#I am just small in general
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Visit Tumblr Blog
Explore Tumblr blogs with no restrictions, modern design and the best experience.
Last Seen Tumblr Blogs
Fun Fact
Tumblr Inc. is funded by 13 investors.
Text
me when I’m supposed to be writing:
I did write. Yeah I wrote “A Comprehensive Guide to Killing God” on my hand at like midnight.
#Idk#lol#shitpost#I’m tired#will probably delete later#Yes that is my real baby sized hand.#I have very small hands#I am just small in general#Anyways— anyone want to kill God with me?
1 note
·
View note
Text
BTW... PSA.... even if we arent mutuals if youre in my notes regularly theres a Very high chance i am still fond of you. yes im vaguing someones tags on the compliment the person u rbed this from post. but like. positive vaguing? THE POINT IS im weird abt following ppl but IM STILL SENDING U FOND VIBES...
#i have to acclimate myself into following people. first i have to spend a few days to weeks checking someones blog manually#and i cant follow too many new people in the same burst or else theres TOO MUCH new unfamiliarity on my dash#and i become a small and easily frightened beast alarmed by change#also im just....................... incredibly picky kjhsdkjjkdsj sometimes ppl i generally am :)! towards do occasionally rb#from someone who i want to throw bricks at. and then i cant follow them but im still :)! when i see them in notifs#and sometimes its just that im going AAAA!!! AAAA!!! and cant put more new things on my dash#or in some cases its someone im fond of seeing/chatting w whenever we have talked BUT they simply are also into stuff im not rly into#and i dont want it on my dash despite liking them as a person. etc. you know how it is#ALL OF WHICH TO SAY................... :)!#rimi talks
42K notes
·
View notes
Text
you know, you know. no gods, no masters, no kings on pedestals. everyone is fallible. death of the author. you know! you are balanced about your intake of media - you allow the wiggle room, the grace, the gratitude, the skepticism. nobody above criticism.
but still. a weird gut-punch feeling, something akin to betrayal. you read the article. surprise! an author you love is actually: a serial fucking predator.
well, shit. what now. no, you knew he was a person (all people are), but now you're wondering - what have i overlooked by accident? what messages have i internalized that are strange and cruel? and also, like, what the fuck?
his actions lay a thick glaze on top of everything. like each place is now ruined, opaque in a new way. but okay, fine, you've done this before. you knew better, right? you've been betrayed by many a cherished childhood author.
still, this stickiness. fuck. can you pick up that book again. will you read it to your children. you've recommended it to others - will you ever do that again? and of course, of course, no parasocial relationships. you were theoretically above this kind of sentiment. but the artist informs the art, right.
so it's not something as clear-cut as feeling he owed you, specifically (a stranger) better behavior - just that you kind of, in a distant and odd way... sort of trusted him to do better. it's not like a real trust or something speakable, just the faint hope that the product (good books) was a thin representation of the soul. now it feels like the product (good? books?) was a mask. in some small or insignificant way, your previous support of this person lent them power. your money and your time and your laughter.
and the thing is - you have this terrible, echoing sensation. how many times will this happen? over and over. you find out that the singer you love is actually a predator. you learn over drinks that your favorite high school english teacher is in jail for what he did to her. you listen to the news idly and suddenly discover that a woman you used to idolize has been abusing her kids for an actual eon.
what can you touch without the static melting off. you can't even really complain about it too much (you were supposed to know better, and besides, you don't want the same re-split "it's not your fault, love what you love" basic advice), but now it's here. somehow, it feels like - you let him into your life.
it's not that things need to be pure or an artist has to be like, endlessly perfect, mindful. demure. it's more just this terrible truth that has been replayed through your veins so often it feels criminally vain. power corrupts, absolute power corrupts absolutely. did you want any one person to be worth that power?
it's just that he wrote books where he seemed to understand that. he seemed to know about hierarchies and unfair systems and bigotry and privilege. you thought they were books about what it means to struggle. you thought they were about having power and still using it for good rather than for control. he spooned you a narrative of being a good guy, a kind soul. you fucking bought what that fucking monster sold.
maybe that's why they were fantasies, after all.
#spilled ink#warm up#oh im .... sick to my stomach.#i talked to him. like ....... we talked. that man interacted with my poetry and writing.#that article.... gutwrenching. i am so sorry to everyone he's ever even been in the room with.#i feel.... like... unbearably. sick.#he acted like he was cool and friends with me!! we were cool internet writers together!!!!!#i feel sick for even having been polite to him.#i ...... am experiencing something so fucking complicated.#i wonder how many of u are feeling that too. like ''oh i sent him an ask and he was funny and sweet''#THATS HOW THEY GET U. ..... and YES I KNOW!!!#i am so fucking well-read about parasocial relationships. it would just be nice to like. trust that someone ISNT#hiding a huge fucking background of BEING A COMPLETE MONSTER. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK.#by the way i am not part of a fandom. this is “what the fuck i accidentally supported a rapist” not#“but my showww”. like i care far more about like. the human cost.#but also like... people are people. idk i saw a take on here about how nobody should mourn the books#and idk. people almost always reply to any scenario with their personal experience first -#''i knew him'' or ''wow i was just at that store'' or ''i grew up there'' or whatever. because that is how we establish connection &#emotional weight. that's just... a person thing. and there is a difference between 'oh this guy is a monster'' & the feeling of:#he's been a monster and i SUPPORTED THAT. i CELEBRATED him. i !!! a fucking victim myself!!!!!!!!! SUPPORTED . HIM.#i am sick. i feel so much pain for her and everyone he's ever hurt. saying ''the books are ruined'' is i think ... like how people say#they're shocked and disgusted by him. (obviously there's nuance here. im sure there's some creep doin it wrong. but u know. in general)#idk..... im an author. i understand my work is in your life in whatever small way. i understand that connection. it's real.
2K notes
·
View notes
Text
ULTRATOBER /// FIRST: FAVORITE SOUNDTRACK
#I couldn't pick a favorite so I just did a tribute to the terminals in general :]#Ultrakill#V1 Ultrakill#Terminal ultrakill#Ultratober#Ultratober2024#Anyway if this looks a little busted it's because I am balls sick and had to resort to the trackpad#Hopefully the others are less rushed god bless#Hrokkall art#EDIT: Fixed a small issue with proportions that was bothering me
839 notes
·
View notes
Note
they have now revealed another character for ride kamens, hayate, and it looks like he's a kr jin homage? glad they confirmed that it's not only titular riders getting representation, but still, a pretty off the cuff surprise for me
yeah, Jin is a welcome pull, but a pretty weird one! I saw the post when it dropped (don't ask why I was looking at twitter at 3 AM) and the replies were. very confused. :') nice to see some Jin rep though! and if this opens the door to characters based on more deepcut riders, all the better!
of course, if they really want to stay true to the spirit of Jin, we know what he'll be like
#art#ride kamens#gun#(this is me still pretending like i'm not going to end up drawing all of them)#(gonna have to go back and draw saigo at some point)#i guess jin scored high in the algorithmically-generated list of characters popular with female fans#seriously though i am happy it's not going to just be main riders! the POSSIBILITIES this opens up...#in that case i'm gonna go ahead and say that one silhouette with the ponytail is absolutely gonna be brave#(which covers the ex-aid rep so i don't need to face the possibility of an ikemen poppy)#anyway hayate seems like fun! a bit of a 'what if jin was a small business owner' take which i am VERY into#i do think so far the doubleboys are my favorites#but we got two more reveals this week and many more left so we'll see if that holds!#who will tomorrow bring...
201 notes
·
View notes
Text
There is something deeply funny to me about the fact that, of people who pray the rosary (at least in the United States); the Catholics tend to be super conservative, and the Episcopalians/Anglicans tend to be gay.
#source: I am a lesbian Episcopalian and I pray the rosary#queer anglicans tend towards 'high church' in general#which....actually makes sense when you think about it#'can we make church FANCIER? yes we can!'#christianity#anglican#episcopal#I always wonder about the woman in that small town in Spain#who had the hand-knit rainbow cardigan#she didn't speak any English and my Spanish is awful#so I couldn't ask her if she was lgbt/an ally or if she just liked rainbows!#but she lead the rosary prayers in that small town's church and stamped my credencial#given that Spain is one of the better countries for lgbt people who knows???#ANYWAY#this post brought to you bc Notre Dame (the college) had a drag queen perform on campus#and conservative students prayed the rosary outside the theater in protest#and I lol'ed bc y'all the rosary is not gonna remove the gay cooties#Our Blessed Mother loves her queer children
238 notes
·
View notes
Text
Reading physical copies of The Queen's Thief series for the first time and realizing that the maps in them are inconsistent???
#the only map i'd really seen before was K's map to P in Thick as Thieves#but now looking at the map from the last story of Moira's Pen I'm like. wait. the empire is opposite in this one.#like according to K's map C and K generally move west in TaT but the other map has them moving east#it's not that big a deal to me bc i had to read the entire series twice to conceptualize where anything was#(bc i spent the whole of The Thief not realizing just how important every nation mentioned was. good move mwt you genuinely fooled me.)#but now that i thought i had it down i am once again thrown off#also the map that's referenced in Moira's Pen shows up in the physical copy of TaT?#the beauty of this series is that I NEVER would have guessed what was up in that story even had i seen the map beforehand#anyway all i wanted was to conceptualize where Roa was & now i'm like spiraling. like is K's map incorrect bc its from an imperial lens#which honestly? yeah absolutely (it makes the peninsula look so small) but also how would the mede empire have#conquered so much land with inaccurate resources even if it is for propaganda's sake#nothing in this series is accidental so i'm like *pepe silvia meme*#anyway this is just me trying to put my thoughts somewhere ignore me my tags are a mess#The Queen's Thief#The Queen's Thief spoilers#like not exactly but since everything is spoilers i'm tagging that just in case#Thick as Thieves#Moira's Pen
163 notes
·
View notes
Text
I love when Aziraphale is excited about stuff, he gets so extremely giddy about it. I don't trust people who don't like Aziraphale he is literally the most cutie patotie ever like look at him. This is who you're hating on. Do you also hate puppies or what
#I will NOT stand any Aziraphale slander#and no this is not me babying him or dumbing him down btw#he is also a fucking baddass and FAR too many people look past that#but her whimsy has captivated me amd I am holding her so gently in my hands#I love when a character gets excited about seemingly small things and just loves existence in general#MORE OF THAT PLEASE#good omens aziraphale#aziraphale#good omens#good omens tv#good omens 2#good omens season 2#gomens#aziraphale good omens#scatterbrained rambles
311 notes
·
View notes
Text
little gay touch
#idk if theyr ironop in the comics bcs i have small attention span and only paid attention to the rubble bee story bcs it's so fking painful#but just seeing this in general is like wow! my two dads!#im so obsessed with the idea of one sided ironhide optimus....#ironhide pining for optimus and optimus smiling so kind at ironhide but his thoughts always go back to megatron..#ironhide calling himself expendable and laying his life down at optimus' pedes bcs hes his security his knight and optimus is Optimus#and optimus cant object bcs hes Optimus#i think abt transformers one ironop like... what will they be like#i like to think miner ironhide saw orion as annoying and a trouble maker very similar to d16#but wasnt befriended like d16#so he never saw orions kinder side and now that he does as optimus hes like. i couldve known him like this without the matrix#and now he has it and now we're at war and now he looks at me but he only looks through me to see megatron on the other end#idkNOWWWWWWW IDKWWWW like UGHHHHH bro#i NEEED transformers to WAKE UP like i did NOT just now build up the courage to finally participate in the fandom bcs of scary loads of lore#& fear of my dumbness only for everything to die like pls bro pls dont do this to me...#anyways wow... gay touch#'hes not hearing u... but i am..' bats rusted over optics all cutely at u and devotedly#optimus: the horrors#transformers#transformers idw#ironop#ironhide#optimus prime
25 notes
·
View notes
Text
hi everyone 👋 just a heads up im going to be temporarily moving to a different blog for a bit (ive been a bit overstimulated in life lately and want something a bit more lowkey where i can just chill w a handfull of mutuals) so yeah mutuals feel free to ask for it but its empty rn lol
#generally speaking i feel as if i havent really been ''online'' lately so theres this weird disconnect i feel but like#i still wanna have fun w my online friends!!!! i just want a liiiittle break from feeling too many eyes on me methinks#like i am leaving a big party to go to a small hangout you understand what i mean. i will come back to the party too
41 notes
·
View notes
Text
'well, that character is canonically very strong and works out a lot, so of course they have a six pack and no body fat' uh huh yeah that makes sen- SURPRISE POTBELLY BEAM ATTACK!!!
#dont care dont give a shit im giving them a squishy little belly NOW#'potbelly' is a very generic 'size' btw. i just think its a cute word.#it can be big or small idgaf. whichever you prefer.#📡 incoming transmission 📡#self insert#selfshipping#'are u doing that to yr fiance' ofc i am. i need him to have a tiny little squishy tummy that champagne adores
29 notes
·
View notes
Text
AAAAAA I FINISHED CROPPING THEM FINALLY MY CURRENT CARD CASES WITH MY CURRENT INSERTS (part one of uh prob 7 or 8 bc i took too many photos and got too many card pictures)
#thank you public color printers saved my life with how otherwise i would have no shot of getting the silly csrds i made in canva that match#my card cases into existence#also i slightly messed up the dimensions for them bc they were supposed to fit the larger hard cases perfectly but they ended a little small#but that ended up being perfect because they fit wonderfully in my soft cases with a bit of wiggle room so I can store them in there in pair#pairs if they look nice together in the hard card cases or are just a duo#(the hard card cases are decorated front and back to maximum how much I am able to decorate and also bc i only got three originally so#i only have the current 5 case designs (the back of the purple one i haven’t done yett and also i got a lot more cases in general so yayayay#silly rambles#im going to need so many parts aaaaaa#also they’re a bit wonky in my croping and also the photos i took in general but its okayyy#aaaaaa im outside so i can only use tumblr on my phone so this is going to be so long
23 notes
·
View notes
Note
Dreamcatcher would like to say hello!...and also inform you that nightmares so close to the Fountain of Dreams are w̵̢̖̻̦̑͜ô̵̲͛̈r̷͎̪͉̈̋̊̾͠r̵̨͍͉̮͇̿̈́͆ÿ̴̢͓̤́s̴̥̈́͗̂̇̿ǫ̵̛͉̗͐͊̀m̸̰̍̊e̵͚̦̟͚͝͝�� but not too much to be worried about!
...as long as you take the right precautions...
(Dreamcatcher has given Starstruck a bag of incense. they hopes this helps with the nightmares. she will be going on a little journey to find the source of these nightmares.)
added to inventory: 1x Dreamcatcher's Incense. good luck on your journey, dreamcatcher!
<< prev || [masterpost] || next >>
#oc (2024): starstruck dee#some of these i might not even tag with her general tag... are they too small? am i clogging my own blog and making it hard to find things?#overthinking this for sure. anyway!#also i may not be able to do individual responses to every item she's received at this rate! just a heads up!#but there's an Inventory Check coming up and i'll be sure to draw everything there!
62 notes
·
View notes
Note
hi hi xixi !!!! its been a while since ive visited your inbox, how are you lately ? :33 i hope the winter (and argenti !!!!) has been treating you well !!!!!
btw !!! my buggest thank you to grey because she singlehandedly helped me pick my next victim >:3
(p.s idk if the picrew skin color is accurate to yours or not since ive seen your irl pic so i hope you dont mind if i darkened it-- DO TELL ME IF ITS WRONG AND ILL CHANGE IT AJDJSJS)
nick ... i ... nick oh my gosh .... (՞⸝⸝o̴̶̷̥᷅ ⌑ o̴̶̷̥᷅⸝⸝՞) ..... !2!/$/$/&&\<\€£\ someone pinch me bcs . . is this real ? like i still haven't processed this at all ! ? ! ? m' dearest nick ? ? ? gifting me ? ? ? this absolutely endearing art of me and my love ??? through ? ? ? his ? ? ? precious ? ? ? eyes ? ? ? ? ? ? wow. just casually blessing me with this ? ! ! what did i do to deserve ? what world did i save in my past life ? ? ? ?
you don't know how this is literally just revived me. like i came into my inbox drained and tired ? now i'm filled with nothing but pure happiness ⸝⸝⸝ᵒ̴̶̷̥́ ᵕ ก ̀⸝⸝⸝ you made us so incredibly lovely ! ! ( SOBS ) you nailed our dynamic so perfectly ! ! ( WAILS ) him kissing my hand ? ! ( STUFFS FACE WITH A PILLOW ) i have no words but utter appreciation & love for you ! ! ! ( FALLS ONTO KNEES AND BAWLS MY FACE OFF ! ) it's such a pleasure whenever you visit my inbox :( it's always wide open for you ! i just hope that winter has been treating you so extremely well ! ! ! I LOVE YOU SM ! !
#𐚁ྀ ₊ ࣪ ㅤ 𝓪𝓻𝓰𝓮𝓷𝔁𝓲 ྀི#hope you don't mind me posting this one ! (∩´͈ ᴖ `͈∩ ྀི) snifls#EVERYTHING ABT TIS IS PERFECT NICK ! i'm just crying and falling onto m' knees because what da heck ! you did this for me x__x of all ppl ?!#you're just a absolute sweetheart nick :c i hope you know that and i hope you never ever EVER doubt that !#taking time out your day and not only making darling gifts for me but all of your dear mutuals 🥹 i'm just at awe at how generous you are#how lucky am i to meet you ?! thank you for coming into my life ?!:'d#i'm getting a little choked up GEJSK i'm just incredibly thankful. did i say thank you? thank you so much . thank you thank you thank you !#thank you for being my friend ! thank you for this precious gift ! thank you for being so kind to me ! !#excuse me as i cry about argenti for these last few tags . .#BUT WAAHAHSJKSAYAHAHAHAHHHH!!/!/!!-!-!/'snnnnnnnsn#HIS SPARKLES HIS SWEET SMILE AS HE KISSES UPON HIS HAND HIS CALM NATURE UNFAZED MY REACTIONSBN!:!#MY LOVE MY HEART MY ROSE MY EVRYTHIINGGGGG I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU !#nick actually :( see i have tis small complex on how i don't feel beautiful enough or good enough for being by his side but :(#seeing us here :( together in your art style :( it just silences my worries completely. i really thank you for gifting me this#AAASGHSJD LET ME GO MAKE TIS MY PERSONALITY BYEHEHEHEHEHE#₊⁺ 𓂃💫 ◞❤︎🌹#💭 ︵ᡣ𐭩
21 notes
·
View notes
Text
every time a post/poll goes around about being aspec and fandom shipping enjoyment/engagement/whatever im like. NOW can we stop acting like being an aromantic person who enjoys shipping is some kind of Weird Outlier Situation? can we stop acting like this is an Unpopular Opinion or even Persecuted Outcast Take rather than idk, the default standard, just like everywhere else? idk romance repulsed aromantics Yes Including Fiction aren’t the default or even a significant majority and it really drives me nuts when people act like aros who enjoy shipping are somehow Not exactly that.
#gav gab#aro blogging#like gdspeed bud enjoy what you enjoy#glad you’re happy#but can we fucking knock it off with the ‘but am i VALID to be an aro who likes shipping?????’ stuff#like yeah dog you and fucking Everybody Else in fandom#a small handful of ‘im too aro for this’ from the handful of Yes Including Fiction Yes All Of It romance repulsed aros#are not persecuting you or taking away your aro card#anyways that goes along with my general opinion that#going around asking people Is It Valid To Be X Identity And Have Y Experience Or Opinion#is a fundamentally useless and unhelpful thing to do#and is unfair to yourself and to the person you're asking#bc you're placing your like#ability to Have An Identity in someone else's hands#which they did not ask for#and is not theirs to give or not give anyway#this one just super extra annoys me lmao#'am i valid if i'm an aro who still likes shipping?????' well if you weren't#most aros wouldn't be ValidTM#because that is not unusual at all#you know what IS unusual?#being the big mean aro in the corner who DOESN'T like shipping#no none of it yes including that one I Do Mean All
78 notes
·
View notes
Text
"ultrus is right, i am weak and pathetic" / "callie believes the way she loves is fundamentally repulsive" / "all i ever cared about was being useful someday" . things i think about a normal amount
#these arent the exact quotes ... sols is a lil longer and i dont remember the Exact SR callies is from#also guess who wrote a mini essay in the tags AND THEN TUMBLR DELETED IT#anyway. ultimately . . tldr#sol is scared of being alone and believes that hes weak but also that if he Just works Hard enough he can be good and helpful and belong#and so is the inverse true. when people leave you its because you didnt work hard enough and its your fault#and callie whos been up against rejection her whole life and cldnt understand why except that she loved too hard and it drove people away#and in her moments of most intense loss going cold. overwhelmed by shame. why wld she think it wld go right this time. shldve known better#and maybe somethin abt callie being a poet. who always thought about what the world Could be. not what it is (cyra) or what it will (oliana#but ultimately with this overwhelming feeling that shes fundamentally unloveable and has to stop herself from daydreaming#then calder who. brothers ranger and mother ranger general. a family who is known aroind the ice knife as their protectors.#and the runt of the pack calder kilde. who was small and looked down on and overprotected and didnt dream of being a leader but a soldier.#dreamt of being a shield not a sword. use; and usefulness; in the sense of belonging. i am used because i am so valued and loved#anyway..... i just think duck team all have their . harrowing and peculiar relationship to like. self worth and loneliness#how the way they see themselves (weak/unloveable/small) intersect with how they feel isolated and abandoned and excluded#and how they react to that feeling in their own unique way....#these r just my silly little thoughts :3#noodles in my brain. ehehehe. im . i think abt it a normal amount#ramble tag#(and hey since were here hardwon who thinks he hurts the people he loves and isolates himself from his loved one because of tha-)#*i am escorted off the tags*#naddpod
20 notes
·
View notes