#I am the worst writter

[dread-red-queen]

This is me, but more like 6/10 when I upload coz while I might think the plot is good, it probably isnt as awesome as I think and I know my grammar is terrible. The joys of having no beta reader, then once its up I realise I'm not that good a writer and I use the term raised eyebrow to much and need to be put out of my misery. XD

Me, before posting a chapter on AO3: Wow. This is really good. The syntax, the inner turmoil, the grammar. Impeccable. 10/10

Me as soon as the chapter is live: yeah, no. I deserve to be shot.

[weridpersonhelp]

Red phone

Wally x reader

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warning: slightly scary, first-time horror writter, stalking, confusion, gramma and spell mistakes, screaming, getting up a horrible hour of night, neurodivergent reader, slow burnish? more fanfic then x reader, children, puppets, curse langue, music, be ready for cringe!

“What in the world?” I rub my eyes trying the get rid of the sleep as I am woken up by a loud ringing noise coming from downstairs, I groan loudly as the ringing continues. I cover my ears with my pillow in an attempt to stop it or at least muffle the noise but no! it just would not stop, it felt like it was getting louder instead!

The noise of a creaking old phone was the worst sound I have ever heard, that is after the sound of nails against a black board. It felt with each ring my ears were getting closer and closer to the ear drum bursting!  I Stormed down the stairs pulling up my silky shorts, so they don’t fall while walking down the stairs at night. Walking to the kitchen I pause at the sudden sense of danger; my gut was saying something. My body just froze in place, and the hairs on it stood tall. The red phone, it was the red phone that was ringing.           I had never seen or heard it in my whole life, yet their it was ringing on the kitchen counter. It stood out compared to all my grandmother’s appliances. The kitchen was a light minty green with the wood being the green and marble tops, My Grandma originally wanted wooden tops but explained how marble was cheaper back then.

The phone was bright red, a red you don’t commonly see unless it’s on Tv or on a plastic toy. I stood they’re like an idiot or better yet a dear in head lights. Watching as it rung, and soon enough it stopped. The over whelming of fear, and danger disappearing in an instant. I stare at the phone, noticing how old it must have been. Probably made in the 1950’s? 1960’s? it didn’t matter anyway the ringing stopped and I could go back to bed, but now my brain was fuzzy and awake. I need something to help me sleep, I sigh and put the kettle on and make myself a coffee. Caffeine did the opposite to me, instead of waking me up it made me sleepy like my dad. And with one sip of that coffee, and a small waddle up the old stairs and into my room I went out quicker than a light bulb.

But sadly, I woke up not just a few hours later to the cries of my brother, I sigh once again turning over in my bed and hitting my pillow in anger. But I couldn’t be angry at Jim, this was the normal hour he gets up at. I’m surprised My mum hasn’t noticed yet, but I’m not Angry at them right now. Just at that dam red phone. Slowly getting up I get ready for the day, full of. Well, what ever my mother has planed for me to do.

I leave my new room, and walk down the hall to the stairs, only this time they creek. I physically cringe at the noise but try my best to get downstairs, Once I do and make my way to the kitchen I see everyone already up. Including grandma, I walk over giving her a peck on the cheek and she gives me a small smile and asks.

“Good morning my dear! How did you sleep?”

“not very well, I woke up to a phone ringing. And found it hard to go back to sleep.” I explain taking a seat next to her at the dinning table across from my brother who I waved hello too. The small toddler notices my presence and gives me a wave and a bunch of gibberish which I’ll take as a hello. Mum placed some scrambled egg’s and bacon in front of me before pushing my hair back and kissing my forehead gently and sitting down next to me.

“Good morning sleepy head, you slept in! normally your awake before now.” Mum wasn’t wrong, I would normally wake up and take care of Jim myself sometimes, or at least make him breakfast. BUT. Since this was a Family Holiday, I could relax.

“Yeah, you alright kiddo?” dad asks me as I grab the BBQ sauce and shrug.

“meh overall, probably just still adjusting from the car ride. Anything planned for today?” I ask my family stealing a piece of buttered toast from the centre of the table before my dad.

“no not really, so you can do what you like today. Just don’t spend too much time on that computer!”  Mum explains, I nod along and constructed my toast carefully, finally taking a bite it was like heaven, the sweet bacon, the salty eggs., the soft butter and toast with the crunchy crust! And the small amount of sauce. Just perfection I gobble it down and quickly went back for seconds, I can see from the side of my eye my mum shaking her head and grandma giggling.

“Gosh you and your father are so alike!” Grandma gushes and pinches my cheek gently.

“I know all she need’s in to be taller, different hair colour and more into the outdoors and we would have a female clone!” mum saying cracking up my nana even more, she almost sounded like a parrot with how loud she was.

“Yes, she gets her creativity from my Harrison! And her artistic talents come from both sides, right? Your mother was a painter, right?” The two continue their conisations and I take my plate up to the sink, I catch a glimpse of the red phone. Again, my gut was trying to tell me something, but it felt different as if someone was watching me. I shook the feeling off and continued to the sink.

‘Am I going crazy?’ I ask myself in my head as I wash up some of the dishes, dad drops his off along with Jim’s. Jimmy sat on his hip holding on to the 6’4 man who towered over everyone in the house, his height is something I wish I inherited.

“, honey I’ll tell you. Later, just remind me later to do so is that okay?” I raise an eyebrow at my dad who just smiles down at me, the question was what my dad wanted to talk about later.  I know I shouldn’t press though, or I may never find out, so I just nod my head continuing to clean. He turns away before snapping his fingers and spins back to face me.

“Oh! Me and your mum are leaving are going out so you will have to baby sit Jimmy with grandma for a couple of hours to night,” “yeah that’s fine dad.”

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Wally hangs up the phone again sighing slightly, opening the morning paper. to read.

"When will that Old woman answer?"

[trixstriforce]

so can we talk about how LU!Malon is a Trade Wife or am i just meant to not realize how gross it is that in a LOZ au the only major female character is a Trade Wife.

bc i already knew a a majority of her portrayals in fics were grossly misogynistic like yall only include her to give Time a baby or give the LU boys a mother. if we r lucky she gets to just be Time's wife but i have RARELY seen even popular LU writters make her more than that. But im realizing that its a lot grosser than that bc she is weirdly out of character in LU to be more of Time's domestic wifey and the boy's defacto mother like she is in fics. She is only added to 1 give Time something to care about 2 give Time a family(sometimes give Twilight a family too) 3 be the adopted motherly figure to make everything alright for the other boys.

I can not think of a time off the top of my head a LU fic included her as a character where she wasnt there to be a character motivation for Time or the motherly figure for the boys. Malon in oot is not fucking like that. She was an airhead and a horse girl but she was never explicitly a caring person and certainly not motherly. She was stubborn and strong wiled like how some fics and even LU tries to portray her but still they lean more into her motherly role and love for Time as her major character traits if they ever let that part show.

This is misogyny i dont know why this is such a widespread thing other than the comic itself is misogynistic which i already knew but the LU fandom tends to curb a lot of the worst writting in LU and this is something i havent seen combated much in fics at all, if anyhting this interpretation of the Trad Wife Malon has been wholeheartedly accepted w/out critical thinking. That feels weirdly gross to me that the most significant woman character in LU is only an extension of her husband and a wife first then mother then character and it seems no one else is rlly talking about that or curbing that in their fics

(if anyone has a fic recc where malon isnt just an extension of Time or Twilight or any of the boys send it over btw!!)

[everydaydg]

A quick recap on the rest of 2023's played games!

Part 1!

As explained on a post previously, I sadly wont be writting huge reviews for every game left of 2023

I wanna get to writting about 2024 gamessss

I might revisit a few games from this series of posts in a later date for the sake of giving my full thoughts on them.

Alrighty! Lets do this!

54. Trauma Center: Under the Knife

Honestly I sorta played this one because of a mutual I dont speak to too often.

Anyway this was my first foray into Trauma Center so I was a bit exited going into it!

Needless to say it delivered on a fun dramatic time! I am quite surprised by how good this game is honestly.

The best way I can describe it is an arcade style operation simulator with the most dramatic hospital room visual novel you will read on the side.

That sounds fucking ballistic but it works.

You have a story about an epidemic sweeping the nation as a group of medical experts try to handle the disease as best they can, mainly focusing on the rise to fame of Derek Styles as he becomes the doctor of all time

(not the best one or the worst one, hes the doctor of all time. )

but you can suture wounds in an instant, you inject green goop to regain vitals, stop time itself, have to deal with dealing with 5 patients in a row in like 15 minutes and constantly see your patients having bugs in their stomach.

The story is played completely straight while the gameplay is fast paced operations using the DS's touch screen.

I love it so much.

The controls are really well tuned, its fun to get better at the game and the gameplay loop is engaging.

The characters are surprisingly memorable and fun to keep up with, except angie. I hate angie.

I am not forgiving you for being a total ass to derek and also telling a suicidal patient to go kill themselves

Did we forget that? I mean you probably dont know what im talking about to begin with but im not forgetting whatever the fuck that scene was.

Whats wrong with Angie.

I hate that im supposed to like her later on but no. Shes still annoying as the whole game goes on, shes not likeable at all despite the writter's best effords.

... again the rest of the characters are fun. Derek is a sweet guy, Nigel is my favorite asshole in the whole place, Kasal and Hoffman are fun to see every once in a while

Every time those two appear, you know the plot is getting serious Stephen is... kinda there honestly, I barely recall much from him outside of his cool headphones, Leslie is sweet and... I want to hit Tyler with a football (affectionate)

Fun cast, Dramatic but engaging story, fun gameplay that uses the DS's touch screen well and a good OST

Its a fun time! I highly recommend it if you're looking for a good DS game! I enjoyed it alot suturing patients, usin the goop, draining- I didnt go into it alot but the gameplay is REALLY fun. genuinely.

Its fast, its frantic and extremely enjoyable to master

(Small note but I miss the artstyle of this game, the later entries changed artstyle... it looks nice in those games but the art here has some charm despite its issues)

8/10

55. Space Channel 5 (PS2, Replay)

Oh Space Channel 5... god I have mixed feelings on this game

Music? fantastic

Visuals? groovy, the retro future look is unmatched.

The gameplay? ... god damm it input detection

This game is so close to being perfect but the speed of the animations makes certain inputs feel incredibly sluggish which is a huge reason why its so hard to recommend for me.

Took me a whole year to get to grips with the game feel of this game... I didnt get it in 2021 and ultimately felt a bit dissapointed after experiencing Part 2.

By 2022 I actually did get used to it and enjoyed it a whole lot!

I absolutely got it, I fell in love with it! The patterns, the story, the characters, THE EXTRA CONTENT WHEN YOU REPLAY CERTAIN LEVELS WITH 100% VIEW RATING!

It was amazing being able to finally see what alot of DC fans saw in the game after a year of struggle... but I coudnt shake off the feeling of how much of a struggle it was to get used to it...

by 2023 I saw someone else try to get into it, only to run into the same problem I had in 2021 which trully cemented how I feel about the game.

I did also replay it that year because why not and yeah! its still great despite the slight background desyncs every now and again and the sluggish animations... but I cant expect everyone to get used to that

Where im going with this is... Its great... but dont expect it to feel right when you get into it. It takes a second to get used to it.

Its not as snappy as part 2 and I dont fault you if bounce off it because of the gamefeel

I cant completely recommend it. Its great! I love it... you might not enjoy it

If you dont enjoy part 1, check out part 2

Its on steam, its a fantastic ride and one of my favorite rhythm games of all time (even if im still a bit mad over the secret notes for full rating)

8/10

56. Kingdom Hearts Re:Coded

(Yknow what maybe its good that I dont have to write a big review on this one. I dont want to talk details about the story asdhajdhask)

Re:Coded fucking rules

This is my second kingdom hearts game aksjdhakjdaskadshdkj

MY FIRST WAS DDD- I AM PLAYING IN THE WORST ORDER IMAGINABLE

But im still having fun!

I uhh the story in this one isnt as hard to follow as DDD but its still a bit wierd in some areas, doesnt stop it from being fun tho.

Id say the main thing that keeps me going back to this game is how insanely good the combat is. This might be... one of the best combat systems on the DS, im not joking.

Fucking TWEWY levels of fun ass combat on the DS.

Pulling off juggles with the command deck is immaculate.

The stat matrix is fun to mess arround with and alows for a great level of difficulty tuning.

You can make the game a living nightmare for the sake of getting more money and better items.

They made a 3D game work... really well on the DS

I will argue it falls a bit flat on some places considering how most of the game takes place in glitch challenges... but honestly... I love those areas

Its a bit repetitive but the combat carries it HARD.

I wont talk a single thing about the story, its best you see it yourself despite its issues as its still... pretty fun ngl.

People are too meaaan to this game man. Its good!

It gets a big recommendation from me

8/10

Alright! next time ill be rambling about astro boy omega factor, gunstar super heroes and yakuza 4 remastered

and a fewwww more if im up to it

If im being honest I would have posted everything in one go but I dont want to leave this in the drafts foreverrrrr.

So I will do it in chunks.

Thanks for reading my disorganized ramblings

[orbitalpirate]

Choose violence 3, 8, 11, 12.

3. screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr

Have you guys seen the anonymous asks on here that tell Ted Lasso fic writers that only Colin is gay and to say otherwise is disrespecting the shows writters??? They also believe that being ace pi pan and poly is made up??? Fucking ridiculous

8. common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

People acting like Richard and Thierry were sexists mainly for wanting to see a sex show and I think that that's so dumb and like ngl kind of prudish, they were in fucking Amsterdam they're not misogynistic. They also seemed less interested when they heard the performers aren't having fun

11. number of fandom-related words you've filtered

None for Ted Lasso but 7 over all

12. the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

I am the unpopular character liker, it is my duty to like unpopular characters, you should all love Paul Reynolds more

[beforethepoison]

2023 go to hell

I think 2023 was one of the most difficult years of my life. Like really. It's been very hard to deal with my mother, she is growing old, she is becoming a stubborn, she is becoming very reactive...Sometimes I feel stuck at home and I can't do things for me. I feel very dependent of her and she is now sometimes delegating some work for me instead of her doing by herself. (Like, answer her messages for her while she is driving), (like not making dinner but expecting me to clean the kitchen).. and this is not the worst thing....

In January of this year, I lost a friend of mine, a the donnaholic fan. She was the coolest girl ever. She passed away very young and I never could imagine she could die so early. Then, my idol Rita Lee has passed away, my idol Kaija Saariaho passed away.

In January a physio therapist very young asked what I was doing and I said I was a writter and she was like "do you carry your books in the bag?" and I said "no" and she was like..."I wanna see it. How you'll sell it if you dont carry with you?" and she spend days saying this. One day I brought to her the book. She took the book and said: Later on you tell me your pix (bank account). And I was like....??????? After a month, she didnt pay me and the service of my physio therapy was becoming poorly done. She changed her schedule and was no longer my therapist...And didnt pay me until I made a complaining in the company.

March: My dog died.

I started a job in a small restaurant with some jerky people. At the time, I didn't know they were jerks. I was supposed to be the attendent. The son of my boss "taught" me to use ONE phone to deliver people menu of the day. And I did my best but in the end of the day, his brother yelled at me indirectly because his brother didn't mention there was a SECOND phone I should look at. (a smartphone with app requests). When I told the boss that he didnt mention, she said..."If there is a phone there, you should look!" But I dont look at other people's phones without permission!

I got fired 2 days later. Received 80 $

Then, I met this influencer and he was very nice and in his social medias he asked for one of my books. I GAVE to him one of my books through mail and with a fast shipping. And after I sent to him, he asked again "where is my book?" and I was like "I Sent it to you" and after that he didnt say anything. I was very disappointed because I was expecting for him to read my book and he didnt even received or said anything. The book is lost.

I started to have weekly constipation intestine pains. Feeling I was gonna die... Until a couple weeks I was still having. I can't eat poorly.

Matthew Perry passed away. One of my biggest crushes and idols. I never cried so hard for a celebrity. For days.

Since november I don't have a cellphone. First, was my Samsung S8....Died after 5 years. And then my small phone of music only. My Samsung Galaxy whatever from 2013. Was my first modern cellphone. It only worked because I put alot of memory on it and alot of mp3 music. (There was no spotify back then). And now I dont have cellphone.... Because I dont have any money to buy a new one. Not even my mother. She has a crazy Xiaomi and doesnt work very well. (when you listen to music, it works one ear only). Today a friend of her gave her a 2013 phone for her to use but its old that I dont know if its going to work.

So, christmas there probably have no presents...And just meeting with family like okay.

PS: Its been a year since my crush moved out to another state. Not only a crush. a Great friend of mine. He has been so sweet to me. And he gave me THE BEST gift I could ever receive from someone. And thats why I feel a good thing about liking him. Because he is nice and he is gentle, generous. I am very lucky to have meet him. Very lucky. Very blessed. I am always afraid he will get tired of me. But I know that I won't be never tired of him. Thats what I am focus right now. Also, he taught me how love can be light and sweet. It just clean all my awful parents references. I am thankful for that too. Honestly, I HATE the fact he is away. And sometimes I'm afraid that I am feeling all these loving by myself. But its ok I guess.

So, no wonder I tried to k'1ll myself a couple times this year. I was always fetching a knive, putting against my belly or throat when I was alone. But some how I always gave up. I always stayed.

[kittydemon9000]

So you’ve mentioned how unprepared M!Garmadon is for, and I quote, “Feral Protective Smith”, but what about M!Lloyd? If he’s there when this goes down, how unprepared is he to witness it?

He’s……sort of present for it. Not really, but he’s physically there at least.

M!Zane though…..

[regicidal-defenestration]

.

[please-someone-give-me-love]

He has his highs and lows with woman, I do understand certain mysogistic traits but also appreciate that he actually gave them relevance and development to them.

I think the biggest problem is the sexualization and some typical japanese sexist traits on male characters.

i do think its very funny how one piece is simultaneously more and less sexist than like 80% of shounen

[please-someone-give-me-love]

To be honest, I want to see Damian in a normal relationship, like a domestic relationship, just casual and normal.

Because I think some shippers are just getting too crazy too fast.

I haven't seen really normal interactions between the most popular Damian's shipps.

It's always heroes and fighting together or literally on a death tournament. I wanted Damian to share his tastes, his hobbies, his pets and things he likes, not only fighting against some villian.

Even the girl could be a hero too, like, wouldn't be awesome if we just saw him having dates and getting fun with the girl/boy he likes? Just having typical couple problems and just solving them with love and being healthy over it.

Currently, we have this girl Nika, but we just even know her name at the end of the arc and that she kinda betrayed him.

Like we haven't even see them as a real couple, just some couple of hints through the run but the shippers are already crazy over it.

Are they gonna be healthy? Having more traits between them? Grow together? Any personal dynamic that characterizate them?

We don't know anything about the dynamic of their relationship more than the death tournament.

I am saying that we should wait more to actually qualified if their relationship are gonna be something good or just something that got forgotten for the next writter.

And don't make me talked about his other popular shipps.

With Raven sacrifices Raven's characterization for a relationship, they aged her down in the animated films and just feel like her and Damian are kinda dependent of each other.

I have to admit that they looked cute and have certain chemistry, but I can't stop thinking that in the comics, Damian is 13-14 year old boy and Raven is already an adult.

It makes me feel so disgusted.

Djiin is even worst with that too.

[a-tsurugi-simp]

Is it ok if I request a fic of Teruya x Ultimate writer S/O? (Btw ur skills on drawing and writing are amazing)

C-Compliments... My weakness, I am dying inside. I am dead, no thoughts, no brain, just happiness.

It is more than okay for you to request. I am more than glad to provide Teruya Content!

Teruya Otori x Ultimate Writer!Reader

aka: Reader being a fucking disaster for almost 1200 words. Ultimate Writer? More like Ultimate Idiot.

DRA Setting.

Warning: Some self-deprecation.

Word Count: +1400

Reader has no pronouns defined.

Writing came naturally to you.

You weren't a Prodigy like Toko Fukawa, whose novels charmed all the people in general, but you were not a Hifumi Yamada either. You... You were just you. Just a student who wrote about everything and nothing at the same time. Poems, songs, fables, fairytales, even reports, all of them were just stuff that you loved to do. Your mind was a beautiful chest full of ideas and thoughts and putting it all in paper was a way to not let none of them be left behind.

To think that had earned you a place in Hope's Peak Academy had been a blessing, and then a curse.

Of course you couldn't be the only Ultimate with a talent tied with writting, of fucking course you weren't special in anyway. At least that's what the worst part of you said, the one who only resided in the negative part of your brain.

You held the pencil tightly, the words stuck between your fingers, unable to write.

What kind of Ultimate Writer were you, having a mental block? You groaned, head going straight to the desk. You felt your forehead made contact with the paper in wich you had been trying uselessly to write, and you couldn't help but feel pathetic the moment you remembered that there was absolutely nothing in there.

Nothing. Empty.

God, it was just a love letter! How hard could it be? You had won so many prices with your reports about love and the cause of those feelings. Yes, maybe they were not Fukawa's romance novels, but they helped you so many times in how to recognize crushes and fucking act on them.

Did they matter at the end of the day? There you were, being a pathetic chicken that couldn't even escape a simple writter's block.

Well, maybe you had been rejected too many times to be finally scared to act. The excuse came to your mind, instantly remembering how in every attempt something always went wrong, how in all the times you tried your best to charm your way into your crush's heart with pretty words you had always ended in a failure, your desired person denying you with either a uncomfortable expression or a smile full of pity.

You hated it, you hated it so much and you would hate it more if Teruya ever looked at you that way.

"For the sweet love of jesus, just fucking kill me already..." You mumbled, head still buried in the piece of paper. If Kinji had heard that you would had been subjeted to a harsh lecture about never saying the Lord's name in vain, but god, you were too tired to care.

Maybe... Maybe you could just simply be blunt. Maybe this time you could leave the pretty words behind, and just use what it needed to be done. An average confession-

No. Just no.

Teruya deserved the best! Being average with a confession would just be just stupid! No, no. The Ultimate Merchant deserved to be praised, he needed to know that his green eyes were the reason you got up everyday even though you hated Hope's Peak with all of your entire being, he needed to know that you loved how soft his hair was when your fingers managed to brush againt it, and that you would literally kill to be able to play with it all the time.

-Tsuguri had heard that from your mouth once, when you thought you were alone, trying your best to gain courage to confess and he walked into your open room because he needed help with homework. You spent the rest of the evening trying to convince him that you wouldn't murder anyone, it was just an exageration, and to please put the handcuffs away jesus christ.-

With newfound confidence you raised your head, snorting when the white paper stayed glued to one of your cheeks. You used your dominant hand to put it again on the desk, finally ready to spill out your most honest feelings.

"My dearest Teruya." You said loudly as you wrote. Then paused. "Sounds too... ugh." A frown, then a pensive expresion.

You used to do that a lot when you wrote. Your mouth would open up, and everything that you put in paper would be criticized and said out loud, like you were testing if it sounded right, if it was something that could belong in a convertation.

"It sounds cheesy... but I would said that. My dearest Teruya..." You tested the words, tasting the sugar and the love in every single one, and you swore the moment you felt your face burn. Yeah, those three words would stay. You continued writting, trying to get your feelings expresed. "I am writting this because I like you. No, no. That sounds too simple, it wouldn't work."

You erased those faulty words.

"I want to tell you that I have a crush on you." Your voice was gaining confidence as you wrote, becoming louder and more assured. It was as if you were slowly becoming a different person, your eyes gaining a glow that almost made them look of a different color.

"I have been spending months trying to gain the courage to confess what I feel to you. I've been trying to get you to understand that I absolutely adore everything that makes you.. well, you. I like you a lot, Teruya. I like how bubbly and kind, and how gentle you have been with me since we met. I find you undeniable handsome, and I... want you to know that you would make me the most lucky Ultimate if you liked me back and accepted a date with me! Any place would be fine, please just date me!"

You finished writting, your dominant hand slapping the piece of paper while you stood up in your seat. A proud smile was on your lips. The last part sounded a little bit too desesperate for your taste, but it was decent enough for you.

"... Would it be fine if I picked you up next Sunday then?"

What the fuck.

You screamed, jumping in place so high you would make the even the Ultimate Jumper jealous. Was there an Ultimate Jumper, though? You didn't think so, but who cared about that! Your brain just stopped working the moment your head turned right, and your eyes saw Teruya Otori on the door, the short man red in the face.

Of fucking course. Of course he would come to the Library even thought he usually did not come by his own.

His green eyes were watching you intensely, and if you had bothered to notice, you would have seen his hands shaking.

"Teruya! What? How-... When? Holy fucking god don't do this to my poor heart! Why the heck are you in the Library?"

The green haired boy shrugged, still blushing furiously. God, he was so cute, the tips of his ear were red too! He never broke eye contact with you though, and your nerves were rising.

Up, up, up.

"Haruhiko asked me to go grab a notebook he left in a hurry."

You instantly scowled. "That fucking dumbass couldn't go for it himself...? I'm gonna murder that-"

Teruya instantly cut you off saying your name. "He's with Satsuki." Oh. That inmediately made your angry expression melt. You knew the Pilot, and how he had been struggling with his feelings for the clown girl. You even had confided on him with your own problem, and gave him advice.

You sighed tiredly. You were still red, a hand going to your head, your fingers playing with your hair. It was a quirk of yours, something that usually told that you were feeling shy at the moment. Lord knows how many times Mitch had teased you for that.

"Well... I... suppose you have questions."

Seconds passed. Then, the boy grinned, hands going to the back of his head. Much to your confusion, the boy shook his head, still having that beautiful smile that always your heart sing. "I have, but I could ask them in the date."

What. What the fuck.

You felt your head combust into flames, your mouth opening to let out the most pitiful squeak that you ever did in your liife. Holy moly, that was too smooth to have been uttered by the short guy, and the effect was mind shattering.

"Sunday sounds good?" He asked, and if you hadn't been busy wishing to dig a hole be buried under it, you would had seen that Otori was nervous too.

It took you almost half a minute to answer, and by that time The Ultimate Merchant had already went to collect Haruhiko's notebook, and it was now secure under the young boy's hands.

"S-Sunday sounds perfect."

"Alright. See ya then!"

The boy left, his steps quick, and you groaned all the profanities on all of the languajes you knew, feeling disconected from what just happened. You just had secured a date with the boy you liked.

On the other side, Teruya was going back to his friends muttering to himself, repeating what just happened in his mind with a face so red it would make a tomato jealous.

He just had secured a date with the person he liked.

[key201303]

Word count: 2k words

Warnings: unprotected sex (wrap it before use it kids), +18 content, semi-public sex (?)really brief mentions of suicide, mentions of laboratory

Pairing: Guardianangel!Xiaojun x FemHuman!Reader

Genre: smut, guardian angel AU

Plot: Being part of God’s Kingdom was never easy, especially for Xiaojun who fell in love with you who he promised to protect until the end of life with his own life. But time is ticking and he has nothing to defend himself from the worst sin that could be committed by a Guardian angel: sex with the human they have to look after. From now on and after you gave him your body and soul, his heart will keep beating In the name of love instead of beating in the name of God.

Special thanks -> @raibebe​ for letting me be part of this amazing event (also sorry for taking so damn long to post it 🤧)❤❤ I loved writing this and getting to be part of this ❤❤ Thank you so much ❤❤ If you guys don’t know her, go visit her blog, she’s an amazing writter and deserves all the best ❤❤❤❤

P.S: low-key based on the video game Beyond Two Souls ❤

“Umpteenth (Y/N), you can’t go out on Halloween night.” Seungyoon said once again, already walking out of your small room to leave you alone with your annoying friend. “You know what? You suck and everyone living in this laboratory sucks as well!!” You shouted at him, not ready to give up on your teenage life that easily. “Watch your mouth little lady.” Seungyoon said to put you back in your place. You were tired of that stupid situation. You were tired of being locked in the same four walls ever since you turned into 5 years old just because your parents thought you had some mental disease because of you saying you had a guardian angel by your side. And lastly, but not least, you were tired of the boy sitting on the chair behind you laughing at how desperate and ridiculous you looked. “I would be more gentle and kind if you stopped treating me like a psycho.” You said, getting closer to Seungyoon with challenging eyes. Who did they think they were for treating you like that just because you were different? It wasn’t like you ever asked to have a guardian angel glued to your ass 24/7. Actually, if you could, you would send him back to wherever he came from. Not like you haven’t tried it already, but none of your tries turned out to be a good idea. “Behave like a normal person then.” Seungyoon said before turning his back on you and walking outside of the room.

“Seems like we’ll spend another Halloween together.” Xiaojun said, the devilish smile you hated creeping on his lips once again. “Don’t tempt me, I really want to slap that grin from your handsome face right now.” You said, giving him a disgusted gaze as you walked towards your bed to throw yourself into the mattress and quietly curse every single decision your parents made to bring you to this world. “Come on, I know it is not that bad! Have you forgotten how much fun we had when you were a kid?” Xiaojun said, standing from the chair he was sitting on and walking towards your bed as well so he could sit on its edge and cheer you up like he has always done. Even though he has always been a pain in the ass, you have to admit that he has been the only one to always be there for you no matter what. But well, that’s what he was supposed to do, right? “This is all your fault so don’t even try to look pity.” You said, turning your face to avoid his gaze asking for an apology. “Yeah, sorry for always being there for you whenever you were sick, sad, happy and even when you tried to kill yourself.” Xiaojun said, rolling his eyes, not believing you were that stubborn to blame him for Seungyoon not letting you go out to some random Halloween party. “I just want to be a normal girl and do what normal people do… Am I asking for too much?” You said, tears threatening your eyes. Xiaojun was right, he has always been there for you but sometimes you wished he didn’t exist. That way, you would be living with your parents like any other girl, you would be going to a normal school like any other girl and, maybe, you would even be dating someone nice like any other girl did. 

“Come on, I can’t believe you hate me that much after all this time.” Xiaojun said, placing his hand on your back and patting it in a reassuring way. He always knew that never failed to make you feel better. But all you did was remain silent. You hated when he was right and you hated to admit it. “Look at me and tell me you hate me then.” He added, placing his hand on your cheek to make you look at him. But once again you remained silent. You couldn’t lie to your guardian angel after all. “See? I’m always right.” He said with a wide smirk as you pushed his hand away from your face and turned around to keep back facing him.

 Hours went by and you were now cooking something for dinner once Xiaojun finally convinced you of the situation not being that bad. You low-key always loved how positive he always was about everything. Suddenly, the simple thought of him made your heart beat in a different yet warm way. A way that has always been there but that you never really paid attention to. “Need some help or do you still hate me?” Xiaojun said, knocking you out of your little bubble. “I’m sorry…” You suddenly said, avoiding his eye contact. “Why?” He said acting like he had no idea even though he perfectly knew what you were talking about. After all, he was your guardian angel, he knew absolutely everything that ran through your mind. “You already know.” You said still avoiding his eyes. “I just want to hear it from you.” He said, taking your chin and making you meet his eyes. You felt like a flame lit on your heart the moment your eyes met his. Was this what it felt like being in love with someone? It couldn’t be, he was your guardian angel, how were you supposed to fall in love with him? “I’m the only one you know, it’s normal you fell in love with me.” He quietly said, answering the unanswered questions that suddenly clouded your mind. “I also fell in love with you after all.” He added, leaving you speechless. 

Before you could complain or say anything about his sudden confession, his lips met yours, shushing your complaints into a soft yet full of love and affection kiss. You didn’t know if he could do such things, probably not, but for some reason everything felt so good and right. Like all your worries and insecurities vanished the moment his lips met yours. “Are you sure you want this? I don’t want you to regret anything later.” He said against your lips, once again knocking you out of your little bubble. Just by the way he said that, you knew he wanted that moment to arrive just as much as you did. The only thing you could do was nod in agreement, your legs already feeling like jelly. 

 “I can’t hold it anymore, come here.” He said pulling you this time into a rough kiss full of hunger. You both kissed roughly as he tried to figure out where to place his hands. You both started to remove your clothes as you walked back to the bed without breaking the kiss. You ran into the edge of the bed and landed there with Xiaojun on top of you. He then started to trail wet kisses all over your body. He stopped some time on your breasts giving them the same attention and making you a moaning mess already. “That’s it honey, call my name.” He said as he kept trailing kisses down your stomach. He looked at you before removing it asking you for permission to do so. You just nodded and right after that, he pulled your panties down, throwing them in some spot of the room. He was about to taste you when you stopped him. “Just skip that part and get on me already Xiaojun.” You begged him, making him harder. Seeing you all needy drove him crazy and he couldn’t help rejecting your suggestion of skipping all the foreplays. With a smirk on his face he slowly pulled down his underwear teasing you. “Just get it off already!” You said annoyed. He chuckled at your begs. “You look so freaking cute when you are all needy and you beg me to get in you. I could get used to it” He said smirking and getting on top of you once again. He placed his hard member on your entrance and as he kissed you so you wouldn’t moan too loud to reveal your little secret he pulled it in. “Shit, (Y/N) you’re so wet and it entered so well. It feels so good.” He groaned as he slowly pulled into you. You both tried to moan as low as you could but you couldn’t hold your volume much when he started moving faster. You perfectly knew everyone knew what you both were doing but you were too occupied looking at Xiaojun right in his eyes to care about others. Xiaojun loved the fact that you kept eye contact with him and when he could press his forehead with yours as he pounded into you he knew he would never regret the worst sin he was committing. His thrusts started to get harder and deeper as you moaned his name and begged him for more. After a few more thrusts he started hitting your sweet spot perfectly making you gasp. Your walls tightened around his member which got even harder to the sudden feeling of your tightness. “God, you’re so tight. If you keep tightening, I won't be able to last much longer.” He said, a loud groan escaping his lips. You both were close and even if it were hard for both of you to keep eye contact you did your best to do so. He pressed his lips against yours knowing how loud you could get when you reached your orgasm and even though he knew the entire floor of the laboratory heard you both already, he still wanted to hide your moans. “Let’s do it together (Y/N).” He whispered as his thrusts started to get sloppier due to how close to his orgasm he was. After a few more thrusts you both came together and he landed next to you on the bed exhausted. 

After some minutes of both of you trying to catch your breaths he finally spoke up. “You liked it?” He asked, facing you. “Are you kidding me? It was amazing.” You said caressing his cheek. “You know I just got in big trouble, right?” He said, still not believing he had the courage to break the most important rule. “Screw him up.” You suddenly said, making him look at you with confused eyes. “God, screw God up. I don’t care what his stupid rules say.” You said, explaining yourself to gain an even more confused look from the guardian angel. “You know I will probably get kicked out, right?” He said, slight signs of concern appearing on his gleaming eyes. “I know… Just live in the name of love from now on instead of living in the name of God.” You said. He was not expecting you to say such things but he was slightly relieved that you thought like that. “If we’re lucky, he’ll kick you out and we'll finally be able to leave this laboratory and live the life we always dreamt about.” You added laughing, gaining a soft giggle from the boy as well. 

You couldn’t tell if you’ll be able to live a normal life from now on. You don’t even know what the consequences of breaking that specific rule will be, but if you’re sure about something is that it doesn’t matter how hardships you have to go through that as long as your heart and Xiaojun’s beat in the name of love, you will always overvcome them.

[raventrigonsdaughter]

Im still trying to understand how people liked gwenpool x quentin, judge me if you want but wtf even was that ship, was i supposed to root for them, supposed to like Quentin more for, idk, getting with my girl during one of her worst runs? Felt fake and shallow af to me, what i need to know is what exactly did the writters expect me to think about this pairing... no hate to the people who actually ship it, it's just that it was very eeeeeeeeeehhhhhhh to me... even cecil would probably have more chemistry with gwen if he was still around, hell gwen had more chemistry with Sarah the Terrible Eye and Officer Gray in her first run and all the three of them are pretty much forgotten until the next gwenpool comic says so lmao, is it just me? No seriously, what exactly am i missing on Quentin and gwen's relationship? Because to me felt like putting a bi bad bitch with the blandest edgy wanna be teen they could find

[tailsimp]

The thing that fudementslly worries me with the "Adrien is a Sentimonster" thing is that I think that will be used as a means for the narrative to forgive Hawkmoth.

I've always worried that the show doesn't see Gabriel as abusive or even neglectful to Adrien. He's portrayed more as a misguided and one-minded asshole who deep down loves his son without knowing how to show it. But as many people agree he is far worse than that and is at best extremely emotionally neglectful to Adrien and at worst outright emotionally abusive (and sometimes physically abusive depending on thr timeline.) I think most ppl can agree that the way Gabriel treats Adrien as an object is awful and no one ever has a right to see and treat their child that way- trauma about losing ur wife or not.

Buuuuuuut. If you make it so that Adrien was a sentimonster the whole time, the show now has an excuse for Gabriel to see him initially as something he owns. Something to command when it gets disobedient. Something that he doesnt really need to consider the thoughts and feelings of.

With that angle it becomes real easy for the narritive to try to lessen the way Gabriel treats Adrien by framing it as him not knowing any better. And then the show can have a big moment where he realizes and apologizes and go "see? he really did love his son deep down all along!"

And I am just. So worried that the writters will take that chance to... Not "redeem" Gabriel, but at least make him look "not so bad" and lessen everything Adrien has gone thru.

[reynaruina]

3 & 31 for the little monsters stuff, then 15, 27, 35 for anything

3. Do you have a favorite scene you’ve written from [LM AU] story/chapter?  Well I did not write much for the Little Monsters au, most if it was all written by @jkl-fff and I mostly added the art/did the asks. But for what I did write, I really like this scene: (It's part of a longer rant, and no, you get no context)

"Also, you don‘t get to decide where Dipper’s interest lies and what he decides to do with his body and his impulses. I don’t get to do that either, all I get to do when he comes to me saying in his incredibly adorable voice and extremely kissable face “Hey Bill, there’s a couple guys in my school I have the hots for, and I kinda would like to try and see if they wanna have some casual sex with me maybe? C-can I do that, are you ok with that?” is say “Baby, so long you all want it and you’re safe with it go FUCKING NUTS! You don’t need my permission, I am no boss of yours! All I’m here for is to love you, and make you happy, for as long as you let me!” "

31. What was the development process of [LM AU] like? 

Oh Jesus Christ, it was anything but smooth. I mean, it was kinda smoother than what I'm going thru w my current project but still, there was a lot of brainstorming back n fort with my co-writter about how to best handle the situations we were putting the characters on, and also had to keep cherry-picking the asks that best helped progress the story in the way we wanted...it wasn't easy. Worst part of it is that a lot of the worldbuilding and plans we hadm we talked about them on Tumblr chat back before either of us moved to Discord, forgot to cpy and save the ideas, and now it's impossible to scroll back up and find all of it...so once I'm done w my current Au and decide to go back to that, on top of finding a way to rebuild most of the story into a functioning blog that wn't get taken down yet again we're gonna have to replan everything. Not excited about all of that, tbh x.x

15. What is the fanfic you’ve written that you’re most proud of?  It usually happens to eb the last thing I wrote. Going back to old writings is hard sometimes for me, I keep seeing things I wish I changed and my enjoymed of it diminishes. Despite that, right now, my fave thing is probably this. It feels like it has the best structure of all my fics so far.

27. What time of day do you prefer to write?

Late at night, lying in bed, in my phone, right before sleep. Don't ask why, but it's when I can write my best.

35. Where’s your favorite place to write? 

Bed, but can't for long periods of time. I write while lying flat on my stomach and face to one side, and can't maintian that position for long before something starts to fall asleep, either a bodypart of my whole me.

[wings-of-a-storm]

So I'd like to share my biggest fear, I'm 98% that Victor will choose Benji,however if he chooses/ends up with Rahim, I'm afraid the show's runners decides to forget Benji. I love his character, I feel like the problems that he has (unfortunelly) SO MANY teens can relate. The drinking to forget the problems, to tried to hide, it's so dangerous but so necessary to talk about. I want to see B story,all of it, if the writters delivers that to us, I'm gonna be okay with whoever is behind the door!

Hi Anon!

Fears are the worst. I think we'll be okay though. Or maybe I am just being way too naive and optimistic...

Just from an investment perspective, I think it would be strange to throw Benji/George away completely after all the time put into publicity with him. George is even on magazine covers with Michael (and billboards) to promote the show and all. If there are no contract disputes, I can't see why the show wouldn't try to still use George in some way because of all that association built up.

From a writing perspective, I think a lot of us can see the potential for further Benji plot. Irregardless of Victor and his choice, the writers have set up multiple talking points about Benji's past that can easily be further explored, like the examples you listed.

And from a thematic perspective, permanently phasing out an established LGBTQ+ character (especially one involved with the main protagonist), wouldn't really be a smart move on their end. The writers have mentioned before how they want to give LGBTQ+ audiences the stories we rarely get to see in more hetero-centric media, so to then just throw away one of their main LGBTQ+ characters without exploring further things with him in some way would be so odd and counterproductive to their goals.

In the end, like you Anon, if we get to see even more exploration of Benji's past and present in future seasons, I will be more than happy. He is such a fascinating character, for me. :)