#I am the devotion :: ⌞🍡📿❤️⌝

[a-child-of-chaos906]

Guide on devotional playlists!

(Note: English is my second language, there could be mistakes. Please be understanding.)

Making devotional playlist and listening it is one of the simplest way to connect and honour your Deity, plus it is a popular devotional act. It is simple, so if you have little energy, disabled, don't have time, it is a good, easy and modern thing to do, that everyone can do. But sometimes it's hard to decide what to add to playlist, so today I made a guide, how to make devotional playlist. You can add your additions, if you have one, it will be great! This guide will work for every God, Deity, Spirit, not just Netjeru.

I will go through it with my Patron God Sutekh and my playlist to Him and examples from that playlist.

I need to say with a little reminder, that everyones music taste is different and two playlists for same God will never be same, so be kind to each other.

You can put songs of any language.

1.) Songs directly about God.

It is self-explanatory. If it is a song about God, if it sings Their myths, or is about God without Their name, but it's clearly Them, it falls under this category. It is one of the simplest. For me those are:

Derek Fietcher – Set;

Канцлер Ги – Полынь и Ковыль;

Khepri – The Desert od Set;

Altay Tuna POLAT – Mercy of Seth, and so on.

2.) Songs that have Their energy, that feel like Them or Their symbols.

That could be one of the biggest categories, because there could be a lot songs that can feel like Deity. It could be Their aspects, symbols, animals, domains and just energy in general. For example, song "God" by Jake Daniels have big Sutekh energy for me with the lyrics themselves. List can be replenished with:

Alcest – Sapphire;

Watt White – Eye of the Storm;

Blackmore's Night – Storm;

The Score – Revolution;

Casey Edwards – Bury the Light;

Hollywood Undead – Bloody Nose;

Fall out boy – The Phoenix;

Adrian Von Ziegler – Ancient Storm;

Once Monsters – My Name Is...;

Ария – Дух Войны;

Halestorm – I Am the Fire;

And so on. It could be one of the biggest categories and for everyone it will be different.

3.) Songs that you think They will like.

Basically, songs, that don't have to do with the Deity themselves, but you think your God might like them. It could be specific genre, that associated with Them, like rock or hip-hop, that just have something in it. My examples are:

Ghost – Mary on a Cross;

My Chemical Romance – Na Na Na;

Glass Animals – Toes;

Rammstein – Sonne;

Bryce Fox – Horns, and so on.

4.) UPG.

This is a part, that will appear through your time with Deity, it is something that will feel to everyone personally. Maybe, a symbol, an animal, maybe, you will have special relationship. It is individual from person to person. In songs it could be a specific genre, that you feel to Deity and songs connected to your UPG. As well, it could be song through which your God gave you some kind of lesson.

For me, Sutekh became my parental figure, He became very special to be, so my playlist has songs from parental love, like:

My Indigo – Safe and Sound;

Three Days Grace – Unbreakable Heart;

Peter Gundry – A father's lesson;

Three Days Grace – Painkiller.

Song through which He gave me reminder and lessons to continue fighting:

The Score – Born For This.

And so on. UPG can be very different, and so are the songs.

5.) Ambient and nature sounds.

This part can be not for every God. Mostly, it is good for Gods with nature elements, to listen them. Like, for Sutekh, I listen sounds of desert and sounds of storm and rain. But ambient is more universal. It can be, again, ambient of some kind of nature place and event, like, again, desert, water, forest, it could be ambient of some general feeling, like dark, calm, energetic. There is a lot of ambient in videos and others people playlists. It can also be UPG.

For general Netjeru, I can recommend Egyptian music. For Anpu it could be more dark ambient, for Wesir calm, for Heru it could be royal.

Under this category also falls music for meditation. Music with calm rhythm, without words. I have another playlist for Sutekh, that is sixteen and half hours long with music that feels like desert and sounds of storm.

That is all I got so far. You can write down additions for categories, if you have!

I hope everyone will have a great day!

[a-child-of-chaos906]

I feel Them in every my breath, it every moment. There is the Night, that comes every now and then. Her long stary hair and skin, Her wing with the feathers of cosmos. There is the Darkness, with very form of black, with every shadow and shade by His side, with black eyes and cold breath. There is the Desert, with my body as His temple, with my life as His devotion, with me as His child.

I love you and praise you, oh, mighty Gods!

Nyx-Nox, with eyes of stars, with strength of the time, Mother of the Daimons, bringer of the Night, I love you and praise you, I honour you, oh, my Mother!

Erebos-Scotus, with body of mist, with knowledge of the darkest, Father of the Light and Day, keeper od the Darkness, I love and praise you, I honour you, oh, my Father!

Sutekh, the bringer of the storms, with hair and eyes of red, the rebellious one, the one, whom I devote myself, my Parton, my Teacher, my Friend, my Mother and Father, I love and praise you, oh, my God!

Praise you all be!

[a-child-of-chaos906]

"How to find peace?"

The first three Gods I ask this question give me a smile. One can feel the power in Their very name; They are one of the most ancient, one of the Creators. Sky, Earth, Water, Gods of the World.

"Look around you," – said Kök Tengri. One of His eyes is the Sun, the other is the Moon. – "What do you see?"

"These are our creations," – Umay Ana answers for Her husband. With Her words the forest grows and the fruits ripen. – "From a small bug to ancient steppes."

“You, and people like you too,” – Ak Ana nods. With Her breath, waves move and streams flow from the mountains into the common ocean. – "So our answer is simple."

“Be in unity with our creations, with the world and nature. Do not offend them and help them, and you will find peace,” – said the Gods, in Their words one could feel Love.

"How to find peace?"

The Second Gods, to whom I ask this question, glance at each other. There is tenderness in Their palms, lightness on Their wings. They look so similar that sometimes you can’t tell Them apart. Two brothers, Sleep and Death, Gods of the Rest.

"What are you waiting for when you close your eyes under the blanket?" – Hypnos-Somnus smiles kindly. His voice is like a lullaby. – “What are you waiting for? A new day, that you will wake up. That you will taste food again, that you will return to bed again.”

“True,” – agrees His brother, Thanatos-Mors. His hands guided many souls, and His eyes saw the human essence. – “Every evening you fall asleep, not knowing whether you will open your eyes the next morning. And yet at the end of the day you cut down on sleep, refuse food and water, and cruel thoughts are in your head. Life is fleeting, one day we will meet differently than now, and this will be the last time, so don't be hard on yourself."

“Be in unity with your body. All this time, only it will be next to you, even if it changes over time and to your taste. Give it love and understanding, and you will find peace,” – said the Gods, in Their words one could feel Love.

"How to find peace?"

The third Gods to whom I ask this question look into the distance. Some of the most ancient, those that many people forget about. They always exist side by side, They are strong and inseparable, without one there cannot be a second. Darkness and Night, Gods of the Shadows.

"Do you afraid when you turn off the light?" – asked Erebus-Scotus. His body cannot be seen in His Darkness, but His voice is clearly audible. – “Think and tell me, isn’t your brain playing games with you, is it worth staying in the dark?”

“And are you staying there alone?” – Nyx-Nox shook Her head. The Milky Way is visible in Her hair, the stars dance in Her eyes. – “What’s worse, not being alone or being left alone? Many people are afraid in the darkness not of the creatures of the night, but of themselves. Their thoughts, their past, present and future.”

“Be in unity with your mind. Treat it with patience. Let it be your ally, not your enemy, when entering the darkness. Let it be your weapon and shield, and you will find peace,” – said the Gods, in Their words one could feel Love.

"How to find peace?"

The fourth God to whom I ask this question laughs. I can hear barking, hissing, clattering hooves and voices all around. There is a lot of Him, He is different. He is in many faces, fast, fickle, but those who know see Him where His trace was and is. Mischief, God of the Laughter.

“Oh, my joy, do you remember how your soul looked forward to those days when you and your friends could go to the city?” – Loki leaned back, His curls and braids splashed like flames across the grass, and His multi-colored eyes turned towards His family. – “I know you remember those days. When you hanged out, when you went to your favorite coffee shop. How hiking in the mountains with your father settled in your head, how the taste of frozen yogurt remained, what you and your mother ate, as you remember the fur of your pets under your fingers."

"Be in unity with your family, with those you love. Whether through blood, or found family. Share memories, laugh, live, remember. Be the one who loves and be the one who is loved, and you will find peace," – said God, in His words one could feel Love.

"How to find peace?"

The last God I ask a question turns around. His hair is the red of the setting sun, and scarlet shines in His eyes. The one who has been with me the longest, who helped me grow and raised me Himself, who called me to Him, who accepted, loved and protected. Desert, God of Chaos.

“I’m not the first one you’ve asked this question,” – says the Father, Sutekh. It's raining outside, His presence is with me. – “They are all right, but you can be in unity with nature, but at the same time pollute and destroy it. You can be in unity with your body, but continue to be cruel to it. You can be in unity with the mind, but at the same time punish it for it's thoughts. You can be united with your family and still hurt them."

He came closer. A shiver ran down my spine, along with the distant sound of thunder. He sits down so that our faces are at the same level.

"There are only two choices. Either live in chaos, the likes of which I fight every night, or live in unity."

He waves His hands around:

"Unity with nature will give you a home. The Sky will bless you with clouds, the Earth with grains, the Water with life. People have learned to love other creatures, help them, take care of them, live side by side without hurting nature. Now are different times, but we need to continue to do this, even if it's something small."

He traces my silhouette with His hands:

"Unity with the body will give you strength. You are the owner of your body, a small spirit or God, and this is your temple. From the very birth of this temple, it has grown and only you can decide what to do with it, how to decorate it, how to change it. But you can never leave without care. Wash and check that everything is in order. Otherwise the temple will collapse. It may take time, sometimes a long time, before you find what is best for your temple. When, after time, Sleep and Death come for the spirit, there will be history in your temple."

He pointed to my forehead:

"Unity with the mind will give you peace of mind. You will learn to think and reason, it will give you support. It will be difficult to deceive you. Darkness and Night will not frighten you with their endless blackness – you will know yourself, your fears and virtues, your mechanisms. In the next time, left alone, you will have the best company in the form of the best interlocutor and person - yourself."

He put His hands on my shoulders:

"Unity with the family will give you love. Whether it's a purring cat, breakfast with relatives or a funny picture from friends. They give you a reminder that you deserve love, Mischief will remind you to laugh about. And, don't forget, you too you give them love in the ways that you know how, that you still have something in you that moves you forward, that warms your heart when you see the smile of others."

One of His hands left my shoulder:

“But none of this will make sense if you don’t do the most important thing. You won’t survive any storm, you’ll break at the first gust of wind,” – the Father's free hand pointed to my heart. – “Until you find unity in yourself. That is when you will find peace.”

These were the words of the last God. Love was felt in His words, in His eyes, in His very presence.

[a-child-of-chaos906]

Today is 29 of February. The last day of the winter and the last day of my month long ritual.

In this month I get to learn new things about myself, as well as Sutekh. Don't know if they are true, but for now I will keep it as possibilities.

I am grateful for this month. It was a hard one and, at the same time, the most productive. I got the ability to drive, I changed and continue to change.

There are also appear things that I know I need to work on. Throughout this month the most important thing I found to work on is love. Love to the world, love to myself and love to Him and others. Sadly, until I won't love myself, love the word and Him unstable and will often be change appearance with my emotions.

For now I thank you, my mighty God. I thank you for being with me throughout this time. For showing me good things and kind people. For being kind yourself. I don't know where our relationship will lead me but, as fat it us you, I will follow.

Dua, Sutekh, the Perfect God, the Red Lord!

[a-child-of-chaos906]

At the beginning of the month I hoped that it will bring some answers to me. But now there is even more questions.

Syncretism began to be appealing more and more and I am confused. I may be in love with my God and I wouldn't mind if there would be godsposual relationship. I don't know how to feel towards Loki. I want Sutekh to be so much and, at the same time, be Himself. And I want to love, love Him, love myself, love this world, love others. And want to be loved, by Him, by myself, by this world. I want to be broken, so I can rebuild myself anew, so the chains that I put around myself and that the world put on me would break and I would be free.

There is so much to understand.

And still I am glad that this month brought me all of this. You can't be changed unless you want to, unless you see something that causes you to doubt, to seek.

And I thank Him for it.

21-25/29.

[a-child-of-chaos906]

Yesterday, at the day of February the 19th, I became 20 years old. At 20 years old, I know how to drive, I met face to face several times Thanatos-Mors, I lost and gain different people through my life. And I met my Perfect God. At the day of my birth, He was the first one I asked to be with me in this day. I began to understand our relationship, and began to make them more unique. I always think how I always return to Him, always choose Him. I adore Erebos-Scotus and want the best for Him, so others would know how wonderful He is, but in the end my first one is always Sutekh. I thank Him that He is with me, that He help me grow, the most I feel Him in thunderstorms. They are a rare occasion in my part of the world, they occur only in summer or late spring, but in thunderstorms I suddenly feel His power, His lessons, His presence, His whole self.

And today I got sure that I am ready to drive my own car. It gives me freedom I had a lack of for the last five years. And I will be becoming my true self. I will ride in my Big Dipper, will find things, stuff, activities to offer myself, Sha and Him. I will finally begin to live the life I should have all this time. And the joy I felt, I know there was a part of His joy as well.

10-20/29.

[a-child-of-chaos906]

I want to do so much things with the divine, but I am so unsure about it.

I want to, sometimes, syncretise some Deities, but it feels wrong because of my mainly hard polytheism. I want to try new relationships and views on the world, but scared to let go my current worldview. I want to open up and see who is willing to call to me, but afraid of it not being someone who I already know. I want to somehow change my view on "popular" Gods so I could feel easier with Them and so much more.

[a-child-of-chaos906]

In 12 of February I asked Thanatos-Mors to cut part of me that was an obstacle to my inner peace. In 15 of February I write that it is began to appear or, maybe the first cuts are done right now.

In one moment, the day before yesterday, I was truly full of love for myself and my Deities. Is was a fantastic feeling. The feeling that I am here, that my inner child is happy, that I am going in right direction.

I feel that, no, know that Sutekh is helping me to find the path that would be the most comfortable and enjoyable. He shows new people, new perspective. He knows me, knows that I will enjoy it. And, beside that, gives a ground to began not being myself on the internet, being comfortable living my life, for myself, not others. Due to this, I will stop using my current tags, using more that are comfortable for me. Also, writing down what my spiritual beliefs are right now and changing them with my practice.

Yesterday I invited Him on Valentine's day. Since my love life is, well, meh, I just got food to eat with Him and my mom, and, even if I didn't get the gift I wanted to myself, it was good. I am a little ashamed that got on hook of thinking that you have to have someone the spend this day with and got really sad that I have no one. I know this is due to capitalism and buying all of kind of stuff, but knowing things don't help to realise it.

That is how it's going now. Will try not to linger. Especially with my birthday coming up.

12-14/29.

[a-child-of-chaos906]

How to explain to others, even to yourself, this feeling of love to the Divine? When you practice enough you began to see Them in almost everything, even if it's not Their domain.

I see Sutekh in almost every plant and tree. I see this forse to live, the same thing He teaches me, in every nature. I feel His love in most unexpected places. I talked in one of the last posts that, sometimes, He comes to me as She-Sutekh. This motherly love, this feeling of belonging.

Sometimes I wonder that our relationship is strange. I am certain in some way it is, but the thing is, I don't mind. Even more, I want it. I belong to the red sands, under the night sky and Big Dipper, I belong to my God. My spirit is one of His animals, my spirit is one of His children. The outsider, like I have always been, I find home and peace in Him, in devotion to Him. I made my body His temple and I wouldn't mind if I will offer Him my life. I am bind with an oath and like it. True Divine Madness. And I am living for it.

10-11/29.

[a-child-of-chaos906]

Yesterday and today were quite enjoyable days.

Yesterday I really understood the greatness of having and riding the car. Today I went on a quest due to birthday of my groupmate.

I heavily associate Sutekh with traveling, nomadic style of life. People went through His desert sands to get somewhere, so I named my car with Him in mind. My little girl's name is Big Dipper, and she became my little home on wheels.

And today I invited Him with me on this quest. I immediately became parent of the group, taking the lead, while others were scared (it was a horror quest). I, must say, didn't get scared or spooked, and often just continued to try to solve puzzles. Beside that I didn't get scared on supposed horror quest, I loved it. I think Sutekh gave me a little part of His courage, so I could take care of others and lead the way, when others couldn't do that.

I just love being around Him in one or another way. Even if general academy life is draining me and I can't do some things I planned to do this month, I still can reconnect with Him in other ways.

I love, Father. Thank you for these enjoyable experiences.

8-9/29.

[a-child-of-chaos906]

Sometimes on you just fall something Devine and you like it. Yesterday it happened to me. Something warm, accepting. Don't know from it was exactly. Maybe, from all of Them. For a brief moment I didn't have any questions, I didn't have any doubts in my faith and worship. I just loved Them without questioning myself. It felt so good. I hope that soon I will feel that freedom from chains more.

Beside that, nothing really happened.

7/29.

[a-child-of-chaos906]

Today went great. And I feel good to the end of the day.

I can't say much about how it went with Sutekh, because it still went as usual. But I invited Eris-Discordia in my life. I think the Chaos Trio will be my *main* main Gods. Others will be just main, because I love Them and want to be with Them.

I also read Principia Discordia and it was some of the strangest in a good way books I have read. It was pretty small and, while I am not fully agree with some things about Eris-Discordia (loke Her origin), I still could use some things from there, like the number 5.

February is still on. Let's see, what will come.

3/29.

[a-child-of-chaos906]

Second day went pretty relaxing. Our today classes were cancelled, to it was a free day off.

Began to get information on Eris-Discordia. Turns out, my world view on chaos and that it's universe's normal state and that it us, who created order, is a pretty similar to Discordianism's morals. I didn't do anything with Eris-Discordia now, but it's comfortable with Her. Thinking that next month I could dedicate Her and Loki. I feel comfortable with chaos.

Besides that nothing. Sutekh is somewhere out there, I am doing my best.

2/29.

[a-child-of-chaos906]

First day of the devotion went, I must say, as every other day before. His presence was the same, so, maybe, I already did a lot of stuff connecting to devotion.

But I still had a great time. One kind person explained me Warhammer Chaos Deities, whom I really liked, even if I know about Warhammer nothing.

After that, I felt general connection to chaos. Throughout the day I saw a pretty shrine to Eris. So, in the meantime, I will start to look in stuff about Eris-Discordia. I will have complied trio of chaos Deities: Sutekh, Loki and Eris-Discordia.

One day passed. I am pretty sure about the rest of my path.

1/29.

[a-child-of-chaos906]

Tomorrow is the February. Tomorrow is the first day of my month long ritual.

From tomorrow I will be an oathbound devotee of my God, my Patron and Lord Sutekh.

I will stop reblogging most of the stuff I usually do and will cut time on social media platform usage. I will update on each day at the end of it on how it went, what I felt and general being.

The things I will do are:

Read morning prayer and say good morning;

Kiss His statue;

Pull out one Tarot card in the morning as advice from Him;

Dedicate any dish/meal/snack to Him;

Dedicate Himself my self-care;

Tell myself affirmations and words of encouragement throughout the day;

Find ways to honor Him a little each day;

Invite Him to your work and doings for a day;

Thank Him for different things;

When I get home, take a shower with all components in His honor;

Kiss His statue after coming home;

Light a tea candle for Him and let it burn;

Light Him incense;

Change offering water morning and evening;

Meditation and breath work with Him;

Write Him a letter;

If I have the opportunity and energy, do Shadow work;

Conduct a personal ritual of self-acceptance (five minutes);

Keep your room clean;

Talk with Him throughout the day;

Read night prayer, tell Him goodnight and kiss the statue.

That is all for now. I did some things before it, but now it will get serious. I will try to maintain that habits after February.

Wish me luck.

[a-child-of-chaos906]

Deeper into the month, deeper the connection.

I can't quite phrase what exactly our relationship is. There is a lot. I see Him as Father, as a Teacher and Mentor, as my Friend, as a Guardian and Protector. He is many. And still our relationship is somewhat intimate. Not is sexual or romantic way, due to the fact that I am demiaroace, but it still intimate. He is the one that helped me love my body. All stretchmarks, my moles, scars, my "thunder" thighs. He is the one that said that my body is of a God. And I offered Him my body, myself, so I could be His temple. It means that I should take care of it, love and cherish it. So far I try my best. I still have issues with accepting my face, because my body type, I know, loved by enough people, but I never seen someone draw or in love with anyone with my face type. But it takes time to love yourself after all this time that the world was cruel to me. "Don't let them convince you that you are not as beautiful as you think. Don't let them pull you down to the pit you climbed from.", – He said. And I will try, until I will the beauty that He sees in my. My face, one of many of His faces, the face of Sha.

15-18/29.