#I absolutely suck at lore shit and personalities and whatever

[dinoisdizzy]

On break so y'all get to listen to me rant abt the teen au boys (which is kinda just their backgrounds and random facts but whatev)

(I started this while on break but I only get 30mins and I'm a slow typer so had to finish it at home :'D)

Cross grew up in a strict, Christian household. To the outside, him and his family seemed like the most perfect, loving family. (They were wrong, dun dun duuuunnnn) XGaster doesn't pay attention to his kids, and just focuses on his work and making sure him and his family maintain their "perfect" lifestyle. During Cross' time in church, he became friends with Nightmare and Epic (who appears shortly I'm working on a design for him now dw), who also grew up going to church. It's very common for Cross to get grounded, or get into fights with his father (that end up with him grounded anyway), but don't worry, his boys are always willing to sneak him out. It's not uncommon for Cross to just up and leave his house for a day or so after an argument with his father, and if that happens, he stays with Nightmare, who is arguably Cross' best friend.

Nightmare, as said before, also grew up in church, but didn't attend as often, as his mother, Nim, was often busy with work. Nightmare has been known in his group as the one to be able to sweet-talk the others' parents into letting them attend things or just simply hang out (Cross is grateful for this). Due to their background and who his mother is, Nightmare is seen by the others' parents as the good example, and is very trustworthy. As of now, Nightmare's the only one of the group who knows how to drive, and he even has their own car, because of this, he's always driving around the others (another reason they're trusted by the others' parents)

Killer grew up in an unhealthy living environment, not only is his house always dirty and rundown, but their father is verbally and (partially) physically abusive to him, aswell as neglectful. In the past, due to home troubles, Killer has run away a few times, their first time doing this being when they were 7. When Killer was about 13, his father had hurt them pretty badly, and in the dead of night, he ran. He didn't bother putting on shoes, a jacket, nothing, hell he was in a t-shirt and shorts. While running, they ran into Nightmare, who was on a late-night walk. Nightmare helped him, and they became friends (and then they would soon be introduced to the others). While Nightmare is the good influence, Killer's the bad, and XGaster doesn't approve of him, but only tolerates Killer and Cross' friendship because he believes Nightmare can balance them out.

Dust grew up in a neglectful household aswell. His dad is an alcoholic that rarely leaves his room, and he never knew his mother, but Dust has grown indifferent to it. Due to the easy access to alcohol, Dust is always the one bringing it to their hangouts. He's a frequent guest to the Dreamtale household, because not only is it a regular thing for Dust to be locked out of his own home, but Nightmare just prefers he stays with them. Dust is selectively mute, and only really talks to his group and Nim (Because she's very caring to Dust, and he's grown attached to her, and comfortable around her). Due to Dust's living situation, the fact he's "living off of Nightmare", his appearance, and attitude, XGaster doesn't approve of him (But, like Killer, XGaster tolerates him because Nightmare's around).

Horror grew up in a poor household, unable to afford basic necessities like food, hygienic products, and basic utilities, and it's not uncommon for things like water, electricity, or gas to be shut off due to being unable to pay for it. It's very rarely that Horror gets a proper meal, not only because of the lack of funds, but he lets his younger brother get his fill of breakfast/lunch/dinner, while he gets the scraps. No matter how hungry Horror is afterwards, and how much he wishes he could actually eat, he wouldn't dare change a thing, as he's always put his brother's needs before his own. After joining Nightmare's little group, and Nightmare hearing of Horror's living situation, Nightmare (of course) cooks Horror meals when he's over, and makes sure he has enough to bring home some for his family too (which they were very grateful for), the first time they'd done this, Horror broke down, and now sees Nightmare as his closest friend. While Horror's a complete sweetheart, XGaster believes because of his living environment, he "must be some delinquent", so XGaster doesn't approve of him aswell as Dust and Killer (But, as usual, is only tolerated because of Nightmare).

......

So yeah got that all out of my system

What do we think?

The stars' group next?

[theology101]

People need to stop Bitching About Fallout Retconning Lore

I'm going to be honest - I'm sad Shady Sands, a town i have saved multiple times, and a fictional Nation I have helped build, is gone. I'm also sad that NV is now probably non-canonical.

But so the fuck what?

This is just SO "baby's first media franchise" to me.

Guess what? New Vegas was a one off deal when Bethesda, a Corporation who owns total rights to the Fallout Franchise, allowed another Company to use their IP. Not only that, but basically just... gave their ENTIRE Engine, Code, and DevNotes for Fallout 3 and said 'go nuts, we know how much you love fallout.'

That is such a wildly unprecedented move. I literally can't think of anything similar beyond Sony and Disney agreeing to split Spider-Man but even THAT is different because they share publishing rights to the Same Character, but only in different mediums. Imagine DC just... letting Image Comics publish canonical stories about Batman because Bob Kane happened to be working there at the moment.

It was a great, lightning in the bottle experience, that now exists in its own continuity. Now let's move on.

This is SO common in media and storytelling, especially with these massive franchises with decades of lore and baggage they carry around. It's why DC has a reboot every six years (and why marvel comics needs to lowkey), and why Disney scrapped the Star Wars EU. No one likes having to work off of someone else's script or outline - people want to make their own thing with their own take and influence.

New Vegas is also... still a video game you can play? Todd Howard didn't go into all your houses and shoot your copy. Your computer and xboxes haven't been purged. New Vegas still exists - it just won't influence anything going forward.

Big, fucking deal.

There is so much shit in the world right now that just sucks, thats sad and is an absolute bummer. Fallout has always taken that bummer world, cranked the bummer and the fun up to 30 and let it go wild. The very unique vibe and energy of the Fallout Show feels like it came DIRECTLY from the games!

When Lucy walked into Filly, I felt like how I did the first time I stepped into Shaddy Sands and Megaton. Cutting off the head of a person you sorta know and just... doing it? because its easier to carry? Finding a vault, immediately getting sidetracked by whatever weird shit they have going on, then leaving with a 'Huh.'

It's just SO Fallout.

Be Happy that you're getting new, genuinely interesting and engaging content, be sad that the content you love won't be going forward but take solace that you still have it. And don't fucking rage post about it on every single social media for christs sake.

Just have fun.

[onionstree]

TONIIIIIIIIIII (+ new lore)

please dear god tumblr do NOT crunch the quality on this

LORE UNDER CUT WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

OKAY i finally made up my mind on Toni (he/him) lore!!

Toni used to be a maid in da tower, he's made of dough and cheese. He cleans n whatever, would frequently bug Pepperman to draw his "ideal" body for him. He was completely obsessed with the macho aesthetic and was miserable he looked nothing like how he felt on the inside. He was a big guy in his head!!

So he bails to hide in the deepest corners of the basement and meticulously craft himself into his ideal self. His body is pretty moldable! Though he needed more mass to gain all that height and muscle. So he'd yoink any cheese slimes that made the mistake of crossing his path.

He's not an 'official' tower boss by any means. Pizza Head doesn't even realize Toni's down there, and the other bosses aren't really aware he transitioned. He IS however VERY curious about this Peppino guy storming through the tower... a worthy opponent to test if his body's ready for debut!!

ANYWAY uh Peppino kicks his ass or whatever. He's absolutely enamored by the weird italian guy. Thinks he's the peak of masculinity and refuses to stop following him around. Eventually bags a job at Peppino's since he's kinda homeless what with the tower, uh, collapsing. You know how it goes.

I like to think for the other bosses Toni would only really get along well with Pepperman, both pre- and post- transition. While he's not the brightest Toni does admire Pepperman's art. Plus he was pretty much the only person in the tower Toni felt comfortable talking about his ideal self with. I think Vigilante wouldn't like how loud he is, and Noise would either just get him riled up or he'd be too thickheaded to be fun to prank. I don't know how Fake Peppino would feel about him... I don't think FP would like how he smells. But otherwise it might be okay.

Peppino helps Toni be more vulnerable!! Toni feels a constant pressure to extrude this macho energy, the loudest and most violent person in the room. Peppino helps Toni see he can be just as much a man without having to be so aggressive. He can lean on others too. (-:

That last bit is me projecting I need a Peppino in my life to do that for me PLEASE

pre-tran toni is me rn this shit SUCKS wish i could just mold my body like he does... augh. he's less a self-insert and more like wish fulfillment for me

[ticklishraspberries]

Movies Make Ticklers More Creative (Billy/Stu)

Summary: A bad horror film leaves Stu seeking entertainment in other forms, at the expense of Billy. (Thank you to the person who suggested I use the film Ghoulies as the movie in this fic!! Here is a YouTube link to the tickle scene in this movie, it is...Something for sure!! I haven’t seen the whole movie btw, just that clip as well as reading a few articles about it, so sorry if I’ve gotten any of the lore wrong. Regardless, it has an 8% on Rotten Tomatoes, so...)

As usual, Stu’s parents aren’t home, and he is filling the silence with the sounds of beer cans cracking open, hands rustling in the bowl of popcorn, girlish screams from the television speakers, and Billy’s commentary from the couch beside him.

After making their way through all the classic horror films, the boys have resorted to watching whatever they can find, whether they end up being fantastic deep cuts, or they absolutely suck, but joking about it makes it worth the watch.

Tonight’s movie is proving to be the latter. It’s a film called “Ghoulies” from ‘85, and it’s…Well, it’s keeping them entertained, for sure, but there is nothing disturbing (nor inspiring) about it. The scares are cheap, and the dialogue is atrocious.

Billy comments that the main chick, Donna, is kind of hot. Stu hums in agreement, but his heart isn’t quite in it. When the guy takes her out by the lake, though, their interests are piqued. This should be the part where Donna loses her chance of becoming the final girl, where she loses her virginity to the first schmuck who tries, and both the teens die a terrible death for daring to engage in premarital sex.

But that’s not what happens at all. Sure, it’s PG-13, but they were expecting at least a little action. But no, Donna and Mark stay fully-clothed and…Well, Stu snorts out a laugh as the kid starts tickling her instead of trying to bang her.

“This might be the worst movie that we’ve ever watched,” Billy says. His tone is deadpan, but there’s a smirk tugging on his lips.

“Oh, by far,” Stu agrees. “It’s not scary, and it’s not sexy. You can be missing one, but not both.”

Donna on screen is shrieking, begging Mark to stop tickling her. The scene feels eternally long, and since the screaming is that of laughter rather than fear, it feels much more ear-splitting than usual.

Stu looks over and sees Billy’s face screwed up in annoyance, and that sort of moping will just not do. Sure, the film sucks, but is good company not enough to make the guy happy?

“What a way to seduce a girl, eh?” Stu says, trying to crack some jokes and lighten the mood. “Tatum would nail me in the balls if I tried that.”

Billy just exhales through his nose in amusement, and Stu decides that isn’t enough.

“I mean, dude’s got no game. What did he say to her?”

“In the creepy voice? I dunno, I think he called her a little girl though, which is fucking weird.”

“Gross. She seems to like him, though. Maybe we should be taking notes,” Stu says, placing his beer down on the coffee table. They’re basically ignoring the movie by now, and he’s overcome with the strange desire to touch his best friend in that moment, to make him laugh like the girl in the movie, and that weird-ass scene gave him perfect inspiration on how to do so.

He and Billy have been friends since middle school, and Stu’s seen sides of him that no one else has. He’s pretty sure he’s the only person who has ever seen Billy cry, other than his parents. He’s the only person that knows Billy used to be scared of the dark, or that his mom had to sleep in his bed with him until he was ten because of that fear.

And, of course, he knows about the more fucked up shit that goes on in Billy’s head. He’s seen it first hand.

Stu also knows that Billy is ticklish, something he found out by accident and rarely used to his advantage, because last time he tried, he’d ended up with a pretty gnarly bruise on his jaw. But the risk seems worth it at that moment, so Stu takes his chances.

“Quit looking so miserable. The movie is shit, but I’m not,” Stu teases. Trying to mimic the weird, high-pitched voice the guy in the movie had adopted, he continues. “Cheer up, little boy!”

He reaches out a hand and prods at Billy’s stomach, which makes Billy shove at his hand with a suppressed huff of laughter.

“Fuck off,” he says.

Stu does not fuck off. Instead, he scoots closer on the couch, effectively trapping Billy between the arm of the couch and his body, and continuing to wiggle his long fingers against Billy’s stomach.

The light of the television illuminates Billy’s scrunched up expression, trying to hold back his laugh and seem pissed at Stu’s immaturity, but it only lasts a few moments before the bright, boyish giggles that are so unlike his personality come spilling out.

Stu grins in triumph. Billy’s actually sort of adorable when you get him like this: Guard down, acting his age, letting loose. He squirms like a fish on a hook, and Stu has to dodge his flailing limbs. His hair falls messily into his face, his cheeks look flushed.

“I’m gonna fuckin’ kill you—” he grits out, but it doesn’t sound intimidating at all.

“No you won’t,” Stu replies. “You’d miss me too much.”

Billy lets out a noise somewhere between a growl and a whine, before dissolving into laughter again as Stu’s fingers dance up his sides. It isn’t until his ribs become a target that Billy truly fights back, grabbing at Stu’s wrists and trying to shove his hands away.

Stu takes that as a sign to back off, because although it was a risk he willingly took, leaving this without injury is still the preferable outcome. He watches with a grin as Billy catches his breath, arms wrapped protectively around his middle.

“You’re an asshole,” Billy says.

“I know,” Stu replies.

Their eyes meet for a moment, and Stu feels his face flush for reasons he isn’t quite ready to confront.

By the time they look back up at the screen, Mark and Donna are dead and they’ve completely lost track of the plot. Neither of them are complaining, because it was a fucking dumb plot to begin with. Leaving the crushed cans and empty bowl behind, the two boys climb the stairs and crash into Stu’s bed for the night, a common occurrence that somehow feels different this time, like something between them has shifted, just enough to make Stu’s heart skip a beat when Billy falls asleep with his face pressed into Stu’s shoulder.

Like this, he looks innocent. He looks beautiful.

Stu makes a mental note to research other horror films with tickle scenes in them, just in case he needs an excuse to hear that giggle again. Even if the movies suck, spending time with Billy is worth all the shitty scares in Hollywood.

[transpathfinder]

veilguard thots

[massive plot spoilers]

ok i did say i was gonna write up some brief thoughts after i completed but first of all before i start, as a lucanismancer i just want to say any lucanismancer who hates neve kys. you are not affiliated with me don't even speak to me or breathe in my direction. and bioware, idk when u will realise i have 2 hands. 1 is for lucanis 1 is for neve and my spare dick is for spite so just get with the programme

alright that being said... yeah i didn't really like the game much. i think it's easily the weakest DA game, which i consider a pretty big failing since i am not someone who thinks inquisition is good. i had a lot of problem with inquisition's main story and open world, but somehow veilguard's story is. Worse. i don't even have the energy to get into supervillain evil blighted elvhen gods, turning the old gods as stupid little dragon thralls, because obviously, again, nothing pagan or elemental matters, they're not real, they're not godly or saintly or divine, just stupid animals. making the antaam breakaway into this crazed faction you keep fighting cos they absolutely had zero ideas or interest in tying positively into qunari culture you can have a relationship with, it becomes an easy excuse - ''they're not reeeeaally qunari teehee'' first of all, crafting both the antaam and venatori into easily siding with supervillain elvhen gods who want to bring the blight to the world is fucking weak and pathetic excuse for it cos it doesn't even make sense with their goals/ideologies. a very, very cheap entry into the lore, i think lazy and diminishes the world as well the utter thinness of companion background and conversations. i know there's no dialogue wheel, but to me that's a basic aspect of getting to know in-depth background lore about factions, status of the worldstate, different parties' political ideologies and leanings, in standard video game infodumps cos yes this is still a video game, you need to write for it rather than focus on the realism of how conversations play out.... u can't even call solas a monster without morrigan attempting to school you like you're 5. this game wants you to suck solas' dick so bad as if the rest of us from inquisition didn't already peg him as a person who wants to cause genocide. veilguard only told us he already caused it once and now wants to do so again, but in 2 entire games, he is constantly made to be this sympathetic and deep figure that i'm supposed to be enamoured and intrigued by and want to save. why would i want to save this thousand plus year old mf who eradicated a race knowingly!! this game doesn't even give me the opportunity to kill him, i was so disappointed by my 3 choices in the end with him, of which 2 are literally functionally the exact same. there's no way i was gonna redeem this piece of shit even though i had mythal's essence peacefully or whatever the fuck yeah this other abuser piece of shit is also a hero now that morrigan carries lmafoo give me a break. all da2 did was demonise anders over and over again, and again in inquisition. these chars are not even in the same universe of ''crimes they've committed'' and yet, the disparity in writers sucking one dick and trying to get u to hate the other is crazy. i hate white liberals soo much fuck all of you!!!! bitchass mfs

which brings me to why i think this game is so thin and written so childishly - it's desperate to be liked. it wants to be liked by the masses sooo bad, that it becomes nothing to me. everyone is sweet, everyone is lovely, all factions are uwu heroes, even antivan crows, who torture and abuse children but hey nvm they're cool heroes now with no nuance. i loved all the crew, but the game makes it exactly so. no difficult stances to combat, nothing akin to any previous DA game, where there's at least a companion or 2 people would find their nerves fray over, which is the point. this is the only game that feels so typically found family where everyone loves each other, because it's deliberately made to be that way. a child's idea of big threats and saving the world and everyone happy in traditional hero centric journey with a team.

BUT EVEN THAT... it doesn't commit to it fully, because it so desperately also wants to teach u a lesson on how not everyone can survive this. so... yeah... harding died in my pt, and u know what? i felt nothing until the credits rolled. cos i straight up thought it wasn't real and we'd just get her back later. like she got stabbed and fell into the pit and i felt zero emotion cos i was like o okay she's injured we'll wait for this cutscene to end and next bit we'll look into a new sub-quest for finding her or something cos ofc i had already completed all personal quests, there's no way she would die unless the player didn't do it. and until the credits rolled i didn't believe she had cos i was just so stumped this game even pulled that... imagine the heartbreak and betrayal players who romanced her would have felt? it's soo shitty wtf... no idgaf how ''unrealistic'' it is everyone survives. this is a video game built off fun rp-ing and romances, which is a core bioware feature. you don't write romances and entice people on that front and then turn around and pull this shit. my god i'd have been livid but by then i was ready for the game to end so i already found myself semi-exhausted by the experience since i was maxed out at level 50 and already clocked in over 120++ hours taking my time with it slowly. certainly not something i binged through

it's not a horrible game... i do think the linear playstyle and the no death toggle was critical in my getting through it. i love the deviation from open world, and obviously, the lucanis romance really carried me through cos i adore the character and very much fell in love with him and the romance... and while like i said, i do love the crew as a whole, i can't shake the feeling away that it's an empty game void of classic DA mannerisms of choices and conflict of prior entries that i have strong memories of. i don't hate it and i'll still replay it in future if i do a DA run, but it hasn't captivated me enough. i may sound very angry in this write up but honestly i'm pretty chill in my explanation and thoughts about disliking this game. it's nothing to me. this DA game feels so bitchless and sauceless with no identity apart from ''wow i hope everyone loves this game i'm making this as palatable to for mass consumption as possible'' from hero to weak basic story to lack of imports from earlier games to classic hack-n-slash combat. definition of mid.

[beesmygod]

Bloodborne questions rattling in my head -

Why does the shaman bone blade have shaman in its name? That's such a specific, almost regional term. Just a translation quirk?

How seriously do you take cut content in studying lore? I just learned about the Great One Beast, and there's a hell of a lot going on in that name alone. A Great One that became a beast? A beast that became a great one? Maybe just a placeholder name since file names refer to it as a silverbeast? Or, as it never made it in, should it be essentially ignored entirely?

ok business as usual, pure speculation is in italics.

this first answer is going to suck so bad: i basically don't have a single clue. the japanese word they chose to translate as "shaman" (祭祀者) doesnt appear on jisho or literally anywhere else in the game. like i just did a ctrl-f on the re-translation text dumps and found nothing. they seem equally baffled but one of the two translators notes that it's used to describe people involved in ancestor worship. the full word is "祭祀者の骨の刃". so like literally "_____'s bone knife".

there's no surprise ambiguity in the description. it doesn't resemble anything else in the game. the green goo (not blood, notably) oozing from it is not seen elsewhere. that emerald green color is unique to the blade.

what the fuck! they are also extraordinarily rare: the only place you can find them are in the nightmare of mensis in the "nightmare apostles" (big spider) room, where you can pick up six from the corpse of a healing church doctor in front of a little vestibule containing nothing. the only remarkable thing about this room is that it once contained a cut version of the giant nightmare apostle with the head still on. this is interesting only because it suggests that they're not just giant spiders, they are giant HEADLESS spiders. the connection the player was supposed to draw, perhaps, is that the headless nightmare apostles seen throughout the game have already been harvested for their goods.

this is uninteresting because there's 7 headless spiders in the room, not 6. maybe one broke?

the only other places you can find them are in the pthumerian labyrinth root dungeons in, specifically, treasure coffins. only after obtaining the lower pthumeru chalice will the item be added to the insight shop, so whatever those shamans were doing, it was very secret and very ancient. they are a 5% drop from brainsuckers...except for the ones in the cathedral ward and the orphanage, which are 2%. hey i never noticed that before. so that's where those brainsuckers running around yharnam came from.

the creation of this item is apparently linked to augurs/phantasms.

the spider guys are their own. thing. i haven't even touched them yet because, segueing into your next question, so much surrounding them was cut. there's a bunch of stuff in the game, especially relating to byrgenwerth, about reflections and symmetry that kind of hangs in the air awkwardly unless you start poking around under the hood and start looking at how much spider-related shit there is. and like. isn't a spider an invertebrate. isn't "apostle" another word for "messenger". anyone else seeing this. aren't these things augurs?

not for nothing, but amygdala is referred to as the "lost apostle" in the alpha.

when it comes to cut content, i take a very liberal approach and inhale all of it into my brain where i can sort it and determine what bits are even useful. i think this kind of thing comes entirely down to personal taste; some people think the completed project in its retail form is what should be analyzed on the reasonable basis that it's the story we were intended to experience. i don't disagree with this approach; my approach is like if i wanted to read "pride and prejudice" and decided after reading it to analyze all of jane austen's letters and biographies. like it's absolutely not required to enjoy or understand the story and themes of bloodborne; it's just a good example of how much a reading of a text can differ depending on how you approach it.

i wish we knew why the great one beast was cut because it was basically finished outside the textures being low-res. people have hacked a working version into the game and it looks like a hell of a fight. and you're right, it raises a lot of questions about what the hell a great one is. prior to this it was assumed that beasts were the opposite of great ones. but...maybe beasts are ONLY intended be compared and contrasted with kin. and a kin is not a great one. very mysterious.

[buttercupbread06]

1) I want to know more about your Courier

2) you got any lore on Benny’s kid

Okay so for context I have several couriers. Lately, I've been hyperfixated on two of them in specific: Becky (the one you probably mean, pretty girl with red hair) and Faustus/David (the guy with the goatee).

I have lore-dumps about both of them on @buttercupcooks06 but I'll give you some info abt them anyways so you know what I'm talking about.

Becky: NCR-born, she's my Yes Man courier. Short version of her backstory is her being born in a ranch as the second eldest of a numerous family, her older brother dies in Hoover Dam (I) and she becomes a courier because she wants to 1) not be deadweight to her parents, and 2) travel around before she figures out what she wants to do with her life. Her two first companions are Boone and ED-E, but she eventually meets everyone but Cass because I'm lazy and don't like her much </33. She loves science and tinkering with shit, Big MT was a FIELD TRIP for her (also kind of an objectum awakening for her bc. yeah). Big MT also introduced her to Mentats, which she became dependant on due to her brain injury (Benny gave her brain damage and she was frustated about it, and Mentats helped her focus and cope with it, even though she eventually took them out of routine (and fun)).

Absolute robot freak, in a weird little triangle with Benny and Yes Man (oh yeah she saves Benny and they team up and they're business partners with benefits, sorta). Kinda southern but idk how to write the accent. Great with kids and animals. Bisexual. Insane charisma, but also the clumsiest girl in the Mojave. She's the girl in every song and also Y/N and she owns it bc we're both allowed to be cringe. That's the short of the long of it but there's more I just don't KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN BUT SHE'S COOL I PROMMY.

David: He's my friend's Lone Wanderer's twin brother, and my courier. He was raised in Vault 101, and he always felt trapped in the vault. He has issues respecting authority (he respects people because of their achievments, not because he's told he has to), and he was bullied with his brother, so he left when he was 15. It's kind of sad, because him and his brother used to think about how life could be outside the vault, but they grew apart when Collin (his brother) started to get more involved in the community life of the vault and less with his brother. David sort of took that as a betrayal, and he's pretty, so he left without saying anything.

Once outside, he spent some years trying to figure out where to go. Where he could belong, sort of. He has been a raider, he has been a doctor for the Followers, he has been a merc, and between the different jobs and names he's taken during his life, Courier Six got him shot in the head.

Once he learnt about what the chip could do (and after killing Benny), he begun a Yes Man route, but left if half-done. Sierra Madre taught him that anarchy wouldn't work, and it developed into him figuring out that... Freeing Vegas sucks. What's a leader without a following? And that's where Arcade comes in.

+(He met again with his brother in Sierra Madre, only to find out he's BoS now!? Ewww, but they kill Elijah and leave with the gold. He makes Collin swear he'll stay off his path because he knows that they'll be politcally opposed and he doesn't want to hurt him more than he already has.)

Arcade was David's favorite person. David yearns for connection, someone as smart as him who he can talk about whatever, because according to him most people are too boring for that. And Arcade's not boring. Arcade is the coolest most interesting man to ever set foot on the Mojave (except David himself, duh), so of course he HAS to be with him. And they have yaoi. And David brings Arcade love and attention and he makes him feel special, and I think Arcade really wants to be seen. Not seen, I guess, but you can't live a whole life without bonding with anyone. He wants to be discovered and cherished and considered precious, even if the idea is terrifying.

And when he gets comfy, he tells David about the Enclave remnants. Bad idea, because David sees an opportunity to gain Caesar's favor and rule the Legion alongside him.

I mean, that idea had been cooking in his head for a while, but he had the chance right there, and he thought Arcade would understand, eventually, he's smart enough for that.

Except he wasn't, and he ruined the one good thing he had going on.

After that, shit just got worse for everyone but David. He started the Legion path, betrayed all his friends and hurt every single person that loved him, but he became close to Caesar (and started a new yaoi era with Vulpes), so things aren't so bad. Also, his Legion name is Faustus, and the only person to ever know his real name was David was Arcade (aside from people he knew in his childhood).

Post-canon, Vulpes and him assasinated Lanius after Caesar died, and became Caesar and Legatus, which is probably gayer than gay marriage.

He has an interesting personality, I think. Even more interesting morals. It's kind of hard to explain but I think I have a sheet with more lore + I can answer more questions.

Also, yes I'd love to talk about Junior. He originated from me and my friend discussing mpreg Benny as a joke and ending up with a dynamic so good we had to make it serious (mpreg not canon anymore, sad). Junior is the product of one of Benny's early affairs, just when The Tops started working again, and Benny ended up taking care of him because his mom died (allegedly) and his family left him at The Tops' door (Swank found him and Benny felt shitty about throwing the kid out to the coyotes in front of Swank).

So, Benny raises the kid. We've talked about this on the server before: He doesn't do great. Struggles with the idea (and the practice) of fatherhood, kinda neglects the kid, kinda raises him with the chairmen "takes a village to raise a child"-style, et cetera.

But you know Benny, you don't know Junior.

Junior is 6-7 years old and he's in the weirdest point between underprotected and overprotected. He can't go out. He lives in a casino. He's constatly surrounded by adults and hasn't seen another child in his life, probably. Said adults are drunk or high 2/3rds of the time.

He takes pride in how independent he is, as it's something that Benny has unconsciously encouraged all of Junior's life. Junior learns that whenever he's a big boy and cleans his own messes, Benny doesn't get pissed off, and he might even be proud of him as well!

Living in The Strip makes it so he can't really explore or meet people his age, so he finds comfort in the radio, and mostly, books. Loves reading. About anything. Has read cooking books before and will do it again. The number one reason he's not terribly academically stunted is that he is very very bored and very curious. (Taught how to read by Benny and Swank, mostly, but fluid (for his age) at it due to his own efforts and practice. Can count, too).

Junior has no women in his life, as he's motherless and the closest Benny has been to bringing a woman into their family are hookups. So, lil Junior is wary of women. He gets jealous! And he doesn't like Benny bringing in women into their "home" (The room next to Benny's is his, they put a door between them. Like. The room that isn't Yes Man's).

Speaking of, he doesn't know about Yes Man.

And uhm I think that's enough. Hehe ദ്ദി(≧ڡ≦*) (im sorry it turned out this long)

[mountmortar]

as someone who only ever beat four swords adventures. can i hear the lore on why the newer games are annoying. if you dont want to get into it in public though i totally get it lol

OKAY SO LIKE. let me put this under a cut.

so me thinking the newer games are annoying is a personal thing. i'll put that out there to begin with. i completely understand why they're games that people love a lot—for people who like open-world games with lots of exploration and building shit and whatnot, and don't really care for games that have Plot and Stories and Meaning behind them, they're probably damn near perfect games.

but like. MY main problem with the games, specifically (which could be easily ignored if not for my MAIN BIG PROBLEM WITH THE FANDOM which i'll. get into after this), is that while i will concede that they may be Good Games to those who play them (i watched a playthrough of breath of the wild Once and am currently trying to get through it myself and not only am i bored to tears but i hate the art style and when i say the soundtrack fucking sucks. the soundtrack Fucking Sucks. like it is legitimately the WORST fucking game soundtrack i've ever heard in my LIFE which makes doing anything in the game absolutely unbearable to me) they are, absolutely, terrible ZELDA games.

the legend of zelda franchise for almost forty years now has built up a series dedicated not ONLY to exploration within the game, but also music and wonderful stories that each game tells. like pokémon, in its own way—but even in pokémon, when the story is bland (xy, swsh) or just plain bad (usum) you can always count on it to have a great soundtrack. breath of the wild and tears of the kingdom took both "plot" and "music" and just threw them out the window. the overworld music in breath of the wild is nothing except a few piano notes every five minutes. the battle music when you encounter an enemy is the most boring, lackluster shit i've ever heard in my life (AND THE MUSIC FOR THE BOSS BATTLES IS SOMEHOW EVEN WORSE). basically imagine pokémon legends arceus except instead of all the wonderful overworld music we got for all the different areas, you just have dead silence. that's pretty much what running around in breath of the wild is like.

and the story? get ready for the blandest characters you've ever met in your life. you will not get attached to a single one of those cardboard cutouts. anything that adds meaning to the story is locked behind paid DLC which automatically makes it not even worth my time or money. basically, breath of the wild was like "what if we took the original legend of zelda from 1986 and its sequel from 1987 and added modern mechanics to it. and throw in a new plot that isn't even worth getting attached to." i would literally prefer playing those old 2D games over that game. their plots were entirely constrained to the game manuals because they couldn't fit them into the actual games themselves because they were 80s games and they were STILL more interesting than botw/totk.

but whatever! it's not a big deal. i can ignore the games. it's not up to me to dictate what people should and should not play as part of a franchise. again, people love the games for a reason, and that reason is usually because breath of the wild and tears of the kingdom are like "what if legend of zelda but throw in some minecraft elements about it". like....okay. WHATEVER!

my problem is with the fandom. the Giant Portion Of The Fandom That Has Only Played BOTW and TOTK and NOTHING ELSE. you literally cannot escape it. you know the types of people that spam the tags of every game in their game series just to make EVERYONE look at their post about One Particular Game? yeah it's like a literal army of those people. i MAINLY stick to posting about the older games from the 80s/90s/early 2000s (i.e. four swords/four swords adventures, the original legend of zelda + its sequel, a link to the past, the minish cap, ocarina of time/majora's mask/etc etc etc you get me) and everywhere you look there's somebody doing everything in their power to bring botw/totk into it/spamming the tags with botw/totk posts/just spreading blatant misinfo regarding the older games???? because they've never played them???? and like whatever i can ignore that too but i mean!!!! at some point it just gets so ridiculously irritating!!!!!! basically it's like. do you know how the pokémon company keeps bringing kanto into literally every game somehow + will not stop with the charizard hype to the point where everyone is sick and tired of charizard. that's pretty much what's happening except it's botw/totk. and i am so tired of hearing about the metaphorical charizard HAHAHA

[unknownkona]

absolutely tweaking rn, so rant incoming about the horror fandom, specifically tcm lol. mostly writing this because of a post i've seen today and some recent events

content warning for triggering topics and the discussion of antis and proshippers

both antis and proshippers are two sides of the same coin, and both are driving me up the walls. antis don't know how to defend their cause and proshippers are gross. my god, when i hear the argument of "you're fine with murder but draw the line at x?" holy shit dude. and usually x are those taboo, problematic topics but the ones i'll be focusing more on are incest and necrophilia.

breaking down that argument, last time i checked, no one actually thinks murder is okay. where's the horror in horror if violence is portrayed as a good thing. it's more tolerated than incest or whatever, why? because murder can have a reason— necrophilia, sexual assault, incest, etc, cannot. do any of those reasons make it okay? absolutely not, but there's the possibility of an explanation. in the case of texas chainsaw massacre, they're doing it to survive. maybe not johnny (which is someone i'll come back to later), but they're planning to eat their victims. they could've turned to a less drastic option, yeah, but hey it's fiction. whatever's necessary for an interesting plot.

speaking of fiction, the argument of "it's fiction not reality" also sucks in its own right. fiction usually has elements we take from reality, most things we make are based off of reality somehow. again, we have the antis that harass people that enjoy villains being villains and we have proshippers that actively romanticize incest, pedophilia and shit. gotta tap the sign that says "people that enjoy villains and evil characters do not condone their actions" for antis and the sign that says "whatever you support in fiction is a reflection of who you are as a person, a person based in reality" for proshippers. besides, do any proshippers have siblings? i really hope they don't as someone who has a brother lol

and it's not that you shouldn't write anything with problematic topics, it's all about the delivery and intent. write toxic relationships, but don't act like it's a healthy couple. the post i've seen that prompted me to write this bullshit down mostly had the coffin of andy and leyley context to it and well— it's clearly written to be fucked up. does it make it good writing? depends, to me it comes off as incest written solely for the edgy shock value as of now but who knows. want a good example of problematic topics written well? go look at lolita by vladimir nabokov or something

anyway back to johnny, i've seen him being called a rapist, a necrophile, even being shipped with sissy. leave the bastard alone LMFAO. i can't deny that johnny being a rapist doesn't seem like a farfetched assumption, but at the same time, what the hell happened to boundaries? i don't care if people are into it, it's a problem when it's tossed around like canon lore and shoved into people's faces instead of treated as a private nsfw headcanon. surprise, people can enjoy horror without having their boundaries ignored just because they like horror.

getting a little petty here, but the whole necrophile drama really grinds my gears because a) it doesn't really make sense to johnny's character and b) it started because someone got the definition of necrophilia wrong. johnny's a narcissistic asshole that kills for fun— there is no power in sexually assaulting a corpse. the fun's over when a victim is no longer able to cower in fear and give any pain response. being turned on by killing people isn't necrophilia, hope this helps. even searched up on the classifications of necrophilia (insane how there's classification for that) for how they described johnny being a necrophile, and none of them fit

anyway that's basically everything, we'll see if i get pissed off enough again to rant about new dumb arguments

[ii-neg-confessions-2]

invitational is a great season and doesn’t deserve the slander it gets but ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my god do i absolutely DESPISE all the drama surrounding nickel. i hate that motherfucker with all my life and this season is one of the main reasons why.

that arc with him and balloon was TEDIOUS to sit through. not only did it make me hate him more than i already did, but it made me hate BALLOON too! and i thought he was an… alright, nothing too special character before! but thanks to the nickel drama, i can’t stand seeing the motherfucker on screen either!!! like i don’t hate him as much as i hate nickel but he’s SO ANNOYING. plus for some reason the ACTUAL season 2 lore was altered just for the plot to work??? like what do you MEAN balloon went rogue on their alliance????? for the whole time balloon was trying to prove himself and trying to be liked, and he even VOTED FOR HIMSELF when he knew that he was definetly going to be the one out, and he even tried to PROTECT SUITCASE (who, unlike balloon, DID go rogue on the alliance) with his self-vote!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW DO YOU FORGET ONE OF THE MOST ICONIC MOMENTS IN YOUR SHOW ARGHHGRGGGRGHHHHHHHH

the whole luck thing too. not only did he make clover feel bad about her luck, but he was actually PISSED OFF when clover gave him some of her luck. DUDE. YOU JUST GOT A FREE PASS TO GET WHATEVER THE HELL YOU WANT FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE. WHY ARE YOU SO MAD???????? SGGRGRGRGGSHSJSHDHGHSJGSJDBJSBUSGUHSHUSHUSHSUHSJ(SUHSUHSHHSHSGGHEFYGUSVUGISVGYUDGYUIDGGWUY=BHAUI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CLOVER DON’T WASTE YOUR TIME OR LUCK ON THAT STUPID FUCKING COIN YOU DESERVE MUCH BETTER

i hate nickel so much. i cannot stand him. and honestly. honestly. maybe i would hate him a little less if he just stayed being a dipshit little asshole rather than APPARENTLY be a better person. because he isn’t. his character development was shit and it never happened and i hate him and i refuse to pretend that i do. nickel and balloon’s stupid back and forth is awful, should’ve never happened, they never should’ve become friends because nickel was absolutely awful to balloon. I HATE NICKEL

(aragyahahggghhhh real especially the whole nickloon arc thing it just sucks to sit through im sorry also dont get me wrong i really like nickel but dude!!!!!!!!! i like him more in ii2 than in iii tbh /gen)

[wainwrightjakobshammerlock]

Actually yknow what I will elaborate. I am so fucking tired of all the hate surrounding BL3 (and New Tales but mostly BL3)'s story. While obviously it's not flawless, the way the discussion has evolved to "all of it should be non canon" bugs me.

First there's the issue of the criticism itself. I believe being able to accurately point out flaws in something is a part of being a huge fan of it, and 99% of the BL3 critiques I see online miss the point by a long shot.

All of these people crying over Maya's death being pointless and an assassination of her character when mentor death is a deeply established trope and said death is a catalyst for the rest of the story - when the big problem with it is lack of immediate impact and deeply lackluster eulogy.

Meanwhile, I barely ever see anyone talk about Aurelia's entire personality being sacrificed to fullfill a theme that barely even lands, or about Typhon's shitty parenting being portrayed in a positive fucking light for some stupid reason, or the foreshadowing that never landed...

Second, it just makes me distressed. I am autistic. Borderlands is my current special interest, and, for me, special interests are so important they are basically parts of me. I even measure my life in special interest eras rather than years.

That, combined with the fact a lot of the people in this fandom love jumping onto any BL3 related thing to give unsolicited criticism, just... hurts.

I made a post on r/borderlands3 recently that boiled down to "hey, I know a ton abt this game's lore, ask me questions about it and i will answer!", and one commenter wrote 4 entire line breaks on how the story sucks (not explicitly directed at me, but still) until actually getting to the question. Imagine if you made a post about a part of something that you really like and then someone basically said "well that part you love the most sucks".

Third, there absolutely were parts of this story that were good, but nobody talks about them. Or if they do, then they also get why they are good... wrong. (cough cough "Hammerlock & Wainwright are good because they're not camp gay in your face!!!!1!1!!")

TLDR holy shit man there's already 10000000 people screaming about how Ava is bad or whatever can we please stop this pointless circlejerk

[katieskarlette]

I watched the trailers and read the Blizzcon '23 stuff on WoWhead.

Meh. Not the spark I was looking for to rekindle my passion for the game.

(Morose lack of enthusiasm for 11.0, and Shadowlands postmortem below.)

Instead of getting hyped for upcoming content, it just makes me feel bad about how little I care anymore.

I used to be on the edge of my seat, palms sweating, happily freaking out about new cinematics and new expansion releases. I would plan ahead and take time off to watch the Blizzcon livestream, and stock up on food I could eat while glued to the screen. Today I got home from work and turned on my computer...and only then remembered that Blizzcon was today. After seeing the trailers and stuff I'm like, "Okay. I guess that's fine. Whatever." [Garrosh voice] Times change. [/Garrosh voice]

I didn't expect the news about upcoming expansions to knock my socks off, though. If Dragonflight, an expansion that was practically custom-made to focus on my favorite lore, didn't rekindle my love for WoW, nothing was going to.

That said, I'm still underwhelmed. I can't say that Alleria, Thrall, and Magni are characters I'd be super excited to hang out with. (It was a nice touch to have Thrall going gray, though.)

Xal'atath (sp?) is pretty cool but forgive me for being wary considering the track record for female villains in this franchise.

Anduin...very mixed feelings there. I'm glad he's back, and it was nice to hear Josh Keaton's voice again. I don't recognize him physically anymore, except those baby blue eyes, which is probably why the cinematic spent so much time zoomed in uncomfortably close on his face. I get that that's the point, that he's grown up and gotten grizzled, but he looks and feels like a completely different person.

I think part of the problem is that we didn't get to see him changing. He went from dropping his sword to resurrect an army and being stubbornly optimistic in BFA, to weary but still full of the Light in the cutscenes with Sylvanas in Torghast, to completely blank (save one glimmer) while under Zovaal's domination, to this broken, unstable, self-loathing shell of a man in the 11.0 cinematic. Even if we're generous and count the tiny conversation with Sylvanas at the end of her novel, we have to just imagine what happened to him in between then and now. It's okay to ask the audience to fill in some implied developments, but this is jarring. (I suppose it's possible we'll see more characterization in-game between now and then. I'm not optimistic, though.)

I imagine Anduin will go through an arc where the Light comes back to him, or he finds some kind of peace again and reclaims his throne, but I don't have the patience to wait around for it to happen, or the confidence that it would be done well.

I also can't separate the character's angst with the real-world consequences of Shadowlands sucking as hard as it did. Yeah, Anduin, you've been through absolute hell--so have we. You haven't recovered--and neither have I.

When they had him do the "Arthas pointing Frostmourne just left of the camera lens" pose, instead of going "Ooh, I recognize that! That was cool!" it just reminded me of all the times they did fanservice callbacks to the Lich King in Shadowlands, only to shit all over that part of lore. That's the last thing I want to be reminded of.

It was a bold move to reveal the names and story hooks of the next two expansions, but rather than whet my appetite it just removed the hope that "maybe the next expansion will be better." Nope, it'll be more of the cosmic bullshit that I don't care about: Light, Void, Titans, etc. It's okay in small doses, but it's not the kind of story that pulled me in and made me fall in love with the world.

I hate to say it, but this might be the nail in the coffin for me. I definitely miss the glory days of WoW when it was a huge part of my life and I got so much enjoyment out of it, but I'm beginning to realize that those days aren't coming back. When I think of all the hours and dollars I invested in the franchise it makes me want to cry--not that I regret any of it. I just wish the spark hadn't gone out for me.

I had been so immersed for so many years that maybe it was just time for it to run its course. The social climate has also changed a lot for me, from a thriving guild during MoP, to sporadic bursts of people logging on in Legion and early BFA, to a ghost town in mid-to-late BFA and SL. Strangers can be rude and elitist, making pugging more stressful than fun. I've also been concentrating a lot on my own original writing in the last year.

Those are factors, to be sure, but I do have to lay a lot of the blame on Shadowlands. I had gotten past so-so expansions before. Cataclysm wasn't the best, but all the Firelands stuff was fun, and some of my favorite dragons got screen time. MOP was freaking fantastic. WoD was a dud expansion for me, but there was enough to keep me busy and playing right up to the end. Legion was awesome. BFA wasn't great, and the loss of Teldrassil left a very sour taste, but it had good leveling content, some fun characters, and generally enough stuff going on to tide me over. It was going in a pattern of great expansion, not-so-good expansion, great expansion, not-so-good expansion, and that was okay.

Then Shadowlands came, and it was grimdark, overly serious, cosmic-scale stuff, headed by the most aggressively boring villain the series had ever had. There were a ton of new characters, and, except for Denathrius, Renathal, and Theotar (and Merileth and his slimes, in small doses), none of them interested me. The game systems somehow became even more fiddly, complicated and confusing time sinks than they were in BFA. The afterlife setup barely made sense, conflicted with past lore, complicated future lore, and was ultimately depressing as hell--you probably won't spend eternity with your loved ones, and even if you do, you'll probably end up as a blip of red energy that gets consumed and then cease to exist at all. That's just how I want to imagine all my favorite Warcraft characters ending up! (We probably didn't see Tirion Fordring because some blue guy in a toga needed his anima to grow better grapes. FFS.)

But the worst aspect of Shadowlands, IMO, was the way the pre-existing characters were done dirty--every single one of them.

I don't know you manage to take one of the greatest paladins of all time, then turn him into fiery overlord of the undead, and have him be boring, but there's Bolvar. Get that man a throat lozenge and some personality. Taelia got cameos in which they mentioned their relationship, but nothing ever came of it. He was a father figure to Anduin in the king's youth, but you wouldn't know it by what they did/said in SL. Going by BFA and SL, freaking Saurfang was more of a father figure to Anduin than Bolvar, who literally raised him for several years of his childhood.

Nathanos got an epic sendoff courtesy of Tyrande in the prepatch, then got teased a few times without ever appearing or mattering again.

Sylvanas was a mess. I don't need to get into details; we all know the trainwreck of a story. The concept of making her soul complete again so she had to come to terms with what she had done was a promising one, but it was handled so clumsily and briefly that it was ultimately frustrating.

The less said about the Jailer, the better. I wanted so badly to like Zovaal, but he was the most flat, boring, paint-by-numbers Saturday morning cartoon villain in the franchise's history. Not interesting, not sympathetic, not fleshed out, not funny, not charismatic, not sexy, not scary--none of the things past Blizzard villains had going for them.

Uther's story was one of the better ones, but because of how closely tied it was to Arthas' story, and the unforgivably bad way that was handled, it ultimately fizzled.

Thrall was...fine? The bits with his mom were neat, but I couldn't stop thinking about what a crappy afterlife it would be to constantly fight, spy, scheme, and play politics, all while the supposed love of her life is nowhere to be seen. Poor Durotan.

Baine famously, frustratingly, amusingly in an if-you-don't-laugh-you'll-cry kind of way, did jack squat in the entire expansion. I know his arc got cut for time, but regardless of the reason he was yet another character whose involvement in SL was disappointing.

Jaina was wasted. Her history with Arthas (and, to a lesser extent, Anduin) could have made for some memorable, heart-wrenching story, but instead she was just a generic sorceress. That was especially disappointing given the respectful, deep treatment her character got in BFA. I know not every character can have the spotlight in every story arc, but the complete lack of personality she had in SL was especially jarring in contrast.

Anduin's arc should have been interesting, but we never got into his head enough to really feel what he was feeling. We had that glimpse of his horror after stabbing the Archon, and he left his father's compass as a clue, but those were fleeting moments open to interpretation and not enough to offset the blank slate we got the rest of the time. Even that would have been forgivable, given the limits of storytelling in a game, but the thing that sticks in my craw the most is that constant, blatant Arthas parallels led to...nothing. Anduin would have been just as devastated to be mind-controlled into doing evil stuff even if Arthas had never existed. Arthas meant nothing to Anduin. The only time he met the man was as an infant. They weren't related. Nobody in-universe was comparing them. Garrosh compared himself to Arthas in the War Crimes novel, and Anduin fleetingly thought about Arthas when he befriended Calia in Before the Storm, but that's it. Even as hokey as it would have been to make Anduin secretly Jaina and Arthas' son, at least that would have explained two expansions' worth of in-your-face parallels between the two characters. But no. It all came across as fanservice--or fan teasing--and had no payoff.

Speaking of Arthas, arguably the most famous and recognizable character in the franchise (competing with Illidan and Scantily-Clad Female Night Elf #17 for the top spot)...

After being teased about his possible involvement or whereabouts all expansion long, after they milked every possible drop of nostalgia out of his story in an attempt to make SL palatable, after all the flashing red arrows calling our attention to parallels between him and Anduin, despite his importance to three prominent characters (Uther, Sylvanas, and Jaina), Arthas never did anything (boss mechanics don't count), never had a line of dialogue, never appeared in a form we recognized, got insulted and belittled by Sylvanas one last time, and disappeared in a flicker of blue plasma that was less impressive than a drunk frat boy lighting his farts with a match.

So yeah. Toss Shadowlands in the trash heap (except Sire Denathrius). It was so bad it tainted the entire franchise for me, so that I couldn't even enjoy the long-awaited dragonpalooza that followed.

Phew, that was a long rant, and the first time I've written about WoW in ages. I guess it just goes to show that I have deep roots in the franchise that come along with strong feelings--which makes it all the harder to accept that I may not even buy the next expansion. I suppose I'll weaken when the time comes, but I'm certainly not shelling out for the collector's edition or other bells and whistles.

But then the Li'l Wrathion in-game pet stares at me from another browser tab, and I think about the new Wrathion plushie, and I'm like...DAMN IT, why couldn't you have done this years ago? :(

Anyway, sorry to be a downer, but I'm kind of in mourning, in a weird way, as I come to terms with the way I feel--or more importantly, don't feel--about Warcraft now.

[fraternum-momentum]

Okay, so let me ramble abt making the last comic, cause that was an absolute behemoth to work on, and I have a lot of thoughts in my head. Man, I don't know how those webtoon artists do it every week. They scare me now.

This is super long btw, so get cozy if you want to read :]

Starting off, I actually got this idea from my lil 'ol diary I keep by my tableside :] I like writing down what I feel so I can see it in a more concrete(?) manner, helps me cope i think. One time, I really did cry for someone because I guess I just really liked them a lot. Having crushes is fun, but catching feelings isn't.

I always get this giddy feeling of being head over heels for someone. Every interaction is so exciting. Intoxicating even. And I couldn't get enough of it, but after that few seconds of bliss I immediately think to myself that all these scenarios in my head will never happen, not in a million fucking years. I just preemptively reject myself without ever telling the person what I feel. I know what the outcome will be anyway, and I'm afraid of what will happen if I did say anything. It's just too risky.

The second half is completely made up tho, I will never ever kidnap someone... unless? (For legal reasons, I will have to clarify that this is a joke, Thank you.)

Now onto the comic itself!

The composition is probably the easiest and the most fun part. I love, love, love, how versatile you can be in the webtoon format. Figuring out how to transition the panels is super fun, and it sucks that most of the webcomics I see on tapas or webtoon, etc. are just sticking to those boring box formulas over and over again when it has so much potential, although there are exceptions like, for example, Lore Olympus. While it has it's fair share of flaws when in comes to other aspects, you can't deny the artist's talent esp when it comes to knowing how to place the character in an illustration, (again) the compositioning etc etc. (ep. 8 is p good. They stick to the box stuff during dialogue but gets more experimental in some parts. I haven't been keeping up with it, so idk any other good eps)

One of my only big regrets is that I wish I had made the space between the '...but I love it." and "And soon..." parts longer. I think it changed scenarios way too fast and your eye immediately moves onto the next piece of text,, but eh, it is what it is, and I can't be bothered to edit it so ig I gotta learn to live with it.

It's still messy in,, a lot of parts actually, and I still can't do lineart to save my life, but i kinda tried just cleaning up the sketches instead???? I mean, it kinda works, but it isn't really smooth so,, And there are small mistakes here and there that I could've fixed or colored stuff in properly or whatever. But at that point, I'm just done with it. No more. Am tired and want to draw other shit now. Maybe boobs n dicks n pussy-

Oh actually i have another comic in my wip folder that I started before the sad Kylar crying one. Here's some of the thumbnails for it:

the fucking lisa simpson looking ass face just cracks me up every time I see it LMAOQJSJQJ I just wanted to show it to u but stay tuned for that ig

I eventually want to make little comics like this for other characters as well! Like Sydney, who is also one of my favorites cause of the whole religion aspect to them, and I would like to tackle that topic with yet another super personal experience of mine that for some reason I'm comfortable with sharing with a bunch of ppl lmao

I also really want to make a full on nsfw one, like gut rearranging, carnal fucking, hardcore banging,, ok ill stop. But I do need to do more,, uh, "research" on that,, i swear it's research, i have no clue how im gonna draw it. Hell, I already struggle with drawing people fucking and imagine adding cool transitions to that. Guess even my masochistic tendencies extend to this shit too.

And I think that's pretty much it? I'll probably just stick to b and w or monotone with a few accent colors because i just know that it would break me if i did a fully colored one.

Okay, thank you for reading this ramble, I'll go ahead and answer some asks now,, Here's your prize though!

[iknowiknowiknowtheend]

please talk about dsmp lore i want to hear lol

okay so. HEAR ME OUT. the villianization of cdream was always a little too much. DONT GET ME WRONG— he was very much a villian and a little freak but people would stress “he’s abusing a child” soooo freaking much and the cwilbur existed prancing around like the freak he is and NO ONE EVVVERRRR brought up the child abuse with him. he employed his little brothers and his son into war. he made them child soldiers. SO HE COULD SELL DRUGS. he waged war with children fighting for him SO HE COULD SELL DRUGS. and everyone was like awww ccrime so cute and I’m like boy ur all crying cdream child abuse and then love wil so much what the hell. Anyway I’ve always been into cwilburs wow he really sucks-ness because I’m such a cfundy stan. dude he was such a fucking awful dad I actually kinda loved it. because that was the point. That he really really sucked. cfundy could never say anything around his dad because cwil would just TALK OVER HIM. I have so many drawings of cfundy where he’s living in his dads shadow or trying to talk to him and getting absolutely fucking ignored and shit. fundy was and would always be fucking fourth in line of importance to whatever cwil would be doing. cwil would be oh I love my son sooo much and then cfundy comes over and can never speak a freaking word. cwil always loved the idea of a child to own and that is his rather than having raised a person to care about. Cfundy is a pitiful daughter of a wretched father and he will ALWAYS be in his dads shadow. cfundy my sweet prince….. the decanonization of trans fundy was so sad btw. but it’s okay it’s still canon to Me. In my head.

anywya to reiterate- cdream still a CRAAAZY bastard but all the shit that was put on him that could also be put into other characters but weren’t was always so annoying. anyway cdream forever I wish he killed everyone or at least made them all go away so he could live in piece on his own land. cdream the eternal… cdream the wild…… he is the earth and you dare steal that ??? no wonder he hates you. Wow.

csbiers we’re kinda crazy all the time so glad I was a cdream team stan. oh my fucked up little trio. munchy forevrr rlly. did you know cbadboyhalo destroyed the world because he loved his husband so much? yeah. imagine being csapnap. ur dad absolutely fucks over the world because he loved ur other dad so much. bruh moment. especially because csap had the biggest fucking always second best issues. miss cgeorge too he was THE WORST!!!!!! I loved him so much. he was the most petulant of princesses he was Awful and I loved him. he was so selfish and apathetic. big war is going on and cgeorge is just off making a house. his house gets burned down a few days later and he goes whining and crying DREEEEEAM TOMMY BURNED MY HOUSE DOWN KILL HIM. and dreams like okaaay george rolls his eyes. cdream makes cgeorge king and he’s like okay. Whatever. Then he complains about it and cdream is like OKAY DONT BE KING THEN and then cgeorge throws the biggest fucking fit about it GOD I LOVED HIM SO…. peolle we’re always so annoying about George lore which was nuts that shit was GOLD. some of it was silly yeah but the blowing up the smp stream was amazing. it was the perfect show for his apathy and selfishness and how he always wanted and wanted and wanted and wanted and nothing was EEEEVER enough for him. he wants dream under his finger forever and hates that they aren’t like that anymore. he wants to kill his friends. he’s jealous of dream and techno so he kills them. he then kills most of his friends for lols. he wants to kill the dragon but ends up killing god instead. well. he tried. anyway the reception to that lore stream was like BUt itS LAme iTs a dREam. dude if he did any of that shit slash real everyone would’ve thrown a hissyfit about it. at least we get to see how fucked up he is for real for real.

how did this go from complaining about biases over ccs influencing outlooks on characters to a cgeorge love letter. that’s not actually much of a question cgeorge just has my heart forever. fuckin freak.

uhhhh tldr ccrime fans who loved the awww brothers I want you to rethink ur choices a little. Thanks

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candy bracelet, scratched cd, instant messenger | jo, noah, paige, charlie!

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jo

candy bracelet — does your muse prefer chocolate, hard candy or chewy candy? do they even like sweets at all?

hmm i think she likes sour candy best! like chewy sour belts or sour rings or whatever shape sour gummies. she does like sweets in general.

scratched cd — what genre of music does your muse hate? if someone happens to turn on that genre, will they tolerate it or leave the room?

hate? i'm not sure there's a genre jo hates. maybe, like, screamy metal? nu metal? anything with that super vocal-fry-y vocals irritates her. but she wouldn't be like "i hate that" she just wouldn't choose it. and if you put it on she won't say shit.

instant messenger — if it’s not already taken, what is your muse’s go-to username?

sdgfsed risre212 is her go-to. she's thought about just changing all her shit to, like, jorice (her full name) but it's a lot of work to change over a brand.

noah

candy bracelet — does your muse prefer chocolate, hard candy or chewy candy? do they even like sweets at all?

i was too lazy to review Lore but if i recall, he's not a huge sweets person. he likes them enough but he isn't a sweet-tooth or anything. his favorite are like odd candies. ginger chews. things like that.

scratched cd — what genre of music does your muse hate? if someone happens to turn on that genre, will they tolerate it or leave the room?

noah doesn't like country v much. he's just like....doesn't get it. he won't leave if someone puts it on but he will, like, make catty comments in hopes they'll change it.

instant messenger — if it’s not already taken, what is your muse’s go-to username?

according to the Lore, it's nowoen (like no one) and that's been it since his emo phase in high school. love this for us.

paige

candy bracelet — does your muse prefer chocolate, hard candy or chewy candy? do they even like sweets at all?

i think she prefers hard candies? like something she can suck on or have for a long time. but she also enjoys like a good truffle. rich dark chocolate.

scratched cd — what genre of music does your muse hate? if someone happens to turn on that genre, will they tolerate it or leave the room?

paige is picky! doesn't like a lot of things. no prog rock, no metal of any sort, no EDM, and so on.... and she will absolutely be like "can you turn that the fuck off?"

instant messenger — if it’s not already taken, what is your muse’s go-to username?

probably something boring like paigemcdermott or paigemcder or something. she's so uninteresting!

charlie

candy bracelet — does your muse prefer chocolate, hard candy or chewy candy? do they even like sweets at all?

charlie is a chocolates girl 10000%. she all candy but chocolate is her thing.

scratched cd — what genre of music does your muse hate? if someone happens to turn on that genre, will they tolerate it or leave the room?

anything loud if robbie is sleeping! otherwise she's got basic bitch music taste so anything too weird and she'll be like "oh that's....interesting." but she's tolerant.

instant messenger — if it’s not already taken, what is your muse’s go-to username?

esfdgffsd i cannot find her blog name but that! or just like charlieats. nowadays she often also does like charlienelson so her socials are easy to find when she's doing professional shit.

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