#I WANT TO GO HOME AND EAT PHO SOOOOOO BADLY

[soup-soup-soup-soup-soup]

ouaghghfhhhh....less than two weeks until good soup.....

[prodigaldaughteralice]

I’m only a week into my term and I’m doing all my readings even though they’re stressing me the fuck out and our online remote learning has been extended at least through the end of the month due to omicron and even if/when we go back we’ll be asked to wear n95s or similar rather than cloth masks so there goes one little hint of self expression and I am glad they are making these hard decisions and I am entirely willing to stay remote and distance and mask up and all to fight covid but I have been doing that for years and we’re still dealing with this shit because some other people refuse to give a single crap about the health of their fellow man and I am so!!! so tired!!! and so lonely!!! and we moved over the hill where there is one (1) Japanese restaurant that doesn’t suck and it’s quite expensive and there’s nowhere I can get pho or Korean food and even if there was I couldn’t do that right now bc omicron and cutting down on any leaving the house ever but. God I want to get on the bus and go over the hill and eat real food and sit in a cafe and write and exist in the larger world So Badly and I can’t because we are still struggling with this fucking plague two years on because some assholes don’t know how to fucking act!!!

y’all think it’s soooooo paaaainful not to get to live your Normal Life??? so y’all just fucking run around maskless and partying and forcing your employees to come back to in-person and work long hours and don’t come down on customers putting their damn lives at risk??? Y’ALL (and I know this is a y’all that anybody reading this is almost certainly not part of just bear with me here) ARE WHY WE’RE STILL DEALING WITH THIS. FUCKING FUCK. I’M SO FUCKING TIRED

I was listening to music and Chalk Tablet Towers has the line “I wanna get drunk, I wanna get stoned, I wanna give up, I wanna go ho-o-o-o-ome” and I do not want to get drunk or stoned those ain’t my vibe but then I was also thinking about how I want to go home even when I am at home because there’s no non-stressful non miserable home and some of that is because the world is currently fucked for political/economic/ecological reasons and some of it is because my brain is a bastard but

i wanna go ho o o o ome