#I acc can't take this anymore 😭

[star-pocalypse]

Breaking News: girl who spent years defending Katara sees the Seven Havens announcement and has a hysterical breakdown as she realizes she's going back in the arena

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[chaostudee]

controversially young girlfriend, lewis hamilton.

summary : the media crticizes y/n and lewis when they start dating due to their significant age gap. faceclaim : tyla a/n : been in the drafts for awhileeee also this is lowkey rly short so lmk if u want part 2?

y/nusername i can't call rn i'm doing hot girl shit

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sabrinacarpenter angel face 👼

user728 ughh so so fine

user42 omg imagine serving this harddd

username22 she knows she's badd

user34 oml so so obsessed with u i acc cant

username99 mother

y/nlover more music plsss

user68 my icon my legend

username frrrr she's literally like my inspiration in life

lewishamilton we had decent race pace today but wasn't enough to convert a win. we will evaluate what mistakes we made and we will come back stronger

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user727 my goat 🐐🐐

f1fan it's a struggle to be a lewis fan rn

user88 i'm so sick of the p10 curse i acc can't anymore

f1lover changeee your fucking car

georgerussell 💪

justanichident oh how i love britcedes

user89 still and will always be a legend

username11 we need more roscoe content lewis !!

y/nusername had the best time in brazil love you all ! 🇧🇷

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user727 aaaagh had the best time ilysmm

user99 her fits always devour

username22 obsessed with u acc

f1 we know this diva 💜

user728 F1 WHAT ARE U DOING HERE f1fan omggg y/n in the paddock when?? username28 omggg don't tease us like this

user782 what a cutie patootie

user44 ughh to be her

user62 LOVE LOVE LOVE HER

username26 ughhh she's so mother

y/nusername make me lose my breath make me water

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user727 GUYS OMGG LEWIS LIKED AND FOLLOWED HER

user44 damnnnn

username can we just collectively agree to dress like this 24/7

user62 WAIT GUYS THE CAPTION

user99 omggg is it a new song tease username526 i'd die stoppp

username90 serving cunt

user414 oh i'm so ready for ny show

f1 interview with lewis hamilton after las vegas gp

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user62 OMG OMG

username FREAKING TF OUT

user44 omggg i'm so ready to see bf lewis

f1lover guys he literally asked for privacy so let's respect it

user33 🙌

user99 betcha it's y/n

y/nusername nyc ily so so much !!

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user72 OMG WE WON

username a new single announcement healed me

user673 hearing y/n live was utterly insane she literally sounds angelic wtff

gracieabrams so so obsessed with you 💕

username42 yummy

user99 need her actually

sabrinacarpenter mwah mwah lysm

y/nusername xxxx

user52 the choreeography was so fucking good

username66 omggg yes like someone teach me those moves pls 😫

y/nusername last week on tour doesn't feel real 😭💗

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f1fan sir lewis hamilton IS THAT YOU?!?

user727 girlll whaaaaat

user42 soft launching THE lewiz hamilton is crazyyy

username25 isn't there like a 15 year age gap 😭

user25 omggg wait you're right user626 ewwww

user62 i applaud you y/n for giving us pic of lew

username omlll his tats i can't

user52 knawing at the bars of my enclosure username22 plsss 💀💀

lewishamilton 🫶

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user728 OMG A HARD LAUNCH

user82 holyyy shittt

username89 wowza didn't think that he had it in him

f1fan the age gap is wilddd

username22 y/n's face card is actually insaneeee

f1lover summer break (lewis's version)

user62 back tats 🫠

lewishamilton

》 awww y/n's so so cute

》 15 years between you's is crazy

》 she could literally be your daughter.....

》 pls take good care of her

y/nusername in light of all the backlash on online that both i and lewis have recieved i have decided to take a break from social media. i will be back but for now this is goodbye. i love you all sm see you soon <3

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sabrinacarpenter i'm always here for you ❤️

user62 stopp wait no i kinda feel bad

username hope u guys are happy because this is what happens when you all hate for no reason

f1fan so sry you guys are being treated like this

user72 i'm going to miss you so so much

username12 ya'll really made her to do this like wtfff guys

f1lover they both don't deserve this

madisonbeer proud of you for speaking out and putting them in their place

user672 yesss queen shit

user89 fit still slaying tho

username44 take all the time you need we will be waiting for you <3

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[aethelwyneleigh27]

Toothache

How does one go "You're Too Sweet For Me" to "My Baby's Sweet As Can Be"?

Synopsis: Simon Riley finds himself stuck in a situation, growing feelings for his roommate who's so annoyingly caring, domestic, sweet and too good for him. What happens when he let's himself indulge in the sweetness rather than cage himself in the bitter life he's been told is the only one he's deserving of and the only life he's known?

Apologies to this mess of a lyricfic, I couldn't help it even though this was supposed to be a relationship analysis..

MEN WRITTEN BY ANA HUANG ARE GONNA BE THE DEATH OF ME. Alright back to our original programmed schedule with Hozier. ALSO SURPRISE! THIS CONTAINS 3 HOZIER SONGS as an apology for not posting these past two weeks due to me enjoying holidays, reading, prom dress picking and wanting to stab myself because of life, there's the added bonus 👀

My CoD Masterlist

My Simon Riley x You Playlist

Also reader in this one had a lot of characterization, she's me fr, so AFAB?Reader, Fem!Reader, Short!Reader, Reader is VERY feminine with fashion, soft-girl-sunshine!Reader and Chubby?Reader. Y'all have no idea how hard it is to write without a personality and physical intimacy in romance, I tried but failed 😭

Warnings and Disclaimers: Mentions and details on sexual content ahead (is this considered smut? Idk anymore). Not detailed smut but vivid memories of sexual intercourse (especially the dialogue) with Simon. Again, this is a safe account for all ages because I'm not a MDNI acc, you are responsible for your own media consumption. DO NOT GO ON MY DMS, INBOX OR REPLY TO MY CONTENT TO TELL ME YOUR AGE. I don't need to know that and let's strive to not make each other uncomfortable. Mentions of questioning of religion or rather belief on afterlife??

Pink, bold and italic: Lyrics

Italic: recalling past events

Little snippet of an image of how I imagined he'd hold you, courtesy of the one and only @ave661

"It can't be said I'm an early bird, it's 10 o'clock before I say a word. Baby, I can never tell, how do you sleep so well?"

Simon Riley was never a man to live the life he was taught to in the military, it was out of habit for him to not leave his room until around noon. Then there was you, his roommate, he didn't exactly calculate how much it would affect his personal life to save money through rent by willingly letting someone within the same living space.

He'd find himself with not even a wink of sleep, hearing your footsteps through the thin walls, hearing the lock on the windows outside click open.

"You kept telling me to live right, to go to bed before the daylight. But then you wake up from the sunrise."

He'd always hear you, quite frankly it was like nagging on the constant.

"Simon you shouldn't do that, you'll hurt yourself"

"Simon please go get some rest"

"Simon.."

He'd swear he'd rip his own ears out every time his name falls from your lips from how sweet and chirpy it sounded and yet deafening silence would consume him whenever you aren't around.

"You don't gotta pretended, Baby, now and then. Don't you just wanna wake up dark as a lake? Smellin' lika bonfire, lost in the haze?"

Something about you makes it so tempting for Simon to give in, I mean it would be a one time thing, wouldn't it? So soft, so pliant, he set himself up for an addiction. It wasn't healthy, he knew this, he'd convince himself of the fact that he would end up hurting you.

Just too different, it repeated like a mantra in his head. He was bitter, brooding and didn't find any sense of pleasure in living. Why'd you think he has the job he chose? It's all he knew, till you skip your way into his life, giving him the sweetness he was deprived of.

"If you're drunk on life babe, I think it's great. But while in this world, I think I'll take my whiskey neat"

Drowning himself in alcohol, a trait Simon promised himself he wouldn't ever do when he was young, setting his glass down with a small thud from the wooden table. But what would the kid version of him know about life. He didn't have healthier options of coping with what seems to be his dilemma.

But then there you were, sweet little thing coming home at the late hour in that skimpy dress of yours. Revealing too much to the eyes of those who wish to have you for themselves with just one look. Where did you go that night?

"My coffee black in my bed at three, you're too sweet for me"

Desperately trying to keep himself awake and at bay from his thoughts of you. Drowning himself in now two cups of straight black coffee to help him focus.

It was odd, you got used to the scent, was strong with a lack of sweetness but it calmed you down knowing he was around.

How he'd corrupt you, he wanted to shatter that rose tinted glasses of yours to save you from himself because being with him would change you. Selfish but he doesn't want that, you were utter perfection..

Simon further delved into his feelings, what the fuck was wrong with him?

"I aim low. I aim true, and the ground's where I go. I work late where I'm free from the phone and the job gets done"

Grumbling, Simon walks back into the apartment in the middle of the night. You heard a thud, you come out of your bedroom, yawing from you incomplete sleep.

"Si..? Are you hurt? What happened?" You asked in a soft tone, careful not to agitate someone would could possibly be pissed off.

Simon stays silent, glaring at you as his eyes was only thing visible because of his balaclava. Your soft gaze intimidated him, because why would he feel that squeeze in his heart?

"But you worry some, I know but who wants to live forever, babe? You treat your mouth as if it's Heaven's gate. The rest of you like you're the TSA, I wish I could go along Babe, don't get me wrong..."

The only thing Simon heard was a sigh from you and nothing more, you walk up to him, each footstep feeling louder than that last.

Something Simon didn't expect you to do was wrap you arms around his waist, tiny thing you are that your head only goes up to his chest. Your body against his, basking in the warmth in contrast to the cold weather he had to deal with coming home.

"You know you're bright as the morning, as soft as the rain, pretty as a vine, as sweet as a grape. If you can sit in a barrel maybe I'll wait, until that day.."

You took care of him that night, to his reluctance and stubbornness. Despite refusing, he had no choice, he wouldn't want a soft thing like you on his ear the whole night till he agrees. You were persuasive in your own irritating way.

Sitting on the edge of the tub of the warm bath he's in, washcloth in hand. Touch was so gentle, why was it so soft? Why's it so warm? "It's the water you fucking idiot" his subconscious screaming at him. In denial.

Why is his heart beating so fast..? He wants to stab it to stop the feeling..

"I'd rather take my whiskey neat, my coffee black and my bed at three. You're too sweet for me"

Using both your hands this time around, one gently holding his chin with your fingers while the other wiping away at the eyeblack he had. Every scar on his face felt the graze of your finger.

The slow blinks, your eyes on his. Before any conscious thoughts consume Simon, he lifts his arms from the warm water and wraps them around you.

Your nightgown was now damp but you couldn't care less, now with the man you were pinning over, foreheads against the other.

"Si.." you softly whisper. That nickname will be the death of him, you'll be the death of him. He crashes his lips on yours, not wanting to let go till you both were panting. You were too fucking sweet, your lips, your skin, everything. He wanted a taste and he got it...

"My lover's got humor, she's the giggle at a funeral. Knows everybody's disapproval, I should've worshiped her sooner"

Another sleepless night wasn't uncommon for someone like Simon.. however this aching feeling wasn't, he doesn't know where it's from or what it's about. Not until he heard you in the kitchen, letting out a giggle even though you knew better.

"If the Heavens ever did speak, She's the last true mouthpiece. Every Sunday's getting more bleak. A fresh poison each week "We were born sick"

That sweet fucking voice, like the angels speaking to him themselves. "Oh- I'm sorry Si, did I wake you up?" You asked, turning around to the sound of his footsteps.

That tiny nightdress of yours, a reminder of the night you spent together, that morning you slept in his bed.

Lashes beautifully displayed on the delicate skin of your under eyes. Soft noises while your chest was peacefully moving up and down with every breath.

"She tells me, "Worship in the bedroom". The only Heaven I'll be sent to, is when I'm alone with you I was born sick, but I love it Command me to be well. A, Amen, Amen, Amen"

"Simon.. Ahh~" you moan out softly, your body writhing underneath him. It felt hot, sweaty despite the well ventilated room, so intimate from something that was supposed to be the farthest thing from domestic.

"Shhh, you can take it sunshine.. You don't want the neighbors to hear us, do you?" Simon whispers, callous hand covering your mouth with as little pressure possible, you whimper at his words.

Closing your eyes to lose yourself in the pleasure you've never felt before. Your body being worshiped with gentle hands and soft kisses that leave marks by the very same man who kept distancing himself from you, now he'd stop at nothing for your pleasure.

"Take me to church, I'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies. I'll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife, offer me that deathless death. Good God, let me give you my life."

"Simon.. no more–" you whined. Scratching his back hard enough to leave marks without being aware, he'd always imagine what those pretty pink nails could do to him.

"Just one more, please sunshine.. you remember our safe word right?" Simon asks for you to nod softly, you didn't have energy to take anymore. "I told you I'll make you feel good, didn't I? So be a good girl for me and take it, hmm?"

Your eyes roll back at his praise, your legs shake with one after another wave of pleasure running through your body. This man was starved.. insatiable.. who would be able to resist such a request? Not you.

"If I'm a pagan of the good times, my lover's the sunlight to keep the Goddess on my side. She demands a sacrifice, drain the whole sea, get something shiny"

It took everything in Simon not to worship the ground you walked on that night, he wasn't trying very hard, was he? Because always.. at the end of the night, you're in his bed, his mind, his life.

Was it really a sin? To want something you don't deserve? Simon stayed up that whole night, not a wink of sleep while thinking of whether this arrangement should continue. Every bone and organ in his body telling him to be selfish, take what was something that wasn't his to take.

"Something meaty for the main course, that's a fine looking high horse. What you got in the stable? We've a lot of starving faithful that looks tasty, that looks plenty, this is hungry work"

Simon's gaze, never faltering on your sleeping figure that he refuses to go anywhere but his own arms. He tries to close his eye to compose himself, free himself from the emotions you emit from him.

His efforts were to no use, all he saw was the image of you, sweetly smiling, those doe eye staring right through his soul.

"No masters or kings when the ritual begins. There is no sweeter innocence than our gentle sin In the madness, in the soil of that sad earthly scene. Only then I am human, only then I am clean"

You were getting too close for your own good, Simon knew that, he'll be damned if he let's himself hurt you. So he does what any stupid man would do, avoid you like the plague. Did it mean nothing? Were you just some fling, never to be talked about again?

Fuck you Simon Riley, he made you feel loved in bed like no man ever has or ever will, completely ruining your chance of ever thinking of anything else and that was just a hook-up session? Maybe this one time you can let yourself be delusional, was there really something more? Only one way to find out.

"Oh, oh, Amen, Amen, Amen, Take me to church, I'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies. I'll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife, offer me that deathless death. Good God, let me give you my life"

You caught him, fucking finally, after days of waiting and trying to get him at the perfect time. "Si.." you whispered softly, you didn't know where to start. He took a quick glance at you before looking back at what he was doing.

"Simon Riley, don't fucking ignore me. Not after everything that happened those nights" You said, it was stern but he needed to hear it. It made him stop, think about what had happened.

Before he could generate a response, "Why?" You asked. It was a vague question, why was he ignoring you? Why does he feel this way? Why does he love you yet refuse to act on it?

"Take me to church, I'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies. I'll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife, offer me that deathless death. Good God, let me give you my life.."

"You don't deserve a man like me, you deserve one who is like you, optimistic, sweet, fucking beautiful and alive.. A man who's not damaged, scarred, has blood on his hands and haunted by his past. A man who's not afraid to show his love for you. A man who won't put his burdens on your shoulders and a man who will take care of you instead of the other way around. That's what you deserve and I can't give that"

Everything felt like it came to a stop, were you hearing that right?

"You have no idea how much you contradict yourself, Si. How are you so sure that you haven't given those things to me already? You might not be like me but "like me" isn't what I want.. I want you, every flaw, every beautiful scar. Not once before your silent treatment have you hurt me, it's frustrating yes, but you are worthy of that. Every struggle, frustration and mistake, every bit of your love is worth all of that. I want you to see that Si, your actual true worth rather than what some psychotic fucker decided to torture you with"

"Boys, workin' on empty. Is that the kinda way to face the burning heat? I just think about my baby, I'm so full of love I could barely eat"

"Si?"

"Yes, Sunshine?"

"I love you" You whispered after smothering him in a plethora of kisses. Never has anything made Simon melt more in his life than his wife say that. Doesn't matter how long it's been, how much the both of you have been through or how much frustration the both of you were going through..

It will always stay the same, the feeling those three words give him, like the first time, every moment feels that way. Familiar, finally.. Home.

"There's nothing sweeter than my baby I'd never want once from the cherry tree. 'Cause my baby's sweet as can be, she give me toothaches just from kissin' me"

He always thought about how unfaithfulness was such a struggle between some people, he thought about how good he has it constantly, reflecting back on what he used to have to how now this is something he never thought he'd have or deserve.

"When my time comes around, lay me gently in the cold, dark earth. No grave can hold my body down, I'll crawl home to her"

When a man finds himself in the verge of embracing death's arms, what causes the struggle? What causes him to fight that pain, to keep on going? Not once has this crossed Ghost's mind.

No. He's not Ghost, he's Simon. Your Simon.

And you're expecting your Simon home, fuck everything else, he'll give the biggest "fuck you" to death itself and crawl home to you because he'll be damned and he'll experience everything he has in his life over and over again just to hold you again.

"Boys, when my baby found me I was three days on a drunken sin, I woke with her walls around me. Nothin' in her room but an empty crib and I was burnin' up a fever I didn't care much how long I lived, but I swear I thought I dreamed her. She never asked me once about the wrong I did."

It should matter, the amount of blood on his hands. Not once did you judge him for it, what the fuck was wrong with you? Giving a monster such as him a bath like he was some innocent stray kitten, although this time around it was far more messy. The dried blood caked underneath his finger nails.

Flashing him a tired smile while you wiped off the blood that made the water in the tub a hue of brownish-red. Taking your hand in his, his lips brushing against your knuckles. The way you looked at him was enough to make him cry.

"When my time comes around, lay me gently in the cold, dark earth. No grave can hold my body down, I'll crawl home to her"

"Fucking get up" Simon repeats to himself, "She needs you, she loves you" despite how many times he's convinced himself you didn't due to the voice of his father in his head, it felt like a knife twisting in his heart imagining how it would be for you without him.

How much you cried the night he came home a day later, you told him yourself, practically sobbing while clutching your aching chest and him with your other arm how you weren't ready for Price to show up at your doorsteps holding Simon's belongings.

He won't let that happen.. he can't...

"My babe would never fret none, about what my hands and my body done. If the Lord don't forgive me, I'd still have my baby and my babe would have me"

Simon knew it, no one would ever love him like you do. No one would show him the same acceptance, devotion, care, concern and love. It wasn't healthy to be so attached dependently to someone in love.

He couldn't help it, it felt so right, everything with you did. Never a judgmental one, at least towards him. Always first to hold him, the first to ever take away the heavy guilt that weighed his heart and shoulders down after he'd done something he knows he'll go to hell for, if it's even real

"When I was kissing on my baby and she put her love down soft and sweet In the low lamplight I was free. Heaven and hell were words to me"

Every inch was kissed, not a part wasn't worshiped. "So fuckin' beautiful, so sweet. All for me, hmm?" Simon mumbled against your skin, suckling on the soft sweetness that he so claims. All hickeys, no bruises.

Fuck, he'd not just survive but thrive on just you. No other sustenance, your supple thighs he adores to cover in purple, your neck, your lips and your skin that he often compares to sugar syrup in his head.

"When my time comes around, lay me gently in the cold, dark earth. No grave can hold my body down I'll crawl home to her"

The question was, was it worth it to live an eternity of lifetimes filled with suffer to be with you in at least once? The only answer to ever graze Simon Riley's lips was the word "yes", the day that changes is the day that he'd be the biggest bull-shiter the world has ever known.

Simon opened the door to your shared home, "Daddy!" A loud squeal wakes him up from his dread of what he's seen on the field.

"How's my little sunshine been? 'Ave you been good to your momma while I was gone?" Simon asked, carrying the little girl in his arms.

"Yes! Momma said we'd go to the park tomorrow as a reward for me helping out!" Little one saying it so proudly, Simon couldn't help but smile, beaming with pride as his little girl grows up to be what he recognizes as a good person.

"Simon..? You're finally home, I missed you so much" You said, peeking out the laundry room. You walked out, quick to give him a peck on the lips.

"I love you Si.."

"I love you too Sunshine"

Also this is a very long fic.. I expect long feedback.. @connorsui 👀

Does this make sense? Idk anymore it's like almost midnight and I'm running on a few hours of sleep. GOD MY PROM DRESS LOOKS SO GOOD, I CAN'T WAIT.

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Trying out new dividers as well by @anitalenia

[pamicakery]

Hi there:) so I just got to know about your acc so I asked i really need your help I am very ugly as up now and my crush likes follows many girls which are much beautiful than me and I can't even confress so I really need to go into void but I am really stuck in doubting myself rather than trying so whenever I try to meditate I always get to sleep and I can't anymore tho I have a bad self concept too pls help😭

Hello!

So first you have to read my post about '' How to manifest an Sp '', after that I'll tell you that If you need to go into the void, (I'm not a void blog but I guess is the same as manifesting) you need to drop the '' despair '' approach.

Embody someone who can void and is beautiful. Meditate on it and focus on the fact that you are a beautiful shifter now. Meditate is not always staring like this : 🧘🏾��♀️

Meditating is focusing on something. You can do it with your eyes open. Is taking your time to focus. That's why people succeed in affirming, robot affirming, 5x55, scripting, visualizing etc.

Because they focus. You can do whatever method, you need to focus on what you want. Stop embodying someone who is ugly and can't manifest. (Okay saying this like that is easier said than done) but I assure you that I am doing this right now so you're not alone. It's tough, it's tiring, you will or will not get headache but do it with the knowing that your inner state will be reflected outside.

The ugliness you feel inside is reflected outside, the despair you feel inside is reflected outside.

So.. Do the opposite, Saturate your mind, meditate, focus. I assure and promise you that it will work but don't give up and don't waver!

[xkseii]

Heyy, I know you’re probably not going to see this since you’re not using this account anymore but i think i used to be ⛄️ anon. You might not remember me but that’s okay 😭😭🙏 I loved this account soo much i used to read all the posts on this acc on my free time last year 😭 espicially when im at school in breaktime (and sometimes in class..😟) but after graduating everything has just been busier and life yk 😪 so i never got the chance to read all your amazing fics anymoreee for a long time. I think we only talked once on the posts, LIKE I WAS SO SHY LIKE I WAS THINKING SHOULD I SEND THIS? OR SHOULD I NOT? WILL I GET BULLIED 😭?? I don’t knoww i just looked up to you smm like you’re such an amazing person like you were so nicee to me and stuff and i just wanna thank you for all the amazing memories you gave me this year and last year 😭🫶🏾🫶🏾 idk if you know but you had a big impact on me this year n last year. Your posts taught me how to set boundaries wit ppl, to take care of myself and that its okay to take breaks, how to write really good fics 😈and your adorable little son who always brightened up my day and made me smile whenever i felt shitty 😋 EVEN THOUGH I FEEL PRETTY SAD THAT YOU’RE LEAVING IM REALLY GLAD TOO, like im glad you’re prioritising your mental health and just i dont know how to explain it but im really happy you’re doing whats the best for you 😭😭 I hope you continue to make more fun and pleasant memories in the future and continue to do the things you love and brings out the best in you 😁 OKAY I THINK I’VE YAPPED ENOUGH IDK HOW TO MAKE APPRECIATION LETTERS BUT I REALLY HOPE YOU’RE DOING BETTER NOW THANK YOU FOR BEING IN MY LIFE AND MAKING ME HAPPY IM GOING TO MISS YOU SMM BYEEE I REALLY WISH YOU THE BEST AND IM GOING TO MISS YOUR SON SM BUT THATS OKAY 😭😭 OKAY ENOUGH ENOUGH BYE DRINK PLENTY OF WATER AND TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF BYEE <33

I do remember a ⛄️ anon! (I think I remember almost all the anons I had, even since I started this account.)

You shouldn't be reading fics during class time! (but I did it sometimes too so I can't say anything.) Congratulation for graduation by the way, that's awesome and I'm really proud of you!! It's a big step, and even if the path after gets busier and more difficult, it's something to take huge pride in.

I am happy when anyone send anything, even a comment or ask without words, so thank you for taking the time to do it. I think I should thank you just as much, along with everyone else who accompanied me this year and part of the year before. You did make my life awesome, and I've rarely been this happy before, so it's thanks to you all.

I'm grateful for reading this, that really bring a smile to my face. I wish you the best just as much, that you can enjoy yourself and your life, make friends and be happy. Keep setting boundaries, prioritise yourself and your feelings, be a lovely and nice person. Don't forget to drink water and eat easier, take a break when you get too tired or start to burn out, and stay positive about all the small things that make you happy.

Thank you a lot, and I wish you a Happy New Year. My son (Sherlock) does too.

[maiverie]

Mai do you have any fic recs? I can't find any good ones😔 (The tags are not worth looking for they're mostly smut lyke😃)

hi anon!!! omg yeah i’ve also noticed that enhablr has been really inundated with smut lately! which isn't a bad thing; just not for everyone :'') but anyway i won’t lie,,, i haven't personally read much on enhablr so idk if i'll be super useful but my suggestion would be to look through recommendations from reading accs or k-networks!

for example, here are some i found from my rbs: one, two, three, four!

@.kflixnet has shared sooo many recommendations here and here; you can check out their full post here! ficscafe also has a big list here! there are other active k-networks you should check out, like @.enhanet and @.k-labels!

personally speaking, @.chiyuv has released a new hee fic recently that i couldn’t stop raving on about (and her masterlist is extensive so i'm sure you’ll find something you like!). otherwise, off the top of my head, some other really well-loved writers are @.ddeonuism, @.yeongwonie, @.wonvelvet, @.goldenhypen & @.soobnny! if you like smaus, literally anything from @.ddeonuism, @.jayflrt or @.amakumos (but i’m sure you already know about them lmfao). @.seungstarss / @.yunverse isn’t active anymore (hold me i’m going to cry) but her smaus were SO GOOD. also @.bambisgirl isn’t active anymore but her works were >>>

if you still can’t find anything from the above, let me know hehe and i’ll personally try hunt some down for you — especially ongoing / currently active writers since a few of my moots have what look like amazing fics i haven’t gotten around to reading quite yet 😭 just tell me what you like :>

i hope this helps!!! 💗💗

p.s. if you click onto my "mentioned!" tag, it’ll take you to posts that mention my stories but there are soo many other fics on there that you can see if you like ^^

[crystalclear97]

I WAS AT STAGE WITH PARAMORE 💜

Wow. I can't believe I'm writing this. Here I go.

Disclaimer: English is not my first language and I'm writing this at the airport on my phone without thinking too much. So, sorry if I mess up with the grammar or something 🙏 (by the time I'm uploading it I'm already at home cause I wanted to add some pictures).

I made this account very recently because I was embarassed about fangirling too much at my main blogs where irl people followed me.

I dedicated this account mostly to aruani (snk) fandom but you've probably realized that I also share a lot Paramore stuff.

Well, I wasn't planning on ending anonymity anytime soon but... something BIG happened to me.

Last thursday I was able to go to my first Paramore show ever at Dublin. I've been dreaming about it for so many years. I've watched so many videos of fans going up stage at Misery Business and I've cried so many times watching them. I travelled from Spain, wrote in a huge sign "I crave to sing with you", arrived at queue at 8:15 am aprox, and waited (I had General Acces tickets!). The amazing Tom gave us some numbered wristbands so we could leave the queue and stay warm and healthy without losing our spot. He was the sweetest. Meanwhile I took a walk around, lucky enough to meet Brian Robert Jones and take a pic with him!!! Around 4 pm we were back at the queue and, yes, I was able to be at the same spot. ❤️

The second I entered the arena and realized how close I was to the stage I started ugly crying hahahaha. Rozi Plain was so sweet, Bloc Party was awesome (I really like them as well!!). And then they came out. At that moment I wasn't even crying anymore, I think I was disassociating a bit 🤣

They were amazing. Hayley is so talented, pretty and fun. THE ENERGY. I was holding up my sign maybe for too long and I could hear some people complaining about it behind me, which I totally understand... I felt so bad I started crying about it so I decided to not hold it up again until Misery Business :_) But soon the guilty tears turned into emotional tears, and I cried a lot during most of the show. I was SO EMOTIONAL during Last Hope... 🥺

AND THEN

Misery Business starts. Time to make Hayley spot me 🙏 Omg my stomach hurts while writing this... SHE. PICKED. ME. SHE FUCKING PICKED ME. I didn't realized, my boyfriend literally had to tell me because I was so nervous I didn't realized. Ok I think I'm going to cry again hahahaha.

She said she had been watching and knew exactly that it was going to be me. I can't believe it. At that moment I was so euphoric that I just went with the flow. Obviously I'd been preparing myself for this but you need to know I'm a very socially akward person, I have many anxiety issues, but IDK WHAT HAPPENED TO ME BUT I'M VERY PROUD OF MYSELF 😭😭😭 Hayley hugged me very hard, I told her I love her and thanked her a billion times. She is very tiny and I'm a big tall person but she PET MY HEAD 😭😭😭❤️ I can't believe she was so sweet!!!! I did it, I sang the song, I danced with Hayley, she said my name, we headbanged together... an amazing dream come true. I asked her to sign my (diy grow up) jacket and SHE DID IT!!! I was told to left very quickly (obviously 🤣) but she managed to sign it for me on time 🙏❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ (I also brought a marker in my pocket on purpose). I mean I WAS SO READY FOR IT 😭❤️

After that people were AMAZINGLY NICE TO ME. THANK YOU ALL WITH ALL MY HEART. It means the world to me that the other fans felt happy for me, so many people congratulated my, you are in my heart FOREVER. I felt kinda bad because I'm from Spain and I started thinking that maybe I didn't deserve it, that it should have been anyone from Dublin... I find it very difficult to feel worthy of all the goods things that happen to me, and to hear so many fans telling so many nice things, hugging me, even asking for pictures... You really made a difference in me. I'm crying. I wish I could share with you the feeling. THANK YOU DUBLIN. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!! ❤️

This has changed my life forever. I also met Louise from Bloc Party after the show and she was LOVELY, eveything about that night has inspired me forever. I've been dreaming about making music by myself since I was a little child and just started to actually make it (kinda 🤣) a few months ago. But now... I feel so blessed and inspired I'm gonna try harder from now on.

MY WILDEST DREAMS CAME TRUE. Thank you Hayley for choosing me, thank you Paramore for changing my life, thank you Dublin for the unforgettable experience, thanks to the lovely fans I met there, and THANKS TO MY AMAZING BOYFRIEND for being there with my ALWAYS by my side. He knew it was going to be me. He fucking knew. I'm so grateful. I've been crying since that night. I'm crying right now and I'll never stop crying about this. This is a once in a lifetime experience, I am the luckiest person. A picture could not contain the way it feels.

WE LOVE YOU. WE LOVE YOU AND WE ARE PARAMORE. ❤️

Pics by Eleanor (check out her work omg):

Pics by Charlie:

Pic by Laura:

13/04/23

[sokadraws]

omg why did I googled five nights at freddy's now I'm all about five nights at freddy's and all my browsers are abt-- help me I shouldn't watch this film now im obsessed with it (jst like the old times...😭😭😭)

wait for smth abt them on another acc I can't take it anymore--

[koganeirou]

I was thinking about Fruits Basket and it honestly disturbs me sometimes that Akito beat Kisa to the point of hospitalization. I wonder if she was planning to kill Kisa when she beat her and if she had to be held back until Kisa was taken away or she did it until she didn't feel like beating her anymore. The worst thing is that Hiro can't blame Akito since he's cursed. :/

okay first off thank you for being the first non porn bot interaction i got in ages LMAOO this tumblr acc has been lonely akjtheatka

also i completely agree. it is so infuriating how akito beat the stuffing out of kisa and it's like NEVER BROUGHT UP AGAIN??? beyond a one off scene of hiro feeling guilty and apologizing to kisa for something that wasn't even his fault. where tf is akito's apology??? wtf about kisa's trauma?? why do we never get any introspection about how BEING PHYSICALLY ASSAULTED affected kisa from HER perspective?? it's so bizarre how something as serious and severe as beating up kisa is treated as a "oh by the way, this happened!" and it feels like it gets barely any attention because kisa isn't a major character. kisa and rin are by far the worst victims of "i'm not important enough of a character for the author to take my trauma seriously and give it the screentime it deserves to digest it". i am convinced takaya hates women LOL because the only people who's conflict with akito are moderately resolved (moderately ADDRESSED) are kureno and yuki; rin and kisa are left with nothing.

sorry for the rant lmao akito's entire plotline and the way the story resolves the conflict between her and the other zodiacs makes me so unbelievably ragey you have no idea 😭

[usdemigods]

I cannot stop thinking about the 17 chapther of GS, and aaaaaah! It hurts me, 'cause if Izuku let know to Katsuki that he has magic I want to believe that Katsuki would understand, but the boy has years of indoctrination about the magic being unfair and bad. Also, Izukuuuuu I love you my boy but 💀, what was that???? I can totally see Izuku ignoring the ultimatum of Katsuki and being hurt later because "omg you were serious" (Because it happened!!!!!). Why can't they just be honesto ans happy and normal???

Also, awww your Katsuki is so cuteeee 💖😭, I love him, I reallyyy would like to see a Pov of him, especially what happened in the beach.

I just wanted to say that and also let a question completelly different so you can avoid giving spoilers.

I headcanon that Katsuki's favorite fruit are (now) the strawberrys and that sometimes he dreams about the kiss in the beach with Izuk- I mean "Mina".

Sooo what headcanons of your story do you have that you included or that you haven't been able to add yet? And most importantlly, how are you?

Sorry if I'm being too invasive or intense.

Omg thanks for sending this anon 😊 and neverrrr worry about being invasive or intense; in fact, everyone can afford to be more invasive and intense with me hahahaha. And I’m great :D thank you for asking, bored at work and wishing I could be writing instead 🙃

And yes, they literally make me want to rip my hair out 😃 like omg just TALK. But when I ask myself “should I just make them talk it out?” I can’t help but think “they wouldn’t fcking do that 😫” (yet….)

OKAY! Headcanons hmm 😈 Here, have five!

1. I haven’t found a way to make this explicit yet (will come out somehow) but everyone sees Mina differently. Only Izuku sees her true form and features: curly short pink hair, pink skin, completely black eyes. She doesn’t bewitch people anymore but casts a thin glamour to appear “normal”; she’s still new at this so uses a crutch: taking some features from everyone’s “ideal” and adapting them. To Katsuki she obviously still resembles someone (👀 perhaps he has a soft spot for her as a result?); to Eijirou I think she looks like a combination of Izuku and Katsuki, maybe with curly dark hair and freckles but with Katsuki’s cateye and jaw (I’ll let you unpack that…..); I think she has blonde hair through Ochako’s eyes, and pointed canines (🤨)

2. This is acc a huge thing that happened behind the scenes during ch 17. I wondered if I should keep it hush hush secret until one day I write a Katsuki POV of GS. But fuck itttt, we ball, I’ll tell 😆 I think Katsuki obviously noticed Eijirou’s feelings and assumed it’s reciprocated. He did pull Eijirou aside in Londin b4 shit went down and encouraged him (which is the only reason why Eijirou kissed Izuku in the end). I feel soooo bad for Katsuki 😣 I just want to kiss him on the forehead. Eijirou thinks Katsuki is just a supportive friend to Izuku.

3. After they left Bamburg Castle with Izuku knocked out Katsuki had a Crash Out™. He was Act 1 Katsuki, how he was in the beginning of the story: angry, lashing out, he scolded everyone for getting there too late, wouldn’t let anyone touch Izuku. Meanwhile our oblivious idiot was 😴😴😴. Katsuki carried him all the way to camp on his back and insisted on waiting by his side until he woke up while everyone celebrated🤭

4. I have SO many togachako headcanons, and I hate how I don’t really have the space to develop their slow burn as deeply as BKDK. Ever since she’s been weening off the sleeping draught I imagine Himiko as having very twisted, yandere-like dreams about Ochako; about possessing her, or even hurting her (not too much thoooo, and not too seriously), they’re ALMOST sexual but not quite; the dreams are very confusing and she hates them. Buries them. And she doesn’t know what they mean. But because she buries them it’s hard being around Ochako bc it makes her feel like she’s having disgusting nasty thoughts about her (she just doesn’t understand her feelingssss)

5. This is SO random but whenever I think about Aizawa travelling with Young Eri and them coming upon Prime All Might I always imagined a little ‘Will-they-won’t-they’ between them two. I don’t necessarily ship Aizawa and All Might generally but I just think it’s so funny, esp with them aged down as young adults and their sunshine grumpy dynamic (this is completely self indulgent)

I also loveeeee both of your headcanons ლ(´ڡ`ლ) I add that whenever Katsuki watches Izuku eat strawberries he thinks “cannibal 😧”. And the dreams!!!! I think, as much as he tries not to he ends up daydreaming about Mina and the beach ALLLLL the time and he hates himself for it, bc it feels like he’s violating Izuku (I just want to pat his head ☹️), and it’s genuinely distracting for him.

AHHH! Thank you anon I had so much fun writing this (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)ﻭ I can’t wait to share the next chapter with youuuuu

[7m7n7]

@cosmicjoke still shitting his diapers fighting air. mr incel, you're literally fighting your limited af imagination, projecting AND PROJECTING AGAIN DOING NOTHING ELSE. anyway, nobody even gives a fuck about what you're saying, so eh lmfao

FYI, the only one who doesn't love levi here is YOU. you want him hurt, that's what gets you off. the only thing you care about is pretending he's a holy jesus figure bc you wanna feel like the moral person yourself stanning the "person who can't do no wrong", i guess real life really showed what a trashbag you are to you for you to be desperate for it, eh? no one who feels an ounce of sympathy for a character is gonna write them get gangraped and tortured. it's pretty fucking simple and anyone with more than one braincell can understand that. :) love how you try to defend your disgusting ass by saying you "don't romanticize" it. DUH bitch, why would you? when does the SADIST romanticize abuse LMFAOOOO 💀all you are is a lifeless idiot preaching morality all day long to five even more jobless weirdos who are dumb enough to listen to you. you should thank eruris for attacking every rando opinion bc without them bashing on you, you wouldn't even get in the radar of those 5 people.

anyway, you're just there *again* getting assmad and trying to find excuses to demonize straight women bc our takes ruin YOUR gross whump fantasy of levi taking up the ass from hideous men and getting reduced to a pathetic woobie constantly having panic attacks and getting subjected to worst torture. you just are too cowardly to admit openly that you hate fangirls (even tho it's obvious as HELL) bc there's no other place you can hope to get support (not that you even get measly amount you used to anymore lolol) bc erushits don't want your rancid ass either, which is HILARIOUS.

btw, if you care about levi's kindness and heroism, why do you never write about him being an amazing strong hero figure? bc i promise you i'd love that ☺️ why is it always levi getting raped, tortured, being pathetic about someone (shitwin in this case ofc), being completely incapable and weak? hmm its ALMOST like you just don't have him to have any *gasp* POWER and you get off to his suffering 😮

also, it's kinda funny how there's only one thing you say about me that's accurate and that's me being a huge dick to erushits, but even that you can't get right fully bc you have this wild notion about me being mean to "levi bloggers" bitch WHAT levi bloggerS. im ACTUALLY asking. there's only your uglyass who's a solo stan here 😂 not even on twitter i beefed with those (also rancid) socalled solo stans until now bc unlike some of you morons i choose my battles💀 but yeah, you're a halfwit little roach, so that's not surprising that you have NO idea about who you're even beefing with lmfao.

also

D E A D A S S hilarious. i actually laughed. like WHAT do you think will happen my little roach 💀 do you realize i wrote that MYSELF WITH MY OWN TWO HANDS on a PUBLIC post that was reblogged from YOU? are you actually braindead enough to think i give a fuck what you post there about me? the only reason i don't say certain risky things is to not get nuked LMFAOOOOOOOOOO 💀 and idk what kind of boomer bullshit is this talking abt them as "admins" as if its a forum and thinking they'll give a fuck about your "nooesss BAN this pewson that i keep engaging with and spreading harassment campaigns for bc they dont like my bottomized wevi shit" clown💀

numerous accounts 😭 that reminded me, as much as it was fun to watch you think every anon who's hating on you that you cant get rid of had banked up thousands of accounts which was clearly giving you some cringe ego boost, let me give you a hint: you cant block *an account* by blocking an anon 🤗 kinda amazed how youve been on tumblr for YEARS and couldnt figured something so basic out. only a halfwit like you could imagine anyone getting a new acc whenever you block an anon so i laughed A LOT at you thinking that so thanks for being such an egotistical idiot 😘

were you saying you would rather d**l a hole to your s*** than talk with me? you better start dr*lling then since you LOOOOOVE engaging with me LMFAOOOOOO

[woozi]

helluu yza <333 🫂🫂🥰🥰🥰

i've been doing good overall <33 it comes and goes hddjkd last year ended up leaving a sour taste in the mouth, it's been quiet since 2024 started, not liking it but can't do much to change it either, can you tell i have a hard time letting things go lmao?it'll eventually get sorted out (i hope)

ANYWAY, i decided to join letterboxd community, i am a complete movie person now (if you wanna be moots there lmk), the recent one i watched was "call me chihiro", do watch it when you can, i liked it, AND AND AND there's this indian movie called "three of us" (2022) i'm still recovering from it, people who think 2521 was traumatic wouldn't be able to handle this movie at all, it's about this woman going back to her home town with her husband for a visit after something happens to her, to recollect herself and she meets her childhood friend there 😭😭😭 IT'S LIKE PAST LIVES MOVIE BUT ALSO KINDA DIFFERENT. i love both of them equally. please do watch it if you can't find link i'll send it you <333 there's too many gems i've been finding out about after making an account on letterboxd. ( also i finally watched kiki's delivery service, i had been meaning to but kept delaying it, it's soo good, the kid with specs annoyed me lmao but i got over it quickly (in the sense that i didn't care much about him or his plot hdjskss)

we can always pick up our movie hangouts, feel free to lmk on disc or even if you want ro reach out to say something 🥰 it'll reach me faster compared to here im not much of a tumblr girl anymore it seems

what's new with you? how are you doing?

i hope you're well

i find myself humming to wait so much these days, it's funny because when it was released i listened to it and then never looked back 😭 ( fake carat booo fake ot13 booo 🍅🍅🍅🍅) now it stays rent free in my mind as i go about my day, the dance break towards the ending is so so good, i've been also enjoying yugyeom's album esp summer blues it's so my kind and OMG YES I WANTED TO ASK WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON BIBI'S BAM YANG GANG? 🎤 (atp i feel like i should call myself bibi stan)

thank you for even replying back even though you don't really have to hddjsk i missed you too 🫂 you're so kind to me always <333 sending you more peaceful and good weather days, i hope you are also finding space and time for pausing in between the chaos around you 🥺💌

MA CHERIE 🥺🥰😻😘😚😍♥💜🧡❣💝��💟💌❤💛💚💙🖤💓💖💗

i'm so sorry to hear that :(( and if it's any consolation, it really is as they say!! all things really will come to pass, it's just a matter of time <3 hope u know i'm always here to lend an ear as well i lov u 🥺

ALSO LOVE LETTERBOXD REALLY IS A FILM GIRLIE EXPERIENCE FDJKJFDJKFD i unfortunately dont have it (shame on me as a prev film major LMFAO) but i'd love to be moots i'll create an acc for u <3 ALSO LOVEEEEEEEE THESE RECCS I'M TAKING NOTES!!! also still dk why 2521 was So Sad for people, i really loved it and just thought it was realistic 😭 AND KIKI'S!!!!!!!!!!!! that was also super fun for me and i loved jiji's little love story line SOOO MUCH

also felt abt that </3 I WAS ALSO JUST GONNA TELL U ABT DISC GJKFDKJFDKJ we really r soulmates atp <33 think i've also been away from tumblr since jan of 2023 now 😭 i honestly just come back during times when my love for the sebongs is Monumental and bc there r svt nets who still dont have admins 😭

the past year has also been super rough for me so i really get u when u said u hope things will sort themselves out soon FDJJKFD but i'm sure it will on both our ends!! that's just how life is sometimes. thank u for checking up on me <333

ALSO SO REAL ABT JUST CHECKING OUT RELEASES AND DIPPING DKJSJKDSS I LOV U SM!! AND I REALLY LOVED ITTTTTTTTTTTTT, think it showed a v different side to her <33 ((although the lyrics are Very Much still bibi, it's just the melody and presentation that gave her a new spice)

AND WHY WOULD U EVEN THANK ME 😤😤😤😤 i should be thanking YOU for the gift of friend chip <33 hope the days r also kinder to u, i'd fight ur demons if i could 😡 LOV UUUUUUU LET'S HANG OUT AND WATCH MOVIES AGAIN TGT SOON <#3333333333333 MWAH

[multi-kpop-fanfics]

the second picture lowkey looks like mingyu and im loosing my mfing mind omg https://twitter.com/intimatespaces/status/1500771658466054148?s=21

link to the post

no bcs I actually follow this acc and the second pic was already saved in my phone WITH THE EXACT SAME THOUGHT IN MIND😭😭

Bet my ass Mingyu would absolutely love to take aesthetic pictures like those with his s/o and he'd let the camera roll as he ends up slowly making out with them, running his hands all over their body.

He'd throw his usual eagerness and impatience out of the window just to savor the moment, trying to ignore his raging boner within his tight boxers, but his s/o would notice and they would run their leg over his bulge, to rile him up until Mingyu can't take it anymore.

He'd flip them around effortlessly and slide his cock inside them, thrusting slowly and with full strokes, taking his sweet time, watching them fall apart underneath him in the most sensual way possible.

[sundaysundaes]

Hiii omg this is so sudden but i just wanna say thank you???

Yes thank you for writing such a great fantastic and all the greatest words exist out there, fic. i know you're hiatus in writing nct fic, and actually i dont really mind bout that since this is just me late in appreciating your hard works. i have been your reader for idk how long but i just have one thing to ask you, pretty please i hope you wont deact or delete this acc and all your stories at least 10 years from now LMAOOOO this is so funny but i know how some good writers leave this platform and take their works with them, i'm pretty sure they do that because they don't want their works to be plagiarised or they wanted to forget everything but i can't help to be sad whenever i wanted to go back reading a fic that once make me all happy and feeling the butterflies and found out it's gone cuz the writers deact. and im not the type to copy the fic into word and save it even for personal use since im a writer myself and for me its still against the copyright rule altho its just a fic.

This becoming a long rant now lol. But yes, thank you again for all your hard work and willingness to write thousands words and sharing it for free here and I hope I still can get to read your existed works again and again few more years from now.

Wishing you a nice days ahead and happy and healthy life! 🍀💝

HELLO BABYYYYYY omgomgomgomgomg I'm so sorry for the late reply 😭😭😭😭😭 I just went through my inbox for my main blog again and I just realized I haven't replied to this one yet, I'm the worst ugh PLEASE FORGIVE ME 😭😭😭

AAAAA CAN I JUST SAY HOW SWEET YOU ARE FOR SENDING THIS TO MEEEEE 😭 THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS MESSAGE AND FOR LOVING MY STORIES!!! Don't worry babe I won't delete the stories I've posted here even if I don't write for NCT anymore. I'm not the type to delete my stuff, once it's out, they'll stay on the internet forever so you can come back and read anytime you want hehe ❤️ (unless tumblr goes to hell then I can't help you LMAO)

[princess-pill-enjoyer]

Well uh I have an unexpected update

I told them bout damn near everything. I tried to kms a few different times but the very last try I thought would be guaranteed to work. Soo when I woke up barely feeling any different I was BITTERRR

Shoot abd yeah I won't lie, I took it out on them partially. But. I admitted to everything

And they didn't yell at me for it. Uh. Well I wss doing most of the yelling honestly.. I was terrified. I was being so defensive just waiting on them to trash on me. Tho uh I guess me yelling was a little much. I don't ever yell so it rattled my stepmom a bit annd I think that ended up being the straw that broke the camels back. She randomly cries all the time now

Not to say I'm proud of that but I am glad that it went that far. They're really taking fixing everything seriously. Me, my sisters, and my stepmom and dad all talked together last night. We all tried to just brush past it but she started boohooing and pushed us to talk about the more serious issues

That shit was scary as hell. I hate it. But from now on we're all supposed to work on talking and working through certain issues so that we're all not avoiding each other all day everyday

I think I'm truly done with dph tho. I hate swallowing pills atp. Just picturing that feeling of them sliding down my throat.. the way my stomach burns. Ugh. I can't atm. And now that they know, I don't think I'd be allowed to keep any pills on deck tbh 😭

Part of me regrets it all. Part of me still hates everything and would rather die than figure our everything that's wrong with me. But meh. It is what it is

Me and R are back to normal too tbh. I love her still but atp she feels like family to me. I don't think I'd want a relationship with her anymore. Well kinda but it's just not the same. I'm glad I can push past that shit for now

Annd uh. Ig that's it. I'll leave everything up just incase there's someone out there struggling. Ik I did a lotta whining but I hope some of the bs I spew'll be useful

Hmu if you want anything. I'll still check in on this acc from time to time. But for now... this is it

[the-wild-candy]

hello there love, I'm here for the birthday celebration game by @etherealjaehyuns acc. and I would like to choose "messages that your preferred person would give to you", (my crush, H.N)

in exchange I'll be giving messages from your future spouse (pls my intuition isn't the best but I'll try for you!)

"hello butterfly, you remind me of sunshine and beach waves! although I am have not met you yet, I can already tell my the moment I lay my eyes on you, I would be fixated forever :). hang in there my love, no matter how small your dreams are, go for it and make yourself proud. I'll be there by your side when the time comes to lift you up in the sky. until then please don't give up and keep hustling. I love you and the smile of yours, until then byeee:)) "

oml butterfly was the first thing that came into my head 😭. This msg was so cute pls.

Hi, baby! Awww this is absolutely adorable! Thank you for the exchange <3

"I know I might not talk much about it, I might even mess it up. I am scared of my own feelings, I am tired of pretending that I don't need anyone. I am guarded, I'll admit that. I am hesitant to talk about my own feelings and I have been trying to be patient, but I can't anymore. I wanna go on a date with you. I don't wanna hold myself back anymore but I just can't help it. I'll try to loosen up a bit because I want to text you. I want to go with the flow and see where this is gonna take us. I need to be more courageous. I might look calm but I am anything but that. We are a bit different, isn't it? You have this warmth to you, and you're beautiful. I love how you're ambitious towards your goals and dreams. Also, I love how you dress up. I see that you put in efforts in the way you present yourself. I am not sure if I'll be able to revert back, but I swear, I'll try".

This person's energy was extremely guarded. I wasn't getting any cards at first but then 3 of them fell out all at once. It's hard for H.N to open up for some reason. They were hesitating. If the message looks a little all over the place, it's because they were very selective about their choice of words. I feel like they wanna give it a try but they are not ready to make a move yet. Their energy was also uncertain, but the way they see you is different. They might feel like you're opposites in some way. Oh and do you change your look often or maybe apply makeup or something else? Idk. Whatever it is, they notice it. I feel like they are also willing to text you more and I don't see any bad intentions here. The message was focussing more on how they felt because maybe you needed some sort of justification as to why they were reacting this way.

That is all I am getting for you hun, I hope this helped you in some way. Let me know if you think it resoantes, i really appreciate feedbacks. Thank you for participating! Take care 💞