#I apologize to all who were harmed x_x

[the-haunted-office]

Ruining replies by writing when too sleepy... bad idea... 🫠

[wintertimestoryteller]

Linked Universe x Reader Fairy Tale Collection

@luimagines It is finally here! XD Apologies for the huge delay, suddenly became a dog mom again and life has been difficult, apologies to all who waited. Hopefully it's at least half decent, this did not want to write itself at all X_X

Warning for dark themes of the fairy tale kind and violence. I recommend researching Penta by Basille if some of you are curious about the interrupted story, though I did leave a lot out for obvious reasons, the first story is actually a reference and I thought it would be fun to see how many catch it and who would notice the reversal of roles here. No Shadow Links were (seriously) harmed in the making of this chapter, just Reader and their poor mind who can't catch a break.

Technically this is the final act before the Masterlist for each Link, though there is technically a bonus act and an intermission I doubt anyone would be interested in that, y'all came here for the Links and the fairy tales not the lore and behind the scenes stuff done to get here because I decided to pull a Hans Christian Andersen even while trying to keep this as short as an opening act should technically be, might write them down if there's enough interest but for now I'm leaving it up to interpretation xP

Opening Act, Scene IIII

It's almost strange, how peaceful your first few days and nights in the theater were.

It was hardly unwelcome, of course it was a pleasant surprise. Even with it's darkened, solemn corners and the way the shadows played eerily across the walls, dancing and laughing mockingly as they put on a show only they knew, it hardly felt truly unsettling for long, maybe it was just your long time on the road which made you jaded to the concept of old buildings that felt like echoes of their former selves, ever lonely, ever grieving like a widow, knowing their lover would not return from the war but waiting for as long possible before considering taking poison. The building was much the same, threading the fragile, dreamlike barrier of a long, wistful forgotten dream and a feather soft, fondness warmed memory.

It felt just about on the edge of death, but not quite ready to cross the border, it felt alive, like watching a barren wasteland attempt to host life again, even if it wouldn't last long or ever recover.

You believe it's in large part due to it's residents.

It was impressive, really, though you're all clearly wary towards one another, the troupe was seemingly more delighted by the fact they had new people to tell new tales to than bothered by the fact the Chain was clearly high strung from a long journey with the carmine and jade weariness of hunters unable to continue searching for their quarry. Director Raven had given you all full permission to explore and was only ever truly strict with corralling the crew to perform, the obsidian speckled mist of their excitement reflected in the way their coat sleeves flapped while directing each member to their roles and how their steps practically glided across the floor and the stage, their feline companion ever present on their shoulders as they truly gave their name sake justice as they crowed and crooned new characters into Byron's ears, sparkling ruby glee as the bloody feather on their hair and gem collar at the gentleman's smile with the flame bright elation of a mad man as he worked on costumes, scenery and props like a man possessed occasionally hissing like an offended cat at Edgar, who was quick to bark and judge even the slightest imperfection as he marked cues for Anabella's scripts, the woman, once having heard of the Links musical prowess, having lit up like the chandelier serving as spotlight at the stage, gently having coaxed the boys towards Amelia, the petal soft smiling dark haired young woman you've met earlier whom Raven just couldn't help but squawk amusedly at Anabella having a very clear soft spot for, who wasted no time in convincing a few of the heroes to follow sheet music the young woman had written but never quite had enough people to help perform.

It was honestly amusing, seeing the young woman and Warriors practically team up to bully Legend into playing the violin again, the veteran protesting for a good while, until a small, well placed tease from Sky made him cave, you and Wind both pretending to hide bright laughs at seeing him pretend not to smile, the jewel bright sight of her delight making you feel warm as she suggested to the exccentric playwright to share your own stories with the troupe and the boys once again as the sweet notes of musical and Raven's narration rolled up and across the aisles, the ruby cheer of the chattering of their cheek with the sweet aquamarine of your gentleness making even the likes of ever serious steel serious Cal or solemn First smile.

The only incident any of you all had really was when you've met Priscilla properly, or to be more accurate, when Priscilla found you all, the youngest of the troupe popping from the ceiling like a bat in front of you from the theater's costume attic like a reverse phantom of the opera, giving you a small fright with her cat smug smile as she finished fixing the lights and eagerly jumped into Twilight's back the second she heard Epona being mentioned, asking all sorts of questions about horses and their proper care until Edgar came knocking to pry her off.

A few minor incidents were had, what with your boys' usual brand of chaos and only so much you, Time and First could do while Raven rounded up the brand of madness found in their own little troupe (like how Anabella, much like Hyrule, should not be allowed near any form of food supply lest they both commit crimes agaisnt nature and the last leg of Wild's morals and sanity, how Byron, Warriors and Legend could almost snarl at each other like feral dogs when it came to fashion sensibilities, or Priscilla attempting to coax Wind and Spirit onto the attic and catwalks with her to play pranks onto the unsuspecting audience and performers below just to see Four and Edgar twitch), but overall, the first three days of constant strong storms and two of the stories told passed quickly, like the heartbeat of a humming bird.

... Which made your own feelings for a certain hero grown ever more transparent like the polished crystal which made up the spotlight.

How could you not contemplate these feelings? How could you even begin denying something that has been sinking it's teeth into your soul for months now? Ever since the Chain found you, injured and with nowhere to go, it was always moving, ever forward, ever running, ever hunting, for if you all didn't hunt the shadow, it would stop at nothing to tear everything and everyone so much as grazed by the bright, ever burning diamond flame of the Hero's Spirit, with the burning fury of a maddened beast with nothing left to lose, with enough hunger it could render divinity to pieces. So, so so wrong to the very fabric that made up the curtain of Hyrule's stage it made one's flesh crawl before it even set it's bloody, hungry, vile gaze upon you.

(You didn't have a choice, when they'd left you behind, the portal simply opened to place you in harm's way again and again and again and again, you only survived through pure luck most of the time, the other half being due to run ins with different members of the Chain. Eventually, finally, after you'd met again and dragged First's abandoned, bleeding, almost dead but oh so stubborn he wouldn't die quite yet, carcass to camp, they'd decided to teach you how to wield a blade and take you along.

After all, it's not like you could go home.

... No, no, you couldn't go home, ever again.)

Being in the theater was a welcome breath of fresh air, even with the oddities of it's residents. But it also gave you nothing but time to think. About home, about the people who are likely to be looking for you, and kind gem bright eyes, leaves on the wind gentle touches, and smiles that could put the sun and the moon and stars to shame with their radiance and the unshakable, beautiful, lonsdaleite and steel of the will to protect and courage to follow through so, so warm it left you scorched, stealing the breath from your lungs and replacing it with lava and frost, pinning you into place better than any arrow or trick the shadow could pull. Left you aching more than any moment in the battle field, shaking you to the very marrow of your bones as the laughing dove that was affection stole into your heart like a thief, and gave half of it to the beast called love.

And

It

Was

Torture.

How could you not fall for that?

How could you not think about it?

So instead of getting even more flustered by possibly slipping up and making a fool out of yourself, giving yourself away and wanting to just wander into the Lost Woods without a guide and let yourself go mad from mortification and become a Poe (because at least then it would be a more manageable form of insanity), you'd instead taken to haunting the back wings and auditorium of the theater like a ghost. The theater was hardly all that big, but it wasn't small by any means, the size of a noble's summer home at best, so there was plenty of empty supply rooms and forgotten lounges to think, contemplate, and to keep a tenous hold on your sanity as you avoided dwelving deeply into your feelings.

After all, why would he want little old you? Unimpressive, ordinary little you, who lived a most relatively peaceful life before falling into Hyrule, who couldn't protect them properly, who most importantly of all would hurt the one you adored because you couldn't stay?

... It would be agony, you couldn't do that to him. It wouldn't be any difference than the Shadow taking your face and torturing your hero, so you'd stay silent, and hope these feelings died a quiet, peaceful death. At least in this abandoned lounge room you could refrain from making your hopeless longing obvious until you'd need to return.

"Oh me oh my, what are you doing here all alone?" Came a cawed, lilting honey coated rasp, padparascha curiosity in the the flap of nightlock coat sleeves, "I thought you'd want to join your companions! This place is still too dusty for back tours I'm afraid."

... Well, not quite so abandoned now. Is it?

Then again, you're not even too surprised, you'd be lying if you'd say you were. If there was anyone who could navigate these darkned, old halls with ease to find someone allegedly missing, it would likely be it's master.

Director Raven swoops into the room with quick, almost silent steps, a specter with the grace of a Gerudo dancer, sending you a smile, their feline companion is gone, but their ever present bloodstone feather chimes like a bell as they brush dust off an old couch, you laugh sheepishly, hoping that the tempest winds outside took your thoughts away so you could focus, "I'm sorry, you said we could go just about everywhere and I needed some time alone. Hopefully it's not any trouble?"

They cluck at you, taking a new accessory from their coat and placing it behind your ears with a cheeky poke to the nose, you blink as you touch it, a red, red rose, "Oh please, not at all! I'm a professional of my word you know? I was just worried is all, you're basically part of the troupe at this point and your lover boy has been staring at you with such concern, you know? So I thought I'd check on you."

Their concern makes you blink, with a small bite of confusion to their wording, "I've only helped you folks perform for three days now?"

They chuckle with amusement, the tone raspy and crowing as they perch themselves upon the couch, "Doesn't matter! We've had folks who stayed and helped for less time, we still consider them troupe members. Once taken in by the Astoria, you're part of it for all time, can't I have some empathy for someone so clearly pining?", You jolt, the director gives you a knowing smile, mercury amusement and gallium understanding, how did...? "Broken hearts are as dangerous as broken minds and wills to a person, take it from me. I've told and been part of one too many stories to know that all too well, now, why don't you tell good old uncle Raven what ails you?"

That makes you snort, rose quartz embarrassment mixed with xanthic amusement, "Uncle, really? Weren't you the one who said you'd actually take someone to court for emotional damages if someone tried utilizing gendered terms for you?"

They squawk, ruffling your hair with a click and hiss, as they jump up with ruffled feathers and a raised chin, mock offended, "Oh kiss my grits! This ain't about me here. This is about your longing making me sad and me being willing to hear you out from the goodness of my heart, and there you go! Spitting on my good will! As I was about to offer to make you tea, no less."

You laugh and you catch a grin on the director's lips from the reflection of a mirror, you wave them on, "Alright, alright. I'll humor you, will you want some help deciding the next story to tell while at it?"

They wink, prancing around the room for the kettle in the corner, "You know me too well! You're a wealth of new stories, I can listen to you pour your little heart out and grill you for inspiration at the same time. That way your heart will be lighter than a leaf on the wind when you next see your lover boy"

Settling in, you wait until Raven has made you both tea, getting comfortable and taking a sip.

Mhm, coming to the theater was a welcome change of pace. And talking to someone who wasn't Link about this would likely do you good.

(So preoccupied you are with your thoughts and the vaguely floral tea the director had broken out of storage and brewed, you don't notice the way another figure shows up on the reflection of the mirror just as the thunder booms, and how Raven's gloved fingers tighten a fraction as the shadows flicker oddly once you drink the tea. The cinnabar of their smile turning iron speckled with guilt and tense as they spot bloodstone tiger eyes on the doorway. Before turning fireplace warm once the Hero of Skies popped his head onto the doorway after a few hours of listening to you want, they offer him a spot of tea.)

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The storm still raged on relentlessly outside, it's screams and howls those of lost souls and old forgotten or yet to be remembered deities rending the air with water and thunder, it's been almost a week since you all had started staying in the theater, everyone had settled into a small sort of routine, as it didn't seem like the storm would cease to rage anytime soon. You'd all wake up (checking your weapons as you go, just in case, your dagger on your sleeve a common secret among the Chain members ever since a bad run in with the Yiga, Artemis had taught you and Warriors well and if any of the troupe members notice, they didn't press), go through the usual daily routine you all had while under an actual roof, Wild, you and Twilight would cook with occasional aid from either Raven themselves who twitched and squawked about the injustice of allowing guests to cook before Edgar would cuff them over the head and take over or a very chipper Amelia whose early morning energy could only be likened to a ray of sunshine Anabella would trip over her feet and possibly kill a grown man for, and in turn you'd all take your turns occupying themselves for the day, the troupe making sure to give everyone their due space until the early evening, which is when you'd all take to storytelling.

You couldn't help your small grin as you let yourself be led by the hand by Twilight, blindfold coming off as he twirled you around as you deliberately sang an incredibly off key note, laughter and chuckles being draw from your boys as you were set down onto the stage and raised your tune, his pelt slipping off your head like the heavy, but comforting cape it was, his smile campfire warm and oak steady, Raven's crowing laughter being hidden by a coughing fit before they seemed to compose themselves enough to continue on with a straight face, "And so the wolf, once a princess, remembered the prince. And thought she'd never sing again, and it wasn't very good-" they choked as you deliberately hit a note that sounded like a dying cucco, you can vaguely see Cal coughing into his fist, First shaking his head in amusement in contrast to Sky's summer breeze laughter while Time's lips barely twitched with honey sweet amusement and Wind wheezing agaisnt a laughing Spirit's side, mission accomplished! The director sent you a look, mockingly ruffling his feathers, "Commit less to the bit darn it! I won't be able to finish if I'm rolling around on the floor!"

Your smile widens with cheek, topaz bright with delight, "No such thing as overcommiting to the bit!"

"For what it's worth they don't sound too bad when not trying to sound like a goat going into labor." Cut in Twilight, using your head as an arm rest, you playfully shove him off, you briefly catch a smirk on Warriors face, Four chuckling while Legend leant agaisnt his side for support, good. Him and Hyrule looked off kilter recently, if you could make them smile by playing the fool this once, you'd be glad.

"Oh by the Goddesses- I'm almost regretting allowing you to volunteer on stage. I'm never listening to Priscilla ever again, anyway!" They clap their hands, clearing their throat, "The prince couldn't care less, for he had a dear friend back to him. And so they stayed on that cliff's edge, enjoying each other's company and lived happily ever after!"

"That was a shockingly sweet story," Smiled Hyrule, "Short and simple but just sweet enough."

"Can't believe the rancher actually made half decent royalty though." Jabbed Warriors, though you can feel the amusement in his tone like drinking songs after a long time of conflict. "And that the final conflict was basically triggered if someone ever messed with the vet's raccon pile of stuff."

"Excuse me?!"

"You're excused."

Twilight gave him a side glare then nodded at Hyrule, seemingly deciding that Legend could deal with Warriors well enough and after you playfully darted around him like a prancing doe, snagged his pelt back, you sighed at the loss of warmth and the feeling of security, but ushered him off the stage, "Never been on stage before and have no wish to do so on an official capacity, thank you. But Dusk would have my hide if I didn't pick a thing or two to add to entertaining the village children if nothing else. Have to say that last twist was a shock though." He sent you a glance and smile, "You're awfully good at playing the amnesiac, I'll say. Almost had me panicking."

You chuckle sheepishly, sitting at the edge of the stage, accepting a bit of warm tea cup Raven had brewed for everyone, "To be fair, there's a reason for that Wars, there's technically a companion story for the witch, but the actors need to go through a specific series of actions to be allowed to perform it side by side for consistency and that would be cruel on Twi. Could say the same to you, you make quite the dashing, kind prince. Thanks for coming up here."

Was that a tinge of crimson on his cheeks? You tilted your head and blinked, must have been a trick of the light, "No problem at all."

Edgar nodded, not even looking up from the script as Anabella and Amelia cuddled together to the side after a job well done, "You both together definitely made our job easier. Barely had to cue you both."

Raven nodded with a grin and wink, their voice carrying over the stage and to the audience, "You sure none of you boys want to quit this questing nonsense and join us here on the Astoria? I pay well and give benefits! Byron has lowered prices on potions on the village, plus free food and lodging."

Wild shook his head with a hum, "Tempting, but still no."

Raven clucked, their disappointment exaggerated but understanding as they leafed through the scripts you've both brainstormed together, "Ah well, worth a try. Come here then, I want your opinion on our next pick for today, I think we can squeeze a short one separated from the original deal as a bonus."

You nodded, getting up and handing Priscilla the empty tea cup back before walking over, pausing, did... Was there a hollow space beneath the stage? Experimentally, you let your steps weight a bit more onto the stage. That sounded like a trapdoor, huh. Why only use the attic? Maybe it was stuck? You catch Time's eye, he inclines his head questioningly, you mouth at him 'I'm fine, later', then bound over to Raven's side, looking at the scripts, "Any you had in mind? We're probably exhausting my mental stock at this rate if none of the noted ones do."

"Well I'm not about to go on the Hyrulean ones just yet, you have any idea how performing the same old legends over and over again can grow dull? No matter how many twists and turns one adds?" They deadpan back, you cover a wince as Four and Sky twitch, before picking one of the sheets at random.

Your voice sounds distant to your ears as you pinch the parchment between two fingers, analyzing it critically, then presenting it to the director, "How about this one? Should be short enough right?"

The Director peeks over your shoulder, head tilted from side to side, the feather on their hair seems more bloody than usual, as if the crystal would flow crimson and stain the hardwood floor. That cat is back on their shoulder again, looking at you with sharp, intelligent eyes.

(Too intelligent, hisses your mind, as mercury heats into burning iron at a forge, then cools, something is wrong wrongwrong

Come now, relax, it'll all be alright. Play along

Nothing is wrong, it's all in your head.)

"Penta the Beautiful huh? Are you sure?"

You nod firmly, "Yes. This one will do quite nicely."

(Raven's ever present smile dims, the embers of a warm fireplace and stories around the fire dying a quick death, Anabella holds onto Amelia a bit tighter as Priscilla pales, quickly leaving the room guided by Byron after ushering you back stage for a change of ensemble and to hand you the appropriate props while Edgar resolutely keeps an eye on the cues the director handed him.

The Chain notices, because of course they do, and trade a look, Spirit trades a look with Wind and slips away to the entrance with Warriors to try the heavy door.

It's locked, the shock of magic making the captain hiss. Though the air remains unnervingly sterile.)

The stage is set with no fanfare by Byron, and you walk back out with a fine white dress suit and boots to match, a mix of a suit and a dress, your head feels clouded, as if you're trying to traverse the deep fog of the Lost Woods with naught a single lantern or guide in sight to light your way, you vaguely hear Director Raven start to talk, echoing and crowing raspily with the first words that every good tale start with, "Once upon a time, there was an once prosperous kingdom. Home to a handsome king, a beautiful queen, and the king's sister, one day the queen fell ill and eventually passed for no cure could be found and no magic could heal her. I suppose some things are simply fated to happen, but the king, maddened in his grief, started lusting for none other..." The director paused, sneering with a disgusted shiver, you think that if they truly were a bird, their feathers would be ruffled, "His own sister."

You could see the exact second that each Link cringed back, those with siblings of their own (or who actively looked over others as siblings themselves) turning to ash white and to thistle green with revulsion and horror, the director nodding along with a hand over their head in a mock swoon, "I know! How could such vile thoughts manifest in a ruler's mind? It's preposterous! Outrageous! Horrifying! Though the words of a proposal did indeed leave his mouth, his sister princess was equally bewildered and disgusted, spitting venom from her spleen with rage."

That was your cue.

You growled, snarling with fury hot enough to rival a dragon's flame, allowing poison to sharpen your tongue, "You may have lost your mind, but I shall not lose my modesty or my shame! Why would you offer me rotten eggs when you need fresh ones?! How dare you!", somewhere in the audience you hear a choke, but you continue on. Committing to the role with a dedication you didn't know you possibly possessed, feeling vaguely disconnected from your body and actions, "I regret that you have a tongue to speak of such lecherous actions towards myself and that I unfortunately have the ears to hear such a suggestion. Am I your sister or cheese cooked in oil? Either way those and siblings not mix! Either way, go find a holy spring to bathe in so you may set your mind back on straight." You gesture towards yourself, baffled, "I am not a morsel that would make anyone lose their minds over, so what on Farore's good land about me could have made you grown so sick in the head?"

The director continued on, tone dry as they set their hand on a hip, "I'll spare you the monologue, my dear audience, because I'm sure it would make both you, me and our poor performer here retch and that would be a waste of Sir Wild's lovely cooking. It essentially boiled down to her hands. So, after acquiring her answer, she left in a flurry of rage and conviction, after all, if it was her hands that caused this..." The director trailed off, pausing, mouth clicking shut.

As if not willing to continue on.

(The pain in your head was getting worse.

"If it was his love for her hands which caused this, all she'd need to do is chop them off.")

Conflict passes through their slate gray gaze, before determined resolve settles into it, their tone quiet and tight, "... No. I can't go through with this anymore.", They swivel, running to you with quick strides, you feel the agony of your head splitting open, in between the haze you see more than react to the blade. Your blade held in your hands, twisted in such a way to sink into your flesh, blood beads onto your sleeve before Raven catches your arm in their hands, twisting towards the now alarmed heroes with panic on their face like a someone realizing they'd just went somewhere to die, "Listen! It's not safe here, specially NOT for them. I'm so sorry. Take them and get out through-"

That cat is there in a flash of darkness, it sinks it's claws into Raven's shoulder, the director crying out and letting go of your arm to try and get it off, leaving the dagger to slice deeply. You can see Time slam into a magically erected barrier around the stage as it's crimson eyes gleam with malice and satisfaction. The cat bites at the director's shoulder, tearing away the black ribbon holding the red gem they always wore. You hear Legend screaming and Hyrule casting a spell at the barrier, the shockwave palpable as it does not budge

You'll never know what they wanted to tell you all, though the flash of desperation, guilt and apologies will likely haunt your nightmares as their head fell off.

All of the lights go off.

And in a flash of thunder, you hear a sigh behind you. The barest tips of a clawed hand making your skin crawl with revulsion.

"Well... I'd like to say I'm surprised. But I'm really, really not that they didn't have the nerve to fully go through with it. Pity." That awful, awful voice is colored with disappointment while they pass you by, you think you feel the brush of a scaly tail around your legs and a blade at your throat. You try desperately to wrestle control back to your own body when you can't hear the Chain anymore. They stalk dance gently at your side, the rustle of cloth as someone bends down, the crystalline, padparascha crimson feather Raven always wore in their hair gleams in the dark with a melancholic light of their own, "Ah well, at least they did half the job I wanted them to and held onto what I needed. Still, just proves that if you want somebody gone that you just have to do it yourself."

You feel a feather light touch on your chin, tilting your head up, your heart freezes alongside your body as you lock gazes with the bloodstone empty gaze of a feathery mask, the figure in front of you wears a dark hood, caliginous and fleeting like the memories of a nightmare hanging onto your mind by it's very claw tips. It blends in perfectly with the darkness, liminal and just on the edge of the negative spaces of reality.

They smile with all of the sweetness of rotten things and arsenic and it makes you sick.

"Dear me... You are so, so pathetically helpless like this. I can take my time with you, can't I? To tear everything that makes you yourself piece.by.piece..." the touch tightens, nightlock claws sink into your skin and drawing blood, you feel like screaming but your mouth won't open, your body betrays you as you drown and drown and fall. It makes the thing behind you hiss out a laugh and you are certain you won't hear a more wretched sound in your life as they study you like a pinned butterfly, "How very precious, it fills me with joy, but really it's more disappointing and disgusting. It's almost enough to make me want to die!" The being in front of you snarls, all venom and the burning flames of a madman, before they calm, smiling a dagger sharp, hateful grin with a hum, "... Ah, whatever. Let's get this show on the road properly this time, shall we? You wait for your cue darling." They mockingly pat the snout of the Shadow in front of you, narrowingly dodging a snap of teeth with a cackle, before they disappear in a flurry of obsidian and ember feathers.

They clap, and the light returns to the theater. Their mismatched hands are spread, clawed and gloved and you see a cloak of black feathers laid over their entire body, the tip of dagger sharp, silver heels making them tower easily over the pool of blood from the director's severed neck.

"Good evening, blood red dogs of Hylia!-"

They barely finish their sentence before the boys move, arrows and magic set loose at the figure in a blur, the figure dances back, tsking as they appear on the chandelier now, lounging nonchantly and revealing your form at blade point from the Shadow, struggling to remove your dagger from your arm. You can almost feel their disapproving look as they cross their arms at the face of furious glares from the heroes of Hyrule, "Rude."

First does not look amused as he stays Sky's hand from unleashing a Skyward Strike, the other's eyes as frigid as the storm outside, "We are going to need you to let our companion go before any apologies are given I'm afraid."

"And I'll be needing you lot to stop snapping and growling like mutts before making any negotiations like that." The figure snaps back primly, a pot and tea cup appearing nearby, with a flick of their wrist two things appear on their hands as freshly brewed tea poured itself which makes a shiver fun down your side, alarm and panic gnawing at your skin and exposing your fragile heart with almost clinical curiosity as they toss it down.

A dark iris purple Minish Feather earring, and penumbra dark, torn fairy feathers, you think you still see the bits of wisps clinging to it like blood and the exact moment Four tenses, colors prismatic as they flash over his eyes and Hyrule freezes, Twilight sending them a concerned look, though his hand doesn't move from his sword.

The display is enough to keep your companions on guard, but not react, that thing atop the chandelier perfectly positioned to crush you without a second thought leisurely sipping tea. Before addressing the Chain below, "Now that I've successfully gotten your attention by indicating the extermination of vermin I've had to recently do, why don't we talk? I'm perfectly reasonable, I promise not to bite or anything, blood is quite the nuisance to clean off rhe stage after all."

"Very well," Time's voice cuts through the silence, composed even as his mind is running a mile per minute, "May we make some inquiries?"

Their lips curl in amusement, a slightly mocking edge to their relaxed lilt, "There we go, was being polite so hard? You may, one at a time though!" They look down at the Shadow, which hisses up at them, eyes focused on the heroes, the edges of it's existence flickering oddly, casting itself over walls and the now scorched wooden floor, "Don't want to agitate our friend here you know? Or else we'll have a sparrow singing very very soon." They sing song, you can feel Warriors cringe where he stands, but he's also the first one to jump to questioning at Time's slight nod.

"Why are you working with the Shadow?"

The figure shrugs, pouring themselves a second mug, "Why does anyone do anything? Complete and utter, sheer boredom is why. It had a good sales pitch won't lie, I haven't been bored since you lot decided to stay here."

You see the way Legend's eyes narrow, a scowl on his face and tone biting, itching to move, "What did you do to them?"

"You'll have to be more specific, if you mean your little friend here. Nothing really, they came up on the stage and used the knife themselves after all." The masked figured clucked, shrugging, "As for the rest, you can blame Raven. They lost their nerve when they shouldn't have and dragged the troupe down with them, when I gave them one job besides watching my theater, plus..." they sighed, placing Raven's feather by the thorns holding the mask grafted onro their face, clicking their clawed, bloody hand agaisnt the tea cup, uncaring when your blood mixes with the sugar cubes, "They also failed to do proper research, I mean doesn't help certain nasty little disgraces-" they growl pointedly at the Shadow at that, who snarls back, making a twisted duet of mutual, black loathing come to life, "Also made their job harder, but seriously. Even a braindead donkey could have done a bit more research."

"What do you mean? No need to insult Raven like that! They were nice." Blurted out Spirit, you can practically feel the poor dear itching to snap the whip to snatch you, Wind holding onto his an Cal's wrists like a vice so they wouldn't make any sudden moves, First tapping Calamity's back and looking at the hooded being's perch, making Calamity's eyes narrow and Sky slowly let go of the possible Skyward Strike, thankfully enough. Being crushed to death would not help your boys get out of here.

The hooded and masked figure twitched, head listing lazily to the side, unhurried, as if bored or maybe dissapointed as they sighed apathetically, it gave you gooseflesh, but you dared not move an inch, struggling against your own limbs and with the Shadow at your back, "I mean I was just taken by surprise. You know, I wouldn't have taken the heroes of Hyrule for liars and oath breakers, and also against the laws of hospitality. Shooting arrows and magic at your host within their own home? For shame! Didn't your parents teach you better?"

You could see how each of the heroes bristled, but seeing crimson beading against your unwilling, trapped skin stayed their blade, though that did not stop Legend from snarling up at the hidden figure, sipping tea as if it was watching an incredibly entertaining play, "Oath breakers? That's rich coming from you! Raven said we could stay here safely and then leave once the storm was over!"

"And you attacked one of our own first." Added Warriors, his tone as glacial as the winter winds, enough to freeze anyone down to the marrow.

They incline their head, voice distorted, the screaming echo of scavengers like nails on chalkboard and as refined as a well curated blade, "True, though neither they nor I never said you'd all leave unharmed, did we? And you didn't keep your end of the deal either." Their tone goes dryer, as they throw the tea cup away without a care in favor of throwing their hands up, as if it was the Chain being unreasonable and not the person who presumably did something to Shadow and Hyrule's own Shade, you can see Sky barely keeping his grip on an enraged Four, "Besides! I didn't attack them, they kindly volunteered to go up stage on their own. You're all so up in arms for something that's part of the performance, a little injury is a small price to pay for the bit."

"A 'little injury'?! I doubt they'd try cutting off their own hands for a BIT." Stressed Hyrule, snapping out of his shock, in response to that, the cloaked person shrugged.

"I mean a little disarment never killed anyone."

Wild looked seconds from firing another arrow, teeth gritted and bared as Twilight sent a furious glare to the one perched atop the stage, just above the lights, ready to knock them down and crush you if needed be, "I'm pretty sure it has, actually."

"Anyway! You're all so caught up on semantics, by the Three, so uptight. Does having the splinters so far up there not sting?" they glanced at the Shadow, the obsidian and granite lizalfos glancing back at them before hissing at Time, ready to lunge, teeth stained with Director Raven's blood, "This the kind of tough crowd you have to deal with? Yeesh, no wonder you yap more than a kicked dog at times." They turn back to the Chain, clapping their hands, "In any case, let's make another deal, shall we? I'm a playwright of my word after all. You could leave your little friend here to become one of my actors and go on your merry way." You swore you felt your heart stop, blood rushing in your ears, you barely caught the sharp glint of a hollow smile beneath the crow shaped mask and their next words, "Or! If you're really that attached-", they send you a bemused look, "Can't see why but hey," shrugging, they continue on, unrelenting like a hunting wolf, "You can act instead. I'll send you all into different tales and should you finish them in accordance to the script, I may let you just leave without too much of a fuss. No catches." They point to the Shadow, "Can't make any promises for that one though, it's a solo act you see, if anything I'm just lending the venue and he was lucky to rent first, the wretch."

"And if we refuse?" Probed Time, you could see the gears turning in his head like clockwork, trying to find a way to swing this in everyone's favor so you all can get out alive.

The vulture in crow skin only smiled wider, "Then none of us gets them and you die here, I'll let the Shadow tear you apart to it's void soul's delight, and kill them on the spot." The blades press against your arms against your will, and you twitch, trying to wrestle control back and only getting pain for you troubles, muffling a yell, "Maybe put them in a soup and make jewelry out of the bones that I don't reuse in a broth, I'd look pretty dashing in a crown." They giggle, unhinged cruelty into every word as they clap their hands, voice rising to a screeching crescendo, "Oh oh! Or just roll them down a barrel filled with spikes on a hill, or make them dance and dance and dance on hot iron shoes until they drop dead! Haven't decided yet, so many choices, so little time. It's almost enough to leave me hot and bothered." The true owner of the theater sighed, longingly hugging themselves before turning a cold, hard tone to the heroes, "You sure you want to risk that?"

Silence descends upon the theater like a widow's shroud, seems you're all at an impasse, you're unable to move and while you're certain your boys could overpower whatever that monstrosity is and deal with the Shadow, none of you could be sure they could do it before the Shadow slit your throat or that being (person? No, it felt too unnatural to be human.) Knocked the chandelier down or made good on their threat.

The masked unknown simply summoned themseles a second mug, pouring more tea, "Take your time to answer. I can wait. Though if you ask me the choice is extremely obvious, come on now, what's one more or one less for your little group? It's not like they're important to the narrative anyway-"

"No tricks?" Cut in First, you see the being twotch at the interruption.

"Rude. Seriously, does Hylia just likes to pick the feral ones and set them loose upon the world? Seems like bad business." They pause, then hum, "Then again, maybe not, I hear her incarnations can be quite unhinged. Quite the match made in hell, you lot then and those Demise decides to live rent free in huh? I almost feel bad now. Yikes, my condolences." They pluck a bouquet of camellias, roses and acacias from the inside of their cloak and throw it down to the Chain. You're not even surprised when Wild snags the fire rod from Legend and sets it aflame.

"Holding our friend hostage and talking about actively killing them doesn't inspire us to play nice." Gritted out Four. Grip tight onto his sword.

"If you feel bad then just let them go!" Gestured Wind from his side.

"Your criticism has been noted. I only don't concede because I can't see any reason why you'd want them around." The figure drawls back before answering First, "No tricks or catches or too much of a fuss, all you have to do is play along the script and play nice. Do that and in theory we shouldn't have much trouble. Maybe I'll even be nice and throw in one of those rewards like the places you all crawl through do on occasion, why not?" The Shadow roars at that, they snap down at it, "My theater, my rules! I'm bored okay? Let me spice things up!"

Time breathes, you can see the lonsdaleite persistence come back to the forefront, "Then we accept."

The figure stills, before shaking their head, they leap down from the chandelier, gliding across the stage with quick steps as the feeling of drowning recedes, the Shadow begrudgingly letting you go as you gasp, the figure snags your arm in one clawed hand, drags you to the edge of the stage, then kicks you off with a sigh, thankfully, Twilight and Warriors are there ro support you as they turn towards Time, tone blank as they extend that same clawed hand, "Way to pick the boring choice, but fine. I shouldn't expect much of a surprise I suppose." They shake hands, you feel the hum of magic settle into the air, twisted and wrong it almosy brings that drowning feeling back, water trying to pull you down as they grin and step back, opening a blank, black book, snagging the crystalline quill and using your blood as ink, they write, everything goes dark quickly as the Shadow snuffs out every light again as it dissolves, spreading ober every single nook and cranny of the open space.

You think they bare their teeth at you specifically before snapping the book shut, "Let me weave you a tale!"

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Scene IIII End. Thus closes the Opening Act.

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #106

gonna start making the surveys i compile a tad bit shorter.

Does your mom have nice hair? I guess? Do you prefer really cold water (to drink)? Yes, I'd prefer to not drink warm water. But that's true with any drink. Kiss with your eyes open or closed? Doing that with your eyes open would creep me out. Can you keep a secret? I have literally never told a secret before. Because I respect people trusting me enough to tell me about such things. Have you ever hated someone, but ended up being friends with them? Meet my best friend and crush ya'll lmao. Has anyone ever told you they couldn’t trust you? I don't think so. Who in your family has the prettiest eyes? Probably my brother. Are you an aggressive driver? Or more passive-aggressive? When I drove, I was far too passive to be safe. Too skittish. What would you consider an unacceptable first date? Uhhh idk. Probably going to his/her house and being home alone with the person. I'd be scared. Would you rather help others, or just help yourself? Help others. Are you the kind of person that’s afraid to cry in public? I don't know anyone who isn't. It's embarrassing. Have you ever been rejected by someone you really liked? More like loved. Have you ever used fake tan? No. Have you ever had a panic attack? Probably around 100 times. Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows? Yes, because they’re often better than “grown-up” movies. <<< This. Who is one person you wish you would have never met? Rachel. She had no form of positive impact on my life. What was your 1st alcoholic beverage? A lemonade daiquiri, but drinking it was actually an accident. x_x What’s your favorite type of milk? If chocolate milk doesn't count, 2%. Are you laid-back? No, I'm constantly anxious. When at home with nothing to do, do you wear socks? I wear socks as little as I possibly can because I hate them. Is your bed actually a bed? Yeah. Do you prefer other sleeping arrangements rather than the usual bed? Why? No, I prefer a bed. Comfier than pretty much anything else. How often do you shower?  Every other day unless I feel dirty for whatever reason. If you were given a plane ticket for free right now to Florida, what part would you go to/what would you do? Orlando for Disney World, obviously. When you get upset, do you prefer to go to friends for support or to be left alone? Do you wallow or do you continue on with life? It reeeaally depends. Would you rather have the ability to speed up time, freeze time, or go back in time? Probably none, honestly... Have you ever had a teacher you got really close with? Many. What chain restaurant (Applebees, Ruby Tuesdays, Outback, etc..) is your favorite? Olive Garden omf Can you actually picture yourself getting married/having kids, or is that something that seems too distant in the future to imagine? I can see myself married, but not with kids. Ever. Would you rather eat all day or exercise all day? Uhhh neither? Eating all day would fuck someone up, and God knows I don't have the endurance to exercise all day, I legitimately would pass out. Do you write? Daily. Have you ever gone to see a movie past 9:00 PM? Pretty sure I did with "Silent Hill: Revelation." Would you rather hold hands or link arms with your significant other? Hold hands. Truth be told, are you more into looks or personalities the most? Personality. A pretty face doesn't mean they've got a pretty personality whatsoever. How is/was your chemistry class in high school? Actually, I never took it. There was an alternative option called physical science. Would you rather eat rice or bread? Depends on the type of rice or bread, but let's just say it's my favorite bread (pumpernickel) versus my favorite rice (pork fried). I'd go with pumpernickel any day of the week. Have you ever taken a shower with anyone before? Not since I was very little with my younger sister. I wouldn't do it as an adult because it's both impractical and claustrophobic, and not to mention it's my personal time to get clean and such. Are you hard to please?
 No. When are you at your happiest?
 Hm, I dunno. Do you have a waste basket in your car? We have a bag. Have you ever told a friend you thought their parent was hot? God no, even if I did, I wouldn't tell them. Awkward. Have your parents asked you to explain a term and you lied because it was inappropriate? No. If I didn't want to explain the term, I'd just tell them to look it up. Do your parents know you have a Tumblr account? No, but it's not like I'd hide it if they asked. Is there anyone you wish you could apologize to? Who? Maybe... no one's coming to mind now. Typically, do you like being asked a lot of questions? Strictly depends on the questions. Do you put up with more in friendships than in relationships? Yes. I'm way more picky with an s/o. Do you feel better sleeping alone, or with someone else? Alone. When I was with Jason I was sometimes happier sleeping with him, but in general, I find sleeping alone more comfortable. Do you enjoy applying make up, if you wear it? God no, hence why I wear it less than once in a blue moon. Do physical exams make you uncomfortable? Holy fuck yes, don't touch me. Do you like ketchup or mustard better with your corn dogs? I haven't had a corn dog in YEARS. I probably wouldn't put anything on one. Do you like peas? NO. Apparently I loved them as a baby, though. Don't know what the hell happened. Have you ever kissed under water? I think I have? Your ex calls wanting to hang out. What do you say? Don, yes.  Any other, no. Have you ever swam while it was raining? Yeah, no harm in that when you're already in water. Wouldn’t it be nice if we were older? THEN WE WOULDN'T HAVE TO WAIT SO LOOOONG Is your hair a lot different from when you were little? Not really, other than the fact I had bangs as a kid. Have you ever gotten stung by a stingray or a jellyfish? No. Do you know how to do laundry? This is extremely embarrassing, but no. My mom has always done all our laundry together and likes to do it herself. But I still need to learn for obvious reasons. When you wash your hands, do you use the cold or hot tap (faucet)? Hot, but our water heats up slow, so. If you had to be straight/gay for a day (whichever you’re currently not!), what celebrity would you most like to take on a date? I'm bi, so. What is the biggest injury you’ve ever sustained and how did you do it? I fell onto the road while running and skinned the actual fuck out of both knees, especially my right. Like to the point there was pus. What is the most unique animal you’ve ever touched? Probably just a reticulated python (pretty sure that's what it was, maybe I'm wrong...). Not all that strange, but. What’s the scariest nightmare you’ve ever had? Describe it in detail. It involved my dad and no, I'm not describing it. Put these in order of your favorite movie genre to least: Horror, action, thriller, adventure, superhero, romance, drama, comedy, musical and dance? Horror, comedy, superhero, adventure, romance, thriller, action, drama, musical and dance. If you had to lose one of the 5 senses, which would you choose and why? Smell, as I think that would affect your life the least. Name all the drugs you have tried: None that weren't prescribed. Name all of the alcoholic beverages you have tried: Only daiquiris and margaritas. Name all the drugs you’d never do: I'd never do any. What is the most alcohol you’ve drank in a night? Four daiquiris on New Year's and it did almost nothing. @_@ I handle alcohol extremely well. I should probably add though that I wasn't drinking with the intent to get drunk, I just drink drinks in general a lot. I'm always thirsty. What do you order from McDonald’s? It alternates between McDoubles and chicken nuggets with usually a small but occasionally medium fry. What do you order from Burger King? I don't like BK. What do you order from Wendy’s? A Baconator like a fatass cries. What do you order from Sonic? A hot dog. I tried a bacon cheeseburger there recently tho and I liked it, so I might get that sometimes. What do you order from Taco Bell?  The only two things I like there are the chicken and cheese quesadillas and fiesta potatos. I hate Mexican food. How would you feel if a girl asked your boyfriend/girlfriend out for a drink?
 I'm single.  I broke up with my ex just today because I'm just too scared of men.  It had been almost four months and I was coming no closer to him than I was as his friend.  I didn't feel safe opening up to him.  It's going to take me a while to be comfortable romantically around a man again.  Another reason I broke up with him is because I realized I have a crush on my best friend. Any idea what you want for your next birthday?
 A bearded dragon. Name some models you think are hot: I don't know of any models. Not my thing. Have you ever been called a skank/slut because of the way you dress?
 No, considering I'm not even somewhat revealing. Where did you lose your virginity, if you have? I haven't. What are your views on getting rid of the penny? Don't care. Have you ever kissed someone underneath mistletoe? Maybe, but I don't think so. Do you have a weak stomach?
 Nope. Do you know anybody who has been diagnosed with cancer?
 Three people that I know in my family have had cancer. I think I know one other, but probably more, realistically. Have you ever had to take care of an intoxicated person? No, but really, I prolly shoulda the night my friend was so wasted she called her husband to ask if she could get high (her sister's fuckboy was brazen enough to bring his weed to her house) despite her being against drugs. I went the fuck to bed because I was exhausted and had to leave the next morning at 6 AM. @_@ Which website do you spend the most time on?
 YouTube Do you read fanfiction? If so, what fandoms?
 Believe this shit or not, no. It's usually waaaaaay too smutty. Are you more introverted or extroverted?
 If it gives you any idea, you know the popular site where you can take the personality type quiz? I am almost entirely on the introvert spectrum lol. Do you like meatball subs? Nope. Like I'll eat one if it's the only choice, but I don't enjoy them. If you have a sib, do you call him/her “brother” or “sister” sometimes? I only ever call them by their names. Have you ever lived in a mobile home? No. Do you consider dogs inside or outside pets? Both. I support most being inside, but larger breeds should be outside so they can get rid of all that energy. Obviously bring them in in unfavorable weather, though. Do you feel comfortable asking your parents or grandparents for money? NOPE. Scariest driver you’ve ridden with: One of the scariest experiences in my entire life was this time Dad had to pick me and Nicole up from middle school, or maybe I'd just gotten into high school. He was in an awful mood so went WAY over the speed limit, ran red lights, and passed illegally. It was absolutely terrifying. And mind you, the ride home normally took about 25 minutes. Do you know anybody who is afraid of clowns? Lots of people. Do you listen to ASMR? No. The ones with people whispering make me super uncomfortable. Rain storms or a light drizzle? STORMS What snacks do you usually get at the theater? Please, I bring my own shit. Sometimes buy popcorn tho. What’s an underrated video game/ movie/ show you love and think it needs more recognition? UGH "Amnesia: A Machine for Pigs." It's my third-favorite game of all time, but it's pretty criticized for not being what people expected. Would you fill your house with plants if you had a green thumb? No, too much maintenance. Thoughts on freckles? They can be super cute. What band do you never get tired of listening to? Ozzy<3 Like I'm not constantly in the mood for him, but if I listen to a song, I always enjoy it. Do you have anything that belongs to an ex? Yep. Do you put marshmallows in your hot chocolate? No. Does it bother you when dogs lick you? Not usually. What is the best thing you can draw? I think I'm best at meerkats. Are you good at wrapping presents? NOPE I AM THE WORST. Do you put your hair up when you cook? I don't cook. Do you prefer Mountain Dew or Sprite? I don't like Sprite, so. Have you ever encountered a ghost?  I feel that I have. Does anybody in your contacts have a heart after their name?  No. Who was the villain in the last superhero movie you watched?  Hmmm... it has been a LONG time since I've watched a superhero movie.  I actually enjoy superhero movies, I just don't see them much. Does your phone have hole for charms? No cries. I have a Pyramid Head phone charm and I wANNA USE IT DAMMIT Who was the last person you spoke on the phone for over an hour?  I don't even think we've ever talked that long, but the closest and most recent would probably be Colleen.  I never talk on the phone long. Ditched school to do something more fun? No. Do you take compliments well? I appreciate them immensely and even the smallest one will literally brighten my day, but I get very shy about it, especially if you say it to my face. Has a boy/girl ever called you babe/baby? Yup, fucking hated it. Do you hate it when people smoke around you? Yes.  It gives me a headache.  I also don't fancy cancer. Have you ever kissed on a boat? No. Do you have to check in with your parents before you go some place?  No, but I'll let my Mom know. Would you rather have big or small dogs? I like bigger dogs because they act like they're so smol and are usually babies at heart. Do you trust all of your friends?  No. Are you afraid of falling in love? FUCK YES I AM Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?  Yes, but I don't believe he meant it, honestly.  I feel he was just trying to appease me. Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest/fastest for? Nope, which is for the better. Jim Carrey movie or Adam Sandler movie? Jim Carrey, but I can enjoy both. Favorite music genre?  Heavy metal. Do you like your body?  I enjoy how resilient it is, particularly as far as bone strength and my immune system, but I don't like it in general at all. Zombies or vampires? Vamps. Do you like mood rings?  I don't believe they work. How many stories does your mall have?  One.  It's an awful mall both in stores and things that happen there. New York City or Paris? I'm pretty sure I'd enjoy Paris more. Ever been skydiving?  If no, would you want to? No and no.  I'm scared of heights and the idea of the parachute failing is just... no.  The idea is thrilling though. Do you order your burgers with only ketchup? No, they also have mustard. Skirts or jeans? I wouldn't wear one, but skirts are super cute. What is your worst relationship quality?  I think the fact I'm very distrustful and need a lot of personal space are tied. Are you a fan of cake?  I don't always enjoy the frosting, but I love cake itself. Do/did you get into trouble a lot at school?  No, I was essentially the teacher's pet ha ha.  Didn't try to be, but. Are you a very affectionate person? Verbally, very, almost not at all physically. What is something that makes you very squeamish?  Vomit. Do you have any godchildren? AHHHHHH!  I have one coming in May!! Ever had to take a sobriety test?  No. If your old class was to have a reunion, would you attend it?  No. Have you ever abused an animal?  Holy fuck no. Have you ever been homeless? Technically, yes, but I lived with my best friend for a month. Did the last book you read have a good ending?  No.  Well, no as in what happened, but good as in I liked it. Did the last book you read have a character in it that made you mad?  She doesn't make me mad, but I hate Jaina. Do you like the color orange?  Yeah. Would you ever drive an orange car?  Actually, I've known for a long time that if I ever do have a car, I'd prefer a burnt orange one. Do you own a fall wreath? Yeah. What event did you last dress up for? Who went to that event? Uhhh probably Ashley's wedding, so over a year ago.  And plenty of people. What is the last illegal thing you did, even the smallest crime? Rode in a car with my friend while she smoked weed because I was too nervous to tell her I didn't want to go with her.  I was terrified. Beard or moustache? I don't particularly have an opinion on either, but I'm more likely to like a beard. Have you ever witnessed a birth?  I've seen cats give birth many times, and while I'm honestly terrified to because personally I find birth more disgusting than miraculous, I really do want to be in the room with Colleen when she has her baby.  I mean c'mon, she's my best friend, and I'm also going to be his/her godmother.  I want to be there. Where’s your favorite place to be when you feel depressed?  My room.  But that's no different than any other time. Would you like to be able to read thoughts?  Not really, no. Have you ever been on a farm?  Yes.  Ashley had a friend who lives on one. Do you have freckles?  No. What is the temperature currently in the town you live in?  According to my phone, 60.  So glad fall's here, and the middle of the night. Have you ever made out on a couch?  Yeah. What are you doing on Halloween?  I don't know, but I hope I do something. Do you own any Sims games? Which ones?  I own most of the animal ones.  I used to looove them. Do you know anyone who still doesn’t have a smartphone?  My mom.  She legit has an ObamaPhone because we're poor. What is your favorite kind of fruit juice?  Mango and peach mix. Do you acknowledge your feelings or ignore them? I've always acknowledged them. If you have kids, do you pack lunches or send lunch money?  I don't have kids, but if I did, I'd pack lunch for them if they didn't like what was being served that day. Do you have any cousins that you’re jealous of? Why?  Robby and Audrey, yes.  They're both veeery ambitious, smart, talented, and on paths to great success. Do you hate your last name? Do you want to get married so you can change it?  I actually don't like my last name, but I don't want to get married just to change it, that's ridiculous. Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend? Why did you break up?  Aaron, and I realized it was merely platonic attraction. Is green your favorite color?  I actually don't like green unless it's pastel or mint, and even then, I'm not big on it. Have you ever fallen asleep laying on your boyfriend/girlfriend?  One ex, yes. What was the last vacation you went on?  The beach with Colleen and her husband last May. Describe your best friend’s hair. Colleen's is short, somewhat curly towards the end, and light brown right now, and Sara's is long and brown. In school, what subjects did you achieve your highest grades in? English Which of the seven deadly sins are you most guilty of? Quite easily sloth. Do you have very strong opinions?  Usually, yes.  Sometimes I'm totally ambivalent, occasionally on important issues, which honestly bothers me, but I just.  Can't always pick a side. Do you believe in reincarnation? No. Have you ever had to give a pet away?  Our neighbors called animal control once because they complained about our cats wandering into their yard.  The bullshit thing is they never actually confronted us about it, they just called them and they were all taken.  I fucking sobbed, especially because this included Aphrodite, one of my favorite cats we've ever had. Have you ever cooked anything other than s’mores over a fire?  Yes, hot dogs.  They taste amazing like that. Is anybody in your family disabled? I don't think so. If you have Facebook, how many friends do you have on there? I checked, 116. Have you ever worn a corset?  No but I totally would if I was smaller because they're fucking hot. What is your favorite pair of earrings? I have these really pretty, hanging earrings that are circular-shaped, the outside being made of black gems and then three chains hanging down inside of it, the center of each having a little black bow.  They're super cute; I wore them to I think both of my proms. Do you have health insurance?  We're in the process of trying to get it. When was the last time you cleaned your ears via QTip?  It's been like a month because I was instructed not to after I got my ears cleaned after wax being literally adhered to my eardrums because I used q-tips so frequently; it pushed it back too far.  My mom now uses some kind of tool to clean my ears for me because my ears have always produced waaay too much wax and I don't want to not clean them. Ever lived through a natural disaster?  Yes, hurricanes. How many tattoos do you want?  Oh my gosh, so many.  I want my arms and shoulders essentially covered, I know I want one on the top of my right hand, there's one I want on my hip, I might get one on my foot...  I don't think I'll get any on my legs, though.  There's few I like that look good there imo. Are you planning to go see a movie anytime soon? I totally wanna see "Happy Death Day."  It looks pretty creepy. Which of “greasy, salty, bitter, sweet, spicy, bland” do you react most strongly against? Bitter. When you’re completely exhausted, do you prefer to be around people or not?  God, no.  I get irritable. Rank Oceans, Forests, Tundra, Deserts, Mountains, Prairies, Lakes with whatever comparator you like. Mountains, deserts, tundras, forests, lakes, prairies, oceans. Abolish human-caused death, or disease-caused death?  Hmmm.  I think... disease-caused?  You can't change diseases, you can educate people.  Now, that obviously hasn't worked on many people, but I feel it would be more beneficial. Is it better for things in general to err on the side of too simple, or too complex? Too simple. Do you have any phobias?  Pregnancy and childbirth, VOMIT, whale sharks, situationally claustrophobic, mildly afraid of dolls, mannequins, and animatronics.  Probably others I'm forgetting. Have you ever done something bad but you don’t regret?  Kinda. Do you believe in the phrase “If it’s meant to be, it will be”?  Eh, I think so. Do you pop your bones or crack your knuckles? Ugh no, the sound is disgusting. Would you rather have an owl or a snake? God, why not both?  But I think an owl would be more interesting. Are you a mean drunk? I've never been drunk, but any time I've been tipsy, I've just been giddy. Have you had any major tragedies in your life? The biggest was the breakup; that was absolutely a tragedy.  The almost total loss of sanity that followed that was also one. Name the last 10 people in your Facebook inbox. 1.) Don, 2.) Colleen's father-in-law, 3.) Summer, 4.) Colleen, 5.) Sammy, 6.) Miss Tobey, 7.) Everett, 8.) Morgan, 9.) Kieley, 10.) Nicole When was the last time you saw 4?  Last weekend, I think it was. Has 2 ever made you cry?  No. Where did you meet 3?  Pretty sure when Nicole was in kindergarten.  True story, it was them who started out as friends, then me and her shifted into being closer. What’s the age difference between yourself and 6?  At least 30 years.  She's a family friend. How old is 2? I don't know. Have you ever slept in the same bed as 5?  No, we've never even met. Is 4 attractive?  She's beautiful. Does 3 care about you?  Well considering she cried and reminded me how loved I was when she got me to talk about my suicide attempt, I'd think so.  She's a sweetheart. Have you ever kissed 10?  No. How long have you known 6? Since my senior years of high school. Is 9 younger than you? No. What if you had a one night stand with 8? Nope. What’s the first letter of 7’s last name? H Have you ever met 5’s parents?  No. What if 3 told you that he/she liked your ex? She dated Tyler briefly, but she can't stand him anymore.  She agreed he got attached far too easily.  She brought him up at the party. 1 is coming to your house for dinner, what will you cook for him/her? I don't cook. Has 9 ever cried in front of you?  I think she might've teared up while talking to me in Skype once, I'm not sure. Describe your relationship with 2. I don't really have a relationship with him, and I can't pinpoint why, but he actually mildly creeps me out.  I don't have a reason, he just does. When was the last time you saw 10? Earlier. What’s 5’s favorite food? I think pizza? Do you know 3’s middle name?  Rae Does 6 have long or short hair? Long. Have you ever held hands with 1?  Yeah. Does 8 have any piercings or tattoos? I think she has her ears pierced, don't know about tats. If 3 never spoke to you again, how would you feel? That would suck. Have you ever felt jealous of 4?  Envious, yes. Which of these 10 people would you say you’re closest to? Colleen. Do you listen to music simply for the melody or for the lyrics?  Mostly melody.  I can listen to songs with horrible and/or offensive lyrics and still enjoy the song for the melody. What is the most visited website on your Internet window?  YouTube. How many windows are in the room you’re in, if there are any? Two. Do you always voice your opinion to random people? NOPE Would you ever consider yourself over-dramatic?  I can be.  Used to be way worse, though. Do you like to sing? Do you personally think you have a good singing voice?  No and no.  Even most of the closest people in my life haven't heard me sing What is one word you could never properly pronounce?  People will ALWAYS point out how I say "breakfast."  I don't know why, but I always put a "t" sound after the "k."  I literally can't say it right. ;-; Three of your favorite movies in the world: My first two are Burton's "Alice in Wonderland" and "White Chicks," but I don't have a set third one.  Maybe "Troy?"  I need to watch that again, I love it. Do you ever get paranoid about who your significant other hangs out with? I'm single. Which one of your guy friends is the best looking?  Probs Kyle.  We don't really talk anymore after high school, but I still consider him a friend. Which one of your friends is the most brutally honest?  Colleen. Which band do you have the most of on your iPod/music player? Ozzy Osbourne.  Metallica comes close. What color is your shower curtain? White. Do you like screamo music?  No.  I want to be able to hear words. What song are you listening to, if any?  I am like??  Obsessed with "Cool Patrol" by NSP??  It is so catchy and the music video is like aesthetic as fuck?? Do you like the color purple?  Yes, especially pastel shades. Do you have a sensitive gag reflex?  You would not fucking believe it.  I can barely brush my tongue.  If it gives you an idea, dentists have to use those things that go in your cheek when doing x-rays meant for children versus adults. Have you ever had an online argument?  I have been socially active on the Internet since I was nine.  Take a guess. Are you at risk for any medical issues?  Quite a few.  Cancer might run in our family, diabetes does, and I found out very recently that I have inactive MRSA, which could become active. Would you try to be a hero in a hostage situation? I'd probably be too terrified to. What flavor [in general] is your favorite?  Strawberry Have you ever lied about your sexual past?  No. Dark hair or light hair in the opposite sex? I apparently have a thing for dark hair. Have you ever stayed up very late talking to the person you like[d]?  Yeah. Have your parents ever not approved of someone? You mean of someone I dated?  Mom never liked Juan, but we weren't even together for a day, so he doesn't even really count. Have you ever snuggled with someone you weren’t dating? ��No. What is your best friend’s mom’s name?  Cindy and Donna. Who is you BEST friend ever's name?  I think the person I've ever been closest to was Megan, but considering most of what I knew about her was a lie, y'know.  Maybe Mini, then. What is your favorite Hostess/Little Debbie snack?  Omg Twnkies.  True story, Mom's nickname for me has been "Twinkie" since childhood (I know, embarrassing, right), so I guess it's fate lol. Do you/your family buy loaf from the bakery or bagged on the shelf? Bagged. White, wheat or other?  My favorite's pumpernickel, but of those, wheat. Do you embarrass easily?  Almost everything embarrasses me, holy shit. Are you afraid of heights? Yes.  Not horribly, but still afraid. What’s the best thing about being your gender?  I dunno. And the worst thing?  Menstruation is some bullshit. What’s one subject that makes you feel uncomfortable?  As far as talking about?  I can get uncomfortable with sexual stuff.  Not always, really just depends on who I'm with and the subject. When does your driver’s license expire? I don't have a license, but my permit expires in December. Do you like pulp in your orange juice? NONONONONONONONO I CAN'T DRINK IT NO If you could donate to any charity, which would it be?  There's one that focuses entirely on suicide prevention, can't remember the name, but totally that one. What’s one old school Nickelodeon show you wish was still on? Stealing the last person's answer, "Drake and Josh."  I loved that shit. Does it make you uncomfortable when your parents talk about finding people attractive? If your parents don’t make comments like that, what sort of things can your family members say that do make you feel uncomfortable?  No. Are there any subjects that you are interested in so much that you would read whole books or academic journals about them?  No. Can you write in cursive?  My handwriting is mostly cursive. Where do you like to sit in the movie theater? Pretty near the back and in the middle of the row. Would you rather live in Oz, Neverland, Wonderland, or Middle Earth? Wonderland! Don’t you just love it when guys sing to you? If it's directly at me, I'd feel super awkward.  Like how would I react. Ever taken dance lessons? For a good number of years. What is your favorite kind of cookie? Chocolate chip. Can you play the saxophone?  No, but I actually wish I'd played that instead of flute in high school. What kind of camera do you have?  Nikon D3200 Who is your favorite superhero?  I don't have any strong opinions on superheroes, but I guess Batman. Who is your favorite supervillain?  She's really a sidekick, but whatever.  Harley Quinn's a beb. What is your dream job?  Meerkat biologist.  I don't pursue it mainly because I don't want to move out of the country. What’s your favorite TV show of all time?  "Meerkat Manor." What do you want for Christmas?  This year I'm legitimately only asking for one thing, and that's a tattoo.  I don't know much about pricing tats, but I'm going to guess it'll be around $150.  As I get older, the less things I really want, and there truly isn't many other things I'm like dying to get, and I don't like my parents buying me too much shit anyway.

[elliotthezubat]

Tanabata Special BSD Ver

me and @soul-dwelling did a tanabata RP. enjoy

rain: *humming* Mori: "Oh, Rain..." rain: GYEH! s-sir! please don't startle me like that! Mori: "My apologies, but I have a request~" rain: I have legitimate reasons to feel highly concerned. Mori: "I swear, this request is on the level." rain: ... *sigh* I don't have much choice in the matter, do I? oh well, what is it? ~meanwhile~ naoya: tanabata festival, eh? sounds like a pretty fun time, haha! Gin: "What will you wear?" higuchi: well, kouyou did mention something about outfits being supplied. Gin: "...Supplied by _whom_?" higuchi:..........*Excalibur face* naoya: ah hell. Gin: "...Nope." higuchi: kouyou said she'd supply as well! Gin: *sighs* "Very well." -elsewhere- Lucy: "So what goes on at this thing?" atsushi: well, you take these slips of paper and write down your wish, then you tie it onto the tree. Lucy: "Huh. Any food?" atsushi: I think there should be food stands on the festival grounds. Kyouka: *pops up* "Let's do this." -meanwhile- Kunikida: "He refuses to join us." aya: aw. *pouts* boo. Katai: T~T "I don't want to leave my futon..." aya:... hey katai, didn't you say that lady with the long hair was gonna be there too? Katai: .\\\\. "...Wh-Who do you mean?" aya: miss yamato somethin'? Katai: "...I mean, yes, I guess..." aya: success! -elsewhere- Fitzgerald: “Amazing! I can feel the breeze against my nethers!” eckleburg: sir please. -elsewhere- Steinbeck: *holds up a small potted plant* "Maybe I can bring this." mark: sounds good! I'm gonna do all the shooting games and win a shit ton of prizes! Oscar: ufufu, so energetic ^^ Steinbeck: "And I heard Lovecraft will stop by--" lovecraft: hello. ebie: hiya! -elsewhere- Dazai: "...Too shallow." kenji: were you going to go swimming in the canal? hehe, silly dazai, it's shin deep! Dazai: "I wanted to see whether drowning was possible." Kunikida: "GET OUT OF THAT WATER, BEFORE I KILL YOU!" Dazai: OWO "You promise?" ranpo: ...oi! hey poe family! yosano: nice outfits, very retro. Rowena: thank you. miss ao picked them out for us. Poe: *holding Karl--who is also in an outfit* -elsewhere- rain: sir, I just have one thing to ask... Mori: "And what's that?" rain: *in a rather skimpy kimono* WHY IS MINE THE MOST REVEALING?!?! Mori: "Because it was in your size and had a super design~" rain: I can barely cover myself! >~< Mori: "...I fail to see the problem." rain: YOU WOULD! DX< Akutagawa: "Could you stop yelling? It's hurting my head." Chuuya: .\\\\\\. hirotsu: so uncouth. Mori: D: "Why do you have to be so mean?" elise: it's cause you're a pervert, rintarou. Mori: TT~TT "So mean..." *curls up into a ball* elise: ...rintarooou, I want to play carnival games! Mori: *bounces back up* "Of course, Elise!" ^_^ naoya + hirotsu: he cheered up fast. higuchi:...wait, where are kajii and ayako- *FIREWORKS BOOM* higuchi: found them. Motojiro: *giggling* "Fire the next one!" ayako: FIRE IN THE HOLE! *BOOOM* -she accidently blew up a choco covered banana stand........................and one fell between rain's.....assets.- rain: WHY?! higuchi: ok that was on purpose! Chuuya: "..." *nosebleed, falls back* koyuou: D8> chuuya! rain: wah! mr nakahara I'm sorry! D8> -elsewhere- Lucy: *looking around* atsushi: see anything you want to do first? Lucy: "Want to do the goldfish game?" atsushi: sounds good! -on the hill- yana: remember, the boss told us to have fun. leo: just three of us? yana: lessens suspicion. Ivan: "Maybe the Master would like a souvenir~" yana: sure, knock yourselves out. leo: pushkin and katya aren't joining us then? yana: they said something about it being kupala night, so they were gonna have a bonfire. leo: I see. *sweatdrop* Ivan: "...Them. With fire?" yana: relax, Chekov's watching them. Lydia's watching them too. leo: that's....somewhat more comforting... Ivan: "Hm. Might as well start with food." yana: <sounds good> -elsewhere- Katai: ,~, Naomi: *hugging her stuffed elephant* hehe~ Tanizaki: ^^; kirako: ^^ Dazai: "Want one?" *holds up takoyaki* kirako: oh, thanks. *nom* Dazai: *smiles* "Pretty good outing..." kirako: ^^ atsushi: yeah. have you decided on what you want to write on your papers? Dazai: "Maybe...How many 'x's' in asphix--'" Kunikida: "No." Naomi: It should be obvious~ Tanizaki: "???" naomi: 7w7 atsushi: naomi no. naomi: TnT Lucy: *eyeroll, as she writes down her note* -elsewhere- Chuuya: "Feel better?" rain: y-yeah. thank you, mr nakahara. Chuuya: ^\\\^ "Happy to help..." *looks at her* rain: it looks nice. pretty fancy, though. Chuuya: "Then it suits you." rain: eh? really? I-I don't normally wear really fancy things like this. .///.' Chuuya: *small smile* "You should. You take to them well." rain: ./////. -elsewhere- Akutagawa: *holding a sparkler* "...Yay." naoya: see? look at you, having fun! ^^ Akutagawa: "..." *small smile* "I'm just staring at fire, that's all." naoya: ....but you're still enjoying yourself, right? Akutagawa: "...Yes." naoya: see? ^^ *pats his back* Akutagawa: -\\\- "St-Stop..." -elsewhere- leo: *looking up at the moon* ... Ivan: "Nice view." leo: y-yes. Ivan: "Never get out much..." leo: .........*leans against his shoulder slightly* Ivan: "...??? ..." *pat pat* leo: .... .///////. Ivan: "Cold?" leo: um... w-well.... 7//////7;; Ivan: "How about some tea?" leo: is there a stand for that here? Hyde: "Fresh tea! We got it at our stand!" leo: ._.; that's....rather convenient. Hyde: "That's our motto, ma'am: 'Convenient!' So, what you want?" -elsewhere- rain: hmmm... *putting her paper up on the tree* [please let me have a little more confidence this year - Rain] Chuuya: *attaches his note* [Make my progress move more swiftly - Chuuya] rain: ^^ Chuuya: *smiles at her* Dazai: "My turn!" rain: O_O w-when did he- Dazai: *ties his* [Give me a beautiful end (with a gorgeous woman). -- Dazai] naoya: ..............who the fuck invited him here? Dazai: "I'M. EVERY. WHERE." atsushi: dazai please! you've had too much sake! Dazai: *giggles* "Maybe you haven't had enough--" atsushi: dazai no. Dazai: *pulls a bottle out of his kimono* "Drink-y's all around! Who's got the bowl..." *CHOP* Dazai: *collapsed on the floor* Chuuya: *holding his fist* "And stay down..." rain: ^^; atsushi: ._.; yosano: we'll take him from here. Dazai: X_X rain: ._.; -elsewhere- higuchi: there we go [please keep my sister safe - I.H.] [Protect Ryu. ~ gin] [please let rintarou stop being a creepy perv, also please bring Q home - elise <3] [Make Elise happy--maybe with a new dress~ - Mori] elise: ... Mori: *smiles* elise: *pouts* (thinking: rintarou you dummy, you don't get it at all!) Mori: "??? ...Are you hungry?" -elsewhere [I wish to be free from this curse - Leo] [May every one of Master's wishes be granted~ Ivan] yana: .... Ivan: "...You're going to get your wish?" yana:....heh, I dunno. what can someone like me even wish for? Ivan: "Maybe something small? Just not as small as Kat--" leo: please do not. Ivan: ^^; "In any case, just make dreams become reality. All you can do, right?" yana: I guess so. Ivan: "..." *slight nudge* "That's the spirit." yana: *small chuckle* well, in that case....*smirks* it's a secret~ Ivan: *nods, smiles* -elsewhere- Lucy: *nom nom nom* atsushi: how is it? Lucy: "Not too bad..." *picks off some of the cotton candy, offers it* atsushi: thanks. ^^ *nom* Lucy: ^^ "What else is there to try here? We could walk along the water..." atsushi: sounds great. kenji: kyouka, want to play some of the games? Kyouka: "Okay. What prizes are there?" -elsewhere- Kunikida: *lights a sparkler* aya: hehe ^^ Katai: Q~Q *hides under kimono* ???: well well, aint this just a shocking scene. -it's the number's bomber- Katai: "Eep!" Kunikida: "!!!!" boy: relax, I'm not here to cause trouble. I'm still on parole, remember? *points to the tracker bracelet* Kunikida: "...Better safe than sorry, as I'm sure you'd understand..." *holding his book* boy: yeah yeah, I hear....who's the munchkin?? aya: my name is aya! boy: cool. 'name's suuji. Kunikida: *stands in front of Aya* suuji: jeez, hostile much?....crap you're taller than I thought. .-.; Kunikida: *looks down* "Harm one hair on their heads, and I'll break you in two." suuji: alright, alright! I hear you, sheesh! i'm on parole, even if I use my ability once, the tracker will alert the cops and i'll get thrown back in jail. I don't want to go back, there, ok?! Kunikida: "..." Katai: Q_Q "...You like games, Suuji?" -elsewhere- Dazai: *collapsed* ranpo: should we take him home? Poe: "I don't know?" *pokes him with a stick* ???: *sigh* allow me. -a wild ango appears- Poe: ._. "..." *offers the stick* Dazai: "Zzz..." ango: he's just asleep.... *sigh* i'll drive him home then. Dazai: =w= *pats Ango's back* ango: =_.=; Dazai: *muttering* "Take me home..." ango: I'm doing that now. -elsewhere- Tanizaki: *blows bubbles* Naomi: hehe ^^ kirako: ^^ Tachihara: "Yo, pretty ladies! And weird guy." Naomi: oh god, this creep again. kirako: 7-7; Tachihara: "What you been up to? Enjoying the sights?" Tanizaki: "..." *rolling up a sleeve* Naomi: ....*grin* Tachihara: "See? That's the smile I'd like to see, pretty girl--" Tanizaki: *elbow dive* Tachihara: "-EEEEEE!" Naomi: rekt. Tachihara: "GET OFF OF ME--" Tanizaki: *slams his head face-first into the dirt* naomi:....*stares* ..... ouo Tachihara: *smacking his hand around, trying to push him off* Tanizaki: *sits on his back* naomi: O///u///O -elsewhere- Chuuya: *looking up at the stars* rain: .....*small smile* Chuuya: *his hand bumps into hers* rain: !! o///o Chuuya: "!!!!" *pulls his hand back* >\\\\> rain: ... ./////. *squirms a bit* Chuuya: "...I'm sorry." rain: I-I-it's fine, really. Chuuya: "I'm just, not sure when to, you know..." rain: ?? Chuuya: "...Am I too forward?" rain: eh? I-I don't think so. w-with you, I feel a bit more at ease. Chuuya: "...Would you like to hold hands?" rain:...*holding his hand, lightly* *blushing* Chuuya: .\\\\. *slight squeeze* rain:...*tiny smile* ....*leans in closer* Chuuya: *gulps* *leans in* *The bushes rustle* rain: !!! *falls over* -squish~- Chuuya: O\\\\\\O Gin: "Oh, sorry. I was looking--" *sees* "..." rain: *she's right on top of chuuya* ./////////////////////////. higuchi:....*ahem* Gin: "..." *covers Higuchi's eyes* Chuuya: *muffled voice* rain: *sitting up......* o////////////////////////////////////////////o Chuuya: *holding his breath* .\\\\\\\. rain: .////////////////////////////////////////////////. um.... higuchi: weeee'll just leave you two be Gin: *pulls Higuchi away* "We're so sorry." Chuuya: "..." *soul escaping out of his mouth* rain:... >//////////////< I'm so sorry! Chuuya: "It-It's my fault, probably..." rain: y-you didn't do anything wrong, really! Chuuya: "I-I should've, I don't know, pulled back before I embarrassed you." >\\\\< rain: .....I just wish it could have been more private... Chuuya: "...Me, too." rain:.....*smooch* Chuuya: .\\\\. "..." =\\\\= *smooch* -elsewhere- ango: *driving dazai back to his place*......*sigh* -scarlet sky plays on the car's radio- ango: .....brings back memories, huh? you getting black out drunk, and we'd have to drive you back home. Dazai: *holding his head* "...I don't want to remember." T~T ango: ......odasaku would always give you a piggy back ride. I told him he was babying you, but he insisted... Dazai: *sniff* "He was attentive..." ango: yeah....he sure was. Dazai: "Oh, please--you know he was..." ango:....say, what did you make your wish for? Dazai: "..." *goofy smile* "A speedy end~" ango: *sigh* of course you did Dazai: "...and maybe for a good year for others..." ango: perhaps. Dazai: "What'd you wish for? New glasses?" ango: ...not really. I figured it'd be in my best interest not to wish for the impossible... Dazai: "...Then wish for the possible." ango:....perhaps. Dazai: "Like a new haircut..." ango: *small chuckle* -elsewhere- Steinbeck: ._. "...Quiet." twain: hmmn? whats up? Steinbeck: "I thought we'd find larger crowds..." Oscar: hmm? why is that, johnny boy? Steinbeck: "Festival. Fireworks. Food. Games. Just...Do we have the right address?" ebie: yeppers! Oscar: well it is getting later in the evening now. twain: yeah. *has a backpack full of prizes* Steinbeck: "Hmm...Someone cleaned up at the games." twain: heck yeah I did! sawyer: heck yeah we did! huck: -_-; Steinbeck: "What're you gonna do with it all?" twain: might keep some of it, might auction the rest on ebay. Steinbeck: "Well, do something good with the dollars." twain: got it! Steinbeck: "And where is Lovecraft?" lovecraft: *swimming along the canal* *monotone* wheeeee..... Steinbeck: "...Well, as long as he is happy." ^^ -elsewhere- Akutagawa: "...Something is missing." naoya: eh? Akutagawa: "...Rashomon." *hands his wish to it* naoya: is it the weretiger? rashomon: ^u^ *tying the paper on* Akutagawa: "...I asked to get stronger. I leave it to the universe to determine how it wishes to define 'strength.'" naoya: ah. that makes sense. strength of body, strength of mind, strength of heart. Akutagawa: "Sound soul and all that..." naoya: yep. Akutagawa: "..." *sniff* naoya:....hey, you go find your little buddy, ok? Akutagawa: "...'Little buddy'?" naoya: the weretiger. what did you think I meant? Akutagawa: "..." .\\\\. "R-Right...Thanks." *walks* naoya: hey, got to get all the gag bases covered for these things, right? haha! Akutagawa: *fast walking--turns a corner* -bump- Akutagawa: "!!!" Alcott: eep! Akutagawa: "Oh. Sorry." alcott: um.... *mumble mumble* Fitzgerald: "And just what are you doing to my assistant, there...?" *evil smiling aura* Akutagawa: .________. Fitzgerald: *pulls out $200* "This should be enough..." *tightens his fist* Akutagawa: "Nope." *Rashomon bounce* bram: what..was that...? Fitzgerald: "Comedy relief? I think I read that is common at these festivals." bram:.....I....see. *sweatdrop* alcott: best not to overthink it. you'll just hurt yourself. -elsewhere- Poe: *holds up Karl* Rowena: *snaps a pic* hehe, cute. ^^ lana: ^^ Poe: ^^ "Just a fun time..." -elsewhere- Lucy: *yawns* atsushi: the fireworks are about to start soon. Lucy: "Yeah, yeah, I'm up, I'm up..." *lean* atsushi: o////////////o *stiff tiger tail* Lucy: =w= "Should be some good fireworks tonight..." *pats his knee* atsushi: O///////////////////////////////////////////////O y-y-y-y-yeah. Lucy: *yawns* "What did you wish for...?" atsushi: its a secret. Lucy: *pouts* "Aw, don't you want to share?" atsushi: well...im not sure what I want to wish for. I could have some ideas, but I don't think they'd be very original. ^^; Lucy: "Like maybe world peace, finding your true love...?" atsushi: ... .///////. *gulp* Lucy: "No pressure, of course." *small smooch* atsushi: o////////////o *smoooooch* >///////////< Lucy: o\\\\o "..." *holds his hand* atsushi: ^////^ -elsewhere- Gin: "You okay?" higuchi: yeah, why wouldn't I be? Gin: "You just seem a little distracted." higuchi: do I? Gin: "Yes. Did you want to have somewhere less crowded?" higuchi: sure. -elsewhere- Mori: ^^ "So cute..." elise: *has a big ol stuffed bear* I will call him sir tibbers. Tachihara: "Yeah, real cute..." *has a black eye and a torn kimono* hirotsu: I'm not even shocked Tachihara: *spits* "Real funny, old man..." *adjusts his kimono* -elsewhere- Kunikida: -_-# suuji: not a bad shot, kiddo. aya: ^u^ Katai: "Quite good..." *aims* -elsewhere- Chuuya: *sighs* rain: this is nice. Chuuya: *nods* "Yes..." *cradles her* rain: .... u/////u Chuuya: *smooch* rain: u//////u -elsewhere- Dazai: "Zzz..." ango:....*tucks him in*.....good night. *glances at the photo on his dresser. The one with them and oda* ........................... *exits* Dazai: "Zzzz..." =w= ango:.....*back in his car* .....I shouldn't wish for the impossible.... *looks at his paper and tears it up* [I wish things could go back to they way they were] Dazai: *turns...sniffs...* T_T -elsewhere, at the fireworks show- Akutagawa: *still walking* atsushi: =w=...... !!! Lucy: =w= *cuddles* Akutagawa: "... ... .... ..." *stare* atsushi: *sweats* Lucy: *spots him--* O____O Akutagawa: "..." *approaches--and lies down between them* "..." atsushi:.....um.....hi? Akutagawa: *intense stare* "Hello." atsushi: OuO;;;; Lucy: "...The heck are you doing?" Akutagawa: "You looked comfortable." *takes Atsushi's hand* atsushi: *sweats* Lucy: *fuming--reaches over Akutagawa to grab Atsushi's hand* Akutagawa: "..." .\\\\. atsushi: o///o; erm.... Lucy: "Keep your hands off my boyfriend..." *growls* Akutagawa: -_-; *pushes Lucy away, cuddles next to Atsushi* atsushi: um...*gulps and double hug* IPANICKEDOKAY?! Lucy: o\\\\\o Akutagawa: "..." .\\\\. "...What is this?" atsushi: I-I don't know, I just got nervous and panicked! >///~///<;;; Lucy: -\\\\-# "....So frustrating." Akutagawa: "..." *shifts so that each of them is on each side of Atsushi...cuddles* =\\\= atsushi: Y///w///Y; Lucy: *sighs* *hugs Atsushi* >\\\\\< Akutagawa: =\\\w\\\= -elsewhere- Steinbeck: "I think that's the last sparkler..." Oscar: *sigh* so fleeting... Steinbeck: "Could be worst. At least our group doesn't have some lunatic who brings a thousand rockets with him--" *BOOM* Steinbeck: o_o;;;; ebie: oooooh. was that a rocket? Motojiro: "A ROCKET?! Ha! That is merely a term the uneducated use for our glorious baby!" ayako: MEHEHEHEHEHEHE! Steinbeck: "...Don't stare at the crazies, Ebie..." ebie: ok. Oscar: oh dear. ^^; Motojiro: "FIRE IN THE HOLE!" -elsewhere- Mori: *yawns* kouyou: my my, exhausted already? Mori: "Just overwhelmed by the cuteness~" kouyou: is. that. so? ^^# Mori: *nods* "Elise looks so precious in her outfit with that new dollie..." elise:... =___=; we are not amused. Mori: "Cutey cutey cute..." kouyou: ugh. -elsewhere- Chuuya: =\\\w\\\= "...I think we should re-join the others?" rain: I-if you want...but you may have to clean off a bit... 7///7; Chuuya: "...!!!" *covers his chest with the kimono, wipes his face* "Is-Is it almost off?" rain: y-yeah. Chuuya: *rubs a bit more--stares at her* "..." .\\\. rain: .////. Chuuya: "..." *reaches for her kimono, adjusting it* rain: t-thanks... Chuuya: ^\\\^ "Can't have you showing off more than you need to...At least, not to anyone but me..." *smooch* rain: r-right... ^///////^; Chuuya: *holds her hand* rain: ^////^ Chuuya: "I...love you." rain: *blushing* I-I love you too. Chuuya: *smiles, walking with her* -elsewhere- Tanizaki: "Maybe we should be heading home?" Naomi: yeah. *yawns* kenji: zzzzzzzzzz Kyouka: *carrying Kenji* suuji: night. Katai: "Good night..." ^^; Kunikida: *growl* suuji:.....*walking back over to his parole officer* Katai: "..." *nudges* "I think you've been mean to him. Right, Aya?" aya: yeah, he looks kind of sad. Kunikida: "What would you have me do--invite him to tea?" aya: I dunno. Katai: ^^; "Maybe just...wish him a good night?" Kunikida: "..." *sighs* *calls to Suuji* "Good night." suuji:...t-thanks. Kunikida: "..." *nods* "And keep your nose clean." suuji:...*chuckle* will do. Kunikida: "..." *abruptly turns around* suuji:....if this is about her, I wouldn't blame you for being mad at me... Kunikida: "...'Mad' is an understatement." suuji: .....*sigh* I'm trying man. I really am... Kunikida: "...Let me know how that goes." suuji:....thanks. Kunikida: *nods* "You know where I am." suuji:.... -elsewhere- Akutagawa: "Zzz..." higuchi: *carrying him on her back* phew... hirotsu: *carrying naoya on his back* naoya: *passed out drunk* Gin: "Some celebration..." -elsewhere- Lucy: -_-# atsushi: Q_Q did I mess up? I'm really sorry. Q___Q Lucy: "...Why? What did you think that was going to do?" atsushi: I don't know. am I an idiot? Lucy: *sighs* "I don't think that at all...I think you want to please a lot of people..." *hug* atsushi: *sniffles* I-I guess.... Lucy: *strokes his back* "...You made me feel really good for a lot of tonight." atsushi: 7////7 Lucy: "...Could you...let me have you to myself? For a bit?" atsushi: sounds fair. Lucy: "Good." *pats his bottom* atsushi: .///. -elsewhere- Mori: "But I insist on giving you a ride--" rain: it's fine, really! Mori: "But how will I know you'll get home safel--" Chuuya: "Fine, if someone has to make sure she gets home, I'll escort her. Okay? Is that sufficient?" rain: *smiles* Mori: "..." *sighs* "Very well. Good night, Rain." rain: ... Mori: "Good night, Chuuya." Chuuya: *nods* "Sir." *opens his car's door for Rain* rain: *getting in* Chuuya: *once she is seated, closes the door for her* rain: thank you, mr nakahara. Chuuya: *smiles* "Of course." *walks to the driver's side, gets in* rain: *she seems calmer now* Chuuya: *starts the car, smiles at her*

[drennalynspast]

[ envy of another woman ]

Wednesday, Dec. 03, 2008

Note: Apparently I am dumb.  I write entries and forget about them and post them ages later.  This was written around August 2008.  Looking back, I am loloing at my foolish thinking in this entry.

Sooo a couple days ago, I was freakin' paranoid and jealous. I never realized how I could be that emotionally sensitive.

Dave invited me over to his place so I could hang out with him and his friends. I assume the two usual people would be there - his two best guy friends. I arrived later than everyone else, and when I walked in the door my eye caught attention on a girl sitting on the couch next to Dave.

First of all, I am thinking.. "uh, hi. do i know you?" Second I was thinking, "I don't think you knew Dave for a while...it must have been a couple of days ago. I saw you walking around campus in summer school and it's not like I saw you talking to him then." Thirdly, I was thinking, "ZOMFG WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE ASIAN!?" Actually, the asian thing is what first crossed my mind. >.>

I kind of froze and had this awkward moment. Like, Dave would say something to me and I would pause/space out/stare off. It would be completely silly for me to assume that something was going on between them. I know he wouldn't go off fucking/liking someone else unless he told me about it first before he decided to take action towards the other person.

The girl later left because she had other things to do. Like, hang out with other people. I took two shots of rum (we were drinking that night - she left before we drank) and started to feel buzzed. I still felt distant, and Dave noticed something was wrong. We went outside and talk. I wanted to be honest about what was going through my mind. I told him how I just felt weird and it was unexpected of Christy being there...and the fact that she is asian...lol (talked about my paranoia with the fetish thing).

We had a long talk. And he spent a long time with his explanation to things -how he just met her recently and thought she was an interesting person cause she likes anime/video games/draws etcetc. He said it was just a coincidence that she is asian (as well as his ex). Basically, he mentioned how he just likes people who have similar interests with him (and the females just happen to be asian). Dave said he just wanted to invite her over and hang out with everyone else and meet people. He told me he would never do something that would hurt my health/mentality. He would confront me before he would do anything.

He apologized and feels guilty for what he did. He mentioned how he should have told me in advance that I would be expecting to meet another of his friend and what he did was unfair to me.

One time, I asked him if his ex's name was 'Linda", and he paused..and said "yes" (her real name is Lin______, but she prefers to be called Linda). He apologized for not telling me before. He was afraid to tell me early because he didn't want to me to freak out or have our friendship jeopardized. He also feels guilty about that. He assured me he does not have an asian fetish.

Dave also described people who were really close to him. Among them, I am one of them. "you have a big piece of my heart." He said I am the closest female friend he's had. (and how christy doesn't compare to me) And, he has no intentions of trying to find other fuck buddies or dating/hitting on girls. He just wants to meet new people etcetc. He also said how each of his friends are unique and stand out to him in their own different way.

After the talk, I calmed down. Overall, I just felt uncomfortable in the beginning. I think the initial thing was the fact that she is asian, and I saw her as competition. yes, i am dumb. I shouldn't have those thoughts, but it happened.

Overall, I admit, I would feel jealous if Dave started having interest in other girls/fucking them. I just want to be the only one [friend with benefit]. It makes me feel special...T_T lol.

anyway, i just don't want to be this paranoid obsessive bitch. if anything should occur, i just want him to be honest with me before he decides to do stuff. i actually understand that if he wants other people, i will accept. honestly, i will be hurt and jealous, but our status isn't boyfriend/girlfriend, so we aren't obligated to actually 'stay together' kind of thing. that's all i really want - honesty.

so i mailed this venting/rant message to jack.  his response:</p><p><i>"What did I say? About Dave, about the situation? He might be sincere in saying everything he does is unintentional, but that doesn't take away from the gravity of his actions. I've told you this too many times before, seeking validation from others gets you nowhere. [...] it's more harmful than anything. Once that person is gone, what happens?

If he's not supportive of your decision and decides to fuck the next Asian girl he sees, so be it, he doesn't deserve someone like you."

i know i shouldn't rely on someones verbal responses as a way to confirm my thoughts about someone.  i should also learn to analyze body/facial expressions as well.  i know i am naive, and i freak out at the slightest things.

this girl hasn't done anything, and here i am - getting jealous..or nothing. - just her being asian.  oh i am silly.

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oh crap, i did it again,  at the organization fair today, i was walking around trying to get free stuff from the booths.   i turned around to see the other booths, and i saw dave talking to christy.  the first thing i was thinking was, "hmm, oh okay.  they just want to hang out together.  i'll leave them alone."  i turned around and minded my own business.  i didn't want to butt in or bother him...so i just said nothing.  

dave came up to me and said, "oh,  you saw me and didn't want to say hi?  thanks for ignoring me.... what's wrong?" 

i just told him i wanted free stuff and was looking around.  i wonder if he seemed skeptical.  later on that day, during lunch.  he questioned, "is everything alright?  you look kind of down." i assured him i was okay.  ....x_x err. i really am okay.  i am just bad at hiding things.  apparently the christy thing still weirds me out., but i don't want to be a jealous bitch.  i don't want dave to feel like he can't talk to her because of my paranoid actions.  i really do want him to be able to speak/hang out with whoever he likes.  just.. ignore my feelings.  that's all. </p><p>yes, i am that type of person who will sacrifice my feelings/thoughts for the benefits of other people.  i am a people pleaser.  i do things that will be appropriate/acceptable for others.  that's just..how i am.  i feel guilty of hurting people.  i feel terrible.  i feel....afraid of people hating me.  that's what i really fear. 

dave told me that he is kinda starting to have some feelings toward me.   i agreed and said that i sorta feel the same way towards him.  we both knew that this was eventually develop due to our frequent visits and sexual activities together.  

we both know that if things get out of hand with the emotions - we will slow things down.  we don't want to be distracted from school stuff.  he is going to graduate before me...and i will be sad.  but...at the same time, while the parting will be painful, i hope to enjoy the rest of the time i am able to have with him now.  

i don't want to sound like this girl who is easily convinced/accepting of someone...i know the questionable instances in this entry should give me some doubt on things, but i am somehow convinced things are okay at the moment...

[inhalareexhalare]

Patterns and People and Common Fucking Sense

Everything was dandy up to this one moment.

Here's the stuff I got to tell Isla:

I'm on my first day so it hurtsssss

Also I'm attending a little album launch for [Theodore's] old band. Lots of awesome bands out here x_x

It's been all fun, and I hate to admit this but I'm still kinda sulky

Because the guys went ahead inside without me huhu. It's just really me though. Maybe they thought I was too scared of the crowd to enter or something.

I'm outside now since I can't focus on the music anyway. My head understands, but my emotions still are sulky. Guess I still haven't accepted the fact that they went ahead

Just takin a break from the scene~

...

Better now but I still don't want to see [Karu's] face. I feel sorta hurt :< but I know it's really just me. Cuz I'm also partly envious of how they're having fun right now without a care in the world, and I could just vanish and they wouldn't mind you know? I feel like a kid who craves for attention. Maybe I didn't really get over that from when I was an actual kid haha

Isla suggested that I could tell these people that I'm not so comfortable with being left out, and ask them if they could tell me next time when they have to go.

To Isla:

Yeah. Actually that sounds like a lot more reasonable thing to do HAHAHA

Thanks.

I feel a lot better now. :) I might even be able to face him now!

To Isla it's important that the person involved is informed so that you know that you've done your part, and it's up to them if they can adjust to it or not. If not, better have another conversation.

I feel it's important too.

Ugh why am I so stubborn? I slapped Karu's hand away by the way. I found out they went ahead without me and gathered my courage to go to the crowd and found them, and I tried to show him my hurt by pouting but it seemed too vague so he acted naturally and clasped my hand with his, as we had been doing one hour before I went alone, and I brushed it off with my other hand quite violently. Wordlessly.

Then vanished from the scene. That's when I saw I could "just vanish​ and it wouldn't matter" and I was too sad to think straight.

I actually am still sad. Even though I talk calmly and gently now, and am not aggressive/antagonistic towards Karu or anyone. I wasn't lying when I told Isla I feel a lot better. It's just that I have a completely independent internal conflict. A belief system, in my sleep, in my unconscious, rearing its horns again.

I am completely convinced that I'm a worthless piece of shit and that I don't matter and I'm ironically too self-important while knowing all these things.

I want to go away. I want to disappear.

I've been considering jumping off after I vanished. Twice maybe. But it feels too stupid. I got many things I still want to learn.

Not that I'm worth it.

Aaaah. I wanna cry alone once everyone's asleep. It's one way to take care of myself.

This un-worth belief is so persistent. And deeply rooted. I literally have to get to the bottom of it if I want to calm it down and understand it. Which is scary.

I didn't even check my phone to see if anyone left a message. I wanted an excuse. Something to confirm my inner worthlessness. Psychology calls this confirmation bias. Yes. That's how bad this is.

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I ended up crying my eyeballs off anyway (figurative).

After reading my last entry, Karu went and talked about his perspective to bring additional clarity to the situation.

I took it as a reprimand. Again, the victim reflex. His voice sounded hurt and tired. I ran off to cry in secret for several minutes after my voice broke saying, "I weren't wrong, I never said that!" (meaning, I knew all along that I wasn't making sense, and that these people were just doing what they thought was right.

With the bare minimum courage necessary to move, I managed to get out of the bathroom and reenter our room. I apologized. My voice kept breaking and I didn't like it. But I had to keep apologizing. Because I seriously thought he'd want to break up tonight. I think he must be getting tired of me. I just seem to be getting worse. Or I'm just really the same and just running out of excuses to hide from.

He expressed that he was truly affected by the hand slap, since his problem is anger and rage, and he reacts especially differently when it comes to physical attacks.

But assured me that he doesn't want to break up for "a stupid reason" like getting tired of me.

Getting tired isn't a valid reason to quit training altogether, he said. 

"If I'm tired, what I need is rest (not quit)."

How stupid. It's really that simple.

He encourages me to keep going, despite it being unknown how any of us can be fixed.

Well, each individual really just has their own struggles. We define some people broken and others fixed, but maybe we're all just the same; undecided. We're all people with struggles, most of them hard to accept, even as we try hard to. And we get tired along the way.

But when you're tired, you must rest.

It's okay. So you made a mistake. Learn what you can from it. Move on to the next mission: rest. And then your next move shall depend on what you want to do about what you learned.

Okay, this time, I'm faced with a feeling of being left out again. My instinctive move is to assume these people meant to harm me, and my self worth is heavily compromised for a transient sense of comfort in a familiar hell (which is self depreciation).

(1) Find an appropriate means of communication to help them understand what you feel and what your fears are telling you. Hopefully, they make that dialogue with you and share their perspective to you, so you can understand things from a farther standpoint. (Bigger picture.)

It's important not to delay. But the point is also, however, to keep calm. So next...

(2) Focus. Breathe in deeply, and out. Look into their eyes. Don't treat them as persons in relation to you. Treat them as they are—independent complex individuals.

Okay. More things to try out.

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Okay, I'm awake. I'm not done assessing myself yet.

Why is it that there are things I want to do which I think requires Karu's common presence?

Example 1, even if I had my own funds last night, I wouldn't go if Karu wouldn't. Even if I really was curious to go.

Example 2, even of I could, I wouldn't go to Cavite alone, if Karu wouldn't be coming with me. Even if I really wanted to visit.

But it's not applicable to everything.

Examples 3, If it were about visiting Isla's home or hanging out with Nynaeve, or having lunch with the Dean Team or going out with them somewhere, I would love to go on my own.

The pattern is that my decision is made partly according to the developed identity around a certain group.

Examples 1 and 2 involve groups which involve me only as a person that is related to Karu. Meaning, in those scenarios, I consider myself as an identity that won't survive, or even exist, if Karu wasn't there to be a connecting point to relate me to the group.

Examples 3 involve the groups to which I am related to as my own person. I am directly related to the mentioned people.

Okay, I get it now.

I need to step up. I need to make authentic, direct relationships with the groups that I really want to support

Yes, I do like the people from Examples 1, and 2. It's just that I developed a twisted way of relating to them, from being too overwhelmed the first time we interacted, that I didn't get to relate to them directly.

I knew it was weird that no matter what the people from those two groups found it hard to relate to me even though they seem to be used to my presence.

Mission: Focus In Crisis—Communicate with Independent Complex Individuals

Mission: Make Authentic, Direct Relationships

I'm more organized with thoughts now, but I still have some leftover demotivation. I feel like I can't do these things.

2019-02-24 10:39 Philippines Sunday

We're here, celebrating birthdays! I'm surprisingly doing well talking with people old and young. I am blending well with the kids, and I was able to extend conversations with the adults who I am not really close to yet. It really is easier to talk with them when I disconnect the fact that Karu and I are related in relation to these adults.

There are about three sibling families here~

The kids have crazy energy but I seemed to be working well with them hahaha because I'm more of a buddy to them than a babysitter I guess. Konten and Yani avoids Jerry because the little boy has an uncontrollable tongue and very poorly developed empathy and tact. He seems smart enough to be able to talk to though, so we're all cool.

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