#I blame[endearing] my rp partners

[lightbringer-morningstar]

Ooc;

Yup, I know it's late but I actually have access to two things atm, high motivation for muse and a keyboard at a desktop, yay 🙌

Sooo, I hope you guys won't mind if I pull up some old drafts to reply to. There's no obligation to keep 'em going if interest is gone but I do wanna see what this inspiration might turn out, if I do it.

Also feeling angsty with a few muses, huh, might back track some plotlines or do some out of continuity starters to see where that leads.

[noctispostmortem-blog]

I am putting this under a read more because this is drama and even if I don’t name names, I guess this could also be considered a callout (plus this got long as shit). I don’t know, honestly, I don’t do things like this usually and I hate that I feel I have to do it now. But this is starting to get to me because it seems to be happening more and more often and I really don’t like coming on here and seeing vague comments and such about the very things I just posted about myself.

First, I’d like to start with the fact that I have 40 muses. 40 of them. All with varying personalities, strengths, weaknesses, etc. I have some that are immensely strong, gods and goddesses but then I also have some that are simply humans, in college and just trying to get by. The type of thread you’ll get depends on which muse you’re rping with. If you do not like how it’s going with that muse, I am perfectly fine with discussing it and seeing if someone else will work better.

Among those 40 muses, most of them are immortal beings that are incredibly strong. That is not said with the assumption that my muse will definitely kick your muses ass. Ever. I have some muses with very strong personalities that simply come off like that or believe they are strong enough to beat yours in a fight, but that doesn’t mean that I, as the mun, think the same way they do. Some are simply too proud to outright acknowledge that another muse is stronger than them but are smart enough to know that they don’t simply want to take them on in a fight.

Taking Lucien as an example, he is almost 600 years old, a Lycanthrope that is meant to kill both vampires and demons and has been doing nothing but fighting nearly his entire life. Now, simply because in my verse he can, doesn’t mean that he can take down your demon or vampire so easily. If you want to have one of them meet with this wolf, it would just have to be after a long discussion so that I know what your muse is capable of and that you understand that the moment you approach him and are one of those, he will try to kill yours. Not saying he will, but there won’t be any hesitation from him. He will immediately jump right into battle with a muse of either of those species because that’s how he is.

Lucien is an asshole with a far too great ego who loves to fight and will usually take on anyone who comes his way. But, at the same time, there are others who he clearly acknowledges as strong. There is a goddess he threads with, she is much bigger and stronger than him but his pride gets in the way of him outright showing this so it’s seen in little things. Like when someone commented about her possibly dying, he clearly expressed how he didn’t see that happening but how he would still give his life up for her. Plus, when said goddess swoops in and picks him right up, he doesn’t fight her. He might grump because I mean, his pride is hit when he’s so easily manhandled but at the same time, he takes it because it’s a bit endearing too and he knows there ain't a damn thing he could do to stop that woman.

Another instance is where a certain hunter is supposed to kill him, he has been known on times to come right out and say just how badass she really is and is constantly impressed with her skills and how quickly she learns. He enjoys fighting her, even if he doesn’t show it, she’s a challenge to him. But his actual strength, his horrible personality, and ego tend to overshadow that bit and make the main focus simply on the bad parts. Basically, in Lucien’s case, if someone came up to him and started badmouthing him, there is a very high chance he’d simply punch them to get them to leave him alone. But, that’s also situational because sometimes he will actually find it amusing.

Then I have muses like Lizeth who have absolutely no way to truly defend herself yet she’s so quick to run her mouth that I wouldn’t blame someone in the slightest if they smacked her for mouthing them off. If that’s how your muse is then don’t hold them back. But then I also have muses like Hades who is probably one of the strongest ones I have yet he wouldn’t do a single thing to harm a hair on anyone’s head unless you harm someone he cares for. If you start badmouthing him, he’s the type to simply walk away. So, to clarify, that post I made was not stated to simply say don’t badmouth my muses without expecting to be hit. That was meant both ways. The biggest issue here is, let your muse be your muse but remember there are consequences to certain actions and don’t blame the mun if it happens!

There was another time that I saw one of my rp partners say something about a certain way of writing being a peeve of theirs, so, while I thread with them, I avoid doing that at all costs because I do enjoy writing with them, I love their characters and the last thing I want to do is aggravate them when they get a reply from me. Besides, it was something so simple that it took little effort of me to correct it. What I did notice was that it was posted directly after I had done a reply for them. That was an easy fix, I just stopped doing that one small thing and never heard about it again.

Another time was when I made a post about how I run my blog and how there is definitely favorites on here, let’s be honest here, we all have those partners that we just love to thread with. I’ve gotten close with those muns and our muses just click or whatever reason, that’s just how it is. I don’t outright ignore you, though I will say that it’s been in my rules for I don’t know how long about favorites on here. I do feel bad when I can’t get up the will to write for certain threads, but time is limited and this is NOT a job so I will lean towards the ones that I have the most muse for. One day it will be this particular thread, another day it will be another. That’s just how I am. 

Basically, I’m going to sum it up here because this has gotten far too long and there have been other times but I’m not going to go into this. In the end, let your muse be your muse, I’ll let mine be mine. I won’t assume that you have the same mindset they do so please don’t assume the same of me. Just because my muse seems so strong, doesn’t mean they will instantly kick your ass or the other way around. My muse badmouths yours, fucking smack the shit out of them if that’s what your muse wants. All in all, it depends on the muse and the situation. And if you have an issue with something I’m doing, you are allowed to talk to me about it. Honestly, I’d rather not have any bad air between us and if it’s just something that we can’t agree on then I’m very sorry but at least we tried. And if I feel that every time I make a most along a certain subject, that someone is going to make their own post disagreeing with it, then what’s the point?

I may lose followers at this point, I may piss off some people but really, I just needed to say something. And I am not attacking those who have done this, I am merely trying to explain my side of it and how I feel on these subjects.

[voxvulgi]

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send ‘&’ for 3 blogs i recommend

So, 3 times 3 is nine. Here goes:

@ribbedxgloves

I’ve known Ari since before Hailey came to life. She’s known me since I was king of the smols and will hopefully continue to be my friend and write with me until a terrifying global virus do us apart. (I sure hope that’s never!) She RPed with Dawn briefly and then took my Hailey and turned her into a real Disney princess. Not only that, but she brought Althea back to me, helped me make Adonis, and fuels my creativity every time I speak to her. She’s an amazing writer, and even better plotter, and an even better friend.

@elysiahellfire

MY SATANMON ROLL. I’ve known Vee even longer, and she’s the reason Zoran developed into a round character and is still good and around. She stuck with me through the time where I was smol and a newbie who knew nothing about RP manners (thank you to the moon and back; oh my goodness how did you deal djksnhadosijfo). She’s there when I need her, and more importantly, not there when she knows she needs to be elsewhere. Vee is an example I hope to imitate as I grow. She’s an amazing role model. You’ll almost never guess how she managed to make such wrecked muses with how well she has herself together. She’s a master time manager and a master writer. An absolute damn snail, but nothing good ever came out of haste (i’m looking at you sara what a nerd). Every time a reply posts, I have to take a moment to wonder how I came upon such a wonderful partner.

@floralgardenswitches // @aworldfullofmuses // @dysfunctionalmasons

MEL IS MY WIFE. She’s such a lovely cinnamon roll, all enthusiasm and love and talent. I haven’t RPed with all her muses yet (there are sO MANY HOW DO YOU EVEN MANAGE OHMYGOD) but if I get the chance to, no way I’d say no. They’re all so different and seriously amazingly thought out. Mel’s writing is so PERFECT and I get too excited not to reply as fast as I can because she also thinks up such amazing storylines and creates the best character dynamics. I love her with all my heart

@anomaliies // all the other blogs

I know I’ve said this a million times, but Savvy is my beautiful, talented, insightful, amazing smol twin. She has the most beautiful soul and can breathe life into any character she writes, canon or not. (Honestly, what’s the difference?) Her portrayal of canon is even better than actual canon, and her OCs, though I haven’t gotten to RP with all of them yet, are AMAZING to put it lightly. I love hearing her talk about them, I love writing with them, and I love every time I check my notifications to find a reply from her. She’s an amazing RPer and a very hard-worker in general, and I’m beyond glad I met her.

@warrioroflondonbelow

CHRISTINE IS THE SWEETEST. Hands down. I mean, I have a ton of sweet friends but??? I can’t? I just can’t???? She’s so full of love, always throwing comments and memes at me, always up for new ideas and any general rambles. I love the brief chats where I just get to know her better. I love every thread we have, even the ones we lost, and I endlessly want more. I haven’t even read Neverwhere (YET!!!) but I’m already so very in love with Richard Mayhew because of this amazing RPer’s representation of him. She gets into his littlest quirks and loves to break him down in many situations to explore his character, and if that isn’t good character study, I don’t know what is. I love you, Hannah!!!

@growinguphartless

I’d just leave this here and say “NERD” and move on, but even the endearment “nerd” wouldn’t do Mary justice???? I’ve first seen her RPing with one of my partners, and I was a little intimidated by her because she’s so perfect and her muse was so perfect and I was (and still am obv) a potato. But me, the potato, finally approached her at some point, and MAN DO I NOT REGRET IT. She’s so easy to talk to, easy to explore characters with, easy to hypothise with, and so dAMN EASY TO CRY WITH??? IF SHE TELLS YOU I AM NOT CRYING FOR AT LEAST 50% OF OUR CONVERSATIONS, SHE FUCKIN’ LYIN’. Dudes, I just love Mary and talking to Mary and don’t get me started on her OCs because OH MY GOD. If the love she gives them was sugar, they’d all be dying of diabetes rn. Not even insulin will help them. Nothing will. They’re so well-rounded and thought-out and so very very very LOVED by her that it’s difficult not to love them yourself and I. Just. Cannot. Bye.

@dangerous-smoll

Wanik and I met when her lovely muse Nita killed Hailey’s brother. It was a full moon, very spooky, so many ghosts, very cold. I saw the Flying Dutchman that day. Actually, that’s not how we met, but the time I first saw her, and I’m very glad that I did and that we approached each other because oh mY GOD. I don’t even know how to put it into words. Wanik puts so much work into her muses, her threads, her blog in general. And she gives so much love and attention to her partners it’s like…HOW? How do you manage to be so nice and supportive and run such a lovely blog with such a great variety of such deep muses? I die.

@the-storm-within-me

My Eve???? My love???? My beautiful bundle of awesomeness? How do I even explain how much I admire Eve???? She’s an amazing human. Nika is amazing. Nick is amazing. Eve and her interactions all bring me joy (and pain let’s be real) because she portrays such amazing, loving and caring muses who have their flaws and quirks. And the thing is??? You can’t even help but love them WITH their flaws and quirks?? Because they’re the perfect combination of characteristics. Honestly, they have the positive traits people admire and the vices people love. I wish I can meet Eve, Nika, and Nick in person. But for now I guess I just have to settle for tHIS AMAZING WRITING THAT I DO NOT DESERVE.

@endlessdrifter

Do I really need to do this again? I mean, if y’all didn’t hear me the first 9732481273 times: Dave is awesome in all the ways that count. Purely fantastic writing. He always gives me something to work with (even the times I suck and give him nothing to work with lmao) and something that surely gets a response from my characters. His muses are endless (ba dum tss!) and all distinct and unique and so very loveable. I love even the ones I haven’t met yet (because obv) and treasure the ones I have. You can rip Scoot, Jorge, Asher, Dane, Ray, Max, and Luke from my dead cold fucking hands. Lastly, if you’re ever in the mood for good conversation, definitely hit up Dave. (Unless you burped and want a high five. Apparently, this guy believes in ETIQUETTE OR WHATEVER.)

Bonus for the people who really love nice things on their dash (also did you really expect me to recommend only 9 blogs wtf guys???):

@altrxistisms

LOTTIE PATOTTIE MY BABY. This girl is under my protection, and so is my baby Jolie. I may have -1 fighting skills but you have to get through me if you wanna do so much as look their way, okay??? Okay. Now that we’ve cleared this up, I just need to stress the fact that Lottie (mun) and Jolie (muse) are the most precious people in the world. You’re gonna fall in love with them whether platonically or romantically. They’re gonna bring light to your life because they’re literally stars that fell from the sky and since they can’t bring happiness to heaven anymore they have to bring it to you.

@cupido-periculosa

Cip, I’m pretty sure I talked to you more than anyone else in the past few days, and you can honestly blame this on Vladimir Tod and his antics. But you have to blame THAT on yourself and D’Ablo because you had me go back to the bookstore and buy the box set after explicit instructions from my mom not to buy anything. I’m young, dumb, broke, and emotional because of you. (And Adonis is just young, dumb, and emotional. And let me tell you that choosing Dan Stevens as an FC for D’Ablo is probably the best thing anyone did ever. You know, right after that other thing you did where you breathed life into an underrated middle school villain and made him one of my favourite fictional characters of all time.)

[sunokasai]

Three words for the first time

Welcome to rarepair hell. Please enjoy your stay with some cute YouMaru... because that’s the ship I fell hard for (I blame Caruso btw...).

Note: This is set within the context of the Volleyball AU, a Discord Server RP. You don’t need details of the RP to read this, though. Just wanted to mention it. Also big thanks @icaruswings87 for being the beta, best RP partner one could wish for and for falling down here with me. xD

Pairing: YouMaru

words: ~1800

The stairs up to the shrine on Benten Island are familiar to You. And even though she is used to climbing them a lot faster and during a different time of the day - they are an inherent part of her morning workout after all - her slow pace is not unwelcome So, now with, the afternoon sun on her back and an unhurried pace up each stair-step, it feels as if she was walking in slow-motion.

Despite this it seems as if You is still walking too fast, at least for the girl behind her.

“W-Wait… z-zura.” About ten meters behind her is Hanamaru, hunched forward and hands resting on her knees while she tries to catch her breath. “M-Maru is not as fast as You-chan, zura.”

“Sorry, Maru-chan.” You laughs a little awkwardly as she looks back at her girlfriend and then up the remaining distance to the shrine. They still have half the way ahead of them.

You had already taken the backpack so that Hanamaru wouldn’t have to carry it, seeing that she has her problems climbing up these stairs. And since they still have to manage  the rest of the distance to get to the top, You decides to jog back down in front of Hanamaru again. She takes off the bag and holds it out for Hanamaru who looks kind of confused.

“What’s Maru supposed to do with the backpack, zura?” Her curious gaze turns into a terrified one just moments after she gets an idea what You might be up to. “Don’t tell me You-chan is going to make Maru carry the bag all the remaining way up.”

“Don’t be silly, of course not.” You places a quick kiss on Hanamaru’s forehead to reassure her. “Trust me, okay?”

Eyeing her girlfriend a little skeptically, Hanamaru takes the bag and shoulders it.

“What now, zura?”

With a smile, You turns around and kneels down in front of Hanamaru, arms outstretched behind her.

“Jump on.”

“Is You-chan sure, zura? Maru is a little heavy.” She takes a small step forward, not wanting to burden You by carrying her. But You just giggles.

“Have a little faith in me.” You giggles a little, smiling brightly. She locks eyes with Hanamaru. “I was part of the swim team during my middle and high school days and now I am part of the volleyball team. I may not be as strong as Kanan-chan but my upper body is still very well built.” She winks.

Hanamaru’s cheeks turn a light shade of pink, trying to visualize that. She quickly shakes her head. They have been dating for a couple of months but now was not the time to imagine something like this. So instead Hanamaru just nods, slowly and carefully climbing onto You’s back. Her arms wrap around the stronger girls shoulders while her head slightly rests against You’s.

“Hold on tight.” You whispers before linking her arms under Hanamaru’s legs.

“Zura!” Shrieking in surprise when You gets up in one swift move, Hanamaru’s grip around her shoulders tighten and she leans fully into You’s back.

“You okay?” Head turning slightly, You manages to leave a kiss on Hanamaru’s cheek.

“Yeah, zura.” Hanamaru whispers, burying her face in You’s hair to hide her red cheeks. Embarrassment has joined the mental image form earlier, making her blush even more. “Maru was just a little surprised.”

You nods, tightening her hold on Hanamaru before she starts climbing the stairs at a casual speed. She’s sure she could go a little faster, maybe even jog, but she wants Hanamaru to feel safe. Besides, feeling Hanamaru’s weight on her back and her arms around her shoulders is kind of nice, You thinks. Not to mention all the small kisses she feels being placed on the back of her head.

It doesn’t take them too long to reach the top. Walking past the shrine, You leaves the main path. Hanamaru reaches out from her spot on You’s back to pull some branches aside, making it easier for them to reach a secluded area just behind the shrine. Their place.

You walks over to a step, placing Hanamaru down again before she takes a couple deep breaths. Those don’t go unnoticed and Hanamaru goes in front of her, cupping both of You’s cheeks to pull her down for a quick and innocent kiss.

“Thank you, zura.” She beams, retreating a little to set up the contents of the backpack.

She takes out a blanket and puts it aside, followed by a bigger box and some water. You watches her, smiling. She was surprised when Hanamaru had called her earlier, suggesting a picnic at their place. But right now she just looks forwards to spending some time with her girlfriend.

“I can’t believe you used your whole morning to make these.” She comments as Hanamaru lifts the lid of the box to reveal several sandwiches. “If you would have said something earlier I would have made something, too.”

“You-chan always cooks for Maru, so Maru wanted to treat You-chan at least once, zura.” Hanamaru sits down, beaming up at You.

You can only smile and shake her head, walking over her to sit down beside her girlfriend, wrapping both arms around Hanamaru’s waist to pull her closer. Resting her head on Hanamaru’s shoulder, she nuzzles into her neck.

“Thank you.”

“Don’t thank Maru yet. They still could taste terrible, zura.” The sentence is murmured quietly. Hanamaru feels You squeezing her middle once to reassure her before the other girl reaches out to take a sandwich.

“I am sure they are fine.” You disentangles herself a little from Hanamaru, making sure that one arm stays loosely wrapped around her. She takes a bite, Hanamaru waiting a anxiously for her judgment. After all, You is the better cook out of them.

“They are awesome!” You finally says, covering her mouth with her free hand. Her eyes shine and she quickly takes a second bite.

“Really, zura?” Happy that You likes her cooking, Hanamaru takes a sandwich herself. “They are, zura!” She is quite surprised herself when she tries her creation.

Finishing her piece, You crawls back behind Hanamaru so that the smaller girl sits between her legs. She takes the blanket and wraps it around them before one of her arms returns to its place at Hanamaru’s waist. With her mouth still full, You points at the box, silently asking Hanamaru for another sandwich.

They just sit there like that, enjoying each other’s presence. Eventually, Hanamaru takes out a book and snuggles further back into You who rests her head on Hanamaru’s shoulder. It’s warm, silent, comfortable… and You feels her eyelids growing heavy.

“Zura!”

Hanamaru’s excited voice startles You out of her dazed state and she just feels Hanamaru wrapping herself out of their embrace, out of the blanket, her book laying on the side.

“Maru-chan?” You sits up, her eyes adjusting to the sunlight shining directly onto them.

The only thing breaking through the rays of the setting sun is Hanamaru, her body framed by the orange, yellow colors… gold.

“You-chan! Look!” Hanamaru turns around in this light, arms crossed behind her back, skirt flying around her legs and the most endearing smile that You has ever seen on her face.

She is looking. She’s just not looking at what Hanamaru wants her to look because something even more beautiful than the sunset caught her eye. She absentmindedly notices Hanamaru getting a hold of her hands, dragging her up and on her feet. With their hands still connected, Maru turns around again to watch the sunset.

“What does You-chan think, zura?”

“Beautiful.” But You is not talking about the scenery in front of them. Her eyes are glued to the person standing right there, holding her hands.

“It really is, ri-“

“I love you.” The moment those words leave You’s mouth her eyes widen and Hanamaru spins around to look at her, equally surprised.

Hands flying up to cover her mouth, You looks down at Hanamaru. Sure, they had been dating for a couple of months already. They were holding hands, cuddled, kissed… stayed over at the others home even. But none of them had dared to say these three words yet.

Slowly withdrawing her hands, You starts to stutter.

“I-I…. If that’s to early…. If it makes you uncomfortable or… I don’t…. I didn’t mean to….” She stops her rambling when Hanamaru falls against her, hands clutching the front of her shirt.

“So… is You-chan saying she doesn’t love Maru, zura?” Hanamaru asks, voice muffled.

“Ah, no, that’s not it…” You looks down but she can’t see Hanamaru’s face. It’s hidden by the fabric of her clothing. It’s silent for a couple of minutes.

“Maru was scared, zura.” Hanamaru admits after a while. She takes a deep breath before she continues, leaning back a little and finally looking up and gazing into You’s blue eyes. “Maru didn’t know if it was appropriate to say it, so she didn’t. But at the same time You-chan didn’t say it either, so she got scared that maybe… that maybe You-chan doesn’t feel that way anymore, zura?” A big smile appears on her face. “Maru’s glad… that that’s not the case, zura!”

“Maru…” Caught off guard, You watches Hanamaru with a surprised expression. She would have never thought that this had caused Hanamaru to worry. “I… actually thought about saying it. A lot of times actually.” She rubs the back of her neck, laughing. “I just didn’t want to push this onto you, in case you weren’t ready yet. I should stop overthinking things.”

“We both should, zura.” Hanamaru giggles. Her hands reach up to cup You’s cheek. She pulls her down, seeing that she is way shorter than You, and kisses her. All her worries melt away as she feels You relax into the kiss and arms wrapping around her waist. When Hanamaru breaks the kiss, she stays close. “Maru loves you too.”

“Circle your arms around my neck and hold on tight.” You whispers, eyes closed.

Hanamaru does as told but she is still a little surprised when You lifts her up a little so that they are eye to eye. It’s not their first time staying like this, so Hanamaru automatically circles her legs around You for additional support while You’s arms travel under her legs. Their foreheads touch, both close their eyes and neither says a word. They don’t need to.

“I love you.” You repeats, nuzzling Maru’s nose with the brightest of smiles. She feels better now, like a weight has been lifted off of her chest.

Maru giggles, her nose tickling. She like this. It’s the next step, the new chapter… and she can’t wait to see what it has in store for them.