#I am somewhat late to promo hour and I am aware of this but I wanted to do a check of my carrds to make sure they were organised

[void-kissed]

"May it light the way to your void-kissed fate."

Hello! My main name here is Void, or Echo, but mutuals can also call me Aria if they'd like to. I'm currently 20 years old, I use she/her pronouns, and I'm a very sapphic selfshipper!

Before interacting with me or my posts, I would appreciate it if you read my main info carrd, specifically the important info page. Thank you for doing this!

I also have a selfship info carrd where lists of all of my F/Os can be found, as well as a self-insert info carrd that has info about my self-inserts!

I selfship in a variety of game series, but some of the ones that are most dear to me include Kingdom Hearts, Pokémon, Skyrim, Dragon Quest IX, and Xenoblade Chronicles 2 ^-^

This blog (@void-kissed) is my selfship blog, while my primary blog is @void-feather, so that's the blog I follow, reply, and send asks from! It can be really nice getting to know new people, especially other selfshippers, so if you'd like to talk, you're always welcome to come and say hello!

Thank you very much for taking the time to read this post!~

(This post is okay for anyone to reblog, as long as my DNI is respected!)

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this is sappy but whatever. i wrote most of this before the season started (which is why i come off as reasonable and somewhat mentally stable about all of this) but felt appropriate to post it now as a thank you. ❤️

i have vivid memories from the night b99 was cancelled. the news came late evening my time, and i had been editing fic and checked twitter and there it was. loud and clear. i don’t remember which site it was but the picture was jake and amy with their wedding cake and that made everything feel even worse.

i remember freaking out even though i had been prepared, because those last days before the news hit on tumblr were... panicked. but i still freaked out to the extent that i ran outside in my pajama pants and hoodie and blue plastic slippers and called my mom, and then i walked up and down the streets where i lived in the darkness and cried in frustration as she tried to talk me down. i remember there were random guys with motorcycles out? but i was too hysterical to care. i’m pretty sure i screamed something to my mom about ”HOW CAN BIG BANG THEORY GET A BILLION SEASONS BUT THIS SHOW GETS CANCELLED????”

i know everyone who was in the fandom at the time has their cancellation story. what played the biggest part in mine was the fact that i felt like i hadn’t had enough time. really, i had only just become active in the fandom, only just started interacting with people on here and writing my first few fics, but i was absolutely loving it. it was giving me happiness again after a long period of emptiness and depressive feelings. when it was cancelled, what made me feel the worst was the fact that i’d had so little time – to make friends, write fic and react to episodes together. i felt deeply jealous of everyone who’d gotten more.

thinking about it coming to an end now has made me remember that night and those feelings of jealousy. because i did get more time. i got three more years. that night, i remember asking for just one, for a half, for anything, and i got three years.

and these three years have been a whirlwind of emotions and feelings and episodes and debates and discussions and gifsets and fanfic and asks and having this as my safe space while pretty much everything changed around me in the outside world, and i just want you all to know that i have never taken a single day of them for granted. this show could have been taken from me before i’d ever gotten the chance to grow with it and alongside it, and instead it was part of my life for three whole years.

i have a really, really good memory (four time quiz champion anyone? just me?okay <3), and i remember so much of it in such detail, and it's so weird to think about how long it's been when it also feels like yesterday.

i remember my first comment on peraltiago parenting experience, my first episode-related fic, the insane high after the renewal, staying up all night to watch the wedding live. i remember writing fanfiction on the beach while on vacation in greece, on a plane to berlin, at home on my parents balcony late late at night. i remember the honeymoon episode title being released, s6 starting filming again, the excitement over every little piece of news and finding about the cast directing. i remember labor fic and christmas fics and when i scroll back to pictures of my paris trip in january 2019 it's interspersed with a billion pictures of andy at the golden globes. i remember lighting my fairy lights in my little basement room and watching season 6 in bed at 2.30 am if it was a big episode, and watching it in the morning before fridays in high school most days. i remember writing post-ep fics during classes and on my phone on subways and trains. i remember the s7 news, and the casecation nerves and debates, and fucking kissgate. being named "the class amy santiago" by my friends when we graduated and getting a little silver paper plate to show for it. i remember the first fic exchange and inventing julian and simon santiago and i remember meeting @johnny-and-dora and eating wagamamas in manchester and talking about how simon santiago was DEFINITELY on the stairs and buying a little fake plant that i named andy plantberg (he's still in a box somewhere). i remember writing fic during slow hours in the ice cream shop i worked at. moving and putting up my framed b99 poster in my own apartment (very much still up). finding out about trying and everyone going fucking crazy. infertility fic. melissa's pregnancy news. s7 promo and standing outside my job the very first day and texting siân "AMY HAS TO PEE!!!!!???" because that was in the promo and we knew there were pregnancy tests involved in the first episode. the crazy happiness of s7 finally premiering. everyone going crazy about jake and amy deciding to start trying and how i could quote the scene verbatim the next few days. the week leading up to trying, what turned out to be the last normal week before the pandemic. the fucking MESS i was after that. the following week and ding dong and crying with happiness. being dizzy with hyperfixation joy the following day and barely feeling aware of the covid pandemic for the first few days because i was just thinking about jake and amy having a baby. getting through the first few weeks mostly because of b99. admiral peralta and finding out we were having a BOY and not even being disappointed even though the headcanon had been the opposite for years because it was perfect. the iconic b99 quizzes. lights out and mac being born. somehow managing 475 days before season 8, coping together when we got the news about the final season, watching the cast do their final day of filming. the first stream being interrupted by a storm warning and cutting out several minutes because of course. getting to see parents peraltiago and MAC and the insane speed with which those few seconds were giffed. more b99 quizzes. the vow renewal. the finale.

i remember all of it and so much more and as much as my heart is breaking, i’m trying to remind myself that i could have gotten none of this.

brooklyn nine-nine has been such an important part of my life. and it always, always will be, forever. i could have lost it all that night, and instead i got three more years. if i'd known that when i was walking the streets outside my house in the darkness in complete panic, i would have cried with happiness.

so thank you. all of you. for everything. ❤️❤️❤️ for the friendships, the joy, the asks, the debates, the fic response, EVERYTHING. whether we've shared three years or one or less, just know that i'm so grateful.

have some random pictures i found and screenshots from my private instagram (which is inactive so don't bother) from when i started this hyperfixation. jesus lmao 😭😭😭😭 i am less insane now. no i'm not. but i express it less on instagram.

[buttermybooks]

Hey guys! I have a somewhat unconventional post for my predominantly book related blog, but it is something that has been highly requested! So without further adieu:

RIOT FEST REVIEW AND FESTIVAL HACKS!!!

Most of you are familiar with how often I travel and how many concerts I go to, so today’s post is going to be a little bit of both. Over the summer, Riot Fest, which is one of the largest punk rock music festivals in the US, announced their lineup for their 2017 festival. At the top of that list was JAWBREAKER. My absolute favorite band that I never thought I would get the chance to see, considering they hadn’t performed together in over 20 years. Needless to say less than 5 hours after finding out that Jawbreaker was the headliner, I had purchased a ticket along with one of my best friends, Benita. Fast forward 4 months and we were FINALLY headed to Chicago!

We arrived on Thursday and were able to get in a little sight seeing as well as spend the day with a mutual friend, @the-book-ferret!!!

Looking back, I am so glad we decided to do most of our sight seeing on the first day because we would have been too tired to do any on Monday, after spending the weekend at the festival. After spending the day at Millennium Park, book shopping at Barnes and Noble (shout out to @the-moon-queen) and eating SO MUCH deep dish pizza, we decided to call it a night and head to bed.

On Friday, I woke up to a myriad of text messages from everyone who felt it necessary to tell me how jealous they were of all the bands I would be seeing over the weekend and, well, they SHOULD be jealous. The Friday lineup alone was enough to warrant spending this much on the riot fest ticket. After printing our tickets in the hotel lobby, we were finally on our way to the first day of Riot Fest!!! 

Entry was super easy at Riot Fest. Actually, “easy” was a recurring theme for the weekend. Everything was hella organized and we pretty much had no issues with staff AT ALL. Did I mention the punctuality? No? Literally EVERY band started no more than 5 minutes late. SRSLY GUYS, this fest was SO ORGANIZED. One of my favorite memories of the weekend was watching 2 middle aged drunk dudes get into a fight, knock over a HUGE trash can, spilling ALL of the garbage in it.. and then walking away like nothing happened; only to have a group of millennials band together and clean ALL of it up so that the festival crew wouldnt have to. I think this incident says a lot about the type of people who attend this festival. 

We saw tons of bands on our first day at Douglas Park, the most notable were New Order, NIN, and surprisingly A Day To Remember. As someone who isnt a super fan of their music, I gotta give them credit. Their show was WILD. Easily the most interactive of the day. They entire vibe was super fun. We ended our night with corn dogs and nachos from one of the stands. After that we were headed back to our hotel via a 50% off LYFT ride, thanks to the codes that were being handed out at the exit.

Saturday was basically PARTY day haha. We woke up, had breakfast, lounged a bit and then decided to head to the festival. We saw even more bands on saturday, including New Found Glory (who played ALL the old school jams!) and Taking Back Sunday which ended the night for us. This is the only night that we had trouble leaving the park. We ended up just finding a spot and waiting out the LYFT line because SO MANY people were attempting to leave at the same time, it was nearly impossible to find your driver. If you want to avoid this, you can take the REGGIES SHUTTLE which takes you back to Reggie’s for an after party. 

Sunday was emotional for me. I woke up an anxious MESS because it was finally the day I was going to see Jawbreaker. I never thought this day would come. Before our trip, when asked who I was excited to see at the festival, I wouldn’t even mention Jawbreaker because I was terrified they would back out at last minute and I wouldnt actually get to see them. ANYWAY, we decided to eat at KUMA’S west loop for lunch. This is THE BEST place to eat at during riot fest weekend. All of the burgers are named after heavy metal bands and the crew caters to a riot fest esque crowd anyway. Plus it was SO GOOD. 

Afterward, we took a lyft the few miles to Douglas park and saw SO MANY BANDS. The most notable, aside from JAWBREAKER was Prophets of Rage. It was so fun to be in the crowd with people who werent quite sure who they were and then suddenly see it dawn on everyone that it was members of Rage Against the Machine and Cypress Hill hahaha!! Im not even ready to talk about how amazing Jawbreaker was. I literally dont have the words to describe it. It was an experience unlike anything else. It felt almost religious.. I’ll be chasing that feeling for the rest of my life. 

If you’ve kept reading this far, ILY, but if not I will leave a list of pointers that really helped us below!

FESTIVAL HACKS:

Print your tickets before hand

Pack a drawstring backpack

Charge up your external battery packs (these were so handy)

Make sure to bring a PLASTIC refillable water bottle. (refill stations are around the park)

Buy merch AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. Things sell out. You dont want to miss out on your size/style

Load up on as many LYFT/UBER promo codes as possible.

Make sure you have a plastic poncho, non aerosol sunscreen and bug spray in your back pack. You will thank me later. 

Wear shoes that you arent super fond of. You will absolutely get anything you wear dirty. (even when it doesnt rain!)

Check out the REGGIE’S Party bus! It could save you tons of time/money on car shares. 

Download the RIOTFEST app. You can select the bands you want to see and It will alert you 15 minutes before they start peforming and tell you the stage. It is super easy to get caught up in whatever youre doing and forget which bands youre supposed to be going to next. 

TOILET PAPER. bring toilet paper. we just grabbed the extra roll from our hotel room but trust me, ,by sunday the TP in the port-a-potties will be SCARCE and youll be so happy you brought it.

Make sure that everyone in your group is on the same page about what your plans should be. **This isnt necessary but I promise you that you will have 10x more fun if everyone is aware of whats going on and when. 

HAVE FUN!!!