#I WANNA PERISH BC THEY MAKE ME SO HAPPY

[paper-poppy]

gimmie that cant sleep love

day 1 of wolgraha week!!! first kiss c:

[artificialbreezy]

okay so theoretically,,, idek if Matt smokes but i can’t stop thinking abt like,, fwb!Matt who shares his weed but only if you earn it. getting you to ride his thigh, praising you for being so good for him. talking you through it, one hand on your hip to guide you, the other pulling up your shirt so he can leave marks across your chest. he doesn’t even care if you’re making a mess on his pants, they can be washed, but the memory of you getting yourself off, using him to come undone? he could die a happy man

i am simply perishing

girl i’m fucking DEAD over this thought

i’m sorry i’m a sucker for fwb to lovers so don’t mind me

CW: poorly written smut, mentions of drug use (just weed but still), pet names, kinda filthy language, a lil bit of daddy kink bc Matt is in fact daddy. sorry LOL, no actual p in v smut just me rambling really and poorly written smutty themes (im trying bro)

NSFW below the cut ◡̈

but maybe there was a rule of no kissing. kissing equals feelings ya know? so that’s the big rule. like he doesn’t mind kissing your neck down to your chest, but the face? off limits. until today. he’s tired of hiding how feels. he just wants you to be his. he’s tired of people staring at you when you’re in public and his friends making comments about how hot you are. he knows it all. he knows he said no strings attached, but after a year of sleeping together and hanging out all the time he couldn’t help it. so when he woke up that morning and sent you the “hey, wanna come smoke with me?” text, he knew something was gonna happen. he knew he was either reading the situation wrong and this was gonna end the relationship or he was not reading the situation wrong and he’s gonna walk away with a partner.

he was pulled away from his thoughts when he heard his front door open and saw you walk in. “hey dollface.” he smiled towards you. “hi Matty” you blushed his way. you'd think after everything you two had done you wouldn't be so nervous around the man in front of you. You couldn't help it. after the year you've really gotten to know Matt, you couldn't help but feel a certain way. you couldnt help but want to make him happy, you lived to hear his praise. whether that's in his bedroom or around all your friends. you just wanted him to be proud of you. to look at you like you were the only person around, but he said at the very beginning "no strings, honey. you can do that right?" and as much as it hurt to know at any moment he could call it quits, you were just happy to have him in some capacity.

Matt was in front of you with his hands on your waist before you had time to get out of your head. "I have a preroll with your name on it, if you want it of course. you know I'll never force you into it." you chuckled a little, "have I ever told you no before?" he pulled your face to his, lips brushing against yours ever so gently. "never, cause you're my good girl huh?" you nodded against his lips. too scared that if you spoke, he'd move away from you. scared that maybe you were imagining his lips against yours. like this was all some dream. it wasn't until Matt closed the slight gap between the two of you that you realized he was doing this. he broke his rule. there were strings, pulling you to each other and this was proof.

Matt was pulling you towards his couch while his mouth was on yours and his hands traveling down your body until he landed on your ass. he pulled away for a spilt second, just long enough to fall back and pat his lap, signaling you to have a seat. you crawled into his lap, your legs on either side of him. he leaned forward and placed a soft kiss to your lips before he spoke up. "I want you, no. I need you to show me something. can you do that for me baby?" nodding, you said "anything you want Matt." "I need you to show me how badly you need me. I need to know how you feel. I need to feel you make a mess all over my pants. I need you to show me what you need."

His hands were on your hips, guiding you against his thigh. "come on, baby. need to hear how good you feel. how good I'm making you feel. when I'm not even inside you." whimpering as you picked up speed, chasing a high you were desperate to feel. "daddy.." "oh there she is, come on sweet girl. I know you want to. can you be my best girl? can you give daddy what he wants?" you nodded vigorously. “uh huh. uh huh anything you want.” “that’s a good girl. I know you’re close. give me what I want and i’ll make it worth your while angel.” that was enough to push you over the edge. Matt helped move your hips once he saw your body stutter so he could help you ride out your high. you slowly stopped, leaning your head against Matt’s shoulder trying to catch your breath.

“sweetheart, we gotta talk about some things.” Matt rubbed your back as he spoke. you nodded against him, scared of what he was going to say to you now. “i’d like to take you on a date, kiss you a bunch more times because now that i’ve gotten a taste i don’t think i can go back and hold your hand in public. if you’ll let me of course.” you didn’t answer him, not trusting your voice. you sat up, grabbed the boys face and connected your lips once again.

[journey-to-the-attic]

I've just discovered the pet zoo au and I.am.obsessed.

NO CUZ LIKE IMAGINE IK AND BELPHIE LISTENING TO "WHAT DOES THE FOX SAY" AND BELPHIE JUST STARTES MAKING FOX NOISES ON THAT PART.

Also for some reason I think beels "woof" would be like that one meme with the husky where the humans are trying to sush it and he just lets out the most definde 'woof' ever.

Another thing,what if they tried to write out their names??? Like Satan steps in int and tries to make multuple paw prints on a paper to draw out his name in a way (he fails)

Also, it's said that crows can learn some words...what if crow Mammon (due to being magic as well) manages to start saying a few words and even starts making full on sentences. Can just imagine him flying through the window and landing in front of Ik and her dad like "feed me mortals or perish" as a joke to freak them out BC 'omg a talking crow' AND THEY INSTEAD START SCREAMING THWIR BUTTS OFF WHILE MAMMON IS TRYING TO CALM THEM DOWN BUT IT ONLY TURNS WORSE.

On the talking crow Mammon topic,what if he tells Ik what the others want to tell her?? Like "Yeah Lucifer wants you to put more Britney Spears" or "Levi wants to watch you play this game" or "Asmo says you gotta go pet him"

(wanna hear more from you tho BC I like your hcs, they're funny and silly)

orders given, orders received (/j i've been wanting to talk more about this au too!!)

i love the idea of the brothers attempting to communicate their names,, i feel like lucifer and/or satan would come up with some really smart method of going about it (like laying out books or ripping up a newspaper and using the letters), but ik and her dad are just like 'ah, what silly animal antics' and clean up the mess without even noticing what they're trying to spell out

so at first they just all have nicknames-

lucifer: peter (as in Peter the Peacock)

mammon: car (crow goes "caw!", caw sounds like 'car', ergo, car)

levi: socks (on the first morning after they took the animals in, ik found him trying to hide inside one. it's also funny because usually you get cats or dogs named this)

satan: paddy (aunt lisa picked this one - as in st paddy, for his green eyes)

asmo: duchess (ik had a feeling he'd like it)

beel: boof (it's the noise he makes)

belphie: hu (from the chinese word for fox (zhao picked this one). sometimes it's extended to hu-hu)

at first, satan and asmo are the only ones who like their new nicknames, while everyone else is mostly neutral on theirs, apart from lucifer, who HATES his

however, he still responds to it, so really it's his fault that it sticks

eventually everyone warms up to their new nicknames, but they'd still like their new family to know their actual ones

i like the idea of mammon learning speech, so yes he'd be the one to eventually relay the message!

he hops around on ik's shoulder going "lucifer! lucifer! lucifer!", and ik thinks her crow friend is conducting a ritual up until she realises he keeps pointing his beak at peter the peacock

she does switch to their actual names once she learns them, but in her head she still tends to refer to them by their nicknames, and they still respond when she uses them aloud

mammon's language would be more fluent than a regular crow's, but i don't think he'd generally be able to string together full sentences

so it's more like a "hey! food!" when he's hungry, "kid? okay?" when he's concerned, "levi. bowl. broke!" when he's snitching

he can manage full sentences if he tries really hard, but he usually can't be bothered, so he saves them for when he's serious

for example, if ik were getting bullied, he would go full fluency mode to say "i'm gonna kill them for you"

the other brothers are mostly happy to just chill (particularly levi and belphie), but lucifer gets so restless with no work to do that he starts assigning himself random chores to occupy himself

for example he's decided it's his job to open all the curtains in the morning and close them at night

ik starts bringing home random worksheets from school and lucifer will just sit there staring at them (he doesn't have hands to write with so he just has to answer mentally)

levi has a little box by the window from which he can see the tv and also sunbathe

ik brings home a sheet of stickers so that he can pick some to decorate with

beel is SUCH a big dog that he would take up the whooole sofa or bed if he sat there, so usually he very politely sticks to the floor

but then they buy him a big blanket and he starts carrying it with him from room to room to rest on (belphie also steals it a lot)

everyone has their own little spots around the house where they usually stay, apart from mammon, who is nearly always found on ik's shoulder

if ik isn't home he will stand on zhao's head instead

satan nearly always sleeps on either ik or zhao's bed and at some point his habit extends to the others, so they start taking it in turns being 'guards' for both humans at night

lucifer pretends to be above it as if he DOESN'T trot himself right to rooms and stay there the whole night as soon as it's his turn

whenever ik's stressed out from school she comes home and just plonks herself on beel

he's such a big dog that he barely even feels it so he's perfectly happy to be a big fluffy pillow

levi spends most of his time in his box but he'll also be quite happy to go around the house draped around ik's neck and listening to her narrate her whole day to him

sometimes ik brings asmo ribbons and such and he gets so excited that he does that jumpy twisty thing rabbits do (i think it's called binkying?)

asmo and satan both get the zoomies but satan's always so embarrassed about it afterwards, while asmo simply owns the energy and then flops over for pats afterwards

belphie's normally very quiet and docile but occasionally he'll just SCREAM and it scares everyone in the house

[possibilistfanfiction]

hi i just wanted to say thank you for writing about queerness the way that you do - it’s incredible and has been immensely helpful to me lately. like i’ve agonized over wanting a haircut and a binder and to change my pronouns and have never had the courage to do anything about it, but reading your stuff is making me want to go through with it all. i had to pause a few times as i read your most recent piece (ava’s pov of butch bea) because i was overwhelmed with relief seeing ava and bea want that stuff too. i didn’t realize wanting it could feel so freeing. like i’ve never seen queer people written like that before, and never knew i needed to see it until now. it’s helped me feel okay about wanting the aforementioned things, and also okay about not knowing what i want or how i want to be. all around your fics are so healing and enlightening as far as gender and sexuality go, and gender and sexuality aside they are also flat out masterpieces. i cannot even begin to describe how much they, as well as your other posts on the subject, mean to me. thank you so much

:) thank u!

& i will say that i have spent the better part of the last 15 or so years just vibrating around trying to figure out what makes me feel good, especially in my body & how others perceive it. which is really hard! but trying stuff rocks — i figured out i wanted top surgery but not to transition in other medical ways bc i got a binder! the peace i felt with one felt right, & then i got to explore from there. i have had … so many haircuts lol & most of them have been good! (imo everyone deserves to buzz their hair at least once & just. deal with it lmao. a rite of passage.) now i don’t give a fuck about “what side of the store” clothes are on bc i know exactly what i want clothes to fit & feel like, & i have a tailor, so i just pay more attention to fit & fabric than i do any “men’s” or “women’s” demarcations, especially when most of the places i shop are mostly just vaguely androgynous earth tones anyway lol.

(of course this is with the caveat that there’s enough safety/financial stability but) try everything! especially stuff that’s not at all permanent!

there’s no way i would know what makes me happy & peaceful now if i didn’t try stuff in the past! do i want to wear button downs & chinos & have ppl call me sir?? no i would rather pErish. but did i always know that! of course not, & i got to have the space to try how that would feel. i definitely also know that i never want people to think i’m straight (lol but ppl are stubborn); i had a weird summer bc my hair was rly long, which i loved, but then started to feel just dissonant about… occasionally a little panicked by? (in addition to some transphobic nonsense thru work, which ofc doesn’t help). but once i sat down & was like what the fuck is going on — & felt safe enough to just sit for DAYS in dysphoria to try to figure out the root of it — i was like oh ok cool, easy, i can fix this. i knew i didn’t want to cut my hair rly short again (probably never again or at least for a Long Time, i don’t like ppl thinking i’m a man), but i didn’t wanna keep it long, so i was like ok great, stupid masc bob here we come, & my hairstylist is queer & has a soft butch wife, so i was set lol. but without getting to have space for the past decade to just try things, & to learn how to sit in dysphoria thru therapy rather than just Run Away from the feeling every time, that would’ve been a lot harder to navigate. i used to be VERY adamant abt they/them pronouns but i don’t feel that way anymore, & nothing earth shattering happened or has happened, i just… don’t care. i care more abt my privacy & agency than abt disclosing identity & experience than i do a pronoun, & so i get to make that choice whenever i want, which has been rly wonderful. & getting to try things will help you learn where ur most comfortable, especially as u continue to grow & change.

& like… it’s fun! queerness is so fun! i think beas queerness is fairly ~fraught~ canonically for obvious reasons but in any universe it’s nice to just let her take a fucking breath. kiss a girl, put on a hoodie, cut your hair, take a nap by the beach. it’s not so serious, not all the time. & ava is just FUN, her queerness is so so bright. to me it’s always just seemed like she was never Not queer bc ava has so much life to live & so so much to discover abt herself & the world. she’s falling in love with everything all the time, & with Wonder! & of course that includes queerness! it’s at the center of it bc it’s who you are & who you love, but it’s also just… people, & connection. i used to write rly angsty shit abt being queer & in moments of indulgence i do still enjoy a romp ofc to flex those wow sin & hell & an orgasm being so holy muscles lol, but queerness is my everyday life, & it shows up in the soft happy places more than anywhere else.

anyway, try everything!! especially a binder (bind safely!!!!!) & pronouns, even just online or w a few of ur ppl. if there’s a word you like for your identity, try writing it somewhere or just telling a friend (i texted my best friend that i liked the word ‘dyke’ a lot after having made ‘dyke on main’ jokes abt myself for ten years … we both just laughed). & of course haircuts & clothes are so fun, & they should get to be fun!

but even beyond that (& part of why i think ppl like reading stuff i write, maybe?) is that like so much healing for me in pleasure & peace in my queerness is so tied up in those same feelings abt … everything. food! sex! moving my body! my home! small acts of service! luxury! softness! skincare! the ocean! like whew, waking up & being like this brings me quiet joy, mary oliver was RIGHT, just lets the whole world kinda shimmer. not loudly, not in any remarkable way, but eating good food & having a good beer with someone who sees you for who you are; fresh flowers in the vase; LINEN PANTS; the dog asleep at your feet — all of those things to me are both queer & holy, inextricably together in my life. my wife’s queerness is very compatible w her religion & spirituality, & that’s rly rly beautiful to get to be around. queerness is abt deep care, too, in small ways: checking up on a friend after top surgery, still masking indoors, keeping my dog on lead unless i know her recall will be perfect. it shapes every part of my life. to me the mundane is the most glorious thing, & i have figured things that i love bc, for as scary as trying stuff can be (what if people see me? what if i hate it?) — you know, the most important question: what if you love it?

[blu-wingz]

whats up its stampede saturday and ive GOT SO MANY THOUGHTS

trigun/stampede/manga spoilers blah blah im normal

ok so what the fuck /pos

ok so fuck. i know i said i had thoughts but ah to put them into words FUCK

disclaimer: i’ve read the manga and seen 1998 trigun so i know whats up.

The Tesla scene. god. they made it much more gruesome and i loved it. KEEPING HER ALIVE ooooh that hurts. but i wish they had a whole episode to explain tesla, what the humans did to her and how this drastically changed the twins’ POV of humanity and their place in the world. bc god that scene was only like less than 2 mins long and i dont think they did her much justice. maybe they will dive into it more but i doubt it since they have to deal with A GIANT PLANT MONSTER

that thing is gorgeous btw. the animation style is so good, that doesnt need to be said but god the studio is using the medium so well. im sure some botany fanatic is gushing about the flora symbolism. and i’ve no clue how July will perish now. anyway, vash is gonna feel SO guilty after this. oh goodness.

VASH HANGING ONTO HIS LAST REMNANTS OF REM THAT HURT LIKE A BITCH FUCK. AND WHEN NAI TOLD HIM “i did this [The big fall] all for you” “so its my fault”. OH BOY I DO LIKE TO SEE VASH SUFFER BUT BITCH THAT FUCKING HURTS. man. seeing him as a husk, a void vash, and it hurt. and him asking if he knew meryl and roberto, fuck!! ouchie!! and also Knives reading the Bible and deciding “yeah humanity is fucked and heres the proof” is SO FUCKING FUNNY. lmao. the implications that he was inspired yet disgusted by the bible sm that he despises humanity and also started a religious cult. oh my god.

Wolfwood wasn’t in a hurry to leave. he didnt want to get involved but he wasn’t rushing to the exit to move on with his life. he was hanging around just in case. of what? idk. this tristamp WW is a bit more mysterious for me and i like it. He didnt make Meryl leave either. didnt bother to stop her. that says so much about him.

oh and poor meryl. for a sec i saw the vines unleash in the room and thought it was gonna be like that volume where she sees what Vash’s feels/sees bc she touches his feathers. i got so scared. bc damn it. every moment in the manga has its impact and trying to shuffle them around to fit this new story hurts me personally /sarcasm. again, i LOVE this new show. im thankful for this new cake but sometimes i see remnants of the manga and i miss the original story. anyway, i cant wait to see what will happen to July, WW and Meryl.

also wtf happy birthday twins i fucking guess. idk if it was hinted before but what a jumpscare. but not a terrible jumpscare as the fucking plants being impregnated by Vash or Knives of the fucking core or whatever the fuck. like yeah. i know the metaphors of motherhood and shit but fucking. i didnt need that imagery personally. and i dont wanna think about it anymore. yall can have it. whatever. it just makes me uncomfy, nothing serious lol

it seems like they keep touching, briefly, on plot points from the manga but not exploring them fully. and i get it. its hard to explain anything from og trimax in 22 minutes, much less 12 episodes. and also i cant blame them so much. maybe watching this live is skewing my view of the entirety of the show. i am definitely re watching this when its finished. i fucking love trigun. and so i won’t comment much on the event order or whatever. i should just let it go. Its a new show with remnants of the manga and its so cool.

.anyway last episode is the day before my birthday so yipee! bday gift for me lol

edit: VASH HAS LEG PROSTHETICS WOOW how did he lose em hmmm

[pondslime]

Ive never sent anon hate before but you’ve gotten on my last nerve ok? First of all how dare you continue to be a fantastic writer with the very best ideas. Your ability to curate the crumbs of peak level of nasty is unfair. Leave some for the rest of us!!!

I bet youre so gorgeous and i bet u throw that ass in a circle regularly too??? Ugh!??? Every fic u make has me wanting to chew my phone and phase thru walls and i am too poor to deal with the fallout of both.

I guess u hate the poor and horny!!! Ur taking advantage of my THIRST by continuing to make fantastic content because now i cant read anyone elses shit because its like dirty heroin compared to your pure black tar uncut supply. 🙄

U CAN'T JUST SEND PPL SUCH DISRESPECTFUL ASS SHIT????

I'm literally WOUNDED. these hateful anon asks speared me directly through the chest and now I'm bleedin out all over the fuckin floor. somebody call life alert bc the world is cruel. my cries fall on deaf ears. u have cut the phone line.

I can't take much more of this. if u keep sending bitches (me), this VILE ass shit I might have to do somethin drastic and just marry ur ass or smthn.

u wanna be in a forced arranged marriage??? w/me?? the pathetic cigarette munching harlettt??? is that ur end goal??? u wanna be posted up in a shack hobbled together w/washi tape and bubblegum?? drinking sweaty sock tea for eternity??? u evil creature. does mercy mean nothing to u??? I'm sobbing. I'm standing in a jared's w/tears in my eyes. spending my life's savings on a beautiful solitaire diamond ring. what cut would u like? u have beaten me down into a shell of a human. round? pear? cushion? emerald? heart, like the one in my CHEST that u BROKE???? whatever u want ig.

how dare u say that my precious pookie bear of pain n torment would not pass the fitnessgram 20-meter pacer test. how dare u imply that he would trip over his oversized pants and bust his geriatric hip on the ground. how COULD u. my world is crumbling. I can hear the sirens. the wind is wailing and the sky is churning above me. RED and COAGULATED w/the blood of a million screaming hicks. this isn't how it was supposed to go. but perhaps it's what I deserve.

I'm blowing the horn of the last rapture and ur there to whip me w/a rod made of marlboro boxes and the tattered remains of a busted fanbelt. what USE are fanbelts at the end of the world? the cars don't start anymore, their engines useless and dead in their metal shells. ur pitching me forward into a landfill and I'm fallin FACE FIRST into a slimy puddle of expired mayo and beer. I thought u loved me?? but love is lost on ppl like u. my ass bounces and ur transfixed. sigh. but have u ever thot abt the soul that lives within that phatness?? u haven't. u never would!!! I should've KNOWN.

I'm on my knees w/shaky hands placing the engagement ring on ur finger. why am I sticky? how did I get coated in mountain dew? oh no. u scoff @ me. it's the wrong cut. u will have 2 pawn this ugly ass engagement ring and idk how ur gonna do that bc there are no more pawn shops in the apocalypse. shit. I can't deal w/the shame. my strap game is flaccid and ur words are razor-sharp. u made me lose @ wii bowling and I never lose @ wii bowling. u have rerouted my brain and stomped my will into tiny pieces w/ur shoes. they are the color of sunshine, of butter, of happiness. I used to know of such things.

light the match in our gasoline-soaked pussy hell. we shall perish how we lived, throwin it back eternally. so it has been written, so it shall be done.

[ticklishraspberries]

ok i just saw ur post abt horror and dude…i am absolutely obsessed with carrie it’s not even funny. i don’t wanna full on ask u to write smth yet bc idk if u have changed ur mind on anything but if u wouldn’t mind giving ur carrie tk hcs i would perish in a good way <333 hope ur having a good day love!!!

hellooo!!! tbh i love carrie so much, its just so hard to write for bc it's like...such an unhappy piece of media fgjkdgjd. fun fact though, i dressed up as carrie for my 19th b-day and my dad dumped fake blood on me, it was kind of a slay if i do say so myself.

ANYWAY, HERE ARE UR HCS: (they got rlly long so under the cuuuut!!)

carrie has no idea if she is ticklish

her mom was never the playful type, and she's been so socially isolated that she's never really experienced it

she sees it at school, maybe reads it in a book once or twice

but she genuinely has no idea!!

and then, sue or tommy or another friend or love interest comes into her life and she is completely bewildered by the sensation

sure, she's had that itchy sort of feeling when her hair brushed against her neck, or when the stray cat she pets on the way to school rubs its tail on her palm

but the feeling of fingers actively scribbling on her sides??

the first time, she kinda freaks and scrambles away from it

but she's curious and goes back for more and realizes it's...sort of fun?? she's never had the chance to just act silly and laugh and roughhouse like a normal teenager

her laugh is sort of squeaky, and she mostly just makes sounds rather than actually laughing, which she finds embarrassing but whoever is tickling her would find it adorable<33

tickling other people is also totally foreign to her, and she's be like...pretty bad at it at first, just sort of prodding her fingers around, but she eventually gets a bit better

she just really enjoys the playful, carefree aspect of it

her neck, sides, stomach, and back are all super sensitive, especially to rlly soft tickles

anyway carrietta nadine white deserves happiness and i would die for her

[volunruud]

i don't have a great job or anything but i'm gonna turn 25 this year and i feel totally fine, meanwhile every other 2000 baby is freaking out cuz 25 is a "grown" age and it's making me freak out cuz of what others think then i remember idgaf what other ppl think but then i do but then i don't and then i do and then i don't and then the people in my life make me feel like shit for having a shit job and no degree and no motivation to do any other job but like. what the hell am i supposed to do? i will go back to college WHEN i'm ready, and i'm absolutely not ready rn and i don't want a management position bc i don't want the stress and pressure and responsibility. and then i remember people are dying CONSTANTLY CONSTANTLY CONSTANTLY :D and i'm just waiting for the next person to die, even if it is me but i really hope it's not bc i really wanna see who's gonna die next! but yeah i just hate that nobody is where i'm at mentally, i literally just wanna smoke weed and play viddy games and go to my job and watch movies. like i have literally no desire to work harder, nothing will motivate me to get a different job. and that's the thing about my job, is they have me trapped by decent enough pay + really sweet bennies (benefits) and i'm content, even if other people absolutely fucking hate what i do! but also, people hated when i was in college bc i was in my local community college. so back then, i used to say, "i go to this community college, for art." and EVERY single response was AAAALWAYS: "that's okay! community college is good too!" like what? i know that already. the only people who wouldn't say this exact response were fellow community college-goers. and nowadays i'm like, "hey, i work this job." and the response? "that's okay! a job is a job, you can work your way to management," like ??? what do you mean it's okay? i know it's okay. and i've been at this job almost four years, i've been offered management positions and turned it down. i DO NOT want that. it seems almost everyone in my family is in some sort of "management/financial/advisor/whatever the fuck" type of job position, how come no one is a teacher or firefighter anymore? or an astronaut? a chef? and anyways, everyone is always coming from a place of "i want better for you, i'm just worried" but what happens when i obtain this mystical "better job" and it makes me so fucking depressed and miserable and suicidal? my mental health is not great but it's definitely improved from years ago (i think partially bc what was draining me was interacting with other people, and having no control or script to handle this and now i only interact with ppl a short amount and almost every interaction is entirely scripted. it's still hard most days tho, it drains me still but it's manageable) and already, two of my cousins have perished by their own hands. so how many dead cousins is it gonna take for people to see that you can't just accept a life of misery? and that what makes you happy and secure will completely ruin someone else? yeah, sure. anyway, i was going to school for art/art history and during covid i dropped my classes (just bc i will not do online courses for art. i'm sorry but totally fuck that). and then i kept failing all my math courses, i was so burnt out and could not go on. i always said i would never go to college but i did, and just as i suspected, it was a horrible experience. and at this point a couple years later, i just have no interest in a career in art or art history. there is absolutely no career in those fields which i desire. i realize i'm only a hobby artist, i make the art i enjoy and that ONLY i enjoy. and i appreciate art in my own way. and then i think of other degrees and career fields, and i wither. i shrink. there is nothing :D

[hayakawalove]

PLEASE you’re the sweetest of hearts!! leme wipe those tears for kitten uWu! we can put bows in suguru’s hair and tie it up all pretty for the heat! I hope you have cool weather and lots of shade, yummy drinks, and sweet treats <3. I’m rly happy you have lots of time for writing and can’t wait for what’s coming!

In high school i would go travel, practice outside and compete in the midwest for dance in the summer LAWD the heat is real 😵‍💫. Now my aging self will simply perish in sunlight for more than 5 mins LASJSJKSSKSK.

Roblox is saur fun!! I started playing w my bestie during the pandemic and its all sorts of jokes XD. There’s a dress up game I love but the kids vote unfair im like ⁉️ bc how did i get 6th in a 2000s theme as brittney spears in her jean dress 🤨 im being set up i fear!

YESS i will take sm photos and vids! I acc gotta get my hot girl transformation ready since its next week 🗿 I wanna cosplay as ace from one piece for the concert :DD id def send u pics/vids if u wants hehe!!

Thank you again for being your kind, wonderful self and sharing your amazing works!! I can’t wait to yap more about my sugu hyperfixation w you<3 have a wonderful weekend!! I would drop a pic of coquette suguru but mobile asks are so weird to format -.-

-🗿

JDJDKDJFK SO ARE YOU! And I agree we should put bows in his hair. I think suguru is very. Doesn’t care OKFKEKDJDOD like I think if you were like suguru :)) can I paint your nails? Suguru :)) can I curl your hair? He’d be like yeah okay. Side note I find it so hot when straight cis men are like that. I think a lot of them don’t want to be associated with femininity, so when one of them doesn’t care what you do it makes me so ODJODJFOEJFK. AND THATS SO SWEET I have been eating so good lately honestly…. I have a very bad sweet tooth so I really need to try. Not doing that KDJDKDJDK i fear it will cause problems for me later on…. IM SO EXCITED TO SHARE THE WRITING WITH YOU!

OH WOW what kind of dance? I bet it does get hot over there. AND RIGHT SIJDKDJFKDK I can’t be in the sun for more than 2 minutes without losing it

IM SO GLAD YOURE HAVING FUN PLAYING IT and that is such a scam cause that is the biggest 2000s outfit I can think of!

ACE IS SO COOL I would love to see pics! I won’t post them if you don’t want me to but I’m sure you will look wonderful! Be safe though, concerts can have some weirdos.

YOURE SO SWEET I am so grateful to have you as a reader! And yes I love talking about suguru with you you just Understand him. I APPRECIATE YOU and HERES A COQUETTE SUGURU it’s very bad but. IDKFKDKDK

[lesbianpikachuu]

huuuuuuuuuu[dies of lesbianism]

[mythiccheroacademia]

I'm so sorry if I've already asked you this (I can't remember which blog I asked) but what would Kiri, Denki & Baku do after cheating? Like how would they feel, how would they tell the reader (if at all) and the aftermath of it

angst? angst. 

good request btw!

A/N: I’m currently drunk and sad so let’s see how well I can rip y’all’s hearts out. Thank goodness you didn’t ask for a good ending. I have such a strict rule for cheaters. I personally got cheated on (can’t believe i let a man play me like that...smh) and had to learn the lesson the hard way. Never take them back. It subconsciously affirms that you will take them back even if they do it again. Even if the person loves you, it doesn’t matter. Love and respect are two different things and, obviously, they didn’t have the latter for you. 

So, what I’m trying to say is…there’s no romantically happy ending for this one :/

Of course, everyone and every relationship are different. Girls and gays, do what is best for your heart. That is all the advice I can give. Men…y’all can perish.

Sidenote: Please stay safe and well, both physically and mentally. Wash your hands and fucking take Corona seriously.  

With love, always 🖤

Warnings: Sad tingz :(

Kirishima Eijirou: 

it was just a kiss

just one

his childhood friend was going through a rough time

their father just died and their ex dumped them bc they needed time away

they were always such good friend

kirishima remembered all the times in middle school they’d support him when he didn’t believe in himself

so when he was holding them, while they were crying, he just couldn’t pull away when they leaned in

before he knew what happened, they were kissing 

he kissed them back and he didn’t break away until you called his phone

it eats him up

every day

he immediately says they can’t see each other anymore

Kirishima literally wants to die

every time you and him are together, he feels the weight of his guilt grow

every time you two kiss, all he can think about is how dirty he feels

you are so in love with him

you’re oblivious to his guilt-ridden face

all the extra gifts and affection he gives you makes you so happy, you don’t realize that he’s doing it bc he’s so ashamed of himself

he keeps it in for 2 weeks

then, as you two are in bed, watching a movie, he just blurts it out

you just stare at him and he’s spilling everything to you

he’s sobbing, swearing that he wasn’t thinking and that he loves you 

he swears he loves you

“shut up”  you keep saying

he tries to hold you, but you rip his hands off you

you’re screaming at him, asking him how he could ever do that to you

“i never did anything to make you do this! how could you, you lying asshole?”

you know you were good to him 

all he does is look away, unable to face you 

you just leave to stay at your friend’s house

you break down to them

you didn’t come back

you never came back 

kirishima was never really the same afterward

Kaminari Denki:

you two were fighting a lot

ever since you moved in together, it was harder to be around one another

it was fun at first, but then it got annoying

you two would catch each other at bad times and just grate on each other’s nerves

one particular screaming match ended with denki leaving the apartment

he didn’t come back for the rest of the night

you were on the phone with your friend talking it out

you realized you were being too hard on him and decided to do your best to be better in the future

he comes home, drunk, and you help him to bed

when he wakes up, you’re at his side, nursing his hangover

when he’s coherent, you burst out in tears and apologize for acting crazy

your apology brings him to tears and he apologizes as well

you two make up and the future is bright

you two work on yourselves and your relationship couldn’t be better

but denki has a dark secret that eats him up

on the night of your fight, he slept with some random person from the bar he went to

he was drunk, but not that drunk to not remember it 

he thought you two would break up and didn’t think it was a big deal at the time

now he regrets it so much

you were the best thing to ever happen to him

maybe you two butt heads, but you were his soulmate

he was sure of it

and now…

he loved you too much to tell you

so he swore he would just love you with his entire being to make up for it

but when you two went out for Mina’s birthday, to the same bar

the person comes up to him and tells him the night they spent together was amazing

you immediately ask what they means and it confirms your fears

he cheated on you

kaminari is chasing after you 

“y/n, wait! i can explain–”

“is that why you changed? bc you felt bad for fucking another person?”

“no baby. i mean yes, but please–”

“fuck you, kaminari. we’re done.”

Bakugo Katsuki:

everything was fine

that day, you and your husband had kissed each other goodbye

you had to stay home and catch up on some paperwork

you forced him to go celebrate kirishima’s birthday for the both of you

he didn’t really drink so he was prepared to have a bad time

but his friends convinced him to drink

mans cannot hold his liquor

all of sudden, he’s in a separate room with another person

you two hadn’t had sex in so long bc of the kids and well…

he’s fucking them and he remembers wondering if the gasp he heard from the other side of the door was real

maybe it was true that midoriya liked you a little too much considering you were his friend’s (?) spouse

but this didn’t have anything to do with his feelings

even if he did get the slightest bit of satisfaction knowing he was right that katsuki didn’t deserve you when he recorded the sounds of the moans

sends it to you

katsuki was cheating on you and izuku refused keep it to himself 

izuku: y/n, i’m so sorry. this might not be the way to tell you, but i had to. you deserve to know the truth. 

you must have listened to the recording at least 700 times trying to convince yourself it was the wrong person

but you heard your husband and the other person moan your husband’s name each time

you take the kids to your mom’s house for an indefinite amount of time

you had business to tend to 

you: thank you for sending me this

izuku: y/n…are you okay? do you need me to do anything for you?

you: i’m fine, i just need some space. thank you for being a real friend. i appreciate you

izuku: anything for you…i’m so sorry again

bakugo somehow makes it home and passes out

he wakes up to you breaking your wedding photos

“what the fuck, y/n–”

“i gave you everything! and you wanna go fuck other bitches!?”

he’s confused and you play the recording

all the color drains from his face as bits and pieces of it come back to him

he’s trying to get you to calm you down

you’re throwing things and cussing him in and out

he grabs your arms but immediately stumbles back at the bloody look in your eyes

“fuck with me, bakugo, and i swear i’ll ruin your life”, you hiss

he’s begging you to forgive him

you throw your ring at him and grab your car keys

“when the kids ask why we’re not together, you can give them the reason”

[demons-are-curing-my-depression]

Obey Me Meme Charts

I got bored...

[Image description: (Photo 1) 3 by 3 chart with labels on the top and left side. Photos of Obey Me characters are in each square as follows:

Row 1 - "bold of you to assume I'm straight" - Lucifer  |  "how dare you assume I'm straight" - Asmo   |  "please assume I'm straight" - Levi

Row 2 - "bold of you to assume I'm happy" - Satan   |  "how dare you assume I'm happy" - Belphie  |  "please assume I'm happy" - Beel

Row 3 - "bold of you to assume I'm smart" - MC   |  "how dare you assume I'm smart" - Diavalo  |  "please assume I'm smart" - Mammon]

[Image description: (Photo 2)  2 by 4 chart. A photo of MC's sheep icon is above the chart with the sentence " 's zombie apocalypse team" next to it. Photos of Obey Me characters are in each square as follows: Team Leader - Lucifer  |  Brawler - Beel  |   Weapons Expert - Levi  |   Brains - Satan  |   Medic - Asmo  |   Speed Fighter - Diavolo  |   Mascot - Belphie  |   Guy who dies first - Mammon

I assume "Brains" means the smart one and not that they're brains are gonna get eaten. Diavolo was just random because I ran out of brothers and Levi couldn’t be in two spots. (I affectionately put Mam in his spot)

[Image description: (Photo 3)  3 by 3 chart with labels on the top and left side. Photos of Obey Me characters are in each square as follows: 

Row 1 - Intelligent 'I've connected the dots' - Satan | Confused ‘I’ve connected the dots’ - Belphie  |  Dumbass ‘I’ve connected the dots’ - Mammon, 

Row 2 - Intelligent ‘Hey there, demons, it’s me, ya boi’ - Solomon |  Confused ‘Hey there, demons, it’s me, ya boi’ - Simeon | Dumbass ‘Hey there, demons, it’s me, ya boi’ - MC, 

Row 3 - Intelligent ‘*screams*’ - Luke | Confused ‘*screams*’ - Beel  | Dumbass ‘*screams*’ - Levi]

[Image description: (Photo 4) “What They Do In Among Us” is above two columns. The first is labeled with in game actions/roles. Photos of Obey Me characters are in the second column as follows: 

“gets killed immediately” - Lucifer  |  “is sus of everyone/the detective” - Satan   |  “imposter that gets caught immediately” - Belphie  |  “knows who the imposter is but no one believes them” - Asmo, Levi  |  “gets ejected even though they’re not the imposter” - Mammon  |  “everyone always trusts them but they’re always wrong/the imposter” - Solomon, MC, Diavalo   | “has a mental breakdown bc they can’t swipe their card” - Beel, Luke  |  “is the imposter and never gets caught” - Simeon, Barbatos.]

I figure the first one would be because Belphie, Mammon, MC, and Satan would team up to kill him first if any of them are impostors and I also think none of them would report the body if they saw. Also Belphie has no chill so he’d get caught immediately.

[Image description: (Photo 5) “someone: i’d die for you” Photos of Obey Me characters are grouped as follows: “then perish” - Lucifer, Barbatos, |   “you will” - Satan, Asmo   |   “please don’t” - Levi, Diavolo, Luke  |  “cool” - Belphie, Solomon  |  “i’d die for you first” - Mammon, Beel, Simeon.]

Blank versions below the cut in case you wanna make your own (got them off Pinterest)

[mashiraostail]

who do u think r the biggest simps??

eigFJKD THIS ASK IS SO FUNNY TO ME THANK U PUT IN ORDER FROM MOST TO LEAST SIMP LIKE I PROB FORGOT PPL BC ITS LIKE LATE LATE BUT I WANTED TO WRITE THIS AHSLSEDS

1.) Hizashi: THIS MAN IS SUCH A SIMP IT’S PRESENT MIC I DON’T CARE EVEN A LITTLE BIT THIS MAN IS SUCH A FUCKING SIMP!!! I can’t explain it honestly i just...i can so picture him being the biggest idiot for his s/o he’s always looking at pics of them and staring at them when they’re around and he’s gonna compliment everything they do period. Like aw the way you sit is so cute, aw I love how you twirl pencils with your fingers when you’re trying to focus, aw your stutter is precious. And god even a tiny CRUMB of kindness from you will put him on cloud nine. Oh you like his jacket?? Okay, he can happily die now. He has pretty eyes? Excuse him he has to go cry in the bathroom. The sappier you get the easier it is to get your way. . He gives so many gifts, little stupid things that make him think of his s/o but also big extravagant gifts tht always leave them totally flustered and embarrassed. Biggest simp. Simp of the year. 

2.) Sekijiro- Sorry but.. Vlad king supremacy?? Idk why he’s such a respectful simp I just get those vibes from him. Like he’ll do anything his s/o asks, need something lifted? Ok he’ll be there in 5 minutes. Oh need help reaching something? Sure thing whatever you need. Had a bad day? Oh no well come sit here with me and we can talk about it or watch your favorite movie if you don’t wanna yet! This man loves love, if he gets hurt on the job, or has a bad day all he’s gonna wanna do is curl up with you and get all the kisses and loves and back rubs. If he’s having a bad day he’s def gonna sit around daydreaming about you. His phone bg is def either a pic of you together or just a pic of you, he has a lot of pics of you and he enjoys them very much. It’s always your way, you have to beg him to just tell you what he wants sometimes, and no ‘whatever you want babe’ isn’t a valid answer!!! sorry not sorry about it!! 

3. Toshinori- GOOODDDDD THIS MAN IS A SIMP. He’s totally stupid in love w his s/o the minute they meet. He’s all blushy and stupid and smiley at them and he’s always paying little tiny thoughtless compliments like ‘oh you have really nice hands’ or ‘you’re always so helpful (: I’m so lucky to get to work with you!’ He’s just happy to be around his s/o and he’ll do whatever they want. Shopping? Sure he’ll tag along. Got a bunch of boring errands to run? He’ll keep you company. Need to do a ton of house work? He can help! He also loves giving small gifts, and any matching thing on the planet will make his heart soar, rings of course, but also bracelets, key chains, mugs anything this man will want it. If you say a song reminded you of him he will listen to it on loop for weeks. He’s totally fantastically infatuated and it’s such obvious puppy love too.

4. Taishiro Toyomitsu- PLEASE again this man is a major simp gentleman. He holds doors he gets you flowers he cooks you dinner he talks about you all the time. Seriously all the time. Tamaki probably knows your whole life story by now all he does is brag about you. Complete a slightly difficult task? Everyone Taishiro interacts with is gonna know it. Even the villains. If he ever does an interview you’re getting brought up. He doesn’t care how much he has to bend over backward to do it, he’s gonna talk about you or he’ll perish. When you’re together it’s kisses and hugs all the time, he barely ever walks by without giving you some form of kiss, and god the amount of times this man says ‘i love you’ in one day, hell one hour, should be illegal. 

5. Kugo Sakamata- he’s not a super simp BUT he is still a simp, and the nicer you are to him the more simpish he becomes. If you have a normal comfortable give and take dynamic that’s good with him, but if you’re ever very affectionate with him he’ll be total putty in your hands. The longer you’re together the worse it gets. He loves gift-giving and there truly is nothing you can’t have. If you want it then it’s your’s Kugo doesn’t care, why would he? If it’ll make you happy then you can have as many as you want. So all in all, may not be a super simp at first but you can def mold him into one. 

6. Keigo Takami- He doesn’t simp at all in the beginning, he’s actually an annoying little turd. But the longer he spends with you the more infatuated he becomes until eventually it feels like going 6 hours without a kiss from you is majorly pushing it. Tokoyami has heard about every accomplishment you’ve ever made from your job to how quickly you did the dishes the night before. He has seen a thousand photos of you and probably knows you really well if he for whatever reason hasn’t met you. Because Keigo is always stopping to visit on patrols, or begging you to come to see him at the agency for lunch or just a quick hello if you’re going to be passing through. When he gets to know you all he wants to do is make you feel good.

7. Aizawa Shouta- people probably wanted him higher on this list but idk he doesn’t scream simp to me. In public he def does NOT simp, he might stare at you a little too long if he isn’t expecting to see you and he’ll always smile back if you smile at him but don’t expect him to plaster pictures of you everywhere and constantly talk about how much he loves you because that isn’t his style. In PRIVATE though?? This man can simp for the right cause. And sir can this man SIMP. What do you want? A bath? Okay I can do that. Your favorite food? Sure that’s easy. Massage? You don’t even have to ask! He likes the effect he has on you, watching you get flustered and melt at his affection is something he starts to really enjoy the longer the pair of you stay together. 

8. Mirai Sasaki- At first he doesn't simp, but once you hit a few milestones he’ll start. He likes making you laugh, and seeing your smile is at the top of his priority list, he has tons of photos of you smiling and if anyone is having a bad day he’ll think of some silly story about you to tell to cheer them up. Like others, his intern, Mirio, has heard all about you and probably knows you really well. He probably made it a point to introduce you after working with Mirio for a while. Mirio probably sees you as a package deal at this point. 

9.Nemuri Kayama- Girl does NOT simp. You simp for her  and you like it that way, periodsm!!! No actually though at first she also doesn’t simp at all, she doesn’t care, she can have pretty much anyone she wants so if you don’t like her then you can pack it up and find someone else. But the longer you stay with her the more she starts to warm up to it, she likes seeing you happy, so going the extra mile even if it is a bit much for her is something she’s going to start doing more and more. She’ll remember all your favorite things and give you random gifts. She’ll take lots of photos of you to keep for herself  and she’ll send you plenty of her own. She starts to also find a lot of comfort in you and will be looking for ways to spend time with you.

10. Enji Todoroki- I aint explaining this. Mans aint no simp. 

[randomherofan]

Continued Omori with Elly today and it is such a wonderful experience. I love trying to piece together what we possibly think might have happened in Omori’s life. Right now, we’re almost CERTAIN that Mari has somehow passed due to a traumatic event. Based on a little place we visited, we think she might have swung so hard on a tire to a tree that she might have fell into the river and drowned. I pray that that’s not the case. It honestly breaks my heart every time we go into the real world because in Omori’s dreams, everyone is together and loves each other so much. In his dreams, he can be happy with all his loved ones and it breaks my heart that in reality, they’re all so far apart from each other. It makes me think of childhood friends I spent so much of my life with only to grow up and they are completely out of my life. It also makes me fear losing the loved ones I currently have.

We also spent an hour trying to fight this boss- THE DAMN CAPTAIN SPACE BOYFRIEND FOR A WHOLE HOUR. AT FIRST I WAS SAYING HOW FINE HE WAS AND THEN I KEPT GAME OVERING FOR 4 TIMES AND I WAS DEAD SILENT DURING CALL. I HATE HIM NOW! HE CAN DIE!!!!!!!! WHY DID WE HELP HIM? PERISH! THE RAGE WAS SETTING IN 😭 i’m starting to think we’re severely underleveled but I HATE COMBAT!!!! I HATE IT SO DAMN MUCH!! I just wanna experience story and explore 😢💔💔💔 at least now I have a way better grasp at how combat works bc of all the failures smh. And i GUESS i feel closer to the chars because of it.. che.

I am really loving Basil and Kel. They are so cute and Kel is just this bubbly presence who warms up to anyone. He’s the type to play in the mud and I love that he doesnt know how to read the room LOLL. AND BASIL IS JUST A SWEETHEART WHO LOVES HIS FRIENDS DEARLY!!! he holds that album of them SO CLOSE EVEN IN REALITY- even after all those years of everyone drifting(?) apart, he still holds the memories they had so close and it makes ME TEAR UP!!!!!!! I just want them all to be together again! 😢

[icetomeetya]

Wiztober Day 15: Star

Testing out a new character here; not entirely sure if I’m set on her yet. Since I haven’t gotten to this part yet, the story might not entirely fit with canon, so don’t be surprised if that happens lol. Stealing @faerlysworld’s name for star wizards bc i just think it’s neat!

Warnings: Spoilers for Azteca(?)—I can’t judge accurately yet, mass death, trauma

Dead silence fell across the six girls as they sat in Rowan’s office.

No one spoke.

No one could.

They had failed, failed so horribly that everyone in Azteca perished. Everyone except for her. Until then, they hadn’t failed. Hadn’t failed hard enough that it mattered, at least.

Cassandra wrapped a blanket around her and placed Rowan’s fire cat, Piper, into her lap. Any effort to comfort her or talk to her ended up in screaming and lashing out, and no one could blame her.

All of them had felt survivor’s guilt before. But to be the only one alive in a world full of people...that had to be on a whole new level.

After hours of stunned silence, the child was the one to break the silence with a single word. “Water.”

All five of the other girls jumped up, but Cassandra ended up being the one to leave, returning a few moments later with a cup of fresh water. “How are you feeling?” she asked softly as Piper purred in the child’s lap.

The child took a small sip of water and stared at Cassandra with dead eyes. “I can’t. If I do...then I have to...then I have to...” she continued, her hands shaking violently.

“It’s okay,” Rachel soothed. “I understand. You don’t need to wrap your head around it; it’s...too much for anyone to handle.” If everyone else from Wizard City was dead...Matthew, Micah, dads, this group...and I was the only one left? I...I couldn’t bear it either.

“No. I have to,” the girl said in a dull voice that was so different to the chipper, almost annoyingly loud voice she never stopped using while following them around. “Mama is dead. Papa is dead. My sisters, they’re dead. My teachers, my classmates, my friends, my enemies, they’re all dead. They’re all...”

Tears flowed down her face, but she didn’t make a sound. Her eyes fixated on the ceiling, and she was paralyzed, as still as a statue.

They had returned to recover from the horrors of Azteca at midday, and by the time the child spoke again, it was almost dawn. “What are we gonna do?” she rasped, her entire face swollen and red, especially her eyes.

“We don’t know,” Rowan admitted, clinging to Jordan for dear life. “We don’t.”

“You guys are...the heroes, right?” the child asked, looking at all of them. “You guys fought the bad guys?”

“Some heroes we are. We couldn’t save...anyone,” Jordan laughed bitterly. “Sure. We try. But we fail when it matters.”

“You’re fighting the woman that did this,” the child said, already knowing the answer.

“Yes,” Rachel replied.

“I want to fight. Let me fight,” she said, her voice trembling as she balled up her tiny fists. “I want her to pay.”

“No,” Rowan said instantly, her voice cutting like a knife. She had no strength left to be gentle as well. “Look, I’m sorry. We will avenge your world, I swear. But you’re not a trained wizard. You have no chance.”

“I know magic,” the child said, pointing at Rowan. She began to glow—a soft, silvery color—until the child rotated her finger in one swift motion, and the aura wriggled its way into Rowan’s skin. It was as if she was dipped into fire, and as soon as she felt that, the child twisted her finger the other direction. The pain receded, and small silver wisps of starlight flowed out of Rowan’s skin.

“Maybe I don’t know much. But you can teach me,” she insisted. “I want to learn more.”

“...How old are you?” Cassandra asked, her brow creased with worry.

“Nine. Astrologers start learning at five, though; I...my school’s...was...focused on astrology,” the child muttered, sniffling as she wiped away a fresh round of tears.

Nine. Far, far, far too young, Rowan thought, sorrow striking her as she gazed at the poor child. She had been pulled into battle at almost the same age, and injured horribly as a result. This child doesn’t deserve the same fate.

“Star magic? As in, offensive star magic? The only spells we know are benign auras,” Rachel asked, her eyes wide.

“Y-Yeah, I can attack with star magic. B-but I don’t know that much,” she mumbled. “I wanna learn. And...s-since no one else can teach me that, I wanna learn how you guys fight. Please.”

“There’s an Archivist in Celestia with information about astrology; I didn’t look too far into it at the time because it wasn’t pressing information at the time. We can explore it together,” Rachel offered.

“Rachel!” Taylor hissed. “The only place this kid needs to go is therapy. We’re not dragging her around with us. She’ll die.”

“Where could she possibly stay? Who do we know is ready and willing to take care of a child, especially one with this much trauma?” Rachel whispered back.

“I’m not gonna die. You guys are gonna teach me how to fight better,” the child retorted. “And I’m not gonna go anywhere. I’ve fought before. I’ve had to. If you try and ship me off somewhere, I’m just gonna go fight that evil witch myself. I know where to go.”

“...Fine,” Taylor grumbled. None of the other four were happy about it either, but all of them knew that they had no other choice. “What do you want to learn from us?”

“I wanna get stronger with the magic I know...and use new magic too,” she said. “Because...I don’t think my star spells are enough.”

Rowan let out a deep breath, then briefly explained all of the schools of magic taught at Ravenwood to the girl. “Which one do you want to learn?” she asked.

“Death,” the girl said instantly.

Rowan turned to Rachel, who stood up, kneeling just in front of the child. “I’ve picked up quite a few death spells over my time in Ravenwood. Let’s see if you can cast a dark sprite.”

For five minutes, Rachel coached the child on how to cast, how to stand, how to strategize, until, with a cry of surprise, the child cast her first death spell. Rachel opened her mouth to congratulate her, but the child her a hand up to stop her, her eyes wide. “I...feel something,” she whispered. “SHHHH.”

No one dared speak, and after a minute, the child began bawling. “I-I feel it, I feel it. Everyone that’s dead...I felt their energy when I cast that spell. I th-think they’re helping me,” she explained. “They’re with me when I cast.”

“Do you want to try a new school?” Taylor asked.

The girl whipped her head back and forth. “No. This is...this is how I connect to home. This is what I’m supposed to do.”

“What’s your name?” Rowan asked, mentally slapping herself for overlooking that.

“Mocel...” she whispered. “Mocel the Bright.”

“Welcome, Mocel the Bright. Your training starts after we sleep, whenever you’re ready.”

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I am honestly so lost on how this triangle is going to play out in season 2 we know Malex have a deep love but i genuinely think Michael and Maria and then eventually Alex and Forest will become couples we also have michael bar flirting is he with maria at this point or do we have another few episodes before they become official, is alex supportive of them as a couple do him and maria fall out is michael jealous of forest, malex become friends how does this happen SO MANY QUESTIONS

I can barely even follow this ask which shows you how ridiculously convoluted this entire situation is. They are going to be friends and they are going to date other people. I honestly don’t know how Maria can still have a genuine relationship with Michael when he’s also spending his time trying to fuck randoms but whatever that’s her business. I have less than zero interest in Michael and Maria as a couple. I have negative deficits of interests. Like I do not wanna watch it. Like it does not interest me, they do not have chemistry, and honestly the entire situation makes me feel kind of sick to my stomach because of how the whole thing came about. It has nothing to do with Maria being a girl, it has nothing to do with Michael dating someone who isn’t Alex, it’s just it being this particular girl and this particular situation with who she is to Alex with who she is in the original and with how important Alex is to Michael the whole thing is just GROSS to me. I know that for some reason there are people who find that to be offensive, but I don’t know what else to say. It really bothers me on a base gut lizard brain kind of level and I can’t pretend to like it. Like if Maria and Alex weren’t friends and she wasn’t a main and Michael’s og partner, it wouldn’t bother me so deeply. But honestly, I still wouldn’t enjoy it bc, again, severe lack of romantic and sexual chemistry between Heather and Vlamis. And please everyone don’t @ me on this, two people simply being hot as individuals does not mean they have chemistry when they kiss or have sex on screen. Vlamis and Heather are both super hot as individuals. They also have NO FUCKING CHEMISTRY as a couple. They do their best to create a spark but alas...they just don’t have it.

Anyway, I’m genuinely going to have to drink my way through the season. I’m glad they have the RNM drinking game cuz Imma need it this year. Especially if they try to build an actual relationship between m&m and try to make the audience actually like it, ugh perish the thought. For me, the more they try to push it, the more I’m going to hate it and I’m going to be very vocal about that.

And Alex and Forest is whatever for me. It’s a temporary thing, Forest isn’t sticking around either way so I don’t really care. Happy for Alex to have someone to care about him and not fuck him over hopefully but other than that I don’t really care. Funny how Alex’s “other love interest” is a guest star and Michael’s is Maria, isn’t it?