#I FUCKIN LIVE
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you want them to text back but that's anxious attachment isn't it. it's just that you can feel on the wind when you're not wanted anymore. when they've fallen out of love in any small part of their marrow. you have a hawk's eye for disharmony. you can tell when she has begun packing her things.
don't be annoying. you want to write: i have never experienced unconditional love as an explanation but isn't that pathetic. in adulthood all love is conditional and it should be. you've been to too much therapy. touch grass. how sappy can you be.
but they don't reach for your hand while they're driving. they forget to ask you how you're doing. the call times no longer read 12:34:19. they're 30 minutes and perfunctory before she says baby please, i'm tired. i need to go to sleep. where in her life do you fit. why is it that you never fit into anyone's life very long. oblong creature with so many needs, spilling up and out and over everything. it's a fucking shame the first time she said she loved you it was for your independence. and now look at you.
hollow pit in your stomach, body shaking. fuck, not again. you're not going to ruin another relationship like this, codependent and toxic, spiraling. and in the other half of your brain: if that's your wife, wouldn't she want to hear it? wouldn't it be fine? wouldn't she just comfort you and you can both move on and nobody dies?
but you're crowding her! read another instagram Positive Vibes Only type of post that talks about calming your heart and your brain and your body. try to sit in silence. the thing is that you do have a life outside of her, remember? go back to it.
great news, your parents fucked you up and now you have no idea how to deal with love. you just keep wanting to be chosen. to be real to someone, all the way through. real and kept. held closely. seen as precious to somebody. why even is that? didn't you always swear that people can and should complete themselves? why are you so constantly driven to beg for love, doglike and barking?
it's just the tiny things. it's just that you have to weigh every silence and sentence like bricks on an exposed belly. you have no idea how to shut it off. every alarm bell in your body saying: this isn't safe. start scrambling. she's already going.
#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHGGGGGGGGGGGGGH I HATE LIVING IN THIS SHIT OF A BODY!!!!!!!!#anxious attachment#is such an UTTER BITCH~!!!!!!!!#AND THE THING IS THAT EVERYONE IS LIKE ''JUST HEAL FROM IT''#AND IM LIKE. BITCH I HAVE BEEN TRYING. I DID A LOT OF IT. I STILL HAVE LIKE. MENTAL#FUCKIN#ILLNESS#im so much better now. but i have days :'( and like .... the grief is bringing out the worst in me#im trying but it's all just like ....... bad in there
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I know Gabriel is canonically really popular with Heaven’s residents but there’s bound to be some heavenly loser with pronoun envy
#my art#ultrakill#gabriel ultrakill#i love angel pronoun lore#he earned those pronouns fair and square and now he gets to wear a he/him pin like the badges on military uniforms#of course he has blue wings and pronouns#also can you fuckin imagine being a virtue??#imagine you live your entire life as a Good Christian(tm) and then u get to heaven and find out not only do u still have to work a 9 to 5#you have to do it in hell#forever#man i’d be salty too#straka's shitposts#sketches
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I love you albums. I love you songs connected by similar themes. I love you listening to songs in a specific order picked by the artist. I love you reoccurring motifs throughout the same album. I love you album covers. I love you albums with extended editions. I love you songs that reference each other.
#guys i fucking love listening to albums fr#best thing CDs have done for me is forcing me to listen to albums in order#this post is about. so many albums and artists#bad suns#imagine dragons#Set It Off#bastille#FUCKING HELL BASTILLE#theyre albums are SO GOOD#guys seriously. give me the future + dreams of the past. go listen to it. its so fucking good#doom days also fuckin slaps man. my fav oart is the fact the first 3 songs merge together for me until i realise million pieces is playing.#<- and ofc it has another place on it#also Imagine Dragons‘ Mercury 1+2 OUGH#the tone shift as you go through the double album until it does a full circle#sometimes a good album can be made up of songs that are banger after banger#<- All This Bad Blood-bastille Night Visions-ID smoke+mirrors-id apocalypse whenever-bad suns elsewhere-sio etc#and sometimes a good album can be made of songs that tell a progressive story while referencing eachother to enhance meaning and connect wit#-with the artists lived experinces#<- give me the future + dreams of the past-bastille mercury act I+II-ID Duality-sio#Tree Man Posts#music
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blond
#hlvrai#half live vr but the ai is self aware#benry#benrey#gordon freeman#gordon feetman#frenrey#i guess?#i think frenrey is funny but exactly how they are in the series#fun fact at first i was gonna make the hair lucious and long but then i was like#thats antithetical to the point#the whole nightmare is that benrey is blond#making it nice blond hair ruins it#but in my mind there exists a version of this comic where he takes off the helmet and its fuckin#finns hair in that one ep#you know the one#also if ur wondering why gordon looks different in the last panel its cause thats The Player not gordon#this is the players nightmare#god dammit long ass tags again
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DAY 13 guys her room would be ATROCIOUS
#shitpost#guilty gear fanart#guilty gear aba#a.b.a#fanart#guilty gear a.b.a#lowwwkeey I feel as tho I’ve been going a little too hard on the tags gotta keep that shit to a minimum fr#she fuckin REEEKs dawgg like girrrllll clean ur room😭😭#damn bitch you live like this#u guys don’t know how QUICK I was with this lolll
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Dp x Dc AU: Danny and Tim are twins- And Vlad is the first to figure this out in his attempts to get DavlCo a new investor.
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Tim was getting the creeps from this guy. It was as if the room got colder, the seconds got longer and the room's shadows moved to their own volition. He stared Tim down less like 'You punk kid' and more like 'You'll be mine' in a way that Tim didn't appreciate. At all.
The guy kept setting meetings up despite Tim's direct insistance that Wayne Enterprises would never touch DalvCo- not with a ten foot pole or for all the money in the world. Some how Tim's board of directors kept getting swindled by the guy and... therefore more meetings. More looks from this guy that made him want to crawl out of his skin.
Vlad asked him if he ever went by Timothy- Tim couldn't reply "that's not my name" fast enough. It apparently inspired the guy somehow. More meetings that Tim can't reject because of board members pop up.
It's been long determined that Jason doesn't get involved with Wayne Enterprises, but after the Uncle and a few other paid-actor solutions go up in flames- Tim decides to call up his older brother to act as a bodyguard and tell this guy to fuck off for the final time.
Jason apparently also gets the Heebee-jeebies from this asshole but his message is loud and clear to Vlad. There's a flash of green and then all of sudden it's just Tim and Jason in the room... Only Jason isn't acting like himself.
Putting it together- Tim reaches for his contingency F stash of Knock out gas and doses Jason. Vlad doesn't re-appear so Tim assumes that to mean that he'll be trapped in Jason's person until Jason wakes up.
Walking out of the meeting room with his bus of a brother over his shoulders- Tim quickly asks Tam to reach out to Vlad's Emergency contact. Surely there is someone in this man's company willing to explain what the fuck Vlad was trying to pull. Tim theoretically can keep Jason drugged asleep for a long time- surely that threat can get him somewhere.
The day drags on as Tim continues to keep Jason unconscious and eventually Tam lets him know that someone is here for Vlad. She says it with the addition of one of their codes- He mentally prepares himself for the worst and then... His doppleganger walks through the door? What the fuck?
Tim and Danny puzzle about one another for a little too long and Jason wakes up- Vlad pops out immediately. A shouting match between Danny and Vlad commences and...
"Man I knew our family had unresolved issues but seriously what the fuck has your clone dealing with?" Jason asks, as though he could watch this all day with pop corn.
"You made more clones?!" Danny screamed at Vlad who's only response is "Not this one! This one is actually polite!"
"Fuck you!" Tim and Danny reply in tandem.
#dcxdp#dpxdc#dc x dp#dp x dc#danny phantom#dc crossover#dp crossover#long post#tim and danny are twins au#twins au#tim is co-ceo of wayne enterprises and has too much shit that he puts up with because his board doesn't respect him#danny shows up and wants to conceal being a ghost for as long as possible but fucking vlad already possessed some fuckin guy#vlads plan is to abduct and adopt tim#vlad sees the resemblance immediately but when he asks tim the name question tims answer basically confirms it to him lol#jason is collateral damage here and is willing to throw down because of it#jason immediately being like 'oh look its a version of you i havent traumatized yet. i should not fuck up this one.'#jason danny and tim bonding over hating vlad actually brings danny into the family fold#he still lives in amity but now he has unlimited pocket change and a family that acts suspiciously like they're hiding being vigilantes
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[Day 307]
A LIL CONTINUATION BC @kunehokki STARTED COOKING HEHEGEHFJ
Dialogue and star borders by her :3
#dddaily4sherin#in stars and lives#desert duo#grian#goodtimeswithscar#also that random guy ig#isdoodles#comic#hehehehehdgehgf >:D#to be continued probabLY!!!#also sorry if anything looks wacky i rushed this sm HEOPHJOPLLP#YOU SAW NOTHING IF U SAW THE MISTAKE PH MY FUCKIN GOD
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📸: Sydney Gawlik
Call him a waiter the way he's always SERVING
#Wasteland Baby! era Andrew was so cunty AND FOR WHAT#he was a model in one of his past lives frfr#hozier#andrew hozier byrne#your honor i love him#my emotional support Some Fuckin Guy™#he is so shaped
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Have some more of the lady
#i love odile#isat odile#in stars and time odile#in stars and time fanart#isat fanart#isat#in stars and time#i fuckin love this woman#i may not draw her much but she lives in my head rent free
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God, I'm (yet again) exhausted. What a show. I will say, flaws and all, it's still one of the best animated series I've watched. Ever. No, I don't think it deserves the vitriol it's getting on social media.
I have a LOT of emotions right now. I don't think I'm even thinking straight after watching through everything once. It definitely needs to be re-watched multiple times. No, I'm not offering any kind of insights or anything like that. I think I'm just too emotional seeing my favorite show end.
I really wanna thank the writers, directors, artists, animators, producers, and everyone else who worked on this show for this work of art. It was beautiful, and it's why I love making gifs of this show.
And just because this show has ended, doesn't mean I'll stop making things. There's two whole seasons to work with now. I hope I can have enough free time to post regularly. I still need to make some 8k wallpapers and a ton of gifs haha.
I'll take a break and sleep for now. I'll see what I can make when I wake up tomorrow. I have so many things I want to do, but I also feel like crap and I too, have a life LMAO.
Oh, and I'm still looking forward to the next stories that they tell us! Runeterra truly has amazing lore. Excited to see what's next!
Thank you for all the likes, reblogs, and support you guys give to my lil sideblog! I appreciate you guys so much <3
#personal tag#its arcane.... not everything will be happy fr but gah my heart hurts#ive also allowed replies for now in all gifsets and posts but piss me off and i will block you and close it again#i havent rlly processed everything bc ive been making gifs#but yeah im in fuckin shambles idk what to feel honestly#it rlly hurts to see ppl totally shit on the show you love but i suppose its a sign not to look at social media in general#criticisms are fine but some of them take it a bit too far#the first season was so good (and most ppl watched it with 0 expectations in mind) that the second season had too much to live up to#for what it's worth i still very much enjoyed it even with a few gripes#my grade is like 9.5/10 for s2 while s1 gets like a 11/10 haha#i have a feeling that when i rewatch the show i’ll appreciate it more since im less emotional haha the score will prolly go higher#thank you to everyone who was a part of this show <3#anyways its 2am goodnight my goal for the next coming days is a gifset or two a day#thank you everyone ily <3
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THEY NAMED THIS WHOLE GODFORSAKEN PAY PER VIEW AFTER ME
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#aewedit#wrestlingedit#hangman adam page#hangman page#adam page#full gear#being the elite#bte#aew#aew full gear#my gif#hanger gif#ngl this whole storyline makes me uncomfortable bc of all the body shaming#and knowing what That Guy thinks about body shaming even more lol#but still lots of hanger being insane and i will always love that i will always live for that#if hanger loses tonight i will *** you tony khan#anyway this took forever for some fuckin reason and now it's 4 am rip bye
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#like do you even understand????#they're divorced they're married they're longterm partners they've been exes for almost a decade#they're each other's first love they're each other's first heartbreak they're each other's second love#they're each other's shared responsibility they're parents they're each other's resentment and grief#they hate each other for the way they react to things#they hate each other for their personalities#there's been ust between them for at least 15 years#and like yeah!!! they did love geto and yu!!! but they're dead now and they both have to live with the ghosts#and honestly!!! if you think that nanami would ever let himself be used as a stand in or a rebound for geto#you're outta your fuckin mind#and if you think that nanami could ever use gojo as replacement for yu you're insane#and vice versa. like there's just so much there and i hate that it gets reduced to like them being rebounds#it's about the push-pull dynamic and how afraid they are that one day gojo will stop pulling and nanami will stop pushing#anyway a lot of the meme is hyperbole obv#nanami kento#gojo satoru#nanago#gonana#jjk
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When I talk about something bad I've experienced, Baked In to my experience as A Woman, I am not "making my little cousins feel like shit for being women", because I am talking in a space with, allegedly, adults. I am not bringing my problems to children in the first place. That said, I don't HAVE to make my baby cousin feel bad, because she's already experienced sexual harassment in her life, and she's only 8, and doesn't even understand what any of it means yet. And everyone in her family can try to instill confidence in her, and never talk about our bodies in a negative way. But she can still feel like she's too chubby, because she still goes to school, and talks to other kids and their parents, and still sees ads, and still watches tv. We can be positive, but we can't fix the root of the problem. And I don't HAVE to tell trans women that "pain is a rite of passage", because that's not a Rule being enforced (by me), because I've already sat and listened to my friend complain about constantly shaving as a Baseline necessity and how it hurts her skin and she has to put makeup onto fresh cuts on her face because going out without a full face of properly feminine makeup would make her life worse, and being anything less than thin and lithe makes her "less feminine", and ALL the things that can make her "more feminine" are behind a paywall. And I can try to make her feel better, and I can hear her experiencing the tenfold version of problems I relate to, but I can't fix the root cause of her problems by just telling her not to complain. Forcing happiness as a core personality trait for women is not the Girlboss Feminist move that you think it is, and no amount of gender euphoria in the world will make you immune to systemic oppression.
#sergle.txt#you cunts learned the term 'toxic positivity' years ago and forgot it instantly#putting a bandaid on a fuckin severed leg is what it is#do i wish i wasn't a woman? no#do i feel pretty in a dress? yes#have i suffered? OH MY GOD YES#do i think any woman alive today has lived without suffering in these ways? NO.#unless she is being raised by wolves. in which case. good for her.#again I am still flabbergasted by that post having used trans woman as a last ditch effort scapegoat.#like. shocked. as if ANY trans girl's problems are because other women complain abt the way they're treated.#she's got her own problems bitch!! and they are directly correlated to my problems!!#it's like. it's infantilizing almost. the way the dickheads in that post went from ''kids'' to ''trans women''.#adult women who know how gender works.#condescending.
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I think we should've started throwing rocks at Jimmy when he got mad at Anya for getting nauseous while giving Curly his meds as if his ass didn't know she was pregnant
#he should've lived so I could kill him with rocks and also hammers#'oh she's so incompetent she gets squeamish'#SHES PREGNANT MY GUY#she's gonna get fuckin nausea and that's your fault anyways#Anya kept Curly alive and you think she doesn't know what she's doing in a med bay???#fuck all the way off#anya mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#mouthwashing
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yall wanna hear a funny story from my life
#jamtam(sketch)art#harry du bois#mind you i live a 30 minute drive from where this store was#because i live in the middle of fuckin nowhere rural australia#had to just leave without my goods#worst part yet I WORK THERE IT WAS JUST A NEW PERSON WHO HADNT MET ME YET#white background
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Bro I don’t think anyone understands how cosmo and wanda would fully feel, like I always hear about peri but we had multiple confirmations on how Timmy was legit their favorite god child, and it’s confirmed they stayed with him till he was 17. Whenever they were taken away from him they would SOB, like in every episode were timmy was away they actually couldn’t handle themselves. He is haunting the narrative and cosmo and wandas minds, there’s no way they don’t stay up thinking about him, and his whole entire life. There’s no way there’s no small regret in being able to stay in his life forever, there’s no way they just moved on. Don’t get me wrong I love hazel sososos much like top tier godkid, but timmy was like a son to them, family that no one can replace, and I rlly feel like we miss out on the angst on their side!!
#Cosmo#Wanda#FOP#fairly odd parents#fairly oddparents#timmy turner#peri fairly oddparents#AHHHHHH#bro I feel so bad for the whole entire family#but there’s no way they just moved on from timmy#like#he had a whole ass hall#he was basically intertwined with their whole entire lives#their PARENTS knew timmy personally multiple times#likeeee…#no fuckin way bro
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