#I ammm so tired.

[alchemocha]

We hit 200 followers here!! Yippee!!

I will use this opportunity to ask my kind following for some help and assistance. 😮‍💨 all of the local food pantries are booked / closed right now, and after finally getting my wife into the dentist, she needs to be on soft foods for a week, but a mysterious charge I am investigating currently hit my account and now I cannot afford to get the food she needs.

We are also still looking for shelter within Indianapolis, but all of them are full or there is months long waiting lists. If anyone knows of anything legit and safe as an alternative, or is willing to house the two of us for a short while, please let me know.

We’re trying to get back to Canada asap but without a stable roof over our head, affording that has been. A struggle.

My PayPal is below for anything you are willing / able to spare. And stay safe out there.

[astros-arts-inthestars]

✿GEMINITAY APPRECIATION WEEK✿

Day 6: Red Life Gem

Top 3

Also as late as the last one cUZ WE WENT OUT TODAY I HAD NO TIME but anyways RED LIFE GEM <3 Secret Keeper cameo whatever whatever LET'S JUMP TO GEM APPRECIATION!

Red Life Gem... ohhh my god she's incredible. Grand Finale. New Girl. Top 3. Can you believe it? I cannot stress how incredible Gem did, chose good allies, prepared well, picked her battles, made plans and moves to lessen the competition.... For a first timer?? Goodness gracious she did AMAZING!!

So what if she didn't win? I was hoping she would, sure, but so what if she didn't!? She just started out!! She's new here!! You can't expect her to take it all!! And considering that in and of itself, being new? THIRD PLACE???? HELLO?? GUYS THAT'S AMAZING!! She fought against people with seasons on seasons of this, and she got in the TOP 3!! Gem did amazing. And even if she didn't? Guess what? WOULDN'T CARE!! I'm here to enjoy Gem enjoying herself! It's just a game after all! As long as she has fun, I'll have fun!

✿Reblog if you'd also have fun if Gem's having fun! Or just want to spread love!✿

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

oooooh youre sooooo sleeepyyyyy

IM NOTTT

[agirlwithbigdreamsforher]

FOUND YOU IN A WORLD OF CHAOS: EPILOGUE

EPILOGUE

Pairing: Eric (AQPDO) x Mary (OFC)

Summary: Eric met Mary on the ferry that was taking them away from New York. What would the future holds when you are living the end of the world?

Warnings: None, this will have a happy ending.

A/N: English is not my first language so any mistakes are my own.

Disclaimer: I do not give permission for any of my works to be copied, used, translated nor reposted anywhere else but here on this blog. Do not steal what you didn’t work for. Minors and ageless blank blogs don’t interact with me or my works. Reblogs and likes are always welcome. Remember reblogs do more than likes. Thank you for reading this work of fiction.

Word count: 423                              

GIF'S NOT MINE, YOU CAN FIND THE CREDITS UNDER IT.

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It’s been months since the attacks in New York happened. Lucy had moved out of their cabin with a woman she had met in the island. Mary was so happy Lucy had found someone to spend the rest of her life with. Both of them worked as nurses in the island and took care of the health of all the residents.

Eric had become the official main cook of the island. Everyone praised and loved his food.

All the people in the island continued with their lives. They had celebrated Christmas, New Year’s Eve, and birthdays. A month ago Eric and Mary had a small ceremony where Henri married them. All the residents were creating new memories and routines.

Mary and Eric sat under a tree after a long day on the fields, watching other people passing by. They were sat one in front of the other.

“What do you miss from the city?” Eric asked as he played with Mary’s fingers.

“Ammm movies, and popcorn… ice cream.” Eric hummed. “Oh! My mom’s cooking.”

“That’s fair.”

“What do you miss?”

“The snow.” Eric said looking at the clear sky.

“I miss my period too, but I guess it’s alright. It’ll go back in 6 months.”

“Of course.” Eric said nonchalantly until the words sunk in. He opened his big brown eyes. “You’re kidding?”

“Lucy said I might be 12 weeks along.”

“We’re having a baby?”

“Yes, we are!”

Eric pounced towards her making fall on her back.

“Eric!” She giggled when she felt his stubble against her skin while he place kisses all over her face. “Stop!”

“No, I won’t stop” He kissed her even more, “Thank you.”

“For what?”

“For making me happy.” He placed his large hand on her tummy, “Does anyone else knows?”

Mary shook her head, “Just Lucy.”

Eric laid next to her, “That explains why you are always tired.” She nodded, putting her head on his chest. “I love you.”

“I love you too.”

They shared a sweet kiss and continued watching the residents making their daily activities.

Perhaps having a baby in this new world was reckless and irresponsible. But since the first attacked happened so many days ago now, Mary and Eric knew that the future didn’t matter because it can change in a second. What was important was here and now, this was their life now, and they planned to enjoy it to their fullest.

“You want a boy or a girl?” Mary asked.

“I’ll be happy with either.”

“So a girl?”

“Yes, a girl.”

[mellysbasement]

you seem like a sub, but have you ever tried domming anyone?

born to be a stupid puppy sub toy, forced to be a switch

i have actually tried domming someone and it brings me so much joy 🫀 i just don't get anything out of it sexually. it's very fun and emotionally fulfilling for me but it's like 95% nonsexual (even helping my sub get off and be horny, i just do it completely not turned on or anything.) sometimes it makes me a tiny bit turned on but not in a sexually fulfilling kinda way, because it just leaves me pent up and frustrated sexually.

sexually speaking, i'm just a silly little subby puppy. and currently i'm a super fuckin pent up one because i haven't been properly played with in like 4 days. and i've been being teased and kept turned on the entire time by my little sub friend.

i'm losing my fuckin mind with how pent up i ammm. i have a partner and i'm still getting fucked, he just only uses me for his pleasure and i only get anything out of it once in a blue moon. i just wanna be treated like a stupid little puppy. i wanna be told what to do and actually be dommed. i wanna be babied so fuckin bad. i'm tired of being shoved in this dom and/or equal box. and i'm so stressed with regular life things and the stress is just making me even moreee frustrated and i just. fveqigbivbqeligbqe;ribq;iuiurfiq;re. my stupid puppy brain can't take much more of this.

i didn't mean to turn that into a rant, i'm just so needy and pent up i started crying lol. stupid fuckin puppy things i guess, don't mind me.

[alvaeris]

My dearest, I’m so sorry for my absence! We’ve been physically exhausted all the time, and it’s a bit tiring to go through the process of logging out of their account and onto mine :(((

Your mermie is here though, love!!

Giving you a fish kiss, are you alright?

ohhh no, it’s alright! i totally understand, and i miss you anyway! <3 I’m glad you came to drop by, heheheheehe! how have you been? aside from tiredness, of course.

i ammm! I’m in school right now!

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

emerging from the pillow fort in the corner of ur room HERE I AMMM!! hi ari how are u ari?? how is uni? i am here with a very VERY important question it's crucial to our friendship - dr. pepper yes or no?

- @softgirlgonehaywire

MICKEYYYY HI HELLO i am sliding a bag of chips under ur pillow fort <333 playing lofi music so u can sleep <3333

IM DOING GOOD ive been rlly rlly busy and tired BUT i just finished my first course so now i have a bit of free time until the next one starts hehe. im so relieved bc i havent been able to write or read OR plan my movie night but now i finally can!! :3 HOW ABT U MICKEY how is work??? its only a couple weeks left now right?? how r u feeling? have things been going well? <333

but okok. abt ur question. i am shaking n shivering in fear but i cant lie to u .

….. im kind of addicted to dr pepper </3 as a kid my siblings would always go for the classic coke or pepsi and i wanted to be the quirky alien child so i went w pepper but now its like . my comfort drink PHSKDHD ….. i just . i like the name and taste ok … it tastes like laundry detergent and cherries and i think its good …… 👉👈

HOPEFULLY U R ALSO A DR PEPPER ENJOYER or else im expecting an instant block bUT i trust our brain connection yknow …. u love dr pepper soooo bad……. im manifesting it

UR SO SWEET FOR CHECKING IN MICKEY <333 i have a question for u too actually!! what r ur go-to movie snacks… sodas……… etc…. 🧐🧐 what do u recommend for the overall experience i am looking to learn

[kitten4sannie]

helloooo my dear me again 🙋🏻‍♀️ with another rambling haha happy (early) new yearrrrrr ✨ I'm just so happy I can come in here anytime to scream about ateez because I always have so much to say 😂 and you always indulge my delusions so what can I do. I'm just really happy you share your spectacular writing with us because wow I'm still not tired of saying that you write the best smut and characters and plot and I'm ready to tell you how amazing it is every single time. I've never reread fics as much as I do with yours I just can't get enough and I just look forward to them everytime (I still haven't read your latest one but just now !!!! I'll be here screaming 🫵🏻🫵🏻🫵🏻) and not only that !!!! But you also dare to be the squishiest marshmallow on this app like how does that work??? You must be really squishable if I can tell just by the way you reply 😤 I hope you get all you wish for in the new year and I can't wait to see what your brilliant mind gives us too 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 looking forward to more ateez screaming in 2024

nyannn you’re spoiling me with all of these sweet asks ;^; i love your ramblings sm love so never hesitate to send me an essay 🫵🏼 happy new yearrrr !!! ✨ yes literally anytime ksksjs i feel that i always need to scream about ateez bc they never stop providing content to go insane over 😭 whhw im happy i can indulge them <33 NYANNNN ;~; im crying ;;;;;; im gonna hold onto that praise for the rest of my life omg. you’re so sweet to me i can’t breathe :((( 💞💞💞 AUGHH *critical damage taken* me?? 🥺 a squishy marshmallow?? ;;;;; pleaseeee nyan i can’t !!! whrhwhw i ammm i swear aaaa if only you could squish me through the cyberspace :< so lameeee. awwwe lovely i hope you do too <33 and i’ll make sure to deliver some more out of pocket content just for you my dear 🫶🏼 starting with feb filth fest 👀 it’s coming sooooon heheheh. i’m looking forward to it too <33 SMOOCH

[bizzy-bee1]

Okay, so I have no idea how to do intro posts, but I’m Bee. No, that’s not my real name, it’s actually my oc’s name, but she’s basically me so it’s fine. If you know me irl don’t use my actual name in here, I’ll hurl myself out the nearest window.

Also I’m 16.. so don’t be weird. Like just be a normal human being. Impossible internet challenge. Honestly posting on stuff like this can be tiring so really I’m only making this post so people who know me know why I’m chillin here, but also in case any randos stray from their natural habitats.

I ammm bisexual.. soo.. if that don’t put you off then we chill, we chill, y’know <3 I use she/they pronouns but call me whatever you want it doesn’t faze me, live your life and do what you please. Biologically female if you’re so concerned about that.

I have made blogs before, but they’re just cringy art posts about video games, so I’m moving forward from that.. also I’ve just kind of lost interest in that.

Yeah I probably won’t post much of anything. Maybe like, a meme or two. A post of a nice landscape photo I take throughout my daily life. If I’m feeling confident I might post art but I wouldn’t bet on that. Maybe writing stuff too. Maybe.

I really just made this account to follow folks I know without them seeing the cringy art of my past, also to de log their stuff so people see how awesome they are. So that’s my motivation. Uh, if ya wanna be friends thats cool with me, if not, cool as well. I’m just. Chillin. Y’know ?

Have a lil chinchilla. I’ve got two, such cuties.

[bbael]

Hello hello!! It has been a bit since I last dropped by >.< how’s life been? I hope things have been alright! Feels weird to see you around less and less but that’s just how life is I guess, hopefully the reasons why you’ve been away have all been good >.< If not I hope it passes or calms down ;-;

Thinking of you each time I see long long hair somewhere, and each time I see bats and sheep around 💖✨✨

Iah omg hiiii!!! It's been ages since we last spoke & suddenly seeing your ask in my notifs brought suchhh a smile into my face ahh how have you been?

I also feel weird about being less online ngl. Going from p much having a social media addiction to not even wanting to scroll for a couple minutes is crazy and an improvement imo but man...I miss you and every mutual so much :( & am always wondering what are u up to, hoping all is well too♡

And yesss life's been good! I mean, ATM everything feels transitional and I'm just working very hard to improve some situations that had me so pressed & to just. make things happen(?). I ammm tired but its the good kind :'3. Lately I've been reading a whole lot and got into succulents & propagating them??

What are you up to, though? I miss chatting with u about whatever really but am a bit awkward ;_; please do update me on your life ♡ I am always saving pics of stuff that reminds me of Dola or of tiny birds like ur pfp to send u and I never do but um. you (& Her) are always on my mind!

Thank you soo muchhh for dropping by :(♥️ I appreciate the message a whole lot!! Hope life is treating you very v well Hon ♡♡♡

[hoonvrs]

AYE BAEE WASSUP

You're normally active around this time so I wanted to hop on lmao

Also IM DONE WITH THE COW BUCKET HAT ill get u a pic tmr on my spam I LOVE ITEJNEBE 🤩🤩🤩

-🌜

i usually ammm😭 i’ve js been busy today and soo tired rn cause i’ve been up since 9 and have to wake up in 6 1/2 hours😁

OHH IK UR FRIENDS GONNA LOVEEE IT what colours did u go for??

[crossnamara]

i ammm. so tired

[nvrcmplt]

💭 — MBTI and/or enneagram, if known ❓ — three adjectives that describe you ❤️ — what are some of your best qualities? 💔 — what are some of your worst qualities?

MBTI?

dunno, don't really care for those things :) <3 gomen.

3 words?

Observant, Tired, Open?

Best Qualities?

mmmm, good listener / advice giver according to some, i'm v blunt in my views on things and sometimes my family/friends like that about me too. Decisive I think they say. uhmmmmmm - I give great hugs. annnnnd lastly; I like to big up those around me, a professional hype woman, i'd say.

Worst Qualities?

Dunno if it's the worst, but I really don't give people second chances, lmao. Once you've fucked me over or made me feel a certain way and you show no signs or manner of wanting to apologise/correct that, I remove myself from your life and that's that. I ammm stubborn, in the sense that if I ain't in the mood to do that, I won't and I'll say it out loud and that puts people off a lot. I work smarter not harder, so people say i'm 'lazy' but honestly, i just don't give people my 110% unless it's worth my while.

[agirlwithbigdreamsforher]

WORK OUT

THE NANNY: ONE SHOT

WORK OUT

Pairing: Andy Barber x Annie Johnson (OFC)

Summary: Annie is determined to lose the baby weight and Andy is more than willing to help her.

Warnings: It’s porn hahahaha.

A/N: English is not my first language and I was tired when I wrote this, so I’m sorry for any mistake this may have. Enjoy!

Word count: 1564

Disclaimer: I do not give permission for any of my works to be copied, used, translated nor reposted anywhere else but here on this blog. Do not steal what you didn’t work for. Minors and ageless blank blogs don’t interact with me or my works. Reblogs and likes are always welcome. Thank you for reading this work of fiction.

GIF's not mine, you can find the credits under it :) 

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Annie woke up at 5 a.m., she got up making sure she didn’t wake Andy up. Walked to the closet, and put on some yoga pants, a sports bra, her snickers and a hoodie. She went down stairs and got out of the house. It was more than obvious no one was on the street, she stretched a bit and began running to her right.

“Oh god!” she began breathing heavily, “How long have I been running?” she looked at her watch, “5 minutes?!” she stopped and took a deep breath, “This is not going to work.” She sighed and walked back home.

As she was walking in, a very sleepy Andy stood at the foot of the stairs.

“Honey?” He rubbed his eye and yawned, “Where were you?”

“Ammm, taking out the trash.”

“At this hour?” he scratched his head, “Wait, I took the trash out last night.”

“I went running.”

“Oh! Why didn’t you wake me? I could’ve gone with you. How it went?”

“Ran 5 minutes and came back. I hate running.” She walked to the living room and sat on the couch, “and to be honest the streets were empty and I felt scared.”

“Of course they were empty, it’s not even 6 a.m. and it’s a Saturday.” He leaned in and kissed her, “You’re beautiful.”

“Andy we’ve talked about this. I need to lose the baby weight.”

“Yeah, we’ve talked about you are perfect to me, but ok. I’ll help you.”

“You don’t need to do that. Look today I ran 5 minutes, maybe tomorrow I’ll run 5.5 minutes.”

“Let me change into something more fitting, on the meantime, go to the basement.”

They went separate ways, and Annie walked down the stairs to the basement. Annie knew Andy work out there, although to be honest she had no idea what equipment he had. After she moved in years ago, she saw Andy moving several dumbbells and a barbell, but she never expected to see more than that.

In addition to the dumbbells and the bar barbell, there was a treadmill, a flat bench, a couple of kettle bells and a small trampoline. She didn’t wait long and climb on the treadmill, the turned it on and walked.

“You started without me?” Andy asked as he walked towards her wearing a pair of shorts and a tank top.

“Since when we have a gym in the basement?”

“Since always.” Andy said as if it was obvious, “And I’ll hardly call it a gym.”

“I’ll know about this is the washing machine was down here.”

He looked at her for a moment. “You think you can raise your speed?”

“No, don’t push me.” Andy raised his hands in defense.

Annie kept walking for another 20 minutes. When she thought it was enough she stopped.

“Ok, I’m done!” She took a breath, “It wasn’t so bad, better than running on the street.”

“Maybe that was the problem. You ran instead of walk like you should have because you are just beginning to work out.”

“Whatever, want some breakfast?”

“Breakfast? You are not done.”

“I’m sorry, what?”

“Sit.” He pointed to the flat bench, walked to a rack where he had the dumbbells and took the smaller ones. “Ok, look.” Andy flex his arms, his bicep curled with the movement. “Four series of 10.” Annie took the bells and began the exercise, “One, two, three… three… three.”

“That’s five!”

“No, you have to lift it all the way up or it doesn’t count. Come on!”

After just that one exercise her arms felt like noodles. She put the dumbbells on the floor.

“How you feel?” Andy asked who also had been working out as she finished her exercise.

“I wanna come back to bed.”

“Please, it’s not that bad.”

“You said that because you have been doing this for years. There’s a reason you have abs!”

“Well, you’re right. But I promise that it’ll be easier with time. Trust me.”

“Whatever.”

“How about some squats?”

“I feel like I’m in gym class again.” She groaned as she got up from the bench.

“If you finish your work out I’ll give you a reward.”

“What reward?”

“Pancakes.”

“I do like pancakes.”

“With bacon, eggs and a hash brown.”

“Alright Barber! Let’s do this!”

Annie stood straight and did her first squad, careful her knees didn’t pass the tips of her feet and pushing her ass back.

“Lower.”

“I can’t go lower.” She did the second.

“Yes, you can.” Andy said without taking his eyes off her ass.

“I told you not to push me! I’m doing my best!”

“I know you are honey, but I know you can go lower, and I’ll prove it.”

Andy move the flat bench to be between Annie legs.

“What are you doing?”

Andy laid on the bench his face right between her legs.

“You’ll go down as if you were to sit on my face.”

“What?!”

“You heard me. Go down.”

Annie did another squad not quite reaching Andy’s face.

“Lower.” Another squad, “Lower,” Another and she went a bit lower, “Better, another.” Annie went lower her clothed pussy almost reached Andy’s nose. She heard him groaned, “Lower, baby, come on.”

Annie did her best and in the following squad, she felt Andy’s face and Andy moaned. “I did it!” She squad again and Andy moaned louder. When Annie stood she turned and saw Andy palming his dick through his shorts. “Are you seriously touching yourself?”

“A pretty girl’s sitting on my face, what did you expect?!” Andy said with a smug smile on his face and Annie shook her head. “Do it again.” Annie hesitate, “I bet you are just as turn on as I am.” Annie walked away from Andy for a moment, he thought that maybe she was about to left the room so he stood up, “Honey, I’m kidding.” But When Annie found Annie she found her with her pants and underwear off. “Oh. I thought… should I laid down?” Annie nodded and Andy has never laid down faster in his life. Annie stood above Andy, a leg on each side of his head, she was facing Andy’s legs. She took a deep breath and make a squad, reaching Andy’s face on the first go.

“God.” Andy mumbled against her. His tongue dare out and licked a striped of her pussy and then she stood up. “More.” Andy said. She squad again, this time staying in place a bit longer feeling Andy’s tongue both in her slit and her ass hole. She stood up again, “please, more!” Andy begged. Annie hardly ever heard him beg, it was usually the other way around.

“More?”

“Yes, please!” Annie fully sat on his face and felt his beard brushing against her pussy. Andy grabbed her legs and ate her out. His tongue lapping back and for, from her clit to her ass.

“Oh fuck!” Annie moaned “That’s it baby! You doing so good!” Andy’s lips sucked on her clit, “Shit! Just like that! It feels so good! Fuck!” Andy’s short was starting to show a wet stain right where the tip of his cock was. Annie reached for his cock and took it out of its confinement. It was red and engorged. She spit in her hand and rubbed it up and down his shaft.

“Fuck!” Andy moaned, Annie stood a bit so she could reached his dick with her mouth, but Andy was not having it, “Sit down!” and slapped her ass.

“But…”

“Sit down, mommy.”

Mommy? That was knew, Annie thought and lifted a brow.

“But don’t you want mommy to play with you?” She said in a teasing tone as she caressed his dick.

“No! I want your pussy mommy, please!”

“Alright then.” She let go of his cock and sat on his face. “Eat.” As soon as she said that Andy stuck to her pussy like it was the best meal he’s ever had. “Oh! Yes, baby! You’re doing so good for mommy.” The wet noises were filling the ambiance. Annie began to jump a bit on Andy’s face, “Oh fuck!” She moved her hips, rubbing her whole pussy on Andy’s face. As she let go of a wanton moan she saw Andy’s dick licking deliciously, she knew Andy was holding back to cum. “My baby want to cum,” She moaned louder than before, “But mommy need to finish first. Fuck!” She moved faster rubbing her pussy against Andy’s nose, “GOD! YES! YES! YES!!!!!!!” She stood still, her hips still moving slowly coming down from her height, she felt Andy’s tongue giving soft laps to her abused hole. When she open her eyes, she saw Andy’s dick twitching. Ropes of cum painting on his abdomen and a moment later Andy tapped her thigh.

“You ok?” Annie asked looking down at her husband whose face was completely red and wet.

“I think…” He took a deep breath and licked his lips, “I’m gonna love to have you as my work out partner.”

Annie giggled, “Come on,” Annie said putting her panties on and throwing a towel to Andy, “You already ate, but I’m starving and you promised me pancakes.”

Andy quickly cleaned himself up, put his shorts back up and took Annie’s hand to go upstairs.

“So, mommy huh?” Annie turned to see a very blushed Andy. “You never cease to surprise me.”

[chocomochimo]

my arms sting right now. it’s because i just cut myself and i’m crying and they’re dripping onto my arms. i can’t bring myself to censor myself, i’m tired of doing that for the sake of others. i can’t believe that my ex could be doing better than me, that makes me so angry, but i also can’t help but just laugh about it and shake my head. god does have a plan for me, doesn’t he. i’m sorry, did i give permission to be put on this earth to be a fucking punching bag? what the fuck is wrong with you? what the fuck is wrong with ALL of you that abused me??? why did you have to fucking neglect me? i feel like fucking roadkill and my guts are just splattered and plastered onto the road for more people to fucking run me over and nobody cares because it’s already DEAD. if it’s dead it doesn’t have feelings. hah. if i am dead, i won’t have feelings. that’s a correct statement. i’m so smart sometimes, i really am, i like the way my brain is sometimes, i come up with the best ideas, but i just don’t have the facilities to put my plans into action, you know? i would’ve killed myself a long time ago, honestly. i would’ve done it the fast and easy way, pressing a gun against my temple and pulling that fucking trigger. or i don’t know, maybe climb a building until i’m where the air is thin and i can feel like i’m flying before i hit the ground, having every piece of me inside my body that made me ME explode. i also don’t like my brain because i think of such morbid things. i feel like… i can’t cry out for help anymore because i’ve always been ignored and i think i always will be. so what is the point? instead, i will just, accept. there is a difference between being at peace… and accepting. i’m choosing to accept the pain for what it is, i really am nothing. huh. i am nothing. i ammm nothin’. i’m sorry. i’m sorry for being born. that’s always been one of my biggest problems, apologizing, well let me apologize for apologizing! i’m SORRY for being the biggest push over in the world, i’m sorry for being a piece of dirt, a piece of smelling shit, i’m so sorry, you don’t have to forgive me, but you cannot forget me. i’m so so so sorry to the people i hurt, i’m sorry, i’m sorry mommy i came into this world when you were young and i ruined everything for you, i’m sorry daddy i wasn’t enough for you to stay, i’m sorry to my friends i was the worst to, i’m sorry to the people i lied to, i’m sorry to the people i pretended in front of, i’m sorry for my sins, i’m sorry for everything, please. i’m so fucking sorry and god please, if you are out there and you are real, i’m sorry i can’t do this, i’m sorry i don’t want to go to hell, please if i can’t be happy here, let me be happy somewhere, god please i’m begging you. i’m sorry. i’m such a fucking failure, i can’t do anything right, i don’t deserve an ounce of love and purity, i know that so i’m SORRY for wanting it, i’m sorry for begging for even the little things, i don’t even deserve a crumb. how could i be so fucking stupid. i hate myself, i hate myself i’m so sorry to myself too that i can’t love myself and i’m just so sorry. i just can’t say sorry enough.

[beatlebug987]

Album of the Week: emails i can't send fwd: by Sabrina Carpenter

Hi! So lately I've been listening to at least one new album a week, and I decided why not document my thoughts as I do so? I'm gonna go track by track and list my thoughts on the songs maybe with a general album ranking at the end!! I started listening to this, got two songs in, then decided to write this and have also heard a few songs before so that's why some of my thoughts are more chaotic than the others LOL.

ALSO ALL OF THIS IS JUST MY OPINION!! PLEASE DON'T ATTACK ME TvT

(Fun fact, I used to listen to quite a bit of Sabrina Carpenter when I was younger when she was a Disney Channel kid. It's interesting how different her music is now compared to the stuff she used to make.)

Track 1: emails I can't send - It's nice! I like that it's short and I also like the strings that come in later. The transition to Vicious is nice as well.

Track 2: Vicious - I like this one quite a bit. It's catchy. The hit at the end is very pleasing to my ears LOL.

Track 3: Read your Mind - WOAH that beginning threw me off LOL. OKAYYY DANCEY BEAT. This is a jam. I'm vibing with this one. 💃🕺AGAIN WITH THE STRINGSSS.

Track 4: Tornado Warnings - Interesting word flow. Okay drums. SHE SPITTIN OKAY SABRINA. WOAHHH SON OF A BITCH. Kinda think she should've called this song Lying to My Therapist instead of Tornado Warnings LOL. That's a fun one. Kinda bland, but still good!

Track 5: because I liked a boy - I've already heard this song, but I do really like it. I like that it starts slow and then gets more intense as it goes on. TELL ME WHO I AMMM GUESS I DON'T HAVE A CHOICEEEEEE ALL. BECAUSE. I. LIKEDDDD. A. BOYYYY. Solid song.

Track 6: Already Over - INSTANT JAM OKAYYY. THIS BEAT. WOAH. THE CLAPSSSSS. AURGH. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO CLOSE THE DOOR WHEN I STILL NEED THE CLOSURE??? WHATHUUTFYGU WOAH OKAY DAMN. Slowing down on okayyy. CLAPS AGAIN. YEEEE. I LIKE THIS. I wished it had a bit more going on, but it was still a jam. I LIKE MY BED BUT IT LIKES YOU TOOOOO AAAA.

Track 7: how many things - "You used a fork once/It turns out forks are fuckin' everywhere" GIRL WHAT??? HUH???? WHAT DOES THAT- OH WHATGYUFHGY. So this song isn't about forks, okay. OH WAIT I GET THAT FIRST LINE NOW LOL. IT THREW ME OFF THO. ~HARMONIESSSS~ OOF. Damn alright. Now it's sad :( I like that it doesn't have many instruments. Makes it sadder. Yowch. That's my final thought on this one.

Track 8: bet u wanna - Okay cowboy. Nope, not cowboy. THAT BEAT OKAY. OOoo🕺This reminds me of something. Maybe a bit of Dua Lipa? It's vibey though. A bit boring to me tbh... it's fun, but like, not much to focus on.

Track 9: Nonsense - I've also heard this one before. (Kinda hard to not have) I enjoy it. It's fun. Ble Blah Bleee. I think I also listened to the Christmas version of this one she made and was like "WOAH THAT'S DIRTY" lol. Lookin at you got me thinkin ~nonsense~.

Track 10: Fast Times - Okayyyy. Pianoooo~ Alrightttt jammy. Vibing with this one. F BOMB. Strings once again. GUITAR?? IS THAT GUITAR CUZ IT'S AWESOME. Pretty fun one.

Track 11: skinny dipping - Guitarr~ weird word flow again. She's talking more than singing. Does she actually have a sister named Shannon?? Alright. Not much happening in this one LOL. I just realized I turned on the deluxe version haha. Trumpet.

Track 12: Bad for Buisness - Like this one already I think. WHA. Okay beat. OOO. ALRIGHT. Grooving to this one. YEEEEEEE. \o/ BAAADD FOR BUISNESSS~ I like this. She's Down bad for this guy. Waaaaaaa. AA the layered vocals.

Track 13: decode - Aight. She should go to bed if she's so tired. This one's pretty chill. Nope there's a bit of a beat. Hm. Not much to say on this one LOL. SHE LOVES STRINGS MY GOODNESS (THAT'S POSITIVE I LIKE STRINGS). I've noticed that I can still tell it's the same person I used to listen to when I was younger, but she's definitely evolved. That doesn't make the most sense, but yk.

Track 14: opposite - Guitarrr again. WORD FLOW AGAIN. Damn, he doesn't like her blue eyed stare. Alright layered vocals again. Ooh? change in the instrumental. alright adding some things. Ehh?? Not much to say on this one.

Track 15: Feather - I've heard this one before ofc, and - because I'm basic - I really like it LOL. Very radio pop. It's so fun. AAAAHH~ WITH YOU OUT MY LIFE~~! Very jammy. I'm so sorry for your loss!🤪 \o/ Very fun song.

Track 16: Lonesome - COWBOY AGAIN. YEEEHAWW. Alrighttt. F BOMB. She's not wrong; you cannot spell lonesome without me. OO vocals. WHY IS IT LIKE COWBOY MUSIC. IT'S KINDA FUNNY LOL. MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I'M IN A WESTERN. Twangy. I like this one. YEEEEEEEHAWWWWWW.

Track 17: things I wish you said - Last track. Okayyyy she really likes guitar. Hmm. This kinda reminds me of characters in my fanfic LOL. Just a little. Aw. Damn you should clean your room if it's so hairy. I like this one. It's sad but not like super slow sad.

Final thoughts/rating

I enjoyed it! I really think her upbeat and peppy songs are the best ones and the sad slow ones got a little boring after a while. Overall, I'd give it a... hmm I suck at rating things lol um... 5/10??? IDK. It had some good ones and some ones I wasn't the biggest fan of. My favorite songs were probably Feather, because I liked a boy, Bad for Buisness, andddd lonesome I think.