#I can’t even rn lord
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“What if the evil tyrant who likes to kill puppies for fun actually just needed to fall in love with a sweet naive child who redeems them through the power of love and they were actually good the whole ti-“
What if they weren’t, though? What if their life twisted them to the point that they can only love through violence?
What if the narrative doomed them to ever play their role, a role that has already been chosen by forces higher than them?
What if the sweet, gentle character didn’t love them ‘despite their flaws’, or even at all?
Why should they? Especially if it’s a case of kidnapping. ESPECIALLY if they hurt them. Or their friends. Or take away their agency.
What if that strange contradiction of love and hatred in their heart tore them apart and gave them their justified end?
What if they CAN’T be fixed?
What if they don’t WANT to be fixed?
What if we stopped glamorizing abusive relationships and started actually exploring them?
#so sick of these ‘bad boy tyrant/murderer oooooh’ and then the narrative treats him like he does nothing wrong even as he abuses the protag#this goes for ladies too stop acting like it’s fine just because she’s hot#moral of the story#Claude frollo is an excellent character and I love him for how unhinged he is#can’t think of any other characters rn except the villain of my own book#love u Zalrog#you’re fucked and that makes you fascinating#claude frollo#the hunchback of notre dame#whump#whump writing#whumpblr#whump scenario#whump tropes#whumptober2024#whump ideas#whumper#writing#tropes#writing trope#dark lord#bad boy#tyrant#dark romance#writeblr#writblr#writers on tumblr#btw not talking about complex well written villains who the author doesn’t coddle#or stories where it’s the point that their relationship is messed up and one doesn’t realize it#that’s different and you know it
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had an agents of shield relapse and may i just say wow oh wow fitzsimmons has it ALL. one of the superior tv couples of all time i mean? friends to lovers? the intense pining? the HURT/COMFORT of it all? genuinely aos is worth the watch just for them especially for that final payoff this rewatch has got me down BAD
#aos#fitzsimmons#shut up sian#don’t even get me started about the bottom of the ocean and that’s just season ONE#anyway s4 of aos is balls to the walls batshit and i fucking love it. the framework arc is SO GOOD#and aida is my favourite big bad ever i love that unhinged psycho robot lady <333#i can and i will talk about marvel’s agents of shield in the year of our lord 2023#like it or not this show Shaped Me#and fitzsimmons is THE slow burn couple#with just the perfect ending i can’t wait to rewatch and CRY#bc obviously just finishing s4 i am in so much pain rn lol#shout out to the maybe three people who get it
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#i am so depressed i cannot keep going like this#i can’t say this on twitter and my journal is across the room so!! rambling here it is!!#it sucks that you can do everything right during the day—drink lots of water; go on a walk; chat with friends; etc.#but night hits and suddenly it’s just you#and there’s subzero actual advice for ways to cope with that#like i want to be dead so bad i am so sick of having anxiety attacks and trying not to throw up because i’m crying so hard#:(#this sucks so bad#and i’m not sleepy at all because it’s only 10pm so i’m just stuck here not wanting to do anything#i just want to stop crying and i miss my mom#but part of why i’m doing so bad is because i’m broke and i don’t have the money to go home or go on a solo trip or anything#and i can’t even say i wish i was home rn bc my apt is my home and i don’t have childhood home or room at my mom’s place…#i need a win so bad#…good lord
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#disclaimer: this is just a vent don’t feel obligated to say anything 😼🙏🏻#tw. alcohol#trauma is real#which obviously i knew that but im feeling it rn and im just 🧍🏻♀️#long story short my mom used to drink a lot#and she chilled out recently but tonight has drank a lot more than usual and lord have mercy it’s messing with me bad folks#the amount of songs i can’t listen to be i go into flight or fight mode bc my mom used to blare them while drunk#which i mean i could have it a lot worse but yk#and like i can’t even be frustRted with my mom without feeling bad bc ik she deals with a lot but i can’t do anything to help#and the speed at which the night can go from good to bad bc of her drinking#not to mention i’m rewatching yellowstone and i still like it but it also brings back bad memories with my mom#bc we were watching yellowstone while she and i had some of our worse fights (due to her drinking)#anyways. if you’re reading shoutout to you i hope you don’t relate to this but if you do you’re not alone and ily#also who likes yellowstone#ryan please give me a chance (he’s a fictional cowboy who’s definitely too old for me)#(but i want him)#okay i’m done i hope you’re having a good night if you’ve read this far 🙏🏻
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do you have lore for hero-n and tabbygon 0:
alas, i do…
i’ve decided to completely rework how i wanted the chimera logs to be considering i lost the plot so hard but still loved gary to death as a character to write. so, instead of an au focusing on just gary and his struggles with his life and friends, gary is now a narrator. he is thrust into his job at the chimera lab just as suddenly as he was in the og chimera logs story, but now he’s all alone. there was no first day escape incident that led him to meet max, izzy is no longer here (still thinking about this. she could be in it, but as a casualty), etc.
hero-n and tabbygon are gary’s first chimeras. they were made in the first week he was there (or, at least their concepts) and due to not having any friends at the chimera lab, he heavily idolizes them. to him, they are his friends (and he eventually even considers them his children) despite them being nothing more than some blueprints and a hard drive. he designed them to compliment each other: hero-n was meant to be a swift, frail attack chimera while tabbygon supported it and could protect it if need be. gary longed for the day that a heron and a cat would arrive at the chimera lab so he could realize his vision so much so that he assembled all of the required mechanical parts in advance.
unfortunately for him, his heron and cat never came. instead, he was delivered two torn-up children who he was ordered to keep alive at all costs. against his wishes, his blueprints for the internal mechanics (and, later, their combat tools) were used on the twins. he despises the twins for taking his one chance at happiness and completion and destroying them. to make matters worse, lucas is the heron (a defensive psi user with attack-based programming) and claus is the cat (an offensive psi user running on analytical and defensive programming). those “hell-sent suckers” can’t even be good chimeras! at any chance he gets, he berates and torments the boys by letting the other chimeras trample or fight them. he nearly kills the boys several times, either through ignorance or from training them just a little too much.
all until his blueprints are returned to him by lucas. at first gary completely dismisses this. he idolized the heron and the cat for so long, and by now he had accepted that they would never see the light of day. he considers locking lucas in the cryo room for his supposed sabotage. however, he eventually overhears how worried doctor andonuts and, by extension, every damn human in the lab is about him. they think gary’s completely lost it (i mean, they’re right) and they don’t know what to do with him if he’s going to continue to be this violent with their expensive chimeras. gary takes one last look at his blueprints, leaves them under his bed, and “kidnaps” the twins. in reality, he just ushered them into his truck and tried to get them home; unfortunately neither of them remembered where tazmily was and they got caught.
gary then realizes that, due to how the wrong twin has the opposite’s programming quirks, he comes up with a long and convoluted plan that will result in one of the twins being able to leave the lab forever. after much consideration from the boys and gary, they decide lucas is the best one to go. at least one of them has to stay to be commander, after all, and who better than the powerhouse thunder thumbs? but that means the heron and the cat are separated, and what happens?
claus becomes violent and short-tempered, much like how flint was the night of hinawa’s death and also like how gary was when they first met. he begins a spiral into madness where he, quite literally, becomes porky #2. lucas, meanwhile, latches on to flint after miraculously finding his way back home. he becomes so independent and stale in the face that the folks of tazmily think he’s been possessed by something. that and people finding his cybernetics vile lead to him becoming “the ghost of tazmily”; he flies above the town and over the sea at dawn and dusk, as flying is the only thing that drowns out the noise of his spiraling negative thoughts. he steals from shops and people’s homes in the night. he’s regularly crawling around in sunshine forest to take out his feelings on the landscape, leaving perfectly scorched patterns from PK Love everywhere he goes.
i’ve recently attempted rewriting the chimera logs following this storyline, and it hasn’t gone well. i’m not even ten pages in and i already want to set google docs on fire. i wish i could express in writing just how important the concept of a shady heron and a mischievous cat are to gary’s entire situation, as they act as constant reminders of who, what, and where he’s been in life, but i simply don’t have the brainpower to do that currently methinks.
just know that the heron and the cat cannot be separated; for if they are, their absence will drive their compliment to conform to the next nearest thing, and that will bring certain doom.
there were always two.
#ask reply#mother 3#absolute wall of text. whoops sorry 😣#i… have a lot of feelings about them#they are more symbols than anything#but good lord they do not let up. there are there from start to finish let me tell you#the designs themselves even have symbolism! i just can’t get into rn because i’ll be here typing for three hours!#lugie moment. don’t mind me
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I just found this pic on Twitter and I am going feral!! That’s my art!! Next to Mandip!! She put it in her little display and I didn’t even notice!!!!!!
#I can’t even rn#oh lord#this is amazing#wow#Mandip with my art#mandip gill#lcc spring 2023#praxeus rambles
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Just finished playing everhood
#midnight rants#everhood#//oh god this game made me think#//I had a moment#//I’m still having a moment#//it made me realize a lot of things oh god oh lord you don’t understand#//and I can’t even explain it to you cus idk how to explain it. it is an experience that is indescribable but so worth every second#//please play the game omg please it’s on sale rn for 6.99
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tagged by @aartyom (thank u rena ily) 💖 to do this picrew and i was so obsessed with it i still have a million in my camera roll LOL.
wraith (d2) | rose | sebastian (fo4) gwenyth | salen (dai) shiro | verde (cp7/7) nizana | galen | caspian (bg3)
not tagging anybody bc i feel like everybody and their dog has done this one now <3
#feel like gwenyth nizana shiro and galen came out the best#tho wraith kills me too tbh. her crooked sunglasses.#i also love salen but that’s just bc salen can’t do ANY wrong in my eyes. whore.#YES EVERYBODY HAS FRECKLES…. @GOD WHY I GIVE EVERYBODY FRECKLES.#Anyway. Trying to get better about sharing oc stuff again im soooo anxious about it rn idk why#hashtag menty illness or something. idk. i haven't had a lot of energy lately even before covid and i haven't felt like. super secure#on here i've been weird but i've got creative energy coming back and i want to DO THINGS YANNO#hil.txt#ocstuff#oc: wraith#oc: rose#oc: sebastian#oc: gwenyth#oc: salen#oc: shiro#oc: verde#oc: nizana#oc: galen#oc: caspian#good fucking lord .
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the people in this house are so fucking loud goddamn
#i would say i’m not drunk enough to deal with this shit but god i can’t even drink. good lord#nyx yells#two years in a row of loud ass house parties i need everyone to leave rn
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#i so desperately want to ride choso’s face like oh lord#i want my fingers tangled up in his hair as he eats me out so good that i can’t even ride his face myself#and his hands just gripping my thighs keeping me his place as he overstimulates me with his tongue ?????#needs in life rn#that and i need to go to bed but yknow it is what it is#bunniie talks#heated bunniie
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i fucking hate being an addict i fucking missed my shot last night instead of waiting for my bf to come home and do it for me. i’m so tired of this back and forth battle i keep having with myself. 5 fucking years of this shit i’m tired of breaking the promises i make to myself. why can’t i just get over it already? why couldn’t i just be normal
#i don’t even want ice anymore bc xans feel so much better#but the last time i said ill be okay with just xans i took 6 in one day and had to go to detox.#i’m lucky they didn’t force me to stay in rehab#sometimes i wish i was addicted to dope instead of ice#you know how hard it is to stop doing heroin bc of the physical effects and shit?#i look so fucking weak to keep relapsing on meth#it’s like aww poor baby has no fucking will power#poor baby just can’t say no :(#poor baby is a fucking joke#like dude my arm hurts real bad rn#it wont become an abscess i can tell but still man that’s fucking embarrassing#and i had just got a hit right before it i was just being greedy i didn’t need another one#i could have waited#he always gets mine in with no issues#our relationship was never supposed to be like this either#i feel so fucking stupid#im such a loser#why the fuck do i have to be a god damn addict#addicted to meth no less#like that’s such a gross drug according to other addicts#and yet here i am repeating prayers all day bc i still want a shot despite the lump in my fucking arm#UGH#prsnl#me#tw: drugs#tw: meth#addiction#no human power can help me ig#lord please help me
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sometimes i’ll see people’s ages here and it’s like oh damn you’re young . And then i remember that’s how old freshmen are and it’s like oh okay i could feasibly have a class with u
#and whenever i remember im legally an adult#dude#that feels.. odd still#like yeah i’ve been 18 for half a year#but it doesn’t feel real#don’t even get me started on when i actually truly think about college#like yeah im going obviously . Can’t exactly go into psychology without a psych degree#and i don’t have to pay for it bc of my ACT score#so why not either way#but thinking about orientation. classes. making my schedule#actually DOING things?#good lord#idk going to the same college that my best friend is at rn though#and i got a housing waiver so i can live w her off campus#so that’ll make things. Less stressful#my musings
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the way i’ve changed soo much in the past couple of years.. was just looking thru my instagram (inactive for like 2 yrs) and like. that’s not even me. i don’t even recognize that person. and in some ways i’m definitely better and in a better place but i’m other ways i feel so much worse… and i do think this mostly feels weird bc im in such an unstable transitional period where i have no idea who i am and all i feel is nervous for the future. once i’m on stable footing i probably won’t be put in such a tailspin by some old pictures. but goddamn they are spinnin my fuckin tail tonight
#ghost rants#also i start my first job friday (about time lol) and i’m soo nervv#even though i’ve been wanting to work there (escape room) for years#the shifts are really long and run really late and i’m just. nerv for change#i think it’d be less scary if i had like a little baby 4 hour shift or smth but my first shift is 7 hrs and my second is 9#like what if it’s scary and i don’t like it (possible just bc of new environment and changes.. can’t stand em)#and then i have to stay there for 7-9 HOURS goddd#just hoping it’s fun ig#just biding my time until college#i’ve gone thru such a rollercoaster of emotions w being a spring semester admit#rn i’m at the point where i’m mostly happy#but also bitter abt all the things i’m missing out on#(normal college process & experience extra help priority esp with rooms)#and especially TRADITIONS… i’m missing soo many first year traditions by not being there during that first fall semester#and i’m ngl that does make me rly sad. for realz#but gotta focus on the positives n such. sigh#i hope i like it there#FOR HOW MUCH TUITION IS GOOD LORD
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Laplace’s Angel (Hurt People? Hurt People!) is such a Master’s companion ass song.
#I forgot that while I was working on The Archers in April-May I was also making a Master’s Companion OC for a fic#and the only thing that exists aside from something in my notes app is a Playlist. because that’s how I start so many characters.#I don’t even think I gave him a name? anyways in his vaguely-plotted-fic he’s the Master in a fobwatch. Neither of them know.#quote my boyfriend I can’t NOT put time lords in fobwatches#it’s a fun exploration in self care and self love but with a human who’s really just a hot fucking mess.#God I can’t add another fucking character to this blog rn I barely touch most of them—#ooc
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I need a sampard fight club au right now do you guys understand the potential this has. do you see my vision
#PREV I AM SHAKING UR HAND VIOLENTLY RN#YOU GET IT#the one I had in mind was more of sampo unexpectedly being the one fighting in the ring#he’s usually not one for the spotlight but hey if the cash talks he’ll listen#once the underground opens up again gepard finds himself visiting it more often when he’s off duty#per serval’s suggestion#stumbles upon the fight club (fuck I also can’t remember what it’s called in game)#walks in mid match and lo and behold there’s a familiar head of blue hair just absolutely RINSING his opponent#and gepard’s shocked bc like. he’s never actually seen sampo‘s real fighting style before#since all they’ve done before is just chase each other around the city#maybe finds a way backstage after the fight and they have an Actual conversation#where sampo’s quite nonchalant about this whole thing and Gepard hates how he’s kind of worried abt the lengths he’ll go to for a job#even if he said it was just a one time thing#and even if he found sampo’s more unhinged side kind of…attractive#I’ve written down so much of this but I’m going to stop now bc this is becoming a lot#BUT I LOVE THE WAY U THINK honestly that makes a lot more sense canon wise#Gepard having to secretly work ‘for’ the person he’s supposed to be arresting while totally not catching feelings#chefs kiss#i just wanted sampo to go batshit feral on someone for once. like a reward#just obsessed w sampo being criminally underestimated strength wise bc of his reputation#t.txt#dear lord this got long#and I…..also haven’t watched the movie 💀
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can you do a fic where chris and reader are dating and reader interacts with all the edits of chris on tiktok and fangirls with the chris girls.
TIK TOK
chris sturniolo x reader
warnings: cursing, sexual jokes
a/n: i kinda love this, i don’t think i’ve ever seen anyone do a tik tok social au before
lmk what you think
**click yes to actually watch the edits**
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COMMENTS:
@ y/n
good LORD THAT MAN IS FINE 😩
@lustfulslxt
oh i’m DRENCHED
y/n -> the sturniolo police abt to get ur ass (same)
@flowerxbunnie
suddenly i’m on my knees 🫠
y/n -> literally me
@sturnssx
y/n is so lucky but idk if i wanna be her or chris more
y/n -> i’d want myself too honestly (i’m kidding i love chris)
@mattslolita
why is he not in my bed rn ??
y/n -> sorry bae he’s in mine ✌🏾i’ll tell him to go visit u later !
@its-jennarose
HOW IS HE REAL?
y/n -> the way that i genuinely ask myself this question on a daily basis
@sophssturn
GOD DAYUM 😨
y/n -> fr like who does bro think he is ??
@bernardsleftbootycheek
THIS IS CRAZY GOOD
y/n -> idk which is crazier, your username or this edit ( both eat tho)
@queen161718
the fact that y/n is always just lurking in the comment sections of chris edits absolutely takes me out 😭😭
y/n -> gotta support my man and his talented ass fansss
@cupidsword
i need him BAD
y/n -> same (i already have him)
@imwetforyourmom
i just need one chance 😫
y/n -> nah bae, he’s got a brother thooo !
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@ y/n
his hair is really nice 🤭
@evieolo -> I’M SAYINGGGGG
@nickmillersn1gf
it always looks so soft and fluffyyyy
@mbbsgf -> if he ever shaved it off i would cry
y/n -> you and me both sis
@mattsneezing
yesss, i love my husband’s hairrrr 😍
y/n -> aren’t you a matt girl ?? where’s your sense of loyalty ??
@chrisstankyleg
my man is looking FINE
y/n -> girl, i don’t know how to tell you this…
@sturniolobltch
even the paparazzi is obsessed with his hair
@sturniolowhore -> can’t even blame them
@bethsturn -> he’s just so 😫
@ y/n -> you guys get it
@bernardenjoyer
biting my phone rn
y/n -> glad i’m not the only one !
@rac00ns-are-c00l4
long hair chris >>>
@ y/n -> NO FR, IDK WHY HE KEEPS CUTTING IT
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COMMENTS.
@ y/n
MY MAN MY MAN MY MANNNNN
@chrisloyalgf
it’s a good day to be a chris girl
y/n -> it’s a good day to be chris’s girl
@urmom2bitch
HIS FINGERS GOOD LORD
@ y/n -> they’re long as hellll 😋
@defnotayonna -> wdym by that 🤨
@ssturniolo
chris girls, how y’all doing ??
y/n -> I’M LOSING MY MIND RN
@judespoision
i’m just a sturniolo girl atp
y/n -> AS YOU SHOULDDDD
@ y/n
HELP CHRIS JUST ASKED ME WHY THIS AUDIO HAS BEEN REPLAYING FOR SO LONG
@blueeyedbesson -> not you watching chris edits while you’re with him 😭
@ y/n -> THEY’RE SO ADDICTING
@hearts4chriss -> oh hey boo tell my man i said hey 😛
@ y/n -> oh is matt your man now ??
@ hearts4chriss -> …girl don’t play with me
@chrisstopherfilmed
GRIPPING MY SHEETS RN
@starsturniolo -> he’s so fineeeee 😩
@robins-scoop -> LIKE WHY ISN’T THIS MAN IN MY BED ??
@ y/n -> sorry y’all he’s in mine !
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COMMENTS
@ y/n
PERIODDD YOU CLEARED SHOWING THIS TO CHRIS IMMEDIATELY
@ y/n
damnnn me and flo milli twinninggg 🤞🏾
@ christophersturniolo -> oh look at that it’s night
@readerakayourname -> CHRIS 😭
@fandomhopped -> he’s so real for that honestly
@ y/n
i’m absolutely obsessed with that first clip
@yamamasjumpercables -> i want this edit engraved in my brain
@ y/n -> no LITERALLY
@ineedchriscock
i’d let him choke me any day
@ y/n -> where is your self respect 😧 ( literally same )
@luverboychris
the only person’s babies i’d carry
@ y/n -> WHAT 😭😭 (real)
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@ y/n
his frat boy era will be missed 😔🙏
@rootbeerworshiper -> frat boy chris >>>>>
@ y/n
song choice >>>>>
@ christophersturniolo -> i wanna watch u get naked !
@ y/n -> then come over ???
@patscorner -> oh !
@junnniiieee07 -> ik those are the lyrics but i don’t think they’re joking 😭
@ y/n -> 🤫
@chr1sgirl4life -> THAT’S MY MAN MY MAN MY MANNNN 😍
@breeloveschris -> incorrect that’s MY man !
@ y/n -> idk how to tell y’all this…
@nicksmainbitch
this audio choice was the best decision you could’ve ever made
@vanteguccir -> this song is so chris coded
@55sturn -> frat boy chris + this song 😩
@mayhem-72 -> his smirk ?? are we kidding ??
@ y/n -> bros ego is INFLAMMED
he ain’t even the fart fr
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COMMENTS
@ y/n
BODY ROCK OH I WANNA FEEL YOUR BODY ROCKKKKKKKK
@endereies
CHRIS + JUSTIN ??? THIS EATSS
@ y/n -> i’m sayingggggg
@sturniolosmind
smash !
@ y/n -> oh (i agree)
@disturbedwoodelf -> i love how no matter what chris edit i’m watching y/n is always in the comment section
@ y/n -> AND AMMM
@ mattsturniolo -> she has nothing better to do
@ y/n -> alr fuck you too then
-> and you can’t be talking you had to click at least 5 different drop down arrows to even find this reply
@ mattsturniolo -> i’m very busy actually
@ christophersturniolo -> matt you’re literally walking around the house catching pokemon
@nikolastrn -> damn they gagged you 💀
@bernardsbendystraws -> i’d rock his shit
@ y/n -> what do i even say to this
@ berbardsbendystraws -> wanna join in ??
@ y/n -> oh my 😨 (🤭)
CREDITS
@ frxy on tiktok
@ bl6tts on tiktok
@ sturniolo.vfx_ on tiktok
@ strvnloml on tiktok
@ chrislover476 on tiktok
@ edzbyang on tiktok
this took me wayyyyy too long to make, but it was so funnnn
lmk if you want more like this :)
no tag list cause i tagged y’all in the actual fic 😝
masterlist
#sturniolo triplets#chris sturniolo#matt sturniolo#nick sturniolo#sturniolo#christopher sturniolo#nicolas sturniolo#sturniolo x reader#chris sturniolo x reader#sturniolo fanfic#christopher sturniolo imagine#chris sturniolo fanfic#christopher sturniolo x reader#chris sturniolo imagine#chris sturniolo x you#chris x reader#sturniolos#sturniolo imagine#social media#social media au#tiktok
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