#I HAVENT LISTENED TO THIS SINCE APRIL. I CANT DO THIS

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

GODDDD I CANT FUCKING DO THIS

[asakurahaos]

looking back on my life i dont think anyone wanted me for anything other than helping them or making them laugh.. as soon as i stop being silly or helpful i dont matter

[emerxshiu]

i forgot it was april fools lol. i definitly did not end up sprinkling in a bunch of memes in there, nope, not at all.

I havent checked my dashboard until a few minutes earlier, but now im booping everyone i find in there, its just so damm fun! its kinda sad that its just for april fools, i wish the booping stayed forever like its way too silly i love it.

Oh yeah the drawing yep aight. So uh, i had the idea yesterday and this looks NOTHING like what i had planned, it was just going to be a plain white backgroung, and i was trying to make it look like a pencil sketch (kinda). and simple coloring. but i had a lot of problems and drawing this ended up being really frustrating but im kinda happy with the result even if it difers so much from the og idea.

also here is a clean version (aka no memes)

i tend to change my idea as im drawing so after i realized this was not going to look like i thought, i tried some effects and i came up with the idea of making it look...off.

Backgrounf with saturated colors consisting of red and blue and a fecto elfilis who looks rather dreamy, wich is totally not kinda inspired by isolated isles and high school musical 2 believe it or not (im confused as to how that was present in my mind as inspiration but i guess anything works as a reference) and contrasting with the darker background from how light and glowy i made him.

Fun fact: when i drew elfilis here, they were reminding me of a bunny, so you could kinda count this as a bit of an easter post since im probably going to forget to do something for that.

fun fact 2: this image is based on a fanfic im writing right now, i havent posted it yet, and when i do im pretty sure i'll put it into the Anonymous collection, since what im writing is very different from my usual, i tend to write about my splatoon ocs or sometimes about kirby characters, most of these fics tend to be general with not a lot of archieve warnings and stuff (save for one but that one was very very tame and just had an implication of a character dying at the end) and they're oneshots, most of them, this one is also a oneshot. i just enjoy writing that, but its a little bit....how to say it? bloody, i just have like the start made and its probably going to take me a while to finish, im also thinking of reading it multiple times since most of my works are usually just the first draft. but uh since its quite different and has that im quite scared of the reception it might have when i post it, in fact a lot of times i dont post stuff since even tho i know i shouldnt worry about others, i still do like an idiot, i just cant help caring about what other people think of me. and yeah basically its just not like the usual fluff i write.

next post might be splatoon related since im redesigning some ocs i had, or it might be princess peach showtime because my father got me the game and im loving it

Thank you for listening to my unnecesarily long rambles and Jambuhbye!

[oleander-nin]

I had a flight today and those give my anxiety so i wrote out a buncha hcs to try n distract myself you dont have to actually read these i just already have them and dont plan posting them anywhere: Mostly non yan because i couldnt think up much that hadnt already been said. Grammar a tad funky cuz i wrote these on my phone (☍﹏⁰)

Leo 100% scared Raph with that one car jumpscare video when they were kids

Mikey watches those stupid 3AM videos and probably thought Momo and various creepypastas were real when he was younger

Leo and Donnie are both really into FNAF, but Donnie has been unable to to beat any of the games and Leo cant figure out the lore (I know Leo is smart and Donnie is good at videogames but this is funny so I dont care)

I feel like Leo would write in a diary

^ He would scribble (crush name) Hamato with hearts around it in it, because he’s corny like that

Donnie listens to Hatsune Miku and nightcore

Donnie never grew out of needing glasses from when he was a kid he just refuses to wear them

Leo will try to do dad stuff with Casey jr like playing catch but Casey jr is older then him ( ���Late teens to early 20s” so probably 17 at the youngest (I actually dont remember if that was the exact phrasing but something similar)) So it just ends up feeling goofy

This is an observation not a headcanon but Mikey is obviously physically the weakest and he throws like a whole skyscraper at the Krang I know they were made for war but jesus christ what was Draxum feeding them

Casey jr refused to grieve for anyone he had lost before coming to the pressent because theyre technically still here. He knows its not really the same and theyre still gone but has decided to ignore that

Yan Donnie would probably originally assume he was hyperfixated on whoever he was crushing on (I checked you can hyperfixate on people) and just be incredibly annoyed about it finding it real hard to actually focus on anything

Donnie has a bunch of online friends since its the only way he can really make friends and he’s chronically online

Yan Leo would probably get jealous of objects like if his crush was clinging onto some stuffed animal instead of him he would get mad

Raph had a gravity falls phase

Casey jr is incapable of doing standard everyday stuff and generally kinda sucks with anything non combay

Mikey’s favorite superhero is spiderman Donnie’s is batman Leo’s is deadpool and Raph’s is superman (not including in universe stuff)

Raph does not know how to cook at all he once burnt the water

The turtles(plus april maybe) all tried playing minecraft together and it ended in a lot of TNT

When they were kids Leo told Donnie that he was immune to pain and told Donnie to punch him so he could prove it Leo ended up with a bloody nose

this is another observation but in the movie when Leo almost slices kranifed Raph A you can see him sorta start to flicker back(i think havent seen the movie in a while and i dont have the wifi to check), which was probably intentional on the krang’s part for the last thing he’s consciously there for to be his brother killing him and B you can see Leo mouth ‘no’ as he realizes what he almost did

When Mikey was first starting out at art he was reaaaally bad at it awful anatomy, shading with black, ect ect obviously he’s really good now though

April introduced Casey go ice skating together on the weekends

Splinter will say stuff like “Skibidi rizz” much to everyones dismay

im away from home at the moment so you’ll probably get a break from my yapping for the next couple of weeks haha

-🍰

Ah, I hope your flight went good! I can relate, takeoff and landing gives me the heebie jeebies. Wishing you safe travels, SS Cake.

"Leo will try to do dad stuff with Casey jr like playing catch but Casey jr is older then him ( “Late teens to early 20s” so probably 17 at the youngest (I actually dont remember if that was the exact phrasing but something similar)) So it just ends up feeling goofy" - LMAOO I LOVE THAT

"Yan Leo would probably get jealous of objects like if his crush was clinging onto some stuffed animal instead of him he would get mad" - Yes yes yes, completely agree

"Raph had a gravity falls phase" - Probbles asked Donnie to help him with the codes/lore and such too

Sorry I didn't comment on them all😅 I love getting these but they're hard to answer because I don't know what to say lol. I loved reading these and I hope you have lots of fun on your trip. Stay safe!

[in-decisivo]

Frozen 10

my birthdays are only when i religiously watch Frozen for the past ten years

it became a tradition so hard to knock off because i believe i became frozen

i have been talking about it for as long as i can remember 

its been ten years now and i thought my love thawed out the walls i built for, u

unfortunately, i had to build it again from people like you,

people like you screams danger into my soul

i cannot deal with it 

not because i dont want to but because of all the things i can do if i deal with it

tragic 

just like how everything went

so

here i am,

made to believe i actually am frozen 

its been 10 years and i havent forgotten since

every flaw i have is because i am frozen inside 

everything i cant control is yet a hurdle to me because i became the monster i think i am

i maybe am frozen

just looking for a way out, to be thawed out, that to learn there are some things worth melting for

frozen has thought me all the things i know about myself, i can learn to let go if i cant control it,

to control my emotions are detrimental to me and the people around me,

my frozen self is not my best self, 

and i know how lonely it is being one because i think i went frozen for some time, for a long time, 

my life would simply be, a complete mystery if i wasnt able to capture the essence of this film 

it isnt about the characters in it, but on the subtle metaphors of what this film holds, i swear to you i know it 

but you werent listening when i told you this on our way to Tomas Morato and were just walking along Timog on that December night i fear, i really thought its much of thing to discuss sitting down that to be blurted out in the open i realized that now 

i know Frozen will be there for me, thru my trying times, thru my hardest, me struggling, me the happiest with the people i love, and you, you have seen it!!!!!! i know you wont forget that happens every April 9th -  and as i try to regain myself from all these, the ugly, you will see 

you will see

you will see 

[mortuaest]

Large rant, sorry. Please ignore if any of the trigger warnings are going to be an issue. I need to get it off of my chest because if I rant on FB I get hit with a character limit and I should make a personal Tumblr which I think I have but dont remember shit about.

Ive been having severe, and I mean severe as fuck mental and emotional breakdowns because of the fact that its literally been almost a year (Its going to be a year October 29th) since I've had to put down Ice Cube, my ESA of 14.5 years. He had cancer in his cheek and it was placed right to where it would effect his quality of life severely negatively if we tried to surgically take it out, and he would possibly die on the table if we did it because of his age, and he was declining (He wasn't eating, he was drinking, he really wasnt eating as much as I wanted him to, he was spitting back up the pills I was giving him, he was suffering) and my mental and emotional health has been severely suffering each and every day that passes without him.

I have another cat, I got him in April, thinking I was alright. Which I was I guess. Im being reminded via FB memories and just my own fucked up brain wanting me to join him to where I'm legit giving myself until December 31st, 2023 to have someone. Anyone give me a fucking sigh to keep on living. Im going to be going through a program my friend suggested to make a will, making her I forgot the words she used but shes going to make sure that my will is listened to and Albert Whisker, the cat I have now is taken care of.

I cant keep on living, and the fact that this heartbreak is fucking me up so badly to the point where the large baggie of medications (ranging from insomnia medications to Very STRONG painkillers and such, as well as my daily medications the day of me going to attempt) is very tempting to take now. And I mean very tempting. Meaning I almost took it yesterday, after my first mental break and me physically hurting myself by slamming a brush ungodly hard into my head because I legit believe I deserve everything that has happened to me (The physical, emotional and mental abuse that I got for 20 some odd years from my mother, the severe car accident from last year, the rapes, everything. My friends being murdered or dying around me, loosing the only thing that even brought light to my life).

No one in my life cares. No one seems to care. Ive been severely struggling and each time IVe even bothered to reach out for help via friends. Since my father hates me for being trans and my sister doesnt give a fuck to even bother to help me. My mother was the cause of my two rapes/sexual assaults in my life and wants me dead because Im autistic. No one wants to help, or no one seems interested in even keeping me around.

Cosplay isnt helping. Video games aren't either. I havent felt any happiness since last year. I could deal with this if he was still alive. But at the same time Im lying to myself, I havent known what made me happy other than my past cat Ice Cube. I stayed for him since I love him. I had him since he was five weeks old. We bonded. Its not the case with Albert and I feel he loves me but we dont have the connection and never will.

Im never going to feel anything other than severe misery and depression. At least, that's what I 100% believe.

TLDR: Im severely struggling and dont know what to do anymore. I dont trust my new therapist even though she has stated more than once and my friend who also goes to her has stated more than once she wont send me to inpatient or CPAP and she tries to avoid hospitalization if we can. But because of multiple decades of PTSD, abuse, and being denied the proper treatment, help, support from friends and family that I should of gotten Im at the point where Im giving myself until December 31st to find a reason to stay alive and if I dont then Im letting my queue run out.

[pwblogarchive]

April 2007

April 6, 2007

“take a vote, the eyes have it. but the knives have our back.”

"An ending fitting for the startyou twist and tore our love apartyour light fingers through the darkshattered the lamp- into darkness it cast us...""No you've got it the wrong way round-just shut me up and blamed it on the brown"cornered the boy kicked out at the world, the world kicked backalot fuckin' harder...If you wanna try, If you wanna trythere's no worse you could do (oh oh oh)I know you lie (I know you lie)I'm still in love with you (oh oh oh)Have we enough to keep it together?or do we just keep on pretending (and hope our luck is never ending)...you cant stand me now, you cant stand me...."

April 14, 2007

us vs. the house - i kind of love the odds.

its almost a new shade under those lashes.

i am perplexingly optimistic.

its almost got me losing my head.

dodging flights.

words are like teeth.

only three places they can go...

flashed in smiles, rotted out, or spit out in fistfights.

not too sure how these end up.

we are becoming who we are meant to be.

we are becoming who we were.

time passes like bottles between them.

letting my self just float.

just feel ok.

being happy doesnt mean you are unauthentic.

breathing life is alright.

in doses you know.

i love life in 24 hour increments.

noone gets how my head feels when i lie sideways on pillows.

but noone gets anyone. so who cares?

listening to life on mars by bowie.

just snoozin.

the inside of my head is out breath from all of this jumping here and there.

sometimes love is the only thing we can call our own.

"ive been shooting up your perfume..."

Posted by xoat 3:52 AM

April 15, 2007

“i dont think that anyone feels the way i do about you now.”

me and you are the cubs, you know. next year is always our year.

April 16, 2007

bury me now, we'll figure out the rest later.

me versus myself.

i know that at some point the right words are gonna come to me.

that they are just going to spill out.

thats the only reason i still sit in these darkened rooms in front of blank screens.

i know deep down we can make ourselves bright.

we can shine.

my moods shape shift, they are magnets on a compass.

leaving the arrow spinning if it gets too close.

i hadnt been smiling or speaking up as much as i used to.

i have felt ugly on the inside and no matter what anyone says or does its the only thing going in my ears.

except whats the point.

whats the point of making it through unscathed?

the whole point of this is catharsis.

the whole plan is to get better.

to do the math.

to figure this all out.

to be ok.

to be ok with being ok.

Posted by xoat 1:58 AM

April 17, 2007

the morning after, party.

pirouette next to a baby grand, send all my troubles in reverse. notes on being authentic: the fuck me red lipstick she wears comes off on her teeth- but she rubs her feet on mine to fall asleep, im not sure anyone knows this.

April 17, 2007

"all of a sudden, i miss everyone"

god been thinking. its been awhile since ive done that.except for "here and there"ssick of all the speculation.this means that, that means this.this is really the only place i can speak to anyone without people in glass towers watching me.commenting.so thank you for that.id do anything to keep this going forever.even in my head when i wanted to be blown off this fucking planet i still hoped that little blue record kept spinning in your room.the reason you havent seen a video of fall out boy on fuse is because of corporate litigation.the same reasons for half of what makes this all feel like its falling apart.we only did cribs because we thought it was funny. hopefully you are in on the joke. we rented fake cars, like ferraris and just goofed around the whole time.didnt even know how to open the doors.not sure if our sense of humor is gonna come across or whether it will be mtvified.my best friend is a dog.sometimes i miss being down all the time like it was a close friend that moved away.but sometimes the inside of my head and my heart and my stomach all meet up into this wretched combination.i just want to let myself be happy.id give anything to not give up on this.take care. sleep safe. i will write more when it comes to me.

April 22, 2007

"all that hate is gonna burn you up." he said "it keeps me warm at night".

my mind is a safe.

if i keep it in, well be able to blow dust off our secrets before we die.

my body is an orphanage

we take everyone in.

doing lines of dust and sweat off last nights stage-

just to feel like you.

if home is where the heart is then were all just fucked.

i want it so bad id shoot sunshine into my veins.

cant remember the good old days. just cant forget the "old" ones.

its kind of funny the way were all wearing anchors on our shirts

when being anchored or paused just feels like a curse...

i want the weightlessness of love with the carelessness of a fuck

like the way magicians spin the bird into the bars on the back of a page

locking the bird away, except my ribs are the cage

dont know much about classic cars or classic rock-

but i got a lot of friends who are stuck on classic coke.

i must confess i am in love with my sins.

when they said we had chemistry im pretty sure this aint what they meant (me plus you plus tears plus a sedative or two).

cue the water works.

saline.

the plant is pumping overtime to get the toxins out.

not sure which is working faster, your mouth or your tear ducts.

in other news....

April 22, 2007

"all that hate is gonna burn you up." he said "it keeps me warm at night".

you win some.

you lose some.

April 23, 2007

“i plugged it into the socket and the house exploded"

yesterday in the hotel i was supposed to stay at a woman and a man took guns out and threatened to kill a bunch of guests. then the police showed up and they wouldnt put the guns down, so the police shot and killed them. in their room they found a bunch of extra guns and ammunition. i have goosebumps.in response to this and the virginia tech shootings. i dont know what to say. i dont understand why our society influences people to do the things that they do. i am just happy that my friends are safe and that we are still ok.true love.

April 28, 2007

“puppy love vs. teaching old dogs new tricks”

"i know you may roll your eyes at this, but im just so glad that you exist"i dont care what list i end up on.the truth is, i just dont like myself too much.i thank god for the people who love me anyway and can see around that.you inspire me to be a better person.and to let myself feel happy.i hope i bring the same to you.all sappiness aside. go download the video for the kanye "throw some d's" remix on youtube. you will not be disappointed.

posted by xo @ 4:49 PM

April 29, 2007

hi im pete wentz

April 29, 2007

this disfigured face matches these disfigured eyes. sorry baby, evolution never caught up with me. stay gold~

April 30, 2007

“my conscious and i can out-talk david mamet”

life as of late: "usually i like to get kissed before i feel fucked".

i place my bets on stars that are probably already burned out.

i fistfight the keyboard when i think of how things turned out.

Posted by xoat 8:23 PM

[violasmirabiles]

quarantine tag

got tagged by @gloria-gloom, thank you xx

are you staying home from work/school?

sure am, all classes were moved online. but to be fair most of the classes i have were online classes or just essays to begin with so this only really affects my bachelors seminar So Thats Fun

if you are staying home, who is with you?

im staying with my parents at the moment, i came here a couple weeks back and dont know when im going back to joensuu

are you a homebody?

yeah, i cant say my routine was thwarted too badly or anything. but then i cant even say im actively doing anything because im so depressed i was already deep in apathy before all this started

an event you were looking forward to that got cancelled?

nordic student singers’ summit 2020 in trondheim, norway. wouldve been in late april. the university choir im in was supposed to attend but naturally they had to cancel the event. this was when we couldve still technically traveled there, it was just that events of more than 500 people were canceled. the travel ban came a few days later. we still dont know if and how much of our money we can get back. then of course here in finland the choirs spring concert was canceled because the entire choir season was canceled. so the choirs broke and thats fun

what movies have you watched recently?

lets see. well ive been on a star wars kick now, have watched em all now but keep returning to the original trilogy. i also had a mamma mia marathon with mom. also, the millennium trilogy. and although i somehow still havent gotten round to it i will probably watch saw like four times in a row at some point

what shows are you watching? 

dalziel and pascoe because my parents are rewatching it again so that means im also rewatching it again

what music are you listening to?

lana del rey! ive been listening to lana del rey so much now. also yes, particularly close to the edge

what are you reading?

it by stephen king. finally finished doctor sleep a few days back

what are you doing for self care?

playing the sims 2 but the games a little fucky (quite possibly bc i downloaded it online) so im currently trying to find a disk version - and since im used to a Certain Standard while playing ultimate collection, im trying to find all the EPs and as many stuff packs as i can. mansion & garden pack seems particularly hard to find and thats unfortunate cos theres a couple of things (not essential by any means but Nice Things) in it that i like. but. yeah. also ive been baking more than usual (not like All The Time but i normally never bake). so far ive made apple pie (was delicious), cookies from a mix of ready made gingerbread dough and ‘regular’ cookie dough (won der ful) and now im planning to make cinnamon rolls and am trying to talk my brother (and possibly his girlfriend) into joining me. coming to live with my parents was also something like self care so as to not isolate myself completely, and also because of money. (although this one has its downsides too and there are so many jokes about the shining that i could make here but lets not)

i tag @blackboard-monitor, @planetoidi, @too-spoopy-to-be-frukd, @brilliancetheory, @alanwhite & @aredhels!

[tittyinfinity]

These last few months have been horrible.

I REALLY wish my messages would work on tumblr bc I'm really lonely but I dont wanna talk to anyone that I actually know. Idk man I'm just having a really hard time. I cant handle much more of this stress.

At the beginning of September, my parents totaled their car. This left me as the only car owner in my family, and now I am responsible for getting my parents and brother to and from work every day. However, my car has had expired tags since April because my car has about $200 worth of things that need to be fixed and cant pass inspection, and every time I get something fixed, something else goes out. I'm always being pulled over, but I'm a small white woman so luckily I always get out of tickets (which never happens to my male and/or darker skinned friends but I might as well use my privelege to my advantage against those racist bastards).

A month ago, I had 2 seizures. During the first one, I fell off my bed and cracked my brow bone. During the second one, I broke my foot. I haven't been able to make it back to the doctor since then. I've been walking on this broken foot because I have so many things I have to get done.

I also started dating this guy during that time. For a week. Why only a week? The first and only time we had sex, I told him he needed to pull out because I had just started back up on my birth control. He straight up said "No, be my cream pie" and came in me anyway.

He got me pregnant. The same day I bought the pregnancy test, I had a miscarriage. This has fucked me up for the last week - since that's how long it has been since it happened. I tried to talk to him about the miscarriage. He ended up telling his friends, who then ended up laughing at me and accused me of faking it AND accused me of faking my seizures (one of which I had at their house in front of them, which they said was fake). I went to his house on Friday to talk to him about the miscarriage and ended up listening to his friends making fun of me in person, one even threw a receipt at my face. The guy who got me pregnant didn't do anything at all about it.

When I talked to him about how his friends acted in the car ride back home, he responded "oh, they're just assholes" and nothing else.

Over the weekend, he started commenting on my facebook statuses saying he loved me - mind you, we broke up over a month ago and only dated for 6 days. I told him to message me and explained again how I didn't like that he didnt stand up for me. He said "I'm sorry you felt like they were making fun of you, but I'll leave you be👌" and then blocked me. I never got to talk to him about the miscarriage in person, only over the phone for a couple of minutes right after it happened.

The hormones are still fucking me up. I've been trying to go to work since the beginning of september, but since more and more keeps happening, I havent been able to.

This has all thrown me into a depressive episode and I can't handle much of anything anymore.

[persoda]

8 things I'd like to know better:

was tagged by @vagabond1925 I like doing these but I never have anyone to tag lmao

One-name/alias: Fisk

Two-birthday: April 3rd

Three-zodiac sign: Aries

Four-height: I'm 5'4"

Five-hobbies: drawing, gaming, watching movies, buying clothes I don't actually need, trying to catch up on fics lmao

Six-favorite colors: real! and soft pinks, and blues.. I've been favoring yellow lately.. that nice muted yellow on some shirts is to die for rn.. but I'm not a big fan of the mustard yellow, it looks ugly to me. and I like cream

Seven-favorite books: I dont read a lot, and all I have are manga recs.. but they're like a decade old probably more and usually one have 2 volumes.. uhh oh! the first warriors series, it was the first series I fell in love with. still cant bring myself to sit down and read the rest of it tho. haha

Eight-last song listened to: Face by Woosung

Nine-last film watched: hmm, I dont remember.. the only thing that comes to mind is Spiderverse but that was weeks ago and I've certainly watched other movies since then

Ten-inspiration for muse: most of my art involves my ocs, I never draw them whoops. it either comes from things that happen during the day or from others art, and by that I mean I try to match the feel a certain piece makes me feel.. idk how well it ever comes off but I try

Eleven-dream job: oh man, I havent thought about this at all mostly because I feel like I'm gonna be stuck working as a cashier for the rest of my life.. hmm I'd have to say owning a craft shop, or something similar.

Twelve-meaning behind your url: so, when i first go into the persona series whem I was playing through p3 again at the beginning when the protag would first summons Orpheus and says per-so-na, all I was hearing was per-so-da. and when I first came to tumblr this was my choice of branding, I've been persoda from the beginning of my time here.

sorry I dont have anyone to tag or feel like i can tag ;;

[creepyteddiebear]

help a dude out and listen to me rant.

okay so

i waited a few days because this topic pisses me off so severely but eh, lets go for it

so, a while back, i went to my GP and asked if i could be referred to the tavistock or another gender clinic to see if i could get the ball rolling for my transition. They agreed and i went home that day under the impression i was now referred and was on a waiting list of some sort.

cut to a few months later, i still havent heard fuck all and my mental health is going ape shit so i go back to the doctors again to ask to see a psychiatric team and as i was still a minor (17) at the time, i was told i could but it would have to be under CAHMs (Child and Adolesent Mental Health Services). While at that appointment, i asked about my referral and if there had been any news. I was told they had never made a referral and wanted me to change my name before they referred me because it would “make things easier”

I was furious but whatever, i thought their point was good (it wasnt) and that i should get my name changed legally. Cut to me starting to save up for my name change.

I save up, print the forms and stuff i need and them promptly find out i need a lawyer to sign my papers for it to be legitimate. the name change is put on pause because i cannot afford a lawyer and i chill out a bit and get on with college for a while, changin my name where i can with my self made deed poll and ignoring the rest of it for now.

cut to november ish 2018, im still 17 at this point and my appointment with CAMHs finally rolls around. in that meeting i explain im transgender female to male and that my gp lied about referring me. the psychiatric doctor i was seeing was rather miffed about this an said “we can do that referral if you would like? it will come to effect when you turn 18 and then you will be on their waiting list.” this makes me ecstatic and i agree, again, being given the impression I have Been Referred.

and now, cut to tuesday this week (23rd april), i have a meeting with my local sexual health team who are helping me with my now crippling dysphoria and anxiety around gender. i mention ive been “referred” twice but havent actually heard anything from the supposed second so my counsellor suggests we call the tavistock and find out for good if they ever got a referral.

they never got a referral. that ball was never set into motion, and the reason im as severely depressed as i am now is because my transition is at a complete standstill because i cant afford to do anything. I was relying on the nhs to help me transition because under the nhs, surgery and hormones are free (barring the prescription tax). i cannot afford to go private, i cannot afford hormones and i would certainly not be able to afford the top surgery i want.

i dont like the nhs and would rather pay for it all on my own. but i cant because my family is low income and we barely have enough to keep everything in my house running as it is.

if you would like to help me with either my name change or my possible private route since the nhs refuses to listen to me, im gonna link my commissions, etsy, paypal and ko-fi down below. if you donate to my ko-fi i will draw you a simple sketch or icon or anything you would like and if you commission me, obviously you get the art you would like.

thanks,,

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Let's just save the time and say please answer all of it

LMAO thanks leena 

⛵️ - Fave pirate ship? (like boat ship)

UHM. red force? thousand sunny? going merry? 🔫 - Fave canon arc?

WATER 7 omfg this arc was. too good. too emotionally powerful. 

🚽 - Least favorite canon arc?

eh tied between skypiea and thriller bark. i think both are like? ok? but my gripe with skypiea is that there are like. no lasting consequences. like it ends and its like “yay we defeated god and everyone is okay!”. and thriller bark.... i loved brook’s introduction aswell as kumas more... official introduction.... but the storyline of that arc was so exhausting and i couldnt wait for it to be over tbh

💩 - Least favorite character? (in general)

This is too hard. Blackbeard? I fucking hate that guy. 🙅 - Least favorite Straw Hat?

omfg... tough i love them all. but probably sanji. i really hate how hes so badass and then relies on the pervert trope so much. brook is sort of similar but he overall feels more of a comic relief character whereas sanji is like. supposed to be serious half the time. idk. i love everyone though. 

😀 - Most favorite Straw Hat?

ah shit. i really do love them all. Its tied between. Luffy and Zoro. Because zoro was originally my Favorite Character and is now my third favorite.... but luffy speaks to me a lot. Like his whole.... die hard friendship thing. that means a lot to me. 

😍 - OTP?

ZOLU/ZOLAW/ZOLAWLU???? FROBIN?

💀 - NOTP?

ANY ASL SHIP THEYRE BROTHERS DO NOT SHIP THEM EVEN IF THEY ARENT RELATED THEY VIEW EACHOTHER AS BROTHERS!!!!! also law and cora or law and doffy or cora and doffy.... all awful and i implore the fandom to STOP. lunami , sanami, zosan, marco and ace whatever the ship name is for that, and im not a huge fan of shanks and makino 

☠ - Fave pirate symbol?

oof its like. between spade pirates, red hair pirates, heart pirates

🏰 - Fave marine?

it used to be smoker.... and hes still up on the list... but its definitely admiral kizaru now. 

❌ - Least fave marine?

hm. i havent actually gotten to akainu but? maybe him? spandam? lucci? 

👾 - Fave villain?

kizaru or katakuri probably 

😭 - Saddest scene?

uhm. excuse me. how can i choose. all of one piece is sad. mb aces death but i havent gotten to it yet so😆 - Funniest scene?

fucking. brooks introduction. like all throughout him being introduced. 

or after luffy KOs the celestial dragon and luffy kid and law are like. acting like. competitive children? hilarious. 

😜 - Funniest character?

this is tough. but i have to say i laughed so much because of duval consistently 😳 - Any crushes?

yeah ofc are you kidding me? ace, law, zoro, shanks, robin, franky, rayleigh theres just so many omg 

👌 - Fave character design?

HM idk if i can choose. kizaru? katakuri? ace? its hard bc i have bias on liking these characters already 

🃏 - Who has the Best Hat? (the true question)

uhm luffy obviously

🆚 - Sub or dub?

dub! 

☯️ - Anime or manga?

anime but only because when i first started watching one piece it was like. out of boredom and i wasnt expecting to get invested. so i was like. eh ill just watch it to waste time. then i kept watching it and got into it so i just continued watching it! My current plan is to rewatch the anime up to where the dub is with ned then once we do that im going to read the manga

⏰ - How long have you been into One Piece?

only little over a year! im pretty sure i got into one piece april 2018? 

🍏 - Would you eat a Devil Fruit if you had the chance to?

uhm of fucking course i would!!! 

🐼 - Fave side character?

HATCHAN I WOULD DIE FOR HIM I LOVE HIM SO MUCH HES THE BEST (i mean im not counting law or ace as side characters since they overall have a lot of impact in the story.)

☔️ - Scene that made you cry the most? (not necessarily the saddest scene)

oh fuck uhm. water 7′s entirety i was crying so much. uhhh i just finished sabaody before hancocks intro so like. THAT scene in sabaody i was like “ aw this is sad” and then i was sobbing so hard my body was like. literally wracked with the sobs. i still cry everytime i hear binks brew/sake tho. so maybe that part? listen i cry a lot in general and one piece is sad very often so i cry A LOT 

🌧 - Saddest backstory?

robin???? franky???? 

😎 - Funniest joke?

zoros fucking nonexistent sense of direction really gets me every time

😱 - Most attractive character? 

Zoro for sure 

😐 - Most annoying character?

FOXY god i fuckinnnng hate him 

😕 - Scariest character?

conceptually, visually? scratchmen apoo. im not afraid of him but everything about him is completely unsettling to me. Maybe eneru/enel aswell? he spooked me a little until i was lamenting to someone about how op he is and they were like “luffys going to win because hes rubber.” and i was like. fuck. oh. ok. yeah. makes sense. kizaru is not like? scary? but he definitely is so powerful that it feels helpless against him which is a scary feeling.

👍 - Most powerful Devil Fruit power?

thats hard because even ones that seem lame are used well and become super strong? maybe pika pika no mi

🗣 - Got any theories for how it’s all gonna end?

no theories but i hope luffy becomes the pirate king

🙏 - Favorite episode?

uhmmm.. well my favorite  filler episode is zoros fucking.. babysitting adventures. so good. i dont know if i could pick a favorite canon episode

😏 - Favorite scene?

luffy punching the celestial dragon !!!

🙌 - Are you up to date?

lmao not at all. i stopped right before luffy and hancock meet so i could rewatch the series with ned. i do have a sort of understanding of whats happening atm. i try not to get spoiled but i have the very barebones 

❓ - What unanswered questions do you have related to One Piece?

im mostly just like. curious about the characters we know but dont know their bounties? like if i recall correctly we dont know like rayleighs bounty? do we know shanks? or gold rogers? stuff like that. 

▶️ - Fave opening?

share the world or we are!

🔙 Least fave opening?

hmmm maybe bon voyage?

🎆 - Something you can’t wait for??!!

i cant wait to get to wano!!!! it looks so good!!!!

🔝 - “One Piece is better than ”

one piece is better than kpop

🔪 - A character who fills you with frustration?

bon clay or buggy 

💓 - Which character do you relate to the most?

hm. water 7 robin? idk theyre all relatable for different reasons its hard to say whos the most relatable for me

™️ - How has One Piece changed you?

ehhh i dont know if its changed me as a person as much as its given me something to hold onto

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NAME!  ♡   sprite  HEIGHT! ♡   5′1 y’all can’t be out here complainin NATIONALITY!  ♡   american. boring. FAVOURITE  FRUITS! ♡   me, devouring a 12 oz pack of raspberries as i write this: peaches and pears and blueberries and blackberries and, FAVOURITE  SEASONS!  ♡   i can never pick maybe winter. FAVOURITE  SCENTS!  ♡   i’m such a sucker for ‘fresh’ scents like linen and sea breezes and the like tbh FAVOURITE  ANIMALS!  ♡   owls and dolphins and sharks! TEA  /  COFFEE /  HOT  COCOA! ♡   hot cocoa!!! i’ve never had coffee and peppermint tea is reserved for treats usually. AVERAGE  HOURS  OF  SLEEP!  ♡   i think i manage eight most of the time? ?? WHEN  MY  BLOG  WAS  CREATED!  ♡   sangfear was made Jan 2018, but i made soda’s first blog April 2017. RANDOM   FACT! ♡   i have a tradition of cutting my hair down to a bob every other year at the start of summer! i’ve done it since i was eight and it’s almost time againnn. FAVOURITE  FOOD(S)!  ♡   pasta. pizza. raspberries. chicken tenders. and all w No Extra Flavoring, Ever FAVOURITE SHOWS!  ♡   i JUST finished watching atla but it’s up there. gravity falls, octonauts... i don’t watch live action LMFAO FAVOURITE  MOVIE! ♡   i can’t rmb a single movie i’d peg as a favorite f FAVOURITE  VINE!  ♡   confession time i know NO vines. that said, ‘what do you have?’ ‘a KNIFE!’ ‘NO!’ will always remind me of soda, so..........

SEXUALITY! ♡   ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ PRONOUNS! ♡   she/her i Guess FAVOURITE  BOOK  SERIES! ♡   the original percy jackson books. god. i’m so sad i don’t own them and im so [clenches fist] at all the new ones FAVOURITE  VIDEO  GAMES! ♡   hahhdhgfnsnj awkward pause. i don’t....beat......video games i’m gonna put like, all the zelda games in spirit, but all i play’s like splatoon, minecraft, sims, etc., so uhhhhhh,,,

FAVOURITE  BANDS!  ♡   the hoosiers, reel big fish, i havent quit listening to bad suns on repeat for Weeks FAVOURITE  SUBJECT!  ♡   earth and space!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GUYS   OR   GIRLS!  ♡   neither, perish LAST  TIME  I  CRIED! ♡   idk like last week? WHAT  I  SHOULD  BE  DOING!  ♡   drafts. and iconning. and figuring out an application for a school thing but eh FAVOURITE  FANDOM! ♡   i havent been in a good fandom since i knew what the concept of fandom was i cant answer this sorry y’all

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makeshift feels from the opinion lab

kafka wrote in a journal urhmherm of being limited to prague, then his room, then his bed, then nothing at all. to be limited at last to nothing at all. well. turns out i guess the most kafkaesque sentiment came from franz kafka.

enjoi ya rickety gethsemane while it is still to be dreamed, young writers, young writers of youth.

after a job on a hot day back in april or may or something i started listening to this while walking out of the truck towards the gas station convenience store and abruptly pivoted away from the sliding doors to sneak around the side and weep near the green fencing around some boilers. it occurred to me how little i could ever forgive myself for doing.

the shit ive done, all of it, i havent forgiven myself. if i did it and it was bad, or even meagre, dumb, really no big deal, bet yr ass it still keeps me from thinking i deserve happiness. i do not forgive myself for anything ive ever done. no deed is too temporal to etch itself cleanly into my head as something unforgivable, if only it makes a small point.

i know this is true because no joy i ever feel is felt fully, because i do not think it is deserved; and because i allow myself to be joyous only when i think of the truth of my unforgiven, unforgivable state. never to be. Never will.

and that is what is depression.

There must be something here, in me. Here where the jackals caterwAul Like streetcats Mewing their gizzard After this night’s heat, What’ll it be Jackals, Buzz off, shit man

i feel like the key to life is knowing that 90 percent of anxiety & depression, either in degree or in its truth, and at least somewhere not wracked by war, is unsubstantiated (the ten percent being actual crises, like fear of violence, a death in the family, etc). The problem is how persuasive these feelings can be that lead to the fulfillment of the very fear or solidifying the reason for being depressed. But with positive feelings, the least thing, whether true or no, can always be rewarding. A bit of happiness must be allowed to be felt, indiscriminately, because it is more useful to us than a bit of sadness. Take the fierce dialectic u use to establish a depressing ‘truth’ and persuade yourself of something good. If one is far fetched, let it be the something bad. Until it happens, after all, all of it remains in your head, to do with what u will.

You don’t get to lower taxes on the rich and gut social services at the same time. The reason social services are in place is to provide a fair shake for john q public. Mostly investors are feeling the benefits of the corporate tax cut. They’re not giving the money towards a better product that would help the people. but one day there will be no sesame seeds on the bun of yr Big Mac and you’ll wonder how that’s possible with an entire sesame seed dept that just got a pay raise.

tax reform should be done to help a free market, so that the rich can be poor and the poor rich. Taxation helps the people so that social services become less necessary. Social services were developed because the percentage of taxation was unequal between higher and lower class. Poor folks felt the pain while rich folks shrugged it off.

Thats why I say you can’t do both: social services are a protection against the world being entirely controlled, if it’s not already, by those from the very swamp this president wants to drain. T**** hasn’t drained shit.

i feel like writing takes over for your thought process. You can’t think and write at the same time, or something. something turns off or it switches where it’s doing the shit it’s doing to a different place, like yr hands. I don’t think you can write down one linear thought with another thought being thought in your head. This is why people say their mind goes blank in extended periods of inspiration. The functioning has gone from being untethered and temporal, ie wandering thoughts, notions, speculating, to being possessed in a focused place, ie yr hands, which usually leads to a more focused expression of perhaps a thought of particular value, enough in the first place to require writing down. But tho this can be easy for some talented people, who might, as Joyce said, polish their nails while writing some genius thing, what does not come easy for anybody, because it is imposssible, is thinking two disparate things, of the everyday and of some behemoth philosophic concept, for example, without either one taken place after or before; or, one of them being intermittently disturbed, tho linearly, by the other, like a notification on yr phone- until at last one of the two breaks down, and the foxus superseded by the one left. This is especially novel. One thinks; one does not think and also think. That would make it two people in one head. Therefore we can presume that ones identity is found in the unity, or internal focus, of their story in thoughts down one narrow wire: thought can cross many paths and examine everything under and beyond th sun, but per person it is still in the singular. It cannot divide into two simultaneous paths of equal focus. there can be multilayered thoughts with a similar core concept behind them, and these can be thought simultaneously as much as one can ante up and dole out shades of emotion and shades of thought, and so on. But I cannot think of a teleological explanation for all creation and with the same focus Apply myself to letters in the mail. There is a dominant voice, and the rest, the mundane voice, is seen thru that lens.

ya cant say yr colorblind then gripe about people hatin ya cuz u r white. contradiction of terms no? if you really didnt see color, ud say people hated yr ass because yr a damnfool entrylevel, grunt-ass lowbrow. not because of the color of ya skin, which ya recognized and put to the forefront in making that very statement.

feel like uh, a priori is not intuition alone. Intuition is a function of the mind, while a priori is, if I understand Kant correctly, a representation synthesized before there is an object of focus available for the senses to interpret, ie an essentially true conclusion drawn, that has no need for a combined manifold, as, Kant tells us, is offered by merely living in space and time: time to extend and progress from cause to effect to cause, and space to do it in. In other words, intuition is cognitive- psychological, and a priori, theoretical- logical.

Pathos is the one thing most divine about people, for i see that in my worst state I can still grieve for the savaging of life’s last hope, and be uplifted, feel tears, at least for a little blessed while. There is no state so low that does not inspire one to at least pity themselves, and feel the comfort of passions, however mistaken or wretched the person.

i feel that / Some subjects do not even allow to be proved through the scientific method, yet they are still issues of a scientific nature and not just mysticism. the line is very thin however, since usually these subjects devolve into mysticism. In fact, if science only worked with that which could be proven, from the outset or otherwise, we’d have a pretty limited roster of discoveries. Sometimes discoveries can be made along the way towards proving; sometimes, discoveries can be made, scientifically, thru means that for lack of anything better, are entirely theoretical. And sometimes the search is not to prove something true but to clarify something. Science is not out to be incontrovertible.

The man in mismatched sox inhaled not as deeply as he would have liked at such a crescendo, even if on the third listen in a row, then, looked up at the massive pure blue upwards, cloudless, felt likely to cry for joy, but in the end simply mouthed the words:

“I’m gonna die of loneliness, fo sho.”

So often doth trespass our intuition upon realms and pathways of a more intimate enumeration of cause and effect than could be available to any witness, and that is available only to the actioning of objects involved in the event seen and analyzed by what and who were no player.

The crisis paid goodbyes in the form of telling your ass off, is what he said. But we all knew he thought he was merely a parable often enough already. We didn’t listen to the crisis, deliberately shut our ears like boxing them very slowly ourselves before anyone else could. Later in the year many terrible events would occur that were the direct result of ignoring his words. But nobody came around to believing he did it. The crisis was way off teaching prophecies someplace probably foreign. But if I refuse to be confined to learning from my own folly I should at least give the follies of others a chance. Fatass karma, and more hell than handbasket.

What the crisis he said was

HEY YOU DONT WANT TO FACE JACK, FACE? TELL ME ABOUT HOW CRUELTY CAN BE ELEGANT AGAIN. YOU ARE FACING NO SUCH BURDEN OF SIMPLY LIVING. TELL ME WHAT HALLUCINATIONS ARE, YOU SWOLLEN, DYSPEPTIC SHIT.

And to this day All I remember is him Looking slain already Like he’d be on the slab In days Or even hundreds of years from then And it’d be how, uh, how He looked then Slamming the door While my sister and things Was gatherin they buckets for weeping later In that queer disease of spite where You grieve for the vanquished enemy.

all triumph is in some sense humorous, for in itself triumph is the opposite of tragedy. that is why the soldier laughs as he shoots at a retreating enemy. there is an element of rowdiness that is somewhat comedic, taken in itself.

Numbers are the only symbols that stand for what they are. In this way they are more like hieroglyphs

is bed porn a thing? it should definitely be a thing.

THIS LIFE IS FILLED WITH DARKNESS THIS DARKNESS IS SO LIGHT GOD IN HEAVEN QUA SKY MUST BEAT WINGS TO KEEP ON GROUND NOTHING MUCH IS EVER FOUND NOTHING MUCH IS EVER FOUND. No symbols where none intended etc etc

No art is permanent, in that its aims in being created do not last, do not translate between epochs. I will never experience Homer as one living in Ancient Greece. Have not closely read Homer, but when I do it will be as myself in my time, with all the sullying context of those years from then to now only left to unguide me.

Kierkegaard tricks you into thinking he knows his insanity is illogical, the side effect of writing his labyrinths. The frightening moment comes when you realize how fiercely logical his insanity seems to him, and how insane the World actually is, and you wonder if it is that you do not understand it or just do not accept it.

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Who Are The Three Republicans Running Against Trump

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Who Are The Three Republicans Running Against Trump

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Presidential primaries and caucuses of the Republican Party took place in many U.S. states, the District of Columbia, and five U.S. territories from February 3 to August 11, 2020, to elect most of the 2,550 delegates to send to the Republican National Convention. Delegates to the national convention in other states were elected by the respective state party organizations. The delegates to the national convention voted on the first ballot to select Donald Trump as the Republican Party’s presidential nominee for president of the United States in the 2020 election, and selected Mike Pence as the vice-presidential nominee.

President Donald Trump informally launched his bid for reelection on February 18, 2017. He launched his reelection campaign earlier in his presidency than any of his predecessors did. He was followed by former governor of MassachusettsBill Weld, who announced his campaign on April 15, 2019, and former Illinois congressmanJoe Walsh, who declared his candidacy on August 25, 2019. Former governor of South Carolina and U.S. representative launched a primary challenge on September 8, 2019. In addition, businessman Rocky De La Fuente entered the race on May 16, 2019, but was not widely recognized as a major candidate.

Who Are The Republicans Challenging Trump For 2020 Nomination

Only one candidate is now vying to defeat Trump for Republican nomination in the 2020 presidential race.

While the pool of Democrats vying for the partys presidential nomination was among the largest and most diverse in the history of the United States, President Donald Trump faced a much smaller cadre of challengers for the Republican ticket in 2020.

After two Republicans dropped out, only one opponent remains in the race against Trump. Thats in contrast to the three remaining contenders in the Democratic field, which once had more than two dozen candidates.

In a statement in April, the Republican National Convention said the Republican Party is firmly behind Trump and any effort to challenge the presidents nomination is bound to go absolutely nowhere, prompting criticism that Republican leaders are making it;impossible for another candidate to succeed.

Here is a look at the now sole Republican challenging Trump.

Are There Any Prominent Democrats Running

There are nine registered Democrats on the ballot but none well known to the public. Newsom and his allies were successful in keeping prominent Democrats out of the race, allowing them to present a united Democratic front and to continue painting the recall as a GOP power grab to accomplish through a special election what it cant through a regular campaign. That also avoids a repeat of the 2003 recall, when Davis allies believe Lt. Gov. Cruz Bustamantes decision to run as an insurance option in case the recall was successful cost the governor Democratic votes.

Among the Democrats who decided not to run is former Los Angeles Mayor Antonio Villaraigosa.

I respect the fact the recall qualified. I also recognize that many people disagree with the governor and some of his decisions including me but Californias facing incredible challenges and the governor deserves a chance to finish the job, Villaraigosa said. Thats why I oppose the recall and support Gov. Newsom in this matter.

No prominent Democrat has stepped up as a potential Newsom alternative. Experts say the party should have a backup for a worst-case scenario but doing so may hurt Newsom.

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The 2024 Republican Presidential Candidate Wild Cards

The first Democratic debate back in 2019 had 20 TWENTY! candidates, so dont be surprised if the Republican field is just as large or larger. We could have some more governors or representatives run, or even other nontraditional candidates, like a Trump family member, a Fox News host or a celebrity, like Dwayne The Rock Johnson, whos said hes seriously considering a run. Stranger things have happened.

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The biggest question mark for Republicans is if Trump will run for president in 2024. He hasnt exactly frozen the field, since Republicans are already positioning themselves to run, but perhaps hes refrigerated it a bit?

Trump is the 800-pound gorilla, said Dan Eberhart, a Republican donor. Trump has got command of the organs of the party and is going to have an enormous amount of resources and name ID and the ability to throw these rallies in the fall of 2022. I think that sets him up very well to being pole position for 2024 if he wants.

Trump, 74, is currently bettors top candidate on PredictIt, an online prediction market, and hes also led in several early polls, including a February Morning Consult/Politico poll. The poll found 54% of Republican voters would back Trump if the 2024 primary were held today. Those kinds of numbers would mean game over in a primary, but they also suggest many Republicans are eager for a new face.

During a recent podcast interview, Trump said he would make his decision on whether he will run in the 2024 presidential election sometime later, and after being asked which Republicans he thought represented the future of the party, he listed off some of the politicians youll see later on this list, including Florida Gov. Ron DeSantis, Sen. Ted Cruz of Texas and South Dakota Gov. Kristi Noem.

Read Also: What Republicans Are Saying About Trump Now

No Evidence Election Was Compromised Cybersecurity Agency Says

The dust-up in Wayne County unfolded amid a nationwide effort by Trump and many of his GOP allies to push back on the results of the election. The outgoing president has claimed widespread voting fraud, without evidence, in the several of the states that he lost, including Michigan.

On Wednesday, the president reiterated his claim that a giant scam robbed him of a victory in the state. I win Michigan! .

He and his allies, however, have repeatedly failed to produce evidence supporting their allegations of election fraud.

That failure has spelled trouble in court for his campaign to get the election results overturned. In Michigan, an appeals court on Monday unanimously ruled against a Republican bid to invalidate the vote in Wayne County. The decision backed a lower-court ruling that found the allegations to be simply not credible.

And the legal setbacks for Trump havent been confined to Michigans borders, either. As NPRs Pam Fessler explains, similar efforts challenging the vote in Pennsylvania, Georgia and Wisconsin have failed to gain traction.

Georgia Secretary of State Brad Raffensperger speaks during a news conference Wednesday in Atlanta.

Georgias secretary of state said Tuesday that some fellow Republicans have tried to pressure him into disqualifying legal ballots that may not have favored President Trump.

Failed candidate Doug Collins is a liar but whats new?Raffensperger wrote in a Facebook post.

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Richard Burr North Carolina

Burr, who has said he will not seek re-election, had previously voted to dismiss the impeachment trial on constitutional grounds. Burr’s term expires in 2022.

“I have listened to the arguments presented by both sides and considered the facts. The facts are clear,” explained Burr in a statement.

“By what he did and by what he did not do, President Trump violated his oath of office to preserve, protect, and defend the Constitution of the United States,” he explained, adding that he didn’t come to “this decision lightly.”

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These Republicans Are Running 2020 Primary Campaigns Against President Donald Trump

Three big-name Republicans have launched campaigns in the 2020 presidential race. While GOP incumbent president Donald Trump is the presumptive nominee, these candidates are hoping the party will open up a primary process despitereportsthat Republicans in a handful of states will not hold primary elections as a show of support for Trump.

Where that leaves these GOP candidates is unclear, but of the more than 100 people who have officially declared Republican candidacies with the Federal Elections Commission, these three are running the most high-profile campaigns to try and take the Republican nomination away from Trump.

Bill Weld, who was the Republican governor of Massachusetts from 1991 to 1997, announced on April 15 that he was entering the Republican primary.

In these times of great political strife, when both major parties are entrenched in their win at all cost battles, the voices of the American people are being ignored and our nation is suffering, Weld said in a statement at the time of his announcement, according to CNN. It is time to return to the principles of Lincoln equality, dignity, and opportunity for all. There is no greater cause on earth than to preserve what truly makes America great.

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The president has taken notice of his challengers, though. In response to the news that Sanford had entered the race , Trump wrote, The Three Stooges, all badly failed candidates, will give it a go!

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Cpac And The Broader Republican Party Agree: Its Trumps Party For Now

Is There Any Republican That Would Actually Run Against Trump?

alex: Florida Gov. Ron DeSantis. We know hes a rising star in GOP circles and I think the CPAC straw poll pointed out his popularity among the Trump wing of the Republican Party. Another poll, too, after Trump.

Plus, being from Florida gives him an edge in a competitive state. To me, it appears that at this point, people like DeSantis because his policy priorities are similar to Trumps, but he lacks the former presidents ego and baggage.;

sarah: Stole my first round pick!!;;

geoffrey.skelley: DeSantis isnt terribly well known, but I suspect well see him try to correct for that in the coming months. He may be coy for a while about his plans, though, because he needs to win reelection in 2022, and we know that would-be candidates want to take care of the home front first.

nrakich: Yeah, I think DeSantis is a smart pick. Hes doing all the right things picking fights with Democrats, going on Fox News a lot

sarah: Could not agree more. There is no autopsy report yet of the 2020 election from the GOP side , but one thing that stands out to me is something Echelon Insights pollster Kristen Soltis Anderson wrote for the Washington Examiner in February, Trumps legacy in the party isnt policy, and it isnt a person. Its a posture a fighting posture in a moment where Republicans think the fight is what matters most.;

I bring that up because something Anderson and her organization have found is that many GOP voters want someone who will fight for them.

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How Biden Won: Ramping Up The Base And Expanding Margins In The Suburbs

It brings the number of states Biden flipped from Trumps 2016 column to five, including Arizona, which last voted Democratic in a presidential race when it backed Clinton in 1996.

Biden also flipped Michigan, Wisconsin and Pennsylvania, three key northern industrial states that ultimately delivered the White House to Trump four years ago. Biden also won a single electoral vote in Nebraskas 2nd Congressional District, which last voted Democratic for former President Barack Obama in 2008.

Electors from each state and the District of Columbia are expected to vote on Dec. 14. The new Congress will then count the votes and certify Bidens victory on Jan. 6, two weeks before the inauguration.

But Georgias political activity is far from over. The state will hold two runoff elections on Jan. 5 for both its U.S. Senate seats, which are currently held by Republicans.

Georgias Republican Us Senators Call On Gop State Election Chief To Resign

Georgia Secretary of State Brad Raffensperger, himself a Republican, called the claims laughable and refused to step aside.

The early rancor and fighting over the presidential election results, which are headed for a recount despite Bidens growing lead, is a preview of the intense fight to come over the fate of the two Senate seats. Vice President Pence told GOP senators that he plans to campaign in the state, and national Democrats are already pouring money and support to their challengers, Jon Ossoff and Raphael Warnock.

The Georgia runoffs are slated for Jan. 5, after the Senate is scheduled to begin a new session. That uncertainty means the Senate will be unable to officially organize until the results of that election are finalized.

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A Marine stands outside the entrance to the West Wing of the White House on Tuesday, signifying that President Trump is in the Oval Office.

President Trump is set to visit Arlington National Cemetery on Wednesday to mark Veterans Day and lay a wreath. Trump will be joined by Vice President Pence. This is one of the more traditional ceremonial duties of a president. .

Asked what the president has been up to, White House spokesman Judd Deere said Trump has been working behind the scenes.

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Trumps False Election Fraud Claims Fuel Michigan Gop Meltdown

The ex-presidents refusal to accept defeat is taking a toll on the party in a key battleground state.

Republican National Committee chair Ronna McDaniel a former Michigan GOP chair herself speaks during a news conference at the Republican National Committee in Washington. | AP Photo/Alex Brandon

Joe Biden defeated Donald Trump by more than 150,000 votes in Michigan last November.

Trump and the Michigan Republican Party still arent over it.

The outcome and the former presidents obsessive efforts to dispute it has left the state party in disarray, raising questions about the GOPs focus as it looks to unseat Democratic Gov. Gretchen Whitmer in a top battleground state next year.

From a staff and leadership perspective, I dont know that top-notch professionals would want to go into this quagmire, said Jeff Timmer, a former Michigan GOP executive director who opposed Trump. Unless youre going to talk crazy talk, they dont want you there.

Much of the trouble can be traced to the 2020 presidential election results, which Trump and his allies have alleged were marked by fraud without providing evidence.

But some party officials and conservative activists continue to press for a forensic audit of the election results, encouraged by Trump, who has called on American Republican Patriots to run primary challenges against RINO State Senators in Michigan who refuse to properly look into the election irregularities and fraud.

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Georgia And Arizona Senators Show Progressive

Walker, the 1982 Heisman Trophy winner and a Wrightsville, Ga., native, has long lived in Texas after a professional football career that ended in Dallas, but he changed his voter registration last week to an Atlanta house owned by his wife, Julie Blanchard. Blanchard is under investigation by the Georgia secretary of state’s office over potential illegal voting after The Atlanta Journal-Constitution reported she voted in Georgia despite living in Texas.

Walker has also repeated false claims of voter fraud in the 2020 election despite elections officials finding no evidence of widespread fraud that affected the outcome.

It’s unclear when Walker will make a formal Senate announcement. The campaign paperwork filed Tuesday ends months of speculation about his political plans, including a prediction in June from Trump that the former football star would soon suit up for the Republican primary.

“He told me he’s going to, and I think he will,” Trump said on the conservative talk radio Clay Travis and Buck Sexton Show. “He’s a great guy. He’s a patriot. And he’s a very loyal person, he’s a very strong person. They love him in Georgia, I’ll tell you.”

Some national Republicans have been wary of Walker’s candidacy, though. The first-time candidate comes with potential baggage that could harm his chances in both the primary and general elections, including his Texas residency.

Former Us Ambassador To The United Nations Nikki Haley

Haley, 49, stands out in the potential pool of 2024 Republican candidates by her resume. She has experience as an executive as the former governor of South Carolina and foreign policy experience from her time as U.S. ambassador to the United Nations.

Haley was a member of the Republican Partys 2010 tea party class. A former South Carolina state representative, her long shot gubernatorial campaign saw its fortunes improve after she was endorsed by Sarah Palin. Haley rocketed from fourth to first just days after the endorsement, and she went on to clinch the nomination and become her states first female and first Indian-American governor.

As governor, she signed a bill removing the Confederate flag from the state Capitol following the white supremacist attack at the Emanuel African Methodist Church in Charleston. She left office in 2017 to join the Trump administration as U.S. ambassador to the United Nations, and Quinnipiac poll found she was at one point the most popular member of Trumps foreign policy team.

I think that shes done a pretty masterful job in filling out her resume, said Robert Oldendick, a professor and director of graduate studies at the University of South Carolinas department of political science.

Haley criticized Trump following the Jan. 6 attack on the Capitol by his supporters, saying she was disgusted by his conduct. Oldendick said he thought her pretty pointed criticism of the president will potentially cause some problems.

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Tagged!! 30 Questions

tagged by two lovelies @kakihoden, and @arimii​ (smooches you both, may strength fill your bones and happiness take root and grow from your hearts)

Nickname(s):  Ythmir, myusername works fine too

Gender: Female

Sign: Scorpio

Height: hmmm im not sure, 167cm?? 165??

Time: 11:50pm, otherwise known as that time i somehow regret drinking that espresso but also am vibrating with energy so yeahhhhhh

Fav band(s): too many to even remember properly anymore tbh and on the top of my head, Panic@theDisco, FOB, Maroon5, Kamisama I Have Noticed, Florence and the Machine, Dimitri Vegas & Like Mike (lmao i consider them a band in the loosest sense of the word ig uess), Kaleo, The Rigs, Amazarashi

Fav solo artist(s): mafumafu, S!N, SymaG, Deadmau5, Karmina, un:c, araki,  Megaterazero, and so much more i cant even list them all but im currently just browsing youtube for utaites so if you know a random singer with lots of personality to their voice hmu

Song stuck in my head: cover version of Roki by amatsuki feat melost, and Inochi ni Kirawareteiru cover by mafumafu, boi i got the feels

Last movie I saw: i.... i have not seen a movie since last year... ;A;

Last show I watched: i rewatched the ikemen sengoku anime haha

When did I create my blog: April 2011 (s w e a t s) and my sideblog around April 2016 

What do I post: reblogs mostly on my main, and writings on my sideblog!

Last thing I Googled: complete list of utapri cards released for the mobile eng version because i am a nerd and i need a database to look at

Do I have any other blogs: yeah my sideblog! check it out for fanfics and original writing if youre bored, maybe?

Do I get asks: H A R D L Y D: prompt me people!! on my sideblog! do itttttt

Why did I chose my URL: it’s my oldest OCs name and my title haha, i chose it because im bad at choosing names and think im a clever lil shit

Following: 874 (a mess, i know) (i cut it down to 700 but end up following a bunch again and at this point i might prune it again)

Followed by: i havent even reached 500 beh haha

Average hours of Sleep: 6-8, any less and im bound to be malfunctioning

Lucky number: i have just the worst luck im just i dont know :/ fortune does not smile upon those who are grit their teeth and dig their heels and scowl because they cant win at rockpaperscissors

Instruments: once upon a time i tried learning the guitar. now i just do rhythm games. do they count?

What I am wearing: pajamas and my sins

Dream job: writingwritingwritingwritingwriting, basically telling stories and using words to convince people that hey look up and see the magic around you, you know

Dream trip: anywhere with history which is basically every nook and cranny of the planet but in particular i want to go to places where people move and live and breathe and learn about them. there’s so much to learn and so little t i m e ! ! you stand there and you look at them and you realize that so many of them have layers and layers of history and you just want to know who they are and what they do and sometimes you press your ear to the walls and they whisper back.

Fav food: anything that does not have mayonnaise (DISGUSTING)

Nationality: w h o knows?? 

Fav song: atm i am listening on loop to: Nonsense Literature as sung by Mafumafu or un:c; Dramaturgy as sung by Rib, I thought I was an angel as sung by S!N, and Roki as sung by amatsuki, someonen gimme new music

Last book I read: currently trying to finish And I Darken by Kiersten White, i find it compelling bu t where do i buy the time to finish???

Top 3 fictional universes I wanna join: let me into anything that has urban fantasy or with dragons, or better yet BOTH, let me have my lovelies

Blogs I would like to get to know better: despite the unfortunate fact that i am not the most consistent presence on here and i am a really awkward entity i have been looking at a few new blogs so if you dont mind me barging in unceremoniously into your internet lives, lemme have it:

@shadowfairyy , @countdowntocake ​, @shadycupcakestrawberry ​, @acrispyapple ​, @rizosrojizos ​, @oh-my-otome ​, @pseudofaux , @nobume-dateand @dreamscapesin1582, and at all the people im struggling and too shy to tag because i admire you all