist. Yeah, he's horrible. And unfortunately I know a few people who are him in training.

Raquel: a good thing only because it worked out for us in the end. Otherwise I would have had to stand by and watch you with any girl that gave you the eye.

Raquel: even now there might be ups and downs. I don't want it to be perfect. I just want us to keep working together and just not give up on each other like we did before.

Charlie: i regret looking it up. i have to admit i'm a kinky person, but as i said, that guy is a piece of shit.

Charlie: that would be awkward and i guess you didn't like to see me flirting with them. i guess you won't like it now, even if i do it for the tips

Charlie: it won't, i'm pretty sure. it doesn't have to be perfect and no, i won't give up like we did when we broke up. promise me you won't either

Raquel: you're kinky but you aren't abusive and you've never made me do something I haven't wanted to do. You're nothing like him.

Raquel: I understand why you would flirt but you're right. I don't have to like it. I just know that it's something that comes with your job. Just like how I hope you understand that what I want to do and that me becoming an actress can mean that sometimes I might have to kiss or pretend to be in love with someone else.

Raquel: I promise.

Charlie: i promise to not become that

Charlie: i do understand that. i won't exactly like it but i'll have to suck it up. besides, i know all of that will be fake and that i'll be the one getting all of that and more

Charlie: good

Charlie: going back to our kinky list, i came up with an idea i want to add, but i need to ask you something

Raquel: Oh, trust me. Just like how you said you wouldn't let me become my mom there's no way I'm letting you become anyone other than yourself.

Raquel: so you won't get jealous? Now even seeing me at work and maybe having to flirt too?

Raquel: okay. What do you have to ask?

Charlie: then we have a deal. we won't let the other become someone else.

Charlie: i can't promise anything yet, but i'll work on it. all i know is that i'm the one you kiss and fuck after all

Charlie: how do you feel about being filmed? like, when you're touching yourself or when you have sex

Raquel: not in a million years. You're stuck being the same person or at least growing with me and not regressing into a horrible human being.

Raquel: and I con promise that no matter what no matter who might like me you're the one person I want and the one person who I'll come home to every night.

Raquel: I don't know hot to answer that.

Raquel: I trust you and I know that we could but I have to keep my future in mind. Someone gets a hold of a sex tape and my career can be over before it even starts. It doesn't mean i don't want to. Do you really want to? What would you do with it? Just keep it?

Charlie: yes, ma'am

Charlie: i like the sound of that. i won't really know how will i feel when you kiss someone else, but that's your job, but all i know is that i'll be proud of you because you'll do a good job

Charlie: yeah, that would be unfortunate. i asked you because i know things like that could happen.

Charlie: well, i think it's hot and it would be good material for lonely nights, but that's up to you. i would never make you do something you don't want to, especially because your job could be in jeopardy if someone leaks it

Charlie: i would keep a copy to jerk off to it whenever you're off somewhere to film whatever gig you land. i would send you one too, but that's it.

Raquel: well I don't want to say hopefully you'll find out soon but I do have an audition in a week for a " Ex Machina meets Silicon Valley." indie film about love i mn the modern age. I don't even know what half of it means but I just know they want me to read for the lead.

Raquel: I know, and I love that you asked instead of just putting a camera in front of me when it was go time.

Raquel: lonely night? Are you already planning on having a lot of those? And what if there's a project that's for a long period of time? Would you stay here?

Charlie: sounds interesting, you'll do it great! do you have to leave LA or something?

Charlie: i could have already installed a camera, but no, i prefer to ask you first

Charlie: well, depends on what do you want. do you want me to go with you every time you get a movie, even if it's for a short period of time?

Raquel: Well the listing just said that it would film in various places but mostly in LA. They're sending me my reading tonight

Raquel: maybe you could install the camera, or whatever you want to record me on.

Raquel: I want you to do whatever you want to do. I just know that if i have to be gone for a long time that it'll be hard on me. I miss you when I have to go to work. How am I supposed to survive like weeks of filming sometimes? And that's if it's just a movie. What if I get like a tv show? I never want to leave la. I know that but maybe if it's for a short period of time leaving you to yourself would be a good thing. I just don't want to have to go weeks without seeing my boyfriend.

Charlie: nah, that's creepy. i'm not the kind of guy who install cameras to spy on girlfriends. if we do this, i want you to give me your full consent.

Charlie: if anything, i could film myself getting off and send you videos as an alternative, although that isn't the same.

Charlie: well, if it's not for longer than a day or two i could stay here, but if it's for longer i would definitely go with you. i'd miss you too.

Charlie: we have skype and facetime in case i can't go with you, but let's hope we don't have to use them often

Raquel: It's not like you have had many girlfriends but yes this is me saying we can do this but we have to be really careful.

Raquel: that wouldn't be the same thing and maybe that's more for like snapchat or something.

Raquel: really? A day or two is all you can go without me?

Raquel: how about I promise that if my shoots take longer than a week or two that I'll fly back somehow just to spend time with you. You'll never have to go without me for too long. And I'll always talk to you before I take a long job because we're a team and I can't just make decisions for the both of us.

Charlie: you get my point, but yeah. we have to be careful when we do this because the last thing i want to do is to ruin your career. this will be for personal uses, because i'm pretty sure we look hot as fuck while fucking and it's better than porn

Charlie: well, i'm down to send you videos of me masturbating on those nights when you're away, if that's what you want

Charlie: well, more or less. maybe three days or four

Charlie: that sounds fair. i mean, we'd have to talk about it like you said to see if it works for us, but yeah, we can do that

Raquel: okay we can do it even if I don't really understand because when I'm away is when you can actually watch as much porn as you really want.

Raquel: I'd want videos. Even if all they'll do is make me want you even more.

Raquel: Okay I think I can only do four days too.

Raquel: and when you open the bar that takes priority no matter what. No exceptions.

Charlie: not all porn is good, babe. there are crappy videos and i prefer to see my girl naked

Charlie: then you'll get videos of me, naked and getting off while thinking of you, cock in hand. that's the purpose of it. that and making you want to touch yourself

Charlie: of course, babe. maybe i could get out for a couple of days and that's it, but our baby will get the attention.

Charlie: i mean, the bar. because it'll be somewhat ours.

Raquel: but some porn is. Not that I'm pushing you to watch. I actually think it's sweet that you'd rather watch us than anyone else.

Raquel: and I'm supposed to last at least four days just thinking about you and only touching myself?

Raquel: No, the bar will be yours. Your name, your business. I just support you in whatever way I can. It'll be your baby and I'll just watch my baby run it.

Raquel: and I know what you meant. You didn't have to clarify the whole baby thing because there's no way either one of us is thinking of a baby any time.

Charlie: i may watch any, we'll see about it

Charlie: probably. i think you'll survive without my tongue and cock. think about how hot will be the sex once we see each other again. plus, the thought of you getting off because i'm not there is hot

Charlie: i was hoping you would be somewhere in the papers and all the shit i'll have to go through, but i appreciate it too. all the help is welcome

Charlie: yeah, because when you become an actress and i own a bar, it'll be nearly impossible to raise a kid, or at least that's how i see it now

Raquel: porn is your only way you can really think about another woman so if I were you I'd take as much porn action as I can get.

Raquel: I'm not really one for delayed gratification. Cuming by myself isn't the same as when you make me do it.

Raquel: okay I'll be on whatever you need me to be on but I just want you to know that this is yours and your bar and me are the two things in life that are completely yours.

Raquel: even when we're both settled and have our careers it would be hard. I don't know if that's something I'm ready for at any time of my life.

Charlie: i'll look for good porn then and i'll think of you, that way i'll be inspired to add things to our kinky list

Charlie: then i'll give you two orgasms for each orgasm you get by yourself, and for each time you don't reach it i'll make it up for it.

Charlie: you and my bar are mine. fuck, that sounds even beautiful

Charlie: i think neither of us will be ready for it.

Raquel: so even then you aren't going to be thinking of other girls?

Raquel: so whenever I go away and do come back I should just clear my schedule for a week is what you're saying?

Raquel: yep me and your bar. Yours forever.

Raquel: so we're on the same page. No kids for us.

Charlie: i'll try not to, but i'll try to focus on how hot is my girlfriend and how much i want her naked while i watch porn

Charlie: do you watch any and think of me?

Charlie: not for a week, but at least for a whole day so i can fuck you and make up for all the days i didn't

Charlie: i love it. i love you

Charlie: exactly. no kids for us. never.

Raquel: well if you do that's completely okay.

Raquel: nope not at all. When I watch I'm totally thinking about one of the famous chris' duh.

Raquel: if you think you can make up for everything in one day you really must not get how much and how often I think about you.

Raquel: I love you too. So much and I'm so glad we're on the same page. I don't think that's something I would have been able to compromise on and not being able to give you something you wanted would have killed me. I want to give you everything you've ever wanted.

Charlie: should i be offended, babe? tell me about which one of them at least

Charlie: i'll probably need the whole day and at least next morning to do that, but what if you just have one day to see me?

Charlie: me too. i don't want to pressure you to do anything you don't want to, whether it is something kinky or something as big as having a baby. i wouldn't be able to live with that

Raquel: well there's Hemsworth and sometimes Evans but honestly it's rare. I don't think you can get offended because it's not like I have them and chances are they aren't as good in bed to begin with.

Raquel: if I just have one day then idk I might just have to leave sexually frustrated.

Raquel: trust me, you have never pressured me to do something I didn't want to do. You've supported me and been in my corner even when i was with someone else. And if you ever feel like I'm pressuring you with anything I want you to tell me.

Charlie: i happen to think i'm prettier than those guys

Charlie: if i ever let you leave my apartment and you're sexually frustrated that means i didn't do a good job at satisfying you

Charlie: i will let you know, and you haven't pressured me to do anything either, so you're good

Raquel: of course you would.

Raquel: that just means I would never leave your apartment because me being completely satisfied of you is never really going to happen.

Raquel: I have to go flirt with skeezy old men now but enjoy your reading. I love you and I'll see you later tonight.

Charlie: don't you agree with that? i mean, they're hot, but

Charlie: i can at least satisfy you enough to survive until the next time

Charlie: ouch, that sucks, but hopefully that will be over soon.

Charlie: see you later, although i'll be asleep by the time you're here

Raquel: but they're not you. Yes I agree.

Raquel: okay maybe that's true because if not we really would never leave and we'd just have to live off sex and sunshine.

Raquel: rest up. I'm already planning on keeping you up all night so see ya later.

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