#I am evaluating a few
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Me, reblogging 50 posts in a row of a character and tagging them as a crush. Yes, definitely crush
#anyway wait like a couple hours and youre gonna see me toss him onto the proper list I gotta deny it for a lil while longer#I am evaluating a few#lmao
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IMO my pwhl free agent ranking of who’s still available
Please note I’m only doing players who were under contact last year and not undrafted free agents
Tier One: their phone should be buzzing
Daryl watts, Michela Cava, Hannah Miller, Kateřina Mrázová,
All these players were highly productive on their teams last season and are immediate impact players
Tier two: maybe not the first call, but should be highly sought after
Kaleigh Fratkin, Rebecca Leslie, Lauriane Rougeau, Gabrielle David, Claire Dalton, Abbey Levy, Sandra Abstreiter
These are proven players who had decent years, but may be called after tier one players and some draft picks get settled in to see where they fit in the roster .
Tier 3: building out your roster
Emma woods, Emma Greco, Lexie Adzija, Gigi Marvin, Amanda Pelkey, Sarah Bujold, Liz Schepers, Melissa Channell, Paetyn Levis, Kayla Vespa,
Fits into two groups; those who are Swiss army type middle six / pairing players who can play up and down the lineup. players who will still be third/fourth liners of depth defenders but were extremely effective in that spot, bumping them up a tier.
Tier Four: quality depth players
Madison Packer, Alexandra Labelle, Olivia Knowles, Carly Jackson, Sarah Lefort, Leah Lum, Jillian Dempsey, Madison Bizal, Catherine Dubois, Taylor Wenczkowski, Kelly babstock, Cami Kronish, Claire Butorac, Amanda Leveille, Lauren Bench, Shiann Darkangelo, Rachel McQuigge, Johanna Fällman, Lindsey post
Third/ fourth liners and third pair defender and goalies. Some of these players have a specific niche they fill, a lot are veterans, thus making me think they’ll get some early training camp invites. Unfortunately with a tight cap and limited spaces, it’s possible not all will be signed, but all will be considered
Tier four: reserves
Sam Cogan, Jess jones, Maude Poulin-Labelle, Jessica Kondas, Emma Keenan, Alexa Vasko, Kaitlin Willoughby, Liliane Perreault, Alexandra Poznikoff, Catherine Daoust, Madison Bizal, Brigitte Laganière, Nicole Kosta, Abby Cook, Brooke Bryant, Clair DeGeorge, Dominique Kremer, Nikki Nightengale, Akane Shiga, Rosalie Demers, Sammy Davis, Sam Isbell, Malia Schneider, Emma Buckles, Lauren MacInnis, Carley Olivier, Olivia Zafuto, Alexa Gruschow, Taylor Baker,
A lot of these players here either played little last year or were already reserves, or are playing a position/niche that is overcrowded. Many of these players are talented and could def earn a spot for a team that they gel right with, but likely wouldn’t be until after training camp. This tier is pretty close to tier three and probs a lot of overlap depending on a coaches evaluation of how players fit in their system
Tier ?: the unknown
Sydney Brodt, Mikyla Grant Mentis, Audrey-Anne Veillette, Ann-Sophie Bettez, Caitrin Lonergan, Fanni Garát-Gasparics, Kristin Della Rovere
These players did not play a lot last year due to various circumstances but were pretty impactful / took on high end roles when they did. Because of that, they separate themselves from other players who saw limited minutes and may be ore sought after. The exception is Veillette, who straight up DNP due to injury, but was thought pretty highly of when drafted. Bettez is also a weird one here because though she missed a lot this year, everyone knows what she’s capable of, but I don’t think she’d be willing to leave Montreal
#thoughts#tier four and five I’m not very set on a few players in those#a lot of things like straight up ice time went into that decision#and tended to give veteran players like darkangelo more grace to bump her up even#tho she didn’t have the greatest year#there’s also players like shiga and poulin labelle and kremer that I really really like in the reserve tier and want a spot for them#bc I think they could really find a place on this league#also this is me trying to think how I. think teams would see it and not my personal take#ie I’d probs have Dempsey higher#it was hard to totally vibe check the defense first players tho bc of how little#public stats we have to evaluate them so I may be wildly off on those#I am not able to go back and watch games with notes sadly
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I woke up at 10am feeling gloriously refreshed! After all of an hour I was nodding back off again. Why does this happen, and to which gods must I sacrifice a goat or other small mammel to be granted my miracle??????
#this is me being silly and snarky because unfortunately#this is what was happening a few years back when i nearly died#and I am actually Deeply Concerned#i think i'm going to request a visit with my pcp to get a full nutritional panel and organ assessment and gut biome evaluation#because uhhhh#last time those 3 things made the problem Excruciatingly Clear
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Everytime I face a new character limit on a website that didn't have them before/used to have really long ones... AUGHHhhh the modern social media world was not made for people like me (lovers of details, rambling, elaboration, thorough explanation, and nuance)
#twitter and other short form shit and everything being a Phone App On Small Screen instead of a Proper#Computer Website i feel like has just ruined the format of literally everything for me. Thoughts just keep getting more and more condensed#with detail and nuance taken away. everything over simplified into only the basics. blah blah blah. I've already probably rambled about thi#all before but it's just SO frustrating. I literally just CAN NOT talk that way!!! even if I try!!! I took multiple advanced placement#english & language arts classes in school and I literally never made below an A on any assignment EVER except for ESSAYS#where I would legit get almost failing grades just because I cannt express myself concisely. I took an english placement test thats made to#like evaluate your competency in a subject and out of the 102 multiple choice questions I only missed TWO of them. almost a perfect#score. But for the 5 open response questions (about articulating thoughts succinctly) I did not get a single one of them lol#I only got partial credit on 3. It's like I OBVIOUSLY understand the material and I know how Words Work and how to analyze and interpret#meaning and etc. etc. But it's just when I have to express myself CLEANLY I can't. It's always ''well you have very good points and you#get around to the idea eventually and I think it's very insightful - but it just needs to be shorter/the side tangent needs to be removed/#etc.'' I've always wondered if it has something to do with being on the schizophrenia spectrum and how that can cause disorganized#speech sometimes hmm..ANYWAY.. But I just naturally express myself in a very particular way which is lengthy and I can't rea#ly seem to control it. So it's basically like just.. being gradually pushed out of every place that won't accomodate people with different#ways of like perceiving and expressing or etc. Everything cannot ALWAYS be 100% 'Short and Snappy and To The Point' or a quippy one#liner or the Bare Minimum of information being provided or etc. Some peoples brains just do not work like that!!!!! Sorry I operate#in detail and elaboration lol. ANYWAY.. I still sometimes use random ''dating sites'' like OKCupid to look for platonic friends since#I never leave the house so it's hard for me to just meet friends naturally. And I just realized today that they added a RIDICULOUSLY small#character limit to their messaging system (2000 words?? augh). And also took away answer explanations (when you answer a compatibility#question you used to have a space to give detail and explain why you answered the way you did) and removed a few other features and it's ju#t like.. how the fuck is any of this actually helpful in terms of judging compatibility? take away ALL nuance and anyting that actually#is meant to tell you anything about a person? Bumble's character limits for your profile description are even more fucking insane and so#is every other disgustingly minimalistic place I've seen like.. OKC used to be superior BECAUSE it allowed for a TON of detail. like back i#2016 or something there was SO much data you could look at. long form question answers. personality trait summaries. etc. Now you have#SOO little to judge off of when evaluating compatibiility it's like. You'd have better luck just throwing a dart in a crowded street and#talking to whoever it hits. Why are people so fucking allergic to reading anything longer than 3 words and providing DETAILS!! It just seem#harder and harder to find any place to meet platonic friends where you have any amount of actual data to go off of and it isnt basically#just random 'speed dating' set up shit. AARGH. &I know 'oh just join a club& meet ppl irl' 1. erm..covid. 2.I mostly want to meet ppl#in places I'd like to move so I already know ppl when I get there. You kind of HAVE to do that online. bc I am not there yet.. WISHING for#Complexity.Com where ppl can upload full 900 page psychological files of themselves. MINIMUM profile character limit 30k words lol
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anyone want to talk about zalinki with me… someone please please somebody i need to talk about when death was mine i—
FLIRTING THE MOON DRIVES ME INSANE. CUTEST SONG EVER OMG. IT'S SO. AUHSDJHGBAJHSDG omgomgodsagbsdjhkgbkfjkn "but i'm holding out hope for her… that maybe she'll take me the way i am… one part asshole, dreamer, and sad little man" HELLO. and the ending!
WE RAN OUT THROUGH THE BACK DOOR. i'm actually giddy. makes me want to be in love sooooo bad like abhgfkhjbshgj. or like. crushing hard on someone idk. someone to be obsessed with and obsessed over in turn. the WOOO! makes me almost crash my bike every single time and look stupid. i want to be Yearning and bailing on socials. do you get it
apropos;;;;; ohhh the song you are (comfort & devastation in one) "won't you tell me where the bedbugs go?"
and OF COURSE lampshade king and peach yogurt… old tracks but better than before tbh, especially in the context of the full album. idk how i was sleeping on the line "i've got time to spend the afterlife with all of my friends" until now but i am no longer sleeping on it. the ultimate motivator indeed!
burns,,, the soundscape,,, literally putting it in my mouth… exhaust fumes & <3,,, the verses of insane…
AND SEAMLESS. "i totally understand" WHEN YOU PHRASE IT LIKE THAT I DO. I UNDERSTAND. that's actually me all the time,, i totally understand (i do not understand i can't understand it hurts to try and i'm tired)
off the topic of wdwm. problems,,, i want to draw animatics to it so bad and now i have a couple weeks off from school so we'll see if that happens. but like i'm so obsessed with his delivery on that song. make right is such an edible track. millennium compendium the POTENTIAL. over it is so brainworming. what about the children? is still one of my favorite zalinki tracks ever though, longlasting. also sorry i only finally just listened to waking up without fingers and it's… actually really quite devastating. i have to resist the urge to dig through the zalinki server that i've been in for the past four years for lore, because i'll be spending full days scrolling through texts if i do.
also macaroni sunshine is such a fun song i really do quite enjoy it.
anyway that's my zalinki propoganda brain dump of the day. i'm holding myself back. apologies to anyone who actually reads through this. it's driving me insane (haha get it? haha get it get it get it hahhahahhaha)
#lychee's brain trash#i've been mildly obsessed with his arts for the past four years#i am now profoundly obsessed#according to last.fm i have listened to tracks on wdwm over 600 times in the past two weeks#and listened to his music in general over 800 times in the past two weeks#zalinki#when death was mine#listening to it while biking around campus at 11:00pm… so good#also now i want to emulate his art style even more than i used to#like i've always been obsessed with his art but returning to it again with a few more years of art under my belt#mmmmmmmm makes me want to re-evaluate everything i've drawn#been sketching a lot lately i'll figure out how to make art a quarter as cool one day#until then;;; i must practice!!!!!
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first day back doing crt work tomorrow...i'm not excited i am a little nervous but i'm hoping that it's a good day at the very least
#teaching tag#excited to get through the next few weeks because i have 4 assignments due within the span of 11 days#one of them is done i just wanna read over it again tomorrow afternoon before i submit it#it's the first one and not due til friday BUT i haven't really started the one due on the 19th sooooo#i've outlined it but i need papers lmao#then there's a reflection for my study visit this past week#and a comparative evaluation of 2 papers for research methods#plus a few days of work in between + tutoring#i am BUSY
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How to tell I'm genuinely pissed: A Guide
So, I swear pretty liberally when I can, but the thing that's funny about that is a few years ago I would not have been able to. Due to my... intense Christian upbringing I wasn't able to bring myself to swear until maybe 4 years ago or so? First time I said shit on accident (which I may have just thought it, can't remember) I started profusely apologizing to God cause I was worried it'd get me a ticket to hell. All that fun stuff.
But the one thing that I've never been able to break out of swearing wise is not saying, "Oh my God," "Goddamn," or "Jesus Christ." Stuff like that. Mostly because of how one of the 10 Commandments directly says to not take God's name in vain, and because of that I can't bring myself to do it. So besides when I'm quoting something or reading out dialogue I can't ever bring myself to say those.
Except for just now, in which I have learned that anti choice assholes who try to make a point with a post that was talking about AN ONGOING GENOCIDE can make me actually say those.
#yes this is about that last post I reblogged#didn't wanna make it about me in the tags so I'm explaining just how rage filled I am here#hope that person takes a good long look in the mirror and evaluates their choices#to be real I actually do hope that they think this over cause I remember being on the pro life side of things a few years ago cause I-#didn't understand and my youth pastor made it sound like the most heinous act anyone could ever commit#but that still wouldn't explain the very much unwanted changing of the subject#again. read the room. and free palestine.#vent#kinda ig. mentioned my weird religious crises so yeah#phoenix prattles
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This paper is actually going quite well.
Too bad it's complete bullshit.
#I'm not lying#but I'm definitely not being brutally honest about the historiography here#look the first few works are technically all social histories but there's a qualitative difference from the later ones#and the politics is still important enough that I should get to call them political histories#Also frankly I don't care#I just need to finish the damn paper by midnight and then I will be free of this fucking course#I have never in my LIFE dreaded going to class before this course#And honestly? It's soul crushing! I have no will to succeed here!#My only motivation is that I liked the rest of the semester and I need to pass this class to continue the program!#the professor asked for an additional evaluation (still anonymous) and I'm torn about how brutal to be#because on the one hand it was an enlightening course and I am definitely better equipped as a historian than I was three months ago.#on the other hand every single one of my classmates had completely given up by the end because no matter what we did it wasn't good enough#and also the professor was just fucking mean a whole bunch. But in that subtle way where you feel crazy for noticing.#so the class was horrible but I don't want him to feel horrible but also maybe he deserves it??? I can't even tell if he's actually a dick#or just acts like one#which is perhaps not a meaningful distinction but if he doesn't mean to I'd feel bad being too harsh#though several incidents make me think he meant to#blegh. It'll all be over by midnight!#And then I can focus on studying for women's history and - joy of joys - writing a syllabus about Victorian fashion and politics#I fucking love historical fashion that's going to be absurdly fun
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So are Gens 6 and 7 the new Gen 5? Considered “bad” by the fandom before but are now “the last good Pokemon games”?
#pokemon#gen 5#gen 6#gen 7#for clarification#my first game was lets go eevee#and then shield#so i am a gen 8 girl#but i’m seeing a lot of people re-evaluate gens 6 and 7#whereas just a few years ago#people would go on about how bad they were#(obviously they always had fans)
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one and a half hours. punch me in the FACE
#AHHHHH#unfortunately i have work again tomorrow at eight am but whatever#after that i have good few days off and on wednesday i'm going to erfurt and getting my eye evaluation!
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sorry to be a puritan but i literally stop listening to someones music if i find out they were a sexual abuser and its not because i necessarily think that’s a moral imperative that i’d require of anyone else but more because i literally can’t anymore like i don’t know how to enjoy the music in that knowledge i can’t just tune that out like I’m letting that music into my soul and something about immersing myself in the raw expression of someone sexually violent feels like taking a bath in dirty water idk
#i still listen to neshama carlebach singing her fathers melodies i havent figured out the optics of that one#but i rmbr she did a blog post 'carlebach is my name too' that made me a bit insane#like. thats a lottttt to deal with and she condemned him n side w the victims#not to like pat her on the back for that bc obviously its the right thing to do but like phew#i rmbr when someone showed me a red house painters song and it made me like deeply viscerally uncomfortable#and then a few weeks later it turns out hes a rapist like#pretends to be shocked literally#other forms i dont feel the same way like i dont get this w book#and i just evaluate it on the content and am able to exclude parts of it from me etc#but listening to music by someone whos done something so hateful to another human being like it literally makes me feel tainted
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oh my fucking god. LMFAO. i've been reading through stuff about autism to see if i relate. taking those silly lil quizzes and not-real evaluations. and there's ALWAYS the question of "literal interpretation"
and i'm ALWAYS confused by what the hell it could possibly mean
but all this time
is it bc
i have been interpreting that question too literally???????????
The way most autism literature describes "literal interpretation" is often not at all similar to how I experience it. Teenage me even thought I couldn't be autistic because I've always been able to learn metaphors easily.
In fact, I love wordplay of all kinds. Teenage me was fascinated to learn all the types of figurative language there are in poetry and literature.
But paperwork and questionnaires are hard, because there's so much they don't state clearly. Or they don't leave room for enough nuance.
"List all the jobs you've had, with start and end dates." What if I don't remember the exact day or month? Is the year enough?
"Have you been suffering from blurred vision?" Well, if I take off my glasses the whole world is blurred, but I'm fairly sure that's not what the intake form at the optometrist is asking.
Or the infamous (and infuriatingly stereotypical) "Would you rather go to a library or a party?" What sort of party? Where? Who's there? I work at a library. Am I currently at the library for work or pleasure? Does it have a good collection?
It's not common figures of speech that confound me. It's ambiguity, in situations that aren't supposed to be ambiguous.
#i'm getting evaluated in a few months#and i was like “if they ask me this question what am i going to say?”#“i don't understand what this even means”?#and i couldn't help but feel like that would tell them a lot LMFAO
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This has sent me on the world's most dysfunctional rabbit hole as I test the theory that I can subsist on an entirely liquid diet if I just drink a gallon jug of nutritional replacement and energy drink concentrate and electrolytes each day so I never have to deal with food again
It's not as challenging as you'd think! Esp if I'm willing to have a cup or two of wild rice and some raw veggies each day, which does seem more doable than eating an entire 3 squares(lmao i have literally never had more than 2 meals in a day are you kidding). So. Maybe. We'll see. Rn, a month's worth looks like it would cost more than we could allot to groceries, let alone what we could allot to meal replacements for me AND groceries for wifey, but maybe I'll get the numbers to work out if I futz a bit.
Can I just so strongly recommend that no one ever get a half dozen opportunistic infections including h.pylori and c.diff and leave it untreated for years because literally this is the fucking worst
#the social worker brought an rn out to the house last night to evaluate me and as were going through it all i could see her eyes going wide#when i told her i'd been losing about 20lbs/month she got very quiet and asked me if i thought it was just post surgical#but when i explained the food aversion episodes she was quite firm that i need to do something myself or go get iv fluids if#i am not eating regularly again in another few days#which uhhhhhh#lmao#so i did book a consult with a medical recovery program
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What's it like to have people walk on eggshells around you? Genuinely curious, never experienced it.
#personal#I am literally everyone in my life's therapist right now#and few people I could talk to about my stressors are my stressors.#So I can't begin on my problems without anyone feeling like they're critiqued.#I'm glad people are comfortable with me but do I exude 'dump all your problems and become your safety lifeline here' vibes?#need to re-evaluate
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I am SO ready to be done with this project 😫
wheres that quote "the only thing I hate more than making, is not making"
I wanna MOVE ON GOD DAMN IT
#only a week to go#and then another week of bloody evaluation#and then a few wekks of prep and exhibition#and then im done!#and i can just exist#i am so ready to do nothing 'the proper way' for a while#and im absolutely FINISHED with art education#animation student#artist
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Me showing DSAF to an acquaintance who has only heard of it like: "You will get depression due to this later. Anyway this is my primordial pet freak, he has killed hundreds of people and will kill again and I think he should be locked in a controlled environment forever. Oh no not for his crimes. It's because I want to study him like a bug forever. Perhaps break his bones one by one... Anyway when I draw him drawing is actually fun and doesn't feel like a stressful performance."
#its so funny i just cant be normal. normal people have like#normal characters that they consider characters that bring them joy. i always pull out the most rancid fucker and go#'this is my emotional support piece of shit and when i draw him i rediscover what hobbies are'#(because i actually do not have hobbies in the traditional sense)#(as in activities like drawing or writing are actually not fun for me at all#i do them because im fairly good at them and because it's a habit; like doing your homework. but i hate them. it's a stressful thing#and it brings me more tears than fun. i like to produce products i like being productive but i hate the process and i hate#how i can make a mistake and i feel judged the whole time. i feel like that during playing instruments and during sewing amd#i felt that way during horse riding and i feel that way no matter what i do. constantly judged and evaluated and like#my performance has to be flawless and every tiny mistake justified. like my life is a constant process of justifying my actions in#front of a court and a judge and a jury.)#(but when i draw some specific characters I don't feel that way. i feel like this weird feeling that i think might be joy? i don't feel#stressed out at all and seem to forget that i am being evaluated#i forget that i have to constantly earn my life. j don't stop every few lines to get a breather to calm myself down and assure myself#that i can do this flawlessly. i just...draw and if it's less than perfect i just correct the mistakes. but I don't feel pressured or judged#i find myself smiling and it's weird. because i never feel like smiling when im drawing or writing or anything.)
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