#I LOVE the era of anhane where an feared kohane leaving her bc she knew kohane was so much more amazing

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college prompt for anhane week had me wanting to share this SO college anhane au where they are bad at communicating and break up and go their separate ways after the events of vbs. BUT then they reunite in college and go on their exes to lovers journey with a lot of bitter feelings and fear of abandonment and admiration intertwined with jealousy and inadequacy.

I think it's one of those cases where kohane leaves after they "over rad" to pursue a career in singing (the same way nagi left an. the same way everyone will part and an will be alone again.) an is unable to articulate how much she'll miss kohane and how she fears she'll never be on the same path as her bc kohane is the brilliant star and an still doesn't have a name for herself outside of her relation to talent lionized by the public (at least that's what she thinks). kohane knows something is wrong with her an but can't get her to tell anything, and she feels hurt that an isn't supportive of her, even after trying so hard to prove herself to the girl who found her in the first place.

their partnership that used to taste like bright, sweet fruit and smell like the blossoming of trees has rotted and decayed and the grime still clings to them after all this time apart.

years later, an and kohane meet again in college (maybe the singing career didn't work out for kohane or she's taking a break). they can't help but be drawn into each other's orbit again, yearning for the moments of hopeful words and warm touch in the quiet glow of sunset. it takes a lot of inner reflection and help from exhausted friends to rediscover that passion from their youth and encourage them to not give up on their dreams, or each other.