#I KNOW I THINK ABOUT HIM TOO MUCH BUT AAAHFFFDGHTF

[dawn-speckled]

oh god i feel sick-

imagine mark, sweet seven year old mark who couldn't save his mother from his own father.

mark, a child, feeling a burning sense of guilt because he was supposed to help, he was supposed to be there, he's the one who has to keep them happy-

a traumatised seven year old who thinks he killed his mum (his father has said this, but they all know that it's true, mark should have saved her).

a desperate seven year old who turns to the church to get some of the dirt and shame and guilt and anger out (it's eating him alive).

a seven year old in a confessional booth.

"oh, i thought you were saying you killed someone. that happens sometimes, and people tell us."

what if that was referring to little mark.