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I wanna do fluffy and soft RyuTsu but best I can do is violence
But what else can you expect from me
#Vore and violence is a metaphor for intimacy and vulnerability I promise#But also I wanna draw dark!Tsubasa trying to bite at Ryugaâs neck in his rabies state#Like that one page of Laois eating the winged lion#ryuga#tsubasa otori#ryutsu#smol thonk#âŠI also want Ryuuga to try and vite on Tsubasa tooâ
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"don't wanna be alone."
Roman Roy x Original Character
Rated T (Angst/Feels, Drabble)
Word Count: 1.6k
AO3 Link
WARNINGS:
Cursing, canon typical humor, descriptions & themes involving PTSD/depression. Roman is kind of a dick.
Author's Notes:
Heavily inspired by "Calling U Back" by The MarĂas. I realized there was some unintentional overlap between this fic and the headcanons about being Rome's assistant that I made so shared universe I guess? /s
Set during Caroline's Wedding in Italy at the end of season 3.
Summary: After a business trip in Turkey ended with her and her boss being held hostage, personal assistant Maxine Lee has some big questions to ask herself; why has he now gone cold on her? Will they be able to work through these unresolved feelings? And most important of all---is the paycheck really worth it?
I could feel two hazel beams searing into my back as I stood across the party from him. There was nothing that stated in the e-vite he forwarded me that I was to be his armpiece for Italy. And yet, Romanâs unshakeable gaze nearly had me feeling guilty or at the very leastâunresolved. I knew jetsetting was going to be a part of the job and my brief stint in PR for the luxury fashion label ALMEN had gotten me well acquainted with travel of the sort. Instead of preparing statements for reporters about the brandâs upcoming collection for the spring-summer season; I was having to be a pincushion for the Worldâs Wealthiest Brat/Fuckboy.
It was a rather impromptu thing in the beginning. My father had gone to Wharton with Waystarâs CFO Karl Mueller and according to him; they âgo way back.â Funny how Karlâs name had never once come up until his youngest daughter needed a cushy job in the city. All because someone (me) had to bite off a little more than they could chew.Â
âItâs, uh, nice that you stuck around even after the whole TurkeyâŠthing,â Cousin Greg emphasizes, using his hands.
The briefest mention of Turkey had my stomach doing flips. I didnât speak to Roman for weeks after. Beyond the now bi-weekly video calls with my therapist; I became something of a recluse. I didnât dare to leave my apartment. The meals I did remember to have were left at my doorstep. I convinced myself this leave of absence was helping me cope and all it was doing was prolonging the inevitable. Sooner or later, I was going to have to face him even though the last time he wouldâve seen me, my face was hot and wet with tears. Tears Iâd done everything to keep from spilling over.
There was just so much uncertainty at that moment. Being the lone female companion on that trip left me more vulnerable. In ways that Roman, Karl, or Laird werenât or would ever think about. Beyond that, I was the most objectively expendable member of the group. I wasnât a big-name banker like Laird, much less a high-level exec like Karl. If I were them, I would without a doubt choose me first to get thrown overboard if it came down to it.Â
I wouldnât fucking think twice about it, in fact.
But Roman, as powerless as even he was at that moment, did everything he could to assure me that wouldnât be the case no matter what. He was sweet. Whyâd he have to be so fucking sweet? There were a couple of nights Iâd spent awake in bed, eyes trained on the dark ceiling above me asking myself that same question over and over again until I either drifted off to sleep or the ache in my heart dissipated. Usually, it was the first one.
âItâllâŠumâŠno, d-donâtâŠdonât cry. Please. Youâre gonna be okay, w-weâre gonna be okay actually. Yeah. I mean, w-we got Laird. Heâs like a fucking behemoth. And I know he sortaâŠgot pulled away but we do have Dave. Dude is jacked. Yâknow Colin? My dadâs security? Daveâs that but not as scary. Weâd be covered. We a-are covered. We got you, Max. I gotâŠ,â he assured, almost rhythmically, â...Iâm gonnaâŠmake sure you stay okay, okay?â
Was it incredibly verbose and clumsy? Yes.Â
Did it make me feel any better in that moment? Somewhat.Â
It was something to hold onto when there wasnât anything else; it was something. I remember feeling weak and sick. All these powerful men occupying various corners of this decadent hotel lobby and here I am; a little girl dabbing snot into her sweater sleeve like I was eight years old again, legs criss-crossed in the church pews during my momâs funeral service. Being utterly alone had been the bane of my existence for some time. Not just simply being by myself as I actually preferred that a lot of the time. Some mindless Netflix binge and takeout was enough most nights. âUtterly aloneâ to me meant being nothing in the eyes of the people around you. An organism, a space-fillerâbeing interminably interchangeable. Roman had done what he could to assure me I was the opposite at my most terrified.
Though I didnât owe him anything and I was on his payroll and a result, had received the fruits of my laborâI felt innately that I was indebted to him. An entire year later I had still yet to rid myself of this feeling. There was a heaviness to it. It usually occupied any prolonged gaps of silence in between our conversations. It was tangible to me but I often wondered if it was for him too.Â
I figured it was; otherwise, he might not be as much of a hellish prick as he had been to me lately. Heâd spontaneously request revised versions of the business plans heâd drafted. Late into the night, heâd call me, harshly demanding I send over the revisions. At a certain point, I realized he wasnât even checking to see if I had sent them or not. Like he just needed somebody to bitch out for the hell of it. I remember when I shrewdly accused him of doing so during one of his random calls, this one occurring around 2 AM.
âDo you even read my fucking notes? I feel like you donât otherwise I wouldnât be fuckinâ calling you at odd hours of the night to remind you to do your fuckinâ job.â he chastises, in a voice thatâs made gravelly due to the phone and fatigue.Â
I was calling from my bed, propped upright by some pillows with my bedside lamp turned on. Likewise, I could tell Roman was sprawled out on his mattress due to the shifting of the bedsheets the mic picked up. The sound of sleep was always palpable in his voice.Â
âWell, if you bothered checking if Iâd sent them over before calling to bitch me out for not sending them at all; it could save us both the fucking headache, yeah?â
â...lookit you, being all big-bad-bitch out of nowhere. Was wondering when I was gonna bring that outta you. Iâm legit so proud of you right now, Max. Keep killing it, Kween!â Roman taunts, âMakes you wonder where this Max was when we were living it up in Turkey way back. Okay, okay, if you can admit right now that the only reason you were putting on the waterworks then was that you were weeping over the possibility of losing your meal ticketâŠIâll leave you alone. Promise.â
What kind of twisted ultimatum was that?Â
Unfortunately, my throat becomes too dry all of a sudden and Iâm unable to question what possessed him to ask such a fucked up thing this late at night. Instead, Iâm only able to bid him a choked-up farewell and hang up.Â
â...I-Iâll send you my next round of revisions soon. I appreciate the follow-up call. Thank you, Roman. Have a good night.â
It wasnât exactly a secret that Roman could be incredibly cruel with his words when presented with the opportunity to be. Iâd had a litany of expletives hurled at me over the most minor of mistakes. Thatâs not even including the constant sexual innuendo but even he had the common sense not to push things too far with that. For all of his kindness; there was always an edge. Gestures of appreciation were undercut with sarcastic comments and name-calling. âThank youâ was most commonly followed by a well-timed âfuck youâ or âfuck offâ if he wanted to evoke his fatherâs bitterness.
 This was by all means the norm.
But thatâs why Turkey had been so different. Thatâs why it had been sitting in my craw so strangely these twelve-odd months. Sure, he had been trying to keep things light-hearted and get a smile, better yet a laugh, out of me since things were so dire. However, there was no âedgeâ to be found. No rug to be pulled out from under me and him to snicker at.Â
Cliche sure, but I could just feel the difference.Â
I could feel him trying to make a genuine connection which Iâd come to surmise was typically quite difficult for him. Then again that seemed to be the case with most who shared his status; especially his siblings. His little-spoken-of partner Tabitha was evidence of this failure to connect. As were his handful of Raya dates that ânever panned outâ.Â
He was my boss. I was his first-ever assistant; meant to âhelp him acclimate to the increased levels of responsibility he hoped to gradually take on.â At least that was how Ms. Kellman further described the position in my follow-up interview. While having Waystarâs General Legal Counsel conduct my second job interview was beyond intimidating, I was under the impression she was attempting to mentor him. Clearly, the two had history and that was none of my concern. Though Iâd be lying if Iâd said I hadnât thought about asking her what his deal was. If heâd ever been the way he was at the hotel in Turkey to her. Maybe he had.Â
Or maybe she wouldnât know a serious, genuine Roman if he was looking her dead in the eyes.Â
He was a confounding person who contradicted himself all too often. It made him impossible to decipher sometimes and intolerable to be around other times. And yet, I was stuck making the same mistake I suspected many individuals that came before me had too made; trying to make sense of this person named Roman Roy while at my core hoping that maybe heâd break through and be better.Â
If not for me or his would-be-girlfriend or his deeply flawed familyâat the very least for himself. Because regardless of all heâd said or all heâd done, itâs what he deserved.
End.
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he watches with heavy eyes as your cock springs free from the confines of your boxers, bouncing up and down before coming to a halt just a few inches away from his face. eren blows hot air against your tip, watching it twitch as a translucent pearl of pre cum threatens to drip out of your slit.
"so desperate already, honey." he chuckles between kisses, "be patient. we have all night, sweetheart. wanna take my time with you." his mouth continued it's assault on your inner thighs, biting and sucking on your skin until he was satisfied with the color of the hickies that now adorned your skin.
only then he decided to give your aching cock some much needed attention. eren sucks your balls into his mouth, his tongue lapping and slicking them up with his spit while your shaft rests against the bridge of his nose, staining his forehead with your shiny pre.
he lets go of your balls with a loud pop before licking your cock from base to tip. a groan escapes his throat when the salty taste of you takes over his senses, eyes rolling back before he looks back at you through his long lashes.
eren gives your cock one final lick, planting a kiss on your tip before finally taking you down his throat. he swallows around you, head bobbing up and down while he hums around you.
-Rennie <33333
i watch you, gaze not leaving your face as i vite my own lip, watching you trail kisses inside my thighs, making me squirm.
my hands move their way down to your hair, forcing out a gasp when you put me in your mouth. âjesus fuck ren-â i groan out, my grip tightening in your hair while i squirm. sure, heâs blown me before, but never like this, never really blown me.
âchrist, didnât know it was my turn to get the full package.â i say, laughing breathlessly before it gets cut off by a loud groan.
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im literally so normal all the time except for right now speicifcially . my hands can not make the art my brain is wanting to make i think i should be allowed to kill
#beeep#grrr bite bite vite#except not really its spensive i dont wanna hurt it#but that just adds to it grrrrr
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Cathect - Regulus Black x Reader
Request: Girl. Forget me not murdered me. Iâm dead. Can you pleaseeee write more regulus. Maybe like Regulus and the reader (hufflepuff) are dating in secret, but Sirius likes the reader and tries to ask her out ??? Ily Cathect: To invest emotion or feeling in a particular idea/object or another person. Warnings: My English, language. Gifs arenât mine. Credits to their original owners. [With Douglas Booth as Regulus Black] Word Count~1.6k MASTERLIST Pending Requests
 He tasted of the bitter chocolate and refreshing mint; so easily addictive. He wasnât his usual sweet and tender self. Things had escalated. You wanted him to grab your hair, pull it hard until your back arched and you let out a tiny, gasping moan. His hands were roaming your body and yours were lost in his hair. You wanted to be thrown onto the bed and pinned down against the mattress. He kissed you, slowly, like there was no other place he would rather be; like he had forgotten any other mouth that he had ever touched; he made you breathe out the sound of his name. âArc, stop. Someone could seeâ you tried to reason him. You didnât like it. At all. The whole secrecy and the âI am acting like we donât know each otherâ thing was driving you crazy but you did anyways because you loved him and being with you was something that would shock- to put it mildly- everyone. A sweet, little Hufflepuff girl and Regulus Black? Never. He didnât listen. He continued kissing you as he made his way to your neck and collarbone. His delicate and slender fingers pulled the shoulder of your sweater downward, exposing your soft skin. His touch was gentle but hungry and demanding as he started to plant small bites on your shoulder. âReg, we are in the Libraryâ you breathed out. He laughed into the kiss and you felt his lips softened against your skin, as your heartbeat settled back to normal. Once his eyes met yours, all the worries in the world didnât matter. His hazel eyes were so brutally honest and so breathtaking; so broken yet so gentle. A Muggle song came into your mind and you couldnât help but agree with it. Bonheurs enfantins/Trop vite oubliĂ©s effaces/Une lumiĂšre dorĂ©e brille sans fin/Tout au bout du chemin. He was worth it. You were together for more than two years and you had managed to keep a secret. It got a bit lonely from time to time, not being able to hold your boyfriendâs hand, or hug him or run and hide your face in his sweaters whenever you felt down. A few stolen glances were all you could hope for. Until you met again. He caressed your cheek, thumb drawing circles as you leaned into his touch and kissed his knuckles. But the moment passed and he had to move away from you and pretend that he didnât care. âHello there, beautifulâ the obnoxious voice of Sirius was greeting you. You wanted to facepalm. You could feel Regulus rolling his eyes even if you couldnât see him. His brother was such a flirt. Lately, his whole flirting game had been focused on you and you didnât really like it. Sirius was awfully good-looking and he knew it. But the only beautiful person you could see was his brother with his hazel eyes, his soft and full lips, his dimples, his sharp cheekbones, and jawline⊠You knew how much it annoyed him when Sirius was flirting with you and you hated the idea that this might turn into a brothersâ fight. âHello Siriusâ you kindly greeted him back but you kept it neutral. Something that he obviously didnât get. He sat next to you, completely ignoring his brother. You had to do something about that at some point. âSo, wanna go out with me?â he asked you, throwing you off balance, almost making you fall off your chair. You expected Regulus to do something, to declare that you were in a relationship, that you were his girl but instead he stood up and left. And it hurt you worse than a slap. Maybe he didnât like you all that much. Where were you even going with it, in the first place? There wasnât a happy ending⊠Not for you, not for him, not for the two of you. You wanted to hold your tears because the realization hit you like a train. The relationship was doomed and maybe he had understood that and he didnât want it anymore. Before you broke down, you left Sirius with an inaudible excuse and ran towards your common room. You truly needed the warmth that the Hufflepuff dorms were providing. Because something inside of you had gone cold.Â
He knew he had messed up. He should have told his brother, not run away like a coward. You didnât talk to him for the days that followed. He was losing his mind. You were heartbroken. And on top of that, Sirius was bugging you with his flirting. What you didnât know was that he actually liked you. But you were about to find out. Just as Regulus was. You had gone to the Library again because McGonagall had assigned you an essay on a topic you didnât know that much about. So, naturally, you had to do some research. You had spotted the book you needed but it was on the top shelf. Before you could come up with an idea, a large hand grabbed it and handed it to you. âHelloâ he kindly told you. He wasnât cocky or trying to prove a point. Maybe because his brother wasnât next to you. âThank you, Siriusâ you warmly replied. He could be nice. Sometimes. He seemed genuinely awkward like he was trying to find the words to tell you something. Regulus walked in on you but he quickly hid behind the closest shelf.  He wanted to see how the scene would unfold before his eyes. He had witnessed how Siriusâ eyes would linger on you, how he wouldnât be able to avert his gaze, how smitten he was with you. Regulus never believed that his brother would fall in love with someone, simply because he thought that he didnât know how to love. He clearly didnât love his own brother enough to stick with him, Regulus thought bitterly. But he was wrong. âListen. I am not good when it comes to these type of words so⊠Here it goes. I like you. A lot. Please go out with me. Once. If you donât like it, I promise I wonât bother you again. Pleaseâ. His voice was soft and worried, yet brutally honest. You didnât know what to say or how to react. You felt awful. He had confessed that he liked you and you were with his brother. Well, wait?  Were you? You didnât even know anymore. âSirius, I-â you never got to finish your sentence because Regulus cut you off as he ditched his hide place and walked over to you. âShe has a boyfriendâ he stated as he wrapped an arm around your waist. You didnât really like the way he was acting all possessive. Sirius had raised both of his eyebrows and his cheeks had been stained pink. âWhich you would know if you hadnât stopped being my brother. And my best friendâ Regulus finished off. He was broken and it was painfully obvious. The boys locked their eyes. You could almost see the memories yourself. Two little boys running around their house, against their motherâs wishes, playing with the pillows and breaking stuff as they both laughed like only kids knew. Two brothers that loved each other that much that they would try to take the blame themselves, not wanting the other one to hurt. Two brothers that had promised to stick with each other until the end. And one of them had broken that promise and the other had broken his heart. âI -I didnât know, Reg. I am sorryâ Sirius told him sincerely. The way he said he was sorry⊠You understood that he meant it, not just for you. âI know, Sirius. I knowâ Regulus answered and you got the other meaning as well. âI sorry Y/N. I didnât mean to offend youâ Sirius apologized again. You shook your head and smiled kindly. You decided to act, to do something. âDonât be. Itâs absolutely fine. You are a really nice person when you arenât cocky. Can you do me a favor? Both of you?â you admitted and smiled encouragingly. They looked at each other confused but nodded slowly. You took a deep breath and rushed out your idea. âTalk. Pleaseâ you practically begged them. And surprisingly enough, they agreed almost immediately. You kissed your boyfriend and gave a warm hug to Sirius and left them, hoping that their brotherly love was still there because that bond never truly breaks.Â
You never learned what they had talked about that night. You could have guessed; their past (the good and the bad times, their childish games and their awful parents) and their choices (or in this case, the choice that was made for Regulus and the choice that Sirius was forced to make), their different paths⊠but no one told you. They didnât have to because when the morning came, they walked into the Great Hall together, laughing at something, looking exhausted-they hadnât slept, you realized- but peacefully happy. You smiled at them and they returned it, both extremely thankful. Sirius sat down next to his friends and Regulus⊠he surprised you as he wrapped his hands around your waist and lifted you up in the air as he enveloped you in a hug and kissed you. It felt different. He felt different. Lighter in a way; like all the worries that kept him down had been lifted somehow. âI love you and Iâm sorryâ he whispered and you knew that every was going to be alright. Â
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[Bonheurs enfantins/Trop vite oubliés effaces/Une lumiÚre dorée brille sans fin/Tout au bout du chemin=Childish happiness/Erased and forgotten too fast/ A golden light shines forever/And the end of the road]
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Today weâre talking about A Love Hate Thing by Whitney D. Grandison. Scroll down for more information about the book, my spoiler-free review and an excerpt.
A Love Hate Thing Whitney D. Grandison On Sale Date: January 7, 2020 Inkyard Press 9781335016041, 133501604X Hardcover $18.99 USD, $23.99 CAD Young Adult Fiction / Romance / Contemporary Ages 13 And Up 464 pages
Summary:
A fantastic enemies to lovers romance about an It girl whose world is upended when a boy from the past moves into her house after tragedy strikes. For fans of Ibi Zoboi's Pride, Mary H. K. Choi and Samira Ahmed. Wattpad author Whitney D. Grandison's traditional publishing debut.
When they're stuck under one roof, the house may not be big enough for their hateâŠor their love
When Tyson Trice finds himself tossed into the affluent coastal community of Pacific Hills, heâs ready for the questions, the stares, and the total feeling of not belonging in the posh suburb. Not that he cares. After recovering from being shot and surviving the mean streets of Lindenwood, he doesnât care about anyone or anything. He doesnât even care how the rest of his life will play out.
In Pacific Hills, image is everything. Something that, as the resident golden girl, Nandy Smith knows all too well. Sheâs spent most of her life building the pristine image that it takes to fit in. After learning that her parents are taking in a former childhood friend, Nandy fears her summer plans, as well as her reputation, will go up in flames. Itâs the start of summer vacation and the last thing Nandy needs is some juvenile delinquent from the âWood crashing into her world.
Stuck together in close quarters, Trice and Nandy are in for some long summer nights. Only, with the ever-present pull back to the Lindenwood streets, itâll be a wonder if Trice makes it through this summer at all.
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About the Author:
Whitney D. Grandison was born and raised in Akron, Ohio, where she currently resides. A lover of stories since she first picked up a book, itâs no surprise sheâs taken to writing her own. Some of her works can be found on Wattpad, one of the largest online story sharing platforms, where she has acquired over 30,000 followers and an audience of over fifteen million dedicated readers.
Instagram: @wheadee Twitter: @whitney_DG
Genre: Young Adult, Contemporary, Romance
Rating: 4/5 stars
Review: This was an exceptionally enjoyable read for me. I really liked the characters. Trice was so perfectly developed and brought to the page. Nandy seemed to be set as an opposite to Trice, and I really liked their interactions. A lot in this book was well executed. I really enjoyed the dynamics between the characters, as well as the writing. The plot was okay, but the connection I felt to the characters allowed me to keep reading. I have to note though that the pacing didnât work for me, it felt a bit inconsistent. However, I liked the story, and I really wanted to see how it would turn out in the end.
Excerpt
 1 | TRICE
Getting shot isnât the worst part. Itâs the aftermath that reÂally fucks you up.
Six months ago, on a dark December night, I was lying in a pool of my own blood on the living room floor. Six months later, I was sitting in a car on the way to a new town to start fresh. In some ways, yeah, the wound had healed. In others, it never would. I didnât care, though. The last thing Iâd cared about got me where I was.
âYouâll like it there, Tyson. The Smiths have prepared a new home for you,â Misty from social services was saying as she drove the long stretch of highway toward Pacific Hills. It was only an hour away from where I used to live in Lindenwood, California.
I didnât respond. Home was a meaningless word to me now.
Misty peeked at me. âArenât you going to say anything?â
âI can leave as soon as I turn eighteen, right?â That was all that mattered. Fuck the rest. Five months, aka one hunÂdred and sixty days, to go. On November twelfth, Iâd be free.
Misty sighed. âLook, I know what youâre going throughââ
âWord? Youâve been shot too and allâat?â I glanced her way. This lady was going home to a million-thread-count sheet-and-pillowcase set, resting easy once I was off her hands.
Fuck outta here.
âWell, no, butââ
âThen shut up.â I faced the road ahead, done talking.
Misty let out a breath, her light tan skin no doubt holding a blush upon her cheeks. âDo you kiss yourââ She caught herself, as if realizing where she was about to go. âIâIâm sorry. You just shouldnât speak that way.â
I felt an ache in my chest, but I let it go.
I didnât care.
Half a beat later Misty was rambling on about food. âDo you wanna stop and get something to eat, you must be starvÂing.â
âI told you I wasnât hungry.â
âOh, well, are you nervous?â
I hadnât thought about being nervous or the fact that I would never return home again and lead a normal life. Not like Iâd ever led one to begin with.
âNo.â
âWell, good. Think of it as going to a sleepover at an old friendâs house.â
One thing was true, the Smiths were old friends, but this setup was for the next five months.
âItâs been ten years since I last saw them,â I spoke up. âThis ainât no damn sleepover, and itâs not about to be all kumbaya, neither.â
At least they were black. Moving into the uppity setting of Pacific Hills was sure to be hell, but at least I would be with a black family. Even if I wouldnât exactly fit in.
I didnât look the same. I didnât act the same. I wasnât the same. And I didnât care.
âTysonââ
âItâs Trice.â I had asked her to call me that from jump street. No one called me Tyson.
I didnât want to think about that. I didnât want to think about anything. I didnât care.
âTrice, please, try? I know itâs been rough these past few months, but you have a chance at something fresh. The Smiths are good people, and Pacific Hills is a lovely town. Iâm sure soon youâll be close to your old self.â
Misty had no clue what she was talking about. My old self? She obviously hadnât paid attention to my file, or she wouldâve been smart enough to leave it at fresh and not bring up my past.
Tyson Trice was dead.
He died on the floor in the living room that day, and he was never coming back.
When I didnât respond, Misty let up, probably getting that I didnât give a shit either way.
I didnât care.
2 | Nandy
I told myself I didnât care about the juvenile delinquent my parents were moving into our home. I told myself it was no big deal an ex-con would be sleeping right next door to me. I told myself that my parents hadnât made the worst decision in everdom.
It was just an everyday occurrence in the Smith household.
Still, it wasnât fair.
As I paced around the pool in my backyard and complained to my best friend, Erica Yee, over the phone, I expected her to be on my side and console me.
âThis was supposed to be a great summer and they pull this?â I whined.
âYou can still have a good summer,â Erica responded. âThis doesnât have to be the end.â
But it was the end. My parents hadnât gone into detail about the boyâs situation, just that he was in a ârough spotâ and would be living with us for now. And that he was from Lindenwood, otherwise known as the ghetto.
Iâd never gone there, but Iâd heard enough stories to know to be cautious. When my parents watched the news, there was always a segment on some tragedy that had happened in Lindenwood. Some high-speed chase, or little kids killed during a drive-by, or a robbery gone wrong among the usual clutter of crime that kept the LPD busy. Lindenwood was noÂtorious for its drugs, thefts, assaults, and murders.
I shivered.
It probably hadnât been the best idea to stay up lurking on the local news feeds right before the delinquent moved in.
Everything would be ruined.
âIt is the end,â I insisted. âI mean, they spent all this time whispering and having these hushed conversations behind closed doors, and they barely revealed last night that heïżœïżœs from Lindenwood!â
Maybe I was acting childishly, but I felt like a kid with the way my parents had shut me out on the biggest detail of all when it came to the boy coming to stay with us out of noÂwhere. For two weeks, theyâd been scarce on the topic and evaded any and all questions. Now it felt like theyâd dropped a bomb on me.
For all I knew, this kid was a total ex-gangbanger and my parents were intent on opening our home to wayward souls.
Dramatic? Sure.
Precautions? I was definitely taking them.
âRight now, youâre probably pacing around your pool ina Gucci bikini while your happily-in-love parents are inside preparing dinner together. God, Nan, your life is incredibly boring. You could use this delinquent to spice things up.â
Well, it was a Sunday evening, and the sun was beginning to set. My parents always made dinner together on Sundays, because they were both off work and able to do so.
I stopped pacing and glanced down at my white Gucci bikini. âYee, you try new hobbies to spice things up, not inÂvite ex-cons to move in with you. Look, whatever, letâs just get away for a few hours. The longer I put a halt on this, the better.â
âWhen is he supposed to show up?â
âSometime today. I just wanna blow it off. Maybe you, me, and Chad could grab a bite at the club or something.â
My boyfriendâs family had a reserved table at the local country club. Anything would be better than dinner with the delinquent. I wasnât 100 percent sure he was a criminal, but I wasnât taking any chances. When it came to Lindenwood, you couldnât be too sure.
âYou in?â I asked.
âIf we must.â Erica pretended to sound exasperated. âCall me with the details in twenty, okay?â
âDeal.â I hung up and sighed, tilting my head back toÂward the darkening sky and questioning what I had done to deserve this.
It was the first week of June, and school had ended last week. I intended to spend this summer before senior year going to beach bonfires and parties with my friends, lounging around, preparing for cotillion, and just staying as far away from home as possible.
With a plan in motion, I went around my pool and stepped into our family room through the patio doors.
âShit!â I jumped back, dropping my phone and barely regÂistering the sound of its rough slap against the hardwood floor.
My parents were standing in the room with an Asian woman who was dressed in a violet-red pantsuit. But it was the boy beside her that startled me. He towered over my faÂther, with broad shoulders and a wide chest, and arms that let me know he worked out, even though he seemed drenched in black with his long-sleeved shirt and matching pants. He had deep, dark brown skin with a clean complexion. But what really stood out was his hair. The boy had cornrows braided to the back of his headâwell-aged cornrows.
Ugh, he looked so unpolished.
Suddenly I remembered my fallen phone and looked down to discover the screen was cracked. Because things arenât messed up enough already.
âAnd you remember our daughter, Nandy.â My mother played it cool, gesturing toward where Iâd frozen near the patio doors.
Everyone faced me, looking just as uncomfortable as I felt.
Great, I was making my first impression completely inapÂpropriate in a bikini.
Awkwardly, I waved and forced a smile onto my face, showing off the result of two years of braces.
âNandy, this may be a little bit of a surprise, but you reÂmember Tyson Trice, donât you?â my father asked, looking between the two of us.
At first, the name vaguely rang a bell, but then it hit me. Tyson, the boy Iâd played with when I was younger. He used to come by in the summers when his grandfather would do lawn work around our subdivision. Thereâd been a few times during the school year when heâd come by too, but it was mostly a summer thing. Until he stopped coming altogether.
The revelation brought a sense of relief followed quickly by a foreign anger that I couldnât explain.
That was then; this is now.
Now Tyson Trice had hit a mega growth spurt and stood before me nearly a man, appearing not at all like the sevenÂteen years young that we both were.
âRight.â I nodded my head. âTyson, hey.â
Tyson didnât shift focus to my body. He stared straight into my eyes and bore no friendly expression or a tell of what he was thinking. He was far across the room, but I didnât need to be right up on him to know that he had the angriest eyes Iâd ever seen. Dark, soulless abysses stared at me, making me shiver.
Right on, Dad. Thanks for inviting a possible murderer into our home.
âAnd this is our son, Jordy.â My mother didnât miss a beat as she went on, downplaying how awkward everything was.
Jordy, my eleven-year-old little brother, was sitting against the ottoman, playing a video game on his handheld.
Tyson glanced at Jordy, and I felt protective, seeing curiosÂity briefly cross his face as he laid eyes on my Thai brother.
Jordy looked up from his game. âHey.â
Tyson lifted a brow and turned to face my parents in that familiar way most outsiders looked at my family once they realized a black family was raising a Thai son.
Jordy smirked, shaking his head. âThey wish they couldâve spawned a kid as goodâlooking as me.â
My father chuckled. âWe spoke about adopting for years after having Nandy, and right around the time she was eight, we got approved and Jordy came into our lives.â
âHe was just two years old,â my mother gushed. âHe was so adorable, we fell in love with him instantly.â
I came more into the room, wanting to shield my brother from Tyson. Someone had to think of the kids.
âNandy, why donât you go put some clothes on.â It wasnât a question. My mother was ordering me to cover up and look more presentable for our guests.
âI was actually on my way out to meet up with Erica, weâve got thisââ
âRight now?â she asked. âWeâve got company.â
I glanced at Tyson, hating him again for spoiling my summer. Iâd seen him, and Iâd spoken to him. What more did she want?
âYeah, but Erica and I had plans to go to the country club and talk about cotillion.â
My mother pursed her lips. âNandyââ
âYou know what,â my father stepped in, âthatâs a great idea. Nandy could take Tyson and the two could get reacquainted, and thatâll give us time to talk to Ms. Tran here.â
My eyes practically shot out of their sockets. There was no way in hell Iâd share a car with Tyson.
After thinking it over, my mother seemed to agree. âThat is a great idea. We can all sit down together later.â
My jaw hit the ground.
I shook my head. âYou know, never mind, suddenly Iâm not as hungry as I thought. In fact, I feel sick to my stomach. I think Iâll go lie down.â
By the way my mother narrowed her eyes, I knew sheâd be giving me hell later about my behavior. I didnât care. It wasnât fair to me to force some scary-looking guy into my hands to be babysat.
With one final look at the newest arrival to the Smith household, I picked up my phone from the floor and made my way up to my room.
Long after Ms. Tran had left and my mother had scolded me in our family office, I sat in my room, maneuvering witha broken phone as I texted my boyfriend. Going on a hunÂger strike didnât last long for me. After having refused to go down for dinner, I was starving.
My cell phone chirped as Chad texted me back.
Chad: Outside
Me: Thank God
My parents were probably still up, no doubt discussing eiÂther my punishment or how we were going to work Tyson into the family.
With their bedroom being in a different wing of our house, sneaking out was always an easy feat. Still, I made sure to keep extra quiet as I crept out of my room and slipped down the staircase.
Chad was waiting for me out front. Heâd been pacing back and forth in front of our walk as he waited, and as I stepped outside I was elated to see him.
âIâm thinking sushi, you in?â I asked as I walked past him, heading for his car.
âYeah, sure. Whatâs going on?â Chad asked as he caught up to me and fell into step.
I peered up into his blue eyes. âYou donât want to know.â
Chad ran a hand through his auburn hair, appearing conÂfused but conceding. âO-kay, letâs go get some sushi.â
At the feeling of being watched, I glanced back at my house. On the second floor, through one of the large bay windows, I caught sight of a silhouetted figure.
It was him.
Creep.
I turned back to Chad and reached out and caught his hand. âYeah, letâs get out of here.â
This was my summer, and no one was getting in the way of that.
Excerpted from A Love Hate Thing by Whitney D. Grandison. Copyright ©2020 by Whitney Grandison. Published by Inkyard Press.
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