#I always love some Jovier

[sunshinetomioka]

JAVIER DOODLES !!!! Cuz I love him so much he is pretty man and I’m so gay for him ANYWAY, most of the doodles were made thanks to Mellon_soup pose ref on insta

[verdemoun]

WHAT SHIPS DO YOU LIKE?!?!?

many. many ships.

kierthur will always have a special place in my heart as my first rdr2 ship. esp when people use it as a chance to really play with their interpretation of kieran. a softspoken kieran with that understated confidence that lets arthur feel vulnerable? a nervous wreck who leans into arthur for protection and arthur compulsively falls in love with people he thinks he can rescue? either, good soup

charthur and jovier admittedly i just enjoy because they're the most common in the fandom and it'd be kind of miserable if you didn't ship them at least a little. but i mean damn 'i'll stay too' that was so homoerotic it made me cry. 'i always loved you, even now?' smash. i just think javier deserves better

JOHNIGAIL TRUTHER THEY ARE SO CUTE TOGETHER IT IS REALLY HARD TO SEE EITHER WITH SOMEONE ELSE

vandermatthews come on if that wasn't meant to be read that way they have a funny fucking way of showing it. the hand touches. the sheer emotion in dutch's voice when hosea is shot. even negotiating, the tremble that undermines his confidence. old girl. it's just. it's real to me.

macsummers. i just think they have better chemistry than sean x karen but i ship that too i am a disaster.

extended list of ships i would consider writing for, including some absolute crack of my own creation: kieran x javier, bill x javier, dutch x micah, molly x micah, bill x micah, bill x alden, charles x javier, charles x kieran, kieran x mary-beth, mary-beth x tilly, karen x molly, sadie x molly, trelawney x kieran, mac x bill, davey x sean, lenny x jenny, jenny x karen, sean x karen, micah x mac, mary x sadie, mary x eliza, mary x arthur, albert mason x arthur, albert mason x winton holmes, eagles flies x paytah, annabelle x grimshaw, black belle x kieran, annabelle x bessie, sadie x jake, probs many more but these are the fun ones

semi-popular stuff i don't mind, power to you if you ship it: molly x kieran, sadie x abigail, trelawney x arthur, sean x kieran, micah x arthur

stuff that makes gives me the ick but you do you boo: bill x kieran, john x arthur, molly x dutch

[dazednstoned]

Hii! Do you maybe recommend any fanfictions that maybe are centered around John or Johnigail? 🫶🏻

Hii, yes I have a few I really like<3

this night has opened my eyes by pinkchem91 is one of the few multi-chapter fics I like. It's centered on John and his struggles, but it doesn't victimize him or vilify Abigail, which I love! I think it's one of the few johnigail centered fics that depicts John properly. The writing is also amazing. It features some jovier, but I recommend it even if u aren't interested in that ship bc it's just that good!!

now I bend like a willow thinking of you by vittoriaisfuckingpathetic is a really sweet oneshot. I like the dynamic between John and Abigail here. They also have another fic called take my hand (don't fear the reaper) that is very good.

25 Days of A Cowboah Christmas by Zana_Zira is another good multi-chapter one. It features charthur, vandermatthews, and Johnigail depending on the chapter. All around a very cute fic!

looking at me by honeydreadful is another good oneshot. It takes place pre-Jack, which I am always fond of in a fic.

Here are just some general fic recs that aren't necessarily johnigail centered:

The Pretender by biiitchofCambridge is a modern charthur fic, but it features some really good johnigail moments. I am obsessed w it!!!

Arthur Morgan's Journal by saiyan_druid is another modern charthur fic, but it focuses heavily on John and Arthur's relationship. There's hints of johnigail and vandermatthews in it too.

ghosts and people by the_ocean_weekender is an old fic that I really enjoy. It's a fix-it fic w Arthur and the Marstons focused on Arthur's TB.

Bury Me With You by krhjfuirhgr is about Jack following Abi and John's death. I recommend it if ur looking for some Jack Marston angst.

Sorry this turned into just a general fic recommendation, but I'm pretty sure all of these at least feature some johnigail. There aren't many Johnigail centered fics I've seen (and like), so if anyone has any recs lmk!!

[dreamingatnights]

Its okay all is good 👍 im also quite blunt, i tell my friends theyre amazing and i love them just as much as i tell them when they do smt that i think is shitty akdbdkdhf. I didnt feel attacked but i thought you were feeling attacked xDD hey it shows we mutually care for each others opinion and comfort.

I better get what you mean. You meant it more as a generality. Like a warning to not forget Javier's less desirable side. Which i agree is super important when writing a character to never make it all black or all white. His less desirable traits are part of what makes him interesting and i do agree that the fandom tends to have some favorites. Tumblr is a safe heaven for javier (to a point of sometimes excusing him too much but thankfully it doesn't happen often) but outside of tumblr ive actually seen a ton of hot takes on him that completely evilify him sobs. And abi has a tendency to be forgotten or tossed aside. You prob know im a huge jovier fan lol but i did notice in a lot of jovier dynamics abigail is often easily tossed aside despite how important she is for john's character and that's always been something that irked me a bit.

It's really really sad that people forget about rdr1 because the game adds so so much to the characters in it, mainly the marstons but also javier, bill and dutch.

I actually have been following you for quite a while because i did see and read a lot of your analyses already and i thought they were all very cool and well thought and that's why i decided to follow you!! :3 i still think your ideas are very cool, like i said earlier im also just blunt lmaoooo and ill say it when i disagree with smt but its never with malice, and its nice to exchange ideas, and i always thought you bring good perspective in general

Needs to be more JohnxJavierxAbigail (smut especially) just sayin

[12timetraveler]

Are you anti morston/vandermatthews? (general question, nothing in particular brought it up)

I am not.

Vandermatthews is one of my favorites ships honestly I do love those two together. Maybe not always the healthiest of relationships but I do love it. Hosea and Dutch, I feel, definitely have history.

Some of the more controversial ships like Morston, vandermorgan, or morbell aren't really my cup of tea, but I have nothing against them really. Just because I don't see it doesn't mean I don't see some interesting possibilities there.

But yeah not really my cup of tea. I'm more of a Charthur girl when it comes to who I pair Arthur with. Or Jovier for John.

I know I'm on that blacklist for "shipping Morston" because I reblogged some Morston artwork once. Honestly I don't ship it. I just don't reject it either and I feel beautiful artwork deserves to be shared. I can definitely appreciate Morston content, even if I don't ship it.

I could go into the same debate this fandom has had over these ships time and time again, but we've all done this before, most of us know where we stand, so I won't be getting into specifics of why I say ship and let ship, or any of that.

(sorry if this came off a little grumpy nonnie, if you're asking from a place of general curiosity. I'm happy to talk about pairings in the fandom, but I also know that by replying to this I'm opening myself up for more hate anons and death threats so... Yeah. )

[spine-rat]

||Jovier - burnt out||

(song is Burnt Out by Leanna Firestone)

(also i adore jovier but angst<3)

i have never felt as warm as i did when you touched me,

gave me goosebumps from head to toe

but a love made of matches was

destined to burn out

and end up in ashes and smoke

after fleeing Mexico, Javier had never expected to fall for anyone again - especially not someone like John. He couldn’t remember the last time he got butterflies from soft touches - if he ever had had them. Something as simple as John cupping his cheek and running his thumb gently along his tanned skin gave him goosebumps and made him warm all over.

Still, embers remained and i tried to reignite them

ended up playing with fire again

you pushed me away and i fought and i stayed

but maybe i should have listened

it was no secret John Marston struggled to keep people around without pushing them away, i mean, he left for a year without hesitation. But, despite that, Javier tried his best to stay around and be there for John when he needed it the most, no matter how much John tried to convince him to leave.

because you’re right,

i couldn’t fix you,

you’re right,

i shouldn’t have tried to,

your pride is what you’re concerned about

is “you’re right” really all you wanna hear right now?

Javier tried his best to change John. He tried to help him open up more to people, and let people in; but it didn’t work, in fact, it probably made things worse. and when things ended? John tried his best to let Javier know that.

well, you’re right

i should have walked away faster

should’ve known you’d only break my heart after

i was already in love

you’re right, you aren’t good enough

After John’s track record wity relationships - Abigail especially - Javier probably should have realised things weren’t going to end well with John, but he still tried - he’d never been in love with anyone the way he was with John.

i kissed your scars even after you hurt me

i held your hand even when you fucking burned me

do you know how embarrassing that was?

to stay with somebody who hates you because

John and Javier argued all the time, John’s temper causing him to have horrible outbursts - sometimes causing him to say particularly hurtful things to Javier, but despite that, Javier stuck around. After the wolf attack, Javier would kiss John’s scars in an attempt to “heal” them faster.

you hope things get better

you hope that love can

turn a monster into a man

none of them were particularly very nice men - they were outlaws, killing, robbing, causing chaos for no reason other than because they wanted to, but John was different.

Javier and some other gang members had some respect for partners, or for other people, but John didn’t. His temper was ridiculously bad.

but it doesn’t,

and it won’t,

because you’re beyond repair

but there is still someone for me somewhere

who will treat me so nice

you’ll wish that you did

for someone so smart,

you’re so fucking stupid

to think that i’m really that dumb.

i love you, but i’m done

Javier tried to make things better between him and John, but it didn’t work - it fell apart, not very nicely either.

pretending this was gonna work

pretending loving you didn’t hurt

pretending that it doesn’t burn

when you think you’re always right

cause you’re stuck on your past

you hate him so much but you’re just like your dad

you smother every light that i ever had

by holding on too tight

John didn’t grow up with his dad - but from what he remembered and what he told the gang, he didn’t seem very nice and Javier had noticed some of John’s personality traits and the way he acted was very similar, despite how badly John claims to despise him.

and it’s suffocating

and i’m longing to breathe again

and in the middle of it all

i ended up losing who i am

Since Javier had joined the gang and learned English, he had always been outspoken and able to defend myself, though, after he began trying to fix things with John that faded. Instead of doing things for himself, or defending himself from Bill and Micah’s harassment, he took it and dealt with it - he was too tired to do anything else.

And i know that you tried

gave it all that you had

and being a monster

doesn’t necessarily make you bad

John had tried to change after his and Javier’s breakup, and Javier had too - but they both knew deep down people couldn’t change. They weren’t bad men, they just had some questionable morals and made some questionable life choices.

but even if we could

staple it back together now

we both know that you can’t light a fire

that’s already burnt out…

[javierchvez]

winter bakin’ | jovier

pairing - javier chavez & @jojohood

time - sometime around winter break

setting - the kitchens

summary - javier and jojo make cookies for the holidays

The best part of Christmas was the baking. At least that was Javier’s opinion in previous years. This year he had something even better to look forward to, and that was baking with one of his favorite people. She might not be the most adept baker, but it was still nice to have company in the kitchen. And Javier couldn’t have asked for better company than Jojo. Grabbing the last of the ingredients, he gave her a quizzical look. “Now, the only question is…” he trailed off as if to build suspense as he reached into the drawer. It wasn’t anything that needed the suspense, but that didn’t mean it wasn’t fun to make it sound like a much larger debate than it was. “Do we want to do snowmen or the traditional gingerbread man?” Though he was asking for her opinion, he definitely made his own known by nodding his head slightly towards the former.

Jojo wasn't exactly what anyone would call the most festive person, but that didn't mean she hated the holidays. How could she, when her home back in Sherwood always went all out for them? It just meant that while she admired the holiday lights and decorations and all that stuff, she didn't usually participate in any of it firsthand. She especially didn't if it had anything to do with cooking or baking, but baking holiday cookies was a fun excuse to hang out with Javier. Not that Jojo needed an excuse -- almost without her even noticing, Javier had become one of those rare people that she knew she could hit up to talk about anything, at any time. And she must like him a lot if she was here, ready to try making cookies for the first time. "Hmmm..." Jojo said outloud as she struggled to tie her long, wavy hair back into a ponytail or bun to keep it out of the way from getting burned or something like that. She considered saying gingerbread just because she knew he wanted the other one more but she ended up going with, "Fuck tradition! Let's make some tiny snowmen!" With that, she finally wrestled most of her hair into a ponytail that stayed and she wiped her hands on the side of her pants. "So, Chef Chavez, how do we start this thing? Because I'm not kidding when I say the extent of my baking knowledge is those tv competition shows."

Javier could hardly contain his excitement when she agreed with him. He honestly would have been okay with either cookie, he just liked the way the snowmen looked and the fact that they had more icing on them than the gingerbread men. “Seriously, don’t even worry about that. That’s what I’m here for,” he said, trying to make her feel better about her inexperience with baking. “I can show you what to do. It’ll all be fine, trust me.” He’d shown plenty of people how to make things. Okay, maybe not that many people, but he was sure that he could teach Jojo a simple sugar cookie recipe. “So first, we’re going to pour flour, baking powder, and salt together in a medium bowl and use this to mix it together.” He handed her a whisk as he spoke, with his other hand setting out the measuring cup to measure out the mentioned ingredients. “And while you do that, I’ll get the butter and sugar going in the mixer.” Javier waited until all the dry ingredients were properly measured before moving on to beat the butter and sugar together and tossed her a reassuring glance. “See? So far so good. You have nothing to worry about.”

"Worried? I'm not worried," Jojo lied through her teeth in the most teasing tone she could manage. She wasn't used to the part of liking somebody that made her insecure that they'd think less of her if she proved herself talentless, but at least Javier was nice about it. He was nice about everything, and besides, it wasn't like cookies were even that hard of a recipe to not fuck up. "And I do trust you," she admitted with a sigh. It was weird to say those words and even weirder to mean it, but it felt like a good kind of weird. "Alright, let's go!" She rubbed her hands together before taking the whisk from Javier and nodded. It sounded simple enough. Just mixing together weird dry powders. And whisking itself was easy enough to do, even without paying too much attention, which was good because the best part of this by far was getting to watch Javier. Even when he was doing simple stuff like beating butter and sugar together, it was kind of sexy; he was just so casually confident in the kitchen. "Right? I don't want to jinx myself but I think I might be a whisk master already. Do you ever just eat the sugar-butter mixture by itself? Because that looks good!"

Before he had been grinning at getting to do the shape he wanted, but now that grin turned into something softer; it wasn’t everyday that Javier was told that someone trusted him. Not that he’d ever do anything to make him untrustworthy, but he wasn’t naive enough to assume that absolutely nobody had preconceived notions regarding the VK’s. Although he’d never accuse Jojo of being like that. After all, if she thought something, she would say it. She was definitely not the type to say one thing and mean another, and maybe that was why he’d appreciated the comment so much, although really it wasn’t that big of a deal. They were only making cookies, not a whole lot of trust was needed in the subject, but it was still very much appreciated to be heard. And he also appreciated the enthusiasm she exuded even while doing something she had said time and time again she wasn’t good at. Javier laughed when she called herself a whisk master and peered into her bowl, a playful gasp leaving his lips. “Wow, that’s the best whisking job I’ve ever seen. And that’s coming from me.” Her question gave him a slight pause, a look of guilt spreading over his face briefly. “Uh, yeah, but no judging me! I only did it the first time I made cookies over here because, well, it was the first time I’d made cookies with fresh ingredients. And I do not suggest eating just butter and sugar. It’s kind of gross.”

Jojo rolled her eyes but couldn't help but smile at Javier's surprised gasp; joking around in a kitchen together was annoyingly just as much fun as the lame people in romcoms made it seemed, and she kind of hated herself for actually puffing up a little bit at his playful compliments. Maybe it was too late for her and she was officially a fool with feelings. She'd think about that later, though. Right now, she had a handsome and hilarious boy to mock. "Um, permission to remain unjudged denied! I can't say I don't get the temptation though. It looks freaking tasty." She looked down at the mixture and then over at Javier with mischief twinkling in her eyes. "Hey, are you one of those cooks that gets weird about people sticking their fingers in your food?" she added, sticking a finger out menacingly towards the butter and sugar bowl. "Do you dare me to taste it?”

“I just told you it was gross and you still wanna try it?” Javier asked, laughing as her finger neared the mixing bowl. “I’m not one of those, no, but like I said, I really advise against it.” He made sure the mixer was off before tipping the bowl towards her. “But if you really want to do it, be my guest. Just don’t blame me when it’s the worst thing you’ve ever had. I warned you it was gross.” He had to admit, even though there wasn’t much baking being done and more messing around, he was having a great time. It was always a good time with Jojo, no matter what they were doing. “I’m about to add vanilla, egg, and almond extract though, if you’d rather wait. We’re almost to dough and that tastes a lot better than just butter and sugar.”

For someone who had never been in any relationship before and had only really seen successful ones, Jojo really had a bad habit of waiting for the other show to drop, and so she kept expecting Javier to get annoyed that she delaying their progress, or that she was just goofing off, but it felt more and more like waiting for something that wouldn't come, and that made it easier to be herself. "Yeah! You can't call something gross and honestly not expect me to try and test it out," Jojo snickered. She loved self-imposed dares and trying new shit out, and this felt like a good opportunity to do both of those things. She considered waiting for a moment so she could have the full dough experience as Javier suggested but then she just shrugged. "I'll try it when you get it all doughy too but I'm too curious right now!" Her finger swiped the edge of the mixture and scooped some up. "Cheers," she laughed,  popping it into her mouth and keeping eye contact with him the whole time. The taste wasn't as bad as she had been expecting and she covered her mouth with her hands as she laughed. "Dude... is it bad that I liked it?"

Sure, he’d definitely had worse tasting things on the Isle, but this was gross more so because of texture than anything else. Just watching Jojo eat it made him grimace, remembering his reaction the first time he’d tried the mixture. It was not at all the one she gave him now, and Javier couldn’t help but snicker. “I mean, everyone’s got different tastes?” He responded, reaching for the next set of ingredients to add to the bowl. “But I’m telling you. Nothing's gonna beat the dough. I know they say you shouldn’t eat raw dough because of the eggs and what not, but it’s still amazing. I could sit and eat an entire bowl of it, honestly. Who needs actual cookies when the dough tastes a little better?” After adding in the vanilla and eggs, Javier added the dry ingredients, setting the mixer to low and letting it do its thing. “So, thought about how you wanna decorate your snowman? Do we want royal icing or would you rather use fondant?”

Jojo felt even more like smiling at the look on Javier's face; he looked absolutely aghast, and it genuinely cracked her up that she could gross him out a little bit. And then he laughed and it made her laugh, and her heart felt light. She was still getting used to the fact that somebody's emotions had such sway on hers, but it felt so good right now. "I love raw cookie dough, man," she laughed. "I'd eat it all day, but I guess I wait until they're real cookies. That's the Christmassy thing to do, yeah? And I'm not sure. How are you going to decorate yours? Not that I'm planning on copying you, but you're the kitchen genius here! I'm not even sure I know what fondant is, actually, except that the cooking shows say it's hard to use. Which of those is more fun to lick off? I vote for the best licking experience!"

“You have no idea what fondant is? Wow, I really have failed to teach you anything,” Javier sighed exaggeratedly and shook his head. “But at least you know it’s hard to work with, and honestly it doesn’t taste great. It just makes decorations look better. Especially when you’re trying to create a scene or build something. Royal icing it is, but don’t expect it to come right off when you lick it like regular frosting does. As for how I’m decorating… I’m not sure. I guess I was just gonna do a regular old Frosty type snowman. Boring, huh?” He was really glad that they’d gotten the chance to do this, especially since she’d always said she wasn’t any help in the kitchen. It was nice to have someone other than his sister or dad in there with him, and someone he could really joke around with like they had been. Javier really felt a connection with Jojo, and it made him really happy to know that she hadn’t gotten sick of him yet. He hoped that day wouldn’t come for a long, long time, if it ever did come. For now, though, they had cookies to worry about. What the future held for them could wait; besides, it was much for fun to live in the present with her. “Ready to roll it out? You wanna do the honors?”

"It's not my fault you look hot when you're explaining kitchen stuff," Jojo complained, fake-fanning herself as if he was too sexy at this moment to even stand. "It makes it hard to listen to you when I just wanna kiss your face." She was good at saying bold stuff like that over text but in person, it made her blush a little and she let herself listen about the icing instead. "Eh, some people say boring. Some say classic. Me? I say boring," she joked, "but it'll taste delicious for sure." She nodded when asked about rolling out the cookies and she excitedly took the roller to the dough, ready to show her stuff. "You're not going to get behind me like a guy in the movies to 'show me how it's done', are you?" Jojo jested, her strong forearms making quick work of the dough.

Javier “looking hot” was something he was still getting used to; the only time he thought the word described him at all was in a literal sense, not an attractive sort of way. He scoffed lightly and rolled his eyes, muttering a “yeah, right” as he busied himself cleaning the area while she rolled out the dough. “You know, I kind of thought you’d say that,” he joked, moving the ingredients no longer needed out of the way to make room for the icing. Egg whites, vanilla, and confectioner’s sugar were pulled out instead, and measured carefully into a new bowl for the standing mixer. “Wow, do I really come across as that kind of guy?” Javier snorted, trying and failing to feign offense. He traded his expression for a small pout, adding on, “I didn’t think you thought so little of me.”

Jojo was very familiar with the sort of reaction Javier let out when she called him hot -- honestly, it was the kind of reaction she always had whenever anybody complimented her looks. She was convinced she was the worst looking in her family and just sort of weird-looking in general, but that was different; Javier was actually hot, super fucking hot. She'd thought so even before they started whatever this was. "It's true," she sighed, but otherwise let it go as they started preparing the icing and she licked her lips in anticipation for tastiness. Jojo giggled at his false-offense, raising a brow at him. "Maybe I just wanted to get you behind me," she quipped, shrugging a shoulder. "But seriously though, no. You're the least 'that kind of guy' I've ever met. It's why you're my favorite."

‘You’re my favorite,’ wow. Javier hadn’t expected to hear those words or have the kind of reaction he did; he could feel his cheeks warm as a smile tore across his face. The only people he’d been the favorite of were his father and sister, and that didn’t have nearly the same effect on him as hearing it from Jojo. “Favorite, huh?” he echoed teasingly, or at least that’s how he meant to repeat it. He was sure it didn’t come off quite like that with his cheeks still tinted with blush. It probably came off more like a schoolgirl laughing a bit too hard at a joke her crush had just told, which truth be told did describe how he was feeling at that moment a little bit. Giddy, giggling to himself in a slightly idiotic manner in response to something his crush said. Javier cleared his throat to compose himself a bit, busying his hands with the icing that was quickly coming together. “And if that’s what you really want, I guess I can show you how to pipe the icing onto the cookie. Have you ever used this stuff before? It’s kind of fun, a little like coloring if I’m being honest. Just draw a border around the area you want to ice and then fill it in,” while he explained, he separated the icing into several bowls so they could color it for whatever accessories their snowmen would be wearing. “Is the dough ready to cut and bake?”

[pricryo]

All the love asks

“Blush : What do you do when you have a crush on someone?”- i draw art of them and make playlists for them in secret and imagine how cool it would be to hold them… i also try to do whatever i can to make them happy, even if it makes me sad.

“Kiss : What’s the sweetest thing someone has done for you?”- i was once given a series of letters that spanned over the course of december with roughly one letter every day until christmas! it was all good, positivity, lovey-dovey stuff!! i really cherish that. i also really cherish every single time john has drawn something for me!! especially the things that were to cheer me up!!!! 💛💖

“Cuddle : Which one of your mutuals do you really want to hug right now?”- @blondewolfhd come get your hugs, love!! 💛💖

“Heartbeat : What fictional character do you love?”- oh, plenty!! there’s a full list on my carrd under comfort characters, but the main romo comforts are: john laurens (hamilton musical), brightheart (warriors), hollyleaf (warriors), jay merrick (marble hornets), steve rogers (marvel), arthur pendragon (bbc merlin), sir leon (bbc merlin), sir lancelot du lac (bbc merlin), sir gwaine (bbc merlin), and john marston (red dead redemption)! 💛💖

“Romance : Perfect date?”- going to a zoo or an aquarium!!! that would be super fun!!!!! or like… going to a cafe… or really anything!!! like… the perfect part is just being there with my partner honestly…

“Joy : What truly makes you happy?”- being with my partners and just… having fun, goofing off!! or doing things together!!! just being with them and just… loving them… they make me happy.

“Happiness : Who are your kin?”- assuming this means family, i have an older brother and sister, a mother and father, and three nieces and a nephew. not counting my many, many cousins. or my uncles/aunt. however, i don’t really… consider them family, for the most part, other than my older brother and one of my nieces (i call her kidd and she’s got some issues, but she’s pretty chill). in addition, i also co-own one pug (meatball), one blue heeler mix (fluke), one white cat (archimedes), one orange tabby cat (napoleon), one calico cat (mr. meowgi), one albino rabbit (casper), one rabbit with a “wild coat” (acorn), and one rabbit that’s brown with black splotches (berry). i also have… three adoptive dads and four boyfriends!! 💛💖

“Love : Are you, or have you been, in love before?”- yes!! i am deeply in love with my boyfriends!! john and leon are the only two that aren’t in my system, but i love them all the same!! unfortunately, i do have a bad habit of only referring to john, mostly because i typically feel afraid to tell people i’m dating two of my headmates and one of his, and i really wish i could break that. leon, gwaine, lance, john… i love you all equally. 💛💖

“Beloved : What do you love the most about yourself?”- i’m trying harder to learn how to love myself, but i think… my eyes? or better yet, my creative talent. i’m trying really hard to hone my writing ability considering how it’s my special interest and i’m an aspiring author!!

“Sweet: Favorite love song?”- currently, it’s if i killed someone for you by alec benjamin, but other good ones i like include the anchor by bastille, white blood by oh wonder, and i found by amber run!!

“Cute : What’s your aesthetic?”- unfortunately… it changes way too often. over all it’s had a foresty theme for a while, but sometimes it’s also been retro games and pixel art, and sometimes it’s been sunflowers and pastel colors and being gentle, and once it was books and reading and coffee, and once it was pirates back when they were one of my special interests! right now, i don’t really know what it is, and i really wish i did.

“Thoughtful : If you could change your name, what would you call yourself?”- this is also a very hard question! right now, the current name i’m going with is timothy alexander lucas(?) laurens (or technically wright, but then when i marry john, it’ll be laurens)!! but i also like a few of my kin names (merlin, icarus, javier, and bucky namely)! and i’ve probably entertained the thought of a few other names at one point or another, but right now i’m most comfortable with being called tim by most people!

“Charming : Who helps motivate you?”- my partners are my main source of motivation!! 💛💖

“Beautiful : Who is your ideal significant other?”- i’m already with them!!! 💛💖

“Affection : Who do you ship?”- plenty of ships! my biggest ship rn (mostly because of the kin shift) is jovier (john marston/javier escuella)! another one of my major ships is merthur (merlin emrys/arthur pendragon)!! you can ask for a more extended list in a separate ask but rn this is all that comes to mind!!

“Kind : What Pokemon would you be?”- where i kin a lot of pokemon… i have many options, like umbreon, jirachi, pikachu, zorua/zoroark, midnight lycanroc, pyroar, shiny yamask, shiny quilava, the rowlet line, and deoxys! that isn’t even counting my synpaths, either! but right now, i’m feeling mostly like i’d be midnight lycanroc! :0

“Heart Beat : You’re getting coffee with a celebrity, who is it?”- i don’t really know!!;;

“Giggle : Do you believe in love at first sight?”- not exactly!! i believe you can feel attracted to a person, but you can’t fall super deeply into love with them until you know every little detail about what makes them wonderful!! 💛💖

“Laughter : Who can always make you laugh?”- my partners!! 💛💖

“Smile : What do you find attractive?”- i don’t really know!! ;w; i don’t think i have any specific preference, but john says i do, so i’m uncertain!!

“Warmth : What is your happy place?”- a warm bed in colorado curled up with my husbands! 💛💖

“Huggable : What are your favorite flowers?”- mostly sun flowers and tea roses!! there’s plenty of them i like that i can’t remember rn, though!!

“Soul Mate : Who is your best friend?”- without a doubt, my best friends are my partners! 💛💖

“Unique : What qualities do you look for in other people?”- generally, i want the people i’m dating to have similar values to mine (anti-racism, anti-terf, anti-trump, anti-islamophobia, anti-xenophobia, etc!) and be a good person!! nothing else really matters to me!! 💛💖

“Trust : Do you trust people easily?”- i used to trust super easily, but after being put through emotional abuse my one of my best friends at the time and being manipulated after putting all of my trust in her, i find i can’t do that so easily!! however, i’m still slightly easy to trust, from what i’ve noticed recently!!

“Dearest : What item is most dear to you?”- literally anything my partners have ever given me!! like the candles john made!! or the art!! or the letters!!! or the minecraft sheep plushie that i love a whole lot!!! or the blankets!! or the things they’ve taken from the bad house and brought to me!! i love them a lot!!! 💛💖