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Decided to colour it… took me 2h, whew
#I am not the proudest about it#then again I only got into digital art 3 months ago#I should give myself some time#lucien vanserra#lucien acotar#lucien vanserra fanart#man bun!lucien#acotar#acotar fanart#a court of thorns and roses#art#fanart#bookish fanart
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#my Florida shirt just got taken down from Etsy for no fucking reason#Taylor's team just CHUCKED the book at me and fucking LIED in their report to Etsy about it#said I infringed on their trademarks for Lover 1989 and Reputation in their report#and I used.... NONE OF THOSE THINGS. NOT ONE.#that shirt has (obviously) nothing to do with any of those albums even#not in the metadata not in the tags not in the SEO nothing#and since it had no tags of those things it didn't pop up in a sweep and get auto-taken down. it was targeted by them & they manually did i#that design is SO by the book legally and bc of how successful it is I've worked VERY hard to make it that way. even in the SEO#and I mean everything in my shop I go out of my way to make legal but#like that is probably the most actually black and white legal piece of fan merch I've ever seen in my fucking life#but I can't fight back because if I fight back.. if they want it down the next option is prove to Etsy that they're SUING ME#so like. yeah not trying to fuck around and find out there#and that is awful for multiple reasons.#1. I have lost like 90% of my income for the rest of the year. I've grown to rely on income from that shirt as I should bc IT'S FINE#2. it's about to be the holidays. this makes 1 worse and also - people will be searching for this shirt bc it's on ppls holiday wishlists#they now won't be able to find mine#and will therefore google it and buy one of the MILLION FUCKING STOLEN VERSIONS WHICH ARE STILL UP BY THE WAY#and 3. I can't even have these stolen versions taken down anymore because I don't have a leg to stand on since the real thing now doesn't-#exist to prove it's mine#I want to fucking throw up like idk how to do anything other than be sobbing in a fucking ball on the floor#like this is probably the 2nd worst thing that has happened to me in my life lmao#like this shirt was single-handedly paying my rent every month and I had other income but. that shirt was my cushioning#my whole Etsy shop is FUCKED without it like absolutely fucked it was carrying the whole entire thing#I'm scared to upload or DO anything else w my Etsy even because if they just made up lies to get that shirt down#then I am SURE they've got something against me or my shop#and like fucking WHY I work so hard to make everything FAIR AND RIGHT#I worked so fucking hard on that shirt that thing was like my child like my actual full pride and joy#I want to scream I don't even know what to do with myself#it feels like someone just shoved me into a room shut the lights off locked the door and threw away the key#that shirt has been like probably the proudest achievement of my life like no joke and everything I've put into it & my Etsy just got kille
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Let Me Speak: A Character Study
(A story of life, love, and hope; of sorrow, struggle, and rebuilding after loss. A story of everything a life can be, and all the ways it matters. A character study of Melinda May, and the parts of her story they didn’t tell.)
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PART ONE
At the age of six years old, Melinda Qiaolian May knew two things:
One—regardless of the cheerful ribbing from her father about children and the things they would understand when they were older, she would not, at any point in her life, enjoy coffee. (This assertion stood the test of time, as it turned out, a fact Melinda maintained with righteous dignity throughout her life).
Two—she was not afraid of heights.
There were other things she knew, of course, and things she was very much afraid of. But — there are priorities. As she grew older, Melinda liked to keep a count of all the things that didn’t scare her, and practiced leaning into the way those certainties weighed steady on her spine when shadows stretched strangely in the night.
Continue reading on ao3.
#this has been my secret and my headache and the thing i'm proudest of and the ridiculously ambitious thing i've been telling EVERYONE about#for almost TWO YEARS#and the first part of it is finally yours.#featuring our favorite baby agents#and their very beginnings.#pre canon shenanigans#strike team delta#shenaniganry#and my best attempt at some vaguely romance adjacent things. (one of my most nervewracking but favorite sections.)#and also. devastation. because. that's how life is sometimes.#but this is a hopeful story at its core. and it has been one of the hardest and most terrifying and most rewarding things i've done.#i am rattling in my boots folks#with delight and also terror#but i am /so excited/ to finally be sharing this with you.#i poured my whole heart into this project#and i really really really hope you enjoy it <3#parts two and three#and more screaming from me#coming soon.#agents of shield#agents of shield fanfiction#melinda may#aos fanfic#origin story#phil coulson#natasha romanov#clint barton#andrew garner#the ladies of SHIELD#character study
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okay but ellie meeting a flat earther in jackson and just absolutely annihilating them. they say “well, actually, the earth has to be flat because—” and ellie is immediately going on a detailed, passive-aggressive (and factual) tangent on how the earth physically cannot be flat and how they are a fool for thinking so. it gets to the point where a crowd actually gathers to listen as the flat earther makes weak points and ellie just lists off fact after fact after fact and completely destroys them and every word that comes out of their mouth. and you better believe that joel is sitting off to the side going “hell yeah kid you show ‘em” as his daughter ends some rando in the town they just moved into
#joel the most supportive dad in jackson actually#and the proudest bc his daughter? so smart#this was inspired by me watching that one mythbusters episode where they prove the moon landing was real#ofc I was thinking about ellie the entire time because I am not okay#tlou#the last of us#ellie williams#joel miller#joel and ellie
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yea very normal cleric
#my art#its a shitpost batman#Pirate Campaign#DnD OCs#Ulysses (OC)#Pepper Kochavi#Saint Rollo#Enososin Folook#Abaddon Diallos#Soleil (OC)#am I just redrawing the same scene over and over YEAH am I gonna stop NO!!!! THEY BRING ME JOY!!!!!#also if its not 100% clear Abaddon is looking @ Sol giving him the death glare.#unsure of how to feel about a demigoddess giving him that look /jov#2nd shoutout to Rollo just giving Eno the proudest dad grin while this lot started yelling after this bit bc. yeah.#I love this party sm. Gonna cause so many problems <3#rea’s trash
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media can't convince me that how many people are in your family doesn't define at least half of your personality. i could go on and on and on about this
#if youre the youngest between two brothers it shows. if you're the oldest in a family of 5 it shows. if you have two sisters it shows#it's about the dynamics!!! older brother AND older sister vs two older brothers vs two older sisters those are all different people!!!#maybe it's a me thing tho. usually i can tell from the first five minutes whether someone has siblings and how many. am i insane#give me twenty minutes and I'll tell you with a 50/50 accuracy their genders. once guessed on a nb older sibling#the proudest moment of my life#WHATEVER am i insane be honest#habitina personal
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crucify me, father, if that means looking into my eyes again;
eat at me, claw at my body, if that means a bargain.
we slip away, the sun and the moon (i am a reflection of you)
oh, father, is our love already overdue?
crucify me, father, if that gives me a bit of your love back,
if that means we're not rotting our souls to black.
father, forgive my sins, i beg of you!
our hearts, alike, laden with rue!
crucify me, father, if that is how you love me;
if that is how i am molded into you, if that is how you and i become we.
#poem about remus and lyall! for a while remus thought that his father didn't love him due to his resentment towards werewolves#and this is a jumble of his thought regarding the relationship between him and his father#gore tw#tw gore#because it is a little bit gorey so i'd rather not risk anything#anyways this might be the poetry that i am proudest of and i am glad it came out of me <3#remus lupin#lyall lupin#lyall&remus#lyall&remus april fest#l&r april fest#my writing#my poetry
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there's something very delightful that my first actual academic(-adjacent) publication is happening after i've left academia
#i mean. i did take on the project when i was still working.#but i did most of it during summer#and it comes out in a few months#i did translations and notes for a bunch of ancient astrology texts about wlw <3#honestly proudest of this#more than my other stuff#anyway i completed it and checked the proofs#and it's for real now!#also. i am now done with all of my academic obligations and commitments.#no more ties to my past life.#the only adult life i've ever known.#so. yknow. bittersweet.#weird feels.
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Hi! Is there somewhere we can read the novel you wrote about the Rowdy 3?
Hi! Yes! The Dirk Gently fic I am (honestly) the most proud of in my entire fic-writing stint. It's on Archive of Our Own (so you'll need an account there to read it) and here's the link to A Road Song in Quartet That Smells like a Trio. Thank you so much for asking!!
And, as a taster, the intro!
The last bar out of this town south of nowhere is more creak than wood with more static than music pouring out of the sun-bleached jukebox when he walks in. The quality of the music only gets worse as he appears like something walking straight out of a crossroads. Shaking the dust off his boots, the Hell from his hands.
He hasn’t eaten in a week and that means he’s still got his head on straight but things around him, things in the air, go a bit peculiar-like. Sound bends to get away from him like tiny schools of fish scattering before something dark and slow moving, puffs of smoke thread in opposite directions to let him pass, and poor Johnny Cash’s already washed out voice goes slow and stumbling like he’s playing straight from the grave.
But at least the place is empty enough that Martin can actually take a seat at the bar and tap his cigarette in the ashtray without his metaphysical stomach growling (his actual stomach doesn’t do much). The lone woman wiping down the counter stays at the other side of the room, seems perfectly content with the fact that he’s not ordering a drink, and has eyes that say she’s stared into this same empty night outside this same shithole town enough times that her feelings are a fetid puddle at her feet.
Eating tonight would be like drinking piss through a straw. And there’s comfort in that. Hunger sits beside him, panting like an unchained dog, but it turns up its nose up at the menu tonight.
And for a man-shaped thing like Martin that’s peace.
#dirk gently#dirk gently's holistic detective agency#dirk gently's holistic detective agency fic#The Rowdy 3#dghda#dghda fic#The Rowdy 3 fic#my writing#oh you mean my magnum opus? The thing I'm proudest of?#A fic that made me cry while writing it and cry when it receives comments?#That fic?#I want to hand it to everyone I know#I am constantly waiting to talk about it
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So at first I was struggling to plan out and find inspiration for fics I wanna write for Sketchbook Ship Week, and suddenly I remembered wait, I DO HAVE SOMETHING FUN AND PERFECT I COULD WORK ON FOR SKETCHBOOK SHIP WEEK
It's the perfect time for me to bring this AU back from the dead...
#bonnie talks#hilda#sketchbook ship#i swear i had other fics planned out for this AU but developng Creatures & Arrowwood ended up being my biggest priority and#-i kinda just lost time to continue this project im really sorry hhhhhh#but now thanks to sketchbook ship week i finally have a huge motivation and reason to write fics for a project i genuinely miss working on#-even if I intend for them to just be short drabbles/ficlets throughout the days i plan to participate in#As High As The Moon Above is still one of my proudest works and writing Johanna and Kaisa as childhood friends brings a lot of joy for me#so I really REALLY can't wait to revisit this project at last#and whether you've read and remembered As High As The Moon Above back then or this is your first time hearing about it#-i really hope y'all out there will be just as excited for this as i am#<333
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Sometimes SSE canon-bait two characters in a holiday sidequest in 2012 and sometimes you never let that go literally ever
#This is about Elizabeth and Avalon Horse Game#I am the sole warrior of AvaLiz and that's my greatest but proudest flaw
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i was so insane for this
#something something visceral violence and intimacy in the blood on each others hands FROM each other#something something the helplessness of standing outside of a superhero/vigilante#knowing they can die at any moment and you and no one else can do anything about it#so you NEED to work a thousand times harder to find a way to keep it from happening no matter what the universe says or demands#i was so INSANE for this!!!#this isn’t dc sorry this is from daiya. someone commented on this fic and i wanted to come back to this moment#this scene and the one where they’re taking out the bullets are the ones i’m proudest of#the latter bc it is so HEAVY and emotionally intense. i dig deep for that. like REALLY deep to describe it the best i can#and then this. gestures to earlier tags. you know#it may not seem like it but i am the most proudest of this fic because i executed it perfectly#like from what was In My Brain and onto paper#like idk the dilemma of being a civilian and your loved one being a vigilante/superhero. i really like how i did it#proud <3 and insane <3
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I would like to thank Gigi Perez for not releasing Sailor Song until 2 years after my first secret, toxic lesbian situationship bc that shit would have DESTROYED ME.
#i mean. even now it kind of destroys me but still#i think it would’ve been my 13th reason if i had that song during that period of my life#14 year old me would never have recovered#cause i was with that girl and i was pretty much fully in love with her#i was still figuring out that i’m a lesbian#and she was the first person who ever truly pursued me and gave me attention and all of that#bc like. she was leading me on FULLY. for MONTHS. all of it#video calls until 3 am almost every night#physical relationship mental relationship EVERYTHING#then she completely threw me out quite literally overnight#(she pulled the whole ‘actually i don’t want to be in a relationship with you at all’ then started dating my best friend 20minutes later)#(NO EXAGGERATION.)#(not to mention she cheated on that friend at least twice in the month they were together but i digress)#and it was all secret. all of it.#and also she had been manipulating me and lying about me to our friends the WHOLE TIME and then gaslit me about it#once she genuinely told me ‘your trauma from being gaslit is making you think i’m gaslighting you’ AND I FUCKING WENT WITH IT 😭#not my proudest moment#i listened to The Moon Will Sing bc of her for like months after lol#if i had sailors song… i don’t know where i would be tbh#anyways lol#sorry about the dump#teenage lesbian drama goes absolutely fucking insane
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the entirety of fur (or: a maximum high) genuinely makes me want to bite my leg off /vvvvvpos
Anonymously - or not - tell me what passage, fic, line of narration, or anything you remember me by as a writer.
AKGNSNFNSNDN oh my god- i mean. please Do Not bite your leg off but i am glad you like it-
#i have mixed thoughts about it tbh it is not the fic i am proudest of#but im glad other people like it :p#runway's replies#mica :D
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💯⌛️?
I only noticed this ask about half an hour ago and it has taken me that entire time to find what the ask game even was (This ask was sent two days ago, and I completely forgot about this lol)
How many words does your current WIP have? How many do you hope it will have?
400 words on the dot, surprisingly. Somewhere around 5k I'd like, though more reasonably it will likely be somewhere between 1000-2000.
How long have you been working on this WIP?
No idea exactly! I made the file 12 days ago, but I have no memory of if I wrote in it immediantly or if I procrastinated for a few days. At most 12 days ago for actual writing though. Since I started planning the project, about three weeks.
#oc posts#Thanks for the ask!#ask games#my WIP is probably different from most of the wips that ask game was intending for#cause while I am actually planning soon to write in normal prose I have only once so far written in narrative prose#and that. Wow. That was not my proudest writing.#The wip this is talking about is poetry#speaking of the planning on writing more prose soon#I need to get back to planning that out
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every now and then I get a flashback to when I was 14 and applied to work at McDonald's and when the interviewer handed me the forms to sign, I started correcting the grammar on the contracts
#not my proudest moment#and then i got the job and went through orientation and then completely ghosted them and moved 9 hours away#elf rants#for context i am NOT like this anymore. i was just 14 and annoying about grammar
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