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[literarybaby]

challengers inspired rp plots!

hi everyone! i am not sure if i am alone in this but i have been having deep, deep challengers brainrot. so i thought i would take the opportunity to share some tennis-themed/challengers-inspired plot bunnies with you. with a couple of these, i’ve had the absolute pleasure of playing out or at least, brainstorming with some of my current writing partners.

all titles are from the soundtrack - ty trent r & divider is by @cafekitsune

some of these have more darker and mature themes, but can be adapted to work at any level. all of these can be adapted to work with any pairing as well. and probably sport — if you squint. 

if you’re interested, feel free to reach out about any of these if you'd like to write together.

also feel free to take them and make them your own! enjoy!

𝐋𝐔𝐋𝐋𝐀𝐁𝐘

muse a is a young rising star in tennis (think tashi in the first half of the movie). they are on everyone’s radar as the one to go down in history and join the ranks of the past greats. adidas already has them in a campaign. and soon, they’re probably going to turn their whole family into millionaires. however, during a game, they suffer a traumatic and freak injury which looks like it will derail their entire career. muse a is devastated as everything they’ve ever wanted or worked for will come to an end. enter muse b — an older, successful surgeon — who decides to help a depressed and lost muse a. fixing broken body parts is part of their job and they are able to do so easily. even kinder, they support muse a through their recovery and physical therapy. unbeknownst to muse a and everyone in their lives, muse b has been grooming them — giving them treatment beyond what a medical professional should offer. this leads to muse a entering into a relationship with muse b where the power dynamic is totally whack. with muse a recovering and being back on their game, they feel they totally owe it all to muse b’s god hands and want to pay them back with any means necessary. 

𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐒 / 𝐑𝐄𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐒

muse a and muse b are the perfect tennis doubles tennis partners. so much so, they have corny nicknames like fire and ice. they are best friends, practice partners, and have long shared history. optional: muse a can be more a technically perfect player and muse b is pure, raw talent. unbeknownst to muse b, muse a has been hopelessly in love with them the entire time but is in the closet/in denial. when muse b starts to cluelessly date someone (optional: muse c if you want mumu), muse a is jealous and their friendship slowly starts to deteriorate with muse b frustrated and confused why this is happening. skip a few years, muse a and muse b find themselves on opposite sides of the net as the biggest rivals in tennis. years of resentment, avoidance, and pressure have culminated in this moment. should they repair their relationship? will they ever talk about it? maybe there’s still a chance or will someone end up hurt again?

𝐘𝐄𝐀𝐇 𝐗 𝟏𝟎

muse a is an older and seasoned tennis veteran. truthfully, they aren’t as good as they used to be and are on the verge of retirement. they decide that this tournament(possibly set at wimbledon?)will be their last and they’ll retire after regardless of the outcome. but during, they meet the young muse b — someone spunky and maybe they have a bad temper like john mcenroe — but they’re not like anyone else muse a has ever met. they challenge them. they intrigue them. however, this romance comes at the worst time as muse b desperately wants to win the tournament and this is a bit of a distraction. so should muse a and muse b embrace the distraction and get caught up in the whirlwind of things, despite knowing love means absolutely nothing in tennis. 

𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐏𝐏𝐄𝐑

muse a is a down-on-their-luck tennis player. they’re definitely not a ranked player or really famous at all, but this is all they know. they’re still good, and believe they have in them to win a grand slam or a major tournament, despite their age and more importantly, their financial situation. sometimes they are sleeping in their car if they can’t afford a motel on tour, but sometimes, they get even more desperate — which is how they found muse b, on tinder, swiping right on literally everyone until they get a match. muse b thinks they’re going on a date with a professional athlete but little do they know, muse a is flat broke and is only with them for a hot meal and a warm bed. should muse b figure this out? or maybe as they go on the date, both muses feel a connection — does that mean muse a will come clean with their intentions? or will muse b be saddled with supporting muse a’s broke ass? 

𝐋’𝐎𝐄𝐔𝐅

muse a is a young and naive tennis player from a small town/country. they come from a nice, wholesome family. being a professional athlete was sort of by chance too, so they have absolutely know idea how to navigate the pressurized world of fame and fortune. fortunatelyor unfortunately, they get help from muse b — a cut-throat, smart, and cunning sports agent. muse b is able to set muse a up with an fancy apartment, good sponsorship deals, hefty contracts, and soon become the voice of reason for muse a. muse b is determined to guide muse a to the big star lights and away from their country mouse past. it gets to the point where muse a can’t do anything without muse b. will muse a ever get away from muse b? or will muse b abuse their power? could involve isolating them from their family, controlling their spending, and even baby-trapping them.

𝐁𝐑𝐔𝐓𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐙𝐄𝐑

muse a is retired professional tennis player and decides become a instructor at a fancy, schmancy country club. they decided to take this job not because for the love of the sport, but to further themselves as the club is crawling with unsuspecting rich people with good connections just waiting to be made. muse a meets muse b, a naive, rich kid who takes tennis lessons. they get on really well and decide to bring muse a to meet their family. through a series of carefully crafted lies, muse a and b get closer and closer until they’re in a relationship. muse b starts asking their parents to get muse a better job, better clothes, and ultimately, a better life. but what happens when someone or something from muse a’s past comes rearing its ugly head and threatens to expose and break this carefully plotted dream life? does muse a confess to muse b, or does muse b dump them? or is muse a crazy enough to keep lying to keep muse b and their perfect new life theirs for good?

"𝐈 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖"

muse a is a professional tennis player who seems like they have the perfect life. they’re winning, rich, have a partner who is possibly their coach, and even a child. little does everyone know, it’s not all roses on the inside. their partner is cheating on them and it’s really throwing off all the other parts of their life — especially their game. so they decide to cheat too, with muse b — someone who isn’t part of this crazy tennis world. immediately, it’s steamy and exciting having an affair. it really jumpstarts muse a’s attitude and they start winning again. when muse a’s partner (could even be a muse c) finds out, they could hardly care less and is happy that something is finally getting muse a motivated again. but muse b isn’t satisfied with just being a secret, not when they play such a pivotal role in muse a’s life. maybe they decide to expose muse a and their partner? or maybe they threaten to leave? or maybe they try to navigate this as a threesome?

𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐒𝐄𝐓

muse a is a successful, professional tennis player. they’re winning tournaments. they’re living their best life on the ATP/WTA tour. being on the road is great but is a bit lonely sometimes despite all the cool sponsorship parties and galas. dating is too hard too, as it’s difficult to stay connected within all these time zones and from all these far away places. instead, they use an expensive celebrity escort service and meet muse b. muse b can quell the sting of loneliness on the road and it’s low commitment — only calling them up when they’re in town. however, this last time leads to muse b getting pregnant accidentally. now muse a has to decide if they want to step up to the plate and be a parent, and if they do, how do they explain how they met their partner to the press?bonus points ifmuse bhas slept with other tennis players and their services are not a well-kept secret.

[sanctissimx]

get to know the mun ! repost, don’t reblog.

——— BASICS ! ♡

NICKNAME : Saint !

PRONOUNS : they/them !

ZODIAC SIGN : Cancer sun, Aquarius Moon, Gemini rising

TAKEN OR SINGLE : single parent to a sweet himbo cat, adopted parent to Hawk's shitty cat son and adorable booger princess daughter

ANYTHING ELSE? : uppity Southeast Asian danger queer who talks too much shit for someone wearing pastels, except I can fight. And bake.

——— THREE SERIOUS FACTS ! ♡

Quality of writing is all I really care about, so if I followed you, it's because I want your writing on my dash !

I am not here to be normal about ur muse. I want to know everything about them, I need to know them profoundly so I can love them in the waythey deserve !

I don't require constant activity of my partners in terms of replies. Sometimes life is too much to be able to get in a writing headspace, and that's totally fine! I love talking about our muses even when we can't write, and I have no problem writing drabbles or fics whenever I can for my partners, just so we can have content !

——— THREE RANDOM FACTS ! ♡

I can sing in like ... 20 languages?

I am obsessed with stars and moons, and got stars tattoed on my hands for my birthday IT SUCKED

I once picked up a huge dirt disc that looked like it had constellation patterns in it and held it up for my classmates to see. My chem teacher said, "that's a cow pie," and I got so flustered i dropped it on my foot and it shattered

——— EXPERIENCE ! ♡

I got into RP because my best friend wanted a dedicated RP partner on tumblr, and I decided to do it with zero writing experience. I've been stuck here ever since.

I'm really blessed to have writing partners I've been mutuals with for years (momo is the longest at 8 at this point). I'm pretty loyal to writing partners, so if we connect once, we connect like through time and space and beyond the confines of mortal comprehension, so I'm never forgetting you, sorry

Plotting is a must on this blog, unfortunately. I struggle to just wing it, and do need some basis of understanding about your muse's personality and motivations in order to feel comfy about writing something successful for you.

Please also do not feel shy about plotting ! I like to think I'm good at leading the plotting if you're not comfortable with it. I'll always ask clarifying questions about your muse, and offer suggestions for a plot/verse,etc. I just need you to be open to communicating answers !

I've had extremely possessive RP partners in the past who have been emotionally abusive to me on personal levels, and I can be quick to nope out if I feel like people are getting weird, even just postig on dash

I have no issue approaching first for interaction, but if there's no reciprocation, I'll probably never approach again LKSJDHFLJSDF my anxiety will just assume you're not interested

——— MUSE PREFERENCE ! ♡

My muse type is typically "chaotic bisexual who loves their wife of any gender" and that's really the only fact anyone needs to know about me

I also generally love writing emotionally intelligent characters, and conversely the worst people you've ever met?? The psychological aspect of writing is arguably one of the reasons I love writing, so I'm ready to yap about any of these muses

Like 85% of my muse lists end up being male muses, but I really love writing female muses and especially wlw !

I write top-leaning switches and am rabid about writing with other switches. Share the love, you know? Battle for dominance with ur mouths and whatnot ... throw each other around ....

I do tend to take up characters for friends, so that's also the reason for the stupid range of idiots I take up

——— FLUFF / ANGST / SMUT ! ♡

FLUFF : I love fluff! But there has to be a balance, as with anything. Fluff is great because it's usually vulnerability between two people who trust each other enough to be soft ! But building up to that trust is important ( and challenging that trust ...)

ANGST : I adore angst but I need to build up to it— set the stage, watch it crash, pick up the pieces, then aftercare. For the muses. And me lskdjhflksjhdljsf I'M SENSITIVE

SMUT : I fucking love smut in the sense that it's an expression of muse chemistry and history, but I don't do it often only because it requires way too much brain power and life's got me fatigued. Unfortunately, I'm a bit of a sloot when I get comfortable enough to smut, so I probably go a little overboard, and you're not allowed to look at me or perceive me when I do lkjsdhflksjhdljshf

PLOT / MEMES : PLOTTING, PLEASE! I like to get comfortable with my knowledge of your muse, but more importantly, I want to lose my mind over them. As for memes, I tend to go overboard with memes, and everyone's free to continue them or not. I'll say I write my best memes with at least a little discussion beforehand. I generally don't send memes in unless I have a decent idea of who you'd want to interact with because I'm weirdly anxious about it

TAGGED BY : idr, it's been in my drafts for a hot minute ... TAGGING : (my mains and newest mutuals) @telndas ! @infernaelis! @tearenola ! @tragedicn ! @xianqu ! @morrias ! @bearratic ! @kaerinio ! @yishuns ! @sil3nth1lls !

[minediamonds]

Okay so I have tons of drafts, but not tons of muse. TLDR version: I will possibly drop some drafts after I do some today, muse and energy depending. <3

Also, still insecure RP-wise, so if anyone can spare some positivity, I'd appreciate it <3

The longer version is: I have 100+ drafts and don't know when or if my muse for some of them will return. So...what I'm going to do is I'm going to go through my drafts and queue some responses. Then, when I'm done, I will go through my drafts and drop some that I don't know when the muse will return. However, me dropping a draft does NOT equal dropping the relationship/connection between our muses. It just means I no longer have inspiration for that particular interaction.

Also, I'm still feeling insecure RP-wise, and I'm trying not to worry about it too much, as that tends to make the insecurities worse. I just feel really blah tbh, and don't know what will improve these blah feelings. I keep losing mutuals, and never having a clue as to why. That, and I genuinely have threads with so many people who are no longer following and so I'm just like "to reply or not to reply? That is the question." I guess I'll just reply when I have the muse (if I have the muse) and see what happens. But it's hard.

Not gonna lie, I'm probably going to go lower activity on this blog, at least once I get my drafts to a more manageable level. I don't want anyone to feel obligated to follow me or anything, of course not. I just...do people not want to follow me? And if so, why? These are the questions that have been haunting me. And the worst part is, I'll probably never have satisfactory answers to either of these questions. So I just need to find a way of moving on.

I really don't want to dwell on this, honestly. But sometimes my insecurities get to me and I feel like I'm a bad RPer and writer and that everyone could easily replace me with someone better. Idk how to get rid of these feelings, but I want to. I don't want them to ruin my experience in the RPC.

Obviously, I can't control what others do, only what I do. And some may say "just stop overthinking it" , "don't worry about it you're fine" etcetera. But to me, the more people unfollow, the more I'm convinced that my insecurities are right. And this is NOT me saying people don't have the right to unfollow me, of course they do. Everyone has to curate their dash in the way that's best for them. I get it. I bear them no ill will, really. I just wish there was a way I could feel more secure in the mutuals and followers I do have, because I do genuinely appreciate every single one. But ever since I moved, I've been feeling this way (and before the move too). I genuinely want to move on but then....I lose another follower/mutual and the insecurities rear their ugly head again.

I guess, what I'm saying is that I just want to feel more secure in my place in the RPC. That people genuinely want to write with me, etcetera. And I don't know how that's going to happen. I don't have all the answers, as much as I wish I did.

Also, obviously there are plenty of reasons for people to unfollow that don't equal "me sucking at RPing". But because of my insecurities, I tend to assume that the worst case scenario is the truth, even if I know it's likely more complex than I'm giving it credit for. I don't know why I have these insecurities on my RP blog, as I genuinely don't care when someone unfollows my personal. I just do whatever I want on there. But somehow, I have myself convinced that if people unfollow me in the RPC, it can only mean that I'm a terrible RP partner and not...you know....1000000000000000 other things it could mean.

If anyone can spare any positive energy or thoughts my way, I would appreciate it. Truly. <3

And just know, that if we're mutuals, ILY and want to write with you and am just waiting for my drafts to get more under control if we haven't written yet. <3 But still, feel free to send memes. I'm always accepting them <3

[adversitybloomed]

HAPPY NEW YEARS !!

I just wanted to take a moment to wish everyone well wishes, prosperity and good health as we enter into 2024 ! I want to thank you all for being here & helping me to not only hone my muse, but also for being part of my life.

Each & every single one of you are important & I deeply cherish the bonds we have made with one another. I thank you for making 2023 amazing. I thank you for support both Mulan & myself as we journey & thread throughout the year.

I also want to take a moment to welcome my newcomers ! I see you, I appreciate your support & I look forward to getting to know you in 2024 !

I would also like to make a few shout outs to a few of my RL besties who have stuck by my side & whom I love & cherish deeply.

@battleguqin - Nyx, you are legit one of the most pure souls I have ever met. You are like a sister to me and one of my ride or die’s that I cherish so much. Thank you so much for making my 2023 magical. Thank you so much for the most amazing plotting, threads & feels. Thanks for being my rock and being the starlight to my sunshine. There is just so much more I want to thank you for, but we will be here until 2025 with how much good I wanna say about you ! I really hope you realize how much you mean to me & I look forward to everything that 2024 has to offer to us.

@sparesovereign - Raven, my GOAT, my ride or die, buddy. You legit are another one of my rocks that I cherish so much. I love you like a sister, and I am so grateful that I met you. I am so grateful for the feels our muses bring to us. I am so glad you found your mojo again and are back stronger than ever. Thank you so much for always being here. Thank you so much for making 2023 amazing. I really can’t wait to cause more chaos with you come 2024 !!

@incissam & @princessofmuses - Dani & Beth. You both are legit my sisters who adapted me 10+ years ago & have seen me both at my best & worst. You know I love you both right ? I know you might question why I put you both together, but considering I can’t really live & thrive without you both, & could go on a full on complementary spree only to have you both telling me to shush, I thought it would be for the best. I really look forward to entering into 2024 with you both & I hope you know that you both saved me. Love you both & let’s cause more chaos together soon !

@ka-go-me - Meaghan, thank you so much for legit always being here. I legit adore our muses together, as they have the bond of sisterhood - & I love talking to you so much. You always make me smile, your headcanon’s are so amazing & we seem, like our muses, to always be on the same wavelength. I am so grateful to have you in my life & I look forward to continue to have you going into 2024 !

@caracarnn & @luckhissoul - Fish & Liz, I am so mad at you both for making me fall in love with your boys, like so rude ! Jk, I adore you both so much. I love your boys. I love your writing & the feelings you both give me in threads ! I love when I get to talk to you both OOC wise & I am so utterly grateful to be able to have you as my writing partners - even if you make me cry with feels. I really look forward to having more with you both in 2024 !!

I also want to give credit to a few more, but I don’t want to take up the whole dash: @peculiarbeauty , @cuckoo-among-beasts , @orangeshinigami , @fighterbound , @pactclawed , @pctaldrunk , @seachant , @ssolessurvivor , @dreams-of-fate , @lianhuaes , @thuganomxcs , @luposcainus , @valorums , @penddraig - all of you, I want to thank you so much for being here, for letting me love on your muses & being your rp partner. I really enjoy talking to you OOC wise & look forward to seeing what we can come up with in together 2024 !

Once again, happy new years to everyone. Please stay safe & healthy ! Please know that I cherish you all, & if I missed anyone it wasn’t on purpose but because I am running out of writing space. Each of you are so special & honestly, you really help make the each passing year so special !

[grlhood]

SHIPPING INFO. answer the following for your muse(s) so people know how shipping works on your blog.

what’s your OTP for your muse(s) ?

i   have   a   LOT   of   muses   so   my   otps   are   endless,   tho   i   elymei   will   always   be   on   top   for   me,   but   a   second   best   would   be   songlema.   for   hsr   i'm   a   sucker   for   fu   xuan   x   jing   yuan   or   stelle   x   firefly.   as   for   genshin   and   zzz   ...   i   don't   really   care   ?   as   long   as   the   muses   have   chemistry   themselves   idc   about   if   it's   canon   or   not,   i'll   just   roll   with   whatever   my   partner   is   feeling   !

what are you willing to RP when it comes to shipping ?

anything   that   isn't   in   my   banned   list   or   something   i've   personally   said   i'm   not   comfortable   with   -   i'm   pretty   open   to   exploring   new   things   be   it   in   ships   or   writing   in   general,   so   as   long   as   both   parties   are   comfortable   and   have   given   explicit   consent   to   what's   being   written   !

how large does the age gap have to be to make it uncomfortable ?

since   i   don't   have   set   ages   for   my   characters,   age   gaps   can   be   very   tricky   to   discuss   ...   normally   my   rule   is   nothing   beyond   5   years,   like   for   example:   my   character   is   25,   the   youngest   i'd   ship   with   said   character   would   be   20   and   the   oldest   would   be   30   ...   but   even   then   i'd   rather   have   the   youngest   be   21   /   22   and   the   older   be   27   at   best   ...   so   tbh   it   depends   on   the   ages   of   the   characters   and   who   i'm   shipping   with,   bcus   if   i'm   shipping   with   a   close   friend,   i   won't   mind   if   the   age   gab   is   a   lil   bigger   yk   ?

are you selective when shipping ?

honestly   no   ...   i   came   from   another   rpc   where   ships   would   already   be   established   or   assumed   in   open   starters   and   threads   which   made   me   very   open   to   shipping   in   general.   so   as   long   as   we're   mutuals   i'm   very   willing   to   ship   !

how far do steamy moments have to go before they’re considered NSFW ?

if   there's   foreplay   or   like.   explicit   teasing   involved   yk   ?   like   the   moment   that   hand   slips   close   to   the   crotch   that's   when   i'm   putting   down   the   u.sfw   tag

who are other muses you ship your muse with ?

again,   my   roster   is   huuuuuuge,   so   tbh   i'm   open   to   any   and   every   ship.   tho   i'll   try   to   let   my   partner   know   in   case   i'm   not   feeling   a   particular   ship   or   if   i   wish   to   take   it   to   another   direction   -   also,   since   all   of   my   muses   are   afab   i   do   lean   a   little   more   towards   wlw   ships   BUT   i   am   open   to   f   x   m   or   f   x   nb   !!!   just   ask   tell   me   which   muses   you   wanna   ship   and   i'll   see   what   i   can   do   <3

does one have to ask to ship with you?

just   hmu   saying   hey   i   think   [specific   ship/characters]   should   kiss   and   i'll   be   like   bet   and   that's   how   u   start   shipping   w   me   <3

how often do you like to ship ?

as   much   as   possible   <3   WSEDRFTGYHUJI   like   i'm   a   firm   believe   of   people   change   people   therefore   i   love   shipping   and   seeing   what   the   characters   can   do   for   each   other   in   the   best   and   worst   ways

are you multiship ?

in   every   possible   way   <3   the   beauty   of   multiship   (to   me)   is   that   no   interpretation   of   the   same   muse   will   ever   be   equal,   meaning   despite   shipping   with   the   same   characters   over   and   over   won't   be   boring   bcus   the   directions   in   which   every   ship   can   go   are   endless   !   so,   in   short,   yes   i   am   <3   and   this   also   means   i   don't   practice   ship   exclusivity   !

are you ship obsessed or ship more-or-less ?

definitely   leaning   towards   ship   obsessed,   it's   not   the   focus   of   this   blog   ofc   but   i   will   always   love   writing   shippy   things   <3

what is your favorite ship in your current fandom ?

the   ones   i've   already   stated   WSEDRFTGYHU   honestly   i'm   not   insane   about   canon   ships   if   i   have   to   be   honest   ...   like   i'll   mind   my   business   and   if   i   find   characters   worthy   of   shipping   then   i'll   ship   them   lowkey   -   unless   we're   besties   with   the   same   interests,   then   u   won't   hear   the   end   of   it   !

finally, how does one ship with you ?

just   hmu   saying   u   wanna   ship   and   from   there   we'll   have   thousands   of   unfinished   threads,   billions   of   headcanons,   lots   of   sharing   posts   /   art   of   said   ship/s   and   if   i'm   not   lazy   maybe   even   a   lil   p.interest   board   ...   no   playlist   bcus   i'm   highly   selective   of   my   music   in   general   </3

tagged by: stole it from @halovien <3 tagging: anyone that wants to do this !

[daybreakrising]

SHIPPING INFO. Answer the following for your muse(s) so people know how shipping works on your blog.

What’s your OTP for your Muse(s)?

i absolutely cannot say i have one ship that i favour over any others for any of my muses. do i have ships that i am occasionally more feral over? yes, absolutely, but that is always down to ongoing discussions, plotting, etc with my ship partner(s), and it doesn't mean another of my ships isn't going to take the Feral Spot in a couple of days.

also, having one favourite is just boring and restricting. going feral over multiple ships is way more fun.

What are you willing to RP when it comes to shipping?

asides from the obvious themes and tropes which i shouldn't have to list but will anyway (age inappropriate, teacher/student, incest, dub/non-con, a/b/o, etc), i'm fairly open to a lot of things - my only condition is that things have to be discussed. i can't jump into a ship without at least establishing the basics, because i don't auto-ship even if i already enjoy the idea of a ship between those characters.

How large does the age gap have to be to make it uncomfortable?

as already said above, age inappropriate ships are a big no. minors are only shipped with minors of the same age range and only in a light way, and i refuse to "age up" anyone for the sake of shipping.

but in regards to the adult muses, generally it depends on a few factors. for example: general setting of canon, the species' involved, etc. when you write characters who are thousands of years old, age gaps don't really mean the same thing. in that case, as long as the characters involved are of similar emotional maturity, i'm fine with it.

Are you selective when shipping?

yes, absolutely. i have to be comfortable with the other person (or people, if we're doing poly ships) as well as comfortable with the ship itself, and there has to be chemistry between both muns and muses, otherwise it's... just not going to work. i also want to avoid being 'collected' for shipping, because i actually like to develop deep and complex dynamics with people and not just empty ships based solely on aesthetics.

How far do steamy moments have to go before they’re considered NSFW?

if you're going into detail, that's too far. it's really that simple. suggestive elements, insinuations, implied actions, they're all safe. but if you're giving a blow-by-blow (pun intended) explanation of what's going on..... yeah, that needs the tag.

Who are other muses you ship your muse with?

gestures at all of my ships ????? i ship my muses with whoever i end up shipping them with. i don't have expectations for ships, and i actually treasure the ones that spring from absolutely nowhere.

Does one have to ask to ship with you?

yes, absolutely. i don't auto-ship and i need to actually know you want to ship bc i'm not psychic and i won't make assumptions based on "hints" bc i probably won't pick up on them in the first place. be direct. the worst that'll happen is i'll say no.

How often do you like to ship?

how often is a weird question tbh. i ship when i ship ??? i do enjoy shipping and developing those bonds, but there's not like... a set pace to how often i like to ship. it's not my focus for writing here. i suppose once i have a ship going, i do like to delve into it as often as possible, whether that's through actual writing or just discussing the dynamic with the relevant people.

Are you multiship?

of course! i like to be open to all kinds of dynamics! however i am very selective on which dynamics i'll pursue more than one iteration of - they generally have to be different enough from one another that there's no chance of overlap or reusing of elements or ideas, and i won't ever do more than 2-3 of the same combination for that reason. for the most part, a number of my ships are unofficially exclusive in that regard (but not actually exclusive - yet). any ships that are a combination of characters you'd never normally think to throw together generally fall under that category.

Are you ship obsessed or ship more-or-less?

neither? i'm not ship obsessed because i'm not here just to write ships, but i do really enjoy writing and developing those dynamics when they come along. so... somewhere in between, i guess??

What is your favorite ship in your current fandom?

gestures at my blog: see my current ships. they're all my favourites. all of them.

Finally, how does one ship with you?

talk to me. see potential between our muses? have an idea you want to explore? we did a stupid crack thing as a joke but actually now that you think about it, wouldn't that be a fun dynamic to develop seriously? hop into those dms and tell me because as i said earlier, i'm not psychic. i can't read your mind and know that's what you want. please help out a socially inept idiot like me and just tell me you want to ship. chances are, i'll be up for it.

Tagged by: @apocryphis (thank u <3) Tagging: @iniziare, @delusionaid, @ofpathos / whatever blog you wanna do it on myrd, @ccaptain & anyone who wants to steal it

[styxisms]

☠ What does someone have to do for an instant unfollow from you?

♥ What's the WORST thing that has happened to you rp wise?

❀ What has made you completely lose your chill?

✿ What do you think about public call out posts?

♒ Thoughts on the fandom you're currently rping in?

the salty af munday meme / @deathsmaidens

☠ What does someone have to do for an instant unfollow from you?

Aside from the obvious stuff like being toxic or bigoted, it's usually them just hating on something I like lol.

♥ What's the WORST thing that has happened to you rp wise?

Hm. I have had my fair share of awful things. MOST of them happened before I ever came to tumblr. I think the worst was me being bullied as a teenager in the fb rp scene into having such a bad panic attack that I actually fainted lmao. I was in an rp group and they expected me to be available 24/7. They would harass me when I was doing school work or doing anything irl. And I had worked really hard to get into this group and was super socially isolated irl due to being home schooled so it was my first real intro to interacting with other teenagers in a big social media setting like that. they went from saying i was lying about my mental health issues to telling me i needed to be put in a home lmao. it was WILD. in the same community i had a dude pretend to kill himself because he was trying to get with a bunch of girls and these people treated shipping like dating irl. it was legit so yikes. this dude pretended one account was his brother and kept this lie that he ended his own life because these online girls rejected him for a good 6 months. Anyway, once i discovered tumblr i got tf away from that shit for good lol

❀ What has made you completely lose your chill?

I am very very difficult to make lose my chill. The biggest thing is when someone is treating my friends poorly. I have had to see a lot of my closest friends and rp partners get gaslit and manipulated by toxic rp partners and really have to hold myself back from going apeshit on them. I had one specific person that I legit had to BLOCK because i knew I was going to explode on them. and that was sorta recent.

✿ What do you think about public call out posts?

I know why they are needed sometimes. The person that hurt me the worst had one, and i trusted him when he told me it was all bullshit. Big fucking mistake. Granted the callout didn't touch on the specific stuff he apparently does to everyone and focused on other things that were easy for him to lie about. and then after our falling out, he tried to make a callout about me until i posted the screencaps (he edited the ones he posted) and everyone knew he was full of shit. So on one hand, they are important for some things. On another, they are easy to not help for a skilled manipulator. And at the worst point, they can be used to harass someone with half truths and edited screenshots. HOWEVER, I think if someone is truly harmful then it makes sense. I really wish I had the courage to REALLY warn people about some of the toxic people I knew. But I also know that those people are the people that could manipulate their way out of it. So I think they were good for like... pedo shit and all of that. someone being an awful person with receipts. But a lot of it is interpersonal drama. And even if the person IS abusive, they will probably convince their victims that YOU were the bad one. Still, I do think that warning people about abusive people is an okay thing to do. I think that there is a place for it, but more often than not they tend to be petty. There are a few I have seen that have been HUGE AND AWFUL and some of those even didn't seem to stop the person. So who knows. I see the value but they can also be very harmful. I typically keep anything that isn't actually like illegal (or borderline illegal) and racist/lgbt+phobic/ect private and reach out to people one on one solely because... IDK.

♒ Thoughts on the fandom you're currently rping in?

I am mostly in xiv and persona right now. xiv is my longest single community on here. I have been around in this rpc since november 2019 so i have seen a lot of ups and downs. mostly ups. but DEF some downs too. As for Persona, it's a lovely little space aside from some cliques.

[thaumatology]

Behind the Muse meme.

tagged(sorta) by @esotericjerks

Name: Nate

Age: 27

How old were you when you first started RP-ing: I'm pretty sure I started at 15, maybe 16. (That was a mistake btw, I do not recommend it.)

Height: 6'3"

OC’s or Canons: OCs, though I have a couple OCs who started out as borderline expies of canon characters just because I liked their vibe but I am allergic to actually playing canons because I feel like I will get them wrong.

Prefer to play females or males: I think if you looked at all the characters I have ever created there would probably be a slant towards male, but in terms of my currently active characters it's a pretty even split (though Colin still gets more of my attention than any of the others.)

Favorite faceclaim to play: I don't really use faceclaims, at least not directly. I'll often pick an actor with a similar facial structure to use as a reference when drawing a character from different angles, but I'm usually not trying to recreate them 1 to 1.

Least favorite faceclaim to play: N/A, see above.

Worst RP experience ever: Hard to pick. I've been in a lot of different rp communities and most of them have ended up eventually melting down over some OOC drama and it sucks every time.

Fluff, angst, or smut: Any and all as long as its interesting! (and tbh I'm kind of a sucker for domestic fluff even when its not.)

Most overused FC: I don't engage with the concept enough to know.

First character you ever made: God I don't know. I was making characters years before I ever started rping and I can only remember a fraction of them.

Worst character you ever made: If we're talking in terms of personality and morals then its probably my version of Beelzebub. The man responsible for Colin's birth and childhood is pretty up there too, but he at least had an (arguably) noble goal when he set out, he just lost it in the ends justify the means thinking.

Favorite type of plot: I love long term slowburn shit (not just in terms of shipping) that builds up on stuff established in previous threads over time. In terms of themes I really enjoy taking two characters where at least one of them is initially distrustful and having their relationship build into friends or lovers.

At what time of day is your writing the best?: In terms of actually putting things together, mid day. in terms of coming up with little tweaks that elevate what I've previously written? Just after I go to bed unfortunately.

Are you anything like your muse?: Oh for sure. A lot of my characters get little bits and pieces of my personality through osmosis, and Colin got more than most. In particular one thing I drew heavily on when writing him was how growing up with autism made it really difficult to relate to a lot of the experiences my peers were having, and while he is probably not autistic, he experienced a similar thing due to his condition.

Worst thing about RP (in general or on Tumblr): Imposter syndrome. I will spend like two hours writing up a starter or a reply and think I really cooked with it and then my partner will respond with something that feels like it just completely blows my stuff out of the water. I have to constantly remind myself that if someone is choosing to rp with me it means they probably enjoy my writing.

To end on a good note — best thing about RP?: Meeting people with similar interests and getting to see all of your writing (and especially worldbuilding for those who have it, please share your worlds with me I want to learn about them!!!). So many people here are super talented and creative and it's a joy to get to write with you all.

Tagging: Anyone who sees this and wants to do it!

[esotericjerks]

BEHIND THE MUSE MEME THING

Nobody tagged me, I just saw one and wanted to do it.

Name: Sarah (pronouns are WHATEVER YOU FEEL LIKE CALLING ME, I’m just a freaky sickass little gremlin)

Age: OLD AS FUCK (I was born in the early 1990s)

How old were you when you first started RP-ing: Jeez… eighteen? Nineteen?

Height: Idk like 5’6ish?

OC’s or Canons: OC’s for the most part.

Prefer to play females or males: I’ve mostly played women or vaguely femme genderweird creatures, but I’m not opposed to playing male characters or anything.

Favorite faceclaim to play: I do not choose my RP characters by faceclaim???

Least favorite faceclaim to play: See above

Worst RP experience ever: Okay so one time back when I was first starting out, there was some kid who got VERY attached to me and my character and basically kinda lost it whenever I wrote with anyone else. Early tumblr RP was wild. Like my dude my guy we are strangers on the internet playing make believe, please chill.

Fluff, angst, or smut: ALL

Most overused FC: Idk???

First character you ever made: A terrible Harry Potter OC.

Worst character you ever made: Worst as in “the most poorly written”? See above. Worst as in “this character is an absolute garbage heap of a person”? Gilles. 

Favorite type of plot: iunno, whatever type sounds fun and exciting for me and my RP partner. Depends on a lot. I DO like something with romance, though; I’m shipper trash.

At what time of day is your writing the best?: Probably the morning. I’m a morning person. I like to write while I have my coffee.

Are you anything like your muse?: There are bits and pieces of me in all my characters (except Gilles- fuck that guy). Addie is a baker because I like baking. Alex is a hick because I grew up COUNTRY. Sitri is my fun “gender is dumb I wish I didn’t exist in a stupid flesh prison” outlet. Also I, too, am a Dom vers pervert OOP.

Worst thing about RP (in general or on Tumblr): Trying to match length!!! Sometimes I can write for miles, sometimes I barely manage two sentences. Y’all write such glorious hefty prose, and I struggle to keep up sometimes. (I mostly write poetry aside from this, so blame it on that. Sidenote, who wanna read my weird poems???)

To end on a good note — best thing about RP?: Shamelessly basking in nerdery and making friends with other weirdos!!!

Tagging: ANY OF YOU. ALL OF YOU.

[cosmic-hoboandthehighlander]

20 questions for fic writers

Thanks for tagging me @daddygrandpaandthebeaver yesterday and thanks for the tag today from @babsvibes

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

46, about to be 47

2. What’s your total word count?

236,929

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Bob’s Burgers

I am slowly working on some WWDITS fic as well, but so far nothing has been posted.

I used to write for HP and my work can still be found on ao3.

4. Top 5 fics by kudos

Not counting my co-written fics (because I feel like that doesn’t count since I didn’t write all of it and one of them is a posted RP)

Take a Walk With Me

I Like That Sweater On You

Now I’ve Got It, Do I Want It?

That Over-Hyped Corporate Holiday

Gawky

Just for fun, since all my top fics are HP (I wrote for that fandom longer) I here’s my top Bob’s Burgers fics by kudos!

Wrong

Where You Belong

This Never Happened

Love, Your Sailor

Rainy Day

5. Do you respond to comments?

I try to respond to every single one! I really really appreciate the support from the people who read my fics and a lot of them tend to be mutuals here on tumblr, so it’s nice to know that the people I interact with pretty much daily are enjoying what I put out.

6. What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Never Wanna Say Goodbye

For how much angst I love to write, I hate unhappy endings. This one is ambiguous, I’d say it’s the angstiest ending, even if it’s not the angstiest fic I’ve written. I think.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Never Too Old for a Bedtime Story

In a Lifetime

Probably. I don’t know, my opinion changes a lot. If you would have asked me months ago, I would have had a different answer. These two have endings that make me happy personally, so I choose these.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Yes. Unfortunately this was common while I was part of the HP fandom and one of the reasons I stopped writing and updating several of my fics. I usually delete the worst ones before they even get posted because I have comment moderation on all of the HP fics left on ao3 now. The people in that fandom seem to be very particular about their fics. I don’t want to start discourse or create drama, but I will say that I realized that, especially after TikTok and the marauders fandom exploded, my fics had to meet some kind of invisible standard in order to be considered “good” (aka atyd standard) and it feels as if readers come to expect your work to read like a published for profit book you can buy at Barnes and Noble. Considering you’re not paying me to write fanfiction and I do it not as a career but as a hobby in my limited free time, I don’t think that’s a very fair expectation.

I have never once gotten a hate comment on a single one of my Bob’s Burgers fics though.

9. Do you write smut?

Yes! As an ace person who is generally sex-repulsed when it comes to their own body, this is mostly how I experience it. I know it’s not always everybody’s favorite thing, so I don’t write it into every fic, but my characters do tend to be very sexual (For personal reasons I don’t want to get into my past, though I do want to make it clear that I am not ace because of it, I don’t want anybody thinking trauma leads to asexuality) but I do enjoy both writing and reading a good smut scene.

10. Do you write crossovers?

Not typically. I can’t never figure out how to do it write. Sometimes I’ll write fic based in the universe of another fandom, but I wouldn’t consider that a crossover.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not to my knowledge

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes, back in my HP days my best fandom friend and I co-wrote a series of Snupin fics based on songs from the Lumineers. Another one was an rp from discord that me and my rp partner at the time posted. Other than that, no I have not.

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

Tedmort

Obviously, since I am the (unofficial) tedmort CEO, what did you expect? 😉

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you will?

The Lupin-Snape Family Shitshow (title not permanent)

There is no real title for this because I affectionally have been calling it that since I started writing back in 2021. I wanted as much written as possible before I began posting to ao3, so that’s 77k already written for this mamma jamma! This is a Snupin fic in which Snape and Lupin became best friends after the war, married other people, and ended up cheating on their partners and falling in love.

I doubt I’ll ever finish it, even though I am still very interested in it and really love what I’ve written so far. Unfortunately, I don’t know how well the fandom would accept it (due to the ships and themes of infidelity) and I do not write for the HP fandom any longer. I haven’t even opened this fic since March 2022.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I think I write dialogue fairly well. I come up with some good, interesting ideas even if they don’t get posted. Im good at one shots and the one scene sort of thing - I’m a decent short form writer.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I struggle with connecting the dots between scene a lot, which is why I write a lot of one shots and drabbles. Those are the scenes I wanted to write and if I connect them together, I could make an entire story but I struggle with writing the parts that go in between.

Which is also why I have a hard time finishing longer works because I’ll write the “good stuff” first and struggle with making it into a coherent story that makes sense.

Another weakness is my adhd brain losing interest after I’ve posted a few chapters of a fic and then suddenly never feeling motivated to continue again.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language?

I use google translate because most of the languages I use, I don’t have fandom friends who speak it (to my knowledge?) which can be really tricky and can make things sound off to people who do speak that language.

I can only read, write, and speak in English, unfortunately, so on occasion I’ll write words or phrases into English sentences but not full dialogue.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Twilight, though I only posted one fic in 2009 to Fanfiction.net

Followed by Glee, which is when I actually started writing fanfiction for realsies. Up until that point, I had mostly written original fiction and never posted online.

20. Favorite fic you’ve ever written?

If you asked me before I joined the burger fandom…it would have been this one: That over-hyped Corporate Holiday And this awful crack fic that I still adore, years later for whatever reason: Dicked Down in Divination Feat. Severus Snape

But in all serious, this question was really hard. Maybe this isn’t the best work I’ve ever done and maybe I didn’t take ages to perfect it, but it makes me happy. It’s so sweet and I still adore the idea of mortuary student Mort and Navy sailor Teddy meeting in their twenties.

Love, Your Sailor

I’m not tagging anyone because most of the people I’d tag have already been tagged! But if you weren’t please do this I want to see all of your answers!!

[bigbearbigworld]

Howdy!! I’m looking for a super chill rp partner. I would love to make some friends through this so definitely looking for something long-term!

Here are a few things I’m looking for in a partner:

Someone who is willing to talk OOC!! I wanna make friends and toss ideas back and forth. So I would love to have full conversations about our blorbos and yknow be friends!!

Understand that I have a busy life and because of that I might be really exhausted at the end of the day. I will always try to reply asap, but I do have a full time job that is mentally taxing sometimes.

This is super important: I am 28 years old and really prefer to rp with anyone over 23 and over. I can make exceptions but not for under 20. It’s just something I’m more comfortable with.

——

My rp writing sample:

“Kill me,” A voice whispered,” Just... kill me.”

A sharp jolt flashed over Steve’s back as his eyes snapped open. His heart drummed against his chest as he slowly rolled over and raised his hands to his face. Anxiety had begun to build up within his throat as he let out a solid sigh to gain some sort of release— no prevail. And for some reason that was just his cue to get some coffee.

No one needed to know this, but Steve donned some pretty slick puppy slippers that were absolutely the most comfortable things in the world. He shuffled across the floor of his small apartment, avoiding himself from bumping into unnamed objects like his boots or maybe a lamp— Steve was not a morning person. 

Coming into the kitchen, he made himself some coffee. Well, tried would be the better word. First, he forgot his own strength, there went 99% of the coffee grounds just splatting against the ground, his counter and his face. Then, when he tried to redeem himself, he scooped in some grounds and got the coffee maker to work— Oh wait, it started smoking. 

The deadpan look that Steve gave the coffee maker was so much that he eventually turned it off and began cleaning his mess. Tea was a great option, so he made that instead and went to go sit outside for the time being. There he looked over the city and sipped his warm beverage before making the worst face ever.

“What is this?” He muttered as he just put the mug to the side and flopped in his chair.

Yeah, Steve wasn’t a morning person.

——

Characters I play:

Tony Stark (Main) Steve Rogers (Main x2) Bucky Barnes

What I’m looking for:

— I'm a huge Stony shipper, but I am also open to Stucky or Stuckony. Honestly just in general, I'm a huge shipper so anything is good!! :D

— NSFW, Dark, angsty, shippy stuff. I’m good with writing NSFW (Whether that’s smut, dark themes, etc etc) let’s just talk about it

— Plots: I am full of ideas when given the chance but I am going to have to get comfy with you in order to flourish a bunch of ideas! so when we start i absolutely wanna do a simple but hefty thread!

-- I also accept OC’s!! We just need to discuss plotting and stuff :))

There’s the basics!! Plz lemme know if any of y’all have questions!!

[survivintothrivin]

✍ Favorite thing about writing the muse? 💢Something about the muse that annoys you? 😈Worst thing you’ve ever done to your muse?  😂Funniest thing that’s ever happened to your muse?  📷 Favorite picture/screencap of your muse? 📑 Favorite part of your muse’s backstory?  📝 Favorite headcanon for your muse?  😩 Hardest thing about writing the muse?  ⌨ What’s a situation you’ve always wanted to RP with the muse? 

✍ Favorite thing about writing the muse?

Writing about how she feels towards the character I am writing her against. Because I, as the mun, already know about the character and chances are I love them. But as I write I am viewing them through Gwendolyn's s P.O.V, which is shaped by her experiences, her beliefs about the world, her prejudices. It's fun to view a character through a different lens.

💢Something about the muse that annoys you?

Probably that she doesn't always step in to help people. Friends, yes. Strangers, no. It's a bit sad. I can understand it. If you wanna survive, you need to prioritize yourself. But it can be kinda weird to write sometimes because as the mun you feel different about how your partner's muse should be treated. You know your muse isn't doing the right thing. But I think that's the fun part about RP. You sometimes have an omnipotent view or just a broader view, but you're writing a character with limited knowledge on things. So while it annoys me I kinda like it too. In real life we operate under less than ideal circumstances too - false assumptions, for example.

😈Worst thing you’ve ever done to your muse?

I'd say the worst thing I have done to her is killing everyone in her group off and having her survive on her own for months. That's just horrible. I also killed her teenage best friend. I practically killed everyone who she ever loved, or I left their fate unknown. Thinking about it kinda makes me feel bad, damn.

😂Funniest thing that’s ever happened to your muse?

Slapping her friend's ass at school who she knew would find it funny. Said friend turned out to be her new biology teacher, not her friend. He just looked a lot like her friend from behind.

📷 Favorite picture/screencap of your muse?

I don't know why but this screencap reminds me of an older Gwendolyn, maybe 10 years in the apocalypse, who is living in a secure community and has build a future for herself.

📑 Favorite part of your muse’s backstory?

I don't have her backstory fully fleshed out (not yet), but I already know a lot of details about her backstory and so far I'd say my favorite part is that the last other person remaining from her original group treated Gwendolyn pretty bad, but in the end she died so Gwendolyn could get out of a building while the dead tore her apart. It completely fucked with Gwendolyn's mind because it's the last thing she expected.

📝 Favorite headcanon for your muse?

My favorite headcanon about her is that she is gonna find friends out there. A family. And that she's never gonna lose certain parts of herself no matter how much she feels the weight of the world on her shoulders. She can change for the worse but a kind side always remains.

😩 Hardest thing about writing the muse?

It's hard for me to describe her emotions I'd say. It's not easy to describe how someone feels after having gone through as much as she has.

⌨ What’s a situation you’ve always wanted to RP with the muse?

Her having found a very beautiful and special place. Some place that doesn't look ran down like the rest of the world. And Gwendolyn showing it to someone's muse.

[ccaptain]

KNOWING YOUR PARTNER WELL CAN POTENTIALLY MAKE WRITING TOGETHER A LOT EASIER.

REPOST DO NOT REBLOG !!

NAME: sam!! i also respond to zack c:

PRONOUNS: she/her, they/them!

PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION: if you don't have my discord, IMs will do until i give it out! i definitely prefer discord over anything else. 

NAME OF MUSE(s): Kaeya!!!!! i grab this scrunkly man and throw him against a WALL. i also have wriothesley over at @wwriothesley, alhaitham over at @aaleaqlania and sampo at @ddazzlingblds c: i'm generally more active on Kaeya and Wrio!

BEST EXPERIENCE: COMING BACK TO THE PARA RP COMMUNITY, and specifically the genshin one, WAS THE BEST EXPERIENCE I EVER HAD. i made so many friends, i finally felt relaxed in catching things up if i had to step away for a middle day nap, and my writing style improved so much......... i feel at peace now tbh. loving it here in my little zone 

RP PET PEEVES / DEALBREAKERS:

- i have seen Some Shit in my years and there's not a single manipulation technique, façade of wholesomeness or trick  that i haven't seen or that i don't recognize. trying to manipulate me into ANYTHING is the fastest dealbreaker known to man, and it won't work to boot. i'm tired, man. just let me roleplay in peace

- i despise the Harem Setting and no, you cannot romance my Kaeya to drag him into your little enclosure of other Kaeyas because i will actively ignore your attempts at interacting with me if i sniff that this is your endgoal. i will also not be sorry about it. it's in my rules that i an highly uncomfortable with it. i will never change my stance against it.

- my worst pet peeve is when i don't wake up with caps-locked headcanons about our muses from my shipping partners sent at 5AM- no seriously, i think that's all, it's just the two things above that i haven't talked about. or talked about enough in the second one's case-

MUSE PREFERENCES: completely insane muses who don't operate without a known logic, but also muses who hide their pain behind a friendly smile and would go to great lenghts for their loved ones. muses who have suffered beyond their threshold and still take it. muses who had an horrible past and now they're more well-adjusted and even a little bit goofy. muses that- *i am sniped from the closest building*

PLOTS OR MEMES: i want to say both but,,,,, memes are so quick, while plotting can take up a lot of energy that i don't have,,,,, yes i'll go with memes

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES: IF I DON'T HIT 16 PARAGRAPHS IN MY REPLY ASSUME THAT I HAVE HAD A STROKE AND HAVE BEEN LEFT AGONIZING ON THE FLOOR UNABLE TO REACH THE KEYBOARD

BEST TIME TO WRITE: after dinner when i am full of food and full of ideas c:

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S): kind of? if i had to pick one i'd have to say that i resonate with Wriothesley a bit more? thanks to my mental illness i went through Some Shit but now i'm steadily getting better. i feel like it influences my portrayal and makes me understand how he feels much better? if that makes sense?

tagged by: @resolutepath MWA tagging: @predvestnik and anyone who wants to yoinks this i am enabling you

[fallen-regentarc]

brain is empty , words are hard . but i am still trying . i apologize for being the worst rp partner ever x

[inkstainsxxonxxparchment]

Entry 1.

Sometimes as a writer there are manic moments where things just...make themselves known. This is one of them...so a journal entry from an iteration of Helsing resurrected and stuck in a castle with Dracula. I write things in fits in early morning hours and it's based loosely on an RP with my incredible partner @thatdoodlebug. Might do subsequent ones if my writing demons inflict more...we'll see...

The candlelight is flickering as I sit here. To be honest, I do not know if this will clear either my head or the conscience screaming at me but I could not just let my mind hold so much that it feels as if I am going to go stark raving mad or come down with a headache from which I may never recover.  Let no one but me see these words and know of my weaknesses herein. I cannot express nor do I think I can hide the darkness that festers in the darkest and deepest recesses of my soul. And I truly wonder if I am, myself, beyond forgiveness.  There is no easy way to admit or to even write this without wanting to throw myself from the topmost window of this cursed castle that I find myself in once again. The why is not important only the truth which shames me even now.  I want him. Desire him, even. The fiendish host in this castle. The devil that stalks at night. The known pestilence of this accursed country. Count Dracula. I cannot keep from tensing even writing this as if any mention of him will bring him to this room for another conversation that I want to avoid. We are stuck here in this castle, in this place and neither of us can escape but I do not need him to know these truths.  That I see him and wonder what it might be like to succumb to baser desires. He is interested only in my blood. Fleshly pleasures are nothing he’d want. But I do. And that’s so much worse that I am having a crisis over such a thing and with a vampire no less. Where have my scruples gone? Have I had any to truly speak of? I do not know but what I do know is that I must cleanse myself of these desires. And if this journal that I will never let another soul see is the only way then that is how it shall be. Mayhaps at the end of all of it, getting it out like poison from a wound will stop the dreams, the wants, the shame that fills me. And then I can be free of all of it. And in that moment I will lay these blasphemies to rest in the flames of a fire where they belong.  Someone look after me and my soul in this accursed place because I know that no one else is least of all the creeping lord of the manor who has all but assured me that he will finish what we started if it is the last thing he does. And perhaps he will. At the moment, I just want to be able to converse and even argue without getting distracted by his mouth or his sculpted cheeks or…  …you see  my predicament do you not? When all my focus is on his features and not the situation. And I wonder what he might look like splayed on silken sheets; black or red would frame his pale skin perfectly and…  No, no! I cannot have these sorts of thoughts. What sort of man am I to be feeling as I do?!  I wish I could lay the blame at his door and I could convince myself of it I am sure but it would not be the truth in the end. He is merely the most appealing to that part of me; the desires that burn in the dark of night would find a figure of focus in one as deviant as he. Sometimes I wonder if he wasn’t molded from my deepest desires. And that is a troubling thought but one that I cannot fully take responsibility for if he has been a blight for longer than my own life. But it does make me wonder… And it is that curiosity that is no doubt going to be my downfall…but no one but  me and these lines will ever know the truth of it…and that may be the only mercy allotted at this time.  I think I hear him…so for now I will go and try to make small talk and ignore all else afflicting me like the worst sort of fever. Hopefully, he takes it as me still being uncomfortable in his presence… If he only knew…

[eclipsecrowned]

If you could change one thing about rp on tumblr, what would it be? Why? // @queencvbra

The constant holier than thou 'the entire community should cater to me personally' schtick. It's been around forever, it's why this site got such a reputation for superfluous application of cancel culture, but I've noticed it seems to have risen from the dead lately.

People who think others should only write content that appeals to to their own lifestyle, people who think going into a collaborative hobby without regard for the limits or problems of their followers makes them a superior being, people who don't understand why some people might not be comfortable with all facets of a canon or even fanon, couching misogyny and biphobia in alleged support of other communities...

These are just examples I have seen more than once. Members of my community taking it for a personal attack if people write romantic/sexual dynamics or discuss their own personal lives on the dash. Those who believe that because they do not tag triggers or in any way 'cater' to the audience they expect to interact with they're somehow the ones victimized when people curate their experiences away from them. I've caught so much Hell just for saying I don't care for a major franchise and find the writing of canon stale at best and genuinely insulting at worst, and I am not the only one. People who believe all M/F is het and thus inferior, because like, why would an amazing awesome man ever want to stick his dick an inferior pussy?

I think too many people on this site have a stick up their ass about things that, and I say this with all due respect, do not matter outside of their own comfort. Unless the content is being written to actively harm, unless it is problematic content that out and out reflects the hateful or harmful beliefs of its author, unless people are genuinely at risk because the content exists, then block and move on. You should always block and move on if the content is anything less than that, and by the same card, stop acting so surprised if other people block and move on if you act like a self-righteous dickhead for forgetting this is a collaborative hobby that takes partners and their myriad views/experiences/comfort into account.