#I bet she sometimes saw Sophia as the most unique number she has ever seen because she's an irrational number that changed everything

[the-blossica-fan]

Greetings, I have been putting together my mind for this one for quite awhile now. So, I hope my thoughts will be readable.

I'm constantly screaming on the inside about 37phi. How 37 didn't care that Sophia was an irrational number, how the only opinion that 37 cares about is Sophia's, how 37 and Sophia love each other and miss each other. I'm pretty sure that whenever 37 hangs out with the Laplace gang she just mentions Sophia unpromted, like:

37: I miss my wife guys, I miss her a lot.

(The shock they must've felt when they learned that Sophia is manus preacher)

MedPocket might actually be very mad every time she talks about Sophia ("We get it you are yearning for your "besty" pls stop!")

The funniest thing about this whole situation is... 37 doesn't realize that she's in love, she doesn't get it. Yeah her feelings about her friends and Sophia are different, but Sophia is her childhood friend! And it's first time she's been separated from her like that! It's totally normal to feel like you lost significant part of yourself and the most cherished person, right?

The other thing that doesn't help, the fact that 37 might be on aromantic spectre, so her feelings are a bit different than usual love.

With Sophia in manus happening same situations, but forget me not wants to shoot himself (he thought he was free from lesbians with Schneider's and Isolde's betrayals, but here he is, witnessing another hopeless romantic in love). And yes Sophia does miss 37 as much as she does Sophia. We get these hints from "goodbye" ep and trailer for phototaxis.

Also I find amusing that Sophia was constantly worried about bothering 37, when girl literally would abandon everything she was doing just to hang out with Sophia. On the other side, only Sophia's opinion was valuable to 37, like what was showed us in 37's character story when ch5 came out. They can't think of anything other than each other. I'll think some more later, if of course I won't be consumed by brainrot

I do admit I can sense that sort of obliviousness from 37. Not only has she never been exposed to those feelings of love, but she also seems pretty dense to the obvious. She certainly didn't mind that Sophia would slow down her progress because seeing her made her happy every single time.

Even now that she misses Sophia, there's still that barrier that she doesn't even know exists. She talks about Sophia more fondly than you would talk about a friend, less aware of her feelings than you would to a lover. She still doesn't really understand why Sophia left, and I'm almost 100% sure she didn't understand what Sophia meant by her last words to 37.

It's a fun ship to dissect. Unlike Isokania, they were not doomed by the narrative, they doomed themselves.

Like you said, 37 didn't care about Sophia's soul number, and the only person worth slowing down her progress is Sophia. But maybe Sophia didn't just think about 37 during her decision, had she not been preyed upon by Arcana as soon as she broke down, she would have been able to realize that 37 always knew and never cared. She still held Sophia as highly (if not higher) inside her heart. But of course, Arcana is a lesbian collector.

It's sort of a "Doomed by our decisions, doomed by what we didn't know" situation.

I love her anecdote because in almost every chapter, 37 would mention Sophia once. "Though without Sophia to comb my hair", "Sophia would always ask 'am I disturbing you, 37?'. To tell the truth, her visits did sometimes slow down my progress, but research can always continue later. The truth is, I was happy she came to see me"

She mentions Sophia dearly, but you can always tell there's a wall of obliviousness as she does.

Fucking lesbians, why can't any of you practice self-communication? (At least 37phi tragedy could have been avoided if the malicious evil horse hadn't appeared)

And yes, I can absolutely picture FMN sitting there, sighing as Sophia ominously mentions 37 as much as 37 mentions Sophia.

MedPoc, Mesmer and X have to deal with 37 sneaking in Sophia into her every conversation and the lack of Sophia's presence to translate her cryptic thoughts would always be seen through her 59 mentions of Sophia.

FMN having to sit through Sophia's monologue about 37 and how sometimes she misses her but this is not only the best for her but for the future and so on.

You can never escape the "ex girlfriends that still miss each other" thing.